Therewasnohelpforit;shemuststayanddoherduty,orexposeherjealousytothequickeyesabouther。Foratimesheboreit;butthesightofhercousinleaningoverthechairshehadleftandchattingwiththegoverness,whonowfilledit,grewunbearable,andshedispatchedalittlegirlwithamessagetoMissMuir。
\"Please,MissBeaufortwantsyouforQueenBess,asyouaretheonlyladywithredhair。Willyoucome?\"whisperedthechild,quiteunconsciousofanyhiddenstinginherwords。
\"Yes,dear,willinglythoughI’mnotstatelyenoughforHerMajesty,norhandsomeenough,\"saidJean,risingwithanuntroubledface,thoughsheresentedthefeminineinsult。
\"DoyouwantanEssex?I’malldressedforit,\"saidCoventry,followingtothedoorwithawistfullook。
\"No,MissBeaufortsaidyouwerenottocome。Shedoesn’twantyoubothtogether,\"saidthechilddecidedly。
Jeangavehimasignificantlook,shruggedhershoulders,andwentawaysmilingheroddsmile,whileCoventrypacedupanddownthehallinacuriousstateofunrest,whichmadehimforgetfulofeverythingtilltheyoungpeoplecamegailyouttosupper。
\"Come,bonnyPrinceCharlie,takemedown,andplaytheloverascharminglyasyoudidanhourago。Ineverthoughtyouhadsomuchwarmthinyou,\"saidBella,takinghisarmanddrawinghimonagainsthiswill。
\"Don’tbefoolish,child。Whereis——Lucia?\"
WhyhecheckedJean’snameonhislipsandsubstitutedanother’s,hecouldnottell;butasuddenshynessinspeakingofherpossessedhim,andthoughhesawhernowhere,hewouldnotaskforher。Hiscousincamedownlookinglovelyinaclassicalcostume;butGeraldscarcelysawherand,whenthemerrimentwasatitsheight,heslippedawaytodiscoverwhathadbecomeofMissMuir。
Aloneinthedeserteddrawingroomhefoundher,andpausedtowatchheramomentbeforehespoke;forsomethinginherattitudeandfacestruckhim。Shewasleaningwearilybackinthegreatchairwhichhadservedforathrone。Herroyalrobeswerestillunchanged,thoughthecrownwasoffandallherfairhairhungabouthershoulders。
Excitementandexertionmadeherbrilliant,therichdressbecameherwonderfully,andanairofluxuriousindolencechangedthemeekgovernessintoacharmingwoman。Sheleanedonthevelvetcushionsasifshewereusedtosuchsupport;
sheplayedwiththejewelswhichhadcrownedherascarelesslyasifshewereborntowearthem;herattitudewasfullofnegligentgrace,andtheexpressionofherfacehalfproud,halfpensive,asifherthoughtswerebittersweet。
Onewouldknowshewaswellborntoseehernow。Poorgirl,whataburdenalifeofdependencemustbetoaspiritlikehers!
Iwonderwhatsheisthinkingofsointently。AndCoventryindulgedinanotherlookbeforehespoke。
\"ShallIbringyousomesupper,MissMuir?\"
\"Supper!\"sheejaculated,withastart。\"Whothinksofone’sbodywhenone’ssoulis——\"Shestoppedthere,knitherbrows,andlaughedfaintlyassheadded,\"No,thankyou。Iwantnothingbutadvice,andthatIdarenotaskofanyone。\"
\"Whynot?\"
\"BecauseIhavenoright。\"
\"Everyonehasarighttoaskhelp,especiallytheweakofthestrong。CanIhelpyou?Believeme,Imostheartilyoffermypoorservices。\"
\"Ah,youforget!Thisdress,theborrowedsplendorofthesejewels,thefreedomofthisgayevening,theromanceofthepartyouplayed,allblindyoutothereality。ForamomentIceasetobeaservant,andforamomentyoutreatmeasanequal。\"
Itwastrue;hehadforgotten。Thatsoft,reproachfulglancetouchedhim,hisdistrustmeltedunderthenewcharm,andheansweredwithrealfeelinginvoiceandface,\"Itreatyouasanequalbecauseyouareone;andwhenIofferhelp,itisnottomysister’sgovernessalone,buttoLadyHoward’sdaughter。\"
\"Whotoldyouthat?\"shedemanded,sittingerect。
\"Myuncle。Donotreproachhim。Itshallgonofurther,ifyouforbidit。AreyousorrythatIknowit?\"
\"Yes。\"
\"Why?\"
\"BecauseIwillnotbepitied!\"Andhereyesflashedasshemadeahalf-defiantgesture。
\"Then,ifImaynotpitythehardfatewhichhasbefallenaninnocentlife,mayIadmirethecouragewhichmeetsadversefortunesobravely,andconquerstheworldbywinningtherespectandregardofallwhoseeandhonorit?\"
MissMuiravertedherface,putupherhand,andansweredhastily,\"No,no,notthat!Donotbekind;itdestroystheonlybarriernowleftbetweenus。Becoldtomeasbefore,forgetwhatIam,andletmegoonmyway,unknown,unpitied,andunloved!\"
Hervoicefalteredandfailedasthelastwordwasuttered,andshebentherfaceuponherhand。SomethingjarreduponCoventryinthisspeech,andmovedhimtosay,almostrudely,\"Youneedhavenofearsforme。LuciawilltellyouwhatanicebergIam。\"
\"ThenLuciawouldtellmewrong。Ihavethefatalpowerofreadingcharacter;Iknowyoubetterthanshedoes,andIsee——\"Thereshestoppedabruptly。
\"What?Tellmeandproveyourskill,\"hesaideagerly。
Turning,shefixedhereyesonhimwithapenetratingpowerthatmadehimshrinkasshesaidslowly,\"UndertheiceIseefire,andwarnyoutobewarelestitproveavolcano。\"
Foramomenthesatdumb,wonderingattheinsightofthegirl;forshewasthefirsttodiscoverthehiddenwarmthofanaturetooproudtoconfessitstenderimpulses,ortheambitionsthatslepttillsomepotentvoiceawokethem。Theblunt,almoststernmannerinwhichshewarnedhimawayfromheronlymadehermoreattractive;fortherewasnoconceitorarroganceinit,onlyaforebodingfearemboldenedbypastsufferingtobefrank。Suddenlyhespokeimpetuously:\"Youareright!IamnotwhatIseem,andmyindolentindifferenceisbutthemaskunderwhichIconcealmyrealself。Icouldbeaspassionate,asenergeticandaspiringasNed,ifIhadanyaiminlife。Ihavenone,andsoIamwhatyouoncecalledme,athingtopityanddespise。\"
\"Ineversaidthat!\"criedJeanindignantly。
\"Notinthosewords,perhaps;butyoulookeditandthoughtit,thoughyouphraseditmoremildly。Ideservedit,butIshalldeserveitnolonger。Iambeginningtowakefrommydisgracefulidleness,andlongforsomeworkthatshallmakeamanofme。Whydoyougo?Iannoyyouwithmyconfessions。Pardonme。TheyarethefirstIevermade;theyshallbethelast。\"
\"No,ohno!Iamtoomuchhonoredbyyourconfidence;
butisitwise,isitloyaltotellmeyourhopesandaims?HasnotMissBeaufortthefirstrighttobeyourconfidante?\"
Coventrydrewback,lookingintenselyannoyed,forthenamerecalledmuchthathewouldgladlyhaveforgotteninthenovelexcitementofthehour。Lucia’slove,Edward’spartingwords,hisownreservesostrangelythrownaside,sodifficulttoresume。Whathewouldhavesaidwascheckedbythesightofahalf-openletterwhichfellfromJean’sdressasshemovedaway。Mechanicallyhetookituptoreturnit,and,ashedidso,herecognizedSydney’shandwriting。Jeansnatcheditfromhim,turningpaletothelipsasshecried,\"Didyoureadit?Whatdidyousee?
