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  Hewonderedwhatthosemenhadeatenthattheycouldbeinsuchhastetoforcetheirwaytogrimchancesofdeath。Ashewatchedhisenvygrewuntilhethoughtthathewishedtochangeliveswithoneofthem。Hewouldhavelikedtohaveusedatremendousforce,hesaid,throwoffhimselfandbecomeabetter。Swiftpicturesofhimself,apart,yetinhimself,cametohim——abluedesperatefigureleadingluridchargeswithonekneeforwardandabrokenbladehigh——ablue,determinedfigurestandingbeforeacrimsonandsteelassault,gettingcalmlykilledonahighplacebeforetheeyesofall。Hethoughtofthemagnificentpathosofhisdeadbody。

  Thesethoughtsupliftedhim。Hefeltthequiverofwardesire。Inhisears,heheardtheringofvictory。Heknewthefrenzyofarapidsuccessfulcharge。Themusicofthetramplingfeet,thesharpvoices,theclankingarmsofthecolumnnearhimmadehimsoarontheredwingsofwar。Forafewmomentshewassublime。

  Hethoughtthathewasabouttostartforthefront。Indeed,hesawapictureofhimself,dust—

  stained,haggard,panting,flyingtothefrontatthepropermomenttoseizeandthrottlethedark,leeringwitchofcalamity。

  Thenthedifficultiesofthethingbegantodragathim。Hehesitated,balancingawkwardlyononefoot。

  Hehadnorifle;hecouldnotfightwithhishands,saidheresentfullytohisplan。Well,riflescouldbehadforthepicking。Theywereextraordinarilyprofuse。

  Also,hecontinued,itwouldbeamiracleifhefoundhisregiment。Well,hecouldfightwithanyregiment。

  Hestartedforwardslowly。Hesteppedasifheexpectedtotreaduponsomeexplosivething。

  Doubtsandhewerestruggling。

  Hewouldtrulybeawormifanyofhiscom—

  radesshouldseehimreturningthus,themarksofhisflightuponhim。Therewasareplythattheintentfightersdidnotcareforwhathappenedrearwardsavingthatnohostilebayonetsap—

  pearedthere。Inthebattle—blurhisfacewould,inawaybehidden,likethefaceofacowledman。

  Butthenhesaidthathistirelessfatewouldbringforth,whenthestrifelulledforamoment,amantoaskofhimanexplanation。Inimagina—

  tionhefeltthescrutinyofhiscompanionsashepainfullylaboredthroughsomelies。

  Eventually,hiscourageexpendeditselfupontheseobjections。Thedebatesdrainedhimofhisfire。

  Hewasnotcastdownbythisdefeatofhisplan,for,uponstudyingtheaffaircarefully,hecouldnotbutadmitthattheobjectionswereveryformidable。

  Furthermore,variousailmentshadbeguntocryout。Intheirpresencehecouldnotpersistinflyinghighwiththewingsofwar;theyrendereditalmostimpossibleforhimtoseehim—

  selfinaheroiclight。Hetumbledheadlong。

  Hediscoveredthathehadascorchingthirst。

  Hisfacewassodryandgrimythathethoughthecouldfeelhisskincrackle。Eachboneofhisbodyhadanacheinit,andseeminglythreatenedtobreakwitheachmovement。Hisfeetwereliketwosores。Also,hisbodywascallingforfood。Itwasmorepowerfulthanadirecthunger。

  Therewasadull,weightlikefeelinginhisstom—

  ach,and,whenhetriedtowalk,hisheadswayedandhetottered。Hecouldnotseewithdistinct—

  ness。Smallpatchesofgreenmistfloatedbeforehisvision。

  Whilehehadbeentossedbymanyemotions,hehadnotbeenawareofailments。Nowtheybesethimandmadeclamor。Ashewasatlastcompelledtopayattentiontothem,hiscapacityforself—hatewasmultiplied。Indespair,hedeclaredthathewasnotlikethoseothers。Henowconcededittobeimpossiblethatheshouldeverbecomeahero。Hewasacravenloon。

  Thosepicturesofglorywerepiteousthings。Hegroanedfromhisheartandwentstaggeringoff。

  Acertainmothlikequalitywithinhimkepthiminthevicinityofthebattle。Hehadagreatdesiretosee,andtogetnews。Hewishedtoknowwhowaswinning。

  Hetoldhimselfthat,despitehisunprecedentedsuffering,hehadneverlosthisgreedforavictory,yet,hesaid,inahalf—apologeticmannertohisconscience,hecouldnotbutknowthatadefeatforthearmythistimemightmeanmanyfavor—

  ablethingsforhim。Theblowsoftheenemywouldsplinterregimentsintofragments。Thus,manymenofcourage,heconsidered,wouldbeobligedtodesertthecolorsandscurrylikechickens。Hewouldappearasoneofthem。

  Theywouldbesullenbrothersindistress,andhecouldtheneasilybelievehehadnotrunanyfartherorfasterthanthey。Andifhehimselfcouldbelieveinhisvirtuousperfection,hecon—

  ceivedthattherewouldbesmalltroubleincon—

  vincingallothers。

  Hesaid,asifinexcuseforthishope,thatpreviouslythearmyhadencounteredgreatdefeatsandinafewmonthshadshakenoffallbloodandtraditionofthem,emergingasbrightandvaliantasanewone;thrustingoutofsightthememoryofdisaster,andappearingwiththevalorandconfidenceofunconqueredlegions。

  Theshrillingvoicesofthepeopleathomewouldpipedismallyforatime,butvariousgeneralswereusuallycompelledtolistentotheseditties。

  Heofcoursefeltnocompunctionsforproposingageneralasasacrifice。Hecouldnottellwhothechosenforthebarbsmightbe,sohecouldcenternodirectsympathyuponhim。Thepeoplewereafarandhedidnotconceivepublicopiniontobeaccurateatlongrange。Itwasquiteprobabletheywouldhitthewrongmanwho,afterhehadrecoveredfromhisamazementwouldperhapsspendtherestofhisdaysinwrit—

  ingrepliestothesongsofhisallegedfailure。Itwouldbeveryunfortunate,nodoubt,butinthiscaseageneralwasofnoconsequencetotheyouth。

  Inadefeattherewouldbearoundaboutvindicationofhimself。Hethoughtitwouldprove,inamanner,thathehadfledearlybecauseofhissuperiorpowersofperception。Aseriousprophetuponpredictingafloodshouldbethefirstmantoclimbatree。Thiswoulddemon—

  stratethathewasindeedaseer。

  Amoralvindicationwasregardedbytheyouthasaveryimportantthing。Withoutsalve,hecouldnot,hethought,wearthesorebadgeofhisdishonorthroughlife。Withhisheartcon—

  tinuallyassuringhimthathewasdespicable,hecouldnotexistwithoutmakingit,throughhisactions,apparenttoallmen。

  Ifthearmyhadgonegloriouslyonhewouldbelost。Ifthedinmeantthatnowhisarmy’sflagsweretiltedforwardhewasacondemnedwretch。Hewouldbecompelledtodoomhimselftoisolation。Ifthemenwereadvancing,theirindifferentfeetweretramplinguponhischancesforasuccessfullife。

  Asthesethoughtswentrapidlythroughhismind,heturneduponthemandtriedtothrustthemaway。Hedenouncedhimselfasavillain。

  Hesaidthathewasthemostunutterablyselfishmaninexistence。Hismindpicturedthesoldierswhowouldplacetheirdefiantbodiesbeforethespearoftheyellingbattlefiend,andashesawtheirdrippingcorpsesonanimaginedfield,hesaidthathewastheirmurderer。

  Againhethoughtthathewishedhewasdead。

  Hebelievedthatheenviedacorpse。Thinkingoftheslain,heachievedagreatcontemptforsomeofthem,asiftheywereguiltyforthusbecominglifeless。Theymighthavebeenkilledbyluckychances,hesaid,beforetheyhadhadopportunitiestofleeorbeforetheyhadbeenreallytested。Yettheywouldreceivelaurelsfromtradition。Hecriedoutbitterlythattheircrownswerestolenandtheirrobesofglori—

  ousmemorieswereshams。However,hestillsaidthatitwasagreatpityhewasnotasthey。

  Adefeatofthearmyhadsuggesteditselftohimasameansofescapefromtheconsequencesofhisfall。Heconsidered,now,however,thatitwasuselesstothinkofsuchapossibility。Hiseducationhadbeenthatsuccessforthatmightybluemachinewascertain;thatitwouldmakevictoriesasacontrivanceturnsoutbuttons。Hepresentlydiscardedallhisspeculationsintheotherdirection。Hereturnedtothecreedofsoldiers。

  Whenheperceivedagainthatitwasnotpossibleforthearmytobedefeated,hetriedtobethinkhimofafinetalewhichhecouldtakebacktohisregiment,andwithitturntheexpectedshaftsofderision。

  But,ashemortallyfearedtheseshafts,itbecameimpossibleforhimtoinventatalehefelthecouldtrust。Heexperimentedwithmanyschemes,butthrewthemasideonebyoneasflimsy。Hewasquicktoseevulnerableplacesinthemall。

  Furthermore,hewasmuchafraidthatsomearrowofscornmightlayhimmentallylowbeforehecouldraisehisprotectingtale。

  Heimaginedthewholeregimentsaying:

  \"Where’sHenryFleming?Herun,didn’t’e?

