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  Mr。Baker,comingoutofhiscabin,calledoutthefirstnamesharplybeforeclosingthedoorbehindhim。Hewasgoingtotakechargeofthedeck。Onthehomewardtripaccordingtoanoldcustomofthesea,thechiefofficertakesthefirstnight—watch——fromeighttillmidnight。

  SoMr。Baker,afterhehadheardthelast‘Yes,sir!’

  saidmoodily,‘Relievethewheelandlook—out;’andclimbedwithheavyfeetthepoopladdertowindward。SoonafterMr。Creightoncamedown,whistlingsoftly,andwentintothecabin。Onthedoorstepthestewardlounged,inslippers,meditative,andwithhisshirt—sleevesrolleduptothearmpits。Onthemaindeckthecook,lockingupthegalleydoors,hadanaltercationwithyoungCharleyaboutapairofsocks。Hecouldbeheardsayingimpressively,inthedarknessamidships:‘Youdon’tdeserveakindness。I’vebeendryingthemforyou,andnowyoucomplainabouttheholes——andyouswear,too!Rightinfrontofme!IfIhadn’tbeenaChristian——whichyouain’t,youyoungruffian——Iwouldgiveyouacloutonthehead……Goaway!’MenincouplesorthreesstoodpensiveormovedsilentlyalongthebulwarksinthePage21

  waist。Thefirstbusydayofahomewardpassagewassinkingintothedullpeaceofresumedroutine。Aft,onthehighpoop,Mr。Bakerwalkedshuffling,gruntedtohimselfinthepausesofhisthoughts。Forward,thelook—outman,erectbetweentheflukesofthetwoanchors,hummedanendlesstune,keepinghiseyesfixeddutifullyaheadinavacantstare。Amultitudeofstarscomingoutintotheclearnightpeopledtheemptinessofthesky。

  Theyglittered,asifaliveabovethesea;theysurroundedtherunningshiponallsides;moreintensethantheeyesofastaringcrowd,andasinscrutableasthesoulsofmen。

  Thepassagehadbegun;andtheship,afragmentdetachedfromtheearth,wentonlonelyandswiftlikeasmallplanet。Roundhertheabyssesofskyandseametinanunattainablefrontier。Agreatcircularsolitudemovedwithher,everchangingandeverthesame,alwaysmonotonousandalwaysimposing。Nowandthenanotherwanderingwhitespeck,burdenedwithlife,appearedfaroff——disappeared;intentonitsowndestiny。

  Thesunlookeduponherallday,andeverymorningrosewithaburning,roundstareofundyingcuriosity。Shehadherownfuture;shewasalivewiththelivesofthosebeingswhotrodherdecks;likethatearthwhichhadgivenheruptothesea,shehadanintolerableloadofregretsandhopes。Onherlivedtimidtruthandaudaciouslies;and,liketheearth,shewasunconscious,fairtosee——andcondemnedbymentoanignoblefate。Theaugustlonelinessofherpathlentdignitytothesordidinspirationofherpilgrimage。Shedrovefoamingtothesouthward,asifguidedbythecourageofahighendeavour。Thesmilinggreatnessoftheseadwarfedtheextentoftime。Thedaysracedafteroneanother,brilliantandquickliketheflashesofalighthouse,andthenights,eventfulandshort,resembledfleetingdreams。Themenhadshakenintotheirplaces,andthehalf—hourlyvoiceofthebellsruledtheirlifeofunceasingcare。Nightanddaytheheadandshouldersofaseamancouldbeseenaftbythewheel,outlinedhighagainstsunshineorstarlight,verysteadyabovethestirofrevolvingspokes。Thefaceschanged,passinginrotation。Youthfulfaces,beardedfaces,darkfaces:facesserene,orfacesmoody,butallakinwiththebrotherhoodofthesea;allwiththesameattentiveexpressionofeyes,carefullywatchingthecompassPage22

  orthesails。CaptainAllistoun,serious,andwithanoldredmufflerroundhisthroatalldaylongpervadedthepoop。Atnight,manytimesheroseoutofthedarknessofthecompanion,suchasaphantomaboveagrave,andstoodwatchfulandmuteunderthestars,hisnight—shirtflutteringlikeaflag——then,withoutasound,sankdownagain。HewasbornontheshoresofthePentlandFirth。InhisyouthheattainedtherankofharpoonerinPeterheadwhalers。Whenhespokeofthattimehisrestlessgreyeyesbecamestillandcold,liketheloomofice。AfterwardshewentintotheEastIndiantradeforthesakeofchange。HehadcommandedtheNarcissussinceshewasbuilt。Helovedhisship,anddroveherunmercifully;forhissecretambitionwastomakeheraccomplishsomedayabrilliantlyquickpassagewhichwouldbementionedinnauticalpapers。Hepronouncedhisowner’snamewithasardonicsmilespokebutseldomtohisofficers,andreprovederrorsinagentlevoice,withwordsthatcuttothequick。Hishairwasiron—grey,hisfacehardandofthecolourofpump—leather。Heshavedeverymorningofhislife——atsix——butonce(beingcaughtinafiercehurricaneeightymilessouth—westofMauritius)hehadmissedthreeconsecutivedays。HefearednaughtbutanunforgivingGod,andwishedtoendhisdaysinalittlehouse,withaplotofgroundattached——farinthecountry——outofsightofthesea。

  He,therulerofthatminuteworld,seldomdescendedfromtheOlympianheightsofhispoop。Belowhim——athisfeet,sotospeak——commonmortalsledtheirbusyandinsignificantlives。AlongthemaindeckMr。Bakergruntedinamannerbloodthirstyandinnocuous;andkeptallournosestothegrindstone,being——asheonceremarked——paidfordoingthatverything。Themenworkingaboutthedeckwerehealthyandcontented——asmostseamenare,whenoncewellouttosea。ThetruepeaceofGodbeginsatanyspotathousandmilesfromthenearestland;andwhenHesendstherethemessengersofHismightitisnotinterriblewrathagainstcrime,presumption,andfolly,butpaternally,tochastensimplehearts——ignorantheartsthatknownothingoflife,andbeatundisturbedbyenvyorgreed。

