\"Notintentionally-andwhohurriesoff,ateveryrisk,tomakethemosthumbleexcuses。\"
\"Well,whatdoyouadvisemenow?\"
\"Tobeverypatient;towatchandwait。\"
\"Andisthatbadadviceorgood?\"
\"Thatisnotformetosay,\"Mrs。Pennimanrejoined,withsomedignity。\"Ionlyclaimitissincere。\"
\"Andwillyoucometomenextweekandrecommendsomethingdifferentandequallysincere?\"
\"Imaycometoyounextweek,andtellyouthatIaminthestreets。\"
\"Inthestreets?\"
\"Ihavehadaterriblescenewithmybrother,andhethreatens,ifanythinghappens,toturnmeoutofthehouse。YouknowIamapoorwoman。\"
Morrishadaspeculativeideathatshehadalittleproperty;buthenaturallydidnotpressthis。
\"Ishouldbeverysorrytoseeyousuffermartyrdomforme,\"hesaid。\"ButyoumakeyourbrotheroutaregularTurk。\"
Mrs。Pennimanhesitatedalittle。
\"IcertainlydonotregardAustinasanorthodoxChristian。\"
\"AndamItowaittillheisconverted?\"
\"Waitatanyratetillheislessviolent。Bideyourtime,Mr。
Townsend;remembertheprizeisgreat。\"
Morriswalkedalongsometimeinsilence,tappingtherailingsandgatepostsverysharplywithhisstick。
\"Youcertainlyaredevilishinconsistent!\"hebrokeoutatlast。
\"IhavealreadygotCatherinetoconsenttoaprivatemarriage。\"
Mrs。Pennimanwasindeedinconsistent,foratthisnewsshegavealittlejumpofgratification。
\"Oh,whenandwhere?\"shecried。Andthenshestoppedshort。
Morriswasalittlevagueaboutthis。
\"Thatisn\'tfixed;butsheconsents。It\'sdeucedawkwardnowtobackout。\"
Mrs。Penniman,asIsay,hadstoppedshort;andshestoodtherewithhereyesfixedbrilliantlyonhercompanion。
\"Mr。Townsend,\"sheproceeded,\"shallItellyousomething?
Catherinelovesyousomuchthatyoumaydoanything。\"
Thisdeclarationwasslightlyambiguous,andMorrisopenedhiseyes。
\"Iamhappytohearit。Butwhatdoyoumeanby\'anything\'?\"
\"Youmaypostpone-youmaychangeabout;shewon\'tthinktheworseofyou。\"
Morrisstoodtherestill,withhisraisedeyebrows;thenhesaid,simplyandratherdryly,\"Ah!\"AfterthisheremarkedtoMrs。Pennimanthatifshewalkedsoslowlyshewouldattractnotice,andhesucceeded,afterafashion,inhurryingherbacktothedomicileofwhichhertenurehadbecomesoinsecure。
CHAPTER22。
HEHADslightlymisrepresentedthematterinsayingthatCatherinehadconsentedtotakethegreatstep。Weleftherjustnowdeclaringthatshewouldburnhershipsbehindher;butMorris,afterhavingelicitedthisdeclaration,hadbecomeconsciousofgoodreasonsfornottakingitup。Heavoided,gracefullyenough,fixingaday,thoughheleftherundertheimpressionthathehadhiseyeonone。
Catherinemayhavehadherdifficulties;butthoseofhercircumspectsuitorarealsoworthyofconsideration。Theprizewascertainlygreat;butitwasonlytobewonbystrikingthehappymeanbetweenprecipitancyandcaution。Itwouldbeallverywelltotakeone\'sjumpandtrusttoProvidence;Providencewasmoreespeciallyonthesideofcleverpeople,andcleverpeoplewereknownbyanindispositiontorisktheirbones。
Theultimaterewardofaunionwithayoungwomanwhowasbothunattractiveandimpoverishedoughttobeconnectedwithimmediatedisadvantagesbysomeverypalpablechain。BetweenthefearoflosingCatherineandherpossiblefortunealtogether,andthefearoftakinghertoosoonandfindingthispossiblefortuneasvoidofactualityasacollectionofemptiedbottles,itwasnotcomfortableforMorrisTownsendtochoose-afactthatshouldberememberedbyreadersdisposedtojudgeharshlyofayoungmanwhomayhavestruckthemasmakingbutanindifferentlysuccessfuluseoffinenaturalparts。HehadnotforgottenthatinanyeventCatherinehadherowntenthousandayear;hehaddevotedanabundanceofmeditationtothiscircumstance。Butwithhisfinepartsheratedhimselfhigh,andhehadaperfectlydefiniteappreciationofhisvalue,whichseemedtohiminadequatelyrepresentedbythesumIhavementioned。Atthesametimeheremindedhimselfthatthissumwasconsiderable,thateverythingisrelative,andthatifamodestincomeislessdesirablethanalargeone,thecompleteabsenceofrevenueisnowhereaccountedanadvantage。
Thesereflectionsgavehimplentyofoccupation,andmadeitnecessarythatheshouldtrimhissail。DoctorSloper\'soppositionwastheunknownquantityintheproblemhehadtoworkout。ThenaturalwaytoworkitoutwasbymarryingCatherine;butinmathematicstherearemanyshortcuts,andMorriswasnotwithoutahopethatheshouldyetdiscoverone。WhenCatherinetookhimathisword,andconsentedtorenouncetheattempttomollifyherfather,hedrewbackskillfullyenough,asIhavesaid,andkepttheweddingdaystillanopenquestion。Herfaithinhissinceritywassocompletethatshewasincapableofsuspectingthathewasplayingwithher;hertroublejustnowwasofanotherkind。Thepoorgirlhadanadmirablesenseofhonor,andfromthemomentshehadbroughtherselftothepointofviolatingherfather\'swish,itseemedtoherthatshehadnorighttoenjoyhisprotection。Itwasonherconsciencethatsheoughttoliveunderhisroofonlysolongassheconformedtohiswisdom。