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  Darrowhadalreadyguessedhertobeapersonwhowouldinstinctivelyopposeanysuggestedchanges,andthen,afteronehadexhaustedone’smainarguments,unexpectedlyyieldtosomesmallincidentalreason,andadheredoggedlytohernewposition。Sheboastedofherold—fashionedprejudices,talkedagooddealofbeingagrandmother,andmadeashowofreachinguptotapOwen’sshoulder,thoughhisheightwaslittlemorethanhers。

  ShewasfullofasmallpaleprattleaboutthepeopleshehadseenatOuchy,astowhomshehadtheminutestatisticalinformationofagazetteer,withoutanyapparentsenseofpersonaldifferences。ShesaidtoDarrow:\"TheytellmethingsareverymuchchangedinAmerica……OfcourseinmyyouththereWASaSociety\"……Shehadnodesiretoreturnthereshewassurethestandardsmustbesodifferent。

  \"Therearecharmingpeopleeverywhere……andonemustalwayslookonthebestside……butwhenonehaslivedamongTraditionsit’sdifficulttoadaptone’sselftothenewideas……Thesedreadfulviewsofmarriage……it’ssohardtoexplainthemtomyFrenchrelations……I’mthankfultosayI

  don’tpretendtounderstandthemmyself!ButYOU’REanEverard——ItoldAnnalastspringinLondonthatoneseesthatinstantly\"……

  ShewanderedofftothecookingandtheserviceofthehotelatOuchy。Sheattachedgreatimportancetogastronomicdetailsandtothemannersofhotelservants。There,too,therewasafallingoff,shesaid。\"Idontknow,ofcourse;butpeoplesayit’sowingtotheAmericans。

  Certainlymywaiterhadawayofslappingdownthedishes……theytellmethatmanyofthemareAnarchists……belongtoUnions,youknow。\"SheappealedtoDarrow’sreportedknowledgeofeconomicconditionstoconfirmthisominousrumour。

  AfterdinnerOwenLeathwanderedintothenextroom,wherethepianostood,andbegantoplayamongtheshadows。Hisstep—motherpresentlyjoinedhim,andDarrowsatalonewithMadamedeChantelle。

  Shetookupthethreadofhermildchatandcarrieditonatthesamepaceasherknitting。Herconversationresembledthelargeloose—strandedwebbetweenherfingers:nowandthenshedroppedastitch,andwentonregardlessofthegapinthepattern。

  Darrowlistenedwithalazysenseofwell—being。Inthementallulloftheafter—dinnerhour,withharmoniousmemoriesmurmuringthroughhismind,andthesofttintsandshadowyspacesofthefineoldroomcharminghiseyestoindolence,MadamedeChantelle’sdiscourseseemednotoutofplace。Hecouldunderstandthat,inthelongrun,theatmosphereofGivremightbesuffocating;butinhispresentmooditsverylimitationshadagrace。

  Presentlyhefoundthechancetosayawordinhisownbehalf;andthereuponmeasuredtheadvantage,neverbeforeparticularlyapparenttohim,ofbeingrelatedtotheEverardsofAlbany。MadamedeChantelle’sconceptionofhernativecountry——towhichshehadnotreturnedsincehertwentiethyear——remindedhimofanancientgeographer’smapoftheHyperboreanregions。Itwasallafoggyblank,fromwhichonlyoneortwofixedoutlinesemerged;andoneofthesebelongedtotheEverardsofAlbany。

  Thefactthattheyofferedsuchfirmfooting——formed,sotospeak,afriendlyterritoryonwhichtheopposingpowerscouldmeetandtreat——helpedhimthroughthetaskofexplainingandjustifyinghimselfasthesuccessorofFraserLeath。MadamedeChantellecouldnotresistsuchincontestableclaims。Sheseemedtofeelherson’shoveringanddiscriminatingpresence,andshegaveDarrowthesensethathewasbeingtestedandapprovedasalastadditiontotheLeathCollection。

  Shealsomadehimawareoftheimmenseadvantagehepossessedinbelongingtothediplomaticprofession。ShespokeofthishumdrumcallingasaCareer,andgaveDarrowtounderstandthatshesupposedhimtohavebeenseducingDuchesseswhenhewasnotnegotiatingTreaties。Heheardagainquaintphraseswhichromanticoldladieshadusedinhisyouth:\"Brilliantdiplomaticsociety……socialadvantages……theentreeeverywhere……nothingelseFORMSayoungmaninthesameway……\"andshesighinglyaddedthatshecouldhavewishedhergrandsonhadchosenthesamepathtoglory。

