Speakinggenerally,thereisnoviceofthiskindmorecontemptiblethananother;foreachisbutaresultandoutwardsignofasoultragicallyship—wrecked。Inthemajorityofcases,cheappleasureisresortedtobywayofanodyne。Thepleasure—seekersetsforthuponlifewithhighanddifficultambitions;hemeanttobenoblygoodandnoblyhappy,thoughataslittlepainsaspossibletohimself;anditisbecauseallhasfailedinhiscelestialenterprisethatyounowbeholdhimrollinginthegarbage。Hencethecomparativesuccessoftheteetotalpledge;becausetoamanwhohadnothingitsetsatleastanegativeaiminlife。Somewhatasprisonersbeguiletheirdaysbytamingaspider,thereformeddrunkardmakesaninterestoutofabstainingfromintoxicatingdrinks,andmayliveforthatnegation。Thereissomething,atleast,NOTTOBEDONEeachday;andacoldtriumphawaitshimeveryevening。
Wehadoneonboardwithus,whomIhavealreadyreferredtounderthenameMackay,whoseemedtomenotonlyagoodinstanceofthisfailureinlifeofwhichwehavebeenspeaking,butagoodtypeoftheintelligencewhichheresurroundedme。PhysicallyhewasasmallScotsman,standingalittlebackasthoughhewerealreadycarryingtheelementsofacorporation,andhislookssomewhatmarredbythesmallnessofhiseyes。Mentally,hewasendowedabovetheaverage。
Therewerebutfewsubjectsonwhichhecouldnotconversewithunderstandingandadashofwit;deliveringhimselfslowlyandwithgustolikeamanwhoenjoyedhisownsententiousness。Hewasadry,quick,pertinentdebater,speakingwithasmallvoice,andswingingonhisheelstolaunchandemphasiseanargument。Whenhebeganadiscussion,hecouldnotbeartoleaveitoff,butwouldpickthesubjecttothebone,withoutoncerelinquishingapoint。Anengineerbytrade,Mackaybelievedintheunlimitedperfectibilityofallmachinesexceptthehumanmachine。Thelatterhegaveupwithridiculeforacompoundofcarrionandperversegases。HehadanappetitefordisconnectedfactswhichIcanonlycomparetothesavagetasteforbeads。Whatiscalledinformationwasindeedapassionwiththeman,andhenotonlydelightedtoreceiveit,butcouldpayyoubackinkind。
Withallthesecapabilities,herewasMackay,alreadynolongeryoung,onhiswaytoanewcountry,withnoprospects,nomoney,andbutlittlehope。Hewasalmosttediousinthecynicaldisclosuresofhisdespair。’Theshipmaygodownforme,’hewouldsay,’noworto—morrow。Ihavenothingtoloseandnothingtohope。’Andagain:
’Iamsickofthewholedamnedperformance。’Hewas,likethekindlittleman,alreadyquoted,anotherso—calledvictimofthebottle。
ButMackaywasmilesfrompublishinghisweaknesstotheworld;laidtheblameofhisfailureoncorruptmastersandacorruptStatepolicy;andafterhehadbeenonenightovertakenandhadplayedthebuffooninhiscups,sternly,thoughnotwithouttact,suppressedallreferencetohisescapade。Itwasatreattoseehimmanagethis:
thevariousjesterswitheredunderhisgaze,andyouwereforcedtorecogniseinhimacertainsteelyforce,andagiftofcommandwhichmighthaveruledasenate。
Intruthitwasnotwhiskythathadruinedhim;hewasruinedlongbeforeforallgoodhumanpurposesbutconversation。Hiseyesweresealedbyacheap,school—bookmaterialism。Hecouldseenothingintheworldbutmoneyandsteam—engines。Hedidnotknowwhatyoumeantbythewordhappiness。Hehadforgottenthesimpleemotionsofchildhood,andperhapsneverencounteredthedelightsofyouth。Hebelievedinproduction,thatusefulfigmentofeconomy,asifithadbeenreallikelaughter;andproduction,withoutprejudicetoliquor,washisgodandguide。Onedayhetookmetotask—novelcrytome—upontheover—paymentofliterature。Literarymen,hesaid,weremorehighlypaidthanartisans;yettheartisanmadethreshing—
machinesandbutter—churns,andthemanofletters,exceptinthewayofafewusefulhandbooks,madenothingworththewhile。Heproducedamerefancyarticle。Mackay’snotionofabookwasHOPPUS’S
MEASURER。NowinmytimeIhavepossessedandevenstudiedthatwork;butifIweretobeleftto—morrowonJuanFernandez,Hoppus’sisnotthebookthatIshouldchooseformycompanionvolume。
ItriedtofightthepointwithMackay。Imadehimownthathehadtakenpleasureinreadingbooksotherwise,tohisview,insignificant;buthewastoowarytoadvanceastepbeyondtheadmission。Itwasinvainformetoarguethatherewaspleasureready—madeandrunningfromthespring,whereashisploughsandbutter—churnswerebutmeansandmechanismstogivementhenecessaryfoodandleisurebeforetheystartuponthesearchforpleasure;hejibbedandranawayfromsuchconclusions。Thethingwasdifferent,hedeclared,andnothingwasserviceablebutwhathadtodowithfood。’Eat,eat,eat!’hecried;’that’sthebottomandthetop。’
Byanoddironyofcircumstance,hegrewsomuchinterestedinthisdiscussionthatheletthehourslipbyunnoticedandhadtogowithouthistea。Hehadenoughsenseandhumour,indeedhehadnolackofeither,tohavechuckledoverthishimselfinprivate;andeventomehereferredtoitwiththeshadowofasmile。
Mackaywasahotbigot。Hewouldnothearofreligion。Ihaveseenhimwastehoursoftimeinargumentwithallsortsofpoorhumancreatureswhounderstoodneitherhimnorthemselves,andhehadhadtheboyishnesstodissectandcriticiseevensosmallamatterastheriddler’sdefinitionofmind。Hesnortedaloudwithzealotryandthelustforintellectualbattle。Anything,whateveritwas,thatseemedtohimlikelytodiscouragethecontinuedpassionateproductionofcornandsteam—enginesheresentedlikeaconspiracyagainstthepeople。Thus,whenIputinthepleaforliterature,thatitwasonlyingoodbooks,orinthesocietyofthegood,thatamancouldgethelpinhisconduct,hedeclaredIwasinadifferentworldfromhim。’Damnmyconduct!’saidhe。’Ihavegivenitupforabadjob。
Myquestionis,\"CanIdriveanail?\"’Andheplainlylookeduponmeasonewhowasinsidiouslyseekingtoreducethepeople’sannualbellyfulofcornandsteam—engines。
Itmaybearguedthattheseopinionsspringfromthedefectofculture;thatanarrowandpinchingwayoflifenotonlyexaggeratestoamantheimportanceofmaterialconditions,butindirectly,bydenyinghimthenecessarybooksandleisure,keepshismindignorantoflargerthoughts;andthathencespringsthisoverwhelmingconcernaboutdiet,andhencethebaldviewofexistenceprofessedbyMackay。
HadthisbeenanEnglishpeasanttheconclusionwouldbetenable。
ButMackayhadmostoftheelementsofaliberaleducation。Hehadskirtedmetaphysicalandmathematicalstudies。Hehadathoughtfulholdofwhatheknew,whichwouldbeexceptionalamongbankers。Hehadbeenbroughtupinthemidstofhot—housepiety,andtold,withincongruouspride,thestoryofhisownbrother’sdeathbedecstasies。
Yethehadsomehowfailedtofulfilhimself,andwasadriftlikeadeadthingamongexternalcircumstances,withouthopeorlivelypreferenceorshapingaim。Andfurther,thereseemedatendencyamongmanyofhisfellowstofallintothesameblankandunlovelyopinions。Onething,indeed,isnottobelearnedinScotland,andthatisthewaytobehappy。Yetthatisthewholeofculture,andperhapstwo—thirdsofmorality。CanitbethatthePuritanschool,bydivorcingamanfromnature,bythinningouthisinstincts,andsettingastampofitsdisapprovalonwholefieldsofhumanactivityandinterest,leadsatlastdirectlytomaterialgreed?
