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  ABookofPoems

  ToW。R。B。

  DedicationAndso,toyou,whoalwayswerePerseus,D’Artagnan,LancelotTome,IgivetheseweedyrhymesInmemoryofearliertimes。

  Nowallthosecarelessdaysarenot。

  Ofallmyheroes,youendure。

  Wordsaresuchsillythings!toorough,Toosmooth,theyboiluporcongeal,Andneitherofuslikesemotion——

  ButIcan’tmeasuremydevotion!

  AndyouknowhowIreallyfeel——

  Andwe’retogether。There,enough,……!

  ForewordbyChaunceyBrewsterTinkerInthesedayswhentheoldcivilisationiscrumblingbeneathourfeet,thethoughtofpoetrycrossesthemindlikethedearmemoryofthingsthathavelongsincepassedaway。Inourpassionatedesireforthenewera,itisdifficulttorefrainoneselffromthecommonplacepracticeofspeculatingontheeffectsofwarfareandofprophesyingallmannerofnovelrebirths。Butitmaybewellforustorememberthattheerawhichhasrecentlyclosedwasitselfmarkedbyamadidealisationofallnovelties。Intheliterarymovementsofthelastdecade——

  when,indeed,anymovementatallhasbeenperceptible——wehavewitnessedabewilderingriseandfallofmethodsandideals。Wewerecaptivatedforatimebythequestofthegoldenphraseandtheaccompanyingcultivationofexoticemotions;andthen,wearyingoftheprettyandthetemperamental,weplungedintothebloodshotbrutalitiesofnaturalism。

  Fromthesmooth-flowingimitationsofTennysonandSwinburne,wepassedintoafalsefreedomthathadatitsheartarepudiationofalllawandstandards,foraparalleltowhichoneturnsinstinctivelytocertainrecentdevelopmentsinthepoliticalworld。Wemayhopethattheeagersearchfornoveltyofformandsubjectmayhaveitsinfluenceinreleasingusfromouroldbondagetothecommonplaceandinbroadeningthescopeofpoetry;butwecannotblindourselvestothefactthatithasatthesametimecompletedthatestrangementbetweenthepoetandthegeneralpublicwhichhasbeendevelopingforhalfacentury。Thegreatmassofthereadingworld,towhomtheartsshouldminister,havenowforgottenthatpoetryisaconsolationintimesofdoubtandperil,abeacon,and\"anever-fixedmark\"inacrazedandshiftingworld。Ourpoetry——

  andIamspeakinginparticularofAmericanpoetry——hasbeencentrifugal;

  ourpoetshavebrokenupintosmallerandeversmallergroups。

  Individualismhastriumphed。

  Tothegeneralconfusion,critics,iftheymaybesaidtohaveexistedatall,haveaddedbytheirpaltryconceptionoftheart。

  Theyhavedeemeditasufficientdenunciationofapoettoaccusehimofimitatinghismasters;asthoughthehistoryofanartwereratheraseriesofviolentrebellionsthanagrowthandaprogressiveillumination。

  Notallgenerationsareprivilegedtoseetheworkingofagreatcreativeimpulse,butthewant,keenthoughitbe,furnishesnoreasonfortheutterrejectionofAtremulousmurmurfromgreatdayslongdead。

  Butthisfearofechoingthepastmayworkusayetgreatermisfortune。

  Intherejectionofthemannerofanearlierepochmaybeimplicitalsotherejectionoftheverysourcesfromwhichspringsthelifeofthefairart。Melody,andaloveofthegreenearth,andayearningforGodareoftheveryfabricofpoetry,denyitwhowill。

  TheMusesstillreignonParnassus,waxtheheathenneversofurious。

  PoetswholovepoetrybetterthantheirownfameinGrubStreetwilldowelltorememberTheflame,thenoblepageantofourlife;

  Theburningsealthatstampsman’shighindentureTovainattemptandmostforlornadventure;

  Romanceandpurpleseas,andtopplingtowns,Andthewind’svaliancecryingo’erthedowns。

  Itisapoorbusinesstofindinsuchwordsonlytheillusionsofyouthandanewenthusiasm。Thedesirefornovelty,thepassionforforceanddirt,andthehankeringafterfreakishnessofmood,whichmanyhaveattemptedtosubstitutefortheolderandsimplerthings,arethemselvesthebestevidenceofdisillusionandjadednerves。Thereisawearinessandadisgustinourrecentimpatiencewithbeautywhichindicatetooclearlytheexhaustionofourspiritualresources。Itmaywellbethattherebirthofpoetryistobemanifestinareappearanceoftheobvious,——

  inaloveoftheseaandofthebeautyofclouds,intheadventureofdeathandtheyetmoreamazingadventureofliving,inavitalloveofcolour,whetheroftheOrientorthedrug-shop,inchildlikeloveofmelody,andthecoolcleansingofrain,instrangefacesandoldmemories。

  This,inthepast,hasbeenpoetry,andthiswillbepoetryagain。

  Thesingerwho,outofafullheart,canoffertotheworldhisvisionofitsbeauty,andoutofanoblemind,hisconceptionofitsdestiny,willbestowuponhistimethemostpreciousgiftwhichwecannowreceive,thegiftofhishealingpower。

  C。B。T。

  ContentsDedicationForewordbyChaunceyBrewsterTinkerI。

  TheDrug-Shop,or,EndymioninEdmonstounII。

  RainafteraVaudevilleShowTheCityRevisitedGoingBacktoSchoolNosImmortalesYoungBloodTheQualityofCourageCampusSonnets:

  1。BeforeanExamination2。Talk3。MayMorning4。Return——1917

  AlexanderVIDineswiththeCardinalofCapuaTheBreakingPointLonelyBurialDinnerinaQuickLunchRoomTheHempPoorDevil!