Tellme,tellme,onyourhonor!\"
\"Onmyhonor,Isawnothingbutthissinglesentence,’BytheloveIbearyou,believewhatIsay。’Nomore,asIamagentleman。
Iknowthehand,Iguessthepurportoftheletter,andasafriendofSydney,Iearnestlydesiretohelpyou,ifIcan。Isthisthematteruponwhichyouwantadvice?\"
\"Yes。\"
\"Thenletmegiveit?\"
\"Youcannot,withoutknowingall,anditissohardtotell!\"
\"Letmeguessit,andspareyouthepainoftelling。
MayI?\"AndCoventrywaitedeagerlyforherreply,forthespellwasstilluponhim。
Holdingtheletterfast,shebeckonedhimtofollow,andglidedbeforehimtoasecludedlittlenook,halfboudoir,halfconservatory。
Thereshepaused,stoodaninstantasifindoubt,thenlookedupathimwithconfidingeyesandsaiddecidedly,\"Iwilldoit;for,strangeasitmayseem,youaretheonlypersontowhomIcanspeak。YouknowSydney,youhavediscoveredthatIamanequal,youhaveofferedyourhelp。Iacceptit;butoh,donotthinkmeunwomanly!RememberhowaloneIam,howyoung,andhowmuchIrelyuponyoursincerity,yoursympathy!\"
\"Speakfreely。Iamindeedyourfriend。\"AndCoventrysatdownbesideher,forgetfulofeverythingbutthesoft-eyedgirlwhoconfidedinhimsoentirely。
Speakingrapidly,Jeanwenton,\"YouknowthatSydneylovedme,thatIrefusedhimandwentaway。Butyoudonotknowthathisimportunitiesnearlydrovemewild,thathethreatenedtorobmeofmyonlytreasure,mygoodname,andthat,indesperation,Itriedtokillmyself。Yes,mad,wickedasitwas,Ididlongtoendthelifewhichwas,atbest,aburden,andunderhispersecutionhadbecomeatorment。Youareshocked,yetwhatIsayisthelivingtruth。LadySydneywillconfirmit,thenursesatthehospitalwillconfessthatitwasnotafeverwhichbroughtmethere;andhere,thoughtheexternalwoundishealed,myheartstillachesandburnswiththeshameandindignationwhichonlyaproudwomancanfeel。\"
Shepausedandsatwithkindlingeyes,glowingcheeks,andbothhandspressedtoherheavingbosom,asiftheoldinsultrousedherspiritanew。Coventrysaidnotaword,forsurprise,anger,incredulity,andadmirationmingledsoconfusedlyinhismindthatheforgottospeak,andJeanwenton,\"Thatwildactofmineconvincedhimofmyindomitabledislike。Hewentaway,andIbelievedthatthisstormyloveofhiswouldbecuredbyabsence。Itisnot,andIliveindailyfearoffreshentreaties,renewedpersecution。HismotherpromisednottobetraywhereIhadgone,buthefoundmeoutandwrotetome。TheletterIaskedyoutotaketoLadySydneywasareplytohis,imploringhimtoleavemeinpeace。Youfailedtodeliverit,andIwasglad,forIthoughtsilencemightquenchhope。Allinvain;thisisamorepassionateappealthanever,andhevowshewillneverdesistfromhisendeavorstillIgiveanothermantherighttoprotectme。Icandothis——Iamsorelytemptedtodoit,butIrebelagainstthecruelty。Ilovemyfreedom,Ihavenowishtomarryatthisman’sbidding。WhatcanIdo?HowcanIfreemyself?Bemyfriend,andhelpme!\"
Tearsstreameddownhercheeks,sobschokedherwords,andsheclaspedherhandsimploringlyassheturnedtowardtheyoungmaninalltheabandonmentofsorrow,fear,andsupplication。Coventryfoundithardtomeetthoseeloquenteyesandanswercalmly,forhehadnoexperienceinsuchscenesandknewnothowtoplayhispart。Itisthisabsurddressandthatromanticnonsensewhichmakesmefeelsounlikemyself,hethought,quiteunconsciousofthedangerouspowerwhichtheduskyroom,themidsummerwarmthandfragrance,thememoryofthe\"romanticnonsense,\"and,mostofall,thepresenceofabeautiful,afflictedwomanhadoverhim。Hisusualself-possessiondesertedhim,andhecouldonlyechothewordswhichhadmadethestrongestimpressionuponhim:
\"Youcandothis,youaretemptedtodoit。IsNedthemanwhocanprotectyou?\"
\"No\"wasthesoftreply。
\"Whothen?\"
\"Donotaskme。Agoodandhonorableman;onewholovesmewell,andwoulddevotehislifetome;onewhomonceitwouldhavebeenhappinesstomarry,butnow——\"
Therehervoiceendedinasigh,andallherfairhairfelldownaboutherface,hidingitinashiningveil。
\"Whynotnow?Thisisasureandspeedywayofendingyourdistress。Isitimpossible?\"
Inspiteofhimself,Geraldleanednearer,tookoneofthelittlehandsinhis,andpresseditashespoke,urgently,compassionately,nay,almosttenderly。Frombehindtheveilcameaheavysigh,andthebriefanswer,\"Itisimpossible。\"
\"Why,Jean?\"
Sheflungherhairbackwithasuddengesture,drewawayherhand,andanswered,almostfiercely,\"BecauseIdonotlovehim!
Whydoyoutormentmewithsuchquestions?ItellyouIaminasorestraitandcannotseemyway。ShallIdeceivethegoodman,andsecurepeaceatthepriceoflibertyandtruth?OrshallIdefySydneyandleadalifeofdread?Ifhemenacedmylife,Ishouldnotfear;buthemenacesthatwhichisdearerthanlife——mygoodname。Alook,awordcantarnishit;
ascornfulsmile,asignificantshrugcandomemoreharmthananyblow;
forIamawoman——friendless,poor,andatthemercyofhistongue。Ah,bettertohavedied,andsohavebeensavedthebitterpainthathascomenow!\"
Shesprangup,claspedherhandsoverherhead,andpaceddespairinglythroughthelittleroom,notweeping,butwearinganexpressionmoretragicalthantears。Stillfeelingasifhehadsuddenlysteppedintoaromance,yetfindingakeenpleasureinthepartassignedhim,Coventrythrewhimselfintoitwithspirit,andheartilydidhisbesttoconsolethepoorgirlwhoneededhelpsomuch。Goingtoher,hesaidasimpetuouslyasNedeverdid,\"MissMuir——nay,IwillsayJean,ifthatwillcomfortyou——listen,andrestassuredthatnoharmshalltouchyouifIcanwarditoff。Youareneedlesslyalarmed。Indignantyoumaywellbe,but,uponmylife,IthinkyouwrongSydney。Heisviolent,I
know,butheistoohonorableamantoinjureyoubyalightword,anunjustact。Hedidbutthreaten,hopingtosoftenyou。Letmeseehim,orwritetohim。Heismyfriend;hewilllistentome。OfthatIamsure。\"
\"Besureofnothing。WhenamanlikeSydneylovesandisthwartedinhislove,nothingcancontrolhisheadstrongwill。Promisemeyouwillnotseeorwritetohim。MuchasIfearanddespisehim,I
willsubmit,ratherthananyharmshouldbefallyou——oryourbrother。
Youpromiseme,Mr。Coventry?\"
Hehesitated。Sheclungtohisarmwithunfeignedsolicitudeinhereager,pleadingface,andhecouldnotresistit。
\"Ipromise;butinreturnyoumustpromisetoletmegivewhathelpIcan;and,Jean,neversayagainthatyouarefriendless。\"
\"Youaresokind!Godblessyouforit。ButIdarenotacceptyourfriendship;shewillnotpermitit,andIhavenorighttomarherpeace。\"
\"Whowillnotpermitit?\"hedemandedhotly。
\"MissBeaufort。\"
\"HangMissBeaufort!\"exclaimedCoventry,withsuchenergythatJeanbrokeintoamusicallaugh,despitehertrouble。Hejoinedinit,and,foraninstanttheystoodlookingatoneanotherasifthelastbarrierweredown,andtheywerefriendsindeed。Jeanpausedsuddenly,withthesmileonherlips,thetearsstillonhercheek,andmadeawarninggesture。Helistened:thesoundoffeetmingledwithcallsandlaughterprovedthattheyweremissedandsought。
\"Thatlaughbetrayedus。Stayandmeetthem。Icannot。\"
AndJeandartedoutuponthelawn。Coventryfollowed;forthethoughtofconfrontingsomanyeyes,somanyquestions,dauntedhim,andhefledlikeacoward。ThesoundofJean’sflyingfootstepsguidedhim,andheovertookherjustasshepausedbehindarosethickettotakebreath。