  Darrowprudentlysuppressedhisownviewoftheprofession,aswellasthefactthathehadadopteditprovisionally,andforreasonslesssocialthansociological;andthetalkpresentlypassedontothesubjectofhisfutureplans。

  Hereagain,MadamedeChantelle’saweoftheCareermadeheradmitthenecessityofAnna’sconsentingtoanearlymarriage。ThefactthatDarrowwas\"ordered\"toSouthAmericaseemedtoputhimintheromanticlightofayoungsoldierchargedtoleadaforlornhope:shesighedandsaid:

  \"Atsuchmomentsawife’sdutyisatherhusband’sside。\"

  TheproblemofEffie’sfuturemighthavedisturbedher,sheadded;butsinceAnna,foratime,consentedtoleavethelittlegirlwithher,thatproblemwasatanyratedeferred。

  Shespokeplaintivelyoftheresponsibilityoflookingafterhergranddaughter,butDarrowdivinedthatsheenjoyedtheflavourofthewordmorethanshefelttheweightofthefact。

  \"Effie’saperfectchild。She’smorelikemyson,perhaps,thandearOwen。She’llneverintentionallygivemetheleasttrouble。Butofcoursetheresponsibilitywillbegreat……I’mnotsureIshoulddaretoundertakeitifitwerenotforherhavingsuchatreasureofagoverness。HasAnnatoldyouaboutourlittlegoverness?Afteralltheworrywehadlastyear,withoneimpossiblecreatureafteranother,itseemsprovidential,justnow,tohavefoundher。

  Atfirstwewereafraidshewastooyoung;butnowwe’vethegreatestconfidenceinher。Socleverandamusing——andSUCHalady!Idon’tsayhereducation’sallitmightbe……nodrawingorsinging……butonecan’thaveeverything;

  andshespeaksItalian……\"

  MadamedeChantelle’sfondinsistenceonthelikenessbetweenEffieLeathandherfather,ifnotparticularlygratifyingtoDarrow,hadatleastincreasedhisdesiretoseethelittlegirl。ItgavehimanoddfeelingofdiscomforttothinkthatsheshouldhaveanyofthecharacteristicsofthelateFraserLeath:hehad,somehow,fantasticallypicturedherasthemysticaloffspringoftheearlytendernessbetweenhimselfandAnnaSummers。

  HisencounterwithEffietookplacethenextmorning,onthelawnbelowtheterrace,wherehefoundher,intheearlysunshine,knockingaboutgolfballswithherbrother。

  Almostatonce,andwithinfiniterelief,hesawthattheresemblanceofwhichMadamedeChantelleboastedwasmainlyexternal。Eventhatdiscoverywasslightlydistasteful,thoughDarrowwasforcedtoownthatFraserLeath’sstraight—featuredfairnesshadlentitselftotheproductionofapeculiarlyfinishedimageofchildishpurity。ButitwasevidentthatotherelementshadalsogonetothemakingofEffie,andthatanotherspiritsatinhereyes。Herserioushandshake,her\"pretty\"greeting,wereworthyoftheLeathtradition,andheguessedhertobemoremalleablethanOwen,moresubjecttotheinfluencesofGivre;buttheshoutwithwhichshereturnedtoherromphadinitthenoteofhermother’semancipation。

  Hehadbeggedaholidayforher,andwhenMrs。Leathappearedheandsheandthelittlegirlwentoffforaramble。AnnawishedherdaughtertohavetimetomakefriendswithDarrowbeforelearninginwhatrelationhewastostandtoher;andthethreeroamedthewoodsandfieldstillthedistantchimeofthestable—clockmadethemturnbackforluncheon。

  Effie,whowasattendedbyashaggyterrier,hadpickeduptwoorthreesubordinatedogsatthestable;andasshetrottedonaheadwithheryappingescort,AnnahungbacktothrowalookatDarrow。

  \"Yes,\"heansweredit,\"she’sexquisite……Oh,IseewhatI’maskingofyou!Butshe’llbequitehappyhere,won’tshe?

