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  \"Idonotconsideryouanythingofthesort。Ineversomuchasassociatedyouwithanythingresemblinganidea。Imerelyaskedaquestion,\"shesaid。\"Irepeatit。Doyouordoyounotexist?AreyouabitofthereallyrealorabitofMr。Harley’srealism?Inshort,areyouhereatProfileLake,walkingandtalkingwithme,orareyounot?\"

  Arealizingsenseofmytruepositioncreptoverme。InrealityI

  wasnottheretalkingtoher,butinmydeninNewYorkwritingabouther。Imaynotbearealist,butIamtruthful。Icouldnotdeceiveher,soIreplied,hesitatingly:

  \"Well,MissAndrews,Iam——no,Iamnothere,exceptinspirit。\"

  \"That’swhatIthought,\"shesaid,demurely。\"Anddoyouexistsomewhere,oristhisa’situation’calculatedtodelighttheAmericangirl——withpin—moneytospendonMessrs。Herring,Beemer,&

  Chadwick’spublications?\"

  \"Idoexist,\"Ireplied,meekly;for,Imustconfessit,IrealizedmorethaneverthatMissAndrewswastoomuchforme,andIheartilywishedIwaswelloutofit。\"AndIaloneamresponsibleforthis。

  HarleyisofffishingatBarnegat——anddoyouknowwhy?\"

  \"Ipresumehehasgonetheretorecuperate,\"shesaid。

  \"Precisely,\"saidI。

  \"Afterhisungentlemanly,discourteous,andwhollyuncalled—forinterferencewithmycomfortatNewport,\"shesaid,herfaceflushingandtearscomingintohereyes,\"Idon’twonderhe’sprostrated。\"

  \"Idonotknowtowhatyourefer,\"saidI。

  \"Irefertotheepisodeoftherunawayhorse,\"shesaid,inwrathfulremembranceoftheincident。\"BecauseIrefusetofollowblindlyhiswill,heabuseshispower,placesmeinafalseandperiloussituation,fromwhichI,adefencelesswoman,mustrescuemyselfaloneandunaided。Itwasunmanlyofhim——andIwillpayhimthecomplimentofsayingwhollyunlikehim。\"

  Istoodaghast。PoorStuartwasbeingblamedformyact。Hemustbesetrightatonce,howeverunpleasantitmightbeforme。

  \"He——hedidn’tdothat,\"Isaid,slowly;\"itwasI。Iwrotethatbitofnonsense;andhe——well,hewasmadbecauseIdidit,andsaidhe’dliketokillanymanwhoill—treatedyou;andhemademepromisenevertotouchuponyourlifeagain。\"

  \"MayIaskwhyyoudidthat?\"sheasked,andIwasgladtonotethattherewasnodispleasureinhervoice——infact,sheseemedtocheerupwonderfullywhenItoldherthatitwasI,andnotStuart,whohadsubjectedhertothemisadventure。

  \"BecauseIwasangrywithyou,\"Ianswered。\"Youwereruiningmyfriendwithyourcontinuedactsofrebellion:hewassuccessful;nowheisruined。Hethinksofyoudayandnight——hewantsyouforhisheroine;hewantstomakeyouhappy,buthewantsyoutobehappyinyourownway;andwhenhethinkshehasdiscoveredyourway,heworksalongthatline,andallofasudden,bysomeactwhollyunforeseen,and,ifImaysayso,unforeseeable,youtreathimandhisworkwithcontempt,drawyourselfoutofit——andhehastobeginagain。\"

  \"Andwhyhaveyouventuredtobreakyourwordtoyourfriend?\"sheasked,calmly。\"Surelyyouaretouchinguponmylifenow,inspiteofyourpromise。\"

  \"BecauseIamwillingtosacrificemywordtohiswelfare,\"I

  retorted;\"totrytomakeyouunderstandhowyouareblockingthepathofamightyfine—mindedmanbyyourdevotiontowhatyoucallyourindependence。Hewillneveraskyoutodoanythingthatheknowswillberevoltingtoyou,anduntilhehassucceededinpleasingyoutothelastpageofhisbookhewillneverwriteagain。

  Ihavedonethisinthehopeofpersuadingyou,atthecostevenofsomepersonaldiscomfort,nottorebelagainsthisgentleleadership—

  —tofallinwithhisideasuntilhecanfulfilthistaskofhis,whetheritberealismorpurespeculationonhispart。Ifyoudothis,Stuartissaved。Ifyoudonot,literaturewillbecalledupontomournonewhopromisestobeoneofitsbrightestornaments。\"

  Istoppedshort。MissAndrewswasgazingpensivelyoutoverthemirror—likesurfaceoftheLake。Finallyshespoke。

  \"YoumaytellMr。Harley,\"shesaid,withasigh,\"thatIwilltroublehimnomore。Hecandowithmeashepleasesinallsaveoneparticular。HeshallnotmarrymetoamanIdonotlove。IfhetakesthemanIloveformyhero,thenwillIfollowhimtothedeath。\"

  \"AndmayIaskwhothatmanis?\"

  \"Youmayaskifyouplease,\"shereplied,withalittlesmile。\"ButIwon’tansweryou,excepttosaythatitisn’tyou。\"

  \"AndamIforgivenformyrunawaystory?\"Iasked。

  \"Yes,\"shesaid。\"Youwouldn’texpectmetocondemnamanforloyaltytohisfriend,wouldyou?\"

  WithwhichunderstandingMissAndrewsandIcontinuedourwalk,andwhenwepartedIfoundthatthelittleinterviewIhadstartedtowritehadturnedintothesuggestionofaromance,whichIwasindutyboundtodestroy——butIbegantohaveaglimmeringofanideaastowhothemanwasthatMargueriteAndrewswishedforahero,andI

  regrettedalsotofindmyselfconvincedofthetruthofherstatementthatthatmandidnotbearmyname。

  CHAPTERVIII:HARLEYRETURNSTOTHEFRAY

  \"Iwillbemasterofwhatismineown:

  Sheismygoods,mychattels。\"

  —\"TamingoftheShrew。\"

