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  TheunfailingRansomelightedthebinnacle-

  lampsandglided,allshadowy,uptome。

  \"Willyougodownandtrytoeatsomething,sir?\"hesuggested。

  Hislowvoicestartledme。Ihadbeenstandinglookingoutovertherail,sayingnothing,feelingnothing,noteventhewearinessofmylimbs,over-

  comebytheevilspell。

  \"Ransome,\"Iaskedabruptly,\"howlonghaveI

  beenondeck?Iamlosingthenotionoftime。\"

  \"Twelvedays,sir,\"hesaid,\"andit’sjustafortnightsincewelefttheanchorage。\"

  Hisequablevoicesoundedmournfulsomehow。

  Hewaitedabit,thenadded:\"It’sthefirsttimethatitlooksasifweweretohavesomerain。\"

  Inoticedthenthebroadshadowonthehorizon,extinguishingthelowstarscompletely,whilethoseoverhead,whenIlookedup,seemedtoshinedownonusthroughaveilofsmoke。

  Howitgotthere,howithadcreptupsohigh,I

  couldn’tsay。Ithadanominousappearance。Theairdidnotstir。AtarenewedinvitationfromRansomeIdidgodownintothecabinto——inhisownwords——\"tryandeatsomething。\"Idon’tknowthatthetrialwasverysuccessful。Isup-

  poseatthatperiodIdidexistonfoodintheusualway;butthememoryisnowthatinthosedayslifewassustainedoninvincibleanguish,asasortofinfernalstimulantexcitingandconsumingatthesametime。

  It’stheonlyperiodofmylifeinwhichIat-

  temptedtokeepadiary。No,nottheonlyone。

  Yearslater,inconditionsofmoralisolation,Ididputdownonpaperthethoughtsandeventsofascoreofdays。Butthiswasthefirsttime。Idon’trememberhowitcameaboutorhowthepocket-

  bookandthepencilcameintomyhands。It’sin-

  conceivablethatIshouldhavelookedforthemonpurpose。Isupposetheysavedmefromthecrazytrickoftalkingtomyself。

  Strangelyenough,inbothcasesItooktothatsortofthingincircumstancesinwhichIdidnotex-

  pect,incolloquialphrase,\"tocomeoutofit。\"

  NeithercouldIexpecttherecordtooutlastme。

  Thisshowsthatitwaspurelyapersonalneedforintimatereliefandnotacallofegotism。

  HereImustgiveanothersampleofit,afewde-

  tachedlines,nowlookingveryghostlytomyowneyes,outofthepartscribbledthatveryevening:

  ***

  \"Thereissomethinggoingonintheskylikeadecomposition;likeacorruptionoftheair,whichremainsasstillasever。Afterall,mereclouds,whichmayormaynotholdwindorrain。

  Strangethatitshouldtroublemeso。Ifeelasifallmysinshadfoundmeout。ButIsupposethetroubleisthattheshipisstilllyingmotionless,notundercommand;andthatIhavenothingtodotokeepmyimaginationfromrunningwildamongstthedisastrousimagesoftheworstthatmaybefallus。What’sgoingtohappen?Probablynothing。

  Oranything。Itmaybeafurioussquallcoming,buttendforemost。Andondecktherearefivemenwiththevitalityandthestrength,ofsay,two。

  Wemayhavealloursailsblownaway。EverystitchofcanvashasbeenonhersincewebrokegroundatthemouthoftheMei-nam,fifteendaysago……orfifteencenturies。Itseemstomethatallmylifebeforethatmomentousdayisin-

  finitelyremote,afadingmemoryoflight-heartedyouth,somethingontheothersideofashadow。

  Yes,sailsmayverywellbeblownaway。Andthatwouldbelikeadeathsentenceonthemen。Wehaven’tstrengthenoughonboardtobendanothersuit;incrediblethought,butitistrue。Orwemayevengetdismasted。Shipshavebeendismastedinsquallssimplybecausetheyweren’thandledquickenough,andwehavenopowertowhirltheyardsaround。It’slikebeingboundhandandfootpre-

  paratorytohavingone’sthroatcut。AndwhatappalsmemostofallisthatIshrinkfromgoingondecktofaceit。It’sduetotheship,it’sduetothemenwhoarethereondeck——someofthem,readytoputoutthelastremnantoftheirstrengthatawordfromme。AndIamshrinkingfromit。Fromthemerevision。Myfirstcommand。NowI

  understandthatstrangesenseofinsecurityinmypast。IalwayssuspectedthatImightbenogood。

  Andhereisproofpositive。Iamshirkingit。I

  amnogood。\"

  ***

  Atthatmoment,or,perhaps,themomentafter,IbecameawareofRansomestandinginthecabin。

  Somethinginhisexpressionstartledme。IthadameaningwhichIcouldnotmakeout。Iexclaimed:

  \"Somebody’sdead。\"

  Itwashisturnthentolookstartled。

  \"Dead?NotthatIknowof,sir。Ihavebeenintheforecastleonlytenminutesagoandtherewasnodeadmantherethen。\"

  \"Youdidgivemeascare,\"Isaid。

  Hisvoicewasextremelypleasanttolistento。

  HeexplainedthathehadcomedownbelowtocloseMr。Burns’portincaseitshouldcomeontorain。

  \"HedidnotknowthatIwasinthecabin,\"headded。

  \"Howdoesitlookoutside?\"Iaskedhim。

  \"Veryblack,indeed,sir。Thereissomethinginitforcertain。\"

  \"Inwhatquarter?\"

  \"Allround,sir。\"

  Irepeatedidly:\"Allround。Forcertain,\"withmyelbowsonthetable。

  Ransomelingeredinthecabinasifhehadsome-

  thingtodothere,buthesitatedaboutdoingit。I

  saidsuddenly:

  \"YouthinkIoughttobeondeck?\"

  Heansweredatoncebutwithoutanyparticularemphasisoraccent:\"Ido,sir。\"

  Igottomyfeetbriskly,andhemadewayformetogoout。AsIpassedthroughthelobbyIheardMr。Burns’voicesaying:

  \"Shutthedoorofmyroom,willyou,steward?\"

  AndRansome’srathersurprised:\"Certainly,sir。\"

  Ithoughtthatallmyfeelingshadbeendulledintocompleteindifference。ButIfounditastry-

  ingasevertobeondeck。Theimpenetrableblack-

  nessbesettheshipsoclosethatitseemedthatbythrustingone’shandoverthesideonecouldtouchsomeunearthlysubstance。Therewasinitaneffectofinconceivableterrorandofinexpressiblemystery。Thefewstarsoverheadshedadimlightupontheshipalone,withnogleamsofanykinduponthewater,indetachedshaftspiercinganat-

  mospherewhichhadturnedtosoot。Itwassome-

  thingIhadneverseenbefore,givingnohintofthedirectionfromwhichanychangewouldcome,theclosinginofamenacefromallsides。

