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  \"Doyouwishtogothere,mydear?\"saidheraunt。

  \"Ohno。\"AndCatherinegotupfromherseatandwenttothefire,whereshestoodlookingawhileattheglowingcoals。

  \"Whyareyousodry,Catherine?\"Mrs。Pennimansaidatlast。

  \"Sodry?\"

  \"Socold-soirresponsive。\"

  Thegirlturnedveryquickly。\"Didhesaythat?\"

  Mrs。Pennimanhesitatedamoment。\"Iwilltellyouwhathesaid。

  Hesaidhefearedonlyonething-thatyouwouldbeafraid。\"

  \"Afraidofwhat?\"

  \"Afraidofyourfather。\"

  Catherineturnedbacktothefireagain,andthen,afterapause,shesaid,\"Iamafraidofmyfather。\"

  Mrs。Pennimangotquicklyupfromherchairandapproachedherniece。\"Doyoumeantogivehimup,then?\"

  Catherineforsometimenevermoved;shekepthereyesonthecoals。

  Atlastsheraisedherheadandlookedatheraunt。\"Whydoyoupushmeso?\"sheasked。

  \"Idon\'tpushyou。WhenhaveIspokentoyoubefore?\"

  \"Itseemstomethatyouhavespokentomeseveraltimes。\"

  \"Iamafraiditisnecessary,then,Catherine,\"saidMrs。

  Penniman,withagooddealofsolemnity。\"Iamafraidyoudon\'tfeeltheimportance\"-shepausedalittle;Catherinewaslookingather-

  \"theimportanceofnotdisappointingthatgallantyoungheart!\"AndMrs。Pennimanwentbacktoherchairbythelamp,and,withalittlejerk,pickeduptheeveningpaperagain。

  Catherinestoodtherebeforethefire,withherhandsbehindher,lookingatheraunt,towhomitseemedthatthegirlhadneverhadjustthisdarkfixednessinhergaze。\"Idon\'tthinkyouunderstandorthatyouknowme,\"shesaid。

  \"IfIdon\'t,itisnotwonderful;youtrustmesolittle。\"

  Catherinemadenoattempttodenythischarge,andforsometimemorenothingwassaid。ButMrs。Penniman\'simaginationwasrestless,andtheeveningpaperfailedonthisoccasiontoenchainit。

  \"Ifyousuccumbtothedreadofyourfather\'swrath,\"shesaid,\"I

  don\'tknowwhatwillbecomeofus。\"

  \"Didhetellyoutosaythesethingstome?\"

  \"Hetoldmetousemyinfluence。\"

  \"Youmustbemistaken,\"saidCatherine。\"Hetrustsme。\"

  \"Ihopehemayneverrepentofit!\"AndMrs。Pennimangavealittlesharpslaptohernewspaper。Sheknewnotwhattomakeofherniece,whohadsuddenlybecomesternandcontradictious。

  ThistendencyonCatherine\'spartwaspresentlyevenmoreapparent。\"YouhadmuchbetternotmakeanymoreappointmentswithMr。

  Townsend,\"shesaid。\"Idon\'tthinkitisright。\"

  Mrs。Pennimanrosewithconsiderablemajesty。\"Mypoorchild,areyoujealousofme?\"sheinquired。

  \"Oh,AuntLavinia!\"murmuredCatherine,blushing。

  \"Idon\'tthinkitisyourplacetoteachmewhatisright。\"

  OnthispointCatherinemadenoconcession。\"Itcan\'tberighttodeceive。\"

  \"Icertainlyhavenotdeceivedyou!\"

  \"Yes;butIpromisedmyfather-\"

  \"Ihavenodoubtyoupromisedyourfather。ButIhavepromisedhimnothing。\"

  Catherinehadtoadmitthis,andshedidsoinsilence。\"Idon\'tbelieveMr。Townsendhimselflikesit,\"shesaid,atlast。

  \"Doesn\'tlikemeetingme?\"

  \"Notinsecret。\"

  \"Itwasnotinsecret;theplacewasfullofpeople。\"

  \"Butitwasasecretplace-awayoffintheBowery。\"

  Mrs。Pennimanflinchedalittle。\"Gentlemenenjoysuchthings,\"

  sheremarked,presently。\"Iknowwhatgentlemenlike。\"

  \"Myfatherwouldn\'tlikeit,ifheknew。\"

  \"Pray,doyouproposetoinformhim?\"Mrs。Pennimaninquired。

  \"No,AuntLavinia。Butpleasedon\'tdoitagain。\"

  \"IfIdoitagainyouwillinformhim-isthatwhatyoumean?I

  donotshareyourdreadofmybrother;Ihavealwaysknownhowtodefendmyownposition。ButIshallcertainlyneveragaintakeanysteponyourbehalf;youaremuchtoothankless。Iknewyouwerenotaspontaneousnature,butIbelievedyouwerefirm,andItoldyourfatherthathewouldfindyouso。Iamdisappointed,butyourfatherwillnotbe。\"AndwiththisMrs。Pennimanofferedhernieceabriefgood-night,andwithdrewtoherownapartment。