  Oh,my!\"Herecalledvariouspersonswhowouldbequitesuretoleavehimnopeaceaboutit。Theywoulddoubtlessquestionhimwithsneers,andlaughathisstammeringhesi—

  tation。Inthenextengagementtheywouldtrytokeepwatchofhimtodiscoverwhenhewouldrun。

  Whereverhewentincamp,hewoulden—

  counterinsolentandlingeringlycruelstares。Asheimaginedhimselfpassingnearacrowdofcomrades,hecouldhearsomeonesay,\"Therehegoes!\"

  Then,asiftheheadsweremovedbyonemuscle,allthefaceswereturnedtowardhimwithwide,derisivegrins。Heseemedtohearsomeonemakeahumorousremarkinalowtone。

  Atittheothersallcrowedandcackled。Hewasaslangphrase。

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  CHAPTERXII。

  THEcolumnthathadbuttedstoutlyattheobstaclesintheroadwaywasbarelyoutoftheyouth’ssightbeforehesawdarkwavesofmencomesweepingoutofthewoodsanddownthroughthefields。Heknewatoncethatthesteelfibershadbeenwashedfromtheirhearts。

  Theywereburstingfromtheircoatsandtheirequipmentsasfromentanglements。Theychargeddownuponhimliketerrifiedbuffaloes。

  Behindthembluesmokecurledandcloudedabovethetreetops,andthroughthethicketshecouldsometimesseeadistantpinkglare。Thevoicesofthecannonwereclamoringinintermi—

  nablechorus。

  Theyouthwashorrorstricken。Hestaredinagonyandamazement。Heforgotthathewasengagedincombatingtheuniverse。Hethrewasidehismentalpamphletsonthephiloso—

  phyoftheretreatedandrulesfortheguidanceofthedamned。

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  Thefightwaslost。Thedragonswerecom—

  ingwithinvinciblestrides。Thearmy,helplessinthemattedthicketsandblindedbytheover—

  hangingnight,wasgoingtobeswallowed。War,theredanimal,war,theblood—swollengod,wouldhavebloatedfill。

  Withinhimsomethingbadetocryout。Hehadtheimpulsetomakearallyingspeech,tosingabattlehymn,buthecouldonlygethistonguetocallintotheair:\"Why——why——what——what’sth’matter?\"

  Soonhewasinthemidstofthem。Theywereleapingandscamperingallabouthim。

  Theirblanchedfacesshoneinthedusk。Theyseemed,forthemostpart,tobeveryburlymen。

  Theyouthturnedfromonetoanotherofthemastheygallopedalong。Hisincoherentquestionswerelost。Theywereheedlessofhisappeals。

  Theydidnotseemtoseehim。

  Theysometimesgabbledinsanely。Onehugemanwasaskingofthesky:\"Say,wheredeplankroad?Wheredeplankroad!\"Itwasasifhehadlostachild。Heweptinhispainanddismay。

  Presently,menwererunninghitherandthitherinallways。Theartillerybooming,forward,rearward,andontheflanksmadejumbleofideasofdirection。Landmarkshadvanishedintothegatheredgloom。Theyouthbegantoimaginethathehadgotintothecenterofthetremendousquarrel,andhecouldperceivenowayoutofit。Fromthemouthsofthefleeingmencameathousandwildquestions,butnoonemadeanswers。

  Theyouth,afterrushingaboutandthrowinginterrogationsattheheedlessbandsofretreatinginfantry,finallyclutchedamanbythearm。Theyswungaroundfacetoface。

  \"Why——why——\"stammeredtheyouthstrug—

  glingwithhisbalkingtongue。

  Themanscreamed:\"Letgome!Letgome!\"Hisfacewaslividandhiseyeswereroll—

  inguncontrolled。Hewasheavingandpanting。

  Hestillgraspedhisrifle,perhapshavingfor—

  gottentoreleasehisholduponit。Hetuggedfrantically,andtheyouthbeingcompelledtoleanforwardwasdraggedseveralpaces。

  \"Letgome!Letgome!\"

  \"Why——why——\"stutteredtheyouth。

  \"Well,then!\"bawledthemaninaluridrage。Headroitlyandfiercelyswunghisrifle。

  Itcrushedupontheyouth’shead。Themanranon。

  Theyouth’sfingershadturnedtopasteupontheother’sarm。Theenergywassmittenfromhismuscles。Hesawtheflamingwingsoflight—

  ningflashbeforehisvision。Therewasadeaf—

  eningrumbleofthunderwithinhishead。

  Suddenlyhislegsseemedtodie。Hesankwrithingtotheground。Hetriedtoarise。Inhiseffortsagainstthenumbingpainhewaslikeamanwrestlingwithacreatureoftheair。

  Therewasasinisterstruggle。

  Sometimeshewouldachieveapositionhalferect,battlewiththeairforamoment,andthenfallagain,grabbingatthegrass。Hisfacewasofaclammypallor。Deepgroanswerewrenchedfromhim。

  Atlast,withatwistingmovement,hegotuponhishandsandknees,andfromthence,likeababetryingtowalk,tohisfeet。Pressinghishandstohistempleshewentlurchingoverthegrass。

  Hefoughtanintensebattlewithhisbody。

  Hisdulledsenseswishedhimtoswoonandheopposedthemstubbornly,hismindportrayingunknowndangersandmutilationsifheshouldfalluponthefield。Hewenttallsoldierfashion。

  Heimaginedsecludedspotswherehecouldfallandbeunmolested。Tosearchforonehestroveagainstthetideofhispain。

  Onceheputhishandtothetopofhisheadandtimidlytouchedthewound。Thescratchingpainofthecontactmadehimdrawalongbreaththroughhisclinchedteeth。Hisfingersweredabbledwithblood。Heregardedthemwithafixedstare。

  Aroundhimhecouldhearthegrumbleofjoltedcannonasthescurryinghorseswerelashedtowardthefront。Once,ayoungofficeronabesplashedchargernearlyranhimdown。Heturnedandwatchedthemassofguns,men,andhorsessweepinginawidecurvetowardagapinafence。Theofficerwasmakingexcitedmotionswithagauntletedhand。Thegunsfollowedtheteamswithanairofunwillingness,ofbeingdraggedbytheheels。

  Someofficersofthescatteredinfantrywerecursingandrailinglikefishwives。Theirscold—

  ingvoicescouldbeheardabovethedin。Intotheunspeakablejumbleintheroadwayrodeasquadronofcavalry。Thefadedyellowoftheirfacingsshonebravely。Therewasamightyaltercation。

  Theartillerywereassemblingasifforacon—

  ference。

  Thebluehazeofeveningwasuponthefield。

  Thelinesofforestwerelongpurpleshadows。

  Onecloudlayalongthewesternskypartlysmotheringthered。

  Astheyouthleftthescenebehindhim,heheardthegunssuddenlyroarout。Heimaginedthemshakinginblackrage。Theybelchedandhowledlikebrassdevilsguardingagate。Thesoftairwasfilledwiththetremendousremon—

  strance。Withitcametheshatteringpealofopposinginfantry。Turningtolookbehindhim,hecouldseesheetsoforangelightilluminetheshadowydistance。Thereweresubtleandsuddenlightningsinthefarair。Attimeshethoughthecouldseeheavingmassesofmen。

  Hehurriedoninthedusk。Thedayhadfadeduntilhecouldbarelydistinguishplaceforhisfeet。Thepurpledarknesswasfilledwithmenwholecturedandjabbered。Sometimeshecouldseethemgesticulatingagainsttheblueandsombersky。Thereseemedtobeagreatruckofmenandmunitionsspreadaboutintheforestandinthefields。

  Thelittlenarrowroadwaynowlaylifeless。

  Therewereoverturnedwagonslikesun—driedbowlders。Thebedoftheformertorrentwaschokedwiththebodiesofhorsesandsplinteredpartsofwarmachines。

  Ithadcometopassthathiswoundpainedhimbutlittle。Hewasafraidtomoverapidly,how—

  ever,foradreadofdisturbingit。Heheldhisheadverystillandtookmanyprecautionsagainststumbling。Hewasfilledwithanxiety,andhisfacewaspinchedanddrawninanticipationofthepainofanysuddenmistakeofhisfeetinthegloom。

  Histhoughts,ashewalked,fixedintentlyuponhishurt。Therewasacool,liquidfeelingaboutitandheimaginedbloodmovingslowlydownunderhishair。Hisheadseemedswollentoasizethatmadehimthinkhisnecktobeinadequate。

  Thenewsilenceofhiswoundmademuchworriment。Thelittleblisteringvoicesofpainthathadcalledoutfromhisscalpwere,hethought,definiteintheirexpressionofdanger。