  Therewasstillnomanatthehelm。Theim-

  mobilityofallthingswasperfect。Iftheairhadturnedblack,thesea,forallIknew,mighthaveturnedsolid。Itwasnogoodlookinginanydi-

  rection,watchingforanysign,speculatinguponthenearnessofthemoment。Whenthetimecametheblacknesswouldoverwhelmsilentlythebitofstarlightfallingupontheship,andtheendofallthingswouldcomewithoutasigh,stir,ormurmurofanykind,andallourheartswouldceasetobeatlikerun-downclocks。

  Itwasimpossibletoshakeoffthatsenseoffinality。Thequietnessthatcameovermewaslikeaforetasteofannihilation。Itgavemeasortofcomfort,asthoughmysoulhadbecomesuddenlyreconciledtoaneternityofblindstillness。

  Theseaman’sinstinctalonesurvivedwholeinmymoraldissolution。Idescendedtheladdertothequarter-deck。Thestarlightseemedtodieoutbeforereachingthatspot,butwhenIaskedquietly:\"Areyouthere,men?\"myeyesmadeoutshadowformsstartinguparoundme,veryfew,veryindistinct;andavoicespoke:\"Allhere,sir。\"

  Anotheramendedanxiously:

  \"Allthatareanygoodforanything,sir。\"

  Bothvoiceswereveryquietandunringing;with-

  outanyspecialcharacterofreadinessordiscour-

  agement。Verymatter-of-factvoices。

  \"Wemusttrytohaulthismainsailcloseup,\"Isaid。

  Theshadowsswayedawayfrommewithoutaword。Thosemenweretheghostsofthemselves,andtheirweightonaropecouldbenomorethantheweightofabunchofghosts。Indeed,ifeverasailwashauledupbysheerspiritualstrengthitmusthavebeenthatsail,for,properlyspeaking,therewasnotmuscleenoughforthetaskinthewholeshipletalonethemiserablelotofusondeck。

  Ofcourse,Itooktheleadintheworkmyself。

  Theywanderedfeeblyaftermefromropetorope,stumblingandpanting。TheytoiledlikeTitans。

  Wewerehalf-an-houratitatleast,andallthetimetheblackuniversemadenosound。Whenthelastleech-linewasmadefast,myeyes,accustomedtothedarkness,madeouttheshapesofexhaustedmendroopingovertherails,collapsedonhatches。

  Onehungovertheafter-capstan,sobbingforbreath,andIstoodamongstthemlikeatowerofstrength,impervioustodiseaseandfeelingonlythesicknessofmysoul。Iwaitedforsometimefight-

  ingagainsttheweightofmysins,againstmysenseofunworthiness,andthenIsaid:

  \"Now,men,we’llgoaftandsquarethemainyard。

  That’saboutallwecandofortheship;andfortherestshemusttakeherchance。\"

  part2-6

  ChapterVI

  ASWEallwentupitoccurredtomethatthereoughttobeamanatthehelm。Iraisedmyvoicenotmuchaboveawhisper,and,noiselessly,anun-

  complainingspiritinafever-wastedbodyappearedinthelightaft,theheadwithholloweyesillumi-

  natedagainsttheblacknesswhichhadswallowedupourworld——andtheuniverse。Thebaredfore-

  armextendedovertheupperspokesseemedtoshinewithalightofitsown。

  Imurmuredtothatluminousappearance:

  \"Keepthehelmrightamidships。\"

  Itansweredinatoneofpatientsuffering:

  \"Rightamidships,sir。\"

  ThenIdescendedtothequarter-deck。Itwasimpossibletotellwhencetheblowwouldcome。Tolookroundtheshipwastolookintoabottomless,blackpit。Theeyelostitselfininconceivabledepths。

  Iwantedtoascertainwhethertheropeshadbeenpickedupoffthedeck。Onecouldonlydothatbyfeelingwithone’sfeet。InmycautiousprogressI

  cameagainstamaninwhomIrecognizedRansome。Hepossessedanunimpairedphysicalsoliditywhichwasmanifesttomeatthecontact。

  Hewasleaningagainstthequarter-deckcapstanandkeptsilent。Itwaslikearevelation。HewasthecollapsedfiguresobbingforbreathIhadno-

  ticedbeforewewentonthepoop。

  \"Youhavebeenhelpingwiththemainsail!\"I

  exclaimedinalowtone。

  \"Yes,sir,\"soundedhisquietvoice。

  \"Man!Whatwereyouthinkingof?Youmustn’tdothatsortofthing。\"

  Afterapauseheassented:\"IsupposeI

  mustn’t。\"Thenafteranothershortsilenceheadded:\"Iamallrightnow,\"quickly,betweenthetell-talegasps。

  Icouldneitherhearnorseeanybodyelse;butwhenIspokeup,answeringsadmurmursfilledthequarter-deck,anditsshadowsseemedtoshifthereandthere。Iorderedallthehalyardslaiddownondeckclearforrunning。

  \"I’llseetothat,sir,\"volunteeredRansomeinhisnatural,pleasanttone,whichcomfortedoneandarousedone’scompassion,too,somehow。

  Thatmanoughttohavebeeninhisbed,resting,andmyplaindutywastosendhimthere。Butperhapshewouldnothaveobeyedme;Ihadnotthestrengthofmindtotry。AllIsaidwas:

  \"Goaboutitquietly,Ransome。\"

  ReturningonthepoopIapproachedGambril。

  Hisface,setwithhollowshadowsinthelight,lookedawful,finallysilenced。Iaskedhimhowhefelt,buthardlyexpectedananswer。There-

  fore,Iwasastonishedathiscomparativeloquac-

  ity。

  \"Themshakesleavesmeasweakasakitten,sir,\"hesaid,preservingfinelythatairofuncon-

  sciousnessastoanythingbuthisbusinessahelms-

  manshouldneverlose。\"AndbeforeIcanpickupmystrengththattherehotfitcomesalongandknocksmeoveragain。\"

  Hesighed。Therewasnoreproachinhistone,butthebarewordswereenoughtogivemeahor-

  riblepangofself-reproach。Itheldmedumbforatime。WhenthetormentingsensationhadpassedoffIasked:

  \"Doyoufeelstrongenoughtopreventtherud-

  dertakingchargeifshegetssternwayonher?Itwouldn’tdotogetsomethingsmashedaboutthesteering-gearnow。We’veenoughdifficultiestocopewithasitis。\"

  Heansweredwithjustashadeofwearinessthathewasstrongenoughtohangon。Hecouldpromisemethatsheshouldn’ttakethewheeloutofhishands。Morehecouldn’tsay。