  CHAPTER18。

  CATHERINESATALONEbytheparlorfire-satthereformorethananhour,lostinhermeditations。Herauntseemedtoheraggressiveandfoolish;andtoseeitsoclearly-tojudgeMrs。Pennimansopositively-madeherfeeloldandgrave。Shedidnotresenttheimputationofweakness;itmadenoimpressiononher,forshehadnotthesenseofweakness,andshewasnothurtatnotbeingappreciated。Shehadanimmenserespectforherfather,andshefeltthattodispleasehimwouldbeamisdemeanoranalogoustoanactofprofanityinagreattemple;butherpurposehadslowlyripened,andshebelievedthatherprayershadpurifieditofitsviolence。Theeveningadvanced,andthelampburntdimwithouthernoticingit;

  hereyeswerefixeduponherterribleplan。Sheknewherfatherwasinhisstudy-thathehadbeentherealltheevening;fromtimetotimesheexpectedtohearhimmove。Shethoughthewouldperhapscome,ashesometimescame,intotheparlor。Atlasttheclockstruckeleven,andthehousewaswrappedinsilence;theservantshadgonetobed。

  Catherinegotupandwentslowlytothedoorofthelibrary,whereshewaitedamoment,motionless。Thensheknocked,andthenshewaitedagain。Herfatherhadansweredher,butshehadnotthecouragetoturnthelatch。Whatshehadsaidtoherauntwastrueenough-shewasafraidofhim;andinsayingthatshehadnosenseofweakness,shemeantthatshewasnotafraidofherself。Sheheardhimmovewithin,andhecameandopenedthedoorforher。

  \"Whatisthematter?\"askedthedoctor。\"Youarestandingtherelikeaghost!\"

  Shewentintotheroom,butitwassometimebeforeshecontrivedtosaywhatshehadcometosay。Herfather,whowasinhisdressinggownandslippers,hadbeenbusyathiswritingtable,andafterlookingatherforsomemoments,andwaitingforhertospeak,hewentandseatedhimselfathispapersagain。Hisbackwasturnedtoher-shebegantohearthescratchingofhispen。Sheremainednearthedoor,withherheartthumpingbeneathherbodice;andshewasverygladthathisbackwasturned,foritseemedtoherthatshecouldmoreeasilyaddressherselftothisportionofhispersonthantohisface。Atlastshebegan,watchingitwhileshespoke。

  \"YoutoldmethatifIshouldhaveanythingmoretosayaboutMr。

  Townsendyouwouldbegladtolistentoit。\"

  \"Exactly,mydear,\"saidthedoctor,notturninground,butstoppinghispen。

  Catherinewisheditwouldgoon,butsheherselfcontinued:\"I

  thoughtIwouldtellyouthatIhavenotseenhimagain,butthatI

  shouldliketodoso。\"

  \"Tobidhimgood-bye?\"askedthedoctor。

  Thegirlhesitatedamoment。\"Heisnotgoingaway。\"

  Thedoctorwheeledslowlyroundinhischair,withasmilethatseemedtoaccuseherofanepigram;butextremesmeet,andCatherinehadnotintendedone。\"Itisnottobidhimgood-bye,then?\"herfathersaid。

  \"No,Father,notthat;atleastnotforever。Ihavenotseenhimagain,butIshouldliketoseehim,\"Catherinerepeated。

  Thedoctorslowlyrubbedhisunderlipwiththefeatherofhisquill。

  \"Haveyouwrittentohim?\"

  \"Yes,fourtimes。\"

  \"Youhavenotdismissedhim,then。Oncewouldhavedonethat。\"

  \"No,\"saidCatherine,\"Ihaveaskedhim-askedhimtowait。\"

  Herfathersatlookingather,andshewasafraidhewasgoingtobreakoutintowrath,hiseyesweresofineandcold。

  \"Youareadear,faithfulchild,\"hesaid,atlast。\"Comeheretoyourfather。\"Andhegotup,holdingouthishandstowardher。

  Thewordswereasurprise,andtheygaveheranexquisitejoy。Shewenttohim,andheputhisarmroundhertenderly,soothingly;andthenhekissedher。Afterthishesaid,\"Doyouwishtomakemeveryhappy?\"

  \"Ishouldliketo-butIamafraidIcan\'t,\"Catherineanswered。

  \"Youcanifyouwill。Italldependsonyourwill。\"

  \"Isittogivehimup?\"saidCatherine。

  \"Yes,itistogivehimup。\"

  Andheheldherstill,withthesametenderness,lookingintoherfaceandrestinghiseyesonheravertedeyes。Therewasalongsilence;shewishedhewouldreleaseher。

  \"YouarehappierthanI,Father,\"shesaid,atlast。

  \"Ihavenodoubtyouareunhappyjustnow。Butitisbettertobeunhappyforthreemonthsandgetoverit,thanformanyyearsandnevergetoverit。\"

  \"Yes,ifthatwereso,\"saidCatherine。

  \"Itwouldbeso;Iamsureofthat。\"Sheanswerednothing,andhewenton:\"Haveyounofaithinmywisdom,inmytenderness,inmysolicitudeforyourfuture?\"

  \"Oh,Father!\"murmuredthegirl。

  \"Don\'tyousupposethatIknowsomethingofmen-theirvices,theirfollies,theirfalsities?\"

  Shedetachedherself,andturneduponhim。\"Heisnotvicious-heisnotfalse!\"

  Herfatherkeptlookingatherwithhissharp,pureeye。\"Youmakenothingofmyjudgment,then?\"

  \"Ican\'tbelievethat!\"

  \"Idon\'taskyoutobelieveit,buttotakeitontrust。\"

  Catherinewasfarfromsayingtoherselfthatthiswasaningenioussophism;butshemettheappealnonethelesssquarely。

  \"Whathashedone-whatdoyouknow?\"

  \"Hehasneverdoneanything-heisaselfishidler。\"

