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  Jowasaloneinthetwilight,lyingontheoldsofa,lookingatthefire,andthinking。Itwasherfavoritewayofspendingthehourofdusk。Noonedisturbedher,andsheusedtoliethereonBeth’slittleredpillow,planningstories,dreamingdreams,orthinkingtenderthoughtsofthesisterwhoneverseemedfaraway。Herfacelookedtired,grave,andrathersad,fortomorrowwasherbirthday,andshewasthinkinghowfasttheyearswentby,howoldshewasgetting,andhowlittlesheseemedtohaveaccomplished。Almosttwenty-five,andnothingtoshowforit。Jowasmistakeninthat。Therewasagooddealtoshow,andby-and-byshesaw,andwasgratefulforit。

  “Anoldmaid,that’swhatI’mtobe。Aliteraryspinster,withapenforaspouse,afamilyofstoriesforchildren,andtwentyyearshenceamorseloffame,perhaps,when,likepoorJohnson,I’moldandcan’tenjoyit,solitary,andcan’tshareit,independent,anddon’tneedit。Well,Ineedn’tbeasoursaintnoraselfishsinner,and,Idaresay,oldmaidsareverycomfortablewhentheygetusedtoit,but……“AndthereJosighed,asiftheprospectwasnotinviting。

  Itseldomis,atfirst,andthirtyseemstheendofallthingstofive-and-twenty。Butit’snotasbadasitlooks,andonecangetonquitehappilyifonehassomethinginone’sselftofallbackupon。Attwenty-five,girlsbegintotalkaboutbeingoldmaids,butsecretlyresolvethattheyneverwillbe。Atthirtytheysaynothingaboutit,butquietlyacceptthefact,andifsensible,consolethemselvesbyrememberingthattheyhavetwentymoreuseful,happyyears,inwhichtheymaybelearningtogrowoldgracefully。Don’tlaughatthespinsters,deargirls,foroftenverytender,tragicromancesarehiddenawayintheheartsthatbeatsoquietlyunderthesobergowns,andmanysilentsacrificesofyouth,health,ambition,loveitself,makethefadedfacesbeautifulinGod’ssight。Eventhesad,soursistersshouldbekindlydealtwith,becausetheyhavemissedthesweetestpartoflife,iffornootherreason。Andlookingatthemwithcompassion,notcontempt,girlsintheirbloomshouldrememberthattheytoomaymisstheblossomtime。Thatrosycheeksdon’tlastforever,thatsilverthreadswillcomeinthebonniebrownhair,andthat,by-and-by,kindnessandrespectwillbeassweetasloveandadmirationnow。

  Gentlemen,whichmeansboys,becourteoustotheoldmaids,nomatterhowpoorandplainandprim,fortheonlychivalryworthhavingisthatwhichisthereadiesttopaydeferencetotheold,protectthefeeble,andservewomankind,regardlessofrank,age,orcolor。Justrecollectthegoodauntswhohavenotonlylecturedandfussed,butnursedandpetted,toooftenwithoutthanks,thescrapestheyhavehelpedyououtof,thetipstheyhavegivenyoufromtheirsmallstore,thestitchesthepatientoldfingershavesetforyou,thestepsthewillingoldfeethavetaken,andgratefullypaythedearoldladiesthelittleattentionsthatwomenlovetoreceiveaslongastheylive。Thebright-eyedgirlsarequicktoseesuchtraits,andwilllikeyouallthebetterforthem,andifdeath,almosttheonlypowerthatcanpartmotherandson,shouldrobyouofyours,youwillbesuretofindatenderwelcomeandmaternalcherishingfromsomeAuntPriscilla,whohaskeptthewarmestcornerofherlonelyoldheartfor`thebestnevvyintheworld’。

  JomusthavefallenasleepasIdaresaymyreaderhasduringthislittlehomily,forsuddenlyLaurie’sghostseemedtostandbeforeher,asubstantial,lifelikeghost,leaningoverherwiththeverylookheusedtowearwhenhefeltagooddealanddidn’tliketoshowit。But,likeJennyintheballad……

  Shecouldnotthinkithe,andlaystaringupathiminstartledsilence,tillhestoopedandkissedher。Thensheknewhim,andflewup,cryingjoyfully……

