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  endearedhimtomesomuchthatIhaveneverfeltthepangsofpartingmorekeenlythanwhenitbecamenecessary,forthefinishingofhiseducation,thatheshouldgoabroad。

  ThreeyearshadpassedawaybeforeI

  sawhimagain。Duringtheinterval,however,Ihadfrequentlyheardfromhim,sothatabsencehadnotabatedthewarmthofourattachment。Whocouldtelloftherejoicingsthatmarkedtheeveningofhisreturn?Thehorseswereremovedfromthechaiseatthedistanceofamilefromthecastle,whileitanditscontentswerebornerapidlyonwardalmostbythepressureofthemultitude,likealoguponatorrent。Bonfiresblaredfarandnear——

  bagpipesroaredandfiddlessqueaked;and,amidthethunderingshoutsofthousands,thecarriagedrewupbeforethecastle。

  InaninstantyoungO’Connorwasupontheground,crying,’Thankyou,boys——

  thankyou,boys;’whileathousandhandswerestretchedoutfromallsidestograspevenafingerofhis。Still,amidshoutsof’Godblessyourhonour——longmayyoureign!’and’Makeroomthere,boys!cleartheroadforthemasther!’hereachedthethresholdofthecastle,wherestoodhismotherweepingforjoy。

  Oh!whocoulddescribethatembrace,ortheenthusiasmwithwhichitwaswitnessed?’Godblesshimtoyou,mylady——

  glorytoyeboth!’and’Oh,butheisafineyounggentleman,Godblesshim!’

  resoundedonallsides,whilehatsflewupinvolleysthatdarkenedthemoon;andwhenatlength,amidthebroaddelightedgrinsofthethrongingdomestics,whosesenseofdecorumprecludedanymoreboisterousevidenceofjoy,theyreachedtheparlour,thengivingwaytothefulnessofherjoythewidowedmotherkissedandblessedhimandweptinturn。WellmightanyparentbeproudtoclaimassonthehandsomestriplingwhonowrepresentedtheCastleConnorfamily;buttoherhisbeautyhadapeculiarcharm,foritboreastrikingresemblancetothatofherhusband,thelastO’Connor。

  Iknownotwhetherpartialityblindedme,orthatIdidnomorethanjusticetomyfriendinbelievingthatIhadneverseensohandsomeayoungman。Iaminclinedtothinkthelatter。Hewasrathertall,veryslightlyandelegantlymade;hisfacewasoval,andhisfeaturesdecidedlySpanishincastandcomplexion,butwithfarmorevivacityofexpressionthangenerallybelongstothebeautyofthatnation。

  Theextremedelicacyofhisfeaturesandthevariedanimationofhiscountenancemadehimappearevenyoungerthanhisyears——anillusionwhichthetotalabsenceofeverythingstudiedinhismannersseemedtoconfirm。Timehadwroughtnosmallchangeinme,alikeinmindandspirits;butinthecaseofO’Connoritseemedtohavelostitspowertoalter。

  Hisgaietywasundamped,hisgenerosityunchilled;andthoughthespacewhichhadintervenedbetweenourpartingandreunionwasbutbrief,yetattheperiodoflifeatwhichwewere,evenashorterintervalthanthatofthreeyearshasfrequentlyservedtoformorDEformacharacter。

  WeekshadpassedawaysincethereturnofO’Connor,andscarceadayhadelapsedwithoutmyseeinghim,whentheneighbourhoodwasthrownintoanunusualstateofexcitementbytheannouncementofarace-balltobecelebratedattheassembly-

  roomofthetownofT——,distantscarcelytwomilesfromCastleConnor。

  YoungO’Connor,asIhadexpected,determinedatoncetoattendit;andhavingdirectedinvainallthepowersofhisrhetorictopersuadehismothertoaccompanyhim,heturnedthewholebatteryofhislogicuponme,who,atthattime,feltareluctancestrongerthanthatofmereapathytomixinginanyofthesescenesofnoisypleasureforwhichformanyreasonsIfeltmyselfunfitted。Hewassourgentandpersevering,however,thatIcouldnotrefuse;andIfoundmyselfreluctantlyobligedtomakeupmymindtoattendhimupontheimportantnighttothespaciousbutill-finishedbuilding,whichthefashionandbeautyofthecountywerepleasedtotermanassembly-

  room。

  Whenweenteredtheapartment,wefoundaselectfew,surroundedbyacrowdofspectators,busilyperformingaminuet,withallthecongeesandflourisheswhichbelongedtothatcourtlydance;andmycompanion,infectedbythecontagionofexample,wassoon,asIhadanticipated,wavinghischapeaubras,andgracefullybowingbeforeoneoftheprettiestgirlsintheroom。Ihadneitherskillnorspiritstoqualifymetofollowhisexample;andasthefulnessoftheroomrenderediteasytodosowithoutitsappearingsingular,I

  determinedtobemerelyaspectatorofthescenewhichsurroundedme,withouttakinganactivepartinitsamusements。

