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  Contents:

  MaurineAllRoadsthatLeadtoGodareGoodDust—sealed\"Advice\"

  OvertheBanistersThePastSecretsApplauseTheStoryLeanDownLifeTheChristian’sNewYearPrayerIntheNightGod’sMeasureAMarchSnowPhilosophy\"Carlos\"

  TheTwoGlassesLaMortd’AmourLove’sSleepTrueCultureTheVoluptuaryTheCoquetteIfLove’sBurialLippo\"LoveisEnough\"

  LifeisLoveMAURINE

  PARTI

  Isatandsewed,andsangsometendertune,Oh,beauteouswasthatmorninearlyJune!

  Mellowwithsunlight,andwithblossomsfair:

  Theclimbingrose—treegrewaboutmethere,AndcheckedwithshadethesunnyporticoWhere,mornslikethis,Icametoread,orsew。

  Iheardthegateclick,andafirm,quicktreadUponthewalk。Noneedtoturnmyhead;

  Iwouldmistake,anddoubtmyownvoicesounding,Beforehisstepuponthegravelbounding。

  Inanunstudiedattitudeofgrace,Hestretchedhiscomelyform;andfromhisfaceHetossedthedark,dampcurls;andatmyknees,Withhisbroadhathefannedthelazybreeze,Andturnedhishead,andliftedhislargeeyes,Ofthatstrangehueweseeinoceandyes,Andcallitbluesometimesandsometimesgreen,Andsaveinpoeteyes,notelsewhereseen。

  \"LestIshouldmeetwithmyfairlady’sscorning,Forcallingquitesoearlyinthemorning,I’vebroughtapassportthatcanneverfail,\"

  Hesaid,and,laughing,laidthemorningmailUponmylap。\"I’mwelcome?soIthought!

  I’llfigurebythelettersthatIbroughtHowgladyouaretoseeme。Onlyone?

  Andthatonefromalady?I’mundone!

  That,lightlyskimmed,you’llthinkmeSUCHabore,AndwonderwhyIdidnotbringyoufour。

  It’severthus:awomancannotgetSomanylettersthatshewillnotfretO’eronethatdidnotcome。\"

  \"I’llproveyouwrong,\"

  Iansweredgaily,\"hereuponthespot!

  Thislittleletter,preciousifnotlong,Isjusttheone,ofallyoumighthavebrought,Topleaseme。Youhaveheardmespeak,I’msure,OfHelenTrevor:shewritesheretosayShe’scomingouttoseeme;andwillstayTillAutumn,maybe。Sheis,likehernote,Petiteanddainty,tender,loving,pure。

  You’dknowherbyaletterthatshewrote,Forasweettintedthing。’Tisalwaysso:—

  Lettersallblots,thoughfinelywritten,showAslovenlyperson。LettersstiffandwhiteBespeakanaturehonest,plain,upright。

  Andtissuey,tinted,perfumednotes,likethis,Tellofacreatureformedtopetandkiss。\"

  Mylistenerheardmewithaslow,oddsmile;

  Stretchedinabandonatmyfeet,thewhile,Hefannedmeidlywithhisbroad—brimmedhat。

  \"Thenallyoungladiesmustbeformedforthat!\"

  Helaughed,andsaid。

  \"Theirlettersread,andlook,Aslikeastwentycopiesofonebook。

  They’rewritteninadainty,spiderscrawl,To’darling,preciousKate,’or’Fan,’or’Moll。’

  The’dearest,sweetest’friendtheyeverhad。

  Theysaythey’wanttoseeyou,oh,sobad!’

  Vowthey’ll’forgetyou,never,NEVER,oh!’

  Andthentheytellaboutasplendidbeau—

  Alovelyhat——acharmingdress,andsendAlittlescrapofthistoeveryfriend。

  Andthentoclose,forlackofsomethingbetter,Theybegyou’ll’readandburnthishorridletter。’\"

  Hewatchedme,smiling。HewaspronetovexAndhectormewithflingsuponmysex。

  Heliked,hesaid,tohavemeflashandfrown,Sohecouldteaseme,andthenlaughmedown。

  Mystormsofwrathamusedhimverymuch:

  Helikedtoseemegooffatatouch;

  Angerbecameme——mademycolourrise,Andgaveanaddedlustretomyeyes。

  Sohewouldtalk——andsohewatchedmenow,Toseethehotflushmantlecheekandbrow。

  Instead,Iansweredcoolly,withasmile,Fellingaseamwithutmostcare,meanwhile。

  \"ThecaustictongueofVivianDangerfieldIsbarbedasever,formysex,thismorn。

  Stillunconvinced,nosmallestpointIyield。

  WomanIlove,andtrust,despiteyourscorn。

  Thereissometruthinwhatyousay?Well,yes!

  Yourstatementsusuallyholdmoreorless。

  Somewomenwriteweakletters——(somemendo;)

  Somemakeprofessions,knowingthemuntrue。

  Andwoman’sfriendship,inthetimeofneed,Iown,toooftenprovesabrokenreed。

  ButIbelieve,andeverwillcontend,Womancanbeasisterwoman’sfriend,Givingfromoutherlargeheart’sbounteousstoreAlivinglove——claimingtodonomoreThan,throughandbythatlove,sheknowsshecan:

  Andlivingbyherprofessions,LIKEAMAN。

  Andsuchatie,truefriendship’ssilkentether,BindsHelenTrevor’sheartandminetogether。

  Iloveherforherbeauty,meekness,grace;

  Forherwhitelilysoulandangelface。

  Shelovesme,formygreaterstrength,maybe;

  Loves——andwouldgiveherheart’sbestbloodforme。

  AndI,tosaveherfromapain,orcross,Wouldsufferanysacrificeorloss。

  Suchcanbewoman’sfriendshipforanother。

  Couldmangivemore,oraskmorefromabrother?\"

  Ipaused:andVivianleanedhismassiveheadAgainstthepillaroftheportico,Smiledhisslow,scepticsmile,thenlaughed,andsaid:

  \"Nay,surelynot——ifwhatyousaybeso。

  You’vemadeastatement,butnoproof’sathand。

  Wait——donotflashyoureyesso!UnderstandIthinkyouquitesincereinwhatyousay:

  Youloveyourfriend,andshelovesyou,to—day;

  ButfriendshipisnotfriendshipatthebestTillcircumstancesputittothetest。

  Man’s,lessdemonstrative,standsstrainandtear,Whilewoman’s,halfprofession,failstowear。

  Twowomenloveeachotherpassingwell—

  SayHelenTrevorandMaurineLaPelle,Justforexample。

  LetthemdailymeetAtballandconcert,inthechurchandstreet,Theykissandcoo,theyvisit,chat,caress;

  Theirloveincreases,ratherthangrowsless;

  Andallgoeswell,till’Helendear’discoversThat’Maurinedarling’winstoomanylovers。

  Andthenher’preciousfriend,’her’pet,’her’sweet,’

  Becomesa’minx,’a’creaturealldeceit。’

  LetHelensmiletoooftonMaurine’sbeaux,Orwearmorestylishorbecomingclothes,Orsportahatthathasalongerfeather—

  Andlo!thestrainhasbroken’friendship’stether。’

  Maurine’ssweetsmilebecomesafrownorpout;

  ’She’sjustbeguntofindthatHelenout。’

  Thebreachgrowswider——angerfillseachheart;

  Theydriftasunder,whom’butdeathcouldpart。’

  Youshakeyourhead?Oh,well,we’llneverknow!

  ItisnotlikelyFatewilltestyouso。

  You’lllive,andlove;and,meetingtwiceayear,Whilelifeshalllast,you’llholdeachotherdear。

  Iprayitmaybeso;itwerenotbestToshakeyourfaithinwomanbythetest。

  Keepyourbelief,andnurseitwhileyoucan。

  I’vefaithinwoman’sfriendshiptoo——forman!