\"Faintheartedknight!Youshouldhavestayedandcoveredmyretreat。Hark!theyarecoming!Hide!Hide!\"shepanted,halfinfear,halfinmerriment,asthegaypursuersrapidlydrewnearer。
\"Kneeldown;themooniscomingoutandtheglitterofyourembroiderywillbetrayyou,\"whisperedJean,astheycoweredbehindtheroses。
\"Yourarmsandhairwillbetrayyou。’Comeundermyplaiddie,’asthesongsays。\"AndCoventrytriedtomakehisvelvetcloakcoverthewhiteshouldersandfairlocks。
\"Weareactingourpartsinrealitynow。HowBellawillenjoythethingwhenItellher!\"saidJeanasthenoisesdiedaway。
\"Donottellher,\"whisperedCoventry。
\"Andwhynot?\"sheasked,lookingupintothefacesonearherown,withanartlessglance。
\"Canyounotguesswhy?\"
\"Ah,youaresoproudyoucannotbeartobelaughedat。\"
\"Itisnotthat。ItisbecauseIdonotwantyoutobeannoyedbysillytongues;youhaveenoughtopainyouwithoutthat。
Iamyourfriend,now,andIdomybesttoproveit。\"
\"Sokind,sokind!HowcanIthankyou?\"murmuredJean。Andsheinvoluntarilynestledcloserunderthecloakthatshelteredboth。
Neitherspokeforamoment,andinthesilencetherapidbeatingoftwoheartswasheard。Todrownthesound,Coventrysaidsoftly,\"Areyoufrightened?\"
\"No,Ilikeit,\"sheanswered,assoftly,thenaddedabruptly,\"Butwhydowehide?Thereisnothingtofear。Itislate。I
mustgo。Youarekneelingonmytrain。Pleaserise。\"
\"Whyinsuchhaste?Thisflightandsearchonlyaddstothecharmoftheevening。I’llnotgetupyet。Willyouhavearose,Jean?\"
\"No,Iwillnot。Letmego,Mr。Coventry,Iinsist。
Therehasbeenenoughofthisfolly。Youforgetyourself。\"
Shespokeimperiously,flungoffthecloak,andputhimfromher。Heroseatonce,saying,likeonewakingsuddenlyfromapleasantdream,\"Idoindeedforgetmyself。\"
Herethesoundofvoicesbrokeonthem,nearerthanbefore。Pointingtoacoveredwalkthatledtothehouse,hesaid,inhisusuallycool,calmtone,\"Gointhatway;Iwillcoveryourretreat。\"Andturning,hewenttomeetthemerryhunters。
Halfanhourlater,whenthepartybrokeup,MissMuirjoinedtheminherusualquietdress,lookingpaler,meeker,andsadderthanusual。Coventrysawthis,thoughheneitherlookedathernoraddressedher。Luciasawitalso,andwasgladthatthedangerousgirlhadfallenbackintoherproperplaceagain,forshehadsufferedmuchthatnight。
Sheappropriatedhercousin’sarmastheywentthroughthepark,buthewasinoneofhistaciturnmoods,andallherattemptsatconversationwereinvain。MissMuirwalkedalone,singingsoftlytoherselfasshefollowedinthedusk。WasGeraldsosilentbecausehelistenedtothatfitfulsong?Luciathoughtso,andfeltherdislikerapidlydeepeningtohatred。
Whentheyoungfriendsweregone,andthefamilywereexchanginggood-nightsamongthemselves,JeanwassurprisedbyCoventry’sofferinghishand,forhehadneverdoneitbefore,andwhispering,asheheldit,thoughLuciawatchedhimallthewhile,\"Ihavenotgivenmyadvice,yet。\"
\"Thanks,Inolongerneedit。Ihavedecidedformyself。\"
\"MayIaskhow?\"
\"Tobravemyenemy。\"
\"Good!Butwhatdecidedyousosuddenly?\"
\"Thefindingofafriend。\"Andwithagratefulglanceshewasgone。
BehindaMask:or,AWoman’sPower。Chapter6ONTHEWATCH\"Ifyouplease,Mr。Coventry,didyougettheletterlastnight?\"werethefirstwordsthatgreetedthe\"youngmaster\"ashelefthisroomnextmorning。
\"Whatletter,Dean?Idon’trememberany,\"heanswered,pausing,forsomethinginthemaid’smannerstruckhimaspeculiar。
\"ItcamejustasyouleftfortheHall,sir。Bensonranafteryouwithit,asitwasmarked’Haste。’Didn’tyougetit,sir?\"
askedthewoman,anxiously。
\"Yes,butuponmylife,Iforgotallaboutittillthisminute。It’sinmyothercoat,Isuppose,ifI’venotlostit。Thatabsurdmasqueradingputeverythingelseoutofmyhead。\"Andspeakingmoretohimselfthantothemaid,Coventryturnedbacktolookforthemissingletter。
Deanremainedwhereshewas,apparentlybusyaboutthearrangementofthecurtainsatthehallwindow,butfurtivelywatchingmeanwhilewithamostunwontedairofcuriosity。
\"Notthere,Ithoughtso!\"shemuttered,asCoventryimpatientlythrusthishandintoonepocketafteranother。Butasshespoke,anexpressionofamazementappearedinherface,forsuddenlytheletterwasdiscovered。
\"I’dhaveswornitwasn’tthere!Idon’tunderstandit,butshe’sadeepone,orI’mdeceived。\"AndDeanshookherheadlikeoneperplexed,butnotconvinced。
Coventryutteredanexclamationofsatisfactiononglancingattheaddressand,standingwherehewas,toreopentheletter。
DearC:
I’mofftoBaden。Comeandjoinme,thenyou’llbeoutofharm’sway;forifyoufallinlovewithJ。M。(andyoucan’tescapeifyoustaywheresheis),youwillincurthetriflinginconvenienceofhavingyourbrainsblownoutbyYourstruly,F。R。Sydney\"Themanismad!\"ejaculatedCoventry,staringattheletterwhileanangryflushrosetohisface。\"Whatthedeucedoeshemeanbywritingtomeinthatstyle?Joinhim——not!Andasforthethreat,Ilaughatit。PoorJean!Thisheadstrongfoolseemsbentontormentingher。Well,Dean,whatareyouwaitingfor?\"hedemanded,asifsuddenlyconsciousofherpresence。
\"Nothing,sir;Ionlystoppedtoseeifyoufoundtheletter。Begpardon,sir。\"
AndshewasmovingonwhenCoventryasked,withasuspiciouslook,\"Whatmadeyouthinkitwaslost?Youseemtotakeanuncommoninterestinmyaffairstoday。\"
\"Ohdear,no,sir。Ifeltabitanxious,Bensonissoforgetful,anditwasmewhosenthimafteryou,forIhappenedtoseeyougoout,soIfeltresponsible。Beingmarkedthatway,IthoughtitmightbeimportantsoIaskedaboutit。\"
\"Verywell,youcango,Dean。It’sallright,yousee。\"
\"I’mnotsosureofthat,\"mutteredthewoman,asshecurtsiedrespectfullyandwentaway,lookingasiftheletterhadnotbeenfound。
DeanwasMissBeaufort’smaid,agrave,middle-agedwomanwithkeeneyesandasomewhatgrimair。Havingbeenlonginthefamily,sheenjoyedalltheprivilegesofafaithfulandfavoriteservant。Shelovedheryoungmistresswithanalmostjealousaffection。Shewatchedoverherwithhevigilantcareofamotherandresentedanyattemptatinterferenceonthepartofothers。AtfirstshehadpitiedandlikedJeanMuir,thendistrustedher,andnowheartilyhatedher,asthecauseoftheincreasedindifferenceofCoventrytowardhiscousin。DeanknewthedepthofLucia’slove,andthoughnoman,inhereyes,wasworthyofhermistress,still,havinghonoredhimwithherregard,Deanfeltboundtolikehim,andthelatechangeinhismannerdisturbedthemaidalmostasmuchasitdidthemistress。ShewatchedJeannarrowly,causingthatamiablecreaturemuchamusementbutlittleannoyance,asyet,forDean’sslowEnglishwitwasnomatchforthesubtlemindofthegoverness。Ontheprecedingnight,DeanhadbeensentuptotheHallwithcostumesandhadthereseensomethingwhichmuchdisturbedher。Shebegantospeakofitwhileundressinghermistress,butLucia,beinginanunhappymood,hadsosternlyorderedhernottogossipthatthetaleremaineduntold,andshewasforcedtobidehertime。
NowI’llseehowshelooksafterit;thoughthere’snotmuchtobegotoutofherface,thedeceitfulhussy,thoughtDean,marchingdownthecorridorandknittingherblackbrowsasshewent。
\"Goodmorning,Mrs。Dean。Ihopeyouarenonetheworseforlastnight’sfrolic。Youhadtheworkandwetheplay,\"saidablithevoicebehindher;andturningsharply,sheconfrontedMissMuir。
