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  Therewasnohelpforit;shemuststayanddoherduty,orexposeherjealousytothequickeyesabouther。Foratimesheboreit;butthesightofhercousinleaningoverthechairshehadleftandchattingwiththegoverness,whonowfilledit,grewunbearable,andshedispatchedalittlegirlwithamessagetoMissMuir。

  \"Please,MissBeaufortwantsyouforQueenBess,asyouaretheonlyladywithredhair。Willyoucome?\"whisperedthechild,quiteunconsciousofanyhiddenstinginherwords。

  \"Yes,dear,willinglythoughI’mnotstatelyenoughforHerMajesty,norhandsomeenough,\"saidJean,risingwithanuntroubledface,thoughsheresentedthefeminineinsult。

  \"DoyouwantanEssex?I’malldressedforit,\"saidCoventry,followingtothedoorwithawistfullook。

  \"No,MissBeaufortsaidyouwerenottocome。Shedoesn’twantyoubothtogether,\"saidthechilddecidedly。

  Jeangavehimasignificantlook,shruggedhershoulders,andwentawaysmilingheroddsmile,whileCoventrypacedupanddownthehallinacuriousstateofunrest,whichmadehimforgetfulofeverythingtilltheyoungpeoplecamegailyouttosupper。

  \"Come,bonnyPrinceCharlie,takemedown,andplaytheloverascharminglyasyoudidanhourago。Ineverthoughtyouhadsomuchwarmthinyou,\"saidBella,takinghisarmanddrawinghimonagainsthiswill。

  \"Don’tbefoolish,child。Whereis——Lucia?\"

  WhyhecheckedJean’snameonhislipsandsubstitutedanother’s,hecouldnottell;butasuddenshynessinspeakingofherpossessedhim,andthoughhesawhernowhere,hewouldnotaskforher。Hiscousincamedownlookinglovelyinaclassicalcostume;butGeraldscarcelysawherand,whenthemerrimentwasatitsheight,heslippedawaytodiscoverwhathadbecomeofMissMuir。

  Aloneinthedeserteddrawingroomhefoundher,andpausedtowatchheramomentbeforehespoke;forsomethinginherattitudeandfacestruckhim。Shewasleaningwearilybackinthegreatchairwhichhadservedforathrone。Herroyalrobeswerestillunchanged,thoughthecrownwasoffandallherfairhairhungabouthershoulders。

  Excitementandexertionmadeherbrilliant,therichdressbecameherwonderfully,andanairofluxuriousindolencechangedthemeekgovernessintoacharmingwoman。Sheleanedonthevelvetcushionsasifshewereusedtosuchsupport;

  sheplayedwiththejewelswhichhadcrownedherascarelesslyasifshewereborntowearthem;herattitudewasfullofnegligentgrace,andtheexpressionofherfacehalfproud,halfpensive,asifherthoughtswerebittersweet。

  Onewouldknowshewaswellborntoseehernow。Poorgirl,whataburdenalifeofdependencemustbetoaspiritlikehers!

  Iwonderwhatsheisthinkingofsointently。AndCoventryindulgedinanotherlookbeforehespoke。

  \"ShallIbringyousomesupper,MissMuir?\"

  \"Supper!\"sheejaculated,withastart。\"Whothinksofone’sbodywhenone’ssoulis——\"Shestoppedthere,knitherbrows,andlaughedfaintlyassheadded,\"No,thankyou。Iwantnothingbutadvice,andthatIdarenotaskofanyone。\"

  \"Whynot?\"

  \"BecauseIhavenoright。\"

  \"Everyonehasarighttoaskhelp,especiallytheweakofthestrong。CanIhelpyou?Believeme,Imostheartilyoffermypoorservices。\"

  \"Ah,youforget!Thisdress,theborrowedsplendorofthesejewels,thefreedomofthisgayevening,theromanceofthepartyouplayed,allblindyoutothereality。ForamomentIceasetobeaservant,andforamomentyoutreatmeasanequal。\"

  Itwastrue;hehadforgotten。Thatsoft,reproachfulglancetouchedhim,hisdistrustmeltedunderthenewcharm,andheansweredwithrealfeelinginvoiceandface,\"Itreatyouasanequalbecauseyouareone;andwhenIofferhelp,itisnottomysister’sgovernessalone,buttoLadyHoward’sdaughter。\"

  \"Whotoldyouthat?\"shedemanded,sittingerect。

  \"Myuncle。Donotreproachhim。Itshallgonofurther,ifyouforbidit。AreyousorrythatIknowit?\"

  \"Yes。\"

  \"Why?\"

  \"BecauseIwillnotbepitied!\"Andhereyesflashedasshemadeahalf-defiantgesture。

  \"Then,ifImaynotpitythehardfatewhichhasbefallenaninnocentlife,mayIadmirethecouragewhichmeetsadversefortunesobravely,andconquerstheworldbywinningtherespectandregardofallwhoseeandhonorit?\"

  MissMuiravertedherface,putupherhand,andansweredhastily,\"No,no,notthat!Donotbekind;itdestroystheonlybarriernowleftbetweenus。Becoldtomeasbefore,forgetwhatIam,andletmegoonmyway,unknown,unpitied,andunloved!\"

  Hervoicefalteredandfailedasthelastwordwasuttered,andshebentherfaceuponherhand。SomethingjarreduponCoventryinthisspeech,andmovedhimtosay,almostrudely,\"Youneedhavenofearsforme。LuciawilltellyouwhatanicebergIam。\"

  \"ThenLuciawouldtellmewrong。Ihavethefatalpowerofreadingcharacter;Iknowyoubetterthanshedoes,andIsee——\"Thereshestoppedabruptly。

  \"What?Tellmeandproveyourskill,\"hesaideagerly。

  Turning,shefixedhereyesonhimwithapenetratingpowerthatmadehimshrinkasshesaidslowly,\"UndertheiceIseefire,andwarnyoutobewarelestitproveavolcano。\"

  Foramomenthesatdumb,wonderingattheinsightofthegirl;forshewasthefirsttodiscoverthehiddenwarmthofanaturetooproudtoconfessitstenderimpulses,ortheambitionsthatslepttillsomepotentvoiceawokethem。Theblunt,almoststernmannerinwhichshewarnedhimawayfromheronlymadehermoreattractive;fortherewasnoconceitorarroganceinit,onlyaforebodingfearemboldenedbypastsufferingtobefrank。Suddenlyhespokeimpetuously:\"Youareright!IamnotwhatIseem,andmyindolentindifferenceisbutthemaskunderwhichIconcealmyrealself。Icouldbeaspassionate,asenergeticandaspiringasNed,ifIhadanyaiminlife。Ihavenone,andsoIamwhatyouoncecalledme,athingtopityanddespise。\"

  \"Ineversaidthat!\"criedJeanindignantly。

  \"Notinthosewords,perhaps;butyoulookeditandthoughtit,thoughyouphraseditmoremildly。Ideservedit,butIshalldeserveitnolonger。Iambeginningtowakefrommydisgracefulidleness,andlongforsomeworkthatshallmakeamanofme。Whydoyougo?Iannoyyouwithmyconfessions。Pardonme。TheyarethefirstIevermade;theyshallbethelast。\"

  \"No,ohno!Iamtoomuchhonoredbyyourconfidence;

  butisitwise,isitloyaltotellmeyourhopesandaims?HasnotMissBeaufortthefirstrighttobeyourconfidante?\"

  Coventrydrewback,lookingintenselyannoyed,forthenamerecalledmuchthathewouldgladlyhaveforgotteninthenovelexcitementofthehour。Lucia’slove,Edward’spartingwords,hisownreservesostrangelythrownaside,sodifficulttoresume。Whathewouldhavesaidwascheckedbythesightofahalf-openletterwhichfellfromJean’sdressasshemovedaway。Mechanicallyhetookituptoreturnit,and,ashedidso,herecognizedSydney’shandwriting。Jeansnatcheditfromhim,turningpaletothelipsasshecried,\"Didyoureadit?Whatdidyousee?