  They’retrueassteel,asmothers,friends,andwives:

  Andthat’senoughtoblessusallourlives。

  Thatman’saselfishfellow,andabore,Whoisunsatisfiedandasksformore。\"

  \"Butthereisneedofmore!\"Iherebrokein。

  \"Iholdthatwomanguiltyofasin,Whowouldnotclingto,anddefendanother,Asnoblyasshewouldstandbyabrother。

  Whowouldnotsufferforasister’ssake,And,werethereneedtoproveherfriendship,make’Mostanysacrifice,norcountthecost。

  WhowouldnotdothisforafriendislostToeverynoblerprinciple。\"

  \"Shame,shame!\"

  CriedVivian,laughing,\"foryounowdefameThewholesweetsex;sincethere’snotonewoulddoThethingyouname,norwouldIwantherto。

  Ilovethesex。Mymotherwasawoman—

  Ihopemywifewillbe,andwhollyhuman。

  Andifshewantstomakesomesacrifice,I’llthinkherfarmoresensibleandwiseToletherhusbandreapthebenefit,Insteadofsomeoldmaidorsenselesschit。

  Selfish?Ofcourse!Iholdallloveisso:

  AndIshalllovemywiferightwell,Iknow。

  Nowthere’sapointregardingselfishlove,Youthirsttoarguewithme,anddisprove。

  Butsincethesecosyhourswillsoonbegone,Andallourmeetingsbrokeninupon,NomoreoftheseraremomentsmustbespentInvaindiscussions,orinargument。

  IwishMissTrevorwasin——Jericho!

  (Youseetheselfishnessbeginstoshow。)

  Shewantstoseeyou?——SodoI:butsheWillgainherwish,bytakingyoufromme。

  ’Comeallthesame?’thatmeansI’llbeallowedTorealizethat’threecanmakeacrowd。’

  Idonotliketofeelmyselfdetrop。

  WithtwogirlcronieswouldInotbeso?

  Myringwouldinterruptsomeprivatechat。

  You’daskmeinandtakemycaneandhat,Andspeakaboutthelovelysummerday,Andthink——’Thelout!Iwishhe’dkeptaway。’

  MissTrevor’dsmile,butjusttohideapoutAndcountthemomentstillIwasshownout。

  And,whileItwirledmythumbs,IwouldsitwishingThatIhadgoneoffhuntingbirds,orfishing,No,thanks,Maurine!TheironhandofFate,(OrotherwiseMissTrevor’sdaintyfingers,)

  WillbarmyentranceintoEden’sgate;

  AndIshallbelikesomepoorsoulthatlingersAtheaven’sportal,payingthepriceofsin,Yethopingtobepardonedandletin。\"

  Helookedsomelancholysittingthere,Ilaughedoutright。\"Howwellyouactapart;

  Youlooktheverypictureofdespair!

  You’vemissedyourcalling,sir!supposeyoustartUponastarringtour,andcarveyournameWithBooth’sandBarrett’sontheheightsofFameButnow,tabooingnonsense,IshallsendForyoutohelpmeentertainmyfriend,Unlessyoucomewithoutit。’Cronies?’True,Wantingour’privatechats’ascroniesdo。

  Andwe’lltakethose,whileyouarereadingGreek,Orwriting’LinestoDora’sbrow’or’cheek。’

  Butwhenyouhaveanhourortwoofleisure,Callasyounowdo,andaffordlikepleasure。

  Forneveryetdidheaven’ssunshineon,Orstarsdiscover,thatphenomenon,Inanycountry,orinanyclime:

  Twomaidssobound,bytiesofmindandheart,TheydidnotfeeltheheavyweightoftimeInweeksofsceneswhereinnomantookpart。

  Godmadethesexestoassociate:

  Norlawofman,norsterndecreeofFate,CaneverundowhatHishandhasdone,And,quitealone,makehappyeitherone。

  MyHelenisanonlychild:—apetOflovingparents:andsheneveryetHasbeendeniedoneboonforwhichshepleaded。

  Afragilething,herlightestwishwasheeded。

  Wouldshepluckroses?Theymustfirstbeshorn,Bycarefulhands,ofeveryhatefulthorn,AndlovingeyesmustscanthepathwaywhereHerfeetmaytread,toseenostonesarethere。

  She’llgrowdullhere,inthissecludednook,UnlessyouaidmeinthepleasanttaskOfentertaining。Dropinwithyourbook—

  Read,talk,singforhersometimes。WhatIask,Doonce,topleaseme:thenthere’llbenoneedFormetostatethecaseagain,orplead。

  There’snothinglikeawoman’sgraceandbeautyTowakenmankindtoasenseofduty。\"

  \"Ibowbeforethemandateofmyqueen:

  Yourslightestwishislaw,MaBelleMaurine,\"

  Heanswered,smiling,\"I’matyourcommand;

  Pointbutonelilyfinger,oryourwand,Andyouwillfindawillingslaveobeying。

  Theregoesmydinnerbell!IhearitsayingI’vespenttwohourshere,lyingatyourfeet,Notprofitable,maybe——surelysweet。

  Alltimeismoney;nowwereItomeasureThetimeIspendherebyitssolidpleasure,Andthatwerecoinedindollars,thenI’velaidEachdayafortuneatyourfeet,fairmaid。

  Theregoesthatbellagain!I’llsaygood—bye,Orcloudswillshadowmydomesticsky。

  I’llcomeagain,asyouwouldhavemedo,Andseeyourfriend,whilesheisseeingyou。

  That’slikebyproxybeingatafeast;

  Unsatisfactory,tosaytheleast。\"

  Hedrewhisfineshapeup,andtrodthelandWithkinglygrace。Passingthegate,hishandHelightlyplacedthegardenwallupon,Leapedoverlikealeopard,andwasgone。

  And,going,tookthebrightnessfromtheplace,YetlefttheJunedaywithasweetergrace,Andmyyoungsoul,sosteepedinhappydreams,Heavenitselfseemedshowntomeingleams。

  Thereisatimewithlovers,whentheheartFirstslowlyrousesfromitsdreamlesssleep,Toallthetumultofapassionlife,Ereyethavewakenedjealousyandstrife。

  Justasayoung,untutoredchildwillstartOutofalonghour’sslumber,soundanddeep,Andlieandsmilewithrosylipsandcheeks,Inasweet,restfultrance,beforeitspeaks。

  Atimewhenyetnowordthespellhasbroken,Savewhattheheartuntothesoulhasspoken,Inquickenedthrobs,andsighsbuthalfsuppressedAtimewhenthatsweettruth,allunconfessed,Givesaddedfragrancetothesummerflowers,Agoldenglorytothepassinghours,Ahopefulbeautytotheplainestface,Andlendstolifeanewandtendergrace。

  Whenthefullhearthasclimbedtheheightsofbliss,And,smiling,looksbacko’erthegoldenpast,IthinkitfindsnosweeterhourthanthisInalllove—life。For,later,whenthelastTranslucentdropo’erflowsthecupofjoy,Andlove,moremightythantheheart’scontrol,Surgesinwordsofpassionfromthesoul,Andvowsareaskedandgiven,shadowsriseLikemistsbeforethesuninnoondayskies,Vaguefears,thatprovethebrimmingcup’salloy;

  Adreadofchange——thecrowningmoment’scurse,Sincewhatisperfect,changebutrendersworse:

  AvaindesiretocrippleTime,whogoesBearingourjoysaway,andbringingwoes。

  Andlater,doubtsandjealousiesawaken,Andplightedheartsaretempest—tossedandshaken。

  Doubtsendsatest,thatgoesasteptoofar,Awoundismade,that,healing,leavesascar,Oroneheart,fullwithlove’ssweetsatisfaction,Thinkstruthoncespokenalwaysunderstood,WhileoneispiningforthetenderactionAndwhisperedwordbywhich,ofold,’twaswooed。

