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  AnEpisodeoftheAmericanCivilWarCHAPTERI。

  THEcoldpassedreluctantlyfromtheearth,andtheretiringfogsrevealedanarmystretchedoutonthehills,resting。Asthelandscapechangedfrombrowntogreen,thearmyawak—

  ened,andbegantotremblewitheagernessatthenoiseofrumors。Itcastitseyesupontheroads,whichweregrowingfromlongtroughsofliquidmudtoproperthoroughfares。Ariver,amber—

  tintedintheshadowofitsbanks,purledatthearmy’sfeet;andatnight,whenthestreamhadbecomeofasorrowfulblackness,onecouldseeacrossitthered,eyelikegleamofhostilecamp—

  firessetinthelowbrowsofdistanthills。

  Onceacertaintallsoldierdevelopedvirtuesandwentresolutelytowashashirt。Hecameflyingbackfromabrookwavinghisgarmentbannerlike。Hewasswelledwithatalehehadheardfromareliablefriend,whohadhearditfromatruthfulcavalryman,whohadhearditfromhistrustworthybrother,oneoftheorder—

  liesatdivisionheadquarters。Headoptedtheimportantairofaheraldinredandgold。

  \"We’regoin’t’movet’morrah——sure,\"hesaidpompouslytoagroupinthecompanystreet。\"We’regoin’’wayuptheriver,cutacross,an’comearoundinbehint’em。\"

  Tohisattentiveaudiencehedrewaloudandelaborateplanofaverybrilliantcampaign。

  Whenhehadfinished,theblue—clothedmenscatteredintosmallarguinggroupsbetweentherowsofsquatbrownhuts。Anegroteamsterwhohadbeendancinguponacrackerboxwiththehilariousencouragementoftwoscoresoldierswasdeserted。Hesatmournfullydown。Smokedriftedlazilyfromamultitudeofquaintchim—

  neys。

  \"It’salie!that’sallitis——athunderin’lie!\"

  saidanotherprivateloudly。Hissmoothfacewasflushed,andhishandswerethrustsulkilyintohistrousers’pockets。Hetookthematterasanaffronttohim。\"Idon’tbelievethedernedoldarmy’severgoingtomove。We’reset。I’vegotreadytomoveeighttimesinthelasttwoweeks,andweain’tmovedyet。\"

  Thetallsoldierfeltcalledupontodefendthetruthofarumorhehimselfhadintro—

  duced。Heandtheloudonecameneartofight—

  ingoverit。

  Acorporalbegantoswearbeforetheassem—

  blage。Hehadjustputacostlyboardfloorinhishouse,hesaid。Duringtheearlyspringhehadrefrainedfromaddingextensivelytothecomfortofhisenvironmentbecausehehadfeltthatthearmymightstartonthemarchatanymoment。Oflate,however,hehadbeenim—

  pressedthattheywereinasortofeternalcamp。

  Manyofthemenengagedinaspiriteddebate。

  Oneoutlinedinapeculiarlylucidmanneralltheplansofthecommandinggeneral。Hewasop—

  posedbymenwhoadvocatedthattherewereotherplansofcampaign。Theyclamoredateachother,numbersmakingfutilebidsforthepop—

  ularattention。Meanwhile,thesoldierwhohadfetchedtherumorbustledaboutwithmuchimportance。Hewascontinuallyassailedbyquestions。

  \"What’sup,Jim?\"

  \"Th’army’sgoin’t’move。\"

  \"Ah,whatyehtalkin’about?Howyehknowitis?\"

  \"Well,yehkinb’lievemeernot,jestasyehlike。Idon’tcareahang。\"

  Therewasmuchfoodforthoughtintheman—

  nerinwhichhereplied。Hecameneartocon—

  vincingthembydisdainingtoproduceproofs。

  Theygrewexcitedoverit。

  Therewasayouthfulprivatewholistenedwitheagerearstothewordsofthetallsoldierandtothevariedcommentsofhiscomrades。

  Afterreceivingafillofdiscussionsconcerningmarchesandattacks,hewenttohishutandcrawledthroughanintricateholethatserveditasadoor。Hewishedtobealonewithsomenewthoughtsthathadlatelycometohim。

  Helaydownonawidebankthatstretchedacrosstheendoftheroom。Intheotherend,crackerboxesweremadetoserveasfurniture。

  Theyweregroupedaboutthefireplace。Apic—

  turefromanillustratedweeklywasuponthelogwalls,andthreerifleswereparalleledonpegs。

  Equipmentshuntonhandyprojections,andsometindisheslayuponasmallpileoffirewood。A

  foldedtentwasservingasaroof。Thesunlight,without,beatinguponit,madeitglowalightyellowshade。Asmallwindowshotanobliquesquareofwhiterlightupontheclutteredfloor。

  Thesmokefromthefireattimesneglectedtheclaychimneyandwreathedintotheroom,andthisflimsychimneyofclayandsticksmadeend—

  lessthreatstosetablazethewholeestablishment。

  Theyouthwasinalittletranceofastonish—

  ment。Sotheywereatlastgoingtofight。Onthemorrow,perhaps,therewouldbeabattle,andhewouldbeinit。Foratimehewasobligedtolabortomakehimselfbelieve。Hecouldnotacceptwithassuranceanomenthathewasabouttomingleinoneofthosegreataffairsoftheearth。

  Hehad,ofcourse,dreamedofbattlesallhislife——ofvagueandbloodyconflictsthathadthrilledhimwiththeirsweepandfire。Invisionshehadseenhimselfinmanystruggles。Hehadimaginedpeoplessecureintheshadowofhiseagle—eyedprowess。Butawakehehadregardedbattlesascrimsonblotchesonthepagesofthepast。Hehadputthemasthingsofthebygonewithhisthought—imagesofheavycrownsandhighcastles。Therewasaportionoftheworld’shistorywhichhehadregardedasthetimeofwars,butit,hethought,hadbeenlonggoneoverthehorizonandhaddisappearedforever。

  Fromhishomehisyouthfuleyeshadlookeduponthewarinhisowncountrywithdistrust。

  Itmustbesomesortofaplayaffair。HehadlongdespairedofwitnessingaGreeklikestruggle。

  Suchwouldbenomore,hehadsaid。Menwerebetter,ormoretimid。Secularandreligiouseducationhadeffacedthethroat—grapplingin—

  stinct,orelsefirmfinanceheldincheckthepas—

  sions。

  Hehadburnedseveraltimestoenlist。Talesofgreatmovementsshooktheland。TheymightnotbedistinctlyHomeric,butthereseemedtobemuchgloryinthem。Hehadreadofmarches,sieges,conflicts,andhehadlongedtoseeitall。

  Hisbusymindhaddrawnforhimlargepicturesextravagantincolor,luridwithbreathlessdeeds。

  Buthismotherhaddiscouragedhim。Shehadaffectedtolookwithsomecontemptuponthequalityofhiswarardorandpatriotism。Shecouldcalmlyseatherselfandwithnoapparentdifficultygivehimmanyhundredsofreasonswhyhewasofvastlymoreimportanceonthefarmthanonthefieldofbattle。Shehadhadcertainwaysofexpressionthattoldhimthatherstatementsonthesubjectcamefromadeepcon—

  viction。Moreover,onherside,washisbeliefthatherethicalmotiveintheargumentwasimpregnable。

  Atlast,however,hehadmadefirmrebellionagainstthisyellowlightthrownuponthecolorofhisambitions。Thenewspapers,thegossipofthevillage,hisownpicturingshadarousedhimtoanuncheckabledegree。Theywereintruthfightingfinelydownthere。Almosteverydaythenewspapersprintedaccountsofadecisivevictory。

  Onenight,ashelayinbed,thewindshadcarriedtohimtheclangoringofthechurchbellassomeenthusiastjerkedtheropefranticallytotellthetwistednewsofagreatbattle。Thisvoiceofthepeoplerejoicinginthenighthadmadehimshiverinaprolongedecstasyofex—

  citement。Later,hehadgonedowntohismother’sroomandhadspokenthus:\"Ma,I’mgoingtoenlist。\"

  \"Henry,don’tyoubeafool,\"hismotherhadreplied。Shehadthencoveredherfacewiththequilt。Therewasanendtothematterforthatnight。

  Nevertheless,thenextmorninghehadgonetoatownthatwasnearhismother’sfarmandhadenlistedinacompanythatwasformingthere。

  Whenhehadreturnedhomehismotherwasmilkingthebrindlecow。Fourothersstoodwaiting。\"Ma,I’veenlisted,\"hehadsaidtoherdiffidently。Therewasashortsilence。\"TheLord’swillbedone,Henry,\"shehadfinallyreplied,andhadthencontinuedtomilkthebrindlecow。