Therewasagreatdealofgloryinsuchaposition,butpoorCatherinefeltthatshehadforfeitedherclaimtoit。Shehadcastherlotwithayoungmanagainstwhomhehadsolemnlywarnedher,andbrokenthecontractunderwhichheprovidedherwithahappyhome。Shecouldnotgiveuptheyoungman,soshemustleavethehome;andthesoonertheobjectofherpreferenceofferedheranother,thesoonerhersituationwouldloseitsawkwardtwist。Thiswasclosereasoning;butitwascommingledwithaninfiniteamountofmerelyinstinctivepenitence。Catherine\'sdays,atthistime,weredismal,andtheweightofsomeofherhourswasalmostmorethanshecouldbear。Herfatherneverlookedather,neverspoketoher。Heknewperfectlywhathewasabout,andthiswaspartofaplan。Shelookedathimasmuchasshedared(forshewasafraidofseemingtoofferherselftohisobservation),andshepitiedhimforthesorrowshehadbroughtuponhim。Sheheldupherheadandbusiedherhands,andwentaboutherdailyoccupations;andwhenthestateofthingsinWashingtonSquareseemedintolerable,sheclosedhereyesandindulgedherselfwithanintellectualvisionofthemanforwhosesakeshehadbrokenasacredlaw。
Mrs。Penniman,ofthethreepersonsinWashingtonSquare,hadmuchthemostofthemannerthatbelongstoagreatcrisis。IfCatherinewasquiet,shewasquietlyquiet,asImaysay,andherpatheticeffects,whichtherewasnoonetonotice,wereentirelyunstudiedandunintended。Ifthedoctorwasstiffanddry,andabsolutelyindifferenttothepresenceofhiscompanions,itwassolightly,neatly,easilydone,thatyouwouldhavehadtoknowhimwelltodiscoverthat,onthewhole,heratherenjoyedhavingtobesodisagreeable。ButMrs。Pennimanwaselaboratelyreservedandsignificantlysilent;therewasaricherrustleintheverydeliberatemovementstowhichsheconfinedherself,andwhensheoccasionallyspoke,inconnectionwithsomeverytrivialevent,shehadtheairofmeaningsomethingdeeperthanwhatshesaid。BetweenCatherineandherfathernothinghadpassedsincetheeveningshewenttospeaktohiminhisstudy。Shehadsomethingtosaytohim-itseemedtohersheoughttosayit-butshekeptitbackforfearofirritatinghim。Healsohadsomethingtosaytoher;buthewasdeterminednottospeakfirst。Hewasinterested,asweknow,inseeinghow,ifshewerelefttoherself,shewould\"stick。\"AtlastshetoldhimshehadseenMorrisTownsendagain,andthattheirrelationsremainedquitethesame。
\"Ithinkweshallmarry-beforeverylong。Andprobably,meanwhile,Ishallseehimratheroften;aboutonceaweek-notmore。\"
Thedoctorlookedathercoldlyfromheadtofoot,asifshehadbeenastranger。Itwasthefirsttimehiseyeshadrestedonherforaweek,whichwasfortunate,ifthatwastobetheirexpression。
\"Whynotthreetimesaday?\"heasked。\"Whatpreventsyourmeetingasoftenasyouchoose?\"
Sheturnedawayamoment;thereweretearsinhereyes。Thenshesaid,\"Itisbetteronceaweek。\"
\"Idon\'tseehowitisbetter。Itisasbadasitcanbe。IfyouflatteryourselfthatIcareforlittlemodificationsofthatsort,youareverymuchmistaken。Itisaswrongofyoutoseehimonceaweekasitwouldbetoseehimalldaylong。Notthatitmatterstome,however。\"
Catherinetriedtofollowthesewords,buttheyseemedtoleadtowardavaguehorrorfromwhichsherecoiled。\"Ithinkweshallmarryprettysoon,\"sherepeated,atlast。
Herfathergaveherhisdreadfullookagain,asifsheweresomeoneelse。\"Whydoyoutellmethat?It\'snoconcernofmine。\"
\"Oh,Father,\"shebrokeout,\"don\'tyoucare,evenifyoudofeelso?\"
\"Notabutton。Onceyoumarry,it\'squitethesametomewhen,orwhere,orwhyyoudoit;andifyouthinktocompoundforyourfollybyhoistingyourflyinthisway,youmayspareyourselfthetrouble。\"
Withthisheturnedaway。Butthenextdayhespoketoherofhisownaccord,andhismannerwassomewhatchanged。\"Shallyoubemarriedwithinthenextfourorfivemonths?\"heasked。
\"Idon\'tknow,Father,\"saidCatherine。\"Itisnotveryeasyforustomakeupourminds。\"
\"Putitoff,then,forsixmonths,andinthemeantimeIwilltakeyoutoEurope。Ishouldlikeyouverymuchtogo。\"
Itgavehersuchdelight,afterhiswordsofthedaybefore,tohearthatheshould\"like\"hertodosomething,andthathestillhadinhisheartanyofthetendernessofpreference,thatshegavealittleexclamationofjoy。ButthenshebecameconsciousthatMorriswasnotincludedinthisproposal,andthat-asregardsreallygoing-shewouldgreatlyprefertoremainathomewithhim。Butsheblushednonethelessmorecomfortablythanshehaddoneoflate。
\"ItwouldbedelightfultogotoEurope,\"sheremarked,withasensethattheideawasnotoriginal,andthathertonewasnotallitmightbe。
\"Verywell,then,wewillgo。Packupyourclothes。\"
\"IhadbettertellMr。Townsend,\"saidCatherine。
Herfatherfixedhiscoldeyesuponher。\"Ifyoumeanthatyouhadbetteraskhisleave,allthatremainstomeistohopehewillgiveit。\"