  Butthisblesthour,inlove’sglad,goldenday,Islikethedawning,eretheradiantrayOfglowingSolhasburstupontheeye,Butyetisheraldedinearthandsky,Warmwithitsfervour,mellowwithitslight,WhileCarestillslumbersinthearmsofnight。

  ButHope,awake,hearshappybirdlingssing,Andthinksofallasummerdaymaybring。

  Inthissweetcalm,myyoungheartlayatrest,Filledwithablissfulsenseofpeace;norguessedThatsullencloudsweregatheringintheskiesTohidetheglorioussun,ereitshouldrise。

  PARTII

  TolittlebirdsthatnevertireofhummingAboutthegardeninthesummerweather,AuntRuthcomparedus,afterHelen’scoming,Aswetworoamed,orsatandtalkedtogether。

  Twelvemonthsapart,wehadsomuchtosayOfschooldaysgone——andtimesincepassedaway;

  Ofthatoldfriend,andthis;ofwhatwe’ddone;

  Ofhowourseparatepathsinlifehadrun;

  Ofwhatwewoulddo,inthecomingyears;

  Ofplansandcastles,hopesanddreamsandfears。

  Allthese,andmore,assoonaswefoundspeech,Wetouchedupon,andskimmedfromthistothat。

  Butatthefirsteachonlygazedoneach,And,dumbwithjoy,thatdidnotneedavoiceLikelesserjoys,tosay,\"Lo!Irejoice,\"

  WithsmilingeyesandclaspinghandswesatWrappedinthatpeace,feltbutwiththosedear,Contentedjusttoknoweachothernear。

  ButwhenthissilenteloquencegaveplaceTowords,’twasliketherisingofafloodAboveadam。Wesatthere,facetoface,Andletourtalkglideonwhere’eritwould,Speechneverhaltinginitsspeedorzest,Savewhenourripplinglaughterletitrest;

  JustasastreamwillsometimespauseandplayAboutabubblingspring,thendashaway。

  Nowonder,then,thethirdday’ssunwasnighUptothezenithwhenmyfriendandI

  Openedoureyesfromslumberlonganddeep:

  NaturedemandingrecompenseforhoursSpentintheportico,amongtheflowers,Halvesoftwonightsweshouldhavespentinsleep。

  Sothisthirdday,webreakfastedatone:

  Thenwalkedaboutthegardeninthesun,Hearingthethrushesandtherobinssing,Andlookingtoseewhatbudswereopening。

  Theclockchimedthree,andweyetstrayedatwillAbouttheyardinmorningdishabille,WhenAuntRuthcame,withaprono’erherhead,Holdingaletterinherhand,andsaid,\"Hereisanote,fromVivianIopine;

  Atleasthisservantbroughtit。Andnow,girls,Youmaythinkthisisnoconcernofmine,ButinmydayyoungladiesdidnotgoTillalmostbed—timeroamingtoandfroInmorningwrappers,andwithtangledcurls,Theverypicturesofforlorndistress。

  ’Tisthreeo’clock,andtimeforyoutodress。

  Come!readyournoteandhurryin,Maurine,Andmakeyourselffitobjecttobeseen。\"

  Helenwasbendingo’eranalmondbush,AndereshelookedupIhadreadthenote,Andcalmedmyheart,that,bounding,sentaflushTobrowandcheek,atsightofaughtHEwrote。

  \"MaBelleMaurine:\"(soVivian’sbilletran,)

  \"IsitnottimeIsawyourcherishedguest?

  ’Pitythesorrowsofapooryoungman,’

  Banishedfromallthatmakesexistenceblest。

  I’mdyingtosee——yourfriend;andIwillcomeAndpayrespects,hopingyou’llbeathomeTo—nightateight。Expectantly,V。D。\"

  InsidemybeltIslippedthebillet,saying,\"Helen,gomakeyourselfmostfairtosee:

  Quick!hurrynow!notimeformoredelaying!

  Injustfivehoursacallerwillbehere,Andyoumustlookyourprettiest,mydear!

  Beginyourtoiletrightaway。IknowHowlongittakesyoutoarrangeeachbow—

  Totwisteachcurl,andloopyourskirtsaright。

  Andyoumustproveyouareaufaitto—night,Andmakeaperfecttoilet:forourcallerIsman,andcritic,poet,artist,scholar,Andviewswitheyesofall。\"

  \"Oh,oh!Maurine,\"

  CriedHelenwithawell—feignedlookoffear,\"You’vefrightenedmesoIshallnotappear:

  I’llhideaway,refusingtobeseenBysuchanogre。Woeisme!bereftOfallmyfriends,mypeacefulhomeI’veleft,AndstrayedawayintothedreadfulwoodTomeetthefateofpoorRedRidingHood。

  No,Maurine,no!you’vegivenmesuchafright,I’llnotgonearyouruglywolfto—night。\"

  Meantimewe’dleftthegarden;andIstoodInHelen’sroom,whereshehadthrownherselfUponacouch,andlay,awinsomeelf,Poutingandsmiling,cheekuponherarm,Notintheleastaportraitofalarm。

  \"Now,sweet!\"Icoaxed,andkneltbyher,\"begood!

  Gocurlyourhair;andpleaseyourownMaurine,Byputtingonthatlovelygrenadine。

  Notwolf,norogre,neitherCaliban,NorMephistopheles,you’llmeetto—night,Butwhattheladiescall’aniceyoungman’!

  Yetoneworthknowing——strongwithhealthandmightOfperfectmanhood;gifted,noble,wise;

  Movingamonghiskindwithlovingeyes,Andhelpfulhand;progressive,brave,refined,AftertheimageofhisMaker’smind。\"

  \"Now,now,Maurine!\"criedHelen,\"IbelieveItisyourlovercomingherethiseve。

  Whyhaveyouneverwrittenofhim,pray?

  Isthedayset?——andwhen?Say,Maurine,say!\"

  HadIbetrayedbysometooferventwordThesecretlovethatallmybeingstirred?

  Mylover?Ay!Myheartproclaimedhimso;

  ButfirstHISlipsmustwinthesweetconfession,EreevenHelenbeallowedtoknow。

  ImuststraightwayerasetheslightimpressionMadebythewordsjustuttered。

  \"Foolishchild!\"

  Igailycried,\"yourfancy’sstrayingwild。

  JustletagirlofeighteenhearthenameOfmaidandyouthutteredaboutonetime,Andoffherfancygoes,atbreak—neckpace,Defyingcircumstances,reason,space—

  AndstraightwaybuildsromancessosublimeTheyputallShakespeare’sdramastotheshame。

  ThisVivianDangerfieldisneighbour,friend,Andkindcompanion;bringingbooksandflowers。

  And,byhisthoughtfulactionswithoutend,Helpingmepasssomeotherwiselonghours;

  Buthehasneverbreathedawordoflove。

  Ifyoustilldoubtme,listenwhileIproveMystatementbytheletterthathewrote。

  ’Dyingtomeet——myfriend!’(shecouldnotseeThedashbetweenthatmeantsomuchtome)。

  ’Willcomethiseve,ateight,andhopeswemayBeintogreethim。’NowIthinkyou’llsay’Tisnotmuchlikealover’stendernote。\"

  Welaugh,wejest,notmeaningwhatwesay;

  Wehideourthoughts,bylightwordslightlyspoken,Andpassonheedless,tillwefindonedayThey’vebruisedourhearts,orleftsomeotherbroken。

  Isoughtmyroom,andtrillingsomeblitheair,Openedmywardrobe,wonderingwhattowear。

  Momentousquestion!femininelyhuman!

