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  Vassilyevwentintothedrawing-roomandsatdown。Therewereanumberofvisitorsintheroombesideshimandhisfriends:twoinfantryofficers,abald,gray-hairedgentlemaninspectacles,twobeardlessyouthsfromtheinstituteofland-surveying,andaverytipsymanwholookedlikeanactor。AlltheyoungladiesweretakenupwiththesevisitorsandpaidnoattentiontoVassilyev。

  Onlyoneofthem,dressed_alaAida,_glancedsidewaysathim,smiled,andsaid,yawning:\"Adarkonehascome……\"

  Vassilyev’sheartwasthrobbingandhisfaceburned。Hefeltashamedbeforethesevisitorsofhispresencehere,andhefeltdisgustedandmiserable。Hewastormentedbythethoughtthathe,adecentandlovingman(suchashehadhithertoconsideredhimself),hatedthesewomenandfeltnothingbutrepulsiontowardsthem。Hefeltpityneitherforthewomennorthemusiciansnortheflunkeys。

  \"ItisbecauseIamnottryingtounderstandthem,\"hethought。

  \"Theyareallmorelikeanimalsthanhumanbeings,butofcoursetheyarehumanbeingsallthesame,theyhavesouls。Onemustunderstandthemandthenjudge……\"

  \"Grisha,don’tgo,waitforus,\"theartistshoutedtohimanddisappeared。

  Themedicalstudentdisappearedsoonafter。

  \"Yes,onemustmakeanefforttounderstand,onemustn’tbelikethis……\"Vassilyevwentonthinking。

  Andhebegangazingateachofthewomenwithstrainedattention,lookingforaguiltysmile。Buteitherhedidnotknowhowtoreadtheirfaces,ornotoneofthesewomenfeltherselftobeguilty;hereadoneveryfacenothingbutablankexpressionofeverydayvulgarboredomandcomplacency。Stupidfaces,stupidsmiles,harsh,stupidvoices,insolentmovements,andnothingelse。Apparentlyeachofthemhadinthepastaromancewithanaccountantbasedonunderclothesforfiftyroubles,andlookedfornoothercharminthepresentbutcoffee,adinnerofthreecourses,wines,quadrilles,sleepingtilltwointheafternoon……

  Findingnoguiltysmile,Vassilyevbegantolookwhethertherewasnotoneintelligentface。Andhisattentionwascaughtbyonepale,rathersleepy,exhausted-lookingface……Itwasadarkwoman,notveryyoung,wearingadresscoveredwithspangles;

  shewassittinginaneasy-chair,lookingatthefloorlostinthought。Vassilyevwalkedfromonecorneroftheroomtotheother,and,asthoughcasually,satdownbesideher。

  \"Imustbeginwithsomethingtrivial,\"hethought,\"andpasstowhatisserious……\"

  \"Whataprettydressyouhave,\"andwithhisfingerhetouchedthegoldfringeofherfichu。

  \"Oh,isit?……\"saidthedarkwomanlistlessly。

  \"Whatprovincedoyoucomefrom?\"

  \"I?Fromadistance……FromTchernigov。\"

  \"Afineprovince。It’snicethere。\"

  \"Anyplaceseemsnicewhenoneisnotinit。\"

  \"It’sapityIcannotdescribenature,\"thoughtVassilyev。\"I

  mighttouchherbyadescriptionofnatureinTchernigov。Nodoubtshelovestheplaceifshehasbeenbornthere。\"

  \"Areyoudullhere?\"heasked。

  \"OfcourseIamdull。\"

  \"Whydon’tyougoawayfromhereifyouaredull?\"

  \"WhereshouldIgoto?Gobeggingorwhat?\"

  \"Beggingwouldbeeasierthanlivinghere。\"

  Howdoyouknowthat?Haveyoubegged?\"

  \"Yes,whenIhadn’tthemoneytostudy。EvenifIhadn’tanyonecouldunderstandthat。Abeggarisanywayafreeman,andyouareaslave。\"

  Thedarkwomanstretched,andwatchedwithsleepyeyesthefootmanwhowasbringingatrayfulofglassesandseltzerwater。

  \"Standmeaglassofporter,\"shesaid,andyawnedagain。

  \"Porter,\"thoughtVassilyev。\"Andwhatifyourbrotherormotherwalkedinatthismoment?Whatwouldyousay?Andwhatwouldtheysay?Therewouldbeporterthen,Iimagine……\"

  Allatoncetherewasthesoundofweeping。Fromtheadjoiningroom,fromwhichthefootmanhadbroughttheseltzerwater,afairmanwitharedfaceandangryeyesraninquickly。Hewasfollowedbythetall,stout\"madam,\"whowasshoutinginashrillvoice:

  \"Nobodyhasgivenyouleavetoslapgirlsonthecheeks!Wehavevisitorsbetterthanyou,andtheydon’tfight!Impostor!\"

  Ahubbubarose。Vassilyevwasfrightenedandturnedpale。Inthenextroomtherewasthesoundofbitter,genuineweeping,asthoughofsomeoneinsulted。Andherealizedthattherewererealpeoplelivingherewho,likepeopleeverywhereelse,feltinsulted,suffered,wept,andcriedforhelp。Thefeelingofoppressivehateanddisgustgavewaytoanacutefeelingofpityandangeragainsttheaggressor。Herushedintotheroomwheretherewasweeping。Acrossrowsofbottlesonamarble-toptablehedistinguishedasufferingface,wetwithtears,stretchedouthishandstowardsthatface,tookasteptowardsthetable,butatoncedrewbackinhorror。Theweepinggirlwasdrunk。

  Ashemadehiswaythoughthenoisycrowdgatheredaboutthefairman,hisheartsankandhefeltfrightenedlikeachild;anditseemedtohimthatinthisalien,incomprehensibleworldpeoplewantedtopursuehim,tobeathim,topelthimwithfilthywords……Hetoredownhiscoatfromthehatstandandranheadlongdownstairs。

