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  \"DidInottellyou?\"shesobbed,tryingtowrigglegentlyoutfromunderhisgrip。\"DidInottellyouthatIsawthewitchwomanpushthecanoe?Ilayhiddeninthegrassandheardallthewords。ShethatweusedtocallthewhiteMemwantedtoreturntolookatyourface,butthewitchwomanforbadeher,and——\"

  Shesankloweryetonherelbow,turninghalfroundunderthedownwardpushoftheheavyhand,herfacelifteduptohimwithspitefuleyes。

  \"Andsheobeyed,\"sheshoutedoutinahalf-laugh,half-cryofpain。\"Letmego,Tuan。Whyareyouangrywithme?

  Hasten,oryoushallbetoolatetoshowyourangertothedeceitfulwoman。\"

  Almayerdraggedheruptoherfeetandlookedcloseintoherfacewhileshestruggled,turningherheadawayfromhiswildstare。

  \"Whosentyouheretotormentme?\"heasked,violently。\"Idonotbelieveyou。Youlie。\"

  Hestraightenedhisarmsuddenlyandflungheracrosstheverandahtowardsthedoorway,whereshelayimmobileandsilent,asifshehadleftherlifeinhisgrasp,adarkheap,withoutasoundorastir。

  \"Oh!Nina!\"whisperedAlmayer,inavoiceinwhichreproachandlovespoketogetherinpainedtenderness。\"Oh!Nina!

  Idonotbelieve。\"

  Alightdraughtfromtheriverranoverthecourtyardinawaveofbowinggrassand,enteringtheverandah,touchedAlmayer\'sforeheadwithitscoolbreath,inacaressofinfinitepity。Thecurtaininthewomen\'sdoorwayblewoutandinstantlycollapsedwithstartlinghelplessness。Hestaredattheflutteringstuff。

  \"Nina!\"criedAlmayer。\"Whereareyou,Nina?\"

  Thewindpassedoutoftheemptyhouseinatremuloussigh,andallwasstill。

  Almayerhidhisfaceinhishandsasiftoshutoutaloathsomesight。When,hearingaslightrustle,heuncoveredhiseyes,thedarkheapbythedoorwasgone。

  chapter11

  CHAPTERXI。

  Inthemiddleofashadowlesssquareofmoonlight,shiningonasmoothandlevelexpanseofyoungrice-shoots,alittleshelter-hutperchedonhighposts,thepileofbrushwoodnearbyandtheglowingembersofafirewithamanstretchedbeforeit,seemedverysmallandasiflostinthepalegreeniridescencereflectedfromtheground。Onthreesidesoftheclearing,appearingveryfarawayinthedeceptivelight,thebigtreesoftheforest,lashedtogetherwithmanifoldbondsbyamassoftangledcreepers,lookeddownatthegrowingyounglifeattheirfeetwiththesombreresignationofgiantsthathadlostfaithintheirstrength。Andinthemidstofthemthemercilesscreepersclungtothebigtrunksincable-likecoils,leapedfromtreetotree,hunginthornyfestoonsfromthelowerboughs,and,sendingslendertendrilsonhightoseekoutthesmallestbranches,carrieddeathtotheirvictimsinanexultingriotofsilentdestruction。

  Onthefourthside,followingthecurveofthebankofthatbranchofthePantaithatformedtheonlyaccesstotheclearing,ranablacklineofyoungtrees,bushes,andthicksecondgrowth,unbrokensaveforasmallgapchoppedoutinoneplace。Atthatgapbeganthenarrowfootpathleadingfromthewater\'sedgetothegrass-builtshelterusedbythenightwatcherswhentheripeningcrophadtobeprotectedfromthewildpigs。Thepathwayendedatthefootofthepilesonwhichthehutwasbuilt,inacircularspacecoveredwithashesandbitsofburntwood。Inthemiddleofthatspace,bythedimfire,layDain。

  Heturnedoveronhissidewithanimpatientsigh,and,pillowinghisheadonhisbentarm,layquietlywithhisfacetothedyingfire。Theglowingembersshoneredlyinasmallcircle,throwingagleamintohiswide-openeyes,andateverydeepbreaththefinewhiteashofbygonefiresroseinalightcloudbeforehispartedlips,anddancedawayfromthewarmglowintothemoonbeamspouringdownuponBulangi\'sclearing。Hisbodywaswearywiththeexertionofthepastfewdays,hismindmorewearystillwiththestrainofsolitarywaitingforhisfate。Neverbeforehadhefeltsohelpless。Hehadheardthereportofthegunfiredonboardthelaunch,andheknewthathislifewasinuntrustworthyhands,andthathisenemieswereverynear。Duringtheslowhoursoftheafternoonheroamedaboutontheedgeoftheforest,or,hidinginthebushes,watchedthecreekwithunquieteyesforsomesignofdanger。Hefearednotdeath,yethedesiredardentlytolive,forlifetohimwasNina。Shehadpromisedtocome,tofollowhim,tosharehisdangerandhissplendour。Butwithherbyhissidehecarednotfordanger,andwithouthertherecouldbenosplendourandnojoyinexistence。