  GhostsofaLunaticAsylumTheWhitePeacockColorsAMinorPoetTheLoverinHellWingedManMusicTheInnovatorLoveinTwilightTheFiddlingWoodPortraitofaBoyPortraitofaBabyTheGeneralPublicRoadandHillsElegyforanEnemyI。

  TheDrug-Shop,or,EndymioninEdmonstounPrefatoryNote。

  ThispoemreceivedthenineteenthawardoftheprizeofferedbyProfessorAlbertStanburroughCooktoYaleUniversityforthebestunpublishedverse,theCommitteeofAwardconsistingofProfessorsC。F。TuckerBrooke,ofYaleUniversity,RobertFrost,ofAmherstCollege,andCharlesM。Gayley,oftheUniversityofCalifornia。

  I。

  TheDrug-Shop,or,EndymioninEdmonstoun\"Ohyes,IwentovertoEdmonstountheotherdayandsawJohnny,mooningaroundasusual!Hewillnevermakehisway。\"

  LetterofGeorgeKeats,18——

  Nightfalls;thegreatjarsglowagainstthedark,Darkgreen,duskred,and,likeacoilingsnake,Writhingeternallyinsmokygyres,GreatropesofgorgeousvaportwistandturnWithinthem。SotheEasternfishermanSawtheswartgenierisewhentheleadseal,Scribbledwithcharms,wasliftedfromthejar;

  And——well,howwentthetale?Likethis,likethis?……

  Noherbagebrokethebarrenflatsofland,Nowindsdaredloiterwithinsmilingtrees,Norwerethereanybrooksoneitherhand,Onlythedry,brightsand,Nakedandgolden,laybeforetheseas。

  Oneboattoilednoiselesslyalongthedeep,ThethirstyripplesdyingsilentlyUponitstrack。Faroutthebrownnetssweep,AndnightbeginstocreepAcrosstheintolerablemirrorofthesea。

  Twicethenetsrise,a-trailwithsea-plantsbrown,Distortedshells,androcksgreen-mossedwithslime,Noughtelse。Thefisher,sickatheart,kneelsdown;

  \"PrayermayappeaseGod’sfrown,\"

  Hethinks,then,kneeling,castsforthethirdtime。

  Andlo!anearthenjar,boundroundwithbrass,Liestangledinthecordageofhisnet。

  Aboutthebrightwavesgleamlikeshatteredglass,Andwherethesea’srimwasThesundips,flatandred,abouttoset。

  Theprowgratesonthebeach。ThefishermanStoops,tearingatthecordsthatbindtheseal。

  Shallpearlsrollout,lustrousandwhiteandwan?

  Lapis?carnelian?

  Unheard-ofstonesthatmakethesickmindreelWithwonderoftheirbeauty?Rubies,then?

  Greenemeralds,glitteringliketheeyesofbeasts?

  Poisonousopals,goodtomaddenmen?

  Goldbezants,tenandten?

  Hard,regaldiamonds,likekinglyfeasts?

  Hetugged;thesealgaveway。AlittlesmokeCurledlikeafeatherinthedarkeningsky。

  Ablindinggushoffireburst,flamed,andbroke。

  Avoicelikeawindspoke。

  Armoredwithlight,andturbanedterribly,Agenietrampedtheroundearthunderfoot;

  Hisheadsoughtoutthestars,hiscuppedrighthandMadehalftheskyonedarkness。Hewasmute。

  Thesun,aripenedfruit,Droopedlower。Scarleteddiedo’erthesand。

  Thegeniespoke:\"Omiserableone!

  Thyprizeawaitsthee;come,andhugitclose!

  AnoblecrownthydragglednetshavewonForthisthatthouhastdone。

  Blessedarefools!Agiftremainsforthose!\"

  Hishandsoughtouthissword,andlightningsflaredAcrosstheskyinonegreatbloomoffire。

  Poisedlikeatopplingmountain,ithungbared;

  SunsthatwerejewelsglaredAlongitshilt。Theairburntlikeapyre。

  Oncemorethegeniespoke:\"SomethingIoweTothee,thoufool,thoufool。Come,canstthousing?

  Yea?Singthen;ifthysongbebrave,thengoFreeandreleased——orno!

  Findfirstsometask,someovermasteringthingIcannotdo,andfinditspeedily,Forifthoudostnotthoushaltsurelydie!\"

  Theswordwhirledback。Thefishermanuprose,AndifatfirsthisvoicewasweakwithfearAndhislimbstrembled,itwasbutadoze,Andatthehighsong’scloseHestoodupstraight。Hisvoicerangloudandclear。

  TheSong。

  Lastnightthequayswerelighted;

  CressetsofsmokingpineGlaredo’ertheroaringmarinersThatdrinktheyellowwine。

  Theirsongrolledtotherafters,Itstruckthehighstarspale,Suchworthwasintheirdiscourse,Suchwonderintheirtale。

  Blueboragefilledtheclinkingcups,Themurkynightgrewwan,Tillonerose,crownedwithlaurel-leaves,Thatwasanoutlandman。

  \"Come,letusdrinktowar!\"saidhe,\"Thetorchofthesackedtown!

  Theswan’s-bathandthewolf-ships,AndHaraldofrenown!

  \"Yea,whilethemilkwasonhislips,Beforethedaywasborn,HetooktheAlmayneKaiser’sheadTobehisdrinking-horn!

  \"Yea,whilethedownwasonhischin,Oryethisbeardwasgrown,HebrokethegatesofMicklegarth,Andstolethelion-throne!

  \"DrinktoHarald,kingoftheworld,Lordofthetongueandthetroth!

  TothebellowinghornsofOstfriesland,AndthetrumpetsoftheGoth!\"

  Theirshoutsrolledtotherafters,Thedrink-hornscrashedandrang,Andalltheirtalkwasaclangorofwar,Asswordstogethersang!

