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  \"What?\"saidAlmayer。

  \"Sheiscrying,\"murmuredDain,softly。

  \"Sheiscrying!Why?\"askedAlmayer,indifferently。

  \"Icametoaskyou。MyRaneesmileswhenlookingatthemansheloves。Itisthewhitewomanthatiscryingnow。Youwouldknow。\"

  Almayershruggedhisshouldersandturnedawayagaintowardsthesea。

  \"Go,TuanPutih,\"urgedDain。\"Gotoher;hertearsaremoreterribletomethantheangerofgods。\"

  \"Arethey?Youwillseethemmorethanonce。Shetoldmeshecouldnotlivewithoutyou,\"answeredAlmayer,speakingwithoutthefaintestsparkofexpressioninhisface,\"soitbehovesyoutogotoherquick,forfearyoumayfindherdead。\"

  HeburstintoaloudandunpleasantlaughwhichmadeDainstareathimwithsomeapprehension,butgotoffthegunwaleoftheboatandmovedslowlytowardsNina,glancingupatthesunashewalked。

  \"Andyougowhenthesunisoverhead?\"hesaid。

  \"Yes,Tuan。Thenwego,\"answeredDain。

  \"Ihavenotlongtowait,\"mutteredAlmayer。\"Itismostimportantformetoseeyougo。Bothofyou。Mostimportant,\"

  herepeated,stoppingshortandlookingatDainfixedly。

  HewentonagaintowardsNina,andDainremainedbehind。Almayerapproachedhisdaughterandstoodforatimelookingdownonher。

  Shedidnotopenhereyes,buthearingfootstepsnearher,murmuredinalowsob,\"Dain。\"

  Almayerhesitatedforaminuteandthensankonthesandbyherside。She,nothearingaresponsiveword,notfeelingatouch,openedhereyes——sawherfather,andsatupsuddenlywithamovementofterror。

  \"Oh,father!\"shemurmuredfaintly,andinthatwordtherewasexpressedregretandfearanddawninghope。

  \"Ishallneverforgiveyou,Nina,\"saidAlmayer,inadispassionatevoice。\"YouhavetornmyheartfrommewhileI

  dreamtofyourhappiness。Youhavedeceivedme。Youreyesthatformewereliketruthitselfliedtomeineveryglance——forhowlong?Youknowthatbest。Whenyouwerecaressingmycheekyouwerecountingtheminutestothesunsetthatwasthesignalforyourmeetingwiththatman——there!\"

  Heceased,andtheybothsatsilentsidebyside,notlookingateachother,butgazingatthevastexpanseofthesea。Almayer\'swordshaddriedNina\'stears,andherlookgrewhardasshestaredbeforeherintothelimitlesssheetofbluethatshonelimpid,unwaving,andsteadylikeheavenitself。Helookedatitalso,buthisfeatureshadlostallexpression,andlifeinhiseyesseemedtohavegoneout。Thefacewasablank,withoutasignofemotion,feeling,reason,orevenknowledgeofitself。

  Allpassion,regret,grief,hope,oranger——allweregone,erasedbythehandoffate,asifafterthislaststrokeeverythingwasoverandtherewasnoneedforanyrecord。

  ThosefewwhosawAlmayerduringtheshortperiodofhisremainingdayswerealwaysimpressedbythesightofthatfacethatseemedtoknownothingofwhatwentonwithin:liketheblankwallofaprisonenclosingsin,regrets,andpain,andwastedlife,inthecoldindifferenceofmortarandstones。

  \"Whatistheretoforgive?\"askedNina,notaddressingAlmayerdirectly,butmoreasifarguingwithherself。\"CanInotlivemyownlifeasyouhavelivedyours?Thepathyouwouldhavewishedmetofollowhasbeenclosedtomebynofaultofmine。\"

  \"Younevertoldme,\"mutteredAlmayer。

  \"Youneveraskedme,\"sheanswered,\"andIthoughtyouwereliketheothersanddidnotcare。Iborethememoryofmyhumiliationalone,andwhyshouldItellyouthatitcametomebecauseIamyourdaughter?Iknewyoucouldnotavengeme。\"

  \"AndyetIwasthinkingofthatonly,\"interruptedAlmayer,\"andIwantedtogiveyouyearsofhappinessfortheshortdayofyoursuffering。Ionlyknewofoneway。\"

  \"Ah!butitwasnotmyway!\"shereplied。\"Couldyougivemehappinesswithoutlife?Life!\"sherepeatedwithsuddenenergythatsentthewordringingoverthesea。\"Lifethatmeanspowerandlove,\"sheaddedinalowvoice。

  \"That!\"saidAlmayer,pointinghisfingeratDainstandingclosebyandlookingatthemincuriouswonder。

  \"Yes,that!\"shereplied,lookingherfatherfullinthefaceandnoticingforthefirsttimewithaslightgaspoffeartheunnaturalrigidityofhisfeatures。