  AtthatmomentRansomeappearedquiteclosetome,steppingoutofthedarknessintovisibilitysuddenly,asifjustcreatedwithhiscomposedfaceandpleasantvoice。

  Everyropeondeck,hesaid,waslaiddownclearforrunning,asfarasonecouldmakecertainbyfeeling。Itwasimpossibletoseeanything。

  Frenchyhadstationedhimselfforward。Hesaidhehadajumportwoleftinhimyet。

  Hereafaintsmilealteredforaninstanttheclear,firmdesignofRansome’slips。Withhisseriousclear,grayeyes,hisserenetemperament——

  hewasapricelessmanaltogether。Soulasfirmasthemusclesofhisbody。

  Hewastheonlymanonboard(exceptme,butI

  hadtopreservemylibertyofmovement)whohadasufficiencyofmuscularstrengthtotrustto。ForamomentIthoughtIhadbetteraskhimtotakethewheel。Butthedreadfulknowledgeoftheenemyhehadtocarryabouthimmademehesi-

  tate。Inmyignoranceofphysiologyitoccurredtomethathemightdiesuddenly,fromexcitement,atacriticalmoment。

  Whilethisgruesomefearrestrainedthereadywordsonthetipofmytongue,Ransomesteppedbacktwopacesandvanishedfrommysight。

  Atonceanuneasinesspossessedme,asifsomesupporthadbeenwithdrawn。Imovedforward,too,outsidethecircleoflight,intothedarknessthatstoodinfrontofmelikeawall。InonestrideIpenetratedit。Suchmusthavebeenthedark-

  nessbeforecreation。Ithadclosedbehindme。I

  knewIwasinvisibletothemanatthehelm。

  NeithercouldIseeanything。Hewasalone,Iwasalone,everymanwasalonewherehestood。Andeveryformwasgone,too,spar,sail,fittings,rails;

  everythingwasblottedoutinthedreadfulsmooth-

  nessofthatabsolutenight。

  Aflashoflightningwouldhavebeenarelief——I

  meanphysically。Iwouldhaveprayedforitifithadn’tbeenformyshrinkingapprehensionofthethunder。InthetensionofsilenceIwassufferingfromitseemedtomethatthefirstcrashmustturnmeintodust。

  Andthunderwas,mostlikely,whatwouldhap-

  pennext。Stiffalloverandhardlybreathing,Iwaitedwithahorriblystrainedexpectation。

  Nothinghappened。Itwasmaddening,butadull,growingacheinthelowerpartofmyfacemademeawarethatIhadbeengrindingmyteethmadlyenough,forGodknowshowlong。

  It’sextraordinaryIshouldnothaveheardmy-

  selfdoingit;butIhadn’t。ByaneffortwhichabsorbedallmyfacultiesImanagedtokeepmyjawstill。Itrequiredmuchattention,andwhilethusengagedIbecamebotheredbycurious,ir-

  regularsoundsoffainttappingonthedeck。Theycouldbeheardsingle,inpairs,ingroups。WhileIwonderedatthismysteriousdevilry,Ireceivedaslightblowunderthelefteyeandfeltanenor-

  moustearrundownmycheek。Raindrops。

  Enormous。Forerunnersofsomething。

  Tap。Tap。Tap……

  Iturnedabout,and,addressingGambrelearnestly,entreatedhimto\"hangontothewheel。\"

  ButIcouldhardlyspeakfromemotion。Thefatalmomenthadcome。Iheldmybreath。Thetap-

  pinghadstoppedasunexpectedlyasithadbegun,andtherewasarenewedmomentofintolerablesus-

  pense;somethinglikeanadditionalturnoftherackingscrew。Idon’tsupposeIwouldhaveeverscreamed,butIremembermyconvictionthattherewasnothingelseforitbuttoscream。

  Suddenly——howamItoconveyit?Well,sud-

  denlythedarknessturnedintowater。Thisistheonlysuitablefigure。Aheavyshower,adown-

  pour,comesalong,makinganoise。Youhearitsapproachonthesea,intheair,too,Iverilybelieve。

  Butthiswasdifferent。Withnopreliminarywhisperorrustle,withoutasplash,andevenwith-

  outtheghostofimpact,Ibecameinstantaneouslysoakedtotheskin。Notaverydifficultmatter,sinceIwaswearingonlymysleepingsuit。Myhairgotfullofwaterinaninstant,waterstreamedonmyskin,itfilledmynose,myears,myeyes。

  InafractionofasecondIswallowedquitealotofit。

  AstoGambril,hewasfairlychoked。Hecoughedpitifully,thebrokencoughofasickman;

  andIbeheldhimasoneseesafishinanaquariumbythelightofanelectricbulb,anelusive,phos-

  phorescentshape。Onlyhedidnotglideaway。

  Butsomethingelsehappened。Bothbinnacle-

  lampswentout。Isupposethewaterforceditselfintothem,thoughIwouldn’thavethoughtthatpossible,fortheyfittedintothecowlperfectly。

  Thelastgleamoflightintheuniversehadgone,pursuedbyalowexclamationofdismayfromGambril。Igropedforhimandseizedhisarm。

  Howstartlinglywasteditwas。

  \"Nevermind,\"Isaid。\"Youdon’twantthelight。Allyouneedtodoistokeepthewind,whenitcomes,atthebackofyourhead。Youunderstand?\"

  \"Aye,aye,sir……ButIshouldliketohavealight,\"headdednervously。

  Allthattimetheshiplayassteadyasarock。

  Thenoiseofthewaterpouringoffthesailsandspars,flowingoverthebreakofthepoop,hadstoppedshort。Thepoopscuppersgurgledandsobbedforalittlewhilelonger,andthenperfectsilence,joinedtoperfectimmobility,proclaimedtheyetunbrokenspellofourhelplessness,poisedontheedgeofsomeviolentissue,lurkinginthedark。

  Istartedforwardrestlessly。Ididnotneedmysighttopacethepoopofmyill-starredfirstcom-

  mandwithperfectassurance。Everysquarefootofherdeckswasimpressedindeliblyonmybrain,totheverygrainandknotsoftheplanks。Yet,allofasudden,Ifellcleanoversomething,landingfulllengthonmyhandsandface。

  Itwassomethingbigandalive。Notadog——

  morelikeasheep,rather。Buttherewerenoanimalsintheship。Howcouldananimal……

  ItwasanaddedandfantastichorrorwhichIcouldnotresist。ThehairofmyheadstirredevenasI

  pickedmyselfup,awfullyscared;notasamanisscaredwhilehisjudgment,hisreasonstilltrytoresist,butcompletely,boundlessly,and,asitwere,innocentlyscared——likealittlechild。

  IcouldseeIt——thatThing!Thedarkness,ofwhichsomuchhadjustturnedintowater,hadthinneddownalittle。ThereItwas!ButIdidnothituponthenotionofMr。Burnsissuingoutofthecompaniononallfourstillheattemptedtostandup,andeventhentheideaofabearcrossedmymindfirst。

  HegrowledlikeonewhenIseizedhimroundthebody。Hehadbuttonedhimselfupintoanenor-

  mouswinterovercoatofsomewoollymaterial,theweightofwhichwastoomuchforhisreducedstate。

  Icouldhardlyfeeltheincrediblythinlathofhisbody,lostwithinthethickstuff,buthisgrowlhaddepthandsubstance:Confoundeddumpshipwithacraven,tiptoeingcrowd。Whycouldn’ttheystampandgowithabrace?Wasn’tthereoneGod-

  forsakenlubberinthelotfittoraiseayellonarope?