  Butdimly,throughthedeepnight,Wherestarslikeflowersshone,Apassionateshapecamegliding——

  Isawonethingalone。

  IonlysawmyyoungloveShiningagainstthedark,Thewhitenessofherraiment,Theheadthatbenttohark。

  Ionlysawmyyounglove,Likeflowersinthesun——

  Herhandslikewaxenpetals,Whereyawningpoppiesrun。

  Ionlyfeltthere,chrysmal,Againstmycheekherbreath,Thoughallthewindswerebaying,AndtheskybrightwithDeath。

  Redsparkswhirledupthechimney,Ahungryflaughtofflame,AndaleanmanfromGreecearose;

  Thrasylloswashisname。

  \"Ipraiseallnoblewines!\"hecried,\"Greenrobesoftissuefine,Peacocksandapesandivory,AndHomer’ssea-loudline,\"Statuesandringsandcarvengems,Andthewisecrawlingsea;

  Butmostofallthecrownsofkings,Theruletheywieldthereby!

  \"Power,firedpower,blankandbright!

  Afithiltforthehand!

  Theonegoodswordforafreeman,Whileyetthecoldstarsstand!\"

  Theirshoutsrolledtotherafters,Theairwasthickwithwine。

  Ionlyknewherdeepeyes,Andfeltherhandinmine。

  Softlyasquietwater,Onefingertouchedmycheek;

  Herfacelikegraciousmoonlight——

  Imightnotmovenorspeak。

  Ionlysawthatbeauty,IonlyfeltthatformThere,inthesilkendarkness——

  Godwotmyheartwaswarm!

  Theirshoutsrolledtotherafters,Anotherchiefbegan;

  HisslitlipsshowedhimforaHun;

  Hewasanevilman。

  \"Singtothejoysofwomen!\"heyelled,\"Thehotdelicioustents,Thesoftcouch,andthewhitelimbs;

  Theairasteamofscents!\"

  Hiseyesgleamed,andhewethislips,Theraftersshookwithcheers,Ashesangofwoman,whoisman’sslaveForallunhonoredyears。

  \"Whetherthewantonlaughsamain,Withonewhiteshoulderbare,OrinasackedroomyouunbindSomecrouchingmaiden’shair;

  \"Thisistheonlygoodforman,LikespicesoftheSouth——

  ToseetheglimmeringbodylaidAspasturetohismouth!

  \"Toleavenoleeswithinthecup,Toseeandtakeandrend;

  Tolapagirl’slimbsuplikewine,Andlaugh,knowingtheend!\"

  Only,likelow,stillbreathing,Iheardonevoice,oneword;

  Andhotspeechpoureduponmylips,Asmyhandsheldasword。

  \"Fools,thricefoolsoflust!\"Icried,\"YoureyesareblindtoseeEternalbeauty,movingfar,Moregloriousthanhornsofwar!

  Butthoughmyeyeswereoneblindscar,Thatsightisshowntome!

  \"Younuzzleattheivoryside,Youclaspthegoldenhead;

  Fools,fools,whochatterandsing,Youhavetakenthesignofaterriblething,YouhavedrunkdownGodwithyourbeeswing,Andbrokenthesaintsforbread!

  \"ForGodmovesdarkly,Insilenceandinstorm;

  ButinthebodyofwomanHeshowsoneburningform。

  \"ForGodmovesblindly,Indarknessandindread;

  ButinthebodyofwomanHeraisesupthedead。

  \"Gracileandstraightasbirches,Swiftasthequestingbirds,Theyfilltrue-lovers’drink-hornsup,Whospeaknot,havingnowords。

  \"Loveisnotdelicatetoying,Aslimandshimmeringmesh;

  Itistwosoulswrenchedintoone,Twobodiesmadeoneflesh。

  \"Lustisasprightlyservant,Gallantwherewinesarepoured;

  Loveisabittermaster,Loveisanironlord。

  \"Satineaseofthebody,Fattenedslothofthehands,Theseandtheirlikehewillnotsend,Onlyimmortalfirestorend——

  Andtheworld’sendisyourjourney’send,Andyourstreamchokesinthesands。

  \"Pleachedcalmsshallnotawaityou,Peaceyoushallneverfind;

  NoughtbutthelivingmoorlandScourgednakedbythewind。

  \"Noughtbutthelivingmoorland,Andyourlove’shandinyours;

  Thestrengthmoresurethansurety,Themercythatendures。

  \"Then,thoughtheygiveyoutobeburned,Andslayyoulikeastoat,Youhavefoundtheworld’sheartintheturnofacheek,Heavenintheliftofathroat。

  \"Althoughtheybreakyouonthewheel,Thatstoodsostraightinthesun,Behindyouthetrumpetssplitthesky,Wherethelostandfuriousfightgoesby——

  AndGod,ourGod,willhavevictoryWhenthereddayisdone!\"

  Theirmirthrolledtotherafters,Theybellowedlechery;

  LightasadriftingfeatherMyloveslippedfrommyknee。

  Within,thelightswereyellowIndrowsyroomsandwarm;

  Without,thestabbinglightningShatteredacrossthestorm。

  Within,thegreatlogscrackled,Thedrink-hornsemptiedsoon;

  Without,theblackcloaksofthecloudsStrangledthewaningmoon。

  Mylovecrossedo’erthethreshold——

  God!butthenightwasmurk!

  Isetmyselfagainstthecold,Andleftthemtotheirwork。

  Theirshoutsrolledtotherafters;

  Abittererwaywasmine,AndIlefttheminthetavern,Drinkingtheyellowwine!