Thegirlwassharplytouchedbythepatheticringofthewords;itwasthemostcalculated,themostdramaticlittlespeechthedoctorhadeveruttered。Shefeltthatitwasagreatthingforher,underthecircumstances,tohavethisfineopportunityofshowinghimherrespect;andyettherewassomethingelsethatshefeltaswell,andthatshepresentlyexpressed。\"IsometimesthinkthatifIdowhatyoudislikesomuch,Ioughtnottostaywithyou。\"
\"Tostaywithme?\"
\"IfIlivewithyou,Ioughttoobeyyou。\"
\"Ifthat\'syourtheory,it\'scertainlymine,\"saidthedoctor,withadrylaugh。
\"ButifIdon\'tobeyyou,Ioughtnottolivewithyou-toenjoyyourkindnessandprotection。\"
Thisstrikingargumentgavethedoctorasuddensenseofhavingunderestimatedhisdaughter;itseemedevenmorethanworthyofayoungwomanwhohadrevealedthequalityofunaggressiveobstinacy。
Butitdispleasedhim-displeasedhimdeeply,andhesignifiedasmuch。\"Thatideaisinverybadtaste,\"hesaid。\"DidyougetitfromMr。Townsend?\"
\"Ohno;it\'smyown,\"saidCatherine,eagerly。
\"Keepittoyourself,then,\"herfatheranswered,morethaneverdeterminedsheshouldgotoEurope。
CHAPTER23。
IFMORRISTOWNSENDwasnottobeincludedinthisjourney,nomorewasMrs。Penniman,whowouldhavebeenthankfulforaninvitation,butwho(todoherjustice)boreherdisappointmentinaperfectlyladylikemanner。\"IshouldenjoyseeingtheworksofRaphaelandtheruins-theruinsofthePantheon,\"shesaidtoMrs。Almond,\"but,ontheotherhand,IshallnotbesorrytobealoneandatpeaceforthenextfewmonthsinWashingtonSquare。Iwantrest;Ihavebeenthroughsomuchinthelastfourmonths。\"Mrs。AlmondthoughtitrathercruelthatherbrothershouldnottakepoorLaviniaabroad;butsheeasilyunderstoodthat,ifthepurposeofhisexpeditionwastomakeCatherineforgetherlover,itwasnotinhisinteresttogivehisdaughterthisyoungman\'sbestfriendasacompanion。\"IfLaviniahadnotbeensofoolish,shemightvisittheruinsofthePantheon,\"shesaidtoherself;andshecontinuedtoregrethersister\'sfolly,eventhoughthelatterassuredherthatshehadoftenheardtherelicsinquestionmostsatisfactorilydescribedbyMr。Penniman。Mrs。Pennimanwasperfectlyawarethatherbrother\'smotiveinundertakingaforeigntourwastolayatrapforCatherine\'sconstancy;andsheimpartedthisconvictionveryfranklytoherniece。
\"HethinksitwillmakeyouforgetMorris,\"shesaid(shealwayscalledtheyoungman\"Morris\"now)。\"Outofsight,outofmind,youknow。Hethinksthatallthethingsyouwillseeovertherewilldrivehimoutofyourthoughts。\"
Catherinelookedgreatlyalarmed。\"Ifhethinksthat,Ioughttotellhimbeforehand。\"
Mrs。Pennimanshookherhead。\"Tellhimafterward,mydear-afterhehashadallthetroubleandexpense。That\'sthewaytoservehim。\"Andsheadded,inasofterkey,thatitmustbedelightfultothinkofthosewholoveusamongtheruinsofthePantheon。
Herfather\'sdispleasurehadcostthegirl,asweknow,agreatdealofdeep-wellingsorrow-sorrowofthepurestandmostgenerouskind,withoutatouchofresentmentorrancor;butforthefirsttime,afterhehaddismissedwithsuchcontemptuousbrevityherapologyforbeingachargeuponhim,therewasasparkofangerinhergrief。
Shehadfelthiscontempt;ithadscorchedher;thatspeechaboutherbadtastehadmadeherearsburnforthreedays。Duringthisperiodshewaslessconsiderate;shehadanidea-arathervagueone,butitwasagreeabletohersenseofinjury-thatnowshewasabsolvedfrompenance,andmightdowhatshechose。ShechosetowritetoMorrisTownsendtomeetherintheSquareandtakehertowalkaboutthetown。IfsheweregoingtoEuropeoutofrespecttoherfather,shemightatleastgiveherselfthissatisfaction。Shefeltineverywayatpresentmorefreeandmoreresolute;therewasaforcethaturgedher。Nowatlast,completelyandunreservedly,herpassionpossessedher。
Morrismetheratlast,andtheytookalongwalk。Shetoldhimimmediatelywhathadhappened;thatherfatherwishedtotakeheraway-itwouldbeforsixmonths-toEurope;shewoulddoabsolutelywhatMorrisshouldthinkbest。Shehopedinexpressiblythathewouldthinkitbestsheshouldstayathome。Itwassometimebeforehesaidwhathethought;heasked,astheywalkedalong,agreatmanyquestions。Therewasonethatespeciallystruckher;itseemedsoincongruous。
\"Shouldyouliketoseeallthosecelebratedthingsoverthere?\"
\"Ohno,Morris!\"saidCatherine,quitedeprecatingly。
\"Graciousheaven,whatadullwoman!\"Morrisexclaimedtohimself。
\"HethinksIwillforgetyou,\"saidCatherine,\"thatallthesethingswilldriveyououtofmymind。\"
\"Well,mydear,perhapstheywill。\"
\"Pleasedon\'tsaythat,\"Catherineanswered,gently,astheywalkedalong。\"PoorFatherwillbedisappointed。\"
Morrisgavealittlelaugh。\"Yes,Iverilybelievethatyourpoorfatherwillbedisappointed。ButyouwillhaveseenEurope,\"headded,humorously。\"Whatatakein!\"
\"Idon\'tcareforseeingEurope,\"Catherinesaid。
\"Yououghttocare,mydear;anditmaymollifyyourfather。\"
Catherine,consciousofherobstinacy,expectedlittleofthis,andcouldnotridherselfoftheideathatingoingabroadandyetremainingfirm,sheshouldplayherfatheratrick。\"Don\'tyouthinkitwouldbeakindofdeception?\"sheasked。