  Tellme,tellme,onyourhonor!\"

  \"Onmyhonor,Isawnothingbutthissinglesentence,’BytheloveIbearyou,believewhatIsay。’Nomore,asIamagentleman。

  Iknowthehand,Iguessthepurportoftheletter,andasafriendofSydney,Iearnestlydesiretohelpyou,ifIcan。Isthisthematteruponwhichyouwantadvice?\"

  \"Yes。\"

  \"Thenletmegiveit?\"

  \"Youcannot,withoutknowingall,anditissohardtotell!\"

  \"Letmeguessit,andspareyouthepainoftelling。

  MayI?\"AndCoventrywaitedeagerlyforherreply,forthespellwasstilluponhim。

  Holdingtheletterfast,shebeckonedhimtofollow,andglidedbeforehimtoasecludedlittlenook,halfboudoir,halfconservatory。

  Thereshepaused,stoodaninstantasifindoubt,thenlookedupathimwithconfidingeyesandsaiddecidedly,\"Iwilldoit;for,strangeasitmayseem,youaretheonlypersontowhomIcanspeak。YouknowSydney,youhavediscoveredthatIamanequal,youhaveofferedyourhelp。Iacceptit;butoh,donotthinkmeunwomanly!RememberhowaloneIam,howyoung,andhowmuchIrelyuponyoursincerity,yoursympathy!\"

  \"Speakfreely。Iamindeedyourfriend。\"AndCoventrysatdownbesideher,forgetfulofeverythingbutthesoft-eyedgirlwhoconfidedinhimsoentirely。

  Speakingrapidly,Jeanwenton,\"YouknowthatSydneylovedme,thatIrefusedhimandwentaway。Butyoudonotknowthathisimportunitiesnearlydrovemewild,thathethreatenedtorobmeofmyonlytreasure,mygoodname,andthat,indesperation,Itriedtokillmyself。Yes,mad,wickedasitwas,Ididlongtoendthelifewhichwas,atbest,aburden,andunderhispersecutionhadbecomeatorment。Youareshocked,yetwhatIsayisthelivingtruth。LadySydneywillconfirmit,thenursesatthehospitalwillconfessthatitwasnotafeverwhichbroughtmethere;andhere,thoughtheexternalwoundishealed,myheartstillachesandburnswiththeshameandindignationwhichonlyaproudwomancanfeel。\"

  Shepausedandsatwithkindlingeyes,glowingcheeks,andbothhandspressedtoherheavingbosom,asiftheoldinsultrousedherspiritanew。Coventrysaidnotaword,forsurprise,anger,incredulity,andadmirationmingledsoconfusedlyinhismindthatheforgottospeak,andJeanwenton,\"Thatwildactofmineconvincedhimofmyindomitabledislike。Hewentaway,andIbelievedthatthisstormyloveofhiswouldbecuredbyabsence。Itisnot,andIliveindailyfearoffreshentreaties,renewedpersecution。HismotherpromisednottobetraywhereIhadgone,buthefoundmeoutandwrotetome。TheletterIaskedyoutotaketoLadySydneywasareplytohis,imploringhimtoleavemeinpeace。Youfailedtodeliverit,andIwasglad,forIthoughtsilencemightquenchhope。Allinvain;thisisamorepassionateappealthanever,andhevowshewillneverdesistfromhisendeavorstillIgiveanothermantherighttoprotectme。Icandothis——Iamsorelytemptedtodoit,butIrebelagainstthecruelty。Ilovemyfreedom,Ihavenowishtomarryatthisman’sbidding。WhatcanIdo?HowcanIfreemyself?Bemyfriend,andhelpme!\"

  Tearsstreameddownhercheeks,sobschokedherwords,andsheclaspedherhandsimploringlyassheturnedtowardtheyoungmaninalltheabandonmentofsorrow,fear,andsupplication。Coventryfoundithardtomeetthoseeloquenteyesandanswercalmly,forhehadnoexperienceinsuchscenesandknewnothowtoplayhispart。Itisthisabsurddressandthatromanticnonsensewhichmakesmefeelsounlikemyself,hethought,quiteunconsciousofthedangerouspowerwhichtheduskyroom,themidsummerwarmthandfragrance,thememoryofthe\"romanticnonsense,\"and,mostofall,thepresenceofabeautiful,afflictedwomanhadoverhim。Hisusualself-possessiondesertedhim,andhecouldonlyechothewordswhichhadmadethestrongestimpressionuponhim:

  \"Youcandothis,youaretemptedtodoit。IsNedthemanwhocanprotectyou?\"

  \"No\"wasthesoftreply。

  \"Whothen?\"

  \"Donotaskme。Agoodandhonorableman;onewholovesmewell,andwoulddevotehislifetome;onewhomonceitwouldhavebeenhappinesstomarry,butnow——\"

  Therehervoiceendedinasigh,andallherfairhairfelldownaboutherface,hidingitinashiningveil。

  \"Whynotnow?Thisisasureandspeedywayofendingyourdistress。Isitimpossible?\"

  Inspiteofhimself,Geraldleanednearer,tookoneofthelittlehandsinhis,andpresseditashespoke,urgently,compassionately,nay,almosttenderly。Frombehindtheveilcameaheavysigh,andthebriefanswer,\"Itisimpossible。\"

  \"Why,Jean?\"

  Sheflungherhairbackwithasuddengesture,drewawayherhand,andanswered,almostfiercely,\"BecauseIdonotlovehim!

  Whydoyoutormentmewithsuchquestions?ItellyouIaminasorestraitandcannotseemyway。ShallIdeceivethegoodman,andsecurepeaceatthepriceoflibertyandtruth?OrshallIdefySydneyandleadalifeofdread?Ifhemenacedmylife,Ishouldnotfear;buthemenacesthatwhichisdearerthanlife——mygoodname。Alook,awordcantarnishit;

  ascornfulsmile,asignificantshrugcandomemoreharmthananyblow;

  forIamawoman——friendless,poor,andatthemercyofhistongue。Ah,bettertohavedied,andsohavebeensavedthebitterpainthathascomenow!\"

  Shesprangup,claspedherhandsoverherhead,andpaceddespairinglythroughthelittleroom,notweeping,butwearinganexpressionmoretragicalthantears。Stillfeelingasifhehadsuddenlysteppedintoaromance,yetfindingakeenpleasureinthepartassignedhim,Coventrythrewhimselfintoitwithspirit,andheartilydidhisbesttoconsolethepoorgirlwhoneededhelpsomuch。Goingtoher,hesaidasimpetuouslyasNedeverdid,\"MissMuir——nay,IwillsayJean,ifthatwillcomfortyou——listen,andrestassuredthatnoharmshalltouchyouifIcanwarditoff。Youareneedlesslyalarmed。Indignantyoumaywellbe,but,uponmylife,IthinkyouwrongSydney。Heisviolent,I

  know,butheistoohonorableamantoinjureyoubyalightword,anunjustact。Hedidbutthreaten,hopingtosoftenyou。Letmeseehim,orwritetohim。Heismyfriend;hewilllistentome。OfthatIamsure。\"

  \"Besureofnothing。WhenamanlikeSydneylovesandisthwartedinhislove,nothingcancontrolhisheadstrongwill。Promisemeyouwillnotseeorwritetohim。MuchasIfearanddespisehim,I

  willsubmit,ratherthananyharmshouldbefallyou——oryourbrother。

  Youpromiseme,Mr。Coventry?\"

  Hehesitated。Sheclungtohisarmwithunfeignedsolicitudeinhereager,pleadingface,andhecouldnotresistit。

  \"Ipromise;butinreturnyoumustpromisetoletmegivewhathelpIcan;and,Jean,neversayagainthatyouarefriendless。\"

  \"Youaresokind!Godblessyouforit。ButIdarenotacceptyourfriendship;shewillnotpermitit,andIhavenorighttomarherpeace。\"

  \"Whowillnotpermitit?\"hedemandedhotly。

  \"MissBeaufort。\"

  \"HangMissBeaufort!\"exclaimedCoventry,withsuchenergythatJeanbrokeintoamusicallaugh,despitehertrouble。Hejoinedinit,and,foraninstanttheystoodlookingatoneanotherasifthelastbarrierweredown,andtheywerefriendsindeed。Jeanpausedsuddenly,withthesmileonherlips,thetearsstillonhercheek,andmadeawarninggesture。Helistened:thesoundoffeetmingledwithcallsandlaughterprovedthattheyweremissedandsought。

  \"Thatlaughbetrayedus。Stayandmeetthem。Icannot。\"

  AndJeandartedoutuponthelawn。Coventryfollowed;forthethoughtofconfrontingsomanyeyes,somanyquestions,dauntedhim,andhefledlikeacoward。ThesoundofJean’sflyingfootstepsguidedhim,andheovertookherjustasshepausedbehindarosethickettotakebreath。

  \"Faintheartedknight!Youshouldhavestayedandcoveredmyretreat。Hark!theyarecoming!Hide!Hide!\"shepanted,halfinfear,halfinmerriment,asthegaypursuersrapidlydrewnearer。

  \"Kneeldown;themooniscomingoutandtheglitterofyourembroiderywillbetrayyou,\"whisperedJean,astheycoweredbehindtheroses。

  \"Yourarmsandhairwillbetrayyou。’Comeundermyplaiddie,’asthesongsays。\"AndCoventrytriedtomakehisvelvetcloakcoverthewhiteshouldersandfairlocks。