Natureisagoodguidethroughlife,andtheloveofsimplepleasuresnext,ifnotsuperior,tovirtue;andwehadonboardanIrishmanwhobasedhisclaimtothewidestandmostaffectionatepopularitypreciselyuponthesetwoqualities,thathewasnaturalandhappy。
Heboastedafreshcolour,atightlittlefigure,unquenchablegaiety,andindefatigablegoodwill。Hisclothespuzzledthediagnosticmind,untilyouheardhehadbeenonceaprivatecoachman,whentheybecameeloquentandseemedapartofhisbiography。Hisfacecontainedtherest,and,Ifear,aprophecyofthefuture;thehawk’snoseaboveaccordedsoillwiththepinkbaby’smouthbelow。
Hisspiritandhispridebelonged,youmightsay,tothenose;whileitwasthegeneralshiftlessnessexpressedbytheotherthathadthrownhimfromsituationtosituation,andatlengthonboardtheemigrantship。Barneyate,sotospeak,nothingfromthegalley;hisowntea,butter,andeggssupportedhimthroughoutthevoyage;andaboutmealtimeyoumightoftenfindhimuptotheelbowsinamateurcookery。Hiswasthefirstvoiceheardsingingamongallthepassengers;hewasthefirstwhofelltodancing。FromLochFoyletoSandyHook,therewasnotapieceoffunundertakenbuttherewasBarneyinthemidst。
Yououghttohaveseenhimwhenhestooduptosingatourconcerts—
histightlittlefiguresteppingtoandfro,andhisfeetshufflingtotheair,hiseyesseekingandbestowingencouragement—andtohaveenjoyedthebow,sonicelycalculatedbetweenjestandearnest,betweengraceandclumsiness,withwhichhebroughteachsongtoaconclusion。Hewasnotonlyagreatfavouriteamongourselves,buthissongsattractedthelordsofthesaloon,whooftenleanedtohearhimovertherailsofthehurricane—deck。Hewassomewhatpleased,butnotatallabashed,bythisattention;andonenight,inthemidstofhisfamousperformanceof’BillyKeogh,’Isawhimspinhalfroundinapirouetteandthrowanaudaciouswinktoanoldgentlemanabove。
Thiswasthemorecharacteristic,as,forallhisdaffing,hewasamodestandverypolitelittlefellowamongourselves。
Hewouldnothavehurtthefeelingsofafly,northroughoutthepassagedidhegiveashadowofoffence;yethewasalways,byhisinnocentfreedomsandloveoffun,broughtuponthatnarrowmarginwherepolitenessmustbenaturaltowalkwithoutafall。Hewasonceseriouslyangry,andthatinagrave,quietmanner,becausetheysuppliednofishonFriday;forBarneywasaconscientiousCatholic。
Hehadlikewisestrictnotionsofrefinement;andwhen,lateoneevening,afterthewomenhadretired,ayoungScotsmanstruckupanindecentsong,Barney’sdrabclotheswereimmediatelymissingfromthegroup。Histastewasforthesocietyofgentlemen,ofwhom,withthereader’spermission,therewasnolackinourfivesteeragesandsecondcabin;andheavoidedtheroughandpositivewithagirlishshrinking。Mackay,partlyfromhissuperiorpowersofmind,whichrenderedhimincomprehensible,partlyfromhisextremeopinions,wasespeciallydistastefultotheIrishman。Ihaveseenhimslinkoffwithbackwardlooksofterrorandoffendeddelicacy,whiletheother,inhiswitty,uglyway,hadbeenprofessinghostilitytoGod,andanextremetheatricalreadinesstobeshipwreckedonthespot。Theseutteranceshurtthelittlecoachman’smodestylikeabadword。
THESICKMAN
OnenightJones,theyoungO’Reilly,andmyselfwerewalkingarm—in—
armandbrisklyupanddownthedeck。Sixbellshadrung;ahead—
windblewchillandfitful,thefogwasclosinginwithasprinkleofrain,andthefog—whistlehadbeenturnedon,andnowdividedtimewithitsunwelcomeoutcries,loudlikeabull,thrillingandintenselikeamosquito。Eventhewatchlaysomewheresnuglyoutofsight。
Forsometimeweobservedsomethinglyingblackandhuddledinthescuppers,whichatlastheavedalittleandmoanedaloud。Werantotherails。Anelderlyman,butwhetherpassengerorseamanitwasimpossibleinthedarknesstodetermine,laygrovellingonhisbellyinthewetscuppers,andkickingfeeblywithhisoutspreadtoes。Weaskedhimwhatwasamiss,andherepliedincoherently,withastrangeaccentandinavoiceunmannedbyterror,thathehadcrampinthestomach,thathehadbeenailingallday,hadseenthedoctortwice,andhadwalkedthedeckagainstfatiguetillhewasovermasteredandhadfallenwherewefoundhim。
Jonesremainedbyhisside,whileO’ReillyandIhurriedofftoseekthedoctor。Weknockedinvainatthedoctor’scabin;therecamenoreply;norcouldwefindanyonetoguideus。Itwasnotimefordelicacy;soweranoncemoreforward;andI,whippingupaladderandtouchingmyhattotheofficerofthewatch,addressedhimaspolitelyasIcould—
’Ibegyourpardon,sir;butthereisamanlyingbadwithcrampintheleescuppers;andIcan’tfindthedoctor。’
Helookedatmepeeringlyinthedarkness;andthen,somewhatharshly,’Well,Ican’tleavethebridge,myman,’saidhe。
’No,sir;butyoucantellmewhattodo,’Ireturned。
’Isitoneofthecrew?’heasked。
’Ibelievehimtobeafireman,’Ireplied。
Idaresayofficersaremuchannoyedbycomplaintsandalarmistinformationfromtheirfreightofhumancreatures;butcertainly,whetheritwastheideathatthesickmanwasoneofthecrew,orfromsomethingconciliatoryinmyaddress,theofficerinquestionwasimmediatelyrelievedandmollified;andspeakinginavoicemuchfreerfromconstraint,advisedmetofindastewardanddespatchhiminquestofthedoctor,whowouldnowbeinthesmoking—roomoverhispipe。
Oneofthestewardswasoftenenoughtobefoundaboutthishourdownourcompanion,SteerageNo。2and3;thatwashissmoking—roomofanight。LetmecallhimBlackwood。O’ReillyandIrattleddownthecompanion,breathinghurry;andinhisshirt—sleevesandperchedacrossthecarpentersbenchupononethigh,foundBlackwood;aneat,bright,dapper,Glasgow—lookingman,withabeadofaneyeandaranktwanginhisspeech。Iforgetwhowaswithhim,butthepairwereenjoyingadeliberatetalkovertheirpipes。Idaresayhewastiredwithhisday’swork,andeminentlycomfortableatthatmoment;andthetruthis,Ididnotstoptoconsiderhisfeelings,buttoldmystoryinabreath。