  Intheeveningthecleareddeckshadareposefulaspect,resemblingtheautumnoftheearth。Thesunwassinkingtorest,wrappedPage23

  inamantleofwarmclouds。Forward,ontheendofthesparespurs,theboatswainandthecarpentersattogetherwithcrossedarms;twomenfriendly,powerful,anddeep—chested。Besidethemtheshort,dumpysailmaker——whohadbeenintheNavy——related,betweenthewhiffsofhispipe,impossiblestoriesaboutAdmirals。Couplestrampedbackwardsandforwards,keepingstepandbalancewithouteffort,inaconfinedspace。Pigsgruntedinthebigpigstye。Belfast,leaningthoughtfullyonhiselbow,abovethebarscommunedwiththemthroughthesilenceofhismeditation。Fellowswithshirtsopenwideonsunburntbreastssatuponthemooringbits,andallupthestepsoftheforecastleladders。Bytheforemastafewdiscussedinacirclethecharacteristicsofagentleman。Onesaid:——‘It’smoneyasdoesit。’Anothermaintained:——‘No,it’sthewaytheyspeak。’LameKnowlesstumpedupwithanunwashedface(hehadthedistinctionofbeingthedirtymanoftheforecastle),and,showingafewyellowfangsinashrewdsmile,explainedcraftilythathe‘hadseensomeoftheirpants’Thebacksidesofthem——hehadobserved——werethinnerthanpaperfromconstantsittingdowninoffices,yetotherwisetheylookedfirst—rateandwouldlastforyears。Itwasallappearance。‘Itwas,’hesaid,‘bloomin’

  easytobeagentlemanwhenyouhadacleanjobforlife。’Theydisputedendlessly,obstinateandchildish;theyrepeatedinshoutsandwithinflamedfacestheiramazingarguments;whilethesoftbreeze,eddyingdowntheenormouscavityoftheforesail,thatstoodoutdistendedabovetheirbareheads,stirredthetumbledhairwithatouchpassingandlightlikeanindulgentcaress。

  Theywereforgettingtheirtoil,theywereforgettingthemselves。

  Thecookapproachedtohear,andstoodby,beamingwiththeinwardconsciousnessofhisfaith,likeaconceitedsaintunabletoforgethisgloriousreward;

  Donkin,solitaryandbroodingoverhiswrongsontheforecastle—head,movedclosertocatchthedriftofthediscussionbelowhim;heturnedhissallowfacetothesea,andhisthinnostrilsmoved,sniffingthebreeze,asheloungednegligentlybytherail。Intheglowofsunsetfacesshonewithinterest,teethflashed,eyessparkled。Thewalkingcouplesstoodstillsuddenly,withbroadgrins;amanbendingoverawashtub,satup,entranced,withthesoapsudsfleckinghiswetarms。EventhePage24

  threepettyofficerslistenedleaningback,comfortablypropped,andwithsuperiorsmiles。Belfastleftoffscratchingtheearofhisfavoritepig,and,open—mouthed,triedwitheagereyestohavehissay。Heliftedhisarms,grimacingandbaffled。FromadistanceCharleyscreamedatthering:——‘Iknowaboutgentlemenmorn’nanyofyou。I’vebeenhintymatewith’em……I’veblackedtheirboots。’Thecook,craninghisnecktohearbetter,wasscandalized。‘Keepyourmouthshutwhenyoureldersspeak,youimpudentyoungheathen——you。’‘Allright,oldHallelujah,I’mdone,’answeredCharley,soothingly。

  AtsomeopinionofdirtyKnowles,deliveredwithanairofsupernaturalcunning,arippleoflaughterranalong,roselikeawave,burstwithastartlingroar。Theystampedwithbothfeet;theyturnedtheirshoutingfacestothesky;many,spluttering,slappedtheirthighs;whileoneortwo,bentdouble,gaspedhuggingthemselveswithbotharmslikemeninpain。Thecarpenterandtheboatswain,withoutchangingtheirattitude,shookwithlaughterwheretheysat;thesailmaker,chargedwithananecdoteaboutaCommodore,lookedsulky;thecookwaswipinghiseyeswithagreasyrag;andlameKnowles,astonishedathisownsuccess,stoodintheirmidstshowingaslowsmile。

  SuddenlythefaceofDonkinleaninghigh—shoulderedovertheafter—railbecamegrave。Somethinglikeaweakrattlewasheardthroughtheforecastledoor。Itbecameamurmur;itendedinasighinggroan。Thewashermanplungedbothhisarmsintothetubabruptly;thecookbecamemorecrestfallenthananexposedbackslider;theboatswainmovedhisshouldersuneasily;thecarpentergotupwithaspringandwalkedaway——whilethesailmakerseemedmentallytogivehisstoryup,andbegantopuffathispipewithsombredetermination。Intheblacknessofthedoorwayapairofeyesglimmeredwhite,andbigandstaring。ThenJamesWait’sheadprotruding,becamevisible,asifsuspendedbetweenthetwohandsthatgraspedadoorpostoneachsideoftheface。Thetasselofhisbluewoollennightcap,cockedforward,dancedgailyoverhislefteyelid。Hesteppedoutinatotteringstride。Helookedpowerfulasever,butshowedastrangeandaffectedunsteadinessinhisgait;hisfacewasperhapsatriflethinner,andhiseyesappearedratherstartlinglyprominent。HeseemedtohastenthePage25

  retreatofdepartinglightbyhisverypresence;thesettingsundippedsharply,asthoughfleeingfromournigger;ablackmistemanatedfromhim;asubtleanddismalinfluenceasomethingcoldandgloomythatfloatedoutandsettledonallthefaceslikeamourningveil。Thecirclebrokeup。Thejoyoflaughterdiedonstiffenedlips。Therewasnotasmileleftamongalltheship’scompany。Notawordwasspoken。Manyturnedtheirbacks,tryingtolookunconcerned;others,withavertedheads,senthalf—reluctantglancesoutofthecornersoftheireyes。Theyresembledcriminalsconsciousofmisdeedsmorethanhonestmendistractedbydoubt;onlytwoorthreestaredfrankly,butstupidly,withlipsslightlyopen。AllexpectedJamesWaittosaysomething,and,atthesametime,hadtheairofknowingbeforehandwhathewouldsay。Heleanedhisbackagainstthedoorpost,andwithheavyeyessweptoverusaglancedomineeringandpained,likeasicktyrantoverawingacrowdofabjectbutuntrustworthyslaves。

  Noonewentaway。theywaitedinfascinateddread。Hesaidironically,withgaspsbetweenthewords:——

  ‘Thankyou……chaps。You……arenice……and……

  quiet……youare!Yellingso……before……thedoor……’

  Hemadealongerpause,duringwhichheworkedhisribsinanexaggeratedlabourofbreathing。Itwasintolerable。Feetwereshuffled。

  Belfastletoutagroan;butDonkinaboveblinkedhisredeyelidswithinvisibleeyelashes,andsmiledbitterlyoverthenigger’shead。

  Theniggerwentonagainwithsurprisingease。Hegaspednomore,andhisvoicerang,hollowandloud,asthoughhehadbeentalkinginanemptycavern。Hewascontemptuouslyangry。

  ‘Itriedtogetawinkofsleep。YouknowIcan’tsleepo’nights。Andyoucomejabberingnearthedoorherelikeabloominglotofoldwomen……Youthinkyourselvesgoodshipmates。Doyou?……Muchyoucareforadyingman!’