  Morethanallothers,vexingmindofwoman,Sincethatsadday,wheninherdiscontent,Tosearchforleaves,ourfairfirstmotherwent。

  AllundecidedwhatIshouldputon,AtlengthImadeselectionofalawn—

  White,withatinypinkvineoverrun:—

  Mysimplestrobe,butVivian’sfavouriteone。

  Andplacingasingleflowretinmyhair,IcrossedthehalltoHelen’schamber,whereIfoundherwithherfairlocksallletdown,Brushingthekinksout,withaprettyfrown。

  ’Twaslikeapicture,orapleasingplay,Towatchhermakehertoilet。Shewouldstand,Andturnherheadfirstthis,andthenthatway,Tryingeffectofribbon,boworband。

  Thenshewouldpickupsomethingelse,andcurveHerlovelyneck,withcunning,bird—likegrace,Andwatchthemirrorwhilesheputiton,Withsuchasweetlygraveandthoughtfulface;

  AndthentoviewitallwouldswayandswerveHerlitheyoungbody,likeagracefulswan。

  Helenwasovermediumheight,andslenderEventofrailty。Hergreat,wistfuleyesWerelikethedeepblueofautumnalskies;

  Andthroughthemlookedhersoul,large,loving,tender。

  Herlong,lighthairwaslustreless,exceptUpontheends,whereburnishedsunbeamsslept,Andontheearlocks;andsheloopedthecurlsBackwithashellcomb,studdedthickwithpearls,Costlyyetsimple。Herpaleloveliness,Thatnight,washeightenedbyherrich,blackdress,Thattrailedbehindher,leavinghalfinsightHertaperarms,andshouldersmarblewhite。

  IwasnottallasHelen,andmyfaceWasshapedandcolouredlikemygrandsire’srace;

  Forthroughhisveinsmyownreceivedthewarm,RedbloodofSouthernFrance,whichcurvedmyform,Andgloweduponmycheekincrimsondyes,Andbronzedmyhair,anddarkledinmyeyes。

  Andasthemorningtrailstheskirtsofnight,Andduskynightputsonthegarbofmorn,Andwalktogetherwhenthedayisborn,Sowetwoglideddownthehallandstair,Armclaspingarm,intotheparlour,whereSatVivian,bathedinsunset’sgorgeouslight。

  Herosetogreetus。Oh!hisformwasgrand;

  Andhepossessedthatpower,strange,occult,Calledmagnetism,lackingbetterword,Whichmovestheworld,achievinggreatresultWheregeniusfailscompletely。Touchhishand,Itthrilledthroughallyourbeing——meethiseye,Andyouweremoved,yetknewnothow,orwhy。

  Lethimbutrise,youfelttheairwasstirredByanelectriccurrent。

  ThisstrangeforceIsmightierthangenius。Rightlyused,Itleadstograndachievements;allthingsyieldBeforeitsmysticpresence,anditsfieldIsbroadasearthandheaven。Butabused,Itsweepslikeapoisonsimoononitscourse,Bearingmiasmainitsscorchingbreath,Andleavingallittouchesstruckwithdeath。

  Far—reachingscienceshallyettearawayThemysticgarbthathidesitfromtheday,Anddragitforthandbinditwithitslaws,Andmakeitservethepurposesofmen,Guidedbycommon—senseandreason。ThenWe’llhearnomoreofseance,table—rapping,Andallthattrash,o’erwhichtheworldisgaping,Lostineffect,whilescienceseeksthecause。

  Vivianwasnotconsciousofhispower:

  Or,ifhewas,knewnotitsfullextent。

  Heknewhisglancewouldmakeawildbeastcower,AndyetheknewnotthathislargeeyessentIntotheheartofwomanthesamethrillThatmadethelionservantofhiswill。

  Andevenstrongmenfeltit。

  Hearose,Reachedforthhishand,andinitclaspedmyown,WhileIheldHelen’s;andhespokesomewordOfpleasantgreetinginhislow,roundtone,UnlikeallothervoicesIhaveheard。

  Justasthewhitecloud,atthesunrise,glowsWithroseatecolours,sothepallidhueOfHelen’scheek,liketintedsea—shellsgrew。

  Throughmine,hishandcausedherstotremble;suchWastheall—mast’ringmagicofhistouch。

  Thenwesatdown,andtalkedabouttheweather,Theneighbourhood——someauthor’slastnewbook。

  But,whenIcould,IleftthetwotogetherTomakeacquaintance,sayingImustlookAfterthechickens——myespecialcare;

  Andranawayandleftthem,laughing,there。

  Knee—deep,throughclover,tothepoplargrove,Iwaded,wheremypetswerewonttorove:

  AndthereIfoundthefoolishmotherhenBroodingherchickensunderneathatree,Aneasypreyforfoxes。\"Chick—a—dee,\"

  QuothI,whilereachingforthedownythingsThat,chirping,peepedfromoutthemother—wings,\"Howveryhumanisyourfolly!WhenTherewaitsahaven,pleasant,bright,andwarm,AndonetoleadyouthitherfromthestormAndlurkingdangers,yetyouturnaway,And,thinkingtobeyourownprotector,strayIntotheopenjawsofdeath:for,see!

  AnowlissittinginthisverytreeYouthoughtsafeshelter。Gonowtoyourpen。\"

  And,followedbytheclucking,clamoroushen,Solikethehumanmotherhereagain,Moaningbecauseastrong,protectingarmWouldshieldherlittleonesfromcoldandharm,IcarriedbackmygardenhatbrimfulOfchirpingchickens,likewhiteballsofwoolAndsnuglyhousedthem。

  AndjustthenIheardAsoundlikegentlewindsamongthetrees,Orpleasantwatersinthesummer,stirredAndsetinmotionbyapassingbreeze。

  ’TwasHelensinging:and,asIdrewnear,Anothervoice,atenorfullandclear,Mingledwithhers,asmurmuringstreamsunite,Andflowonstrongerintheirweddedmight。

  ItwasawayofHelen’s,nottosingThesongsthatotherpeoplesang。ShetookSometimesanextractfromanancientbook;

  Againsomefloating,fragmentarything。

  Andsuchshefittedtooldmelodies,Orelsecomposedthemusic。OneoftheseShesangthatnight;andViviancaughtthestrain,Andjoinedherinthechorus,orrefrain,SONG。

  Ohthou,mineother,strongerpart!

  WhomyetIcannothear,orsee,Comethou,andtakethislovingheart,Thatlongstoyielditsalltothee,Icallmineown——oh,cometome!

  Love,answerback,Icometothee,Icometothee。

  Thishungryheart,sowarm,solarge,Isfartoogreatacareforme。

  IhavegrownwearyofthechargeIkeepsosacredlyforthee。

  Comethou,andtakemyheartfromme。

  Love,answerback,Icometothee,Icometothee。

  Iama—weary,waitinghereForonewhotarrieslongfromme。

  Oh!artthoufar,orartthounear?

  AndmustIstillbesadforthee?

  Orwiltthoustraightwaycometome?

  Love,answer,Iamneartothee,Icometothee。

  Themelody,sofullofplaintivechords,Sobbedintosilence——echoingdownthestringsLikevoiceofonewhowalksfromus,andsings。

  VivianhadleanedupontheinstrumentThewhiletheysang。But,ashespokethosewords,\"Love,Iamneartothee,Icometothee,\"

  Heturnedhisgrandheadslowlyround,andbentHislustrous,soulful,speakinggazeonme。

  Andmyyoungheart,eagertoownitsking,Senttomyeyesagreat,glad,trustfullightOfloveandfaith,andhunguponmycheekHope’srose—huedflag。TherewasnoneedtospeakIcrossedtheroom,andkneltbyHelen。\"SingThatsongyousangafragmentofonenightOutontheporch,beginning,’Praisemenot,’\"

  Iwhispered:andhersweetandplaintivetoneRose,lowandtender,asifshehadcaughtFromsomesadpassingbreeze,andmadeherown,Theechoofthewind—harp’ssighingstrain,Orthesoftmusicofthefallingrain。

  SONG。

  Opraisemenotwithyourlips,dearone!