  Thelastfaintechoesrangalongtheplains,Died,andweregone。Thegeniespoke:\"ThysongServeswellenough——butyetthytaskremains;

  ManyandrendingpainsShalltorturehimwhodaresdelaytoolong!\"

  Hisbrownfacehardenedtoaleadenmask。

  Abitterbrinecrustedthefisher’scheek——

  \"AlmightyGod,onethingaloneIask,Showmeatask,atask!\"

  Thehardcupoftheskyshone,gemmedandbleak。

  \"Olove,whomIhavesoughtbydeviousways;

  Ohiddenbeauty,nakedasastar;

  Youwhosebrighthairhasburnedacrossmydays,Makingthemlampsofpraise;

  Odawn-wind,breathingofArabia!

  \"YouhaveIserved。Nowfirehasparchedthevine,AndDeathisonthesingersandthesong。

  Nolongeraretherelipstoclingtomine,Andtheheartweariesofwine,AndIamsick,formydesireislong。

  \"Olove,soft-moving,delicateandtender!

  Inhergoldhousethepipecallsquerulously,Theycloudwiththingreensilksherbodyslender,Theytalktoherandtendher;

  Come,piteous,gentlelove,andsetmefree!\"

  Heceased——and,slowlyrisingo’erthedeep,Afaintsongchimed,grewclearer,tillatlastAgoldenhornoflightbegantocreepWherethedumbripplessweep,Makingtheseaonesplendorwhereitpassed。

  Agoldenboat!Thebrightoarsrestedsoon,Andtheprowmetthesand。ThepurpleveilsMistingthecabinfell。FairasthemoonWhenthemorningcomestoosoon,Andalltheairissilverinthedales,Agold-robedprincesssteppeduponthebeach。

  Thefisherkneltandkissedhergarment’shem,Andthenherlips,andstroveatlastforspeech。

  Thewaterslappedthereach。

  \"Herethystrengthbreaks,thymightisnoughttostem!\"

  Hecriedatlast。Speechshookhimlikeaflame:

  \"Yea,thoughthoupluckedthestarsfromoutthesky,Eachlovelyonewouldbeawitheredshame——

  Eachthoucouldstfindorname——

  Tothisfire-heartedbeauty!\"WearilyThegenieheard。AslowsmilecamelikedawnOverhisface。\"Thytaskisdone!\"hesaid。

  Awhirlwindroared,smokeshattered,hewasgone;

  And,likeasuddenhorn,Themoonshoneclear,nolongersmokedandred。

  Theypassedintotheboat。ThegoldoarsbeatLoudly,thenfainter,fainter,tillatlastOnlythequietwatersbarelymovedAlongthewhisperingsand——tillallthevastExpanseofseabegantoshakewithheat,Andmorningbroughtsoftairs,bysailorsloved。

  Andafter?……Well……

  Theshop-bellclangs!Whocomes?

  Quinine——IpourthelittlebittergrainsOutuponblue,glazedsquaresofpaper。So。

  AndalltheduskIshallsitherealone,Withmanypowersinmyhands——ah,seeHowtheblurredlabelsrunontheoldjars!

  Opium——andacruelandsleepyscent,Theharshtasteofwhitepoppies;India——

  Thewrithingwoodsa-crawlwithmonstrouslife,Savewherethedeodarsaresetlikespears,Andacalmpoolismirroredebony;

  Opium——brownandwarmandslender-breastedSherises,shakingoffthecoolblackwater,Andtwistingupherhair,thatripplesdown,Atorrentofblackwater,toherfeet;

  Howthedropssparkleinthemoonlight!OnceImadearhymeaboutit,singingsoftly:

  OverDamascuseverystarKeepshisunchangingcourseandcold,Thedarkweighslikeanironbar,Theintenseandpallidnightisold,Dimthemoon’sscimitar。

  Stillthelampsblazewithinthosehalls,WherepoppiesheapthemarblevatsForgirlstotread;thethickairpalls;

  AndshadowshanglikeevilbatsAboutthescentedwalls。

  Thegirlsaremany,andtheysing;

  Theirwhitefeetfalllikeflakesofsnow,Makingaceaselessmurmuring——

  Whispersoflove,deadlongago,Anddear,forgottenSpring。

  Onealonesingsnot。TiredlySheseesthewhitebloomscrushed,andsmellsTheheavyscent。Theychatter:\"See!

  WhiteZirathinksofnothingelseButthemorn’sjollity——

  \"ThenHarountakesher!\"Butshedreams,Unhearing,ofacertainfieldOfpoppies,cutbymanystreams,LikelinesacrossaroundTurkshield,Wherenowthehotsungleams。

  Thefieldwhereontheywalkedthatday,Andsplendorfilledherbodyup,Andhis;andthenthetrampledclay,Andslowsmokeclimbingthesky’scupFromwherethevillagelay。

  Andafter——muchacheofthewrists,Wherethecordsirkedher——tillshecame,Thepriceofmanyamethysts,Hither。AndnowtheultimateshameBlewtrumpetinthelists。

  Andsoshetrodthepoppiesthere,Rememberingotherpoppies,too,Anddidnotseemtoseeorcare。

  Without,thefirstgraydropsofdewSweetenedthetremblingair。

  Shetrodthepoppies。HourspassedUntilshesleptatlength——andTimeDraggedhisslowsickle。WhenatlastShewoke,themoonshone,brightasrime,Andnight’stiderolledonfast。

  Shemoanedonce,knowingeverything;

  Then,bittererthandeath,shefoundThesofthandmaidens,inaring,Cometoanointher,allaround,Thatshemightpleasetheking。

  Opium——andtheodordiesaway,Leavingtheairyetheavy——cassia——myrrh——

  Bitterandsplendid。See,thepoisonscome,Troopinginsquatgreenvials,blazonedredWithgrinningskulls:strychnine,apalliddustOftinygrains,likebonesgroundfine;andnextThemuddygreenofarsenic,alllivid,Likestthefaceofonelongdead——theycreepAlongthedustyshelflikedeadlybeetles,Whosefangsarecarvedwithrunnels,thatthebloodMayrundowneasilytotheblindmouthThatsnapsandgapes;andhighabovethemthere,Mymaster’spride,acobwebbed,yellowpotOfhoneyfromMountHybla。DothebeesStillmoanamongthelowsweetpurpleclover,Endlesslymany?Stillindeep-hushedwoods,WhentheincrediblesilverofthemoonComeslikealivingwindthroughsleep-bowedbranches,Stillstealdarkshapesfromtheenchantedglens,Whichyetarepurplewithhighdreams,andstillFrontingthatquietandeternalshieldWhichismuchmorethanPeace,doestherestillstandOnesharpblackshadow——andtheshort,smoothhornsAreclearagainstthatdisk?