\"Doesn\'thewanttodeceiveyou?\"criedMorris。\"Itwillservehimright。Ireallythinkyouhadbettergo。\"
\"Andnotbemarriedforsolong?\"
\"Bemarriedwhenyoucomeback。YoucanbuyyourweddingclothesinParis。\"AndthenMorris,withgreatkindnessoftone,explainedhisviewofthematter。Itwouldbeagoodthingthatsheshouldgo;itwouldputthemcompletelyintheright。Itwouldshowtheywerereasonable,andwillingtowait。Oncetheyweresosureofeachother,theycouldaffordtowait-whathadtheytofear?Iftherewasaparticleofchancethatherfatherwouldbefavorablyaffectedbyhergoing,thatoughttosettleit;for,afterall,Morriswasveryunwillingtobethecauseofherbeingdisinherited。Itwasnotforhimself,itwasforherandforherchildren。Hewaswillingtowaitforher;itwouldbehard,buthecoulddoit。Andoverthere,amongbeautifulscenesandnoblemonuments,perhapstheoldgentlemanwouldbesoftened;suchthingsweresupposedtoexertahumanizinginfluence。Hemightbetouchedbyhergentleness,herpatience,herwillingnesstomakeanysacrificebutthatone;andifsheshouldappealtohimsomeday,insomecelebratedspot-inItaly,say,intheevening;inVenice,inagondola,bymoonlight-ifsheshouldbealittlecleveraboutit,andtouchtherightchord,perhapshewouldfoldherinhisarms,andtellherthatheforgaveher。Catherinewasimmenselystruckwiththisconceptionoftheaffair,whichseemedeminentlyworthyofherlover\'sbrilliantintellect,thoughshevieweditaskanceinsofarasitdependeduponherownpowersofexecution。Theideaofbeing\"clever\"inagondolabymoonlightappearedtohertoinvolveelementsofwhichhergraspwasnotactive。
Butitwassettledbetweenthemthatsheshouldtellherfatherthatshewasreadytofollowhimobedientlyanywhere,makingthementalreservationthatshelovedMorrisTownsendmorethanever。
Sheinformedthedoctorshewasreadytoembark,andhemaderapidarrangementsforthisevent。Catherinehadmanyfarewellstomake,butwithonlytwoofthemareweactivelyconcerned。Mrs。Pennimantookadiscriminatingviewofherniece\'sjourney;itseemedtoherveryproperthatMr。Townsend\'sdestinedbrideshouldwishtoembellishhermindbyaforeigntour。
\"Youleavehimingoodhands,\"shesaid,pressingherlipstoCatherine\'sforehead。(Shewasveryfondofkissingpeople\'sforeheads;itwasaninvoluntaryexpressionofsympathywiththeintellectualpart。)\"Ishallseehimoften;Ishallfeellikeoneofthevestalsofoldtendingthesacredflame。\"
\"Youbehavebeautifullyaboutnotgoingwithus,\"Catherineanswered,notpresumingtoexaminethisanalogy。
\"Itismypridethatkeepsmeup,\"saidMrs。Penniman,tappingthebodyofherdress,whichalwaysgaveforthasortofmetallicring。
Catherine\'spartingwithherloverwasshort,andfewwordswereexchanged。
\"ShallIfindyoujustthesamewhenIcomeback?\"sheasked;thoughthequestionwasnotthefruitofskepticism。
\"Thesame-onlymoreso,\"saidMorris,smiling。
ItdoesnotenterintoourschemetonarrateindetailDoctorSloper\'sproceedingsintheEasternHemisphere。HemadethegrandtourofEurope,traveledinconsiderablesplendor,and(aswastohavebeenexpectedinamanofhishighcultivation)foundsomuchinartandantiquitytointeresthim,thatheremainedabroad,notforsixmonths,butfortwelve。Mrs。Penniman,inWashingtonSquare,accommodatedherselftohisabsence。Sheenjoyedheruncontesteddominionintheemptyhouse,andflatteredherselfthatshemadeitmoreattractivetotheirfriendsthanwhenherbrotherwasathome。ToMorrisTownsend,atleast,itwouldhaveappearedthatshemadeitsingularlyattractive。Hewasaltogetherhermostfrequentvisitor,andMrs。Pennimanwasveryfondofaskinghimtotea。Hehadhischair-averyeasyone-atthefiresideinthebackparlor(whenthegreatmahoganyslidingdoors,withsilverknobsandhinges,whichdividedthisapartmentfromitsmoreformalneighbor,wereclosed),andheusedtosmokecigarsinthedoctor\'sstudy,whereheoftenspentanhourinturningoverthecuriouscollectionsofitsabsentproprietor。HethoughtMrs。Pennimanagoose,asweknow;buthewasnogoosehimself,and,asayoungmanofluxurioustastesandscantyresources,hefoundthehouseaperfectcastleofindolence。Itbecameforhimaclubwithasinglemember。Mrs。Pennimansawmuchlessofhersisterthanwhilethedoctorwasathome;forMrs。AlmondhadfeltmovedtotellherthatshedisapprovedofherrelationswithMr。
Townsend。Shehadnobusinesstobesofriendlytoayoungmanofwhomtheirbrotherthoughtsomeanly,andMrs。AlmondwassurprisedatherlevityinfoistingamostdeplorableengagementuponCatherine。
\"Deplorable!\"criedLavinia。\"Hewillmakeheralovelyhusband。\"
\"Idon\'tbelieveinlovelyhusbands,\"saidMrs。Almond。\"Ionlybelieveingoodones。Ifhemarriesher,andshecomesintoAustin\'smoney,theymaygeton。Hewillbeanidle,amiable,selfish,and,doubtless,tolerablygood-naturedfellow。Butifshedoesn\'tgetthemoney,andhefindshimselftiedtoher,heavenhavemercyonher!
Hewillhavenone。Hewillhateherforhisdisappointment,andtakehisrevenge;hewillbepitilessandcruel。WoebetidepoorCatherine!