  \"Iwouldhaveratherstrangledyouwithmyownhands,\"saidAlmayer,inanexpressionlessvoicewhichwassuchacontrasttothedesperatebitternessofhisfeelingsthatitsurprisedevenhimself。Heaskedhimselfwhospoke,and,afterlookingslowlyroundasifexpectingtoseesomebody,turnedagainhiseyestowardsthesea。

  \"Yousaythatbecauseyoudonotunderstandthemeaningofmywords,\"shesaidsadly。\"Betweenyouandmymotherthereneverwasanylove。WhenIreturnedtoSambirIfoundtheplacewhichIthoughtwouldbeapeacefulrefugeformyheart,filledwithwearinessandhatred——andmutualcontempt。Ihavelistenedtoyourvoiceandtohervoice。ThenIsawthatyoucouldnotunderstandme;forwasInotpartofthatwoman?Ofherwhowastheregretandshameofyourlife?Ihadtochoose——Ihesitated。

  Whywereyousoblind?Didyounotseemestrugglingbeforeyoureyes?But,whenhecame,alldoubtdisappeared,andIsawonlythelightoftheblueandcloudlessheaven——\"

  \"Iwilltellyoutherest,\"interruptedAlmayer:\"whenthatmancameIalsosawtheblueandthesunshineofthesky。A

  thunderbolthasfallenfromthatsky,andsuddenlyallisstillanddarkaroundmeforever。Iwillneverforgiveyou,Nina;andto-morrowIshallforgetyou!Ishallneverforgiveyou,\"herepeatedwithmechanicalobstinacywhileshesat,herheadboweddownasifafraidtolookatherfather。

  Tohimitseemedoftheutmostimportancethatheshouldassureherofhisintentionofneverforgiving。Hewasconvincedthathisfaithinherhadbeenthefoundationofhishopes,themotiveofhiscourage,ofhisdeterminationtoliveandstruggle,andtobevictoriousforhersake。Andnowhisfaithwasgone,destroyedbyherownhands;destroyedcruelly,treacherously,inthedark;intheverymomentofsuccess。Intheutterwreckofhisaffectionsandofallhisfeelings,inthechaoticdisorderofhisthoughts,abovetheconfusedsensationofphysicalpainthatwrappedhimupinastingasofawhiplashcurlingroundhimfromhisshouldersdowntohisfeet,onlyoneidearemainedclearanddefinite——nottoforgiveher;onlyonevividdesire——toforgether。Andthismustbemadecleartoher——andtohimself——byfrequentrepetition。Thatwashisideaofhisdutytohimself——tohisrace——tohisrespectableconnections;tothewholeuniverseunsettledandshakenbythisfrightfulcatastropheofhislife。Hesawitclearlyandbelievedhewasastrongman。

  Hehadalwayspridedhimselfuponhisunflinchingfirmness。Andyethewasafraid。Shehadbeenallinalltohim。Whatifheshouldletthememoryofhisloveforherweakenthesenseofhisdignity?Shewasaremarkablewoman;hecouldseethat;allthelatentgreatnessofhisnature——inwhichhehonestlybelieved——hadbeentransfusedintothatslight,girlishfigure。

  Greatthingscouldbedone!Whatifheshouldsuddenlytakehertohisheart,forgethisshame,andpain,andanger,and——followher!Whatifhechangedhisheartifnothisskinandmadeherlifeeasierbetweenthetwolovesthatwouldguardherfromanymischance!Hisheartyearnedforher。Whatifheshouldsaythathisloveforherwasgreaterthan……

  \"Iwillneverforgiveyou,Nina!\"heshouted,leapingupmadlyinthesuddenfearofhisdream。

  Thiswasthelasttimeinhislifethathewasheardtoraisehisvoice。Henceforthhespokealwaysinamonotonouswhisperlikeaninstrumentofwhichallthestringsbutonearebrokeninalastringingclamourunderaheavyblow。

  Sherosetoherfeetandlookedathim。Theveryviolenceofhiscrysoothedherinanintuitiveconvictionofhislove,andshehuggedtoherbreastthelamentableremnantsofthataffectionwiththeunscrupulousgreedinessofwomenwhoclingdesperatelytotheveryscrapsandragsoflove,anykindoflove,asathingthatofrightbelongstothemandistheverybreathoftheirlife。SheputbothherhandsonAlmayer\'sshoulders,andlookingathimhalftenderly,halfplayfully,shesaid——

  \"Youspeaksobecauseyouloveme。\"

  Almayershookhishead。

  \"Yes,youdo,\"sheinsistedsoftly;thenafterashortpausesheadded,\"andyouwillneverforgetme。\"

  Almayershiveredslightly。Shecouldnothavesaidamorecruelthing。

  \"Hereistheboatcomingnow,\"saidDain,hisarmoutstretchedtowardsablackspeckonthewaterbetweenthecoastandtheislet。

