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  `Ah-yes!-Idodimlyrecallthatincident。’

  `Itwasverykindofyoutodoit。Anditwasyouwhofirststartedmeonthatcourse。OnthemorningyouleftMarygreen,whenyourgoodswereonthewaggon,youwishedmegood-bye,andsaidyourschemewastobeauniversitymanandentertheChurch-thatadegreewasthenecessaryhall-markofonewhowantedtodoanythingasatheologianorteacher。’

  `IrememberIthoughtallthatprivately;butIwonderIdidnotkeepmyowncounsel。Theideawasgivenupyearsago。’

  `Ihaveneverforgottenit。Itwasthatwhichbroughtmetothispartofthecountry,andoutheretoseeyouto-night。’

  `Comein,’saidPhillotson。`Andyourcousin,too。’

  Theyenteredtheparlouroftheschool-house,wheretherewasalampwithapapershade,whichthrewthelightdownonthreeorfourbooks。Phillotsontookitoff,sothattheycouldseeeachotherbetter,andtheraysfellonthenervouslittlefaceandvivaciousdarkeyesandhairofSue,ontheearnestfeaturesofhercousin,andontheschoolmaster’sownmaturerfaceandfigure,showinghimtobeaspareandthoughtfulpersonageoffive-and-forty,withathin-lipped,somewhatrefinedmouth,aslightlystoopinghabit,andablackfrockcoat,whichfromcontinuedfrictionsshonealittleattheshoulder-blades,themiddleoftheback,andtheelbows。

  Theoldfriendshipwasimperceptiblyrenewed,theschoolmasterspeakingofhisexperiences,andthecousinsoftheirs。HetoldthemthathestillthoughtoftheChurchsometimes,andthatthoughhecouldnotenteritashehadintendedtodoinformeryearshemightenteritasalicentiate。Meanwhile,hesaid,hewascomfortableinhispresentposition,thoughhewasinwantofapupil-teacher。

  Theydidnotstaytosupper,Suehavingtobeindoorsbeforeitgrewlate,andtheroadwasretracedtoChristminster。Thoughtheyhadtalkedofnothingmorethangeneralsubjects,Judewassurprisedtofindwhatarevelationofwomanhiscousinwastohim。Shewassovibrantthateverythingshedidseemedtohaveitssourceinfeeling。Anexcitingthoughtwouldmakeherwalkaheadsofastthathecouldhardlykeepupwithher;

  andhersensitivenessonsomepointswassuchthatitmighthavebeenmisreadasvanity。Itwaswithheart-sicknessheperceivedthat,whilehersentimentstowardshimwerethoseofthefrankestfriendlinessonly,helovedhermorethanbeforebecomingacquaintedwithher;andthegloomofthewalkhomelaynotinthenightoverhead,butinthethoughtofherdeparture。

  `WhymustyouleaveChristminster?’hesaidregretfully。`HowcanyoudootherwisethanclingtoacityinwhosehistorysuchmenasNewman,Pusey,Ward,Keble,loomsolarge!’

  `Yes-theydo。Thoughhowlargedotheyloominthehistoryoftheworld?……Whatafunnyreasonforcaringtostay!Ishouldneverhavethoughtofit!’Shelaughed。

  `Well-Imustgo,’shecontinued。`MissFontover,oneofthepartnerswhomIserve,isoffendedwithme,andIwithher;anditisbesttogo。’

  `Howdidthathappen?’

  `Shebrokesomestatuaryofmine。’

  `Oh?Wilfully?’

  `Yes。Shefounditinmyroom,andthoughitwasmypropertyshethrewitonthefloorandstampedonit,becauseitwasnotaccordingtohertaste,andgroundthearmsandtheheadofoneofthefiguresalltobitswithherheel-ahorridthing!’

  `TooCatholic-Apostolicforher,Isuppose?Nodoubtshecalledthempopishimagesandtalkedoftheinvocationofsaints。’

  `No……No,shedidn’tdothat。Shesawthematterquitedifferently。’

  `Ah!ThenIamsurprised!’

  `Yes。Itwasforquitesomeotherreasonthatshedidn’tlikemypatron-saints。SoIwasledtoretortuponher;andtheendofitwasthatIresolvednottostay,buttogetintoanoccupationinwhichIshallbemoreindependent。’

  `Whydon’tyoutryteachingagain?Youoncedid,Iheard。’

  `Ineverthoughtofresumingit;forIwasgettingonasanart-designer。’

  `DoletmeaskMr。Phillotsontoletyoutryyourhandinhisschool?Ifyoulikeit,andgotoatrainingcollege,andbecomeafirst-classcertificatedmistress,yougettwiceaslargeanincomeasanydesignerorchurchartist,andtwiceasmuchfreedom。’

  `Well-askhim。NowImustgoin。Good-bye,dearJude!Iamsogladwehavemetatlast。Weneedn’tquarrelbecauseourparentsdid,needwe?’