Irecommendyoutotalkalittlewithhissister;it\'sapityCatherinecan\'tmarryher!\"
Mrs。PennimanhadnoappetitewhateverforconversationwithMrs。
Montgomery,whoseacquaintanceshemadenotroubletocultivate;andtheeffectofthisalarmingforecastofherniece\'sdestinywastomakeherthinkitindeedathousandpitiesthatMr。Townsend\'sgenerousnatureshouldbeembittered。Brightenjoymentwashisnaturalelement,andhowcouldhebecomfortableifthereshouldprovetobenothingtoenjoy?ItbecameafixedideawithMrs。Pennimanthatheshouldyetenjoyherbrother\'sfortune,onwhichshehadacutenessenoughtoperceivethatherownclaimwassmall。
\"Ifhedoesn\'tleaveittoCatherine,itcertainlywon\'tbetoleaveittome,\"shesaid。
CHAPTER24。
THEDOCTOR,duringthefirstsixmonthshewasabroad,neverspoketohisdaughteroftheirlittledifference,partlyonsystem,andpartlybecausehehadagreatmanyotherthingstothinkabout。Itwasidletoattempttoascertainthestateofheraffectionswithoutdirectinquiry,becauseifshehadnothadanexpressivemanneramongthefamiliarinfluencesofhome,shefailedtogatheranimationfromthemountainsofSwitzerlandorthemonumentsofItaly。
Shewasalwaysherfather\'sdocileandreasonableassociate-goingthroughtheirsight-seeingindeferentialsilence,nevercomplainingoffatigue,alwaysreadytostartatthehourhehadappointedovernight,makingnofoolishcriticisms,andindulginginnorefinementsofappreciation。\"Sheisaboutasintelligentasthebundleofshawls,\"thedoctorsaid,hermainsuperioritybeingthat,whilethebundleofshawlssometimesgotlost,ortumbledoutofthecarriage,Catherinewasalwaysatherpost,andhadafirmandampleseat。Butherfatherhadexpectedthis,andhewasnotconstrainedtosetdownherintellectuallimitationsasatouristtosentimentaldepression;shehadcompletelydivestedherselfofthecharacteristicsofavictim,andduringthewholetimethattheywereabroadsheneverutteredanaudiblesigh。HesupposedshewasincorrespondencewithMorrisTownsend,butheheldhispeaceaboutit,forheneversawtheyoungman\'sletters,andCatherine\'sownmissiveswerealwaysgiventothecouriertopost。Sheheardfromherloverwithconsiderableregularity,buthisletterscameenclosedinMrs。
Penniman\'s;sothat,wheneverthedoctorhandedherapacketaddressedinhissister\'shand,hewasaninvoluntaryinstrumentofthepassionhecondemned。Catherinemadethisreflection,andsixmonthsearliershewouldhavefeltboundtogivehimwarning;butnowshedeemedherselfabsolved。Therewasasorespotinherheartthathisownwordshadmadewhenonceshespoketohimasshethoughthonorprompted;shewouldtryandpleasehimasfarasshecould,butshewouldneverspeakthatwayagain。Shereadherlover\'slettersinsecret。
Oneday,attheendofthesummer,thetwotravelersfoundthemselvesinalonelyvalleyoftheAlps。Theywerecrossingoneofthepasses,andonthelongascenttheyhadgotoutofthecarriageandhadwanderedmuchinadvance。Afterawhilethedoctordescriedafootpathwhich,leadingthroughatransversevalley,wouldbringthemout,ashejustlysupposed,atamuchhigherpointoftheascent。
Theyfollowedthisdeviousway,andfinallylostthepath;thevalleyprovedverywildandrough,andtheirwalkbecameratherascramble。Theyweregoodwalkers,however,andtheytooktheiradventureeasily;fromtimetotimetheystopped,thatCatherinemightrest;andthenshesatuponastoneandlookedaboutheratthehard-featuredrocksandtheglowingsky。Itwaslateintheafternoon,inthelastofAugust;nightwascomingon,andastheyhadreachedagreatelevation,theairwascoldandsharp。Inthewesttherewasagreatsuffusionofcoldredlight,whichmadethesidesofthelittlevalleylookonlythemoreruggedanddusky。Duringoneoftheirpausesherfatherleftherandwanderedawaytosomehighplace,atadistance,togetaview。Hewasoutofsight;shesattherealoneinthestillness,whichwasjusttouchedbythevaguemurmursomewhereofamountainbrook。ShethoughtofMorrisTownsend,andtheplacewassodesolateandlonelythatheseemedveryfaraway。Herfatherremainedabsentalongtime;shebegantowonderwhathadbecomeofhim。Butatlasthereappeared,comingtowardherinthecleartwilight,andshegotuptogoon。Hemadenomotiontoproceed,however,butcameclosetoher,asifhehadsomethingtosay。Hestoppedinfrontofher,andstoodlookingatherwitheyesthathadkeptthelightoftheflushingsnow-summitsonwhichtheyhadjustbeenfixed。Then,abruptly,inalowtone,heaskedheranunexpectedquestion,\"Haveyougivenhimup?\"
Thequestionwasunexpected,butCatherinewasonlysuperficiallyunprepared。
\"No,Father,\"sheanswered。
Helookedatheragainforsomemomentswithoutspeaking。
\"Doeshewritetoyou?\"heasked。
\"Yes,abouttwiceamonth。\"
Thedoctorlookedupanddownthevalley,swinginghisstick;thenhesaidtoher,inthesamelowtone,\"Iamveryangry。\"
Shewonderedwhathemeant-whetherhewishedtofrightenher。Ifhedid,theplacewaswellchosen:Thishard,melancholydell,abandonedbythesummerlight,madeherfeelherloneliness。Shelookedaroundher,andherheartgrewcold;foramomentherfearwasgreat。Butshecouldthinkofnothingtosay,savetomurmur,gently,\"Iamsorry。\"
\"Youtrymypatience,\"herfatherwenton,\"andyououghttoknowwhatIam。Iamnotaverygoodman。ThoughIamverysmoothexternally,atbottomIamverypassionate;andIassureyouIcanbeveryhard。\"
Shecouldnotthinkwhyhetoldherthesethings。Hadhebroughtherthereonpurpose,andwasitpartofaplan?Whatwastheplan?
