Hewonderedwhatthosemenhadeatenthattheycouldbeinsuchhastetoforcetheirwaytogrimchancesofdeath。Ashewatchedhisenvygrewuntilhethoughtthathewishedtochangeliveswithoneofthem。Hewouldhavelikedtohaveusedatremendousforce,hesaid,throwoffhimselfandbecomeabetter。Swiftpicturesofhimself,apart,yetinhimself,cametohim——abluedesperatefigureleadingluridchargeswithonekneeforwardandabrokenbladehigh——ablue,determinedfigurestandingbeforeacrimsonandsteelassault,gettingcalmlykilledonahighplacebeforetheeyesofall。Hethoughtofthemagnificentpathosofhisdeadbody。
Thesethoughtsupliftedhim。Hefeltthequiverofwardesire。Inhisears,heheardtheringofvictory。Heknewthefrenzyofarapidsuccessfulcharge。Themusicofthetramplingfeet,thesharpvoices,theclankingarmsofthecolumnnearhimmadehimsoarontheredwingsofwar。Forafewmomentshewassublime。
Hethoughtthathewasabouttostartforthefront。Indeed,hesawapictureofhimself,dust—
stained,haggard,panting,flyingtothefrontatthepropermomenttoseizeandthrottlethedark,leeringwitchofcalamity。
Thenthedifficultiesofthethingbegantodragathim。Hehesitated,balancingawkwardlyononefoot。
Hehadnorifle;hecouldnotfightwithhishands,saidheresentfullytohisplan。Well,riflescouldbehadforthepicking。Theywereextraordinarilyprofuse。
Also,hecontinued,itwouldbeamiracleifhefoundhisregiment。Well,hecouldfightwithanyregiment。
Hestartedforwardslowly。Hesteppedasifheexpectedtotreaduponsomeexplosivething。
Doubtsandhewerestruggling。
Hewouldtrulybeawormifanyofhiscom—
radesshouldseehimreturningthus,themarksofhisflightuponhim。Therewasareplythattheintentfightersdidnotcareforwhathappenedrearwardsavingthatnohostilebayonetsap—
pearedthere。Inthebattle—blurhisfacewould,inawaybehidden,likethefaceofacowledman。
Butthenhesaidthathistirelessfatewouldbringforth,whenthestrifelulledforamoment,amantoaskofhimanexplanation。Inimagina—
tionhefeltthescrutinyofhiscompanionsashepainfullylaboredthroughsomelies。
Eventually,hiscourageexpendeditselfupontheseobjections。Thedebatesdrainedhimofhisfire。
Hewasnotcastdownbythisdefeatofhisplan,for,uponstudyingtheaffaircarefully,hecouldnotbutadmitthattheobjectionswereveryformidable。
Furthermore,variousailmentshadbeguntocryout。Intheirpresencehecouldnotpersistinflyinghighwiththewingsofwar;theyrendereditalmostimpossibleforhimtoseehim—
selfinaheroiclight。Hetumbledheadlong。
Hediscoveredthathehadascorchingthirst。
Hisfacewassodryandgrimythathethoughthecouldfeelhisskincrackle。Eachboneofhisbodyhadanacheinit,andseeminglythreatenedtobreakwitheachmovement。Hisfeetwereliketwosores。Also,hisbodywascallingforfood。Itwasmorepowerfulthanadirecthunger。
Therewasadull,weightlikefeelinginhisstom—
ach,and,whenhetriedtowalk,hisheadswayedandhetottered。Hecouldnotseewithdistinct—
ness。Smallpatchesofgreenmistfloatedbeforehisvision。
Whilehehadbeentossedbymanyemotions,hehadnotbeenawareofailments。Nowtheybesethimandmadeclamor。Ashewasatlastcompelledtopayattentiontothem,hiscapacityforself—hatewasmultiplied。Indespair,hedeclaredthathewasnotlikethoseothers。Henowconcededittobeimpossiblethatheshouldeverbecomeahero。Hewasacravenloon。
Thosepicturesofglorywerepiteousthings。Hegroanedfromhisheartandwentstaggeringoff。
Acertainmothlikequalitywithinhimkepthiminthevicinityofthebattle。Hehadagreatdesiretosee,andtogetnews。Hewishedtoknowwhowaswinning。
Hetoldhimselfthat,despitehisunprecedentedsuffering,hehadneverlosthisgreedforavictory,yet,hesaid,inahalf—apologeticmannertohisconscience,hecouldnotbutknowthatadefeatforthearmythistimemightmeanmanyfavor—
ablethingsforhim。Theblowsoftheenemywouldsplinterregimentsintofragments。Thus,manymenofcourage,heconsidered,wouldbeobligedtodesertthecolorsandscurrylikechickens。Hewouldappearasoneofthem。
Theywouldbesullenbrothersindistress,andhecouldtheneasilybelievehehadnotrunanyfartherorfasterthanthey。Andifhehimselfcouldbelieveinhisvirtuousperfection,hecon—
ceivedthattherewouldbesmalltroubleincon—
vincingallothers。
Hesaid,asifinexcuseforthishope,thatpreviouslythearmyhadencounteredgreatdefeatsandinafewmonthshadshakenoffallbloodandtraditionofthem,emergingasbrightandvaliantasanewone;thrustingoutofsightthememoryofdisaster,andappearingwiththevalorandconfidenceofunconqueredlegions。
Theshrillingvoicesofthepeopleathomewouldpipedismallyforatime,butvariousgeneralswereusuallycompelledtolistentotheseditties。
Heofcoursefeltnocompunctionsforproposingageneralasasacrifice。Hecouldnottellwhothechosenforthebarbsmightbe,sohecouldcenternodirectsympathyuponhim。Thepeoplewereafarandhedidnotconceivepublicopiniontobeaccurateatlongrange。Itwasquiteprobabletheywouldhitthewrongmanwho,afterhehadrecoveredfromhisamazementwouldperhapsspendtherestofhisdaysinwrit—
ingrepliestothesongsofhisallegedfailure。Itwouldbeveryunfortunate,nodoubt,butinthiscaseageneralwasofnoconsequencetotheyouth。
Inadefeattherewouldbearoundaboutvindicationofhimself。Hethoughtitwouldprove,inamanner,thathehadfledearlybecauseofhissuperiorpowersofperception。Aseriousprophetuponpredictingafloodshouldbethefirstmantoclimbatree。Thiswoulddemon—
stratethathewasindeedaseer。
Amoralvindicationwasregardedbytheyouthasaveryimportantthing。Withoutsalve,hecouldnot,hethought,wearthesorebadgeofhisdishonorthroughlife。Withhisheartcon—
tinuallyassuringhimthathewasdespicable,hecouldnotexistwithoutmakingit,throughhisactions,apparenttoallmen。
Ifthearmyhadgonegloriouslyonhewouldbelost。Ifthedinmeantthatnowhisarmy’sflagsweretiltedforwardhewasacondemnedwretch。Hewouldbecompelledtodoomhimselftoisolation。Ifthemenwereadvancing,theirindifferentfeetweretramplinguponhischancesforasuccessfullife。
Asthesethoughtswentrapidlythroughhismind,heturneduponthemandtriedtothrustthemaway。Hedenouncedhimselfasavillain。
Hesaidthathewasthemostunutterablyselfishmaninexistence。Hismindpicturedthesoldierswhowouldplacetheirdefiantbodiesbeforethespearoftheyellingbattlefiend,andashesawtheirdrippingcorpsesonanimaginedfield,hesaidthathewastheirmurderer。
Againhethoughtthathewishedhewasdead。
Hebelievedthatheenviedacorpse。Thinkingoftheslain,heachievedagreatcontemptforsomeofthem,asiftheywereguiltyforthusbecominglifeless。Theymighthavebeenkilledbyluckychances,hesaid,beforetheyhadhadopportunitiestofleeorbeforetheyhadbeenreallytested。Yettheywouldreceivelaurelsfromtradition。Hecriedoutbitterlythattheircrownswerestolenandtheirrobesofglori—
ousmemorieswereshams。However,hestillsaidthatitwasagreatpityhewasnotasthey。
Adefeatofthearmyhadsuggesteditselftohimasameansofescapefromtheconsequencesofhisfall。Heconsidered,now,however,thatitwasuselesstothinkofsuchapossibility。Hiseducationhadbeenthatsuccessforthatmightybluemachinewascertain;thatitwouldmakevictoriesasacontrivanceturnsoutbuttons。Hepresentlydiscardedallhisspeculationsintheotherdirection。Hereturnedtothecreedofsoldiers。
Whenheperceivedagainthatitwasnotpossibleforthearmytobedefeated,hetriedtobethinkhimofafinetalewhichhecouldtakebacktohisregiment,andwithitturntheexpectedshaftsofderision。
But,ashemortallyfearedtheseshafts,itbecameimpossibleforhimtoinventatalehefelthecouldtrust。Heexperimentedwithmanyschemes,butthrewthemasideonebyoneasflimsy。Hewasquicktoseevulnerableplacesinthemall。
Furthermore,hewasmuchafraidthatsomearrowofscornmightlayhimmentallylowbeforehecouldraisehisprotectingtale。
Heimaginedthewholeregimentsaying:
\"Where’sHenryFleming?Herun,didn’t’e?
