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  Billywasrelieved.Sheconcludedthat,afterall,Bertramwasgoingtobesensible.Shedecidedthatshe,too,wouldbesensible.Shewouldaccepthimonthis,hischosenplane,andshewouldthinknomoreofhis\"nonsense.\"

  Billythrewherselfthenevenmoreenthusiasticallyintoherbelovedwork.ShetoldMariethatafterallwassaidanddone,therecouldnotbeanymanthatwouldtipthescalesoneinchwithmusicontheotherside.Shewasalittlehurt,itistrue,whenMarieonlylaughedandanswered:

  \"Butwhatifthemanandthemusicbothhappentobeonthesameside,mydear;whatthen?\"

  Marie’svoicewaswistful,inspiteofthelaugh——sowistfulthatitremindedBillyoftheirconversationafewweeksbefore.

  \"Butitisyou,Marie,whowantthestockingstodarnandthepuddingstomake,\"sheretortedplayfully.\"NotI!And,doyouknow?IbelieveIshallturnmatchmakeryet,andfindyouaman;

  andthechiefestofhisqualificationsshallbethathe’swretchedlyhardonhishose,andthatheadorespuddings.\"

  \"No,no,MissBilly,don’t,please!\"beggedtheother,inquickterror.\"ForgetallIsaidtheotherday;pleasedo!Don’ttell——

  anybody!\"

  ShewassoobviouslydistressedandfrightenedthatBillywaspuzzled.

  \"There,there,’twasonlyajest,ofcourse,\"shesoothedher.

  \"But,reallyMarie,itisthedear,domesticlittlemouselikeyourselfthatoughttobesomebody’swife——andthat’sthekindmenarelookingfor,too.\"

  Mariegaveaslowshakeofherhead.

  \"Notthekindofmanthatissomebody,thatdoessomething,\"sheobjected;\"andthat’stheonlykindIcould——love.HEwantsawifethatisbeautifulandclever,thatcandothingslikehimself——LIKE

  HIMSELF!\"sheiteratedfeverishly.

  Billyopenedwidehereyes.

  \"Why,Marie,onewouldthink——youalreadyknew——suchaman,\"shecried.

  Thelittlemusicteacherchangedherposition,andturnedhereyesaway.

  \"Ido,ofcourse,\"sheretortedinamerryvoice,\"lotsofthem.

  Don’tyou?Come,we’vediscussedmymatrimonialprospectsquitelongenough,\"shewentonlightly.\"Youknowwestartedwithyours.Supposewegobacktothose.\"

  \"ButIhaven’tany,\"demurredBilly,assheturnedwithasmiletogreetAuntHannah,whohadjustenteredtheroom.\"I’mnotgoingtomarry;amI,AuntHannah?\"

  \"Er——what?Marry?Mygriefandconscience,whataquestion,Billy!Ofcourseyou’regoingtomarry——whenthetimecomes!\"

  exclaimedAuntHannah.

  Billylaughedandshookherheadvigorously.Butevenassheopenedherlipstoreply,RosaappearedandannouncedthatMr.

  Calderwellwaswaitingdown—stairs.Billywasangrythen,forafterthemaidwasgone,themerrimentinAuntHannah’slaughonlymatchedthatinMarie’s——andtheintonationwasunmistakable.

  \"Well,I’mnot!\"declaredBillywithpinkcheeksandmuchindignation,asshelefttheroom.Andasiftoconvinceherself,Marie,AuntHannah,andalltheworldthatsuchwasthecase,sherefusedCalderwellsodecidedlythatnightwhenhe,forthehalf—

  dozenthtime,laidhishandandheartatherfeet,thatevenCalderwellhimselfwasconvinced——sofarashisowncasewasconcerned——andlefttownthenextday.

  BertramtoldAuntHannahafterwardthatheunderstoodMr.Calderwellhadgonetopartsunknown.TohimselfBertramshamelesslyownedthatthemore\"unknown\"theywere,thebetterhehimselfwouldbepleased.

  CHAPTERXXX

  MARIEFINDSAFRIEND

  ItwasonaverycoldJanuaryafternoon,andCyrilwashurryingupthehilltowardBilly’shouse,whenhewasstartledtoseeaslenderyoungwomansittingonacurbstonewithherheadagainstanelectric—lightpost.Hestoppedabruptly.

  \"Ibegyourpardon,but——why,MissHawthorn!ItisMissHawthorn;

  isn’tit?\"

  Underhisquestioningeyesthegirl’spalefacebecamesopainfullyscarletthatinsheerpitythemanturnedhiseyesaway.Hethoughthehadseenwomenblushbefore,buthedecidednowthathehadnot.

  \"I’msure——haven’tImetyouatMissNeilson’s?Areyouill?

  Can’tIdosomethingforyou?\"hebegged.

  \"Yes——no——thatis,IAMMissHawthorn,andI’vemetyouatMissNeilson’s,\"stammeredthegirl,faintly.\"Butthereisn’tanything,thankyou,thatyoucando——Mr.Henshaw.Istoppedto——

  rest.\"

  Themanfrowned.

  \"But,surely——pardonme,MissHawthorn,butIcan’tthinkityourusualcustomtochooseanicycurbstoneforarestingplace,withthethermometerdowntozero.Youmustbeill.LetmetakeyoutoMissNeilson’s.\"

  \"No,no,thankyou,\"criedthegirl,strugglingtoherfeet,thevividredagainfloodingherface.\"Ihavealesson——togive.\"

  \"Nonsense!You’renotfittogivealesson.Besides,theyareallfolderol,anyway,halfofthem.Adozenlessons,moreorless,won’tmakeanydifference;they’llplayjustaswell——andjustasatrociously.Come,IinsistupontakingyoutoMissNeilson’s.\"

  \"No,no,thankyou!Ireallymustn’t.I——\"Shecouldsaynomore.Astrong,yetverygentlehandhadtakenfirmholdofherarminsuchawayashalftosupporther.Aforcequiteoutsideofherselfwascarryingherforwardstepbystep——andMissHawthornwasnotusedtostrong,gentlehands,noryettoaforcequiteoutsideofherself.NeitherwassheaccustomedtowalkarminarmwithMr.CyrilHenshawtoMissBilly’sdoor.Whenshereachedtherehercheekswerelikeredrosesforcolor,andhereyeswerelikethestarsforbrightness.Yetaminutelater,confrontedbyMissBilly’sastonishedeyes,thestarsandtherosesfled,andaverywhite—facedgirlfelloverinadeathlikefaintinCyrilHenshaw’sarms.

  MariewasputtobedinthelittleroomnexttoBilly’s,andwasperemptorilyhushedwhenfaintremonstrancewasmade.Thenextmorning,white—facedandwide—eyed,sheresolutelypulledherselfhalfupright,andannouncedthatshewasallwellandmustgohome——

  hometoMariewasasix—by—ninehallbed—roominaSouthEndlodginghouse.

  VerygentlyBillypushedherbackonthepillowandlaidadetaininghandonherarm.

  \"No,dear.Now,pleasebesensibleandlistentoreason.Youaremyguest.Youdidnotknowit,perhaps,forI’mafraidtheinvitationgotalittledelayed.Butyou’retostay——oh,lotsofweeks.\"

  \"I——stayhere?Why,Ican’t——indeed,Ican’t,\"protestedMarie.

  \"Butthatisn’tabitofanicewaytoacceptaninvitation,\"

  disapprovedBilly.\"Youshouldsay,’Thankyou,I’dbedelighted,I’msure,andI’llstay.’\"

  Inspiteofherselfthelittlemusicteacherlaughed,andinthelaughhertensemusclesrelaxed.

  \"MissBilly,MissBilly,whatisonetodowithyou?Surelyyouknow——youmustknowthatIcan’tdowhatyouask!\"

  \"I’msureIdon’tseewhynot,\"arguedBilly.\"I’mmerelygivingyouaninvitationandallyouhavetodoistoacceptit.\"

  \"Buttheinvitationisonlythekindwayyourhearthasofcoveringanotherofyourmanycharities,\"objectedMarie;\"besides,Ihavetoteach.Ihavemylivingtoearn.\"

  \"Butyoucan’t,\"demurredtheother.\"That’sjustthetrouble.

  Don’tyousee?Thedoctorsaidlastnightthatyoumustnotteachagainthiswinter.\"

  \"Notteach——again——thiswinter!No,no,hecouldnotbesocruelasthat!\"

  \"Itwasn’tcruel,dear;itwaskind.Youwouldbeillifyouattemptedit.Nowyou’llgetbetter.Hesaysallyouneedisrestandcare——andthat’sexactlywhatImeanmyguestshallhave.\"

  Quicktearscametothesickgirl’seyes.