  Andyoumustrememberitwon’tbeforlong……\"

  Annasighedheracquiescence。\"Oh,she’llbehappyhere。

  It’shernaturetobehappy。She’llapplyherselftoit,conscientiously,asshedoestoherlessons,andtowhatshecalls’beinggood’……Inaway,yousee,that’sjustwhatworriesme。Herideaof’beinggood’istopleasethepersonshe’swith——sheputsherwholedearlittlemindonit!Andso,ifevershe’swiththewrongperson————\"

  \"Butsurelythere’snodangerofthatjustnow?MadamedeChantelletellsmethatyou’veatlastputyourhandonaperfectgoverness————\"

  Anna,withoutanswering,glancedawayfromhimtowardherdaughter。

  \"It’slucky,atanyrate,\"Darrowcontinued,\"thatMadamedeChantellethinksherso。\"

  \"Oh,Ithinkveryhighlyofhertoo。\"

  \"HighlyenoughtofeelquitesatisfiedtoleaveherwithEffie?\"

  \"Yes。She’sjustthepersonforEffie。Only,ofcourse,oneneverknows……She’syoung,andshemighttakeitintoherheadtoleaveus……\"Afterapausesheadded:\"I’mnaturallyanxioustoknowwhatyouthinkofher。\"

  Whentheyenteredthehousethehandsofthehallclockstoodwithinafewminutesoftheluncheonhour。AnnaledEffieofftohaveherhairsmoothedandDarrowwanderedintotheoaksitting—room,whichhefounduntenanted。Thesunlaypleasantlyonitsbrownwalls,onthescatteredbooksandtheflowersinoldporcelainvases。Inhiseyeslingeredthevisionofthedark—hairedmothermountingthestairswithherlittlefairdaughter。Thecontrastbetweenthemseemedalasttouchofgraceinthecomplexharmonyofthings。Hestoodinthewindow,lookingoutatthepark,andbroodinginwardlyuponhishappiness……

  HewasrousedbyEffie’svoiceandthescamperofherfeetdownthelongfloorsbehindhim。

  \"Hereheis!Hereheis!\"shecried,flyingoverthethreshold。

  Heturnedandstoopedtoherwithasmile,andasshecaughthishandheperceivedthatshewastryingtodrawhimtowardsomeonewhohadpausedbehindherinthedoorway,andwhomhesupposedtobehermother。

  \"HEREheis!\"Effierepeated,withhersweetimpatience。

  ThefigureinthedoorwaycameforwardandDarrow,lookingup,foundhimselffacetofacewithSophyViner。Theystoodstill,ayardortwoapart,andlookedateachotherwithoutspeaking。

  Astheypausedthere,ashadowfellacrossoneoftheterracewindows,andOwenLeathsteppedwhistlingintotheroom。Inhisroughshootingclothes,withtheglowofexerciseunderhisfairskin,helookedextraordinarilylight—heartedandhappy。Darrow,withaquickside—glance,noticedthis,andperceivedalsothattheglowontheyouth’scheekhaddeepenedsuddenlytored。Hetoostoppedshort,andthethreestoodtheremotionlessforabarelyperceptiblebeatoftime。Duringitslapse,Darrow’seyeshadturnedbackfromOwen’sfacetothatofthegirlbetweenthem。Hehadthesensethat,whateverwasdone,itwashewhomustdoit,andthatitmustbedoneimmediately。Hewentforwardandheldouthishand。

  \"Howdoyoudo,MissViner?\"

  Sheanswered:\"Howdoyoudo?\"inavoicethatsoundedclearandnatural;andthenextmomentheagainbecameawareofstepsbehindhim,andknewthatMrs。Leathwasintheroom。

  TohisstrainedsensesthereseemedtobeanotherjustmeasurablepausebeforeAnnasaid,lookinggailyaboutthelittlegroup:\"HasOwenintroducedyou?ThisisEffie’sfriend,MissViner。\"

  Effie,stillhangingonhergoverness’sarm,pressedherselfcloserwithalittlegestureofappropriation;andMissVinerlaidherhandonherpupil’shair。

  DarrowfeltthatAnna’seyeshadturnedtohim。

  \"IthinkMissVinerandIhavemetalready——severalyearsagoinLondon。\"