Oh,my!\"Herecalledvariouspersonswhowouldbequitesuretoleavehimnopeaceaboutit。Theywoulddoubtlessquestionhimwithsneers,andlaughathisstammeringhesi—
tation。Inthenextengagementtheywouldtrytokeepwatchofhimtodiscoverwhenhewouldrun。
Whereverhewentincamp,hewoulden—
counterinsolentandlingeringlycruelstares。Asheimaginedhimselfpassingnearacrowdofcomrades,hecouldhearsomeonesay,\"Therehegoes!\"
Then,asiftheheadsweremovedbyonemuscle,allthefaceswereturnedtowardhimwithwide,derisivegrins。Heseemedtohearsomeonemakeahumorousremarkinalowtone。
Atittheothersallcrowedandcackled。Hewasaslangphrase。
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CHAPTERXII。
THEcolumnthathadbuttedstoutlyattheobstaclesintheroadwaywasbarelyoutoftheyouth’ssightbeforehesawdarkwavesofmencomesweepingoutofthewoodsanddownthroughthefields。Heknewatoncethatthesteelfibershadbeenwashedfromtheirhearts。
Theywereburstingfromtheircoatsandtheirequipmentsasfromentanglements。Theychargeddownuponhimliketerrifiedbuffaloes。
Behindthembluesmokecurledandcloudedabovethetreetops,andthroughthethicketshecouldsometimesseeadistantpinkglare。Thevoicesofthecannonwereclamoringinintermi—
nablechorus。
Theyouthwashorrorstricken。Hestaredinagonyandamazement。Heforgotthathewasengagedincombatingtheuniverse。Hethrewasidehismentalpamphletsonthephiloso—
phyoftheretreatedandrulesfortheguidanceofthedamned。
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Thefightwaslost。Thedragonswerecom—
ingwithinvinciblestrides。Thearmy,helplessinthemattedthicketsandblindedbytheover—
hangingnight,wasgoingtobeswallowed。War,theredanimal,war,theblood—swollengod,wouldhavebloatedfill。
Withinhimsomethingbadetocryout。Hehadtheimpulsetomakearallyingspeech,tosingabattlehymn,buthecouldonlygethistonguetocallintotheair:\"Why——why——what——what’sth’matter?\"
Soonhewasinthemidstofthem。Theywereleapingandscamperingallabouthim。
Theirblanchedfacesshoneinthedusk。Theyseemed,forthemostpart,tobeveryburlymen。
Theyouthturnedfromonetoanotherofthemastheygallopedalong。Hisincoherentquestionswerelost。Theywereheedlessofhisappeals。
Theydidnotseemtoseehim。
Theysometimesgabbledinsanely。Onehugemanwasaskingofthesky:\"Say,wheredeplankroad?Wheredeplankroad!\"Itwasasifhehadlostachild。Heweptinhispainanddismay。
Presently,menwererunninghitherandthitherinallways。Theartillerybooming,forward,rearward,andontheflanksmadejumbleofideasofdirection。Landmarkshadvanishedintothegatheredgloom。Theyouthbegantoimaginethathehadgotintothecenterofthetremendousquarrel,andhecouldperceivenowayoutofit。Fromthemouthsofthefleeingmencameathousandwildquestions,butnoonemadeanswers。
Theyouth,afterrushingaboutandthrowinginterrogationsattheheedlessbandsofretreatinginfantry,finallyclutchedamanbythearm。Theyswungaroundfacetoface。
\"Why——why——\"stammeredtheyouthstrug—
glingwithhisbalkingtongue。
Themanscreamed:\"Letgome!Letgome!\"Hisfacewaslividandhiseyeswereroll—
inguncontrolled。Hewasheavingandpanting。
Hestillgraspedhisrifle,perhapshavingfor—
gottentoreleasehisholduponit。Hetuggedfrantically,andtheyouthbeingcompelledtoleanforwardwasdraggedseveralpaces。
\"Letgome!Letgome!\"
\"Why——why——\"stutteredtheyouth。
\"Well,then!\"bawledthemaninaluridrage。Headroitlyandfiercelyswunghisrifle。
Itcrushedupontheyouth’shead。Themanranon。
Theyouth’sfingershadturnedtopasteupontheother’sarm。Theenergywassmittenfromhismuscles。Hesawtheflamingwingsoflight—
ningflashbeforehisvision。Therewasadeaf—
eningrumbleofthunderwithinhishead。
Suddenlyhislegsseemedtodie。Hesankwrithingtotheground。Hetriedtoarise。Inhiseffortsagainstthenumbingpainhewaslikeamanwrestlingwithacreatureoftheair。
Therewasasinisterstruggle。
Sometimeshewouldachieveapositionhalferect,battlewiththeairforamoment,andthenfallagain,grabbingatthegrass。Hisfacewasofaclammypallor。Deepgroanswerewrenchedfromhim。
Atlast,withatwistingmovement,hegotuponhishandsandknees,andfromthence,likeababetryingtowalk,tohisfeet。Pressinghishandstohistempleshewentlurchingoverthegrass。
Hefoughtanintensebattlewithhisbody。
Hisdulledsenseswishedhimtoswoonandheopposedthemstubbornly,hismindportrayingunknowndangersandmutilationsifheshouldfalluponthefield。Hewenttallsoldierfashion。
Heimaginedsecludedspotswherehecouldfallandbeunmolested。Tosearchforonehestroveagainstthetideofhispain。
Onceheputhishandtothetopofhisheadandtimidlytouchedthewound。Thescratchingpainofthecontactmadehimdrawalongbreaththroughhisclinchedteeth。Hisfingersweredabbledwithblood。Heregardedthemwithafixedstare。
Aroundhimhecouldhearthegrumbleofjoltedcannonasthescurryinghorseswerelashedtowardthefront。Once,ayoungofficeronabesplashedchargernearlyranhimdown。Heturnedandwatchedthemassofguns,men,andhorsessweepinginawidecurvetowardagapinafence。Theofficerwasmakingexcitedmotionswithagauntletedhand。Thegunsfollowedtheteamswithanairofunwillingness,ofbeingdraggedbytheheels。
Someofficersofthescatteredinfantrywerecursingandrailinglikefishwives。Theirscold—
ingvoicescouldbeheardabovethedin。Intotheunspeakablejumbleintheroadwayrodeasquadronofcavalry。Thefadedyellowoftheirfacingsshonebravely。Therewasamightyaltercation。
Theartillerywereassemblingasifforacon—
ference。
Thebluehazeofeveningwasuponthefield。
Thelinesofforestwerelongpurpleshadows。
Onecloudlayalongthewesternskypartlysmotheringthered。
Astheyouthleftthescenebehindhim,heheardthegunssuddenlyroarout。Heimaginedthemshakinginblackrage。Theybelchedandhowledlikebrassdevilsguardingagate。Thesoftairwasfilledwiththetremendousremon—
strance。Withitcametheshatteringpealofopposinginfantry。Turningtolookbehindhim,hecouldseesheetsoforangelightilluminetheshadowydistance。Thereweresubtleandsuddenlightningsinthefarair。Attimeshethoughthecouldseeheavingmassesofmen。
Hehurriedoninthedusk。Thedayhadfadeduntilhecouldbarelydistinguishplaceforhisfeet。Thepurpledarknesswasfilledwithmenwholecturedandjabbered。Sometimeshecouldseethemgesticulatingagainsttheblueandsombersky。Thereseemedtobeagreatruckofmenandmunitionsspreadaboutintheforestandinthefields。
Thelittlenarrowroadwaynowlaylifeless。
Therewereoverturnedwagonslikesun—driedbowlders。Thebedoftheformertorrentwaschokedwiththebodiesofhorsesandsplinteredpartsofwarmachines。
Ithadcometopassthathiswoundpainedhimbutlittle。Hewasafraidtomoverapidly,how—
ever,foradreadofdisturbingit。Heheldhisheadverystillandtookmanyprecautionsagainststumbling。Hewasfilledwithanxiety,andhisfacewaspinchedanddrawninanticipationofthepainofanysuddenmistakeofhisfeetinthegloom。
Histhoughts,ashewalked,fixedintentlyuponhishurt。Therewasacool,liquidfeelingaboutitandheimaginedbloodmovingslowlydownunderhishair。Hisheadseemedswollentoasizethatmadehimthinkhisnecktobeinadequate。
Thenewsilenceofhiswoundmademuchworriment。Thelittleblisteringvoicesofpainthathadcalledoutfromhisscalpwere,hethought,definiteintheirexpressionofdanger。
Bythemhebelievedthathecouldmeasurehisplight。Butwhentheyremainedominouslysilenthebecamefrightenedandimaginedter—
riblefingersthatclutchedintohisbrain。
Amidithebegantoreflectuponvariousincidentsandconditionsofthepast。Hebe—
thoughthimofcertainmealshismotherhadcookedathome,inwhichthosedishesofwhichhewasparticularlyfondhadoccupiedprominentpositions。Hesawthespreadtable。Thepinewallsofthekitchenwereglowinginthewarmlightfromthestove。Too,herememberedhowheandhiscompanionsusedtogofromtheschool—
housetothebankofashadedpool。Hesawhisclothesindisorderlyarrayuponthegrassofthebank。Hefelttheswashofthefragrantwateruponhisbody。Theleavesoftheoverhangingmaplerustledwithmelodyinthewindofyouth—
fulsummer。
Hewasovercomepresentlybyadraggingweariness。Hisheadhungforwardandhisshoulderswerestoopedasifhewerebearingagreatbundle。Hisfeetshuffledalongtheground。
Heheldcontinuousargumentsastowhetherheshouldliedownandsleepatsomenearspot,orforcehimselfonuntilhereachedacertainhaven。Heoftentriedtodismissthequestion,buthisbodypersistedinrebellionandhissensesnaggedathimlikepamperedbabies。
Atlastheheardacheeryvoicenearhisshoulder:\"Yehseemt’beinaprettybadway,boy?\"
Theyouthdidnotlookup,butheassentedwiththicktongue。\"Uh!\"
Theownerofthecheeryvoicetookhimfirmlybythearm。\"Well,\"hesaid,witharoundlaugh,\"I’mgoin’yourway。Th’hullgangisgoin’yourway。An’IguessIkingiveyehalift。\"Theybegantowalklikeadrunkenmanandhisfriend。
Astheywentalong,themanquestionedtheyouthandassistedhimwiththereplieslikeonemanipulatingthemindofachild。Sometimesheinterjectedanecdotes。\"Whatreg’mentdoyehb’longteh?Eh?What’sthat?Th’304thN’
York?Why,whatcorpsisthatin?Oh,itis?