  \"Therecouldn’tbeakinderheartthanyours,MissBilly,\"shemurmured,\"butIcouldn’t——Ireallycouldn’tbeaburdentoyoulikethis.Ishallgotosomehospital.\"

  \"Butyouaren’tgoingtobeaburden.Youaregoingtobemyfriendandcompanion.\"

  \"Acompanion——andinbedlikethis?\"

  \"Well,THATwouldn’tbeimpossible,\"smiledBilly;\"but,asithappensyouwon’thavetoputthattothetest,foryou’llsoonbeupanddressed.Thedoctorsaysso.Nowsurelyyouwillstay.\"

  Therewasalongpause.Thelittlemusicteacher’seyeshadleftBilly’sfaceandwerecirclingtheroom,wistfullylingeringonthehangingsoffilmylace,thedaintywallcovering,andtheexquisitewatercolorsintheirwhite—and—goldframes.Atlastshedrewadeepsigh.

  \"Yes,I’llstay,\"shebreathedrapturously;\"but——youmustletmehelp.\"

  \"Help?Helpwhat?\"

  \"Helpyou;yourletters,yourmusic—copying,youraccounts——

  anything,everything.Andifyoudon’tletmehelp,\"——themusicteacher’svoicewasverysternnow——\"ifyoudon’tletmehelp,I

  shallgohomejust——as——soon——as——I——can——walk!\"

  \"Dearme!\"dimpledBilly.\"Andisthatall?Well,youshallhelp,andtoyourheart’scontent,too.Infact,I’mnotatallsurethatIsha’n’tkeepyoudarningstockingsandmakingpuddingsallthetime,\"sheaddedmischievously,asshelefttheroom.

  MissHawthornsatupthenextday.Thedayfollowing,inoneofBilly’s\"flutterywrappers,\"asshecalledthem,shewalkedallabouttheroom.Verysoonshewasabletogodown—stairs,andinanastonishinglyshorttimeshefittedintothedailylifeasifshehadalwaysbeenthere.Shewas,moreover,ofsuchassistancetoBillythatevensheherselfcouldseethevalueofherwork;andsoshestayed,content.

  ThelittlemusicteachersawagooddealofBilly’sfriendsthen,particularlyoftheHenshawbrothers;andverygladwasBillytoseethecomradeshipgrowingbetweenthem.ShehadknownthatWilliamwouldbekindtotheorphangirl,butshehadfearedthatMariewouldnotunderstandBertram’snonsenseorCyril’sreserve.

  ButverysoonBertramhadbegged,andobtained,permissiontotrytoreproduceoncanvasthesheenofthefine,fairhair,andtheveiledbloomoftherose—leafskinthatwereMarie’sgreatestcharms;andalreadyCyrilhadunbentfromhisusualstiffnessenoughtoplaytohertwice.SoBilly’sfearsonthatscorewereatanend.

  CHAPTERXXXI

  THEENGAGEMENTOFONE

  ManytimesduringthosewinterdaysBillythoughtofMarie’swords:

  \"Butwhatifthemanandthemusicbothhappentobeonthesameside?\"Theyworriedher,tosomeextent,and,curiously,theypleasedanddispleasedheratthesametime.

  Shetoldherselfthatsheknewverywell,ofcourse,whatMariemeant:itwasCyril;hewastheman,andthemusic.ButwasCyrilbeginningtocareforher;anddidshewanthimto?VeryseriouslyonedayBillyaskedherselfthesequestions;verycalmlyshearguedthematterinhermind——aswasBilly’sway.

  Shewasproud,certainly,ofwhatherinfluencehadapparentlydoneforCyril.Shewasgratifiedthattoherhewasshowingtherealdepthandbeautyofhisnature.ItWASflatteringtofeelthatshe,andonlyshe,hadthuswontheregardofaprofessionalwoman—

  hater.Then,besidesallthis,therewashismusic——hisgloriousmusic.Thinkoftheblissoflivingeverwiththat!Imaginelifewithamanwhosesoulwouldbesoperfectlyattunedtohersthatexistencewouldbeonegrandharmony!Ah,that,truly,wouldbetheidealmarriage!Butshehadplannednottomarry.Billyfrownednow,andtappedherfootnervously.Itwas,indeed,mostpuzzling——thisquestion,andshedidnotwanttomakeamistake.

  Then,too,shedidnotwishtowoundCyril.IfthedearmanHAD

  comeoutofhisicyprison,andwerereachingouttimidhandstoherforherhelp,herinterest,herlove——thetragedyofit,ifhemetwithnoresponse!ThisvisionofCyrilwithoutstretchedhands,andofherselfwithcold,avertedeyeswasthelaststrawinthebalancewithBilly.ShedecidedsuddenlythatshedidcareforCyril——alittle;andthatsheprobablycouldcareforhimagreatdeal.Withthisthought,Billyblushed——alreadyinherownmindshewasasgoodaspledgedtoCyril.

  ItwasagreatchangeforBilly——thissuddenleapfromgirlhoodandirresponsibilitytowomanhoodandcare;butshetookitfearlessly,resolutely.IfshewastobeCyril’swifeshemustmakeherselffitforit——andinpursuanceofthishighidealshefollowedMarieintothekitchentheverynexttimethelittlemusicteacherwentouttomakeoneofherdaintydessertsthatthefamilylikedsowell.

  \"I’lljustwatch,ifyoudon’tmind,\"announcedBilly.

  \"Why,ofcoursenot,\"smiledMarie,\"butIthoughtyoudidn’tliketomakepuddings.\"

  \"Idon’t,\"ownedBilly,cheerfully.

  \"Thenwhythis——watchfulness?\"

  \"Nothing,onlyIthoughtitmightbejustaswellifIknewhowtomakethem.YouknowhowCyril——thatis,ALLtheHenshawboyslikeeverykindyoumake.\"

  TheegginMarie’shandslippedfromherfingersandcrasheduntidilyontheshelf.WithagleefullaughBillywelcomedthediversion.Shehadnotmeanttospeaksoplainly.ItwasonethingtotrytofitherselftobeCyril’swife,andquiteanothertodisplaythoseeffortssoopenlybeforetheworld.

  Thepuddingwasmadeatlast,butMarieprovedtobeanervousteacher.Herhandshook,andhermemoryalmostfailedheratoneortwocriticalpoints.Billylaughinglysaidthatitmustbestagefright,owingtothepresenceofherselfasspectator;andwiththisMariepromptly,andsomewhateffusively,agreed.

  SoverybusywasBillyduringthenextfewdays,acquiringhernewdomesticity,thatshedidnotnoticehowlittleshewasseeingofCyril.Thenshesuddenlyrealizedit,andaskedherselfthereasonforit.Cyrilwasatthehousecertainly,justasfrequentlyashehadbeen;butshesawthatanewshynessinherselfhaddevelopedwhichwascausinghertoberestlessinhispresence,andwasleadinghertolikebettertohaveMarieorAuntHannahintheroomwhenhecalled.Shediscovered,too,thatshewelcomedWilliam,andevenBertram,withpeculiarenthusiasm——iftheyhappenedtointerruptatete—a—tetewithCyril.

  Billywasdisturbedatthis.Shetoldherselfthatthisshynesswasnotstrange,perhaps,inasmuchasherideasinregardtoloveandmarriagehadundergonesoabruptachange;butitmustbeovercome.IfshewastobeCyril’swife,shemustliketobewithhim——andofcourseshereallydidliketobewithhim,forshehadenjoyedhiscompanionshipverymuchduringallthesepastweeks.

  Shesetherselftherefore,now,determinedlytocultivatingCyril.

  ItwasthenthatBillymadeastrangeandfearsomediscovery:thereweresomethingsaboutCyrilthatshedid——not——like!

  Billywasinexpressiblyshocked.Heretoforehehadbeensohigh,soirreproachable,sogod—like!——butheretoforehehadbeenafriend.Nowhewasappearinginanewrole——thoughunconsciously,sheknew.Heretoforeshehadlookedathimwitheyesthatsawonlythedelightfulandmarvelousunfoldingofacoldlyreservednatureunderthewarmthofherownencouragingsmile.Nowshelookedathimwitheyesthatsawonlythepossibilitiesofthatsamenaturewhenitshouldhavebeenunfoldedinalifelongcompanionship.Andwhatshesawfrightenedher.Therewasstillthemusic——sheacknowledgedthat;butithadcometoBillywithoverwhelmingforcethatmusic,afterall,wasnoteverything.Themancounted,aswell.VeryfranklythenBillystatedthecasetoherself.