’Steward,’saidI,’there’samanlyingbadwithcramp,andIcan’tfindthedoctor。’
Heturneduponmeaspertasasparrow,butwithablacklookthatistheprerogativeofman;andtakinghispipeoutofhismouth—
’That’snoneofmybusiness,’saidhe。’Idon’tcare。’
Icouldhavestrangledthelittleruffianwherehesat。Thethoughtofhiscabincivilityandcabintipsfilledmewithindignation。I
glancedatO’Reilly;hewaspaleandquivering,andlookedlikeassaultandbattery,everyinchofhim。Butwehadabettercardthanviolence。
’Youwillhavetomakeityourbusiness,’saidI,’forIamsenttoyoubytheofficeronthebridge。’
Blackwoodwasfairlytripped。Hemadenoanswer,butputouthispipe,gavemeonemurderouslook,andsetoffuponhiserrandstrolling。Fromthatdayforward,Ishouldsay,heimprovedtomeincourtesy,asthoughhehadrepentedhisevilspeechandwereanxioustoleaveabetterimpression。
Whenwegotondeckagain,Joneswasstillbesidethesickman;andtwoorthreelatestragglershadgatheredround,andwereofferingsuggestions。Oneproposedtogivethepatientwater,whichwaspromptlynegatived。Anotherbadeusholdhimup;hehimselfprayedtobeletlie;butasitwasatleastaswelltokeephimoffthestreamingdecks,O’ReillyandIsupportedhimbetweenus。Itwasonlybymainforcethatwedidso,andneitheraneasynoranagreeableduty;forhefoughtinhisparoxysmslikeafrightenedchild,andmoanedmiserablywhenheresignedhimselftoourcontrol。
’Oletmelie!’hepleaded。’I’llno’getbetteranyway。’Andthen,withamoanthatwenttomyheart,’OwhydidIcomeuponthismiserablejourney?’
IwasremindedofthesongwhichIhadheardalittlewhilebeforeintheclose,tossingsteerage:’OwhyleftImyhame?’
MeantimeJones,relievedofhisimmediatecharge,hadgoneofftothegalley,wherewecouldseealight。Therehefoundabelatedcookscouringpansbytheradianceoftwolanterns,andoneofthesehesoughttoborrow。Thescullionwasbackward。’Wasitoneofthecrew?’heasked。AndwhenJones,smittenwithmytheory,hadassuredhimthatitwasafireman,hereluctantlylefthisscouringandcametowardsusataneasypace,withoneofthelanternsswingingfromhisfinger。Thelight,asitreachedthespot,showedusanelderlyman,thick—set,andgrizzledwithyears;buttheshiftingandcoarseshadowsconcealedfromustheexpressionandeventhedesignofhisface。
Sosoonasthecookseteyesonhimhegaveasortofwhistle。
’IT’SONLYAPASSENGER!’saidhe;andturningabout,made,lanternandall,forthegalley。
’He’samananyway,’criedJonesinindignation。
’Nobodysaidhewasawoman,’saidagruffvoice,whichIrecognisedforthatofthebo’s’un。
AllthiswhiletherewasnowordofBlackwoodorthedoctor;andnowtheofficercametooursideoftheshipandasked,overthehurricane—deckrails,ifthedoctorwerenotyetcome。Wetoldhimnot。
’No?’herepeatedwithabreathingofanger;andwesawhimhurryaftinperson。
Tenminutesafterthedoctormadehisappearancedeliberatelyenoughandexaminedourpatientwiththelantern。Hemadelittleofthecase,hadthemanbroughtafttothedispensary,dosedhim,andsenthimforwardtohisbunk。Twoofhisneighboursinthesteeragehadnowcometoourassistance,expressingloudsorrowthatsuch’afinecheerybody’shouldbesick;andthese,claimingasortofpossession,tookhimentirelyundertheirowncare。Thedrughadprobablyrelievedhim,forhestrugglednomore,andwasledalongplaintiveandpatient,butprotesting。Hisheartrecoiledatthethoughtofthesteerage。’Oletmeliedownuponthebieldyside,’
hecried;’Odinnatakemedown!’Andagain:’OwhydideverIcomeuponthismiserablevoyage?’Andyetoncemore,withagaspandawailingprolongationofthefourthword:’IhadnoCALLtocome。’
Buttherehewas;andbythedoctor’sordersandthekindforceofhistwoshipmatesdisappeareddownthecompanionofSteerageNo。1
intothedenallottedhim。
Atthefootofourowncompanion,justwhereIfoundBlackwood,Jonesandthebo’s’unwerenowengagedintalk。Thislastwasagruff,cruel—lookingseaman,whomusthavepassednearhalfacenturyupontheseas;square—headed,goat—bearded,withheavyblondeyebrows,andaneyewithoutradiance,butinflexiblysteadyandhard。Ihadnotforgottenhisroughspeech;butIrememberedalsothathehadhelpedusaboutthelantern;andnowseeinghiminconversationwithJones,andbeingchokedwithindignation,Iproceededtoblowoffmysteam。
’Well,’saidI,’Imakeyoumycomplimentsuponyoursteward,’andfuriouslynarratedwhathadhappened。
’I’venothingtodowithhim,’repliedthebo’s’un。’They’reallalike。Theywouldn’tmindiftheysawyoualllyingdeadoneuponthetopofanother。’
Thiswasenough。Averylittlehumanitywentalongwaywithmeaftertheexperienceoftheevening。Asympathygrewupatoncebetweenthebo’s’unandmyself;andthatnight,andduringthenextfewdays,Ilearnedtoappreciatehimbetter。Hewasaremarkabletype,andnotatallthekindofmanyoufindinbooks。HehadbeenatSebastopolunderEnglishcolours;andagaininaStatesship,’aftertheALABAMA,andprayingGodweshouldn’tfindher。’HewasahighToryandahighEnglishman。Nomanufacturercouldhaveheldopinionsmorehostiletotheworkingmanandhisstrikes。’Theworkmen,’hesaid,’thinknothingoftheircountry。Theythinkofnothingbutthemselves。They’redamnedgreedy,selfishfellows。’HewouldnothearofthedecadenceofEngland。’TheysaytheysendusbeeffromAmerica,’heargued;’butwhopaysforit?Allthemoneyintheworld’sinEngland。’TheRoyalNavywasthebestofpossibleservices,accordingtohim。’Anywaytheofficersaregentlemen,’
saidhe;’andyoucan’tgethazedtodeathbyadamnednon—
commissioned—asyoucaninthearmy。’Amongnations,Englandwasthefirst;thencameFrance。HerespectedtheFrenchnavyandlikedtheFrenchpeople;andifhewereforcedtomakeanewchoiceinlife,’byGod,hewouldtryFrenchmen!’Forallhislooksandrough,coldmanners,Iobservedthatchildrenwereneverfrightenedbyhim;