  AttheendoftendaysHarleyreturnedfromBarnegat,brownasaberryandreadyforwar,ifwaritwasstilltobe。Theoutinghaddonehimaworldofgood,andthefishstorieshetoldaswesatatdinnershowedthat,realistthoughhemightbe,hehadyetnotfailedtocultivatehisimaginationincertaindirections。Imayobserveinpassing,andinthisconnection,thatifIhadasonwhomitwasmyambitiontoseemakinghismarkintheworldasawriterofromance,asdistinguishedfromthereal,Ishould,asthefirststepinhisdevelopment,takecarethathebecameafisherman。Thetellingoftalesofthefishhecaughtwhennooneelsewasneartoseewouldgivehim,asithasgivenmanyanother,agoodschoolingintherealmsoftheimagination。

  IwasgladtonotethatHarley’swontedcheerfulnesshadreturned,andthathehadbecomemorelikehimselfthanhehadbeenatanytimesincehisfirstfailurewithMissAndrews。

  \"Youradvicewasexcellent,\"hesaid,aswesippedourcoffeeattheclubthenightofhisreturn。\"Ihaveacleartwoweeksinwhichtotacklethatstory,andIfeelconfidentnowthatIshallgetitdone。

  Furthermore,IshallsendthechapterstoHerring,Beemer,&ChadwickasIwritethem,sothattheremustbenofailure。Ishallbecompelledtofinishthetale,whatevermayhappen,andMissAndrewsshallgothroughtothebitterend,willy—nilly。\"

  \"Don’tberash,Harley,\"Isaid;foritseemedtomethatMissAndrews,havingconsentedatmysolicitationtobeadocileheroineforjustsolongasHarleydidnotinsistuponhermarryingthemanshedidnotlove,itwasnotimeforhimtobreakawayfromtheprincipleshehadsosteadfastlyadheredtohithertoandbecomeamartinet。Hestruckmeasbeingmorethanlikelytocrackthewhiplikearing—masterinhispresentmoodthantoplaytheindulgentauthor,andIfeltprettyconfidentthattheinstantthesnapofthelashreachedtheearsofMargueriteAndrewshistroubleswouldbeginagaintenfold,bothinqualityandinquantity,withnopossiblehopeforafuturereconciliationbetweenthem。

  \"I’mnotgoingtoberash,\"saidHarley。\"Ineverwasrash,andI’mnotgoingtobeginnow,butIshallusemynerve。Thathasbeenthetroublewithmeinthepast。Ihaven’tbeenfirm。Ihaveletthatgirlhaveherownwayineverything,andI’mverymuchafraidIhavespoiledher。Shebehaveslikeachildwithindulgentparents。Inthelastinstance,theParkerproposal,shesimplyranherindependenceintotheground。Shewasnotonlyrebellioustome,butshewasimpertinenttohim。Herattitudetowardhimwasnotnatureatall;itwasnotrealism,becausesheisawomanofgoodbreeding,andwouldnaturallybethelasttotreatanyman,distastefulornot,withsuchexcessiverudeness。Icompelledhimtogoonandproposetoher,thoughafterhehadbeenatitforfiveminutesIcouldseethathewishedhewaswelloutofit。Ishouldhavetakenherinhandandcontrolledherwithequalfirmness,decliningtopermithertospeaksoopenly。Franknessisgoodenough,especiallyinwomen,amongwhomyourarelyfindit;butfranknessofthesortsheindulgedinhasnoplaceinthepolitecircleinwhichshemoves。\"

  \"Nevertheless,shespokethatway——yousaidyourselfshedid,\"I

  said,seeingthathewaswrathfulwithMarguerite,andwishingtoassuagehisangerbeforeitcarriedhimtolengthshemightregret。

  \"Andyou’vegottotakeherassheisordropheraltogether。\"

  \"Shedid——Irepeatthatshedidspeakthatway,butthatwasnoreasonwhyIshouldsubmittoit,\"Harleyanswered。\"Itwasthefaultofhermood。Shewasnervous,almosthysterical——thankstoherrebelliousspirit。ThemomentIdiscoveredhowthingsweregoingI

  shouldhavegonebackandstartedafresh,andkeptondoingsountilIhadhersubmissive。Ahuntermaybalkatahighfence,buttheridermustnotgiveintohimunlesshewishestolettheanimalgetthebetterofhim。Ifheiswisehewillgobackandputthehorsetoitagainandagain,untilhefinallyclearsthetopmostbar。ThatIshouldhavedoneinthisinstance,andthatInowintendtodo,untilthatbookcomesoutasIwantit。\"

  Ihadtolaughinmysleeve。Onthewhole,Harleywasverylikemostotherrealists,whopretendthattheymerelyputdownlifeasitis,andwhogothroughtheirprofessionalcareersserenelyunconsciousofthetruththattheirfancies,afterall,servethemwhentheirfactsarelacking。EventhatmosteminentdiscipleoftheRealisticCult,Mr。Darrow,hasbeenknowntokilloffaheroinarailroadaccidentthatoweditsbeingtonothingshortofhisownimagination,inorderthattheunhappywightmightnotoffendthereadersofthehighlymoralmagazine,inwhichthestoryfirstappeared,bymarryingawidowwhomhehadbeenforcedbyMr。Darrowtolovebeforeherhusbanddied。Mr。Darrowmanufactured,withfivestrokesofhispen,anengineandatunneltocrushthelifeoutofthepoorfellow,whomanimmoralromancerwouldhaveallowedtoliveonandmarrythelady,andwithperfectproprietytoo,sincetheheroandtheheroinewerebothofthemtheverymodelsofvirtue,inspiteofthelovewhichtheydidnotseek,andwhichMr。Darrowdeliberatelyandalmostbrutallythrustintotheirotherwisehappylives。Ofcoursetherailwayaccidentwasneededtogivetheclimaxtothestory,whichwithoutitmighthaverunthroughsixmorenumbersofthemagazine,totheexclusionofmoreexcitingmaterial;butthatwillnotrelieveMr。Darrow’ssoulofthestainhehasputuponitbydesertingDameRealismforamomenttoflirtwithRomance,whenitcomestotheJudgmentDay。

  \"AsIwantittobe,somustitbe,\"quothHarley。

  \"Good,\"thoughtI。\"Itwillnodoubtbeexcellent;butbehonest,anddon’tinsistthatyou’vetakendownlifeasitis;foryoumayhaveanastigmatism,forallyouknow,andlifemaynotbeatallwhatithasseemedtoyouwhileyouwereputtingitdown。\"