  \"Oh,Father,don\'tabusehim!\"sheexclaimed,pleadingly。

  \"Idon\'tmeantoabusehim;itwouldbeagreatmistake。Youmaydoasyouchoose,\"headded,turningaway。

  \"Imayseehimagain?\"

  \"Justasyouchoose。\"

  \"Willyouforgiveme?\"

  \"Bynomeans。\"

  \"Itwillonlybeforonce。\"

  \"Idon\'tknowwhatyoumeanbyonce。Youmusteithergivehimuporcontinuetheacquaintance。\"

  \"Iwishtoexplain-totellhimtowait。\"

  \"Towaitforwhat?\"

  \"Tillyouknowhimbetter-tillyouconsent。\"

  \"Don\'ttellhimanysuchnonsenseasthat。Iknowhimwellenough,andIshallneverconsent。\"

  \"Butwecanwaitalongtime,\"saidpoorCatherine,inatonewhichwasmeanttoexpressthehumblestconciliation,butwhichhaduponherfather\'snervestheeffectofaniterationnotcharacterizedbytact。

  Thedoctoranswered,however,quietlyenough:\"Ofcourse;youcanwaittillIdie,ifyoulike。\"

  Catherinegaveacryofnaturalhorror。

  \"Yourengagementwillhaveonedelightfuleffectuponyou;itwillmakeyouextremelyimpatientforthatevent。\"

  Catherinestoodstaring,andthedoctorenjoyedthepointhehadmade。ItcametoCatherinewiththeforce-ratherwiththevagueimpressiveness-ofalogicalaxiomwhichitwasnotinherprovincetocontrovert;andyet,thoughitwasascientifictruth,shefeltwhollyunabletoacceptit。

  \"Iwouldrathernotmarry,ifthatweretrue,\"shesaid。

  \"Givemeaproofofit,then;foritisbeyondaquestionthatbyengagingyourselftoMorrisTownsendyousimplywaitformydeath。\"

  Sheturnedaway,feelingsickandfaint;andthedoctorwenton:

  \"Andifyouwaitforitwithimpatience,judge,ifyouplease,whathiseagernesswillbe。\"

  Catherineturneditover-herfather\'swordshadsuchanauthorityforherthatherverythoughtswerecapableofobeyinghim。Therewasadreadfuluglinessinit,whichseemedtoglareatherthroughtheinterposingmediumofherownfeeblerreason。Suddenly,however,shehadaninspiration-shealmostknewittobeaninspiration。

  \"IfIdon\'tmarrybeforeyourdeath,Iwillnotafter,\"shesaid。

  Toherfather,itmustbeadmitted,thisseemedonlyanotherepigram;andasobstinacy,inunaccomplishedminds,doesnotusuallyselectsuchamodeofexpression,hewasthemoresurprisedatthiswantonplayofafixedidea。

  \"Doyoumeanthatforanimpertinence?\"heinquired;aninquiryofwhich,ashemadeit,hequiteperceivedthegrossness。

  \"Animpertinence?Oh,Father,whatterriblethingsyousay!\"

  \"Ifyoudon\'twaitformydeath,youmightaswellmarryimmediately;thereisnothingelsetowaitfor。\"

  ForsometimeCatherinemadenoanswer;butfinallyshesaid,\"I

  thinkMorris-littlebylittle-mightpersuadeyou。\"

  \"Ishallneverlethimspeaktomeagain。Idislikehimtoomuch。\"

  Catherinegavealong,lowsigh;shetriedtostifleit,forshehadmadeuphermindthatitwaswrongtomakeaparadeofhertrouble,andtoendeavortoactuponherfatherbythemeretriciousaidofemotion。Indeed,sheeventhoughtitwrong-inthesenseofbeinginconsiderate-toattempttoactuponhisfeelingsatall;herpartwastoeffectsomegentle,gradualchangeinhisintellectualperceptionofpoorMorris\'scharacter。Butthemeansofeffectingsuchachangewereatpresentshroudedinmystery,andshefeltmiserablyhelplessandhopeless。Shehadexhaustedallarguments,allreplies。

  Herfathermighthavepitiedher,andinfacthedidso;buthewassurehewasright。

  \"ThereisonethingyoucantellMr。Townsendwhenyouseehimagain,\"hesaid,\"thatifyoumarrywithoutmyconsent,Idon\'tleaveyouafarthingofmoney。Thatwillinteresthimmorethananythingelseyoucantellhim。\"

  \"Thatwouldbeveryright,\"Catherineanswered。\"Ioughtnotinthatcasetohaveafarthingofyourmoney。\"

  \"Mydearchild,\"thedoctorobserved,laughing,\"yoursimplicityistouching。Makethatremark,inthattone,andwiththatexpressionofcountenance,toMr。Townsend,andtakeanoteofhisanswer。Itwon\'tbepolite-itwillexpressirritation;andIshallbegladofthat,asitwillputmeintheright;unless,indeed-whichisperfectlypossible-youshouldlikehimthebetterforbeingrudetoyou。\"

  \"Hewillneverberudetome,\"saidCatherine,gently。

  \"TellhimwhatIsay,allthesame。\"

  Shelookedatherfather,andherquieteyesfilledwithtears。

  \"IthinkIwillseehim,then,\"shemurmured,inhertimidvoice。

  \"Exactlyasyouchoose。\"Andhewenttothedoorandopeneditforhertogoout。Themovementgaveheraterriblesenseofhisturningheroff。