  Theyalllookedatitandremainedstandinginsilencetillthelittlecanoecamegentlyonthebeachandamanlandedandwalkedtowardsthem。Hestoppedsomedistanceoffandhesitated。

  \"Whatnews?\"askedDain。

  \"Wehavehadorderssecretlyandinthenighttotakeofffromthisisletamanandawoman。Iseethewoman。Whichofyouistheman?\"

  \"Come,delightofmyeyes,\"saidDaintoNina。\"Nowwego,andyourvoiceshallbeformyearsonly。YouhavespokenyourlastwordstotheTuanPutih,yourfather。Come。\"

  Shehesitatedforawhile,lookingatAlmayer,whokepthiseyessteadilyonthesea,thenshetouchedhisforeheadinalingeringkiss,andatear——oneofhertears——fellonhischeekandrandownhisimmovableface。

  \"Goodbye,\"shewhispered,andremainedirresolutetillhepushedhersuddenlyintoDain\'sarms。

  \"Ifyouhaveanypityforme,\"murmuredAlmayer,asifrepeatingsomesentencelearnedbyheart,\"takethatwomanaway。\"

  Hestoodverystraight,hisshouldersthrownback,hisheadheldhigh,andlookedatthemastheywentdownthebeachtothecanoe,walkingenlacedineachother\'sarms。Helookedatthelineoftheirfootstepsmarkedinthesand。Hefollowedtheirfiguresmovinginthecrudeblazeoftheverticalsun,inthatlightviolentandvibrating,likeatriumphalflourishofbrazentrumpets。Helookedattheman\'sbrownshoulders,attheredsarongroundhiswaist;atthetall,slender,dazzlingwhitefigurehesupported。Helookedatthewhitedress,atthefallingmassesofthelongblackhair。Helookedatthemembarking,andatthecanoegrowingsmallerinthedistance,withrage,despair,andregretinhisheart,andonhisfaceapeaceasthatofacarvedimageofoblivion。Inwardlyhefelthimselftorntopieces,butAli——whonowaroused——stoodclosetohismaster,sawonhisfeaturestheblankexpressionofthosewholiveinthathopelesscalmwhichsightlesseyesonlycangive。

  Thecanoedisappeared,andAlmayerstoodmotionlesswithhiseyesfixedonitswake。Alifromundertheshadeofhishandexaminedthecoastcuriously。Asthesundeclined,thesea-breezesprangupfromthenorthwardandshiveredwithitsbreaththeglassysurfaceofthewater。

  \"Dapat!\"exclaimedAli,joyously。\"Gothim,master!Gotprau!

  Notthere!LookmoreTanahMirrahside。Aha!Thatway!

  Master,see?Nowplain。See?\"

  AlmayerfollowedAli\'sforefingerwithhiseyesforalongtimeinvain。AtlasthesightedatriangularpatchofyellowlightontheredbackgroundofthecliffsofTanjongMirrah。Itwasthesailoftheprauthathadcaughtthesunlightandstoodout,distinctwithitsgaytint,onthedarkredofthecape。Theyellowtrianglecreptslowlyfromclifftocliff,tillitclearedthelastpointoflandandshonebrilliantlyforafleetingminuteontheblueoftheopensea。Thentheprauboreuptothesouthward:thelightwentoutofthesail,andallatoncethevesselitselfdisappeared,vanishingintheshadowofthesteepheadlandthatlookedon,patientandlonely,watchingovertheemptysea。

  Almayernevermoved。Roundthelittleislettheairwasfullofthetalkoftheripplingwater。Thecrestedwaveletsranupthebeachaudaciously,joyously,withthelightnessofyounglife,anddiedquickly,unresistingly,andgraciously,inthewidecurvesoftransparentfoamontheyellowsand。Above,thewhitecloudssailedrapidlysouthwardsasifintentuponovertakingsomething。Aliseemedanxious。

  \"Master,\"hesaidtimidly,\"timetogethousenow。Longwayofftopull。Allready,sir。\"

  \"Wait,\"whisperedAlmayer。

  Nowshewasgonehisbusinesswastoforget,andhehadastrangenotionthatitshouldbedonesystematicallyandinorder。ToAli\'sgreatdismayhefellonhishandsandknees,and,creepingalongthesand,erasedcarefullywithhishandalltracesofNina\'sfootsteps。Hepiledupsmallheapsofsand,leavingbehindhimalineofminiaturegravesrightdowntothewater。

  AfterburyingthelastslightimprintofNina\'sslipperhestoodup,and,turninghisfacetowardstheheadlandwherehehadlastseentheprau,hemadeanefforttoshoutoutloudagainhisfirmresolvetoneverforgive。Aliwatchinghimuneasilysawonlyhislipsmove,butheardnosound。Hebroughthisfootdownwithastamp。Hewasafirmman——firmasarock。Lethergo。

