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  \"AndnowI’mreadytoseemyfriends,\"sheannounced.

  \"AndIthinkyourfriendswillbereadytoseeyou,\"Bertramassuredher.

  Andtheywere——atleast,soitappeared.ForatoncethelittlehouseperchedonthehillsidebecametheMeccaformanyoftheHenshaws’friendswhohadknownBillyasWilliam’smerry,eighteen—

  year—oldnamesake.Therewereothers,too,whomBillyhadmetabroad;andthereweresoft—stepping,sweet—facedoldwomenandanoccasionalwhite—whiskeredoldman——AuntHannah’sfriends——whofoundthattheyoungmistressofHillsidewasacharminghostess.

  TherewerealsotheHenshaw\"boys,\"andtherewasalwaysCalderwell——atleast,soBertramdeclaredtohimselfsometimes.

  Bertramcamefrequentlytothelittlehouseonthehill,evenmorefrequentlythanWilliam;butCyrilwasnotseentheresooften.Hecameonceatfirst,itistrue,andfollowedBillyfromroomtoroomassheproudlydisplayedhernewhome.Heshowedpoliteinterestinherview,andaperfunctoryenjoymentoftheteashepreparedforhim.Buthedidnotcomeagainforsometime,andwhenhedidcome,hesatstifflysilent,whilehisbrothersdidmostofthetalking.

  AstoCalderwell——Calderwellseemedsuddenlytohavelosthisinterestinimpenetrableforestsandunclimbablemountains.

  NothingmoreintricatethanthelongBeaconStreetboulevard,ormoreinaccessiblethanCoreyHillseemedworthexploring,apparently.AccordingtoCalderwell’sownversionofit,hehad\"settleddown\";hewasgoingto\"besomethingthatwassomething.\"

  AndhedidspendsundryofhismorninghoursinaBostonlawofficewithponderous,calf—boundvolumesspreadinimposingarrayonthedeskbeforehim.Otherhours——manyhours——hespentwithBilly.

  Oneday,verysoon,infact,aftershearrivedinBoston,BillyaskedCalderwellabouttheHenshaws.

  \"Tellmeaboutthem,\"shesaid.\"Tellmewhattheyhavebeendoingalltheseyears.\"

  \"Tellyouaboutthem!Why,don’tyouknow?\"

  Sheshookherhead.

  \"No.Cyrilsaysnothing.Williamlittlemore——aboutthemselves;

  andyouknowwhatBertramis.Onecanhardlyseparatesensefromnonsensewithhim.\"

  \"Youdon’tknow,then,howsplendidlyBertramhasdonewithhisart?\"

  \"No;onlyfromthemostcasualhearsay.Hashedonewellthen?\"

  \"Finely!Thepublichasbeenhisforyears,andnowthecriticsaretumblingovereachothertodohimhonor.Theyraveabouthis’sensitive,brilliant,nervoustouch,’——whateverthatmaybe;his’marvelouscolorsense’;his’beautyoflineandpose.’Andtheyquarreloverwhetherit’srealismoridealismthatconstituteshischarm.\"

  \"I’msoglad!Andisitstillthe’FaceofaGirl’?\"

  \"Yes;onlyhe’sdoingstraightportraiturenowaswell.It’sgottobequitethethingtobe’done’byHenshaw;andthere’smanyafairladythathasgraciouslycommissionedhimtopaintherportrait.He’safinefellow,too——amightyfinefellow.Youmaynotknow,perhaps,butthreeorfouryearsagohewas——well,notwild,but’frolicsome,’hewouldprobablyhavecalledit.Hegotinwithalotoffellowsthat——well,thatweren’tgoodforachapofBertram’stemperament.\"

  \"Like——Mr.Seaver?\"

  Calderwellturnedsharply.

  \"DidYOUknowSeaver?\"hedemandedinobvioussurprise.

  \"IusedtoSEEhim——withBertram.\"

  \"Oh!Well,heWASoneofthem,unfortunately.ButBertramshippedhimyearsago.\"

  Billygaveasuddenradiantsmile——butshechangedthesubjectatonce.

  \"AndMr.Williamstillcollects,Isuppose,\"sheobserved.

  \"Jove!Ishouldsayhedid!I’veforgottenthelatest;buthe’safinefellow,too,likeBertram.\"

  \"And——Mr.Cyril?\"

  Calderwellfrowned.

  \"Thatchap’saposerforme,Billy,andnomistake.Ican’tmakehimout!\"

  \"What’sthematter?\"

  \"Idon’tknow.ProbablyI’mnot’tunedtohispitch.’BertramtoldmeoncethatCyrilwasverysensitivelystrung,andneverrespondeduntilacertainnotewasstruck.Well,Ihaven’teverfoundthatnote,Ireckon.\"

  Billylaughed.

  \"IneverheardBertramsaythat,butIthinkIknowwhathemeans;

  andhe’sright,too.IbegintorealizenowwhatajanglingdiscordImusthavecreatedwhenItriedtoharmonizewithhimthreeyearsago!Butwhatishedoinginhismusic?\"

  Theothershruggedhisshoulders.

  \"Samething.Playsoccasionally,andplayswell,too;buthe’ssoerraticit’sdifficulttogethimtodoit.Everythingmustbejustso,youknow——air,light,piano,andaudience.He’sgotanotherbookout,I’mtold——aprofoundtreatiseonsomebody’ssomethingorother——musical,ofcourse.\"

  \"Andheusedtowritemusic;doesn’thedothatanymore?\"

  \"Ibelieveso.Ihearofitoccasionallythroughmusicalfriendsofmine.Theyevenplayittomesometimes.ButIcan’tstandformuchofit——hisstuff——really,Billy.\"

  \"’Stuff’indeed!Andwhynot?\"AnoddhostilityshowedinBilly’seyes.

  AgainCalderwellshruggedhisshoulders.

  \"Don’taskme.Idon’tknow.Butthey’realwaysdeadslow,somberthings,withthewailofalostspiritshriekingthroughthem.\"

  \"ButIjustlovelostspiritsthatwail,\"avowedBilly,withmorethanashadeofreproachinhervoice.

  Calderwellstared;thenheshookhishead.

  \"Notinmine,thankyou;\"heretortedwhimsically.\"Iprefermyspiritsofamoresaneandcheerfulsort.\"

  Thegirllaughed,butalmostinstantlyshefellsilent.

  \"I’vebeenwondering,\"shebeganmusingly,afteratime,\"whysomeoneofthosethreemendoesnot——marry.\"

  \"Youwouldn’twonder——ifyouknewthembetter,\"declaredCalderwell.

  \"Nowthink.Let’sbeginatthetopoftheStrata——bytheway,Bertram’snameforthatestablishmentismightyclever!First,Cyril:accordingtoBertramCyrilhates’allkindsofwomenandotherconfusion’;andIfancyBertramhitsitaboutright.SothatsettlesCyril.Thenthere’sWilliam——youknowWilliam.AnygirlwouldsayWilliamwasadear;butWilliamisn’taMARRYINGman.Dadsays,\"——Calderwell’svoicesoftenedalittle——\"dadsaysthatWilliamandhisyoungwifewerethemostdevotedcouplethatheeversaw;

  andthatwhenshediedsheseemedtotakewithherthewholeofWilliam’sheart——thatis,whathadn’tgonewiththebabyafewyearsbefore.Therewasaboy,youknow,thatdied.\"

  \"Yes,Iknow,\"noddedBilly,quicktearsinhereyes.\"AuntHannahtoldme.\"

  \"Well,thatcountsoutWilliam,then,\"saidCalderwell,withanairoffinality.