  \"Whatpassesfor’fascinatingmystery’inhimnowwillbeplainmoroseness——sometime.Heis’taciturn’now;he’llbe——cross,then.

  Itis’erratic’whenhewon’tplaythepianoto—day;butafewyearsfromnow,whenherefusessomesimplerequestofmine,itwillbe——stubbornness.Allthisitwillbe——ifIdon’tlovehim;

  andIdon’t.IknowIdon’t.Besides,wearen’treallycongenial.

  Ilikepeoplearound;hedoesn’t.Iliketogotoplays;hedoesn’t.Helikesrainydays;Iabhorthem.Thereisnodoubtofit——lifewithhimwouldnotbeonegrandharmony;itwouldbeonejanglingdiscord.Isimplycannotmarryhim.Ishallhavetobreaktheengagement!

  Billyspokewithregretfulsorrow.ItwasevidentthatshegrievedtobringpaintoCyril.Thensuddenlythegloomleftherface:shehadrememberedthatthe\"engagement\"wasjustthreeweeksold——andwasaprofoundsecret,notonlytothebridegroomelect,buttoalltheworldaswell——saveherself!

  Billywasveryhappyafterthat.Shesangaboutthehouseallday,andshedancedsometimesfromroomtoroom,solightwereherfeetandherheart.ShemadenomorepuddingswithMarie’ssupervision,butshewasparticularlycarefultohavethelittlemusicteacherorAuntHannahwithherwhenCyrilcalled.Shemadeuphermind,itistrue,thatshehadbeenmistaken,andthatCyrildidnotloveher;stillshewishedtobeonthesafeside,andshebecamemoreandmoreaversetobeingleftalonewithhimforanylengthoftime.

  CHAPTERXXXII

  CYRILHASSOMETHINGTOSAY

  LongbeforespringBillywasforcedtoowntoherselfthatherfanciedsecurityfromlovemakingonthepartofCyrilnolongerexisted.Shebegantosuspectthattherewasreasonforherfears.

  Cyrilcertainlywas\"different.\"Hewasmoreapproachable,lessreserved,evenwithMarieandAuntHannah.Hewasnotnearlysotaciturn,either,andhewasmuchmoregraciousabouthisplaying.

  EvenMariedaredtoaskhimfrequentlyformusic,andheneverrefusedherrequest.ThreetimeshehadtakenBillytosomeplaythatshewantedtosee,andhehadinvitedMarie,too,besidesAuntHannah,whichhadpleasedBillyverymuch.HehadbeenatthesametimesogenialandsogallantthatBillyhaddeclaredtoMarieafterwardthathedidnotseemlikehimselfatall,butlikesomeoneelse.

  Mariehaddisagreedwithher,itistrue,andhadsaidstiffly:

  \"I’msureIthoughtheseemedverymuchlikehimself.\"ButthathadnotchangedBilly’sopinionatall.

  ToBilly’smind,nothingbutlovecouldsohavesoftenedthesternCyrilshehadknown.Shewas,therefore,allthemorecarefulthesedaystoavoidatete—a—tetewithhim,thoughshewasnotalwayssuccessful,particularlyowingtoMarie’sunaccountableperversenessinsooftenhavingletterstowriteorworktodo,justwhenBillymostwantedhertomakeasafethirdwithherselfandCyril.Itwasuponsuchanoccasion,afterMariehadabruptlyleftthemalonetogether,thatCyrilhadobserved,alittlesharply:

  \"Billy,Iwishyouwouldn’tsayagainwhatyousaidtenminutesagowhenMissMariewashere.\"

  \"Whatwasthat?\"

  AverysillyreferencetothatoldnotionthatyouandeveryoneelseseemtohavethatIama’woman—hater.’\"

  Billy’sheartskippedabeat.Onethought,poundedthroughherbrainanddinneditselfintoherears——atallcostsCyrilmustnotbeallowedtosaythatwhichshesofeared;hemustbesavedfromhimself.

  \"Woman—hater?Why,ofcourseyou’reawoman—hater,\"shecriedmerrily.\"I’msure,I——Ithinkit’slovelytobeawoman—hater.\"

  Themanopenedwidehiseyes;thenhefrownedangrily.

  \"Nonsense,Billy,Iknowbetter.Besides,I’minearnest,andI’mnotawoman—hater.\"

  \"Oh,buteveryonesaysyouare,\"chatteredBilly.\"And,afterall,youknowitISdistinguishing!\"

  Withadisdainfulexclamationthemansprangtohisfeet.Foratimehepacedtheroominsilence,watchedbyBilly’sfearfuleyes;

  thenhecamebackanddroppedintothelowchairatBilly’sside.

  Hiswholemannerhadundergoneacompletechange.Hewasalmostshamefacedashesaid:

  \"Billy,IsupposeImightaswellownup.Idon’tthinkIdidthinkmuchofwomenuntilIsaw——you.\"

  Billyswallowedandwetherlips.Shetriedtospeak;butbeforeshecouldformthewordsthemanwentonwithhisremarks;andBillydidnotknowwhethertobethemorerelievedorfrightenedthereat.

  \"Butyouseenowit’sdifferent.That’swhyIdon’tliketosailanylongerunderfalsecolors.There’sbeenachange——agreatandwonderfulchangethatIhardlyunderstandmyself.\"

  \"That’sit!Youdon’tunderstandit,I’msure,\"interposedBilly,feverishly.\"Itmaynotbesuchachange,afterall.Youmaybedeceivingyourself,\"shefinishedhopefully.

  Themansighed.

  \"Ican’twonderyouthinkso,ofcourse,\"healmostgroaned.\"I

  wasafraiditwouldbelikethat.Whenone’sbeenpaintedblackallone’slife,it’snoteasytochangeone’scolor,ofcourse.\"

  \"Oh,butIdidn’tsaythatblackwasn’taverynicecolor,\"

  stammeredBilly,alittlewildly.

  \"Thankyou.\"Cyril’sheavybrowsroseandfellthefractionofaninch.\"Still,ImustconfessthatjustnowIshouldpreferanothershade.\"

  Hepaused,andBillycastdistractedlyaboutinhermindforasimple,naturalchangeofsubject.ShehadjustdecidedtoaskhimwhathethoughtoftheconditionoftheBrittanypeasants,whenhequestionedabruptly,andinavoicethatwasnotquitesteady:

  \"Billy,whatshouldyousayifIshouldtellyouthattheavowedwoman—haterhadstrayedsofarfromtheprescribedpathasto——tolikeonewomanwellenoughastowantto——marryher?\"

  ThewordwaslikeamatchtothegunpowderofBilly’sfears.Herself—controlwasshatteredinstantlyintobits.

  \"Marry?No,no,youwouldn’t——youcouldn’treallybethinkingofthat,\"shebabbled,growingredandwhitebyturns.\"Onlythinkhowawifewould——wouldb—botheryou!\"

  \"Botherme?WhenIlovedher?\"

  \"Butjustthink——remember!She’dwantcushionsandrugsandcurtains,andyoudon’tlikethem;andshe’dalwaysbetalkingandlaughingwhenyouwantedquiet;andshe——she’dwanttodragyououttoplaysandpartiesand——andeverywhere.Indeed,Cyril,I’msureyou’dneverlikeawife——long!\"Billystoppedonlybecauseshehadnobreathwithwhichtocontinue.

  Cyrillaughedalittlegrimly.

  \"Youdon’tdrawaveryattractivepicture,Billy.Still,I’mnotafraid.Idon’tthinkthisparticular——wifewoulddoanyofthosethings——totroubleme.\"

  \"Oh,butyoudon’tknow,youcan’ttell,\"arguedthegirl.

  \"Besides,youhavehadsolittleexperiencewithwomenthatyou’djustbesuretomakeamistakeatfirst.Youwanttolookaroundverycarefully——verycarefully,beforeyoudecide.\"

  \"Ihavelookedaround,andverycarefully,Billy.Iknowthatinalltheworldthereisjustonewomanforme.\"

  Billystruggledtoherfeet.Mingledpainandterrorlookedfromhereyes.Shebegantospeakwildly,incoherently.ShewonderedafterwardjustwhatshewouldhavesaidifAuntHannahhadnotcomeintotheroomatthatmomentandannouncedthatBertramwasatthedoortotakeherforasleigh—rideifshecaredtogo.

