Then,standingbeforehimwithsuchanairofpatiententreatythathecouldnotchoosebutlookather,shesaid:
\"Ifyoushouldwantme,Iwillcomebackwillingly。Whenyoudidwantme,Iwasquitehappytocome;therewasnomeritinit。I
thinkyoumustbeafraid,that,nowyouaregettingwell,Imaybetroublesometoyou;butIshouldnothavebeen,indeed。Ishouldhavecomenolongerthanyourweaknessandconfinementlasted。Youowemenothing;butitisrightthatyoushoulddealasjustlybymeasifIwasalady—eventheveryladythatyoulove;andifyoususpectmeofmeanlymakingmuchofthelittleIhavetriedtodotocomfortyoursickroom,youdoyourselfmorewrongthaneveryoucandome。ThatiswhyIamsorry。ThatiswhyIamverysorry。\"
Ifshehadbeenaspassionateasshewasquiet,asindignantasshewascalm,asangryinherlookasshewasgentle,asloudoftoneasshewaslowandclear,shemighthaveleftnosenseofherdepartureintheroom,comparedwiththatwhichfelluponthelonelystudentwhenshewentaway。
Hewasgazingdrearilyupontheplacewhereshehadbeen,whenRedlawcameoutofhisconcealment,andcametothedoor。
\"Whensicknesslaysitshandonyouagain,\"hesaid,lookingfiercelybackathim,\"—mayitbesoon!—Diehere!Rothere!\"
\"Whathaveyoudone?\"returnedtheother,catchingathiscloak。
\"Whatchangehaveyouwroughtinme?Whatcursehaveyoubroughtuponme?GivemebackMYself!\"
\"Givemebackmyself!\"exclaimedRedlawlikeamadman。\"Iaminfected!Iaminfectious!Iamchargedwithpoisonformyownmind,andthemindsofallmankind。WhereIfeltinterest,compassion,sympathy,Iamturningintostone。Selfishnessandingratitudespringupinmyblightingfootsteps。IamonlysomuchlessbasethanthewretcheswhomImakeso,thatinthemomentoftheirtransformationIcanhatethem。\"
Ashespoke—theyoungmanstillholdingtohiscloak—hecasthimoff,andstruckhim:then,wildlyhurriedoutintothenightairwherethewindwasblowing,thesnowfalling,thecloud—driftsweepingon,themoondimlyshining;andwhere,blowinginthewind,fallingwiththesnow,driftingwiththeclouds,shininginthemoonlight,andheavilyloominginthedarkness,werethePhantom’swords,\"ThegiftthatIhavegiven,youshallgiveagain,gowhereyouwill!\"
Whitherhewent,heneitherknewnorcared,sothatheavoidedcompany。Thechangehefeltwithinhimmadethebusystreetsadesert,andhimselfadesert,andthemultitudearoundhim,intheirmanifoldendurancesandwaysoflife,amightywasteofsand,whichthewindstossedintounintelligibleheapsandmadearuinousconfusionof。ThosetracesinhisbreastwhichthePhantomhadtoldhimwould\"dieoutsoon,\"werenot,asyet,sofarupontheirwaytodeath,butthatheunderstoodenoughofwhathewas,andwhathemadeofothers,todesiretobealone。
Thisputitinhismind—hesuddenlybethoughthimself,ashewasgoingalong,oftheboywhohadrushedintohisroom。Andthenherecollected,thatofthosewithwhomhehadcommunicatedsincethePhantom’sdisappearance,thatboyalonehadshownnosignofbeingchanged。
Monstrousandodiousasthewildthingwastohim,hedeterminedtoseekitout,andproveifthiswerereallyso;andalsotoseekitwithanotherintention,whichcameintohisthoughtsatthesametime。
So,resolvingwithsomedifficultywherehewas,hedirectedhisstepsbacktotheoldcollege,andtothatpartofitwherethegeneralporchwas,andwhere,alone,thepavementwaswornbythetreadofthestudents’feet。
Thekeeper’shousestoodjustwithintheirongates,formingapartofthechiefquadrangle。Therewasalittlecloisteroutside,andfromthatshelteredplaceheknewhecouldlookinatthewindowoftheirordinaryroom,andseewhowaswithin。Theirongateswereshut,buthishandwasfamiliarwiththefastening,anddrawingitbackbythrustinginhiswristbetweenthebars,hepassedthroughsoftly,shutitagain,andcreptuptothewindow,crumblingthethincrustofsnowwithhisfeet。
Thefire,towhichhehaddirectedtheboylastnight,shiningbrightlythroughtheglass,madeanilluminatedplaceupontheground。Instinctivelyavoidingthis,andgoingroundit,helookedinatthewindow。Atfirst,hethoughtthattherewasnoonethere,andthattheblazewasreddeningonlytheoldbeamsintheceilingandthedarkwalls;butpeeringinmorenarrowly,hesawtheobjectofhissearchcoiledasleepbeforeitonthefloor。Hepassedquicklytothedoor,openedit,andwentin。
Thecreaturelayinsuchafieryheat,that,astheChemiststoopedtorousehim,itscorchedhishead。Sosoonashewastouched,theboy,nothalfawake,clutchinghisragstogetherwiththeinstinctofflightuponhim,halfrolledandhalfranintoadistantcorneroftheroom,where,heapedupontheground,hestruckhisfootouttodefendhimself。
\"Getup!\"saidtheChemist。\"Youhavenotforgottenme?\"
\"Youletmealone!\"returnedtheboy。\"Thisisthewoman’shouse—
notyours。\"
TheChemist’ssteadyeyecontrolledhimsomewhat,orinspiredhimwithenoughsubmissiontoberaiseduponhisfeet,andlookedat。
\"Whowashedthem,andputthosebandageswheretheywerebruisedandcracked?\"askedtheChemist,pointingtotheiralteredstate。
\"Thewomandid。\"
\"Andisitshewhohasmadeyoucleanerintheface,too?\"
\"Yes,thewoman。\"
Redlawaskedthesequestionstoattracthiseyestowardshimself,andwiththesameintentnowheldhimbythechin,andthrewhiswildhairback,thoughheloathedtotouchhim。Theboywatchedhiseyeskeenly,asifhethoughtitneedfultohisowndefence,notknowingwhathemightdonext;andRedlawcouldseewellthatnochangecameoverhim。
\"Wherearethey?\"heinquired。
\"Thewoman’sout。\"
\"Iknowsheis。Whereistheoldmanwiththewhitehair,andhisson?\"
\"Thewoman’shusband,d’yemean?\"inquiredtheboy。
\"Ay。Wherearethosetwo?\"
\"Out。Something’sthematter,somewhere。Theywerefetchedoutinahurry,andtoldmetostophere。\"
\"Comewithme,\"saidtheChemist,\"andI’llgiveyoumoney。\"
\"Comewhere?andhowmuchwillyougive?\"
\"I’llgiveyoumoreshillingsthanyoueversaw,andbringyoubacksoon。Doyouknowyourwaytowhereyoucamefrom?\"
\"Youletmego,\"returnedtheboy,suddenlytwistingoutofhisgrasp。\"I’mnotagoingtotakeyouthere。Letmebe,orI’llheavesomefireatyou!\"
Hewasdownbeforeit,andready,withhissavagelittlehand,toplucktheburningcoalsout。
WhattheChemisthadfelt,inobservingtheeffectofhischarmedinfluencestealingoverthosewithwhomhecameincontact,wasnotnearlyequaltothecoldvagueterrorwithwhichhesawthisbaby—
monsterputitatdefiance。Itchilledhisbloodtolookontheimmovableimpenetrablething,inthelikenessofachild,withitssharpmalignantfaceturneduptohis,anditsalmostinfanthand,readyatthebars。
\"Listen,boy!\"hesaid。\"Youshalltakemewhereyouplease,sothatyoutakemewherethepeopleareverymiserableorverywicked。Iwanttodothemgood,andnottoharmthem。Youshallhavemoney,asIhavetoldyou,andIwillbringyouback。Getup!