  \"Yes,sir,\"saidHarley,leaningbackinhischairanddrawingalongbreath,whichshowedhisdetermination,\"tothebitterendsheshallgo,throughsuchcomplicationsasIchoosetohaveher,encounteringwhatevervillainsImayhappentofindmostconvenient,andtocompleteherstorysheshallmarrythemanIselectformyhero,ifheisascommonplaceastheaveragesalesmaninaBrooklynuniversaldry—goodsemporium。\"

  Imaginemyfeelingsifyoucan!Havinggoneasaself—appointedambassadortotheenemytosecuretermsofpeace,toreturntofindmyprincipaldonninghisarmoranddaubinghisfacewithpaintforarenewalofthecombat,wascertainlynotpleasant。WhatcouldIsaytoMargueriteAndrewsifIevermetherinreallife?HowcouldI

  lookherintheeye?Thesituationoverpoweredme,andIhardlyknewwhattosay。Icouldn’tbegHarleytosticktohisrealismandnotindulgeincompulsion,becauseIhadoftenjeeredathimfornotinfusingalittlemoreofthedramaticintohisstories,evenifithadtobe\"luggedinbytheears,\"asheputit。Norwasheinanymoodformetotellhimofmybreachoffaith——themereknowledgethatshehadpromisedtobedocileoutofcharitywouldhavestunghispride,andIthoughtitwouldbebetter,forthetime,atleast,toletmyinterviewremainasecret。Fortunefavoredme,however。

  KellyandtheProfessorenteredthediningroomatthismoment,andtheProfessorheldinhishandacopyofthecurrentissueofTheLiteraryMan,Messrs。Herring,Beemer,&Chadwick’sfortnightlypublication,aperiodicalhavingtodowhollywiththingsbookish。

  \"Whosatforthis,Stuart?\"calledouttheProfessor,tappingthefrontispieceofthemagazine。

  \"Whosatforwhat?\"repliedStuart,lookingup。

  \"Thispicture,\"saidtheProfessor。

  \"It’sapictureofafinelyintellectual—lookingpersonwithyournameunderit,Harley,\"putintheDoctor。

  \"Oh——that,\"saidHarley。\"Itdoesflattermeabit。\"

  \"Sodoesthearticlewithit,\"saidKelly。\"Saysyouareagreatman——manwithanidea,andallthat。Isthattrue,orisitjustplainlibel?Haveyouanidea?\"

  Harleylaughedgood—naturedly。\"Ihadoneonce,butit’slost,\"hesaid。\"Astothatpicture,they’rebringingoutabookforme,\"headded,modestly。\"Goodad。,youknow。\"

  \"Whenyouarethroughwiththat,Professor,\"Iputin,\"letmehaveit,willyou?IwanttoseewhatitsaysaboutHarley。\"

  \"It’safirst—ratescreed,\"repliedtheProfessor,handingoverthepublication。\"IthitsHarleyrightonthehead。\"

  \"Idon’tknowasthat’spleasant,\"saidHarley。

  \"WhatImean,mydearboy,\"saidtheProfessor,\"isthatitdoesyoujustice。\"

  AnditreallydiddoHarleyjustice,although,ashehadsuggested,itwaswrittenlargelytoadvertisetheforthcomingwork。ItspokenicelyofHarley’spreviousefforts,andjudiciously,asitseemedtome。Hehadnotgottothetopoftheladderyet,buthewasgettingtherebyaslow,steadydevelopment,andlargelybecausehewasamanwithafixedideaastowhatliteratureoughttobe。

  \"Mr。Harleyhasseenclearlyfromtheoutsetwhatitwasthathewishedtoaccomplishandhowtoaccomplishit,\"thewriterobserved。

  \"Hehasswervedneithertotherightnortotheleft,buthasprogressedundeviatinglyalongthelineshehasmappedoutforhimself,andkeepingconstantlyinmindtheprincipleswhichseemedtohimatthebeginningofhiscareertoberight。IthasbeenthispersistentandconsistentadherencetoprinciplethathasgainedforMr。Harleyhishearing,andwhichisconstantlyrenderingmorecertainandpermanenthispositionintheworldliterary。Othersmaybeledhitherandyonbythefadsandfolliesofthescatter—brained,butRealismwilleverhaveonesteadfastchampioninStuartHarley。\"

  \"Readthat,\"Isaid,tossingthejournalacrossthetable。

  Hereadit,andblushedtotherootsofhisears。

  \"Thisisnotimetodeserttheflag,Harley,\"saidI,asheread。

  \"Sticktoyourcolors,andlethersticktohers。You’dbetterbecarefulhowyouforceyourheroine。\"

  \"Ha,ha!\"helaughed。\"Ishouldthinkso,andformorereasonsthanone。Ineverreallyintendedtodohorriblethingswithher,myboy。

  Trustme,ifIdoleadher,toleadhergently。Mypersuasionwillbesuggestiveratherthanmandatory。\"

  \"Andthathero——fromtheBrooklyndry—goodsshop?\"Iasked,withasmile。

  \"I’dliketoseehimsomuchas——tellherthepriceofanything,\"

  criedHarley。\"AmanlikethathasnobusinesstoliveinthesamehemispherewithawomanlikeMargueriteAndrews。WhenIthreatenedherwithhimIwasconversingthroughalargeandelegantthoughwhollyinvisiblehat。\"

  Ibreathedmorefreely。Shewasstillsacredandsafeinhishands。

  Shortlyafter,dinnerover,weleftthetable,andwenttothetheatre,wherewesawwhattheprogrammecalledthe\"latestLondonrealisticsuccess,\"inwhichthreeofthefouractsofanintenselyexcitingmelodramadependeduponawoman’snotseeingalargenavyrevolver,whichlayonthetabledirectlybeforehereyesinthefirst。Theplaywasfullofbloodandrepletewiththunder,andwetrulyenjoyedit,onlyHarleywouldnottalkmuchbetweentheacts。

  Hewasunusuallymoody。Aftertheplaywasoverhistongueloosened,however,andwewenttothePlayersforasupper,andthereheburstforthintospeech。