  \"Itwillbeonlyonce,forthepresent,\"sheadded,lingeringamoment。

  \"Exactlyasyouchoose,\"herepeated,standingtherewithhishandonthedoor。\"IhavetoldyouwhatIthink。Ifyouseehim,youwillbeanungrateful,cruelchild;youwillhavegivenyouroldfatherthegreatestpainofhislife。\"

  Thiswasmorethanthepoorgirlcouldbear;hertearsoverflowed,andshemovedtowardhergrimlyconsistentparentwithapitifulcry。Herhandswereraisedinsupplication,buthesternlyevadedthisappeal。Insteadoflettinghersobouthermiseryonhisshoulder,hesimplytookherbythearmanddirectedhercourseacrossthethreshold,closingthedoorgentlybutfirmlybehindher。Afterhehaddoneso,heremainedlistening。Foralongtimetherewasnosound;heknewthatshewasstandingoutside。Hewassorryforher,asIhavesaid;buthewassosurehewasright。Atlastheheardhermoveaway,andthenherfootstepcreakedfaintlyuponthestairs。

  Thedoctortookseveralturnsroundhisstudy,withhishandsinhispockets,andathinsparkle,possiblyofirritation,butpartlyalsoofsomethinglikehumor,inhiseye。\"ByJove,\"hesaidtohimself,\"I

  believeshewillstick-Ibelieveshewillstick!\"AndthisideaofCatherine\"sticking\"appearedtohaveacomicalside,andtoofferaprospectofentertainment。Hedetermined,ashesaidtohimself,toseeitout。

  CHAPTER19。

  ITWASforreasonsconnectedwiththisdeterminationthatonthemorrowhesoughtafewwordsofprivateconversationwithMrs。

  Penniman。Hesentforhertothelibrary,andhethereinformedherthathehopedverymuchthat,asregardedthisaffairofCatherine\'s,shewouldmindherp\'sandq\'s。

  \"Idon\'tknowwhatyoumeanbysuchanexpression,\"saidhissister。

  \"YouspeakasifIwerelearningthealphabet。\"

  \"Thealphabetofcommonsenseissomethingyouwillneverlearn,\"

  thedoctorpermittedhimselftorespond。

  \"Haveyoucalledmeheretoinsultme?\"Mrs。Pennimaninquired。

  \"Notatall。Simplytoadviseyou。YouhavetakenupyoungTownsend;

  that\'syourownaffair。Ihavenothingtodowithyoursentiments,yourfancies,youraffections,yourdelusions;butwhatIrequestofyouisthatyouwillkeepthesethingstoyourself。IhaveexplainedmyviewstoCatherine;sheunderstandsthemperfectly,andanythingthatshedoesfurtherinthewayofencouragingMr。Townsend\'sattentionswillbeindeliberateoppositiontomywishes。Anythingthatyoushoulddointhewayofgivingheraidandcomfortwillbe-

  permitmetheexpression-distinctlytreasonable。Youknowhightreasonisacapitaloffense:Takecarehowyouincurthepenalty。\"

  Mrs。Pennimanthrewbackherhead,withacertainexpansionoftheeyewhichsheoccasionallypracticed。\"Itseemstomethatyoutalklikeagreatautocrat。\"

  \"Italklikemydaughter\'sfather。\"

  \"Notlikeyoursister\'sbrother,\"criedLavinia。

  \"MydearLavinia,\"saidthedoctor,\"IsometimeswonderwhetherIamyourbrother,wearesoextremelydifferent。Inspiteofdifferences,however,wecan,atapinch,understandeachother;andthatistheessentialthingjustnow。WalkstraightwithregardtoMr。

  Townsend;that\'sallIask。Itishighlyprobableyouhavebeencorrespondingwithhimforthelastthreeweeks-perhapsevenseeinghim。Idon\'taskyou-youneedn\'ttellme。\"Hehadamoralconvictionthatshewouldcontrivetotellafibaboutthematter,whichitwoulddisgusthimtolistento。\"Whateveryouhavedone,stopdoingit;that\'sallIwish。\"

  \"Don\'tyouwishalsobychancetomurderyourchild?\"Mrs。

  Pennimaninquired。

  \"Onthecontrary,Iwishtomakeherliveandbehappy。\"

  \"Youwillkillher:Shepassedadreadfulnight。\"

  \"Shewon\'tdieofonedreadfulnight,norofadozen。RememberthatIamadistinguishedphysician。\"

  Mrs。Pennimanhesitatedamoment;thensheriskedherretort。

  \"Yourbeingadistinguishedphysicianhasnotpreventedyoufromalreadylosingtwomembersofyourfamily。\"

  Shehadriskedit,butherbrothergavehersuchaterriblyincisivelook-alooksolikeasurgeon\'slancet-thatshewasfrightenedathercourage。Andheansweredher,inwordsthatcorrespondedtothelook,\"Itmaynotpreventme,either,fromlosingthesocietyofstillanother。\"