  Crouchinginhisshadyhiding-place,heclosedhiseyes,tryingtoevokethegraciousandcharmingimageofthewhitefigurethatforhimwasthebeginningandtheendoflife。Witheyesshuttight,histeethhardset,hetriedinagreateffortofpassionatewilltokeephisholdonthatvisionofsupremedelight。Invain!HisheartgrewheavyasthefigureofNinafadedawaytobereplacedbyanothervisionthistime——avisionofarmedmen,ofangryfaces,ofglitteringarms——andheseemedtohearthehumofexcitedandtriumphantvoicesastheydiscoveredhiminhishiding-place。Startledbythevividnessofhisfancy,hewouldopenhiseyes,and,leapingoutintothesunlight,resumehisaimlesswanderingsaroundtheclearing。Asheskirtedinhiswearymarchtheedgeoftheforestheglancednowandthenintoitsdarkshade,soenticinginitsdeceptiveappearanceofcoolness,sorepellentwithitsunrelievedgloom,wherelay,entombedandrotting,countlessgenerationsoftrees,andwheretheirsuccessorsstoodasifmourning,indarkgreenfoliage,immenseandhelpless,awaitingtheirturn。Onlytheparasitesseemedtolivethereinasinuousrushupwardsintotheairandsunshine,feedingonthedeadandthedyingalike,andcrowningtheirvictimswithpinkandblueflowersthatgleamedamongsttheboughs,incongruousandcruel,likeastridentandmockingnoteinthesolemnharmonyofthedoomedtrees。

  Amancouldhidethere,thoughtDain,asheapproachedaplacewherethecreepershadbeentornandhackedintoanarchwaythatmighthavebeenthebeginningofapath。Ashebentdowntolookthroughheheardangrygrunting,andasounderofwildpigcrashedawayintheundergrowth。Anacridsmellofdampearthandofdecayingleavestookhimbythethroat,andhedrewbackwithascaredface,asifhehadbeentouchedbythebreathofDeathitself。Theveryairseemeddeadinthere——heavyandstagnating,poisonedwiththecorruptionofcountlessages。Hewenton,staggeringonhisway,urgedbythenervousrestlessnessthatmadehimfeeltiredyetcausedhimtoloathetheveryideaofimmobilityandrepose。Washeawildmantohideinthewoodsandperhapsbekilledthere——inthedarkness——wheretherewasnoroomtobreathe?Hewouldwaitforhisenemiesinthesunlight,wherehecouldseetheskyandfeelthebreeze。HeknewhowaMalaychiefshoulddie。Thesombreanddesperatefury,thatpeculiarinheritanceofhisrace,tookpossessionofhim,andheglaredsavagelyacrosstheclearingtowardsthegapinthebushesbytheriverside。Theywouldcomefromthere。Inimaginationhesawthemnow。Hesawthebeardedfacesandthewhitejacketsoftheofficers,thelightonthelevelledbarrelsoftherifles。

  Whatisthebraveryofthegreatestwarriorbeforethefirearmsinthehandofaslave?Hewouldwalktowardthemwithasmilingface,withhishandsheldoutinasignofsubmissiontillhewasverynearthem。Hewouldspeakfriendlywords——comeneareryet——yetnearer——sonearthattheycouldtouchhimwiththeirhandsandstretchthemouttomakehimacaptive。Thatwouldbethetime:withashoutandaleaphewouldbeinthemidstofthem,krissinhand,killing,killing,killing,andwoulddiewiththeshoutsofhisenemiesinhisears,theirwarmbloodspurtingbeforehiseyes。

  Carriedawaybyhisexcitement,hesnatchedthekrisshiddeninhissarong,and,drawingalongbreath,rushedforward,struckattheemptyair,andfellonhisface。Helayasifstunnedinthesuddenreactionfromhisexaltation,thinkingthat,evenifhediedthusgloriously,itwouldhavetobebeforehesawNina。

  Betterso。Ifhesawheragainhefeltthatdeathwouldbetooterrible。Withhorrorhe,thedescendantofRajahsandofconquerors,hadtofacethedoubtofhisownbravery。Hisdesireoflifetormentedhiminaparoxysmofagonisingremorse。Hehadnotthecouragetostiralimb。Hehadlostfaithinhimself,andtherewasnothingelseinhimofwhatmakesaman。Thesufferingremained,foritisorderedthatitshouldabideinthehumanbodyeventothelastbreath,andfearremained。Dimlyhecouldlookintothedepthsofhispassionatelove,seeitsstrengthanditsweakness,andfeltafraid。

  Thesunwentdownslowly。Theshadowofthewesternforestmarchedovertheclearing,coveredtheman\'sscorchedshoulderswithitscoolmantle,andwentonhurriedlytominglewiththeshadowsofotherforestsontheeasternside。Thesunlingeredforawhileamongstthelighttraceryofthehigherbranches,asifinfriendlyreluctancetoabandonthebodystretchedinthegreenpaddy-field。ThenDain,revivedbythecooloftheeveningbreeze,satupandstaredroundhim。Ashedidsothesundippedsharply,asifashamedofbeingdetectedinasympathisingattitude,andtheclearing,whichduringthedaywasalllight,becamesuddenlyalldarkness,wherethefiregleamedlikeaneye。

  Dainwalkedslowlytowardsthecreek,and,divestinghimselfofhistornsarong,hisonlygarment,enteredthewatercautiously。

  Hehadhadnothingtoeatthatday,andhadnotdaredshowhimselfindaylightbythewater-sidetodrink。Now,asheswamsilently,heswallowedafewmouthfulsofwaterthatlappedabouthislips。Thisdidhimgood,andhewalkedwithgreaterconfidenceinhimselfandothersashereturnedtowardsthefire。

  HadhebeenbetrayedbyLakambaallwouldhavebeenoverbythis。

  Hemadeupabigblaze,andwhileitlasteddriedhimself,andthenlaydownbytheembers。Hecouldnotsleep,buthefeltagreatnumbnessinallhislimbs。Hisrestlessnesswasgone,andhewascontenttolaystill,measuringthetimebywatchingthestarsthatroseinendlesssuccessionabovetheforests,whiletheslightpuffsofwindunderthecloudlessskyseemedtofantheirtwinkleintoagreaterbrightness。Dreamilyheassuredhimselfoverandoveragainthatshewouldcome,tillthecertitudecreptintohisheartandfilledhimwithagreatpeace。

  Yes,whenthenextdaybroke,theywouldbetogetheronthegreatblueseathatwaslikelife——awayfromtheforeststhatwerelikedeath。HemurmuredthenameofNinaintothesilentspacewithatendersmile:thisseemedtobreakthespellofstillness,andfarawaybythecreekafrogcroakedloudlyasifinanswer。A

  chorusofloudroarsandplaintivecallsrosefromthemudalongthelineofbushes。Helaughedheartily;doubtlessitwastheirlove-song。Hefeltaffectionatetowardsthefrogsandlistened,pleasedwiththenoisylifenearhim。

  Whenthemoonpeepedabovethetreeshefelttheoldimpatienceandtheoldrestlessnessstealoverhim。Whywasshesolate?