  \"Weareactingourpartsinrealitynow。HowBellawillenjoythethingwhenItellher!\"saidJeanasthenoisesdiedaway。

  \"Donottellher,\"whisperedCoventry。

  \"Andwhynot?\"sheasked,lookingupintothefacesonearherown,withanartlessglance。

  \"Canyounotguesswhy?\"

  \"Ah,youaresoproudyoucannotbeartobelaughedat。\"

  \"Itisnotthat。ItisbecauseIdonotwantyoutobeannoyedbysillytongues;youhaveenoughtopainyouwithoutthat。

  Iamyourfriend,now,andIdomybesttoproveit。\"

  \"Sokind,sokind!HowcanIthankyou?\"murmuredJean。Andsheinvoluntarilynestledcloserunderthecloakthatshelteredboth。

  Neitherspokeforamoment,andinthesilencetherapidbeatingoftwoheartswasheard。Todrownthesound,Coventrysaidsoftly,\"Areyoufrightened?\"

  \"No,Ilikeit,\"sheanswered,assoftly,thenaddedabruptly,\"Butwhydowehide?Thereisnothingtofear。Itislate。I

  mustgo。Youarekneelingonmytrain。Pleaserise。\"

  \"Whyinsuchhaste?Thisflightandsearchonlyaddstothecharmoftheevening。I’llnotgetupyet。Willyouhavearose,Jean?\"

  \"No,Iwillnot。Letmego,Mr。Coventry,Iinsist。

  Therehasbeenenoughofthisfolly。Youforgetyourself。\"

  Shespokeimperiously,flungoffthecloak,andputhimfromher。Heroseatonce,saying,likeonewakingsuddenlyfromapleasantdream,\"Idoindeedforgetmyself。\"

  Herethesoundofvoicesbrokeonthem,nearerthanbefore。Pointingtoacoveredwalkthatledtothehouse,hesaid,inhisusuallycool,calmtone,\"Gointhatway;Iwillcoveryourretreat。\"Andturning,hewenttomeetthemerryhunters。

  Halfanhourlater,whenthepartybrokeup,MissMuirjoinedtheminherusualquietdress,lookingpaler,meeker,andsadderthanusual。Coventrysawthis,thoughheneitherlookedathernoraddressedher。Luciasawitalso,andwasgladthatthedangerousgirlhadfallenbackintoherproperplaceagain,forshehadsufferedmuchthatnight。

  Sheappropriatedhercousin’sarmastheywentthroughthepark,buthewasinoneofhistaciturnmoods,andallherattemptsatconversationwereinvain。MissMuirwalkedalone,singingsoftlytoherselfasshefollowedinthedusk。WasGeraldsosilentbecausehelistenedtothatfitfulsong?Luciathoughtso,andfeltherdislikerapidlydeepeningtohatred。

  Whentheyoungfriendsweregone,andthefamilywereexchanginggood-nightsamongthemselves,JeanwassurprisedbyCoventry’sofferinghishand,forhehadneverdoneitbefore,andwhispering,asheheldit,thoughLuciawatchedhimallthewhile,\"Ihavenotgivenmyadvice,yet。\"

  \"Thanks,Inolongerneedit。Ihavedecidedformyself。\"

  \"MayIaskhow?\"

  \"Tobravemyenemy。\"

  \"Good!Butwhatdecidedyousosuddenly?\"

  \"Thefindingofafriend。\"Andwithagratefulglanceshewasgone。

  BehindaMask:or,AWoman’sPower。Chapter6ONTHEWATCH\"Ifyouplease,Mr。Coventry,didyougettheletterlastnight?\"werethefirstwordsthatgreetedthe\"youngmaster\"ashelefthisroomnextmorning。

  \"Whatletter,Dean?Idon’trememberany,\"heanswered,pausing,forsomethinginthemaid’smannerstruckhimaspeculiar。

  \"ItcamejustasyouleftfortheHall,sir。Bensonranafteryouwithit,asitwasmarked’Haste。’Didn’tyougetit,sir?\"

  askedthewoman,anxiously。

  \"Yes,butuponmylife,Iforgotallaboutittillthisminute。It’sinmyothercoat,Isuppose,ifI’venotlostit。Thatabsurdmasqueradingputeverythingelseoutofmyhead。\"Andspeakingmoretohimselfthantothemaid,Coventryturnedbacktolookforthemissingletter。

  Deanremainedwhereshewas,apparentlybusyaboutthearrangementofthecurtainsatthehallwindow,butfurtivelywatchingmeanwhilewithamostunwontedairofcuriosity。

  \"Notthere,Ithoughtso!\"shemuttered,asCoventryimpatientlythrusthishandintoonepocketafteranother。Butasshespoke,anexpressionofamazementappearedinherface,forsuddenlytheletterwasdiscovered。

  \"I’dhaveswornitwasn’tthere!Idon’tunderstandit,butshe’sadeepone,orI’mdeceived。\"AndDeanshookherheadlikeoneperplexed,butnotconvinced。

  Coventryutteredanexclamationofsatisfactiononglancingattheaddressand,standingwherehewas,toreopentheletter。

  DearC:

  I’mofftoBaden。Comeandjoinme,thenyou’llbeoutofharm’sway;forifyoufallinlovewithJ。M。(andyoucan’tescapeifyoustaywheresheis),youwillincurthetriflinginconvenienceofhavingyourbrainsblownoutbyYourstruly,F。R。Sydney\"Themanismad!\"ejaculatedCoventry,staringattheletterwhileanangryflushrosetohisface。\"Whatthedeucedoeshemeanbywritingtomeinthatstyle?Joinhim——not!Andasforthethreat,Ilaughatit。PoorJean!Thisheadstrongfoolseemsbentontormentingher。Well,Dean,whatareyouwaitingfor?\"hedemanded,asifsuddenlyconsciousofherpresence。

  \"Nothing,sir;Ionlystoppedtoseeifyoufoundtheletter。Begpardon,sir。\"

  AndshewasmovingonwhenCoventryasked,withasuspiciouslook,\"Whatmadeyouthinkitwaslost?Youseemtotakeanuncommoninterestinmyaffairstoday。\"

  \"Ohdear,no,sir。Ifeltabitanxious,Bensonissoforgetful,anditwasmewhosenthimafteryou,forIhappenedtoseeyougoout,soIfeltresponsible。Beingmarkedthatway,IthoughtitmightbeimportantsoIaskedaboutit。\"

  \"Verywell,youcango,Dean。It’sallright,yousee。\"

  \"I’mnotsosureofthat,\"mutteredthewoman,asshecurtsiedrespectfullyandwentaway,lookingasiftheletterhadnotbeenfound。

  DeanwasMissBeaufort’smaid,agrave,middle-agedwomanwithkeeneyesandasomewhatgrimair。Havingbeenlonginthefamily,sheenjoyedalltheprivilegesofafaithfulandfavoriteservant。Shelovedheryoungmistresswithanalmostjealousaffection。Shewatchedoverherwithhevigilantcareofamotherandresentedanyattemptatinterferenceonthepartofothers。AtfirstshehadpitiedandlikedJeanMuir,thendistrustedher,andnowheartilyhatedher,asthecauseoftheincreasedindifferenceofCoventrytowardhiscousin。DeanknewthedepthofLucia’slove,andthoughnoman,inhereyes,wasworthyofhermistress,still,havinghonoredhimwithherregard,Deanfeltboundtolikehim,andthelatechangeinhismannerdisturbedthemaidalmostasmuchasitdidthemistress。ShewatchedJeannarrowly,causingthatamiablecreaturemuchamusementbutlittleannoyance,asyet,forDean’sslowEnglishwitwasnomatchforthesubtlemindofthegoverness。Ontheprecedingnight,DeanhadbeensentuptotheHallwithcostumesandhadthereseensomethingwhichmuchdisturbedher。Shebegantospeakofitwhileundressinghermistress,butLucia,beinginanunhappymood,hadsosternlyorderedhernottogossipthatthetaleremaineduntold,andshewasforcedtobidehertime。

  NowI’llseehowshelooksafterit;thoughthere’snotmuchtobegotoutofherface,thedeceitfulhussy,thoughtDean,marchingdownthecorridorandknittingherblackbrowsasshewent。

  \"Goodmorning,Mrs。Dean。Ihopeyouarenonetheworseforlastnight’sfrolic。Youhadtheworkandwetheplay,\"saidablithevoicebehindher;andturningsharply,sheconfrontedMissMuir。

  Freshandsmiling,thegovernessnoddedwithanairofcordialitywhichwouldhavebeenirresistiblewithanyonebutDean。

  \"I’mquitewell,thankyou,miss,\"shereturnedcoldly,asherkeeneyefastenedonthegirlasiftowatchtheeffectofherwords。