  V

  Leaningagainstthefence,hestoodnearthehousewaitingforhisfriendstocomeout。Thesoundsofthepianosandviolins,gay,reckless,insolent,andmournful,mingledintheairinasortofchaos,andthistangleofsoundsseemedagainlikeanunseenorchestratuningupontheroofs。Ifonelookedupwardsintothedarkness,theblackbackgroundwasallspangledwithwhite,movingspots:itwassnowfalling。Asthesnowflakescameintothelighttheyfloatedroundlazilyintheairlikedown,andstillmorelazilyfelltotheground。ThesnowflakeswhirledthicklyroundVassilyevandhunguponhisbeard,hiseyelashes,hiseyebrows……Thecabmen,thehorses,andthepassers-bywerewhite。

  \"Andhowcanthesnowfallinthisstreet!\"thoughtVassilyev。

  \"Damnationtakethesehouses!\"

  Hislegsseemedtobegivingwayfromfatigue,simplyfromhavingrundownthestairs;hegaspedforbreathasthoughhehadbeenclimbinguphill,hisheartbeatsoloudlythathecouldhearit。

  Hewasconsumedbyadesiretogetoutofthestreetasquicklyaspossibleandtogohome,butevenstrongerwashisdesiretowaitforhiscompanionsandventuponthemhisoppressivefeeling。

  Therewasmuchhedidnotunderstandinthesehouses,thesoulsofruinedwomenwereamysterytohimasbefore;butitwascleartohimthatthethingwasfarworsethancouldhavebeenbelieved。Ifthatsinfulwomanwhohadpoisonedherselfwascalledfallen,itwasdifficulttofindafittingnameforallthesewhoweredancingnowtothistangleofsoundandutteringlong,loathsomesentences。Theywerenotontheroadtoruin,butruined。

  \"Thereisvice,\"hethought,\"butneitherconsciousnessofsinnorhopeofsalvation。Theyaresoldandbought,steepedinwineandabominations,whilethey,likesheep,arestupid,indifferent,anddon’tunderstand。MyGod!MyGod!\"

  Itwascleartohim,too,thateverythingthatiscalledhumandignity,personalrights,theDivineimageandsemblance,weredefiledtotheirveryfoundations——\"totheverymarrow,\"asdrunkardssay——andthatnotonlythestreetandthestupidwomenwereresponsibleforit。

  Agroupofstudents,whitewithsnow,passedhimlaughingandtalkinggaily;one,atallthinfellow,stopped,glancedintoVassilyev’sface,andsaidinadrunkenvoice:

  \"Oneofus!Abiton,oldman?Aha-ha!Nevermind,haveagoodtime!Don’tbedown-hearted,oldchap!\"

  HetookVassilyevbytheshoulderandpressedhiscoldwetmustacheagainsthischeek,thenheslipped,staggered,and,wavingbothhands,cried:

  \"Holdon!Don’tupset!\"

  Andlaughing,herantoovertakehiscompanions。

  Throughthenoisecamethesoundoftheartist’svoice:

  \"Don’tyoudaretohitthewomen!Iwon’tletyou,damnationtakeyou!Youscoundrels!\"

  Themedicalstudentappearedinthedoorway。Helookedfromsidetoside,andseeingVassilyev,saidinanagitatedvoice:

  \"Youhere!Itellyouit’sreallyimpossibletogoanywherewithYegor!Whatafellowheis!Idon’tunderstandhim!Hehasgotupascene!Doyouhear?Yegor!\"heshoutedatthedoor。Yegor!\"

  \"Iwon’tallowyoutohitwomen!\"theartist’spiercingvoicesoundedfromabove。Somethingheavyandlumberingrolleddownthestairs。Itwastheartistfallingheadlong。Evidentlyhehadbeenpusheddownstairs。

  Hepickedhimselfupfromtheground,shookhishat,and,withanangryandindignantface,brandishedhisfisttowardsthetopofthestairsandshouted:

  \"Scoundrels!Torturers!Bloodsuckers!Iwon’tallowyoutohitthem!Tohitaweak,drunkenwoman!Oh,youbrutes!……\"

  \"Yegor!……Come,Yegor!……\"themedicalstudentbeganimploringhim。\"IgiveyoumywordofhonorI’llnevercomewithyouagain。OnmywordofhonorIwon’t!\"

  Littlebylittletheartistwaspacifiedandthefriendswenthomewards。

  \"Againstmywillanunknownforce,\"hummedthemedicalstudent,\"hasledmetothesemournfulshores。\"

  \"Beholdthemill,\"theartistchimedinalittlelater,\"inruinsnow。Whatalotofsnow,HolyMother!Grisha,whydidyougo?Youareafunk,aregularoldwoman。\"

  Vassilyevwalkedbehindhiscompanions,lookedattheirbacks,andthought:

  \"Oneoftwothings:eitherweonlyfancyprostitutionisanevil,andweexaggerateit;or,ifprostitutionreallyisasgreatanevilasisgenerallyassumed,thesedearfriendsofmineareasmuchslaveowners,violators,andmurderers,astheinhabitantsofSyriaandCairo,thataredescribedinthe’Neva。’Nowtheyaresinging,laughing,talkingsense,buthaven’ttheyjustbeenexploitinghunger,ignorance,andstupidity?Theyhave——Ihavebeenawitnessofit。Whatistheuseoftheirhumanity,theirmedicine,theirpainting?Thescience,art,andloftysentimentsofthesesoul-destroyersremindmeofthepieceofbaconinthestory。Twobrigandsmurderedabeggarinaforest;theybegansharinghisclothesbetweenthem,andfoundinhiswalletapieceofbacon。’Wellfound,’saidoneofthem,’letushaveabit。’