theydivinedhimatoncetobeafriend;andonenightwhenhehadchalkedhishandandclothes,itwasincongruoustohearthisformidableoldsaltchucklingoverhisboyishmonkeytrick。
Inthemorning,myfirstthoughtwasofthesickman。IwasafraidI
shouldnotrecognisehim,bafflinghadbeenthelightofthelantern;
andfoundmyselfunabletodecideifhewereScots,English,orIrish。Hehadcertainlyemployednorth—countrywordsandelisions;
buttheaccentandthepronunciationseemedunfamiliarandincongruousinmyear。
TodescendonanemptystomachintoSteerageNo。1,wasanadventurethatrequiredsomenerve。Thestenchwasatrocious;eachrespirationtastedinthethroatlikesomehorriblekindofcheese;andthesqualidaspectoftheplacewasaggravatedbysomanypeoplewormingthemselvesintotheirclothesintwilightofthebunks。YoumayguessifIwaspleased,notonlyforhim,butformyselfalso,whenI
heardthatthesickmanwasbetterandhadgoneondeck。
Themorningwasrawandfoggy,thoughthesunsuffusedthefogwithpinkandamber;thefog—hornstillblew,stertorousandintermittent;
andtoaddtothediscomfort,theseamenwerejustbeginningtowashdownthedecks。Butforasickmanthiswasheavencomparedtothesteerage。Ifoundhimstandingonthehot—waterpipe,justforwardofthesaloondeckhouse。HewassmallerthanIhadfancied,andplain—looking;buthisfacewasdistinguishedbystrangeandfascinatingeyes,limpidgreyfromadistance,but,whenlookedinto,fullofchangingcoloursandgrainsofgold。Hismannersweremildanduncompromisinglyplain;andIsoonsawthat,whenoncestarted,hedelightedtotalk。Hisaccentandlanguagehadbeenformedinthemostnaturalway,sincehewasborninIreland,hadlivedaquarterofacenturyonthebanksofTyne,andwasmarriedtoaScotswife。
Afishermanintheseason,hehadfishedtheeastcoastfromFisherrowtoWhitby。Whentheseasonwasover,andthegreatboats,whichrequiredextrahands,wereoncedrawnuponshoretillthenextspring,heworkedasalaboureraboutchemicalfurnaces,oralongthewharvesunloadingvessels。Inthiscomparativelyhumblewayoflifehehadgatheredacompetence,andcouldspeakofhiscomfortablehouse,hishayfield,andhisgarden。Onthisship,wheresomanyaccomplishedartisanswerefleeingfromstarvation,hewaspresentonapleasuretriptovisitabrotherinNewYork。
Erehestarted,heinformedme,hehadbeenwarnedagainstthesteerageandthesteeragefare,andrecommendedtobringwithhimahamandteaandaspiceloaf。Buthelaughedtoscornsuchcounsels。
’I’mnotafraid,’hehadtoldhisadviser;’I’llgetonfortendays。
I’venotbeenafishermanfornothing。’Foritisnolightmatter,asheremindedme,tobeinanopenboat,perhapswaist—deepwithherrings,daybreakingwithascowl,andformilesoneveryhandlee—
shores,unbroken,iron—bound,surf—beat,withonlyhereandthereananchoragewhereyoudarenotlie,oraharbourimpossibletoenterwiththewindthatblows。ThelifeofaNorthSeafisherisonelongchapterofexposureandhardworkandinsufficientfare;andevenifhemakeslandatsomebleakfisherport,perhapstheseasonisbadorhisboathasbeenunluckyandafterfiftyhours’unsleepingvigilanceandtoil,notashopwillgivehimcreditforaloafofbread。Yetthesteerageoftheemigrantshiphadbeentoovilefortheenduranceofamanthusrudelytrained。Hehadscarceeatensincehecameonboard,untilthedaybefore,whenhisappetitewastemptedbysomeexcellentpea—soup。Wewereallmuchofthesamemindonboard,andbeginningwithmyself,haddineduponpea—soupnotwiselybuttoowell;onlywithhimtheexcesshadbeenpunished,perhapsbecausehewasweakenedbyformerabstinence,andhisfirstmealhadresultedinacramp。Hehaddeterminedtolivehenceforthonbiscuit;andwhen,twomonthslater,heshouldreturntoEngland,tomakethepassagebysaloon。Thesecondcabin,afterdueinquiry,hescoutedasanothereditionofthesteerage。
Hespokeapologeticallyofhisemotionwhenill。’Yesee,Ihadnocalltobehere,’saidhe;’andIthoughtitwasbywithmelastnight。I’veagoodhouseathome,andplentytonurseme,andIhadnorealcalltoleavethem。’Speakingoftheattentionshehadreceivedfromhisshipmatesgenerally,’theywereallsokind,’hesaid,’thatthere’snonetomention。’AndexceptinsofarasI
mightshareinthis,hetroubledmewithnoreferencetomyservices。
Butwhataffectedmeinthemostlivelymannerwasthewealthofthisday—labourer,payingatwomonths’pleasurevisittotheStates,andpreparingtoreturninthesaloon,andthenewtestimonyrenderedbyhisstory,notsomuchtothehorrorsofthesteerageastothehabitualcomfortoftheworkingclasses。Onefoggy,frostyDecemberevening,IencounteredonLibertonHill,nearEdinburgh,anIrishlabourertrudginghomewardfromthefields。Ourroadslaytogether,anditwasnaturalthatweshouldfallintotalk。Hewascoveredwithmud;aninoffensive,ignorantcreature,whothoughttheAtlanticCablewasasecretcontrivanceofthemastersthebettertooppresslabouringmankind;andIconfessIwasastonishedtolearnthathehadnearlythreehundredpoundsinthebank。Butthismanhadtravelledovermostoftheworld,andenjoyedwonderfulopportunitiesonsomeAmericanrailroad,withtwodollarsashiftanddoublepayonSundayandatnight;whereasmyfellow—passengerhadneverquittedTyneside,andhadmadeallthathepossessedinthatsameaccursed,down—fallingEngland,whenceskilledmechanics,engineers,millwrights,andcarpenterswerefleeingasfromthenativecountryofstarvation。
Fitlyenough,weslidoffonthesubjectofstrikesandwagesandhardtimes。BeingfromtheTyne,andamanwhohadgainedandlostinhisownpocketbythesefluctuations,hehadmuchtosay,andheldstrongopinionsonthesubject。Hespokesharplyofthemasters,and,whenIledhimon,ofthemenalso。Themastershadbeenselfishandobstructive,themenselfish,silly,andlight—headed。