  \"Ofcourseshe’llgo,\"declaredCyril,promptly,answeringforher.

  \"ItistimeIwasoffanyhow.\"ToBilly,hesaidinalowvoice:

  \"Youhaven’tbeenveryencouraging,littlegirl——infact,you’vebeenmightydiscouraging.Butsomeday——someotherday,I’lltrytomakecleartoyou——manythings.\"

  BillygreetedBertramverycordially.Itwassucharelief——hischeery,genialcompanionship!Theair,too,wasbracing,andalltheworldlayunderasnow—whiteblanketofsparklingpurity.

  Everythingwassobeautiful,sorestful!

  Itwasnotsurprising,perhaps,thattheveryfranknessofBilly’sjoymisledBertramalittle.Hisbloodtingledathernearness,andhiseyesgrewdeepandtenderashelookeddownatherhappyface.Butofalltheeagerwordsthatweresonearhislips,notonereachedthegirl’searsuntilthegood—byesweresaid;thenwistfullyBertramhazarded:

  \"Billy,don’tyouthink,sometimes,thatI’mgaining——justalittleonthatrivalofmine——thatmusic?\"

  Billy’sfaceclouded.Sheshookherheadgently.

  \"Bertram,pleasedon’t——whenwe’vehadsuchabeautifulhourtogether,\"shebegged.\"Ittroublesme.Ifyoudo,Ican’tgo——

  again.\"

  \"Butyoushallgoagain,\"criedBertram,bravelysmilingstraightintohereyes.\"Andtheresha’n’teveranythingintheworldtroubleyou,either——thatIcanhelp!\"

  CHAPTERXXXIII

  WILLIAMISWORRIED

  Billy’ssleigh—ridehadbeenduetothekindnessofabelatedwinterstormthathadsurprisedeveryonethelastofMarch.Afterthat,March,asifashamedofheruntowardbehavior,donnedhersweetestsmilesand\"wentout\"liketheproverbiallamb.WiththecomingofApril,andthestirringoflifeinthetrees,Billy,too,begantoberestless;andattheearliestpossiblemomentshemadeherplansforherlonganticipated\"digginginthedirt.\"

  Justhere,muchtohersurprise,shemetwithwonderfulassistancefromBertram.Heseemedtoknowjustwhenandwhereandhowtodig,andhedisplayedsuddenlyaremarkableknowledgeoflandscapegardening.(Thatthisknowledgewasasrecentinitsacquirementasitwassuddeninitsdisplay,Billydidnotknow.)Verylearnedlyhetalkedofperennialsandannuals;andwithouthesitationhemadeoutalistoffloweringshrubsandplantsthatwouldgivehera\"successionofbloomthroughouttheseason.\"Hiswordsandphrasessmackedloudlyoftheverynewestflorists’

  catalogues,butBillydidnotnoticethat.Sheonlywonderedattheseeminglyexhaustlesssourceofhiswisdom.

  \"Isuspect’twouldhavebeenbetterifwe’dbegunthingslastfall,\"hetoldherfrowninglyoneday.\"Butthere’splentywecandonowanyway;andwe’llputinsomequick—growingthings,justforthisseason,untilwecangetthemorepermanentthingsestablished.\"

  Andsotheyworkedtogether,studying,scheming,orderingplantsandseeds,theirtwoheadsclosetogetherabovethegailycoloredcatalogues.Latertherewastheworkitselftobedone,andthoughstrongmendidtheheavierpart,therewasyetplentyleftforBilly’seagerfingers——andforBertram’s.Andifsometimesintheintimacyofseed—sowingandplant—setting,thetouchoftheslendererfingerssentathrillthroughthebrownerones,Bertrammadenosign.Hewascarefulalwaystobethecheerful,helpfulassistant——andthatwasall.

  Billy,itistrue,wasalittledisturbedatbeingquitesomuchwithBertram.Shedreadedarepetitionofsomesuchwordsashadbeenutteredattheendofthesleigh—ride.ShetoldherselfthatshehadnorighttogrieveBertram,tomakeithardforhimbybeingwithhim;butattheverynextbreath,shecouldbutquestion;didshegrievehim?Wasithardforhimtohaveherwithhim?Thenshewouldglanceathiseagerfaceandmeethisbuoyantsmile——andanswer\"no.\"Afterthat,foratime,atleast,herfearswouldbeless.

  SystematicallyBillyavoidedCyrilthesedays.Shecouldnotforgethispromisetomakemanythingscleartohersomeday.Shethoughtsheknewwhathemeant——thathewouldtrytoconvinceher(asshehadtriedtoconvinceherself)thatshewouldmakeagoodwifeforhim.

  BillywasverysurethatifCyrilcouldbepreventedfromspeakinghismindjustnow,hismindwouldchangeintime;henceherdeterminationtogivehismindthatopportunity.

  Billy’savoidanceofCyrilwasthemoreeasilyaccomplishedbecauseshewasforatimetakingacompleterestfromhermusic.Thenewsongshadbeenfinishedandsenttothepublishers.Therewasnoexcuse,therefore,forCyril’scomingtothehouseonthatscore;

  and,indeed,heseemedofhisownaccordtobemakingonlyinfrequentvisitsnow.Billywaspleased,particularlyasMariewasnottheretoplaythirdparty.Mariehadtakenupherteachingagain,muchtoBilly’sdistress.

  \"ButIcan’tstayherealways,likethis,\"Mariehadprotested.

  \"ButIshouldliketokeepyou!\"Billyhadresponded,withnolessdecision.

  Mariehadbeenfirm,however,andhadgone,leavingthelittlehouselonelywithouther.

  AsidefromherworkinthegardenBillyasresolutelyavoidedBertramasshedidCyril.Itwasnatural,therefore,thatatthiscrisissheshouldturntoWilliamwithapeculiarfeelingofrestfulness.He,atleast,wouldbesafe,shetoldherself.Soshefranklywelcomedhiseveryappearance,sungtohim,playedtohim,andtooklongwalkswithhimtoseesomewonderfulbraceletornecklacethathehaddiscoveredinadingylittlecurio—shop.

  Williamwasdelighted.Hewasveryfondofhisnamesake,andhehadsecretlychafedalittleatthewayhisyoungerbrothershadmonopolizedherattention.Hewasrejoicednowthatsheseemedtobeturningtohimforcompanionship;andveryeagerlyheacceptedallthetimeshecouldgivehim.

  Williamhad,intruth,beengrowingmoreandmorelonelyeversinceBilly’sbriefstaybeneathhisroofyearsbefore.Thosefewshortweeksofhermerrypresencehadshownhimhowveryforlornthehousewaswithoutit.Moreandmoresorrowfullyduringpastyears,histhoughtshadgonebacktothelittlewhiteflannelbundleandtothedearhopesithadcarriedsolongago.Iftheboyhadonlylived,thoughtWilliam,mournfully,therewouldnotnowhavebeenthatdrearysilenceinhishome,andthatsoreacheinhisheart.

  VerysoonafterWilliamhadfirstseenBilly,hebegantolaywonderfulplans,andineveryplanwasBilly.Shewasnothischildbyfleshandblood,heacknowledged,butshewashisbyrightofloveandneededcare.Infancyhelookedstraightdowntheyearsahead,andeverywherehesawBilly,aloving,much—loveddaughter,thejoyofhislife,thesolaceofhisdecliningyears.

  TonoonehadWilliamtalkedofthis——andtonoonedidheshowthebitternessofhisgriefwhenhesawhisvisionfadeintonothingnessthroughBilly’sunchangingrefusaltoliveinhishome.

  Onlyhehimselfknewtheheartache,theloneliness,thealmostunbearablelongingofthepastwintermonthswhileBillyhadlivedatHillside;andonlyhehimselfknewnowthealmostoverwhelmingjoythatwashisbecauseofwhathethoughthesawinBilly’schangedattitudetowardhimself.

  GreataswasWilliam’sjoy,however,hiscautionwasgreater.HesaidnothingtoBillyofhisnewhopes,thoughhedidtrytopavethewaybydroppinganoccasionalwordaboutthelonelinessoftheBeaconStreethousesinceshewentaway.Therewassomethingelse,too,thatcausedWilliamtobesilent——whathethoughthesawbetweenBillyandBertram.ThatBertramwasinlovewithBilly,heguessed;butthatBillywasnotinlovewithBertramheverymuchfeared.Hehesitatedalmosttospeakormovelestsomethingheshouldsayordoshould,justatthecriticalmoment,turnmattersthewrongway.ToWilliamthismarriageofBertramandBillywasanidealmethodofsolvingtheproblem,asofcourseBillywouldcometheretothehousetolive,andhewouldhavehis\"daughter\"

  afterall.Butasthedayspassed,andhecouldseenoprogressonBertram’spart,nochangeinBilly,hebegantobeseriouslyworried——andtoshowit.