  Bythemhebelievedthathecouldmeasurehisplight。Butwhentheyremainedominouslysilenthebecamefrightenedandimaginedter—

  riblefingersthatclutchedintohisbrain。

  Amidithebegantoreflectuponvariousincidentsandconditionsofthepast。Hebe—

  thoughthimofcertainmealshismotherhadcookedathome,inwhichthosedishesofwhichhewasparticularlyfondhadoccupiedprominentpositions。Hesawthespreadtable。Thepinewallsofthekitchenwereglowinginthewarmlightfromthestove。Too,herememberedhowheandhiscompanionsusedtogofromtheschool—

  housetothebankofashadedpool。Hesawhisclothesindisorderlyarrayuponthegrassofthebank。Hefelttheswashofthefragrantwateruponhisbody。Theleavesoftheoverhangingmaplerustledwithmelodyinthewindofyouth—

  fulsummer。

  Hewasovercomepresentlybyadraggingweariness。Hisheadhungforwardandhisshoulderswerestoopedasifhewerebearingagreatbundle。Hisfeetshuffledalongtheground。

  Heheldcontinuousargumentsastowhetherheshouldliedownandsleepatsomenearspot,orforcehimselfonuntilhereachedacertainhaven。Heoftentriedtodismissthequestion,buthisbodypersistedinrebellionandhissensesnaggedathimlikepamperedbabies。

  Atlastheheardacheeryvoicenearhisshoulder:\"Yehseemt’beinaprettybadway,boy?\"

  Theyouthdidnotlookup,butheassentedwiththicktongue。\"Uh!\"

  Theownerofthecheeryvoicetookhimfirmlybythearm。\"Well,\"hesaid,witharoundlaugh,\"I’mgoin’yourway。Th’hullgangisgoin’yourway。An’IguessIkingiveyehalift。\"Theybegantowalklikeadrunkenmanandhisfriend。

  Astheywentalong,themanquestionedtheyouthandassistedhimwiththereplieslikeonemanipulatingthemindofachild。Sometimesheinterjectedanecdotes。\"Whatreg’mentdoyehb’longteh?Eh?What’sthat?Th’304thN’

  York?Why,whatcorpsisthatin?Oh,itis?

  Why,Ithoughttheywasn’tengagedt’—day——

  they’re’wayoverinth’center。Oh,theywas,eh?Well,prettynearlyeverybodygottheirshare’afightin’t’—day。Bydad,Igivemyselfupferdeadanynumber’atimes。Therewasshootin’

  herean’shootin’there,an’hollerin’herean’

  hollerin’there,inth’damn’darkness,untilI

  couldn’ttellt’savem’soulwhichsideIwason。

  SometimesIthoughtIwassure’noughfromOhier,an’othertimesIcould’asworeIwasfromth’bitterendofFlorida。Itwasth’mostmixedupdernthingIeversee。An’theseherehullwoodsisareg’larmess。It’llbeamiracleifwefindourreg’mentst’—night。Prettysoon,though,we’llmeeta—plentyofguardsan’provost—

  guards,an’onethingan’another。Ho!theretheygowithanoff’cer,Iguess。Lookathishanda—draggin’。He’sgotallth’warhewants,Ibet。

  Hewon’tbetalkin’sobigabouthisreputationan’allwhentheygot’sawin’offhisleg。Poorfeller!Mybrother’sgotwhiskersjestlikethat。

  Howdidyehgit’wayoverhere,anyhow?Yourreg’mentisalongwayfromhere,ain’tit?Well,Iguesswecanfindit。Yehknowtherewasaboykilledinmycomp’nyt’—daythatIthoughtth’worldan’allof。Jackwasanicefeller。Byginger,ithurtlikethundert’seeol’Jackjestgitknockedflat。Wewasa—standin’purtypeaceableferaspell,’thoughtherewasmenrunnin’ev’rywayall’roundus,an’whilewewasa—standin’

  likethat,’longcomeabigfatfeller。Hebegant’peckatJack’selbow,an’heses:’Say,where’sth’roadt’th’river?’An’Jack,heneverpaidnoattention,an’th’fellerkeptona—peckin’athiselbowan’sayin’:’Say,where’sth’roadt’th’

  river?’Jackwasa—lookin’aheadallth’timetryin’t’seeth’Johnniescomin’throughth’

  woods,an’heneverpaidnoattentiont’thisbigfatfellerferalongtime,butatlastheturned’roundan’heses:’Ah,got’hellan’findth’

  roadt’th’river!’An’jestthenashotslappedhimbangonth’sideth’head。Hewasasergeant,too。Themwashislastwords。Thunder,Iwishwewassure’afindin’ourreg’mentst’—night。It’sgoin’t’belonghuntin’。ButIguesswekindoit。\"

  Inthesearchwhichfollowed,themanofthecheeryvoiceseemedtotheyouthtopossessawandofamagickind。Hethreadedthemazesofthetangledforestwithastrangefortune。Inencounterswithguardsandpatrolshedisplayedthekeennessofadetectiveandthevalorofagamin。Obstaclesfellbeforehimandbecameofassistance。Theyouth,withhischinstillonhisbreast,stoodwoodenlybywhilehiscompanionbeatwaysandmeansoutofsullenthings。

  Theforestseemedavasthiveofmenbuzzingaboutinfranticcircles,butthecheerymancon—

  ductedtheyouthwithoutmistakes,untilatlasthebegantochucklewithgleeandself—satisfaction。

  \"Ah,thereyehare!Seethatfire?\"

  Theyouthnoddedstupidly。

  \"Well,there’swhereyourreg’mentis。An’

  now,good—by,ol’boy,goodluckt’yeh。\"

  Awarmandstronghandclaspedtheyouth’slanguidfingersforaninstant,andthenheheardacheerfulandaudaciouswhistlingasthemanstrodeaway。Ashewhohadsobefriendedhimwasthuspassingoutofhislife,itsuddenlyoc—

  curredtotheyouththathehadnotonceseenhisface。

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  CHAPTERXIII。

  THEyouthwentslowlytowardthefirein—

  dicatedbyhisdepartedfriend。Ashereeled,hebethoughthimofthewelcomehiscomradeswouldgivehim。Hehadaconvictionthathewouldsoonfeelinhissoreheartthebarbedmissilesofridicule。Hehadnostrengthtoin—

  ventatale;hewouldbeasofttarget。

  Hemadevagueplanstogooffintothedeeperdarknessandhide,buttheywerealldestroyedbythevoicesofexhaustionandpainfromhisbody。Hisailments,clamoring,forcedhimtoseektheplaceoffoodandrest,atwhatevercost。

  Heswungunsteadilytowardthefire。Hecouldseetheformsofmenthrowingblackshadowsintheredlight,andashewentneareritbecameknowntohiminsomewaythatthegroundwasstrewnwithsleepingmen。

  Ofasuddenheconfrontedablackandmonstrousfigure。Ariflebarrelcaughtsomeglintingbeams。\"Halt!halt!\"Hewasdis—

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  mayedforamoment,buthepresentlythoughtthatherecognizedthenervousvoice。Ashestoodtotteringbeforetheriflebarrel,hecalledout:\"Why,hello,Wilson,you——youhere?\"

  Theriflewasloweredtoapositionofcautionandtheloudsoldiercameslowlyforward。Hepeeredintotheyouth’sface。\"Thatyou,Henry?\"

  \"Yes,it’s——it’sme。\"

  \"Well,well,ol’boy,\"saidtheother,\"byginger,I’mgladt’seeyeh!Igiveyehupferagoner。Ithoughtyehwasdeadsureenough。\"Therewashuskyemotioninhisvoice。

  Theyouthfoundthatnowhecouldbarelystanduponhisfeet。Therewasasuddensinkingofhisforces。Hethoughthemusthastentopro—

  ducehistaletoprotecthimfromthemissilesalreadyatthelipsofhisredoubtablecomrades。

  So,staggeringbeforetheloudsoldier,hebegan:

  \"Yes,yes。I’ve——I’vehadanawfultime。I’vebeenallover。Wayoveronth’right。Ter’blefightin’overthere。Ihadanawfultime。Igotseparatedfromth’reg’ment。Overonth’right,Igotshot。Inth’head。Ineverseesechfightin’。Awfultime。Idon’tseehowIcould’agotseparatedfromth’reg’ment。Igotshot,too。\"

  Hisfriendhadsteppedforwardquickly。

  \"What?Gotshot?Whydidn’tyehsaysofirst?Poorol’boy,wemust——hol’onaminnit;

  whatamIdoin’。I’llcallSimpson。\"

  Anotherfigureatthatmomentloomedinthegloom。Theycouldseethatitwasthecorporal。

  \"Whoyehtalkin’to,Wilson?\"hedemanded。

  Hisvoicewasanger—toned。\"Whoyehtalkin’

  to?Yehth’derndestsentinel——why——hello,Henry,youhere?Why,Ithoughtyouwasdeadfourhoursago!GreatJerusalem,theykeepturnin’upeverytenminutesorso!Wethoughtwe’dlostforty—twomenbystraightcount,butiftheykeepona—comin’thisway,we’llgitth’comp’nyallbackbymornin’yit。Wherewasyeh?\"

  \"Overonth’right。Igotseparated\"——begantheyouthwithconsiderableglibness。

  Buthisfriendhadinterruptedhastily。\"Yes,an’hegotshotinth’headan’he’sinafix,an’wemustseet’himrightaway。\"Herestedhisrifleinthehollowofhisleftarmandhisrightaroundtheyouth’sshoulder。