  \"Iremember,\"saidSophyViner,inthesameclearvoice。

  \"Howcharming!Thenwe’reallfriends。Butluncheonmustbeready,\"saidMrs。Leath。

  Sheturnedbacktothedoor,andthelittleprocessionmoveddownthetwolongdrawing—rooms,withEffiewaltzingonahead。

  XV

  MadamedeChantelleandAnnahadplanned,fortheafternoon,avisittoaremotelysituatedacquaintancewhomtheintroductionofthemotorhadtransformedintoaneighbour。

  Effiewastopayforhermorning’sholidaybyanhourortwointheschool—room,andOwensuggestedthatheandDarrowshouldbetakethemselvestoadistantcovertinthedesultoryquestforpheasants。

  Darrowwasnotanardentsportsman,butanypretextforphysicalactivitywouldhavebeenacceptableatthemoment;

  andhewasgladbothtogetawayfromthehouseandnottobelefttohimself。

  Whenhecamedownstairsthemotorwasatthedoor,andAnnastoodbeforethehallmirror,swathingherhatinveils。

  Sheturnedatthesoundofhisstepandsmiledathimforalongfullmoment。

  \"I’dnoideayouknewMissViner,\"shesaid,ashehelpedherintoherlongcoat。

  \"Itcamebacktome,luckily,thatI’dseenhertwoorthreetimesinLondon,severalyearsago。Shewassecretary,orsomethingofthesort,inthebackgroundofahousewhereI

  usedtodine。\"

  Heloathedtheslightingindifferenceofthephrase,buthehaduttereditdeliberately,hadbeensecretlypractisingitallthroughtheinterminablehourattheluncheon—table。

  Nowthatitwasspoken,heshiveredatitsnoteofcondescension。Insuchcasesonewasalmostsuretooverdo……ButAnnaseemedtonoticenothingunusual。

  \"Wasshereally?Youmusttellmeallaboutit——tellmeexactlyhowshestruckyou。I’msogladitturnsoutthatyouknowher。\"

  \"’Know’isratherexaggerated:weusedtopasseachotheronthestairs。\"

  MadamedeChantelleandOwenappearedtogetherashespoke,andAnna,gatheringupherwraps,said:\"You’lltellmeaboutthat,then。Tryandremembereverythingyoucan。\"

  Ashetrampedthroughthewoodsathisyounghost’sside,Darrowfeltthepartialrelieffromthoughtproducedbyexerciseandtheobligationtotalk。Littleashecaredforshooting,hehadthehabitofconcentrationwhichmakesitnaturalforamantothrowhimselfwhollyintowhateverbusinesshehasinhand,andthereweremomentsoftheafternoonwhenasuddenwhirrintheundergrowth,avividergleamagainstthehazybrownsandgreysofthewoods,wasenoughtofilltheforegroundofhisattention。Butallthewhile,behindthesevoluntarilyemphasizedsensations,hissecretconsciousnesscontinuedtorevolveonaloudwheelofthought。Foratimeitseemedtobesweepinghimthroughdeepgulfsofdarkness。Hissensationsweretooswiftandswarmingtobedisentangled。Hehadanalmostphysicalsenseofstrugglingforair,ofbattlinghelplesslywithmaterialobstructions,asthoughtherussetcovertthroughwhichhetrudgedweretheheartofamaleficentjungle……

  Snatchesofhiscompanion’stalkdriftedtohimintermittentlythroughtheconfusionofhisthoughts。Hecaughteagerself—revealingphrases,andunderstoodthatOwenwassayingthingsabouthimself,perhapshintingindirectlyatthehopesforwhichDarrowhadbeenpreparedbyAnna’sconfidences。Hehadalreadybecomeawarethattheladlikedhim,andhadmeanttotakethefirstopportunityofshowingthathereciprocatedthefeeling。ButtheeffortoffixinghisattentiononOwen’swordswassogreatthatitleftnopowerformorethanthebriefestandmostinexpressivereplies。

  YoungLeath,itappeared,feltthathehadreachedaturning—pointinhiscareer,aheightfromwhichhecouldimpartiallysurveyhispastprogressandprojectedendeavour。Atonetimehehadhadmusicalandliteraryyearnings,visionsofdesultoryartisticindulgence;butthesehadoflatebeensupersededbytheresolutedeterminationtoplungeintopracticallife。