  Whenhehadstoodinthedoorwaywithhissoldier’sclothesonhisback,andwiththelightofexcitementandexpectancyinhiseyesalmostdefeatingtheglowofregretforthehomebonds,hehadseentwotearsleavingtheirtrailsonhismother’sscarredcheeks。

  Still,shehaddisappointedhimbysayingnothingwhateveraboutreturningwithhisshieldoronit。Hehadprivatelyprimedhimselfforabeautifulscene。Hehadpreparedcertainsen—

  tenceswhichhethoughtcouldbeusedwithtouchingeffect。Butherwordsdestroyedhisplans。Shehaddoggedlypeeledpotatoesandaddressedhimasfollows:\"Youwatchout,Henry,an’takegoodcareofyerselfinthisherefightingbusiness——youwatchout,an’takegoodcareofyerself。Don’tgoa—thinkin’youcanlickthehullrebelarmyatthestart,becauseyehcan’t。Yerjestonelittlefelleramongstahulllotofothers,andyeh’vegottokeepquietan’dowhattheytellyeh。Iknowhowyouare,Henry。

  \"I’veknetyeheightpairofsocks,Henry,andI’veputinallyerbestshirts,becauseIwantmyboytobejestaswarmandcomf’ableasanybodyinthearmy。Whenevertheygetholesin’em,I

  wantyehtosend’emright—awaybacktome,so’sIkindern’em。

  \"An’allusbecarefulan’chooseyercomp’ny。

  There’slotsofbadmeninthearmy,Henry。

  Thearmymakes’emwild,andtheylikenothingbetterthanthejobofleadingoffayoungfellerlikeyou,asain’tneverbeenawayfromhomemuchandhasallushadamother,an’a—learning’emtodrinkandswear。Keepclearofthemfolks,Henry。Idon’twantyehtoeverdoany—

  thing,Henry,thatyehwouldbe’shamedtoletmeknowabout。JestthinkasifIwasa—watchin’

  yeh。Ifyehkeepthatinyermindallus,Iguessyeh’llcomeoutaboutright。

  \"Yehmustallusrememberyerfather,too,child,an’rememberheneverdrunkadropoflickerinhislife,andseldomsworeacrossoath。

  \"Idon’tknowwhatelsetotellyeh,Henry,exceptingthatyehmustneverdonoshirking,child,onmyaccount。Ifsobeatimecomeswhenyehhavetobekiltordoameanthing,why,Henry,don’tthinkofanything’ceptwhat’sright,becausethere’smanyawomanhastobearup’ginstsechthingsthesetimes,andtheLord’lltakekeerofusall。

  \"Don’tforgitaboutthesocksandtheshirts,child;andI’veputacupofblackberryjamwithyerbundle,becauseIknowyehlikeitaboveallthings。Good—by,Henry。Watchout,andbeagoodboy。\"

  Hehad,ofcourse,beenimpatientundertheordealofthisspeech。Ithadnotbeenquitewhatheexpected,andhehadborneitwithanairofirritation。Hedepartedfeelingvaguerelief。

  Still,whenhehadlookedbackfromthegate,hehadseenhismotherkneelingamongthepo—

  tatoparings。Herbrownface,upraised,wasstainedwithtears,andherspareformwasquiver—

  10REDBADGEOFCOURAGE。

  ing。Hebowedhisheadandwenton,feelingsuddenlyashamedofhispurposes。

  Fromhishomehehadgonetotheseminarytobidadieutomanyschoolmates。Theyhadthrongedabouthimwithwonderandadmiration。

  Hehadfeltthegulfnowbetweenthemandhadswelledwithcalmpride。Heandsomeofhisfellowswhohaddonnedbluewerequiteover—

  whelmedwithprivilegesforallofoneafternoon,andithadbeenaverydeliciousthing。Theyhadstrutted。

  Acertainlight—hairedgirlhadmadevivaciousfunathismartialspirit,buttherewasanotheranddarkergirlwhomhehadgazedatsteadfastly,andhethoughtshegrewdemureandsadatsightofhisblueandbrass。Ashehadwalkeddownthepathbetweentherowsofoaks,hehadturnedhisheadanddetectedheratawindowwatchinghisdeparture。Asheperceivedher,shehadim—

  mediatelybeguntostareupthroughthehightreebranchesatthesky。Hehadseenagooddealofflurryandhasteinhermovementasshechangedherattitude。Heoftenthoughtofit。

  OnthewaytoWashingtonhisspirithadsoared。Theregimentwasfedandcaressedatstationafterstationuntiltheyouthhadbelievedthathemustbeahero。Therewasalavishex—

  penditureofbreadandcoldmeats,coffee,andpicklesandcheese。Ashebaskedinthesmilesofthegirlsandwaspattedandcomplimentedbytheoldmen,hehadfeltgrowingwithinhimthestrengthtodomightydeedsofarms。

  Aftercomplicatedjourneyingswithmanypauses,therehadcomemonthsofmonotonouslifeinacamp。Hehadhadthebeliefthatrealwarwasaseriesofdeathstruggleswithsmalltimeinbetweenforsleepandmeals;butsincehisregimenthadcometothefieldthearmyhaddonelittlebutsitstillandtrytokeepwarm。

  Hewasbroughtthengraduallybacktohisoldideas。Greeklikestruggleswouldbenomore。

  Menwerebetter,ormoretimid。Secularandreligiouseducationhadeffacedthethroat—grap—

  plinginstinct,orelsefirmfinanceheldincheckthepassions。

  Hehadgrowntoregardhimselfmerelyasapartofavastbluedemonstration。Hisprovincewastolookout,asfarashecould,forhisper—

  sonalcomfort。Forrecreationhecouldtwiddlehisthumbsandspeculateonthethoughtswhichmustagitatethemindsofthegenerals。Also,hewasdrilledanddrilledandreviewed,anddrilledanddrilledandreviewed。

  Theonlyfoeshehadseenweresomepicketsalongtheriverbank。Theywereasun—tanned,philosophicallot,whosometimesshotreflectivelyatthebluepickets。Whenreproachedforthisafterward,theyusuallyexpressedsorrow,andsworebytheirgodsthatthegunshadexplodedwithouttheirpermission。Theyouth,onguarddutyonenight,conversedacrossthestreamwithoneofthem。Hewasaslightlyraggedman,whospatskillfullybetweenhisshoesandpossessedagreatfundofblandandinfantileassurance。Theyouthlikedhimpersonally。

  \"Yank,\"theotherhadinformedhim,\"yerarightdumgoodfeller。\"Thissentiment,floatingtohimuponthestillair,hadmadehimtempo—

  rarilyregretwar。

  Variousveteranshadtoldhimtales。Sometalkedofgray,bewhiskeredhordeswhowereadvancingwithrelentlesscursesandchewingtobaccowithunspeakablevalor;tremendousbodiesoffiercesoldierywhoweresweepingalongliketheHuns。Othersspokeoftatteredandeternallyhungrymenwhofireddespondentpowders。\"They’llchargethroughhell’sfirean’

  brimstonet’gitaholtonahaversack,an’sechstomachsain’ta—lastin’long,\"hewastold。Fromthestories,theyouthimaginedthered,livebonesstickingoutthroughslitsinthefadeduniforms。

  Still,hecouldnotputawholefaithinveter—

  ans’tales,forrecruitsweretheirprey。Theytalkedmuchofsmoke,fire,andblood,buthecouldnottellhowmuchmightbelies。Theypersistentlyyelled\"Freshfish!\"athim,andwereinnowisetobetrusted。

  However,heperceivednowthatitdidnotgreatlymatterwhatkindofsoldiershewasgoingtofight,solongastheyfought,whichfactnoonedisputed。Therewasamoreseriousproblem。Helayinhisbunkponderinguponit。Hetriedtomathematicallyprovetohimselfthathewouldnotrunfromabattle。

  Previouslyhehadneverfeltobligedtowrestletooseriouslywiththisquestion。Inhislifehehadtakencertainthingsforgranted,neverchalleng—

  inghisbeliefinultimatesuccess,andbotheringlittleaboutmeansandroads。Butherehewasconfrontedwithathingofmoment。Ithadsud—

  denlyappearedtohimthatperhapsinabattlehemightrun。Hewasforcedtoadmitthatasfaraswarwasconcernedheknewnothingofhimself。

  Asufficienttimebeforehewouldhaveallowedtheproblemtokickitsheelsattheouterportalsofhismind,butnowhefeltcompelledtogiveseriousattentiontoit。