Comequickly!\"Hemadeahastysteptowardsthedoor,afraidofherreturning。
\"Willyouletmewalkbymyself,andneverholdme,noryettouchme?\"saidtheboy,slowlywithdrawingthehandwithwhichhethreatened,andbeginningtogetup。
\"Iwill!\"
\"Andletmego,before,behind,oranywaysIlike?\"
\"Iwill!\"
\"Givemesomemoneyfirst,then,andgo。\"
TheChemistlaidafewshillings,onebyone,inhisextendedhand。
Tocountthemwasbeyondtheboy’sknowledge,buthesaid\"one,\"
everytime,andavariciouslylookedateachasitwasgiven,andatthedonor。Hehadnowheretoputthem,outofhishand,butinhismouth;andheputthemthere。
Redlawthenwrotewithhispencilonaleafofhispocket—book,thattheboywaswithhim;andlayingitonthetable,signedtohimtofollow。Keepinghisragstogether,asusual,theboycomplied,andwentoutwithhisbareheadandnakedfeetintothewinternight。
Preferringnottodepartbytheirongatebywhichhehadentered,wheretheywereindangerofmeetingherwhomhesoanxiouslyavoided,theChemistledtheway,throughsomeofthosepassagesamongwhichtheboyhadlosthimself,andbythatportionofthebuildingwherehelived,toasmalldoorofwhichhehadthekey。
Whentheygotintothestreet,hestoppedtoaskhisguide—whoinstantlyretreatedfromhim—ifheknewwheretheywere。
Thesavagethinglookedhereandthere,andatlength,noddinghishead,pointedinthedirectionhedesignedtotake。Redlawgoingonatonce,hefollowed,somethinglesssuspiciously;shiftinghismoneyfromhismouthintohishand,andbackagainintohismouth,andstealthilyrubbingitbrightuponhisshredsofdress,ashewentalong。
Threetimes,intheirprogress,theyweresidebyside。Threetimestheystopped,beingsidebyside。ThreetimestheChemistglanceddownathisface,andshudderedasitforceduponhimonereflection。
Thefirstoccasionwaswhentheywerecrossinganoldchurchyard,andRedlawstoppedamongthegraves,utterlyatalosshowtoconnectthemwithanytender,softening,orconsolatorythought。
Thesecondwas,whenthebreakingforthofthemooninducedhimtolookupattheHeavens,wherehesawherinherglory,surroundedbyahostofstarshestillknewbythenamesandhistorieswhichhumansciencehasappendedtothem;butwherehesawnothingelsehehadbeenwonttosee,feltnothinghehadbeenwonttofeel,inlookingupthere,onabrightnight。
Thethirdwaswhenhestoppedtolistentoaplaintivestrainofmusic,butcouldonlyhearatune,mademanifesttohimbythedrymechanismoftheinstrumentsandhisownears,withnoaddresstoanymysterywithinhim,withoutawhisperinitofthepast,orofthefuture,powerlessuponhimasthesoundoflastyear’srunningwater,ortherushingoflastyear’swind。
Ateachofthesethreetimes,hesawwithhorrorthat,inspiteofthevastintellectualdistancebetweenthem,andtheirbeingunlikeeachotherinallphysicalrespects,theexpressionontheboy’sfacewastheexpressiononhisown。
Theyjourneyedonforsometime—nowthroughsuchcrowdedplaces,thatheoftenlookedoverhisshoulderthinkinghehadlosthisguide,butgenerallyfindinghimwithinhisshadowonhisotherside;nowbywayssoquiet,thathecouldhavecountedhisshort,quick,nakedfootstepscomingonbehind—untiltheyarrivedataruinouscollectionofhouses,andtheboytouchedhimandstopped。
\"Inthere!\"hesaid,pointingoutonehousewheretherewereshatteredlightsinthewindows,andadimlanterninthedoorway,with\"LodgingsforTravellers\"paintedonit。
Redlawlookedabouthim;fromthehousestothewastepieceofgroundonwhichthehousesstood,orratherdidnotaltogethertumbledown,unfenced,undrained,unlighted,andborderedbyasluggishditch;fromthat,totheslopinglineofarches,partofsomeneighbouringviaductorbridgewithwhichitwassurrounded,andwhichlessenedgraduallytowardsthem,untilthelastbutonewasamerekennelforadog,thelastaplunderedlittleheapofbricks;fromthat,tothechild,closetohim,coweringandtremblingwiththecold,andlimpingononelittlefoot,whilehecoiledtheotherroundhislegtowarmit,yetstaringatallthesethingswiththatfrightfullikenessofexpressionsoapparentinhisface,thatRedlawstartedfromhim。
\"Inthere!\"saidtheboy,pointingoutthehouseagain。\"I’llwait。\"
\"Willtheyletmein?\"askedRedlaw。
\"Sayyou’readoctor,\"heansweredwithanod。\"There’splentyillhere。\"
Lookingbackonhiswaytothehouse—door,Redlawsawhimtrailhimselfuponthedustandcrawlwithintheshelterofthesmallestarch,asifhewerearat。Hehadnopityforthething,buthewasafraidofit;andwhenitlookedoutofitsdenathim,hehurriedtothehouseasaretreat。
\"Sorrow,wrong,andtrouble,\"saidtheChemist,withapainfuleffortatsomemoredistinctremembrance,\"atleasthauntthisplacedarkly。Hecandonoharm,whobringsforgetfulnessofsuchthingshere!\"
Withthesewords,hepushedtheyieldingdoor,andwentin。
Therewasawomansittingonthestairs,eitherasleeporforlorn,whoseheadwasbentdownonherhandsandknees。Asitwasnoteasytopasswithouttreadingonher,andasshewasperfectlyregardlessofhisnearapproach,hestopped,andtouchedherontheshoulder。Lookingup,sheshowedhimquiteayoungface,butonewhosebloomandpromisewereallsweptaway,asifthehaggardwintershouldunnaturallykillthespring。
Withlittleornoshowofconcernonhisaccount,shemovednearertothewalltoleavehimawiderpassage。
\"Whatareyou?\"saidRedlaw,pausing,withhishanduponthebrokenstair—rail。
\"WhatdoyouthinkIam?\"sheanswered,showinghimherfaceagain。
HelookedupontheruinedTempleofGod,solatelymade,sosoondisfigured;andsomething,whichwasnotcompassion—forthespringsinwhichatruecompassionforsuchmiserieshasitsrise,weredriedupinhisbreast—butwhichwasnearertoit,forthemoment,thananyfeelingthathadlatelystruggledintothedarkening,butnotyetwhollydarkened,nightofhismind—mingledatouchofsoftnesswithhisnextwords。