  \"Idon’twant,yousee,\"Darrowheardhimexplaining,\"todriftintowhatmygrandmother,poordear,istryingtomakeofme:anadjunctofGivre。Idon’twant——hangitall!——toslipintocollectingsensationsasmyfathercollectedsnuff—boxes。IwantEffietohaveGivre——it’smygrandmother’s,youknow,todoasshelikeswith;andI’veunderstoodlatelythatifitbelongedtomeitwouldgraduallygobblemeup。Iwanttogetoutofit,intoalifethat’sbiganduglyandstruggling。IfIcanextractbeautyoutofTHAT,somuchthebetter:that’llprovemyvocation。ButIwanttoMAKEbeauty,notbedrownedintheready—made,likeabeeinapotofhoney。\"

  Darrowknewthathewasbeingappealedtoforcorroborationoftheseviewsandforencouragementinthecoursetowhichtheypointed。Tohisownearshisanswerssoundednowcurt,nowirrelevant:atonemomentheseemedchillinglyindifferent,atanotherheheardhimselflaunchingoutonafloodofhazydiscursiveness。HedarednotlookatOwen,forfearofdetectingthelad’ssurpriseatthesesenselesstransitions。Andthroughtheconfusionofhisinwardstrugglesandoutwardloquacityheheardtheceaselesstrip—

  hammerbeatofthequestion:\"WhatinGod’snameshallI

  do?\"……

  TogetbacktothehousebeforeAnna’sreturnseemedhismostpressingnecessity。Hedidnotclearlyknowwhy:hesimplyfeltthatheoughttobethere。AtonemomentitoccurredtohimthatMissVinermightwanttospeaktohimalone——andagain,inthesameflash,thatitwouldprobablybethelastthingshewouldwant……Atanyrate,hefeltheoughttotrytospeaktoHER;oratleastbepreparedtodoso,ifthechanceshouldoccur……

  Finally,towardfour,hetoldhiscompanionthathehadsomelettersonhismindandmustgetbacktothehouseanddespatchthembeforetheladiesreturned。HeleftOwenwiththebeaterandwalkedontotheedgeofthecovert。Attheparkgateshestruckobliquelythroughthetrees,followingagrassavenueattheendofwhichhehadcaughtaglimpseoftheroofofthechapel。Agreyhazehadblottedoutthesunandthestillairclungabouthimtepidly。Atlengththehouse—frontraisedbeforehimitsexpanseofdamp—

  silveredbrick,andhewasstruckafreshbythehighdecorumofitscalmlinesandsoberlymassedsurfaces。Itmadehimfeel,intheturbidcoilofhisfearsandpassions,likeamuddytrampforcinghiswayintosomepuresequesteredshrine……

  Byandbye,heknew,heshouldhavetothinkthecomplexhorrorout,slowly,systematically,bitbybit;butforthemomentitwaswhirlinghimaboutsofastthathecouldjustclutchatitssharpspikesandbetossedoffagain。Onlyonedefiniteimmediatefactstuckinhisquiveringgrasp。

  Hemustgivethegirleverychance——mustholdhimselfpassivetillshehadtakenthem……

  InthecourtEffieranuptohimwithherleapingterrier。

  \"Iwascomingouttomeetyou——youandOwen。MissVinerwascoming,too,andthenshecouldn’tbecauseshe’sgotsuchaheadache。I’mafraidIgaveittoherbecauseIdidmydivisionsodisgracefully。It’stoobad,isn’tit?Butwon’tyouwalkbackwithme?Nursewon’tmindtheleastbit;

  she’dsomuchrathergointotea。\"

  Darrowexcusedhimselflaughingly,onthepleathathehadletterstowrite,whichwasmuchworsethanhavingaheadache,andnotinfrequentlyresultedinone。

  \"Oh,thenyoucangoandwritetheminOwen’sstudy。That’swheregentlemenalwayswritetheirletters。\"

  SheflewonwithherdogandDarrowpursuedhiswaytothehouse。Effie’ssuggestionstruckhimasuseful。Hehadpicturedhimselfasvaguelydriftingaboutthedrawing—

  rooms,andhadperceivedthedifficultyofMissViner’shavingtoseekhimthere;butthestudy,asmallroomontherightofthehall,wasineasysightfromthestaircase,andsosituatedthattherewouldbenothingmarkedinhisbeingfoundthereintalkwithher。