  Alittlepanic—feargrewinhismind。Ashisimaginationwentforwardtoafight,hesawhide—

  ouspossibilities。Hecontemplatedthelurkingmenacesofthefuture,andfailedinanefforttoseehimselfstandingstoutlyinthemidstofthem。

  Herecalledhisvisionsofbroken—bladedglory,butintheshadowoftheimpendingtumulthesuspectedthemtobeimpossiblepictures。

  Hesprangfromthebunkandbegantopacenervouslytoandfro。\"GoodLord,what’sth’

  matterwithme?\"hesaidaloud。

  Hefeltthatinthiscrisishislawsoflifewereuseless。Whateverhehadlearnedofhimselfwashereofnoavail。Hewasanunknownquantity。

  Hesawthathewouldagainbeobligedtoexperi—

  mentashehadinearlyyouth。Hemustaccumu—

  lateinformationofhimself,andmeanwhilehere—

  solvedtoremaincloseuponhisguardlestthosequalitiesofwhichheknewnothingshouldever—

  lastinglydisgracehim。\"GoodLord!\"here—

  peatedindismay。

  Afteratimethetallsoldiersliddexterouslythroughthehole。Theloudprivatefollowed。

  Theywerewrangling。

  \"That’sallright,\"saidthetallsoldierasheentered。Hewavedhishandexpressively。\"Youcanbelievemeornot,jestasyoulike。Allyougottodoistositdownandwaitasquietasyoucan。Thenprettysoonyou’llfindoutIwasright。\"

  Hiscomradegruntedstubbornly。Foramo—

  mentheseemedtobesearchingforaformidablereply。Finallyhesaid:\"Well,youdon’tknoweverythingintheworld,doyou?\"

  \"Didn’tsayIkneweverythingintheworld,\"

  retortedtheothersharply。Hebegantostowvariousarticlessnuglyintohisknapsack。

  Theyouth,pausinginhisnervouswalk,lookeddownatthebusyfigure。\"Goingtobeabattle,sure,isthere,Jim?\"heasked。

  \"Ofcoursethereis,\"repliedthetallsoldier。

  \"Ofcoursethereis。Youjestwait’tilto—morrow,andyou’llseeoneofthebiggestbattleseverwas。

  Youjestwait。\"

  \"Thunder!der!\"saidtheyouth。

  \"Oh,you’llseefightingthistime,myboy,what’llberegularout—and—outfighting,\"addedthetallsoldier,withtheairofamanwhoisabouttoexhibitabattleforthebenefitofhisfriends。

  \"Huh!\"saidtheloudonefromacorner。

  \"Well,\"remarkedtheyouth,\"likeasnotthisstory’llturnoutjestlikethemothersdid。\"

  \"Notmuchitwon’t,\"repliedthetallsoldier,exasperated。\"Notmuchitwon’t。Didn’tthecavalryallstartthismorning?\"Heglaredabouthim。Noonedeniedhisstatement。\"Thecav—

  alrystartedthismorning,\"hecontinued。\"Theysaythereain’thardlyanycavalryleftincamp。

  They’regoingtoRichmond,orsomeplace,whilewefightalltheJohnnies。It’ssomedodgelikethat。Theregiment’sgotorders,too。Afellerwhatseen’emgotoheadquarterstoldmealittlewhileago。Andthey’reraisingblazesallovercamp——anybodycanseethat。\"

  \"Shucks!\"saidtheloudone。

  Theyouthremainedsilentforatime。Atlasthespoketothetallsoldier。\"Jim!\"

  \"What?\"

  \"Howdoyouthinkthereg’ment’lldo?\"

  \"Oh,they’llfightallright,Iguess,aftertheyoncegetintoit,\"saidtheotherwithcoldjudg—

  ment。Hemadeafineuseofthethirdperson。

  \"There’sbeenheapsoffunpokedat’embecausethey’renew,ofcourse,andallthat;butthey’llfightallright,Iguess。\"

  \"Thinkanyoftheboys’llrun?\"persistedtheyouth。

  \"Oh,theremaybeafewof’emrun,butthere’sthemkindineveryregiment,’speciallywhentheyfirstgoesunderfire,\"saidtheotherinatolerantway。\"Ofcourseitmighthappenthatthehullkit—and—boodlemightstartandrun,ifsomebigfightingcamefirst—off,andthenagaintheymightstayandfightlikefun。Butyoucan’tbetonnothing。Ofcoursetheyain’tneverbeenunderfireyet,anditain’tlikelythey’lllickthehullrebelarmyall—to—oncetthefirsttime;butI

  thinkthey’llfightbetterthansome,ifworsethanothers。That’sthewayIfigger。Theycallthereg’ment’Freshfish’andeverything;buttheboyscomeofgoodstock,andmostof’em’llfightlikesinaftertheyoncetgitshootin’,\"headded,withamightyemphasisonthelastfourwords。

  \"Oh,youthinkyouknow——\"begantheloudsoldierwithscorn。

  Theotherturnedsavagelyuponhim。Theyhadarapidaltercation,inwhichtheyfasteneduponeachothervariousstrangeepithets。

  Theyouthatlastinterruptedthem。\"Didyoueverthinkyoumightrunyourself,Jim?\"heasked。Onconcludingthesentencehelaughedasifhehadmeanttoaimajoke。Theloudsol—

  dieralsogiggled。

  Thetallprivatewavedhishand。\"Well,\"saidheprofoundly,\"I’vethoughtitmightgettoohotforJimConklininsomeofthemscrimmages,andifawholelotofboysstartedandrun,why,I

  s’poseI’dstartandrun。AndifIoncestartedtorun,I’drunlikethedevil,andnomistake。Butifeverybodywasa—standinganda—fighting,why,I’dstandandfight。Bejiminey,Iwould。I’llbetonit。\"

  \"Huh!\"saidtheloudone。

  Theyouthofthistalefeltgratitudeforthesewordsofhiscomrade。Hehadfearedthatalloftheuntriedmenpossessedagreatandcorrectconfidence。Henowwasinameasurereassured。

  chapter02

  CHAPTERII。

  THEnextmorningtheyouthdiscoveredthathistallcomradehadbeenthefast—flyingmessen—

  gerofamistake。Therewasmuchscoffingatthelatterbythosewhohadyesterdaybeenfirmadherentsofhisviews,andtherewasevenalit—

  tlesneeringbymenwhohadneverbelievedtherumor。ThetallonefoughtwithamanfromChatfieldCornersandbeathimseverely。

  Theyouthfelt,however,thathisproblemwasinnowiseliftedfromhim。Therewas,onthecontrary,anirritatingprolongation。Thetalehadcreatedinhimagreatconcernforhimself。

  Now,withthenewbornquestioninhismind,hewascompelledtosinkbackintohisoldplaceaspartofabluedemonstration。

  Fordayshemadeceaselesscalculations,buttheywereallwondrouslyunsatisfactory。Hefoundthathecouldestablishnothing。Hefinal—

  lyconcludedthattheonlywaytoprovehimselfwastogointotheblaze,andthenfigurativelyto18

  watchhislegstodiscovertheirmeritsandfaults。

  Hereluctantlyadmittedthathecouldnotsitstillandwithamentalslateandpencilderiveananswer。Togainit,hemusthaveblaze,blood,anddanger,evenasachemistrequiresthis,that,andtheother。Sohefrettedforanopportunity。

  Meanwhilehecontinuallytriedtomeasurehimselfbyhiscomrades。Thetallsoldier,forone,gavehimsomeassurance。Thisman’sse—

  reneunconcerndealthimameasureofcon—

  fidence,forhehadknownhimsincechildhood,andfromhisintimateknowledgehedidnotseehowhecouldbecapableofanythingthatwasbeyondhim,theyouth。Still,hethoughtthathiscomrademightbemistakenabouthimself。

  Or,ontheotherhand,hemightbeamanhere—

  toforedoomedtopeaceandobscurity,but,inreality,madetoshineinwar。

  Theyouthwouldhavelikedtohavediscov—

  eredanotherwhosuspectedhimself。Asympa—

  theticcomparisonofmentalnoteswouldhavebeenajoytohim。

  Heoccasionallytriedtofathomacomradewithseductivesentences。Helookedabouttofindmeninthepropermood。Allattemptsfailedtobringforthanystatementwhichlookedinanywaylikeaconfessiontothosedoubtswhichheprivatelyacknowledgedinhimself。

  Hewasafraidtomakeanopendeclarationofhisconcern,becausehedreadedtoplacesomeunscrupulousconfidantuponthehighplaneoftheunconfessedfromwhichelevationhecouldbederided。