  Belfastswungawayfromthepigstye。‘Jimmy,’

  hecriedtremulously,‘ifyouhadn’tbeensickIwould——’

  Hestopped。Theniggerwaitedawhile,thensaid,inagloomytone:——‘Youwould……What?Goan’fightanothersuchoneasyourself。Leavemealone。Itwon’tbeforlong。I’llsoondie……It’scomingrightenough!’

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  Menstoodaroundverystill,breathinglightly,andwithexasperatedeyesItwasjustwhattheyhadexpected,andhatedtohear,thatideaofstalkingdeath,thrustatthemmanytimesadaylikeaboastandlikeamenacebythisobnoxiousnigger。Heseemedtotakeaprideinthatdeathwhich,sofar,hadattendedonlyupontheeaseofhislife;

  hewasoverbearingaboutit,asifnooneelseintheworldhadeverbeenintimatewithsuchacompanion;heparadeditunceasinglybeforeuswithanaffectionatepersistencethatmadeitspresenceindubitable,andatthesametimeincredible。Nomanshouldbesuspectedofsuchmonstrousfriendship!Washeareality——orwasheasham——thisever—expectedvisitorofJimmy’s?Wehesitatedbetweenpityandmistrust,while,ontheslightestprovocation,heshookbeforeoureyesthebonesofhisbothersomeandinfamousskeleton。Hewasforevertrottinghimout。Hewouldtalkofthatcomingdeathasthoughithadbeenalreadythere,asifithadbeenwalkingthedeckoutside,asifitwouldpresentlycomeintosleepintheonlyemptybunk;asifithadsatbyhissideateverymeal。Itinterfereddailywithouroccupations,withourleisure,withouramusements。

  Wehadnosongsandnomusicintheevening,becauseJimmy(wealllovinglycalledhimJimmy,toconcealourhateofhisaccomplice)hadmanaged,withthatprospectivedeceaseofhis,todisturbevenArchie’smentalbalance。

  Archiewastheowneroftheconcertina;butafteracoupleofstinginglecturesfromJimmyherefusedtoplayanymore。Hesaid:——‘Yon’sanuncannyjoker。Idinnakenwhat’swrangwi’him,butthere’ssomethingverrawrang,verrawrang。It’snaemannerofuseaskingme。Iwon’tplay。’

  OursingersbecamemutebecauseJimmywasadyingman。Forthesamereasonnochap——asKnowlesremarked——could‘driveinanailtohanghisfewpoorragsupon,’withoutbeingmadeawareoftheenormityhecommittedindisturbingJimmy’sinterminablelastmoments。Atnight,insteadofthecheerfulyell,‘Onebell!Turnout!Doyouhearthere?Hey!hey!hey!Showleg!’thewatcheswerecalledmanbyman,inwhispers,soasnottointerferewithJimmy’s,possibly,lastslumberonearth。True,hewasalwaysawake,andmanaged,aswesneakedoutondeck,toplantinourbackssomecuttingremarkthat,forthemoment,madeusfeelasifwehadbeenbrutes,andafterwardsmadeussuspectourselvesofPage27

  beingfools。Wespokeinlowtoneswithinthatfo’c’sleasthoughithadbeenachurch。Weateourmealsinsilenceanddread,forJimmywascapriciouswithhisfood,andrailedbitterlyatthesaltmeat,atthebiscuits,attheteaasatarticlesunfitforhumanconsumption——‘letaloneforadyingman!’Hewouldsay:——‘Can’tyoufindabettersliceofmeatforasickmanwho’stryingtogethometobecured——orburied?Butthere!ifIhadachance,youfellowswoulddoawaywithit。Youwouldpoisonme。Lookatwhatyouhavegivenme!’

  Weservedhiminhisbedwithrageandhumility,asifwehadbeenthebasecouriersofahatedprince;andherewardedusbyhisunconciliatingcriticism。Hehadfoundthesecretofkeepingforeverontherunthefundamentalimbecilityofmankind;hehadthesecretoflife,thatconfoundeddyingmen,andhemadehimselfmasterofeverymomentofourexistence。Wegrewdesperate,andremainedsubmissive。EmotionallittleBelfastwasforeveronthevergeofassaultoronthevergeoftears。OneeveningheconfidedtoArchie:——‘foraha’pennyIwouldknockhisuglyblockofftheskulkingdodger!’Andthestraight—forwardArchiepretendedtobeshocked!SuchwastheinfernalspellwhichthatcasualSt。Kitt’sniggerhadcastuponourguilelessmanhood!ButthesamenightBelfaststolefromthegalleytheofficers’Sundayfruitpie,totemptthefastidiousappetiteofJimmy。Heendangerednotonlyhislongfriendshipwiththecookbutalso——asisappeared——hiseternalwelfare。Thecookwasover—whelmedwithgrief;hedidnotknowtheculpritbutheknewthatwickednessflourished;

  heknewthatSatanwasabroadamongstthosemen,whomhelookeduponasinsomewayunderhisspiritualcare。Wheneverhesawthreeorfourofusstandingtogetherhewouldleavehisstove,torunoutandpreach。Wefledfromhim;andonlyCharley(whoknewthethief)affrontedthecookwithacandidgazewhichirritatedthegoodman。‘It’syou,I

  believe,’hegroaned,sorrowful,andwithapatchofsootonhischin。‘It’syou。Youareabrandforburning!Nomoreofyoursocksinmygalley。’Soon,unofficially,theinformationwasspreadaboutthat,shouldtherebeanothercaseofstealing,ourmarmalade(anextraallowance:halfapoundperman)wouldbestopped。Mr。Bakerceasedtoheapjocularabuseuponhisfavourites,andgruntedsuspiciouslyatall。Thecaptain’scoldeyes,highuponthepoop,Page28

  glitteredmistrustful,ashesurveyedustroopinginasmallmobfromhalyardstobracesfortheusualeveningpullatalltheropes。Suchstealinginamerchantshipisdifficulttocheck,andmaybetakenasadeclarationbythemenoftheirdislikefortheirofficers。Itisabadsymptom。ItmayendinGodknowswhattrouble。TheNarcissuswasstillapeacefulship,butmutualconfidencewasshaken。Donkindidnotconcealhisdelight。

  Weweredismayed。

  ThenillogicalBelfastapproachedourniggerwithgreatfury。JamesWait,withhiselbowonthepillow,choked,gaspedout:——

  ‘DidIaskyoutobonethedrattedthing?Blowyourblamedpie。

  Ithasmademeworse——youlittleIrishlunatic,you!’Belfast,withscarletfaceandtremblinglips,madeadashathim。Everymanintheforecastlerosewithashout。Therewasamomentofwildtumult。Someoneshriekedpiercingly:——‘Easy,Belfast!Easy!……’

  WeexpectedBelfasttostrangleWaitwithoutmoreado。Dustflew。Wehearditthroughthenigger’scough,metallicandexplosivelikeagong。NextmomentwesawBelfasthangingoverhim。Hewassayingplaintively:——‘Don’t!