  True,itwasalongwaytocomewithasinglepaddle。Withwhatskillandwhatendurancecouldthosesmallhandsmanageaheavypaddle!Itwasverywonderful——suchsmallhands,suchsoftlittlepalmsthatknewhowtotouchhischeekwithafeellighterthanthefanningofabutterfly\'swing。Wonderful!Helosthimselflovinglyinthecontemplationofthistremendousmystery,andwhenhelookedatthemoonagainithadrisenahand\'sbreadthabovethetrees。Wouldshecome?Heforcedhimselftolaystill,overcomingtheimpulsetoriseandrushroundtheclearingagain。Heturnedthiswayandthat;atlast,quiveringwiththeeffort,helayonhisback,andsawherfaceamongthestarslookingdownonhim。

  Thecroakingoffrogssuddenlyceased。WiththewatchfulnessofahuntedmanDainsatup,listeninganxiously,andheardseveralsplashesinthewaterasthefrogstookrapidheadersintothecreek。Heknewthattheyhadbeenalarmedbysomething,andstoodupsuspiciousandattentive。Aslightgratingnoise,thenthedrysoundasoftwopiecesofwoodstruckagainsteachother。

  Somebodywasabouttoland!Hetookupanarmfulofbrushwood,and,withouttakinghiseyesfromthepath,helditovertheembersofhisfire。Hewaited,undecided,andsawsomethinggleamamongstthebushes;thenawhitefigurecameoutoftheshadowsandseemedtofloattowardshiminthepalelight。Hisheartgaveagreatleapandstoodstill,thenwentonshakinghisframeinfuriousbeats。Hedroppedthebrushwoodupontheglowingcoals,andhadanimpressionofshoutinghername——ofrushingtomeether;yetheemittednosound,hestirrednotaninch,buthestoodsilentandmotionlesslikechiselledbronzeunderthemoonlightthatstreamedoverhisnakedshoulders。Ashestoodstill,fightingwithhisbreath,asifbereftofhissensesbytheintensityofhisdelight,shewalkeduptohimwithquick,resolutesteps,and,withtheappearanceofoneabouttoleapfromadangerousheight,threwbothherarmsroundhisneckwithasuddengesture。Asmallbluegleamcreptamongstthedrybranches,andthecracklingofrevivingfirewastheonlysoundastheyfacedeachotherinthespeechlessemotionofthatmeeting;thenthedryfuelcaughtatonce,andabrighthotflameshotupwardsinablazeashighastheirheads,andinitslighttheysaweachother\'seyes。

  Neitherofthemspoke。Hewasregaininghissensesinaslighttremorthatranupwardsalonghisrigidbodyandhungabouthistremblinglips。Shedrewbackherheadandfastenedhereyesonhisinoneofthoselonglooksthatareawoman\'smostterribleweapon;alookthatismorestirringthantheclosesttouch,andmoredangerousthanthethrustofadagger,becauseitalsowhipsthesouloutofthebody,butleavesthebodyaliveandhelpless,tobeswayedhereandtherebythecapricioustempestsofpassionanddesire;alookthatenwrapsthewholebody,andthatpenetratesintotheinnermostrecessesofthebeing,bringingterribledefeatinthedeliriousupliftingofaccomplishedconquest。Ithasthesamemeaningforthemanoftheforestsandtheseaasforthemanthreadingthepathsofthemoredangerouswildernessofhousesandstreets。Menthathadfeltintheirbreaststheawfulexultationsuchalookawakensbecomemerethingsofto-day——whichisparadise;forgetyesterday——whichwassuffering;carenotforto-morrow——whichmaybeperdition。Theywishtoliveunderthatlookforever。Itisthelookofwoman\'ssurrender。

  Heunderstood,and,asifsuddenlyreleasedfromhisinvisiblebonds,fellatherfeetwithashoutofjoy,and,embracingherknees,hidhisheadinthefoldsofherdress,murmuringdisjointedwordsofgratitudeandlove。Neverbeforehadhefeltsoproudasnow,whenatthefeetofthatwomanthathalfbelongedtohisenemies。Herfingersplayedwithhishairinanabsent-mindedcaressasshestoodabsorbedinthought。Thethingwasdone。Hermotherwasright。Themanwasherslave。

  Assheglanceddownathiskneelingformshefeltagreatpityingtendernessforthatmanshewasusedtocall——eveninherthoughts——themasteroflife。Sheliftedhereyesandlookedsadlyatthesouthernheavensunderwhichlaythepathoftheirlives——herown,andthatman\'satherfeet。Didhenotsayhimselfisthatshewasthelightofhislife?Shewouldbehislightandhiswisdom;shewouldbehisgreatnessandhisstrength;yethiddenfromtheeyesofallmenshewouldbe,aboveall,hisonlyandlastingweakness。Averywoman!Inthesublimevanityofherkindshewasthinkingalreadyofmouldingagodfromtheclayatherfeet。Agodforotherstoworship。

  Shewascontenttoseehimashewasnow,andtofeelhimquiverattheslightesttouchofherlightfingers。Andwhilehereyeslookedsadlyatthesouthernstarsafaintsmileseemedtobeplayingaboutherfirmlips。Whocantellinthefitfullightofacampfire?Itmighthavebeenasmileoftriumph,orofconsciouspower,oroftenderpity,or,perhaps,oflove。