  Inregardtohiscompanionshismindwa—

  veredbetweentwoopinions,accordingtohismood。Sometimesheinclinedtobelievingthemallheroes。Infact,heusuallyadmittedinsecretthesuperiordevelopmentofthehigherqualitiesinothers。Hecouldconceiveofmengoingveryinsignificantlyabouttheworldbearingaloadofcourageunseen,andalthoughhehadknownmanyofhiscomradesthroughboyhood,hebe—

  gantofearthathisjudgmentofthemhadbeenblind。Then,inothermoments,hefloutedthesetheories,andassuredhimselfthathisfellowswereallprivatelywonderingandquaking。

  Hisemotionsmadehimfeelstrangeinthepresenceofmenwhotalkedexcitedlyofapro—

  spectivebattleasofadramatheywereabouttowitness,withnothingbuteagernessandcuriosityapparentintheirfaces。Itwasoftenthathesus—

  pectedthemtobeliars。

  Hedidnotpasssuchthoughtswithoutseverecondemnationofhimself。Hedinnedreproachesattimes。Hewasconvictedbyhimselfofmanyshamefulcrimesagainstthegodsoftraditions。

  Inhisgreatanxietyhisheartwascontinuallyclamoringatwhatheconsideredtheintolerableslownessofthegenerals。Theyseemedcontenttoperchtranquillyontheriverbank,andleavehimboweddownbytheweightofagreatprob—

  lem。Hewanteditsettledforthwith。Hecouldnotlongbearsuchaload,hesaid。Sometimeshisangeratthecommandersreachedanacutestage,andhegrumbledaboutthecamplikeaveteran。

  Onemorning,however,hefoundhimselfintheranksofhispreparedregiment。Themenwerewhisperingspeculationsandrecountingtheoldrumors。Inthegloombeforethebreakofthedaytheiruniformsglowedadeeppurplehue。Fromacrosstherivertheredeyeswerestillpeering。Intheeasternskytherewasayel—

  lowpatchlikearuglaidforthefeetofthecom—

  ingsun;andagainstit,blackandpatternlike,loomedthegiganticfigureofthecolonelonagigantichorse。

  Fromoffinthedarknesscamethetramplingoffeet。Theyouthcouldoccasionallyseedarkshadowsthatmovedlikemonsters。Theregi—

  mentstoodatrestforwhatseemedalongtime。

  Theyouthgrewimpatient。Itwasunendurablethewaytheseaffairsweremanaged。Hewon—

  deredhowlongtheyweretobekeptwaiting。

  Ashelookedallabouthimandpondereduponthemysticgloom,hebegantobelievethatatanymomenttheominousdistancemightbeaflare,andtherollingcrashesofanengagementcometohisears。Staringonceattheredeyesacrosstheriver,heconceivedthemtobegrow—

  inglarger,astheorbsofarowofdragonsad—

  vancing。Heturnedtowardthecolonelandsawhimlifthisgiganticarmandcalmlystrokehismustache。

  Atlastheheardfromalongtheroadatthefootofthehilltheclatterofahorse’sgallopinghoofs。Itmustbethecomingoforders。Hebentforward,scarcebreathing。Theexcitingclickety—click,asitgrewlouderandlouder,seemedtobebeatinguponhissoul。Presentlyahorsemanwithjanglingequipmentdrewreinbe—

  forethecoloneloftheregiment。Thetwoheldashort,sharp—wordedconversation。Themenintheforemostrankscranedtheirnecks。

  Asthehorsemanwheeledhisanimalandgal—

  lopedawayheturnedtoshoutoverhisshoulder,\"Don’tforgetthatboxofcigars!\"Thecolonelmumbledinreply。Theyouthwonderedwhataboxofcigarshadtodowithwar。

  Amomentlatertheregimentwentswingingoffintothedarkness。Itwasnowlikeoneofthosemovingmonsterswendingwithmanyfeet。

  Theairwasheavy,andcoldwithdew。Amassofwetgrass,marchedupon,rustledlikesilk。

  Therewasanoccasionalflashandglimmerofsteelfromthebacksofallthesehugecrawl—

  ingreptiles。Fromtheroadcamecreakingsandgrumblingsassomesurlygunsweredraggedaway。

  Themenstumbledalongstillmutteringspecu—

  lations。Therewasasubdueddebate。Onceamanfelldown,andashereachedforhisrifleacomrade,unseeing,troduponhishand。Heoftheinjuredfingerssworebitterlyandaloud。A

  low,titteringlaughwentamonghisfellows。

  Presentlytheypassedintoaroadwayandmarchedforwardwitheasystrides。Adarkregimentmovedbeforethem,andfrombehindalsocamethetinkleofequipmentsonthebodiesofmarchingmen。

  Therushingyellowofthedevelopingdaywentonbehindtheirbacks。Whenthesunraysatlaststruckfullandmellowinglyupontheearth,theyouthsawthatthelandscapewasstreakedwithtwolong,thin,blackcolumnswhichdisappearedonthebrowofahillinfrontandrearwardvanishedinawood。Theywereliketwoserpentscrawlingfromthecavernofthenight。

  Theriverwasnotinview。Thetallsoldierburstintopraisesofwhathethoughttobehispowersofperception。

  Someofthetallone’scompanionscriedwithemphasisthatthey,too,hadevolvedthesamething,andtheycongratulatedthemselvesuponit。Buttherewereotherswhosaidthatthetallone’splanwasnotthetrueoneatall。Theyper—

  sistedwithothertheories。Therewasavigorousdiscussion。

  Theyouthtooknopartinthem。Ashewalkedalongincarelesslinehewasengagedwithhisowneternaldebate。Hecouldnothin—

  derhimselffromdwellinguponit。Hewasde—

  spondentandsullen,andthrewshiftingglancesabouthim。Helookedahead,oftenexpectingtohearfromtheadvancetherattleoffiring。

  Butthelongserpentscrawledslowlyfromhilltohillwithoutblusterofsmoke。Adun—col—

  oredcloudofdustfloatedawaytotheright。

  Theskyoverheadwasofafairyblue。

  Theyouthstudiedthefacesofhiscompan—

  ions,everonthewatchtodetectkindredemo—

  tions。Hesuffereddisappointment。Someardoroftheairwhichwascausingtheveterancom—

  mandstomovewithglee——almostwithsong——

  hadinfectedthenewregiment。Themenbegantospeakofvictoryasofathingtheyknew。

  Also,thetallsoldierreceivedhisvindication。

  Theywerecertainlygoingtocomearoundinbehindtheenemy。Theyexpressedcommisera—

  tionforthatpartofthearmywhichhadbeenleftupontheriverbank,felicitatingthemselvesuponbeingapartofablastinghost。

  Theyouth,consideringhimselfasseparatedfromtheothers,wassaddenedbytheblitheandmerryspeechesthatwentfromranktorank。

  Thecompanywagsallmadetheirbestendeav—

  ors。Theregimenttrampedtothetuneoflaughter。

  Theblatantsoldieroftenconvulsedwholefilesbyhisbitingsarcasmsaimedatthetallone。

  Anditwasnotlongbeforeallthemenseemedtoforgettheirmission。Wholebrigadesgrinnedinunison,andregimentslaughed。

  Aratherfatsoldierattemptedtopilferahorsefromadooryard。Heplannedtoloadhisknap—

  sackuponit。Hewasescapingwithhisprizewhenayounggirlrushedfromthehouseandgrabbedtheanimal’smane。Therefollowedawrangle。Theyounggirl,withpinkcheeksandshiningeyes,stoodlikeadauntlessstatue。

  Theobservantregiment,standingatrestintheroadway,whoopedatonce,andenteredwhole—souleduponthesideofthemaiden。Themenbecamesoengrossedinthisaffairthattheyentirelyceasedtoremembertheirownlargewar。

  Theyjeeredthepiraticalprivate,andcalledattentiontovariousdefectsinhispersonalap—

  pearance;andtheywerewildlyenthusiasticinsupportoftheyounggirl。

  Toher,fromsomedistance,cameboldadvice。

  \"Hithimwithastick。\"

  Therewerecrowsandcatcallsshowereduponhimwhenheretreatedwithoutthehorse。

  Theregimentrejoicedathisdownfall。Loudandvociferouscongratulationswereshowereduponthemaiden,whostoodpantingandregard—

  ingthetroopswithdefiance。

  Atnightfallthecolumnbrokeintoregimentalpieces,andthefragmentswentintothefieldstocamp。Tentsspranguplikestrangeplants。