  ’Whatdoyoumean?Howcanyou?’criedtheotherinhorror。’Haveyouforgottenthatto-dayisWednesday?’Andtheywouldnoteatit。Aftermurderingaman,theycameoutoftheforestinthefirmconvictionthattheywerekeepingthefast。Inthesamewaythesemen,afterbuyingwomen,gotheirwayimaginingthattheyareartistsandmenofscience……\"

  \"Listen!\"hesaidsharplyandangrily。\"Whydoyoucomehere?Isitpossible——isitpossibleyoudon’tunderstandhowhorribleitis?Yourmedicalbookstellyouthateveryoneofthesewomendiesprematurelyofconsumptionorsomething;arttellsyouthatmorallytheyaredeadevenearlier。Everyoneofthemdiesbecauseshehasinhertimetoentertainfivehundredmenonanaverage,letussay。Eachoneofthemiskilledbyfivehundredmen。Youareamongthosefivehundred!Ifeachofyouinthecourseofyourlivesvisitsthisplaceorotherslikeittwohundredandfiftytimes,itfollowsthatonewomaniskilledforeverytwoofyou!Can’tyouunderstandthat?Isn’tithorribletomurder,twoofyou,threeofyou,fiveofyou,afoolish,hungrywoman!Ah!isn’titawful,myGod!\"

  \"Iknewitwouldendlikethat,\"theartistsaidfrowning。\"Weoughtnottohavegonewiththisfoolandass!Youimagineyouhavegrandnotionsinyourheadnow,ideas,don’tyou?No,it’sthedevilknowswhat,butnotideas。Youarelookingatmenowwithhatredandrepulsion,butItellyouit’sbetteryoushouldsetuptwentymorehouseslikethosethanlooklikethat。

  There’smoreviceinyourexpressionthaninthewholestreet!

  Comealong,Volodya,lethimgotothedevil!He’safoolandanass,andthat’sall……\"

  \"Wehumanbeingsdomurdereachother,\"saidthemedicalstudent。

  \"It’simmoral,ofcourse,butphilosophizingdoesn’thelpit。

  Good-by!\"

  AtTrubnoySquarethefriendssaidgood-byandparted。Whenhewasleftalone,Vassilyevstroderapidlyalongtheboulevard。Hefeltfrightenedofthedarkness,ofthesnowwhichwasfallinginheavyflakesontheground,andseemedasthoughitwouldcoverupthewholeworld;hefeltfrightenedofthestreetlampsshiningwithpalelightthroughthecloudsofsnow。Hissoulwaspossessedbyanunaccountable,faint-heartedterror。Passers-bycametowardshimfromtimetotime,buthetimidlymovedtooneside;itseemedtohimthatwomen,nonebutwomen,werecomingfromallsidesandstaringathim……

  \"It’sbeginning,\"hethought,\"Iamgoingtohaveabreakdown。\"

  VI

  Athomehelayonhisbedandsaid,shudderingallover:\"Theyarealive!Alive!MyGod,thosewomenarealive!\"

  Heencouragedhisimaginationinallsortsofwaystopicturehimselfthebrotherofafallenwoman,orherfather;thenafallenwomanherself,withherpaintedcheeks;anditallmovedhimtohorror。

  Itseemedtohimthathemustsettlethequestionatonceatallcosts,andthatthisquestionwasnotonethatdidnotconcernhim,butwashisownpersonalproblem。Hemadeanimmenseeffort,repressedhisdespair,and,sittingonthebed,holdinghisheadinhishands,beganthinkinghowonecouldsaveallthewomenhehadseenthatday。Themethodforattackingproblemsofallkindswas,ashewasaneducatedman,wellknowntohim。And,howeverexcitedhewas,hestrictlyadheredtothatmethod。Herecalledthehistoryoftheproblemanditsliterature,andforaquarterofanhourhepacedfromoneendoftheroomtotheothertryingtorememberallthemethodspracticedatthepresenttimeforsavingwomen。HehadverymanygoodfriendsandacquaintanceswholivedinlodgingsinPetersburg……Amongthemwereagoodmanyhonestandself-sacrificingmen。Someofthemhadattemptedtosavewomen……

  \"Allthesenotverynumerousattempts,\"thoughtVassilyev,\"canbedividedintothreegroups。Some,afterbuyingthewomanoutofthebrothel,tookaroomforher,boughtherasewing-machine,andshebecameasemptress。Andwhetherhewantedtoornot,afterhavingboughtherouthemadeherhismistress;thenwhenhehadtakenhisdegree,hewentawayandhandedherintothekeepingofsomeotherdecentmanasthoughshewereathing。

  Andthefallenwomanremainedafallenwoman。Others,afterbuyingherout,tookalodgingapartforher,boughttheinevitablesewing-machine,andtriedteachinghertoread,preachingatherandgivingherbooks。Thewomanlivedandsewedaslongasitwasinterestingandanoveltytoher,thengettingbored,beganreceivingmenonthesly,orranawayandwentbackwhereshecouldsleeptillthreeo’clock,drinkcoffee,andhavegooddinners。Thethirdclass,themostardentandself-sacrificing,hadtakenabold,resolutestep。Theyhadmarriedthem。Andwhentheinsolentandspoilt,orstupidandcrushedanimalbecameawife,theheadofahousehold,andafterwardsamother,itturnedherwholeexistenceandattitudetolifeupsidedown,sothatitwashardtorecognizethefallenwomanafterwardsinthewifeandthemother。Yes,marriagewasthebestandperhapstheonlymeans。\"

  \"Butitisimpossible!\"Vassilyevsaidaloud,andhesankuponhisbed。\"I,tobeginwith,couldnotmarryone!Todothatonemustbeasaintandbeunabletofeelhatredorrepulsion。ButsupposingthatI,themedicalstudent,andtheartistmasteredourselvesanddidmarrythem——supposetheywereallmarried。