  \"Ihadagoodrestwhentheyoungladiesandgentlemenwereatsupper,forwhilethemaidsclearedup,Isatinthe’littleanteroom。’\"

  \"Yes,Isawyou,andfearedyou’dtakecold。Verygladyoudidn’t。HowisMissBeaufort?Sheseemedratherpoorlylastnight\"

  wasthetranquilreply,asJeansettledthelittlefrillsaboutherdelicatewrists。ThecoolquestionwasareturnshotforDean’shintthatshehadbeenwhereshecouldoverseetheinterviewbetweenCoventryandMissMuir。

  \"Sheisabittired,asanyladywouldbeaftersuchanevening。Peoplewhoareusedtoplay-actingwouldn’tmindit,perhaps,butMissBeaufortdon’tenjoyrompsasmuchassomedo。\"

  TheemphasisuponcertainwordsmadeDean’sspeechasimpertinentasshedesired。ButJeanonlylaughed,andasCoventry’sstepwasheardbehindthem,sherandownstairs,sayingblandly,butwithawickedlook,\"Iwon’tstoptothankyounow,lestMr。Coventryshouldbidmegood-morning,andsoincreaseMissBeaufort’sindisposition。\"

  Dean’seyesflashedasshelookedafterthegirlwithawrathfulface,andwentherway,sayinggrimly,\"I’llbidemytime,butI’llgetthebetterofheryet。\"

  Fancyinghimselfquiteremovedfrom\"lastnight’sabsurdity,\"yetcurioustoseehowJeanwouldmeethim,Coventryloungedintothebreakfastroomwithhisusualairoflistlessindifference。A

  languidnodandmurmurwasallthereplyhevouchsafedtothegreetingsofcousin,sister,andgovernessashesatdownandtookuphispaper。

  \"HaveyouhadaletterfromNed?\"askedBella,lookingatthenotewhichherbrotherstillheld。

  \"No\"wasthebriefanswer。

  \"Whothen?Youlookasifyouhadreceivedbadnews。\"

  Therewasnoreply,and,peepingoverhisarm,Bellacaughtsightofthesealandexclaimed,inadisappointedtone,\"ItistheSydneycrest。Idon’tcareaboutthenotenow。Men’sletterstoeachotherarenotinteresting。\"

  MissMuirhadbeenquietlyfeedingoneofEdward’sdogs,butatthenameshelookedupandmetCoventry’seyes,coloringsodistressfullythathepitiedher。Whyheshouldtakethetroubletocoverherconfusion,hedidnotstoptoaskhimself,butseeingthecurlofLucia’slip,hesuddenlyaddressedherwithanairofdispleasure,\"DoyouknowthatDeanisgettingimpertinent?Shepresumestoomuchonherageandyourindulgence,andforgetsherplace。\"

  \"Whathasshedone?\"askedLuciacoldly。

  \"ShetroublesherselfaboutmyaffairsandtakesituponherselftokeepBensoninorder。\"

  HereCoventrytoldabouttheletterandthewoman’sevidentcuriosity。

  \"PoorDean,shegetsnothanksforremindingyouofwhatyouhadforgotten。Nexttimeshewillleaveyourletterstotheirfate,andperhapsitwillbeaswell,iftheyhavesuchabadeffectuponyourtemper,Gerald。\"

  Luciaspokecalmly,buttherewasanangrycolorinhercheekassheroseandlefttheroom。Coventrylookedmuchannoyed,foronJean’sfacehedetectedafaintsmile,halfpitiful,halfsatirical,whichdisturbedhimmorethanhiscousin’sinsinuation。Bellabroketheawkwardsilencebysaying,withasigh,\"PoorNed!Idosolongtohearagainfromhim。Ithoughtaletterhadcomeforsomeofus。Deansaidshesawonebearinghiswritingonthehalltableyesterday。\"

  \"Sheseemstohaveamaniaforinspectingletters。

  Iwon’tallowit。Whowastheletterfor,Bella?\"saidCoventry,puttingdownhispaper。

  \"Shewouldn’torcouldn’ttell,butlookedverycrossandtoldmetoaskyou。\"

  \"Veryodd!I’vehadnone,\"beganCoventry。

  \"ButIhadoneseveraldaysago。Willyoupleasereadit,andmyreply?\"Andasshespoke,Jeanlaidtwolettersbeforehim。

  \"Certainlynot。ItwouldbedishonorabletoreadwhatNedintendedfornoeyesbutyourown。Youaretooscrupulousinoneway,andnotenoughsoinanother,MissMuir。\"AndCoventryofferedboththeletterswithanairofgravedecision,whichcouldnotconcealtheinterestandsurprisehefelt。

  \"Youareright。Mr。Edward’snoteshouldbekeptsacred,forinitthepoorboyhaslaidbarehishearttome。ButmineIbegyouwillread,thatyoumayseehowwellItrytokeepmywordtoyou。Obligemeinthis,Mr。Coventry;Ihavearighttoaskitofyou。\"

  Sourgentlyshespoke,sowistfullyshelooked,thathecouldnotrefuseand,goingtothewindow,readtheletter。Itwasevidentlyananswertoapassionateappealfromtheyounglover,andwaswrittenwithconsummateskill。Asheread,Geraldcouldnothelpthinking,Ifthisgirlwritesinthiswaytoamanwhomshedoesnotlove,withwhataworldofpowerandpassionwouldshewritetoonewhomshedidlove。Andthisthoughtkeptreturningtohimashiseyewentoverlineafterlineofwiseargument,gentlereproof,goodcounsel,andfriendlyregard。Hereandthereaword,aphrase,betrayedwhatshehadalreadyconfessed,andCoventryforgottoreturntheletter,ashestoodwonderingwhowasthemanwhomJeanloved。

  ThesoundofBella’svoicerecalledhim,forshewassaying,halfkindly,halfpetulantly,\"Don’tlooksosad,Jean。Nedwilloutliveit,Idaresay。Yourememberyousaidoncemenneverdiedoflove,thoughwomenmight。Inhisonenotetome,hespokesobeautifullyofyou,andbeggedmetobekindtoyouforhissake,thatItrytobewithallmyheart,thoughifitwasanyonebutyou,IreallythinkIshouldhatethemformakingmydearboysounhappy。\"

  \"Youaretookind,Bella,andIoftenthinkI’llgoawaytorelieveyouofmypresence;butunwiseanddangerousasitistostay,Ihaven’tthecouragetogo。I’vebeensohappyhere。\"Andasshespoke,Jean’sheaddroppedloweroverthedogasitnestledtoheraffectionately。

  BeforeBellacouldutterhalfthelovingwordsthatsprangtoherlips,Coventrycametothemwithalllanguorgonefromfaceandmien,andlayingJean’sletterbeforeher,hesaid,withanundertoneofdeepfeelinginhisusuallyemotionlessvoice,\"Arightwomanlyandeloquentletter,butIfearitwillonlyincreasethefireitwasmeanttoquench。Ipitymybrothermorethanevernow。\"

  \"ShallIsendit?\"askedJean,lookingstraightupathim,likeonewhohadentirerelianceonhisjudgment。

  \"Yes,Ihavenotthehearttorobhimofsuchasweetsermonuponself-sacrifice。ShallIpostitforyou?\"

  \"Thankyou;inamoment。\"Andwithagratefullook,Jeandroppedhereyes。Producingherlittlepurse,sheselectedapenny,foldeditinabitofpaper,andthenofferedbothletterandcointoCoventry,withsuchaprettyairofbusiness,thathecouldnotcontrolalaugh。

  \"Soyouwon’tbeindebtedtomeforapenny?Whataproudwomanyouare,MissMuir。\"

  \"Iam;it’safamilyfailing。\"Andshegavehimasignificantglance,whichrecalledtohimthememoryofwhoshewas。Heunderstoodherfeeling,andlikedherthebetterforit,knowingthathewouldhavedonethesamehadhebeeninherplace。Itwasalittlething,butifdoneforeffect,itansweredadmirably,foritshowedaquickinsightintohischaracteronherpart,andbetrayedtohimtheexistenceofaprideinwhichhesympathizedheartily。HestoodbyJeanamoment,watchingherassheburntEdward’sletterintheblazeofthespiritlampundertheurn。

  \"Whydoyoudothat?\"heaskedinvoluntarily。

  \"Becauseitismydutytoforget\"wasallheranswer。

  \"Canyoualwaysforgetwhenitbecomesaduty?\"

  \"IwishIcould!IwishIcould!\"

  Shespokepassionately,asifthewordsbrokefromheragainstherwill,and,risinghastily,shewentintothegarden,asifafraidtostay。

  \"Poor,dearJeanisveryunhappyaboutsomething,butIcan’tdiscoverwhatitis。LastnightIfoundhercryingoverarose,andnowsherunsaway,lookingasifherheartwasbroken。I’mgladI’vegotnolessons。\"