Catherineaskedherself。Wasittostartlehersuddenlyintoaretraction-totakeanadvantageofherbydread?Dreadofwhat?Theplacewasuglyandlonely,buttheplacecoulddohernoharm。Therewasakindofstillintensityaboutherfatherwhichmadehimdangerous,butCatherinehardlywentsofarastosaytoherselfthatitmightbepartofhisplantofastenhishand-theneat,fine,supplehandofadistinguishedphysician-inherthroat。
Nevertheless,sherecededastep。\"Iamsureyoucanbeanythingyouplease,\"shesaid;anditwashersimplebelief。
\"Iamveryangry,\"hereplied,moresharply。
\"Whyhasittakenyousosuddenly?\"
\"Ithasnottakenmesuddenly。Ihavebeenraginginwardlyforthelastsixmonths。Butjustnowthisseemedagoodplacetoflareout。
It\'ssoquiet,andwearealone。\"
\"Yes,it\'sveryquiet,\"saidCatherine,vaguelylookingabouther。
\"Won\'tyoucomebacktothecarriage?\"
\"Inamoment。Doyoumeanthatinallthistimeyouhavenotyieldedaninch?\"
\"IwouldifIcould,Father;butIcan\'t。\"
Thedoctorlookedroundhimtoo。\"Shouldyouliketobeleftinsuchaplaceasthis,tostarve?\"
\"Whatdoyoumean?\"criedthegirl。
\"Thatwillbeyourfate-that\'showhewillleaveyou。\"
Hewouldnottouchher,buthehadtouchedMorris。Thewarmthcamebacktoherheart。\"Thatisnottrue,Father,\"shebrokeout,\"andyououghtnottosayit。Itisnotright,andit\'snottrue。\"
Heshookhisheadslowly。\"No,it\'snotright,becauseyouwon\'tbelieveit。Butitistrue。Comebacktothecarriage。\"
Heturnedaway,andshefollowedhim;hewentfaster,andwaspresentlymuchinadvance。Butfromtimetotimehestopped,withoutturninground,toletherkeepupwithhim,andshemadeherwayforwardwithdifficulty,herheartbeatingwiththeexcitementofhavingforthefirsttimespokentohiminviolence。Bythistimeithadgrownalmostdark,andsheendedbylosingsightofhim。Butshekepthercourse,andafteralittle,thevalleymakingasuddenturn,shegainedtheroad,wherethecarriagestoodwaiting。Initsatherfather,rigidandsilent;insilence,too,shetookherplacebesidehim。
Itseemedtoher,later,inlookingbackuponallthis,thatfordaysafterwardnotawordhadbeenexchangedbetweenthem。Thescenehadbeenastrangeone,butithadnotpermanentlyaffectedherfeelingtowardherfather,foritwasnatural,afterall,thatheshouldoccasionallymakeasceneofsomekind,andhehadletheraloneforsixmonths。Thestrangestpartofitwasthathehadsaidhewasnotagoodman;Catherinewonderedagooddealwhathehadmeantbythat。Thestatementfailedtoappealtohercredence,anditwasnotgratefultoanyresentmentthatsheentertained。Evenintheutmostbitternessthatshemightfeel,itwouldgivehernosatisfactiontothinkhimlesscomplete。Suchasayingasthatwasapartofhisgreatsubtlety-mensocleverashemightsayanythingandmeananything;andastohisbeinghard,thatsurely,inaman,wasavirtue。
Heletheraloneforsixmonthsmore-sixmonthsduringwhichsheaccommodatedherselfwithoutaprotesttotheextensionoftheirtour。
Buthespokeagainattheendofthistime:Itwasattheverylast,thenightbeforetheyembarkedforNewYork,inthehotelatLiverpool。Theyhadbeendiningtogetherinagreat,dim,mustysittingroom;andthentheclothhadbeenremoved,andthedoctorwalkedslowlyupanddown。Catherineatlasttookhercandletogotobed,butherfathermotionedhertostay。
\"Whatdoyoumeantodowhenyougethome?\"heasked,whileshestoodtherewithhercandleinherhand。
\"DoyoumeanaboutMr。Townsend?\"
\"AboutMr。Townsend。\"
\"Weshallprobablymarry。\"
Thedoctortookseveralturnsagainwhileshewaited。\"Doyouhearfromhimasmuchasever?\"
\"Yes,twiceamonth,\"saidCatherine,promptly。
\"Anddoeshealwaystalkaboutmarriage?\"
\"Ohyes;thatis,hetalksaboutotherthingstoo,buthealwayssayssomethingaboutthat。\"
\"Iamgladtohearhevarieshissubjects;hislettersmightotherwisebemonotonous。\"
\"Hewritesbeautifully,\"saidCatherine,whowasverygladofachancetosayit。
\"Theyalwayswritebeautifully。However,inagivencasethatdoesn\'tdiminishthemerit。So,assoonasyouarrive,youaregoingoffwithhim?\"
Thisseemedarathergrosswayofputtingit,andsomethingthattherewasofdignityinCatherineresentedit。\"Icannottellyoutillwearrive,\"shesaid。
\"That\'sreasonableenough,\"herfatheranswered。\"That\'sallIaskofyou-thatyoudotellme,thatyougivemedefinitenotice。Whenapoormanistolosehisonlychild,helikestohaveaninklingofitbeforehand。\"
\"Oh,Father,youwillnotloseme,\"Catherinesaid,spillinghercandlewax。
\"Threedaysbeforewilldo,\"hewenton,\"ifyouareinapositiontobepositivethen。Heoughttobeverythankfultome,doyouknow。Ihavedoneamightygoodthingforhimintakingyouabroad;
yourvalueistwiceasgreat,withalltheknowledgeandtastethatyouhaveacquired。Ayearago,youwereperhapsalittlelimited-alittlerustic;butnowyouhaveseeneverything,andappreciatedeverything,andyouwillbeamostentertainingcompanion。Wehavefattenedthesheepforhimbeforehekillsit。\"Catherineturnedaway,andstoodstaringattheblankdoor。\"Gotobed,\"saidherfather,\"andaswedon\'tgoaboardtillnoon,youmaysleeplate。Weshallprobablyhaveamostuncomfortablevoyage。\"
CHAPTER25。