  Whatwouldbetheresult?TheresultwouldbethatwhilehereinMoscowtheywerebeingmarried,someSmolenskaccountantwouldbedebauchinganotherlot,andthatlotwouldbestreamingheretofillthevacantplaces,togetherwithothersfromSaratov,Nizhni-Novgorod,Warsaw……AndwhatisonetodowiththehundredthousandinLondon?What’sonetodowiththoseinHamburg?\"

  Thelampinwhichtheoilhadburntdownbegantosmoke。

  Vassilyevdidnotnoticeit。Hebeganpacingtoandfroagain,stillthinking。Nowheputthequestiondifferently:whatmustbedonethatfallenwomenshouldnotbeneeded?Forthat,itwasessentialthatthemenwhobuythemanddothemtodeathshouldfeelalltheimmoralityoftheirshareinenslavingthemandshouldbehorrified。Onemustsavethemen。

  \"Onewon’tdoanythingbyartandscience,thatisclear……\"

  thoughtVassilyev。\"Theonlywayoutofitismissionarywork。\"

  Andhebegantodreamhowhewouldthenexteveningstandatthecornerofthestreetandsaytoeverypasser-by:\"Whereareyougoingandwhatfor?HavesomefearofGod!\"

  Hewouldturntotheapatheticcabmenandsaytothem:\"Whyareyoustayinghere?Whyaren’tyourevolted?Whyaren’tyouindignant?IsupposeyoubelieveinGodandknowthatitisasin,thatpeoplegotohellforit?Whydon’tyouspeak?Itistruethattheyarestrangerstoyou,butyouknoweventheyhavefathers,brotherslikeyourselves……\"

  OneofVassilyev’sfriendshadoncesaidofhimthathewasatalentedman。Thereareallsortsoftalents——talentforwriting,talentforthestage,talentforart;buthehadapeculiartalent——atalentfor_humanity_。Hepossessedanextraordinarilyfinedelicatescentforpainingeneral。Asagoodactorreflectsinhimselfthemovementsandvoiceofothers,soVassilyevcouldreflectinhissoulthesufferingsofothers。

  Whenhesawtears,hewept;besideasickman,hefeltsickhimselfandmoaned;ifhesawanactofviolence,hefeltasthoughhehimselfwerethevictimofit,hewasfrightenedasachild,andinhisfrightrantohelp。Thepainofothersworkedonhisnerves,excitedhim,rousedhimtoastateoffrenzy,andsoon。

  WhetherthisfriendwererightIdon’tknow,butwhatVassilyevexperiencedwhenhethoughtthisquestionwassettledwassomethinglikeinspiration。Hecriedandlaughed,spokealoudthewordsthatheshouldsaynextday,feltaferventloveforthosewhowouldlistentohimandwouldstandbesidehimatthecornerofthestreettopreach;hesatdowntowriteletters,madevowstohimself……

  Allthiswaslikeinspirationalsofromthefactthatitdidnotlastlong。Vassilyevwassoontired。ThecasesinLondon,inHamburg,inWarsaw,weigheduponhimbytheirmassasamountainweighsupontheearth;hefeltdispirited,bewildered,inthefaceofthismass;herememberedthathehadnotagiftforwords,thathewascowardlyandtimid,thatindifferentpeoplewouldnotbewillingtolistenandunderstandhim,alawstudentinhisthirdyear,atimidandinsignificantperson;thatgenuinemissionaryworkincludednotonlyteachingbutdeeds……

  Whenitwasdaylightandcarriageswerealreadybeginningtorumbleinthestreet,Vassilyevwaslyingmotionlessonthesofa,staringintospace。Hewasnolongerthinkingofthewomen,norofthemen,norofmissionarywork。Hiswholeattentionwasturneduponthespiritualagonywhichwastorturinghim。Itwasadull,vague,undefinedanguishakintomisery,toanextremeformofterrorandtodespair。Hecouldpointtotheplacewherethepainwas,inhisbreastunderhisheart;buthecouldnotcompareitwithanything。Inthepasthehadhadacutetoothache,hehadhadpleurisyandneuralgia,butallthatwasinsignificantcomparedwiththisspiritualanguish。Inthepresenceofthatpainlifeseemedloathsome。Thedissertation,theexcellentworkhehadwrittenalready,thepeopleheloved,thesalvationoffallenwomen——everythingthatonlythedaybeforehehadcaredaboutorbeenindifferentto,nowwhenhethoughtofthemirritatedhiminthesamewayasthenoiseofthecarriages,thescurryingfootstepsofthewaitersinthepassage,thedaylight……Ifatthatmomentsomeonehadperformedagreatdeedofmercyorhadcommittedarevoltingoutrage,hewouldhavefeltthesamerepulsionforbothactions。

  Ofallthethoughtsthatstrayedthroughhismindonlytwodidnotirritatehim:onewasthatateverymomenthehadthepowertokillhimself,theotherthatthisagonywouldnotlastmorethanthreedays。Thislastheknewbyexperience。

  Afterlyingforawhilehegotupand,wringinghishands,walkedabouttheroom,notasusualfromcornertocorner,butroundtheroombesidethewalls。Ashepassedheglancedathimselfinthelooking-glass。Hisfacelookedpaleandsunken,histempleslookedhollow,hiseyeswerebigger,darker,morestaring,asthoughtheybelongedtosomeoneelse,andtheyhadanexpressionofinsufferablementalagony。

  Atmiddaytheartistknockedatthedoor。

  \"Grigory,areyouathome?\"heasked。

  Gettingnoanswer,hestoodforaminute,pondered,andansweredhimselfinLittleRussian:\"Nay。TheconfoundedfellowhasgonetotheUniversity。\"

  Andhewentaway。Vassilyevlaydownonthebedand,thrustinghisheadunderthepillow,begancryingwithagony,andthemorefreelyhistearsflowedthemoreterriblehismentalanguishbecame。Asitbegantogetdark,hethoughtoftheagonizingnightawaitinghim,andwasovercomebyahorribledespair。Hedressedquickly,ranoutofhisroom,and,leavinghisdoorwideopen,fornoobjectorreason,wentoutintothestreet。Withoutaskinghimselfwhereheshouldgo,hewalkedquicklyalongSadovoyStreet。