  Don’t,Jimmy!don’tbelikethat。anangelcouldn’tputupwithye——sickasyeare。’HelookedroundatusfromJimmy’sbedside,hiscomicalmouthtwitching,andthroughtearfuleyes;thenhetriedtoputstraightthedisarrangedblankets。Theunceasingwhisperoftheseafilledtheforecastle。WasJamesWaitfrightened,ortouched,orrepentant?Helayonhisbackwithahandtohisside,andasmotionlessasifhisexpectedvisitorhadcomeatlast。Belfastfumbledabouthisfeet,repeatingwithemotion:——‘Yes。Weknow。Yearebad,but……Justsaywhatyewantdone,and……Weallknowyearebad——verybad……’No!

  DecidedlyJamesWaitwasnottouchedorrepentant。Truthtosay,heseemedratherstartled。Hesatupwithincrediblesuddennessandease。‘Ah,youthinkIambad,doyou?’hesaidgloomily,inhisclearestbaritonevoice(tohearhimspeaksometimesyouwouldneverthinktherewasanythingwrongwiththatman)。‘Doyou?……Well,actaccording!

  Someofyouhaven’tsenseenoughtoputablanketshipshapeoverasickman。There!Leaveitalone’!Icandieanyhow!’Belfastturnedawaylimplywithagestureofdiscouragement。Inthesilenceoftheforecastle,fullofinterestedmen,Donkinpronounceddistinctly:——‘Well,I’mblowed!’andsniggered。Waitlookedathim。HelookedathiminaPage29

  quitefriendlymanner。Nobodycouldtellwhatwouldpleaseourincomprehensibleinvalid:butforusthescornofthatsniggerwashardtobear。

  Donkin’spositionintheforecastlewasdistinguishedbutunsafe。Hestoodonthebademinenceofageneraldislike。Hewasleftalone;andinhisisolationhecoulddonothingbutthinkofthegalesoftheCapeofGoodHopeandenvyusthepossessionofwarmclothingandwaterproofs。Oursea—boots,ouroilskincoats,ourwell—filledsea—chests,weretohimsomanycausesforbittermeditation:hehadnoneofthosethings,andhefeltinstinctivelythatnoman,whentheneedarose,wouldoffertosharethemwithhim。Hewasimpudentlycringingtousandsystematicallyinsolenttotheofficers。Heanticipatedthebestresults,forhimself,fromsuchalineofconduct——andwasmistaken。Suchnaturesforgetthatunderextremeprovocationmenwillbejust——whethertheywanttobesoornot。Donkin’sinsolencetolong—sufferingMr。Bakerbecameatlastintolerabletous,andwerejoicedwhenthemate,onedarknigh,tamedhimforgood。

  Iwasdoneneatly,withgreatdecencyanddecorum,andwithlittlenoise。

  Wehadbeencalled——justbeforemidnight——totrimtheyards,andDonkin——asusualmade——asusual,madeinsultingremarks。Westoodsleepilyinarowwiththeforebraceinourhandswaitingforthenextorder,andheardinthedarknessascufflytramplingoffeet,anexclamationofsurprise,soundsofcuffsandslaps,suppressed,hissingwhispers:——‘Ah!

  Willyou!’……‘Don’t!……Don’t!’……‘Thenbehave。’……‘Oh!Oh!……’Afterwardsthereweresoftthudsmixedwiththerattleofironthingsasifaman’sbodyhadbeentumblinghelplesslyamongstthemain—pumprods。Beforewecouldrealisethesituation,Mr。Baker’svoicewasheardverynearandalittleimpatient:——‘Haulaway,men!Laybackonthatrope!’

  Andwedidlaybackontheropewithgreatalacrity。Asifnothinghadhappened,thechiefmatewentontrimmingtheyardswithhisusualandexasperatingfastidiousness。Wedidn’tatthetimeseeanythingofDonkin,anddidnotcare。Hadthechiefofficerthrownhimoverboard,nomanwouldhavesaidasmuchas‘Hallo!he’sgone!’But,intruth,nogreatharmwasdone——evenifDonkindidloseoneofhisfrontteeth。

  Weperceivedthisinthemorning,andpreservedaceremonioussilence:

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  commandedustobeblindanddumbinsuchacase,andwecherishedthedecenciesofourlifemorethanordinarylandsmenrespecttheirs。Charley,withunpardonablewantofsavoirvivre,yelledout:——‘’Aveyoubeentoyourdentyst?……Hurtye,didn’tit?’Hegotaboxontheearfromoneofhisbestfriends。Theboywassurprised,andremainedplungedingriefforatleastthreehours。Weweresorryforhim,butyouthrequiresevenmoredisciplinethanage。Donkingrinnedvenomously。Fromthatdayhebecamepitiless;toldJimmythathewasa‘blackfraud’;hintedtousthatwewereanimbecilelot,dailytakeninbyavulgarnigger。AndJimmyseemedtolikethefellow!

  Singletonliveduntouchedbyhumanemotions。Taciturnandunsmiling,hebreathedamongstus——inthataloneresemblingtherestofthecrowd。Weweretryingtobedecentchaps,andfounditjollydifficult;

  weoscillatedbetweenthedesireofvirtueandthefearofridicule;wewishedtosaveourselvesfromthepainofremorse,butdidnotwanttobemadethecontemptibledupesofoursentiment。Jimmy’shatefulaccompliceseemedtohaveblownwithhisimpurebreathundreamt—ofsubtletiesintoourhearts。Weweredisturbedandcowardly。Thatweknew。Singletonseemedtoknownothing,understandnothing。Wehadthoughthimtillthenaswiseashelooked,butnowwedared,attimes,suspecthimofbeingstupid——

  fromoldage。Oneday,however,atdinner,aswesatonourboxesroundatindishthatstoodonthedeckwithinthecircleofourfeet,Jimmyexpressedhisgeneraldisgustwithmenandthingsinwordsthatwereparticularlydisgusting。Singletonliftedhishead。Webecamemute。Theoldman,addressingJimmy,asked:——‘Areyoudying?’Thusinterrogated,JameWaitappearedhorriblystartledandconfused。Wewereallstartled。

  Mouthsremainedopen;heartsthumped;eyesblinked;adroppedtinforkrattledinthedish;amanroseasiftogoout,andstoodstill。InlessthanaminuteJimmypulledhimselftogether。——‘Why?Can’tyouseeIam?’heansweredshakily。Singletonliftedapieceofsoakedbiscuit(‘histeeth’——hedeclared——‘hadnoedgeonthemnow’)tohislips。——‘Well,getonwithyourdying,’hesaidwithvenerablemildness:‘don’traiseablamedfusswithusoverthatjob。Wecan’thelpyou。’