  CHAPTERXXXIV

  CLASSDAY

  EarlyinJuneBillyannouncedherintentionofnotgoingawayatallthatsummer.

  \"Idon’tneedit,\"shedeclared.\"Ihavethiscool,beautifulhouse,thisair,thissunshine,thisadorableview.Besides,I’vegotaschemeImeantocarryout.\"

  TherewassomeconsternationamongBilly’sfriendswhentheyfoundoutwhatthis\"scheme\"was:sundryofBilly’shumbleracquaintancesweretosharethehouse,theair,thesunshine,andtheadorableviewwithher.

  \"But,mydearBilly,\"Bertramcried,aghast,\"youdon’tmeantosaythatyouaregoingtoturnyourbeautifullittlehouseintoafresh—airplaceforBoston’sslumchildren!\"

  \"Notabitofit,\"smiledthegirl,\"thoughI’dliketo,really,ifIcould,\"sheadded,perversely.\"Butthisisquiteanotherthing.

  It’snoslumwork,nocharity.Inthefirstplacemyguestsaren’tquitesopoorasthat,andthey’remuchtooproudtobereachedbytheavowedcharityworker.Buttheyneeditjustthesame.\"

  \"Butyouhaven’tmuchspareroom;haveyou?\"questionedBertram.

  \"No,unfortunately;soIshallhavetotakeonlytwoorthreeatatime,andkeepthemmaybeaweekortendays.It’sjustasugarplum,Bertram.Trulyitis,\"sheaddedwhimsically,butwithatenderlightinhereyes.

  \"Butwhoarethesepeople?\"Bertram’sfacehadlostitslookofshockedsurprise,andhisvoiceexpressedgenuineinterest.

  \"Well,tobeginwith,there’sMarie.She’llstayallsummerandhelpmeentertainmyguests;atthesametimeherdutieswon’tbearduous,andshe’llgetalittleplaytimeherself.OneweekI’mgoingtohavealittleoldmaidwhokeepsalodginghouseintheWestEnd.Foruncountedyearsshe’sbeenpracticallytiedtoadoorbell,withneverawholedaytobreathefree.I’vemadearrangementsthereforasistertokeephouseawholeweek,andI’mgoingtoshowthislittleoldmaidthingsshehasn’tseenforyears:theocean,thegreenfields,andasummerplayortwo,perhaps.

  \"Thenthere’salittlecouplethatliveinathird—storyflatinSouthBoston.They’reyoungandlikegoodtimes;butthemanisonasmallsalary,andtheyhavehadlotsofsickness.He’sbeenoutsomuchhecan’ttakeanyvacation,andtheywouldn’thaveanymoneytogoanywhereifhecould.Well,I’mgoingtohavethemaweek.She’llbehereallthetime,andhe’llcomeoutatnight,ofcourse.

  \"Anotheroneisawidowwithsixchildren.Thechildrenarealreadyprovidedforbyafresh—airsociety,butthewomanI’mgoingtotake,and——andgiveherawholeweekoffoodthatshedidn’thavetocookherself.Anotheroneisawomanwhoisnotsoverypoor,butwhohaslostherbaby,andisblueanddiscouraged.

  Therearesomechildren,too,onecrippled,andaboywhosayshe’s’justlonesome.’Andthereare——really,Bertram,thereisnoendtothem.\"

  \"Icanwellbelievethat,\"declaredBertram,withemphasis,\"sofarasyourgenerousheartisconcerned.\"

  Billycoloredandlookeddistressed.

  \"Butitisn’tgenerosityorcharityatall,Bertram,\"sheprotested.

  \"Youaremistakenwhenyouthinkitis——really!Why,Ishallenjoyeverybitofitjustaswellastheydo——andbetter,perhaps.\"

  \"Butyoustayhere——inthecity——allsummerfortheirsakes.\"

  \"WhatifIdo?Besides,thisisn’ttherealcity,\"arguedBilly,\"withallthesetreesandlawnsaboutone.Andanotherthing,\"sheadded,leaningforwardconfidentially,\"Imightaswellconfess,Bertram,youcouldn’thiremetoleavetheplacethissummer——notwhileallthesethingsIplantedarecomingup!\"

  Bertramlaughed;butforsomereasonhelookedwonderfullyhappyasheturnedaway.

  OnthefifteenthofJuneKateandherhusbandarrivedfromtheWest.AyoungbrotherofMr.Hartwell’swastobegraduatedfromHarvard,andKatesaidtheyhadcomeontorepresentthefamily,astheelderMr.andMrs.Hartwellwerenotstrongenoughtoundertakethejourney.Katewaslookingwellandhappy.ShegreetedBillywitheffusivecordiality,andopenlyexpressedheradmirationofHillside.Shelookedverykeenlyintoherbrothers’face,andseemedwellpleasedwiththeappearanceofCyrilandBertram,butnotsomuchsowithWilliam’scountenance.

  \"WilliamdoesNOTlookwell,\"shedeclaredonedaywhensheandBillywerealonetogether.

  \"Sick?UncleWilliamsick?Oh,Ihopenot!\"criedthegirl.

  \"Idon’tknowwhetherit’s’sick’ornot,\"returnedMrs.Hartwell.

  \"Butit’ssomething.He’stroubled.I’mgoingtospeaktohim.

  He’sworriedoversomething;andhe’sgrownterriblythin.\"

  \"Buthe’salwaysthin,\"reasonedBilly.

  \"Iknow,butnotlikethis——ever.Youdon’tnoticeit,perhaps,orrealizeit,seeinghimeverydayasyoudo.ButIknowsomethingtroubleshim.\"

  \"Oh,Ihopenot,\"murmuredBilly,withanxiouseyes.\"Wedon’twantUncleWilliamtroubled:wealllovehimtoowell.\"

  Mrs.Hartwelldidnotatoncereply;butforalongminuteshethoughtfullystudiedBilly’sfaceasitwasbentabovethesewinginBilly’shand.Whenshedidspeakshehadchangedthesubject.

  YoungHartwellwastodelivertheIvyOrationintheStadiumonClassDay,andalltheHenshawswerelookingeagerlyforwardtotheoccasion.

  \"YouhaveseentheStadium,ofcourse,\"saidBertramtoBilly,afewdaysbeforetheanticipatedFriday.

  \"Onlyfromacrosstheriver.\"

  \"Isthatso?Andyou’veneverbeenhereClassDay,either.Good!

  Thenyou’vegotatreatinstore.Justwaitandsee!\"

  AndBillywaited——andshesaw.Billybegantosee,infact,beforeClassDay.YoungHartwellwasapopularfellow,andhewaseagertohavehisfriendsmeetBillyandtheHenshaws.HewasamemberoftheInstituteof1770,D.K.E.,Stylus,Signet,RoundTable,andHastyPuddingClubs,andnearlyeveryoneofthesehadsomesortoffunctionplannedforClass—Dayweek.BythetimethedayitselfarrivedBillywasalmostasexcitedaswasyoungHartwellhimself.

  ItrainedClass—Daymorning,butatnineo’clockthesuncameoutanddrovethecloudsaway,muchtoeveryone’sdelight.Billy’sdaybeganatnoonwiththespreadgivenbytheHastyPuddingClub.

  Billywonderedafterwardhowmanytimesthatdayremarksliketheseweremadetoher:

  \"You’vebeenhereClassDaybefore,ofcourse.You’veseentheconfetti—throwing!No?Well,youjustwait!\"

  AttenminutesoffourBillyandMrs.Hartwell,withMr.HartwellandBertramasescorts,enteredthecool,echoingshadowsundertheStadium,andthenoutinthesunlighttheybegantoclimbthebroadstepstotheirseats.

  \"Iwantedthemhighup,yousee,\"explainedBertram,\"becauseyoucangettheeffectsomuchbetter.There,hereweare!\"

  ForthefirsttimeBillyturnedandlookedabouther.Shegavealowcryofdelight.

  \"Oh,oh,howbeautiful——howwonderfullybeautiful!\"

  \"Youjustwait!\"crowedBertram.\"Ifyouthinkthisisbeautiful,youjustwait!\"

  Billydidnotseemtohearhim.Hereyesweresweepingthewonderfulscenebeforeher,andherfacewasaglowwithdelight.