  Snowwasfallingasheavilyasthedaybefore;itwasthawing。

  Thrustinghishandsintohissleeves,shudderingandfrightenedatthenoises,atthetrambells,andatthepassers-by,VassilyevwalkedalongSadovoyStreetasfarasSuharevTower;thentotheRedGate;fromthereheturnedofftoBasmannyaStreet。Hewentintoatavernanddrankoffabigglassofvodka,butthatdidnotmakehimfeelbetter。WhenhereachedRazgulyaheturnedtotheright,andstrodealongsidestreetsinwhichhehadneverbeenbeforeinhislife。HereachedtheoldbridgebywhichtheYauzarunsgurgling,andfromwhichonecanseelongrowsoflightsinthewindowsoftheRedBarracks。Todistracthisspiritualanguishbysomenewsensationorsomeotherpain,Vassilyev,notknowingwhattodo,cryingandshuddering,undidhisgreatcoatandjacketandexposedhisbarechesttothewetsnowandthewind。Butthatdidnotlessenhissufferingeither。

  Thenhebentdownovertherailofthebridgeandlookeddownintotheblack,yeastyYauza,andhelongedtoplungedownheadforemost;notfromloathingforlife,notforthesakeofsuicide,butinordertobruisehimselfatleast,andbyonepaintoeasetheother。Buttheblackwater,thedarkness,thedesertedbankscoveredwithsnowwereterrifying。Heshiveredandwalkedon。HewalkedupanddownbytheRedBarracks,thenturnedbackandwentdowntoacopse,fromthecopsebacktothebridgeagain\"No,home,home!\"hethought。\"AthomeIbelieveit’sbetter……\"

  Andhewentback。Whenhereachedhomehepulledoffhiswetcoatandcap,beganpacingroundtheroom,andwentonpacingroundandroundwithoutstoppingtillmorning。

  VII

  Whennextmorningtheartistandthemedicalstudentwentintohim,hewasmovingabouttheroomwithhisshirttorn,bitinghishandsandmoaningwithpain。

  \"ForGod’ssake!\"hesobbedwhenhesawhisfriends,\"takemewhereyouplease,dowhatyoucan;butforGod’ssake,savemequickly!Ishallkillmyself!\"

  Theartistturnedpaleandwashelpless。Themedicalstudent,too,almostshedtears,butconsideringthatdoctorsoughttobecoolandcomposedineveryemergencysaidcoldly:

  \"It’sanervousbreakdown。Butit’snothing。Letusgoatoncetothedoctor。\"

  \"Whereveryoulike,onlyforGod’ssake,makehaste\"

  \"Don’texciteyourself。Youmusttryandcontrolyourself。\"

  TheartistandthemedicalstudentwithtremblinghandsputVassilyev’scoatandhatonandledhimoutintothestreet。

  \"MihailSergeyitchhasbeenwantingtomakeyouracquaintanceforalongtime,\"themedicalstudentsaidontheway。\"Heisaverynicemanandthoroughlygoodathiswork。Hetookhisdegreein1882,andhehasanimmensepracticealready。Hetreatsstudentsasthoughhewereonehimself。\"

  \"Makehaste,makehaste!……\"Vassilyevurged。

  MihailSergeyitch,astout,fair-haireddoctor,receivedthefriendswithpolitenessandfrigiddignity,andsmiledonlyononesideofhisface。

  \"RybnikovandMayerhavespokentomeofyourillnessalready,\"

  hesaid。\"Verygladtobeofservicetoyou。Well?Sitdown,I

  beg……\"

  HemadeVassilyevsitdowninabigarmchairnearthetable,andmovedaboxofcigarettestowardshim。

  \"Nowthen!\"hebegan,strokinghisknees。\"Letusgettowork……Howoldareyou?\"

  Heaskedquestionsandthemedicalstudentansweredthem。HeaskedwhetherVassilyev’sfatherhadsufferedfromcertainspecialdiseases,whetherhedranktoexcess,whetherhewereremarkableforcrueltyoranypeculiarities。Hemadesimilarinquiriesabouthisgrandfather,mother,sisters,andbrothers。

  Onlearningthathismotherhadabeautifulvoiceandsometimesactedonthestage,hegrewmoreanimatedatonce,andasked:

  \"Excuseme,butdon’tyouremember,perhaps,yourmotherhadapassionforthestage?\"

  Twentyminutespassed。Vassilyevwasannoyedbythewaythedoctorkeptstrokinghiskneesandtalkingofthesamething。

  \"SofarasIunderstandyourquestions,doctor,\"hesaid,\"youwanttoknowwhethermyillnessishereditaryornot。Itisnot。\"

  ThedoctorproceededtoaskVassilyevwhetherhehadhadanysecretvicesasaboy,orhadreceivedinjuriestohishead;

  whetherhehadhadanyaberrations,anypeculiarities,orexceptionalpropensities。Halfthequestionsusuallyaskedbydoctorsoftheirpatientscanbeleftunansweredwithouttheslightestilleffectonthehealth,butMihailSergeyitch,themedicalstudent,andtheartistalllookedasthoughifVassilyevfailedtoansweronequestionallwouldbelost。Ashereceivedanswers,thedoctorforsomereasonnotedthemdownonaslipofpaper。OnlearningthatVassilyevhadtakenhisdegreeinnaturalscience,andwasnowstudyinglaw,thedoctorpondered。

  \"Hewroteafirst-ratepieceoforiginalworklastyear,……\"

  saidthemedicalstudent。

  \"Ibegyourpardon,butdon’tinterruptme;youpreventmefromconcentrating,\"saidthedoctor,andhesmiledononesideofhisface。\"Though,ofcourse,thatdoesenterintothediagnosis。