  \"IfMargueriteAndrewshadbeentheheroineofthatplayshe’dhaveseenthatgun,andtheaudiencewouldhavehadtogohomeinsideoftenminutes,\"hesaid。Lateronheburstoutwith,\"IfmyMissAndrewshadbeentheheroineofthatplay,themanwhofallsovertheprecipiceinthesecondactwouldhavebeenaliveatthismoment。\"

  Andfinallyhedemanded:\"DoyousupposeaheroinelikeMargueriteAndrewswouldhaveoverlookedthecommaonthepostalcardthatwomanreadinthethirdact,andsomadethefourthactpossible?Notshe。

  She’sawomanwithamind。AndyettheycallthatthelatestLondonrealisticsuccess!Realistic!TheseLondonersdonotseemtounderstandtheirownlanguage。Ifthatplaywasrealism,whatsortofanightmaredoyousupposearomanticdramawouldbe?\"

  \"Well,maybeLondonwomeninreallifehaven’tanyminds,\"Isaid,growingratherwearyofthesubject。IadmiredMissAndrewsmyself,buttherewereotherthingsIcouldtalkabout——\"likelemonadeandelephants,\"asthesmallboysaid。\"Letitgoatthat。Itwasaninterestingplay,andthat’sallplaysoughttobe。Realisminplaysisnottobeencouraged。Amangoestothetheatretobeamusedandentertained,nottoberemindedofhomediscomforts。\"

  Stuartlookedatmereproachfully,orderedafreshcigar,andsuggestedturninginforthenight。IwalkedhomewithhimandtriedtogethiminterestedinafarceIwasatworkon,butitwasofnouse。Hehadbecomeamonomaniac,andhismonomaniawashisrebelliousheroine。FinallyIblurtedout:

  \"Well,forHeaven’ssake,Stuart,getthewomancaged,willyou?

  For,candidly,I’dliketotalkaboutsomethingelse,anduntilMargueriteAndrewsisdisposedofIdon’tbelieveyou’llbeableto。\"

  \"I’llhavehalftheworkdonebythistimeto—morrownight,\"saidhe。

  \"I’vegottenthousandwordsofitinmymindnow。\"

  \"I’llbetyouthereareonlytwowordsdowninyourmind,\"saidI。

  \"Whatarethey?\"heasked。

  \"MargueriteandAndrews,\"saidI。

  Stuartlaughed。\"They’retheonlyonesI’msureof,\"saidhe。Andthenweparted。

  Buthewasrightaboutwhathewouldhaveaccomplishedbythattimethenextnight;forbeforesundownhehadhalfthestorywritten,and,whatismore,thechaptershadcomeaseasilyasanywritingheeverdid。Fordocility,Margueritewasaperfectwonder。Notonlydidshefollowouthiswishes;sheoftenanticipatedthem,andincertainpartsgavehimaleadinanewdirection,which,Stuartsaid,gavethestoryahundredpercent。morecharacter。

  Inshort,MargueriteAndrewswaskeepingherpromisetomenobly。

  TheonlythingIregrettedaboutit,nowthatallseemedplainsailing,wasitseffectonStuart。Heramiabilitywasprovingagreatattractiontohissusceptiblesoul,andIwasbeginningtofearthatStuartwasslowlybutsurelyfallinginlovewithhisrebelliousheroine,whichwouldneverdo,unlessshewerereallyreal,onwhichpointIwasmostuncertain。

  \"Itwouldbeaterriblething,\"saidIconfidentiallytomyself,\"ifStuartHarleyweretofallinlovewithacreationofhisownrealism。\"

  CHAPTERIX:ASUMMONSNORTH

  \"PORTIA。Aquarrel,ho,already?What’sthematter?

  \"GRATIANO。Aboutahoopofgold,apaltryring。\"

  —\"MerchantofVenice。\"

  Theeventsjustnarratedtookplaceonthe15thofAugust,andasHarley’stimetofulfilhiscontractwithMessrs。Herring,Beemer,&

  Chadwickwasgrowingveryshort——twoweeksisshortshriftforanauthorwithabooktowriteforwaitingpresses,evenwithawillingandhelpfulcastofcharacters——soIresolvednottointrudeuponhimuntilhehimselfshouldsummonme。Iknewmyself,frombitterexperience,howunwelcomethemostwelcomeofone’sfriendscanbeatbusyhours,havinghadmanyabeautifulsketchabsolutelyruinedbytheuntimelyintrusionofthosewhowishedmewell,soIresolutelykeptmyselfawayfromhisden,althoughIwasburningwithcuriositytoknowhowhewasgettingon。

  Onoccasionsmycuriositywouldgetthebetterofmyjudgment,andI

  wouldendeavor,withtheaidofmyownmuses,toholdamoment’schatwithMissAndrews;butsheeludedme。Icouldn’tfindheratall——

  as,indeed,howshouldI,sinceHarleyhadnottakenmeintohisconfidenceastohisintentionsinthenewstory?HemighthavelaidthesceneofitinSingapore,foraughtIknew,and,wanderwhereI

  wouldinmyfancy,Iwasutterlyunabletodiscoverherwhereabouts,untiloneeveningaveryweirdthinghappened——athingsoweirdthatIhavebeenpinchingmyselfwithgreatassiduityeversinceinordertoreassuremyselfofmyownexistence。Ihadcomehomefromahardday’seditorialwork,haddinedaloneandcomfortably,andwasstretchedoutatfulllengthuponthelowdivanthatstandsattheendofmyworkshop——thedelightofmywearybonesandtheenvyofmyfriends,whohaveneverbeenabletofindanywhereanotherexactlylikeit。Mycigarwasbetweenmylips,andabovemyhead,risinginacurlingcloudtotheceiling,wasamassofsmoke。IamsureIwasnotdreaming,althoughhowelsetoaccountforitIdonotknow。

  Whathappened,toputitbriefly,wasmysuddentransportationtoalittlemountainhotelnotfarfromLakeGeorge,whereIfoundmyselfsittingandtalkingtothewomanIhadsofutilelysought。

