TheunfailingRansomelightedthebinnacle-
lampsandglided,allshadowy,uptome。
\"Willyougodownandtrytoeatsomething,sir?\"hesuggested。
Hislowvoicestartledme。Ihadbeenstandinglookingoutovertherail,sayingnothing,feelingnothing,noteventhewearinessofmylimbs,over-
comebytheevilspell。
\"Ransome,\"Iaskedabruptly,\"howlonghaveI
beenondeck?Iamlosingthenotionoftime。\"
\"Twelvedays,sir,\"hesaid,\"andit’sjustafortnightsincewelefttheanchorage。\"
Hisequablevoicesoundedmournfulsomehow。
Hewaitedabit,thenadded:\"It’sthefirsttimethatitlooksasifweweretohavesomerain。\"
Inoticedthenthebroadshadowonthehorizon,extinguishingthelowstarscompletely,whilethoseoverhead,whenIlookedup,seemedtoshinedownonusthroughaveilofsmoke。
Howitgotthere,howithadcreptupsohigh,I
couldn’tsay。Ithadanominousappearance。Theairdidnotstir。AtarenewedinvitationfromRansomeIdidgodownintothecabinto——inhisownwords——\"tryandeatsomething。\"Idon’tknowthatthetrialwasverysuccessful。Isup-
poseatthatperiodIdidexistonfoodintheusualway;butthememoryisnowthatinthosedayslifewassustainedoninvincibleanguish,asasortofinfernalstimulantexcitingandconsumingatthesametime。
It’stheonlyperiodofmylifeinwhichIat-
temptedtokeepadiary。No,nottheonlyone。
Yearslater,inconditionsofmoralisolation,Ididputdownonpaperthethoughtsandeventsofascoreofdays。Butthiswasthefirsttime。Idon’trememberhowitcameaboutorhowthepocket-
bookandthepencilcameintomyhands。It’sin-
conceivablethatIshouldhavelookedforthemonpurpose。Isupposetheysavedmefromthecrazytrickoftalkingtomyself。
Strangelyenough,inbothcasesItooktothatsortofthingincircumstancesinwhichIdidnotex-
pect,incolloquialphrase,\"tocomeoutofit。\"
NeithercouldIexpecttherecordtooutlastme。
Thisshowsthatitwaspurelyapersonalneedforintimatereliefandnotacallofegotism。
HereImustgiveanothersampleofit,afewde-
tachedlines,nowlookingveryghostlytomyowneyes,outofthepartscribbledthatveryevening:
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\"Thereissomethinggoingonintheskylikeadecomposition;likeacorruptionoftheair,whichremainsasstillasever。Afterall,mereclouds,whichmayormaynotholdwindorrain。
Strangethatitshouldtroublemeso。Ifeelasifallmysinshadfoundmeout。ButIsupposethetroubleisthattheshipisstilllyingmotionless,notundercommand;andthatIhavenothingtodotokeepmyimaginationfromrunningwildamongstthedisastrousimagesoftheworstthatmaybefallus。What’sgoingtohappen?Probablynothing。
Oranything。Itmaybeafurioussquallcoming,buttendforemost。Andondecktherearefivemenwiththevitalityandthestrength,ofsay,two。
Wemayhavealloursailsblownaway。EverystitchofcanvashasbeenonhersincewebrokegroundatthemouthoftheMei-nam,fifteendaysago……orfifteencenturies。Itseemstomethatallmylifebeforethatmomentousdayisin-
finitelyremote,afadingmemoryoflight-heartedyouth,somethingontheothersideofashadow。
Yes,sailsmayverywellbeblownaway。Andthatwouldbelikeadeathsentenceonthemen。Wehaven’tstrengthenoughonboardtobendanothersuit;incrediblethought,butitistrue。Orwemayevengetdismasted。Shipshavebeendismastedinsquallssimplybecausetheyweren’thandledquickenough,andwehavenopowertowhirltheyardsaround。It’slikebeingboundhandandfootpre-
paratorytohavingone’sthroatcut。AndwhatappalsmemostofallisthatIshrinkfromgoingondecktofaceit。It’sduetotheship,it’sduetothemenwhoarethereondeck——someofthem,readytoputoutthelastremnantoftheirstrengthatawordfromme。AndIamshrinkingfromit。Fromthemerevision。Myfirstcommand。NowI
understandthatstrangesenseofinsecurityinmypast。IalwayssuspectedthatImightbenogood。
Andhereisproofpositive。Iamshirkingit。I
amnogood。\"
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Atthatmoment,or,perhaps,themomentafter,IbecameawareofRansomestandinginthecabin。
Somethinginhisexpressionstartledme。IthadameaningwhichIcouldnotmakeout。Iexclaimed:
\"Somebody’sdead。\"
Itwashisturnthentolookstartled。
\"Dead?NotthatIknowof,sir。Ihavebeenintheforecastleonlytenminutesagoandtherewasnodeadmantherethen。\"
\"Youdidgivemeascare,\"Isaid。
Hisvoicewasextremelypleasanttolistento。
HeexplainedthathehadcomedownbelowtocloseMr。Burns’portincaseitshouldcomeontorain。
\"HedidnotknowthatIwasinthecabin,\"headded。
\"Howdoesitlookoutside?\"Iaskedhim。
\"Veryblack,indeed,sir。Thereissomethinginitforcertain。\"
\"Inwhatquarter?\"
\"Allround,sir。\"
Irepeatedidly:\"Allround。Forcertain,\"withmyelbowsonthetable。
Ransomelingeredinthecabinasifhehadsome-
thingtodothere,buthesitatedaboutdoingit。I
saidsuddenly:
\"YouthinkIoughttobeondeck?\"
Heansweredatoncebutwithoutanyparticularemphasisoraccent:\"Ido,sir。\"
Igottomyfeetbriskly,andhemadewayformetogoout。AsIpassedthroughthelobbyIheardMr。Burns’voicesaying:
\"Shutthedoorofmyroom,willyou,steward?\"
AndRansome’srathersurprised:\"Certainly,sir。\"
Ithoughtthatallmyfeelingshadbeendulledintocompleteindifference。ButIfounditastry-
ingasevertobeondeck。Theimpenetrableblack-
nessbesettheshipsoclosethatitseemedthatbythrustingone’shandoverthesideonecouldtouchsomeunearthlysubstance。Therewasinitaneffectofinconceivableterrorandofinexpressiblemystery。Thefewstarsoverheadshedadimlightupontheshipalone,withnogleamsofanykinduponthewater,indetachedshaftspiercinganat-
mospherewhichhadturnedtosoot。Itwassome-
thingIhadneverseenbefore,givingnohintofthedirectionfromwhichanychangewouldcome,theclosinginofamenacefromallsides。
Therewasstillnomanatthehelm。Theim-