  ThoughyourtenderwordsIprize。

  ButdearerbyfaristhesoulfulgazeOfyoureyes,yourbeautifuleyes,Yourtender,lovingeyes。

  Ochidemenotwithyourlips,dearone!

  ThoughIcauseyourbosomsighs。

  YoucanmakerepentancedeeperfarByyoursad,reprovingeyes,Yoursorrowful,troubledeyes。

  Words,atthebest,arebuthollowsounds;

  Above,inthebeamingskies,Theconstantstarssayneveraword,Butonlysmilewiththeireyes—

  Smileonwiththeirlustrouseyes。

  Thenbreathenovowwithyourlips,dearone;

  Onthewingedwindspeechflies。

  ButIreadthetruthofyournobleheartInyoursoulful,speakingeyes—

  Inyourdeepandbeautifuleyes。

  Thetwilightdarkened,roundus,intheroom,WhileHelensang;and,inthegatheringgloom,Vivianreachedout,andtookmyhandinhis,Andhelditso;whileHelenmadetheairLanguidwithmusic。Thenastepdrewnear,AndvoiceofAuntRuthbrokethespell:

  \"Dear!dear!

  Why,Maurie,Helen,children!howisthis?

  Ihearyou,butyouhavenolightinthere。

  YourroomisdarkasEgypt。WhatawayForfolkstovisit!Maurie,go,Ipray,Andorderlamps。\"

  Andsotherecamealight,AndallthesweetdreamshoveringaroundThetwilightshadowsflittedinaffright:

  Ande’enthemusichadaharshersound。

  Inpleasantconversepassedanhouraway:

  AndVivianplannedapicnicfornextday—

  Adrivethenext,andrambleswithoutend,Thathemighthelpmeentertainmyfriend。

  Andthenherose,bowedlow,andpassedfromsight,Likesomegreatstarthatdropsoutfromthenight;

  AndHelenwatchedhimthroughtheshadowsgo,Andturnedandsaid,hervoicesubduedandlow,\"Howtallheis!inallmylife,Maurine,AgrandermanIneveryethaveseen。\"

  PARTIII

  Onegoldentwelfth—partofacheckeredyear;

  Onesummermonth,ofsunlight,moonlight,mirth,Withnotahintofshadowslurkingnear,Orstorm—cloudsbrewing。

  ’Twasaroyalday:

  VoluptuousJulyheldherlover,Earth,Withherwarmarms,uponherglowingbreast,Andtwinedherselfabouthim,ashelaySmilingandpantinginhisdream—stirredrest。

  Sheboundhimwithherlimbsofperfectgrace,Andhidhimwithhertrailingrobeofgreen,Andwoundhiminherlonghair’sshimmeringsheen,Andrainedherardentkissesonhisface。

  ThroughthegladgloryofthesummerlandHelenandIwentwandering,handinhand。

  Inwindingpaths,hardbytheripewheat—field,Whitewiththepromiseofabounteousyield,Acrossthelateshornmeadow——downthehill,Redwiththetiger—lilyblossoms,tillWestooduponthebordersofthelake,Thatlikeapretty,placidinfant,sleptLowatitsbase:andlittleripplescreptAlongitssurface,justasdimpleschaseEachothero’eraninfant’ssleepingface。

  HeleninidlehourshadlearnedtomakeAthousandpretty,feminineknick—knacks:

  Forbrackets,ottomans,andtoiletstands—

  Labourjustsuitedtoherdaintyhands。

  Thatmorningshehadbeenatworkinwax,Mouldingawreathofflowersformyroom,—

  Takingherpatternsfromthelivingblows,Inalltheirdewybeautyandsweetbloom,Freshfrommygarden。Fuchsia,tulip,rose,Andtrailingivy,grewbeneathhertouch,ResemblingthelivingplantsasmuchAslifeiscopiedintheformofdeath:

  Theselackingbuttheperfume,andthat,breath。

  Andnowthewreathwasallcompleted,saveThemermaidblossomofallflowerdom,Awater—lily,drippingfromthewave。

  And’twasinsearchofitthatwehadcomeDowntothelake,andwanderedonthebeach,Toseeifanyliliesgrewinreach。

  Somebrokenstalks,whereflowerslatehadbeen;

  Somebuds,withalltheirbeautiesfoldedin,Wefound,butnotthetreasurethatwesought。

  AndthenweturnedourfootstepstothespotWhere,allimpatientofitschain,myboat,TheSwan,rocked,askingtobesetafloat。

  Itwasadaintyrow—boat——strong,yetlight;

  Eachsideaswanwaspaintedsnowywhite:

  Apresentfrommyuncle,justbeforeHesailed,withDeath,tothatmysteriousstrand,Wherefreightedshipsgosailingevermore,Butnonereturntotellusoftheland。

  IfreedtheSwan,andslowlyrowedabout,Whereversea—weeds,grass,orgreenleavesliftedTheirtipsabovethewater。Sowedrifted,WhileHelen,opposite,leanedidlyoutAndwatchedforliliesinthewavesbelow,Andsoftlycroonedsomesweetanddreamyair,Thatsoothedmelikeamother’slullabies。

  Idroppedtheoars,andclosedmysun—kissedeyes,Andlettheboatgodriftinghereandthere。

  Oh,happyday!thelastofthatbrieftimeOfthoughtlessyouth,whenalltheworldseemsbright,ErethatdisguisedangelmencallWoeLeadsthesadheartthroughvalleysdarkasnight,Uptotheheightsexaltedandsublime。

  Oneachblest,happymoment,IamfainTolingerlong,ereIpassontopainAndsorrowthatsucceeded。

  Fromday—dreams,Asgoldenasthesummernoontide’sbeams,Iwasawakenedbyavoicethatcried:

  \"Strangeship,ahoy!Fairfrigate,whitherbound?\"

  And,startingup,Icastmygazearound,Andsawasail—boato’erthewaterglideClosetotheSwan,likesomelivethingofgrace;

  Andfromitlookedtheglowing,handsomefaceOfVivian。

  \"Beauteoussirensofthesea,Comesailacrosstheragingmainwithme!\"

  Helaughed;andleaning,drewourdriftingboatBesidehisown。\"There,now!stepin!\"hesaid;

  \"I’lllandyouanywhereyouwanttogo—

  Myboatissaferfarthanyours,Iknow:

  Andmuchmorepleasantwithitssailsallspread。

  TheSwan?We’lltaketheoars,andletitfloatAshoreatleisure。You,Maurine,sitthere—

  MissHelenhere。Yegodsandlittlefishes!

  I’vereachedtheheightofpleasure,andmywishes。

  Adieudespondency!farewelltocare!\"

  ’Twasdonesoquickly:thatwasVivian’sway。

  Hedidnotwaitforeitheryeaornay。

  Hegavecommands,andleftyouwithnochoiceButjusttodothebiddingofhisvoice。

  Hisrare,kindsmile,lowtones,andmanlyfaceLenttohisquickimperiousnessagraceAndwinningcharm,completelystrippingitOfwhatmightotherwisehaveseemedunfit。

  Leavingnotraceoftyranny,butjustThatnamelessforcethatseemedtosay,\"Youmust。\"

  SuitingitsprettytitleoftheDawn,(Sonamed,hesaid,thatitmightrhymewithSwan),Vivian’ssail—boatwascarpetedwithblue,Whileallitssailswereofapalerosehue。

  Thedaintiestcraftthatflirtedwiththebreeze;

  Apoet’sfancyinanhourofease。

  WhateverVivianhadwasofthebest。

  HisroomwaslikesomeSultan’sintheEast。

  Hisboardwasalwaysspreadasforafeast,Whereat,eachmeal,hewasbothhostandguest。

  Hewouldgohungrysoonerthanhe’ddineAthisowntableif’twereillyset。

  Hesolovedthingsartisticindesign—

  Orderandbeauty,allabouthim。YetSokindhewas,ifitbefellhislotTodinewithinthehumblepeasant’scot,Hemadeitseemhisnativesoiltobe,Andthusdisplayedthetruegentility。