  Campfires,likered,peculiarblossoms,dottedthenight。

  Theyouthkeptfromintercoursewithhiscompanionsasmuchascircumstanceswouldallowhim。Intheeveninghewanderedafewpacesintothegloom。Fromthislittledistancethemanyfires,withtheblackformsofmenpass—

  ingtoandfrobeforethecrimsonrays,madeweirdandsataniceffects。

  Helaydowninthegrass。Thebladespressedtenderlyagainsthischeek。Themoonhadbeenlightedandwashunginatreetop。

  Theliquidstillnessofthenightenvelopinghimmadehimfeelvastpityforhimself。Therewasacaressinthesoftwinds;andthewholemoodofthedarkness,hethought,wasoneofsympathyforhimselfinhisdistress。

  Hewished,withoutreserve,thathewasathomeagainmakingtheendlessroundsfromthehousetothebarn,fromthebarntothefields,fromthefieldstothebarn,fromthebarntothehouse。Herememberedhehadoftencursedthebrindlecowandhermates,andhadsometimesflungmilkingstools。But,fromhispresentpointofview,therewasahaloofhappinessabouteachoftheirheads,andhewouldhavesacrificedallthebrassbuttonsonthecontinenttohavebeenenabledtoreturntothem。Hetoldhimselfthathewasnotformedforasoldier。Andhemusedseriouslyupontheradicaldifferencesbetweenhimselfandthosemenwhoweredodgingimp—

  likearoundthefires。

  Ashemusedthusheheardtherustleofgrass,and,uponturninghishead,discoveredtheloudsoldier。Hecalledout,\"Oh,Wilson!\"

  Thelatterapproachedandlookeddown。

  \"Why,hello,Henry;isityou?Whatyoudo—

  inghere?\"

  \"Oh,thinking,\"saidtheyouth。

  Theothersatdownandcarefullylightedhispipe。\"You’regettingblue,myboy。You’relookingthunderingpeeked。Whatthedickensiswrongwithyou?\"

  \"Oh,nothing,\"saidtheyouth。

  Theloudsoldierlaunchedthenintothesub—

  jectoftheanticipatedfight。\"Oh,we’vegot’emnow!\"Ashespokehisboyishfacewaswreathedinagleefulsmile,andhisvoicehadanexultantring。\"We’vegot’emnow。Atlast,bytheeternalthunders,we’lllick’emgood!\"

  \"Ifthetruthwasknown,\"headded,moresoberly,\"THEY’VElickedUSabouteveryclipuptonow;butthistime——thistime——we’lllick’emgood!\"

  \"Ithoughtyouwasobjectingtothismarchalittlewhileago,\"saidtheyouthcoldly。

  \"Oh,itwasn’tthat,\"explainedtheother。\"I

  don’tmindmarching,ifthere’sgoingtobefight—

  ingattheendofit。WhatIhateisthisgettingmovedhereandmovedthere,withnogoodcom—

  ingofit,asfarasIcansee,exceptingsorefeetanddamnedshortrations。\"

  \"Well,JimConklinsayswe’llgetaplentyoffightingthistime。\"

  \"He’srightforonce,Iguess,thoughIcan’tseehowitcome。Thistimewe’reinforabigbattle,andwe’vegotthebestendofit,certainsure。Geerod!howwewillthump’em!\"

  Hearoseandbegantopacetoandfroexcit—

  edly。Thethrillofhisenthusiasmmadehimwalkwithanelasticstep。Hewassprightly,vigorous,fieryinhisbeliefinsuccess。Helookedintothefuturewithclear,proudeye,andhesworewiththeairofanoldsoldier。

  Theyouthwatchedhimforamomentinsilence。Whenhefinallyspokehisvoicewasasbitterasdregs。\"Oh,you’regoingtodogreatthings,Is’pose!\"

  Theloudsoldierblewathoughtfulcloudofsmokefromhispipe。\"Oh,Idon’tknow,\"heremarkedwithdignity;\"Idon’tknow。Is’poseI’lldoaswellastherest。I’mgoingtotrylikethunder。\"Heevidentlycomplimentedhimselfuponthemodestyofthisstatement。

  \"Howdoyouknowyouwon’trunwhenthetimecomes?\"askedtheyouth。

  \"Run?\"saidtheloudone;\"run?——ofcoursenot!\"Helaughed。

  \"Well,\"continuedtheyouth,\"lotsofgood—

  a—’noughmenhavethoughttheywasgoingtodogreatthingsbeforethefight,butwhenthetimecometheyskedaddled。\"

  \"Oh,that’salltrue,Is’pose,\"repliedtheother;\"butI’mnotgoingtoskedaddle。Themanthatbetsonmyrunningwilllosehismoney,that’sall。\"Henoddedconfidently。

  \"Oh,shucks!\"saidtheyouth。\"Youain’tthebravestmanintheworld,areyou?\"

  \"No,Iain’t,\"exclaimedtheloudsoldierin—

  dignantly;\"andIdidn’tsayIwasthebravestmanintheworld,neither。IsaidIwasgoingtodomyshareoffighting——that’swhatIsaid。AndIam,too。Whoareyou,anyhow。YoutalkasifyouthoughtyouwasNapoleonBonaparte。\"

  Heglaredattheyouthforamoment,andthenstrodeaway。

  Theyouthcalledinasavagevoiceafterhiscomrade:\"Well,youneedn’tgitmadaboutit!\"

  Buttheothercontinuedonhiswayandmadenoreply。

  Hefeltaloneinspacewhenhisinjuredcom—

  radehaddisappeared。Hisfailuretodiscoveranymiteofresemblanceintheirviewpointsmadehimmoremiserablethanbefore。Nooneseemedtobewrestlingwithsuchaterrificper—

  sonalproblem。Hewasamentaloutcast。

  Hewentslowlytohistentandstretchedhim—

  selfonablanketbythesideofthesnoringtallsoldier。Inthedarknesshesawvisionsofathou—

  sand—tonguedfearthatwouldbabbleathisbackandcausehimtoflee,whileothersweregoingcoollyabouttheircountry’sbusiness。Headmit—

  tedthathewouldnotbeabletocopewiththismonster。Hefeltthateverynerveinhisbodywouldbeaneartohearthevoices,whileothermenwouldremainstolidanddeaf。

  Andashesweatedwiththepainofthesethoughts,hecouldhearlow,serenesentences。

  \"I’llbidfive。\"\"Makeitsix。\"\"Seven。\"

  \"Sevengoes。\"

  Hestaredatthered,shiveringreflectionofafireonthewhitewallofhistentuntil,ex—

  haustedandillfromthemonotonyofhissuf—

  fering,hefellasleep。

  chapter03

  CHAPTERIII。

  WHENanothernightcamethecolumns,changedtopurplestreaks,filedacrosstwopon—

  toonbridges。Aglaringfirewine—tintedthewatersoftheriver。Itsrays,shininguponthemovingmassesoftroops,broughtforthhereandtheresuddengleamsofsilverorgold。Upontheothershoreadarkandmysteriousrangeofhillswascurvedagainstthesky。Theinsectvoicesofthenightsangsolemnly。

  Afterthiscrossingtheyouthassuredhimselfthatatanymomenttheymightbesuddenlyandfearfullyassaultedfromthecavesoftheloweringwoods。Hekepthiseyeswatchfullyuponthedarkness。

  Buthisregimentwentunmolestedtoacamp—

  ingplace,anditssoldierssleptthebravesleepofweariedmen。Inthemorningtheywereroutedoutwithearlyenergy,andhustledalonganarrowroadthatleddeepintotheforest。

  Itwasduringthisrapidmarchthattheregimentlostmanyofthemarksofanewcom—

  mand。

  Themenhadbeguntocountthemilesupontheirfingers,andtheygrewtired。\"Sorefeetan’damnedshortrations,that’sall,\"saidtheloudsoldier。Therewasperspirationandgrum—

  blings。Afteratimetheybegantoshedtheirknapsacks。Sometossedthemunconcernedlydown;othershidthemcarefully,assertingtheirplanstoreturnforthematsomeconvenienttime。Menextricatedthemselvesfromthickshirts。Presentlyfewcarriedanythingbuttheirnecessaryclothing,blankets,haversacks,canteens,andarmsandammunition。\"Youcannoweatandshoot,\"saidthetallsoldiertotheyouth。

  \"That’sallyouwanttodo。\"

  Therewassuddenchangefromtheponderousinfantryoftheorytothelightandspeedyinfantryofpractice。Theregiment,relievedofaburden,receivedanewimpetus。Buttherewasmuchlossofvaluableknapsacks,and,onthewhole,verygoodshirts。

  Buttheregimentwasnotyetveteranlikeinappearance。Veteranregimentsinthearmywerelikelytobeverysmallaggregationsofmen。