  OgreatDiana!

  I,Ihavepraisedthee,yetIdonotknowWhatmovesmymindsostrangely,savethatonceIlayallnightuponathymyhill,Andwatchedtheslowcloudspasslikeheaped-upfoamAcrossbluemarble,tillatlastnospeckBlottedtheclearexpanse,andthefullmoonRoseinmuchlight,andallnightlongIsawHerorderedprogress,till,inmidmostheaven,Therecameaterriblesilence,andthemiceCrepttotheirholes,thecricketsdidnotchirp,Allthesmallnight-soundsstopped——andclearpurelightRippledlikesilkovertheuniverse,Mostcoldandbleak;andyetmyheartbeatfast,Waitinguntilthestillnessbroke。IknownotForwhatIwaited——somethingverygreat——

  IdarednotlookuptotheskyforfearAbrittlecracklingshouldclashsuddenlyAgainstthequiet,andablacklinecreepAcrossthesky,andwidenlikeamouth,Untilthebrokenheavensstreamedapart,Liketornlostbanners,andtheimmortalfires,Roaringlikelions,askedtheirmeatfromGod。

  Ilaythere,ablackblotuponashieldOfquivering,waterywhiteness。ThehushheldUntilIstaggeredupandcriedaloud,AndthenitseemedthatsomethingfartoogreatForknowledge,andillimitableasGod,Rentthedarkskylikelightning,andIfell,And,falling,heardawildandrushingwindOfmusic,andsawlightsthatblindedmeWithwhite,impenetrableswords,andfeltApressureofsofthandsuponmylips,Uponmyeyelids——andsincethenIcoughAttimes,andhavestrangethoughtsaboutthestars,Thatsomeday——someday——

  Come,Imustbequick!

  Mymasterwillbebacksoon。LetmelightThinblueArabianpastilles,andsitLikeadeadgodincensedbychantingpriests,Andwatchthepungentsmokewreatheupandup,Untilhecomes——thoughhemayragebecauseTheycostgoodmoney。ThenIshallwalkhomeOverthemoor。AlreadythemoonclimbsAbovetheworld’sedge。BythetimehecomesShewillbefullyrisen。——There’shisstep!

  II。

  Miscellaneous。

  RainafteraVaudevilleShowThelastposeflickered,failed。Thescreen’sdeadwhiteGlaredinasuddenfloodingofharshlightStabbingtheeyes;andasIstumbledoutThecurtainrose。AfatgirlwithapoutAndlegslikehams,begantosing\"HisMother\"。

  Gustsofbadairroseinachokingsmother;

  Smoke,thewetsteamofclothes,thestenchofplush,Powder,cheapperfume,mingledinarush。

  Isteppedintothelobby——andstoodstillStruckdumbbysuddenbeauty,bodyandwill。

  Cleannessandrapture——excellencemadeplain——

  Thestorming,thrashingarrowsoftherain!

  Pouringanddrippingontheroofsandrods,Smellingofwoodsandhillsandfresh-turnedsods,Blackonthesidewalks,grayinthefarsky,Crashingonthirstypanes,onguttersdry,Hurryingthecrowdtoshelter,makingfairThestreets,thehouses,andtheheat-soakedair,——

  Merciful,holy,charging,sweeping,flashing,Itsmotethesoulwithamostironclashing!……

  Likedragons’eyesthestreet-lampssuddenlygleamed,Yellowandroundanddim-lowglobesofflame。

  And,scarce-perceived,theclouds’tallbannersstreamed。

  Outofthepettywars,thedailyshame,Beautystrovesuddenly,androse,andflowered……

  Igrippedmycoatandplungedwhereawningslowered。

  Madeonewithhissingblackness,caught,embraced,Bysplendorandbystrivingandswifthaste——

  Springcominginwiththunderingsandstrife——

  Istampedthegroundinthestrongjoyoflife!

  TheCityRevisitedThegreygullsdriftacrossthebaySoftlyandstillasflakesofsnowAgainstthethinningfog。AlldayIsatandwatchedthemcomeandgo;

  Andnowatlastthesunwasset,FillingthewaveswithcoloredfireTilleachseemedlikeajewelledspireThrustupfromsomedrownedcity。SoonFrompeakandcliffandminaretThecity’slightsbegantowink,Eachlikeafriendlyword。ThemoonBegantobroadenouthershield,Spurtingwithsilver。StraightbeforeThebrownhillslaylikequietbeastsStretchedoutbesideawell-loveddoor,AndfillingearthandskyandfieldWiththecalmheavingoftheirbreasts。

  Nothingwasgone,nothingwaschanged,ThesmallestwavewasunestrangedByallthelongacheoftheyearsSincelastIsawthem,blindwithtears。

  Theirwelcomelikethehillsstoodfast:

  AndI,Ihadcomehomeatlast。

  SoIlaughedoutwiththemaloudTothinkthatnowthesunwasbroad,Andclimbinguptheironsky,WheretherawstreetsstretchedsullenlyAboutanotherroomIknew,Inameanhouse——andsoonthere,too,ThesmithwouldbursttheflimsydoorAndfindmelyingonthefloor。

  JustwhereIfelltheothernight,Afterthatbreakingwaveofpain。——

  Howtheywillstormandrageandfight,Servantsandmistress,oneandall,\"Nomoneyforthefuneral!\"

  Ibrokemylifethere。LetitstandAtthat。

  Thewatersareaplain,Heavingandbrightoneitherhand,AtremulousandlustralpeaceWhichshallendurethoughallthingscease,FillingmyheartaswaterfillsAcup。Therestandthequiethills。

  So,waitingformywingstogrow,Iwatchthegullssailtoandfro,Risingandfalling,softandswift,Driftingalongasbubblesdrift。

  And,thoughIseethefaceofGodHereafter——thisdayhaveItrodNearertoHimthanIshalltreadEveragain。Thenightisdead。

  Andthere’sthedawn,pouredoutlikewineAlongthedimhorizon-line。

  Andfromthecitycomesthechimes——

  Wehaveourheavenonearth——sometimes!