  \"Howdoyoudo?\"saidshe,pleasantly,asImaterializedatherside。

  \"Iamaswellasapersoncanbe,\"Ireplied,rubbingmyeyesinconfusion,\"whosuddenlyfindshimselftwohundredandfiftymilesawayfromthespotwhere,ahalf—hourbefore,hehadlaindowntorest。\"

  MissAndrewslaughed。\"Youseehowitisyourself,\"shesaid。

  \"Seehowwhatismyself?\"Iqueried。

  \"Tobethepuppetofapersonwho——writes,\"sheanswered。

  \"AndhaveIbecomethat?\"Iasked。

  \"Youhave,\"shesmiled。\"That’swhyyouarehere。\"

  Theideamademenervous,andIpinchedmyarmtoseewhetherIwasthereornot。Theresultwasnotaltogetherreassuring。Ineverfeltthepinch,and,tryasIwould,Icouldn’tmakemyselffeelit。

  \"Excuseme,\"Isaid,\"fordeviatingamomentfromthematterinhand,buthaveyouahat—pin?\"

  \"No,\"sheanswered;\"butIhaveabrooch,ifthatwillserveyourpurpose。Whatdoyouwantitfor?\"

  \"Iwishtorunitintomyarmforamoment,\"Iexplained。

  \"Itwon’thelpyouany,\"sheanswered,smilingdivinely。\"Imusthaveawordwithyou;allthehat—pinsintheworldshallnotpreventme,nowthatyouarehere。\"

  \"Well,waitaminute,Ibegofyou,\"Iimplored。\"YouintimatedamomentagothatIwasapuppetinthehandsofsomeauthor。Whose?

  I’veareputationtosustain,andshallnotgivemyselfupwillingly,unlessIamsurethatthatpersonwillnottriflewithmycharacter。\"

  \"Exactlymyposition,\"saidshe。\"AsIsaid,youcannowunderstandhowitisyourself。ButIwilltellyouinwhosehandsyouarenow——

  youareinmine。SurelyifyouhadtherighttosendmetearingdownBellevueAvenueatNewportbehindarunawayhorse,andthenpursuemeinspirittotheProfileHouse,Ihavetherighttobringyouhere,andIhaveaccordinglydoneso。\"

  Forawoman’s,herlogicwassurprisinglyconvincing。ShecertainlyhadasmuchrighttotriflewithmycomfortasIhadtotriflewithhers。

  \"Youareright,MissAndrews,\"Imurmured,meekly。\"Praycommandmeasyouwill——anddealgentlywiththeerring。\"

  \"Iwilltreatyoufarbetterthanyoutreatedme,\"shesaid。\"Sohavenofear——althoughIhavebeenhalfmindedattimestorevengemyselfuponyouforthatrunaway。Icouldmakeyoudreadfullyuncomfortable,forwhenItakemypeninhandmyimaginationinthedirectionofthehorribleissomethingawful。Ishallbemerciful,however,forIbelieveintherealisticidea,andIwillmerelymakeuseofthepowermypenpossessesoveryoutohaveyouactpreciselyasyouwouldifyouwereactuallyhere。\"

  \"ThenIamnothere?\"Iqueried。

  \"Whatdoyouthink?’sheasked,archly。

  IwasabouttosaythatifIweren’t,IwishedmostheartilythatI

  were;butIrememberedfortunatelythatitwouldneverdoformetoflirtwithStuartHarley’sheroine,soIcontentedmyselfwithsaying,boldly,\"Idon’tknowwhattothink。\"

  MissAndrewslookedatmeforamoment,andthen,reachingoutherhand,tookmine,pressedit,andrelinquishedit,saying,\"Youarealoyalfriendindeed。\"

  Therewasnothingflirtatiousabouttheact;itwasasimpleandhighlypleasingacknowledgmentofmyforbearance,anditmademesomewhatmorecomfortablethanIhadbeenatanytimesincemysuddentransportationthroughtheair。

  \"YourememberwhatIsaidtoyou?\"sheresumed。\"ThatIwouldceasetorebel,whatsoeverMr。Harleyaskedmetodo,unlessheinsisteduponmarryingmetoamanIdidnotlove?\"

  \"Ido,\"Ireplied。\"And,asfarasIamaware,youhavestuckbyyouragreement。Stuart,Idoubtnot,hasbythistimegotreadyforhisfinishing—touches。\"

  \"Yoursurmiseiscorrect,\"sheanswered,sadly;andthen,withsomespirit,sheadded:\"Andtheyarefinishing—toucheswithavengeance。

  Ihavebeenloyaltomyword,inspiteofmuchdiscomfort。Ihavetravelledfrompillartopostasmeeklyasalamb,becauseitfittedinwithStuartHarley’sconveniencethatIshoulddoso。HehastakenmeandmyfriendMrs。Willardtoandthroughfivedifferentsummerresorts,whereIhavecutthefigurehewishedmetocutwithoutregardtomyownfeelings。Ihavediscussedallsortsoftopics,ofwhichinrealityIknownothing,tolenddepthtohisbook。IhavesnubbedmenIreallyliked,andappearedtolikemenI

  profoundlyhated,forhissake。Ihavewittinglyenduredperilforhissake,knowingofcoursethatultimatelyhewouldgetmeoutofdanger;butperilisperiljustthesame,andtothatextentdistractingtothenerves。IhavebeenupsetinacanoeatBarHarbor,andlostonamountaininVermont。IhavesprainedmyankleatSaratoga,andfaintedatadanceatLenox;butnocomplainthaveI

  uttered——noteventhesuggestionofarebellionhaveIgiven。Once,Iadmit,IwasdisposedtoresenthisdesirethatIshouldwearacertaincostume,whichhe,manasheis,couldnotseewouldbewofullyunbecoming。Authorshavenobusinesstotouchonsuchthings。ButIovercamethetemptationtorebel,andtopleasehimworeablueandpinkshirt—waistwithafloralsilkskirtatagarden—party——Isupposehethoughtfloralsilkwasappropriatetothegarden;nordidIevenshowmymortificationtothoseaboutme。