  Heneverhadadaughter。Hewouldforget。Hewasforgettingalready。

  Aliapproachedhimagain,insistingonimmediatedeparture,andthistimeheconsented,andtheywenttogethertowardstheircanoe,Almayerleading。Forallhisfirmnesshelookedverydejectedandfeebleashedraggedhisfeetslowlythroughthesandonthebeach;andbyhisside——invisibletoAli——stalkedthatparticularfiendwhosemissionitistojogthememoriesofmen,lesttheyshouldforgetthemeaningoflife。HewhisperedintoAlmayer\'searachildishprattleofmanyyearsago。

  Almayer,hisheadbentononeside,seemedtolistentohisinvisiblecompanion,buthisfacewaslikethefaceofamanthathasdiedstruckfrombehind——afacefromwhichallfeelingsandallexpressionaresuddenlywipedoffbythehandofunexpecteddeath。

  Theysleptontheriverthatnight,mooringtheircanoeunderthebushesandlyingdowninthebottomsidebyside,intheabsoluteexhaustionthatkillshunger,thirst,allfeelingandallthoughtintheoverpoweringdesireforthatdeepsleepwhichislikethetemporaryannihilationofthetiredbody。Nextdaytheystartedagainandfoughtdoggedlywiththecurrentallthemorning,tillaboutmiddaytheyreachedthesettlementandmadefasttheirlittlecrafttothejettyofLingardandCo。Almayerwalkedstraighttothehouse,andAlifollowed,paddlesonshoulder,thinkingthathewouldliketoeatsomething。Astheycrossedthefrontcourtyardtheynoticedtheabandonedlookoftheplace。

  Alilookedinatthedifferentservants\'houses:allwereempty。

  Inthebackcourtyardtherewasthesameabsenceofsoundandlife。Inthecooking-shedthefirewasoutandtheblackemberswerecold。Atall,leanmancamestealthilyoutofthebananaplantation,andwentawayrapidlyacrosstheopenspacelookingatthemwithbig,frightenedeyesoverhisshoulder。Somevagabondwithoutamaster;thereweremanysuchinthesettlement,andtheylookeduponAlmayerastheirpatron。Theyprowledabouthispremisesandpickedtheirlivingthere,surethatnothingworsecouldbefallthemthanashowerofcurseswhentheygotinthewayofthewhiteman,whomtheytrustedandliked,andcalledafoolamongstthemselves。Inthehouse,whichAlmayerenteredthroughthebackverandah,theonlylivingthingthatmethiseyeswashissmallmonkeywhich,hungryandunnoticedforthelasttwodays,begantocryandcomplaininmonkeylanguageassoonasitcaughtsightofthefamiliarface。

  AlmayersootheditwithafewwordsandorderedAlitobringinsomebananas,thenwhileAliwasgonetogetthemhestoodinthedoorwayofthefrontverandahlookingatthechaosofoverturnedfurniture。Finallyhepickedupthetableandsatonitwhilethemonkeyletitselfdownfromtheroof-stickbyitschainandperchedonhisshoulder。Whenthebananascametheyhadtheirbreakfasttogether;bothhungry,botheatinggreedilyandshoweringtheskinsroundthemrecklessly,inthetrustingsilenceofperfectfriendship。Aliwentaway,grumbling,tocooksomericehimself,forallthewomenaboutthehousehaddisappeared;hedidnotknowwhere。Almayerdidnotseemtocare,and,afterhefinishedeating,hesatonthetableswinginghislegsandstaringattheriverasiflostinthought。

  Aftersometimehegotupandwenttothedoorofaroomontherightoftheverandah。Thatwastheoffice。TheofficeofLingardandCo。Heveryseldomwentinthere。Therewasnobusinessnow,andhedidnotwantanoffice。Thedoorwaslocked,andhestoodbitinghislowerlip,tryingtothinkoftheplacewherethekeycouldbe。Suddenlyheremembered:inthewomen\'sroomhunguponanail。Hewentovertothedoorwaywheretheredcurtainhungdowninmotionlessfolds,andhesitatedforamomentbeforepushingitasidewithhisshoulderasifbreakingdownsomesolidobstacle。Agreatsquareofsunshineenteringthroughthewindowlayonthefloor。OnthelefthesawMrs。

  Almayer\'sbigwoodenchest,thelidthrownback,empty;nearitthebrassnailsofNina\'sEuropeantrunkshoneinthelargeinitialsN。A。onthecover。AfewofNina\'sdresseshungonwoodenpegs,stiffenedinalookofoffendeddignityattheirabandonment。Herememberedmakingthepegshimselfandnoticedthattheywereverygoodpegs。Wherewasthekey?Helookedroundandsawitnearthedoorwherehestood。Itwasredwithrust。Hefeltverymuchannoyedatthat,anddirectlyafterwardswonderedathisownfeeling。Whatdiditmatter?Theresoonwouldbenokey——nodoor——nothing!Hepaused,keyinhand,andaskedhimselfwhetherheknewwellwhathewasabout。Hewentoutagainontheverandahandstoodbythetablethinking。Themonkeyjumpeddown,and,snatchingabananaskin,absorbeditselfinpickingittoshredsindustriously。