THEVOYAGEwasindeeduncomfortable,andCatherine,onarrivinginNewYork,hadnotthecompensationof\"goingoff,\"inherfather\'sphrase,withMorrisTownsend。Shesawhim,however,thedayaftershelanded;andinthemeantimeheformedanaturalsubjectofconversationbetweenourheroineandherauntLavinia,withwhom,thenightshedisembarked,thegirlwasclosetedforalongtimebeforeeitherladyretiredtorest。
\"Ihaveseenagreatdealofhim,\"saidMrs。Penniman。\"Heisnotveryeasytoknow。Isupposeyouthinkyouknowhim;butyoudon\'t,mydear。Youwillsomeday;butitwillonlybeafteryouhavelivedwithhim。ImayalmostsayIhavelivedwithhim,\"Mrs。Pennimanproceeded,whileCatherinestared。\"IthinkIknowhimnow;Ihavehadsuchremarkableopportunities。Youwillhavethesame-or,rather,youwillhavebetter,\"andAuntLaviniasmiled。\"ThenyouwillseewhatImean。It\'sawonderfulcharacter,fullofpassionandenergy,andjustastrue。\"
Catherinelistenedwithamixtureofinterestandapprehension。AuntLaviniawasintenselysympathetic,andCatherine,forthepastyear,whileshewanderedthroughforeigngalleriesandchurches,androlledoverthesmoothnessofpostingroads,nursingthethoughtsthatneverpassedherlips,hadoftenlongedforthecompanyofsomeintelligentpersonofherownsex。Totellherstorytosomekindwoman-atmomentsitseemedtoherthatthiswouldgivehercomfort,andshehadmorethanoncebeenonthepointoftakingthelandlady,ortheniceyoungpersonfromthedressmaker\'s,intoherconfidence。
Ifawomanhadbeennearher,shewouldoncertainoccasionshavetreatedsuchacompaniontoafitofweeping;andshehadanapprehensionthat,onherreturn,thiswouldformherresponsetoAuntLavinia\'sfirstembrace。Infact,however,thetwoladieshadmet,inWashingtonSquare,withouttears;andwhentheyfoundthemselvesalonetogetheracertaindrynessfelluponthegirl\'semotion。ItcameoverherwithagreaterforcethatMrs。Pennimanhadenjoyedawholeyearofherlover\'ssociety,anditwasnotapleasuretohertohearherauntexplainandinterprettheyoungman,speakingofhimasifherownknowledgeofhimweresupreme。ItwasnotthatCatherinewasjealous;buthersenseofMrs。Penniman\'sinnocentfalsity,whichhadlaindormant,begantohauntheragain,andshewasgladthatshewassafelyathome。Withthis,however,itwasablessingtobeabletotalkofMorris,tosoundhisname,tobewithapersonwhowasnotunjusttohim。
\"Youhavebeenverykindtohim,\"saidCatherine。\"Hehaswrittenmethat,often。Ishallneverforgetthat,AuntLavinia。\"
\"IhavedonewhatIcould;ithasbeenverylittle。Tolethimcomeandtalktome,andgivehimhiscupoftea-thatwasall。YourauntAlmondthoughtitwastoomuch,andusedtoscoldmeterribly;
butshepromisedme,atleast,nottobetrayme。\"
\"Tobetrayyou?\"
\"Nottotellyourfather。Heusedtositinyourfather\'sstudy,\"
saidMrs。Penniman,withalittlelaugh。
Catherinewassilentamoment。Thisideawasdisagreeabletoher,andshewasremindedagain,withpain,ofheraunt\'ssecretivehabits。
Morris,thereadermaybeinformed,hadhadthetactnottotellherthathesatinherfather\'sstudy。Hehadknownherbutforafewmonths,andheraunthadknownherforfifteenyears;andyethewouldnothavemadethemistakeofthinkingthatCatherinewouldseethejokeofthething。\"IamsorryyoumadehimgointoFather\'sroom,\"
shesaid,afterawhile。
\"Ididn\'tsendhim;hewenthimself。Helikedtolookatthebooks,andatallthosethingsintheglasscases。Heknowsallaboutthem;heknowsallabouteverything。\"
Catherinewassilentagain;then,\"Iwishhehadfoundsomeemployment,\"shesaid。
\"Hehasfoundsomeemployment。It\'sbeautifulnews,andhetoldmetotellyouassoonasyouarrived。Hehasgoneintopartnershipwithacommissionmerchant。Itwasallsettled,quitesuddenly,aweekago。\"
ThisseemedtoCatherineindeedbeautifulnews;ithadafineprosperousair。\"Oh,I\'msoglad!\"shesaid;andnow,foramoment,shewasdisposedtothrowherselfonAuntLavinia\'sneck。
\"It\'smuchbetterthanbeingundersomeone;andhehasneverbeenusedtothat,\"Mrs。Pennimanwenton。\"Heisjustasgoodashispartner-theyareperfectlyequal。Youseehowrighthewastowait。I
shouldliketoknowwhatyourfathercansaynow!TheyhavegotanofficeinDuaneStreet,andlittleprintedcards;hebroughtmeonetoshowme。Ihavegotitinmyroom,andyoushallseeittomorrow。
That\'swhathesaidtomethelasttimehewashere,\'YouseehowrightIwastowait。\'Hehasgototherpeopleunderhiminsteadofbeingasubordinate。Hecouldneverbeasubordinate;IhaveoftentoldhimIcouldneverthinkofhiminthatway。\"
Catherineassentedtothisproposition,andwasveryhappytoknowthatMorriswashisownmaster;butshewasdeprivedofthesatisfactionofthinkingthatshemightcommunicatethisnewsintriumphtoherfather。HerfatherwouldcareequallylittlewhetherMorriswereestablishedinbusinessortransportedforlife。Hertrunkshadbeenbroughtintoherroom,andfurtherreferencetoherloverwasforashorttimesuspended,whilesheopenedthemanddisplayedtoherauntsomeofthespoilsofforeigntravel。Thesewererichandabundant;andCatherinehadbroughthomeapresenttoeveryone-toeveryonesaveMorris,towhomshehadbroughtsimplyherundivertedheart。ToMrs。Pennimanshehadbeenlavishlygenerous,andAuntLaviniaspenthalfanhourinunfoldingandfoldingagain,withlittleejaculationsofgratitudeandtaste。Shemarchedaboutforsometimeinasplendidcashmereshawl,whichCatherinehadbeggedhertoaccept,settlingitonhershoulders,andtwistingdownherheadtoseehowlowthepointdescendedbehind。