  \"Skulking’snogood,sir,\"heattackedmedirectly。\"Youcan’tslinkpasttheoldmurderousruffian。Itisn’ttheway。Youmustgoforhimboldly——asIdid。Boldnessiswhatyouwant。

  Showhimthatyoudon’tcareforanyofhisdamnedtricks。Kickupajollyoldrow。\"

  \"GoodGod,Mr。Burns,\"Isaidangrily。

  \"Whatonearthareyouupto?Whatdoyoumeanbycomingupondeckinthisstate?\"

  \"Justthat!Boldness。Theonlywaytoscaretheoldbullyingrascal。\"

  Ipushedhim,stillgrowling,againsttherail。

  \"Holdontoit,\"Isaidroughly。Ididnotknowwhattodowithhim。Ilefthiminahurry,togotoGambril,whohadcalledfaintlythathebelievedtherewassomewindaloft。Indeed,myownearshadcaughtafeebleflutterofwetcanvas,highupoverhead,thejingleofaslackchainsheet……

  Thesewereeerie,disturbing,alarmingsoundsinthedeadstillnessoftheairaroundme。AlltheinstancesIhadheardoftopmastsbeingwhippedoutofashipwhiletherewasnotwindenoughonherdecktoblowoutamatchrushedintomymemory。

  \"Ican’tseetheuppersails,sir,\"declaredGambrilshakily。

  \"Don’tmovethehelm。You’llbeallright,\"I

  saidconfidently。

  Thepoorman’snervesweregone。Minewerenotinmuchbettercase。Itwasthemomentofbreakingstrainandwasrelievedbytheabruptsensationoftheshipmovingforwardasifofher-

  selfundermyfeet。Iheardplainlythesoughingofthewindaloft,thelowcracksoftheuppersparstakingthestrain,longbeforeIcouldfeeltheleastdraughtonmyfaceturnedaft,anxiousandsight-

  lesslikethefaceofablindman。

  Suddenlyalouder-soundingnotefilledourears,thedarknessstartedstreamingagainstourbodies,chillingthemexceedingly。Bothofus,GambrilandI,shiveredviolentlyinourclinging,soakedgarmentsofthincotton。Isaidtohim:

  \"Youareallrightnow,myman。Allyou’vegottodoistokeepthewindatthebackofyourhead。

  Surelyyouareuptothat。Achildcouldsteerthisshipinsmoothwater。\"

  Hemuttered:\"Aye!Ahealthychild。\"AndI

  feltashamedofhavingbeenpassedoverbythefeverwhichhadbeenpreyingoneveryman’sstrengthbutmine,inorderthatmyremorsemightbethemorebitter,thefeelingofunworthinessmorepoignant,andthesenseofresponsibilityheaviertobear。

  Theshiphadgatheredgreatwayonheralmostatonceonthecalmwater。Ifeltherslippingthroughitwithnoothernoisebutamysteriousrustlealongside。Otherwise,shehadnomotionatall,neitherliftnorroll。Itwasadishearteningsteadinesswhichhadlastedforeighteendaysnow;fornever,neverhadwehadwindenoughinthattimetoraisetheslightestrunofthesea。Thebreezefreshenedsuddenly。IthoughtitwashightimetogetMr。Burnsoffthedeck。Heworriedme。Ilookeduponhimasalunaticwhowouldbeverylikelytostartroamingovertheshipandbreakalimborfalloverboard。

  IwastrulygladtofindhehadremainedholdingonwhereIhadlefthim,sensiblyenough。Hewas,however,mutteringtohimselfominously。

  Thiswasdiscouraging。Iremarkedinamatter-

  of-facttone:

  \"Wehaveneverhadsomuchwindasthissincewelefttheroads。\"

  \"There’ssomeheartinit,too,\"hegrowledjudiciously。Itwasaremarkofaperfectlysaneseaman。Butheaddedimmediately:\"ItwasabouttimeIshouldcomeondeck。I’vebeennursingmystrengthforthis——justforthis。Doyouseeit,sir?\"

  IsaidIdid,andproceededtohintthatitwouldbeadvisableforhimtogobelownowandtakearest。

  Hisanswerwasanindignant\"Gobelow!NotifIknowit,sir。\"

  Verycheerful!Hewasahorriblenuisance。Andallatoncehestartedtoargue。Icouldfeelhiscrazyexcitementinthedark。

  \"Youdon’tknowhowtogoaboutit,sir。Howcouldyou?Allthiswhisperingandtiptoeingisnogood。Youcan’thopetoslinkpastacunning,wide-awake,evilbrutelikehewas。Youneverheardhimtalk。Enoughtomakeyourhairstandonend。No!No!Hewasn’tmad。HewasnomoremadthanIam。Hewasjustdownrightwicked。Wickedsoastofrightenmostpeople。I

  willtellyouwhathewas。Hewasnothinglessthanathiefandamurdereratheart。Anddoyouthinkhe’sanydifferentnowbecausehe’sdead?

  Nothe!Hiscarcassliesahundredfathomunder,buthe’sjustthesame……inlatitude8d20’

  north。\"

  Hesnorteddefiantly。Inotedwithwearyresig-

  nationthatthebreezehadgotlighterwhileheraved。Hewasatitagain。

  \"Ioughttohavethrownthebeggaroutoftheshipovertheraillikeadog。Itwasonlyonac-

  countofthemen……FancyhavingtoreadtheBurialServiceoverabrutelikethat!……’Ourdepartedbrother’……Icouldhavelaughed。

  Thatwaswhathecouldn’tbear。IsupposeIamtheonlymanthateverstooduptolaughathim。

  Whenhegotsickitusedtoscarethat……

  brother……Brother……Departed……Soonercallasharkbrother。\"

  Thebreezehadletgososuddenlythatthewayoftheshipbroughtthewetsailsheavilyagainstthemast。Thespellofdeadlystillnesshadcaughtusupagain。Thereseemedtobenoescape。

  \"Hallo!\"exclaimedMr。Burnsinastartledvoice。\"Calmagain!\"

  Iaddressedhimasthoughhehadbeensane。

  \"Thisisthesortofthingwe’vebeenhavingforseventeendays,Mr。Burns,\"Isaidwithintensebitterness。\"Apuff,thenacalm,andinamo-

  ment,you’llsee,she’llbeswingingonherheelwithherheadawayfromhercoursetothedevilsome-

  where。\"

  Hecaughtattheword。\"TheolddodgingDevil,\"hescreamedpiercinglyandburstintosuchaloudlaughasIhadneverheardbefore。Itwasaprovoking,mockingpeal,withahair-raising,screechingover-noteofdefiance。Isteppedback,utterlyconfounded。

  Instantlytherewasastironthequarter-deck;

  murmursofdismay。Adistressedvoicecriedoutinthedarkbelowus:\"Who’sthatgonecrazy,now?\"

  Perhapstheythoughtitwastheircaptain?