  UndertherosybannersoftheDawn,Aroundthelakewedriftedon,andon。

  Itwasatimefordreams,andnotforspeech。

  Andsowefloatedoninsilence,eachWeavingthefanciessuitingsuchaday。

  Helenleanedidlyo’erthesail—boat’sside,Anddippedherrosyfingersinthetide;

  AndIamongthecushionshalfreclined,Halfsat,andwatchedthefleecycloudsatplay,WhileVivianwithhisblank—book,opposite,Inwhichheseemedtoeithersketchorwrite,Waslostininspirationofsomekind。

  Notime,nochange,noscene,cane’ereffaceMymind’simpressionofthathourandplace;

  Itstandsoutlikeapicture。O’ertheyears,Blackwiththeirrobesofsorrow——veiledwithtears,Lyingwithalltheirlengthenedshapesbetween,Untouched,undimmed,Istillbeholdthatscene。

  JustasthelastofIndian—summerdays,Repletewithsunlight,crownedwithamberhaze,FollowedbydarkanddesolateDecember,Throughallthemonthsofwinterweremember。

  Thesunslippedwestward。ThatpeculiarchangeWhichcreepsintotheair,andspeaksofnightWhileyetthedayisfullofgoldenlight,Wefeltstealo’erus。

  VivianbrokethespellOfdream—fraughtsilence,throwingdownhisbook:

  \"Youngladies,pleaseallowmetoarrangeThesewrapsaboutyourshoulders。IknowwellTheficklenatureofouratmosphere,—

  Hersmileswiftfollowedbyafrownortear,—

  Andgopreparedforchanges。Nowyoulook,Like——like——oh,where’saprettysimile?

  Hadyouapocketmirrorhereyou’dseeHowwellmynativetalentisdisplayedInshawlingyou。Redonthebrunettemaid;

  Blueontheblonde——andquitewithoutdesign(Oh,whereISthatcomparisonofmine?)

  Well——likeaJuneroseandavioletblueInonebouquet!Ifancythatwilldo。

  AndnowIcraveyourpatienceandaboon,Whichistolisten,whileIreadmyrhyme,Afloatingfancyofthesummertime。

  ’Tisneitherwitty,wonderful,norwise,Solistenkindly——butdon’tcriticiseMymaideneffortoftheafternoon:

  \"IfalltheshipsIhaveatseaShouldcomea—sailinghometome,Ah,well!theharbourcouldnotholdSomanysailsastherewouldbeIfallmyshipscameinfromsea。

  \"Ifhalfmyshipscamehomefromsea,Andbroughttheirpreciousfreighttome,Ah,well!IshouldhavewealthasgreatAsanykingwhositsinstate—

  SorichthetreasuresthatwouldbeInhalfmyshipsnowoutatsea。

  \"IfjustoneshipIhaveatseaShouldcomea—sailinghometome,Ah,well!thestorm—cloudsthenmightfrown:

  ForiftheothersallwentdownStillrichandproudandgladI’dbe,Ifthatoneshipcamebacktome。

  \"Ifthatoneshipwentdownatsea,Andalltheotherscametome,Weigheddownwithgemsandwealthuntold,Withglory,honour,riches,gold,ThepoorestsoulonearthI’dbeIfthatoneshipcamenottome。

  \"Oskiesbecalm!Owindsblowfree—

  Blowallmyshipssafehometome。

  Butifthousendestsomea—wrackTonevermorecomesailingback,Sendany——allthatskimthesea,Butbringmylove—shiphometome。\"

  Helenwasleaningbyme,andherheadRestedagainstmyshoulder:asheread,Istrokedherhair,andwatchedthefleecyskies,Andwhenhefinished,didnotturnmyeyes。

  IfelttoohappyandtooshytomeetHisgazejustthen。Isaid,\"’Tisverysweet,Andsuitstheday;doesitnot,Helen,dear?\"

  ButHelen,voiceless,didnotseemtohear。

  \"’Tisstrange,\"Iadded,\"howyoupoetssingSofeelinglyabouttheverythingYoucarenotfor!anddressupanidealSowell,itlooksaliving,breathingreal!

  Now,toalistener,yourlovesongseemedAheart’sout—pouring;yetI’veheardyousayAlmosttheopposite;orthatyoudeemedPosition,honour,glory,power,fame,Gainedwithoutlossofconscienceorgoodname,Thethingstolivefor。\"

  \"Haveyou?Well,youmay,\"

  LaughedVivian,\"but’twasyears——ormonths’ago!

  AndSolomonsayswisemenchange,youknow!

  Inowspeaktruth!ifsheIholdmostdearSlippedfrommylife,andnoleasthopewereleft,MyheartwouldfindtheyearsmorelonelyhereThanifIwereofwealth,fame,friends,bereft,Andsent,anexile,toaforeignland。\"

  Hisvoicewaslow,andmeasured:ashespoke,New,unknownchordsofmelodyawokeWithinmysoul。IfeltmyheartexpandWiththatsweetfulnessbornoflove。IturnedTohidetheblushesonmycheekthatburned,AndleaningoverHelen,breathedhername。

  ShelaysomotionlessIthoughtsheslept:

  But,asIspoke,Isawhereyesunclose,Ando’erherfaceasuddengloryswept,Andaslighttremorthrilledallthroughherframe。

  \"Sweetfriend,\"Isaid,\"yourfaceisfulloflightWhatwerethedreamsthatmadeyoureyessobright?\"

  Sheonlysmiledforanswer,andaroseFromherrecliningpostureatmyside,Threwbacktheclust’ringringletsfromherfaceWithaquickgesture,fullofeasygrace,And,turning,spoketoVivian。\"WillyouguideTheboatupnearthatlittleclumpofgreenOfftotheright?There’swheretheliliesgrow。

  Wequiteforgotourerrandhere,Maurine,Andourfewmomentshavegrownintohours。

  WhatwillAuntRuththinkofourling’ringso?

  There——thatwilldo——nowIcanreachtheflowers。\"

  \"Hark!justhearthat!\"andVivianbrokeforthsinging,\"’Row,brothers,row。’Thesixo’clockbell’sringing!

  WhoeverknewthreehourstogosofastInalltheannalsoftheworld,before?

  Icouldhaveswornnotoveronehadpassed。

  Youngladies,Iamforcedtogoashore!

  Ithankyouforthepleasureyouhavegiven;

  Thisafternoonhasbeenaglimpseofheaven。

  Good—night——sweetdreams!andbyyourgraciousleave,I’llpaymycomplimentsto—morroweve。\"

  Asmile,abow,andhehadgonehisway:

  And,inthewaninggloryoftheday,Downcool,greenlanes,andthroughthelength’ningshadows,Silent,wewanderedbackacrossthemeadows。

  Thewreathwasfinished,andadornedmyroom;

  Longafterward,thelilies’copiedbloomWaslikeahorridspectreinmysight,Staringuponmemorning,noon,andnight。

  Thesunwentdown。Thesadnewmoonroseup,Andpassedbeforemelikeanemptycup,TheGreatUnseenbrimsfullofpainorbliss,AndgivesHischildren,saying,\"Drinkofthis。\"

  Alightwind,fromtheopencasement,fannedMybrowandHelen’s,aswe,handinhand,Satlookingoutuponthetwilightscene,Indreamysilence。Helen’sdark—blueeyes,LiketwoloststarsthatwanderedfromtheskiesSomenightadownthemeteor’sshiningtrack,Andalwayshadbeengrievingtogoback,Nowgazedup,wistfully,atheaven’sdome,Andseemedtorecogniseandlongforhome。

  Hersweetvoicebrokethesilence:\"Wish,Maurine,Beforeyouspeak!youknowthemoonisnew,AndanythingyouwishforwillcometrueBeforeitwanes。Idobelievethesign!