  \"ButhowaboutBertram?Youhaven’tsettledBertram,\"laughedBilly,archly.

  \"Bertram!\"Calderwell’seyeswidened.\"Billy,canyouimagineBertram’smakingloveinrealearnesttoagirl?\"

  \"Why,I——don’t——know;maybe!\"Billytippedherheadfromsidetosideasifshewereviewingapicturesetupforherinspection.

  \"Well,Ican’t.Inthefirstplace,nogirlwouldthinkhewasserious;orifbyanychanceshedid,she’dsoondiscoverthatitwastheturnofherheadorthetiltofherchinthatheadmired——

  TOPAINT.Nowisn’tthatso?\"

  Billylaughed,butshedidnotanswer.

  \"Itis,andyouknowit,\"declaredCalderwell.\"Andthatsettleshim.Nowyoucansee,perhaps,whynoneofthesemen——willmarry.\"

  ItwasalongminutebeforeBillyspoke.

  \"Notabitofit.Idon’tseeitatall,\"shedeclaredwithroguishmerriment.\"Moreover,Ithinkthatsomeday,someoneofthem——willmarry,SirDoubtful!\"

  Calderwellthrewaquickglanceintohereyes.Evidentlysomethinghesawtheresentaswiftshadowtohisown.Hewaitedamoment,thenaskedabruptly:

  \"Billy,WON’Tyoumarryme?\"

  Billyfrowned,thoughhereyesstilllaughed.

  \"Hugh,Itoldyounottoaskmethatagain,\"shedemurred.

  \"AndItoldyounottoaskimpossibilitiesofme,\"heretortedimperturbably.\"Billy,won’tyou,now——seriously?\"

  \"Seriously,no,Hugh.Pleasedon’tletusgoalloverthatagainwhenwe’vedoneitsomanytimes.\"

  \"No,let’sdon’t,\"agreedtheman,cheerfully.\"Andwedon’thaveto,either,ifyou’llonlysay’yes,’nowrightaway,withoutanymorefuss.\"

  Billysighedimpatiently.

  \"Hugh,won’tyouunderstandthatI’mserious?\"shecried;thensheturnedsuddenly,withapeculiarflashinhereyes.

  \"Hugh,Idon’tbelieveBertramhimselfcouldmakeloveanymorenonsensicallythanyoucan!\"

  Calderwelllaughed,buthefrowned,too;andagainhethrewintoBilly’sfacethatkeenlyquestioningglance.Hesaidsomething——alightsomething——thatbroughtthelaughtoBilly’slipsinspiteofherself;buthewasstillfrowningwhenheleftthehousesomeminuteslater,andtheshadowwasnotgonefromhiseyes.

  CHAPTERXXIII

  BERTRAMDOESSOMEQUESTIONING

  Billy’stimewaswelloccupied.Thereweresomany,manythingsshewishedtodo,andsofew,fewhoursinwhichtodothem.Firsttherewashermusic.ShemadearrangementsatoncetostudywithoneofBoston’sbestpianoteachers,andshealsomadeplanstocontinueherFrenchandGerman.Shejoinedamusicalclub,aliteraryclub,andamorestrictlysocialclub;andtonumerouschurchcharitiesandphilanthropicenterprisesshelentmorethanhername,givingfreelyofbothtimeandmoney.

  Fridayafternoons,ofcourse,weretobeheldsacredtotheSymphonyconcerts;andoncertainWednesdaymorningstherewastobeaseriesofrecitals,inwhichshewasgreatlyinterested.

  ForSocietywithacapitalS,Billycaredlittle;butforsociabilitywithasmalls,shecaredmuch;andverywidesheopenedherdoorstoherfriends,lavishinguponthemawealthofhospitality.Nordidtheyallcomeincarriagesorautomobiles——

  thesefriends.Acertainpale—facedlittlewidowoverattheSouthEndknewjusthowgoodMissNeilson’steatastedonacrispOctoberafternoonandMarieHawthorn,afrailyoungwomanwhogavemusiclessons,knewjusthowrestfulwasMissNeilson’scouchafterawearydayoflongwalksandfretfulpupils.

  \"Buthowintheworlddoyoudiscoverthemall——theseforlornspecimensofhumanity?\"queriedBertramoneevening,whenhehadfoundBillyentertainingafreckled—facedmessenger—boywithaplateoficecreamandabigsquareofcake.

  \"Anywhere——everywhere,\"smiledBilly.

  \"Well,thislastcandidateforyourfavor,whohasjustgone——who’she?\"

  \"Idon’tknow,beyondthathisnameis’Tom,’andthathelikesicecream.\"

  \"Andyouneversawhimbefore?\"

  \"Never.\"

  \"Humph!Onewouldn’tthinkit,toseehischarmingairofnonchalantaccustomedness.\"

  \"Oh,butitdoesn’ttakemuchtomakealittlefellowlikethatfeelathome,\"laughedBilly.

  \"Andareyouinthehabitoffeedingeveryonewhocomestoyourhouse,onicecreamandchocolatecake?Ithoughtthatstonedoorstepofyourswaslookingalittleworn.\"

  \"Notabitofit,\"retortedBilly.\"ThislittlechapcamewithamessagejustasIwasfinishingdinner.Theicecreamwasparticularlygoodto—night,anditoccurredtomethathemightlikeataste;soIgaveittohim.\"

  Bertramraisedhiseyebrowsquizzically.

  \"Verykind,ofcourse;but——whyicecream?\"hequestioned.\"I

  thoughtitwasroastbeefandboiledpotatoesthatwassupposedtobehandedouttogaunt—eyedhunger.\"

  \"Itis,\"noddedBilly,\"andthat’swhyIthinksometimesthey’dlikeicecreamandchocolatefrosting.Besides,togivesugarplumsonedoesn’thavetounwindyardsofredtape,orworryabout’pauperizingthepoor.’Togiveredflannelsandatonofcoal,onemustbeproperlycircumspectandconsultrecordsandcitymissionaries,ofcourse;andthat’swhyit’ssuchareliefsometimesjusttohandoverasimplelittlesugarplumandseethemsmile.\"

  ForaminuteBertramwassilent,thenheaskedabruptly:

  \"Billy,whydidyouleavetheStrata?\"

  Billywastakenquitebysurprise.Apinkflushspreadtoherforehead,andhertonguestumbledatfirstoverherreply.

  \"Why,I——itseemed——you——why,IlefttogotoHampdenFalls,tobesure.Don’tyouremember?\"shefinishedgaily.

  \"Oh,yes,IrememberTHAT,\"concededBertramwithdisdainfulemphasis.\"ButwhydidyougotoHampdenFalls?\"

  \"Why,it——itwastheonlyplacetogo——thatis,IWANTEDtogothere,\"shecorrectedhastily.\"Didn’tAuntHannahtellyouthatI——Iwashomesicktogetbackthere?\"

  \"Oh,yes,AuntHannahSAIDthat,\"observedtheman;\"butwasn’tthathomesicknessalittle——sudden?\"

  Billyblushedpinkagain.

  \"Why,maybe;but——well,homesicknessisalwaysmoreorlesssudden;

  isn’tit?\"sheparried.

  Bertramlaughed,buthiseyesgrewsuddenlyalmosttender.

  \"Seehere,Billy,youcan’tbluffworthacent,\"hedeclared.\"Youaremuchtoorefreshinglyfrankforthat.Somethingwasthetrouble.Nowwhatwasit?Won’tyoutellme,please?\"

  Billypouted.Shehesitatedandgazedanywherebutintothechallengingeyesbeforeher.Thenverysuddenlyshelookedstraightintothem.