mobilityofallthingswasperfect。Iftheairhadturnedblack,thesea,forallIknew,mighthaveturnedsolid。Itwasnogoodlookinginanydi-
rection,watchingforanysign,speculatinguponthenearnessofthemoment。Whenthetimecametheblacknesswouldoverwhelmsilentlythebitofstarlightfallingupontheship,andtheendofallthingswouldcomewithoutasigh,stir,ormurmurofanykind,andallourheartswouldceasetobeatlikerun-downclocks。
Itwasimpossibletoshakeoffthatsenseoffinality。Thequietnessthatcameovermewaslikeaforetasteofannihilation。Itgavemeasortofcomfort,asthoughmysoulhadbecomesuddenlyreconciledtoaneternityofblindstillness。
Theseaman’sinstinctalonesurvivedwholeinmymoraldissolution。Idescendedtheladdertothequarter-deck。Thestarlightseemedtodieoutbeforereachingthatspot,butwhenIaskedquietly:\"Areyouthere,men?\"myeyesmadeoutshadowformsstartinguparoundme,veryfew,veryindistinct;andavoicespoke:\"Allhere,sir。\"
Anotheramendedanxiously:
\"Allthatareanygoodforanything,sir。\"
Bothvoiceswereveryquietandunringing;with-
outanyspecialcharacterofreadinessordiscour-
agement。Verymatter-of-factvoices。
\"Wemusttrytohaulthismainsailcloseup,\"Isaid。
Theshadowsswayedawayfrommewithoutaword。Thosemenweretheghostsofthemselves,andtheirweightonaropecouldbenomorethantheweightofabunchofghosts。Indeed,ifeverasailwashauledupbysheerspiritualstrengthitmusthavebeenthatsail,for,properlyspeaking,therewasnotmuscleenoughforthetaskinthewholeshipletalonethemiserablelotofusondeck。
Ofcourse,Itooktheleadintheworkmyself。
Theywanderedfeeblyaftermefromropetorope,stumblingandpanting。TheytoiledlikeTitans。
Wewerehalf-an-houratitatleast,andallthetimetheblackuniversemadenosound。Whenthelastleech-linewasmadefast,myeyes,accustomedtothedarkness,madeouttheshapesofexhaustedmendroopingovertherails,collapsedonhatches。
Onehungovertheafter-capstan,sobbingforbreath,andIstoodamongstthemlikeatowerofstrength,impervioustodiseaseandfeelingonlythesicknessofmysoul。Iwaitedforsometimefight-
ingagainsttheweightofmysins,againstmysenseofunworthiness,andthenIsaid:
\"Now,men,we’llgoaftandsquarethemainyard。
That’saboutallwecandofortheship;andfortherestshemusttakeherchance。\"
part2-6
ChapterVI
ASWEallwentupitoccurredtomethatthereoughttobeamanatthehelm。Iraisedmyvoicenotmuchaboveawhisper,and,noiselessly,anun-
complainingspiritinafever-wastedbodyappearedinthelightaft,theheadwithholloweyesillumi-
natedagainsttheblacknesswhichhadswallowedupourworld——andtheuniverse。Thebaredfore-
armextendedovertheupperspokesseemedtoshinewithalightofitsown。
Imurmuredtothatluminousappearance:
\"Keepthehelmrightamidships。\"
Itansweredinatoneofpatientsuffering:
\"Rightamidships,sir。\"
ThenIdescendedtothequarter-deck。Itwasimpossibletotellwhencetheblowwouldcome。Tolookroundtheshipwastolookintoabottomless,blackpit。Theeyelostitselfininconceivabledepths。
Iwantedtoascertainwhethertheropeshadbeenpickedupoffthedeck。Onecouldonlydothatbyfeelingwithone’sfeet。InmycautiousprogressI
cameagainstamaninwhomIrecognizedRansome。Hepossessedanunimpairedphysicalsoliditywhichwasmanifesttomeatthecontact。
Hewasleaningagainstthequarter-deckcapstanandkeptsilent。Itwaslikearevelation。HewasthecollapsedfiguresobbingforbreathIhadno-
ticedbeforewewentonthepoop。
\"Youhavebeenhelpingwiththemainsail!\"I
exclaimedinalowtone。
\"Yes,sir,\"soundedhisquietvoice。
\"Man!Whatwereyouthinkingof?Youmustn’tdothatsortofthing。\"
Afterapauseheassented:\"IsupposeI
mustn’t。\"Thenafteranothershortsilenceheadded:\"Iamallrightnow,\"quickly,betweenthetell-talegasps。
Icouldneitherhearnorseeanybodyelse;butwhenIspokeup,answeringsadmurmursfilledthequarter-deck,anditsshadowsseemedtoshifthereandthere。Iorderedallthehalyardslaiddownondeckclearforrunning。
\"I’llseetothat,sir,\"volunteeredRansomeinhisnatural,pleasanttone,whichcomfortedoneandarousedone’scompassion,too,somehow。
Thatmanoughttohavebeeninhisbed,resting,andmyplaindutywastosendhimthere。Butperhapshewouldnothaveobeyedme;Ihadnotthestrengthofmindtotry。AllIsaidwas:
\"Goaboutitquietly,Ransome。\"
ReturningonthepoopIapproachedGambril。
Hisface,setwithhollowshadowsinthelight,lookedawful,finallysilenced。Iaskedhimhowhefelt,buthardlyexpectedananswer。There-
fore,Iwasastonishedathiscomparativeloquac-
ity。
\"Themshakesleavesmeasweakasakitten,sir,\"hesaid,preservingfinelythatairofuncon-
sciousnessastoanythingbuthisbusinessahelms-
manshouldneverlose。\"AndbeforeIcanpickupmystrengththattherehotfitcomesalongandknocksmeoveragain。\"
Hesighed。Therewasnoreproachinhistone,butthebarewordswereenoughtogivemeahor-
riblepangofself-reproach。Itheldmedumbforatime。WhenthetormentingsensationhadpassedoffIasked:
\"Doyoufeelstrongenoughtopreventtherud-
dertakingchargeifshegetssternwayonher?Itwouldn’tdotogetsomethingsmashedaboutthesteering-gearnow。We’veenoughdifficultiestocopewithasitis。\"
Heansweredwithjustashadeofwearinessthathewasstrongenoughtohangon。Hecouldpromisemethatsheshouldn’ttakethewheeloutofhishands。Morehecouldn’tsay。
AtthatmomentRansomeappearedquiteclosetome,steppingoutofthedarknessintovisibilitysuddenly,asifjustcreatedwithhiscomposedfaceandpleasantvoice。
Everyropeondeck,hesaid,waslaiddownclearforrunning,asfarasonecouldmakecertainbyfeeling。Itwasimpossibletoseeanything。
Frenchyhadstationedhimselfforward。Hesaidhehadajumportwoleftinhimyet。