Herehearsedtomethecourseofameetingatwhichhehadbeenpresent,andthesomewhatlongdiscoursewhichhehadtherepronounced,callingintoquestionthewisdomandeventhegoodfaithoftheUniondelegates;andalthoughhehadescapedhimselfthroughflushtimesandstarvationtimeswithahandsomelyprovidedpurse,hehadsolittlefaithineithermanormaster,andsoprofoundaterrorfortheunerringNemesisofmercantileaffairs,thathecouldthinkofnohopeforourcountryoutsideofasuddenandcompletepoliticalsubversion。DownmustgoLordsandChurchandArmy;andcapital,bysomehappydirection,mustchangehandsfromworsetobetter,orEnglandstoodcondemned。Suchprinciples,hesaid,weregrowing’likeaseed。’
Fromthismild,soft,domesticman,thesewordssoundedunusuallyominousandgrave。Ihadheardenoughrevolutionarytalkamongmyworkmenfellow—passengers;butmostofitwashotandturgid,andfelldiscreditedfromthelipsofunsuccessfulmen。Thismanwascalm;hehadattainedprosperityandease;hedisapprovedthepolicywhichhadbeenpursuedbylabourinthepast;andyetthiswashispanacea,—torendtheoldcountryfromendtoend,andfromtoptobottom,andinclamourandcivildiscordremodelitwiththehandofviolence。
THESTOWAWAYS
OntheSunday,amongapartyofmenwhoweretalkinginourcompanion,SteerageNo。2and3,weremarkedanewfigure。Heworetweedclothes,wellenoughmadeifnotveryfresh,andaplainsmoking—cap。Hisfacewaspale,withpaleeyes,andspiritedlyenoughdesigned;butthoughnotyetthirty,asortofblackguardlydegenerationhadalreadyovertakenhisfeatures。Thefinenosehadgrownfleshytowardsthepoint,thepaleeyesweresunkinfat。Hishandswerestrongandelegant;hisexperienceoflifeevidentlyvaried;hisspeechfullofpithandverve;hismannersforward,butperfectlypresentable。Theladwhohelpedinthesecondcabintoldme,inanswertoaquestion,thathedidnotknowwhohewas,butthought,’byhiswayofspeaking,andbecausehewassopolite,thathewassomeonefromthesaloon。’
Iwasnotsosure,fortometherewassomethingequivocalinhisairandbearing。Hemighthavebeen,Ithought,thesonofsomegoodfamilywhohadfallenearlyintodissipationandrunfromhome。But,makingeveryallowance,howadmirablewashistalk!Iwishyoucouldhaveheardhin,tellhisownstories。Theyweresoswinginglysetforth,insuchdramaticlanguage,andillustratedhereandtherebysuchluminousbitsofacting,thattheycouldonlyloseinanyreproduction。ThereweretalesoftheP。andO。Company,wherehehadbeenanofficer;oftheEastIndies,whereinformeryearshehadlivedlavishly;oftheRoyalEngineers,wherehehadservedforaperiod;andofadozenothersidesoflife,eachintroducingsomevigorousthumb—nailportrait。Hehadthetalktohimselfthatnight,wewereallsogladtolisten。Thebesttalkersusuallyaddressthemselvestosomeparticularsociety;theretheyarekings,elsewherecamp—followers,asamanmayknowRussianandyetbeignorantofSpanish;butthisfellowhadafrank,headlongpowerofstyle,andabroad,humanchoiceofsubject,thatwouldhaveturnedanycircleintheworldintoacircleofhearers。HewasaHomerictalker,plain,strong,andcheerful;andthethingsandthepeopleofwhichhespokebecamereadilyandclearlypresenttothemindsofthosewhoheardhim。This,withacertainaddedcolouringofrhetoricandrodomontade,musthavebeenthestyleofBurns,whoequallycharmedtheearsofduchessesandhostlers。
Yetfreelyandpersonallyashespoke,manypointsremainedobscureinhisnarration。TheEngineers,forinstance,wasaservicewhichhepraisedhighly;itistruetherewouldbetroublewiththesergeants;butthentheofficersweregentlemen,andhisown,inparticular,oneamongtenthousand。Itsoundedsofarexactlylikeanepisodeintherakish,topsy—turvylifeofsuchanoneasIhadimagined。Butthentherecameincidentsmoredoubtful,whichshowedanalmostimpudentgreedaftergratuities,andatrulyimpudentdisregardfortruth。Andthentherewasthetaleofhisdeparture。
Hehadwearied,itseems,ofWoolwich,andonefineday,withacompanion,slippeduptoLondonforaspree。Ihaveasuspicionthatspreewasmeanttobealongone;butGoddisposesallthings;andonemorning,nearWestminsterBridge,whomshouldhecomeacrossbuttheverysergeantwhohadrecruitedhimatfirst!Whatfollowed?Hehimselfindicatedcavalierlythathehadthenresigned。Letusputitso。Buttheseresignationsaresometimesverytrying。
Atlength,afterhavingdelightedusforhours,hetookhimselfawayfromthecompanion;andIcouldaskMackaywhoandwhathewas。
’That?’saidMackay。’Why,that’soneofthestowaways。’
’Noman,’saidthesameauthority,’whohashadanythingtodowiththesea,wouldeverthinkofpayingforapassage。’IgivethestatementasMackay’s,withoutendorsement;yetIamtemptedtobelievethatitcontainsagrainoftruth;andifyouaddthatthemanshallbeimpudentandthievish,orelsedead—broke,itmayevenpassforafairrepresentationofthefacts。WegentlemenofEnglandwholiveathomeateasehave,Isuspect,veryinsufficientideasonthesubject。Alltheworldover,peoplearestowingawayincoal—
holesanddarkcorners,andwhenshipsareonceouttosea,appearingagain,begrimedandbashful,upondeck。Thecareerofthesesea—
trampspartakeslargelyoftheadventurous。Theymaybepoisonedbycoal—gas,ordiebystarvationintheirplaceofconcealment;orwhenfoundtheymaybeclappedatonceandignominiouslyintoirons,thustobecarriedtotheirpromisedland,theportofdestination,andalas!broughtbackinthesamewaytothatfromwhichtheystarted,andtheredeliveredovertothemagistratesandtheseclusionofacountyjail。SinceIcrossedtheAtlantic,onemiserablestowawaywasfoundinadyingstateamongthefuel,utteredbutawordortwo,anddepartedforafarthercountrythanAmerica。
Whenthestowawayappearsondeck,hehasbutonethingtoprayfor:
thathebesettowork,whichisthepriceandsignofhisforgiveness。Afterhalfanhourwithaswaborabucket,hefeelshimselfassecureasifhehadpaidforhispassage。Itisnotaltogetherabadthingforthecompany,whogetmoreorlessefficienthandsfornothingbutafewplatesofjunkandduff;andeverynowandagainfindthemselvesbetterpaidthanbyawholefamilyofcabinpassengers。Notlongago,forinstance,apacketwassavedfromnearlycertainlossbytheskillandcourageofastowawayengineer。Aswasnomorethanjust,ahandsomesubscriptionrewardedhimforhissuccess:butevenwithoutsuchexceptionalgoodfortune,asthingsstandinEnglandandAmerica,thestowawaywilloftenmakeagoodprofitoutofhisadventure。Fourengineersstowedawaylastsummeronthesameship,theCIRCASSIA;andbeforetwodaysaftertheirarrivaleachofthefourhadfoundacomfortableberth。ThiswasthemosthopefultaleofemigrationthatIheardfromfirsttolast;andasyousee,theluckwasforstowaways。
MycuriositywasmuchinflamedbywhatIheard;andthenextmorning,asIwasmakingtheroundoftheship,Iwasdelightedtofindtheex—RoyalEngineerengagedinwashingdownthewhitepaintofadeckhouse。Therewasanotherfellowatworkbesidehim,aladnotmorethantwenty,inthemostmiraculoustatters,hishandsomefacesownwithgrainsofbeautyandlightedupbyexpressiveeyes。FourstowawayshadbeenfoundaboardourshipbeforeshelefttheClyde,butthesetwohadaloneescapedtheignominyofbeingputashore。
Alick,myacquaintanceoflastnight,wasScotsbybirth,andbytradeapracticalengineer;theotherwasfromDevonshire,andhadbeentoseabeforethemast。Twopeoplemoreunlikebytraining,character,andhabitsitwouldbehardtoimagine;yetheretheyweretogether,scrubbingpaint。
Alickhadheldallsortsofgoodsituations,andwastedmanyopportunitiesinlife。Ihaveheardhimendastorywiththesewords:’Thatwasinmygoldendays,whenIusedfinger—glasses。’
Situationaftersituationfailedhim;thenfollowedthedepressionoftrade,andformonthshehadhungroundwithotheridlers,playingmarblesalldayintheWestPark,andgoinghomeatnighttotellhislandladyhowhehadbeenseekingforajob。IbelievethiskindofexistencewasnotunpleasanttoAlickhimself,andhemighthavelongcontinuedtoenjoyidlenessandalifeontick;buthehadacomrade,letuscallhimBrown,whogrewrestive。ThisfellowwascontinuallythreateningtosliphiscablefortheStates,andatlast,oneWednesday,GlasgowwasleftwidowedofherBrown。Somemonthsafterwards,AlickmetanotheroldchuminSauchiehallStreet。
’Bythebye,Alick,’saidhe,’ImetagentlemaninNewYorkwhowasaskingforyou。’
’Whowasthat?’askedAlick。
’ThenewsecondengineeronboardtheSO—AND—SO,’wasthereply。
’Well,andwhoishe?’
’Brown,tobesure。’
ForBrownhadbeenoneofthefortunatequartetteaboardtheCIRCASSIA。IfthatwasthewayofitintheStates,AlickthoughtitwashightimetofollowBrown’sexample。Hespenthislastday,asheputit,’reviewingtheyeomanry,’andthenextmorningsayshetohislandlady,’Mrs。X。,I’llnottakeporridgeto—day,please;I’lltakesomeeggs。’
’Why,haveyoufoundajob?’sheasked,delighted。
’Well,yes,’returnedtheperfidiousAlick;’IthinkI’llstartto—
day。’
Andso,welllinedwitheggs,starthedid,butforAmerica。Iamafraidthatlandladyhasseenthelastofhim。
Itwaseasyenoughtogetonboardintheconfusionthatattendsavessel’sdeparture;andinoneofthedarkcornersofSteerageNo。1,flatinabunkandwithanemptystomach,AlickmadethevoyagefromtheBroomielawtoGreenock。Thatnight,theship’syeomanpulledhimoutbytheheelsandhadhimbeforethemate。Twootherstowawayshadalreadybeenfoundandsentashore;butbythistimedarknesshadfallen,theywereoutinthemiddleoftheestuary,andthelaststeamerhadleftthemtillthemorning。
’Takehimtotheforecastleandgivehimameal,’saidthemate,’andseeandpackhimoffthefirstthingto—morrow。’
Intheforecastlehehadsupper,agoodnight’srest,andbreakfast;
andwassittingplacidlywithapipe,fancyingallwasoverandthegameupforgoodwiththatship,whenoneofthesailorsgrumbledoutanoathathim,witha’Whatareyoudoingthere?’and’Doyoucallthathiding,anyway?’Therewasneedofnomore;Alickwasinanotherbunkbeforethedaywasolder。Shortlybeforethepassengersarrived,theshipwascursorilyinspected。Heheardtheroundcomedownthecompanionandlookintoonepenafteranother,untiltheycamewithintwooftheoneinwhichhelayconcealed。Intotheselasttwotheydidnotenter,butmerelyglancedfromwithout;andAlickhadnodoubtthathewaspersonallyfavouredinthisescape。
Itwasthecharacterofthemantoattributenothingtoluckandbutlittletokindness;whateverhappenedtohimhehadearnedinhisownrightamply;favourscametohimfromhissingularattractionandadroitness,andmisfortuneshehadalwaysacceptedwithhiseyesopen。Halfanhourafterthesearchershaddeparted,thesteeragebegantofillwithlegitimatepassengers,andtheworstofAlick’stroubleswasatanend。Hewassoonmakinghimselfpopular,smokingotherpeople’stobacco,andpolitelysharingtheirprivatestockdelicacies,andwhennightcameheretiredtohisbunkbesidetheotherswithcomposure。
Nextdaybyafternoon,LoughFoylebeingalreadyfarbehind,andonlytheroughnorth—westernhillsofIrelandwithinview,Alickappearedondecktocourtinquiryanddecidehisfate。Asamatteroffact,hewasknowntoseveralonboard,andevenintimatewithoneoftheengineers;butitwasplainlynottheetiquetteofsuchoccasionsfortheauthoritiestoavowtheirinformation。Everyoneprofessedsurpriseandangeronhisappearance,andhewasledprisonbeforethecaptain。
’Whathaveyougottosayforyourself?’inquiredthecaptain。
’Notmuch,’saidAlick;’butwhenamanhasbeenalongtimeoutofajob,hewilldothingshewouldnotunderothercircumstances。’
’Areyouwillingtowork?’