Why,Ithoughttheywasn’tengagedt’—day——
they’re’wayoverinth’center。Oh,theywas,eh?Well,prettynearlyeverybodygottheirshare’afightin’t’—day。Bydad,Igivemyselfupferdeadanynumber’atimes。Therewasshootin’
herean’shootin’there,an’hollerin’herean’
hollerin’there,inth’damn’darkness,untilI
couldn’ttellt’savem’soulwhichsideIwason。
SometimesIthoughtIwassure’noughfromOhier,an’othertimesIcould’asworeIwasfromth’bitterendofFlorida。Itwasth’mostmixedupdernthingIeversee。An’theseherehullwoodsisareg’larmess。It’llbeamiracleifwefindourreg’mentst’—night。Prettysoon,though,we’llmeeta—plentyofguardsan’provost—
guards,an’onethingan’another。Ho!theretheygowithanoff’cer,Iguess。Lookathishanda—draggin’。He’sgotallth’warhewants,Ibet。
Hewon’tbetalkin’sobigabouthisreputationan’allwhentheygot’sawin’offhisleg。Poorfeller!Mybrother’sgotwhiskersjestlikethat。
Howdidyehgit’wayoverhere,anyhow?Yourreg’mentisalongwayfromhere,ain’tit?Well,Iguesswecanfindit。Yehknowtherewasaboykilledinmycomp’nyt’—daythatIthoughtth’worldan’allof。Jackwasanicefeller。Byginger,ithurtlikethundert’seeol’Jackjestgitknockedflat。Wewasa—standin’purtypeaceableferaspell,’thoughtherewasmenrunnin’ev’rywayall’roundus,an’whilewewasa—standin’
likethat,’longcomeabigfatfeller。Hebegant’peckatJack’selbow,an’heses:’Say,where’sth’roadt’th’river?’An’Jack,heneverpaidnoattention,an’th’fellerkeptona—peckin’athiselbowan’sayin’:’Say,where’sth’roadt’th’
river?’Jackwasa—lookin’aheadallth’timetryin’t’seeth’Johnniescomin’throughth’
woods,an’heneverpaidnoattentiont’thisbigfatfellerferalongtime,butatlastheturned’roundan’heses:’Ah,got’hellan’findth’
roadt’th’river!’An’jestthenashotslappedhimbangonth’sideth’head。Hewasasergeant,too。Themwashislastwords。Thunder,Iwishwewassure’afindin’ourreg’mentst’—night。It’sgoin’t’belonghuntin’。ButIguesswekindoit。\"
Inthesearchwhichfollowed,themanofthecheeryvoiceseemedtotheyouthtopossessawandofamagickind。Hethreadedthemazesofthetangledforestwithastrangefortune。Inencounterswithguardsandpatrolshedisplayedthekeennessofadetectiveandthevalorofagamin。Obstaclesfellbeforehimandbecameofassistance。Theyouth,withhischinstillonhisbreast,stoodwoodenlybywhilehiscompanionbeatwaysandmeansoutofsullenthings。
Theforestseemedavasthiveofmenbuzzingaboutinfranticcircles,butthecheerymancon—
ductedtheyouthwithoutmistakes,untilatlasthebegantochucklewithgleeandself—satisfaction。
\"Ah,thereyehare!Seethatfire?\"
Theyouthnoddedstupidly。
\"Well,there’swhereyourreg’mentis。An’
now,good—by,ol’boy,goodluckt’yeh。\"
Awarmandstronghandclaspedtheyouth’slanguidfingersforaninstant,andthenheheardacheerfulandaudaciouswhistlingasthemanstrodeaway。Ashewhohadsobefriendedhimwasthuspassingoutofhislife,itsuddenlyoc—
curredtotheyouththathehadnotonceseenhisface。
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CHAPTERXIII。
THEyouthwentslowlytowardthefirein—
dicatedbyhisdepartedfriend。Ashereeled,hebethoughthimofthewelcomehiscomradeswouldgivehim。Hehadaconvictionthathewouldsoonfeelinhissoreheartthebarbedmissilesofridicule。Hehadnostrengthtoin—
ventatale;hewouldbeasofttarget。
Hemadevagueplanstogooffintothedeeperdarknessandhide,buttheywerealldestroyedbythevoicesofexhaustionandpainfromhisbody。Hisailments,clamoring,forcedhimtoseektheplaceoffoodandrest,atwhatevercost。
Heswungunsteadilytowardthefire。Hecouldseetheformsofmenthrowingblackshadowsintheredlight,andashewentneareritbecameknowntohiminsomewaythatthegroundwasstrewnwithsleepingmen。
Ofasuddenheconfrontedablackandmonstrousfigure。Ariflebarrelcaughtsomeglintingbeams。\"Halt!halt!\"Hewasdis—
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mayedforamoment,buthepresentlythoughtthatherecognizedthenervousvoice。Ashestoodtotteringbeforetheriflebarrel,hecalledout:\"Why,hello,Wilson,you——youhere?\"
Theriflewasloweredtoapositionofcautionandtheloudsoldiercameslowlyforward。Hepeeredintotheyouth’sface。\"Thatyou,Henry?\"
\"Yes,it’s——it’sme。\"
\"Well,well,ol’boy,\"saidtheother,\"byginger,I’mgladt’seeyeh!Igiveyehupferagoner。Ithoughtyehwasdeadsureenough。\"Therewashuskyemotioninhisvoice。
Theyouthfoundthatnowhecouldbarelystanduponhisfeet。Therewasasuddensinkingofhisforces。Hethoughthemusthastentopro—
ducehistaletoprotecthimfromthemissilesalreadyatthelipsofhisredoubtablecomrades。
So,staggeringbeforetheloudsoldier,hebegan:
\"Yes,yes。I’ve——I’vehadanawfultime。I’vebeenallover。Wayoveronth’right。Ter’blefightin’overthere。Ihadanawfultime。Igotseparatedfromth’reg’ment。Overonth’right,Igotshot。Inth’head。Ineverseesechfightin’。Awfultime。Idon’tseehowIcould’agotseparatedfromth’reg’ment。Igotshot,too。\"
Hisfriendhadsteppedforwardquickly。
\"What?Gotshot?Whydidn’tyehsaysofirst?Poorol’boy,wemust——hol’onaminnit;
whatamIdoin’。I’llcallSimpson。\"
Anotherfigureatthatmomentloomedinthegloom。Theycouldseethatitwasthecorporal。
\"Whoyehtalkin’to,Wilson?\"hedemanded。
Hisvoicewasanger—toned。\"Whoyehtalkin’
to?Yehth’derndestsentinel——why——hello,Henry,youhere?Why,Ithoughtyouwasdeadfourhoursago!GreatJerusalem,theykeepturnin’upeverytenminutesorso!Wethoughtwe’dlostforty—twomenbystraightcount,butiftheykeepona—comin’thisway,we’llgitth’comp’nyallbackbymornin’yit。Wherewasyeh?\"
\"Overonth’right。Igotseparated\"——begantheyouthwithconsiderableglibness。
Buthisfriendhadinterruptedhastily。\"Yes,an’hegotshotinth’headan’he’sinafix,an’wemustseet’himrightaway。\"Herestedhisrifleinthehollowofhisleftarmandhisrightaroundtheyouth’sshoulder。
\"Gee,itmusthurtlikethunder!\"hesaid。
Theyouthleanedheavilyuponhisfriend。
\"Yes,ithurts——hurtsagooddeal,\"hereplied。
Therewasafalteringinhisvoice。
\"Oh,\"saidthecorporal。Helinkedhisarmintheyouth’sanddrewhimforward。\"Comeon,Henry。I’lltakekeer’ayeh。\"
Astheywentontogethertheloudprivatecalledoutafterthem:\"Put’imt’sleepinmyblanket,Simpson。An’——hol’onaminnit——here’smycanteen。It’sfull’acoffee。Lookathisheadbyth’firean’seehowitlooks。Maybeit’saprettybadun。WhenIgitrelievedinacouple’aminnits,I’llbeoveran’seet’him。\"