Freshandsmiling,thegovernessnoddedwithanairofcordialitywhichwouldhavebeenirresistiblewithanyonebutDean。
\"I’mquitewell,thankyou,miss,\"shereturnedcoldly,asherkeeneyefastenedonthegirlasiftowatchtheeffectofherwords。
\"Ihadagoodrestwhentheyoungladiesandgentlemenwereatsupper,forwhilethemaidsclearedup,Isatinthe’littleanteroom。’\"
\"Yes,Isawyou,andfearedyou’dtakecold。Verygladyoudidn’t。HowisMissBeaufort?Sheseemedratherpoorlylastnight\"
wasthetranquilreply,asJeansettledthelittlefrillsaboutherdelicatewrists。ThecoolquestionwasareturnshotforDean’shintthatshehadbeenwhereshecouldoverseetheinterviewbetweenCoventryandMissMuir。
\"Sheisabittired,asanyladywouldbeaftersuchanevening。Peoplewhoareusedtoplay-actingwouldn’tmindit,perhaps,butMissBeaufortdon’tenjoyrompsasmuchassomedo。\"
TheemphasisuponcertainwordsmadeDean’sspeechasimpertinentasshedesired。ButJeanonlylaughed,andasCoventry’sstepwasheardbehindthem,sherandownstairs,sayingblandly,butwithawickedlook,\"Iwon’tstoptothankyounow,lestMr。Coventryshouldbidmegood-morning,andsoincreaseMissBeaufort’sindisposition。\"
Dean’seyesflashedasshelookedafterthegirlwithawrathfulface,andwentherway,sayinggrimly,\"I’llbidemytime,butI’llgetthebetterofheryet。\"
Fancyinghimselfquiteremovedfrom\"lastnight’sabsurdity,\"yetcurioustoseehowJeanwouldmeethim,Coventryloungedintothebreakfastroomwithhisusualairoflistlessindifference。A
languidnodandmurmurwasallthereplyhevouchsafedtothegreetingsofcousin,sister,andgovernessashesatdownandtookuphispaper。
\"HaveyouhadaletterfromNed?\"askedBella,lookingatthenotewhichherbrotherstillheld。
\"No\"wasthebriefanswer。
\"Whothen?Youlookasifyouhadreceivedbadnews。\"
Therewasnoreply,and,peepingoverhisarm,Bellacaughtsightofthesealandexclaimed,inadisappointedtone,\"ItistheSydneycrest。Idon’tcareaboutthenotenow。Men’sletterstoeachotherarenotinteresting。\"
MissMuirhadbeenquietlyfeedingoneofEdward’sdogs,butatthenameshelookedupandmetCoventry’seyes,coloringsodistressfullythathepitiedher。Whyheshouldtakethetroubletocoverherconfusion,hedidnotstoptoaskhimself,butseeingthecurlofLucia’slip,hesuddenlyaddressedherwithanairofdispleasure,\"DoyouknowthatDeanisgettingimpertinent?Shepresumestoomuchonherageandyourindulgence,andforgetsherplace。\"
\"Whathasshedone?\"askedLuciacoldly。
\"ShetroublesherselfaboutmyaffairsandtakesituponherselftokeepBensoninorder。\"
HereCoventrytoldabouttheletterandthewoman’sevidentcuriosity。
\"PoorDean,shegetsnothanksforremindingyouofwhatyouhadforgotten。Nexttimeshewillleaveyourletterstotheirfate,andperhapsitwillbeaswell,iftheyhavesuchabadeffectuponyourtemper,Gerald。\"
Luciaspokecalmly,buttherewasanangrycolorinhercheekassheroseandlefttheroom。Coventrylookedmuchannoyed,foronJean’sfacehedetectedafaintsmile,halfpitiful,halfsatirical,whichdisturbedhimmorethanhiscousin’sinsinuation。Bellabroketheawkwardsilencebysaying,withasigh,\"PoorNed!Idosolongtohearagainfromhim。Ithoughtaletterhadcomeforsomeofus。Deansaidshesawonebearinghiswritingonthehalltableyesterday。\"
\"Sheseemstohaveamaniaforinspectingletters。
Iwon’tallowit。Whowastheletterfor,Bella?\"saidCoventry,puttingdownhispaper。
\"Shewouldn’torcouldn’ttell,butlookedverycrossandtoldmetoaskyou。\"
\"Veryodd!I’vehadnone,\"beganCoventry。
\"ButIhadoneseveraldaysago。Willyoupleasereadit,andmyreply?\"Andasshespoke,Jeanlaidtwolettersbeforehim。
\"Certainlynot。ItwouldbedishonorabletoreadwhatNedintendedfornoeyesbutyourown。Youaretooscrupulousinoneway,andnotenoughsoinanother,MissMuir。\"AndCoventryofferedboththeletterswithanairofgravedecision,whichcouldnotconcealtheinterestandsurprisehefelt。
\"Youareright。Mr。Edward’snoteshouldbekeptsacred,forinitthepoorboyhaslaidbarehishearttome。ButmineIbegyouwillread,thatyoumayseehowwellItrytokeepmywordtoyou。Obligemeinthis,Mr。Coventry;Ihavearighttoaskitofyou。\"
Sourgentlyshespoke,sowistfullyshelooked,thathecouldnotrefuseand,goingtothewindow,readtheletter。Itwasevidentlyananswertoapassionateappealfromtheyounglover,andwaswrittenwithconsummateskill。Asheread,Geraldcouldnothelpthinking,Ifthisgirlwritesinthiswaytoamanwhomshedoesnotlove,withwhataworldofpowerandpassionwouldshewritetoonewhomshedidlove。Andthisthoughtkeptreturningtohimashiseyewentoverlineafterlineofwiseargument,gentlereproof,goodcounsel,andfriendlyregard。Hereandthereaword,aphrase,betrayedwhatshehadalreadyconfessed,andCoventryforgottoreturntheletter,ashestoodwonderingwhowasthemanwhomJeanloved。
ThesoundofBella’svoicerecalledhim,forshewassaying,halfkindly,halfpetulantly,\"Don’tlooksosad,Jean。Nedwilloutliveit,Idaresay。Yourememberyousaidoncemenneverdiedoflove,thoughwomenmight。Inhisonenotetome,hespokesobeautifullyofyou,andbeggedmetobekindtoyouforhissake,thatItrytobewithallmyheart,thoughifitwasanyonebutyou,IreallythinkIshouldhatethemformakingmydearboysounhappy。\"
\"Youaretookind,Bella,andIoftenthinkI’llgoawaytorelieveyouofmypresence;butunwiseanddangerousasitistostay,Ihaven’tthecouragetogo。I’vebeensohappyhere。\"Andasshespoke,Jean’sheaddroppedloweroverthedogasitnestledtoheraffectionately。
BeforeBellacouldutterhalfthelovingwordsthatsprangtoherlips,Coventrycametothemwithalllanguorgonefromfaceandmien,andlayingJean’sletterbeforeher,hesaid,withanundertoneofdeepfeelinginhisusuallyemotionlessvoice,\"Arightwomanlyandeloquentletter,butIfearitwillonlyincreasethefireitwasmeanttoquench。Ipitymybrothermorethanevernow。\"
\"ShallIsendit?\"askedJean,lookingstraightupathim,likeonewhohadentirerelianceonhisjudgment。
\"Yes,Ihavenotthehearttorobhimofsuchasweetsermonuponself-sacrifice。ShallIpostitforyou?\"
\"Thankyou;inamoment。\"Andwithagratefullook,Jeandroppedhereyes。Producingherlittlepurse,sheselectedapenny,foldeditinabitofpaper,andthenofferedbothletterandcointoCoventry,withsuchaprettyairofbusiness,thathecouldnotcontrolalaugh。
\"Soyouwon’tbeindebtedtomeforapenny?Whataproudwomanyouare,MissMuir。\"
\"Iam;it’safamilyfailing。\"Andshegavehimasignificantglance,whichrecalledtohimthememoryofwhoshewas。Heunderstoodherfeeling,andlikedherthebetterforit,knowingthathewouldhavedonethesamehadhebeeninherplace。Itwasalittlething,butifdoneforeffect,itansweredadmirably,foritshowedaquickinsightintohischaracteronherpart,andbetrayedtohimtheexistenceofaprideinwhichhesympathizedheartily。HestoodbyJeanamoment,watchingherassheburntEdward’sletterintheblazeofthespiritlampundertheurn。
\"Whydoyoudothat?\"heaskedinvoluntarily。
\"Becauseitismydutytoforget\"wasallheranswer。
\"Canyoualwaysforgetwhenitbecomesaduty?\"
\"IwishIcould!IwishIcould!\"