Alicksworehewasburningtobeuseful。
’Andwhatcanyoudo?’askedthecaptain。
Herepliedcomposedlythathewasabrass—fitterbytrade。
’Ithinkyouwillbebetteratengineering?’suggestedtheofficer,withashrewdlook。
’No,sir,’saysAlicksimply。—’There’sfewcanbeatmeatalie,’
washisengagingcommentarytomeasherecountedtheaffair。
’Haveyoubeentosea?’againaskedthecaptain。
’I’vehadatriponaClydesteamboat,sir,butnomore,’repliedtheunabashedAlick。
’Well,wemusttryandfindsomeworkforyou,’concludedtheofficer。
AndhencewebeholdAlick,clearofthehotengine—room,lazilyscrapingpaintandnowandthentakingapulluponasheet。’Youleavemealone,’washisdeduction。’WhenIgettalkingtoaman,I
cangetroundhim。’
Theotherstowaway,whomIwillcalltheDevonian—itwasnoticeablethatneitherofthemtoldhisname—hadbothbeenbroughtupandseentheworldinamuchsmallerway。Hisfather,aconfectioner,diedandwascloselyfollowedbyhismother。Hissistershadtaken,Ithink,todressmaking。Hehimselfhadreturnedfromseaaboutayearagoandgonetolivewithhisbrother,whokeptthe’GeorgeHotel’—’itwasnotquitearealhotel,’addedthecandidfellow—
’andhadahiredmantomindthehorses。’AtfirsttheDevonianwasverywelcome;butastimewentonhisbrothernotunnaturallygrewcooltowardshim,andhebegantofindhimselfonetoomanyatthe’GeorgeHotel。’’Idon’tthinkbrotherscaremuchforyou,’hesaid,asageneralreflectionuponlife。Hurtatthischange,nearlypenniless,andtooproudtoaskformore,hesetoffonfootandwalkedeightymilestoWeymouth,livingonthejourneyashecould。
Hewouldhaveenlisted,buthewastoosmallforthearmyandtoooldforthenavy;andthoughthimselffortunateatlasttofindaberthonboardatradingdandy。SomewhereintheBristolChannelthedandysprungaleakandwentdown;andthoughthecrewwerepickedupandbroughtashorebyfishermen,theyfoundthemselveswithnothingbuttheclothesupontheirback。Hisnextengagementwasscarcelybetterstarred;fortheshipprovedsoleaky,andfrightenedthemallsoheartilyduringashortpassagethroughtheIrishSea,thattheentirecrewdesertedandremainedbehinduponthequaysofBelfast。
EvildayswerenowcomingthickontheDevonian。HecouldfindnoberthinBelfast,andhadtoworkapassagetoGlasgowonasteamer。
ShereachedtheBroomielawonaWednesday:theDevonianhadabellyfulthatmorning,layinginbreakfastmanfullytoprovideagainstthefuture,andsetoffalongthequaystoseekemployment。
Buthewasnownotonlypenniless,hisclotheshadbeguntofallintatters;hehadbeguntohavethelookofastreetArab;andcaptainswillhavenothingtosaytoaragamuffin;forinthattrade,asinallothers,itisthecoatthatdepictstheman。Youmayhand,reef,andsteerlikeanangel,butifyouhaveaholeinyourtrousers,itislikeamillstoneroundyourneck。TheDevonianlostheartatsomanyrefusals。Hehadnottheimpudencetobeg;although,ashesaid,’whenIhadmoneyofmyown,Ialwaysgaveit。’ItwasonlyonSaturdaymorning,afterthreewholedaysofstarvation,thatheaskedasconefromamilkwoman,whoaddedofherownaccordaglassofmilk。Hehadnowmadeuphismindtostowaway,notfromanydesiretoseeAmerica,butmerelytoobtainthecomfortofaplaceintheforecastleandasupplyoffamiliarsea—fare。Helivedbybegging,alwaysfrommilkwomen,andalwayssconesandmilk,andwasnotoncerefused。Itwasvilewetweather,andhecouldneverhavebeendry。
Bynighthewalkedthestreets,andbydaysleptuponGlasgowGreen,andheard,intheintervalsofhisdozing,thefamoustheologiansofthespotclearupintricatepointsofdoctrineandappraisethemeritsoftheclergy。Hehadnotmuchinstruction;hecould’readbillsonthestreet,’butwas’mainbadatwriting’;yetthesetheologiansseemtohaveimpressedhimwithagenuinesenseofamusement。WhyhedidnotgototheSailors’HouseIknownot;I
presumethereisinGlasgowoneoftheseinstitutions,whicharebyfarthehappiestandthewisesteffortofcontemporaneouscharity;
butImuststandtomyauthor,astheysayinoldbooks,andrelatethestoryasIheardit。Inthemeantime,hehadtriedfourtimestostowawayindifferentvessels,andfourtimeshadbeendiscoveredandhandedbacktostarvation。Thefifthtimewaslucky;andyoumayjudgeifhewerepleasedtobeaboardshipagain,athisoldwork,andwithdufftwiceaweek。Hewas,saidAlick,’adevilfortheduff。’Orifdevilwasnottheword,itwasoneifanythingstronger。
Thedifferenceintheconductofthetwowasremarkable。TheDevonianwasaswillingasanypaidhand,swarmedaloftamongthefirst,pulledhisnaturalweightandfirmlyuponarope,andfoundworkforhimselfwhentherewasnonetoshowhim。Alick,ontheotherhand,wasnotonlyaskulkerinthebrain,buttookahumorousandfinegentlemanlyviewofthetransaction。Hewouldspeaktomebythehourinostentatiousidleness;andonlyifthebo’s’unoramatecameby,fell—tolanguidlyforjustthenecessarytimetilltheywereoutofsight。’I’mnotbreakingmyheartwithit,’heremarked。
Oncetherewasahatchtobeopenednearwherehewasstationed;hewatchedthepreparationsforasecondorsosuspiciously,andthen,’Hullo,’saidhe,’here’ssomerealworkcoming—I’moff,’andhewasgonethatmoment。Again,calculatingthesixguineapassage—
money,andtheprobabledurationofthepassage,heremarkedpleasantlythathewasgettingsixshillingsadayforthisjob,’andit’sprettydeartothecompanyatthat。’’Theyaremakingnothingbyme,’wasanotherofhisobservations;’they’remakingsomethingbythatfellow。’AndhepointedtotheDevonian,whowasjustthenbusytotheeyes。
ThemoreyousawofAlick,themore,itmustbeowned,youlearnedtodespisehim。Hisnaturaltalentswereofnouseeithertohimselforothers;forhischaracterhaddegeneratedlikehisface,andbecomepulpyandpretentious。Evenhispowerofpersuasion,whichwascertainlyverysurprising,stoodinsomedangerofbeinglostorneutralisedbyover—confidence。Heliedinanaggressive,brazenmanner,likeapertcriminalinthedock;andhewassovainofhisownclevernessthathecouldnotrefrainfromboasting,tenminutesafter,oftheverytrickbywhichhehaddeceivedyou。’Why,nowI