  Jimmyfellbackinhisbunk,andforalongtimelayverystillwipingtheperspirationoffhischin。Thedinner—tinswereputPage31

  awayquickly。Ondeckwediscussedtheincidentinwhispers。Someshowedachucklingexultation。Manylookedgrave。Wamibo,afterlongperiodsofstaringdreaminess,attemptedabortivesmiles;andoneoftheyoungScandinavians,muchtormentedbydoubt,venturedintheseconddog—watchtoapproachSingleton(theoldmandidnotencourageusmuchtospeaktohim)andasksheepishly:

  ——‘Youthinkhewilldie?’Singletonlookedup。——

  ‘Why,ofcoursehewilldie。’hesaiddeliberately。

  Thisseemeddecisive。Itwaspromptlyimpartedtoeveryonebyhimwhohadconsultedtheoracle。Shyandeager,hewouldstepupandwithavertedgazerecitehisformula:——‘OldSingletonsayshewilldie。’

  Itwasarelief!Atlastweknewthatourcompassionwouldnotbemisplaced,andwecouldagainsmilewithoutmisgivings——butwereckonedwithoutDonkin。Donkin‘didn’twantto’avenotruckwith’emdirtyfurriners。’

  WhenNeillssencametohimwiththenews:‘Singletonsayshewilldie,’heansweredhimbyaspiteful‘Andsowillyou——youfat—headedDutchman。WishyouDutchmenwerehalldead——’steadcomin’takin’ourmoneyhintoyourstarvin’country。’Wewereappalled。WeperceivedthatafterallSingleton’sanswermeantnothing。

  Webegantohatehimformakingfunofus。Allourcertitudesweregoing;

  wewereondoubtfultermswithourofficers;thecookhadgivenusupforlost;wehadoverheardtheboatswain’sopinionthat‘wewereacrowdofsofties’WesuspectedJimmy,oneanother,andevenourveryselves。Wedidnotknowwhattodo。AteveryinsignificantturnofourhumblelifewemetJimmyoverbearingandblockingtheway,arm—in—armwithhisawfulandveiledfamiliar。Itwasaweirdservitude。

  ItbeganaweekafterleavingBombayandcameonusstealthilylikeanyothergreatmisfortune。EveryonehadremarkedthatJimmyfromthefirstwasveryslackathiswork;butwethoughtitsimplytheoutcomeofhisphilosophyoflife。Donkinsaid:——‘Youputnomoreweightonaropethanabloodyspurrer。’Hedisdainedhim。Belfast,readyforafight,exclaimedprovokingly:——‘Youdon’tkillyourself,oldman!’————‘Wouldyou?’heretortedwithextremescorn——andBelfastretired。Onemorning,aswewerewashingdecks,Mr。Bakercalledtohim:——‘Bringyourbroomoverhere,Wait。’Hestrolledlanguidly。‘Moveyourself!

  Ough!’gruntedMr。Baker。‘What’sthematterwithyourhindlegs?’HestoppeddeadPage32

  short。Hegazedslowlywitheyesthatbulgedout,withanexpressionaudaciousandsad。——‘Itisn’tmylegs,’hesaid,‘it’smylungs。’Everybodylistened。——‘What’s……Ough……!’

  ‘What’swrongwiththem?’inquiredMr。Baker。Allthewatchstoodaroundonthewetdeck,grinning,withbroomsorbucketsintheirhands。Hesaidmournfully:——‘Going——orgone。Can’tyouseeI’madyingman?Iknowit!’Mr。Bakerwasdisgusted。

  ——‘Thenwhythedevildidyoushipaboardhere?——’

  ‘ImustlivetillIdie——mustn’tI?’hereplied。

  Thegrinsbecameaudible。——‘Gooffthedeck——getoutofmysight,’saidMr。Baker。Hewasnonplussed。Itwasanuniqueexperience。

  JamesWait,obedient,droppedhisbroom,andwalkedslowlyforward。Aburstoflaughterfollowedhim。Itwastoofunny。Allhandslaughed……Theylaughed!……Alas!’

  Hebecamethetormentorofallourmoments;hewasworsethananightmare。Youcouldn’tseethattherewasanythingwrongwithhim:

  aniggerdoesnotshow。Hewasnotveryfat——certainly——butthenhewasnoleanerthanotherniggerswehadknown。Hecoughedoften,butthemostprejudicedpersoncouldperceivethat,mostly,hecoughedwhenitsuitedhispurpose。hewouldn’t,orcouldn’t,dohiswork——andhewouldn’tlieup。Onedayhewouldskipaloftwiththebestofthem,andnexttimewewouldbeobligedtoriskourlivestogethislimpbodydown。Hewasreported,hewasexamined;hewasremonstratedwith,threatened,cajoled,lectured。Hewascalledintothecabintointerviewthecaptain。Therewerewildrumours。Itwassaidhehadcheekedtheoldman;itwassaidhehadfrightenedhim。Charleymaintainedthatthe‘skipper,weepin’’asgiv’’im’isblessin’an’apotofjam。’KnowleshaditfromthestewardthattheunspeakableJimmyhadbeenreelingagainstthecabinfurniture;thathehadgroaned;thathehadcomplainedofgeneralbrutalityanddisbelief;andhadendedbycoughingallovertheoldman’smeteorologicaljournalswhichwerethenspreadonthetable。Atanyrate,Waitreturnedforwardsupportedbythesteward。who,inapainedandshockedvoice,entreatedus:——‘Here!Catchholdofhim,oneoryou。

  Heistolieup。’Jimmydrankatinmugfulofcoffee,and,afterbullyingfirstoneandthenanother,wenttobed。Heremainedtheremostofthetime,butwhenitsuitedhimwouldcomeondeckandappearamongstus。Hewasscornfulandbrooding;helookedaheaduponPage33

  thesea;andnoonecouldtellwhatwasthemeaningofthatblackmansittingapartinameditativeattitudeandasmotionlessasacarving。

  Herefusedsteadilyallmedicine;hethrewsagoandcornflouroverboardtillthestewardgottiredofbringingittohim。Heaskedforparegoric。Theysenthimabigbottle;enoughtopoisonawildernessofbabes。Hekeptitbetweenhismattressandthedealliningoftheship’sside;andnobodyeversawhimtakeadose。Donkinabusedhimtohisface,jeeredathimwhilehegasped;andthesamedayWaitwouldlendhimawarmjersey。OnceDonkinreviledhimforhalfanhour;reproachedhimwiththeextraworkhismalingeringgavetothewatch;andendedbycallinghim‘ablack—facedswine。’Underthespellofouraccursedperversitywewerehorror—struck。ButJimmypositivelyseemedtorevelinthatabuse。Itmadehimlookcheerful——andDonkinhadapairofoldseabootsthrownathim。‘Here,youEast—endtrash,’

  boomedWait,‘youmayhavethat。’