  Rushisnotthewordthatcouldbeappliedtotheutmostspeedthepoorfellowswereupto;butinanamazingshorttimeeverymanintheshipabletowalkuprighthadfoundhiswayontothatpoop。

  Ishoutedtothem:\"It’sthemate。Layholdofhimacoupleofyou……\"

  Iexpectedthisperformancetoendinaghastlysortoffight。ButMr。Burnscuthisderisivescreechingdeadshortandturneduponthemfiercely,yelling:

  \"Aha!Dog-goneye!You’vefoundyourtongues——haveye?Ithoughtyouweredumb。

  Well,then——laugh!Laugh——Itellyou。Nowthen——alltogether。One,two,three——laugh!\"

  Amomentofsilenceensued,ofsilencesopro-

  foundthatyoucouldhaveheardapindroponthedeck。ThenRansome’sunperturbedvoiceutteredpleasantlythewords:

  \"Ithinkhehasfainted,sir——\"Thelittlemotionlessknotofmenstirred,withlowmurmursofrelief。\"I’vegothimunderthearms。Getholdofhislegs,someone。\"

  Yes。Itwasarelief。Hewassilencedforatime——foratime。Icouldnothavestoodanotherpealofthatinsanescreeching。Iwassureofit;

  andjustthenGambril,theaustereGambril,treatedustoanothervocalperformance。Hebegantosingoutforrelief。Hisvoicewailedpitifullyinthedarkness:\"Comeaftsomebody!Ican’tstandthis。Hereshe’llbeoffagaindirectlyandI

  can’t……\"

  IdashedaftmyselfmeetingonmywayahardgustofwindwhoseapproachGambril’searhaddetectedfromafarandwhichfilledthesailsonthemaininaseriesofmuffledreportsmingledwiththelowplaintofthespars。IwasjustintimetoseizethewheelwhileFrenchywhohadfollowedmecaughtupthecollapsingGambril。Hehauledhimoutoftheway,admonishedhimtoliestillwherehewas,andthensteppeduptorelieveme,askingcalmly:

  \"HowamItosteerher,sir?\"

  \"Deadbeforeitforthepresent。I’llgetyoualightinamoment。\"

  ButgoingforwardImetRansomebringingupthesparebinnaclelamp。Thatmannoticedeverything,attendedtoeverything,shedcomfortaroundhimashemoved。Ashepassedmehere-

  markedinasoothingtonethatthestarswerecom-

  ingout。Theywere。Thebreezewassweepingclearthesootysky,breakingthroughtheindolentsilenceofthesea。

  Thebarrierofawfulstillnesswhichhadencom-

  passedusforsomanydaysasthoughwehadbeenaccursed,wasbroken。Ifeltthat。Iletmyselffallontotheskylightseat。Afaintwhiteridgeoffoam,thin,verythin,brokealongside。Thefirstforages——forages。Icouldhavecheered,ifithadn’tbeenforthesenseofguiltwhichclungtoallmythoughtssecretly。Ransomestoodbeforeme。

  \"Whataboutthemate,\"Iaskedanxiously。

  \"Stillunconscious?\"

  \"Well,sir——it’sfunny,\"Ransomewasevidentlypuzzled。\"Hehasn’tspokenaword,andhiseyesareshut。Butitlookstomemorelikesoundsleepthananythingelse。\"

  Iacceptedthisviewastheleasttroublesomeofany,oratanyrate,leastdisturbing。Deadfaintordeepslumber,Mr。Burnshadtobelefttohim-

  selfforthepresent。Ransomeremarkedsud-

  denly:

  \"Ibelieveyouwantacoat,sir。\"

  \"IbelieveIdo,\"Isighedout。

  ButIdidnotmove。WhatIfeltIwantedwerenewlimbs。Myarmsandlegsseemedutterlyuse-

  less,fairlywornout。Theydidn’tevenache。ButIstoodupallthesametoputonthecoatwhenRansomebroughtitup。Andwhenhesuggestedthathehadbetternow\"takeGambrilforward,\"I

  said:

  \"Allright。I’llhelpyoutogethimdownonthemaindeck。\"

  IfoundthatIwasquiteabletohelp,too。WeraisedGambrilupbetweenus。Hetriedtohelphimselfalonglikeamanbutallthetimehewasin-

  quiringpiteously:

  \"Youwon’tletmegowhenwecometothelad-

  der?Youwon’tletmegowhenwecometotheladder?\"

  Thebreezekeptonfresheningandblewtrue,truetoahair。Atdaylightbycarefulmanipula-

  tionofthehelmwegottheforeyardstorunsquarebythemselves(thewaterkeepingsmooth)andthenwentabouthaulingtheropestight。OfthefourmenIhadwithmeatnight,Icouldseenowonlytwo。Ididn’tinquireastotheothers。Theyhadgivenin。ForatimeonlyIhoped。

  Ourvarioustasksforwardoccupiedusforhours,thetwomenwithmemovedsoslowandhadtorestsooften。Oneofthemremarkedthat\"everyblamedthingintheshipfeltaboutahundredtimesheavierthanitsproperweight。\"Thiswastheonlycomplaintuttered。Idon’tknowwhatweshouldhavedonewithoutRansome。Heworkedwithus,silent,too,withalittlesmilefrozenonhislips。FromtimetotimeImurmuredtohim:

  \"Gosteady\"——\"Takeiteasy,Ransome\"——andre-

  ceivedaquickglanceinreply。

  Whenwehaddoneallwecoulddotomakethingssafe,hedisappearedintohisgalley。Sometimeafterward,goingforwardforalookround,I

  caughtsightofhimthroughtheopendoor。Hesatuprightonthelockerinfrontofthestove,withhisheadleaningbackagainstthebulkhead。Hiseyeswereclosed;hiscapablehandsheldopenthefrontofhisthincottonshirtbaringtragicallyhispowerfulchest,whichheavedinpainfulandlabouredgasps。Hedidn’thearme。