  Once,whenthecommandhadfirstcometothefield,someperambulatingveterans,notingthelengthoftheircolumn,hadaccostedthemthus:

  \"Hey,fellers,whatbrigadeisthat?\"Andwhenthemenhadrepliedthattheyformedaregimentandnotabrigade,theoldersoldiershadlaughed,andsaid,\"OGawd!\"

  Also,therewastoogreatasimilarityinthehats。Thehatsofaregimentshouldproperlyrepresentthehistoryofheadgearforaperiodofyears。And,moreover,therewerenolettersoffadedgoldspeakingfromthecolors。Theywerenewandbeautiful,andthecolorbearerhabitu—

  allyoiledthepole。

  Presentlythearmyagainsatdowntothink。

  Theodorofthepeacefulpineswasinthemen’snostrils。Thesoundofmonotonousaxeblowsrangthroughtheforest,andtheinsects,noddingupontheirperches,croonedlikeoldwomen。

  Theyouthreturnedtohistheoryofabluedem—

  onstration。

  Onegraydawn,however,hewaskickedinthelegbythetallsoldier,andthen,beforehewasentirelyawake,hefoundhimselfrunningdownawoodroadinthemidstofmenwhowerepantingfromthefirsteffectsofspeed。Hiscan—

  teenbangedrhythmicallyuponhisthigh,andhishaversackbobbedsoftly。Hismusketbouncedatriflefromhisshoulderateachstrideandmadehiscapfeeluncertainuponhishead。

  Hecouldhearthemenwhisperjerkysen—

  tences:\"Say——what’sallthis——about?\"\"Whatth’thunder——we——skedaddlin’thiswayfer?\"

  \"Billie——keepoffm’feet。Yehrun——likeacow。\"

  Andtheloudsoldier’sshrillvoicecouldbeheard:\"Whatth’deviltheyinsichahurryfor?\"

  Theyouththoughtthedampfogofearlymorningmovedfromtherushofagreatbodyoftroops。Fromthedistancecameasuddenspatteroffiring。

  Hewasbewildered。Asheranwithhiscom—

  radeshestrenuouslytriedtothink,butallheknewwasthatifhefelldownthosecomingbehindwouldtreaduponhim。Allhisfacultiesseemedtobeneededtoguidehimoverandpastobstruc—

  tions。Hefeltcarriedalongbyamob。

  Thesunspreaddisclosingrays,and,onebyone,regimentsburstintoviewlikearmedmenjustbornoftheearth。Theyouthperceivedthatthetimehadcome。Hewasabouttobemeasured。Foramomenthefeltinthefaceofhisgreattriallikeababe,andthefleshoverhisheartseemedverythin。Heseizedtimetolookabouthimcalculatingly。

  Butheinstantlysawthatitwouldbeimpossi—

  bleforhimtoescapefromtheregiment。Itin—

  closedhim。Andtherewereironlawsoftradi—

  tionandlawonfoursides。Hewasinamovingbox。

  Asheperceivedthisfactitoccurredtohimthathehadneverwishedtocometothewar。

  Hehadnotenlistedofhisfreewill。Hehadbeendraggedbythemercilessgovernment。Andnowtheyweretakinghimouttobeslaughtered。

  Theregimentsliddownabankandwallowedacrossalittlestream。Themournfulcurrentmovedslowlyon,andfromthewater,shadedblack,somewhitebubbleeyeslookedatthemen。

  Astheyclimbedthehillonthefarthersideartillerybegantoboom。Heretheyouthforgotmanythingsashefeltasuddenimpulseofcuri—

  osity。Hescrambledupthebankwithaspeedthatcouldnotbeexceededbyabloodthirstyman。

  Heexpectedabattlescene。

  Thereweresomelittlefieldsgirtedandsqueezedbyaforest。Spreadoverthegrassandinamongthetreetrunks,hecouldseeknotsandwavinglinesofskirmisherswhowererunninghitherandthitherandfiringatthelandscape。

  Adarkbattlelinelayuponasunstruckclearingthatgleamedorangecolor。Aflagfluttered。

  Otherregimentsflounderedupthebank。Thebrigadewasformedinlineofbattle,andafterapausestartedslowlythroughthewoodsintherearoftherecedingskirmishers,whowerecon—

  tinuallymeltingintothescenetoappearagainfartheron。Theywerealwaysbusyasbees,deeplyabsorbedintheirlittlecombats。

  Theyouthtriedtoobserveeverything。Hedidnotusecaretoavoidtreesandbranches,andhisforgottenfeetwereconstantlyknockingagainststonesorgettingentangledinbriers。

  Hewasawarethatthesebattalionswiththeircommotionswerewovenredandstartlingintothegentlefabricofsoftenedgreensandbrowns。

  Itlookedtobeawrongplaceforabattlefield。

  Theskirmishersinadvancefascinatedhim。

  Theirshotsintothicketsandatdistantandprominenttreesspoketohimoftragedies——hid—

  den,mysterious,solemn。

  Oncethelineencounteredthebodyofadeadsoldier。Helayuponhisbackstaringatthesky。

  Hewasdressedinanawkwardsuitofyellowishbrown。Theyouthcouldseethatthesolesofhisshoeshadbeenworntothethinnessofwritingpaper,andfromagreatrentinonethedeadfootprojectedpiteously。Anditwasasiffatehadbetrayedthesoldier。Indeathitexposedtohisenemiesthatpovertywhichinlifehehadperhapsconcealedfromhisfriends。

  Theranksopenedcovertlytoavoidthecorpse。

  Theinvulnerabledeadmanforcedawayforhim—

  self。Theyouthlookedkeenlyattheashenface。

  Thewindraisedthetawnybeard。Itmovedasifahandwerestrokingit。Hevaguelydesiredtowalkaroundandaroundthebodyandstare;

  theimpulseofthelivingtotrytoreadindeadeyestheanswertotheQuestion。

  Duringthemarchtheardorwhichtheyouthhadacquiredwhenoutofviewofthefieldrapidlyfadedtonothing。Hiscuriositywasquiteeasilysatisfied。Ifanintensescenehadcaughthimwithitswildswingashecametothetopofthebank,hemighthavegoneroaringon。ThisadvanceuponNaturewastoocalm。Hehadopportunitytoreflect。Hehadtimeinwhichtowonderabouthimselfandtoattempttoprobehissensa—

  tions。

  Absurdideastookholduponhim。Hethoughtthathedidnotrelishthelandscape。

  Itthreatenedhim。Acoldnesssweptoverhisback,anditistruethathistrousersfelttohimthattheywerenofitforhislegsatall。

  Ahousestandingplacidlyindistantfieldshadtohimanominouslook。Theshadowsofthewoodswereformidable。Hewascertainthatinthisvistatherelurkedfierce—eyedhosts。Theswiftthoughtcametohimthatthegeneralsdidnotknowwhattheywereabout。Itwasallatrap。Suddenlythosecloseforestswouldbristlewithriflebarrels。Ironlikebrigadeswouldap—

  pearintherear。Theywereallgoingtobesacrificed。Thegeneralswerestupids。Theenemywouldpresentlyswallowthewholecom—

  mand。Heglaredabouthim,expectingtoseethestealthyapproachofhisdeath。

  Hethoughtthathemustbreakfromtheranksandharanguehiscomrades。Theymustnotallbekilledlikepigs;andhewassureitwouldcometopassunlesstheywereinformedofthesedangers。Thegeneralswereidiotstosendthemmarchingintoaregularpen。Therewasbutonepairofeyesinthecorps。Hewouldstepforthandmakeaspeech。Shrillandpassionatewordscametohislips。

  Theline,brokenintomovingfragmentsbytheground,wentcalmlyonthroughfieldsandwoods。

  Theyouthlookedatthemennearesthim,andsaw,forthemostpart,expressionsofdeepinter—

  est,asiftheywereinvestigatingsomethingthathadfascinatedthem。Oneortwosteppedwithovervaliantairsasiftheywerealreadyplungedintowar。Otherswalkedasuponthinice。Thegreaterpartoftheuntestedmenappearedquietandabsorbed。Theyweregoingtolookatwar,theredanimal——war,theblood—swollengod。Andtheyweredeeplyengrossedinthismarch。

  Ashelookedtheyouthgrippedhisoutcryathisthroat。Hesawthatevenifthemenweretotteringwithfeartheywouldlaughathiswarn—

  ing。Theywouldjeerhim,and,ifpracticable,pelthimwithmissiles。Admittingthathemightbewrong,afrenzieddeclamationofthekindwouldturnhimintoaworm。

