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  Thenewkeeperhadnodoubtputinfreshpebbles。Sheheardthefainttinkleofwater,asthetinyoverflowtrickledoveranddownhill。Evenabovethehissingboomofthelarchwood,thatspreaditsbristling,leafless,wolfishdarknessonthedown-slope,sheheardthetinkleasoftinywater-bells。

  Thisplacewasalittlesinister,cold,damp。Yetthewellmusthavebeenadrinking-placeforhundredsofyears。Nownomore。Itstinyclearedspacewaslushandcoldanddismal。

  Sheroseandwentslowlytowardshome。Asshewentsheheardafainttappingawayontheright,andstoodstilltolisten。Wasithammering,orawoodpecker?Itwassurelyhammering。

  Shewalkedon,listening。Andthenshenoticedanarrowtrackbetweenyoungfir-trees,atrackthatseemedtoleadnowhere。Butshefeltithadbeenused。Sheturneddownitadventurously,betweenthethickyoungfirs,whichgavewaysoontotheoldoakwood。Shefollowedthetrack,andthehammeringgrewnearer,inthesilenceofthewindywood,fortreesmakeasilenceevenintheirnoiseofwind。

  Shesawasecretlittleclearing,andasecretlittlehotmadeofrusticpoles。Andshehadneverbeenherebefore!Sherealizeditwasthequietplacewherethegrowingpheasantswerereared;thekeeperinhisshirt-sleeveswaskneeling,hammering。Thedogtrottedforwardwithashort,sharpbark,andthekeeperliftedhisfacesuddenlyandsawher。Hehadastartledlookinhiseyes。

  Hestraightenedhimselfandsaluted,watchingherinsilence,asshecameforwardwithweakeninglimbs。Heresentedtheintrusion;hecherishedhissolitudeashisonlyandlastfreedominlife。

  `Iwonderedwhatthehammeringwas,’shesaid,feelingweakandbreathless,andalittleafraidofhim,ashelookedsostraightather。

  `Ah’mgettin’th’coopsreadyforth’youngbods,’hesaid,inbroadvernacular。

  Shedidnotknowwhattosay,andshefeltweak。`Ishouldliketositdownabit,’shesaid。

  `Comeandsit’erei’th’’ut,’hesaid,goinginfrontofhertothehut,pushingasidesometimberandstuff,anddrawingoutarusticchair,madeofhazelsticks。

  `AmAht’lightyeralittlefire?’heasked,withthecuriousnaïveté

  ofthedialect。

  `Oh,don’tbother,’shereplied。

  Buthelookedatherhands;theywereratherblue。Sohequicklytooksomelarchtwigstothelittlebrickfire-placeinthecorner,andinamomenttheyellowflamewasrunningupthechimney。Hemadeaplacebythebrickhearth。

  `Sit’erethenabit,andwarmyer,’hesaid。

  Sheobeyedhim。Hehadthatcuriouskindofprotectiveauthoritysheobeyedatonce。Soshesatandwarmedherhandsattheblaze,anddroppedlogsonthefire,whilstoutsidehewashammeringagain。Shedidnotreallywanttosit,pokedinacornerbythefire;shewouldratherhavewatchedfromthedoor,butshewasbeinglookedafter,soshehadtosubmit。

  Thehutwasquitecosy,panelledwithunvarnisheddeal,havingalittlerustictableandstoolbesideherchair,andacarpenter’sbench,thenabigbox,tools,newboards,nails;andmanythingshungfrompegs:axe,hatchet,traps,thingsinsacks,hiscoat。Ithadnowindow,thelightcameinthroughtheopendoor。Itwasajumble,butalsoitwasasortoflittlesanctuary。

  Shelistenedtothetappingoftheman’shammer;itwasnotsohappy。

  Hewasoppressed。Herewasatrespassonhisprivacy,andadangerousone!

  Awoman!Hehadreachedthepointwhereallhewantedonearthwastobealone。Andyethewaspowerlesstopreservehisprivacy;hewasahiredman,andthesepeoplewerehismasters。

  Especiallyhedidnotwanttocomeintocontactwithawomanagain。

  Hefearedit;forhehadabigwoundfromoldcontacts。Hefeltifhecouldnotbealone,andifhecouldnotbeleftalone,hewoulddie。Hisrecoilawayfromtheouterworldwascomplete;hislastrefugewasthiswood;

  tohidehimselfthere!