  Shespokesoftlytohim,andherosetohisfeet,puttinghisarmroundherinquietconsciousnessofhisownership;shelaidherheadonhisshoulderwithasenseofdefiancetoalltheworldintheencirclingprotectionofthatarm。Hewasherswithallhisqualitiesandallhisfaults。Hisstrengthandhiscourage,hisrecklessnessandhisdaring,hissimplewisdomandhissavagecunning——allwerehers。Astheypassedtogetheroutoftheredlightofthefireintothesilvershowerofraysthatfellupontheclearinghebenthisheadoverherface,andshesawinhiseyesthedreamyintoxicationofboundlessfelicityfromtheclosetouchofherslightfigureclaspedtohisside。Witharhythmicalswingoftheirbodiestheywalkedthroughthelighttowardstheoutlyingshadowsoftheforeststhatseemedtoguardtheirhappinessinsolemnimmobility。Theirformsmeltedintheplayoflightandshadowatthefootofthebigtrees,butthemurmuroftenderwordslingeredovertheemptyclearing,grewfaint,anddiedout。Asighasofimmensesorrowpassedoverthelandinthelasteffortofthedyingbreeze,andinthedeepsilencewhichsucceeded,theearthandtheheavensweresuddenlyhushedupinthemournfulcontemplationofhumanloveandhumanblindness。

  Theywalkedslowlybacktothefire。Hemadeforheraseatoutofthedrybranches,and,throwinghimselfdownatherfeet,layhisheadinherlapandgavehimselfuptothedreamydelightofthepassinghour。Theirvoicesroseandfell,tenderoranimatedastheyspokeoftheirloveandoftheirfuture。She,withafewskilfulwordsspokenfromtimetotime,guidedhisthoughts,andhelethishappinessflowinastreamoftalkpassionateandtender,graveormenacing,accordingtothemoodwhichsheevoked。Hespoketoherofhisownisland,wherethegloomyforestsandthemuddyriverswereunknown。Hespokeofitsterracedfields,ofthemurmuringclearrillsofsparklingwaterthatfloweddownthesidesofgreatmountains,bringinglifetothelandandjoytoitstillers。Andhespokealsoofthemountainpeakthatrisinglonelyabovethebeltoftreesknewthesecretsofthepassingclouds,andwasthedwelling-placeofthemysteriousspiritofhisrace,oftheguardiangeniusofhishouse。Hespokeofvasthorizonssweptbyfiercewindsthatwhistledhighabovethesummitsofburningmountains。Hespokeofhisforefathersthatconqueredagesagotheislandofwhichhewastobethefutureruler。Andthenas,inherinterest,shebroughtherfacenearertohis,he,touchinglightlythethicktressesofherlonghair,feltasuddenimpulsetospeaktoheroftheseahelovedsowell;andhetoldherofitsnever-ceasingvoice,towhichhehadlistenedasachild,wonderingatitshiddenmeaningthatnolivingmanhaspenetratedyet;ofitsenchantingglitter;ofitssenselessandcapriciousfury;howitssurfacewasforeverchanging,andyetalwaysenticing,whileitsdepthswereforeverthesame,coldandcruel,andfullofthewisdomofdestroyedlife。Hetoldherhowitheldmenslavesofitscharmforalifetime,andthen,regardlessoftheirdevotion,swallowedthemup,angryattheirfearofitsmystery,whichitwouldneverdisclose,noteventothosethatloveditmost。

  Whilehetalked,Nina\'sheadhadbeengraduallysinkinglower,andherfacealmosttouchedhisnow。Herhairwasoverhiseyes,herbreathwasonhisforehead,herarmswereabouthisbody。

  Notwobeingscouldbeclosertoeachother,yetsheguessedratherthanunderstoodthemeaningofhislastwordsthatcameoutafteraslighthesitationinafaintmurmur,dyingoutimperceptiblyintoaprofoundandsignificantsilence:\"Thesea,ONina,islikeawoman\'sheart。\"

  Sheclosedhislipswithasuddenkiss,andansweredinasteadyvoice——

  \"Buttothementhathavenofear,Omasterofmylife,theseaisevertrue。\"

  Overtheirheadsafilmofdark,thread-likeclouds,lookinglikeimmensecobwebsdriftingunderthestars,darkenedtheskywiththepresageofthecomingthunderstorm。Fromtheinvisiblehillsthefirstdistantrumbleofthundercameinaprolongedrollwhich,aftertossingaboutfromhilltohill,lostitselfintheforestsofthePantai。DainandNinastoodup,andtheformerlookedattheskyuneasily。

  \"ItistimeforBabalatchitobehere,\"hesaid。\"Thenightismorethanhalfgone。Ourroadislong,andabullettravelsquickerthanthebestcanoe。\"

  \"Hewillbeherebeforethemoonishiddenbehindtheclouds,\"

  saidNina。\"Iheardasplashinthewater,\"sheadded。\"Didyouhearittoo?\"

  \"Alligator,\"answeredDainshortly,withacarelessglancetowardsthecreek。\"Thedarkerthenight,\"hecontinued,\"theshorterwillbeourroad,forthenwecouldkeepinthecurrentofthemainstream,butifitislight——evennomorethannow——wemustfollowthesmallchannelsofsleepingwater,withnothingtohelpourpaddles。\"

  \"Dain,\"interposedNina,earnestly,\"itwasnoalligator。I

  heardthebushesrustlingnearthelanding-place。\"

  \"Yes,\"saidDain,afterlisteningawhile。\"ItcannotbeBabalatchi,whowouldcomeinabigwarcanoe,andopenly。Thosethatarecoming,whoevertheyare,donotwishtomakemuchnoise。Butyouhaveheard,andnowIcansee,\"hewentonquickly。\"Itisbutoneman。Standbehindme,Nina。