  GoingBacktoSchoolTheboatploughedon。NowAlcatrazwaspastAndallthegreywavesflamedtoredagainAtthedeadsun’slastglimmer。FarandvastTheSausalitolightsburnedsuddenlyInlittledotsandclumps,asifapenHadscrawledvaguelinesofgoldacrossthehills;

  Theskywaslikeacupsomerarewinefills,Andstarscameashewatched——andhewasfreeOnesplendidinstant——backinthegreatroom,CurledinachairwithallofthembesideAndthewholeworldarushofhappyvoices,Withlaughterbeatinginaclamoroustide……

  SawonceagaintheheatofharvestfumeUptotheemptyskyinthreadslikeglass,Andran,andwasapartofwhatrejoicesInthunderousnightsofrain;layinthegrassSun-bakedandtired,lookingthroughamazeOftinystemsintoanewgreenworld;

  Oncemoreknewevesofperfume,daysablazeWithclear,dryheatonthebrown,rollingfields;

  ShudderedwithfearfulecstasyinbedOverabookofknightsandbloodyshields……

  Theshipslowed,jarredandstopped。There,straightahead,Weredockandfellows。Stumbling,hewaswhirledOutandawaytomeetthem——andhisbackSlumpedtotheoldhalf-cringe,hishandsfellslack;

  Abigboy’sarmwentroundhim——andatwistSentshatteringpainalonghistorturedwrist,Asavoicecried,abloatedvoiceandfat,\"Whyit’sMissNancy!Comealong,yourat!\"

  NosImmortalesPerhapswegowithwindandcloudandsun,Intothefreecompanionshipofair;

  Perhapswithsunsetswhenthedayisdone,All’sonetome——Idonotgreatlycare;

  Solongastherearebrownhills——andatreeLikeamadprophetinalandofdearth——

  AndIcanlieandheareternallyThevastmonotonousbreathingoftheearth。

  Ihaveknownhours,slowandgolden-glowing,Lovelywithlaughterandsuffusedwithlight,OLord,insuchatimeappointmygoing,Whenthehandsclench,andthecoldfacegrowswhite,Andthesparkdieswithinthefeeblebrain,Spillingitsstar-dustbacktodustagain。

  YoungBlood\"But,sir,\"Isaid,\"theytellmethemanisliketodie!\"

  TheCanonshookhisheadindulgently。\"Youngblood,Cousin,\"heboomed。

  \"Youngblood!Youthwillbeserved!\"——D’Hermonville’sFabliaux。

  HewokeupwithasicktasteinhismouthAndlaythereheavily,whiledancingmotesWhirledthroughhisbraininendless,ripplingstreams,AndagreymistweigheddownuponhiseyesSothattheycouldnotopenfully。YetAftersometimehisblurredmindstumbledbackToitslastraggedmemory——aroom;

  Airfoulwithwine;ashouting,reelingcrowdOffriendswhodraggedhim,dazedandblindwithdrinkOuttothestreet;acrazyroutofcabs;

  Thesteadymutterofhisneighbor’svoice,Mumblingoutdullobscenitybyrote;

  Andthen……well,theyhadbroughthimhomeitseemed,Sinceheawokeinbed——oh,damnthebusiness!

  Hehadnotwantedit——thesillyjokes,\"Onelast,greatnightoffreedomereyou’remarried!\"

  \"You’llgetnofunthen!\"\"H-ssh,don’ttellthatstory!

  He’llhaveawifesoon!\"——God!thesittingdownTodrinktillyouweresodden!……

  LikegreatlightShecameintohisthoughts。Thatwastheworst。

  TowallowinthemudlikethisbecauseHisfriendswerefools……Hewasnotfittotouch,Tosee,ohfar,faroff,thatsilverplaceWhereGodstoodmanifesttomaninher……

  Foulinghimself……Onethinghebroughttoher,Atleast。Hehadbeenclean;hadtakenitAkindofpointofhonorfromthefirst……

  Othersmightdoit……buthedidn’tcareForthosethings……

  Suddenlyhisvisioncleared。

  Andsomethingseemedtogrowwithinhismind……

  Somethingwaswrong——thecolorofthewall——

  Thequeershapeofthebedposts——everythingWaschanged,somehow……hisroom。Wasthishisroom?……Heturnedhishead——andsawbesidehimthereThesaggingbody’sslope,thepaint-smearedface,Andtheloose,openmouth,laxandawry,Thebreasts,thebleachedandbrittlehair……thesethings……AsifallHellwerecrushedtoonebrightlineOflightningforamoment。Thenhesank,Pronebeneathanintolerableweight。

  Andbitterloathingcreptupallhislimbs。

  TheQualityofCourageBlacktreesagainstanorangesky,Treesthatthewindshookterribly,Likeaharshspumealongtheroad,Quaveringuplikewitheredarms,Writhinglikestreams,liketwistedcharmsOfhotleadflunginsnow。BelowTheironicestunglikeagoad,Slashingthetornshoesfrommyfeet,Andalltheairwasbittersleet。