  AtlastMr。BakerhadtotellthecaptainthatJamesWaitwasdisturbingthepeaceoftheship。‘Knockdisciplineonthehead——hewill,Ough,’gruntedMr。Baker。Asamatteroffact,thestarboardwatchcameasnearaspossibletorefusingduty,whenorderedonemorningbytheboatswaintowashouttheirforecastle。ItappearsJimmyobjectedtoawetfloor——andthatmorningwewereinacompassionatemood。Wethoughttheboatswainabrute,and,practically,toldhimso。

  OnlyMr。Baker’sdelicatetactpreventedanall—firedrow:herefusedtotakeusseriously。Hecamebustlingforward,andcalledusmanyunpolitenames,butinsuchaheartyandseamanlikemannerthatwebegantofeelashamedofourselves。Intruth,wethoughthimmuchtoogoodasailortoannoyhimwillingly:andafterallJimmymighthavebeenafraud——probablywas!Theforecastlegotacleanupthatmorning;butintheafternoonasick—baywasfittedupinthedeck—house。Itwasanicelittlecabinopeningondeck,andwithtwoberths。Jimmy’sbelongingsweretransportedthere,andthen——notwithstandinghisprotests——Jimmyhimself。Hesaidhecouldn’twalk。Fourmencarriedhimonablanket。Hecomplainedthathewouldhavetodietherealone,likeadog。Wegrievedforhim,andweredelightedtohavehimremovedfromtheforecastle。Weattendedhimasbefore。Thegalleywasnextdoor,andthecooklookedinmanytimesaday。Waitbecamealittlemorecheerful。Knowlesaffirmedhavingheardhimlaughtohimselfinpealsoneday。Othershadseenhimwalkingaboutondeckatnight。Hislittleplace,withthedoorajaronalonghook,wasalwaysfulloftobaccosmoke。Wespokethroughthecrackcheerfully,sometimesabusively,aswepassedby,intentonourwork。Hefascinatedus。Hewouldneverletdoubtdie。Heovershadowedtheship。Invulnerableinhispromiseofspeedycorruptionhetrampledonourself—respect,hedemonstratedtousdailyourwantofmoralcourage;hetaintedourlives。Hadwebeenamiserablegangofwretchedimmortals,unhallowedalikebyhopeandfear,hecouldnothavelordeditoveruswithamorepitilessassertionofhissublimeprivilege。

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  MeantimetheNarcissus,withsquareyards,ranoutofthefairmonsoon。Shedriftedslowly,swingingroundandroundthecompass,throughafewdaysofbafflinglightairs。Underthepatterofshortwarmshowers,grumblingmenwhirledtheheavyyardsfromsidetosine;theycaughtholdofthesoakedropeswithgroansandsighs,whiletheirofficers,sulkyanddrippingwithrainwater,unceasinglyorderedthemaboutinweariedvoices。Duringtheshortrespitestheylookedwithdisgustintothesmartingpalmsoftheirstiffhands,andaskedoneanotherbitterly:——‘Whowouldbeasailorifhecouldbeafarmer?’Allthetemperswerespoilt,andnomancaredwhathesaid。Oneblacknight,whenthewatch,pantingintheheatandhalf—drownedwiththerain,hadbeenthroughfourmortalhourshuntedfrombracetobrace,Belfastdeclaredthathewould‘chuckgoingtoseaforeverandgoinasteamer。’

  Thiswasexcessive,nodoubt。CaptainAllistoun,withgreatself—control,wouldmuttersadlytoMr。Baker:——‘Itisnotsobad——notsobad。’whenhehadmanagedtoshove,anddodge,andmanoeuvrehissmartshipthroughsixtymilesintwenty—fourhours。Fromthedoorstepofthelittlecabin,Jimmy,chininhand,watchedourdistastefullabourswithinsolentandmelancholyeyes。Wespoketohimgently——andoutofhissightexchangedsoursmiles。

  Then,again,withafairwindandunderaclearsky,theshipwentonpilinguptheSouthLatitude。ShepassedoutsideMadagascarandMauritiuswithoutaglimpseottheland。Extralashingswereputonthesparespars。Hatcheswerelookedto。Thestewardinhisleisuremomentsandwithaworriedairtriedtofitwashboardstothecabindoors。Stoutcanvaswasbentwithcare。Anxiouseyeslookedtothewestward,towardsthecapeofstorms。Theshipbegantodipintoasouth—westswell,andthesoftlyluminousskyoflowlatitudestookonahardersheenfromdaytodayaboveourheads:itarchedhighabovetheship,vibratingandpale,likeanimmensedomeofsteel,resonantwiththedeepvoiceoffresheninggales。Thesunshinegleamedcoldonthewhitecurlsofblackwaves。Beforethestrongbreathofwesterlysquallstheship,withreducedsail,layslowlyover,obstinateandyielding。Shedrovetoandfrointheunceasingendeavourtofightherwaythroughtheinvisibleviolenceofthewinds:

  shepitchedheadlongintothedarksmoothhollows;shestruggledupwardsoverthesnowyridgesofgreatrunningseas;sherolled,restless,fromsidetoside,likeathinginpain。Enduringandvaliant,sheansweredtothecallofmen;andherslimsparswavingforeverinabruptsemicircles,seemedtobeckoninvainforhelptowardsthestormysky。

  ItwasabadwinterofftheCapethatyear。Therelievedhelmsmencameoffflappingtheirarms,orranstampinghardandblowingintoswollen,redfingers。Thewatchondeckdodgedthestingofcoldspraysor,crouchinginshelteredcorners,watcheddismallythehighandmercilessseasboardingtheshiptimeaftertimeinunappeasablefury。Watertumbledincataractsovertheforecastledoors。Youhadtodashthroughawaterfalltogetintoyourdampbed。Thementurnedinwetandturnedoutstifftofacetheredeemingandruthlessextractionsoftheirgloriousandobscurefate。Faraft,andpeeringwatchfullytowindward,theofficerscouldbeseenthroughthemistofsqualls。Theystoodbytheweather—rail,holdingongrimly,straightandglisteningintheirlongcoats;then,attimes,inthedisorderedplungesofthehard—drivenship,theyappearedhighup,attentive,tossingviolentlyabovethegreylineofacloudedhorizon,andinmotionlessattitudes。

  Theywatchedtheweatherandtheshipasmenonshorewatchthemomentouschancesoffortune。CaptainAllistounneverleftthedeck,asthoughhehadbeenpartoftheship’sfittings。NowPage37

  andthenthesteward,shivering,butalwaysinshirtsleeves,wouldstruggletowardshimwithsomehotcoffee,halfofwhichthegaleblewoutofeachcupbeforeitreachedthemaster’slips。Hedrankwhatwasleftgravelyinonelonggulp,whileheavysprayspatteredloudlyonhisoilskincoat,theseasswishingbrokeabouthishighboots;andhenevertookhiseyesofftheship。Hewatchedhereverymotion;hekepthisgazeriveteduponhereasalovingmanwhowatchestheunselfishtoilofadelicatewomanupontheslenderthreadofwhoseexistenceishungthewholemeaningandjoyoftheworld。Weallwatchedher。Shewasbeautifulandhadaweakness。