  Mrs。Pennimantookherselfoffwithwhateverairofdepreciatedmeritwasathercommand,andrepairedtoCatherine\'sroom,wherethepoorgirlwascloseted。Sheknewallaboutherdreadfulnight,forthetwohadmetagain,theeveningbefore,afterCatherineleftherfather。Mrs。Pennimanwasonthelandingofthesecondfloorwhenherniececameupstairs;itwasnotremarkablethatapersonofsomuchsubtletyshouldhavediscoveredthatCatherinehadbeenshutupwiththedoctor。Itwasstilllessremarkablethatsheshouldhavefeltanextremecuriositytolearntheresultofthisinterview,andthatthissentiment,combinedwithhergreatamiabilityandgenerosity,shouldhavepromptedhertoregretthesharpwordslatelyexchangedbetweenhernieceandherself。Astheunhappygirlcameintosightintheduskycorridor,shemadealivelydemonstrationofsympathy。Catherine\'sburstingheartwasequallyoblivious;sheonlyknewthatherauntwastakingherintoherarms。Mrs。PennimandrewherintoCatherine\'sownroom,andthetwowomensattheretogetherfarintothesmallhours,theyoungeronewithherheadontheother\'slap,sobbing,andsobbingatfirstinasoundless,stifledmanner,andthenatlastperfectlystill。ItgratifiedMrs。PennimantobeabletofeelconscientiouslythatthisscenevirtuallyremovedtheinterdictwhichCatherinehadplaceduponherindulginginfurthercommunionwithMorrisTownsend。Shewasnotgratified,however,when,incomingbacktoherniece\'sroombeforebreakfast,shefoundthatCatherinehadrisenandwaspreparingherselfforthismeal。

  \"Youshouldnotgotobreakfast,\"shesaid。\"Youarenotwellenough,afteryourfearfulnight。\"

  \"Yes,Iamverywell,andIamonlyafraidofbeinglate。\"

  \"Ican\'tunderstandyou,\"Mrs。Pennimancried。\"Youshouldstayinbedforthreedays。\"

  \"Oh,Icouldneverdothat,\"saidCatherine,towhomthisideapresentednoattractions。

  Mrs。Pennimanwasindespair;andshenoted,withextremeannoyance,thatthetraceofthenight\'stearshadcompletelyvanishedfromCatherine\'seyes。Shehadamostimpracticablephysique。\"Whateffectdoyouexpecttohaveuponyourfather,\"herauntdemanded,\"ifyoucomeplumpingdown,withoutavestigeofanysortoffeeling,asifnothingintheworldhadhappened?\"

  \"Hewouldnotlikemetolieinbed,\"saidCatherine,simply。

  \"Allthemorereasonforyourdoingit。Howelsedoyouexpecttomovehim?\"

  Catherinethoughtalittle。\"Idon\'tknowhow;butnotinthatway。Iwishtobejustasusual。\"Andshefinisheddressing-and,accordingtoheraunt\'sexpression,wentplumpingdownintothepaternalpresence。Shewasreallytoomodestforconsistentpathos。

  Andyetitwasperfectlytruethatshehadhadadreadfulnight。

  EvenafterMrs。Pennimanlefthershehadhadnosleep;shelaystaringattheuncomfortinggloom,withhereyesandearsfilledwiththemovementwithwhichherfatherhadturnedheroutofhisroom,andofthewordsinwhichhehadtoldherthatshewasaheartlessdaughter。Herheartwasbreaking;shehadheartenoughforthat。Atmomentsitseemedtoherthatshebelievedhim,andthattodowhatshewasdoingagirlmustindeedbebad。Shewasbad;butshecouldn\'thelpit。Shewouldtrytoappeargood,evenifherheartwereperverted;andfromtimetotimeshehadafancythatshemightaccomplishsomethingbyingeniousconcessionstoform,thoughsheshouldpersistincaringforMorris。Catherine\'singenuitieswereindefinite,andwearenotcalledupontoexposetheirhollowness。Thebestofthem,perhaps,showeditselfinthatfreshnessofaspectwhichwassodiscouragingtoMrs。Penniman,whowasamazedattheabsenceofhaggardnessinayoungwomanwhoforawholenighthadlainquiveringbeneathafather\'scurse。PoorCatherinewasconsciousofherfreshness;itgaveherafeelingaboutthefuturewhichratheraddedtotheweightuponhermind。Itseemedaproofthatshewasstrongandsolidanddense,andwouldlivetoagreatage-

  longerthanmightbegenerallyconvenient;andthisideawaspressing,foritappearedtosaddleherwithapretensionthemore,justwhenthecultivationofanypretensionwasinconsistentwithherdoingright。ShewrotethatdaytoMorrisTownsend,requestinghimtocomeandseeheronthemorrow,usingveryfewwords,andexplainingnothing。Shewouldexplaineverythingfacetoface。

  CHAPTER20。

  ONTHEMORROW,intheafternoon,sheheardhisvoiceatthedoor,andhisstepinthehall。Shereceivedhiminthebig,brightfrontparlor,andsheinstructedtheservantthat,ifanyoneshouldcall,shewasparticularlyengaged。Shewasnotafraidofherfather\'scomingin,foratthathourhewasalwaysdrivingabouttown。WhenMorrisstoodtherebeforeher,thefirstthingthatshewasconsciousofwasthathewasevenmorebeautifultolookatthanfondrecollectionhadpaintedhim;thenextwasthathehadpressedherinhisarms。Whenshewasfreeagainitappearedtoherthatshehadnowindeedthrownherselfintothegulfofdefiance,andeven,foraninstant,thatshehadbeenmarriedtohim。

  Hetoldherthatshehadbeenverycruel,andhadmadehimveryunhappy;andCatherinefeltacutelythedifficultyofherdestiny,whichforcedhertogivepaininsuchoppositequarters。Butshewishedthat,insteadofreproaches,howevertender,hewouldgiveherhelp;hewascertainlywiseenoughandcleverenoughtoinventsomeissuefromtheirtroubles。Sheexpressedthisbelief,andMorrisreceivedtheassuranceasifhethoughtitnatural;butheinterrogatedatfirst-aswasnaturaltoo-ratherthancommittedhimselftomarkingoutacourse。