Shespokepassionately,asifthewordsbrokefromheragainstherwill,and,risinghastily,shewentintothegarden,asifafraidtostay。
\"Poor,dearJeanisveryunhappyaboutsomething,butIcan’tdiscoverwhatitis。LastnightIfoundhercryingoverarose,andnowsherunsaway,lookingasifherheartwasbroken。I’mgladI’vegotnolessons。\"
\"Whatkindofarose?\"askedCoventryfrombehindhispaperasBellapaused。
\"Alovelywhiteone。ItmusthavecomefromtheHall;
wehavenonelikeit。IwonderifJeanwasevergoingtobemarried,andlostherlover,andfeltsadbecausetheflowerremindedherofbridalroses。\"Coventrymadenoreply,butfelthimselfchangecountenanceasherecalledthelittlescenebehindtherosehedge,wherehegaveJeantheflowerwhichshehadrefusedyettaken。Presently,toBella’ssurprise,heflungdownthepaper,toreSydney’snotetoatoms,andrangforhishorsewithanenergywhichamazedher。
\"Why,Gerald,whathascomeoveryou?OnewouldthinkNed’srestlessspirithadsuddenlytakenpossessionofyou。Whatareyougoingtodo?\"
\"I’mgoingtowork\"wastheunexpectedanswer,asCoventryturnedtowardherwithanexpressionsorarelyseenonhisfineface。
\"Whathaswakedyouupallatonce?\"askedBella,lookingmoreandmoreamazed。
\"Youdid,\"hesaid,drawinghertowardhim。
\"I!When?How?\"
\"Doyouremembersayingoncethatenergywasbetterthanbeautyinaman,andthatnoonecouldrespectanidler?\"
\"Ineversaidanythinghalfsosensibleasthat。
Jeansaidsomethinglikeitonce,Ibelieve,butIforgot。Areyoutiredofdoingnothing,atlast,Gerald?\"
\"Yes,IneglectedmydutytoNed,tillhegotintotrouble,andnowIreproachmyselfforit。It’snottoolatetodootherneglectedtasks,soI’mgoingatthemwithawill。Don’tsayanythingaboutittoanyone,anddon’tlaughatme,forI’minearnest,Bell。\"
\"Iknowyouare,andIadmireandloveyouforit,mydearoldboy,\"criedBellaenthusiastically,asshethrewherarmsabouthisneckandkissedhimheartily。\"Whatwillyoudofirst?\"sheasked,ashestoodthoughtfullysmoothingthebrightheadthatleaneduponhisshoulder,withthatnewexpressionstillclearandsteadyinhisface。
\"I’mgoingtorideoverthewholeestate,andattendtothingsasamastershould;notleaveitalltoBent,ofwhomI’veheardmanycomplaints,buthavebeentooidletoinquireaboutthem。IshallconsultUncle,andendeavortobeallthatmyfatherwasinhistime。Isthataworthyambition,dear?\"
\"Oh,Gerald,letmetellMamma。Itwillmakehersohappy。Youareheridol,andtohearyousaythesethings,toseeyoulooksolikedearPapa,woulddomoreforherspiritsthanallthedoctorsinEngland。\"
\"WaittillIprovewhatmyresolutionisworth。WhenIhavereallydonesomething,thenI’llsurpriseMammawithasampleofmywork。\"
\"Ofcourseyou’lltellLucia?\"
\"Notonanyaccount。Itisalittlesecretbetweenus,sokeepittillIgiveyouleavetotellit。\"
\"ButJeanwillseeitatonce;sheknowseverythingthathappens,sheissoquickandwise。Doyoumindherknowing?\"
\"Idon’tseethatIcanhelpitifsheissowonderfullygifted。Letherseewhatshecan,Idon’tmindher。NowI’moff。\"Andwithakisstohissister,asuddensmileonhisface,Coventryspranguponhishorseandrodeawayatapacewhichcausedthegroomtostareafterhiminblankamazement。
Nothingmorewasseenofhimtilldinnertime,whenhecameinsoexhilaratedbyhisbriskrideandbusymorningthathefoundsomedifficultyinassuminghiscustomarymanner,andmorethanonceastonishedthefamilybytalkinganimatedlyonvarioussubjectswhichtillnowhadalwaysseemedutterlyuninterestingtohim。Luciawasamazed,hismotherdelighted,andBellacouldhardlycontrolherdesiretoexplainthemystery;
butJeantookitverycalmlyandregardedhimwiththeairofonewhosaid,\"Iunderstand,butyouwillsoontireofit。\"Thisnettledhimmorethanhewouldconfess,andheexertedhimselftosilentlycontradictthatprophecy。
\"HaveyouansweredMr。Sydney’sletter?\"askedBella,whentheywereallscatteredaboutthedrawingroomafterdinner。
\"No,\"answeredherbrother,whowaspacingupanddownwithrestlesssteps,insteadofloungingnearhisbeautifulcousin。
\"IaskbecauseIrememberedthatNedsentamessageforhiminmylastnote,ashethoughtyouwouldknowSydney’saddress。
Hereitis,somethingaboutahorse。Pleaseputitinwhenyouwrite,\"
andBellalaidthenoteonthewritingtablenearby。
\"I’llsenditatonceandhavedonewithit,\"mutteredCoventryand,seatinghimself,hedashedoffafewlines,sealedandsenttheletter,andthenresumedhismarch,eyeingthethreeyoungladieswiththreedifferentexpressions,ashepassedandrepassed。Luciasatapart,feigningtobeintentuponabook,andherhandsomefacelookedalmoststerninitshaughtycomposure,forthoughherheartached,shewastooproudtoownit。Bellanowlayonthesofa,halfasleep,arosylittlecreature,asunconsciouslyprettyasachild。MissMuirsatintherecessofadeepwindow,inalowloungingchair,workingatanembroideryframewithagracefulindustrypleasanttosee。Oflateshehadworncolors,forBellahadbeengenerousingifts,andthepalebluemuslinwhichflowedinsoftwavesaboutherwasverybecomingtoherfairskinandgoldenhair。
Theclosebraidsweregone,andloosecurlsdroppedhereandtherefromtheheavycoilwoundaroundherwell-shapedhead。Thetipofonedaintyfootwasvisible,andapetulantlittlegesturewhichnowandthenshookbackthefallingsleevegaveglimpsesofaroundwhitearm。Ned’sgreathoundlaynearby,thesunshineflickeredonherthroughtheleaves,andasshesatsmilingtoherself,whilethedexteroushandsshapedleafandflower,shemadeacharmingpictureofallthatismostwomanlyandwinning;
apicturewhichfewmen’seyeswouldnothavelikedtorestupon。
Anotherchairstoodnearher,andasCoventrywentupanddown,astrongdesiretotakeitpossessedhim。Hewastiredofhisthoughtsandwishedtobeamusedbywatchingthechangesofthegirl’sexpressiveface,listeningtothevaryingtonesofhervoice,andtryingtodiscoverthespellwhichsostronglyattractedhiminspiteofhimself。
Morethanonceheswervedfromhiscoursetogratifyhiswhim,butLucia’spresencealwaysrestrainedhim,andwithawordtothedog,oraglancefromthewindow,aspretextforapause,heresumedhiswalkagain。Somethinginhiscousinsfacereproachedhim,buthermanneroflatewassorepellentthathefeltnodesiretoresumetheirformerfamiliarity,and,wishingtoshowthathedidnotconsiderhimselfbound,hekeptaloof。Itwasaquiettestofthepowerofeachwomanoverthisman;theyinstinctivelyfeltit,andbothtriedtoconquer。Luciaspokeseveraltimes,andtriedtospeakfranklyandaffably;buthermannerwasconstrained,andCoventry,havingansweredpolitely,relapsedintosilence。Jeansaidnothing,butsilentlyappealedtoeyeandearbytheprettypictureshemadeofherself,thesnatchesofsongshesoftlysang,asifforgettingthatshewasnotalone,andashyglancenowandthen,halfwistful,halfmerry,whichwasmorealluringthangracefulfigureorsweetvoice。WhenshehadtormentedLuciaandtemptedCoventrylongenough,shequietlyassertedhersupremacyinawaywhichastonishedherrival,whoknewnothingofthesecretofherbirth,whichknowledgedidmuchtoattractandcharmtheyoungman。
Lettingaballofsilkescapefromherlap,shewatcheditrolltowardthepromenader,whocaughtandreturneditwithanalacritywhichaddedgracetothetriflingservice。