  \"Gee,itmusthurtlikethunder!\"hesaid。

  Theyouthleanedheavilyuponhisfriend。

  \"Yes,ithurts——hurtsagooddeal,\"hereplied。

  Therewasafalteringinhisvoice。

  \"Oh,\"saidthecorporal。Helinkedhisarmintheyouth’sanddrewhimforward。\"Comeon,Henry。I’lltakekeer’ayeh。\"

  Astheywentontogethertheloudprivatecalledoutafterthem:\"Put’imt’sleepinmyblanket,Simpson。An’——hol’onaminnit——here’smycanteen。It’sfull’acoffee。Lookathisheadbyth’firean’seehowitlooks。Maybeit’saprettybadun。WhenIgitrelievedinacouple’aminnits,I’llbeoveran’seet’him。\"

  Theyouth’ssensesweresodeadenedthathisfriend’svoicesoundedfromafarandhecouldscarcelyfeelthepressureofthecorporal’sarm。

  Hesubmittedpassivelytothelatter’sdirectingstrength。Hisheadwasintheoldmannerhang—

  ingforwarduponhisbreast。Hiskneeswobbled。

  Thecorporalledhimintotheglareofthefire。\"Now,Henry,\"hesaid,\"let’shavelookatyerol’head。\"

  Theyouthsatdownobedientlyandthecor—

  poral,layingasidehisrifle,begantofumbleinthebushyhairofhiscomrade。Hewasobligedtoturntheother’sheadsothatthefullflushofthefirelightwouldbeamuponit。Hepuckeredhismouthwithacriticalair。Hedrewbackhislipsandwhistledthroughhisteethwhenhisfingerscameincontactwiththesplashedbloodandtherarewound。

  \"Ah,hereweare!\"hesaid。Heawkwardlymadefurtherinvestigations。\"JestasIthought,\"

  headded,presently。\"Yeh’vebeengrazedbyaball。It’sraisedaqueerlumpjestasifsomefellerhadlammedyehonth’headwithaclub。

  Itstoppeda—bleedin’longtimeago。Th’mostaboutitisthatinth’mornin’yeh’llfeelthatanumbertenhatwouldn’tfityeh。An’yourhead’llbeallhetupan’feelasdryasburntpork。

  An’yehmaygitalot’aothersicknesses,too,bymornin’。Yehcan’tnevertell。Still,Idon’tmuchthinkso。It’sjestadamn’goodbeltonth’

  head,an’nothin’more。Now,youjestsitherean’don’tmove,whileIgoroutoutth’relief。

  ThenI’llsendWilsont’takekeer’ayeh。\"

  Thecorporalwentaway。Theyouthre—

  mainedonthegroundlikeaparcel。Hestaredwithavacantlookintothefire。

  Afteratimehearoused,forsomepart,andthethingsabouthimbegantotakeform。Hesawthatthegroundinthedeepshadowswasclutteredwithmen,sprawlingineverycon—

  ceivableposture。Glancingnarrowlyintothemoredistantdarkness,hecaughtoccasionalglimpsesofvisagesthatloomedpallidandghostly,litwithaphosphorescentglow。Thesefacesexpressedintheirlinesthedeepstuporofthetiredsoldiers。Theymadethemappearlikemendrunkwithwine。Thisbitofforestmighthaveappearedtoanetherealwandererasasceneoftheresultofsomefrightfuldebauch。

  Ontheothersideofthefiretheyouthobservedanofficerasleep,seatedboltupright,withhisbackagainstatree。Therewassome—

  thingperilousinhisposition。Badgeredbydreams,perhaps,heswayedwithlittlebouncesandstarts,likeanoldtoddy—strickengrandfatherinachimneycorner。Dustandstainswereuponhisface。Hislowerjawhungdownasiflackingstrengthtoassumeitsnormalposition。Hewasthepictureofanexhaustedsoldierafterafeastofwar。

  Hehadevidentlygonetosleepwithhisswordinhisarms。Thesetwohadslumberedinanembrace,buttheweaponhadbeenallowedintimetofallunheededtotheground。Thebrass—mountedhiltlayincontactwithsomepartsofthefire。

  Withinthegleamofroseandorangelightfromtheburningstickswereothersoldiers,snoringandheaving,orlyingdeathlikeinslumber。Afewpairsoflegswerestuckforth,rigidandstraight。Theshoesdisplayedthemudordustofmarchesandbitsofroundedtrousers,protrudingfromtheblankets,showedrentsandtearsfromhurriedpitchingsthroughthedensebrambles。

  Thefirecrackledmusically。Fromitswelledlightsmoke。Overheadthefoliagemovedsoftly。Theleaves,withtheirfacesturnedtowardtheblaze,werecoloredshiftinghuesofsilver,oftenedgedwithred。Farofftotheright,throughawindowintheforestcouldbeseenahandfulofstarslying,likeglitteringpebbles,ontheblacklevelofthenight。

  Occasionally,inthislow—archedhall,asoldierwouldarouseandturnhisbodytoanewposi—

  tion,theexperienceofhissleephavingtaughthimofunevenandobjectionableplacesuponthegroundunderhim。Or,perhaps,hewouldlifthimselftoasittingposture,blinkatthefireforanunintelligentmoment,throwaswiftglanceathisprostratecompanion,andthencuddledownagainwithagruntofsleepycontent。

  Theyouthsatinaforlornheapuntilhisfriendtheloudyoungsoldiercame,swingingtwocanteensbytheirlightstrings。\"Well,now,Henry,ol’boy,\"saidthelatter,\"we’llhaveyehfixedupinjestaboutaminnit。\"

  Hehadthebustlingwaysofanamateurnurse。Hefussedaroundthefireandstirredthestickstobrilliantexertions。Hemadehispatientdrinklargelyfromthecanteenthatcontainedthecoffee。Itwastotheyouthadeliciousdraught。

  Hetiltedhisheadafarbackandheldthecanteenlongtohislips。Thecoolmixturewentcaress—

  inglydownhisblisteredthroat。Havingfinished,hesighedwithcomfortabledelight。

  Theloudyoungsoldierwatchedhiscomradewithanairofsatisfaction。Helaterproducedanextensivehandkerchieffromhispocket。Hefoldeditintoamannerofbandageandsousedwaterfromtheothercanteenuponthemiddleofit。Thiscrudearrangementheboundovertheyouth’shead,tyingtheendsinaqueerknotatthebackoftheneck。

  \"There,\"hesaid,movingoffandsurveyinghisdeed,\"yehlookliketh’devil,butIbetyehfeelbetter。\"

  Theyouthcontemplatedhisfriendwithgrate—

  fuleyes。Uponhisachingandswellingheadthecoldclothwaslikeatenderwoman’shand。

  \"Yehdon’thollernersaynothin’,\"remarkedhisfriendapprovingly。\"IknowI’mablack—

  smithattakin’keer’asickfolks,an’yehneversqueaked。Yeragoodun,Henry。Most’amenwoulda’beeninth’hospitallongago。Ashotinth’headain’tfoolin’business。\"

  Theyouthmadenoreply,butbegantofumblewiththebuttonsofhisjacket。

  \"Well,come,now,\"continuedhisfriend,\"comeon。Imustputyeht’bedan’seethatyehgitagoodnight’srest。\"

  Theothergotcarefullyerect,andtheloudyoungsoldierledhimamongthesleepingformslyingingroupsandrows。Presentlyhestoopedandpickeduphisblankets。Hespreadtherubberoneuponthegroundandplacedthewoolenoneabouttheyouth’sshoulders。

  \"Therenow,\"hesaid,\"liedownan’gitsomesleep。\"

  Theyouth,withhismannerofdoglikeobe—

  dience,gotcarefullydownlikeacronestoop—

  ing。Hestretchedoutwithamurmurofreliefandcomfort。Thegroundfeltlikethesoftestcouch。

  Butofasuddenheejaculated:\"Hol’onaminnit!Whereyougoin’t’sleep?\"

  Hisfriendwavedhishandimpatiently。

  \"Rightdowntherebyyeh。\"

  \"Well,buthol’onaminnit,\"continuedtheyouth。\"Whatyehgoin’t’sleepin?I’vegotyour——\"

  Theloudyoungsoldiersnarled:\"Shetupan’goont’sleep。Don’tbemakin’adamn’fool’ayerself,\"hesaidseverely。

  Afterthereprooftheyouthsaidnomore。

  Anexquisitedrowsinesshadspreadthroughhim。

  Thewarmcomfortoftheblanketenvelopedhimandmadeagentlelanguor。Hisheadfellfor—

  wardonhiscrookedarmandhisweightedlidswentsoftlydownoverhiseyes。Hearingasplatterofmusketryfromthedistance,hewonderedindifferentlyifthosemensometimesslept。Hegavealongsigh,snuggleddownintohisblanket,andinamomentwaslikehiscom—

  rades。

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  CHAPTERXIV。

  WHENtheyouthawokeitseemedtohimthathehadbeenasleepforathousandyears,andhefeltsurethatheopenedhiseyesuponanunex—

  pectedworld。Graymistswereslowlyshiftingbeforethefirsteffortsofthesunrays。Anim—

  pendingsplendorcouldbeseenintheeasternsky。Anicydewhadchilledhisface,andim—

  mediatelyuponarousinghecurledfartherdownintohisblanket。Hestaredforawhileattheleavesoverhead,movinginaheraldicwindoftheday。