Theyouth’ssensesweresodeadenedthathisfriend’svoicesoundedfromafarandhecouldscarcelyfeelthepressureofthecorporal’sarm。
Hesubmittedpassivelytothelatter’sdirectingstrength。Hisheadwasintheoldmannerhang—
ingforwarduponhisbreast。Hiskneeswobbled。
Thecorporalledhimintotheglareofthefire。\"Now,Henry,\"hesaid,\"let’shavelookatyerol’head。\"
Theyouthsatdownobedientlyandthecor—
poral,layingasidehisrifle,begantofumbleinthebushyhairofhiscomrade。Hewasobligedtoturntheother’sheadsothatthefullflushofthefirelightwouldbeamuponit。Hepuckeredhismouthwithacriticalair。Hedrewbackhislipsandwhistledthroughhisteethwhenhisfingerscameincontactwiththesplashedbloodandtherarewound。
\"Ah,hereweare!\"hesaid。Heawkwardlymadefurtherinvestigations。\"JestasIthought,\"
headded,presently。\"Yeh’vebeengrazedbyaball。It’sraisedaqueerlumpjestasifsomefellerhadlammedyehonth’headwithaclub。
Itstoppeda—bleedin’longtimeago。Th’mostaboutitisthatinth’mornin’yeh’llfeelthatanumbertenhatwouldn’tfityeh。An’yourhead’llbeallhetupan’feelasdryasburntpork。
An’yehmaygitalot’aothersicknesses,too,bymornin’。Yehcan’tnevertell。Still,Idon’tmuchthinkso。It’sjestadamn’goodbeltonth’
head,an’nothin’more。Now,youjestsitherean’don’tmove,whileIgoroutoutth’relief。
ThenI’llsendWilsont’takekeer’ayeh。\"
Thecorporalwentaway。Theyouthre—
mainedonthegroundlikeaparcel。Hestaredwithavacantlookintothefire。
Afteratimehearoused,forsomepart,andthethingsabouthimbegantotakeform。Hesawthatthegroundinthedeepshadowswasclutteredwithmen,sprawlingineverycon—
ceivableposture。Glancingnarrowlyintothemoredistantdarkness,hecaughtoccasionalglimpsesofvisagesthatloomedpallidandghostly,litwithaphosphorescentglow。Thesefacesexpressedintheirlinesthedeepstuporofthetiredsoldiers。Theymadethemappearlikemendrunkwithwine。Thisbitofforestmighthaveappearedtoanetherealwandererasasceneoftheresultofsomefrightfuldebauch。
Ontheothersideofthefiretheyouthobservedanofficerasleep,seatedboltupright,withhisbackagainstatree。Therewassome—
thingperilousinhisposition。Badgeredbydreams,perhaps,heswayedwithlittlebouncesandstarts,likeanoldtoddy—strickengrandfatherinachimneycorner。Dustandstainswereuponhisface。Hislowerjawhungdownasiflackingstrengthtoassumeitsnormalposition。Hewasthepictureofanexhaustedsoldierafterafeastofwar。
Hehadevidentlygonetosleepwithhisswordinhisarms。Thesetwohadslumberedinanembrace,buttheweaponhadbeenallowedintimetofallunheededtotheground。Thebrass—mountedhiltlayincontactwithsomepartsofthefire。
Withinthegleamofroseandorangelightfromtheburningstickswereothersoldiers,snoringandheaving,orlyingdeathlikeinslumber。Afewpairsoflegswerestuckforth,rigidandstraight。Theshoesdisplayedthemudordustofmarchesandbitsofroundedtrousers,protrudingfromtheblankets,showedrentsandtearsfromhurriedpitchingsthroughthedensebrambles。
Thefirecrackledmusically。Fromitswelledlightsmoke。Overheadthefoliagemovedsoftly。Theleaves,withtheirfacesturnedtowardtheblaze,werecoloredshiftinghuesofsilver,oftenedgedwithred。Farofftotheright,throughawindowintheforestcouldbeseenahandfulofstarslying,likeglitteringpebbles,ontheblacklevelofthenight。
Occasionally,inthislow—archedhall,asoldierwouldarouseandturnhisbodytoanewposi—
tion,theexperienceofhissleephavingtaughthimofunevenandobjectionableplacesuponthegroundunderhim。Or,perhaps,hewouldlifthimselftoasittingposture,blinkatthefireforanunintelligentmoment,throwaswiftglanceathisprostratecompanion,andthencuddledownagainwithagruntofsleepycontent。
Theyouthsatinaforlornheapuntilhisfriendtheloudyoungsoldiercame,swingingtwocanteensbytheirlightstrings。\"Well,now,Henry,ol’boy,\"saidthelatter,\"we’llhaveyehfixedupinjestaboutaminnit。\"
Hehadthebustlingwaysofanamateurnurse。Hefussedaroundthefireandstirredthestickstobrilliantexertions。Hemadehispatientdrinklargelyfromthecanteenthatcontainedthecoffee。Itwastotheyouthadeliciousdraught。
Hetiltedhisheadafarbackandheldthecanteenlongtohislips。Thecoolmixturewentcaress—
inglydownhisblisteredthroat。Havingfinished,hesighedwithcomfortabledelight。
Theloudyoungsoldierwatchedhiscomradewithanairofsatisfaction。Helaterproducedanextensivehandkerchieffromhispocket。Hefoldeditintoamannerofbandageandsousedwaterfromtheothercanteenuponthemiddleofit。Thiscrudearrangementheboundovertheyouth’shead,tyingtheendsinaqueerknotatthebackoftheneck。
\"There,\"hesaid,movingoffandsurveyinghisdeed,\"yehlookliketh’devil,butIbetyehfeelbetter。\"
Theyouthcontemplatedhisfriendwithgrate—
fuleyes。Uponhisachingandswellingheadthecoldclothwaslikeatenderwoman’shand。
\"Yehdon’thollernersaynothin’,\"remarkedhisfriendapprovingly。\"IknowI’mablack—
smithattakin’keer’asickfolks,an’yehneversqueaked。Yeragoodun,Henry。Most’amenwoulda’beeninth’hospitallongago。Ashotinth’headain’tfoolin’business。\"
Theyouthmadenoreply,butbegantofumblewiththebuttonsofhisjacket。
\"Well,come,now,\"continuedhisfriend,\"comeon。Imustputyeht’bedan’seethatyehgitagoodnight’srest。\"
Theothergotcarefullyerect,andtheloudyoungsoldierledhimamongthesleepingformslyingingroupsandrows。Presentlyhestoopedandpickeduphisblankets。Hespreadtherubberoneuponthegroundandplacedthewoolenoneabouttheyouth’sshoulders。
\"Therenow,\"hesaid,\"liedownan’gitsomesleep。\"
Theyouth,withhismannerofdoglikeobe—
dience,gotcarefullydownlikeacronestoop—
ing。Hestretchedoutwithamurmurofreliefandcomfort。Thegroundfeltlikethesoftestcouch。
Butofasuddenheejaculated:\"Hol’onaminnit!Whereyougoin’t’sleep?\"
Hisfriendwavedhishandimpatiently。
\"Rightdowntherebyyeh。\"
\"Well,buthol’onaminnit,\"continuedtheyouth。\"Whatyehgoin’t’sleepin?I’vegotyour——\"
Theloudyoungsoldiersnarled:\"Shetupan’goont’sleep。Don’tbemakin’adamn’fool’ayerself,\"hesaidseverely。
Afterthereprooftheyouthsaidnomore。
Anexquisitedrowsinesshadspreadthroughhim。
Thewarmcomfortoftheblanketenvelopedhimandmadeagentlelanguor。Hisheadfellfor—