Asshetookit,shesaid,inthefrankwaythatneverfailedtowinhim,\"Ithinkyoumustbetired;butifexerciseisnecessary,employyourenergiestosomepurposeandputyourmother’sbasketofsilksinorder。Theyareinatangle,anditwillpleasehertoknowthatyoudidit,asyourbrotherusedtodo。\"
\"Herculesatthedistaff,\"saidCoventrygaily,anddownhesatinthelong-desiredseat。Jeanputthebasketonhisknee,andashesurveyedit,asifdauntedathistask,sheleanedback,andindulgedinamusicallittlepealoflaughtercharmingtohear。Luciasatdumbwithsurprise,toseeherproud,indolentcousinobeyingthecommandsofagoverness,andlookingasifheheartilyenjoyedit。Intenminutesshewasasentirelyforgottenasifshehasbeenmilesaway;forJeanseemedinherwittiest,gayestmood,andasshenowtreatedthe\"youngmaster\"
likeanequal,therewasnoneoftheformermeektimidity。Yetoftenhereyesfell,hercolorchanged,andthepiquantsalliesfalteredonhertongue,asCoventryinvoluntarilylookeddeepintothefineeyeswhichhadonceshoneonhimsotenderlyinthatmimictragedy。Hecouldnotforgetit,andthoughneitheralludedtoit,thememoryofthepreviouseveningseemedtohauntbothandlendasecretcharmtothepresentmoment。Luciaborethisaslongasshecould,andthenlefttheroomwiththeairofaninsultedprincess;butCoventrydidnot,andJeanfeignednottoseehergo。Bellawasfastasleep,andbeforeheknewhowitcametopass,theyoungmanwaslisteningtothestoryofhiscompanion’slife。Asadtale,toldwithwonderfulskill,forsoonhewasabsorbedinit。Thebasketslidunobservedfromhisknee,thedogwaspushedaway,and,leaningforward,helistenedeagerlyasthegirl’slowvoicerecountedallthehardships,loneliness,andgriefofhershortlife。Inthemidstofatouchingepisodeshestarted,stopped,andlookedstraightbeforeher,withanintentexpressionwhichchangedtooneofintensecontempt,andhereyeturnedtoCoventry’s,asshesaid,pointingtothewindowbehindhim,\"Wearewatched。\"
\"Bywhom?\"hedemanded,startingupangrily。
\"Hush,saynothing,letitpass。Iamusedtoit。\"
\"ButIamnot,andI’llnotsubmittoit。Whowasit,Jean?\"heansweredhotly。
Shesmiledsignificantlyataknotofrose-coloredribbon,whichalittlegustwasblowingtowardthemalongtheterrace。
Ablackfrowndarkenedtheyoungman’sfaceashesprangoutofthelongwindowandwentrapidlyoutofsight,scrutinizingeachgreennookashepassed。Jeanlaughedquietlyasshewatchedhim,andsaidsoftlytoherself,withhereyesontheflutteringribbon,\"Thatwasafortunateaccident,andahappyinspiration。Yes,mydearMrs。Dean,youwillfindthatplayingthespywillonlygetyourmistressaswellasyourselfintotrouble。Youwouldnotbewarned,andyoumusttaketheconsequences,reluctantasI
amtoinjureaworthycreaturelikeyourself。\"
SoonCoventrywasheardreturning。Jeanlistenedwithsuspendedbreathtocatchhisfirstwords,forhewasnotalone。
\"Sinceyouinsistthatitwasyouandnotyourmistress,Iletitpass,althoughIstillhavemysuspicions。TellMissBeaufortIdesiretoseeherforafewmomentsinthelibrary。Nowgo,Dean,andbecarefulforthefuture,ifyouwishtostayinmyhouse。\"
Themaidretired,andtheyoungmancameinlookingbothirefulandstern。
\"IwishIhadsaidnothing,butIwasstartled,andspokeinvoluntarily。Nowyouareangry,andIhavemadefreshtroubleforpoorMissLucia。ForgivemeasIforgiveher,andletitpass。Ihavelearnedtobearthissurveillance,andpityhercauselessjealousy,\"saidJeanwithaself-reproachfulair。
\"Iwillforgivethedishonorableact,butIcannotforgetit,andIintendtoputastoptoit。Iamnotbetrothedtomycousin,asItoldyouonce,butyou,likealltherest,seembentonbelievingthatIam。HithertoIhavecaredtoolittleaboutthemattertosettleit,butnowIshallprovebeyondalldoubtthatIamfree。\"
Asheutteredthelastword,CoventrycastonJeanalookthataffectedherstrangely。Shegrewpale,herworkdroppedonherlapandhereyesrosetohis,withaneager,questioningexpression,whichslowlychangedtooneofmingledpainandpity,assheturnedherfaceaway,murmuringinatoneoftendersorrow,\"PoorLucia,whowillcomforther?\"
ForamomentCoventrystoodsilent,asifweighingsomefatefulpurposeinhismind。AsJean’sraptsighofcompassionreachedhisear,hehadechoeditwithinhimself,andhalfrepentedofhisresolution;
thenhiseyerestedonthegirlbeforehimlookingsolonelyinhersweetsympathyforanotherthathisheartyearnedtowardher。Suddenfireshotintohiseye,suddenwarmthreplacedthecoldsternnessofhisface,andhissteadyvoicefalteredsuddenly,ashesaid,verylow,yetveryearnestly,\"Jean,Ihavetriedtoloveher,butIcannot。OughtItodeceiveher,andmakemyselfmiserabletopleasemyfamily?\"
\"Sheisbeautifulandgood,andlovesyoutenderly;
istherenohopeforher?\"askedJean,stillpale,butveryquiet,thoughsheheldonehandagainstherheart,asiftostillorhideitsrapidbeating。
\"None,\"answeredCoventry。
\"Butcanyounotlearntoloveher?Yourwillisstrong,andmostmenwouldnotfinditahardtask。\"
\"Icannot,forsomethingstrongerthanmyownwillcontrolsme。\"
\"Whatisthat?\"AndJean’sdarkeyeswerefixeduponhim,fullofinnocentwonder。
Hisfell,andhesaidhastily,\"Idarenottellyouyet。\"
\"Pardon!Ishouldnothaveasked。Donotconsultmeinthismatter;Iamnotthepersontoadviseyou。Icanonlysaythatitseemstomeasifanymanwithanemptyheartwouldbegladtohavesobeautifulawomanasyourcousin。\"
\"Myheartisnotempty,\"beganCoventry,drawingastepnearer,andspeakinginapassionatevoice。\"Jean,Imustspeak;
hearme。Icannotlovemycousin,becauseIloveyou。\"
\"Stop!\"AndJeansprangupwithacommandinggesture。
\"Iwillnothearyouwhileanypromisebindsyoutoanother。Rememberyourmother’swishes,Lucia’shopes,Edward’slastwords,yourownpride,myhumblelot。Youforgetyourself,Mr。Coventry。Thinkwellbeforeyouspeak,weighthecostofthisact,andrecollectwhoIambeforeyouinsultmebyanytransientpassion,anyfalsevows。\"
\"Ihavethought,Idoweighthecost,andIswearthatIdesiretowooyouashumbly,honestlyasIwouldanyladyintheland。Youspeakofmypride。DoIstoopinlovingmyequalinrank?Youspeakofyourlowlylot,butpovertyisnodisgrace,andthecouragewithwhichyoubearitmakesitbeautiful。IshouldhavebrokenwithLuciabeforeIspoke,butIcouldnotcontrolmyself。Mymotherlovesyou,andwillbehappyinmyhappiness。Edwardmustforgiveme,forIhavetriedtodomybest,butloveisirresistible。Tellme,Jean,isthereanyhopeforme?\"
Hehadseizedherhandandwasspeakingimpetuously,withardentfaceandtendertone,butnoanswercame,forasJeanturnedhereloquentcountenancetowardhim,fullofmaidenshameandtimidlove,Dean’sprimfigureappearedatthedoor,andherharshvoicebrokethemomentarysilence,saying,sternly,\"MissBeaufortiswaitingforyou,sir。\"
\"Go,goatonce,andbekind,formysake,Gerald,\"
whisperedJean,forhestoodasifdeafandblindtoeverythingbuthervoice,herface。
Asshedrewhisheaddowntowhisper,hercheektouchedhis,andregardlessofDean,hekissedit,passionately,whisperingback,\"MylittleJean!ForyoursakeIcanbeanything。\"
\"MissBeaufortiswaiting。ShallIsayyouwillcome,sir?\"demandedDean,paleandgrimwithindignation。
\"Yes,yes,I’llcome。Waitformeinthegarden,Jean。\"AndCoventryhurriedaway,innomoodfortheinterviewbutanxioustohaveitover。