  Ifheisafriendheiswelcome;ifheisanenemyyoushallseehimdie。\"

  Helaidhishandonhiskriss,andawaitedtheapproachofhisunexpectedvisitor。Thefirewasburningverylow,andsmallclouds——precursorsofthestorm——crossedthefaceofthemooninrapidsuccession,andtheirflyingshadowsdarkenedtheclearing。

  Hecouldnotmakeoutwhothemanmightbe,buthefeltuneasyatthesteadyadvanceofthetallfigurewalkingonthepathwithaheavytread,andhaileditwithacommandtostop。Themanstoppedatsomelittledistance,andDainexpectedhimtospeak,butallhecouldhearwashisdeepbreathing。Throughabreakintheflyingcloudsasuddenandfleetingbrightnessdescendedupontheclearing。Beforethedarknessclosedinagain,Dainsawahandholdingsomeglitteringobjectextendedtowardshim,heardNina\'scryof\"Father!\"andinaninstantthegirlwasbetweenhimandAlmayer\'srevolver。Nina\'sloudcrywokeuptheechoesofthesleepingwoods,andthethreestoodstillasifwaitingforthereturnofsilencebeforetheywouldgiveexpressiontotheirvariousfeelings。AttheappearanceofNina,Almayer\'sarmfellbyhisside,andhemadeastepforward。Dainpushedthegirlgentlyaside。

  \"AmIawildbeastthatyoushouldtrytokillmesuddenlyandinthedark,TuanAlmayer?\"saidDain,breakingthestrainedsilence。\"Throwsomebrushwoodonthefire,\"hewenton,speakingtoNina,\"whileIwatchmywhitefriend,lestharmshouldcometoyouortome,Odelightofmyheart!\"

  Almayergroundhisteethandraisedhisarmagain。WithaquickboundDainwasathisside:therewasashortscuffle,duringwhichonechamberoftherevolverwentoffharmlessly,thentheweapon,wrenchedoutofAlmayer\'shand,whirledthroughtheairandfellinthebushes。Thetwomenstoodclosetogether,breathinghard。ThereplenishedfirethrewoutanunsteadycircleoflightandshoneontheterrifiedfaceofNina,wholookedatthemwithoutstretchedhands。

  \"Dain!\"shecriedoutwarningly,\"Dain!\"

  Hewavedhishandtowardsherinareassuringgesture,and,turningtoAlmayer,saidwithgreatcourtesy——

  \"Nowwemaytalk,Tuan。Itiseasytosendoutdeath,butcanyourwisdomrecallthelife?Shemighthavebeenharmed,\"hecontinued,indicatingNina。\"Yourhandshookmuch;formyselfI

  wasnotafraid。\"

  \"Nina!\"exclaimedAlmayer,\"cometomeatonce。Whatisthissuddenmadness?Whatbewitchedyou?Cometoyourfather,andtogetherweshalltrytoforgetthishorriblenightmare!\"

  Heopenedhisarmswiththecertitudeofclaspinghertohisbreastinanothersecond。Shedidnotmove。Asitdawneduponhimthatshedidnotmeantoobeyhefeltadeadlycoldcreepintohisheart,and,pressingthepalmsofhishandstohistemples,helookeddownonthegroundinmutedespair。DaintookNinabythearmandledhertowardsherfather。

  \"Speaktohiminthelanguageofhispeople,\"hesaid。\"Heisgrieving——aswhowouldnotgrieveatlosingthee,mypearl!

  Speaktohimthelastwordsheshallhearspokenbythatvoice,whichmustbeverysweettohim,butisallmylifetome。\"

  Hereleasedher,and,steppingbackafewpacesoutofthecircleoflight,stoodinthedarknesslookingatthemwithcalminterest。Thereflectionofadistantflashoflightninglitupthecloudsovertheirheads,andwasfollowedafterashortintervalbythefaintrumbleofthunder,whichmingledwithAlmayer\'svoiceashebegantospeak。

  \"Doyouknowwhatyouaredoing?Doyouknowwhatiswaitingforyouifyoufollowthatman?Haveyounopityforyourself?

  Doyouknowthatyoushallbeatfirsthisplaythingandthenascornedslave,adrudge,andaservantofsomenewfancyofthatman?\"

  Sheraisedherhandtostophim,andturningherheadslightly,asked——

  \"YouhearthisDain!Isittrue?\"

  \"Byallthegods!\"cametheimpassionedanswerfromthedarkness——\"byheavenandearth,bymyheadandthineIswear:

  thisisawhiteman\'slie。Ihavedeliveredmysoulintoyourhandsforever;Ibreathewithyourbreath,Iseewithyoureyes,Ithinkwithyourmind,andItakeyouintomyheartforever。\"

  \"Youthief!\"shoutedtheexasperatedAlmayer。

  Adeepsilencesucceededthisoutburst,thenthevoiceofDainwasheardagain。

  \"Nay,Tuan,\"hesaidinagentletone,\"thatisnottruealso。

  Thegirlcameofherownwill。Ihavedonenomorebuttoshowhermylovelikeaman;sheheardthecryofmyheart,andshecame,andthedowryIhavegiventothewomanyoucallyourwife。\"

  Almayergroanedinhisextremityofrageandshame。Ninalaidherhandlightlyonhisshoulder,andthecontact,lightasthetouchofafallingleaf,seemedtocalmhim。Hespokequickly,andinEnglishthistime。

  \"Tellme,\"hesaid——\"tellme,whathavetheydonetoyou,yourmotherandthatman?Whatmadeyougiveyourselfuptothatsavage?Forheisasavage。Betweenhimandyouthereisabarrierthatnothingcanremove。Icanseeinyoureyesthelookofthosewhocommitsuicidewhentheyaremad。Youaremad。

  Don\'tsmile。Itbreaksmyheart。IfIweretoseeyoudrowningbeforemyeyes,andIwithoutthepowertohelpyou,Icouldnotsufferagreatertorment。Haveyouforgottentheteachingofsomanyyears?\"