  Thedistancewassplinteringandblaringwiththenoiseoffighting。Therewasinthesoundanexpressionofadeadlypersistency,asifithadnotbegunandwasnottocease。

  Abouthimweretherowsandgroupsofmenthathehaddimlyseenthepreviousnight。Theyweregettingalastdraughtofsleepbeforetheawakening。Thegaunt,carewornfeaturesanddustyfiguresweremadeplainbythisquaint139

  lightatthedawning,butitdressedtheskinofthemenincorpselikehuesandmadethetangledlimbsappearpulselessanddead。Theyouthstartedupwithalittlecrywhenhiseyesfirstsweptoverthismotionlessmassofmen,thick—

  spreadupontheground,pallid,andinstrangepostures。Hisdisorderedmindinterpretedthehalloftheforestasacharnelplace。Hebelievedforaninstantthathewasinthehouseofthedead,andhedidnotdaretomovelestthesecorpsesstartup,squallingandsquawking。Inasecond,however,heachievedhispropermind。

  Hesworeacomplicatedoathathimself。Hesawthatthissomberpicturewasnotafactofthepresent,butamereprophecy。

  Heheardthenthenoiseofafirecracklingbrisklyinthecoldair,and,turninghishead,hesawhisfriendpotteringbusilyaboutasmallblaze。Afewotherfiguresmovedinthefog,andheheardthehardcrackingofaxeblows。

  Suddenlytherewasahollowrumbleofdrums。Adistantbuglesangfaintly。Similarsounds,varyinginstrength,camefromnearandfarovertheforest。Thebuglescalledtoeachotherlikebrazengamecocks。Thenearthunderoftheregimentaldrumsrolled。

  Thebodyofmeninthewoodsrustled。Therewasageneralupliftingofheads。Amurmuringofvoicesbrokeupontheair。Inittherewasmuchbassofgrumblingoaths。Strangegodswereaddressedincondemnationoftheearlyhoursnecessarytocorrectwar。Anofficer’speremptorytenorrangoutandquickenedthestiffenedmovementofthemen。Thetangledlimbsunraveled。Thecorpse—huedfaceswerehiddenbehindfiststhattwistedslowlyintheeyesockets。

  Theyouthsatupandgaveventtoanenormousyawn。\"Thunder!\"heremarkedpetulantly。

  Herubbedhiseyes,andthenputtinguphishandfeltcarefullyofthebandageoverhiswound。

  Hisfriend,perceivinghimtobeawake,camefromthefire。\"Well,Henry,ol’man,howdoyehfeelthismornin’?\"hedemanded。

  Theyouthyawnedagain。Thenhepuckeredhismouthtoalittlepucker。Hishead,intruth,feltpreciselylikeamelon,andtherewasanun—

  pleasantsensationathisstomach。

  \"Oh,Lord,Ifeelprettybad,\"hesaid。

  \"Thunder!\"exclaimedtheother。\"Ihopedye’dfeelallrightthismornin’。Let’sseeth’

  bandage——Iguessit’sslipped。\"Hebegantotinkeratthewoundinratheraclumsywayuntiltheyouthexploded。

  \"Gosh—dernit!\"hesaidinsharpirritation;

  \"you’rethehangdestmanIeversaw!Youwearmuffsonyourhands。Whyingoodthunderationcan’tyoubemoreeasy?I’dratheryou’dstandoffan’throwgunsatit。Now,goslow,an’don’tactasifyouwasnailingdowncarpet。\"

  Heglaredwithinsolentcommandathisfriend,butthelatteransweredsoothingly。

  \"Well,well,comenow,an’gitsomegrub,\"hesaid。\"Then,maybe,yeh’llfeelbetter。\"

  Atthefiresidetheloudyoungsoldierwatchedoverhiscomrade’swantswithtender—

  nessandcare。Hewasverybusymarshalingthelittleblackvagabondsoftincupsandpour—

  ingintothemthestreaming,ironcoloredmixturefromasmallandsootytinpail。Hehadsomefreshmeat,whichheroastedhurriedlyuponastick。Hesatdownthenandcontemplatedtheyouth’sappetitewithglee。

  Theyouthtooknoteofaremarkablechangeinhiscomradesincethosedaysofcamplifeupontheriverbank。Heseemednomoretobecon—

  tinuallyregardingtheproportionsofhispersonalprowess。Hewasnotfuriousatsmallwordsthatprickedhisconceits。Hewasnomorealoudyoungsoldier。Therewasabouthimnowafinereliance。Heshowedaquietbeliefinhispurposesandhisabilities。Andthisin—

  wardconfidenceevidentlyenabledhimtobeindifferenttolittlewordsofothermenaimedathim。

  Theyouthreflected。Hehadbeenusedtoregardinghiscomradeasablatantchildwithanaudacitygrownfromhisinexperience,thought—

  less,headstrong,jealous,andfilledwithatinselcourage。Aswaggeringbabeaccustomedtostrutinhisowndooryard。Theyouthwonderedwherehadbeenborntheseneweyes;whenhiscomradehadmadethegreatdiscoverythatthereweremanymenwhowouldrefusetobesubjectedbyhim。Apparently,theotherhadnowclimbedapeakofwisdomfromwhichhecouldperceivehimselfasaveryweething。Andtheyouthsawthateverafteritwouldbeeasiertoliveinhisfriend’sneighborhood。

  Hiscomradebalancedhisebonycoffee—cuponhisknee。\"Well,Henry,\"hesaid,\"whatd’yehthinkth’chancesare?D’yehthinkwe’llwal—

  lop’em?\"

  Theyouthconsideredforamoment。\"Day—

  b’fore—yesterday,\"hefinallyreplied,withboldness,\"youwould’a’betyou’dlickthehullkit—an’—

  boodleallbyyourself。\"

  Hisfriendlookedatrifleamazed。\"WouldI?\"heasked。Hepondered。\"Well,perhapsI

  would,\"hedecidedatlast。Hestaredhumblyatthefire。

  Theyouthwasquitedisconcertedatthissur—

  prisingreceptionofhisremarks。\"Oh,no,youwouldn’teither,\"hesaid,hastilytryingtore—

  trace。

  Buttheothermadeadeprecatinggesture。

  \"Oh,yehneedn’tmind,Henry,\"hesaid。\"Ibe—

  lieveIwasaprettybigfoolinthosedays。\"Hespokeasafteralapseofyears。

  Therewasalittlepause。

  \"Allth’officerssaywe’vegotth’rebsinaprettytightbox,\"saidthefriend,clearinghisthroatinacommonplaceway。\"Theyallseemt’thinkwe’vegot’emjestwherewewant’em。\"

  \"Idon’tknowaboutthat,\"theyouthreplied。

  \"WhatIseenoveronth’rightmakesmethinkitwasth’otherwayabout。FromwhereIwas,itlookedasifwewasgettin’agoodpoundin’

  yestirday。\"

  \"D’yehthinkso?\"inquiredthefriend。\"I

  thoughtwehandled’emprettyroughyestir—

  day。\"

  \"Notabit,\"saidtheyouth。\"Why,lord,man,youdidn’tseenothingofthefight。Why!\"

  Thenasuddenthoughtcametohim。\"Oh!

  JimConklin’sdead。\"

  Hisfriendstarted。\"What?Ishe?JimConklin?\"

  Theyouthspokeslowly。\"Yes。He’sdead。

  Shotinth’side。\"

  \"Yehdon’tsayso。JimConklin……poorcuss!\"

  Allaboutthemwereothersmallfiressur—

  roundedbymenwiththeirlittleblackutensils。

  Fromoneofthesenearcamesuddensharpvoicesinarow。Itappearedthattwolight—

  footedsoldiershadbeenteasingahuge,beardedman,causinghimtospillcoffeeuponhisblueknees。Themanhadgoneintoarageandhadsworncomprehensively。Stungbyhislanguage,histormentorshadimmediatelybristledathimwithagreatshowofresentingunjustoaths。

  Possiblytherewasgoingtobeafight。

  Thefriendaroseandwentovertothem,mak—

  ingpacificmotionswithhisarms。\"Oh,here,now,boys,what’sth’use?\"hesaid。\"We’llbeatth’rebsinless’nanhour。What’sth’

  goodfightin’’mongourselves?\"

  Oneofthelight—footedsoldiersturneduponhimred—facedandviolent。\"Yehneedn’tcomearoundherewithyerpreachin’。Is’poseyehdon’tapprove’afightin’sinceCharleyMorganlickedyeh;butIdon’tseewhatbusinessthishereis’ayoursoranybodyelse。\"

  \"Well,itain’t,\"saidthefriendmildly。\"StillIhatet’see——\"

  Therewasatangledargument。

  \"Well,he——,\"saidthetwo,indicatingtheiropponentwithaccusativeforefingers。

  Thehugesoldierwasquitepurplewithrage。

  Hepointedatthetwosoldierswithhisgreathand,extendedclawlike。\"Well,they——\"

  Butduringthisargumentativetimethede—

  siretodealblowsseemedtopass,althoughtheysaidmuchtoeachother。Finallythefriendre—

  turnedtohisoldseat。Inashortwhilethethreeantagonistscouldbeseentogetherinanamiablebunch。