  Welovedhernolessforthat。Weadmiredherqualitiesaloud,weboastedofthemtooneanother,asthoughtheyhadbeenourown,andtheconsciousnessofheronlyfaultwekeptburiedinthesilenceofourprofoundaffection。

  Shewasborninthethunderingpealofhammersbeatinguponiron,inblackeddiesofsmoke,underagraysky,onthebanksoftheClyde。Theclamorousandsombrestreamgivesbirthtothingsofbeautythatfloatawayintothesunshineoftheworldtobelovedbymen。TheNarcissuswasoneofthatperfectbrood。Lessperfectthanmanyperhaps,butshewasours,andconsequently,incomparable。Wewereproudofher。InBombay,ignorantlandlubbersalludedtoherasthat‘prettygreyship。’

  Pretty!Ascurvymeedofcommendation!Weknewshewasthemostmagnificentsea—boateverlaunched。Wetriedtoforgetthat,likemanygoodsea—boats,shewasattimesrathercrank。Shewasexacting。Shewantedcareinloadingandhandling,andnooneknewexactlyhowmuchcarewouldbeenough。Sucharetheimperfectionsofmeremen!Theshipknew,andsometimeswouldcorrectthepresumptuoushumanignorancebythewholesomedisciplineoffear。Wehadheardominousstoriesaboutpastvoyages。Thecook(technicallyaseaman,butinrealitynosailor)——thecook,whenunstrungbysomemisfortune,suchastherollingoverofasaucepan,wouldmuttergloomilywhilehewipedthefloor:——‘There!Lookatwhatshehasdone!Somevoy’geshewilldrownallhands!You’llseeifshewon’t。’Towhichthesteward,snatchinginthegalleyamomenttodrawbreathinthehurryofhisworriedlife,wouldremarkphilosophically:——‘Thosethatseewon’ttell,anyhow。Idon’twanttoseeit。’Wederidedthosefears。OurheartswentouttotheoldmanwhenhepressedherhardsoPage38

  astomakeherholdherown,holdtoeveryinchgainedtowindward;

  whenhemadeherunderreefedsails,leapobliquelyatenormouswaves。

  Themen,knittedtogetheraftintoareadygroupbythefirstsharporderofanofficercomingtotakechargeofthedeckinbadweather:——‘Keephandythewatch,’stoodadmiringhervaliance。Theireyesblinkedinthewind;theirdarkfaceswerewetwithdropsofwatermoresaltandbitterthanhumantears;beardsandmoustaches,soaked,hungstraightanddrippinglikefineseaweed。Theywerefantasticallymisshapen;inhighboots,inhatslikehelmets,andswayingclumsily,stiffandbulkyinglisteningoilskins,theyresembledmenstrangelyequippedforsomefabulousadventure。

  Wheneversheroseeasilytoatoweringgreensea,elbowsdugribs,facesbrightened,lipsmurmured:——‘Didn’tshedoitcleverly,’

  andalltheheadsturninglikeonewatchedwithsardonicgrinsthefoiledwavegoroaringtoleeward,whitewiththefoamofamonstrousrage。Butwhenshehadnotbeenquickenoughand,stuckheavily,layovertremblingundertheblow,weclutchedattheropes,andlookingupatthenarrowbandsofdrenchedandstrainedsailswavingdesperatelyaloft,wethoughtinourhearts——‘Nowonder。Poorthing!’

  Thethirty—seconddayoutofBombaybeganinauspiciously。

  Inthemorningaseasmashedoneofthegalleydoors。Wedashedinthroughlotsofsteamandfoundthecookverywetandindignantwiththeship:

  ——‘She’sgettingworseeveryday。She’stryingtodrownmeinfrontofmyownstove!’Hewasveryangry。Wepacifiedhim,andthecarpenter,thoughwashedawaytwicefromthere,managedtorepairthedoor。Throughthataccidentourdinnerwasnotreadytilllate,butitdidn’tmatterintheendbecauseKnowles,whowenttofetchit,gotknockeddownbyaseaandthedinnerwentovertheside。CaptainAllistoun,lookingmorehardandthin—lippedthanever,hungontofulltopsailsandforesail,andwouldnotnoticethattheship,askedtodotoomuch,appearedtoloseheartaltogetherforthefirsttimesinceweknewher。Sherefusedtorise,andboredherwaysullenlythroughtheseas。Twicerunning,asthoughshehadbeenblindorwearyoflife,sheputhernosedeliberatelyintoabigwaveandsweptthedecksfromendtoend。Astheboatswainobservedwithmarkedannoyance,whileweweresplashingaboutinabodytotryandsaveaworthlessPage39

  wash—tub:——‘Everybloomingthingintheshipisgoingoverboardthisafternoon。’VenerableSingletonbrokehishabitualsilenceandsaidwithaglancealoft:——‘Theoldman’sinatemperwiththeweather,butit’snogoodbein’angrywiththewindsofheaven。’

  Jimmyhadshuthisdoor,ofcourse。Weknewhewasdryandcomfortablewithinhislittlecabin,andinourabsurdsaywerepleasedonemoment,exasperatedthenext,bythatcertitude。Donkinskulkedshamelessly,uneasyandmiserable。Hegrumbled:——‘I’mperishin’withcoldhoutsideinbloomin’wetrags,an’that’ereblacksojersitsdryonablamedchestfullofbloomin’clothes;blankhisblacksoul!’Wetooknonoticeofhim;wehardlygaveathoughttoJimmyandhisbosomfriend。Therewasnoleisureforidleprobingofhearts。Sailsblewadrift。Thingsbrokeloose。Coldandwet,wewerewashedaboutthedeckwhiletryingtorepairdamages。Theshiptossedabout,shakenfuriously,likeatoyinthehandofalunatic。Justatsunsettherewasarushtoshortensailbeforethemenaceofasombrehailcloud。Thehardgustofwindcamebrutalliketheblowofafist。Theshiprelievedofhercanvasintimereceiveditpluckily:

  sheyieldedreluctantlytotheviolentonset;then,comingupwithastatelyandirresistiblemotion,broughthersparstowindwardintheteethofthescreechingsquall。Outoftheabysmaldarknessoftheblackcloudoverheadwhitehailstreamedonher,rattledontherigging,leapedinhandfulsofftheyards,reboundedonthedeck——roundandgleaminginthemurkyturmoillikeashowerofpearls。Itpassedaway。Foramomentalividsunshothorizontallythelastraysofasinisterlightbetweenthehillsofsteep,rollingwaves。Thenawildnightrushedin——stampedoutinagreathowlthatdismalremnantofastormyday。