wardonhiscrookedarmandhisweightedlidswentsoftlydownoverhiseyes。Hearingasplatterofmusketryfromthedistance,hewonderedindifferentlyifthosemensometimesslept。Hegavealongsigh,snuggleddownintohisblanket,andinamomentwaslikehiscom—
rades。
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CHAPTERXIV。
WHENtheyouthawokeitseemedtohimthathehadbeenasleepforathousandyears,andhefeltsurethatheopenedhiseyesuponanunex—
pectedworld。Graymistswereslowlyshiftingbeforethefirsteffortsofthesunrays。Anim—
pendingsplendorcouldbeseenintheeasternsky。Anicydewhadchilledhisface,andim—
mediatelyuponarousinghecurledfartherdownintohisblanket。Hestaredforawhileattheleavesoverhead,movinginaheraldicwindoftheday。
Thedistancewassplinteringandblaringwiththenoiseoffighting。Therewasinthesoundanexpressionofadeadlypersistency,asifithadnotbegunandwasnottocease。
Abouthimweretherowsandgroupsofmenthathehaddimlyseenthepreviousnight。Theyweregettingalastdraughtofsleepbeforetheawakening。Thegaunt,carewornfeaturesanddustyfiguresweremadeplainbythisquaint139
lightatthedawning,butitdressedtheskinofthemenincorpselikehuesandmadethetangledlimbsappearpulselessanddead。Theyouthstartedupwithalittlecrywhenhiseyesfirstsweptoverthismotionlessmassofmen,thick—
spreadupontheground,pallid,andinstrangepostures。Hisdisorderedmindinterpretedthehalloftheforestasacharnelplace。Hebelievedforaninstantthathewasinthehouseofthedead,andhedidnotdaretomovelestthesecorpsesstartup,squallingandsquawking。Inasecond,however,heachievedhispropermind。
Hesworeacomplicatedoathathimself。Hesawthatthissomberpicturewasnotafactofthepresent,butamereprophecy。
Heheardthenthenoiseofafirecracklingbrisklyinthecoldair,and,turninghishead,hesawhisfriendpotteringbusilyaboutasmallblaze。Afewotherfiguresmovedinthefog,andheheardthehardcrackingofaxeblows。
Suddenlytherewasahollowrumbleofdrums。Adistantbuglesangfaintly。Similarsounds,varyinginstrength,camefromnearandfarovertheforest。Thebuglescalledtoeachotherlikebrazengamecocks。Thenearthunderoftheregimentaldrumsrolled。
Thebodyofmeninthewoodsrustled。Therewasageneralupliftingofheads。Amurmuringofvoicesbrokeupontheair。Inittherewasmuchbassofgrumblingoaths。Strangegodswereaddressedincondemnationoftheearlyhoursnecessarytocorrectwar。Anofficer’speremptorytenorrangoutandquickenedthestiffenedmovementofthemen。Thetangledlimbsunraveled。Thecorpse—huedfaceswerehiddenbehindfiststhattwistedslowlyintheeyesockets。
Theyouthsatupandgaveventtoanenormousyawn。\"Thunder!\"heremarkedpetulantly。
Herubbedhiseyes,andthenputtinguphishandfeltcarefullyofthebandageoverhiswound。
Hisfriend,perceivinghimtobeawake,camefromthefire。\"Well,Henry,ol’man,howdoyehfeelthismornin’?\"hedemanded。
Theyouthyawnedagain。Thenhepuckeredhismouthtoalittlepucker。Hishead,intruth,feltpreciselylikeamelon,andtherewasanun—
pleasantsensationathisstomach。
\"Oh,Lord,Ifeelprettybad,\"hesaid。
\"Thunder!\"exclaimedtheother。\"Ihopedye’dfeelallrightthismornin’。Let’sseeth’
bandage——Iguessit’sslipped。\"Hebegantotinkeratthewoundinratheraclumsywayuntiltheyouthexploded。
\"Gosh—dernit!\"hesaidinsharpirritation;
\"you’rethehangdestmanIeversaw!Youwearmuffsonyourhands。Whyingoodthunderationcan’tyoubemoreeasy?I’dratheryou’dstandoffan’throwgunsatit。Now,goslow,an’don’tactasifyouwasnailingdowncarpet。\"
Heglaredwithinsolentcommandathisfriend,butthelatteransweredsoothingly。
\"Well,well,comenow,an’gitsomegrub,\"hesaid。\"Then,maybe,yeh’llfeelbetter。\"
Atthefiresidetheloudyoungsoldierwatchedoverhiscomrade’swantswithtender—
nessandcare。Hewasverybusymarshalingthelittleblackvagabondsoftincupsandpour—
ingintothemthestreaming,ironcoloredmixturefromasmallandsootytinpail。Hehadsomefreshmeat,whichheroastedhurriedlyuponastick。Hesatdownthenandcontemplatedtheyouth’sappetitewithglee。
Theyouthtooknoteofaremarkablechangeinhiscomradesincethosedaysofcamplifeupontheriverbank。Heseemednomoretobecon—
tinuallyregardingtheproportionsofhispersonalprowess。Hewasnotfuriousatsmallwordsthatprickedhisconceits。Hewasnomorealoudyoungsoldier。Therewasabouthimnowafinereliance。Heshowedaquietbeliefinhispurposesandhisabilities。Andthisin—
wardconfidenceevidentlyenabledhimtobeindifferenttolittlewordsofothermenaimedathim。
Theyouthreflected。Hehadbeenusedtoregardinghiscomradeasablatantchildwithanaudacitygrownfromhisinexperience,thought—
less,headstrong,jealous,andfilledwithatinselcourage。Aswaggeringbabeaccustomedtostrutinhisowndooryard。Theyouthwonderedwherehadbeenborntheseneweyes;whenhiscomradehadmadethegreatdiscoverythatthereweremanymenwhowouldrefusetobesubjectedbyhim。Apparently,theotherhadnowclimbedapeakofwisdomfromwhichhecouldperceivehimselfasaveryweething。Andtheyouthsawthateverafteritwouldbeeasiertoliveinhisfriend’sneighborhood。
Hiscomradebalancedhisebonycoffee—cuponhisknee。\"Well,Henry,\"hesaid,\"whatd’yehthinkth’chancesare?D’yehthinkwe’llwal—
lop’em?\"
Theyouthconsideredforamoment。\"Day—
b’fore—yesterday,\"hefinallyreplied,withboldness,\"youwould’a’betyou’dlickthehullkit—an’—
boodleallbyyourself。\"
Hisfriendlookedatrifleamazed。\"WouldI?\"heasked。Hepondered。\"Well,perhapsI
would,\"hedecidedatlast。Hestaredhumblyatthefire。
Theyouthwasquitedisconcertedatthissur—
prisingreceptionofhisremarks。\"Oh,no,youwouldn’teither,\"hesaid,hastilytryingtore—
trace。
Buttheothermadeadeprecatinggesture。
\"Oh,yehneedn’tmind,Henry,\"hesaid。\"Ibe—
lieveIwasaprettybigfoolinthosedays。\"Hespokeasafteralapseofyears。
Therewasalittlepause。
\"Allth’officerssaywe’vegotth’rebsinaprettytightbox,\"saidthefriend,clearinghisthroatinacommonplaceway。\"Theyallseemt’thinkwe’vegot’emjestwherewewant’em。\"
\"Idon’tknowaboutthat,\"theyouthreplied。
\"WhatIseenoveronth’rightmakesmethinkitwasth’otherwayabout。FromwhereIwas,itlookedasifwewasgettin’agoodpoundin’
yestirday。\"
\"D’yehthinkso?\"inquiredthefriend。\"I
thoughtwehandled’emprettyroughyestir—
day。\"
\"Notabit,\"saidtheyouth。\"Why,lord,man,youdidn’tseenothingofthefight。Why!\"
Thenasuddenthoughtcametohim。\"Oh!