\"Iamcomeheretogiverelief,ifIcan,\"hesaid。\"Areyouthinkingofanywrong?\"
Shefrownedathim,andthenlaughed;andthenherlaughprolongeditselfintoashiveringsigh,asshedroppedherheadagain,andhidherfingersinherhair。
\"Areyouthinkingofawrong?\"heaskedoncemore。
\"Iamthinkingofmylife,\"shesaid,withamonetarylookathim。
Hehadaperceptionthatshewasoneofmany,andthathesawthetypeofthousands,whenhesawher,droopingathisfeet。
\"Whatareyourparents?\"hedemanded。
\"Ihadagoodhomeonce。Myfatherwasagardener,faraway,inthecountry。\"
\"Ishedead?\"
\"He’sdeadtome。Allsuchthingsaredeadtome。Youagentleman,andnotknowthat!\"Sheraisedhereyesagain,andlaughedathim。
\"Girl!\"saidRedlaw,sternly,\"beforethisdeath,ofallsuchthings,wasbroughtabout,wastherenowrongdonetoyou?Inspiteofallthatyoucando,doesnoremembranceofwrongcleavetoyou?Aretherenottimesupontimeswhenitismiserytoyou?\"
Solittleofwhatwaswomanlywasleftinherappearance,thatnow,whensheburstintotears,hestoodamazed。Buthewasmoreamazed,andmuchdisquieted,tonotethatinherawakenedrecollectionofthiswrong,thefirsttraceofheroldhumanityandfrozentendernessappearedtoshowitself。
Hedrewalittleoff,andindoingso,observedthatherarmswereblack,herfacecut,andherbosombruised。
\"Whatbrutalhandhashurtyouso?\"heasked。
\"Myown。Ididitmyself!\"sheansweredquickly。
\"Itisimpossible。\"
\"I’llswearIdid!Hedidn’ttouchme。Ididittomyselfinapassion,andthrewmyselfdownhere。Hewasn’tnearme。Heneverlaidahanduponme!\"
Inthewhitedeterminationofherface,confrontinghimwiththisuntruth,hesawenoughofthelastperversionanddistortionofgoodsurvivinginthatmiserablebreast,tobestrickenwithremorsethathehadevercomenearher。
\"Sorrow,wrong,andtrouble!\"hemuttered,turninghisfearfulgazeaway。\"Allthatconnectsherwiththestatefromwhichshehasfallen,hasthoseroots!InthenameofGod,letmegoby!\"
Afraidtolookatheragain,afraidtotouchher,afraidtothinkofhavingsunderedthelastthreadbywhichshehelduponthemercyofHeaven,hegatheredhiscloakabouthim,andglidedswiftlyupthestairs。
Oppositetohim,onthelanding,wasadoor,whichstoodpartlyopen,andwhich,asheascended,amanwithacandleinhishand,cameforwardfromwithintoshut。Butthisman,onseeinghim,drewback,withmuchemotioninhismanner,and,asifbyasuddenimpulse,mentionedhisnamealoud。
Inthesurpriseofsucharecognitionthere,hestopped,endeavouringtorecollectthewanandstartledface。Hehadnotimetoconsiderit,for,tohisyetgreateramazement,oldPhilipcameoutoftheroom,andtookhimbythehand。
\"Mr。Redlaw,\"saidtheoldman,\"thisislikeyou,thisislikeyou,sir!youhaveheardofit,andhavecomeafterustorenderanyhelpyoucan。Ah,toolate,toolate!\"
Redlaw,withabewilderedlook,submittedtobeledintotheroom。
Amanlaythere,onatruckle—bed,andWilliamSwidgerstoodatthebedside。
\"Toolate!\"murmuredtheoldman,lookingwistfullyintotheChemist’sface;andthetearsstoledownhischeeks。
\"That’swhatIsay,father,\"interposedhissoninalowvoice。
\"That’swhereitis,exactly。Tokeepasquietaseverwecanwhilehe’sadozing,istheonlythingtodo。You’reright,father!\"
Redlawpausedatthebedside,andlookeddownonthefigurethatwasstretcheduponthemattress。Itwasthatofaman,whoshouldhavebeeninthevigourofhislife,butonwhomitwasnotlikelythesunwouldevershineagain。Thevicesofhisfortyorfiftyyears’careerhadsobrandedhim,that,incomparisonwiththeireffectsuponhisface,theheavyhandofTimeupontheoldman’sfacewhowatchedhimhadbeenmercifulandbeautifying。
\"Whoisthis?\"askedtheChemist,lookinground。
\"MysonGeorge,Mr。Redlaw,\"saidtheoldman,wringinghishands。
\"Myeldestson,George,whowasmorehismother’spridethanalltherest!\"
Redlaw’seyeswanderedfromtheoldman’sgreyhead,ashelaiditdownuponthebed,tothepersonwhohadrecognisedhim,andwhohadkeptaloof,intheremotestcorneroftheroom。Heseemedtobeabouthisownage;andalthoughheknewnosuchhopelessdecayandbrokenmanasheappearedtobe,therewassomethingintheturnofhisfigure,ashestoodwithhisbacktowardshim,andnowwentoutatthedoor,thatmadehimpasshishanduneasilyacrosshisbrow。
\"William,\"hesaidinagloomywhisper,\"whoisthatman?\"
\"Whyyousee,sir,\"returnedMr。William,\"that’swhatIsay,myself。Whyshouldamanevergoandgamble,andthelikeofthat,andlethimselfdowninchbyinchtillhecan’tlethimselfdownanylower!\"
\"HasHEdoneso?\"askedRedlaw,glancingafterhimwiththesameuneasyactionasbefore。
\"Justexactlythat,sir,\"returnedWilliamSwidger,\"asI’mtold。
Heknowsalittleaboutmedicine,sir,itseems;andhavingbeenwayfaringtowardsLondonwithmyunhappybrotherthatyouseehere,\"Mr。Williampassedhiscoat—sleeveacrosshiseyes,\"andbeinglodgingupstairsforthenight—whatIsay,yousee,isthatstrangecompanionscometogetherheresometimes—helookedintoattenduponhim,andcameforusathisrequest。Whatamournfulspectacle,sir!Butthat’swhereitis。It’senoughtokillmyfather!\"
Redlawlookedup,atthesewords,and,recallingwherehewasandwithwhom,andthespellhecarriedwithhim—whichhissurprisehadobscured—retiredalittle,hurriedly,debatingwithhimselfwhethertoshunthehousethatmoment,orremain。
Yieldingtoacertainsullendoggedness,whichitseemedtobeapartofhisconditiontostrugglewith,hearguedforremaining。
\"Wasitonlyyesterday,\"hesaid,\"whenIobservedthememoryofthisoldmantobeatissueofsorrowandtrouble,andshallIbeafraid,to—night,toshakeit?AresuchremembrancesasIcandriveaway,soprecioustothisdyingmanthatIneedfearforHIM?