  Nowtellmeyourwish,andI’lltellyoumine。\"

  Iturnedandlookedupattheslimyoungmoon;

  And,withanalmostsuperstitiousheart,Isighed,\"Oh,newmoon!helpme,bythineart,Togrowallgraceandgoodness,andtobeWorthytheloveatrueheartproffersme。\"

  Thensmilingdown,Isaid,\"Dearone!myboon,Ifear,isquitetoosillyortoosweetFormyrepeating:sowe’llletitstayBetweenthemoonandme。ButifImayI’lllistennowtoyourwish。Tellme,please!\"

  Allsuddenlyshenestledatmyfeet,Andhidherblushingfaceuponmyknees。

  Thendrewmyhandagainstherglowingcheek,And,leaningonmybreast,begantospeak,HalfsighingoutthewordsmytorturedearReacheddowntocatch,whilestrivingnottohear。

  \"Canyounotguesswho’twasabout,Maurine?

  Oh,mysweetfriend!youmusterethishaveseenTheloveItriedtocoverfromalleyesAndfrommyself。Ah,foolishlittleheart!

  AswellitmightgoseekingforsomeartWherebytohidethesuninnoondayskies。

  WhenfirstthestrangesoundofhisvoiceIheard,Lookedonhisnobleface,and,touchedhishand,Myslumb’ringheartthrilledthroughandthroughandstirredAsiftosay,’Ihear,andunderstand。’

  AnddaybydaymineeyeswereblestbeholdingTheinnerbeautyofhislife,unfoldingIncountlesswordsandactionsthatportrayedThenoblestuffofwhichhissoulwasmade。

  AndmoreandmoreIfeltmyheartupreachingTowardthetruth,drawngentlybyhisteaching,Asflowersaredrawnbysunlight。AndtheregrewAstrange,shysomethinginitsdepths,IknewAtlengthwaslove,becauseitwassosadAndyetsosweet,andmademyheartsoglad,Yetseemedtopainme。Then,forveryshame,Lestallshouldreadmysecretanditsname,Istrovetohideitinmybreastaway,WhereGodcouldseeitonly。ButeachdayItseemedtogrowwithinme,andwouldrise,Likemyownsoul,andlookforthfrommyeyes,Defyingbondsofsilence;andwouldspeak,Initsred—letteredlanguage,onmycheek,Ifbuthisnamewasuttered。Youwerekind,MyownMaurine!asyoualonecouldbe,Solongthesharerofmyheartandmind,Whileyetyousaw,inseemingnottosee。

  Inalltheyearswehavebeenfriends,myown,Andlovedaswomenveryrarelydo,MyheartnosorrowandnojoyhasknownIthasnotsharedatonce,infull,withyou。

  AndIsolongedtospeaktoyouofthis,WhenfirstIfeltitsmingledpainandbliss;

  Yetdarednot,lestyou,knowinghim,shouldsay,Inpityformyfolly——’Lack—a—day!

  Youareundone:becausenomortalartCanwintheloveofsuchaloftyheart。’

  AndsoIwaited,silentandinpain,TillIcouldknowIdidnotloveinvain。

  AndnowIknow,beyondadoubtorfear。

  Didhenotsay,’IfsheIholdmostdearSlippedfrommylife,andnoleasthopewereleft,MyheartwouldfindtheyearsmorelonelyhereThanifIwereofwealth,fame,friends,bereft,Andsent,anexile,toaforeignland’?

  Oh,darling,youmustLOVE,tounderstandThejoythatthrilledallthroughmeatthosewords。

  ItwasasifathousandsingingbirdsWithinmyheartbrokeforthinnotesofpraise。

  Ididnotlookup,butIknewhisgazeWasonmyface,andthathiseyesmustseeThejoyIfeltalmosttransfiguredme。

  Helovesme——lovesme!sothebirdskeptsinging,Andallmysoulwiththatsweetstrainisringing。

  Iftherewereaddedbutonedropofbliss,Nomoremycupwouldhold:andso,thiseve,ImadeawishthatImightfeelhiskissUponmylips,ereyonpalemoonshouldleaveThestarsalllonely,havingwanedaway,Toooldandweakandbowedwithcaretostay。\"

  Hervoicesighedinsilence。WhileshespokeMyheartwrithedinme,prayingshewouldcease—

  EachwordsheutteredfallinglikeastrokeOnmybaresoul。Andnowahushlikedeath,Savethat’twasbrokenbyaquick—drawnbreath,Fell’roundme,butbroughtnotthehoped—forpeace。

  Forwhenthelashnolongerleavesitsblows,Thefleshstillquivers,andthebloodstillflows。

  Shenestledonmybosomlikeachild,And’neathherheadmytorturedheartthrobbedwildWithpainandpity。Shehadtoldhertale—

  Herself—deceivingstorytotheend。

  HowcouldIlookdownonherasshelaySofair,andsweet,andlily—like,andfrail—

  Atenderblossomonmybreast,andsay,\"Nay,youarewrong——youdomistake,dearfriend!

  ’TisIamloved,notyou\"?Yetthatweretruth,Andshemustknowitlater。

  ShouldIspeak,Andspreadaghastlypalloro’erthecheekFlushednowwithjoy?AndwhileI,doubtingpondered,Shespokeagain。\"Maurine!IofthavewonderedWhyyouandVivianwerenotlovers。HeIsallaheartcouldaskitskingtobe;

  Andyouhavebeauty,intellectandyouth。

  Ithinkitstrangeyouhavenotlovedeachother—

  StrangehowhecouldpassbyyouforanotherNothalfsofairorworthy。YetIknowAlovingFatherpre—arrangeditso。

  Ithinkmyhearthasknownhimalltheseyears,Andwaitedforhim。AndifwhenhecameIthadbeenasaloverofmyfriend,Ishouldhaverecognisedhim,allthesame,Asmysoul—mate,andlovedhimtotheend,Hidingmygrief,andforcingbackmytearsTillonmyheart,slowdropping,daybyday,Unseentheyfell,andworeitallaway。

  AndsoatenderFatherkepthimfree,Withallthelargenessofhislove,forme—

  Forme,unworthysuchapreciousgift!

  YetIwillbendeacheffortofmylifeTogrowingraceandgoodness,andtoliftMysoulandspirittohisloftyheight,Sotodeservethatholyname,hiswife。

  Sweetfriend,itfillsmywholeheartwithdelightTobreatheitslonghidsecretinyourear。

  Speak,myMaurine,andsayyoulovetohear!\"

  Thewhileshespoke,myactivebraingaveriseToonegreatthoughtofmightysacrificeAndself—denial。Oh!itblanchedmycheek,Andwrungmysoul;andfrommyheartitdroveAlllifeandfeeling。Coward—like,IstroveTosenditfromme;butIfeltitclingAndholdfastonmymindlikesomelivething;

  AndalltheSelfwithinmefeltitstouchAndcried,\"No,no!Icannotdosomuch—

  Iamnotstrongenough——thereisnocall。\"

  AndthenthevoiceofHelenbademespeak,Andwithacalmnessbornofnerve,Isaid,ScarceknowingwhatIuttered,\"Sweetheart,allYourjoysandsorrowsarewithmineownwed。

  Ithankyouforyourconfidence,andprayImaydeserveitalways。But,dearone,Something——perhapsourboat—rideinthesun—

  Hassetmyheadtoaching。ImustgoTobeddirectly;andyouwill,Iknow,Grantmeyourpardon,andanotherdayWe’lltalkofthistogether。Nowgood—night,Andangelsguardyouwiththeirwingsoflight。\"

  Ikissedherlips,andheldheronmyheart,AndviewedherasIne’erhaddonebefore。

  Igazeduponherfeatureso’erando’er;

  Markedherwhite,tenderface——herfragileform,Likesomefrailplantthatwithersinthestorm;

  Sawshewasfairerinhernew—foundjoyThane’erbefore;andthought,\"CanIdestroyGod’shandiwork,orleaveitatthebestAbrokenharp,whileIcloseclaspmybliss?\"

  Ibentmyheadandgaveheronelastkiss,Andsoughtmyroom,andfoundtheresuchreliefAssadheartsfeelwhenfirstalonewithgrief。

  Themoonwentdown,slowsailingfrommysight,Andleftthestarstowatchawaythenight。

  Ostars,sweetstars,sochangelessandserene!