  Heassumed,then,thedemeanorofonewhoknowsthatheisdoomedalonetounwrittenre—

  sponsibilities。Helagged,withtragicglancesatthesky。

  Hewassurprisedpresentlybytheyounglieu—

  tenantofhiscompany,whobeganheartilytobeathimwithasword,callingoutinaloudandinsolentvoice:\"Come,youngman,getupintoranksthere。Noskulking’lldohere。\"Hemend—

  edhispacewithsuitablehaste。Andhehatedthelieutenant,whohadnoappreciationoffineminds。Hewasamerebrute。

  Afteratimethebrigadewashaltedinthecathedrallightofaforest。Thebusyskirmish—

  erswerestillpopping。Throughtheaislesofthewoodcouldbeseenthefloatingsmokefromtheirrifles。Sometimesitwentupinlittleballs,whiteandcompact。

  Duringthishaltmanymenintheregimentbeganerectingtinyhillsinfrontofthem。Theyusedstones,sticks,earth,andanythingtheythoughtmightturnabullet。Somebuiltcom—

  parativelylargeones,whileothersseemedcon—

  tentwithlittleones。

  Thisprocedurecausedadiscussionamongthemen。Somewishedtofightlikeduelists,believ—

  ingittobecorrecttostanderectandbe,fromtheirfeettotheirforeheads,amark。Theysaidtheyscornedthedevicesofthecautious。Buttheothersscoffedinreply,andpointedtotheveteransontheflankswhowerediggingatthegroundliketerriers。Inashorttimetherewasquiteabarricadealongtheregimentalfronts。

  Directly,however,theywereorderedtowith—

  drawfromthatplace。

  Thisastoundedtheyouth。Heforgothisstewingovertheadvancemovement。\"Well,then,whatdidtheymarchusoutherefor?\"hedemandedofthetallsoldier。Thelatterwithcalmfaithbeganaheavyexplanation,althoughhehadbeencompelledtoleavealittleprotectionofstonesanddirttowhichhehaddevotedmuchcareandskill。

  Whentheregimentwasalignedinanotherpositioneachman’sregardforhissafetycausedanotherlineofsmallintrenchments。Theyatetheirnoonmealbehindathirdone。Theyweremovedfromthisonealso。Theyweremarchedfromplacetoplacewithapparentaimlessness。

  Theyouthhadbeentaughtthatamanbe—

  cameanotherthinginabattle。Hesawhissal—

  vationinsuchachange。Hencethiswaitingwasanordealtohim。Hewasinafeverofim—

  patience。Heconsideredthattherewasdenotedalackofpurposeonthepartofthegenerals。

  Hebegantocomplaintothetallsoldier。\"I

  can’tstandthismuchlonger,\"hecried。\"I

  don’tseewhatgooditdoestomakeuswearoutourlegsfornothin’。\"Hewishedtoreturntocamp,knowingthatthisaffairwasabluedemonstration;orelsetogointoabattleanddiscoverthathehadbeenafoolinhisdoubts,andwas,intruth,amanoftraditionalcourage。

  Thestrainofpresentcircumstanceshefelttobeintolerable。

  Thephilosophicaltallsoldiermeasuredasand—

  wichofcrackerandporkandswalloweditinanonchalantmanner。\"Oh,Isupposewemustgoreconnoiteringaroundthecountryjesttokeep’emfromgettingtooclose,ortodevelop’em,orsomething。\"

  \"Huh!\"saidtheloudsoldier。

  \"Well,\"criedtheyouth,stillfidgeting,\"I’dratherdoanything’mostthangotramping’roundthecountryalldaydoingnogoodtonobodyandjesttiringourselvesout。\"

  \"SowouldI,\"saidtheloudsoldier。\"Itain’tright。Itellyouifanybodywithanysensewasa—runnin’thisarmyit——\"

  \"Oh,shutup!\"roaredthetallprivate。\"Youlittlefool。Youlittledamn’cuss。Youain’thadthattherecoatandthempantsonforsixmonths,andyetyoutalkasif——\"

  \"Well,Iwantadosomefightinganyway,\"

  interruptedtheother。\"Ididn’tcomeheretowalk。Icould’avewalkedtohome——’roundan’

  ’roundthebarn,ifIjestwantedtowalk。\"

  Thetallone,red—faced,swallowedanothersandwichasiftakingpoisonindespair。

  Butgradually,ashechewed,hisfacebecameagainquietandcontented。Hecouldnotrageinfierceargumentinthepresenceofsuchsand—

  wiches。Duringhismealshealwaysworeanairofblissfulcontemplationofthefoodhehadswal—

  lowed。Hisspiritseemedthentobecommuningwiththeviands。

  Heacceptednewenvironmentandcircum—

  stancewithgreatcoolness,eatingfromhishaver—

  sackateveryopportunity。Onthemarchhewentalongwiththestrideofahunter,object—

  ingtoneithergaitnordistance。Andhehadnotraisedhisvoicewhenhehadbeenorderedawayfromthreelittleprotectivepilesofearthandstone,eachofwhichhadbeenanengineer—

  ingfeatworthyofbeingmadesacredtothenameofhisgrandmother。

  Intheafternoontheregimentwentoutoverthesamegroundithadtakeninthemorn—

  ing。Thelandscapethenceasedtothreatentheyouth。Hehadbeenclosetoitandbecomefamiliarwithit。

  When,however,theybegantopassintoanewregion,hisoldfearsofstupidityandin—

  competencereassailedhim,butthistimehedog—

  gedlyletthembabble。Hewasoccupiedwithhisproblem,andinhisdesperationheconcludedthatthestupiditydidnotgreatlymatter。

  Oncehethoughthehadconcludedthatitwouldbebettertogetkilleddirectlyandendhistroubles。Regardingdeaththusoutofthecornerofhiseye,heconceivedittobenoth—

  ingbutrest,andhewasfilledwithamomen—

  taryastonishmentthatheshouldhavemadeanextraordinarycommotionoverthemerematterofgettingkilled。Hewoulddie;hewouldgotosomeplacewherehewouldbeunderstood。

  Itwasuselesstoexpectappreciationofhispro—

  foundandfinesensesfromsuchmenasthelieu—

  tenant。Hemustlooktothegraveforcompre—

  hension。

  Theskirmishfireincreasedtoalongchatter—

  ingsound。Withitwasmingledfar—awaycheer—

  ing。Abatteryspoke。

  Directlytheyouthwouldseetheskirmishersrunning。Theywerepursuedbythesoundofmusketryfire。Afteratimethehot,dangerousflashesoftherifleswerevisible。Smokecloudswentslowlyandinsolentlyacrossthefieldslikeobservantphantoms。Thedinbecamecrescendo,liketheroarofanoncomingtrain。

  Abrigadeaheadofthemandontherightwentintoactionwitharendingroar。Itwasasifithadexploded。Andthereafteritlaystretchedinthedistancebehindalonggraywall,thatonewasobligedtolooktwiceattomakesurethatitwassmoke。

  Theyouth,forgettinghisneatplanofgettingkilled,gazedspellbound。Hiseyesgrewwideandbusywiththeactionofthescene。Hismouthwasalittlewaysopen。

  Ofasuddenhefeltaheavyandsadhandlaiduponhisshoulder。Awakeningfromhistranceofobservationheturnedandbeheldtheloudsoldier。

  \"It’smyfirstandlastbattle,oldboy,\"saidthelatter,withintensegloom。Hewasquitepaleandhisgirlishlipwastrembling。

  \"Eh?\"murmuredtheyouthingreataston—

  ishment。

  \"It’smyfirstandlastbattle,oldboy,\"

  continuedtheloudsoldier。\"Somethingtellsme——\"

  \"What?\"

  \"I’magonecoonthisfirsttimeand——andI

  w—wantyoutotaketheseherethings——to——my——

  folks。\"Heendedinaquaveringsobofpityforhimself。Hehandedtheyouthalittlepacketdoneupinayellowenvelope。

  \"Why,whatthedevil——\"begantheyouthagain。

  Buttheothergavehimaglanceasfromthedepthsofatomb,andraisedhislimphandinapropheticmannerandturnedaway。

  chapter04

  CHAPTERIV。

  THEbrigadewashaltedinthefringeofagrove。Themencrouchedamongthetreesandpointedtheirrestlessgunsoutatthefields。

  Theytriedtolookbeyondthesmoke。

  Outofthishazetheycouldseerunningmen。

  Someshoutedinformationandgesturedastheyhurried。

  Themenofthenewregimentwatchedandlistenedeagerly,whiletheirtonguesranoningossipofthebattle。Theymouthedrumorsthathadflownlikebirdsoutoftheunknown。