No!I’llstayhere。\"
Buthestayedinfearandtremblingnonethelessforthesewords;
and,shroudedinhisblackcloakwithhisfaceturnedfromthem,stoodawayfromthebedside,listeningtowhattheysaid,asifhefelthimselfademonintheplace。
\"Father!\"murmuredthesickman,rallyingalittlefromstupor。
\"Myboy!MysonGeorge!\"saidoldPhilip。
\"Youspoke,justnow,ofmybeingmother’sfavourite,longago。
It’sadreadfulthingtothinknow,oflongago!\"
\"No,no,no;\"returnedtheoldman。\"Thinkofit。Don’tsayit’sdreadful。It’snotdreadfultome,myson。\"
\"Itcutsyoutotheheart,father。\"Fortheoldman’stearswerefallingonhim。
\"Yes,yes,\"saidPhilip,\"soitdoes;butitdoesmegood。It’saheavysorrowtothinkofthattime,butitdoesmegood,George。
Oh,thinkofittoo,thinkofittoo,andyourheartwillbesoftenedmoreandmore!Where’smysonWilliam?William,myboy,yourmotherlovedhimdearlytothelast,andwithherlatestbreathsaid,’TellhimIforgavehim,blessedhim,andprayedforhim。’Thosewereherwordstome。Ihaveneverforgottenthem,andI’meighty—seven!\"
\"Father!\"saidthemanuponthebed,\"Iamdying,Iknow。Iamsofargone,thatIcanhardlyspeak,evenofwhatmymindmostrunson。Isthereanyhopeformebeyondthisbed?\"
\"Thereishope,\"returnedtheoldman,\"forallwhoaresoftenedandpenitent。Thereishopeforallsuch。Oh!\"heexclaimed,claspinghishandsandlookingup,\"Iwasthankful,onlyyesterday,thatIcouldrememberthisunhappysonwhenhewasaninnocentchild。Butwhatacomfortitis,now,tothinkthatevenGodhimselfhasthatremembranceofhim!\"
Redlawspreadhishandsuponhisface,andshrank,likeamurderer。
\"Ah!\"feeblymoanedthemanuponthebed。\"Thewastesincethen,thewasteoflifesincethen!\"
\"Buthewasachildonce,\"saidtheoldman。\"Heplayedwithchildren。Beforehelaydownonhisbedatnight,andfellintohisguiltlessrest,hesaidhisprayersathispoormother’sknee。
Ihaveseenhimdoit,manyatime;andseenherlayhisheaduponherbreast,andkisshim。Sorrowfulasitwastoherandme,tothinkofthis,whenhewentsowrong,andwhenourhopesandplansforhimwereallbroken,thisgavehimstillaholduponus,thatnothingelsecouldhavegiven。Oh,Father,somuchbetterthanthefathersuponearth!Oh,Father,somuchmoreafflictedbytheerrorsofThychildren!takethiswandererback!Notasheis,butashewasthen,lethimcrytoThee,ashehassooftenseemedtocrytous!\"
Astheoldmanlifteduphistremblinghands,theson,forwhomhemadethesupplication,laidhissinkingheadagainsthimforsupportandcomfort,asifhewereindeedthechildofwhomhespoke。
Whendidmanevertremble,asRedlawtrembled,inthesilencethatensued!Heknewitmustcomeuponthem,knewthatitwascomingfast。
\"Mytimeisveryshort,mybreathisshorter,\"saidthesickman,supportinghimselfononearm,andwiththeothergropingintheair,\"andIrememberthereissomethingonmymindconcerningthemanwhowasherejustnow,FatherandWilliam—wait!—istherereallyanythinginblack,outthere?\"
\"Yes,yes,itisreal,\"saidhisagedfather。
\"Isitaman?\"
\"WhatIsaymyself,George,\"interposedhisbrother,bendingkindlyoverhim。\"It’sMr。Redlaw。\"
\"IthoughtIhaddreamedofhim。Askhimtocomehere。\"
TheChemist,whiterthanthedyingman,appearedbeforehim。
Obedienttothemotionofhishand,hesatuponthebed。
\"Ithasbeensorippedup,to—night,sir,\"saidthesickman,layinghishanduponhisheart,withalookinwhichthemute,imploringagonyofhisconditionwasconcentrated,\"bythesightofmypooroldfather,andthethoughtofallthetroubleIhavebeenthecauseof,andallthewrongandsorrowlyingatmydoor,that—
\"
Wasittheextremitytowhichhehadcome,orwasitthedawningofanotherchange,thatmadehimstop?
\"—thatwhatICANdoright,withmymindrunningonsomuch,sofast,I’lltrytodo。Therewasanothermanhere。Didyouseehim?\"
Redlawcouldnotreplybyanyword;forwhenhesawthatfatalsignheknewsowellnow,ofthewanderinghandupontheforehead,hisvoicediedathislips。Buthemadesomeindicationofassent。
\"Heispenniless,hungry,anddestitute。Heiscompletelybeatendown,andhasnoresourceatall。Lookafterhim!Losenotime!
Iknowhehasitinhismindtokillhimself。\"
Itwasworking。Itwasonhisface。Hisfacewaschanging,hardening,deepeninginallitsshades,andlosingallitssorrow。
\"Don’tyouremember?Don’tyouknowhim?\"hepursued。
Heshuthisfaceoutforamoment,withthehandthatagainwanderedoverhisforehead,andthenitloweredonRedlaw,reckless,ruffianly,andcallous。
\"Why,d—nyou!\"hesaid,scowlinground,\"whathaveyoubeendoingtomehere!Ihavelivedbold,andImeantodiebold。TotheDevilwithyou!\"
Andsolaydownuponhisbed,andputhisarmsup,overhisheadandears,asresolutefromthattimetokeepoutallaccess,andtodieinhisindifference。
IfRedlawhadbeenstruckbylightning,itcouldnothavestruckhimfromthebedsidewithamoretremendousshock。Buttheoldman,whohadleftthebedwhilehissonwasspeakingtohim,nowreturning,avoideditquicklylikewise,andwithabhorrence。
\"Where’smyboyWilliam?\"saidtheoldmanhurriedly。\"William,comeawayfromhere。We’llgohome。\"
\"Home,father!\"returnedWilliam。\"Areyougoingtoleaveyourownson?\"
\"Where’smyownson?\"repliedtheoldman。
\"Where?why,there!\"
\"That’snosonofmine,\"saidPhilip,tremblingwithresentment。
\"Nosuchwretchasthat,hasanyclaimonme。Mychildrenarepleasanttolookat,andtheywaituponme,andgetmymeatanddrinkready,andareusefultome。I’vearighttoit!I’meighty—seven!\"
\"You’reoldenoughtobenoolder,\"mutteredWilliam,lookingathimgrudgingly,withhishandsinhispockets。\"Idon’tknowwhatgoodyouare,myself。Wecouldhaveadealmorepleasurewithoutyou。\"
\"MYson,Mr。Redlaw!\"saidtheoldman。\"MYson,too!TheboytalkingtomeofMYson!Why,whathasheeverdonetogivemeanypleasure,Ishouldliketoknow?\"
\"Idon’tknowwhatyouhaveeverdonetogiveMEanypleasure,\"
saidWilliam,sulkily。
\"Letmethink,\"saidtheoldman。\"ForhowmanyChristmastimesrunning,haveIsatinmywarmplace,andneverhadtocomeoutinthecoldnightair;andhavemadegoodcheer,withoutbeingdisturbedbyanysuchuncomfortable,wretchedsightashimthere?
Isittwenty,William?\"
\"Nigherforty,itseems,\"hemuttered。\"Why,whenIlookatmyfather,sir,andcometothinkofit,\"addressingRedlaw,withanimpatienceandirritationthatwerequitenew,\"I’mwhippedifI
canseeanythinginhimbutacalendarofeversomanyyearsofeatinganddrinking,andmakinghimselfcomfortable,overandoveragain。\"
\"I—I’meighty—seven,\"saidtheoldman,ramblingon,childishlyandweakly,\"andIdon’tknowasIeverwasmuchputoutbyanything。I’mnotgoingtobeginnow,becauseofwhathecallsmyson。He’snotmyson。I’vehadapowerofpleasanttimes。I
recollectonce—noIdon’t—no,it’sbrokenoff。Itwassomethingaboutagameofcricketandafriendofmine,butit’ssomehowbrokenoff。Iwonderwhohewas—IsupposeIlikedhim?