JimConklin’sdead。\"
Hisfriendstarted。\"What?Ishe?JimConklin?\"
Theyouthspokeslowly。\"Yes。He’sdead。
Shotinth’side。\"
\"Yehdon’tsayso。JimConklin……poorcuss!\"
Allaboutthemwereothersmallfiressur—
roundedbymenwiththeirlittleblackutensils。
Fromoneofthesenearcamesuddensharpvoicesinarow。Itappearedthattwolight—
footedsoldiershadbeenteasingahuge,beardedman,causinghimtospillcoffeeuponhisblueknees。Themanhadgoneintoarageandhadsworncomprehensively。Stungbyhislanguage,histormentorshadimmediatelybristledathimwithagreatshowofresentingunjustoaths。
Possiblytherewasgoingtobeafight。
Thefriendaroseandwentovertothem,mak—
ingpacificmotionswithhisarms。\"Oh,here,now,boys,what’sth’use?\"hesaid。\"We’llbeatth’rebsinless’nanhour。What’sth’
goodfightin’’mongourselves?\"
Oneofthelight—footedsoldiersturneduponhimred—facedandviolent。\"Yehneedn’tcomearoundherewithyerpreachin’。Is’poseyehdon’tapprove’afightin’sinceCharleyMorganlickedyeh;butIdon’tseewhatbusinessthishereis’ayoursoranybodyelse。\"
\"Well,itain’t,\"saidthefriendmildly。\"StillIhatet’see——\"
Therewasatangledargument。
\"Well,he——,\"saidthetwo,indicatingtheiropponentwithaccusativeforefingers。
Thehugesoldierwasquitepurplewithrage。
Hepointedatthetwosoldierswithhisgreathand,extendedclawlike。\"Well,they——\"
Butduringthisargumentativetimethede—
siretodealblowsseemedtopass,althoughtheysaidmuchtoeachother。Finallythefriendre—
turnedtohisoldseat。Inashortwhilethethreeantagonistscouldbeseentogetherinanamiablebunch。
\"JimmieRogerssesI’llhavet’fighthimafterth’battlet’—day,\"announcedthefriendasheagainseatedhimself。\"Heseshedon’tallownointerferin’inhisbusiness。Ihatet’seeth’boysfightin’’mongthemselves。\"
Theyouthlaughed。\"Yerchangedagoodbit。Yehain’tatalllikeyehwas。Irememberwhenyouan’thatIrishfeller——\"Hestoppedandlaughedagain。
\"No,Ididn’tuset’bethatway,\"saidhisfriendthoughtfully。\"That’strue’nough。\"
\"Well,Ididn’tmean——\"begantheyouth。
Thefriendmadeanotherdeprecatorygesture。
\"Oh,yehneedn’tmind,Henry。\"
Therewasanotherlittlepause。
\"Th’reg’mentlostoverhalfth’menyestir—
day,\"remarkedthefriendeventually。\"Ithoughtacoursetheywasalldead,but,laws,theykep’
a—comin’backlastnightuntilitseems,afterall,wedidn’tlosebutafew。They’dbeenscatteredallover,wanderin’aroundinth’woods,fightin’
withotherreg’ments,an’everything。Jestlikeyoudone。\"
\"So?\"saidtheyouth。
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CHAPTERXV。
THEregimentwasstandingatorderarmsatthesideofalane,waitingforthecommandtomarch,whensuddenlytheyouthrememberedthelittlepacketenwrappedinafadedyellowenvelopewhichtheloudyoungsoldierwithlugu—
briouswordshadintrustedtohim。Itmadehimstart。Heutteredanexclamationandturnedtowardhiscomrade。
\"Wilson!\"
\"What?\"
Hisfriend,athissideintheranks,wasthought—
fullystaringdowntheroad。Fromsomecausehisexpressionwasatthatmomentverymeek。
Theyouth,regardinghimwithsidelongglances,feltimpelledtochangehispurpose。\"Oh,noth—
ing,\"hesaid。
Hisfriendturnedhisheadinsomesurprise,\"Why,whatwasyehgoin’t’say?\"
\"Oh,nothing,\"repeatedtheyouth。
Heresolvednottodealthelittleblow。It148
wassufficientthatthefactmadehimglad。Itwasnotnecessarytoknockhisfriendontheheadwiththemisguidedpacket。
Hehadbeenpossessedofmuchfearofhisfriend,forhesawhoweasilyquestioningscouldmakeholesinhisfeelings。Lately,hehadas—
suredhimselfthatthealteredcomradewouldnottantalizehimwithapersistentcuriosity,buthefeltcertainthatduringthefirstperiodofleisurehisfriendwouldaskhimtorelatehisadventuresofthepreviousday。
Henowrejoicedinthepossessionofasmallweaponwithwhichhecouldprostratehiscom—
radeatthefirstsignsofacross—examination。Hewasmaster。Itwouldnowbehewhocouldlaughandshoottheshaftsofderision。
Thefriendhad,inaweakhour,spokenwithsobsofhisowndeath。Hehaddeliveredamel—
ancholyorationprevioustohisfuneral,andhaddoubtlessinthepacketofletters,presentedvari—
ouskeepsakestorelatives。Buthehadnotdied,andthushehaddeliveredhimselfintothehandsoftheyouth。
Thelatterfeltimmenselysuperiortohisfriend,butheinclinedtocondescension。Headoptedtowardhimanairofpatronizinggoodhumor。
Hisself—pridewasnowentirelyrestored。Intheshadeofitsflourishinggrowthhestoodwithbracedandself—confidentlegs,andsincenothingcouldnowbediscoveredhedidnotshrinkfromanencounterwiththeeyesofjudges,andallowednothoughtsofhisowntokeephimfromanattitudeofmanfulness。Hehadperformedhismistakesinthedark,sohewasstillaman。
Indeed,whenherememberedhisfortunesofyesterday,andlookedatthemfromadistancehebegantoseesomethingfinethere。Hehadlicensetobepompousandveteranlike。
Hispantingagoniesofthepastheputoutofhissight。
Inthepresent,hedeclaredtohimselfthatitwasonlythedoomedandthedamnedwhoroaredwithsincerityatcircumstance。Fewbuttheyeverdidit。Amanwithafullstomachandtherespectofhisfellowshadnobusinesstoscoldaboutanythingthathemightthinktobewronginthewaysoftheuniverse,orevenwiththewaysofsociety。Lettheunfortunatesrail;theothersmayplaymarbles。
Hedidnotgiveagreatdealofthoughttothesebattlesthatlaydirectlybeforehim。Itwasnotessentialthatheshouldplanhiswaysinregardtothem。Hehadbeentaughtthatmanyobligationsofalifewereeasilyavoided。Thelessonsofyesterdayhadbeenthatretributionwasalaggardandblind。Withthesefactsbeforehimhedidnotdeemitnecessarythatheshouldbecomefeverishoverthepossibilitiesoftheensuingtwenty—fourhours。Hecouldleavemuchtochance。Besides,afaithinhimselfhadsecretlyblossomed。Therewasalittleflowerofconfidencegrowingwithinhim。Hewasnowamanofexperience。Hehadbeenoutamongthedragons,hesaid,andheassuredhimselfthattheywerenotsohideousashehadimaginedthem。
Also,theywereinaccurate;theydidnotstingwithprecision。Astoutheartoftendefied,anddefying,escaped。
And,furthermore,howcouldtheykillhimwhowasthechosenofgodsanddoomedtogreatness?
Herememberedhowsomeofthemenhadrunfromthebattle。Asherecalledtheirterror—
struckfaceshefeltascornforthem。Theyhadsurelybeenmorefleetandmorewildthanwasabsolutelynecessary。Theywereweakmortals。
Asforhimself,hehadfledwithdiscretionanddignity。
Hewasarousedfromthisreveriebyhisfriend,who,havinghitchedaboutnervouslyandblinkedatthetreesforatime,suddenlycoughedinanintroductoryway,andspoke。
\"Fleming!\"
\"What?\"
Thefriendputhishanduptohismouthandcoughedagain。Hefidgetedinhisjacket。
\"Well,\"hegulped,atlast,\"Iguessyehmightaswellgivemebackthemletters。\"Dark,prick—
lingbloodhadflushedintohischeeksandbrow。
\"Allright,Wilson,\"saidtheyouth。Heloosenedtwobuttonsofhiscoat,thrustinhishand,andbroughtforththepacket。Asheex—
tendedittohisfriendthelatter’sfacewasturnedfromhim。
Hehadbeenslowintheactofproducingthepacketbecauseduringithehadbeentryingtoinventaremarkablecommentupontheaffair。
Hecouldconjurenothingofsufficientpoint。Hewascompelledtoallowhisfriendtoescapeunmolestedwithhispacket。Andforthishetookuntohimselfconsiderablecredit。Itwasagenerousthing。
Hisfriendathissideseemedsufferinggreatshame。Ashecontemplatedhim,theyouthfelthisheartgrowmorestrongandstout。Hehadneverbeencompelledtoblushinsuchmannerforhisacts;hewasanindividualofextraordi—