  Theroomwasindeedverymuchcrowded,sothatitsvariousgroups,formedasdesignoraccidenthadthrownthepartiestogether,affordednosmallfundofentertainmenttothecontemplativeobserver。Therewerethedancers,allgaietyandgood-humour;alittlefurtheroffwerethetablesatwhichsatthecard-

  players,someplyingtheirvocationwithdeepandsilentanxiety——forinthosedaysgamingoftenranveryhighinsuchplaces——andothersdisputingwithallthevociferouspertinacityofundisguisedill-

  temper。There,again,werethesallow,blue-nosed,grey-eyeddealersinwhisperedscandal;and,inshort,thereisscarcelyagrouporcombinationtobemetwithinthecourtofkingswhichmightnothavefoundahumbleparallelintheassembly-

  roomofT。

  Iwasallowedtoindulgeinundisturbedcontemplation,forIsupposeIwasnotknowntomorethanfiveorsixintheroom。Ithushadleisurenotonlytoobservethedifferentclassesintowhichthecompanyhaddivideditself,buttoamusemyselfbyspeculatingastotherankandcharacterofmanyoftheindividualactorsinthedrama。

  Amongmanywhohavelongsincepassedfrommymemory,onepersonforsometimeengagedmyattention,andthatperson,formanyreasons,Ishallnotsoonforget。Hewasatall,square-shoulderedman,whostoodinacarelessattitude,leaningwithhisbacktothewall;heseemedtohavesecludedhimselffromthebusymultitudeswhichmovednoisilyandgailyaroundhim,andnobodyseemedtoobserveortoconversewithhim。Hewasfashionablydressed,butperhapsratherextravagantly;hisfacewasfullandheavy,expressiveofsullennessandstupidity,andmarkedwiththelinesofstrongvulgarity;hisagemightbesomewherebetweenfortyandfifty。SuchasI

  haveendeavouredtodescribehim,heremainedmotionless,hisarmsdoggedlyfoldedacrosshisbroadchest,andturninghissulleneyesfromcornertocorneroftheroom,asifeagertodetectsomeobjectonwhichtoventhisill-humour。

  Itisstrange,andyetitistrue,thatonesometimesfindseveninthemostcommonplacecountenanceanundefinablesomething,whichfascinatestheattention,andforcesittorecuragainandagain,whileitisimpossibletotellwhetherthepeculiaritywhichthusattractsusliesinfeatureorinexpression。orinbothcombined,andwhyitisthatourobservationshouldbeengrossedbyanobjectwhich,whenanalysed,seemstopossessnoclaimtointerestoreventonotice。ThisunaccountablefeelingIhaveoftenexperienced,andIbelieveIamnotsingular。butneverinsoremarkableadegreeasuponthisoccasion。MyfriendO’Connor,havingdisposedofhisfairpartner,wascrossingtheroomforthepurposeofjoiningme,indoingwhichIwassurprisedtoseehimexchangeafamiliar,almostacordial,greetingwiththeobjectofmycuriosity。

  IsayIwassurprised,forindependentofhisveryquestionableappearance,itstruckmeasstrangethatthoughsoconstantlyassociatedwithO’Connor,and,asI

  thought,personallyacquaintedwithallhisintimates,Ihadneverbeforeevenseenthisindividual。Ididnotfailimmediatelytoaskhimwhothisgentlemanwas。Ithoughtheseemedslightlyembarrassed,butafteramoment’spausehelaughinglysaidthathisfriendoverthewaywastoomysteriousapersonagetohavehisnameannouncedinsogiddyasceneasthepresent;butthatonthemorrowhewouldfurnishmewithalltheinformationwhichIcoulddesire。Therewas,Ithought,inhisaffectedjocularityarealawkwardnesswhichappearedtomeunaccountable,andconsequentlyincreasedmycuriosity;itsgratification,however,I

  wasobligedtodefer。Atlength,weariedwithwitnessingamusementsinwhichI

  couldnotsympathise,Ilefttheroom,anddidnotseeO’Connoruntillateinthenextday。

  IhadriddendowntowardsthecastleforthepurposeofvisitingtheO’Connors,andhadnearlyreachedtheavenueleadingtothemansion,whenImetmyfriend。

  Hewasalsomounted;andhavingansweredmyinquiriesrespectinghismother,heeasilypersuadedmetoaccompanyhiminhisramble。Wehadchattedasusualforsometime,when,afterapause,O’Connorsaid:

  ’Bytheway,Purcell,youexpressedsomecuriosityrespectingthetall,handsomefellowtowhomIspokelastnight。’

  ’IcertainlydidquestionyouaboutaTALLgentleman,butwasnotawareofhisclaimstobeauty,’repliedI。

  ’Well,thatisasitmaybe,’saidhe;

  ’theladiesthinkhimhandsome,andtheiropinionuponthatscoreismorevaluablethanyoursormine。Doyouknow,’hecontinued,’IsometimesfeelhalfsorrythatIevermadethefellow’sacquaintance:

  heisquiteamarkedmanhere,andtheytellstoriesofhimthatareanythingbutreputable,thoughIamsurewithoutfoundation。IthinkIknowenoughabouthimtowarrantmeinsayingso。’

  ’MayIaskhisname?’inquiredI。

  ’Oh!didnotItellyouhisname?’

  rejoinedhe。’Youshouldhaveheardthatfirst;heandhisnameareequallywellknown。YouwillrecognisetheindividualatoncewhenItellyouthathisnameis——Fitzgerald。’

  ’Fitzgerald!’Irepeated。’Fitzgerald!——

  canitbeFitzgeraldtheduellist?’

  ’Uponmywordyouhavehitit,’repliedhe,laughing;’butyouhaveaccompaniedthediscoverywithalookofhorrormoretragicthanappropriate。Heisnotthemonsteryoutakehimfor——hehasagooddealofoldIrishpride;histemperishasty,andhehasbeenunfortunatelythrowninthewayofmenwhohavenotmadeallowanceforthesethings。IamconvincedthatineverycaseinwhichFitzgeraldhasfought,ifthetruthcouldbediscovered,hewouldbefoundtohaveactedthroughoutuponthedefensive。Nomanismadenoughtoriskhisownlife,exceptwhenthedoingsoisanalternativetosubmittingtamelytowhatheconsidersaninsult。Iamcertainthatnomaneverengagedinaduelundertheconsciousnessthathehadactedanintentionallyaggressivepart。’

  ’Whendidyoumakehisacquaintance?’

  saidI。

  ’Abouttwoyearsago,’hereplied。’I

  methiminFrance,andyouknowwhenoneisabroaditisanungracioustasktorejecttheadvancesofone’scountryman,otherwiseIthinkIshouldhaveavoidedhissociety——lessuponmyownaccountthanbecauseIamsuretheacquaintancewouldbeasourceofcontinualthoughgroundlessuneasinesstomymother。Iknow,therefore,thatyouwillnotunnecessarilymentionitsexistencetoher。’

  Igavehimthedesiredassurance,andadded:

  ’MayIaskyou。O’Connor,if,indeed,itbeafairquestion,whetherthisFitzgeraldatanytimeattemptedtoengageyouinanythinglikegaming?’

  ThisquestionwassuggestedbymyhavingfrequentlyheardFitzgeraldmentionedasanotedgambler,andsometimesevenasablackleg。O’Connorseemed,I

  thought,slightlyembarrassed。Heanswered:

  ’No,no——Icannotsaythatheeverattemptedanythingofthekind。I

  certainlyhaveplayedwithhim,butneverlosttoanyseriousamount;norcanI

  recollectthatheeversolicitedme——indeedheknowsthatIhaveastrongobjectiontodeepplay。YOUmustbeawarethatmyfinancescouldnotbearmuchpruningdown。Ineverlostmoretohimatasittingthanaboutfivepounds,whichyouknowisnothing。No,youwronghimifyouimaginethatheattachedhimselftomemerelyforthesakeofsuchcontemptiblewinningsasthosewhichabroken-downIrishgentlemancouldaffordhim。Come,Purcell,youaretooharduponhim——youjudgeonlybyreport;youmustseehim,anddecideforyourself——Supposewecalluponhimnow;heisattheinn,intheHighStreet,notamileoff。’

  Ideclinedtheproposaldrily。

  ’Yourcautionistooeasilyalarmed,’

  saidhe。’Idonotwishyoutomakethismanyourbosomfriend:Imerelydesirethatyoushouldseeandspeaktohim,andifyouformanyacquaintancewithhim,itmustbeofthatslightnaturewhichcanbedroppedorcontinuedatpleasure。’

  FromthetimethatO’ConnorhadannouncedthefactthathisfriendwasnootherthanthenotoriousFitzgerald,aforebodingofsomethingcalamitoushadcomeuponme,anditnowoccurredtomethatifanyunpleasantnessweretobefearedaslikelytoresulttoO’Connorfromtheirconnection,Imightfindmyattemptstoextricatehimmuchfacilitatedbymybeingacquainted,howeverslightly,withFitzgerald。Iknownotwhethertheideawasreasonable——itwascertainlynatural;

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