  \"Verywell,thereWASareasonformyleaving,\"sheconfessedalittlebreathlessly.\"I——didn’twantto——botheryouanymore——allofyou.\"

  \"Botherus!\"

  \"No.Ifoundout.Youcouldn’tpaint;Mr.Cyrilcouldn’tplayorwrite;and——andeverythingwasdifferentbecauseIwasthere.ButIdidn’tblameyou——no,no!\"sheassuredhimhastily.\"ItwasonlythatI——foundout.\"

  \"AndmayIaskHOWyouobtainedthismostextraordinaryinformation?\"

  demandedBertram,savagely.

  Billyshookherhead.Herroundlittlechinlookedsuddenlysquareanddetermined.

  \"Youmayask,butIshallnottell,\"shedeclaredfirmly.

  IfBertramhadknownBillyjustalittlebetterhewouldhaveletthematterdropthere;buthedidnotknowBilly,soheasked:

  \"WasitanythingIdid——orsaid?\"

  Thegirldidnotanswer.

  \"Billy,wasit?\"Bertram’svoiceshowedterrornow.

  Billylaughedunexpectedly.

  \"DoyouthinkI’mgoingtosay’no’toaseriesofquestions,andthengivethewholethingawaybymysilencewhenyoucometotherightone?\"shedemandedmerrily.\"No,sir!\"

  \"Well,anyhow,itwasn’tI,then,\"sighedthemaninrelief;\"foryoujustobservedthatyouwerenotgoingtosay’notoaseriesofquestions’——andthatwasthefirstone.SoI’vefoundoutthatmuch,anyhow,\"heconcludedtriumphantly.

  Thegirleyedhimforamomentinsilence;thensheshookherhead.

  \"I’mnotgoingtobecaughtthatway,either,\"shesmiled.\"Youknow——justwhatyoudidinthefirstplaceaboutit:nothing.\"

  Themanstirredrestlesslyandpondered.Afteralongpauseheadoptednewtactics.Withasearchingstudyofherfacetonotetheslightestchange,heenumerated:

  \"WasitCyril,then?Will?AuntHannah?Kate?Itcouldn’thavebeenPete,orDongLing!\"

  Billystillsmiledinscrutably.AtnonamehadBertramdetectedsomuchastheflickerofaneyelid;andwithaglancehalf—admiring,half—chagrined,hefellbackintohischair.

  \"I’llgiveitup.You’vewon,\"heacknowledged.\"But,Billy,\"——

  hismannerchangedsuddenly——\"IwonderifyouknowjustwhataholeyouleftintheStratawhenyouwentaway.\"

  \"ButIcouldn’thave——inthewholeStrata,\"objectedBilly.\"I

  occupiedonlyonestratum,andastratumdoesn’tgoupanddown,youknow,onlyacross;andminewasthesecondfloor.\"

  Bertramgaveaslowshakeofhishead.

  \"Iknow;butyourswasafreakformation,\"hemaintainedgravely.

  \"ItDIDgoupanddown.Honestly,Billy,wedidcare——lots.WillandIwereinconsolable,andevenCyrilplayeddirgesforaweek.\"

  \"Didhe?\"gurgledBilly,withsuddenjoyousness.\"I’msoglad!\"

  \"Thankyou,\"murmuredBertram,disapprovingly.\"Wehadn’tconsidereditasubjectforexultation.\"

  \"What?Oh,Ididn’tmeanthat!Thatis——\"shestoppedhelplessly.

  \"Oh,nevermindabouttryingtoexplain,\"interposedBertram.\"I

  fancytheremedywouldbeworsethanthedisease,inthiscase.\"

  \"Nonsense!IonlymeantthatIliketobemissed——sometimes,\"

  retortedBilly,alittlenettled.

  \"Andyourejoicethentohavememope,Cyrilplaydirges,andWillwandermournfullyaboutthehousewithSpunkieinhisarms!YoushouldhaveseenWilliam.Ifhisforlornnessdidnotbringtearstoyoureyes,thegraceofthepinkbowthatloppedbehindSpunkie’sleftearwouldsurelyhavebroughtacopiousflow.\"

  Billylaughed,buthereyesgrewtender.

  \"DidUncleWilliamdo——that?\"sheasked.

  \"Hedid——andhedidmore.Petetoldmeafteratimethatyouhadnotleftonethinginthehouse,anywhere;butoneday,overbehindWilliam’smosttreasuredLowestoft,Ifoundasmallshellhairpin,andaflatbrownsilkbuttonthatIrecognizedascomingfromoneofyourdresses.\"

  \"Oh!\"saidBilly,softly.\"DearUncleWilliam——andhowgoodhewastome!\"

  CHAPTERXXIV

  CYRIL,THEENIGMA

  PerhapsitwasbecauseBillysawsolittleofCyrilthatitwasCyrilwhomshewishedparticularlytosee.William,Bertram,Calderwell——allherotherfriendscamefrequentlytothelittlehouseonthehill,Billytoldherself;onlyCyrilheldaloof——anditwasCyrilthatshewanted.

  Billysaidthatitwashismusic;thatshewantedtohearhimplay,andthatshewantedhimtohearher.Shefeltgrievedandchagrined.Notoncesinceshehadcomehadheseemedinterested——

  reallyinterestedinhermusic.Hehadaskedher,itistrue,inaperfunctorywaywhatshehaddone,andwhoherteachershadbeen.

  Butallthewhileshewasansweringshehadfeltthathewasnotlistening;thathedidnotcare.Andshecaredsomuch!Sheknewnowthatallherpractisingthroughthelonghardmonthsofstudy,hadbeenforCyril.Everyscalehadbeensmoothedforhisears,andeveryphrasehadbeeninterpretedwithhisapprobationinview.

  Acrossthewidewasteofwatershisfacehadshonelikeastarofpromise,beckoningheronandontoheightsunknownAndnowshewashereinBoston,butshecouldnotevenplaythescale,norinterpretthephrasefortheeartowhichtheyhadbeensolaboriouslyattuned;andCyril’sface,intheflesh,wasnobeckoningstarofpromise,butwasathingascoldandrelentlessaswasthewasteofwatersacrosswhichithadshoneinthepast.

  Billydidnotunderstandit.Sheknew,itistrue,ofCyril’sreputedaversiontowomeningeneralandtonoise;butshewasneitherwomeningeneralnornoise,shetoldherselfindignantly.

  Shewasonlythelittlemaid,grownthreeyearsolder,whohadsatathisfeetandadoringlylistenedtoallthathehadbeenpleasedtosayintheolddaysatthetopoftheStrata.Andhehadbeenkindthen——verykind,Billydeclaredstoutly.Hehadbeenpatientandinterested,too,andhehadseemednotonlywilling,butgladtoteachher,whilenow——

  SometimesBillythoughtshewouldaskhimcandidlywhatwasthematter.Butitwasalwaystheold,frankBillythatthoughtthis;

  theimpulsiveBilly,thathadgoneuptoCyril’sroomsyearsbeforeandcheerfullyannouncedthatshehadcometogetacquainted.Itwasneverthesensible,circumspectBillythatAuntHannahhadforthreeyearsbeenshapingandcoaxingintobeing.ButeventhisBillyfrownedrebelliously,anddeclaredthatsometimesomethingshouldbesaidthatwouldatleastgivehimachancetoexplain.

  InalltheweekssinceBilly’spurchaseofHillside,Cyrilhadbeenthereonlytwice,anditwasnearlyThanksgivingnow.Billyhadseenhimonceortwice,also,attheBeaconStreethouse,whensheandAuntHannahhaddinedthere;butonalltheseoccasionshehadbeeneitherthecoldlyreservedguestorthepainfullypunctilioushost.Neverhadhebeenintheleastapproachable.