  \"Whatkindofarose?\"askedCoventryfrombehindhispaperasBellapaused。

  \"Alovelywhiteone。ItmusthavecomefromtheHall;

  wehavenonelikeit。IwonderifJeanwasevergoingtobemarried,andlostherlover,andfeltsadbecausetheflowerremindedherofbridalroses。\"Coventrymadenoreply,butfelthimselfchangecountenanceasherecalledthelittlescenebehindtherosehedge,wherehegaveJeantheflowerwhichshehadrefusedyettaken。Presently,toBella’ssurprise,heflungdownthepaper,toreSydney’snotetoatoms,andrangforhishorsewithanenergywhichamazedher。

  \"Why,Gerald,whathascomeoveryou?OnewouldthinkNed’srestlessspirithadsuddenlytakenpossessionofyou。Whatareyougoingtodo?\"

  \"I’mgoingtowork\"wastheunexpectedanswer,asCoventryturnedtowardherwithanexpressionsorarelyseenonhisfineface。

  \"Whathaswakedyouupallatonce?\"askedBella,lookingmoreandmoreamazed。

  \"Youdid,\"hesaid,drawinghertowardhim。

  \"I!When?How?\"

  \"Doyouremembersayingoncethatenergywasbetterthanbeautyinaman,andthatnoonecouldrespectanidler?\"

  \"Ineversaidanythinghalfsosensibleasthat。

  Jeansaidsomethinglikeitonce,Ibelieve,butIforgot。Areyoutiredofdoingnothing,atlast,Gerald?\"

  \"Yes,IneglectedmydutytoNed,tillhegotintotrouble,andnowIreproachmyselfforit。It’snottoolatetodootherneglectedtasks,soI’mgoingatthemwithawill。Don’tsayanythingaboutittoanyone,anddon’tlaughatme,forI’minearnest,Bell。\"

  \"Iknowyouare,andIadmireandloveyouforit,mydearoldboy,\"criedBellaenthusiastically,asshethrewherarmsabouthisneckandkissedhimheartily。\"Whatwillyoudofirst?\"sheasked,ashestoodthoughtfullysmoothingthebrightheadthatleaneduponhisshoulder,withthatnewexpressionstillclearandsteadyinhisface。

  \"I’mgoingtorideoverthewholeestate,andattendtothingsasamastershould;notleaveitalltoBent,ofwhomI’veheardmanycomplaints,buthavebeentooidletoinquireaboutthem。IshallconsultUncle,andendeavortobeallthatmyfatherwasinhistime。Isthataworthyambition,dear?\"

  \"Oh,Gerald,letmetellMamma。Itwillmakehersohappy。Youareheridol,andtohearyousaythesethings,toseeyoulooksolikedearPapa,woulddomoreforherspiritsthanallthedoctorsinEngland。\"

  \"WaittillIprovewhatmyresolutionisworth。WhenIhavereallydonesomething,thenI’llsurpriseMammawithasampleofmywork。\"

  \"Ofcourseyou’lltellLucia?\"

  \"Notonanyaccount。Itisalittlesecretbetweenus,sokeepittillIgiveyouleavetotellit。\"

  \"ButJeanwillseeitatonce;sheknowseverythingthathappens,sheissoquickandwise。Doyoumindherknowing?\"

  \"Idon’tseethatIcanhelpitifsheissowonderfullygifted。Letherseewhatshecan,Idon’tmindher。NowI’moff。\"Andwithakisstohissister,asuddensmileonhisface,Coventryspranguponhishorseandrodeawayatapacewhichcausedthegroomtostareafterhiminblankamazement。

  Nothingmorewasseenofhimtilldinnertime,whenhecameinsoexhilaratedbyhisbriskrideandbusymorningthathefoundsomedifficultyinassuminghiscustomarymanner,andmorethanonceastonishedthefamilybytalkinganimatedlyonvarioussubjectswhichtillnowhadalwaysseemedutterlyuninterestingtohim。Luciawasamazed,hismotherdelighted,andBellacouldhardlycontrolherdesiretoexplainthemystery;

  butJeantookitverycalmlyandregardedhimwiththeairofonewhosaid,\"Iunderstand,butyouwillsoontireofit。\"Thisnettledhimmorethanhewouldconfess,andheexertedhimselftosilentlycontradictthatprophecy。

  \"HaveyouansweredMr。Sydney’sletter?\"askedBella,whentheywereallscatteredaboutthedrawingroomafterdinner。

  \"No,\"answeredherbrother,whowaspacingupanddownwithrestlesssteps,insteadofloungingnearhisbeautifulcousin。

  \"IaskbecauseIrememberedthatNedsentamessageforhiminmylastnote,ashethoughtyouwouldknowSydney’saddress。

  Hereitis,somethingaboutahorse。Pleaseputitinwhenyouwrite,\"

  andBellalaidthenoteonthewritingtablenearby。

  \"I’llsenditatonceandhavedonewithit,\"mutteredCoventryand,seatinghimself,hedashedoffafewlines,sealedandsenttheletter,andthenresumedhismarch,eyeingthethreeyoungladieswiththreedifferentexpressions,ashepassedandrepassed。Luciasatapart,feigningtobeintentuponabook,andherhandsomefacelookedalmoststerninitshaughtycomposure,forthoughherheartached,shewastooproudtoownit。Bellanowlayonthesofa,halfasleep,arosylittlecreature,asunconsciouslyprettyasachild。MissMuirsatintherecessofadeepwindow,inalowloungingchair,workingatanembroideryframewithagracefulindustrypleasanttosee。Oflateshehadworncolors,forBellahadbeengenerousingifts,andthepalebluemuslinwhichflowedinsoftwavesaboutherwasverybecomingtoherfairskinandgoldenhair。

  Theclosebraidsweregone,andloosecurlsdroppedhereandtherefromtheheavycoilwoundaroundherwell-shapedhead。Thetipofonedaintyfootwasvisible,andapetulantlittlegesturewhichnowandthenshookbackthefallingsleevegaveglimpsesofaroundwhitearm。Ned’sgreathoundlaynearby,thesunshineflickeredonherthroughtheleaves,andasshesatsmilingtoherself,whilethedexteroushandsshapedleafandflower,shemadeacharmingpictureofallthatismostwomanlyandwinning;

  apicturewhichfewmen’seyeswouldnothavelikedtorestupon。

  Anotherchairstoodnearher,andasCoventrywentupanddown,astrongdesiretotakeitpossessedhim。Hewastiredofhisthoughtsandwishedtobeamusedbywatchingthechangesofthegirl’sexpressiveface,listeningtothevaryingtonesofhervoice,andtryingtodiscoverthespellwhichsostronglyattractedhiminspiteofhimself。

  Morethanonceheswervedfromhiscoursetogratifyhiswhim,butLucia’spresencealwaysrestrainedhim,andwithawordtothedog,oraglancefromthewindow,aspretextforapause,heresumedhiswalkagain。Somethinginhiscousinsfacereproachedhim,buthermanneroflatewassorepellentthathefeltnodesiretoresumetheirformerfamiliarity,and,wishingtoshowthathedidnotconsiderhimselfbound,hekeptaloof。Itwasaquiettestofthepowerofeachwomanoverthisman;theyinstinctivelyfeltit,andbothtriedtoconquer。Luciaspokeseveraltimes,andtriedtospeakfranklyandaffably;buthermannerwasconstrained,andCoventry,havingansweredpolitely,relapsedintosilence。Jeansaidnothing,butsilentlyappealedtoeyeandearbytheprettypictureshemadeofherself,thesnatchesofsongshesoftlysang,asifforgettingthatshewasnotalone,andashyglancenowandthen,halfwistful,halfmerry,whichwasmorealluringthangracefulfigureorsweetvoice。WhenshehadtormentedLuciaandtemptedCoventrylongenough,shequietlyassertedhersupremacyinawaywhichastonishedherrival,whoknewnothingofthesecretofherbirth,whichknowledgedidmuchtoattractandcharmtheyoungman。

  Lettingaballofsilkescapefromherlap,shewatcheditrolltowardthepromenader,whocaughtandreturneditwithanalacritywhichaddedgracetothetriflingservice。

  Asshetookit,shesaid,inthefrankwaythatneverfailedtowinhim,\"Ithinkyoumustbetired;butifexerciseisnecessary,employyourenergiestosomepurposeandputyourmother’sbasketofsilksinorder。Theyareinatangle,anditwillpleasehertoknowthatyoudidit,asyourbrotherusedtodo。\"