  \"Forget!\"mutteredAlmayer,andthatwordstartedbeforehimasequenceofevents,adetailedprogrammeofthingstodo。Heknewperfectlywellwhatwastobedonenow。Firstthis,thenthat,andthenforgetfulnesswouldcomeeasy。Veryeasy。

  Hehadafixedideathatifheshouldnotforgetbeforehediedhewouldhavetoremembertoalleternity。Certainthingshadtobetakenoutofhislife,stampedoutofsight,destroyed,forgotten。Foralongtimehestoodindeepthought,lostinthealarmingpossibilitiesofunconquerablememory,withthefearofdeathandeternitybeforehim。\"Eternity!\"hesaidaloud,andthesoundofthatwordrecalledhimoutofhisreverie。Themonkeystarted,droppedtheskin,andgrinnedupathimamicably。

  Hewenttowardstheofficedoorandwithsomedifficultymanagedtoopenit。Heenteredinacloudofdustthatroseunderhisfeet。

  Booksopenwithtornpagesbestrewedthefloor;otherbookslayaboutgrimyandblack,lookingasiftheyhadneverbeenopened。

  Accountbooks。Inthosebookshehadintendedtokeepdaybydayarecordofhisrisingfortunes。Longtimeago。Averylongtime。Formanyyearstherehasbeennorecordtokeepontheblueandredruledpages!Inthemiddleoftheroomthebigofficedesk,withoneofitslegsbroken,careenedoverlikethehullofastrandedship;mostofthedrawershadfallenout,disclosingheapsofpaperyellowwithageanddirt。Therevolvingofficechairstoodinitsplace,buthefoundthepivotsetfastwhenhetriedtoturnit。Nomatter。Hedesisted,andhiseyeswanderedslowlyfromobjecttoobject。Allthosethingshadcostalotofmoneyatthetime。Thedesk,thepaper,thetornbooks,andthebrokenshelves,allunderathickcoatofdust。Theverydustandbonesofadeadandgonebusiness。

  Helookedatallthesethings,allthatwasleftaftersomanyyearsofwork,ofstrife,ofweariness,ofdiscouragement,conqueredsomanytimes。Andallforwhat?Hestoodthinkingmournfullyofhispastlifetillhehearddistinctlytheclearvoiceofachildspeakingamongstallthiswreck,ruin,andwaste。Hestartedwithagreatfearinhisheart,andfeverishlybegantorakeinthepapersscatteredonthefloor,brokethechairintobits,splinteredthedrawersbybangingthemagainstthedesk,andmadeabigheapofallthatrubbishinonecorneroftheroom。

  Hecameoutquickly,slammedthedoorafterhim,turnedthekey,and,takingitout,rantothefrontrailoftheverandah,and,withagreatswingofhisarm,sentthekeywhizzingintotheriver。Thisdonehewentbackslowlytothetable,calledthemonkeydown,unhookeditschain,andinducedittoremainquietinthebreastofhisjacket。Thenhesatagainonthetableandlookedfixedlyatthedooroftheroomhehadjustleft。Helistenedalsointently。Heheardadrysoundofrustling;sharpcracksasofdrywoodsnapping;awhirrlikeofabird\'swingswhenitrisessuddenly,andthenhesawathinstreamofsmokecomethroughthekeyhole。Themonkeystruggledunderhiscoat。

  Aliappearedwithhiseyesstartingoutofhishead。

  \"Master!Houseburn!\"heshouted。

  Almayerstoodupholdingbythetable。Hecouldheartheyellsofalarmandsurpriseinthesettlement。Aliwrunghishands,lamentingaloud。

  \"Stopthisnoise,fool!\"saidAlmayer,quietly。\"Pickupmyhammockandblanketsandtakethemtotheotherhouse。Quick,now!\"

  Thesmokeburstthroughthecrevicesofthedoor,andAli,withthehammockinhisarms,clearedinoneboundthestepsoftheverandah。

  \"Ithascaughtwell,\"mutteredAlmayertohimself。\"Bequiet,Jack,\"headded,asthemonkeymadeafranticefforttoescapefromitsconfinement。

  Thedoorsplitfromtoptobottom,andarushofflameandsmokedroveAlmayerawayfromthetabletothefrontrailoftheverandah。Heheldontheretillagreatroaroverheadassuredhimthattheroofwasablaze。Thenherandownthestepsoftheverandah,coughing,halfchokedwiththesmokethatpursuedhiminbluishwreathscurlingabouthishead。