  \"JimmieRogerssesI’llhavet’fighthimafterth’battlet’—day,\"announcedthefriendasheagainseatedhimself。\"Heseshedon’tallownointerferin’inhisbusiness。Ihatet’seeth’boysfightin’’mongthemselves。\"

  Theyouthlaughed。\"Yerchangedagoodbit。Yehain’tatalllikeyehwas。Irememberwhenyouan’thatIrishfeller——\"Hestoppedandlaughedagain。

  \"No,Ididn’tuset’bethatway,\"saidhisfriendthoughtfully。\"That’strue’nough。\"

  \"Well,Ididn’tmean——\"begantheyouth。

  Thefriendmadeanotherdeprecatorygesture。

  \"Oh,yehneedn’tmind,Henry。\"

  Therewasanotherlittlepause。

  \"Th’reg’mentlostoverhalfth’menyestir—

  day,\"remarkedthefriendeventually。\"Ithoughtacoursetheywasalldead,but,laws,theykep’

  a—comin’backlastnightuntilitseems,afterall,wedidn’tlosebutafew。They’dbeenscatteredallover,wanderin’aroundinth’woods,fightin’

  withotherreg’ments,an’everything。Jestlikeyoudone。\"

  \"So?\"saidtheyouth。

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  CHAPTERXV。

  THEregimentwasstandingatorderarmsatthesideofalane,waitingforthecommandtomarch,whensuddenlytheyouthrememberedthelittlepacketenwrappedinafadedyellowenvelopewhichtheloudyoungsoldierwithlugu—

  briouswordshadintrustedtohim。Itmadehimstart。Heutteredanexclamationandturnedtowardhiscomrade。

  \"Wilson!\"

  \"What?\"

  Hisfriend,athissideintheranks,wasthought—

  fullystaringdowntheroad。Fromsomecausehisexpressionwasatthatmomentverymeek。

  Theyouth,regardinghimwithsidelongglances,feltimpelledtochangehispurpose。\"Oh,noth—

  ing,\"hesaid。

  Hisfriendturnedhisheadinsomesurprise,\"Why,whatwasyehgoin’t’say?\"

  \"Oh,nothing,\"repeatedtheyouth。

  Heresolvednottodealthelittleblow。It148

  wassufficientthatthefactmadehimglad。Itwasnotnecessarytoknockhisfriendontheheadwiththemisguidedpacket。

  Hehadbeenpossessedofmuchfearofhisfriend,forhesawhoweasilyquestioningscouldmakeholesinhisfeelings。Lately,hehadas—

  suredhimselfthatthealteredcomradewouldnottantalizehimwithapersistentcuriosity,buthefeltcertainthatduringthefirstperiodofleisurehisfriendwouldaskhimtorelatehisadventuresofthepreviousday。

  Henowrejoicedinthepossessionofasmallweaponwithwhichhecouldprostratehiscom—

  radeatthefirstsignsofacross—examination。Hewasmaster。Itwouldnowbehewhocouldlaughandshoottheshaftsofderision。

  Thefriendhad,inaweakhour,spokenwithsobsofhisowndeath。Hehaddeliveredamel—

  ancholyorationprevioustohisfuneral,andhaddoubtlessinthepacketofletters,presentedvari—

  ouskeepsakestorelatives。Buthehadnotdied,andthushehaddeliveredhimselfintothehandsoftheyouth。

  Thelatterfeltimmenselysuperiortohisfriend,butheinclinedtocondescension。Headoptedtowardhimanairofpatronizinggoodhumor。

  Hisself—pridewasnowentirelyrestored。Intheshadeofitsflourishinggrowthhestoodwithbracedandself—confidentlegs,andsincenothingcouldnowbediscoveredhedidnotshrinkfromanencounterwiththeeyesofjudges,andallowednothoughtsofhisowntokeephimfromanattitudeofmanfulness。Hehadperformedhismistakesinthedark,sohewasstillaman。

  Indeed,whenherememberedhisfortunesofyesterday,andlookedatthemfromadistancehebegantoseesomethingfinethere。Hehadlicensetobepompousandveteranlike。

  Hispantingagoniesofthepastheputoutofhissight。

  Inthepresent,hedeclaredtohimselfthatitwasonlythedoomedandthedamnedwhoroaredwithsincerityatcircumstance。Fewbuttheyeverdidit。Amanwithafullstomachandtherespectofhisfellowshadnobusinesstoscoldaboutanythingthathemightthinktobewronginthewaysoftheuniverse,orevenwiththewaysofsociety。Lettheunfortunatesrail;theothersmayplaymarbles。

  Hedidnotgiveagreatdealofthoughttothesebattlesthatlaydirectlybeforehim。Itwasnotessentialthatheshouldplanhiswaysinregardtothem。Hehadbeentaughtthatmanyobligationsofalifewereeasilyavoided。Thelessonsofyesterdayhadbeenthatretributionwasalaggardandblind。Withthesefactsbeforehimhedidnotdeemitnecessarythatheshouldbecomefeverishoverthepossibilitiesoftheensuingtwenty—fourhours。Hecouldleavemuchtochance。Besides,afaithinhimselfhadsecretlyblossomed。Therewasalittleflowerofconfidencegrowingwithinhim。Hewasnowamanofexperience。Hehadbeenoutamongthedragons,hesaid,andheassuredhimselfthattheywerenotsohideousashehadimaginedthem。

  Also,theywereinaccurate;theydidnotstingwithprecision。Astoutheartoftendefied,anddefying,escaped。

  And,furthermore,howcouldtheykillhimwhowasthechosenofgodsanddoomedtogreatness?

  Herememberedhowsomeofthemenhadrunfromthebattle。Asherecalledtheirterror—

  struckfaceshefeltascornforthem。Theyhadsurelybeenmorefleetandmorewildthanwasabsolutelynecessary。Theywereweakmortals。

  Asforhimself,hehadfledwithdiscretionanddignity。

  Hewasarousedfromthisreveriebyhisfriend,who,havinghitchedaboutnervouslyandblinkedatthetreesforatime,suddenlycoughedinanintroductoryway,andspoke。

  \"Fleming!\"

  \"What?\"

  Thefriendputhishanduptohismouthandcoughedagain。Hefidgetedinhisjacket。

  \"Well,\"hegulped,atlast,\"Iguessyehmightaswellgivemebackthemletters。\"Dark,prick—

  lingbloodhadflushedintohischeeksandbrow。

  \"Allright,Wilson,\"saidtheyouth。Heloosenedtwobuttonsofhiscoat,thrustinhishand,andbroughtforththepacket。Asheex—

  tendedittohisfriendthelatter’sfacewasturnedfromhim。

  Hehadbeenslowintheactofproducingthepacketbecauseduringithehadbeentryingtoinventaremarkablecommentupontheaffair。

  Hecouldconjurenothingofsufficientpoint。Hewascompelledtoallowhisfriendtoescapeunmolestedwithhispacket。Andforthishetookuntohimselfconsiderablecredit。Itwasagenerousthing。

  Hisfriendathissideseemedsufferinggreatshame。Ashecontemplatedhim,theyouthfelthisheartgrowmorestrongandstout。Hehadneverbeencompelledtoblushinsuchmannerforhisacts;hewasanindividualofextraordi—

  naryvirtues。

  Hereflected,withcondescendingpity:\"Toobad!Toobad!Thepoordevil,itmakeshimfeeltough!\"

  Afterthisincident,andashereviewedthebattlepictureshehadseen,hefeltquitecom—

  petenttoreturnhomeandmaketheheartsofthepeopleglowwithstoriesofwar。Hecouldseehimselfinaroomofwarmtintstellingtalestolisteners。Hecouldexhibitlaurels。Theywereinsignificant;still,inadistrictwherelaurelswereinfrequent,theymightshine。

  Hesawhisgapingaudiencepicturinghimasthecentralfigureinblazingscenes。Andheimaginedtheconsternationandtheejaculationsofhismotherandtheyoungladyattheseminaryastheydrankhisrecitals。Theirvaguefeminineformulaforbelovedonesdoingbravedeedsonthefieldofbattlewithoutriskoflifewouldbedestroyed。

  chapter16

  CHAPTERXVI。

  ASPUTTERINGofmusketrywasalwaystobeheard。Later,thecannonhadenteredthedis—

  pute。Inthefog—filledairtheirvoicesmadeathuddingsound。Thereverberationswerecon—

  tinued。Thispartoftheworldledastrange,battlefulexistence。

  Theyouth’sregimentwasmarchedtorelieveacommandthathadlainlonginsomedamptrenches。Thementookpositionsbehindacurv—

  inglineofriflepitsthathadbeenturnedup,likealargefurrow,alongthelineofwoods。Beforethemwasalevelstretch,peopledwithshort,deformedstumps。Fromthewoodsbeyondcamethedullpoppingoftheskirmishersandpickets,firinginthefog。Fromtherightcamethenoiseofaterrificfracas。