  \"Herculesatthedistaff,\"saidCoventrygaily,anddownhesatinthelong-desiredseat。Jeanputthebasketonhisknee,andashesurveyedit,asifdauntedathistask,sheleanedback,andindulgedinamusicallittlepealoflaughtercharmingtohear。Luciasatdumbwithsurprise,toseeherproud,indolentcousinobeyingthecommandsofagoverness,andlookingasifheheartilyenjoyedit。Intenminutesshewasasentirelyforgottenasifshehasbeenmilesaway;forJeanseemedinherwittiest,gayestmood,andasshenowtreatedthe\"youngmaster\"

  likeanequal,therewasnoneoftheformermeektimidity。Yetoftenhereyesfell,hercolorchanged,andthepiquantsalliesfalteredonhertongue,asCoventryinvoluntarilylookeddeepintothefineeyeswhichhadonceshoneonhimsotenderlyinthatmimictragedy。Hecouldnotforgetit,andthoughneitheralludedtoit,thememoryofthepreviouseveningseemedtohauntbothandlendasecretcharmtothepresentmoment。Luciaborethisaslongasshecould,andthenlefttheroomwiththeairofaninsultedprincess;butCoventrydidnot,andJeanfeignednottoseehergo。Bellawasfastasleep,andbeforeheknewhowitcametopass,theyoungmanwaslisteningtothestoryofhiscompanion’slife。Asadtale,toldwithwonderfulskill,forsoonhewasabsorbedinit。Thebasketslidunobservedfromhisknee,thedogwaspushedaway,and,leaningforward,helistenedeagerlyasthegirl’slowvoicerecountedallthehardships,loneliness,andgriefofhershortlife。Inthemidstofatouchingepisodeshestarted,stopped,andlookedstraightbeforeher,withanintentexpressionwhichchangedtooneofintensecontempt,andhereyeturnedtoCoventry’s,asshesaid,pointingtothewindowbehindhim,\"Wearewatched。\"

  \"Bywhom?\"hedemanded,startingupangrily。

  \"Hush,saynothing,letitpass。Iamusedtoit。\"

  \"ButIamnot,andI’llnotsubmittoit。Whowasit,Jean?\"heansweredhotly。

  Shesmiledsignificantlyataknotofrose-coloredribbon,whichalittlegustwasblowingtowardthemalongtheterrace。

  Ablackfrowndarkenedtheyoungman’sfaceashesprangoutofthelongwindowandwentrapidlyoutofsight,scrutinizingeachgreennookashepassed。Jeanlaughedquietlyasshewatchedhim,andsaidsoftlytoherself,withhereyesontheflutteringribbon,\"Thatwasafortunateaccident,andahappyinspiration。Yes,mydearMrs。Dean,youwillfindthatplayingthespywillonlygetyourmistressaswellasyourselfintotrouble。Youwouldnotbewarned,andyoumusttaketheconsequences,reluctantasI

  amtoinjureaworthycreaturelikeyourself。\"

  SoonCoventrywasheardreturning。Jeanlistenedwithsuspendedbreathtocatchhisfirstwords,forhewasnotalone。

  \"Sinceyouinsistthatitwasyouandnotyourmistress,Iletitpass,althoughIstillhavemysuspicions。TellMissBeaufortIdesiretoseeherforafewmomentsinthelibrary。Nowgo,Dean,andbecarefulforthefuture,ifyouwishtostayinmyhouse。\"

  Themaidretired,andtheyoungmancameinlookingbothirefulandstern。

  \"IwishIhadsaidnothing,butIwasstartled,andspokeinvoluntarily。Nowyouareangry,andIhavemadefreshtroubleforpoorMissLucia。ForgivemeasIforgiveher,andletitpass。Ihavelearnedtobearthissurveillance,andpityhercauselessjealousy,\"saidJeanwithaself-reproachfulair。

  \"Iwillforgivethedishonorableact,butIcannotforgetit,andIintendtoputastoptoit。Iamnotbetrothedtomycousin,asItoldyouonce,butyou,likealltherest,seembentonbelievingthatIam。HithertoIhavecaredtoolittleaboutthemattertosettleit,butnowIshallprovebeyondalldoubtthatIamfree。\"

  Asheutteredthelastword,CoventrycastonJeanalookthataffectedherstrangely。Shegrewpale,herworkdroppedonherlapandhereyesrosetohis,withaneager,questioningexpression,whichslowlychangedtooneofmingledpainandpity,assheturnedherfaceaway,murmuringinatoneoftendersorrow,\"PoorLucia,whowillcomforther?\"

  ForamomentCoventrystoodsilent,asifweighingsomefatefulpurposeinhismind。AsJean’sraptsighofcompassionreachedhisear,hehadechoeditwithinhimself,andhalfrepentedofhisresolution;

  thenhiseyerestedonthegirlbeforehimlookingsolonelyinhersweetsympathyforanotherthathisheartyearnedtowardher。Suddenfireshotintohiseye,suddenwarmthreplacedthecoldsternnessofhisface,andhissteadyvoicefalteredsuddenly,ashesaid,verylow,yetveryearnestly,\"Jean,Ihavetriedtoloveher,butIcannot。OughtItodeceiveher,andmakemyselfmiserabletopleasemyfamily?\"

  \"Sheisbeautifulandgood,andlovesyoutenderly;

  istherenohopeforher?\"askedJean,stillpale,butveryquiet,thoughsheheldonehandagainstherheart,asiftostillorhideitsrapidbeating。

  \"None,\"answeredCoventry。

  \"Butcanyounotlearntoloveher?Yourwillisstrong,andmostmenwouldnotfinditahardtask。\"

  \"Icannot,forsomethingstrongerthanmyownwillcontrolsme。\"

  \"Whatisthat?\"AndJean’sdarkeyeswerefixeduponhim,fullofinnocentwonder。

  Hisfell,andhesaidhastily,\"Idarenottellyouyet。\"

  \"Pardon!Ishouldnothaveasked。Donotconsultmeinthismatter;Iamnotthepersontoadviseyou。Icanonlysaythatitseemstomeasifanymanwithanemptyheartwouldbegladtohavesobeautifulawomanasyourcousin。\"

  \"Myheartisnotempty,\"beganCoventry,drawingastepnearer,andspeakinginapassionatevoice。\"Jean,Imustspeak;

  hearme。Icannotlovemycousin,becauseIloveyou。\"

  \"Stop!\"AndJeansprangupwithacommandinggesture。

  \"Iwillnothearyouwhileanypromisebindsyoutoanother。Rememberyourmother’swishes,Lucia’shopes,Edward’slastwords,yourownpride,myhumblelot。Youforgetyourself,Mr。Coventry。Thinkwellbeforeyouspeak,weighthecostofthisact,andrecollectwhoIambeforeyouinsultmebyanytransientpassion,anyfalsevows。\"

  \"Ihavethought,Idoweighthecost,andIswearthatIdesiretowooyouashumbly,honestlyasIwouldanyladyintheland。Youspeakofmypride。DoIstoopinlovingmyequalinrank?Youspeakofyourlowlylot,butpovertyisnodisgrace,andthecouragewithwhichyoubearitmakesitbeautiful。IshouldhavebrokenwithLuciabeforeIspoke,butIcouldnotcontrolmyself。Mymotherlovesyou,andwillbehappyinmyhappiness。Edwardmustforgiveme,forIhavetriedtodomybest,butloveisirresistible。Tellme,Jean,isthereanyhopeforme?\"

  Hehadseizedherhandandwasspeakingimpetuously,withardentfaceandtendertone,butnoanswercame,forasJeanturnedhereloquentcountenancetowardhim,fullofmaidenshameandtimidlove,Dean’sprimfigureappearedatthedoor,andherharshvoicebrokethemomentarysilence,saying,sternly,\"MissBeaufortiswaitingforyou,sir。\"

  \"Go,goatonce,andbekind,formysake,Gerald,\"

  whisperedJean,forhestoodasifdeafandblindtoeverythingbuthervoice,herface。

  Asshedrewhisheaddowntowhisper,hercheektouchedhis,andregardlessofDean,hekissedit,passionately,whisperingback,\"MylittleJean!ForyoursakeIcanbeanything。\"

  \"MissBeaufortiswaiting。ShallIsayyouwillcome,sir?\"demandedDean,paleandgrimwithindignation。

  \"Yes,yes,I’llcome。Waitformeinthegarden,Jean。\"AndCoventryhurriedaway,innomoodfortheinterviewbutanxioustohaveitover。

  Asthedoorclosedbehindhim,DeanwalkeduptoMissMuir,tremblingwithanger,andlayingaheavyhandonherarm,shesaidbelowherbreath,\"I’vebeenexpectingthis,youartfulcreature。

  Isawyourgameanddidmybesttospoilit,butyouaretooquickforme。Youthinkyou’vegothim。Thereyouaremistaken;forassureasmynameisHesterDean,I’llpreventit,orSirJohnshall。\"