  Firsttherewasthegreatamphitheateritself.Onlythewidecurveofthehorseshoewasropedoffforto—day’saudience.Beyondlaythetwosideswiththeirtierabovetierofemptyseats,almostdazzlinginthesunshine.Withintheroped—offcurvethescenewasofkaleidoscopicbeauty.Charminglygownedyoungwomenandcarefullygroomedyoungmenwereeverywhere,stirring,chatting,laughing.Gay—coloredparasolsandflower—gardenhatsmadehereandtherebrilliantsplashesofrainbowtints.Abovewasanalmostcloudlesscanopyofblue,andatthefarhorizon,earthandskymetandmadeapicturethatwaslikeawondrouspaintedcurtainhungfromheavenitself.

  Atthefirstsoundofthedistantbandthattoldofthegraduates’

  coming,Bertramsaidalmostwistfully:

  \"ClassDayistheonlytimewhenIfeel’outofit.’YouseeI’mthefirstmaleHenshawforagesthathasn’tbeenthroughHarvard;

  andto—day,youknow,isthetimewhentheoldgradscomebackanddostuntslikethekids——iftheycan(andsomeofthemcanallright!).Theymarchinbyclassesaheadoftheseniors,andviewitheachotheringivingtheiryells.You’llseeCyrilandWilliam,ifyoureyesaresharpenough——andyou’llseethemasyouneversawthembefore.\"

  FardownthegreenfieldBillyspiednowthelongblacklineofmovingfigureswithabandinthelead.Nearerandneareritcameuntil,greetedbyamightyroarfromthousandsofthroats,theleaderssweptintothegreatbowlofthehorseshoecurve.

  Andhowtheyyelledandcheered——thosemenwhosefirstClassDaylayfive,ten,fifteen,eventwentyormoreyearsbehindthem,astoldbythebannerswhichtheysoproudlycarried.Howtheygottheirheadstogetherandgavethe\"Rah!Rah!Rah!\"withunswervingeyesontheirleader!Howtheybeattheairwiththeirhatsintimetotheirlustyshouts!Andhowthethrongsabovecheeredandclappedinanswer,untiltheyalmostsplittheirthroats——anddidsplittheirgloves——especiallywhentheblack—gownedseniorssweptintoview.

  Andwhenthecurvinglineofblackhadbecomeonesolidmassofhumanitythatfilledthebowlfromsidetoside,thevastthrongseatedthemselves,andagreathushfellwhiletheGleeClubsang.

  YoungHartwellprovedtobeagoodspeaker,andhisringingvoicereachedeventhetopmosttierofseats.Billywascharmedandinterested.Everythingshesawandheardwasbutanewsourceofenjoyment,andshehadquiteforgottenthethingforwhichshewasto\"wait,\"whenshesawtheusherspassingthroughtheaisleswiththeirbasketsofmany—huedpackagesofconfettiandcountlessrollsofpaperribbon.

  Itbeganthen,themerrywarbetweenthestudentsbelowandthethrongabove.Inatricetheairwasfilledwithshimmeringbitsofred,blue,white,green,purple,pink,andyellow.Fromalldirectionsflutteringstreamersthatshowedeverycoloroftherainbow,wereflungtothebreezeuntil,upheldbythesupportingwires,theymadeafairylaceworkofmarvelousbeauty.

  \"Oh,oh,oh!\"criedBilly,hereyesmistywithemotion.\"IthinkI

  neversawanythinginmylifesolovely!

  \"Ithoughtyou’dlikeit,\"gloriedBertram.\"YouknowIsaidtowait!\"

  Butevenwiththis,ClassDayforBillywasnotfinished.TherewasstillHartwell’sownspreadfromsixtoeight,andafterthattherewerethePresident’sreception,anddancingintheMemorialHallandintheGymnasium.TherewastheFairylandoftheyard,too,softlyaglowwithmovingthrongsofbeautifulwomenandgallantmen.ButwhatBillyrememberedbestofallwastheexquisiteharmonythatcametoherthroughthehushednightairwhentheGleeClubsangFairHarvardonthestepsofHolworthyHall.

  CHAPTERXXXV

  SISTERKATEAGAIN

  ItwasontheSundayfollowingClassDaythatMrs.Hartwellcarriedoutherdeterminationto\"speaktoWilliam.\"TheWesthadnottakenfromKateherloveofmanaging,andshethoughtshesawnowamatterthatsorelyneededherguidinghand.

  William’sthinface,anxiouslooks,andnervousmannerhadtroubledhereversinceshecame.Thenoneday,verysuddenly,hadcomeenlightenment:Williamwasinlove——andwithBilly.

  Mrs.HartwellwatchedWilliamverycloselyafterthat.ShesawhiseyesfollowBillyfondly,yetanxiously.Shesawhisopenjoyatbeingwithher,andatanylittleattention,word,orlookthatthegirlgavehim.Sheremembered,too,somethingthatBertramhadsaidaboutWilliam’sgriefbecauseBillywouldnotliveattheStrata.Shethoughtshesawsomethingelse,also:thatBillywasfondofWilliam,butthatWilliamdidnotknowit;hencehisfrequenttroubledscrutinyofherface.WhythesetwoshouldplayatcrosspurposesSisterKatecouldnotunderstand.Shesmiled,however,confidently:theyshouldnotplayatcrosspurposesmuchlonger,shedeclared.

  OnSundayafternoonKateaskedhereldestbrothertotakeherdriving.

  \"Notamotorcar;Iwantahorse——thatwillletmetalk,\"shesaid.

  \"Certainly,\"agreedWilliam,withasmile;butBertram,whochancedtohearher,putintheslycomment:\"AsifANYhorsecouldprevent——that!\"

  OnthedriveKatebegantotalkatonce,butshedidnotplungeintothesubjectnearestherheartuntilshehadadroitlyledWilliamintoaglowingenumerationofBilly’smanycharmingcharacteristics;thenshesaid:

  \"William,whydon’tyoutakeBillyhomewithyou?\"

  Williamstirreduneasilyashealwaysdidwhenanythingannoyedhim.

  \"MydearKate,thereisnothingIshouldlikebettertodo,\"hereplied.

  \"Thenwhydon’tyoudoit?\"

  \"I——hopeto,sometime.\"

  \"Butwhynotnow?\"

  \"I’mafraidBillyisnotquite——ready.\"

  \"Nonsense!Ayounggirllikethatdoesnotknowherownmindlotsoftimes.Justpressthematteralittle.Lovewillworkwonders——

  sometimes.\"

  Williamblushedlikeagirl.Tohimherwordshadbutonemeaning——

  Bertram’sloveforBilly.Williamhadneverspokenofthissuspectedloveaffairtoanyone.Hehadeventhoughtthathewastheonlyonethathaddiscoveredit.Tohearhissisterreferthuslightlytoitcamethereforeinthenatureofashocktohim.

  \"Thenyouhave——seenit——too?\"hestammered\"’Seenit,too,’\"laughedKate,withherconfidenteyesonWilliam’sflushedface,\"IshouldsayIhadseenit!Anyonecouldseeit.\"

  Williamblushedagain.Lovetohimhadalwaysbeensomethingsacred;somethingthatcalledforhushedvoicesandtwilight.

  Thismerrydiscussioninthesunlightofevenanother’slovewasdisconcerting.

  \"Nowcome,William,\"resumedKate,afteramoment;\"speaktoBilly,andhavethemattersettledonceforall.It’sworryingyou.I

  canseeitis.\"

  AgainWilliamstirreduneasily.

  \"But,Kate,Ican’tdoanything.Itoldyoubefore;Idon’tbelieveBillyis——ready.\"

  \"Nonsense!Askher.\"

  \"ButKate,agirlwon’tmarryagainstherwill!\"

  \"Idon’tbelieveitisagainstherwill.\"

  \"Kate!Honestly?\"

  \"Honestly!I’vewatchedher.\"

  \"ThenIWILLspeak,\"criedtheman,hisfacealight,\"if——ifyouthinkanythingIcansaywould——help.Thereisnothing——nothinginallthisworldthatIsodesire,Kate,astohavethatlittlegirlbackhome.Andofcoursethatwoulddoit.She’dlivethere,youknow.\"

  \"Why,of——course,\"murmuredKate,withapuzzledfrown.TherewassomethinginthislastremarkofWilliam’sthatshedidnotquiteunderstand.SurelyhecouldnotsupposethatshehadanyideathatafterhehadmarriedBillytheywouldgotoliveanywhereelse;——

  shethought.Foramomentsheconsideredthemattervaguely;thensheturnedherattentiontosomethingelse.Shewasthemorereadytodothisbecauseshebelievedthatshehadsaidenoughforthepresent:itwaswelltosowseeds,butitwasalsowelltoletthemhaveachancetogrow,shetoldherself.