  Themencuddledbehindthesmallembank—

  mentandsatineasyattitudesawaitingtheirturn。Manyhadtheirbackstothefiring。Theyouth’sfriendlaydown,buriedhisfaceinhis154

  arms,andalmostinstantly,itseemed,hewasinadeepsleep。

  Theyouthleanedhisbreastagainstthebrowndirtandpeeredoveratthewoodsandupanddowntheline。Curtainsoftreesinterferedwithhiswaysofvision。Hecouldseethelowlineoftrenchesbutforashortdistance。Afewidleflagswereperchedonthedirthills。Behindthemwererowsofdarkbodieswithafewheadsstickingcuriouslyoverthetop。

  Alwaysthenoiseofskirmisherscamefromthewoodsonthefrontandleft,andthedinontherighthadgrowntofrightfulproportions。

  Thegunswereroaringwithoutaninstant’spauseforbreath。Itseemedthatthecannonhadcomefromallpartsandwereengagedinastupendouswrangle。Itbecameimpossibletomakeasen—

  tenceheard。

  Theyouthwishedtolaunchajoke——aquota—

  tionfromnewspapers。Hedesiredtosay,\"AllquietontheRappahannock,\"butthegunsrefusedtopermitevenacommentupontheiruproar。

  Heneversuccessfullyconcludedthesentence。

  Butatlastthegunsstopped,andamongthemenintheriflepitsrumorsagainflew,likebirds,buttheywerenowforthemostpartblackcreatureswhoflappedtheirwingsdrearilyneartothegroundandrefusedtoriseonanywingsofhope。Themen’sfacesgrewdolefulfromtheinterpretingofomens。Talesofhesitationanduncertaintyonthepartofthosehighinplaceandresponsibilitycametotheirears。Storiesofdisasterwereborneintotheirmindswithmanyproofs。Thisdinofmusketryontheright,grow—

  inglikeareleasedgenieofsound,expressedandemphasizedthearmy’splight。

  Themenweredisheartenedandbegantomutter。Theymadegesturesexpressiveofthesentence:\"Ah,whatmorecanwedo?\"Anditcouldalwaysbeseenthattheywerebewilderedbytheallegednewsandcouldnotfullycompre—

  hendadefeat。

  Beforethegraymistshadbeentotallyob—

  literatedbythesunrays,theregimentwasmarch—

  inginaspreadcolumnthatwasretiringcarefullythroughthewoods。Thedisordered,hurryinglinesoftheenemycouldsometimesbeseendownthroughthegrovesandlittlefields。Theywereyelling,shrillandexultant。

  Atthissighttheyouthforgotmanypersonalmattersandbecamegreatlyenraged。Heex—

  plodedinloudsentences。\"B’jiminey,we’regeneraledbyalot’alunkheads。\"

  \"Morethanonefellerhassaidthatt’—day,\"

  observedaman。

  Hisfriend,recentlyaroused,wasstillverydrowsy。Helookedbehindhimuntilhismindtookinthemeaningofthemovement。Thenhesighed。\"Oh,well,Is’posewegotlicked,\"heremarkedsadly。

  Theyouthhadathoughtthatitwouldnotbehandsomeforhimtofreelycondemnothermen。

  Hemadeanattempttorestrainhimself,butthewordsuponhistongueweretoobitter。Hepresentlybeganalongandintricatedenunciationofthecommanderoftheforces。

  \"Mebbe,itwa’n’tallhisfault——notallto—

  gether。Hedidth’bestheknowed。It’sourluckt’gitlickedoften,\"saidhisfriendinawearytone。Hewastrudgingalongwithstoopedshouldersandshiftingeyeslikeamanwhohasbeencanedandkicked。

  \"Well,don’twefightlikethedevil?Don’twedoallthatmencan?\"demandedtheyouthloudly。

  Hewassecretlydumfoundedatthissentimentwhenitcamefromhislips。Foramomenthisfacelostitsvalorandhelookedguiltilyabouthim。Butnoonequestionedhisrighttodealinsuchwords,andpresentlyherecoveredhisairofcourage。Hewentontorepeatastatementhehadheardgoingfromgrouptogroupatthecampthatmorning。\"Thebrigadiersaidheneversawanewreg’mentfightthewaywefoughtyestirday,didn’the?Andwedidn’tdobetterthanmanyanotherreg’ment,didwe?

  Well,then,youcan’tsayit’sth’army’sfault,canyou?\"

  Inhisreply,thefriend’svoicewasstern。\"’A

  coursenot,\"hesaid。\"Nomandaresaywedon’tfightliketh’devil。Nomanwilleverdaresayit。Th’boysfightlikehell—roosters。Butstill——still,wedon’thavenoluck。\"

  \"Well,then,ifwefightlikethedevilan’

  don’teverwhip,itmustbethegeneral’sfault,\"

  saidtheyouthgrandlyanddecisively。\"AndI

  don’tseeanysenseinfightingandfightingandfighting,yetalwayslosingthroughsomedernedoldlunkheadofageneral。\"

  Asarcasticmanwhowastrampingattheyouth’sside,thenspokelazily。\"Mebbeyehthinkyehfitth’hullbattleyestirday,Fleming,\"

  heremarked。

  Thespeechpiercedtheyouth。Inwardlyhewasreducedtoanabjectpulpbythesechancewords。Hislegsquakedprivately。Hecastafrightenedglanceatthesarcasticman。

  \"Why,no,\"hehastenedtosayinaconcili—

  atingvoice,\"Idon’tthinkIfoughtthewholebattleyesterday。\"

  Buttheotherseemedinnocentofanydeepermeaning。Apparently,hehadnoinformation。

  Itwasmerelyhishabit。\"Oh!\"herepliedinthesametoneofcalmderision。

  Theyouth,nevertheless,feltathreat。Hismindshrankfromgoingneartothedanger,andthereafterhewassilent。Thesignificanceofthesarcasticman’swordstookfromhimallloudmoodsthatwouldmakehimappearprominent。

  Hebecamesuddenlyamodestperson。

  Therewaslow—tonedtalkamongthetroops。

  Theofficerswereimpatientandsnappy,theircountenancescloudedwiththetalesofmisfor—

  tune。Thetroops,siftingthroughtheforest,weresullen。Intheyouth’scompanyonceaman’slaughrangout。Adozensoldiersturnedtheirfacesquicklytowardhimandfrownedwithvaguedispleasure。

  Thenoiseoffiringdoggedtheirfootsteps。

  Sometimes,itseemedtobedrivenalittleway,butitalwaysreturnedagainwithincreasedinsolence。Themenmutteredandcursed,throwingblacklooksinitsdirection。

  Inaclearspacethetroopswereatlasthalted。

  Regimentsandbrigades,brokenanddetachedthroughtheirencounterswiththickets,grewtogetheragainandlineswerefacedtowardthepursuingbarkoftheenemy’sinfantry。

  Thisnoise,followingliketheyellingsofeager,metallichounds,increasedtoaloudandjoyousburst,andthen,asthesunwentserenelyupthesky,throwingilluminatingraysintothegloomythickets,itbrokeforthintoprolongedpealings。

  Thewoodsbegantocrackleasifafire。

  \"Whoop—a—dadee,\"saidaman,\"hereweare!

  Everybodyfightin’。Bloodan’destruction。\"

  \"Iwaswillin’t’betthey’dattackassoonasth’sungotfairlyup,\"savagelyassertedthelieutenantwhocommandedtheyouth’scompany。

  Hejerkedwithoutmercyathislittlemustache。

  Hestrodetoandfrowithdarkdignityintherearofhismen,whowerelyingdownbehindwhateverprotectiontheyhadcollected。

  Abatteryhadtrundledintopositionintherearandwasthoughtfullyshellingthedistance。

  Theregiment,unmolestedasyet,awaitedthemomentwhenthegrayshadowsofthewoodsbeforethemshouldbeslashedbythelinesofflame。Therewasmuchgrowlingandswearing。

  \"GoodGawd,\"theyouthgrumbled,\"we’realwaysbeingchasedaroundlikerats!Itmakesmesick。Nobodyseemstoknowwherewegoorwhywego。Wejustgetfiredaroundfrompillartopostandgetlickedhereandgetlickedthere,andnobodyknowswhatit’sdonefor。Itmakesamanfeellikeadamn’kitteninabag。

  Now,I’dliketoknowwhattheeternalthunderswewasmarchedintothesewoodsforanyhow,THEREDBADGEOFCOURAGE161

  unlessitwastogivetherebsaregularpotshotatus。Wecameinhereandgotourlegsalltangledupinthesecussedbriers,andthenwebegintofightandtherebshadaneasytimeofit。

  Don’ttellmeit’sjustluck!Iknowbetter。It’sthisdernedold——\"

  Thefriendseemedjaded,butheinterruptedhiscomradewithavoiceofcalmconfidence。

  \"It’llturnoutallrightinth’end,\"hesaid。

  \"Oh,thedevilitwill!Youalwaystalklikeadog—hangedparson。Don’ttellme!Iknow——\"

  Atthistimetherewasaninterpositionbythesavage—mindedlieutenant,whowasobligedtoventsomeofhisinwarddissatisfactionuponhismen。\"Youboysshutrightup!Therenoneed’ayourwastin’yourbreathinlong—windedargumentsaboutthisan’thatan’th’other。

  You’vebeenjawin’likealot’aoldhens。Allyou’vegott’doistofight,an’you’llgetplenty’athatt’doinabouttenminutes。Lesstalkin’an’

  morefightin’iswhat’sbestforyouboys。Ineversawsechgabblingjackasses。\"