  Judedidnotliketoletherseequitehowmuchheagreedwithher,andwenthiswaytotheremotestreetinwhichhehadhislodging。

  TokeepSueBrideheadnearhimwasnowadesirewhichoperatedwithoutregardofconsequences,andthenexteveningheagainsetoutforLumsdon,fearingtotrusttothepersuasiveeffectsofanoteonly。Theschool-masterwasunpreparedforsuchaproposal。

  `WhatIratherwantedwasasecondyear’stransfer,asitiscalled,’

  hesaid。`Ofcourseyourcousinwoulddo,personally;butshehashadnoexperience。Oh-shehas,hasshe?Doesshereallythinkofadoptingteachingasaprofession?’

  Judesaidshewasdisposedtodoso,hethought,andhisingeniousargumentsonhernaturalfitnessforassistingMr。Phillotson,ofwhichJudeknewnothingwhatever,soinfluencedtheschoolmasterthathesaidhewouldengageher,assuringJudeasafriendthatunlesshiscousinreallymeanttofollowoninthesamecourse,andregardedthisstepasthefirststageofanapprenticeship,ofwhichhertraininginanormalschoolwouldbethesecondstage,hertimewouldbewastedquite,thesalarybeingmerelynominal。

  ThedayafterthisvisitPhillotsonreceivedaletterfromJude,containingtheinformationthathehadagainconsultedhiscousin,whotookmoreandmorewarmlytotheideaoftuition;andthatshehadagreedtocome。ItdidnotoccurforamomenttotheschoolmasterandreclusethatJude’sardourinpromotingthearrangementarosefromanyotherfeelingstowardsSuethantheinstinctofco-operationcommonamongmembersofthesamefamily。

  JudetheObscureChapter16II-vTheschoolmastersatinhishomelydwellingattachedtotheschool,bothbeingmodernerections;andhelookedacrossthewayattheoldhouseinwhichhisteacherSuehadalodging。Thearrangementhadbeenconcludedveryquickly。Apupil-teacherwhowastohavebeentransferredtoMr。Phillotson’sschoolhadfailedhim,andSuehadbeentakenasstop-gap。AllsuchprovisionalarrangementsasthesecouldonlylasttillthenextannualvisitofH。M。

  Inspector,whoseapprovalwasnecessarytomakethempermanent。HavingtaughtforsometwoyearsinLondon,thoughshehadabandonedthatvocationoflate,MissBrideheadwasnotexactlyanovice,andPhillotsonthoughttherewouldbenodifficultyinretainingherservices,whichhealreadywishedtodo,thoughshehadonlybeenwithhimthreeorfourweeks。HehadfoundherquiteasbrightasJudehaddescribedher;andwhatmaster-tradesmandoesnotwishtokeepanapprenticewhosaveshimhalfhislabour?

  Itwasalittleoverhalf-pasteighto’clockinthemorningandhewaswaitingtoseehercrosstheroadtotheschool,whenhewouldfollow。

  Attwentyminutestonineshedidcross,alighthattossedonherhead;

  andhewatchedherasacuriosity。Anewemanation,whichhadnothingtodowithherskillasateacher,seemedtosurroundherthismorning。Hewenttotheschoolalso,andSueremainedgoverningherclassattheotherendoftheroom,alldayunderhiseye。Shecertainlywasanexcellentteacher。

  Itwaspartofhisdutytogiveherprivatelessonsintheevening,andsomearticleintheCodemadeitnecessarythatarespectable,elderlywomanshouldbepresentattheselessonswhentheteacherandthetaughtwereofdifferentsexes。RichardPhillotsonthoughtoftheabsurdityoftheregulationinthiscase,whenhewasoldenoughtobethegirl’sfather;

  buthefaithfullyacteduptoit;andsatdownwithherinaroomwhereMrs。Hawes,thewidowatwhosehouseSuelodged,occupiedherselfwithsewing。Theregulationwas,indeed,noteasytoevade,fortherewasnoothersitting-roominthedwelling。

  Sometimesasshefigured-itwasarithmeticthattheywereworkingat-shewouldinvoluntarilyglanceupwithalittleinquiringsmileathim,asifsheassumedthat,beingthemaster,hemustperceiveallthatwaspassinginherbrain,asrightorwrong。Phillotsonwasnotreallythinkingofthearithmeticatall,butofher,inanovelwaywhichsomehowseemedstrangetohimaspreceptor。Perhapssheknewthathewasthinkingofherthus。

  Forafewweekstheirworkhadgoneonwithamonotonywhichinitselfwasadelighttohim。ThenithappenedthatthechildrenweretobetakentoChristminstertoseeanitinerantexhibition,intheshapeofamodelofJerusalem,towhichschoolswereadmittedatapennyaheadintheinterestsofeducation。Theymarchedalongtheroadtwoandtwo,shebesideherclasswithhersimplecottonsunshade,herlittlethumbcockedupagainstitsstem;andPhillotsonbehindinhislongdanglingcoat,handlinghiswalking-stickgenteelly,inthemusingmoodwhichhadcomeoverhimsinceherarrival。Theafternoonwasoneofsunanddust,andwhentheyenteredtheexhibitionroomfewpeoplewerepresentbutthemselves。