  Whatdepthsofwoeyourpityingeyeshaveseen!

  Theproudsunsets,andleavesuswithoursorrow,Togropealoneindarknesstillthemorrow。

  Thelanguidmoon,e’enifshedeignstorise,Soonseekshercouch,grownwearyofoursighs;

  ButfromtheearlygloamingtillthedaySendsgolden—liveriedheraldsforthtosayHecomesinmight;thepatientstarsshineon,Steadfastandfaithful,fromtwilighttodawn。

  And,astheyshoneuponGethsemane,AndwatchedthestruggleofaGod—likesoul,Nowfromthesamefarheighttheyshoneonme,Andsawthewavesofanguisho’ermeroll。

  Thestormhadcomeuponmeallunseen:

  Nosoundofthunderfelluponmyear;

  Nocloudarosetotellmeitwasnear;

  Butunderskiesallsunlit,andserene,Ifloatedwiththecurrentofthestream,Andthoughtlifeallonegolden—haloeddream。

  Whenlo!ahurricane,withawfulforce,Sweptswiftuponitsdevastatingcourse,Wreckedmyfrailbark,andcastmeonthewaveWhereallmyhopeshadfoundasuddengrave。

  Lovemakesusblindandselfish;otherwiseIhadseenHelen’ssecretinhereyes;

  SousedIwastoreadingeverylookInhersweetface,asIwouldreadabook。

  Butnow,madesightlessbylove’sblindingrays,Ihadgoneonunseeing,totheendWherePaindispelledthemistofgoldenhazeThatwalledmein,andlo!IfoundmyfriendWhojourneyedwithme——atmyveryside—

  Hadbeensorewoundedtotheheart,whileI,Bothdeafandblind,sawnot,norheardhercry。

  AndthenIsobbed,\"OGod!IwouldhavediedTosaveherthis。\"AndasIcriedinpain,Thereleapedforthfromthestill,whiterealmofThoughtWhereConsciencedwells,thatunimpassionedspotAswidelydifferentfromtheheart’sdomainAsnorthfromsouth——theimpulsefeltbefore,Andputaway;butnowitroseoncemore,Ingreaterstrength,andsaid,\"Heart,wouldstthouproveWhatlipshaveuttered?Thengo,laythyloveOnFriendship’saltar,asthyoffering。\"

  \"Nay!\"criedmyheart,\"askanyotherthing—

  Asklifeitself——’twereeasiersacrifice。

  Butasknotlove,forthatIcannotgive。\"

  \"But,\"spokethevoice,\"themeanestinsectdies,Andisnohero!heroesdaretoliveWhenallthatmakeslifesweetissnatchedaway。\"

  Sowithmyheart,inconverse,tilltheday,Ingoldandcrimsonbillows,roseandbroke,ThevoiceofConscience,allunwearied,spoke。

  LovewarredwithFriendship,heartwithConsciencefought,Hoursrolledaway,andyettheendwasnot。

  AndwilySelf,trickedoutliketenderness,Sighed,\"Thinkhowone,whoselifethouwerttobless,Willbecastdown,andgropeindoubtandfear!

  Wouldstthouwoundhim,togivethyfriendrelief?

  Canwrongmakeright?\"

  \"Nay!\"Consciencesaid,\"butPrideAndTimecanhealthesaddesthurtsofLove。

  WhileFriendship’swoundsgapewideandyetmorewide,Andbitterfountainsofthespiritprove。\"

  Atlength,exhaustedwiththewearingstrife,Icastthenew—foundburdenofmylifeOnGod’sbroadbreast,andsoughtthatdeepreposeThatonlyhewhowatchedwithsorrowknows。

  PARTIV

  \"Maurine,Maurine,’tisteno’clock!arise,Myprettysluggard,openthosedarkeyesAndseewhereyondersunis!DoyouknowImademytoiletjustfourhoursago?\"

  ’TwasHelen’svoice:andHelen’sgentlekissFellonmycheek。Asfromadeepabyss,IdrewmywearyselffromthatstrangesleepThatrestsnotnorrefreshes。ScarceawakeOrconscious,yetthereseemedaheavyweightBoundonmybreast,asbyacruelFate。

  Iknewnotwhy,andyetIlongedtoweep。

  Somedarkcloudseemedtohangupontheday;

  And,foramoment,inthattranceIlay,Whensuddenlythetruthdido’ermebreak,Likesomegreatwaveuponahelplesschild。

  Thedullpaininmybreastgrewlikeaknife—

  Theheavythrobbingofmyheartgrewwild,AndGodgavebacktheburdenofthelifeHekeptwhattimeIslumbered。

  \"Youareill,\"

  CriedHelen,\"withthatblindingheadachestill!

  Youlooksopaleandweary。NowletmePlaynurse,Maurine,andcareforyouto—day!

  AndfirstI’llsuitsomedaintytoyourtaste,Andbringittoyou,withacupoftea。\"

  Andoffsheran,notwaitingmyreply。

  But,wantingmostthesunshineandthelight,Ileftmycouch,andclothedmyselfinhaste,And,kneeling,senttoGodanearnestcryForhelpandguidance。

  \"ShowThoumetheway,Wheredutyleads,forIamblind!mysightObscuredbyself。Oh,leadmystepsaright!

  Helpmeseethepath:andifitmay,Letthiscuppass:—andyet,ThouheavenlyOne,Thywillinallthings,notmineown,bedone。\"

  Rising,Iwentuponmyway,receivingThestrengthprayergivesalwaytoheartsbelieving。

  Ifeltthatunseenhandswereleadingme,Andknewtheendwaspeace。

  \"What!areyouup?\"

  CriedHelen,comingwithatray,andcup,Oftendertoastandfragrant,smokingtea。

  \"Younaughtygirl!youshouldhavestayedinbedUntilyouateyourbreakfast,andwerebetter;

  I’vesomethinghiddenforyouhere——aletter。

  Butdrinkyourteabeforeyoureadit,dear!

  ’Tisfromsomedistantcousin,auntiesaid,Andsoyouneednothurry。Nowbegood,AndmindyourHelen。\"

  So,inpassivemood,Ilaidthestillunopenedletternear,AndloiteredatmybreakfastmoretopleaseMynurse,thananyhungertoappease。

  ThenlistlesslyIbrokethesealandreadThefewlineswritteninaboldfreehand:

  \"NewLondon,Canada。DearCoz。Maurine!

  (InspiteofgenerationsstretchedbetweenOurnaturalrighttothatmosthandyclaimOfcousinship,we’lluseitallthesame)

  I’mcomingtoseeyou!honestly,intruth!

  I’vethreatenedoften——nowImeantoact;

  You’llfindmycomingisastubbornfact。

  Keepquiet,though,anddonottellAuntRuth。

  Iwonderifshe’llknowherpettedboyInspiteofchanges?LookformeuntilYouseemecoming。AsofoldI’mstillYourfaithfulfriend,andlovingcousin,Roy。\"

  SoRoywascoming!HeandIhadplayedAsboyandgirl,andlater,youthandmaid,Fullhalfourlivestogether。Hehadbeen,Likeme,anorphan;andtheroofofkinGavebothkindshelter。SwiftyearsspedawayErechangewasfelt:andthenonesummerdayAlong—lostunclesailedfromIndia’sshore—

  MadeRoyhisheir,andhewasoursnomore。

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