Asthedoorclosedbehindhim,DeanwalkeduptoMissMuir,tremblingwithanger,andlayingaheavyhandonherarm,shesaidbelowherbreath,\"I’vebeenexpectingthis,youartfulcreature。
Isawyourgameanddidmybesttospoilit,butyouaretooquickforme。Youthinkyou’vegothim。Thereyouaremistaken;forassureasmynameisHesterDean,I’llpreventit,orSirJohnshall。\"
\"Takeyourhandawayandtreatmewithproperrespect,oryouwillbedismissedfromthishouse。DoyouknowwhoIam?\"AndJeandrewherselfupwithahaughtyair,whichimpressedthewomanmoredeeplythanherwords。\"IamthedaughterofLadyHowardand,ifIchooseit,canbethewifeofMr。Coventry。\"
Deandrewbackamazed,yetnotconvinced。Beingawell-trainedservant,aswellasaprudentwoman,shefearedtooversteptheboundsofrespect,togotoofar,andgethermistressaswellasherselfintotrouble。So,thoughshestilldoubtedJean,andhatedhermorethanever,shecontrolledherself。Droppingacurtsy,sheassumedherusualairofdeference,andsaid,meekly,\"Ibegpardon,miss。IfI’dknown,Ishouldhaveconductedmyselfdifferently,ofcourse,butordinarygovernessesmakesomuchmischiefinahouse,onecan’thelpmistrustingthem。Idon’twishtomeddleorbeoverbold,butbeingfondofmydearyounglady,I
naturallytakeherpart,andmustsaythatMr。Coventryhasnotactedlikeagentleman。\"
\"Thinkwhatyouplease,Dean,butIadviseyoutosayaslittleaspossibleifyouwishtoremain。IhavenotacceptedMr。
Coventryyet,andifhechoosestosetasidetheengagementhisfamilymadeforhim,Ithinkhehasarighttodoso。MissBeaufortwouldhardlycaretomarryhimagainsthiswill,becausehepitiesherforherunhappylove,\"andwithatranquilsmile,MissMuirwalkedaway。
BehindaMask:or,AWoman’sPower。Chapter7THELASTCHANCE\"ShewilltellSirJohn,willshe?ThenImustbebeforeher,andhastenevents。Itwillbeaswelltohaveallsurebeforetherecanbeanydanger。MypoorDean,youarenomatchforme,butyoumayproveannoying,nevertheless。\"
ThesethoughtspassedthroughMissMuir’smindasshewentdownthehall,pausinganinstantatthelibrarydoor,forthemurmurofvoiceswasheard。Shecaughtnoword,andhadonlytimeforaninstant’spauseasDean’sheavystepfollowedher。Turning,Jeandrewachairbeforethedoor,and,beckoningtothewoman,shesaid,smilingstill,\"Sithereandplaywatchdog。IamgoingtoMissBella,soyoucannodifyouwill。\"
\"Thankyou,miss。Iwillwaitformyyounglady。
Shemayneedmewhenthishardtimeisover。\"AndDeanseatedherselfwitharesoluteface。
Jeanlaughedandwenton;buthereyesgleamedwithsuddenmalice,andsheglancedoverhershoulderwithanexpressionwhichbodedillforthefaithfuloldservant。
\"I’vegotaletterfromNed,andhereisatinynoteforyou,\"criedBellaasJeanenteredtheboudoir。\"Mineisaveryodd,hastyletter,withnonewsinit,buthismeetingwithSydney。Ihopeyoursisbetter,oritwon’tbeverysatisfactory。\"
AsSydney’snamepassedBella’slips,allthecolordiedoutofMissMuir’sface,andthenoteshookwiththetremorofherhand。
Herverylipswerewhite,butshesaidcalmly,\"Thankyou。Asyouarebusy,I’llgoandreadmyletteronthelawn。\"AndbeforeBellacouldspeak,shewasgone。
Hurryingtoaquietnook,Jeantoreopenthenoteandreadthefewblottedlinesitcontained。
IhaveseenSydney;hehastoldmeall;and,hardasIfoundittobelieve,itwasimpossibletodoubt,forhehasdiscoveredproofswhichcannotbedenied。Imakenoreproaches,shalldemandnoconfessionoratonement,forIcannotforgetthatIoncelovedyou。Igiveyouthreedaystofindanotherhome,beforeIreturntotellthefamilywhoyouare。
Goatonce,Ibeseechyou,andsparemethepainofseeingyourdisgrace。
Slowly,steadilyshereadittwiceover,thensatmotionless,knittingherbrowsindeepthought。Presentlyshedrewalongbreath,toreupthenote,andrising,wentslowlytowardtheHall,sayingtoherself,\"Threedays,onlythreedays!Canitbeaccomplishedinsoshortatime?Itshallbe,ifwitandwillcandoit,foritismylastchance。Ifthisfails,I’llnotgobacktomyoldlife,butendallatonce。\"
Settingherteethandclenchingherhands,asifsomememorystungher,shewentonthroughthetwilight,tofindSirJohnwaitingtogiveheraheartywelcome。
\"Youlooktired,mydear。Nevermindthereadingtonight;restyourself,andletthebookgo,\"hesaidkindly,observingherwornlook。
\"Thankyou,sir。Iamtired,butI’dratherread,elsethebookwillnotbefinishedbeforeIgo。\"
\"Go,child!Whereareyougoing?\"demandedSirJohn,lookinganxiouslyatherasshesatdown。
\"Iwilltellyouby-and-by,sir。\"Andopeningthebook,Jeanreadforalittlewhile。
Buttheusualcharmwasgone;therewasnospiritinthevoiceofthereader,nointerestinthefaceofthelistener,andsoonhesaid,abruptly,\"Mydear,praystop!Icannotlistenwithadividedmind。Whattroublesyou?Tellyourfriend,andlethimcomfortyou。\"
Asifthekindwordsovercameher,Jeandroppedthebook,coveredupherface,andweptsobitterlythatSirJohnwasmuchalarmed;forsuchademonstrationwasdoublytouchinginonewhousuallywasallgaietyandsmiles。Ashetriedtosootheher,hiswordsgrewtender,hissolicitudefullofamorethanpaternalanxiety,andhiskindheartoverflowedwithpityandaffectionfortheweepinggirl。Asshegrewcalmer,heurgedhertobefrank,promisingtohelpandcounselher,whatevertheafflictionorfaultmightbe。
\"Ah,youaretookind,toogenerous!HowcanIgoawayandleavemyonefriend?\"sighedJean,wipingthetearsawayandlookingupathimwithgratefuleyes。
\"Thenyoudocarealittlefortheoldman?\"saidSirJohnwithaneagerlook,aninvoluntarypressureofthehandheheld。
Jeanturnedherfaceaway,andanswered,verylow,\"Nooneeverwassokindtomeasyouhavebeen。CanIhelpcaringforyoumorethanIcanexpress?\"
SirJohnwasalittledeafattimes,butheheardthat,andlookedwellpleased。Hehadbeenratherthoughtfuloflate,haddressedwithunusualcare,beenparticularlygallantandgaywhentheyoungladiesvisitedhim,andmorethanonce,whenJeanpausedinthereadingtoaskaquestion,hehadbeenforcedtoconfessthathehadnotbeenlistening;
though,asshewellknew,hiseyeshadbeenfixeduponher。Sincethediscoveryofherbirth,hismannerhadbeenpeculiarlybenignant,andmanylittleactshadprovedhisinterestandgoodwill。Now,whenJeanspokeofgoing,apanicseizedhim,anddesolationseemedabouttofallupontheoldHall。
Somethinginherunusualagitationstruckhimaspeculiarandexcitedhiscuriosity。Neverhadsheseemedsointerestingasnow,whenshesatbesidehimwithtearfuleyes,andsomesofttroubleinherheartwhichshedarednotconfess。
\"Tellmeeverything,child,andletyourfriendhelpyouifhecan。\"Formerlyhesaid\"father\"or\"theoldman,\"butlatelyhealwaysspokeofhimselfasher\"friend。\"
\"Iwilltellyou,forIhavenooneelsetoturnto。ImustgoawaybecauseMr。Coventryhasbeenweakenoughtoloveme。\"
\"What,Gerald?\"criedSirJohn,amazed。
\"Yes;todayhetoldmethis,andleftmetobreakwithLucia;soIrantoyoutohelpmepreventhimfromdisappointinghismother’shopesandplans。\"
SirJohnhadstartedupandpaceddowntheroom,butasJeanpausedheturnedtowardher,saying,withanalteredface,\"Thenyoudonotlovehim?Isitpossible?\"
\"No,Idonotlovehim,\"sheansweredpromptly。
\"Yetheisallthatwomenusuallyfindattractive。