  \"No,\"sheinterrupted,\"Irememberitwell。Irememberhowitendedalso。Scornforscorn,contemptforcontempt,hateforhate。Iamnotofyourrace。Betweenyourpeopleandmethereisalsoabarrierthatnothingcanremove。YouaskwhyIwanttogo,andIaskyouwhyIshouldstay。\"

  Hestaggeredasifstruckintheface,butwithaquick,unhesitatinggraspshecaughthimbythearmandsteadiedhim。

  \"Whyyoushouldstay!\"herepeatedslowly,inadazedmanner,andstoppedshort,astoundedatthecompletenessofhismisfortune。

  \"Youtoldmeyesterday,\"shewentonagain,\"thatIcouldnotunderstandorseeyourloveforme:itisso。HowcanI?

  Notwohumanbeingsunderstandeachother。Theycanunderstandbuttheirownvoices。Youwantedmetodreamyourdreams,toseeyourownvisions——thevisionsoflifeamongstthewhitefacesofthosewhocastmeoutfromtheirmidstinangrycontempt。ButwhileyouspokeIlistenedtothevoiceofmyownself;thenthismancame,andallwasstill;therewasonlythemurmurofhislove。Youcallhimasavage!Whatdoyoucallmymother,yourwife?\"

  \"Nina!\"criedAlmayer,\"takeyoureyesoffmyface。\"

  Shelookeddowndirectly,butcontinuedspeakingonlyalittleaboveawhisper。

  \"Intime,\"shewenton,\"bothourvoices,thatman\'sandmine,spoketogetherinasweetnessthatwasintelligibletoourearsonly。Youwerespeakingofgoldthen,butourearswerefilledwiththesongofourlove,andwedidnothearyou。ThenIfoundthatwecouldseethrougheachother\'seyes:thathesawthingsthatnobodybutmyselfandhecouldsee。Weenteredalandwherenoonecouldfollowus,andleastofallyou。ThenIbegantolive。\"

  Shepaused。Almayersigheddeeply。Withhereyesstillfixedonthegroundshebeganspeakingagain。

  \"AndImeantolive。Imeantofollowhim。Ihavebeenrejectedwithscornbythewhitepeople,andnowIamaMalay!Hetookmeinhisarms,helaidhislifeatmyfeet。Heisbrave;hewillbepowerful,andIholdhisbraveryandhisstrengthinmyhand,andIshallmakehimgreat。Hisnameshallberememberedlongafterbothourbodiesarelaidinthedust。IloveyounolessthanIdidbefore,butIshallneverleavehim,forwithouthimI

  cannotlive。\"

  \"Ifheunderstoodwhatyouhavesaid,\"answeredAlmayer,scornfully,\"hemustbehighlyflattered。Youwanthimasatoolforsomeincomprehensibleambitionofyours。Enough,Nina。

  Ifyoudonotgodownatoncetothecreek,whereAliiswaitingwithmycanoe,IshalltellhimtoreturntothesettlementandbringtheDutchofficershere。Youcannotescapefromthisclearing,forIhavecastadriftyourcanoe。IftheDutchcatchthisheroofyourstheywillhanghimassureasIstandhere。

  Nowgo。\"

  Hemadeasteptowardshisdaughterandlaidholdofherbytheshoulder,hisotherhandpointingdownthepathtothelanding-place。

  \"Beware!\"exclaimedDain;\"thiswomanbelongstome!\"

  NinawrenchedherselffreeandlookedstraightatAlmayer\'sangryface。

  \"No,Iwillnotgo,\"shesaidwithdesperateenergy。\"IfhediesIshalldietoo!\"

  \"Youdie!\"saidAlmayer,contemptuously。\"Oh,no!Youshalllivealifeofliesanddeceptiontillsomeothervagabondcomesalongtosing;howdidyousaythat?Thesongoflovetoyou!

  Makeupyourmindquickly。\"

  Hewaitedforawhile,andthenaddedmeaningly——

  \"ShallIcallouttoAli?\"

  \"Callout,\"sheansweredinMalay,\"youthatcannotbetruetoyourowncountrymen。Onlyafewdaysagoyouweresellingthepowderfortheirdestruction;nowyouwanttogiveuptothemthemanthatyesterdayyoucalledyourfriend。Oh,Dain,\"shesaid,turningtowardsthemotionlessbutattentivefigureinthedarkness,\"insteadofbringingyoulifeIbringyoudeath,forhewillbetrayunlessIleaveyouforever!\"

  Daincameintothecircleoflight,and,throwinghisarmaroundNina\'sneck,whisperedinherear——\"Icankillhimwherehestands,beforeasoundcanpasshislips。Foryouitistosayyesorno。Babalatchicannotbefarnow。\"

  Hestraightenedhimselfup,takinghisarmoffhershoulder,andconfrontedAlmayer,wholookedatthembothwithanexpressionofconcentratedfury,\"No!\"shecried,clingingtoDaininwildalarm。\"No!Killme!