  \"Youshouldnothavemademewaitsolong,\"hesaid。\"Idon\'tknowhowIhavebeenliving;everyhourseemedlikeyears。Youshouldhavedecidedsooner。\"

  \"Decided?\"Catherineasked。

  \"Decidedwhetheryouwouldkeepmeorgivemeup。\"

  \"Oh,Morris,\"shecried,withalong,tendermurmur,\"Ineverthoughtofgivingyouup!\"

  \"What,then,wereyouwaitingfor?\"Theyoungmanwasardentlylogical。

  \"Ithoughtmyfathermight-might-\"andshehesitated。

  \"Mightseehowunhappyyouwere?\"

  \"Ohno。Butthathemightlookatitdifferently。\"

  \"Andnowyouhavesentformetotellmethatatlasthedoesso。Isthatit?\"

  Thishypotheticaloptimismgavethepoorgirlapang。\"No,Morris,\"shesaid,solemnly,\"helooksatitstillinthesameway。\"

  \"Thenwhyhaveyousentforme?\"

  \"BecauseIwantedtoseeyou,\"criedCatherine,piteously。

  \"That\'sanexcellentreason,surely。Butdidyouwanttolookatmeonly?Haveyounothingtotellme?\"

  Hisbeautifulpersuasiveeyeswerefixeduponherface,andshewonderedwhatanswerwouldbenobleenoughtomaketosuchagazeasthat。Foramomentherowneyestookitin,andthen\"Ididwanttolookatyou,\"shesaid,gently。Butafterthisspeech,mostinconsistently,shehidherface。

  Morriswatchedherforamomentattentively,\"Willyoumarrymetomorrow?\"heasked,suddenly。

  \"Tomorrow?\"

  \"Nextweek,then-anytimewithinamonth?\"

  \"Isn\'titbettertowait?\"saidCatherine。

  \"Towaitforwhat?\"

  Shehardlyknewforwhat;butthistremendousleapalarmedher。

  \"Tillwehavethoughtaboutitalittlemore。\"

  Heshookhisheadsadlyandreproachfully。\"Ithoughtyouhadbeenthinkingaboutitthesethreeweeks。Doyouwanttoturnitoverinyourmindforfiveyears?Youhavegivenmemorethantimeenough。

  Mypoorgirl,\"headded,inamoment,\"youarenotsincere。\"

  Catherinecoloredfrombrowtochin,andhereyesfilledwithtears。

  \"Oh,howcanyousaythat?\"shemurmured。

  \"Why,youmusttakemeorleaveme,\"saidMorris,veryreasonably。

  \"Youcan\'tpleaseyourfatherandmeboth;youmustchoosebetweenus。\"

  \"Ihavechosenyou,\"shesaid,passionately。

  \"Thenmarrymenextweek!\"

  Shestoodgazingathim。\"Isn\'tthereanyotherway?\"

  \"NonethatIknowofforarrivingatthesameresult。Ifthereis,I

  shouldbehappytohearofit。\"

  Catherinecouldthinkofnothingofthekind,andMorris\'sluminosityseemedalmostpitiless。Theonlythingshecouldthinkofwasthatherfathermight,afterall,comeround;andshearticulated,withanawkwardsenseofherhelplessnessindoingso,awishthatthismiraclemighthappen。

  \"Doyouthinkitisintheleastdegreelikely?\"Morrisasked。

  \"Itwouldbe,ifhecouldonlyknowyou。\"

  \"Hecanknowmeifhewill。Whatistopreventit?\"

  \"Hisideas,hisreasons,\"saidCatherine。\"Theyareso-soterriblystrong。\"Shetrembledwiththerecollectionofthemyet。

  \"Strong!\"criedMorris。\"Iwouldratheryoushouldthinkthemweak。\"

  \"Oh,nothingaboutmyfatherisweak,\"saidthegirl。

  Morristurnedaway,walkingtothewindow,wherehestoodlookingout。\"Youareterriblyafraidofhim,\"heremarkedatlast。

  Shefeltnoimpulsetodenyit,becauseshehadnoshameinit;for,ifitwasnohonortoherself,atleastitwasanhonortohim。\"I

  supposeImustbe,\"shesaid,simply。

  \"Thenyoudon\'tloveme-notasIloveyou。Ifyoufearyourfathermorethanyouloveme,thenyourloveisnotwhatIhopeditwas。\"

  \"Ah,myfriend!\"shesaid,goingtohim。

  \"DoIfearanything?\"hedemanded,turningroundonher。\"ForyoursakewhatamInotreadytoface?\"

  \"Youarenoble-youarebrave!\"sheanswered,stoppingshortatadistancethatwasalmostrespectful。

  \"Smallgooditdoesme,ifyouaresotimid。\"

  \"Idon\'tthinkIam-really,\"saidCatherine。

  \"Idon\'tknowwhatyoumeanby\'really。\'Itisreallyenoughtomakeusmiserable。\"

  \"Ishouldbestrongenoughtowait-towaitalongtime。\"

  \"Andsupposeafteralongtimeyourfathershouldhatemeworsethanever?\"

  \"Hewouldn\'t-hecouldn\'t。\"

  \"Hewouldbetouchedbymyfidelity;isthatwhatyoumean?Ifheissoeasilytouched,thenwhyshouldyoubeafraidofhim?\"