Hereafaintsmilealteredforaninstanttheclear,firmdesignofRansome’slips。Withhisseriousclear,grayeyes,hisserenetemperament——
hewasapricelessmanaltogether。Soulasfirmasthemusclesofhisbody。
Hewastheonlymanonboard(exceptme,butI
hadtopreservemylibertyofmovement)whohadasufficiencyofmuscularstrengthtotrustto。ForamomentIthoughtIhadbetteraskhimtotakethewheel。Butthedreadfulknowledgeoftheenemyhehadtocarryabouthimmademehesi-
tate。Inmyignoranceofphysiologyitoccurredtomethathemightdiesuddenly,fromexcitement,atacriticalmoment。
Whilethisgruesomefearrestrainedthereadywordsonthetipofmytongue,Ransomesteppedbacktwopacesandvanishedfrommysight。
Atonceanuneasinesspossessedme,asifsomesupporthadbeenwithdrawn。Imovedforward,too,outsidethecircleoflight,intothedarknessthatstoodinfrontofmelikeawall。InonestrideIpenetratedit。Suchmusthavebeenthedark-
nessbeforecreation。Ithadclosedbehindme。I
knewIwasinvisibletothemanatthehelm。
NeithercouldIseeanything。Hewasalone,Iwasalone,everymanwasalonewherehestood。Andeveryformwasgone,too,spar,sail,fittings,rails;
everythingwasblottedoutinthedreadfulsmooth-
nessofthatabsolutenight。
Aflashoflightningwouldhavebeenarelief——I
meanphysically。Iwouldhaveprayedforitifithadn’tbeenformyshrinkingapprehensionofthethunder。InthetensionofsilenceIwassufferingfromitseemedtomethatthefirstcrashmustturnmeintodust。
Andthunderwas,mostlikely,whatwouldhap-
pennext。Stiffalloverandhardlybreathing,Iwaitedwithahorriblystrainedexpectation。
Nothinghappened。Itwasmaddening,butadull,growingacheinthelowerpartofmyfacemademeawarethatIhadbeengrindingmyteethmadlyenough,forGodknowshowlong。
It’sextraordinaryIshouldnothaveheardmy-
selfdoingit;butIhadn’t。ByaneffortwhichabsorbedallmyfacultiesImanagedtokeepmyjawstill。Itrequiredmuchattention,andwhilethusengagedIbecamebotheredbycurious,ir-
regularsoundsoffainttappingonthedeck。Theycouldbeheardsingle,inpairs,ingroups。WhileIwonderedatthismysteriousdevilry,Ireceivedaslightblowunderthelefteyeandfeltanenor-
moustearrundownmycheek。Raindrops。
Enormous。Forerunnersofsomething。
Tap。Tap。Tap……
Iturnedabout,and,addressingGambrelearnestly,entreatedhimto\"hangontothewheel。\"
ButIcouldhardlyspeakfromemotion。Thefatalmomenthadcome。Iheldmybreath。Thetap-
pinghadstoppedasunexpectedlyasithadbegun,andtherewasarenewedmomentofintolerablesus-
pense;somethinglikeanadditionalturnoftherackingscrew。Idon’tsupposeIwouldhaveeverscreamed,butIremembermyconvictionthattherewasnothingelseforitbuttoscream。
Suddenly——howamItoconveyit?Well,sud-
denlythedarknessturnedintowater。Thisistheonlysuitablefigure。Aheavyshower,adown-
pour,comesalong,makinganoise。Youhearitsapproachonthesea,intheair,too,Iverilybelieve。
Butthiswasdifferent。Withnopreliminarywhisperorrustle,withoutasplash,andevenwith-
outtheghostofimpact,Ibecameinstantaneouslysoakedtotheskin。Notaverydifficultmatter,sinceIwaswearingonlymysleepingsuit。Myhairgotfullofwaterinaninstant,waterstreamedonmyskin,itfilledmynose,myears,myeyes。
InafractionofasecondIswallowedquitealotofit。
AstoGambril,hewasfairlychoked。Hecoughedpitifully,thebrokencoughofasickman;
andIbeheldhimasoneseesafishinanaquariumbythelightofanelectricbulb,anelusive,phos-
phorescentshape。Onlyhedidnotglideaway。
Butsomethingelsehappened。Bothbinnacle-
lampswentout。Isupposethewaterforceditselfintothem,thoughIwouldn’thavethoughtthatpossible,fortheyfittedintothecowlperfectly。
Thelastgleamoflightintheuniversehadgone,pursuedbyalowexclamationofdismayfromGambril。Igropedforhimandseizedhisarm。
Howstartlinglywasteditwas。
\"Nevermind,\"Isaid。\"Youdon’twantthelight。Allyouneedtodoistokeepthewind,whenitcomes,atthebackofyourhead。Youunderstand?\"
\"Aye,aye,sir……ButIshouldliketohavealight,\"headdednervously。
Allthattimetheshiplayassteadyasarock。
Thenoiseofthewaterpouringoffthesailsandspars,flowingoverthebreakofthepoop,hadstoppedshort。Thepoopscuppersgurgledandsobbedforalittlewhilelonger,andthenperfectsilence,joinedtoperfectimmobility,proclaimedtheyetunbrokenspellofourhelplessness,poisedontheedgeofsomeviolentissue,lurkinginthedark。
Istartedforwardrestlessly。Ididnotneedmysighttopacethepoopofmyill-starredfirstcom-
mandwithperfectassurance。Everysquarefootofherdeckswasimpressedindeliblyonmybrain,totheverygrainandknotsoftheplanks。Yet,allofasudden,Ifellcleanoversomething,landingfulllengthonmyhandsandface。
Itwassomethingbigandalive。Notadog——
morelikeasheep,rather。Buttherewerenoanimalsintheship。Howcouldananimal……
ItwasanaddedandfantastichorrorwhichIcouldnotresist。ThehairofmyheadstirredevenasI
pickedmyselfup,awfullyscared;notasamanisscaredwhilehisjudgment,hisreasonstilltrytoresist,butcompletely,boundlessly,and,asitwere,innocentlyscared——likealittlechild。
IcouldseeIt——thatThing!Thedarkness,ofwhichsomuchhadjustturnedintowater,hadthinneddownalittle。ThereItwas!ButIdidnothituponthenotionofMr。Burnsissuingoutofthecompaniononallfourstillheattemptedtostandup,andeventhentheideaofabearcrossedmymindfirst。
HegrowledlikeonewhenIseizedhimroundthebody。Hehadbuttonedhimselfupintoanenor-
mouswinterovercoatofsomewoollymaterial,theweightofwhichwastoomuchforhisreducedstate。
Icouldhardlyfeeltheincrediblythinlathofhisbody,lostwithinthethickstuff,buthisgrowlhaddepthandsubstance:Confoundeddumpshipwithacraven,tiptoeingcrowd。Whycouldn’ttheystampandgowithabrace?Wasn’tthereoneGod-
forsakenlubberinthelotfittoraiseayellonarope?