  “OhmyTeddy!OhmyTeddy!“

  “DearJo,youaregladtoseeme,then?“

  “Glad!Myblessedboy,wordscan’texpressmygladness。

  Where’sAmy?“

  “YourmotherhasgotherdownatMeg’s。Westoppedtherebytheway,andtherewasnogettingmywifeoutoftheirclutches。“

  “Yourwhat?“criedJo,forLaurieutteredthosetwowordswithanunconsciousprideandsatisfactionwhichbetrayedhim。

  “Oh,thedickens!NowI’vedoneit。“AndhelookedsoguiltythatJowasdownonhimlikeaflash。

  “You’vegoneandgotmarried!“

  “Yes,please,butIneverwillagain。“Andhewentdownuponhisknees,withapenitentclaspingofhands,andafacefullofmischief,mirth,andtriumph。

  “Actuallymarried?“

  “Verymuchso,thankyou。“

  “Mercyonus。Whatdreadfulthingwillyoudonext?“AndJofellintoherseatwithagasp。

  “Acharacteristic,butnotexactlycomplimentary,congratulation,“

  returnedLaurie,stillinanabjectattitude,butbeamingwithsatisfaction。

  “Whatcanyouexpect,whenyoutakeone’sbreathaway,creepinginlikeaburglar,andlettingcatsoutofbagslikethat?Getup,youridiculousboy,andtellmeallaboutit。“

  “Notaword,unlessyouletmecomeinmyoldplace,andpromisenottobarricade。“

  Jolaughedatthatasshehadnotdoneformanyalongday,andpattedthesofainvitingly,asshesaidinacordialtone,“Theoldpillowisupgarret,andwedon’tneeditnow。So,comeandfess,Teddy。“

  “Howgooditsoundstohearyousay`Teddy’!Nooneevercallsmethatbutyou。“AndLauriesatdownwithanairofgreatcontent。

  “WhatdoesAmycallyou?“

  “Mylord。“

  “That’slikeher。Well,youlookit。“AndJo’seyeplainlybetrayedthatshefoundherboycomelierthanever。

  Thepillowwasgone,buttherewasabarricade,nevertheless,anaturalone,raisedbytimeabsence,andchangeofheart。Bothfeltit,andforaminutelookedatoneanotherasifthatinvisiblebarriercastalittleshadowoverthem。Itwasgonedirectlyhowever,forLauriesaid,withavainattemptatdignity……

  “Don’tIlooklikeamarriedmanandtheheadofafamily?“

  “Notabit,andyouneverwill。You’vegrownbiggerandbonnier,butyouarethesamescapegraceasever。“

  “Nowreally,Jo,yououghttotreatmewithmorerespect,“

  beganLaurie,whoenjoyeditallimmensely。

  “HowcanI,whenthemereideaofyou,marriedandsettled,issoirresistiblyfunnythatIcan’tkeepsober!“answeredJo,smilingalloverherface,soinfectiouslythattheyhadanotherlaugh,andthensettleddownforagoodtalk,quiteinthepleasantoldfashion。

  “It’snouseyourgoingoutinthecoldtogetAmy,fortheyareallcominguppresently。Icouldn’twait。Iwantedtobetheonetotellyouthegrandsurprise,andhave`firstskim’

  asweusedtosaywhenwesquabbledaboutthecream。“

  “Ofcourseyoudid,andspoiledyourstorybybeginningatthewrongend。Now,startright,andtellmehowitallhappened。

  I’mpiningtoknow。“

  “Well,IdidittopleaseAmy,“beganLaurie,withatwinklethatmadeJoexclaim……

  “Fibnumberone。Amydidittopleaseyou。Goon,andtellthetruth,ifyoucan,sir。“

  “Nowshe’sbeginningtomarmit。Isn’titjollytohearher?“

  saidLaurietothefire,andthefireglowedandsparkledasifitquiteagreed。“It’sallthesame,youknow,sheandIbeingone。

  WeplannedtocomehomewiththeCarrols,amonthormoreago,buttheysuddenlychangedtheirminds,anddecidedtopassanotherwinterinParis。ButGrandpawantedtocomehome。Hewenttopleaseme,andIcouldn’tlethimgoalong,neithercouldIleaveAmy,andMrs。CarrolhadgotEnglishnotionsaboutchaperonsandsuchnonsense,andwouldn’tletAmycomewithus。SoIjustsettledthedifficultybysaying,`Let’sbemarried,andthenwecandoaswelike’。“