  Intenseintellectualwork,nervousexhaustion……Yes,yes……Anddoyoudrinkvodka?\"hesaid,addressingVassilyev。

  \"Veryrarely。\"

  Anothertwentyminutespassed。Themedicalstudentbegantellingthedoctorinalowvoicehisopinionastotheimmediatecauseoftheattack,anddescribedhowthedaybeforeyesterdaytheartist,Vassilyev,andhehadvisitedS。Street。

  Theindifferent,reserved,andfrigidtoneinwhichhisfriendsandthedoctorspokeofthewomenandthatmiserablestreetstruckVassilyevasstrangeintheextreme……

  \"Doctor,tellmeonethingonly,\"hesaid,controllinghimselfsoasnottospeakrudely。\"Isprostitutionanevilornot?\"

  \"Mydearfellow,whodisputesit?\"saidthedoctor,withanexpressionthatsuggestedthathehadsettledallsuchquestionsforhimselflongago。\"Whodisputesit?\"

  \"Youareamentaldoctor,aren’tyou?\"Vassilyevaskedcurtly。

  \"Yes,amentaldoctor。\"

  \"Perhapsallofyouareright!\"saidVassilyev,gettingupandbeginningtowalkfromoneendoftheroomtotheother。

  \"Perhaps!Butitallseemsmarveloustome!ThatIshouldhavetakenmydegreeintwofacultiesyoulookuponasagreatachievement;becauseIhavewrittenaworkwhichinthreeyearswillbethrownasideandforgotten,Iampraiseduptotheskies;

  butbecauseIcannotspeakoffallenwomenasunconcernedlyasofthesechairs,Iambeingexaminedbyadoctor,Iamcalledmad,Iampitied!\"

  Vassilyevforsomereasonfeltallatonceunutterablysorryforhimself,andhiscompanions,andallthepeoplehehadseentwodaysbefore,andforthedoctor;heburstintotearsandsankintoachair。

  Hisfriendslookedinquiringlyatthedoctor。Thelatter,withtheairofcompletelycomprehendingthetearsandthedespair,offeelinghimselfaspecialistinthatline,wentuptoVassilyevand,withoutaword,gavehimsomemedicinetodrink;andthen,whenhewascalmer,undressedhimandbegantoinvestigatethedegreeofsensibilityoftheskin,thereflexactionoftheknees,andsoon。

  AndVassilyevfelteasier。Whenhecameoutfromthedoctor’shewasbeginningtofeelashamed;therattleofthecarriagesnolongerirritatedhim,andtheloadathisheartgrewlighterandlighterasthoughitweremeltingaway。Hehadtwoprescriptionsinhishand:onewasforbromide,onewasformorphia……Hehadtakenalltheseremediesbefore。

  Inthestreethestoodstilland,sayinggood-bytohisfriends,draggedhimselflanguidlytotheUniversity。

  MISERY

  \"TowhomshallItellmygrief?\"

  THEtwilightofevening。Bigflakesofwetsnowarewhirlinglazilyaboutthestreetlamps,whichhavejustbeenlighted,andlyinginathinsoftlayeronroofs,horses’backs,shoulders,caps。IonaPotapov,thesledge-driver,isallwhitelikeaghost。Hesitsontheboxwithoutstirring,bentasdoubleasthelivingbodycanbebent。Ifaregularsnowdriftfellonhimitseemsasthougheventhenhewouldnotthinkitnecessarytoshakeitoff……Hislittlemareiswhiteandmotionlesstoo。Herstillness,theangularityofherlines,andthestick-likestraightnessofherlegsmakeherlooklikeahalfpennygingerbreadhorse。Sheisprobablylostinthought。

  Anyonewhohasbeentornawayfromtheplough,fromthefamiliargraylandscapes,andcastintothisslough,fullofmonstrouslights,ofunceasinguproarandhurryingpeople,isboundtothink。

  ItisalongtimesinceIonaandhisnaghavebudged。Theycameoutoftheyardbeforedinnertimeandnotasinglefareyet。Butnowtheshadesofeveningarefallingonthetown。Thepalelightofthestreetlampschangestoavividcolor,andthebustleofthestreetgrowsnoisier。

  \"SledgetoVyborgskaya!\"Ionahears。\"Sledge!\"

  Ionastarts,andthroughhissnow-plasteredeyelashesseesanofficerinamilitaryovercoatwithahoodoverhishead。

  \"ToVyborgskaya,\"repeatstheofficer。\"Areyouasleep?ToVyborgskaya!\"

  IntokenofassentIonagivesatugatthereinswhichsendscakesofsnowflyingfromthehorse’sbackandshoulders。Theofficergetsintothesledge。Thesledge-driverclickstothehorse,craneshisnecklikeaswan,risesinhisseat,andmorefromhabitthannecessitybrandisheshiswhip。Themarecranesherneck,too,crooksherstick-likelegs,andhesitatinglysetsof……

  \"Whereareyoushoving,youdevil?\"Ionaimmediatelyhearsshoutsfromthedarkmassshiftingtoandfrobeforehim。\"Wherethedevilareyougoing?Keeptother-right!\"

  \"Youdon’tknowhowtodrive!Keeptotheright,\"saystheofficerangrily。

  Acoachmandrivingacarriageswearsathim;apedestriancrossingtheroadandbrushingthehorse’snosewithhisshoulderlooksathimangrilyandshakesthesnowoffhissleeve。Ionafidgetsontheboxasthoughheweresittingonthorns,jerkshiselbows,andturnshiseyesaboutlikeonepossessedasthoughhedidnotknowwherehewasorwhyhewasthere。

  \"Whatrascalstheyallare!\"saystheofficerjocosely。\"Theyaresimplydoingtheirbesttorunupagainstyouorfallunderthehorse’sfeet。Theymustbedoingitonpurpose。\"

  Ionalooksashisfareandmoveshislips……Apparentlyhemeanstosaysomething,butnothingcomesbutasniff。