\"Skulking’snogood,sir,\"heattackedmedirectly。\"Youcan’tslinkpasttheoldmurderousruffian。Itisn’ttheway。Youmustgoforhimboldly——asIdid。Boldnessiswhatyouwant。
Showhimthatyoudon’tcareforanyofhisdamnedtricks。Kickupajollyoldrow。\"
\"GoodGod,Mr。Burns,\"Isaidangrily。
\"Whatonearthareyouupto?Whatdoyoumeanbycomingupondeckinthisstate?\"
\"Justthat!Boldness。Theonlywaytoscaretheoldbullyingrascal。\"
Ipushedhim,stillgrowling,againsttherail。
\"Holdontoit,\"Isaidroughly。Ididnotknowwhattodowithhim。Ilefthiminahurry,togotoGambril,whohadcalledfaintlythathebelievedtherewassomewindaloft。Indeed,myownearshadcaughtafeebleflutterofwetcanvas,highupoverhead,thejingleofaslackchainsheet……
Thesewereeerie,disturbing,alarmingsoundsinthedeadstillnessoftheairaroundme。AlltheinstancesIhadheardoftopmastsbeingwhippedoutofashipwhiletherewasnotwindenoughonherdecktoblowoutamatchrushedintomymemory。
\"Ican’tseetheuppersails,sir,\"declaredGambrilshakily。
\"Don’tmovethehelm。You’llbeallright,\"I
saidconfidently。
Thepoorman’snervesweregone。Minewerenotinmuchbettercase。Itwasthemomentofbreakingstrainandwasrelievedbytheabruptsensationoftheshipmovingforwardasifofher-
selfundermyfeet。Iheardplainlythesoughingofthewindaloft,thelowcracksoftheuppersparstakingthestrain,longbeforeIcouldfeeltheleastdraughtonmyfaceturnedaft,anxiousandsight-
lesslikethefaceofablindman。
Suddenlyalouder-soundingnotefilledourears,thedarknessstartedstreamingagainstourbodies,chillingthemexceedingly。Bothofus,GambrilandI,shiveredviolentlyinourclinging,soakedgarmentsofthincotton。Isaidtohim:
\"Youareallrightnow,myman。Allyou’vegottodoistokeepthewindatthebackofyourhead。
Surelyyouareuptothat。Achildcouldsteerthisshipinsmoothwater。\"
Hemuttered:\"Aye!Ahealthychild。\"AndI
feltashamedofhavingbeenpassedoverbythefeverwhichhadbeenpreyingoneveryman’sstrengthbutmine,inorderthatmyremorsemightbethemorebitter,thefeelingofunworthinessmorepoignant,andthesenseofresponsibilityheaviertobear。
Theshiphadgatheredgreatwayonheralmostatonceonthecalmwater。Ifeltherslippingthroughitwithnoothernoisebutamysteriousrustlealongside。Otherwise,shehadnomotionatall,neitherliftnorroll。Itwasadishearteningsteadinesswhichhadlastedforeighteendaysnow;fornever,neverhadwehadwindenoughinthattimetoraisetheslightestrunofthesea。Thebreezefreshenedsuddenly。IthoughtitwashightimetogetMr。Burnsoffthedeck。Heworriedme。Ilookeduponhimasalunaticwhowouldbeverylikelytostartroamingovertheshipandbreakalimborfalloverboard。
IwastrulygladtofindhehadremainedholdingonwhereIhadlefthim,sensiblyenough。Hewas,however,mutteringtohimselfominously。
Thiswasdiscouraging。Iremarkedinamatter-
of-facttone:
\"Wehaveneverhadsomuchwindasthissincewelefttheroads。\"
\"There’ssomeheartinit,too,\"hegrowledjudiciously。Itwasaremarkofaperfectlysaneseaman。Butheaddedimmediately:\"ItwasabouttimeIshouldcomeondeck。I’vebeennursingmystrengthforthis——justforthis。Doyouseeit,sir?\"
IsaidIdid,andproceededtohintthatitwouldbeadvisableforhimtogobelownowandtakearest。
Hisanswerwasanindignant\"Gobelow!NotifIknowit,sir。\"
Verycheerful!Hewasahorriblenuisance。Andallatoncehestartedtoargue。Icouldfeelhiscrazyexcitementinthedark。
\"Youdon’tknowhowtogoaboutit,sir。Howcouldyou?Allthiswhisperingandtiptoeingisnogood。Youcan’thopetoslinkpastacunning,wide-awake,evilbrutelikehewas。Youneverheardhimtalk。Enoughtomakeyourhairstandonend。No!No!Hewasn’tmad。HewasnomoremadthanIam。Hewasjustdownrightwicked。Wickedsoastofrightenmostpeople。I
willtellyouwhathewas。Hewasnothinglessthanathiefandamurdereratheart。Anddoyouthinkhe’sanydifferentnowbecausehe’sdead?
Nothe!Hiscarcassliesahundredfathomunder,buthe’sjustthesame……inlatitude8d20’
north。\"
Hesnorteddefiantly。Inotedwithwearyresig-
nationthatthebreezehadgotlighterwhileheraved。Hewasatitagain。
\"Ioughttohavethrownthebeggaroutoftheshipovertheraillikeadog。Itwasonlyonac-
countofthemen……FancyhavingtoreadtheBurialServiceoverabrutelikethat!……’Ourdepartedbrother’……Icouldhavelaughed。
Thatwaswhathecouldn’tbear。IsupposeIamtheonlymanthateverstooduptolaughathim。
Whenhegotsickitusedtoscarethat……
brother……Brother……Departed……Soonercallasharkbrother。\"
Thebreezehadletgososuddenlythatthewayoftheshipbroughtthewetsailsheavilyagainstthemast。Thespellofdeadlystillnesshadcaughtusupagain。Thereseemedtobenoescape。
\"Hallo!\"exclaimedMr。Burnsinastartledvoice。\"Calmagain!\"
Iaddressedhimasthoughhehadbeensane。
\"Thisisthesortofthingwe’vebeenhavingforseventeendays,Mr。Burns,\"Isaidwithintensebitterness。\"Apuff,thenacalm,andinamo-
ment,you’llsee,she’llbeswingingonherheelwithherheadawayfromhercoursetothedevilsome-
where。\"
Hecaughtattheword。\"TheolddodgingDevil,\"hescreamedpiercinglyandburstintosuchaloudlaughasIhadneverheardbefore。Itwasaprovoking,mockingpeal,withahair-raising,screechingover-noteofdefiance。Isteppedback,utterlyconfounded。
Instantlytherewasastironthequarter-deck;
murmursofdismay。Adistressedvoicecriedoutinthedarkbelowus:\"Who’sthatgonecrazy,now?\"
Perhapstheythoughtitwastheircaptain?