naryvirtues。
Hereflected,withcondescendingpity:\"Toobad!Toobad!Thepoordevil,itmakeshimfeeltough!\"
Afterthisincident,andashereviewedthebattlepictureshehadseen,hefeltquitecom—
petenttoreturnhomeandmaketheheartsofthepeopleglowwithstoriesofwar。Hecouldseehimselfinaroomofwarmtintstellingtalestolisteners。Hecouldexhibitlaurels。Theywereinsignificant;still,inadistrictwherelaurelswereinfrequent,theymightshine。
Hesawhisgapingaudiencepicturinghimasthecentralfigureinblazingscenes。Andheimaginedtheconsternationandtheejaculationsofhismotherandtheyoungladyattheseminaryastheydrankhisrecitals。Theirvaguefeminineformulaforbelovedonesdoingbravedeedsonthefieldofbattlewithoutriskoflifewouldbedestroyed。
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CHAPTERXVI。
ASPUTTERINGofmusketrywasalwaystobeheard。Later,thecannonhadenteredthedis—
pute。Inthefog—filledairtheirvoicesmadeathuddingsound。Thereverberationswerecon—
tinued。Thispartoftheworldledastrange,battlefulexistence。
Theyouth’sregimentwasmarchedtorelieveacommandthathadlainlonginsomedamptrenches。Thementookpositionsbehindacurv—
inglineofriflepitsthathadbeenturnedup,likealargefurrow,alongthelineofwoods。Beforethemwasalevelstretch,peopledwithshort,deformedstumps。Fromthewoodsbeyondcamethedullpoppingoftheskirmishersandpickets,firinginthefog。Fromtherightcamethenoiseofaterrificfracas。
Themencuddledbehindthesmallembank—
mentandsatineasyattitudesawaitingtheirturn。Manyhadtheirbackstothefiring。Theyouth’sfriendlaydown,buriedhisfaceinhis154
arms,andalmostinstantly,itseemed,hewasinadeepsleep。
Theyouthleanedhisbreastagainstthebrowndirtandpeeredoveratthewoodsandupanddowntheline。Curtainsoftreesinterferedwithhiswaysofvision。Hecouldseethelowlineoftrenchesbutforashortdistance。Afewidleflagswereperchedonthedirthills。Behindthemwererowsofdarkbodieswithafewheadsstickingcuriouslyoverthetop。
Alwaysthenoiseofskirmisherscamefromthewoodsonthefrontandleft,andthedinontherighthadgrowntofrightfulproportions。
Thegunswereroaringwithoutaninstant’spauseforbreath。Itseemedthatthecannonhadcomefromallpartsandwereengagedinastupendouswrangle。Itbecameimpossibletomakeasen—
tenceheard。
Theyouthwishedtolaunchajoke——aquota—
tionfromnewspapers。Hedesiredtosay,\"AllquietontheRappahannock,\"butthegunsrefusedtopermitevenacommentupontheiruproar。
Heneversuccessfullyconcludedthesentence。
Butatlastthegunsstopped,andamongthemenintheriflepitsrumorsagainflew,likebirds,buttheywerenowforthemostpartblackcreatureswhoflappedtheirwingsdrearilyneartothegroundandrefusedtoriseonanywingsofhope。Themen’sfacesgrewdolefulfromtheinterpretingofomens。Talesofhesitationanduncertaintyonthepartofthosehighinplaceandresponsibilitycametotheirears。Storiesofdisasterwereborneintotheirmindswithmanyproofs。Thisdinofmusketryontheright,grow—
inglikeareleasedgenieofsound,expressedandemphasizedthearmy’splight。
Themenweredisheartenedandbegantomutter。Theymadegesturesexpressiveofthesentence:\"Ah,whatmorecanwedo?\"Anditcouldalwaysbeseenthattheywerebewilderedbytheallegednewsandcouldnotfullycompre—
hendadefeat。
Beforethegraymistshadbeentotallyob—
literatedbythesunrays,theregimentwasmarch—
inginaspreadcolumnthatwasretiringcarefullythroughthewoods。Thedisordered,hurryinglinesoftheenemycouldsometimesbeseendownthroughthegrovesandlittlefields。Theywereyelling,shrillandexultant。
Atthissighttheyouthforgotmanypersonalmattersandbecamegreatlyenraged。Heex—
plodedinloudsentences。\"B’jiminey,we’regeneraledbyalot’alunkheads。\"
\"Morethanonefellerhassaidthatt’—day,\"
observedaman。
Hisfriend,recentlyaroused,wasstillverydrowsy。Helookedbehindhimuntilhismindtookinthemeaningofthemovement。Thenhesighed。\"Oh,well,Is’posewegotlicked,\"heremarkedsadly。
Theyouthhadathoughtthatitwouldnotbehandsomeforhimtofreelycondemnothermen。
Hemadeanattempttorestrainhimself,butthewordsuponhistongueweretoobitter。Hepresentlybeganalongandintricatedenunciationofthecommanderoftheforces。
\"Mebbe,itwa’n’tallhisfault——notallto—
gether。Hedidth’bestheknowed。It’sourluckt’gitlickedoften,\"saidhisfriendinawearytone。Hewastrudgingalongwithstoopedshouldersandshiftingeyeslikeamanwhohasbeencanedandkicked。
\"Well,don’twefightlikethedevil?Don’twedoallthatmencan?\"demandedtheyouthloudly。
Hewassecretlydumfoundedatthissentimentwhenitcamefromhislips。Foramomenthisfacelostitsvalorandhelookedguiltilyabouthim。Butnoonequestionedhisrighttodealinsuchwords,andpresentlyherecoveredhisairofcourage。Hewentontorepeatastatementhehadheardgoingfromgrouptogroupatthecampthatmorning。\"Thebrigadiersaidheneversawanewreg’mentfightthewaywefoughtyestirday,didn’the?Andwedidn’tdobetterthanmanyanotherreg’ment,didwe?
Well,then,youcan’tsayit’sth’army’sfault,canyou?\"
Inhisreply,thefriend’svoicewasstern。\"’A
coursenot,\"hesaid。\"Nomandaresaywedon’tfightliketh’devil。Nomanwilleverdaresayit。Th’boysfightlikehell—roosters。Butstill——still,wedon’thavenoluck。\"
\"Well,then,ifwefightlikethedevilan’
don’teverwhip,itmustbethegeneral’sfault,\"
saidtheyouthgrandlyanddecisively。\"AndI
don’tseeanysenseinfightingandfightingandfighting,yetalwayslosingthroughsomedernedoldlunkheadofageneral。\"
Asarcasticmanwhowastrampingattheyouth’sside,thenspokelazily。\"Mebbeyehthinkyehfitth’hullbattleyestirday,Fleming,\"
heremarked。
Thespeechpiercedtheyouth。Inwardlyhewasreducedtoanabjectpulpbythesechancewords。Hislegsquakedprivately。Hecastafrightenedglanceatthesarcasticman。
\"Why,no,\"hehastenedtosayinaconcili—
atingvoice,\"Idon’tthinkIfoughtthewholebattleyesterday。\"
Buttheotherseemedinnocentofanydeepermeaning。Apparently,hehadnoinformation。
Itwasmerelyhishabit。\"Oh!\"herepliedinthesametoneofcalmderision。
Theyouth,nevertheless,feltathreat。Hismindshrankfromgoingneartothedanger,andthereafterhewassilent。Thesignificanceofthesarcasticman’swordstookfromhimallloudmoodsthatwouldmakehimappearprominent。
Hebecamesuddenlyamodestperson。
Therewaslow—tonedtalkamongthetroops。
Theofficerswereimpatientandsnappy,theircountenancescloudedwiththetalesofmisfor—
tune。Thetroops,siftingthroughtheforest,weresullen。Intheyouth’scompanyonceaman’slaughrangout。Adozensoldiersturnedtheirfacesquicklytowardhimandfrownedwithvaguedispleasure。
Thenoiseoffiringdoggedtheirfootsteps。
Sometimes,itseemedtobedrivenalittleway,butitalwaysreturnedagainwithincreasedinsolence。Themenmutteredandcursed,throwingblacklooksinitsdirection。
Inaclearspacethetroopswereatlasthalted。
Regimentsandbrigades,brokenanddetachedthroughtheirencounterswiththickets,grewtogetheragainandlineswerefacedtowardthepursuingbarkoftheenemy’sinfantry。
Thisnoise,followingliketheyellingsofeager,metallichounds,increasedtoaloudandjoyousburst,andthen,asthesunwentserenelyupthesky,throwingilluminatingraysintothegloomythickets,itbrokeforthintoprolongedpealings。
Thewoodsbegantocrackleasifafire。
\"Whoop—a—dadee,\"saidaman,\"hereweare!