Howisitthatyouhaveescaped,Jean?\"
\"Ilovesomeoneelse,\"wasthescarcelyaudiblereply。
SirJohnresumedhisseatwiththeairofamanbentongettingatamystery,ifpossible。
\"Itwillbeunjusttoletyousufferforthefollyoftheseboys,mylittlegirl。Nedisgone,andIwassurethatGeraldwassafe;butnowthathisturnhascome,Iamperplexed,forhecannotbesentaway。\"
\"No,itisIwhomustgo;butitseemssohardtoleavethissafeandhappyhome,andwanderawayintothewide,coldworldagain。Youhaveallbeentookindtome,andnowseparationbreaksmyheart。\"
Asobendedthespeech,andJean’sheadwentdownuponherhandsagain。SirJohnlookedatheramoment,andhisfineoldfacewasfullofgenuineemotion,ashesaidslowly,\"Jean,willyoustayandbeadaughtertothesolitaryoldman?\"
\"No,sir\"wastheunexpectedanswer。
\"Andwhynot?\"askedSirJohn,lookingsurprised,butratherpleasedthanangry。
\"BecauseIcouldnotbeadaughtertoyou;andevenifIcoulditwouldnotbewise,forthegossipswouldsayyouwerenotoldenoughtobetheadoptedfatherofagirllikeme。SirJohn,youngasIam,Iknowmuchoftheworld,andamsurethatthiskindplanisimpractical;
butIthankyoufromthebottomofmyheart。\"
\"Wherewillyougo,Jean?\"askedSirJohn,afterapause。
\"ToLondon,andtrytofindanothersituationwhereIcandonoharm。\"
\"Willitbedifficulttofindanotherhome?\"
\"Yes。IcannotaskMrs。Coventrytorecommendme,whenIhaveinnocentlybroughtsomuchtroubleintoherfamily;andLadySydneyisgone,soIhavenofriend。\"
\"ExceptJohnCoventry。Iwillarrangeallthat。Whenwillyougo,Jean?\"
\"Tomorrow。\"
\"Sosoon!\"Andtheoldman’svoicebetrayedthetroublehewastryingtoconceal。
Jeanhadgrownverycalm,butitwasthecalmnessofdesperation。Shehadhopedthatthefirsttearswouldproducetheavowalforwhichshewaited。Ithadnot,andshebegantofearthatherlastchancewasslippingfromher。Didtheoldmanloveher?Ifso,whydidhenotspeak?Eagertoprofitbyeachmoment,shewasonthealertforanyhopefulhint,anypropitiousword,look,oract,andeverynervewasstrungtotheutmost。
\"Jean,mayIaskonequestion?\"saidSirJohn。
\"Anythingofme,sir。\"
\"Thismanwhomyoulove——canhenothelpyou?\"
\"Hecouldifheknew,buthemustnot。\"
\"Ifheknewwhat?Yourpresenttrouble?\"
\"No。Mylove。\"
\"Hedoesknowthis,then?\"
\"No,thankheaven!Andheneverwill。\"
\"Whynot?\"
\"BecauseIamtooproudtoownit。\"
\"Helovesyou,mychild?\"
\"Idonotknow——Idarenothopeit,\"murmuredJean。
\"CanInothelpyouhere?Believeme,Idesiretoseeyousafeandhappy。IstherenothingIcando?\"
\"Nothing,nothing。\"
\"MayIknowthename?\"
\"No!No!Letmego;Icannotbearthisquestioning!\"
AndJean’sdistressfulfacewarnedhimtoasknomore。
\"Forgiveme,andletmedowhatImay。Restherequietly。I’llwritealettertoagoodfriendofmine,whowillfindyouahome,ifyouleaveus。\"
AsSirJohnpassedintohisinnerstudy,Jeanwatchedhimwithdespairingeyesandwrungherhands,sayingtoherself,HasallmyskilldesertedmewhenIneeditmost?HowcanImakehimunderstand,yetnotoversteptheboundsofmaidenmodesty?Heissoblind,sotimid,orsodullhewillnotsee,andtimeisgoingfast。WhatshallIdotoopenhiseyes?
Herowneyesrovedabouttheroom,seekingforsomeaidfrominanimatethings,andsoonshefoundit。ClosebehindthecouchwhereshesathungafineminiatureofSirJohn。Atfirsthereyerestedonitasshecontrasteditsplacidcomelinesswiththeunusualpalloranddisquietofthelivingfaceseenthroughtheopendoor,astheoldmansatathisdesktryingtowriteandcastingcovertglancesatthegirlishfigurehehadleftbehindhim。Affectingunconsciousnessofthis,Jeangazedonasifforgetfulofeverythingbutthepicture,andsuddenly,asifobeyinganirresistibleimpulse,shetookitdown,lookedlongandfondlyatit,then,shakinghercurlsaboutherface,asiftohidetheact,pressedittoherlipsandseemedtoweepoveritinanuncontrollableparoxysmoftendergrief。Asoundstartledher,andlikeaguiltything,sheturnedtoreplacethepicture;butitdroppedfromherhandassheutteredafaintcryandhidherface,forSirJohnstoodbeforeher,withanexpressionwhichshecouldnotmistake。
\"Jean,whydidyoudothat?\"heasked,inaneager,agitatedvoice。
Noanswer,asthegirlsanklower,likeoneoverwhelmedwithshame。Layinghishandonthebenthead,andbendinghisown,hewhispered,\"Tellme,isthenameJohnCoventry?\"
Stillnoanswer,butastifledsoundbetrayedthathiswordshadgonehome。
\"Jean,shallIgobackandwritetheletter,ormayIstayandtellyouthattheoldmanlovesyoubetterthanadaughter?\"
Shedidnotspeak,butalittlehandstoleoutfromunderthefallinghair,asiftokeephim。Withabrokenexclamationheseizedit,drewherupintohisarms,andlaidhisgrayheadonherfairone,toohappyforwords。ForamomentJeanMuirenjoyedhersuccess;then,fearinglestsomesuddenmishapshoulddestroyit,shehastenedtomakeallsecure。Lookingupwithwell-feignedtimidityandhalf-confessedaffection,shesaidsoftly,\"ForgivemethatIcouldnothidethisbetter。Imeanttogoawayandnevertellit,butyouweresokinditmadethepartingdoublyhard。Whydidyouasksuchdangerousquestions?Whydidyoulook,whenyoushouldhavebeenwritingmydismissal?\"
\"HowcouldIdreamthatyoulovedme,Jean,whenyourefusedtheonlyofferIdaredmake?CouldIbepresumptuousenoughtofancyyouwouldrejectyoungloversforanoldmanlikeme?\"askedSirJohn,caressingher。
\"Youarenotold,tome,buteverythingIloveandhonor!\"interruptedJean,withatouchofgenuineremorse,asthisgenerous,honorablegentlemangaveherbothheartandhome,unconsciousofdeceit。
\"ItisIwhoampresumptuous,todaretoloveonesofaraboveme。ButIdidnotknowhowdearyouweretometillIfeltthatImustgo。Ioughtnottoacceptthishappiness。Iamnotworthyofit;andyouwillregretyourkindnesswhentheworldblamesyouforgivingahometoonesopoor,andplain,andhumbleasI。\"
\"Hush,mydarling。Icarenothingfortheidlegossipoftheworld。Ifyouarehappyhere,lettongueswagastheywill。Ishallbetoobusyenjoyingthesunshineofyourpresencetoheedanythingthatgoesonaboutme。But,Jean,youaresureyouloveme?ItseemsincrediblethatIshouldwintheheartthathasbeensocoldtoyounger,bettermenthanI。\"
\"DearSirJohn,besureofthis,Iloveyoutruly。
Iwilldomybesttobeagoodwifetoyou,andprovethat,inspiteofmymanyfaults,Ipossessthevirtueofgratitude。\"
Ifhehadknownthestraitshewasin,hewouldhaveunderstoodthecauseofthesuddentenorofherwords,theintensethankfulnessthatshoneinherface,therealhumilitythatmadeherstoopandkissthegeneroushandthatgavesomuch。Forafewmomentssheenjoyedandlethimenjoythehappypresent,undisturbed。Buttheanxietywhichdevouredher,thedangerwhichmenacedher,soonrecalledher,andforcedhertowringyetmorefromtheunsuspiciousheartshehadconquered。
\"Noneedoflettersnow,\"saidSirJohn,astheysatsidebyside,withthesummermoonlightglorifyingalltheroom。\"Youhavefoundahomeforlife;mayitproveahappyone。\"
\"Itisnotmineyet,andIhaveastrangeforebodingthatitneverwillbe,\"sheansweredsadly。
\"Why,mychild?\"
\"BecauseIhaveanenemywhowilltrytodestroymypeace,topoisonyourmindagainstme,andtodrivemeoutfrommyparadise,tosufferagainallIhavesufferedthislastyear。\"
\"YoumeanthatmadSydneyofwhomyoutoldme?\"