  IretreatedquietlyandwentstraightontothepooptorelieveFrenchy,whobythattimewasbe-

  ginningtolookverysick。Hegavemethecoursewithgreatformalityandtriedtogooffwithajauntystep,butreeledwidelytwicebeforegettingoutofmysight。

  AndthenIremainedallaloneaft,steeringmyship,whichranbeforethewindwithabuoyantliftnowandthen,andevenrollingalittle。PresentlyRansomeappearedbeforemewithatray。Thesightoffoodmademeravenousallatonce。HetookthewheelwhileIsatdownoftheaftergratingtoeatmybreakfast。

  \"Thisbreezeseemstohavedoneforourcrowd,\"

  hemurmured。\"Itjustlaidthemlow——allhands。\"

  \"Yes,\"Isaid。\"IsupposeyouandIaretheonlytwofitmenintheship。\"

  \"Frenchysaysthere’sstillajumpleftinhim。I

  don’tknow。Itcan’tbemuch,\"continuedRan-

  somewithhiswistfulsmile。Goodlittlemanthat。

  Butsuppose,sir,thatthiswindfliesroundwhenweareclosetotheland——whatarewegoingtodowithher?\"

  \"Ifthewindshiftsroundheavilyafterwecloseinwiththelandshewilleitherrunashoreorgetdismastedorboth。Wewon’tbeabletodoany-

  thingwithher。She’srunningawaywithusnow。

  Allwecandoistosteerher。She’sashipwithoutacrew。\"

  \"Yes。Alllaidlow,\"repeatedRansomequietly。

  \"Idogivethemalook-inforwardeverynowandthen,butit’spreciouslittleIcandoforthem。\"

  \"I,andtheship,andeveryoneonboardofher,areverymuchindebtedtoyou,Ransome,\"Isaidwarmly。

  Hemadeasthoughhehadnotheardme,andsteeredinsilencetillIwasreadytorelievehim。Hesurrenderedthewheel,pickedupthetray,andforapartingshotinformedmethatMr。Burnswasawakeandseemedtohaveamindtocomeupondeck。

  \"Idon’tknowhowtopreventhim,sir。Ican’tverywellstopdownbelowallthetime。\"

  Itwasclearthathecouldn’t。AndsureenoughMr。Burnscameondeckdragginghimselfpainfullyaftinhisenormousovercoat。Ibeheldhimwithanaturaldread。TohavehimaroundandravingaboutthewilesofadeadmanwhileIhadtosteerawildlyrushingshipfullofdyingmenwasaratherdreadfulprospect。

  Buthisfirstremarkswerequitesensibleinmean-

  ingandtone。Apparentlyhehadnorecollectionofthenightscene。Andifhehadhedidn’tbetrayhimselfonce。Neitherdidhetalkverymuch。Hesatontheskylightlookingdesperatelyillatfirst,butthatstrongbreeze,beforewhichthelastrem-

  nantofmycrewhadwilteddown,seemedtoblowafreshstockofvigourintohisframewitheverygust。

  Onecouldalmostseetheprocess。

  BywayofsanitytestIalludedonpurposetothelatecaptain。IwasdelightedtofindthatMr。

  Burnsdidnotdisplayundueinterestinthesub-

  ject。Heranovertheoldtaleofthatsavageruffian’siniquitieswithacertainvindictivegustoandthenconcludedunexpectedly:

  \"Idobelieve,sir,thathisbrainbegantogoayearormorebeforehedied。\"

  Awonderfulrecovery。Icouldhardlyspareitasmuchadmirationasitdeserved,forIhadtogiveallmymindtothesteering。

  Incomparisonwiththehopelesslanguouroftheprecedingdaysthiswasdizzyspeed。Tworidgesoffoamstreamedfromtheship’sbows;thewindsanginastrenuousnotewhichunderothercir-

  cumstanceswouldhaveexpressedtomeallthejoyoflife。Wheneverthehauled-upmainsailstartedtryingtoslatandbangitselftopiecesinitsgear,Mr。Burnswouldlookatmeapprehensively。

  \"Whatwouldyouhavemetodo,Mr。Burns?

  Wecanneitherfurlitnorsetit。Ionlywishtheoldthingwouldthrashitselftopiecesandbedonewithit。Thatbeastlyracketconfusesme。\"

  Mr。Burnswrunghishands,andcriedoutsud-

  denly:

  \"Howwillyougettheshipintoharbour,sir,withoutmentohandleher?\"

  AndIcouldn’ttellhim。

  Well——itdidgetdoneaboutfortyhoursafter-

  ward。BytheexorcisingvirtueofMr。Burns’

  awfullaugh,themaliciousspectrehadbeenlaid,theevilspellbroken,thecurseremoved。WewerenowinthehandsofakindandenergeticProvi-

  dence。Itwasrushinguson……

  Ishallneverforgetthelastnight,dark,windy,andstarry。Isteered。Mr。Burns,afterhavingobtainedfrommeasolemnpromisetogivehimakickifanythinghappened,wentfranklytosleeponthedeckclosetothebinnacle。Convalescentsneedsleep。Ransome,hisbackproppedagainstthemizzen-mastandablanketoverhislegs,re-

  mainedperfectlystill,butIdon’tsupposeheclosedhiseyesforamoment。Thatembodimentofjauntiness,Frenchy,stillunderthedelusionthattherewasa\"jump\"leftinhim,hadinsistedonjoiningus;butmindfulofdiscipline,hadlaidhim-

  selfdownasfarontheforepartofthepoopashecouldget,alongsidethebucket-rack。

  AndIsteered,tootiredforanxiety,tootiredforconnectedthought。Ihadmomentsofgrimex-

  ultationandthenmyheartwouldsinkawfullyatthethoughtofthatforecastleattheotherendofthedarkdeck,fulloffever-strickenmen——someofthemdying。Bymyfault。Butnevermind。

  Remorsemustwait。Ihadtosteer。

  Inthesmallhoursthebreezeweakened,thenfailedaltogether。Aboutfiveitreturned,gentleenough,enablingustoheadfortheroadstead。

  DaybreakfoundMr。Burnssittingwedgedupwithcoilsofropeonthestern-grating,andfromthedepthsofhisovercoatsteeringtheshipwithverywhitebonyhands;whileRansomeandIrushedalongthedeckslettinggoallthesheetsandhal-

  liardsbytherun。Wedashednextupontotheforecastlehead。Theperspirationoflabourandsheernervousnesssimplypouredoffourheadsaswetoiledtogettheanchorscock-billed。IdarednotlookatRansomeasweworkedsidebyside。