  \"HetreatsmeexactlyashetreatedpoorlittleSpunkthatfirstnight,\"Billydeclaredhotlytoherself.

  OnlyoncesinceshecamehadBillyheardCyrilplay,andthatwaswhenshehadsharedtheprivilegewithhundredsofothersatapublicconcert.Shehadsatthenentranced,withhereyesontheclean—cuthandsomeprofileofthemanwhoplayedwithsosureaskillandpower,yetwithoutanotebeforehim.Afterwardshehadmethimfacetoface,andhadtriedtotellhimhowmovedshewas;

  butinheragitation,andbecauseofastrangeshynessthathadsuddenlycometoher,shehadendedonlyinstammeringoutsomeflippantbanalitythathadbroughttohisfacemerelyaboredsmileofacknowledgment.

  Twiceshehadaskedhimtoplayforher;buteachtimehehadbeggedtobeexcused,courteously,butdecidedly.

  \"It’snousetotease,\"Bertramhadinterposedonce,withanairywaveofhishands.\"Thislionalwaysdidrefusetoroartoorder.

  Ifyoureallymusthearhim,you’llhavetoslipup—stairsandcampoutsidehisdoor,waitingpatientlyforsuchcrumbsasmayfallfromhistable.\"

  \"Aren’tyourmetaphorsalittlemixed?\"questionedCyrilirritably.

  \"Yes,sir,\"acknowledgedBertramwithunruffledtemper.\"butI

  don’tmindifBillydoesn’t.Ionlymeanthertounderstandthatshe’dhavetodoassheusedtodo——listenoutsideyourdoor.\"

  Billy’scheeksreddened.

  \"ButthatiswhatIsha’n’tdo,\"sheretortedwithspirit.\"And,moreover,Istillhavehopesthatsomedayhe’llplaytome.\"

  \"Maybe,\"concededBertram,doubtfully;\"ifthestoolandthepianoandthepedalsandtheweatherandhisfingersandyourearsandmywatcharealljustright——thenhe’llplay.\"

  \"Nonsense!\"scowledCyril.\"I’llplay,ofcourse,someday.ButI’drathernottoday.\"Andtherethematterhadended.SincethenBillyhadnotaskedhimtoplay.

  CHAPTERXXV

  THEOLDROOM——ANDBILLY

  ThanksgivingwastobeagreatdayintheHenshawfamily.TheHenshawbrothersweretoentertain.BillyandAuntHannahhadbeeninvitedtodinner;andsojoyouslyhospitablewasWilliam’sinvitationthatitwouldhaveincludedthenewkittenandthecanaryifBillywouldhaveconsentedtobringthem.

  OncemorePetesweptandgarnishedthehouse,andoncemoreDongLingspoileduncountedsquaresofchocolatetryingtomakethebafflingfudge.BertramsaidthattheentireStratawasa—quiver.

  NotbutthatBillyandAuntHannahhadvisitedtherebefore,butthatthiswasdifferent.Theyweretocomeatnoonthistime.

  Thisvisitwasnottobeatantalizinglittlepieceofstiffnessanhourandahalflong.Itwastobeasatisfying,whole—souledmatterofhalfaday’scomradeship,almostlikeoldtimes.Sooncemoretherosesgracedtherooms,andaflaringpinkbowadornedSpunkie’sfatneck;andoncemoreBertramplacedhislatest\"FaceofaGirl\"inthebestpossiblelight.Therewasstilladifference,however,forthistimeCyrildidnotbringanymusicdowntothepiano,nordisplayanywhereacopyofhisnewestbook.

  Thedinnerwastobeatthreeo’clock,butbyspecialinvitationtheguestsweretoarriveattwelve;andpromptlyattheappointedhourtheycame.

  \"There,thisissomethinglike,\"exultedBertram,whentheladies,divestedoftheirwraps,toastedtheirfeetbeforetheopenfireinhisden.

  \"Indeeditis,fornowI’vetimetoseeeverything——everythingyou’vedonesinceI’vebeengone,\"criedBilly,gazingeagerlyabouther.

  \"Hm—m;well,THATwasn’twhatImeant,\"shruggedBertram.

  \"Ofcoursenot;butit’swhatImeant,\"retortedBilly.\"Andthereareotherthings,too.Iexpecttherearehalfadozennew’OldBlues’andblackbasaltsthatIwanttosee;eh,UncleWilliam?\"

  shefinished,smilingintotheeyesofthemanwhohadbeengazingatherwithdotingprideforthelastfiveminutes.

  \"Ho!Willisn’tonteapotsnow,\"quothBertram,beforehisbrotherhadachancetoreply.\"Youmightdangletheoldest’OldBlue’

  thateverwasbeforehimnow,andhe’dpayscantattentionifhehappenedatthesametimetogethiseyesonsomeoldpewterchainwithagreenstoneinit.\"

  Billylaughed;butatthelookofgenuinedistressthatcameintoWilliam’sface,shesoberedatonce.

  \"Don’tyoulethimteaseyou,UncleWilliam,\"shesaidquickly.

  \"I’msurepewterchainswithgreenstonesinthemsoundjustawfullyinteresting,andIwanttoseethemrightawaynow.Come,\"

  shefinished,springingtoherfeet,\"takemeup—stairs,please,andshowthemtome.\"

  Williamshookhisheadandsaid,\"No,no!\"protestingthatwhathehadwerescarcelyworthherattention;butevenwhilehetalkedherosetohisfeetandadvancedhalfeagerly,halfreluctantly,towardthedoor.

  \"Nonsense,\"saidBilly,fondly,asshelaidherhandonhisarm.

  \"Iknowtheyareverymuchworthseeing.Come!\"Andsheledthewayfromtheroom.\"Oh,oh!\"sheexclaimedafewmomentslater,asshestoodbeforeasmallcabinetinoneofWilliam’srooms.\"Oh,oh,howpretty!\"

  \"Doyoulikethem?Ithoughtyouwould,\"triumphedWilliam,quickjoydrivingawaytheanxiousfearinhiseyes.\"Yousee,I——I

  thoughtofyouwhenIgotthem——everyoneofthem.Ithoughtyou’dlikethem.ButIhaven’tverymany,yet,ofcourse.Thisisthelatestone.\"Andhetenderlyliftedfromitsblackvelvetmatacurioussilvernecklacemadeofsmall,flat,chain—linkeddisks,heavilychased,andsetatregularintervalswithastrange,blue—

  greenstone.

  Billyhungaboveitenraptured.

  \"Oh,whatabeauty!Andthis,Isuppose,isBertram’s’pewterchain’!’Pewter,’indeed!\"shescoffed.\"Tellme,UncleWilliam,wheredidyougetit?\"

  AnduncleWilliamtold,happily,thirstily,drinkinginBilly’sevidentinterestwithdelight.Therewere,too,aquaintly—setringandacat’s—eyebrooch;andtoeachbelongedastorywhichWilliamwasequallygladtotell.Therewereothertreasures,also:buckles,rings,brooches,andnecklaces,someofdullgold,someofequallydullsilver;butallofodddesignandcuriousworkmanship,studdedhereandtherewithbitsofred,green,yellow,blue,andflame—coloredstones.VerylearnedlythenfromWilliam’slipsfellthenewvocabularythathadcometohimwithhislatesttreasures:chrysoprase,carnelian,girasol,onyx,plasma,sardonyx,lapislazuli,tourmaline,chrysolite,hyacinth,andcarbuncle.