  Therewasnosleeponboardthatnight。Mostseamenrememberintheirlifeoneortwosuchnightsofaculminatinggale。Nothingseemsleftofthewholeuniversebutdarkness,clamour,fury——andtheship。

  Andlikethelastvestigeofashatteredcreationshedrifts,bearingananguishedremnantofsinfulmankind,throughthedistress,tumult,andpainofanavengingterror。Noonesleptintheforecastle。Thetinoil—lampsuspendedonalongstring,smoking,describedwidecircles;wetclothingmadedarkheapsontheglisteningfloor;athinlayerofwaterrushedtoandfro。InthePage40

  bed—placesmenlaybooted,restingonelbowsandwithopeneyes。Hung—upsuitsofoilskinswungoutandin,livelyanddisquietinglikerecklessghostsofdecapitatedseamendancinginatempest。Noonespokeandalllistened。Outsidethenightmoanedandsobbedtotheaccompanimentofacontinuousloudtremorasofinnumerabledrumsbeatingfaroff。Shriekspassedthroughtheair。Tremendousdullblowsmadetheshiptremblewhilesherolledundertheweightoftheseastopplingonherdeck。Attimesshesoaredupswiftlyasiftoleavethisearthforever,thanduringinterminablemomentsfellthroughavoidwithalltheheartsonboardofherstandingstill,tillafrightfulshock,expectedandsudden,startedthemoffagainwithabigthump。Aftereverydislocatingjerkoftheship,Wamibo,stretchedfulllength,hisfaceonthepillow,groanedslightlywiththepainofhistormenteduniverse。Nowandthen,forthefractionofanintolerablesecond,theship,inthefiercerburstofaterribleuproar,remainedonherside,vibratingandstill,withastillnessmoreappallingthanthewildestmotion。Thenuponallthosepronebodiesastirwouldpass,ashiverofsuspense。Amanwouldprotrudehisanxiousheadandapairofeyesglistenedintheswayoflight,glaringwildly。Somemovedtheirlegsalittleasifmakingreadytojumpout。Butseveral,motionlessontheirbacksandwithonehandgrippinghardtheedgeofthebunk,smokednervouslywithquickpuffs,staringupwards;immobilisedinagreatcravingforpeace。

  Atmidnight,ordersweregiventofurltheforeandmizentopsails。Withimmenseeffortsmencrawledaloftthroughamercilessbuffeting,savedthecanvas,andcrawleddownalmostexhausted,tobearinpantingsilencethecruelbatteringoftheseas。Perhapsforthefirsttimeinthehistoryofthemerchantservicethewatch,toldtogobelow,didnotleavethedeck,asifcompelledtoremaintherebythefascinationofavenomousviolence。Ateveryheavygustmen,huddledtogether,whisperedtooneanother:——‘Itcanblownoharder’——andpresentlythegalewouldgivethemtheliewithapiercingshriek,anddrivetheirbreathbackintotheirthroats。Afiercesquallseemedtoburstasunderthethickmassofsootyvapours;andabovethewrackoftorncloudsglimpsescouldbecaughtofthehighmoonrushingbackwardswithfrightfulspeedoverthesky,rightintothewind’seye。ManyhungtheirPage41

  heads,mutteringthatit‘turnedtheirinwardsout’

  tolookatit。Soonthecloudsclosedup,andtheworldagainbecamearaging,blinddarknessthathowled,flingingatthelonelyshipsaltspraysandsleet。

  Abouthalf—pastseventhepitchyobscurityroundusturnedaghastlygrey,andweknewthatthesunhadrisen。Thisunnaturalandthreateningdaylight,inwhichwecouldseeoneanother’swildeyesanddrawnfaces,wasonlyanaddedtaxonourendurance。Thehorizonseemedtohavecomeonallsideswithinarm’slengthoftheship。Intothatnarrowedcirclefuriousseasleapedin,stuck,andleapedout。Arainofsalt,heavydropsflewaslantlikemist。Themain—topsailhadtobegoose—winged,andwithstolidresignationeveryonepreparedtogoaloftoncemore;buttheofficersyelled,pushedback,andatlastweunderstoodthatnomoremenwouldbeallowedtogoontheyardthanwereabsolutelynecessaryforthework。Asatanymomentthemastswerelikelytobejumpedoutorblownoverboard,weconcludedthatthecaptaindidn’twanttoseeallhiscrowdgooverthesideatonce。Thatwasreasonable。Thewatchthenonduty,ledbyMr。Creighton,begantostruggleuptherigging。Thewindflattenedthemagainsttheratlines;then,easingalittle,wouldletthemascentacoupleofsteps;andagain,withasuddengust,pinalluptheshroudsthewholedrawlinglineinattitudesofcrucifixion。Theotherwatchplungeddownonthemaindecktohaulupthesail。Men’sheadsbobbedupasthewaterflungthemirresistiblyfromsidetoside。Mr。Bakergruntedencouraginglyinourmidst,splutteringandblowingamongstthetangledropeslikeanenergeticporpoise。Favouredbyanominousanduntrustworthylull,theworkwasdonewithoutanyonebeinglosteitheroffthedeckorfromtheyard。Forthemomentthegaleseemedtotakeoff,andtheship,asifgratefulforourefforts,pluckedupheartandmadebetterweatherofit。

  Ateightthemenoffduty,watchingtheirchance,ranforwardoverthefloodeddecktogetsomerest。Theotherhalfofthecrewremainedaftfortheirturnof‘seeingherthroughhertrouble,’

  astheyexpressedif。Thetwomatesurgedthemastertogobelow。Mr。Bakergruntedinhisear:——‘Ough!surelynow……Ough!……confidenceinus……nothingmoretodo……shemustlayitoutorgo。Ough!Ough!’

  TallyoungMr。Creightonsmileddownathimcheerfully:——‘……She’srightasatrivet!Takeaspell,sir。’Helookedatthemstonilywithbloodshot,sleeplesseyes。Therimsofhiseyelidswerescarlet,andhemovedhisjawunceasinglywithasloweffort,asthoughhehadbeenmasticatingalumpofindia—rubber。Heshookhishead。Herepeated:——

  ‘Nevermindme。Imustseeitout——Imustseeitout,’

  butheconsentedtositdownforamomentontheskylight,withhishardfaceturnedunflinchinglytowindward。Theseaspatatit——andstoical,itstreamedwithwaterasthoughhehadbeenweeping。Ontheweathersideofthepoopthewatch,hangingontothemizenriggingandtooneanother,triedtoexchangeencouragingwords。Singleton,atthewheel,yelledout:

  ——‘Lookoutforyourselves!’Hisvoicereachedtheminawarningwhisper。Theywerestartled。

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