  \"Takeyourhandawayandtreatmewithproperrespect,oryouwillbedismissedfromthishouse。DoyouknowwhoIam?\"AndJeandrewherselfupwithahaughtyair,whichimpressedthewomanmoredeeplythanherwords。\"IamthedaughterofLadyHowardand,ifIchooseit,canbethewifeofMr。Coventry。\"

  Deandrewbackamazed,yetnotconvinced。Beingawell-trainedservant,aswellasaprudentwoman,shefearedtooversteptheboundsofrespect,togotoofar,andgethermistressaswellasherselfintotrouble。So,thoughshestilldoubtedJean,andhatedhermorethanever,shecontrolledherself。Droppingacurtsy,sheassumedherusualairofdeference,andsaid,meekly,\"Ibegpardon,miss。IfI’dknown,Ishouldhaveconductedmyselfdifferently,ofcourse,butordinarygovernessesmakesomuchmischiefinahouse,onecan’thelpmistrustingthem。Idon’twishtomeddleorbeoverbold,butbeingfondofmydearyounglady,I

  naturallytakeherpart,andmustsaythatMr。Coventryhasnotactedlikeagentleman。\"

  \"Thinkwhatyouplease,Dean,butIadviseyoutosayaslittleaspossibleifyouwishtoremain。IhavenotacceptedMr。

  Coventryyet,andifhechoosestosetasidetheengagementhisfamilymadeforhim,Ithinkhehasarighttodoso。MissBeaufortwouldhardlycaretomarryhimagainsthiswill,becausehepitiesherforherunhappylove,\"andwithatranquilsmile,MissMuirwalkedaway。

  BehindaMask:or,AWoman’sPower。Chapter7THELASTCHANCE\"ShewilltellSirJohn,willshe?ThenImustbebeforeher,andhastenevents。Itwillbeaswelltohaveallsurebeforetherecanbeanydanger。MypoorDean,youarenomatchforme,butyoumayproveannoying,nevertheless。\"

  ThesethoughtspassedthroughMissMuir’smindasshewentdownthehall,pausinganinstantatthelibrarydoor,forthemurmurofvoiceswasheard。Shecaughtnoword,andhadonlytimeforaninstant’spauseasDean’sheavystepfollowedher。Turning,Jeandrewachairbeforethedoor,and,beckoningtothewoman,shesaid,smilingstill,\"Sithereandplaywatchdog。IamgoingtoMissBella,soyoucannodifyouwill。\"

  \"Thankyou,miss。Iwillwaitformyyounglady。

  Shemayneedmewhenthishardtimeisover。\"AndDeanseatedherselfwitharesoluteface。

  Jeanlaughedandwenton;buthereyesgleamedwithsuddenmalice,andsheglancedoverhershoulderwithanexpressionwhichbodedillforthefaithfuloldservant。

  \"I’vegotaletterfromNed,andhereisatinynoteforyou,\"criedBellaasJeanenteredtheboudoir。\"Mineisaveryodd,hastyletter,withnonewsinit,buthismeetingwithSydney。Ihopeyoursisbetter,oritwon’tbeverysatisfactory。\"

  AsSydney’snamepassedBella’slips,allthecolordiedoutofMissMuir’sface,andthenoteshookwiththetremorofherhand。

  Herverylipswerewhite,butshesaidcalmly,\"Thankyou。Asyouarebusy,I’llgoandreadmyletteronthelawn。\"AndbeforeBellacouldspeak,shewasgone。

  Hurryingtoaquietnook,Jeantoreopenthenoteandreadthefewblottedlinesitcontained。

  IhaveseenSydney;hehastoldmeall;and,hardasIfoundittobelieve,itwasimpossibletodoubt,forhehasdiscoveredproofswhichcannotbedenied。Imakenoreproaches,shalldemandnoconfessionoratonement,forIcannotforgetthatIoncelovedyou。Igiveyouthreedaystofindanotherhome,beforeIreturntotellthefamilywhoyouare。

  Goatonce,Ibeseechyou,andsparemethepainofseeingyourdisgrace。

  Slowly,steadilyshereadittwiceover,thensatmotionless,knittingherbrowsindeepthought。Presentlyshedrewalongbreath,toreupthenote,andrising,wentslowlytowardtheHall,sayingtoherself,\"Threedays,onlythreedays!Canitbeaccomplishedinsoshortatime?Itshallbe,ifwitandwillcandoit,foritismylastchance。Ifthisfails,I’llnotgobacktomyoldlife,butendallatonce。\"

  Settingherteethandclenchingherhands,asifsomememorystungher,shewentonthroughthetwilight,tofindSirJohnwaitingtogiveheraheartywelcome。

  \"Youlooktired,mydear。Nevermindthereadingtonight;restyourself,andletthebookgo,\"hesaidkindly,observingherwornlook。

  \"Thankyou,sir。Iamtired,butI’dratherread,elsethebookwillnotbefinishedbeforeIgo。\"

  \"Go,child!Whereareyougoing?\"demandedSirJohn,lookinganxiouslyatherasshesatdown。

  \"Iwilltellyouby-and-by,sir。\"Andopeningthebook,Jeanreadforalittlewhile。

  Buttheusualcharmwasgone;therewasnospiritinthevoiceofthereader,nointerestinthefaceofthelistener,andsoonhesaid,abruptly,\"Mydear,praystop!Icannotlistenwithadividedmind。Whattroublesyou?Tellyourfriend,andlethimcomfortyou。\"

  Asifthekindwordsovercameher,Jeandroppedthebook,coveredupherface,andweptsobitterlythatSirJohnwasmuchalarmed;forsuchademonstrationwasdoublytouchinginonewhousuallywasallgaietyandsmiles。Ashetriedtosootheher,hiswordsgrewtender,hissolicitudefullofamorethanpaternalanxiety,andhiskindheartoverflowedwithpityandaffectionfortheweepinggirl。Asshegrewcalmer,heurgedhertobefrank,promisingtohelpandcounselher,whatevertheafflictionorfaultmightbe。

  \"Ah,youaretookind,toogenerous!HowcanIgoawayandleavemyonefriend?\"sighedJean,wipingthetearsawayandlookingupathimwithgratefuleyes。

  \"Thenyoudocarealittlefortheoldman?\"saidSirJohnwithaneagerlook,aninvoluntarypressureofthehandheheld。

  Jeanturnedherfaceaway,andanswered,verylow,\"Nooneeverwassokindtomeasyouhavebeen。CanIhelpcaringforyoumorethanIcanexpress?\"

  SirJohnwasalittledeafattimes,butheheardthat,andlookedwellpleased。Hehadbeenratherthoughtfuloflate,haddressedwithunusualcare,beenparticularlygallantandgaywhentheyoungladiesvisitedhim,andmorethanonce,whenJeanpausedinthereadingtoaskaquestion,hehadbeenforcedtoconfessthathehadnotbeenlistening;

  though,asshewellknew,hiseyeshadbeenfixeduponher。Sincethediscoveryofherbirth,hismannerhadbeenpeculiarlybenignant,andmanylittleactshadprovedhisinterestandgoodwill。Now,whenJeanspokeofgoing,apanicseizedhim,anddesolationseemedabouttofallupontheoldHall。

  Somethinginherunusualagitationstruckhimaspeculiarandexcitedhiscuriosity。Neverhadsheseemedsointerestingasnow,whenshesatbesidehimwithtearfuleyes,andsomesofttroubleinherheartwhichshedarednotconfess。

  \"Tellmeeverything,child,andletyourfriendhelpyouifhecan。\"Formerlyhesaid\"father\"or\"theoldman,\"butlatelyhealwaysspokeofhimselfasher\"friend。\"

  \"Iwilltellyou,forIhavenooneelsetoturnto。ImustgoawaybecauseMr。Coventryhasbeenweakenoughtoloveme。\"

  \"What,Gerald?\"criedSirJohn,amazed。

  \"Yes;todayhetoldmethis,andleftmetobreakwithLucia;soIrantoyoutohelpmepreventhimfromdisappointinghismother’shopesandplans。\"

  SirJohnhadstartedupandpaceddowntheroom,butasJeanpausedheturnedtowardher,saying,withanalteredface,\"Thenyoudonotlovehim?Isitpossible?\"

  \"No,Idonotlovehim,\"sheansweredpromptly。

  \"Yetheisallthatwomenusuallyfindattractive。

  Howisitthatyouhaveescaped,Jean?\"

  \"Ilovesomeoneelse,\"wasthescarcelyaudiblereply。

  SirJohnresumedhisseatwiththeairofamanbentongettingatamystery,ifpossible。

  \"Itwillbeunjusttoletyousufferforthefollyoftheseboys,mylittlegirl。Nedisgone,andIwassurethatGeraldwassafe;butnowthathisturnhascome,Iamperplexed,forhecannotbesentaway。\"