  Thiswasmuchtothepoint,andCatherinewasstruckbyit。\"I

  willtrynottobe,\"shesaid。Andshestoodtheresubmissively,theimage,inadvance,ofadutifulandresponsiblewife。ThisimagecouldnotfailtorecommenditselftoMorrisTownsend,andhecontinuedtogiveproofofthehighestimationinwhichheheldher。ItcouldonlyhavebeenatthepromptingofsuchasentimentthathepresentlymentionedtoherthatthecourserecommendedbyMrs。

  Pennimanwasanimmediateunion,regardlessofconsequences。

  \"Yes,AuntPennimanwouldlikethat,\"Catherinesaid,simply,andyetwithacertainshrewdness。Itmust,however,havebeeninpuresimplicityandfrommotivesquiteuntouchedbysarcasm,thatafewmomentsaftershewentontosaytoMorristhatherfatherhadgivenheramessageforhim。Itwasquiteonherconsciencetodeliverthismessage,andhadthemissionbeententimesmorepainful,shewouldhaveasscrupulouslyperformedit。\"Hetoldmetotellyou-totellyouverydistinctly,anddirectlyfromhimself-thatifImarrywithouthisconsent,Ishallnotinheritapennyofhisfortune。Hemadeagreatpointofthis。Heseemedtothink-heseemedtothink-\"

  Morrisflushed,asanyyoungmanofspiritmighthaveflushedatanimputationofbaseness。\"Whatdidheseemtothink?\"

  \"Thatitwouldmakeadifference。\"

  \"Itwillmakeadifference-inmanythings,Weshallbebymanythousandsofdollarsthepoorer;andthatisagreatdifference。Butitwillmakenoneinmyaffection。\"

  \"Weshallnotwantthemoney,\"saidCatherine,\"foryouknowI

  haveagooddealmyself。\"

  \"Yes,mydeargirl,Iknowyouhavesomething。Andhecan\'ttouchthat。\"

  \"Hewouldnever,\"saidCatherine。\"Mymotherleftittome。\"

  Morriswassilentawhile。\"Hewasverypositiveaboutthis,washe?\"

  heaskedatlast。\"Hethoughtsuchamessagewouldannoymeterribly,andmakemethrowoffthemask,eh?\"

  \"Idon\'tknowwhathethought,\"saidCatherine,sadly。

  \"PleasetellhimthatIcareforhismessageasmuchasforthat!\"

  andMorrissnappedhisfingerssonorously。

  \"Idon\'tthinkIcouldtellhimthat。\"

  \"Doyouknowyousometimesdisappointme,\"saidMorris。

  \"IshouldthinkImight。Idisappointeveryone-FatherandAuntPenniman。\"

  \"Well,itdoesn\'tmatterwithme,becauseIamfonderofyouthantheyare。\"

  \"Yes,Morris,\"saidthegirl,withherimagination-whattherewasofit-swimminginthishappytruth,whichseemed,afterall,invidioustonoone。

  \"Isityourbeliefthathewillsticktoit-sticktoitforever-tothisideaofdisinheritingyou?Thatyourgoodnessandpatiencewillneverwearouthiscruelty?\"

  \"ThetroubleisthatifImarryyouhewillthinkIamnotgood。

  Hewillthinkthataproof。\"

  \"Ah,thenhewillneverforgiveyou!\"

  Thisidea,sharplyexpressedbyMorris\'shandsomelips,renewedforamomenttothepoorgirl\'stemporarilypacifiedconscienceallitsdreadfulvividness。\"Oh,youmustlovemeverymuch!\"shecried。

  \"Thereisnodoubtofthat,mydear,\"herloverrejoined。\"Youdon\'tlikethatword\'disinherited,\'\"headded,inamoment。

  \"Itisn\'tthemoney;itisthatheshould-thatheshouldfeelso。\"

  \"Isupposeitseemstoyouakindofcurse?\"saidMorris。\"Itmustbeverydismal。Butdon\'tyouthink,\"hewenton,presently,\"thatifyouweretotrytobeveryclever,andtosetrightlyaboutit,youmightintheendconjureitaway?Don\'tyouthink,\"hecontinuedfurther,inatoneofsympatheticspeculation,\"thatareallycleverwoman,inyourplace,mightbringhimroundatlast?Don\'tyouthink-\"

  Here,suddenly,Morriswasinterrupted;theseingeniousinquirieshadnotreachedCatherine\'sears。Theterribleworddisinheritance,withallitsimpressivemoralreprobation,wasstillringingthere-

  seemed,indeed,togatherforceasitlingered。Themortalchillofhersituationstruckmoredeeplyintoherchildlikeheart,andshewasoverwhelmedbyafeelingoflonelinessanddanger。Butherrefugewasthere,closetoher,andsheputoutherhandstograspit。\"Ah,Morris,\"shesaid,withashudder,\"Iwillmarryyouassoonasyouplease!\"andshesurrenderedherself,leaningherheadonhisshoulder。

  \"Mydeargoodgirl!\"heexclaimed,lookingdownathisprize。Andthenhelookedupagain,rathervaguely,withpartedlipsandliftedeyebrows。

  CHAPTER21。

  DOCTORSLOPERverysoonimpartedhisconvictiontoMrs。Almondinthesametermsinwhichhehadannouncedittohimself。\"She\'sgoingtostick,byJove!She\'sgoingtostick。\"

  \"Doyoumeanthatsheisgoingtomarryhim?\"Mrs。Almondinquired。

  \"Idon\'tknowthat;butsheisnotgoingtobreakdown。Sheisgoingtodragouttheengagement,inthehopeofmakingmerelent。\"