  Thenperhapshewillletyougo。Youdonotknowthemindofawhiteman。HewouldratherseemedeadthanstandingwhereIam。

  Forgiveme,yourslave,butyoumustnot。\"Shefellathisfeetsobbingviolentlyandrepeating,\"Killme!Killme!\"

  \"Iwantyoualive,\"saidAlmayer,speakingalsoinMalay,withsombrecalmness。\"Yougo,orhehangs。Willyouobey?\"

  DainshookNinaoff,and,makingasuddenlunge,struckAlmayerfullinthechestwiththehandleofhiskriss,keepingthepointtowardshimself。

  \"Hai,look!Itwaseasyformetoturnthepointtheotherway,\"

  hesaidinhisevenvoice。\"Go,TuanPutih,\"headdedwithdignity。\"Igiveyouyourlife,mylife,andherlife。I

  amtheslaveofthiswoman\'sdesire,andshewillsitso。\"

  Therewasnotaglimmeroflightintheskynow,andthetopsofthetreeswereasinvisibleastheirtrunks,beinglostinthemassofcloudsthathunglowoverthewoods,theclearing,andtheriver。

  Everyoutlinehaddisappearedintheintenseblacknessthatseemedtohavedestroyedeverythingbutspace。Onlythefireglimmeredlikeastarforgotteninthisannihilationofallvisiblethings,andnothingwasheardafterDainceasedspeakingbutthesobsofNina,whomheheldinhisarms,kneelingbesidethefire。Almayerstoodlookingdownatthemingloomythoughtfulness。Ashewasopeninghislipstospeaktheywerestartledbyacryofwarningbytheriverside,followedbythesplashofmanypaddlesandthesoundofvoices。

  \"Babalatchi!\"shoutedDain,liftingupNinaashegotuponhisfeetquickly。

  \"Ada!Ada!\"cametheanswerfromthepantingstatesmanwhoranupthepathandstoodamongstthem。\"Runtomycanoe,\"hesaidtoDainexcitedly,withouttakinganynoticeofAlmayer。\"Run!

  wemustgo。Thatwomanhastoldthemall!\"

  \"Whatwoman?\"askedDain,lookingatNina。Justthentherewasonlyonewomaninthewholeworldforhim。

  \"Theshe-dogwithwhiteteeth;theseventimesaccursedslaveofBulangi。SheyelledatAbdulla\'sgatetillshewokeupallSambir。Nowthewhiteofficersarecoming,guidedbyherandReshid。Ifyouwanttolive,donotlookatme,butgo!\"

  \"Howdoyouknowthis?\"askedAlmayer。

  \"Oh,Tuan!whatmattershowIknow!Ihaveonlyoneeye,butI

  sawlightsinAbdulla\'shouseandinhiscampongaswewerepaddlingpast。Ihaveears,andwhilewelayunderthebankI

  haveheardthemessengerssentouttothewhitemen\'shouse。\"

  \"Willyoudepartwithoutthatwomanwhoismydaughter?\"saidAlmayer,addressingDain,whileBabalatchistampedwithimpatience,muttering,\"Run!Runatonce!\"

  \"No,\"answeredDain,steadily,\"Iwillnotgo;tonomanwillI

  abandonthiswoman。\"

  \"Thenkillmeandescapeyourself,\"sobbedoutNina。

  Heclaspedherclose,lookingathertenderly,andwhispered,\"Wewillneverpart,ONina!\"

  \"Ishallnotstayhereanylonger,\"brokeinBabalatchi,angrily。

  \"Thisisgreatfoolishness。Nowomanisworthaman\'slife。

  I

  amanoldman,andIknow。\"

  Hepickeduphisstaff,and,turningtogo,lookedatDainasifofferinghimhislastchanceofescape。ButDain\'sfacewashiddenamongstNina\'sblacktresses,andhedidnotseethislastappealingglance。

  Babalatchivanishedinthedarkness。Shortlyafterhisdisappearancetheyheardthewarcanoeleavethelanding-placeintheswishofthenumerouspaddlesdippedinthewatertogether。

  AlmostatthesametimeAlicameupfromtheriverside,twopaddlesonhisshoulder。

  \"Ourcanoeishiddenupthecreek,TuanAlmayer,\"hesaid,\"inthedensebushwheretheforestcomesdowntothewater。ItookittherebecauseIheardfromBabalatchi\'spaddlersthatthewhitemenarecominghere。\"

  \"Waitformethere,\"saidAlmayer,\"butkeepthecanoehidden。\"

  Heremainedsilent,listeningtoAli\'sfootsteps,thenturnedtoNina。

  \"Nina,\"hesaidsadly,\"willyouhavenopityforme?\"

  Therewasnoanswer。Shedidnoteventurnherhead,whichwaspressedclosetoDain\'sbreast。

  Hemadeamovementasiftoleavethemandstopped。Bythedimglowoftheburning-outfirehesawtheirtwomotionlessfigures。

  Thewoman\'sbackturnedtohimwiththelongblackhairstreamingdownoverthewhitedress,andDain\'scalmfacelookingathimaboveherhead。

  \"Icannot,\"hemutteredtohimself。Afteralongpausehespokeagainalittlelower,butinanunsteadyvoice,\"Itwouldbetoogreatadisgrace。Iamawhiteman。\"Hebrokedowncompletelythere,andwentontearfully,\"Iamawhiteman,andofgoodfamily。Verygoodfamily,\"herepeated,weepingbitterly。

  \"Itwouldbeadisgrace……allovertheislands,……theonlywhitemanontheeastcoast。No,itcannotbe……whitemenfindingmydaughterwiththisMalay。Mydaughter!\"hecriedaloud,witharingofdespairinhisvoice。

  Herecoveredhiscomposureafterawhileandsaiddistinctly——

  \"Iwillneverforgiveyou,Nina——never!Ifyouweretocomebacktomenow,thememoryofthisnightwouldpoisonallmylife。

  I

  shalltrytoforget。Ihavenodaughter。Thereusedtobeahalf-castewomaninmyhouse,butsheisgoingevennow。You,Dain,orwhateveryournamemaybe,Ishalltakeyouandthatwomantotheislandatthemouthoftherivermyself。Comewithme。\"

  Heledtheway,followingthebankasfarastheforest。Aliansweredtohiscall,and,pushingtheirwaythroughthedensebush,theysteppedintothecanoehiddenundertheoverhangingbranches。DainlaidNinainthebottom,andsatholdingherheadonhisknees。AlmayerandAlieachtookupapaddle。AstheyweregoingtopushoutAlihissedwarningly。Alllistened。