  NothingwassaidinthebookaboutitsbeingStuartHarley’staste;

  itmustneedsbesetdownasmine;andwhilethepagesofHarley’sbookcontainnocriticismofmycostume,Iknowwellenoughwhatalltheotherwomenthoughtaboutit。Still,Istoodit。Ienduredalsowithoutamurmurthecourtshipanddeclarationofloveofaperfectboobyofaman;thatistosay,hewasaboobyintheeyesofawoman——menmightlikehim。IpresumethatasMr。Harleyhaschosenhimtostandfortheheroofhisbook,hemustadmirehim;butI

  don’t,andhaven’t,andsha’n’t。YetIhavepretendedtodoso;andfinally,whenheproposedmarriagetomeImeeklyanswered’yes,’

  weepinginthebitternessofmyspiritthatmypromiseboundmetodoso;andStuartHarley,notingthosetears,callsthemtearsofjoy!\"

  \"Youneedn’thaveacceptedhim,\"Isaid,softly。\"Thatwasn’tpartofthebargain。\"

  \"Yes,itwas,\"shereturned,positively;\"thatis,Iregardeditso,andImustactaccordingtomyviewsofthings。WhatIpromisedwastofollowhiswishesinallthingssaveinmarriagetoamanIdidn’tlove。Gettingengagedisnotgettingmarried,andashewishedmetogetengaged,soIdid,expectingofcoursethatthebookwouldendthere,asitoughttohavedone,andthatthereforenomarriagewouldevercomeoftheengagement。\"

  \"Certainlythebookshouldendthere,then,\"saidI。\"Youhavekepttotheletterofyouragreement,andnobly,\"Iadded,withenthusiasm,forInowsawwhatthepoorgirlmusthavesuffered。

  \"Harleydidn’ttrytogofurther,didhe?\"

  \"Hedid,\"shesaid,hervoicetremblingwithemotion。\"Hesetthetimeandplaceforthewedding,issuedthecards,providedmewithatrousseau——atrousseaubaseduponhisintuitionsofwhatatrousseauoughttobe,andthereforeaboutassatisfactorytoawomanoftasteasthatfloralsilkcostumeofthegarden—party;heengagedtheorganist,chosemybridesmaids——girlsIdetested——andfinallyassembledtheguests。Thegroomwasthereatthechancelrail;Mr。

  Willard,whomhehadselectedtogivemeaway,waswaitingoutsideinthelobby,cladinhisfrock—coat,aflowerinhisbutton—hole,andhisarmreadyforthebridetoleanon;theministerwasbehindtherail;thewedding—marchwassounding——\"

  \"Andyou?\"Icried,utterlyunabletocontainmyselflonger。

  \"IwasspeedingpastYonkersonthethree—o’clockSaratogaexpress——

  boundhither,\"sheanswered,withasignificanttossofherhead。

  \"NoonebutyourselfknowswhereIam,andIhavesummonedyoutoexplainmyactionbeforeyouhearofitfromhim。Idonotwishtobemisjudged。StuartHarleyhadhiswarning,buthechosetoignoreit,andhecangetoutofthedifficultyhehasbroughtuponhimselfinhisownway——possiblyhewilldestroythewholebook;butIwantedyoutoknowthatwhilehedidnotkeepthefaith,Idid。\"

  Isuddenlyrealizedtheappallingtruth。Myownweaknesswasresponsibleforitall。IhadnottoldHarleyofmyinterviewandherpromise,feelingthatitwasnotnecessary,andfearingitseffectuponhispride。

  \"Imayadd,\"shesaid,quietly,\"thatIambitterlydisappointedinyourfriend。Iwasinterestedinhim,andbelievedinhim。Mostofmyactsofrebellion——ifyoucancallmerebellious——werepromptedbymydesiretokeephimtruetohiscreed;andIwilltellyouwhatI

  havenevertoldtoanother:IregardedStuartHarleyalmostasanidealman,butthishaschangeditall。IfhewaswhatIthoughthim,hecouldnothaveactedwithsolittleconscienceastotrytoforcethismatchuponme,whenhemusthaveknownthatIdidnotloveHenryDunning。\"

  \"Hedidn’tknow,\"Isaid。

  \"Heshouldhavebeensurebeforeprovidingfortheceremony,afterhearingwhatIhadpromisedyouIwouldandwouldnotdo,\"saidMarguerite。

  \"But——Inevertoldhimanythingaboutyourpromise!\"Ishouted,desperately。\"Hehasdoneallthisunwittingly。\"

  \"Isthattrue?Didn’tyoutellhim?\"shecried,eagerlygraspingmyhand。

  Hermannerleftnodoubtinmymindastowhotheheroofherchoicewouldbe——andagainIsighedtothinkthatitwasnotI。

  \"AstrueasthatIstandhere,\"Isaid。\"Inevertoldhim。\"

  Sheshruggedhershoulders。

  \"Oh,well,youknowwhatImean!\"Isaid,excitedly。\"WhereverIdostand,it’sastrueasthatIstandthere。\"

  Thephrasewasawkward,butitfulfilleditspurpose。

  \"Whydidn’tyoutellhim?\"sheasked。

  \"BecauseIdidn’tthinkitnecessary。Factis,\"Iadded,\"IhadasortofnotionthatifyoumarriedanybodyinoneofHarley’sbooks,ifHarleyhadhisownwayitwouldbetothemanwho——whotellsthesto——\"

  AloudnoiseinterruptedmyremarkandIstartedupinalarm,andinaninstantIfoundmyselfbackinmyroomsintownoncemore。ThelittlemountainhousenearLakeGeorge,withitsinterestingandbeautifulguest,hadfadedfromsight,andIrealizedthatsomebodywashammeringwithastickuponmydoor。

  \"Hellothere!\"Icried。\"What’swanted?\"

  \"It’sI——Harley,\"cameStuart’svoice。\"Letmein。\"

  Iunlockedthedoorandheentered。ThebrownofBarnegathadgone,andhewashisbrokenselfagain。

  \"Well,\"Isaid,tryingtoignorehisappearance,whichreallyshockedme,\"how’sthebook?Gotitdone?\"

  Hesankintoachairwithagroan。

  \"Hangthebook!——it’sallupwiththat;I’mgoingtoChadwickto—

  morrowandcallthethingoff,\"hesaid。\"Shewon’twork——twoweeks’

  steadyapplicationgonefornothing。\"

  \"Oh,come!\"Isaid;\"notasbadasthat。\"