Rushisnotthewordthatcouldbeappliedtotheutmostspeedthepoorfellowswereupto;butinanamazingshorttimeeverymanintheshipabletowalkuprighthadfoundhiswayontothatpoop。
Ishoutedtothem:\"It’sthemate。Layholdofhimacoupleofyou……\"
Iexpectedthisperformancetoendinaghastlysortoffight。ButMr。Burnscuthisderisivescreechingdeadshortandturneduponthemfiercely,yelling:
\"Aha!Dog-goneye!You’vefoundyourtongues——haveye?Ithoughtyouweredumb。
Well,then——laugh!Laugh——Itellyou。Nowthen——alltogether。One,two,three——laugh!\"
Amomentofsilenceensued,ofsilencesopro-
foundthatyoucouldhaveheardapindroponthedeck。ThenRansome’sunperturbedvoiceutteredpleasantlythewords:
\"Ithinkhehasfainted,sir——\"Thelittlemotionlessknotofmenstirred,withlowmurmursofrelief。\"I’vegothimunderthearms。Getholdofhislegs,someone。\"
Yes。Itwasarelief。Hewassilencedforatime——foratime。Icouldnothavestoodanotherpealofthatinsanescreeching。Iwassureofit;
andjustthenGambril,theaustereGambril,treatedustoanothervocalperformance。Hebegantosingoutforrelief。Hisvoicewailedpitifullyinthedarkness:\"Comeaftsomebody!Ican’tstandthis。Hereshe’llbeoffagaindirectlyandI
can’t……\"
IdashedaftmyselfmeetingonmywayahardgustofwindwhoseapproachGambril’searhaddetectedfromafarandwhichfilledthesailsonthemaininaseriesofmuffledreportsmingledwiththelowplaintofthespars。IwasjustintimetoseizethewheelwhileFrenchywhohadfollowedmecaughtupthecollapsingGambril。Hehauledhimoutoftheway,admonishedhimtoliestillwherehewas,andthensteppeduptorelieveme,askingcalmly:
\"HowamItosteerher,sir?\"
\"Deadbeforeitforthepresent。I’llgetyoualightinamoment。\"
ButgoingforwardImetRansomebringingupthesparebinnaclelamp。Thatmannoticedeverything,attendedtoeverything,shedcomfortaroundhimashemoved。Ashepassedmehere-
markedinasoothingtonethatthestarswerecom-
ingout。Theywere。Thebreezewassweepingclearthesootysky,breakingthroughtheindolentsilenceofthesea。
Thebarrierofawfulstillnesswhichhadencom-
passedusforsomanydaysasthoughwehadbeenaccursed,wasbroken。Ifeltthat。Iletmyselffallontotheskylightseat。Afaintwhiteridgeoffoam,thin,verythin,brokealongside。Thefirstforages——forages。Icouldhavecheered,ifithadn’tbeenforthesenseofguiltwhichclungtoallmythoughtssecretly。Ransomestoodbeforeme。
\"Whataboutthemate,\"Iaskedanxiously。
\"Stillunconscious?\"
\"Well,sir——it’sfunny,\"Ransomewasevidentlypuzzled。\"Hehasn’tspokenaword,andhiseyesareshut。Butitlookstomemorelikesoundsleepthananythingelse。\"
Iacceptedthisviewastheleasttroublesomeofany,oratanyrate,leastdisturbing。Deadfaintordeepslumber,Mr。Burnshadtobelefttohim-
selfforthepresent。Ransomeremarkedsud-
denly:
\"Ibelieveyouwantacoat,sir。\"
\"IbelieveIdo,\"Isighedout。
ButIdidnotmove。WhatIfeltIwantedwerenewlimbs。Myarmsandlegsseemedutterlyuse-
less,fairlywornout。Theydidn’tevenache。ButIstoodupallthesametoputonthecoatwhenRansomebroughtitup。Andwhenhesuggestedthathehadbetternow\"takeGambrilforward,\"I
said:
\"Allright。I’llhelpyoutogethimdownonthemaindeck。\"
IfoundthatIwasquiteabletohelp,too。WeraisedGambrilupbetweenus。Hetriedtohelphimselfalonglikeamanbutallthetimehewasin-
quiringpiteously:
\"Youwon’tletmegowhenwecometothelad-
der?Youwon’tletmegowhenwecometotheladder?\"
Thebreezekeptonfresheningandblewtrue,truetoahair。Atdaylightbycarefulmanipula-
tionofthehelmwegottheforeyardstorunsquarebythemselves(thewaterkeepingsmooth)andthenwentabouthaulingtheropestight。OfthefourmenIhadwithmeatnight,Icouldseenowonlytwo。Ididn’tinquireastotheothers。Theyhadgivenin。ForatimeonlyIhoped。
Ourvarioustasksforwardoccupiedusforhours,thetwomenwithmemovedsoslowandhadtorestsooften。Oneofthemremarkedthat\"everyblamedthingintheshipfeltaboutahundredtimesheavierthanitsproperweight。\"Thiswastheonlycomplaintuttered。Idon’tknowwhatweshouldhavedonewithoutRansome。Heworkedwithus,silent,too,withalittlesmilefrozenonhislips。FromtimetotimeImurmuredtohim:
\"Gosteady\"——\"Takeiteasy,Ransome\"——andre-
ceivedaquickglanceinreply。
Whenwehaddoneallwecoulddotomakethingssafe,hedisappearedintohisgalley。Sometimeafterward,goingforwardforalookround,I
caughtsightofhimthroughtheopendoor。Hesatuprightonthelockerinfrontofthestove,withhisheadleaningbackagainstthebulkhead。Hiseyeswereclosed;hiscapablehandsheldopenthefrontofhisthincottonshirtbaringtragicallyhispowerfulchest,whichheavedinpainfulandlabouredgasps。Hedidn’thearme。
IretreatedquietlyandwentstraightontothepooptorelieveFrenchy,whobythattimewasbe-
ginningtolookverysick。Hegavemethecoursewithgreatformalityandtriedtogooffwithajauntystep,butreeledwidelytwicebeforegettingoutofmysight。
AndthenIremainedallaloneaft,steeringmyship,whichranbeforethewindwithabuoyantliftnowandthen,andevenrollingalittle。PresentlyRansomeappearedbeforemewithatray。Thesightoffoodmademeravenousallatonce。HetookthewheelwhileIsatdownoftheaftergratingtoeatmybreakfast。