  Ontheothersideoftheditch,separatingAlmayer\'scourtyardfromthesettlement,acrowdoftheinhabitantsofSambirlookedattheburninghouseofthewhiteman。Inthecalmairtheflamesrusheduponhigh,colouredpalebrick-red,withvioletgleamsinthestrongsunshine。Thethincolumnofsmokeascendedstraightandunwaveringtillitlostitselfintheclearblueofthesky,and,inthegreatemptyspacebetweenthetwohousestheinterestedspectatorscouldseethetallfigureoftheTuanPutih,withbowedheadanddraggingfeet,walkingslowlyawayfromthefiretowardstheshelterof\"Almayer\'sFolly。\"

  InthatmannerdidAlmayermoveintohisnewhouse。Hetookpossessionofthenewruin,andintheundyingfollyofhisheartsethimselftowaitinanxietyandpainforthatforgetfulnesswhichwassoslowtocome。Hehaddoneallhecould。EveryvestigeofNina\'sexistencehadbeendestroyed;andnowwitheverysunriseheaskedhimselfwhetherthelonged-foroblivionwouldcomebeforesunset,whetheritwouldcomebeforehedied?

  Hewantedtoliveonlylongenoughtobeabletoforget,andthetenacityofhismemoryfilledhimwithdreadandhorrorofdeath;

  forshoulditcomebeforehecouldaccomplishthepurposeofhislifehewouldhavetorememberforever!Healsolongedforloneliness。Hewantedtobealone。Buthewasnot。

  Inthedimlightoftheroomswiththeirclosedshutters,inthebrightsunshineoftheverandah,whereverhewent,whicheverwayheturned,hesawthesmallfigureofalittlemaidenwithprettyoliveface,withlongblackhair,herlittlepinkrobeslippingoffhershoulders,herbigeyeslookingupathiminthetendertrustfulnessofapettedchild。Alididnotseeanything,buthealsowasawareofthepresenceofachildinthehouse。InhislongtalksbytheeveningfiresofthesettlementheusedtotellhisintimatefriendsofAlmayer\'sstrangedoings。Hismasterhadturnedsorcererinhisoldage。AlisaidthatoftenwhenTuanPutihhadretiredforthenighthecouldhearhimtalkingtosomethinginhisroom。Alithoughtthatitwasaspiritintheshapeofachild。Heknewhismasterspoketoachildfromcertainexpressionsandwordshismasterused。HismasterspokeinMalayalittle,butmostlyinEnglish,whichhe,Ali,couldunderstand。Masterspoketothechildattimestenderly,thenhewouldweepoverit,laughatit,scoldit,begofittogoaway;

  curseit。Itwasabadandstubbornspirit。Alithoughthismasterhadimprudentlycalleditup,andnowcouldnotgetridofit。Hismasterwasverybrave;hewasnotafraidtocursethisspiritintheveryPresence;andoncehefoughtwithit。Alihadheardagreatnoiseasofrunningaboutinsidetheroomandgroans。Hismastergroaned。Spiritsdonotgroan。

  Hismasterwasbrave,butfoolish。Youcannothurtaspirit。Aliexpectedtofindhismasterdeadnextmorning,buthecameoutveryearly,lookingmucholderthanthedaybefore,andhadnofoodallday。

  SofarAlitothesettlement。ToCaptainFordhewasmuchmorecommunicative,forthegoodreasonthatCaptainFordhadthepurseandgaveorders。OneachofFord\'smonthlyvisitstoSambirAlihadtogoonboardwithareportabouttheinhabitantof\"Almayer\'sFolly。\"OnhisfirstvisittoSambir,afterNina\'sdeparture,FordhadtakenchargeofAlmayer\'saffairs。Theywerenotcumbersome。Theshedforthestorageofgoodswasempty,theboatshaddisappeared,appropriated——generallyinnight-time——byvariouscitizensofSambirinneedofmeansoftransport。DuringagreatfloodthejettyofLingardandCo。leftthebankandfloateddowntheriver,probablyinsearchofmorecheerfulsurroundings;eventheflockofgeese——\"theonlygeeseontheeastcoast\"——departedsomewhere,preferringtheunknowndangersofthebushtothedesolationoftheiroldhome。Astimewentonthegrassgrewovertheblackpatchofgroundwheretheoldhouseusedtostand,andnothingremainedtomarktheplaceofthedwellingthathadshelteredAlmayer\'syounghopes,hisfoolishdreamofsplendidfuture,hisawakening,andhisdespair。