  \"Andshallyounotrelent?\"

  \"Shallageometricalpropositionrelent?Iamnotsosuperficial。\"

  \"Doesn\'tgeometrytreatofsurfaces?\"askedMrs。Almond,who,asweknow,wasclever,smiling。

  \"Yes,butittreatsofthemprofoundly。Catherineandheryoungmanaremysurfaces;Ihavetakentheirmeasure。\"

  \"Youspeakasifitsurprisedyou。\"

  \"Itisimmense;therewillbeagreatdealtoobserve。\"

  \"Youareshockinglycold-blooded!\"saidMrs。Almond。

  \"Ineedtobe,withallthishotbloodaboutme。YoungTownsend,indeed,iscool;Imustallowhimthatmerit。\"

  \"Ican\'tjudgehim,\"Mrs。Almondanswered,\"butIamnotatallsurprisedatCatherine。\"

  \"IconfessIamalittle;shemusthavebeensodeucedlydividedandbothered。\"

  \"Sayitamusesyououtright。Idon\'tseewhyitshouldbesuchajokethatyourdaughteradoresyou。\"

  \"ItisthepointwheretheadorationstopsthatIfinditinterestingtofix。\"

  \"Itstopswheretheothersentimentbegins。\"

  \"Notatall;thatwouldbesimpleenough。Thetwothingsareextremelymixedup,andthemixtureisextremelyodd。Itwillproducesomethirdelement,andthat\'swhatI\'mwaitingtosee。Iwaitwithsuspense-withpositiveexcitement;andthatisasortofemotionthatIdidn\'tsupposeCatherinewouldeverprovideforme。Iamreallyverymuchobligedtoher。\"

  \"Shewillcling,\"saidMrs。Almond。\"Shewillcertainlycling。\"

  \"Yes,asIsay,shewillstick。\"

  \"Clingisprettier。That\'swhatthoseverysimplenaturesalwaysdo,andnothingcouldbesimplerthanCatherine。Shedoesn\'ttakemanyimpressions;butwhenshetakesone,shekeepsit。Sheislikeacopperkettlethatreceivesadent:Youmaypolishupthekettle,butyoucan\'teffacethemark。\"

  \"WemusttryandpolishupCatherine,\"saidthedoctor。\"IwilltakehertoEurope!\"

  \"Shewon\'tforgethiminEurope。\"

  \"Hewillforgether,then。\"

  Mrs。Almondlookedgrave。\"Shouldyoureallylikethat?\"

  \"Extremely,\"saidthedoctor。

  Mrs。Penniman,meanwhile,lostlittletimeinputtingherselfagainincommunicationwithMorrisTownsend。Sherequestedhimtofavorherwithanotherinterview,butshedidnotonthisoccasionselectanoystersaloonasthesceneoftheirmeeting。SheproposedthatheshouldjoinheratthedoorofacertainchurchafterserviceonSundayafternoon;andshewascarefulnottoappointtheplaceofworshipwhichsheusuallyvisited,andwhere,asshesaid,thecongregationwouldhavespieduponher。Shepickedoutalesselegantresort,andonissuingfromitsportalatthehourshehadfixedshesawtheyoungmanstandingapart。Sheofferedhimnorecognitionuntilshehadcrossedthestreet,andhehadfollowedhertosomedistance。Here,withasmile,\"Excusemyapparentwantofcordiality,\"shesaid。\"Youknowwhattobelieveaboutthat。

  Prudencebeforeeverything。\"Andonhisaskingherinwhatdirectiontheyshouldwalk,\"Whereweshallbeleastobserved,\"shemurmured。

  Morriswasnotinhighgood-humor,andhisresponsetothisspeechwasnotparticularlygallant。\"Idon\'tflattermyselfweshallbemuchobservedanywhere。\"Thenheturnedrecklesslytowardthecenterofthetown。\"Ihopeyouhavecometotellmethathehasknockedunder,\"

  hewenton。

  \"IamafraidIamnotaltogetheraharbingerofgood;andyet,too,Iamtoacertainextentamessengerofpeace。Ihavebeenthinkingagreatdeal,Mr。Townsend,\"saidMrs。Penniman。

  \"Youthinktoomuch。\"

  \"IsupposeIdo;butIcan\'thelpit,mymindissoterriblyactive。

  WhenIgivemyself,Igivemyself。Ipaythepenaltyinmyheadaches,myfamousheadaches-aperfectcircletofpain!ButIcarryitasaqueencarrieshercrown。WouldyoubelievethatIhaveonenow?Iwouldn\'t,however,havemissedourrendezvousforanything。I

  havesomethingveryimportanttotellyou。\"

  \"Well,let\'shaveit,\"saidMorris。

  \"Iwasperhapsalittleheadlongtheotherdayinadvisingyoutomarryimmediately。Ihavebeenthinkingitover,andnowIseeitjustalittledifferently。\"

  \"Youseemtohaveagreatmanydifferentwaysofseeingthesameobject。\"

  \"Theirnumberisinfinite!\"saidMrs。Penniman,inatonewhichseemedtosuggestthatthisconvenientfacultywasoneofherbrightestattributes。

  \"Irecommendyoutotakeoneway,andsticktoit,\"Morrisreplied。

  \"Ah,butitisn\'teasytochoose。Myimaginationisneverquiet,neversatisfied。Itmakesmeabadadviser,perhaps,butitmakesmeacapitalfriend。\"

  \"Acapitalfriendwhogivesbadadvice!\"saidMorris。

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