  Hewentin,leavingthedooropen,andsatdownatthewriting—table。Theroomwasafriendlyheterogeneousplace,theonerepository,inthewell—orderedandamply—servantedhouse,ofallitsunclassifiedoddsandends:Effie’scroquet—boxandfishingrods,Owen’sgunsandgolf—sticksandracquets,hisstep—mother’sflower—basketsandgardeningimplements,evenMadamedeChantelle’sembroideryframe,andthebacknumbersoftheCatholicWeekly。Theearlytwilighthadbeguntofall,andpresentlyaslantingrayacrossthedeskshowedDarrowthataservantwascomingacrossthehallwithalamp。Hepulledoutasheetofnote—paperandbegantowriteatrandom,whiletheman,entering,putthelampathiselbowandvaguely\"straightened\"theheapofnewspaperstossedonthedivan。ThenhisstepsdiedawayandDarrowsatleaninghisheadonhislockedhands。

  Presentlyanotherstepsoundedonthestairs,waveredamomentandthenmovedpastthethresholdofthestudy。

  Darrowgotupandwalkedintothehall,whichwasstillunlighted。InthedimnesshesawSophyVinerstandingbythehalldoorinherhatandjacket。Shestoppedatsightofhim,herhandonthedoor—bolt,andtheystoodforasecondwithoutspeaking。

  \"HaveyouseenEffie?\"shesuddenlyasked。\"Shewentouttomeetyou。\"

  \"SheDIDmeetme,justnow,inthecourt。She’sgoneontojoinherbrother。\"

  Darrowspokeasnaturallyashecould,buthisvoicesoundedtohisownearslikeanamateuractor’sina\"light\"part。

  MissViner,withoutanswering,drewbackthebolt。Hewatchedherinsilenceasthedoorswungopen;thenhesaid:

  \"Shehashernursewithher。Shewon’tbelong。\"

  Shestoodirresolute,andheadded:\"Iwaswritinginthere——won’tyoucomeandhavealittletalk?Everyone’sout。\"

  Thelastwordsstruckhimasnotwell—chosen,buttherewasnotimetochoose。Shepausedasecondlongerandthencrossedthethresholdofthestudy。Atluncheonshehadsatwithherbacktothewindow,andbeyondnotingthatshehadgrownalittlethinner,andhadlesscolourandvivacity,hehadseennochangeinher;butnow,asthelamplightfellonherface,itswhitenessstartledhim。

  \"Poorthing……poorthing……whatinheaven’snamecanshesuppose?\"hewondered。

  \"Dositdown——Iwanttotalktoyou,\"hesaidandpushedachairtowardher。

  Shedidnotseemtoseeit,or,ifshedid,shedeliberatelychoseanotherseat。Hecamebacktohisownchairandleanedhiselbowsontheblotter。Shefacedhimfromthefarthersideofthetable。

  \"Youpromisedtoletmehearfromyounowandthen,\"hebeganawkwardly,andwithasharpsenseofhisawkwardness。

  Afaintsmilemadeherfacemoretragic。\"DidI?Therewasnothingtotell。I’vehadnohistory——likethehappycountries……\"

  Hewaitedamomentbeforeasking:\"YouAREhappyhere?\"

  \"IWAS,\"shesaidwithafaintemphasis。

  \"Whydoyousay’was’?You’resurelynotthinkingofgoing?

  Therecan’tbekinderpeopleanywhere。\"Darrowhardlyknewwhathewassaying;butheranswercametohimwithdeadlydefiniteness。

  \"IsupposeitdependsonyouwhetherIgoorstay。\"

  \"Onme?\"HestaredatheracrossOwen’sscatteredpapers。

  \"GoodGod!Whatcanyouthinkofme,tosaythat?\"

  Themockeryofthequestionflashedbackathimfromherwretchedface。Shestoodup,wanderedaway,andleanedaninstantinthedarkeningwindow—frame。Fromtheresheturnedtoflingbackathim:\"Don’timagineI’mtheleastbitsorryforanything!\"

  Hesteadiedhiselbowsonthetableandhidhisfaceinhishands。Itwasharder,oh,damnablyharder,thanhehadexpected!Arguments,expedients,palliations,evasions,allseemedtobeslippingawayfromhim:hewasleftfacetofacewiththemeregracelessfactofhisinferiority。Heliftedhisheadtoaskatrandom:\"You’vebeenhere,then,eversince?\"

  \"SinceJune;yes。ItturnedoutthattheFarlowswerehuntingforme——allthewhile——forthis。\"

  Shestoodfacinghim,herbacktothewindow,evidentlyimpatienttobegone,yetwithsomethingstilltosay,orthatsheexpectedtohearhimsay。Thesenseofherexpectancybenumbedhim。Whatinheaven’snamecouldhesaytoherthatwasnotanoffenseoramockery?