  Andallthelandwascrampedwithsnow,Steel-strongandfierceandglimmeringwan,Likepaleplainsofobsidian。

  ——AndyetIstrove——andIwasfireAndice——andfireandicewereoneInonevasthungerofdesire。

  Adimdesire,ofpleasantplaces,Andlushfieldsinthesummersun,Andlogsaflame,andwalls,andfaces,——Andwine,andoldambrosialtalk,Agoldenballinfountainsdancing,Andunforgottenhands。(Ah,God,ItrodthemdownwhereIhavetrod,Andtheyremain,andtheyremain,Etchedinunutterablepain,Lovedlipsandfacesnowapart,Thatoncewerecloserthanmyheart——

  Inagony,inagony,Andhorriblyapartofme……

  ForLetheisfornomanset,AndinHellmaynomanforget。)

  Andtherewereflowers,andjugs,bright-glancing,AndoldItalianswords——andlooks,Amoment’sglanceoffire,offire,Spiring,leaping,flaminghigher,Intotheintense,thecloudlessblue,Untiltwosoulswereone,andflame,Andveryflesh,andyetthesame!

  AsifallspringswerecrushedanewIntooneglobeddropofdew!

  ButforthemostIthoughtofheat,Desiringgreatly……HotwhitesandThelazybodyliesatrestin,Orsun-dried,scentedgrasstonestin,Andfires,innumerablefires,GreatfagotshurlinggoldengyresOfsparksfarup,andtheredheartInsea-coals,crashingastheypartTotinyflares,andkindlingsnapping,BunchedsticksthatbursttheirstringandwrappingAndfalllikejackstraws;greenandblueTheevilflamesofdriftwoodtoo,Andheavy,sullenlumpsofcokeWithstill,fierceheatanduglysmoke……Andthenthevisionofhisface,Andtheirs,alltheirs,camelikeasword,Thrice,totheheart——andasIfellIthoughtIsawalightbefore。

  Iwoke。Myhandswereblueandsore,Tornontheice。IscarcelyfeltThefrozensleetbegintomeltUponmyfaceasIbreatheddeeper,Butlaytherewarmly,likeasleeperWhoshiftshisarmonce,andmoanslow,Andthensinksbacktonight。Slow,slow,AndstillasDeath,cameSleepandDeathAndlookedatmewithquietbreath。

  Unbendingfigures,blackandstarkAgainsttheintensedeepsofthedark。

  Tallandliketrees。LikesweetandfireRestcreptandcreptalongmyveins,Gently。Andtherewerenomorepains……

  Wasitnotbettersotolie?

  Thefightwasdone。EvengodstireOffighting……Mywaywasthewrong。

  NowIshoulddriftanddriftalongToendlessquiet,goldenpeace……

  Andletthetorturedbodycease。

  Andthenalightwinkedlikeaneye……AndverymanymilesawayAgirlstoodatawarm,litdoor,Holdingalamp。RayuponrayItcloakedthesnowwithperfectlight。

  AndwhereshewastherewasnonightNorcouldbe,ever。Godissure,Andinhishandsarethingssecure。

  ItisnotgivenmetotraceThelovelylaughterofthatface,Likeaclearbrookmostfulloflight,Orolivesswayingonaheight,Sosilvertheyhavewings,almost;

  LikeagreatwordonceknownandlostAndmeaningallthings。NorhervoiceAhappysoundwherelarksrejoice,Herbody,thatgreatloveliness,Thetenderfashionofherdress,Imaynotpaintthem。

  TheseIsee,Blazingthroughalleternity,Afire-wingedsign,aglorioustree!

  Shestoodthere,andatonceIknewThebitterthingthatImustdo。

  Therecouldbenosurrendernow;

  ThoughSleepandDeathwerewhisperinglow。

  Mywaywaswrong。So。WoulditmendIfIshrankbackbeforetheend?

  Andsanktodeathandcowardice?

  No,thelastleesmustbedrainedup,Basewinefromanignoblecup;

  (YetnotsobaseassleekcontentWhenIhadshrunkfrompunishment)

  Thewretchedbodystrainanew!

  Lifewasastormtowanderthrough。

  Itookthewrongway。Goodandwell,AtleastmyfeetsoughtoutnotHell!

  ThoughnightwereoneconsumingflameImustgoonformybaseaim,Andso,perhaps,makeevilgrowTosomethingcleanbyagony……

  Andreachthatlightuponthesnow……

  Andtouchherdressatlast……

  So,so,Icrawled。IcouldnotspeakorseeSavedimly。Theiceglaredlikefire,AlongbrightHellofchokingcold,Andeachveinwasatautenedwire,Throbbingwithtorture——andIcrawled。

  Myhandswerewounds。

  SoIattainedThesecondHell。ThesnowwasstainedIthought,andshookmyheadatitHowreditwas!Blacktree-rootsclutchedAndtore——andsoonthesnowwassmutchedAnew;andIlurchedbabblingon,Andthenfelldowntorestabit,AndcameuponanotherHell……

  Loosestonesthaticemadeterrible,Thatrolledandgashedmenastheyfell。

  Istumbled,slipped……andallwasgoneThatIhadgained。OncemoreIlayBeforethelongbrightHellofice。

  Andstillthelightwasfaraway。

  TherewasredmistbeforemyeyesOrIcouldtellyouhowIwentAcrosstheswayingfirmament,Aglitteringtortureofcoldstars,AndhowIfoughtinTitanwars……

  Anddied……andlivedagainuponTherack……andhowthehorsesstrainWhentheirredtaskisnearlydone……

  IonlyknowthattherewasPain,InfiniteandeternalPain。

  AndthatIfell——androseagain。

  Soshewaswalkingintheroad。

  AndIstooduprightlikeaman,Once,andfellblind,andheardhercry……

  Andthentherecamelongagony。

  TherewasnopainwhenIawoke,Nopainatall。Rest,likeagoad,Spurredmyeyesopen——andlightbrokeUponthemlikeamillionswords:

  Andshewasthere。Therearenowords。

  Heavenisforamoment’sspan。

  Andever。

  SoIspokeandsaid,\"Myhonorstandsupunbetrayed,AndIhaveseenyou。Dear……\"

  SharppainClosedlikeacloak……

  Imoanedanddied。

  Here,evenhere,thesethingsremain。

  Ishalldrawnearertoherside。

  Ohdearandlaughing,losttome,HiddeningreyEternity,Ishallattain,withburningfeet,Toyouandtothemercy-seat!