  \"TheysayPerryhasbeendriveninwithbigloss。\"

  \"Yes,Carrottwentt’th’hospital。Hesaidhewassick。Thatsmartlieutenantiscommanding’G’Company。Th’boyssaytheywon’tbeunderCarrottnomoreiftheyallhavet’desert。

  Theyallusknewhewasa——\"

  \"Hannises’batt’ryistook。\"

  \"Itain’teither。IsawHannises’batt’ryoffonth’leftnotmore’nfifteenminutesago。\"

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  \"Well——\"

  \"Th’general,hesesheisgoin’t’taketh’hullcammandofth’304thwhenwegointehaction,an’thenheseswe’lldosechfightin’asneveranotheronereg’mentdone。\"

  \"Theysaywe’recatchin’itoveronth’left。

  Theysayth’enemydriv’ourlineintehadevilofaswampan’tookHannises’batt’ry。\"

  \"Nosechthing。Hannises’batt’rywas’longhere’boutaminuteago。\"

  \"ThatyoungHasbrouck,hemakesagoodoff’cer。Heain’tafraid’anothin’。\"

  \"Imetoneofth’148thMaineboysan’heseshisbrigadefitth’hullrebelarmyferfourhoursoveronth’turnpikeroadan’killedaboutfivethousandof’em。Hesesonemoresechfightasthatan’th’war’llbeover。\"

  \"Billwasn’tscaredeither。No,sir!Itwasn’tthat。Billain’ta—gittin’scaredeasy。Hewasjestmad,that’swhathewas。Whenthatfellertrodonhishand,heupan’sedthathewaswillin’

  t’givehishandt’hiscountry,buthebedumbedifhewasgoin’t’haveeverydumbbushwhackerinth’kentrywalkin’’roundonit。Sehewentt’

  th’hospitaldisregardlessofth’fight。Threefingerswascrunched。Th’derndoctorwantedt’amputate’m,an’Bill,heraisedaheluvarow,I

  hear。He’safunnyfeller。\"

  Thedininfrontswelledtoatremendouschorus。Theyouthandhisfellowswerefrozentosilence。Theycouldseeaflagthattossedinthesmokeangrily。Nearitweretheblurredandagitatedformsoftroops。Therecameaturbulentstreamofmenacrossthefields。Abatterychang—

  ingpositionatafranticgallopscatteredthestragglersrightandleft。

  Ashellscreaminglikeastormbansheewentoverthehuddledheadsofthereserves。Itlandedinthegrove,andexplodingredlyflungthebrownearth。Therewasalittleshowerofpineneedles。

  Bulletsbegantowhistleamongthebranchesandnipatthetrees。Twigsandleavescamesailingdown。Itwasasifathousandaxes,weeandinvisible,werebeingwielded。Manyofthemenwereconstantlydodgingandduckingtheirheads。

  Thelieutenantoftheyouth’scompanywasshotinthehand。Hebegantoswearsowon—

  drouslythatanervouslaughwentalongtheregi—

  mentalline。Theofficer’sprofanitysoundedconventional。Itrelievedthetightenedsensesofthenewmen。Itwasasifhehadhithisfingerswithatackhammerathome。

  Heheldthewoundedmembercarefullyawayfromhissidesothatthebloodwouldnotdripuponhistrousers。

  Thecaptainofthecompany,tuckinghisswordunderhisarm,producedahandkerchiefandbegantobindwithitthelieutenant’swound。

  Andtheydisputedastohowthebindingshouldbedone。

  Thebattleflaginthedistancejerkedaboutmadly。Itseemedtobestrugglingtofreeitselffromanagony。Thebillowingsmokewasfilledwithhorizontalflashes。

  Menrunningswiftlyemergedfromit。Theygrewinnumbersuntilitwasseenthatthewholecommandwasfleeing。Theflagsuddenlysankdownasifdying。Itsmotionasitfellwasagestureofdespair。

  Wildyellscamefrombehindthewallsofsmoke。Asketchingrayandreddissolvedintoamoblikebodyofmenwhogallopedlikewildhorses。

  Theveteranregimentsontherightandleftofthe304thimmediatelybegantojeer。Withthepassionatesongofthebulletsandthebansheeshrieksofshellsweremingledloudcatcallsandbitsoffacetiousadviceconcerningplacesofsafety。

  Butthenewregimentwasbreathlesswithhor—

  ror。\"Gawd!Saunders’sgotcrushed!\"whis—

  peredthemanattheyouth’selbow。Theyshrankbackandcrouchedasifcompelledtoawaitaflood。

  Theyouthshotaswiftglancealongtheblueranksoftheregiment。Theprofilesweremotion—

  less,carven;andafterwardherememberedthatthecolorsergeantwasstandingwithhislegsapart,asifheexpectedtobepushedtotheground。

  Thefollowingthrongwentwhirlingaroundtheflank。Hereandtherewereofficerscarriedalongonthestreamlikeexasperatedchips。Theywerestrikingaboutthemwiththeirswordsandwiththeirleftfists,punchingeveryheadtheycouldreach。Theycursedlikehighway—

  men。

  Amountedofficerdisplayedthefuriousangerofaspoiledchild。Heragedwithhishead,hisarms,andhislegs。

  Another,thecommanderofthebrigade,wasgallopingaboutbawling。Hishatwasgoneandhisclotheswereawry。Heresembledamanwhohascomefrombedtogotoafire。Thehoofsofhishorseoftenthreatenedtheheadsoftherunningmen,buttheyscamperedwithsin—

  gularfortune。Inthisrushtheywereapparentlyalldeafandblind。Theyheedednotthelargestandlongestoftheoathsthatwerethrownatthemfromalldirections。

  Frequentlyoverthistumultcouldbeheardthegrimjokesofthecriticalveterans;buttheretreatingmenapparentlywerenotevencon—

  sciousofthepresenceofanaudience。

  Thebattlereflectionthatshoneforaninstantinthefacesonthemadcurrentmadetheyouthfeelthatforcefulhandsfromheavenwouldnothavebeenabletohaveheldhiminplaceifhecouldhavegotintelligentcontrolofhislegs。

  Therewasanappallingimprintuponthesefaces。Thestruggleinthesmokehadpicturedanexaggerationofitselfonthebleachedcheeksandintheeyeswildwithonedesire。

  Thesightofthisstampedeexertedafloodlikeforcethatseemedabletodragsticksandstonesandmenfromtheground。Theyofthereserveshadtoholdon。Theygrewpaleandfirm,andredandquaking。

  Theyouthachievedonelittlethoughtinthemidstofthischaos。Thecompositemonsterwhichhadcausedtheothertroopstofleehadnotthenappeared。Heresolvedtogetaviewofit,andthen,hethoughthemightverylikelyrunbetterthanthebestofthem。

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  CHAPTERV。

  THEREweremomentsofwaiting。Theyouththoughtofthevillagestreetathomebeforethearrivalofthecircusparadeonadayinthespring。Herememberedhowhehadstood,asmall,thrillfulboy,preparedtofollowthedingyladyuponthewhitehorse,orthebandinitsfadedchariot。Hesawtheyellowroad,thelinesofexpectantpeople,andthesoberhouses。

  Heparticularlyrememberedanoldfellowwhousedtosituponacrackerboxinfrontofthestoreandfeigntodespisesuchexhibitions。A

  thousanddetailsofcolorandformsurgedinhismind。Theoldfellowuponthecrackerboxap—

  pearedinmiddleprominence。

  Someonecried,\"Heretheycome!\"

  Therewasrustlingandmutteringamongthemen。Theydisplayedafeverishdesiretohaveeverypossiblecartridgereadytotheirhands。

  Theboxeswerepulledaroundintovariousposi—

  tions,andadjustedwithgreatcare。Itwasasifsevenhundrednewbonnetswerebeingtriedon。

  Thetallsoldier,havingpreparedhisrifle,pro—

  ducedaredhandkerchiefofsomekind。Hewasengagedinknittingitabouthisthroatwithex—

  quisiteattentiontoitsposition,whenthecrywasrepeatedupanddownthelineinamuffledroarofsound。

  \"Heretheycome!Heretheycome!\"Gunlocksclicked。

  Acrossthesmoke—infestedfieldscameabrownswarmofrunningmenwhoweregivingshrillyells。Theycameon,stoopingandswingingtheirriflesatallangles。Aflag,tiltedforward,spednearthefront。

  Ashecaughtsightofthemtheyouthwasmomentarilystartledbyathoughtthatperhapshisgunwasnotloaded。Hestoodtryingtorallyhisfalteringintellectsothathemightrec—

  ollectthemomentwhenhehadloaded,buthecouldnot。

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