  Mrs.Hartwell’snextmovewastospeaktoBilly,andshewascarefultodothisatonce,sothatshemightpavethewayforWilliam.

  Shebeganherconversationwithaningratiatingsmileandthewords:

  \"Well,Billy,I’vebeendoingalittledetectiveworkonmyownaccount.\"

  \"Detectivework?\"

  \"Yes;aboutWilliam.YouknowItoldyoutheotherdayhowtroubledandanxioushelookedtome.Well,I’vefoundoutwhat’sthematter.\"

  \"Whatisit?\"

  \"Yourself.\"

  \"Myself!Why,Mrs.Hartwell,whatcanyoumean?\"

  Theelderladysmiledsignificantly.

  \"Oh,it’smerelyanothercase,mydear,of’faintheartneverwonfairlady.’I’vebeenhelpingonthefaintheart;that’sall.\"

  \"ButIdon’tunderstand.\"

  \"No?Ican’tbelieveyouquitemeanthat,mydear.SurelyyoumustknowhowearnestlymybrotherWilliamislongingforyoutogobackandlivewithhim.\"

  LikeWilliam,Billyflushedscarlet.

  \"Mrs.Hartwell,certainlynoonecouldknowbetterthanYOURSELF

  whythatisquiteimpossible,\"shefrowned.

  Theothercoloredconfusedly.

  \"Iunderstand,ofcourse,whatyoumean.And,Billy,I’llconfessthatI’vebeensorrylotsoftimes,since,thatIspokeasIdidtoyou,particularlywhenIsawhowitgrievedmybrotherWilliamtohaveyougoaway.IfIblunderedthen,I’msorry;andperhapsI

  didblunder.Atallevents,thatisonlythemorereasonnowwhyI

  amsoanxioustodowhatIcantorectifythatoldmistake,andpleadWilliam’ssuit.\"

  ToMrs.Hartwell’sblankamazement,Billylaughedoutright.

  \"’William’ssuit’!\"shequotedmerrily.\"Why,Mrs.Hartwell,thereisn’tany’suit’toit.UncleWilliamdoesn’twantmetomarryhim!\"

  \"Indeedhedoes.\"

  Billystoppedlaughing,andsatsuddenlyerect.

  \"MRS.HARTWELL!\"

  \"Billy,isitpossiblethatyoudidnotknowthis?\"

  \"IndeedIdon’tknowit,and——excuseme,butIdon’tthinkyoudo,either.\"

  \"ButIdo.I’vetalkedwithhim,andhe’sverymuchinearnest,\"

  urgedMrs.Hartwell,speakingveryrapidly.\"Hesaysthere’snothinginalltheworldthathesodesires.And,Billy,youdocareforhim——Iknowyoudo!\"

  \"Why,ofcourseIcareforhim——butnot——thatway.\"

  \"But,Billy,think!\"Mrs.Hartwellwasveryearnestnow,andalittlefrightened.ShefeltthatshemustbringBillytotermsinsomewaynowthatWilliamhadbeenencouragedtoputhisfatetothetest.\"JustrememberhowgoodWilliamhasalwaysbeentoyou,andthinkwhatyouhavebeen,andmayBE——ifyouonlywill——inhislonelylife.Thinkofhisgreatsorrowyearsago.Thinkofthisdrearywasteofyearsbetween.Thinkhownowhishearthasturnedtoyouforloveandcomfortandrest.Billy,youcan’tturnaway!——

  youcan’tfinditinyourhearttoturnawayfromthatdear,goodmanwholovesyouso!\"Mrs.Hartwell’svoiceshookeffectively,andevenhereyeslookedthroughtears.Mentallyshewascongratulatingherself:shehadnotsupposedshecouldmakesotouchinganappeal.

  Inthechairoppositethegirlsatverystill.Shewaspale,andhereyesshowedafrightenedquestioningintheirdepths.Foralongminuteshesaidnothing,thensherosedazedlytoherfeet.

  \"Mrs.Hartwell,pleasedonotspeakofthistoanyone,\"shebeggedinalowvoice.\"I——Iamtakenquitebysurprise.Ishallhavetothinkitout——alone.\"

  Billydidnotsleepwellthatnight.AlwaysbeforehereyeswasthevisionofWilliam’sface;andalwaysinherearswastheechoofMrs.Hartwell’swords:\"RememberhowgoodWilliamhasalwaysbeentoyou.Thinkofhisgreatsorrowyearsago.Thinkofthisdrearywasteofyearsbetween.Thinkhownowhishearthasturnedtoyouforloveandcomfortandrest.\"

  ForatimeBillytossedaboutonherbedtryingtoclosehereyestothevisionandherearstotheecho.Then,findingthatneitherwaspossible,shesetherselfearnestlytothinkingthematterout.

  Williamlovedher.Extraordinaryasitseemed,suchwasthefact;

  Mrs.Hartwellsaidso.Andnow——whatmustshedo;whatcouldshedo?Shelovednoone——ofthatshewasverysure.Shewasevenbeginningtothinkthatshewouldneverloveanyone.TherewereCalderwell,Cyril,Bertram,tosaynothingofsundryothers,whohadlovedher,apparently,butwhomshecouldnotlove.Suchbeingthecase,ifshewere,indeed,incapableofloveherself,whyshouldshenotmakethesacrificeofgivinguphercareer,herindependence,andinthatwaybringthisgreatjoytoUncleWilliam’sheart?Evenasshesaidthe\"UncleWilliam\"toherself,Billybitherlipandrealizedthatshemustnolongersay\"Uncle\"William——ifshemarriedhim.

  \"Ifshemarriedhim.\"Thewordsstartledher.\"Ifshemarriedhim.\"Well,whatofit?ShewouldgotoliveattheStrata,ofcourse;andtherewouldbeCyrilandBertram.Itmightbeawkward,andyet——shedidnotbelieveCyrilwasinlovewithanythingbuthismusic;andastoBertram——itwasthesamewithBertramandhispainting,andhewouldsoonforgetthathehadeverfanciedhelovedher.Afterthathewouldbesimplyacongenialfriendandcompanion——agoodcomrade.AsBillythoughtofit,indeed,oneofthepleasantestfeaturesofthismarriagewithWilliamwouldbethedelightfulcomradeshipofher\"brother,\"

  Bertram.

  BillydweltthenatsomelengthonWilliam’sloveforher,hislongingforherpresence,andhisdrearyyearsofloneliness

  Andhewassogoodtoher,sherecollected;hehadalwaysbeengoodtoher.Hewasolder,tobesure——mucholderthanshe;but,afterall,itwouldnotbesodifficult,soverydifficult,tolearntolovehim.Atallevents,whateverhappened,shewouldhavethesupremesatisfactionofknowingthatatleastshehadbroughtintodearUncle——thatis,intoWilliam’slifethegreatpeaceandjoythatonlyshecouldgive.

  ItwasalmostdawnwhenBillyarrivedatthisnotuncheerfulstateofprospectivemartyrdom.Sheturnedoverthenwithasigh,andsettledherselftosleep.Shewasrelievedthatshehaddecidedthequestion.ShewasgladthatsheknewjustwhattosaywhenWilliamshouldspeak.Hewasadear,dearman,andshewouldnotmakeithardforhim,shepromisedherself.ShewouldbeWilliam’swife.

  CHAPTERXXXVI

  WILLIAMMEETSWITHASURPRISE

  Inspiteofhissister’sconfidentassurancethatthetimewasripeforhimtospeaktoBilly,Williamdelayedsomedaysbeforebroachingthemattertoher.HiscouragewasnotsogoodasithadbeenwhenhewastalkingwithKate.Itseemednow,asitalwayshad,afearsomethingtotrytohastenonthisloveaffairbetweenBillyandBertram.Hecouldnotsee,inspiteofKate’swords,thatBillyshowedunmistakableevidenceatallofbeinginlovewithhisbrother.Themorehethoughtofit,infact,themorehedreadedthecarryingoutofhispromisetospeaktohisnamesake.