AndIwonderwhatbecameofhim—Isupposehedied?ButIdon’tknow。AndIdon’tcare,neither;Idon’tcareabit。\"
Inhisdrowsychuckling,andtheshakingofhishead,heputhishandsintohiswaistcoatpockets。Inoneofthemhefoundabitofholly(leftthere,probablylastnight),whichhenowtookout,andlookedat。
\"Berries,eh?\"saidtheoldman。\"Ah!It’sapitythey’renotgoodtoeat。Irecollect,whenIwasalittlechapaboutashighasthat,andoutawalkingwith—letmesee—whowasIoutawalkingwith?—no,Idon’trememberhowthatwas。Idon’trememberasIeverwalkedwithanyoneparticular,orcaredforanyone,oranyoneforme。Berries,eh?There’sgoodcheerwhenthere’sberries。Well;Ioughttohavemyshareofit,andtobewaitedon,andkeptwarmandcomfortable;forI’meighty—seven,andapooroldman。I’meigh—ty—seven。Eigh—ty—seven!\"
Thedrivelling,pitiablemannerinwhich,asherepeatedthis,henibbledattheleaves,andspatthemorselsout;thecold,uninterestedeyewithwhichhisyoungestson(sochanged)regardedhim;thedeterminedapathywithwhichhiseldestsonlayhardenedinhissin;impressedthemselvesnomoreonRedlaw’sobservation,—
forhebrokehiswayfromthespottowhichhisfeetseemedtohavebeenfixed,andranoutofthehouse。
Hisguidecamecrawlingforthfromhisplaceofrefuge,andwasreadyforhimbeforehereachedthearches。
\"Backtothewoman’s?\"heinquired。
\"Back,quickly!\"answeredRedlaw。\"Stopnowhereontheway!\"
Forashortdistancetheboywentonbefore;buttheirreturnwasmorelikeaflightthanawalk,anditwasasmuchashisbarefeetcoulddo,tokeeppacewiththeChemist’srapidstrides。Shrinkingfromallwhopassed,shroudedinhiscloak,andkeepingitdrawncloselyabouthim,asthoughthereweremortalcontagioninanyflutteringtouchofhisgarments,hemadenopauseuntiltheyreachedthedoorbywhichtheyhadcomeout。Heunlockeditwithhiskey,wentin,accompaniedbytheboy,andhastenedthroughthedarkpassagestohisownchamber。
Theboywatchedhimashemadethedoorfast,andwithdrewbehindthetable,whenhelookedround。
\"Come!\"hesaid。\"Don’tyoutouchme!You’venotbroughtmeheretotakemymoneyaway。\"
Redlawthrewsomemoreupontheground。Heflunghisbodyonitimmediately,asiftohideitfromhim,lestthesightofitshouldtempthimtoreclaimit;andnotuntilhesawhimseatedbyhislamp,withhisfacehiddeninhishands,beganfurtivelytopickitup。Whenhehaddoneso,hecreptnearthefire,and,sittingdowninagreatchairbeforeit,tookfromhisbreastsomebrokenscrapsoffood,andfelltomunching,andtostaringattheblaze,andnowandthentoglancingathisshillings,whichhekeptclenchedupinabunch,inonehand。
\"Andthis,\"saidRedlaw,gazingonhimwithincreasedrepugnanceandfear,\"istheonlyonecompanionIhaveleftonearth!\"
Howlongitwasbeforehewasarousedfromhiscontemplationofthiscreature,whomhedreadedso—whetherhalf—an—hour,orhalfthenight—heknewnot。Butthestillnessoftheroomwasbrokenbytheboy(whomhehadseenlistening)startingup,andrunningtowardsthedoor。
\"Here’sthewomancoming!\"heexclaimed。
TheChemiststoppedhimonhisway,atthemomentwhensheknocked。
\"Letmegotoher,willyou?\"saidtheboy。
\"Notnow,\"returnedtheChemist。\"Stayhere。Nobodymustpassinoroutoftheroomnow。Who’sthat?\"
\"It’sI,sir,\"criedMilly。\"Pray,sir,letmein!\"
\"No!notfortheworld!\"hesaid。
\"Mr。Redlaw,Mr。Redlaw,pray,sir,letmein。\"
\"Whatisthematter?\"hesaid,holdingtheboy。
\"Themiserablemanyousaw,isworse,andnothingIcansaywillwakehimfromhisterribleinfatuation。William’sfatherhasturnedchildishinamoment,Williamhimselfischanged。Theshockhasbeentoosuddenforhim;Icannotunderstandhim;heisnotlikehimself。Oh,Mr。Redlaw,prayadviseme,helpme!\"
\"No!No!No!\"heanswered。
\"Mr。Redlaw!Dearsir!Georgehasbeenmuttering,inhisdoze,aboutthemanyousawthere,who,hefears,willkillhimself。\"
\"Betterheshoulddoit,thancomenearme!\"
\"Hesays,inhiswandering,thatyouknowhim;thathewasyourfriendonce,longago;thatheistheruinedfatherofastudenthere—mymindmisgivesme,oftheyounggentlemanwhohasbeenill。Whatistobedone?Howishetobefollowed?Howishetobesaved?Mr。Redlaw,pray,oh,pray,adviseme!Helpme!\"
Allthistimeheheldtheboy,whowashalf—madtopasshim,andletherin。
\"Phantoms!Punishersofimpiousthoughts!\"criedRedlaw,gazingroundinanguish,\"lookuponme!Fromthedarknessofmymind,lettheglimmeringofcontritionthatIknowisthere,shineupandshowmymisery!InthematerialworldasIhavelongtaught,nothingcanbespared;nosteporatominthewondrousstructurecouldbelost,withoutablankbeingmadeinthegreatuniverse。I
know,now,thatitisthesamewithgoodandevil,happinessandsorrow,inthememoriesofmen。Pityme!Relieveme!\"
Therewasnoresponse,buther\"Helpme,helpme,letmein!\"andtheboy’sstrugglingtogettoher。
\"Shadowofmyself!Spiritofmydarkerhours!\"criedRedlaw,indistraction,\"comeback,andhauntmedayandnight,buttakethisgiftaway!Or,ifitmuststillrestwithme,deprivemeofthedreadfulpowerofgivingittoothers。UndowhatIhavedone。
Leavemebenighted,butrestorethedaytothosewhomIhavecursed。AsIhavesparedthiswomanfromthefirst,andasIneverwillgoforthagain,butwilldiehere,withnohandtotendme,savethiscreature’swhoisproofagainstme,—hearme!\"
Theonlyreplystillwas,theboystrugglingtogettoher,whileheheldhimback;andthecry,increasinginitsenergy,\"Help!letmein。Hewasyourfriendonce,howshallhebefollowed,howshallhebesaved?Theyareallchanged,thereisnooneelsetohelpme,pray,pray,letmein!\"
CHAPTERIII—TheGiftReversedNIGHTwasstillheavyinthesky。Onopenplains,fromhill—tops,andfromthedecksofsolitaryshipsatsea,adistantlow—lyingline,thatpromisedby—and—bytochangetolight,wasvisibleinthedimhorizon;butitspromisewasremoteanddoubtful,andthemoonwasstrivingwiththenight—cloudsbusily。
TheshadowsuponRedlaw’smindsucceededthickandfasttooneanother,andobscureditslightasthenight—cloudshoveredbetweenthemoonandearth,andkeptthelatterveiledindarkness。Fitfulanduncertainastheshadowswhichthenight—cloudscast,weretheirconcealmentsfromhim,andimperfectrevelationstohim;and,likethenight—cloudsstill,iftheclearlightbrokeforthforamoment,itwasonlythattheymightsweepoverit,andmakethedarknessdeeperthanbefore。