  \"No,itisIwhomustgo;butitseemssohardtoleavethissafeandhappyhome,andwanderawayintothewide,coldworldagain。Youhaveallbeentookindtome,andnowseparationbreaksmyheart。\"

  Asobendedthespeech,andJean’sheadwentdownuponherhandsagain。SirJohnlookedatheramoment,andhisfineoldfacewasfullofgenuineemotion,ashesaidslowly,\"Jean,willyoustayandbeadaughtertothesolitaryoldman?\"

  \"No,sir\"wastheunexpectedanswer。

  \"Andwhynot?\"askedSirJohn,lookingsurprised,butratherpleasedthanangry。

  \"BecauseIcouldnotbeadaughtertoyou;andevenifIcoulditwouldnotbewise,forthegossipswouldsayyouwerenotoldenoughtobetheadoptedfatherofagirllikeme。SirJohn,youngasIam,Iknowmuchoftheworld,andamsurethatthiskindplanisimpractical;

  butIthankyoufromthebottomofmyheart。\"

  \"Wherewillyougo,Jean?\"askedSirJohn,afterapause。

  \"ToLondon,andtrytofindanothersituationwhereIcandonoharm。\"

  \"Willitbedifficulttofindanotherhome?\"

  \"Yes。IcannotaskMrs。Coventrytorecommendme,whenIhaveinnocentlybroughtsomuchtroubleintoherfamily;andLadySydneyisgone,soIhavenofriend。\"

  \"ExceptJohnCoventry。Iwillarrangeallthat。Whenwillyougo,Jean?\"

  \"Tomorrow。\"

  \"Sosoon!\"Andtheoldman’svoicebetrayedthetroublehewastryingtoconceal。

  Jeanhadgrownverycalm,butitwasthecalmnessofdesperation。Shehadhopedthatthefirsttearswouldproducetheavowalforwhichshewaited。Ithadnot,andshebegantofearthatherlastchancewasslippingfromher。Didtheoldmanloveher?Ifso,whydidhenotspeak?Eagertoprofitbyeachmoment,shewasonthealertforanyhopefulhint,anypropitiousword,look,oract,andeverynervewasstrungtotheutmost。

  \"Jean,mayIaskonequestion?\"saidSirJohn。

  \"Anythingofme,sir。\"

  \"Thismanwhomyoulove——canhenothelpyou?\"

  \"Hecouldifheknew,buthemustnot。\"

  \"Ifheknewwhat?Yourpresenttrouble?\"

  \"No。Mylove。\"

  \"Hedoesknowthis,then?\"

  \"No,thankheaven!Andheneverwill。\"

  \"Whynot?\"

  \"BecauseIamtooproudtoownit。\"

  \"Helovesyou,mychild?\"

  \"Idonotknow——Idarenothopeit,\"murmuredJean。

  \"CanInothelpyouhere?Believeme,Idesiretoseeyousafeandhappy。IstherenothingIcando?\"

  \"Nothing,nothing。\"

  \"MayIknowthename?\"

  \"No!No!Letmego;Icannotbearthisquestioning!\"

  AndJean’sdistressfulfacewarnedhimtoasknomore。

  \"Forgiveme,andletmedowhatImay。Restherequietly。I’llwritealettertoagoodfriendofmine,whowillfindyouahome,ifyouleaveus。\"

  AsSirJohnpassedintohisinnerstudy,Jeanwatchedhimwithdespairingeyesandwrungherhands,sayingtoherself,HasallmyskilldesertedmewhenIneeditmost?HowcanImakehimunderstand,yetnotoversteptheboundsofmaidenmodesty?Heissoblind,sotimid,orsodullhewillnotsee,andtimeisgoingfast。WhatshallIdotoopenhiseyes?

  Herowneyesrovedabouttheroom,seekingforsomeaidfrominanimatethings,andsoonshefoundit。ClosebehindthecouchwhereshesathungafineminiatureofSirJohn。Atfirsthereyerestedonitasshecontrasteditsplacidcomelinesswiththeunusualpalloranddisquietofthelivingfaceseenthroughtheopendoor,astheoldmansatathisdesktryingtowriteandcastingcovertglancesatthegirlishfigurehehadleftbehindhim。Affectingunconsciousnessofthis,Jeangazedonasifforgetfulofeverythingbutthepicture,andsuddenly,asifobeyinganirresistibleimpulse,shetookitdown,lookedlongandfondlyatit,then,shakinghercurlsaboutherface,asiftohidetheact,pressedittoherlipsandseemedtoweepoveritinanuncontrollableparoxysmoftendergrief。Asoundstartledher,andlikeaguiltything,sheturnedtoreplacethepicture;butitdroppedfromherhandassheutteredafaintcryandhidherface,forSirJohnstoodbeforeher,withanexpressionwhichshecouldnotmistake。

  \"Jean,whydidyoudothat?\"heasked,inaneager,agitatedvoice。

  Noanswer,asthegirlsanklower,likeoneoverwhelmedwithshame。Layinghishandonthebenthead,andbendinghisown,hewhispered,\"Tellme,isthenameJohnCoventry?\"

  Stillnoanswer,butastifledsoundbetrayedthathiswordshadgonehome。

  \"Jean,shallIgobackandwritetheletter,ormayIstayandtellyouthattheoldmanlovesyoubetterthanadaughter?\"

  Shedidnotspeak,butalittlehandstoleoutfromunderthefallinghair,asiftokeephim。Withabrokenexclamationheseizedit,drewherupintohisarms,andlaidhisgrayheadonherfairone,toohappyforwords。ForamomentJeanMuirenjoyedhersuccess;then,fearinglestsomesuddenmishapshoulddestroyit,shehastenedtomakeallsecure。Lookingupwithwell-feignedtimidityandhalf-confessedaffection,shesaidsoftly,\"ForgivemethatIcouldnothidethisbetter。Imeanttogoawayandnevertellit,butyouweresokinditmadethepartingdoublyhard。Whydidyouasksuchdangerousquestions?Whydidyoulook,whenyoushouldhavebeenwritingmydismissal?\"

  \"HowcouldIdreamthatyoulovedme,Jean,whenyourefusedtheonlyofferIdaredmake?CouldIbepresumptuousenoughtofancyyouwouldrejectyoungloversforanoldmanlikeme?\"askedSirJohn,caressingher。

  \"Youarenotold,tome,buteverythingIloveandhonor!\"interruptedJean,withatouchofgenuineremorse,asthisgenerous,honorablegentlemangaveherbothheartandhome,unconsciousofdeceit。

  \"ItisIwhoampresumptuous,todaretoloveonesofaraboveme。ButIdidnotknowhowdearyouweretometillIfeltthatImustgo。Ioughtnottoacceptthishappiness。Iamnotworthyofit;andyouwillregretyourkindnesswhentheworldblamesyouforgivingahometoonesopoor,andplain,andhumbleasI。\"

  \"Hush,mydarling。Icarenothingfortheidlegossipoftheworld。Ifyouarehappyhere,lettongueswagastheywill。Ishallbetoobusyenjoyingthesunshineofyourpresencetoheedanythingthatgoesonaboutme。But,Jean,youaresureyouloveme?ItseemsincrediblethatIshouldwintheheartthathasbeensocoldtoyounger,bettermenthanI。\"

  \"DearSirJohn,besureofthis,Iloveyoutruly。

  Iwilldomybesttobeagoodwifetoyou,andprovethat,inspiteofmymanyfaults,Ipossessthevirtueofgratitude。\"

  Ifhehadknownthestraitshewasin,hewouldhaveunderstoodthecauseofthesuddentenorofherwords,theintensethankfulnessthatshoneinherface,therealhumilitythatmadeherstoopandkissthegeneroushandthatgavesomuch。Forafewmomentssheenjoyedandlethimenjoythehappypresent,undisturbed。Buttheanxietywhichdevouredher,thedangerwhichmenacedher,soonrecalledher,andforcedhertowringyetmorefromtheunsuspiciousheartshehadconquered。

  \"Noneedoflettersnow,\"saidSirJohn,astheysatsidebyside,withthesummermoonlightglorifyingalltheroom。\"Youhavefoundahomeforlife;mayitproveahappyone。\"

  \"Itisnotmineyet,andIhaveastrangeforebodingthatitneverwillbe,\"sheansweredsadly。

  \"Why,mychild?\"

  \"BecauseIhaveanenemywhowilltrytodestroymypeace,topoisonyourmindagainstme,andtodrivemeoutfrommyparadise,tosufferagainallIhavesufferedthislastyear。\"

  \"YoumeanthatmadSydneyofwhomyoutoldme?\"

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