  “Ofcourseyoudid。Youalwayshavethingstosuityou。“

  “Notalways。“AndsomethinginLaurie’svoicemadeJosayhastily……

  “HowdidyouevergetAunttoagree?“

  “Itwashardwork,butbetweenus,wetalkedherover,forwehadheapsofgoodreasonsonourside。Therewasn’ttimetowriteandaskleave,butyoualllikedit,hadconsentedtoitby-and-by,anditwasonly`takingtimebythefetlock’,asmywifesays。“

  “Aren’tweproudofthosetwoword,anddon’tweliketosaythem?“interruptedJo,addressingthefireinherturn,andwatchingwithdelightthehappylightitseemedtokindleintheeyesthathadbeensotragicallygloomywhenshesawthemlast。

  “Atrifle,perhaps,she’ssuchacaptivatinglittlewomanI

  can’thelpbeingproudofher。Well,thenUncleandAuntweretheretoplaypropriety。Weweresoabsorbedinoneanotherwewereofnomortaluseapart,andthatcharmingarrangementwouldmakeeverythingeasyallround,sowedidit。“

  “When,where,how?“askedJo,inafeveroffeminineinterestandcuriosity,forshecouldnotrealizeitaparticle。

  “Sixweeksago,attheAmericanconsul’s,inParis,averyquietweddingofcourse,foreveninourhappinesswedidn’tforgetdearlittleBeth。“

  Joputherhandinhisashesaidthat,andLauriegentlysmoothedthelittleredpillow,whichherememberedwell。

  “Whydidn’tyouletusknowafterward?“askedJo,inaquietertone,whentheyhadsatquitestillaminute。

  “Wewantedtosurpriseyou。Wethoughtwewerecomingdirectlyhome,atfirst,butthedearoldgentleman,assoonasweweremarried,foundhecouldn’tbereadyunderamonth,atleast,andsentusofftospendourhoneymoonwhereverweliked。

  AmyhadoncecalledValrosaaregularhoneymoonhome,sowewentthere,andwereashappyaspeoplearebutonceintheirlives。

  Myfaith!Wasn’titloveamongtheroses!“

  LaurieseemedtoforgetJoforaminute,andJowasgladofit,forthefactthathetoldherthesethingssofreelyandsonaturallyassuredherthathehadquiteforgivenandforgotten。

  Shetriedtodrawawayherhand,butasifheguessedthethoughtthatpromptedthehalf-involuntaryimpulse,Lauriehelditfast,andsaid,withamanlygravityshehadneverseeninhimbefore……

  “Jo,dear,Iwanttosayonething,andthenwe’llputitbyforever。AsItoldyouinmyletterwhenIwrotethatAmyhadbeensokindtome,Inevershallstoplovingyou,buttheloveisaltered,andIhavelearnedtoseethatitisbetterasitis。

  Amyandyouchangedplacesinmyheart,that’sall。Ithinkitwasmeanttobeso,andwouldhavecomeaboutnaturally,ifIhadwaited,asyoutriedtomakeme,butInevercouldbepatient,andsoIgotaheartache。Iwasaboythen,headstrongandviolent,andittookahardlessontoshowmemymistake。Foritwasone,Jo,asyousaid,andIfounditout,aftermakingafoolofmyself。

  Uponmyword,Iwassotumbledupinmymind,atonetime,thatI

  didn’tknowwhichIlovedbest,youorAmy,andtriedtoloveyoubothalike。ButIcouldn’t,andwhenIsawherinSwitzerland,everythingseemedtoclearupallatonce。Youbothgotintoyourrightplaces,andIfeltsurethatitwaswelloffwiththeoldlovebeforeitwasonwiththenew,thatIcouldhonestlysharemyheartbetweensisterJoandwifeAmy,andlovethemdearly。

  Willyoubelieveit,andgobacktothehappyoldtimeswhenwefirstknewoneanother?“

  “I’llbelieveit,withallmyheart,but,Teddy,wenevercanbeboyandgirlagain。Thehappyoldtimescan’tcomeback,andwemustn’texpectit。Wearemanandwomannow,withsoberworktodo,forplaytimeisover,andwemustgiveupfrolicking。I’msureyoufeelthis。Iseethechangeinyou,andyou’llfinditinme。