  Hepaused,readytopounceuponanymanwhomighthavethetemeritytoreply。Nowordsbeingsaid,heresumedhisdignifiedpacing。

  \"There’stoomuchchinmusican’toolittlefightin’inthiswar,anyhow,\"hesaidtothem,turninghisheadforafinalremark。

  Thedayhadgrownmorewhite,untilthesunshedhisfullradianceuponthethrongedforest。

  Asortofagustofbattlecamesweepingtowardthatpartofthelinewherelaytheyouth’sregi—

  ment。Thefrontshiftedatrifletomeetitsquare—

  ly。Therewasawait。Inthispartofthefieldtherepassedslowlytheintensemomentsthatpre—

  cedethetempest。

  Asinglerifleflashedinathicketbeforetheregiment。Inaninstantitwasjoinedbymanyothers。Therewasamightysongofclashesandcrashesthatwentsweepingthroughthewoods。

  Thegunsintherear,arousedandenragedbyshellsthathadbeenthrownburlikeatthem,suddenlyinvolvedthemselvesinahideousalter—

  cationwithanotherbandofguns。Thebattleroarsettledtoarollingthunder,whichwasasingle,longexplosion。

  Intheregimenttherewasapeculiarkindofhesitationdenotedintheattitudesofthemen。

  Theywereworn,exhausted,havingsleptbutlit—

  tleandlaboredmuch。Theyrolledtheireyestowardtheadvancingbattleastheystoodawait—

  ingtheshock。Someshrankandflinched。Theystoodasmentiedtostakes。

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  CHAPTERXVII。

  THISadvanceoftheenemyhadseemedtotheyouthlikearuthlesshunting。Hebegantofumewithrageandexasperation。Hebeathisfootupontheground,andscowledwithhateattheswirlingsmokethatwasapproachinglikeaphan—

  tomflood。Therewasamaddeningqualityinthisseemingresolutionofthefoetogivehimnorest,togivehimnotimetositdownandthink。

  Yesterdayhehadfoughtandhadfledrapidly。

  Therehadbeenmanyadventures。Forto—dayhefeltthathehadearnedopportunitiesforcontem—

  plativerepose。Hecouldhaveenjoyedportrayingtouninitiatedlistenersvariousscenesatwhichhehadbeenawitnessorablydiscussingthepro—

  cessesofwarwithotherprovedmen。Tooitwasimportantthatheshouldhavetimeforphysicalrecuperation。Hewassoreandstifffromhisex—

  periences。Hehadreceivedhisfillofallexer—

  tions,andhewishedtorest。

  Butthoseothermenseemednevertogrowweary;theywerefightingwiththeiroldspeed。

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  Hehadawildhatefortherelentlessfoe。Yester—

  day,whenhehadimaginedtheuniversetobeagainsthim,hehadhatedit,littlegodsandbiggods;to—dayhehatedthearmyofthefoewiththesamegreathatred。Hewasnotgoingtobebadgeredofhislife,likeakittenchasedbyboys,hesaid。Itwasnotwelltodrivemenintofinalcorners;atthosemomentstheycouldalldevelopteethandclaws。

  Heleanedandspokeintohisfriend’sear。Hemenacedthewoodswithagesture。\"Iftheykeeponchasingus,byGawd,they’dbetterwatchout。Can’tstandTOOmuch。\"

  Thefriendtwistedhisheadandmadeacalmreply。\"Iftheykeepona—chasin’usthey’lldriveusallintehth’river。\"

  Theyouthcriedoutsavagelyatthisstate—

  ment。Hecrouchedbehindalittletree,withhiseyesburninghatefullyandhisteethsetinacur—

  likesnarl。Theawkwardbandagewasstillabouthishead,anduponit,overhiswound,therewasaspotofdryblood。Hishairwaswondrouslytousled,andsomestraggling,movinglockshungovertheclothofthebandagedowntowardhisforehead。Hisjacketandshirtwereopenatthethroat,andexposedhisyoungbronzedneck。

  Therecouldbeseenspasmodicgulpingsathisthroat。

  Hisfingerstwinednervouslyabouthisrifle。

  Hewishedthatitwasanengineofannihilatingpower。Hefeltthatheandhiscompanionswerebeingtauntedandderidedfromsincereconvic—

  tionsthattheywerepoorandpuny。Hisknowl—

  edgeofhisinabilitytotakevengeanceforitmadehisrageintoadarkandstormyspecter,thatpos—

  sessedhimandmadehimdreamofabominablecruelties。Thetormentorswerefliessuckingin—

  solentlyathisblood,andhethoughtthathewouldhavegivenhislifeforarevengeofseeingtheirfacesinpitifulplights。

  Thewindsofbattlehadsweptallabouttheregiment,untiltheonerifle,instantlyfollowedbyothers,flashedinitsfront。Amomentlatertheregimentroaredforthitssuddenandvaliantre—

  tort。Adensewallofsmokesettledslowlydown。

  Itwasfuriouslyslitandslashedbytheknifelikefirefromtherifles。

  Totheyouththefightersresembledanimalstossedforadeathstruggleintoadarkpit。Therewasasensationthatheandhisfellows,atbay,werepushingback,alwayspushingfierceon—

  slaughtsofcreatureswhowereslippery。Theirbeamsofcrimsonseemedtogetnopurchaseuponthebodiesoftheirfoes;thelatterseemedtoevadethemwithease,andcomethrough,between,around,andaboutwithunopposedskill。

  When,inadream,itoccurredtotheyouththathisriflewasanimpotentstick,helostsenseofeverythingbuthishate,hisdesiretosmashintopulptheglitteringsmileofvictorywhichhecouldfeeluponthefacesofhisenemies。

  Thebluesmoke—swallowedlinecurledandwrithedlikeasnakesteppedupon。Itswungitsendstoandfroinanagonyoffearandrage。

  Theyouthwasnotconsciousthathewaserectuponhisfeet。Hedidnotknowthedirectionoftheground。Indeed,onceheevenlostthehabitofbalanceandfellheavily。Hewasupagainimmediately。Onethoughtwentthroughthechaosofhisbrainatthetime。Hewonderedifhehadfallenbecausehehadbeenshot。Butthesuspicionflewawayatonce。Hedidnotthinkmoreofit。

  Hehadtakenupafirstpositionbehindthelit—

  tletree,withadirectdeterminationtoholditagainsttheworld。Hehadnotdeemeditpossi—

  blethathisarmycouldthatdaysucceed,andfromthishefelttheabilitytofightharder。Butthethronghadsurgedinallways,untilhelostdirectionsandlocations,savethatheknewwherelaytheenemy。

  Theflamesbithim,andthehotsmokebroiledhisskin。Hisriflebarrelgrewsohotthatordi—

  narilyhecouldnothaveborneituponhispalms;

  buthekeptonstuffingcartridgesintoit,andpoundingthemwithhisclanking,bendingram—

  rod。Ifheaimedatsomechangingformthroughthesmoke,hepulledhistriggerwithafiercegrunt,asifheweredealingablowofthefistwithallhisstrength。

  Whentheenemyseemedfallingbackbeforehimandhisfellows,hewentinstantlyforward,likeadogwho,seeinghisfoeslagging,turnsandinsistsuponbeingpursued。Andwhenhewascompelledtoretireagain,hediditslowly,sul—

  lenly,takingstepsofwrathfuldespair。

  Oncehe,inhisintenthate,wasalmostalone,andwasfiring,whenallthosenearhimhadceased。

  Hewassoengrossedinhisoccupationthathewasnotawareofalull。

  Hewasrecalledbyahoarselaughandasen—

  tencethatcametohisearsinavoiceofcontemptandamazement。\"Yehinfernalfool,don’tyehknowenought’quitwhenthereain’tanythingt’

  shootat?GoodGawd!\"

  Heturnedthenand,pausingwithhisriflethrownhalfintoposition,lookedatthebluelineofhiscomrades。Duringthismomentofleisuretheyseemedalltobeengagedinstaringwithastonishmentathim。Theyhadbecomespecta—

  tors。Turningtothefrontagainhesaw,undertheliftedsmoke,adesertedground。

  Helookedbewilderedforamoment。Thenthereappearedupontheglazedvacancyofhiseyesadiamondpointofintelligence。\"Oh,\"hesaid,comprehending。

  Hereturnedtohiscomradesandthrewhim—

  selfupontheground。Hesprawledlikeamanwhohadbeenthrashed。Hisfleshseemedstrange—

  lyonfire,andthesoundsofthebattlecontinuedinhisears。Hegropedblindlyforhiscanteen。

  Thelieutenantwascrowing。Heseemeddrunkwithfighting。Hecalledouttotheyouth:

  \"Byheavens,ifIhadtenthousandwildcatslikeyouIcouldtearth’stomachoutathiswarinless’naweek!\"Hepuffedouthischestwithlargedignityashesaidit。

  Someofthemenmutteredandlookedattheyouthinawe—struckways。Itwasplainthatashehadgoneonloadingandfiringandcursingwithouttheproperintermission,theyhadfoundtimetoregardhim。Andtheynowlookeduponhimasawardevil。

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