  \"Preciselyasbadasthat,\"heretorted。\"Whatcanafellowdoifhisheroinedisappearsascompletelyasiftheearthhadopenedandswallowedherup?\"

  \"Gone?\"Icried,withdifficultyrepressingmydesiretolaugh。

  \"Completely——searchedhighandlowforher——noearthlyuse,\"heanswered。\"Ican’tevenimaginewheresheis。\"

  \"Allofwhich,mydearStuart,\"Isaid,adoptingasuperiortoneforthemoment,\"showsthatanimaginationthatisworthsomethingwouldn’tbeabadpossessionforarealist,afterall。Iknowwhereyourheroineis。SheisatalittlemountainhousenearLakeGeorge,andshehasfledtheretoescapeyourboobyofahero,whomyoushouldhaveknownbetterthantoforceuponagirllikeMargueriteAndrews。You’regettinginartistic,mydearboy。SacrificesomethingtotheAmericangirl,butdon’tsacrificeyourart。Justbecausetheaforesaidgirllikesherstoriestoendupwithaweddingisnoreasonwhyyoushouldtrytocondemnyourheroinetolife—longmisery。\"

  Stuartlookedatmewithapuzzledexpressionforafullminute。

  \"Howthedeucedoyouknowanythingaboutit?\"heasked。

  Iimmediatelyenlightenedhim。Itoldhimeverycircumstance——evenmysuspicionastotheheroofherheart,anditseemedtopleasehim。

  \"Won’tthestorygoifyoustopitwiththeengagement?\"Iasked,afteritwasallover。

  \"Yes,\"hesaid,thoughtfully。\"ButIshallnotpublishit。Ifitwasallsodistastefultoherasyousay,I’dratherdestroyit。\"

  \"Don’tdothat,\"Isaid。\"Changetheheroine’sname,andnobodybutourselveswilleverbethewiser。\"

  \"Ineverthoughtofthat,\"saidhe。

  \"That’sbecauseyou’venoimagination,\"Iretorted。

  Stuartsmiled。\"It’sagoodidea,andI’lldoit;itwon’tbethetruestrealism,butIthinkIamentitledtotheleewayononelapse,\"hesaid。

  \"Youare,\"Irejoined。\"Lapseforthesakeofrealism。Themanwhoneverlapsesisnotreal。Thereneverwassuchaman。Youmightchangethatgarden—partycostumetoo。Ifyoucan’tthinkofabettercombinationthanthat,leaveittome。I’llwritetomysisterandaskhertodesignadecentdressforthatoccasion。\"

  \"Thanks,\"saidStuart,withalaugh。\"Iacceptyouroffer;but,I

  say,whatwasthenameofthelittlemountainhousewhereyoufoundher?\"

  \"Idon’tknow,\"Ireplied。\"YoumadesuchaninfernalrowbatteringdownmydoorthatIcameawayinahurryandforgottoask。\"

  \"Thatisunfortunate,\"saidStuart。\"Ishouldhavelikedtogoupthereforawhile——shemighthelpmecorrecttheproofs,youknow。\"

  That’swhathesaid,buthedidn’tdeceiveme。Helovedher,andI

  beganagaintohopetograciousthatHarleyhadnotdeceivedhimselfandme,andthatMargueriteAndrewswasabitofreallife,andnotaworkoftheimagination。

  Atanyrate,Harleyhadanabidingfaithinherexistence,forthefollowingMondaynighthepackedhiscaseandsetoutforLakeGeorge。Hewasgoingtoexplore,hesaid。

  CHAPTERX:BYWAYOFEPILOGUE

  \"Let,downthecurtain,thefarceisdone。\"

  —RABELAIS。

  Isupposemystoryoughttoendhere,sinceHarley’srebelliousheroinehasfinallybeensubduedfortheuseofhispublishersandtheconsequentdeclarationofdividendsfortheHarleyexchequer;buttherewasanepiloguetothelittlefarce,whichnearlyturneditintotragedy,fromwhichtheprincipalsweresavedbynothingshortofmyowningenuity。HarleyhadfallendesperatelyinlovewithMargueriteAndrews,andMargueriteAndrewshadfalleninlovewithStuartHarley,andHarleycouldn’tfindher。Sheeludedhiseveryeffort,andhebegantodoubtthathehaddrawnherfromreallife,afterall。ShehadbecomeaMarjorieDawtohim,andthenotionthathemustgothroughlifecherishingahopelesspassionwasdistractingtohim。Hisbookwasthegreatestofhissuccesses,whichwasanadditionalcauseofdiscomforttohim,since,knowingashenowdidthathisstudywasnotafaithfulportrayaloftheinnerlifeofhisheroine,hefeltthatthelaurelsthatwerebeingplaceduponhisbrowhadbeenobtainedunderfalsepretences。

  \"Ifeellikeahypocrite,\"hesaid,ashereadanenthusiasticreviewofhislittleworkfromthepenofnolessapersonthanMr。Darrow,thehigh—priestoftherealisticsect。\"IamafraidIshallnotbeabletolookDarrowintheeyewhenImeethimattheclub。\"

  \"Neverfearforthat,Stuart,\"Isaid,laughinginwardlyathisplight。\"Brazenitout;keepastiffupperlip,andDarrowwillneverknow。Hehasinsight,ofcourse,buthecan’tseeasfarinasyouandhethink。\"

  \"It’sadevilishsituation,\"hecried,impatientlystridingupanddowntheroom,\"thatamanofmyageshouldbesohopelesslyinlovewithawomanhecan’tfind;andthathecan’tfindherissuchacruelsarcasmuponhisliterarycreed!Whatcursedidiosyncrasyoffateisitthathasbroughtthisthinguponme?\"

  \"It’sthepunishmentthatfitsyourcrime,Harley,\"Isaid。\"You’vebeenrathernarrowmindedinyourliteraryideas。Possiblyitwillmakeamoretolerantcriticofyouhereafter,whenyoucometoflayfellowslikeBalderstoneforventuringtothinkdifferentlyfromyouastothesortofbooksitispropertowrite。Hehasasmuchrighttotheprofitshecanderivefromhisfancyasyouhavetotheemolumentsofyourinsight。\"