  \"Theyarelovely,perfectlylovely!\"breathedBilly,whenthelastchainhadslippedthroughherfingersintoWilliam’shand.\"I

  thinktheyaretheverynicestthingsyouevercollected.\"

  \"SodoI,\"agreedtheman,emphatically.\"Andtheyare——different,too.\"

  \"Theyare,\"saidBilly,\"very——different.\"Butshewasnotlookingatthejewelry:hereyeswereonasmallshellhairpinandabrownsilkbuttonhalfhiddenbehindaLowestoftteapot.

  Onthewaydown—stairsWilliamstoppedamomentatBilly’soldrooms.

  \"Iwishyouwereherenow,\"hesaidwistfully.\"They’reallreadyforyou——theserooms.\"

  \"Oh,butwhydon’tyouusethem?——suchprettyrooms!\"criedBilly,quickly.

  Williamgaveagestureofdissent.

  \"Wehavenouseforthem;besides,theybelongtoyouandAuntHannah.Youleftyourimprintlongago,mydear——weshouldnotfeelathomeinthem.\"

  \"Oh,butyoushould!Youmustn’tfeellikethat!\"objectedBilly,hurriedlycrossingtheroomtothewindowtohideasuddennervousnessthathadassailedher.\"Andhere’smypiano,too,andopen!\"shefinishedgaily,droppingherselfuponthepianostoolanddashingintoabrilliantmazourka.

  Billy,likeCyril,hadawayofworkingoffhermoodsatherfingertips;andto—daythetrippingnotesandcrashingchordstoldofanervousexcitementthatwasnotalljoy.FromthedoorwayWilliamwatchedherflyingfingerswithfondpride,anditwasveryreluctantlythatheaccededtoPete’srequesttogodown—stairsforamomenttosettleavexedquestionconcerningthetabledecorations.

  Billy,leftalone,stillplayed,butwithadifference.Thetrippingnotesslowedintoaweirdmelodythatroseandfellandlostitselfintheexquisiteharmonythathadbeenbornofthecrashingchords.Billywasimprovisingnow,andintohermusichadcreptsomethingofherold—timelongingwhenshehadcometothathousealonely,orphangirl,insearchofahome.Onandonsheplayed;thenwithadiscordantnote,shesuddenlyrosefromthepiano.ShewasthinkingofKate,andwonderingif,hadKatenot\"managed\"thelittleroomwouldstillbehome.

  SoswiftlydidBillycrosstothedoorthatthemanonthestairsoutsidehadnottimetogetquiteoutofsight.Billydidnotseehisface,however;shesawonlyapairofgray—trouseredlegsdisappearingaroundthecurveofthelandingabove.Shethoughtnothingofituntillaterwhendinnerwasannounced,andCyrilcamedown—stairs;thenshesawthathe,andheonly,thatafternoonworetrousersofthatparticularshadeofgray.

  Thedinnerwasagreatsuccess.Eventhechocolatefudgeinthelittlecutglassbonbondisheswasperfect;anditwasaquestionwhetherPeteorDongLingtriedthehardertoplease.

  Afterdinnerthefamilygatheredinthedrawing—roomandchattedpleasantly.Bertramdisplayedhisprettiestandnewestpictures,andBillyplayedandsung——bright,tunefullittlethingsthatsheknewAuntHannahandUncleWilliamliked.IfCyrilwaspleasedordispleased,hedidnotshowit——butBillyhadceasedtoplayforCyril’sears.Shetoldherselfthatshedidnotcare;butshedidwonder:wasthatCyrilonthestairs,andifso——whatwashedoingthere?

  CHAPTERXXVI

  \"MUSICHATHCHARMS\"

  TwodaysafterThanksgivingCyrilcalledatHillside.

  \"I’vecometohearyouplay,\"heannouncedabruptly.

  Billy’sheartsungwithinher——buthertemperrose.Didhethinkthenthathehadbuttobeckonandshewouldcome——andatthislateday,sheaskedherself.Aloudshesaid:

  \"Play?Butthisis’sosudden’!Besides,youhaveheardme.\"

  Themanmadeadisdainfulgesture.

  \"Notthat.Imeanplay——reallyplay.Billy,whyhaven’tyouplayedtomebefore?\"

  Billy’schinroseperceptibly.

  \"Whyhaven’tyouaskedme?\"sheparried.

  ToBilly’ssurprisethemanansweredthiswithcalmdirectness.

  \"BecauseCalderwellsaidthatyouwereadandyplayer,andIdon’tcarefordandyplayers.\"

  Billylaughednow.

  \"AndhowdoyouknowI’mnotadandyplayer,SirImpertinent?\"shedemanded.

  \"BecauseI’veheardyou——whenyouweren’t.\"

  \"Thankyou,\"murmuredBilly.

  Cyrilshruggedhisshoulders.

  \"Oh,youknowverywellwhatImean,\"hedefended.\"I’veheardyou;that’sall.\"

  \"When?\"

  \"Thatdoesn’tsignify.\"

  Billywassilentforamoment,hereyesgravelystudyinghisface.

  Thensheasked:

  \"Wereyoulong——onthatstairway?\"

  \"Eh?What?Oh!\"Cyril’sforeheadgrewsuddenlypink.\"Well?\"hefinishedalittleaggressively.

  \"Oh,nothing,\"smiledthegirl.\"Ofcoursepeoplewholiveinglasshousesmustnotthrowstones.\"

  \"Verywellthen,Ididlisten,\"acknowledgedtheman,testily.\"I

  likedwhatyouwereplaying.Ihoped,down—stairslater,thatyou’dplayitagain;butyoudidn’t.Icameto—daytohearit.\"

  AgainBilly’sheartsungwithinher——butagainhertemperrose,too.

  \"Idon’tthinkIfeellikeit,\"shesaidsweetly,withashakeofherhead.\"Notto—day.\"

  ForabriefmomentCyrilstaredfrowningly;thenhisfacelightedwithhisraresmile.

  \"I’mfairlycheckmated,\"hesaid,risingtohisfeetandgoingstraighttothepiano.

  Forlongminutesheplayed,modulatingfromoneenchantingcompositiontoanother,andfinishingwiththeone\"allchordswithbigbassnotes\"thatmarchedonandon——theoneBillyhadsatlongagoonthestairstohear.

  \"There!Nowwillyouplayforme?\"heasked,risingtohisfeet,andturningreproachfuleyesuponher.

  Billy,too,rosetoherfeet.Herfacewasflushedandhereyeswereshining.Herlipsquiveredwithemotion.Aswasalwaysthecase,Cyril’smusichadcarriedherquiteoutofherself.

  \"Oh,thankyou,thankyou,\"shesighed.\"Youdon’tknow——youcan’tknowhowbeautifulitallis——tome!\"

  \"Thankyou.Thensurelynowyou’llplaytome,\"hereturned.

  AlookofrealdistresscametoBilly’sface.

  \"ButIcan’t——notwhatyouheardtheotherday,\"shecriedremorsefully.\"Yousee,Iwas——onlyimprovising.\"

  Cyrilturnedquickly.

  \"Onlyimprovising!Billy,didyoueverwriteitdown——anyofyourimprovising?\"

  AnembarrassedredflewtoBilly’sface.

  \"Not——notthatamountedto——well,thatis,some——alittle,\"shestammered.

  \"Letmeseeit.\"

  \"No,no,Icouldn’t——notYOU!\"

  AgaintheraresmilelightedCyril’seyes.

  \"Billy,letmeseethatpaper——please.\"

  Veryslowlythegirlturnedtowardthemusiccabinet.Shehesitated,glancedoncemoreappealinglyintoCyril’sface,thenwithnervoushasteopenedthelittlemahoganydoorandtookfromoneoftheshelvesasheetofmanuscriptmusic.But,likeashychildwithherfirstcopybook,sheheldithalfbehindherbackasshecametowardthepiano.