  Whatshouldhesay,heaskedhimself.Howcouldhewordit?Hecouldnotverywellaccostherwith:\"Oh,Billy,Iwishyou’dpleasehurryupandmarryBertram,becausethenyou’dcomeandlivewithme.\"NeithercouldhepleadBertram’scausedirectly.QuiteprobablyBertramwouldprefertopleadhisown.Then,too,ifBillyreallywasnotinlovewithBertram——whatthen?Mightnothisownuntimelyhasteinthematterforeverputanendtothechanceofhercaringforhim?

  Itwas,indeed,adelicatematter,andasWilliamponderedithewishedhimselfwelloutofit,andthatKatehadnotspoken.Butevenasheformedthewish,WilliamrememberedwithathrillKate’spositiveassertionthatawordfromhimwoulddowonders,andthatnowwasthetimetoutterit.Hedecidedthenthathewouldspeak;

  thathemustspeak;butthatatthesametimehewouldproceedwithacautionthatwouldpermitahastyretreatifhesawthathiswordswerenothavingthedesiredeffect.Hewouldbeginwithafrankconfessionofhisgriefatherleavinghim,andofhislongingforherreturn;thenverygradually,ifwisdomcounseledit,hewouldgoontospeakofBertram’sloveforher,andofhisownhopethatshewouldmakeBertramandalltheStratagladbylovinghiminreturn.

  Mrs.HartwellhadreturnedtoherWesternhomebeforeWilliamfoundjusttheopportunityforhistalkwithBilly.Truetohisbeliefthatonlyhushedvoicesandtwilightwerefittingforsuchasubject,hewaiteduntilhefoundthegirlearlyoneeveningaloneonhervine—shadedveranda.Henoticedthatasheseatedhimselfathersidesheflushedalittleandhalfstartedtorise,withanervousflutteringofherhands,andamurmured\"I’llcallAuntHannah.\"Itwasthenthatwithsuddencourage,heresolvedtospeak.

  \"Billy,don’tgo,\"hesaidgently,withatouchofhishandonherarm.\"ThereissomethingIwanttosaytoyou.I——Ihavewantedtosayitforsometime.\"

  \"Why,of——ofcourse,\"stammeredthegirl,fallingbackinherseat.

  AndagainWilliamnoticedthatoddflutteringoftheslimlittlehands.

  Foratimenoonespoke,thenWilliambegansoftly,hiseyesonthedistantsky—linestillfaintlyaglowwiththesunset’sreflection.

  \"Billy,Iwanttotellyouastory.Longyearsagotherewasamanwhohadahappyhomewithayoungwifeandatinybabyboyinit.

  Icouldnotbegintotellyoualltheplansthatmanmadeforthatbabyboy.Suchagreatandgoodandwonderfulbeingthattinybabywasonedaytobecome.Butthebaby——wentaway,afteratime,andcarriedwithhimalltheplans——andhenevercameback.Behindhimheleftemptyheartsthatached,andgreatbareroomsthatseemedalwaystobeechoingsighsandsobs.Andthen,oneday,suchafewyearsafter,theyoungwifewenttofindherbaby,andleftthemanallalonewiththeheartthatachedandthegreatbareroomsthatechoedsighsandsobs.

  \"Perhapsitwasthis——thebarenessoftherooms——thatmadethemanturntohisboyishpassionforcollectingthings.Hewantedtofillthoseroomsfull,full!——sothatthesighsandsobscouldnotbeheard;andhewantedtofillhisheart,too,withsomethingthatwouldstilltheache.Andhetried.Alreadyhehadhisboyishtreasures,andthesehelinedupinbravearray,buthisroomsstillechoed,andhisheartstillached;sohebuiltmoreshelvesandboughtmorecabinets,andsethimselftofillingthem,hopingatthesametimethathemightfillallthatdrearywasteofhoursoutsideofbusiness——hourswhichoncehadbeenalltooshorttodevotetotheyoungwifeandthebabyboy.

  \"Onebyonetheyearspassed,andonebyonetheshelvesandthecabinetswerefilled.Themanfancied,sometimes,thathehadsucceeded;butinhisheartofheartsheknewthattheachewasmerelydulled,andthatdarknesshadonlytocometosettheroomsoncemoretoechoingthesighsandsobs.Andthen——butperhapsyouaretiredofthestory,Billy.\"Williamturnedwithquestioningeyes.

  \"No,oh,no,\"falteredBilly.\"Itisbeautiful,butso——sad!\"

  \"Butthesaddestpartisdone——Ihope,\"saidWilliam,softly.\"Letmetellyou.Awonderfulthinghappenedthen.Suddenly,rightoutofadullgrayskyofhopelessness,droppedalittlebrown—eyedgirlandalittlegraycat.Alloverthehousetheyfrolicked,fillingeverynookandcrannywithlaughterandlightandhappiness.Andthen,likemagic,themanlosttheacheinhisheart,andtheroomslosttheirechoingsighsandsobs.Themanknew,then,thatneveragaincouldhehopetofillhisheartandlifewithsenselessthingsofclayandmetal.Heknewthattheonethinghewantedalwaysnearhimwasthelittlebrown—eyedgirl;andhehopedthathecouldkeepher.Butjustashewasbeginningtobaskinthisnewlight——itwentout.Assuddenlyastheyhadcome,thelittlebrown—eyedgirlandthegraycatwentaway.Why,themandidnotknow.Heknewonlythattheachehadcomeback,doublyintense,andthattheroomsweremoregloomythanever.Andnow,Billy,\"——William’svoiceshookalittle——\"itisforyoutofinishthestory.Itisforyoutosaywhetherthatman’sheartshallacheonandondowntoalonelyoldage,andwhetherthoseroomsshallalwaysechothesighsandsobsofthepast.\"

  \"AndIwillfinishit,\"chokedBilly,holdingoutbothherhands.

  \"Itsha’n’tache——theysha’n’techo!\"

  Themanleanedforwardeagerly,unbelievingly,andcaughtthehandsinhisown.

  \"Billy,doyoumeanit?Thenyouwill——come?\"

  \"Yes,yes!Ididn’tknow——Ididn’tthink.Ineversupposeditwaslikethat!OfcourseI’llcome!\"Andinamomentshewassobbinginhisarms.

  \"Billy!\"breathedWilliamrapturously,ashetouchedhislipstoherforehead.\"MyownlittleBilly!\"

  Itwasafewminuteslater,whenBillywasmorecalm,thatWilliamstartedtospeakofBertram.Foramomenthehadbeentemptednottomentionhisbrother,nowthathisownpointhadbeenwonsosurprisinglyquick;butthenewsoftnessinBilly’sfacehadencouragedhim,andhedidnotliketolettheoccasionpasswhenawordfromhimmightdosomuchforBertram.Hislipsparted,butnowordscame——Billyherselfhadbeguntospeak.

  \"I’msureIdon’tknowwhyI’mcrying,\"shestammered,dabbinghereyeswithherroundmoistballofahanderchief.\"IhopewhenI’myourwifeI’lllearntobemoreself—controlled.ButyouknowIamyoung,andyou’llhavetobepatient.\"

  AsoncebeforeatsomethingBillysaid,theworldtoWilliamwentsuddenlymad.Hisheadswamdizzily,andhisthroattightenedsothathecouldscarcelybreathe.BysheerforceofwillhekepthisarmaboutBilly’sshoulder,andheprayedthatshemightnotknowhownumbandcoldithadgrown.Eventhenhethoughthecouldnothaveheardaright.

  \"Er——yousaid——\"hequestionedfaintly.

  \"IsaywhenI’myourwifeIhopeI’lllearntobemoreself—

  controlled,\"laughedBilly,nervously.\"YouseeIjustthoughtI

  oughttoremindyouthatIamyoung,andthatyou’llhavetobepatient.\"

  Williamstammeredsomething——ahurriedsomething;hewonderedafterwardwhatitwas.ThatitmusthavebeensatisfactorytoBillywasevident,forshebeganlaughinglytotalkagain.Whatshesaid,Williamscarcelyknew,thoughhewasconsciousofmakinganoccasionalvaguereply.Hewasstillflounderinginahopelessseaofconfusionanddismay.Hisowndesirewastogetupandsaygoodnightatonce.Hewantedtobealonetothink.Herealized,however,withsickeningforce,thatmendonotproposeandrunaway——iftheyareaccepted.Andhewasaccepted;herealizedthat,too,overwhelmingly.Thenhetriedtothinkhowithadhappened,whathehadsaid;howshecouldsohavemisunderstoodhismeaning.

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