  \"I’dtakesomecomfortifIthoughtthatshereallylovedme,\"hesaid,mournfully。

  \"Havenodoubtonthatscore,Stuart,\"Isaid。\"Shedoesloveyou。

  Iknowthat。Iwishshedidn’t。\"

  \"Thenwhycan’tIfindher?Whydoesshehidefromme?\"hecried,fortunatelyignoringmydevoutlyexpressedwish,whichslippedoutbeforeIknewit。

  \"Becausesheisawoman,\"Ireplied。\"Hasn’tyouranalyticalmindtoldyouyetthatthemoreawomanlovesaman,theharderhe’sgottoworktofinditoutand——andclinchthebargain?\"

  \"Isupposeyouareright,\"hesaid,gloomily。\"ButifIwereawoman,andknewIwaskillingamanbykeepingmyselfinhiding,I’dcomeoutandshowmyselfatanycost,especiallyifIlovedhim。\"

  \"Nowyouaredealinginimagination,Harley,\"Isaid;\"andthatneverwasyourstrongpoint。\"

  Nevertheless,hewasrightononepoint。ThehopelessnessofhisquestwaskillingHarley——notphysicallyexactly,butemotionally,asitwere。Itwastakingalltheheartoutofhim,andhispresentstateofmindwasfarmoredeplorablethanwhenhewasstrugglingwiththebook,andconstantlygrowingworse。Hetriedeverydevicetofindher——theWillardswereconjuredup,andknewnothing;Mrs。

  CorwinandthetwinswerebroughtbackfromEurope,andrefusedtoyieldupthesecret;allthepowersofarealisticpenwerebroughttobearuponher,andyetsherefusedutterlytomaterialize。

  Finally,Ifounditnecessarytoactmyself。IcouldnotstandthesightofHarleybeinggraduallyeatenupbythelongingofhisownsoul,andItriedmyhandatexploration。Ihadnobettersuccessforseveralweeks;andthen,likeaninspiration,thewholethingcametome。\"Shewon’tcomewhenhesummonsher,becausesheloveshim。Shewon’tsummonhimtocometoher,forthesamereason。Whynotsummonbothofthemyourselftoacommonground?Embalmtheminalittleromanceofyourown。Forcethemifneedbe,butgetthemthere,andsobringthemtogether,andletthemworkouttheirownhappiness,\"saidItomyself。TheonlydifficultythatpresenteditselfwasastowhetherornotMargueritewouldallowherselftobeforced。Itwasworththetrial,however,andfortunefavoredme。I

  foundherfarfromrebellious。Mypenhadhardlytouchedpaperwhenshematerialized,morebewilderinglybeautifulthanever。IlaidthesceneofmylittleessayatLake—wood,andIfoundhersittingdownbythewater,dreamilygazingoutoverthelake。InherlapwasStuartHarley’sbook,anddaintilypastedonthefly—leafofthiswastheportraitwhichhadappearedintheAugustissueofTheLiteraryMan,whichshehadcutoutandpreserved。

  Havingprovidedtheheroinewithaspotconducivetohercomfort,I

  hastenedtotransportHarleytothescene。Itwaseasytodo,seeinghowdeeplyinterestedIwasinmyplotandhowwillinghewas。IgothimtherelookinglikeaGreekgod,onlyatriflemoreinteresting,becauseofhissympathy—arousingpallor——thepallorwhichcomesfromanundeservedbuffetingatthehandsofamischievousCupid。Iknowitwell,forIhaveobserveditseveraltimesuponmyowncountenance。ThemomentHarleyappeareduponthesceneIchosetohaveMargueritehastilyclaspthebookinherhands,raiseittoherlips,andkissthepicture——anditmusthavebeenintenselytruetolife,forshediditwithoutamoment’shesitation,almostanticipatingmyconvenience,throwinganamountofpassionintotheactwhichmademypenfairlyhissasIdippeditintotheink。OfcourseHarleycouldnotfailtoseeit——Ihadtakencaretoarrangeallthat——andequallyofcoursehecouldnotfailtocomprehendwhatthatkissmeant;couldnotfailtostopshort,withaconvulsiveefforttocontrolhimself——heroesalwaysdothat;couldnotfailtherebytoattractherattention。Afterthisnothingwasmorenaturalthanthatsheshouldspringtoherfeet,\"theblushesofasurprisedlovemantlinghercheeks\";itwasequallynaturalthatsheshouldtrytorun,shouldslip,havehimcatchherarmandsaveherfromfalling,and——well,Iamnotgoingtotellthewholestory。I

  haveneitherthetime,theinclination,northetalenttolaybaretotheworldthelove—affairsofmyfriend。Furthermore,havinggotthemtogether,Idiscreetlywithdrew,sothatevenifIweretotrytowriteuptherestofthecourtship,itwouldmerelyresultinmytellingyouhowIimagineditprogressed,andIfancymyreadersareaswellupinmattersofthatsortasIam。Sufficeittosay,therefore,thatinthiswayIbroughtStuartHarleyandMargueriteAndrewstogether,andthattheeventjustifiedthemeans:andthattheotherday,whenMr。andMrs。Harleyreturnedfromtheirhoneymoon,theytoldmetheythoughtIoughttogiveuphumorandtaketowritinglove—stories。

  \"Thatkissingthepictureepisode,\"saidStuart,lookinggratefullyatme,\"wasaninspiration。Tomymind,itwasthemostsatisfactorythingyou’veeverdone。\"

  \"Ilikethat!\"criedhiswife,withamischievoustwinkleinhereye。

  \"Hedidn’tdoit。ItwasIwhokissedthepicture。Hecouldn’thavemademedoanythingelsetosavehislife。\"

  \"Rebellioustothelast!\"saidI,withasightothinkthatImustnowwritetheword\"Finis\"tomylittlefarce。

  \"Yes,\"sheanswered。\"Rebellioustothelast。Ishallneverconsenttobetheheroineofabookagain,until——\"

  ShepausedandlookedatStuart。

  \"Untilwhat?\"heasked,tenderly。

  \"Untilyouwriteyourautobiography,\"saidshe。\"Ihavealwayswantedofbetheheroineofthat。\"

  Andthrowingdownmypen,IdiscoveredIwasalone。

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