\"Thisbreezeseemstohavedoneforourcrowd,\"
hemurmured。\"Itjustlaidthemlow——allhands。\"
\"Yes,\"Isaid。\"IsupposeyouandIaretheonlytwofitmenintheship。\"
\"Frenchysaysthere’sstillajumpleftinhim。I
don’tknow。Itcan’tbemuch,\"continuedRan-
somewithhiswistfulsmile。Goodlittlemanthat。
Butsuppose,sir,thatthiswindfliesroundwhenweareclosetotheland——whatarewegoingtodowithher?\"
\"Ifthewindshiftsroundheavilyafterwecloseinwiththelandshewilleitherrunashoreorgetdismastedorboth。Wewon’tbeabletodoany-
thingwithher。She’srunningawaywithusnow。
Allwecandoistosteerher。She’sashipwithoutacrew。\"
\"Yes。Alllaidlow,\"repeatedRansomequietly。
\"Idogivethemalook-inforwardeverynowandthen,butit’spreciouslittleIcandoforthem。\"
\"I,andtheship,andeveryoneonboardofher,areverymuchindebtedtoyou,Ransome,\"Isaidwarmly。
Hemadeasthoughhehadnotheardme,andsteeredinsilencetillIwasreadytorelievehim。Hesurrenderedthewheel,pickedupthetray,andforapartingshotinformedmethatMr。Burnswasawakeandseemedtohaveamindtocomeupondeck。
\"Idon’tknowhowtopreventhim,sir。Ican’tverywellstopdownbelowallthetime。\"
Itwasclearthathecouldn’t。AndsureenoughMr。Burnscameondeckdragginghimselfpainfullyaftinhisenormousovercoat。Ibeheldhimwithanaturaldread。TohavehimaroundandravingaboutthewilesofadeadmanwhileIhadtosteerawildlyrushingshipfullofdyingmenwasaratherdreadfulprospect。
Buthisfirstremarkswerequitesensibleinmean-
ingandtone。Apparentlyhehadnorecollectionofthenightscene。Andifhehadhedidn’tbetrayhimselfonce。Neitherdidhetalkverymuch。Hesatontheskylightlookingdesperatelyillatfirst,butthatstrongbreeze,beforewhichthelastrem-
nantofmycrewhadwilteddown,seemedtoblowafreshstockofvigourintohisframewitheverygust。
Onecouldalmostseetheprocess。
BywayofsanitytestIalludedonpurposetothelatecaptain。IwasdelightedtofindthatMr。
Burnsdidnotdisplayundueinterestinthesub-
ject。Heranovertheoldtaleofthatsavageruffian’siniquitieswithacertainvindictivegustoandthenconcludedunexpectedly:
\"Idobelieve,sir,thathisbrainbegantogoayearormorebeforehedied。\"
Awonderfulrecovery。Icouldhardlyspareitasmuchadmirationasitdeserved,forIhadtogiveallmymindtothesteering。
Incomparisonwiththehopelesslanguouroftheprecedingdaysthiswasdizzyspeed。Tworidgesoffoamstreamedfromtheship’sbows;thewindsanginastrenuousnotewhichunderothercir-
cumstanceswouldhaveexpressedtomeallthejoyoflife。Wheneverthehauled-upmainsailstartedtryingtoslatandbangitselftopiecesinitsgear,Mr。Burnswouldlookatmeapprehensively。
\"Whatwouldyouhavemetodo,Mr。Burns?
Wecanneitherfurlitnorsetit。Ionlywishtheoldthingwouldthrashitselftopiecesandbedonewithit。Thatbeastlyracketconfusesme。\"
Mr。Burnswrunghishands,andcriedoutsud-
denly:
\"Howwillyougettheshipintoharbour,sir,withoutmentohandleher?\"
AndIcouldn’ttellhim。
Well——itdidgetdoneaboutfortyhoursafter-
ward。BytheexorcisingvirtueofMr。Burns’
awfullaugh,themaliciousspectrehadbeenlaid,theevilspellbroken,thecurseremoved。WewerenowinthehandsofakindandenergeticProvi-
dence。Itwasrushinguson……
Ishallneverforgetthelastnight,dark,windy,andstarry。Isteered。Mr。Burns,afterhavingobtainedfrommeasolemnpromisetogivehimakickifanythinghappened,wentfranklytosleeponthedeckclosetothebinnacle。Convalescentsneedsleep。Ransome,hisbackproppedagainstthemizzen-mastandablanketoverhislegs,re-
mainedperfectlystill,butIdon’tsupposeheclosedhiseyesforamoment。Thatembodimentofjauntiness,Frenchy,stillunderthedelusionthattherewasa\"jump\"leftinhim,hadinsistedonjoiningus;butmindfulofdiscipline,hadlaidhim-
selfdownasfarontheforepartofthepoopashecouldget,alongsidethebucket-rack。
AndIsteered,tootiredforanxiety,tootiredforconnectedthought。Ihadmomentsofgrimex-
ultationandthenmyheartwouldsinkawfullyatthethoughtofthatforecastleattheotherendofthedarkdeck,fulloffever-strickenmen——someofthemdying。Bymyfault。Butnevermind。
Remorsemustwait。Ihadtosteer。
Inthesmallhoursthebreezeweakened,thenfailedaltogether。Aboutfiveitreturned,gentleenough,enablingustoheadfortheroadstead。
DaybreakfoundMr。Burnssittingwedgedupwithcoilsofropeonthestern-grating,andfromthedepthsofhisovercoatsteeringtheshipwithverywhitebonyhands;whileRansomeandIrushedalongthedeckslettinggoallthesheetsandhal-
liardsbytherun。Wedashednextupontotheforecastlehead。Theperspirationoflabourandsheernervousnesssimplypouredoffourheadsaswetoiledtogettheanchorscock-billed。IdarednotlookatRansomeasweworkedsidebyside。
Weexchangedcurtwords;IcouldhearhimpantingclosetomeandIavoidedturningmyeyeshiswayforfearofseeinghimfalldownandexpireintheactofputtingforthhisstrength——forwhat?In-
deedforsomedistinctideal。
Theconsummateseamaninhimwasaroused。
Heneedednodirections。Heknewwhattodo。
Everyeffort,everymovementwasanactofcon-
sistentheroism。Itwasnotformetolookatamanthusinspired。