  Inthegreatstillnessbeforetheburstingoutofthethunderstormtheycouldhearthesoundofoarsworkingregularlyintheirrow-locks。Thesoundapproachedsteadily,andDain,lookingthroughthebranches,couldseethefaintshapeofabigwhiteboat。Awoman\'svoicesaidinacautioustone——

  \"Thereistheplacewhereyoumaylandwhitemen;alittlehigher——there!\"

  Theboatwaspassingthemsocloseinthenarrowcreekthatthebladesofthelongoarsnearlytouchedthecanoe。

  \"Wayenough!Standbytojumponshore!Heisaloneandunarmed,\"wasthequietorderinaman\'svoice,andinDutch。

  Somebodyelsewhispered:\"IthinkIcanseeaglimmerofafirethroughthebush。\"Andthentheboatfloatedpastthem,disappearinginstantlyinthedarkness。

  \"Now,\"whisperedAli,eagerly,\"letuspushoutandpaddleaway。\"

  Thelittlecanoeswungintothestream,andasitsprungforwardinresponsetothevigorousdigofthepaddlestheycouldhearanangryshout。

  \"Heisnotbythefire。Spreadout,men,andsearchforhim!\"

  Bluelightsblazedoutindifferentpartsoftheclearing,andtheshrillvoiceofawomancriedinaccentsofrageandpain——

  \"Toolate!Osenselesswhitemen!Hehasescaped!\"

  chapter12

  CHAPTERXII。

  \"Thatistheplace,\"saidDain,indicatingwiththebladeofhispaddleasmallisletaboutamileaheadofthecanoe——\"thatistheplacewhereBabalatchipromisedthataboatfromtheprauwouldcomeformewhenthesunisoverhead。Wewillwaitforthatboatthere。\"

  Almayer,whowassteering,noddedwithoutspeaking,andbyaslightsweepofhispaddlelaidtheheadofthecanoeintherequireddirection。

  TheywerejustleavingthesouthernoutletofthePantai,whichlaybehindtheminastraightandlongvistaofwatershiningbetweentwowallsofthickverdurethatrandownwardsandtowardseachother,tillatlasttheyjoinedandsanktogetherinthefar-awaydistance。Thesun,risingabovethecalmwatersoftheStraits,markeditsownpathbyastreakoflightthatglidedupontheseaanddartedupthewidereachoftheriver,ahurriedmessengeroflightandlifetothegloomyforestsofthecoast;

  andinthisradianceofthesun\'spathwayfloatedtheblackcanoeheadingfortheisletwhichlaybathedinsunshine,theyellowsandsofitsencirclingbeachshininglikeaninlaidgoldendisconthepolishedsteeloftheunwrinkledsea。Tothenorthandsouthofitroseotherislets,joyousintheirbrilliantcolouringofgreenandyellow,andonthemaincoastthesombrelineofmangrovebushesendedtothesouthwardinthereddishcliffsofTanjongMirrah,advancingintothesea,steepandshadowlessundertheclear,lightoftheearlymorning。

  Thebottomofthecanoegrateduponthesandasthelittlecraftranuponthebeach。AlileapedonshoreandheldonwhileDainsteppedoutcarryingNinainhisarms,exhaustedbytheeventsandthelongtravellingduringthenight。Almayerwasthelasttoleavetheboat,andtogetherwithAliranithigheruponthebeach。ThenAli,tiredoutbythelongpaddling,laiddownintheshadeofthecanoe,andincontinentlyfellasleep。Almayersatsidewaysonthegunwale,andwithhisarmscrossedonhisbreast,lookedtothesouthwarduponthesea。

  AftercarefullylayingNinadownintheshadeofthebushesgrowinginthemiddleoftheislet,Dainthrewhimselfbesideherandwatchedinsilentconcernthetearsthatrandownfromunderherclosedeyelids,andlostthemselvesinthatfinesanduponwhichtheybothwerelyingfacetoface。Thesetearsandthissorrowwereforhimaprofoundanddisquietingmystery。Now,whenthedangerwaspast,whyshouldshegrieve?Hedoubtedherlovenomorethanhewouldhavedoubtedthefactofhisownexistence,butashelaylookingardentlyinherface,watchinghertears,herpartedlips,herverybreath,hewasuneasilyconsciousofsomethinginherhecouldnotunderstand。Doubtlessshehadthewisdomofperfectbeings。Hesighed。Hefeltsomethinginvisiblethatstoodbetweenthem,somethingthatwouldlethimapproachhersofar,butnofarther。Nodesire,nolonging,noeffortofwillorlengthoflifecoulddestroythisvaguefeelingoftheirdifference。Withawebutalsowithgreatprideheconcludedthatitwasherownincomparableperfection。

  Shewashis,andyetshewaslikeawomanfromanotherworld。

  His!His!Heexultedinthegloriousthought;neverthelesshertearspainedhim。

  Withawispofherownhairwhichhetookinhishandwithtimidreverencehetriedinanaccessofclumsytendernesstodrythetearsthattrembledonhereyelashes。Hehadhisrewardinafleetingsmilethatbrightenedherfacefortheshortfractionofasecond,butsoonthetearsfellfasterthanever,andhecouldbearitnomore。HeroseandwalkedtowardsAlmayer,whostillsatabsorbedinhiscontemplationofthesea。Itwasavery,verylongtimesincehehadseenthesea——thatseathatleadseverywhere,bringseverything,andtakesawaysomuch。Hehadalmostforgottenwhyhewasthere,anddreamilyhecouldseeallhispastlifeonthesmoothandboundlesssurfacethatglitteredbeforehiseyes。

  Dain\'shandlaidonAlmayer\'sshoulderrecalledhimwithastartfromsomecountryveryfarawayindeed。Heturnedround,buthiseyesseemedtolookratherattheplacewhereDainstoodthanatthemanhimself。Dainfeltuneasyundertheunconsciousgaze。

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