  Weexchangedcurtwords;IcouldhearhimpantingclosetomeandIavoidedturningmyeyeshiswayforfearofseeinghimfalldownandexpireintheactofputtingforthhisstrength——forwhat?In-

  deedforsomedistinctideal。

  Theconsummateseamaninhimwasaroused。

  Heneedednodirections。Heknewwhattodo。

  Everyeffort,everymovementwasanactofcon-

  sistentheroism。Itwasnotformetolookatamanthusinspired。

  AtlastallwasreadyandIheardhimsay:

  \"Hadn’tIbettergodownandopenthecompressorsnow,sir?\"

  \"Yes。Do,\"Isaid。

  AndeventhenIdidnotglancehisway。Afteratimehisvoicecameupfromthemaindeck。

  \"Whenyoulike,sir。Allclearonthewindlasshere。\"

  ImadeasigntoMr。Burnstoputthehelmdownandletbothanchorsgooneafteranother,leavingtheshiptotakeasmuchcableasshewanted。Shetookthebestpartofthembothbe-

  foreshebroughtup。Theloosesailscomingabackceasedtheirmaddeningracketabovemyhead。A

  perfectstillnessreignedintheship。AndwhileI

  stoodforwardfeelingalittlegiddyinthatsuddenpeace,Icaughtfaintlyamoanortwoandthein-

  coherentmutteringsofthesickintheforecastle。

  Aswehadasignalformedicalassistanceflyingonthemizzenitisafactthatbeforetheshipwasfairlyatrestthreesteamlaunchesfromvariousmen-of-warwerealongside;andatleastfivenavalsurgeonshadclamberedonboard。Theystoodinaknotgazingupanddowntheemptymaindeck,thenlookedaloft——wherenotamancouldbeseen,either。

  Iwenttowardthem——asolitaryfigure,inablueandgraystripedsleepingsuitandapipe-clayedcorkhelmetonitshead。Theirdisgustwasextreme。

  Theyhadexpectedsurgicalcases。Eachonehadbroughthiscarvingtoolswithhim。Buttheysoongotovertheirlittledisappointment。Inlessthanfiveminutesoneofthesteamlauncheswasrushingshorewardtoorderabigboatandsomehospitalpeoplefortheremovalofthecrew。Thebigsteampinnacewentofftohershiptobringoverafewbluejacketstofurlmysailsforme。

  Oneofthesurgeonshadremainedonboard。Hecameoutoftheforecastlelookingimpenetrable,andnoticedmyinquiringgaze。

  \"There’snobodydeadinthere,ifthat’swhatyouwanttoknow,\"hesaiddeliberately。Thenaddedinatoneofwonder:\"Thewholecrew!\"

  \"Andverybad?\"

  \"Andverybad,\"herepeated。Hiseyeswereroamingallovertheship。\"Heavens!What’sthat?\"

  \"That,\"Isaid,glancingaft,\"isMr。Burns,mychiefofficer。\"

  Mr。Burnswithhismoribundheadnoddingonthestalkofhisleanneckwasasightforanyonetoexclaimat。Thesurgeonasked:

  \"Ishegoingtothehospital,too?\"

  \"Oh,no,\"Isaidjocosely。\"Mr。Burnscan’tgoonshoretillthemainmastgoes。Iamveryproudofhim。He’smyonlyconvalescent。\"

  \"Youlook——\"beganthedoctorstaringatme。

  ButIinterruptedhimangrily:

  \"Iamnotill。\"

  \"No……Youlookqueer。\"

  \"Well,yousee,Ihavebeenseventeendaysondeck。\"

  \"Seventeen!……Butyoumusthaveslept。\"

  \"IsupposeImusthave。Idon’tknow。ButI’mcertainthatIdidn’tsleepforthelastfortyhours。\"

  \"Phew!……YouwillbegoingashorepresentlyIsuppose?\"

  \"AssoonaseverIcan。There’snoendofbusinesswaitingformethere。\"

  Thesurgeonreleasedmyhand,whichhehadtakenwhilewetalked,pulledouthispocket-book,wroteinitrapidly,toreoutthepageandofferedittome。

  \"Istronglyadviseyoutogetthisprescriptionmadeupforyourselfashore。UnlessIammuchmistakenyouwillneeditthisevening。\"

  \"Whatisit,then?\"Iaskedwithsuspicion。

  \"Sleepingdraught,\"answeredthesurgeoncurtly;andmovingwithanairofinteresttowardMr。Burnsheengagedhiminconversation。

  AsIwentbelowtodresstogoashore,Ransomefollowedme。Hebeggedmypardon;hewished,too,tobesentashoreandpaidoff。

  Ilookedathiminsurprise。Hewaswaitingformyanswerwithanairofanxiety。

  \"Youdon’tmeantoleavetheship!\"Icriedout。

  \"Idoreally,sir。Iwanttogoandbequietsome-

  where。Anywhere。Thehospitalwilldo。\"

  \"But,Ransome,\"Isaid。\"Ihatetheideaofpartingwithyou。\"

  \"Imustgo,\"hebrokein。\"Ihavearight!\"……Hegaspedandalookofalmostsavagede-

  terminationpassedoverhisface。Foraninstanthewasanotherbeing。AndIsawundertheworthandthecomelinessofthemanthehumblerealityofthings。Lifewasaboontohim——thisprecarioushardlife,andhewasthoroughlyalarmedabouthimself。

  \"OfcourseIshallpayyouoffifyouwishit,\"I

  hastenedtosay。\"OnlyImustaskyoutoremainonboardtillthisafternoon。Ican’tleaveMr。

  Burnsabsolutelybyhimselfintheshipforhours。\"

  Hesoftenedatonceandassuredmewithasmileandinhisnaturalpleasantvoicethatheunder-

  stoodthatverywell。

  WhenIreturnedondeckeverythingwasreadyfortheremovalofthemen。Itwasthelastordealofthatepisodewhichhadbeenmaturingandtem-

  peringmycharacter——thoughIdidnotknowit。

  Itwasawful。Theypassedundermyeyesoneafteranother——eachofthemanembodiedreproachofthebitterestkind,tillIfeltasortofrevoltwakeupinme。PoorFrenchyhadgonesuddenlyunder。

  Hewascarriedpastmeinsensible,hiscomicfacehorriblyflushedandasifswollen,breathingstertorously。HelookedmorelikeMr。Punchthanever;adisgracefullyintoxicatedMr。Punch。

  TheaustereGambril,onthecontrary,hadim-

  provedtemporarily。Heinsistedonwalkingonhisownfeettotherail——ofcoursewithassistanceoneachsideofhim。Buthegavewaytoasuddenpanicatthemomentofbeingswungoverthesideandbegantowailpitifully:

  \"Don’tletthemdropme,sir。Don’tletthemdropme,sir!\"WhileIkeptonshoutingtohiminmostsoothingaccents:\"Allright,Gambril。

  Theywon’t!Theywon’t!\"