  ForddidnotoftenvisitAlmayer,forvisitingAlmayerwasnotapleasanttask。Atfirstheusedtorespondlistlesslytotheoldseaman\'sboisterousinquiriesabouthishealth;heevenmadeeffortstotalk,askingfornewsinavoicethatmadeitperfectlyclearthatnonewsfromthisworldhadanyinterestforhim。Thengraduallyhebecamemoresilent——notsulkily——butasifhewasforgettinghowtospeak。Heusedalsotohideinthedarkestroomsofthehouse,whereFordhadtoseekhimoutguidedbythepatterofthemonkeygallopingbeforehim。ThemonkeywasalwaystheretoreceiveandintroduceFord。Thelittleanimalseemedtohavetakencompletechargeofitsmaster,andwheneveritwishedforhispresenceontheverandahitwouldtugperseveringlyathisjacket,tillAlmayerobedientlycameoutintothesunshine,whichheseemedtodislikesomuch。

  OnemorningFordfoundhimsittingontheflooroftheverandah,hisbackagainstthewall,hislegsstretchedstifflyout,hisarmshangingbyhisside。Hisexpressionlessface,hiseyesopenwidewithimmobilepupils,andtherigidityofhispose,madehimlooklikeanimmenseman-dollbrokenandflungthereoutoftheway。AsFordcameupthestepsheturnedhisheadslowly。

  \"Ford,\"hemurmuredfromthefloor,\"Icannotforget。\"

  \"Can\'tyou?\"saidFord,innocently,withanattemptatjoviality:

  \"IwishIwaslikeyou。Iamlosingmymemory——age,Isuppose;

  onlytheotherdaymymate——\"

  Hestopped,forAlmayerhadgotup,stumbled,andsteadiedhimselfonhisfriend\'sarm。

  \"Hallo!Youarebetterto-day。Soonbeallright,\"saidFord,cheerfully,butfeelingratherscared。

  Almayerletgohisarmandstoodverystraightwithhisheadupandshouldersthrownback,lookingstonilyatthemultitudeofsunsshininginripplesoftheriver。Hisjacketandhisloosetrousersflappedinthebreezeonhisthinlimbs。

  \"Lethergo!\"hewhisperedinagratingvoice。\"Lethergo。

  To-

  morrowIshallforget。Iamafirmman,……firmasa……

  rock,……firm……\"

  Fordlookedathisface——andfled。Theskipperwasatolerablyfirmmanhimself——asthosewhohadsailedwithhimcouldtestify——

  butAlmayer\'sfirmnesswasaltogethertoomuchforhisfortitude。

  NexttimethesteamercalledinSambirAlicameonboardearlywithagrievance。HecomplainedtoFordthatJim-EngtheChinamanhadinvadedAlmayer\'shouse,andactuallyhadlivedthereforthelastmonth。

  \"Andtheybothsmoke,\"addedAli。

  \"Phew!Opium,youmean?\"

  Alinodded,andFordremainedthoughtful;thenhemutteredtohimself,\"Poordevil!Thesoonerthebetternow。\"Intheafternoonhewalkeduptothehouse。

  \"Whatareyoudoinghere?\"heaskedofJim-Eng,whomhefoundstrollingaboutontheverandah。

  Jim-EngexplainedinbadMalay,andspeakinginthatmonotonous,uninterestedvoiceofanopiumsmokerprettyfargone,thathishousewasold,theroofleaked,andthefloorwasrotten。So,beinganoldfriendformany,manyyears,hetookhismoney,hisopium,andtwopipes,andcametoliveinthisbighouse。

  \"Thereisplentyofroom。Hesmokes,andIlivehere。Hewillnotsmokelong,\"heconcluded。

  \"Whereishenow?\"askedFord。

  \"Inside。Hesleeps,\"answeredJim-Eng,wearily。Fordglancedinthroughthedoorway。InthedimlightoftheroomhecouldseeAlmayerlyingonhisbackonthefloor,hisheadonawoodenpillow,thelongwhitebeardscatteredoverhisbreast,theyellowskinoftheface,thehalf-closedeyelidsshowingthewhitesoftheeyeonly……

  Heshudderedandturnedaway。Ashewasleavinghenoticedalongstripoffadedredsilk,withsomeChineselettersonit,whichJim-Enghadjustfastenedtooneofthepillars。

  \"What\'sthat?\"heasked。

  \"That,\"saidJim-Eng,inhiscolourlessvoice,\"thatisthenameofthehouse。Allthesamelikemyhouse。Verygoodname。\"

  Fordlookedathimforawhileandwentaway。Hedidnotknowwhatthecrazy-lookingmazeoftheChineseinscriptionontheredsilkmeant。HadheaskedJim-Eng,thatpatientChinamanwouldhaveinformedhimwithproperpridethatitsmeaningwas:\"Houseofheavenlydelight。\"

  IntheeveningofthesamedayBabalatchicalledonCaptainFord。

  Thecaptain\'scabinopenedondeck,andBabalatchisatastrideonthehighstep,whileFordsmokedhispipeonthesetteeinside。

  Thesteamerwasleavingnextmorning,andtheoldstatesmancameasusualforalastchat。

  \"WehadnewsfromBalilastmoon,\"remarkedBabalatchi。\"A

  grandsonisborntotheoldRajah,andthereisgreatrejoicing。\"