  \"What?\"inquirestheofficer。

  Ionagivesawrysmile,andstraininghisthroat,bringsouthuskily:\"Myson……er……mysondiedthisweek,sir。\"

  \"H’m!Whatdidhedieof?\"

  Ionaturnshiswholebodyroundtohisfare,andsays:

  \"Whocantell!Itmusthavebeenfromfever……Helaythreedaysinthehospitalandthenhedied……God’swill。\"

  \"Turnround,youdevil!\"comesoutofthedarkness。\"Haveyougonecracked,youolddog?Lookwhereyouaregoing!\"

  \"Driveon!driveon!……\"saystheofficer。\"Weshan’tgettheretillto-morrowgoingonlikethis。Hurryup!\"

  Thesledge-drivercraneshisneckagain,risesinhisseat,andwithheavygraceswingshiswhip。Severaltimeshelooksroundattheofficer,butthelatterkeepshiseyesshutandisapparentlydisinclinedtolisten。PuttinghisfaredownatVyborgskaya,Ionastopsbyarestaurant,andagainsitshuddleduponthebox……Againthewetsnowpaintshimandhishorsewhite。Onehourpasses,andthenanother……

  Threeyoungmen,twotallandthin,oneshortandhunchbacked,comeup,railingateachotherandloudlystampingonthepavementwiththeirgoloshes。

  \"Cabby,tothePoliceBridge!\"thehunchbackcriesinacrackedvoice。\"Thethreeofus,……twentykopecks!\"

  Ionatugsatthereinsandclickstohishorse。Twentykopecksisnotafairprice,buthehasnothoughtsforthat。Whetheritisaroubleorwhetheritisfivekopecksdoesnotmattertohimnowsolongashehasafare……Thethreeyoungmen,shovingeachotherandusingbadlanguage,gouptothesledge,andallthreetrytositdownatonce。Thequestionremainstobesettled:Whicharetositdownandwhichoneistostand?Afteralongaltercation,ill-temper,andabuse,theycometotheconclusionthatthehunchbackmuststandbecauseheistheshortest。

  \"Well,driveon,\"saysthehunchbackinhiscrackedvoice,settlinghimselfandbreathingdownIona’sneck。\"Cutalong!Whatacapyou’vegot,myfriend!Youwouldn’tfindaworseoneinallPetersburg……\"

  \"He-he!……he-he!……\"laughsIona。\"It’snothingtoboastof!\"

  \"Well,then,nothingtoboastof,driveon!Areyougoingtodrivelikethisalltheway?Eh?ShallIgiveyouoneintheneck?\"

  \"Myheadaches,\"saysoneofthetallones。\"AttheDukmasovs’

  yesterdayVaskaandIdrankfourbottlesofbrandybetweenus。\"

  \"Ican’tmakeoutwhyyoutalksuchstuff,\"saystheothertalloneangrily。\"Youlielikeabrute。\"

  \"Strikemedead,it’sthetruth!……\"

  \"It’saboutastrueasthatalousecoughs。\"

  \"He-he!\"grinsIona。\"Me-er-rygentlemen!\"

  \"Tfoo!thedeviltakeyou!\"criesthehunchbackindignantly。

  \"Willyougeton,youoldplague,orwon’tyou?Isthatthewaytodrive?Giveheronewiththewhip。Hangitall,giveitherwell。\"

  Ionafeelsbehindhisbackthejoltingpersonandquiveringvoiceofthehunchback。Hehearsabuseaddressedtohim,heseespeople,andthefeelingoflonelinessbeginslittlebylittletobelessheavyonhisheart。Thehunchbackswearsathim,tillhechokesoversomeelaboratelywhimsicalstringofepithetsandisoverpoweredbyhiscough。HistallcompanionsbegintalkingofacertainNadyezhdaPetrovna。Ionalooksroundatthem。Waitingtillthereisabriefpause,helooksroundoncemoreandsays:

  \"Thisweek……er……my……er……sondied!\"

  \"Weshallalldie,……\"saysthehunchbackwithasigh,wipinghislipsaftercoughing。\"Come,driveon!driveon!Myfriends,I

  simplycannotstandcrawlinglikethis!Whenwillhegetusthere?\"

  \"Well,yougivehimalittleencouragement……oneintheneck!\"

  \"Doyouhear,youoldplague?I’llmakeyousmart。Ifonestandsonceremonywithfellowslikeyouonemayaswellwalk。Doyouhear,youolddragon?Ordon’tyoucareahangwhatwesay?\"

  AndIonahearsratherthanfeelsaslaponthebackofhisneck。

  \"He-he!……\"helaughs。\"Merrygentlemen……Godgiveyouhealth!\"

  \"Cabman,areyoumarried?\"asksoneofthetallones。

  \"I?Hehe!Me-er-rygentlemen。Theonlywifeformenowisthedampearth……He-ho-ho!……Thegravethatis!……Heremyson’sdeadandIamalive……It’sastrangething,deathhascomeinatthewrongdoor……Insteadofcomingformeitwentformyson……\"

  AndIonaturnsroundtotellthemhowhissondied,butatthatpointthehunchbackgivesafaintsighandannouncesthat,thankGod!theyhavearrivedatlast。Aftertakinghistwentykopecks,Ionagazesforalongwhileaftertherevelers,whodisappearintoadarkentry。Againheisaloneandagainthereissilenceforhim……Themiserywhichhasbeenforabriefspaceeasedcomesbackagainandtearshisheartmorecruellythanever。WithalookofanxietyandsufferingIona’seyesstrayrestlesslyamongthecrowdsmovingtoandfroonbothsidesofthestreet:

  canhenotfindamongthosethousandssomeonewhowilllistentohim?Butthecrowdsflitbyheedlessofhimandhismisery……

  Hismiseryisimmense,beyondallbounds。IfIona’sheartweretoburstandhismiserytoflowout,itwouldfloodthewholeworld,itseems,butyetitisnotseen。Ithasfoundahiding-placeinsuchaninsignificantshellthatonewouldnothavefounditwithacandlebydaylight……