  Themodeloftheancientcitystoodinthemiddleoftheapartment,andtheproprietor,withafinereligiousphilanthropywrittenonhisfeatures,walkedrounditwithapointerinhishand,showingtheyoungpeoplethevariousquartersandplacesknowntothembynamefromreadingtheirBibles,MountMoriah,theValleyofJehoshaphat,theCityofZion,thewallsandthegates,outsideoneofwhichtherewasalargemoundlikeatumulus,andonthemoundalittlewhitecross。Thespot,hesaid,wasCalvary。

  `Ithink,’saidSuetotheschoolmaster,asshestoodwithhimalittleinthebackground,`thatthismodel,elaborateasitis,isaveryimaginaryproduction。HowdoesanybodyknowthatJerusalemwaslikethisinthetimeofChrist?Iamsurethismandoesn’t。’

  `Itismadeafterthebestconjecturalmaps,basedonactualvisitstothecityasitnowexists。’

  `IfancywehavehadenoughofJerusalem,’shesaid,`consideringwearenotdescendedfromtheJews。Therewasnothingfirst-rateabouttheplace,orpeople,afterall-astherewasaboutAthens,Rome,Alexandria,andotheroldcities。’

  `Butmydeargirl,considerwhatitistous!’

  Shewassilent,forshewaseasilyrepressed;andthenperceivedbehindthegroupofchildrenclusteredroundthemodelayoungmaninawhiteflanneljacket,hisformbeingbentsolowinhisintentinspectionoftheValleyofJehoshaphatthathisfacewasalmosthiddenfromviewbytheMountofOlives。`LookatyourcousinJude,’continuedtheschoolmaster。

  `Hedoesn’tthinkwehavehadenoughofJerusalem!’

  `Ah-Ididn’tseehim!’shecriedinherquick,lightvoice。

  `Jude-howseriouslyyouaregoingintoit!’

  Judestartedupfromhisreverie,andsawher。`Oh-Sue!’hesaid,withagladflushofembarrassment。`Theseareyourschool-children,ofcourse!Isawthatschoolswereadmittedintheafternoons,andthoughtyoumightcome;butIgotsodeeplyinterestedthatIdidn’trememberwhereIwas。Howitcarriesoneback,doesn’tit!Icouldexamineitforhours,butIhaveonlyafewminutes,unfortunately;forIaminthemiddleofajobouthere。’

  `Yourcousinissoterriblycleverthatshecriticizesitunmercifully,’

  saidPhillotson,withgood-humouredsatire。`Sheisquitescepticalastoitscorrectness。’

  `No,Mr。Phillotson,Iamnot-altogether!Ihatetobewhatiscalledaclevergirl-therearetoomanyofthatsortnow!’answeredSuesensitively。`Ionlymeant-Idon’tknowwhatImeant-exceptthatitwaswhatyoudon’tunderstand!’

  `Iknowyourmeaning,’saidJudeardentlyalthoughhedidnot。`AndIthinkyouarequiteright。’

  `That’sagoodJude-Iknowyoubelieveinme!’Sheimpulsivelyseizedhishand,andleavingareproachfullookontheschoolmasterturnedawaytoJude,hervoicerevealingatremorwhichsheherselffelttobeabsurdlyuncalledforbysarcasmsogentle。Shehadnottheleastconceptionhowtheheartsofthetwainwentouttoheratthismomentaryrevelationoffeeling,andwhatacomplicationshewasbuildinguptherebyinthefuturesofboth。

  Themodelworetoomuchofaneducationalaspectforthechildrennottotireofitsoon,andalittlelaterintheafternoontheywereallmarchedbacktoLumsdon,Judereturningtohiswork。Hewatchedthejuvenileflockintheircleanfrocksandpinafores,filingdownthestreettowardsthecountrybesidePhillotsonandSue,andasad,dissatisfiedsenseofbeingoutoftheschemeofthelatters’liveshadpossessionofhim。PhillotsonhadinvitedhimtowalkoutandseethemonFridayevening,whentherewouldbenolessonstogivetoSue,andJudehadeagerlypromisedtoavailhimselfoftheopportunity。

  Meanwhilethescholarsandteachersmovedhomewards,andthenextday,onlookingontheblackboardinSue’sclass,Phillotsonwassurprisedtofinduponit,skilfullydrawninchalk,aperspectiveviewofJerusalem,witheverybuildingshowninitsplace。

  `Ithoughtyoutooknointerestinthemodel,andhardlylookedatit?’hesaid。

  `Ihardlydid,’saidshe,`butIrememberedthatmuchofit。’

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