  I

  shallmissmyboy,butIshalllovethemanasmuch,andadmirehimmore,becausehemeanstobewhatIhopedhewould。Wecan’tbelittleplaymatesanylonger,butwewillbebrotherandsister,toloveandhelponeanotherallourlives,won’twe,Laurie?“

  Hedidnotsayaword,buttookthehandsheofferedhim,andlaidhisfacedownonitforaminute,feelingthatoutofthegraveofaboyishpassion,therehadrisenabeautiful,strongfriendshiptoblessthemboth。PresentlyJosaidcheerfully,forshedidn’tthecominghometobeasadone,“Ican’tmakeittruethatyouchildrenarereallymarriedandgoingtosetuphousekeeping。

  Why,itseemsonlyyesterdaythatIwasbuttoningAmy’spinafore,andpullingyourhairwhenyouteased。Mercyme,howtimedoesfly!“

  “Asoneofthechildrenisolderthanyourself,youneedn’ttalksolikeagrandma。IflattermyselfI’ma`gentlemangrowed’

  asPeggottysaidofDavid,andwhenyouseeAmy,you’llfindherratheraprecociousinfant,“saidLaurie,lookingamusedathermaternalair。

  “Youmaybealittleolderinyears,butI’meversomucholderinfeeling,Teddy。Womenalwaysare,andthislastyearhasbeensuchahardonethatIfeelforty。“

  “PoorJo!Weleftyoutobearitalone,whilewewentpleasuring。

  Youareolder。Here’saline,andthere’sanother。Unlessyousmile,youreyeslooksad,andwhenItouchedthecushion,justnow,Ifoundatearonit。You’vehadagreatdealtobear,andhadtobearitallalone。WhataselfishbeastI’vebeen!“

  AndLauriepulledhisownhair,witharemorsefullook。

  ButJoonlyturnedoverthetraitorouspillow,andanswered,inatonewhichshetriedtomakemorecheerful,“No,IhadFatherandMothertohelpme,andthedearbabiestocomfortme,andthethoughtthatyouandAmyweresafeandhappy,tomakethetroubleshereeasiertobear。Iamlonely,sometimes,butIdaresayit’sgoodforme,and……“

  “Younevershallbeagain,“brokeinLaurie,puttinghisarmabouther,asiftofenceouteveryhumanill。“AmyandIcan’tgetonwithoutyou,soyoumustcomeandteach`thechildren’tokeephouse,andgohalvesineverything,justasweusedtodo,andletuspetyou,andallbeblissfullyhappyandfriendlytogether。“

  “IfIshouldn’tbeintheway,itwouldbeverypleasant。I

  begintofeelquiteyoungalready,forsomehowallmytroublesseemedtoflyawaywhenyoucame。Youalwayswereacomfort,Teddy。“

  AndJoleanedherheadonhisshoulder,justasshedidyearsago,whenBethlayillandLaurietoldhertoholdontohim。

  Helookeddownather,wonderingifsherememberedthetime,butJowassmilingtoherself,asifintruthhertroubleshadallvanishedathiscoming。

  “YouarethesameJostill,droppingtearsaboutoneminute,andlaughingthenext。Youlookalittlewickednow。Whatisit,Grandma?“

  “IwaswonderinghowyouandAmygetontogether。“

  “Likeangels!“

  “Yes,ofcourse,butwhichrules?“

  “Idon’tmindtellingyouthatshedoesnow,atleastIletherthinkso,itpleasesher,youknow。By-and-byweshalltaketurns,formarriage,theysay,halvesone’srightsanddoublesone’sduties。“

  “You’llgoonasyoubegin,andAmywillruleyouallthedaysofyourlife。“

  “Well,shedoesitsoimperceptiblythatIdon’tthinkIshallmindmuch。Sheisthesortofwomanwhoknowshowtorulewell。

  Infact,Iratherlikeit,forshewindsoneroundherfingerassoftlyandprettilyasaskeinofsilk,andmakesyoufeelasifshewasdoingyouafavorallthewhile。“

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