  \"Thankyou,\"saidCyrilashereachedfaroutforthemusic.Thenextmomentheseatedhimselfagainatthepiano.

  Twiceheplayedthelittlesongthroughcarefully,slowly.

  \"Now,singit,\"hedirected.

  Falteringly,inaveryfaintvoice,andwithverymanybreathstakenwheretheyshouldnothavebeentaken,Billyobeyed.

  \"Whenwewanttoshowoffyoursong,Billy,wewon’taskyoutosingit,\"observedtheman,dryly,whenshehadfinished.

  Billylaughedanddimpledintoablush.

  \"WhenIwanttoshowoffmysongIsha’n’tbesingingittoyouforthefirsttime,\"shepouted.

  Cyrildidnotanswer.Hewasplayingoverandovercertainharmoniesinthemusicbeforehim.

  \"Hm—m;Iseeyou’vestudiedyourcounterpointtosomepurpose,\"hevouchsafed,finally;then:\"Wheredidyougetthewords?\"

  Thegirlhesitated.Theflushhaddeepenedonherface.

  \"Well,I——\"shestoppedandgaveanembarrassedlaugh.\"I’mlikethesmallboywhomadethetoys.’Igotthemalloutofmyownhead,andthere’swoodenoughtomakeanother.’\"

  \"Hm—m;indeed!\"gruntedtheman.\"Well,haveyoumadeanyothers?\"

  \"One——ortwo,maybe.\"

  \"Letmeseethem,please.\"

  \"Ithink——we’vehadenough——fortoday,\"shefaltered.

  \"Ihaven’t.Besides,ifIcouldhaveacouplemoretogowiththis,itwouldmakeaveryprettylittlegroupofsongs.\"

  \"’Togowiththis’!Whatdoyoumean?\"

  \"Tothepublishers,ofcourse.\"

  \"ThePUBLISHERS!\"

  \"Certainly.Didyouthinkyouweregoingtokeepthesesongstoyourself?\"

  \"Buttheyaren’tworthit!Theycan’tbe——goodenough!\"

  UnbelievingjoywasinBilly’svoice.

  \"No?Well,we’llletothersdecidethat,\"observedCyril,withashrug.\"Allis,ifyou’vegotanymorewood——likethis——Iadviseyoutomakeituprightaway.\"

  \"ButIhavealready!\"criedthegirl,excitedly.\"TherearelotsoflittlethingsthatI’ve——thatis,thereare——some,\"shecorrectedhastily,atthelookthatsprangintoCyril’seyes.

  \"Oh,thereare,\"laughedCyril.\"Well,we’llseewhat——\"Buthedidnotsee.Hedidnotevenfinishhissentence;forBilly’smaid,Rosa,appearedjustthenwithacard.

  \"ShowMr.Calderwellinhere,\"saidBilly.Cyrilsaidnothing——

  aloud;whichwaswell.Histhoughts,justthen,werebetterleftunspoken.

  CHAPTERXXVII

  MARIE,WHOLONGSTOMAKEPUDDINGS

  WonderfuldayscamethentoBilly.Foursongs,itseemed,hadbeenpronouncedbycompetentcriticsdecidedly\"worthit\"——unmistakably\"goodenough\";andtheyweretobebroughtoutassoonaspossible.

  \"Ofcourseyouunderstand,\"explainedCyril,\"thatthere’sno’hit’

  expected.Thankheaventheyaren’tthatsort!Andthere’snogreatmoneyinit,either.You’dhavetowriteamasterpiecelike’She’smyJu—JuBaby’orsomesuchgemtogetthe’hit’andthemoney.Butthesongsarefine,andthey’lltakewithculturedhearers.We’llgetthemintroducedbygoodsingers,ofcourse,andthey’llbefavoritessoonfortheconcertstage,andforparlors.\"

  BillysawagooddealofCyrilnow.Alreadyshewasatworkrewritingandpolishingsomeofherhalf—completedmelodies,andCyrilwashelpingher,byhisinterestaswellasbyhiscriticism.

  Hewas,infact,atthehouseveryfrequently——toofrequently,indeed,tosuiteitherBertramorCalderwell.EvenWilliamfrownedsometimeswhenhiscozychatswithBillywereinterruptedbyCyril’sappearingwitharollofnewmusicforherto\"try\";thoughWilliamtoldhimselfthatheoughttobethankfuliftherewasanythingthatcouldmakeCyrilmorecompanionable,lessreservedandmorose.AndCyrilWASdifferent——therewasnodisputingthat.

  Calderwellsaidthathehadcome\"outofhisshell\";andBertramtoldBillythatshemusthave\"foundhisnoteandstruckitgoodandhard.\"

  Billywasveryhappy.Tothelittlemusicteacher,MarieHawthorn,shetalkedmorefreely,perhaps,thanshedidtoanyoneelse.

  \"It’ssowonderful,Marie——sowonderfullywonderful,\"shesaidoneday,\"tosithereinmyownroomandsingalittlesongthatcomesfromsomewhere,anywhere,outoftheskyitself.Thenbyandby,thatlittlesongwillflyaway,away,overlandandsea;andsomedayitwilltouchsomebody’sheartjustasithastouchedmine.

  Oh,Marie,isitnotwonderful?\"

  \"Itis,dear——anditisnot.Yoursongscouldnothelpreachingsomebody’sheart.There’snothingwonderfulinthat.\"

  \"Sweetflatterer!\"

  \"ButImeanit.Theyarebeautiful;andsois——Mr.Henshaw’smusic.\"

  \"Yes,itis,\"murmuredBilly,abstractedly.

  Therewasalongpause,thenMarieaskedwithshyhesitation:

  \"Doyouthink,MissBilly——thathewouldcare?Ilistenedyesterdaywhenhewasplayingtoyou.Iwasuphereinyourroom,butwhenIheardthemusicI——Iwentout,onthestairsandsatdown.Wasitvery——badofme?\"

  Billylaughedhappily.

  \"Ifitwas,hecan’tsayanything,\"shereassuredher.\"He’sdonethesamethinghimself——andsohaveI.\"

  \"HEhasdoneit!\"

  \"Yes.ItwasathishomelastThanksgiving.Itwasthenthathefoundout——aboutmyimprovising.\"

  \"Oh—h!\"Marie’seyeswerewistful.\"Andhecaressomuchnowforyourmusic!\"

  \"Doeshe?Doyouthinkhedoes?\"demandedBilly.

  \"Iknowhedoes——andfortheonewhomakesit,too.\"

  \"Nonsense!\"laughedBilly,withpinkercheeks.\"It’sthemusic,notthemusician,thatpleaseshim.Mr.Cyrildoesn’tlikewomen.\"

  \"Hedoesn’tlikewomen!\"

  \"No.Butdon’tlooksoshocked,mydear.EveryonewhoknowsMr.

  Cyrilknowsthat.\"

  \"ButIdon’tthink——Ibelieveit,\"demurredMarie,gazingstraightintoBilly’seyes.\"I’msureIdon’tbelieveit.\"

  Underthelittlemusicteacher’ssteadygazeBillyflushedagain.

  Thelaughshegavewasanembarrassedone,butthroughitvibratedapleasedring.

  \"Nonsense!\"sheexclaimed,springingtoherfeetandmovingrestlesslyabouttheroom.WiththenextbreathshehadchangedthesubjecttoonefarremovedfromMr.Cyrilandhislikesanddislikes.

  SometimelaterBillyplayed,anditwasthenthatMariedrewalongsigh.