AtlastallwasreadyandIheardhimsay:
\"Hadn’tIbettergodownandopenthecompressorsnow,sir?\"
\"Yes。Do,\"Isaid。
AndeventhenIdidnotglancehisway。Afteratimehisvoicecameupfromthemaindeck。
\"Whenyoulike,sir。Allclearonthewindlasshere。\"
ImadeasigntoMr。Burnstoputthehelmdownandletbothanchorsgooneafteranother,leavingtheshiptotakeasmuchcableasshewanted。Shetookthebestpartofthembothbe-
foreshebroughtup。Theloosesailscomingabackceasedtheirmaddeningracketabovemyhead。A
perfectstillnessreignedintheship。AndwhileI
stoodforwardfeelingalittlegiddyinthatsuddenpeace,Icaughtfaintlyamoanortwoandthein-
coherentmutteringsofthesickintheforecastle。
Aswehadasignalformedicalassistanceflyingonthemizzenitisafactthatbeforetheshipwasfairlyatrestthreesteamlaunchesfromvariousmen-of-warwerealongside;andatleastfivenavalsurgeonshadclamberedonboard。Theystoodinaknotgazingupanddowntheemptymaindeck,thenlookedaloft——wherenotamancouldbeseen,either。
Iwenttowardthem——asolitaryfigure,inablueandgraystripedsleepingsuitandapipe-clayedcorkhelmetonitshead。Theirdisgustwasextreme。
Theyhadexpectedsurgicalcases。Eachonehadbroughthiscarvingtoolswithhim。Buttheysoongotovertheirlittledisappointment。Inlessthanfiveminutesoneofthesteamlauncheswasrushingshorewardtoorderabigboatandsomehospitalpeoplefortheremovalofthecrew。Thebigsteampinnacewentofftohershiptobringoverafewbluejacketstofurlmysailsforme。
Oneofthesurgeonshadremainedonboard。Hecameoutoftheforecastlelookingimpenetrable,andnoticedmyinquiringgaze。
\"There’snobodydeadinthere,ifthat’swhatyouwanttoknow,\"hesaiddeliberately。Thenaddedinatoneofwonder:\"Thewholecrew!\"
\"Andverybad?\"
\"Andverybad,\"herepeated。Hiseyeswereroamingallovertheship。\"Heavens!What’sthat?\"
\"That,\"Isaid,glancingaft,\"isMr。Burns,mychiefofficer。\"
Mr。Burnswithhismoribundheadnoddingonthestalkofhisleanneckwasasightforanyonetoexclaimat。Thesurgeonasked:
\"Ishegoingtothehospital,too?\"
\"Oh,no,\"Isaidjocosely。\"Mr。Burnscan’tgoonshoretillthemainmastgoes。Iamveryproudofhim。He’smyonlyconvalescent。\"
\"Youlook——\"beganthedoctorstaringatme。
ButIinterruptedhimangrily:
\"Iamnotill。\"
\"No……Youlookqueer。\"
\"Well,yousee,Ihavebeenseventeendaysondeck。\"
\"Seventeen!……Butyoumusthaveslept。\"
\"IsupposeImusthave。Idon’tknow。ButI’mcertainthatIdidn’tsleepforthelastfortyhours。\"
\"Phew!……YouwillbegoingashorepresentlyIsuppose?\"
\"AssoonaseverIcan。There’snoendofbusinesswaitingformethere。\"
Thesurgeonreleasedmyhand,whichhehadtakenwhilewetalked,pulledouthispocket-book,wroteinitrapidly,toreoutthepageandofferedittome。
\"Istronglyadviseyoutogetthisprescriptionmadeupforyourselfashore。UnlessIammuchmistakenyouwillneeditthisevening。\"
\"Whatisit,then?\"Iaskedwithsuspicion。
\"Sleepingdraught,\"answeredthesurgeoncurtly;andmovingwithanairofinteresttowardMr。Burnsheengagedhiminconversation。
AsIwentbelowtodresstogoashore,Ransomefollowedme。Hebeggedmypardon;hewished,too,tobesentashoreandpaidoff。
Ilookedathiminsurprise。Hewaswaitingformyanswerwithanairofanxiety。
\"Youdon’tmeantoleavetheship!\"Icriedout。
\"Idoreally,sir。Iwanttogoandbequietsome-
where。Anywhere。Thehospitalwilldo。\"
\"But,Ransome,\"Isaid。\"Ihatetheideaofpartingwithyou。\"
\"Imustgo,\"hebrokein。\"Ihavearight!\"……Hegaspedandalookofalmostsavagede-
terminationpassedoverhisface。Foraninstanthewasanotherbeing。AndIsawundertheworthandthecomelinessofthemanthehumblerealityofthings。Lifewasaboontohim——thisprecarioushardlife,andhewasthoroughlyalarmedabouthimself。
\"OfcourseIshallpayyouoffifyouwishit,\"I
hastenedtosay。\"OnlyImustaskyoutoremainonboardtillthisafternoon。Ican’tleaveMr。
Burnsabsolutelybyhimselfintheshipforhours。\"
Hesoftenedatonceandassuredmewithasmileandinhisnaturalpleasantvoicethatheunder-
stoodthatverywell。
WhenIreturnedondeckeverythingwasreadyfortheremovalofthemen。Itwasthelastordealofthatepisodewhichhadbeenmaturingandtem-
peringmycharacter——thoughIdidnotknowit。
Itwasawful。Theypassedundermyeyesoneafteranother——eachofthemanembodiedreproachofthebitterestkind,tillIfeltasortofrevoltwakeupinme。PoorFrenchyhadgonesuddenlyunder。
Hewascarriedpastmeinsensible,hiscomicfacehorriblyflushedandasifswollen,breathingstertorously。HelookedmorelikeMr。Punchthanever;adisgracefullyintoxicatedMr。Punch。
TheaustereGambril,onthecontrary,hadim-
provedtemporarily。Heinsistedonwalkingonhisownfeettotherail——ofcoursewithassistanceoneachsideofhim。Buthegavewaytoasuddenpanicatthemomentofbeingswungoverthesideandbegantowailpitifully:
\"Don’tletthemdropme,sir。Don’tletthemdropme,sir!\"WhileIkeptonshoutingtohiminmostsoothingaccents:\"Allright,Gambril。
Theywon’t!Theywon’t!\"
Itwasnodoubtveryridiculous。Theblue-
jacketsonourdeckweregrinningquietly,whileevenRansomehimself(muchtotheforeinlendingahand)hadtoenlargehiswistfulsmileforafleet-