  Itwasnodoubtveryridiculous。Theblue-

  jacketsonourdeckweregrinningquietly,whileevenRansomehimself(muchtotheforeinlendingahand)hadtoenlargehiswistfulsmileforafleet-

  ingmoment。

  Ileftfortheshoreinthesteampinnace,andonlookingbackbeheldMr。Burnsactuallystandingupbythetaffrail,stillinhisenormouswoollyover-

  coat。Thebrightsunlightbroughtouthisweird-

  nessamazingly。Helookedlikeafrightfulandelaboratescarecrowsetuponthepoopofadeath-

  strickenship,setuptokeeptheseabirdsfromthecorpses。

  Ourstoryhadgotaboutalreadyintownandeverybodyonshorewasmostkind。TheMarineOfficeletmeofftheportdues,andastherehap-

  penedtobeashipwreckedcrewstayingintheHomeIhadnodifficultyinobtainingasmanymenasIwanted。ButwhenIinquiredifIcouldseeCaptainEllisforamomentIwastoldinaccentsofpityformyignorancethatourdeputy-NeptunehadretiredandgonehomeonapensionaboutthreeweeksafterIlefttheport。SoIsupposethatmyappointmentwasthelastact,outsidethedailyroutine,ofhisofficiallife。

  ItisstrangehowoncomingashoreIwasstruckbythespringystep,thelivelyeyes,thestrongvitalityofeveryoneImet。Itimpressedmeenormously。AndamongstthoseImettherewasCaptainGiles,ofcourse。ItwouldhavebeenveryextraordinaryifIhadnotmethim。Aprolongedstrollinthebusinesspartofthetownwastheregularemploymentofallhismorningswhenhewasashore。

  Icaughttheglitterofthegoldwatch-chainacrosshischesteversofaraway。Heradiatedbenevolence。

  \"WhatisitIhear?\"hequeriedwitha\"kinduncle\"smile,aftershakinghands。\"Twenty-onedaysfromBangkok?\"

  \"Isthisallyou’veheard?\"Isaid。\"Youmustcometotiffinwithme。Iwantyoutoknowex-

  actlywhatyouhaveletmeinfor。\"

  Hehesitatedforalmostaminute。

  \"Well——Iwill,\"hesaidcondescendinglyatlast。

  Weturnedintothehotel。Ifoundtomysur-

  prisethatIcouldeatquitealot。Thenovertheclearedtable-clothIunfoldedtoCaptainGilesthehistoryofthesetwentydaysinallitsprofessionalandemotionalaspects,whilehesmokedpatientlythebigcigarIhadgivenhim。

  Thenheobservedsagely:

  \"Youmustfeeljollywelltiredbythistime。\"

  \"No,\"Isaid。\"Nottired。ButI’lltellyou,CaptainGiles,howIfeel。Ifeelold。AndImustbe。Allofyouonshorelooktomejustalotofskittishyoungstersthathaveneverknownacareintheworld。\"

  Hedidn’tsmile。Helookedinsufferablyex-

  emplary。Hedeclared:

  \"Thatwillpass。Butyoudolookolder——it’safact。\"

  \"Aha!\"Isaid。

  \"No!No!Thetruthisthatonemustnotmaketoomuchofanythinginlife,goodorbad。\"

  \"Liveathalf-speed,\"Imurmuredperversely。

  \"Noteverybodycandothat。\"

  \"You’llbegladenoughpresentlyifyoucankeepgoingevenatthatrate,\"heretortedwithhisairofconsciousvirtue。\"Andthere’sanotherthing:amanshouldstanduptohisbadluck,tohismis-

  takes,tohisconscienceandallthatsortofthing。

  Why——whatelsewouldyouhavetofightagainst。\"

  Ikeptsilent。Idon’tknowwhathesawinmyfacebutheaskedabruptly:

  \"Why——youaren’tfaint-hearted?\"

  \"Godonlyknows,CaptainGiles,\"wasmysin-

  cereanswer。

  \"That’sallright,\"hesaidcalmly。\"Youwilllearnsoonhownottobefaint-hearted。Amanhasgottolearneverything——andthat’swhatsomanyofthemyoungstersdon’tunderstand。\"

  \"Well,Iamnolongerayoungster。\"

  \"No,\"heconceded。\"Areyouleavingsoon?\"

  \"Iamgoingonboarddirectly,\"Isaid。\"Ishallpickuponeofmyanchorsandheaveintohalf-

  cableontheotherdirectlymynewcrewcomesonboardandIshallbeoffatdaylightto-morrow!\"

  \"Youwill,\"gruntedCaptainGilesapprovingly。

  \"that’stheway。You’lldo。\"

  \"Whatdidyouthink?ThatIwouldwanttotakeaweekashoreforarest?\"Isaid,irritatedbyhistone。\"There’snorestformetillshe’soutintheIndianOceanandnotmuchofiteventhen。\"

  Hepuffedathiscigarmoodily,asiftransformed。

  \"Yes。That’swhatitamountsto,\"hesaidinamusingtone。ItwasasifaponderouscurtainhadrolledupdisclosinganunexpectedCaptainGiles。

  Butitwasonlyforamoment,justthetimetolethimadd,\"Preciouslittlerestinlifeforanybody。

  Betternotthinkofit。\"

  Werose,leftthehotel,andpartedfromeachotherinthestreetwithawarmhandshake,justashebegantointerestmeforthefirsttimeinourintercourse。

  ThefirstthingIsawwhenIgotbacktotheshipwasRansomeonthequarter-decksittingquietlyonhisneatlylashedsea-chest。

  IbeckonedhimtofollowmeintothesaloonwhereIsatdowntowritealetterofrecommenda-

  tionforhimtoamanIknewonshore。

  WhenfinishedIpusheditacrossthetable。\"Itmaybeofsomegoodtoyouwhenyouleavethehospital。\"

  Hetookit,putitinhispocket。Hiseyeswerelookingawayfromme——nowhere。Hisfacewasanxiouslyset。

  \"Howareyoufeelingnow?\"Iasked。

  \"Idon’tfeelbadnow,sir,\"heansweredstiffly。

  \"ButIamafraidofitscomingon……\"Thewistfulsmilecamebackonhislipsforamo-

  ment。\"I——Iaminabluefunkaboutmyheart,sir。\"

  Iapproachedhimwithextendedhand。Hiseyesnotlookingatmehadastrainedexpres-

  sion。Hewaslikeamanlisteningforawarningcall。

  \"Won’tyoushakehands,Ransome?\"Isaidgently。

  Heexclaimed,flushedupduskyred,gavemyhandahardwrench——andnextmoment,leftaloneinthecabin,Ilistenedtohimgoingupthecom-

  panionstairscautiously,stepbystep,inmortalfearofstartingintosuddenangerourcommonenemyitwashishardfatetocarryconsciouslywithinhisfaithfulbreast。

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