havemoremoneythanwhenIcameonboard,’hesaidonenight,exhibitingasixpence,’andyetIstoodmyselfabottleofbeerbeforeIwenttobedyesterday。Andasfortobacco,Ihavefifteensticksofit。’Thatwasfairlysuccessfulindeed;yetamanofhissuperiority,andwithalessobtrusivepolicy,might,whoknows?havegotthelengthofhalfacrown。Amanwhoprideshimselfuponpersuasionshouldlearnthepersuasivefacultyofsilence,aboveallastohisownmisdeeds。ItisonlyinthefarceandfordramaticpurposesthatScapinenlargesonhispeculiartalentstotheworldatlarge。
Scapinisperhapsagoodnameforthisclever,unfortunateAlick;foratthebottomofallhismisconducttherewasaguidingsenseofhumourthatmovedyoutoforgivehim。Itwasmorethanhalfajestthatheconductedhisexistence。’Oh,man,’hesaidtomeoncewithunusualemotion,likeamanthinkingofhismistress,’Iwouldgiveupanythingforalark。’
Itwasinrelationtohisfellow—stowawaythatAlickshowedthebest,orperhapsIshouldsaytheonlygood,pointsofhisnature。’Mindyou,’hesaidsuddenly,changinghistone,’mindyouthat’sagoodboy。Hewouldn’ttellyoualie。Alotofthemthinkheisascampbecausehisclothesareragged,butheisn’t;he’sasgoodasgold。’
Tohearhim,youbecomeawarethatAlickhimselfhadatasteforvirtue。Hethoughthisownidlenessandtheother’sindustryequallybecoming。Hewasnomoreanxioustoinsurehisownreputationasaliarthantoupholdthetruthfulnessofhiscompanion;andheseemedunawareofwhatwasincongruousinhisattitude,andwasplainlysincereinbothcharacters。
ItwasnotsurprisingthatheshouldtakeaninterestintheDevonian,fortheladworshippedandservedhiminloveandwonder。
Busyashewas,hewouldfindtimetowarnAlickofanapproachingofficer,oreventotellhimthatthecoastwasclear,andhemightslipoffandsmokeapipeinsafety。’Tom,’heoncesaidtohim,forthatwasthenamewhichAlickorderedhimtouse,’ifyoudon’tlikegoingtothegalley,I’llgoforyou。Youain’tusedtothiskindofthing,youain’t。ButI’masailor;andIcanunderstandthefeelingsofanyfellow,Ican。’Again,hewashardup,andcastingaboutforsometobacco,forhewasnotsoliberallyusedinthisrespectasothersperhapslessworthy,whenAlickofferedhimthehalfofoneofhisfifteensticks。Ithink,formypart,hemighthaveincreasedtheoffertoawholeone,orperhapsapairofthem,andnotlivedtoregrethisliberality。ButtheDevonianrefused。
’No,’hesaid,’you’reastowawaylikeme;Iwon’ttakeitfromyou,I’lltakeitfromsomeonewho’snotdownonhisluck。’
Itwasnotableinthisgenerousladthathewasstronglyundertheinfluenceofsex。Ifawomanpassednearwherehewasworking,hiseyeslitup,hishandpaused,andhismindwanderedinstantlytootherthoughts。Itwasnaturalthatheshouldexerciseafascinationproportionallystronguponwomen。Hebegged,youwillremember,fromwomenonly,andwasneverrefused。Withoutwishingtoexplainawaythecharityofthosewhohelpedhim,Icannotbutfancyhemayhaveowedalittletohishandsomeface,andtothatquick,responsivenature,formedforlove,whichspeakseloquentlythroughalldisguises,andcanstampanimpressionintenminutes’talkoranexchangeofglances。Hewasthemoredangerousinthathewasfarfrombold,butseemedtowooinspiteofhimself,andwithasoftandpleadingeye。Raggedashewas,andmanyascarecrowisinthatrespectmorecomfortablyfurnished,evenonboardhewasnotwithoutsomecuriousadmirers。
Therewasagirlamongthepassengers,atall,blonde,handsome,strappingIrishwoman,withawild,accommodatingeye,whomAlickhaddubbedTommy,withthattranscendentalappropriatenessthatdefiesanalysis。OnedaytheDevonianwaslyingforwarmthintheupperstoke—hole,whichstandsopenonthedeck,whenIrishTommycamepast,veryneatlyattired,aswashercustom。
’Poorfellow,’shesaid,stopping,’youhaven’tavest。’
’No,’hesaid;’IwishI’ad。’
Thenshestoodandgazedonhiminsilence,until,inhisembarrassment,forheknewnothowtolookunderthisscrutiny,hepulledouthispipeandbegantofillitwithtobacco。
’Doyouwantamatch?’sheasked。Andbeforehehadtimetoreply,sheranoffandpresentlyreturnedwithmorethanone。
Thatwasthebeginningandtheend,asfarasourpassageisconcerned,ofwhatIwillmakeboldtocallthislove—affair。Therearemanyrelationswhichgoontomarriageandlastduringalifetime,inwhichlesshumanfeelingisengagedthaninthissceneoffiveminutesatthestoke—hole。
Rigidlyspeaking,thiswouldendthechapterofthestowaways;butinalargersenseofthewordIhaveyetmoretoadd。Joneshaddiscoveredandpointedouttomeayoungwomanwhowasremarkableamongherfellowsforapleasingandinterestingair。Shewaspoorlyclad,totheverge,ifnotovertheline,ofdisrespectability,witharaggedoldjacketandabitofasealskincapnobiggerthanyourfist;buthereyes,herwholeexpression,andhermanner,eveninordinarymoments,toldofatruewomanlynature,capableoflove,anger,anddevotion。Shehadalook,too,ofrefinement,likeonewhomighthavebeenabetterladythanmost,hadshebeenallowedtheopportunity。Whenalonesheseemedpreoccupiedandsad;butshewasnotoftenalone;therewasusuallybyhersideaheavy,dull,grossmaninroughclothes,charyofspeechandgesture—notfromcaution,butpovertyofdisposition;amanlikeaditcher,unlovelyanduninteresting;whomshepettedandtendedandwaitedonwithhereyesasifhehadbeenAmadisofGaul。Itwasstrangetoseethishulkingfellowdog—sick,andthisdelicate,sadwomancaringforhim。Heseemed,fromfirsttolast,insensibleofhercaressesandattentions,andsheseemedunconsciousofhisinsensibility。TheIrishhusband,whosanghiswifetosleep,andthisScottishgirlservingherOrson,werethetwobitsofhumannaturethatmostappealedtomethroughoutthevoyage。