  \"Howbeautifulitmustbetoplay——likethat,\"shebreathed.

  \"Asifyou,amusicteacher,couldnotplay!\"laughedBilly.

  \"Notlikethat,dear.Youknowitisnotlikethat.\"

  Billyfrowned.

  \"Butyouaresoaccurate,Marie,andyoucanreadatsightsorapidly!\"

  \"Oh,yes,likealittlemachine,Iknow!\"scornedtheusuallygentleMarie,bitterly.\"Don’ttheyhaveathingofmetalthataddsfigureslikemagic?Well,I’mlikethat.IseegandIplayg;IseedandIplayd;IseefandIplayf;andafterI’veseenenoughg’sandd’sandf’sandplayedthemall,thethingisdone.

  I’veplayed.\"

  \"Why,Marie!Marie,mydear!\"Thesecondexclamationwasverytender,forMariewascrying.

  \"There!IknewIshouldsomedayhaveitout——allout,\"sobbedMarie.\"Ifeltitcoming.\"

  \"Thenperhapsyou’ll——you’llfeelbetternow,\"stammeredBilly.

  Shetriedtosaymore——otherwordsthatwouldhavebeenarealcomfort;buthertonguerefusedtospeakthem.Sheknewsowell,sowoefullywell,howverywoodenandmechanicalthelittlemusicteacher’splayingalwayshadbeen.ButthatMarieshouldrealizeitherselflikethis——thetragedyofitmadeBilly’sheartache.

  AtMarie’snextwords,however,Billycaughtherbreathinsurprise.

  \"Butyouseeitwasn’tmusic——itwasn’tevermusicthatIwanted——

  todo,\"sheconfessed.

  \"Itwasn’tmusic!Butwhat——Idon’tunderstand,\"murmuredBilly.

  \"No,Isupposenot,\"sighedtheother.\"Youplaysobeautifullyyourself.\"

  \"ButIthoughtyoulovedmusic.\"

  \"Ido.Iloveitdearly——inothers.ButIcan’t——Idon’twanttomakeitmyself.\"

  \"Butwhatdoyouwanttodo?\"

  Marielaughedsuddenly.

  \"Doyouknow,mydear,IhavehalfamindtotellyouwhatIdoliketodo——justtomakeyoustare.\"

  \"Well?\"Billy’seyeswerewidewithinterest.

  \"Ilikebestofanythingto——darnstockingsandmakepuddings.\"

  \"Marie!\"

  \"Rankheresy,isn’tit?\"smiledMarie,tearfully.\"ButIdo,truly.Ilovetoweavethethreadsevenlyinandout,andseeabigholeclose.AsforthepuddingsIdon’tmeanthecommonbread—

  and—butterkind,buttheonesthathavewhitesofeggsandfruit,andprettyquiveryjelliesallrubyandamberlights,youknow.\"

  \"Youdearlittlepieceofdomesticity,\"laughedBilly.\"Thenwhyintheworlddon’tyoudothesethings?\"

  \"Ican’t,inmyownkitchen;Ican’taffordakitchentodothemin.AndIjustcouldn’tdothem——rightalong——inotherpeople’skitchens.\"

  \"Butwhydoyou——play?\"

  \"Iwasbroughtuptoit.Youknowwehadmoneyonce,lotsofit,\"

  sighedMarie,asifsheweredeploringamisfortune.\"Andmotherwasdeterminedtohavememusical.Eventhen,asalittletot,I

  likedpudding—making,andaftermymud—piedaysIwasalwaysbeggingmothertoletmegodownintothekitchen,tocook.Butshewouldn’tallowit,ever.Sheengagedthemostexpensivemastersandsetmepractising,alwayspractising.Isimplyhadtolearnmusic;andIlearneditliketheaddingmachine.Thenafterward,whenfatherdied,andthenmother,andthemoneyflewaway,why,ofcourseIhadtodosomething,sonaturallyIturnedtothemusic.ItwasallIcoulddo.But——well,youknowhowitis,dear.Iteach,andteachwell,perhaps,sofarasthemechanicalpartgoes;butasfortherest——Iamalwayslongingforacozycornerwithabasketofstockingstomend,orakitchenwherethereisapuddingwaitingtobemade.\"

  \"Youpoordear!\"criedBilly.\"I’veapairofstockingsnowthatneedsattention,andI’vebeenjustlongingforoneofyour’quiveryjelliesallrubyandamberlights’eversinceyoumentionedthem.But——well,isthereanythingIcoulddotohelp?\"

  \"Nothing,thankyou,\"sighedMarie,risingwearilytoherfeet,andcoveringhereyeswithherhandforamoment.\"Myheadachesshockingly,butI’vegottogothisminuteandinstructlittleJennieKnowlshowtoplaythewonderfulscaleofGwithablackkeyinit.Besides,youdohelpme,youhavehelpedme,youarealwayshelpingme,dear,\"sheaddedremorsefully;\"andit’swickedofmetomakethatshadowcometoyoureyes.Pleasedon’tthinkofit,orofme,anymore.\"Andwithachokinglittlesobshehurriedfromtheroom,followedbytheamazed,questioning,sorrowfuleyesofBilly.

  CHAPTERXXVIII

  \"I’MGOINGTOWIN\"

  NearlyallofBilly’sfriendsknewthatBertramHenshawwasinlovewithBillyNeilsonbeforeBillyherselfknewit.Notthattheyregardeditasanythingserious——\"it’sonlyBertram\"wasstillsaidofhimonalmostalloccasions.ButtoBertramhimselfitwasveryserious.

  TheworldtoBertram,indeed,hadcometoassumeavastlydifferentaspectfromwhatithaddisplayedintimespast.Heretoforeithadbeenaplaythingwhichlikeajuggler’stinselballmightbetossedfromhandtohandatwill.Nowitwasnoplaything——noglitteringbauble.Itwassomethingbigandseriousandsplendid——becauseBillylivedinit;somethingthatdemandedallhispowerstodo,andbe——becauseBillywaswatching;somethingthatmightbeaHadesoftormentoranElysiumofbliss——accordingtowhetherBillysaid\"no\"or\"yes.\"

  SinceThanksgivingBertramhadknownthatitwaslove——thisconsumingfirewithinhim;andsinceThanksgivinghehadknown,too,thatitwasjealousy——thisfiercehatredofCalderwell.Hewasashamedofthehatred.Hetoldhimselfthatitwasunmanly,unkind,andunreasonable;andhevowedthathewouldovercomeit.

  Attimesheevenfanciedthathehadovercomeit;butalwaysthesightofCalderwellinBilly’slittledrawing—roomorofeventheman’scardonBilly’ssilvertraywasenoughtoshowhimthathehadnot.

  Therewereothers,too,whoannoyedBertramnotalittle,foremostofthesebeinghisownbrothers.StillhewasnotreallyworriedaboutWilliamandCyril,hetoldhimself.Williamhedidnotconsidertobeamarryingman;andCyril——everyoneknewthatCyrilwasawoman—hater.HewasdoubtlessattractednowonlybyBilly’smusic.TherewasnorealrivalrytobefearedfromWilliamandCyril.ButtherewasalwaysCalderwell,andCalderwellwasserious.Bertramdecided,therefore,aftersomeweeksoffeverishunrest,thattheonlyroadtopeacelaythroughafrankavowalofhisfeelings,andadirectappealtoBillytogivehimthegreatboonofherlove.

  Justhere,however,Bertrammetwithanunexpecteddifficulty.Hecouldnotfindwordswithwhichtomakehisavowalortopresenthisappeal.Hewassurprisedandannoyed.Neverbeforehadhebeenatalossforwords——merewords.Anditwasnotthathelackedopportunity.Hewalked,drove,andtalkedwithBilly,andalwaysshewascompanionable,attentivetowhathehadtosay.