Without,therewasaprofoundandsolemnhushupontheancientpileofbuilding,anditsbuttressesandanglesmadedarkshapesofmysteryupontheground,whichnowseemedtoretireintothesmoothwhitesnowandnowseemedtocomeoutofit,asthemoon’spathwasmoreorlessbeset。Within,theChemist’sroomwasindistinctandmurky,bythelightoftheexpiringlamp;aghostlysilencehadsucceededtotheknockingandthevoiceoutside;nothingwasaudiblebut,nowandthen,alowsoundamongthewhitenedashesofthefire,asofitsyieldingupitslastbreath。Beforeitonthegroundtheboylayfastasleep。Inhischair,theChemistsat,ashehadsattheresincethecallingathisdoorhadceased—likeamanturnedtostone。
Atsuchatime,theChristmasmusichehadheardbefore,begantoplay。Helistenedtoitatfirst,ashehadlistenedinthechurch—yard;butpresently—itplayingstill,andbeingbornetowardshimonthenightair,inalow,sweet,melancholystrain—
herose,andstoodstretchinghishandsabouthim,asifthereweresomefriendapproachingwithinhisreach,onwhomhisdesolatetouchmightrest,yetdonoharm。Ashedidthis,hisfacebecamelessfixedandwondering;agentletremblingcameuponhim;andatlasthiseyesfilledwithtears,andheputhishandsbeforethem,andboweddownhishead。
Hismemoryofsorrow,wrong,andtrouble,hadnotcomebacktohim;
heknewthatitwasnotrestored;hehadnopassingbelieforhopethatitwas。Butsomedumbstirwithinhimmadehimcapable,again,ofbeingmovedbywhatwashidden,afaroff,inthemusic。
Ifitwereonlythatittoldhimsorrowfullythevalueofwhathehadlost,hethankedHeavenforitwithaferventgratitude。
Asthelastchorddieduponhisear,heraisedhisheadtolistentoitslingeringvibration。Beyondtheboy,sothathissleepingfigurelayatitsfeet,thePhantomstood,immovableandsilent,withitseyesuponhim。
Ghastlyitwas,asithadeverbeen,butnotsocruelandrelentlessinitsaspect—orhethoughtorhopedso,ashelookeduponittrembling。Itwasnotalone,butinitsshadowyhanditheldanotherhand。
Andwhosewasthat?WastheformthatstoodbesideitindeedMilly’s,orbuthershadeandpicture?Thequietheadwasbentalittle,ashermannerwas,andhereyeswerelookingdown,asifinpity,onthesleepingchild。Aradiantlightfellonherface,butdidnottouchthePhantom;for,thoughclosebesideher,itwasdarkandcolourlessasever。
\"Spectre!\"saidtheChemist,newlytroubledashelooked,\"Ihavenotbeenstubbornorpresumptuousinrespectofher。Oh,donotbringherhere。Sparemethat!\"
\"Thisisbutashadow,\"saidthePhantom;\"whenthemorningshinesseekouttherealitywhoseimageIpresentbeforeyou。\"
\"Isitmyinexorabledoomtodoso?\"criedtheChemist。
\"Itis,\"repliedthePhantom。
\"Todestroyherpeace,hergoodness;tomakeherwhatIammyself,andwhatIhavemadeofothers!\"
\"Ihavesaidseekherout,\"returnedthePhantom。\"Ihavesaidnomore。\"
\"Oh,tellme,\"exclaimedRedlaw,catchingatthehopewhichhefanciedmightliehiddeninthewords。\"CanIundowhatIhavedone?\"
\"No,\"returnedthePhantom。
\"Idonotaskforrestorationtomyself,\"saidRedlaw。\"WhatI
abandoned,Iabandonedofmyownfreewill,andhavejustlylost。
ButforthosetowhomIhavetransferredthefatalgift;whoneversoughtit;whounknowinglyreceivedacurseofwhichtheyhadnowarning,andwhichtheyhadnopowertoshun;canIdonothing?\"
\"Nothing,\"saidthePhantom。
\"IfIcannot,cananyone?\"
ThePhantom,standinglikeastatue,keptitsgazeuponhimforawhile;thenturneditsheadsuddenly,andlookedupontheshadowatitsside。
\"Ah!Canshe?\"criedRedlaw,stilllookingupontheshade。
ThePhantomreleasedthehandithadretainedtillnow,andsoftlyraiseditsownwithagestureofdismissal。Uponthat,hershadow,stillpreservingthesameattitude,begantomoveormeltaway。
\"Stay,\"criedRedlawwithanearnestnesstowhichhecouldnotgiveenoughexpression。\"Foramoment!Asanactofmercy!Iknowthatsomechangefelluponme,whenthosesoundswereintheairjustnow。Tellme,haveIlostthepowerofharmingher?MayIgonearherwithoutdread?Oh,lethergivemeanysignofhope!\"
ThePhantomlookedupontheshadeashedid—notathim—andgavenoanswer。
\"Atleast,saythis—hasshe,henceforth,theconsciousnessofanypowertosetrightwhatIhavedone?\"
\"Shehasnot,\"thePhantomanswered。
\"Hasshethepowerbestowedonherwithouttheconsciousness?\"
Thephantomanswered:\"Seekherout。\"
Andhershadowslowlyvanished。
Theywerefacetofaceagain,andlookingoneachother,asintentlyandawfullyasatthetimeofthebestowalofthegift,acrosstheboywhostilllayonthegroundbetweenthem,atthePhantom’sfeet。
\"Terribleinstructor,\"saidtheChemist,sinkingonhiskneebeforeit,inanattitudeofsupplication,\"bywhomIwasrenounced,butbywhomIamrevisited(inwhich,andinwhosemilderaspect,I
wouldfainbelieveIhaveagleamofhope),Iwillobeywithoutinquiry,prayingthatthecryIhavesentupintheanguishofmysoulhasbeen,orwillbe,heard,inbehalfofthosewhomIhaveinjuredbeyondhumanreparation。Butthereisonething—\"
\"Youspeaktomeofwhatislyinghere,\"thephantominterposed,andpointedwithitsfingertotheboy。
\"Ido,\"returnedtheChemist。\"YouknowwhatIwouldask。Whyhasthischildalonebeenproofagainstmyinfluence,andwhy,why,haveIdetectedinitsthoughtsaterriblecompanionshipwithmine?\"
\"This,\"saidthePhantom,pointingtotheboy,\"isthelast,completestillustrationofahumancreature,utterlybereftofsuchremembrancesasyouhaveyieldedup。Nosofteningmemoryofsorrow,wrong,ortroubleentershere,becausethiswretchedmortalfromhisbirthhasbeenabandonedtoaworseconditionthanthebeasts,andhas,withinhisknowledge,noonecontrast,nohumanisingtouch,tomakeagrainofsuchamemoryspringupinhishardenedbreast。Allwithinthisdesolatecreatureisbarrenwilderness。Allwithinthemanbereftofwhatyouhaveresigned,isthesamebarrenwilderness。Woetosuchaman!Woe,tenfold,tothenationthatshallcountitsmonsterssuchasthis,lyinghere,byhundredsandbythousands!\"
Redlawshrank,appalled,fromwhatheheard。