  \"Yourideaofthetheatre——yougavethatupatonce,then?\"

  \"Oh,thetheatre!\"Shegavealittlelaugh。\"Icouldn’twaitforthetheatre。Ihadtotakethefirstthingthatoffered;Itookthis。\"

  Hepushedonhaltingly:\"I’mglad——extremelyglad——you’rehappyhere……I’dcountedonyourlettingmeknowiftherewasanythingIcoulddo……Thetheatre,now——ifyoustillregretit——ifyou’renotcontentedhere……IknowpeopleinthatlineinLondon——I’mcertainIcanmanageitforyouwhenIgetback————\"

  Shemoveduptothetableandleanedoverittoask,inavoicethatwashardlyaboveawhisper:\"ThenyouDOwantmetoleave?Isthatit?\"

  Hedroppedhisarmswithagroan。\"Goodheavens!Howcanyouthinksuchthings?Atthetime,youknow,IbeggedyoutoletmedowhatIcould,butyouwouldn’thearofit……andeversinceI’vebeenwantingtobeofuse——todosomething,anything,tohelpyou……\"

  Sheheardhimthrough,motionless,withoutaquiveroftheclaspedhandssherestedontheedgeofthetable。

  \"Ifyouwanttohelpme,then——youcanhelpmetostayhere,\"shebroughtoutwithlow—tonedintensity。

  Throughthestillnessofthepausewhichfollowed,thebrayofamotor—hornsoundedfardownthedrive。Instantlysheturned,withalastwhitelookathim,andfledfromtheroomandupthestairs。Hestoodmotionless,benumbedbytheshockofherlastwords。Shewasafraid,then——afraidofhim——sickwithfearofhim!Thediscoverybeathimdowntoalowerdepth……

  Themotor—hornsoundedagain,closeathand,andheturnedandwentuptohisroom。Hisletter—writingwasasufficientpretextfornotimmediatelyjoiningthepartyaboutthetea—table,andhewantedtobealoneandtrytoputalittleorderintohistumultuousthinking。

  Upstairs,theroomheldouttheintimatewelcomeofitslampandfire。Everythinginitexhaledthesamesenseofpeaceandstabilitywhich,twoeveningsbefore,hadlulledhimtocomplacentmeditation。Hisarmchairagaininvitedhimfromthehearth,buthewastooagitatedtositstill,andwithsunkheadandhandsclaspedbehindhisbackhebegantowanderupanddowntheroom。

  HisfiveminuteswithSophyVinerhadflashedstrangelightsintotheshadowycornersofhisconsciousness。Thegirl’sabsolutecandour,herhardardenthonesty,wasforthemomentthevividestpointinhisthoughts。Hewonderedanew,ashehadwonderedbefore,atthewayinwhichtheharshdisciplineoflifehadstrippedheroffalsesentimentwithoutlayingtheleasttouchonherpride。Whentheyhadparted,fivemonthsbefore,shehadquietlybutdecidedlyrejectedallhisoffersofhelp,eventothesuggestionofhistryingtofurtherhertheatricalaims:shehadmadeitclearthatshewishedtheirbriefalliancetoleavenotraceontheirlivessavethatofitsownsmilingmemory。Butnowthattheywereunexpectedlyconfrontedinasituationwhichseemed,toherterrifiedfancy,toputherathismercy,herfirstimpulsewastodefendherrighttotheplaceshehadwon,andtolearnasquicklyaspossibleifhemeanttodisputeit。Whilehehadpicturedherasshrinkingawayfromhiminatremorofself—effacementshehadwatchedhismovements,madesureofheropportunity,andcomestraightdownto\"haveitout\"withhim。Hewassostruckbythefranknessandenergyoftheproceedingthatforamomenthelostsightoftheviewofhisowncharacterimpliedinit。

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