ingmoment。
Ileftfortheshoreinthesteampinnace,andonlookingbackbeheldMr。Burnsactuallystandingupbythetaffrail,stillinhisenormouswoollyover-
coat。Thebrightsunlightbroughtouthisweird-
nessamazingly。Helookedlikeafrightfulandelaboratescarecrowsetuponthepoopofadeath-
strickenship,setuptokeeptheseabirdsfromthecorpses。
Ourstoryhadgotaboutalreadyintownandeverybodyonshorewasmostkind。TheMarineOfficeletmeofftheportdues,andastherehap-
penedtobeashipwreckedcrewstayingintheHomeIhadnodifficultyinobtainingasmanymenasIwanted。ButwhenIinquiredifIcouldseeCaptainEllisforamomentIwastoldinaccentsofpityformyignorancethatourdeputy-NeptunehadretiredandgonehomeonapensionaboutthreeweeksafterIlefttheport。SoIsupposethatmyappointmentwasthelastact,outsidethedailyroutine,ofhisofficiallife。
ItisstrangehowoncomingashoreIwasstruckbythespringystep,thelivelyeyes,thestrongvitalityofeveryoneImet。Itimpressedmeenormously。AndamongstthoseImettherewasCaptainGiles,ofcourse。ItwouldhavebeenveryextraordinaryifIhadnotmethim。Aprolongedstrollinthebusinesspartofthetownwastheregularemploymentofallhismorningswhenhewasashore。
Icaughttheglitterofthegoldwatch-chainacrosshischesteversofaraway。Heradiatedbenevolence。
\"WhatisitIhear?\"hequeriedwitha\"kinduncle\"smile,aftershakinghands。\"Twenty-onedaysfromBangkok?\"
\"Isthisallyou’veheard?\"Isaid。\"Youmustcometotiffinwithme。Iwantyoutoknowex-
actlywhatyouhaveletmeinfor。\"
Hehesitatedforalmostaminute。
\"Well——Iwill,\"hesaidcondescendinglyatlast。
Weturnedintothehotel。Ifoundtomysur-
prisethatIcouldeatquitealot。Thenovertheclearedtable-clothIunfoldedtoCaptainGilesthehistoryofthesetwentydaysinallitsprofessionalandemotionalaspects,whilehesmokedpatientlythebigcigarIhadgivenhim。
Thenheobservedsagely:
\"Youmustfeeljollywelltiredbythistime。\"
\"No,\"Isaid。\"Nottired。ButI’lltellyou,CaptainGiles,howIfeel。Ifeelold。AndImustbe。Allofyouonshorelooktomejustalotofskittishyoungstersthathaveneverknownacareintheworld。\"
Hedidn’tsmile。Helookedinsufferablyex-
emplary。Hedeclared:
\"Thatwillpass。Butyoudolookolder——it’safact。\"
\"Aha!\"Isaid。
\"No!No!Thetruthisthatonemustnotmaketoomuchofanythinginlife,goodorbad。\"
\"Liveathalf-speed,\"Imurmuredperversely。
\"Noteverybodycandothat。\"
\"You’llbegladenoughpresentlyifyoucankeepgoingevenatthatrate,\"heretortedwithhisairofconsciousvirtue。\"Andthere’sanotherthing:amanshouldstanduptohisbadluck,tohismis-
takes,tohisconscienceandallthatsortofthing。
Why——whatelsewouldyouhavetofightagainst。\"
Ikeptsilent。Idon’tknowwhathesawinmyfacebutheaskedabruptly:
\"Why——youaren’tfaint-hearted?\"
\"Godonlyknows,CaptainGiles,\"wasmysin-
cereanswer。
\"That’sallright,\"hesaidcalmly。\"Youwilllearnsoonhownottobefaint-hearted。Amanhasgottolearneverything——andthat’swhatsomanyofthemyoungstersdon’tunderstand。\"
\"Well,Iamnolongerayoungster。\"
\"No,\"heconceded。\"Areyouleavingsoon?\"
\"Iamgoingonboarddirectly,\"Isaid。\"Ishallpickuponeofmyanchorsandheaveintohalf-
cableontheotherdirectlymynewcrewcomesonboardandIshallbeoffatdaylightto-morrow!\"
\"Youwill,\"gruntedCaptainGilesapprovingly。
\"that’stheway。You’lldo。\"
\"Whatdidyouthink?ThatIwouldwanttotakeaweekashoreforarest?\"Isaid,irritatedbyhistone。\"There’snorestformetillshe’soutintheIndianOceanandnotmuchofiteventhen。\"
Hepuffedathiscigarmoodily,asiftransformed。
\"Yes。That’swhatitamountsto,\"hesaidinamusingtone。ItwasasifaponderouscurtainhadrolledupdisclosinganunexpectedCaptainGiles。
Butitwasonlyforamoment,justthetimetolethimadd,\"Preciouslittlerestinlifeforanybody。
Betternotthinkofit。\"
Werose,leftthehotel,andpartedfromeachotherinthestreetwithawarmhandshake,justashebegantointerestmeforthefirsttimeinourintercourse。
ThefirstthingIsawwhenIgotbacktotheshipwasRansomeonthequarter-decksittingquietlyonhisneatlylashedsea-chest。
IbeckonedhimtofollowmeintothesaloonwhereIsatdowntowritealetterofrecommenda-
tionforhimtoamanIknewonshore。
WhenfinishedIpusheditacrossthetable。\"Itmaybeofsomegoodtoyouwhenyouleavethehospital。\"
Hetookit,putitinhispocket。Hiseyeswerelookingawayfromme——nowhere。Hisfacewasanxiouslyset。
\"Howareyoufeelingnow?\"Iasked。
\"Idon’tfeelbadnow,sir,\"heansweredstiffly。
\"ButIamafraidofitscomingon……\"Thewistfulsmilecamebackonhislipsforamo-
ment。\"I——Iaminabluefunkaboutmyheart,sir。\"
Iapproachedhimwithextendedhand。Hiseyesnotlookingatmehadastrainedexpres-
sion。Hewaslikeamanlisteningforawarningcall。
\"Won’tyoushakehands,Ransome?\"Isaidgently。
Heexclaimed,flushedupduskyred,gavemyhandahardwrench——andnextmoment,leftaloneinthecabin,Ilistenedtohimgoingupthecom-
panionstairscautiously,stepbystep,inmortalfearofstartingintosuddenangerourcommonenemyitwashishardfatetocarryconsciouslywithinhisfaithfulbreast。