\"Thereisnot,\"saidthePhantom,\"oneofthese—notone—butsowsaharvestthatmankindMUSTreap。Fromeveryseedofevilinthisboy,afieldofruinisgrownthatshallbegatheredin,andgarneredup,andsownagaininmanyplacesintheworld,untilregionsareoverspreadwithwickednessenoughtoraisethewatersofanotherDeluge。Openandunpunishedmurderinacity’sstreetswouldbelessguiltyinitsdailytoleration,thanonesuchspectacleasthis。\"
Itseemedtolookdownupontheboyinhissleep。Redlaw,too,lookeddownuponhimwithanewemotion。
\"Thereisnotafather,\"saidthePhantom,\"bywhosesideinhisdailyorhisnightlywalk,thesecreaturespass;thereisnotamotheramongalltheranksoflovingmothersinthisland;thereisnoonerisenfromthestateofchildhood,butshallberesponsibleinhisorherdegreeforthisenormity。Thereisnotacountrythroughouttheearthonwhichitwouldnotbringacurse。Thereisnoreligionuponearththatitwouldnotdeny;thereisnopeopleuponearthitwouldnotputtoshame。\"
TheChemistclaspedhishands,andlooked,withtremblingfearandpity,fromthesleepingboytothePhantom,standingabovehimwithhisfingerpointingdown。
\"Behold,Isay,\"pursuedtheSpectre,\"theperfecttypeofwhatitwasyourchoicetobe。Yourinfluenceispowerlesshere,becausefromthischild’sbosomyoucanbanishnothing。Histhoughtshavebeenin’terriblecompanionship’withyours,becauseyouhavegonedowntohisunnaturallevel。Heisthegrowthofman’sindifference;youarethegrowthofman’spresumption。ThebeneficentdesignofHeavenis,ineachcase,overthrown,andfromthetwopolesoftheimmaterialworldyoucometogether。\"
TheChemiststoopeduponthegroundbesidetheboy,and,withthesamekindofcompassionforhimthathenowfeltforhimself,coveredhimasheslept,andnolongershrankfromhimwithabhorrenceorindifference。
Soon,now,thedistantlineonthehorizonbrightened,thedarknessfaded,thesunroseredandglorious,andthechimneystacksandgablesoftheancientbuildinggleamedintheclearair,whichturnedthesmokeandvapourofthecityintoacloudofgold。Theverysun—dialinhisshadycorner,wherethewindwasusedtospinwithsuchunwindyconstancy,shookoffthefinerparticlesofsnowthathadaccumulatedonhisdulloldfaceinthenight,andlookedoutatthelittlewhitewreathseddyingroundandroundhim。
Doubtlesssomeblindgropingofthemorningmadeitswaydownintotheforgottencryptsocoldandearthy,wheretheNormanarcheswerehalfburiedintheground,andstirredthedullsapinthelazyvegetationhangingtothewalls,andquickenedtheslowprincipleoflifewithinthelittleworldofwonderfulanddelicatecreationwhichexistedthere,withsomefaintknowledgethatthesunwasup。
TheTetterbyswereup,anddoing。Mr。Tetterbytookdowntheshuttersoftheshop,and,stripbystrip,revealedthetreasuresofthewindowtotheeyes,soproofagainsttheirseductions,ofJerusalemBuildings。Adolphushadbeenoutsolongalready,thathewashalfwayonto\"MorningPepper。\"FivesmallTetterbys,whosetenroundeyesweremuchinflamedbysoapandfriction,wereinthetorturesofacoolwashinthebackkitchen;Mrs。Tetterbypresiding。Johnny,whowaspushedandhustledthroughhistoiletwithgreatrapiditywhenMolochchancedtobeinanexactingframeofmind(whichwasalwaysthecase),staggeredupanddownwithhischargebeforetheshopdoor,undergreaterdifficultiesthanusual;
theweightofMolochbeingmuchincreasedbyacomplicationofdefencesagainstthecold,composedofknittedworsted—work,andformingacompletesuitofchain—armour,withahead—pieceandbluegaiters。
Itwasapeculiarityofthisbabytobealwayscuttingteeth。
Whethertheynevercame,orwhethertheycameandwentawayagain,isnotinevidence;butithadcertainlycutenough,ontheshowingofMrs。Tetterby,tomakeahandsomedentalprovisionforthesignoftheBullandMouth。Allsortsofobjectswereimpressedfortherubbingofitsgums,notwithstandingthatitalwayscarried,danglingatitswaist(whichwasimmediatelyunderitschin),abonering,largeenoughtohaverepresentedtherosaryofayoungnun。Knife—handles,umbrella—tops,theheadsofwalking—sticksselectedfromthestock,thefingersofthefamilyingeneral,butespeciallyofJohnny,nutmeg—graters,crusts,thehandlesofdoors,andthecoolknobsonthetopsofpokers,wereamongthecommonestinstrumentsindiscriminatelyappliedforthisbaby’srelief。Theamountofelectricitythatmusthavebeenrubbedoutofitinaweek,isnottobecalculated。StillMrs。Tetterbyalwayssaid\"itwascomingthrough,andthenthechildwouldbeherself;\"andstillitneverdidcomethrough,andthechildcontinuedtobesomebodyelse。
ThetempersofthelittleTetterbyshadsadlychangedwithafewhours。Mr。andMrs。Tetterbythemselveswerenotmorealteredthantheiroffspring。Usuallytheywereanunselfish,good—natured,yieldinglittlerace,sharingshortcommonswhenithappened(whichwasprettyoften)contentedlyandevengenerously,andtakingagreatdealofenjoymentoutofaverylittlemeat。Buttheywerefightingnow,notonlyforthesoapandwater,butevenforthebreakfastwhichwasyetinperspective。ThehandofeverylittleTetterbywasagainsttheotherlittleTetterbys;andevenJohnny’shand—thepatient,much—enduring,anddevotedJohnny—roseagainstthebaby!Yes,Mrs。Tetterby,goingtothedoorbymereaccident,sawhimviciouslypickoutaweakplaceinthesuitofarmourwhereaslapwouldtell,andslapthatblessedchild。
Mrs。Tetterbyhadhimintotheparlourbythecollar,inthatsameflashoftime,andrepaidhimtheassaultwithusurythereto。
\"Youbrute,youmurderinglittleboy,\"saidMrs。Tetterby。\"Hadyouthehearttodoit?\"
\"Whydon’therteethcomethrough,then,\"retortedJohnny,inaloudrebelliousvoice,\"insteadofbotheringme?Howwouldyoulikeityourself?\"
\"Likeit,sir!\"saidMrs。Tetterby,relievinghimofhisdishonouredload。
\"Yes,likeit,\"saidJohnny。\"Howwouldyou?Notatall。Ifyouwasme,you’dgoforasoldier。Iwill,too。Therean’tnobabiesintheArmy。\"
Mr。Tetterby,whohadarriveduponthesceneofaction,rubbedhischinthoughtfully,insteadofcorrectingtherebel,andseemedratherstruckbythisviewofamilitarylife。
\"IwishIwasintheArmymyself,ifthechild’sintheright,\"