Everybodyfightin’。Bloodan’destruction。\"
\"Iwaswillin’t’betthey’dattackassoonasth’sungotfairlyup,\"savagelyassertedthelieutenantwhocommandedtheyouth’scompany。
Hejerkedwithoutmercyathislittlemustache。
Hestrodetoandfrowithdarkdignityintherearofhismen,whowerelyingdownbehindwhateverprotectiontheyhadcollected。
Abatteryhadtrundledintopositionintherearandwasthoughtfullyshellingthedistance。
Theregiment,unmolestedasyet,awaitedthemomentwhenthegrayshadowsofthewoodsbeforethemshouldbeslashedbythelinesofflame。Therewasmuchgrowlingandswearing。
\"GoodGawd,\"theyouthgrumbled,\"we’realwaysbeingchasedaroundlikerats!Itmakesmesick。Nobodyseemstoknowwherewegoorwhywego。Wejustgetfiredaroundfrompillartopostandgetlickedhereandgetlickedthere,andnobodyknowswhatit’sdonefor。Itmakesamanfeellikeadamn’kitteninabag。
Now,I’dliketoknowwhattheeternalthunderswewasmarchedintothesewoodsforanyhow,THEREDBADGEOFCOURAGE161
unlessitwastogivetherebsaregularpotshotatus。Wecameinhereandgotourlegsalltangledupinthesecussedbriers,andthenwebegintofightandtherebshadaneasytimeofit。
Don’ttellmeit’sjustluck!Iknowbetter。It’sthisdernedold——\"
Thefriendseemedjaded,butheinterruptedhiscomradewithavoiceofcalmconfidence。
\"It’llturnoutallrightinth’end,\"hesaid。
\"Oh,thedevilitwill!Youalwaystalklikeadog—hangedparson。Don’ttellme!Iknow——\"
Atthistimetherewasaninterpositionbythesavage—mindedlieutenant,whowasobligedtoventsomeofhisinwarddissatisfactionuponhismen。\"Youboysshutrightup!Therenoneed’ayourwastin’yourbreathinlong—windedargumentsaboutthisan’thatan’th’other。
You’vebeenjawin’likealot’aoldhens。Allyou’vegott’doistofight,an’you’llgetplenty’athatt’doinabouttenminutes。Lesstalkin’an’
morefightin’iswhat’sbestforyouboys。Ineversawsechgabblingjackasses。\"
Hepaused,readytopounceuponanymanwhomighthavethetemeritytoreply。Nowordsbeingsaid,heresumedhisdignifiedpacing。
\"There’stoomuchchinmusican’toolittlefightin’inthiswar,anyhow,\"hesaidtothem,turninghisheadforafinalremark。
Thedayhadgrownmorewhite,untilthesunshedhisfullradianceuponthethrongedforest。
Asortofagustofbattlecamesweepingtowardthatpartofthelinewherelaytheyouth’sregi—
ment。Thefrontshiftedatrifletomeetitsquare—
ly。Therewasawait。Inthispartofthefieldtherepassedslowlytheintensemomentsthatpre—
cedethetempest。
Asinglerifleflashedinathicketbeforetheregiment。Inaninstantitwasjoinedbymanyothers。Therewasamightysongofclashesandcrashesthatwentsweepingthroughthewoods。
Thegunsintherear,arousedandenragedbyshellsthathadbeenthrownburlikeatthem,suddenlyinvolvedthemselvesinahideousalter—
cationwithanotherbandofguns。Thebattleroarsettledtoarollingthunder,whichwasasingle,longexplosion。
Intheregimenttherewasapeculiarkindofhesitationdenotedintheattitudesofthemen。
Theywereworn,exhausted,havingsleptbutlit—
tleandlaboredmuch。Theyrolledtheireyestowardtheadvancingbattleastheystoodawait—
ingtheshock。Someshrankandflinched。Theystoodasmentiedtostakes。
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CHAPTERXVII。
THISadvanceoftheenemyhadseemedtotheyouthlikearuthlesshunting。Hebegantofumewithrageandexasperation。Hebeathisfootupontheground,andscowledwithhateattheswirlingsmokethatwasapproachinglikeaphan—
tomflood。Therewasamaddeningqualityinthisseemingresolutionofthefoetogivehimnorest,togivehimnotimetositdownandthink。
Yesterdayhehadfoughtandhadfledrapidly。
Therehadbeenmanyadventures。Forto—dayhefeltthathehadearnedopportunitiesforcontem—
plativerepose。Hecouldhaveenjoyedportrayingtouninitiatedlistenersvariousscenesatwhichhehadbeenawitnessorablydiscussingthepro—
cessesofwarwithotherprovedmen。Tooitwasimportantthatheshouldhavetimeforphysicalrecuperation。Hewassoreandstifffromhisex—
periences。Hehadreceivedhisfillofallexer—
tions,andhewishedtorest。
Butthoseothermenseemednevertogrowweary;theywerefightingwiththeiroldspeed。
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Hehadawildhatefortherelentlessfoe。Yester—
day,whenhehadimaginedtheuniversetobeagainsthim,hehadhatedit,littlegodsandbiggods;to—dayhehatedthearmyofthefoewiththesamegreathatred。Hewasnotgoingtobebadgeredofhislife,likeakittenchasedbyboys,hesaid。Itwasnotwelltodrivemenintofinalcorners;atthosemomentstheycouldalldevelopteethandclaws。
Heleanedandspokeintohisfriend’sear。Hemenacedthewoodswithagesture。\"Iftheykeeponchasingus,byGawd,they’dbetterwatchout。Can’tstandTOOmuch。\"
Thefriendtwistedhisheadandmadeacalmreply。\"Iftheykeepona—chasin’usthey’lldriveusallintehth’river。\"
Theyouthcriedoutsavagelyatthisstate—
ment。Hecrouchedbehindalittletree,withhiseyesburninghatefullyandhisteethsetinacur—
likesnarl。Theawkwardbandagewasstillabouthishead,anduponit,overhiswound,therewasaspotofdryblood。Hishairwaswondrouslytousled,andsomestraggling,movinglockshungovertheclothofthebandagedowntowardhisforehead。Hisjacketandshirtwereopenatthethroat,andexposedhisyoungbronzedneck。
Therecouldbeseenspasmodicgulpingsathisthroat。
Hisfingerstwinednervouslyabouthisrifle。
Hewishedthatitwasanengineofannihilatingpower。Hefeltthatheandhiscompanionswerebeingtauntedandderidedfromsincereconvic—
tionsthattheywerepoorandpuny。Hisknowl—
edgeofhisinabilitytotakevengeanceforitmadehisrageintoadarkandstormyspecter,thatpos—
sessedhimandmadehimdreamofabominablecruelties。Thetormentorswerefliessuckingin—
solentlyathisblood,andhethoughtthathewouldhavegivenhislifeforarevengeofseeingtheirfacesinpitifulplights。
Thewindsofbattlehadsweptallabouttheregiment,untiltheonerifle,instantlyfollowedbyothers,flashedinitsfront。Amomentlatertheregimentroaredforthitssuddenandvaliantre—
tort。Adensewallofsmokesettledslowlydown。
Itwasfuriouslyslitandslashedbytheknifelikefirefromtherifles。
Totheyouththefightersresembledanimalstossedforadeathstruggleintoadarkpit。Therewasasensationthatheandhisfellows,atbay,werepushingback,alwayspushingfierceon—
slaughtsofcreatureswhowereslippery。Theirbeamsofcrimsonseemedtogetnopurchaseuponthebodiesoftheirfoes;thelatterseemedtoevadethemwithease,andcomethrough,between,around,andaboutwithunopposedskill。
When,inadream,itoccurredtotheyouththathisriflewasanimpotentstick,helostsenseofeverythingbuthishate,hisdesiretosmashintopulptheglitteringsmileofvictorywhichhecouldfeeluponthefacesofhisenemies。
Thebluesmoke—swallowedlinecurledandwrithedlikeasnakesteppedupon。Itswungitsendstoandfroinanagonyoffearandrage。
Theyouthwasnotconsciousthathewaserectuponhisfeet。Hedidnotknowthedirectionoftheground。Indeed,onceheevenlostthehabitofbalanceandfellheavily。Hewasupagainimmediately。Onethoughtwentthroughthechaosofhisbrainatthetime。Hewonderedifhehadfallenbecausehehadbeenshot。Butthesuspicionflewawayatonce。Hedidnotthinkmoreofit。
Hehadtakenupafirstpositionbehindthelit—
tletree,withadirectdeterminationtoholditagainsttheworld。Hehadnotdeemeditpossi—
blethathisarmycouldthatdaysucceed,andfromthishefelttheabilitytofightharder。Butthethronghadsurgedinallways,untilhelostdirectionsandlocations,savethatheknewwherelaytheenemy。
Theflamesbithim,andthehotsmokebroiledhisskin。Hisriflebarrelgrewsohotthatordi—
narilyhecouldnothaveborneituponhispalms;
buthekeptonstuffingcartridgesintoit,andpoundingthemwithhisclanking,bendingram—
rod。Ifheaimedatsomechangingformthroughthesmoke,hepulledhistriggerwithafiercegrunt,asifheweredealingablowofthefistwithallhisstrength。
Whentheenemyseemedfallingbackbeforehimandhisfellows,hewentinstantlyforward,likeadogwho,seeinghisfoeslagging,turnsandinsistsuponbeingpursued。Andwhenhewascompelledtoretireagain,hediditslowly,sul—
lenly,takingstepsofwrathfuldespair。
Oncehe,inhisintenthate,wasalmostalone,andwasfiring,whenallthosenearhimhadceased。
Hewassoengrossedinhisoccupationthathewasnotawareofalull。
Hewasrecalledbyahoarselaughandasen—
tencethatcametohisearsinavoiceofcontemptandamazement。\"Yehinfernalfool,don’tyehknowenought’quitwhenthereain’tanythingt’
shootat?GoodGawd!\"
Heturnedthenand,pausingwithhisriflethrownhalfintoposition,lookedatthebluelineofhiscomrades。Duringthismomentofleisuretheyseemedalltobeengagedinstaringwithastonishmentathim。Theyhadbecomespecta—
tors。Turningtothefrontagainhesaw,undertheliftedsmoke,adesertedground。
Helookedbewilderedforamoment。Thenthereappearedupontheglazedvacancyofhiseyesadiamondpointofintelligence。\"Oh,\"hesaid,comprehending。
Hereturnedtohiscomradesandthrewhim—
selfupontheground。Hesprawledlikeamanwhohadbeenthrashed。Hisfleshseemedstrange—
lyonfire,andthesoundsofthebattlecontinuedinhisears。Hegropedblindlyforhiscanteen。
Thelieutenantwascrowing。Heseemeddrunkwithfighting。Hecalledouttotheyouth:
\"Byheavens,ifIhadtenthousandwildcatslikeyouIcouldtearth’stomachoutathiswarinless’naweek!\"Hepuffedouthischestwithlargedignityashesaidit。
Someofthemenmutteredandlookedattheyouthinawe—struckways。Itwasplainthatashehadgoneonloadingandfiringandcursingwithouttheproperintermission,theyhadfoundtimetoregardhim。Andtheynowlookeduponhimasawardevil。