  Ionaseesahouse-porterwithaparcelandmakesuphismindtoaddresshim。

  \"Whattimewillitbe,friend?\"heasks。

  \"Goingonforten……Whyhaveyoustoppedhere?Driveon!\"

  Ionadrivesafewpacesaway,bendshimselfdouble,andgiveshimselfuptohismisery。Hefeelsitisnogoodtoappealtopeople。Butbeforefiveminuteshavepassedhedrawshimselfup,shakeshisheadasthoughhefeelsasharppain,andtugsatthereins……Hecanbearitnolonger。

  \"Backtotheyard!\"hethinks。\"Totheyard!\"

  Andhislittlemare,asthoughsheknewhisthoughts,fallstotrotting。AnhourandahalflaterIonaissittingbyabigdirtystove。Onthestove,onthefloor,andonthebenchesarepeoplesnoring。Theairisfullofsmellsandstuffiness。Ionalooksatthesleepingfigures,scratcheshimself,andregretsthathehascomehomesoearly……

  \"Ihavenotearnedenoughtopayfortheoats,even,\"hethinks。

  \"That’swhyIamsomiserable。Amanwhoknowshowtodohiswork,……whohashadenoughtoeat,andwhosehorsehashadenoughtoeat,isalwaysatease……\"

  Inoneofthecornersayoungcabmangetsup,clearshisthroatsleepily,andmakesforthewater-bucket。

  \"Wantadrink?\"Ionaaskshim。

  \"Seemsso。\"

  \"Mayitdoyougood……Butmysonisdead,mate……Doyouhear?Thisweekinthehospital……It’saqueerbusiness……\"

  Ionalookstoseetheeffectproducedbyhiswords,butheseesnothing。Theyoungmanhascoveredhisheadoverandisalreadyasleep。Theoldmansighsandscratcheshimself……Justastheyoungmanhadbeenthirstyforwater,hethirstsforspeech。

  Hissonwillsoonhavebeendeadaweek,andhehasnotreallytalkedtoanybodyyet……Hewantstotalkofitproperly,withdeliberation……Hewantstotellhowhissonwastakenill,howhesuffered,whathesaidbeforehedied,howhedied……Hewantstodescribethefuneral,andhowhewenttothehospitaltogethisson’sclothes。HestillhashisdaughterAnisyainthecountry……Andhewantstotalkabouthertoo……Yes,hehasplentytotalkaboutnow。Hislisteneroughttosighandexclaimandlament……Itwouldbeevenbettertotalktowomen。Thoughtheyaresillycreatures,theyblubberatthefirstword。

  \"Let’sgooutandhavealookatthemare,\"Ionathinks。\"Thereisalwaystimeforsleep……You’llhavesleepenough,nofear……\"

  Heputsonhiscoatandgoesintothestableswherehismareisstanding。Hethinksaboutoats,abouthay,abouttheweather……Hecannotthinkabouthissonwhenheisalone……Totalkabouthimwithsomeoneispossible,buttothinkofhimandpicturehimisinsufferableanguish……

  \"Areyoumunching?\"Ionaaskshismare,seeinghershiningeyes。

  \"There,munchaway,munchaway……Sincewehavenotearnedenoughforoats,wewilleathay……Yes,……Ihavegrowntoooldtodrive……Mysonoughttobedriving,notI……

  Hewasarealcabman……Heoughttohavelived……\"

  Ionaissilentforawhile,andthenhegoeson:

  \"That’showitis,oldgirl……KuzmaIonitchisgone……

  Hesaidgood-bytome……Hewentanddiedfornoreason……Now,supposeyouhadalittlecolt,andyouwereownmothertothatlittlecolt……Andallatoncethatsamelittlecoltwentanddied……You’dbesorry,wouldn’tyou?……\"

  Thelittlemaremunches,listens,andbreathesonhermaster’shands。Ionaiscarriedawayandtellsherallaboutit。

  CHAMPAGNE

  AWAYFARER’SSTORY

  INtheyearinwhichmystorybeginsIhadajobatalittlestationononeofoursouthwesternrailways。WhetherIhadagayoradulllifeatthestationyoucanjudgefromthefactthatforfifteenmilesroundtherewasnotonehumanhabitation,notonewoman,notonedecenttavern;andinthosedaysIwasyoung,strong,hot-headed,giddy,andfoolish。TheonlydistractionIcouldpossiblyfindwasinthewindowsofthepassengertrains,andinthevilevodkawhichtheJewsdruggedwiththorn-apple。Sometimestherewouldbeaglimpseofawoman’sheadatacarriagewindow,andonewouldstandlikeastatuewithoutbreathingandstareatituntilthetrainturnedintoanalmostinvisiblespeck;oronewoulddrinkallonecouldoftheloathsomevodkatillonewasstupefiedanddidnotfeelthepassingofthelonghoursanddays。Uponme,anativeofthenorth,thesteppeproducedtheeffectofadesertedTatarcemetery。Inthesummerthesteppewithitssolemncalm,themonotonouschurofthegrasshoppers,thetransparentmoonlightfromwhichonecouldnothide,reducedmetolistlessmelancholy;

  andinthewintertheirreproachablewhitenessofthesteppe,itscolddistance,longnights,andhowlingwolvesoppressedmelikeaheavynightmare。Therewereseveralpeoplelivingatthestation:mywifeandI,adeafandscrofuloustelegraphclerk,andthreewatchmen。Myassistant,ayoungmanwhowasinconsumption,usedtogofortreatmenttothetown,wherehestayedformonthsatatime,leavinghisdutiestometogetherwiththerightofpocketinghissalary。Ihadnochildren,nocakewouldhavetemptedvisitorstocomeandseeme,andIcouldonlyvisitotherofficialsontheline,andthatnooftenerthanonceamonth。

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