saidMrs。Tetterby,lookingatherhusband,\"forIhavenopeaceofmylifehere。I’maslave—aVirginiaslave:\"someindistinctassociationwiththeirweakdescentonthetobaccotradeperhapssuggestedthisaggravatedexpressiontoMrs。Tetterby。\"Ineverhaveaholiday,oranypleasureatall,fromyear’sendtoyear’send!Why,Lordblessandsavethechild,\"saidMrs。Tetterby,shakingthebabywithanirritabilityhardlysuitedtosopiousanaspiration,\"what’sthematterwithhernow?\"
Notbeingabletodiscover,andnotrenderingthesubjectmuchclearerbyshakingit,Mrs。Tetterbyputthebabyawayinacradle,and,foldingherarms,satrockingitangrilywithherfoot。
\"Howyoustandthere,’Dolphus,\"saidMrs。Tetterbytoherhusband。
\"Whydon’tyoudosomething?\"
\"BecauseIdon’tcareaboutdoinganything,\"Mr。Tetterbyreplied。
\"IamsureIdon’t,\"saidMrs。Tetterby。
\"I’lltakemyoathIdon’t,\"saidMr。Tetterby。
AdiversionarosehereamongJohnnyandhisfiveyoungerbrothers,who,inpreparingthefamilybreakfasttable,hadfallentoskirmishingforthetemporarypossessionoftheloaf,andwerebuffetingoneanotherwithgreatheartiness;thesmallestboyofall,withprecociousdiscretion,hoveringoutsidetheknotofcombatants,andharassingtheirlegs。Intothemidstofthisfray,Mr。andMrs。Tetterbybothprecipitatedthemselveswithgreatardour,asifsuchgroundweretheonlygroundonwhichtheycouldnowagree;andhaving,withnovisibleremainsoftheirlatesoft—
heartedness,laidaboutthemwithoutanylenity,anddonemuchexecution,resumedtheirformerrelativepositions。
\"Youhadbetterreadyourpaperthandonothingatall,\"saidMrs。
Tetterby。
\"What’stheretoreadinapaper?\"returnedMr。Tetterby,withexcessivediscontent。
\"What?\"saidMrs。Tetterby。\"Police。\"
\"It’snothingtome,\"saidTetterby。\"WhatdoIcarewhatpeopledo,oraredoneto?\"
\"Suicides,\"suggestedMrs。Tetterby。
\"Nobusinessofmine,\"repliedherhusband。
\"Births,deaths,andmarriages,arethosenothingtoyou?\"saidMrs。Tetterby。
\"Ifthebirthswerealloverforgood,andallto—day;andthedeathswerealltobegintocomeoffto—morrow;Idon’tseewhyitshouldinterestme,tillIthoughtitwasacomingtomyturn,\"
grumbledTetterby。\"Astomarriages,I’vedoneitmyself。IknowquiteenoughaboutTHEM。\"
Tojudgefromthedissatisfiedexpressionofherfaceandmanner,Mrs。Tetterbyappearedtoentertainthesameopinionsasherhusband;butsheopposedhim,nevertheless,forthegratificationofquarrellingwithhim。
\"Oh,you’reaconsistentman,\"saidMrs。Tetterby,\"an’tyou?You,withthescreenofyourownmakingthere,madeofnothingelsebutbitsofnewspapers,whichyousitandreadtothechildrenbythehalf—hourtogether!\"
\"Sayusedto,ifyouplease,\"returnedherhusband。\"Youwon’tfindmedoingsoanymore。I’mwisernow。\"
\"Bah!wiser,indeed!\"saidMrs。Tetterby。\"Areyoubetter?\"
ThequestionsoundedsomediscordantnoteinMr。Tetterby’sbreast。
Heruminateddejectedly,andpassedhishandacrossandacrosshisforehead。
\"Better!\"murmuredMr。Tetterby。\"Idon’tknowasanyofusarebetter,orhappiereither。Better,isit?\"
Heturnedtothescreen,andtracedaboutitwithhisfinger,untilhefoundacertainparagraphofwhichhewasinquest。
\"Thisusedtobeoneofthefamilyfavourites,Irecollect,\"saidTetterby,inaforlornandstupidway,\"andusedtodrawtearsfromthechildren,andmake’emgood,iftherewasanylittlebickeringordiscontentamong’em,nexttothestoryoftherobinredbreastsinthewood。’Melancholycaseofdestitution。Yesterdayasmallman,withababyinhisarms,andsurroundedbyhalf—a—dozenraggedlittleones,ofvariousagesbetweentenandtwo,thewholeofwhomwereevidentlyinafamishingcondition,appearedbeforetheworthymagistrate,andmadethefollowingrecital:’—Ha!Idon’tunderstandit,I’msure,\"saidTetterby;\"Idon’tseewhatithasgottodowithus。\"
\"Howoldandshabbyhelooks,\"saidMrs。Tetterby,watchinghim。
\"Ineversawsuchachangeinaman。Ah!dearme,dearme,dearme,itwasasacrifice!\"
\"Whatwasasacrifice?\"herhusbandsourlyinquired。
Mrs。Tetterbyshookherhead;andwithoutreplyinginwords,raisedacompletesea—stormaboutthebaby,byherviolentagitationofthecradle。
\"Ifyoumeanyourmarriagewasasacrifice,mygoodwoman—\"saidherhusband。
\"IDOmeanit\"saidhiswife。
\"Why,thenImeantosay,\"pursuedMr。Tetterby,assulkilyandsurlilyasshe,\"thattherearetwosidestothataffair;andthatIwasthesacrifice;andthatIwishthesacrificehadn’tbeenaccepted。\"
\"Iwishithadn’t,Tetterby,withallmyheartandsoulIdoassureyou,\"saidhiswife。\"Youcan’twishitmorethanIdo,Tetterby。\"
\"Idon’tknowwhatIsawinher,\"mutteredthenewsman,\"I’msure;
—certainly,ifIsawanything,it’snottherenow。Iwasthinkingso,lastnight,aftersupper,bythefire。She’sfat,she’sageing,shewon’tbearcomparisonwithmostotherwomen。\"
\"He’scommon—looking,hehasnoairwithhim,he’ssmall,he’sbeginningtostoopandhe’sgettingbald,\"mutteredMrs。Tetterby。
\"ImusthavebeenhalfoutofmymindwhenIdidit,\"mutteredMr。
Tetterby。
\"Mysensesmusthaveforsookme。That’stheonlywayinwhichI
canexplainittomyself,\"saidMrs。Tetterbywithelaboration。
Inthismoodtheysatdowntobreakfast。ThelittleTetterbyswerenothabituatedtoregardthatmealinthelightofasedentaryoccupation,butdiscusseditasadanceortrot;ratherresemblingasavageceremony,intheoccasionallyshrillwhoops,andbrandishingsofbreadandbutter,withwhichitwasaccompanied,aswellasintheintricatefilingsoffintothestreetandbackagain,andthehoppingsupanddownthedoor—steps,whichwereincidentaltotheperformance。Inthepresentinstance,thecontentionsbetweentheseTetterbychildrenforthemilk—and—waterjug,commontoall,whichstooduponthetable,presentedsolamentableaninstanceofangrypassionsrisenveryhighindeed,thatitwasanoutrageonthememoryofDr。Watts。ItwasnotuntilMr。Tetterbyhaddriventhewholeherdoutatthefrontdoor,thatamoment’speacewassecured;andeventhatwasbrokenbythediscoverythatJohnnyhadsurreptitiouslycomeback,andwasatthatinstantchokinginthejuglikeaventriloquist,inhisindecentandrapacioushaste。