\"Ishallregarditonlyasaloan,\"shesaid。\"IwillleaveittoyouagainwhenIdie;or,rather,\"sheadded,kissinghernieceagain,\"Iwillleaveittoyourfirstbornlittlegirl。\"Anddrapedinhershawl,shestoodtheresmiling。
\"Youhadbetterwaittillshecomes,\"saidCatherine。
\"Idon\'tlikethewayyousaythat,\"Mrs。Pennimanrejoined,inamoment。\"Catherine,areyouchanged?\"
\"No;Iamthesame。\"
\"Youhavenotswervedaline?\"
\"Iamexactlythesame,\"Catherinerepeated,wishingherauntwerealittlelesssympathetic。
\"Well,Iamglad,\"andMrs。Pennimansurveyedhercashmereintheglass。Then,\"Howisyourfather?\"sheasked,inamoment,withhereyesonherniece。\"Yourlettersweresomeager-Icouldnevertell。\"
\"Fatherisverywell。\"
\"Ah,youknowwhatImean,\"saidMrs。Penniman,withadignitytowhichthecashmeregavearichereffect。\"Ishestillimplacable?\"
\"Oh,yes!\"
\"Quiteunchanged?\"
\"Heis,ifpossible,morefirm。\"
Mrs。Pennimantookoffhergreatshawl,andslowlyfoldeditup。
\"Thatisverybad。Youhadnosuccesswithyourlittleproject?\"
\"Whatlittleproject?\"
\"Morristoldmeallaboutit。Theideaofturningthetablesonhim,inEurope;ofwatchinghim,whenhewasagreeablyimpressedbysomecelebratedsight-hepretendstobesoartistic,youknow-andthenjustpleadingwithhimandbringinghimround。\"
\"Inevertriedit。ItwasMorris\'sidea;butifhehadbeenwithusinEurope,hewouldhaveseenthatFatherwasneverimpressedinthatway。Heisartistic-tremendouslyartistic;butthemorecelebratedplaceswevisited,andthemoreheadmiredthem,thelessuseitwouldhavebeentopleadwithhim。Theyseemedonlytomakehimmoredetermined-moreterrible,\"saidpoorCatherine。\"Ishallneverbringhimround,andIexpectnothingnow。\"
\"Well,Imustsay,\"Mrs。Pennimananswered,\"Ineversupposedyouweregoingtogiveitup。\"
\"Ihavegivenitup。Idon\'tcarenow。\"
\"Youhavegrownverybrave,\"saidMrs。Penniman,withashortlaugh。
\"Ididn\'tadviseyoutosacrificeyourproperty。\"
\"Yes,IambraverthanIwas。YouaskedmeifIhadchanged;I
havechangedinthatway。Oh,\"thegirlwenton,\"Ihavechangedverymuch。Anditisn\'tmyproperty。Ifhedoesn\'tcareforit,whyshouldI?\"
Mrs。Pennimanhesitated。\"Perhapshedoescareforit。\"
\"Hecaresforitformysake,becausehedoesn\'twanttoinjureme。Buthewillknow-heknowsalready-howlittleheneedbeafraidaboutthat。Besides,\"saidCatherine,\"Ihavegotplentyofmoneyofmyown。Weshallbeverywelloff;andnowhasn\'thegothisbusiness?
Iamdelightedaboutthatbusiness。\"Shewentontalking,showingagooddealofexcitementassheproceeded。Heraunthadneverseenherwithjustthismanner,andMrs。Penniman,observingher,setitdowntoforeigntravel,whichhadmadehermorepositive,moremature。
ShethoughtalsothatCatherinehadimprovedinappearance;shelookedratherhandsome。Mrs。PennimanwonderedwhetherMorrisTownsendwouldbestruckwiththat。Whileshewasengagedinthisspeculation,Catherinebrokeout,withacertainsharpness,\"Whyareyousocontradictory,AuntPenniman?Youseemtothinkonethingatonetime,andanotheratanother。Ayearago,beforeIwentaway,youwishedmenottomindaboutdispleasingFather,andnowyouseemtorecommendmetotakeanotherline。Youchangeaboutso。\"
Thisattackwasunexpected,forMrs。Pennimanwasnotused,inanydiscussion,toseeingthewarcarriedintoherowncountry-possiblybecausetheenemygenerallyhaddoubtsoffindingsubsistencethere。
Toherownconsciousness,thefloweryfieldsofherreasonhadrarelybeenravagedbyahostileforce。Itwasperhapsonthisaccountthatindefendingthemshewasmajesticratherthanagile。
\"Idon\'tknowwhatyouaccusemeof,saveofbeingtoodeeplyinterestedinyourhappiness。ItisthefirsttimeIhavebeentoldIamcapricious。ThatfaultisnotwhatIamusuallyreproachedwith。\"
\"YouwereangrylastyearthatIwouldn\'tmarryimmediately,andnowyoutalkaboutmywinningmyfatherover。YoutoldmeitwouldservehimrightifheshouldtakemetoEuropefornothing。Well,hehastakenmefornothing,andyououghttobesatisfied。Nothingischanged-nothingbutmyfeelingaboutFather。Idon\'tmindnearlysomuchnow。IhavebeenasgoodasIcould,buthedoesn\'tcare。NowI
don\'tcareeither。Idon\'tknowwhetherIhavegrownbad;perhapsI
have。ButIdon\'tcareforthat。Ihavecomehometobemarried-
that\'sallIknow。Thatoughttopleaseyou,unlessyouhavetakenupsomenewidea;youaresostrange。Youmaydoasyouplease,butyoumustneverspeaktomeagainaboutpleadingwithFather。Ishallneverpleadwithhimforanything;thatisallover。Hehasputmeoff。Iamcomehometobemarried。\"
Thiswasamoreauthoritativespeechthanshehadeverheardonherniece\'slips,andMrs。Pennimanwasproportionatelystartled。
Shewas,indeed,alittleawestruck,andtheforceofthegirl\'semotionandresolutionlefthernothingtoreply。Shewaseasilyfrightened,andshealwayscarriedoffherdiscomfiturebyaconcession-aconcessionwhichwasoftenaccompanied,asinthepresentcase,byalittlenervouslaugh。