  Fordsatupinterested。

  \"Yes,\"wentonBabalatchi,inanswertoFord\'slook。\"Itoldhim。Thatwasbeforehebegantosmoke。\"

  \"Well,andwhat?\"askedFord。

  \"Iescapedwithmylife,\"saidBabalatchi,withperfectgravity,\"becausethewhitemanisveryweakandfellasherusheduponme。\"Then,afterapause,headded,\"Sheismadwithjoy。\"

  \"Mrs。Almayer,youmean?\"

  \"Yes,shelivesinourRajah\'shouse。Shewillnotdiesoon。

  Suchwomenlivealongtime,\"saidBabalatchi,withaslighttingeofregretinhisvoice。\"Shehasdollars,andshehasburiedthem,butweknowwhere。Wehadmuchtroublewiththosepeople。Wehadtopayafineandlistentothreatsfromthewhitemen,andnowwehavetobecareful。\"Hesighedandremainedsilentforalongwhile。Thenwithenergy:

  \"Therewillbefighting。Thereisabreathofwarontheislands。ShallIlivelongenoughtosee?……Ah,Tuan!\"hewenton,morequietly,\"theoldtimeswerebest。EvenIhavesailedwithLanunmen,andboardedinthenightsilentshipswithwhitesails。ThatwasbeforeanEnglishRajahruledinKuching。

  Thenwefoughtamongstourselvesandwerehappy。Nowwhenwefightwithyouwecanonlydie!\"

  Herosetogo。\"Tuan,\"hesaid,\"yourememberthegirlthatmanBulangihad?Herthatcausedallthetrouble?\"

  \"Yes,\"saidFord。\"Whatofher?\"

  \"Shegrewthinandcouldnotwork。ThenBulangi,whoisathiefandapig-eater,gavehertomeforfiftydollars。Isentheramongstmywomentogrowfat。Iwantedtohearthesoundofherlaughter,butshemusthavebeenbewitched,and……shediedtwodaysago。Nay,Tuan。Whydoyouspeakbadwords?

  Iamold——thatistrue——butwhyshouldInotlikethesightofayoungfaceandthesoundofayoungvoiceinmyhouse?\"Hepaused,andthenaddedwithalittlemournfullaugh,\"Iamlikeawhitemantalkingtoomuchofwhatisnotmen\'stalkwhentheyspeaktooneanother。\"

  Andhewentofflookingverysad。

  Thecrowdmassedinasemicirclebeforethestepsof\"Almayer\'sFolly,\"swayedsilentlybackwardsandforwards,andopenedoutbeforethegroupofwhite-robedandturbanedmenadvancingthroughthegrasstowardsthehouse。Abdullawalkedfirst,supportedbyReshidandfollowedbyalltheArabsinSambir。Astheyenteredthelanemadebytherespectfulthrongtherewasasubduedmurmurofvoices,wheretheword\"Mati\"wastheonlyonedistinctlyaudible。Abdullastoppedandlookedroundslowly。

  \"Ishedead?\"heasked。

  \"Mayyoulive!\"answeredthecrowdinoneshout,andthentheresucceededabreathlesssilence。

  Abdullamadeafewpacesforwardandfoundhimselfforthelasttimefacetofacewithhisoldenemy。Whateverhemighthavebeenoncehewasnotdangerousnow,lyingstiffandlifelessinthetenderlightoftheearlyday。Theonlywhitemanontheeastcoastwasdead,andhissoul,deliveredfromthetrammelsofhisearthlyfolly,stoodnowinthepresenceofInfiniteWisdom。

  Ontheupturnedfacetherewasthatserenelookwhichfollowsthesuddenrelieffromanguishandpain,andittestifiedsilentlybeforethecloudlessheaventhatthemanlyingthereunderthegazeofindifferenteyeshadbeenpermittedtoforgetbeforehedied。

  AbdullalookeddownsadlyatthisInfidelhehadfoughtsolongandhadbestedsomanytimes。SuchwastherewardoftheFaithful!

  YetintheArab\'soldhearttherewasafeelingofregretforthatthinggoneoutofhislife。Hewasleavingfastbehindhimfriendships,andenmities,successes,anddisappointments——allthatmakesupalife;andbeforehimwasonlytheend。PrayerwouldfilluptheremainderofthedaysallottedtotheTrueBeliever!Hetookinhishandthebeadsthathungathiswaist。

  \"Ifoundhimhere,likethis,inthemorning,\"saidAli,inalowandawedvoice。

  Abdullaglancedcoldlyoncemoreatthesereneface。

  \"Letusgo,\"hesaid,addressingReshid。

  Andastheypassedthroughthecrowdthatfellbackbeforethem,thebeadsinAbdulla\'shandclicked,whileinasolemnwhisperhebreathedoutpiouslythenameofAllah!TheMerciful!TheCompassionate!

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