  Theagescrumbledownlikedust,Darkroses,deviouslythrustAndscatteredinsweetwine——butI,Ishallliftuptoyoumycry,AndkissyourwetlipspresentlyBeneaththeever-livingTree。

  ThisinmyheartIkeepforgoad!

  Somewhere,inHeavenshewalksthatroad。

  Somewhere……inHeaven……shewalks……that……road……

  CampusSonnets:

  1。BeforeanExaminationThelittlelettersdanceacrossthepage,Flauntandretire,andtrickthetiredeyes;

  Sickofthestrain,theglaringlight,IriseYawningandstretching,fullofemptyrageAtthedullmaunderingsofalongdeadsage,Flingupthewindows,flingasidehislies;

  Choosingtobreathe,notstifleandbewise,Andlettheairpourinuponmycage。

  ThebreezeblowscoolandtherearestarsandstarsBeyondthedark,softmassesoftheelmsThatwhisperthingsinwindytonesandlight。

  Theyseemtowheelfordim,celestialwars;

  AndI——IheartheclashofsilverhelmsRingicy-clearfromthefardeepsofnight。

  2。TalkTobaccosmokedriftsuptothedimceilingFromhalfadozenpipesandcigarettes,Curlinginendlessshapes,inblueringswheeling,Asformlessasourtalk。Phil,drawling,betsCornellwillwintherelayinawalk,WhileBobandMacdiscusstheGiants’chances;

  Deepinamorris-chair,Billscowlsat\"Falk\",Johngiveslargeviewsaboutthelastfewdances。

  Andsoitgoes——anidlespeechandaimless,Afewchancephrases;yetIseebehindTheemptywordsthegleamofabeautytameless,Friendshipandpeaceandfiretostrikemenblind,Tillthewholeworldseemssmallandbrighttohold——

  Ofallouryouththishourispuregold。

  3。MayMorningIliestretchedoutuponthewindow-seatAnddoze,andreadapageortwo,anddoze,Andfeeltheairlikewateronmeclose,GreatwavesofsunnyairthatlipandbeatWithasmallnoise,monotonousandsweet,Againstthewindow——andthescentofcool,Frailflowersbysomebrownanddew-drenchedpoolPossessesmefromdrowsyheadtofeet。

  Thisisthetimeofall-sufficinglaughterAtidioticthingssomeonehasdone,Andthereisneitherpastnorvaguehereafter。

  AndallyourbodystretchesinthesunAnddrinksthelightinlikealiquidthing;

  Filledwiththedivinelanguoroflatespring。

  4。Return——1917

  \"TheCollegewillreopenSept。——。\"`Catalogue’。

  IwasjustaimingatthejaggedholeTornintheyellowsandbagsoftheirtrench,Whensomethingthrewmesidewayswithawrench,AndtheskiesseemedtoshrivellikeascrollAnddisappear……andproppedagainsttheboleOfabigelmIlay,andwatchedthecloudsFloatthroughtheblue,deepskyinspecklesscrowds,AndIwascleanagain,andyoung,andwhole。

  Lord,whatadreamthatwas!AndwhatadozeWaitingforBilltocomealongtoclass!

  I’vecutitnow——andhe——Oh,hello,Fred!

  Why,what’sthematter?——here——don’tbeanass,Sitdownandtellme!——Whatdoyousuppose?

  IdreamedI……AMI……wounded?\"YOUAREDEAD。\"

  AlexanderVIDineswiththeCardinalofCapuaNext,then,thepeacock,giltWithallitsfeathers。Look,whatgorgeousdyesFlowintheeyes!

  Andhowdeep,lustrousgreensaresplashedandspiltAlongtheback,thatlikeasea-wave’screstScatterssoftbeautyo’erth’emblazonedbreast!

  Astrangefowl!ButmostfitForfeastslikethis,wherebyIhonoronePureasthesun!

  Yetglowingwiththefieryzealofit!

  Somewine?Yourgoblet’sempty?Letitfoam!

  ItisnotoftenthatyoucometoRome!

  YouliketheVeniceglass?

  Rippledwithlinesthatfloatlikewomen’scurls,Necklikeagirl’s,Fierce-glowingasachaliceintheMass?

  Youstart——’twasartistthen,notPopewhospoke!

  AveMariastella!——ah,itbroke!

  ’TissaidtheybreakaloneWhenpoisonwritheswithin。Afoolishtale!

  What,youlookpale?

  Caraffa,fetchasilvercup!……YouownABirthofVenus,now——orsoI’veheard,Lovelyasthebreast-plumageofabird。

  AlsoaDancingFaun,HewnwiththelithegraceofPraxiteles;

  GlobedpearlstopleaseAsultan;goldenveilsthatdroplikelawn——

  HowhappyIcouldbewithbutatitheOfyourpossessions,fortunateone!Don’twritheButtakethesecushionshere!

  Nowforthefruit!Greatpeaches,satin-skinned,Roughtamarind,Pomegranatesredaslips——ohtheycomedear!

  Butmenlikeyouwefeastatanyprice——

  Aplumperhaps?They’relookingrathernice!

  I’llcutthethinginhalf。

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