  Neverwasshecoldorreserved.Neverdidshefailtogreethimwithacheerysmile.

  Bertramconcluded,indeed,afteratime,thatshewastoocompanionable,toocheery.Hewishedshewouldhesitate,stammer,blush;bealittleshy.Hewishedthatshewoulddisplaysurprise,annoyance,even——anythingbutthateternalairofcomradeship.Andthen,oneafternoonintheearlytwilightofaJanuaryday,hefreedhismind,quiteunexpectedly.

  \"Billy,IwishyouWOULDN’Tbeso——sofriendly!\"heexclaimedinavoicethatwasalmostsharp.

  Billylaughedatfirst,butthenextmomentashameddistressdrovethemerrimentquiteoutofherface.

  \"YoumeanthatIpresumeon——onourfriendship?\"shestammered.

  \"ThatyoufearthatIwillagain——shadowyourfootsteps?\"ItwasthefirsttimesincethememorablenightitselfthatBillyhadeverinBertram’spresencereferredtoheryoungguardianshipofhiswelfare.Sherealizednow,suddenly,thatshehadjustbeengivingthemanbeforehersomevery\"sisterlyadvice,\"andthethoughtsentaconfusedredtohercheeks.

  Bertramturnedquickly.

  \"Billy,thatwasthedearestandloveliestthingagirleverdid——

  onlyIwastoogreatachumptoappreciateit!\"finishedBertraminavoicethatwasnotquitesteady.

  \"Thankyou,\"smiledthegirl,withaslowshakeofherheadandarelievedlookinhereyes;\"butI’mafraidIcan’tquiteagreetothat.\"Thenextmomentshehaddemandedmischievously:\"Why,then,pray,thisunflatteringobjectiontomy——friendlinessnow?\"

  \"BecauseIdon’twantyouforafriend,orasister,oranythingelsethat’srelated,\"stormedBertram,withsuddenvehemence.\"I

  don’twantyouforanythingbut——awife!Billy,WON’Tyoumarryme?\"

  AgainBillylaughed——laugheduntilshesawthepainedangerleaptothegrayeyesbeforeher;thenshebecamegraveatonce.

  \"Bertram,forgiveme.Ididn’tthinkyoucould——youcan’tbe——

  serious!\"

  \"ButIam.\"

  Billyshookherhead.

  \"Butyoudon’tloveme——notME,Bertram.It’sonlytheturnofmyheador——orthetiltofmychinthatyoulove——topaint,\"sheprotested,unconsciouslyechoingthewordsCalderwellhadsaidtoherweeksbefore.\"I’monlyanother’FaceofaGirl.’\"

  \"You’retheonly’Faceofagirl’tomenow,Billy,\"declaredtheman,withdisarmingtenderness.

  \"No,no,notthat,\"demurredBilly,indistress.\"Youdon’tmeanit.Youonlythinkyoudo.Itcouldn’tbethat.Itcan’tbe!\"

  \"Butitis,dear.IthinkIhavelovedyoueversincethatnightlongagowhenIsawyourdear,startledfaceappealingtomefrombeyondSeaver’shatefulsmile.And,Billy,IneverwentoncewithSeaveragain——anywhere.Didyouknowthat?\"

  \"No;but——I’mglad——soglad!\"

  \"AndI’mglad,too.Soyousee,Imusthavelovedyouthen,thoughunconsciously,perhaps;andIloveyounow.\"

  \"No,no,pleasedon’tsaythat.Itcan’tbe——itreallycan’tbe.

  I——Idon’tloveyou——thatway,Bertram.\"

  Themanpaledalittle.

  \"Billy——forgivemeforasking,butit’ssomuchtome——isitthatthereis——someoneelse?\"Hisvoiceshook.

  \"No,no,indeed!Thereisnoone.\"

  \"It’snot——Calderwell?\"

  Billy’sforeheadgrewpink.Shelaughednervous1y.

  \"No,no,never!\"

  \"Butthereareothers,somanyothers!\"

  \"Nonsense,Bertram;there’snoone——noone,Iassureyou!\"

  \"It’snotWilliam,ofcourse,norCyril.Cyrilhateswomen.\"

  AdeeperflushcametoBilly’sface.Herchinrosealittle;andanodddefianceflashedfromhereyes.Butalmostinstantlyitwasgone,andaslowsmilehadcometoherlips.

  \"Yes,Iknow.Everyone——saysthatCyrilhateswomen,\"sheobserveddemurely.

  \"Then,Billy,Isha’n’tgiveup!\"vowedBertram,softly.\"SometimeyouWILLloveme!\"

  \"No,no,Icouldn’t.Thatis,I’mnotgoingto——tomarry,\"

  stammeredBilly.

  \"Notgoingtomarry!\"

  \"No.There’smymusic——youknowhowIlovethat,andhowmuchitistome.Idon’tthinkthere’lleverbeaman——thatI’lllovebetter.\"

  Bertramliftedhishead.Veryslowlyherosetillhissplendidsixfeetofclean—limbedstrengthandmanlybeautytoweredawayabovethelowchairinwhichBillysat.Hismouthshowednewlinesaboutthecorners,andhiseyeslookeddownverytenderlyatthegirlbesidehim;buthisvoice,whenhespoke,hadalightwhimsicalitythatdeceivedevenBilly’sears.

  \"Andsoit’smusic——acold,senselessthingofspiderymarksoncleanwhitepaper——thatismyonlyrival,\"hecried.\"ThenI’llwarnyou,Billy,I’llwarnyou.I’mgoingtowin!\"Andwiththathewasgone.

  CHAPTERXXIX

  \"I’MNOTGOINGTOMARRY\"

  BillydidnotknowwhethertobemoreamazedoramusedatBertram’sproposalofmarriage.Shewasvexed;shewasverysureofthat.

  TomarryBertram?Absurd!Thenshereflectedthat,afterall,itwasonlyBertram,soshecalmedherself.

  Still,itwasannoying.ShelikedBertram,shehadalwayslikedhim.Hewasaniceboy,andamostcongenialcompanion.Heneverboredher,asdidsomeothers;andhewasalwaysthoughtfulofcushionsandfootstoolsandcupsofteawhenonewastired.Hewas,infact,anidealfriend,justthesortshewanted;anditwassuchapitythathemustspoilitallnowwiththissillysentimentality!Andofcoursehehadspoileditall.Therewasnogoingbacknowtotheiroldfriendliness.Hewouldbemoroseorsillybyturns,accordingtowhethershefrownedorsmiled;orelsehewouldtakehimselfoffinatragicsortofwaythatwasverydisturbing.Hehadsaid,tobesure,thathewould\"win.\"Win,indeed!AsifshecouldmarryBertram!Whenshemarried,herchoicewouldfalluponaman,notaboy;abig,grave,earnestmantowhomtheworldmeantsomething;amanwholovedmusic,ofcourse;amanwhowouldsingleheroutfromalltheworld,andshowtoher,andtoheronly,thedepthandtendernessofhislove;amanwho——butshewasnotgoingtomarry,anyway,rememberedBilly,suddenly.Andwiththatshebegantocry.Thewholethingwasso\"tiresome,\"shedeclared,andso\"absurd.\"

  BillyratherdreadedhernextmeetingwithBertram.Shefeared——

  sheknewnotwhat.But,asitturnedout,sheneednothavefearedanything,forhemethertranquilly,cheerfully,asusual;andhedidnothingandsaidnothingthathemightnothavedoneandsaidbeforethattwilightchattookplace.

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