  Conniegrewwarmbythefire,whichshehadmadetoobig:thenshegrewhot。Shewentandsatonthestoolinthedoorway,watchingthemanatwork。Heseemednottonoticeher,butheknew。Yetheworkedon,asifabsorbedly,andhisbrowndogsatonhertailnearhim,andsurveyedtheuntrustworthyworld。

  Slender,quietandquick,themanfinishedthecoophewasmaking,turneditover,triedtheslidingdoor,thensetitaside。Thenherose,wentforanoldcoop,andtookittothechoppinglogwherehewasworking。

  Crouching,hetriedthebars;somebrokeinhishands;hebegantodrawthenails。Thenheturnedthecoopoveranddeliberated,andhegaveabsolutelynosignofawarenessofthewoman’spresence。

  SoConniewatchedhimfixedly。Andthesamesolitaryalonenessshehadseeninhimnaked,shenowsawinhimclothed:solitary,andintent,likeananimalthatworksalone,butalsobrooding,likeasoulthatrecoilsaway,awayfromallhumancontact。Silently,patiently,hewasrecoilingawayfromherevennow。Itwasthestillness,andthetimelesssortofpatience,inamanimpatientandpassionate,thattouchedConnie’swomb。

  Shesawitinhisbenthead,thequickquiethands,thecrouchingofhisslender,sensitiveloins;somethingpatientandwithdrawn。Shefelthisexperiencehadbeendeeperandwiderthanherown;muchdeeperandwider,andperhapsmoredeadly。Andthisrelievedherofherself;shefeltalmostirresponsible。

  Soshesatinthedoorwayofthehutinadream,utterlyunawareoftimeandofparticularcircumstances。Shewassodriftedawaythatheglancedupatherquickly,andsawtheutterlystill,waitinglookonherface。

  Tohimitwasalookofwaiting。Andalittlethintongueoffiresuddenlyflickeredinhisloins,attherootofhisback,andhegroanedinspirit。

  Hedreadedwitharepulsionalmostofdeath,anyfurtherclosehumancontact。

  Hewishedaboveallthingsshewouldgoaway,andleavehimtohisownprivacy。Hedreadedherwill,herfemalewill,andhermodernfemaleinsistency。

  Andaboveallhedreadedhercool,upper-classimpudenceofhavingherownway。Forafterallhewasonlyahiredman。Hehatedherpresencethere。

  Conniecametoherselfwithsuddenuneasiness。Sherose。Theafternoonwasturningtoevening,yetshecouldnotgoaway。Shewentovertotheman,whostoodupatattention,hiswornfacestiffandblank,hiseyeswatchingher。

  `Itissonicehere,sorestful,’shesaid。`Ihaveneverbeenherebefore。’

  `No?’

  `IthinkIshallcomeandsitheresometimes。

  `Yes?’

  `Doyoulockthehutwhenyou’renothere?’

  `Yes,yourLadyship。’

  `DoyouthinkIcouldhaveakeytoo,sothatIcouldsitheresometimes?

  Aretheretwokeys?’

  `NotasAhknowon,ther’isna。’

  Hehadlapsedintothevernacular。Conniehesitated;hewasputtingupanopposition。Wasithishut,afterall?

  `Couldn’twegetanotherkey?’sheaskedinhersoftvoice,thatunderneathhadtheringofawomandeterminedtogetherway。

  `Another!’hesaid,glancingatherwithaflashofanger,touchedwithderision。

  `Yes,aduplicate,’shesaid,flushing。

  `’AppenSirClifford’udknow,’hesaid,puttingheroff。

  `Yes!’shesaid,`hemighthaveanother。Otherwisewecouldhaveonemadefromtheoneyouhave。Itwouldonlytakeadayorso,Isuppose。

  Youcouldspareyourkeyforsolong。’

  `Ahcannatellyer,m’Lady!Ahknownob’dyasma’eskeysround’ere。’

  Conniesuddenlyflushedwithanger。

  `Verywell!’shesaid。`I’llseetoit。’

  `Allright,yourLadyship。’

  Theireyesmet。Hishadacold,uglylookofdislikeandcontempt,andindifferencetowhatwouldhappen。Herswerehotwithrebuff。

  Butherheartsank,shesawhowutterlyhedislikedher,whenshewentagainsthim。Andshesawhiminasortofdesperation。

  `Goodafternoon!’

  `Afternoon,myLady!’Hesalutedandturnedabruptlyaway。Shehadwakenedthesleepingdogsofoldvoraciousangerinhim,angeragainsttheself-willedfemale。Andhewaspowerless,powerless。Heknewit!

  Andshewasangryagainsttheself-willedmale。Aservanttoo!Shewalkedsullenlyhome。

  ShefoundMrsBoltonunderthegreatbeech-treeontheknoll,lookingforher。

  `Ijustwonderedifyou’dbecoming,myLady,’thewomansaidbrightly。

  `AmIlate?’askedConnie。

  `OhonlySirCliffordwaswaitingforhistea。’

  `Whydidn’tyoumakeitthen?’

  `Oh,Idon’tthinkit’shardlymyplace。Idon’tthinkSirCliffordwouldlikeitatall,myLady。’

  `Idon’tseewhynot,’saidConnie。

  ShewentindoorstoClifford’sstudy,wheretheoldbrasskettlewassimmeringonthetray。

  `AmIlate,Clifford?’shesaid,puttingdownthefewflowersandtakingupthetea-caddy,asshestoodbeforethetrayinherhatandscarf。`I’msorry!Whydidn’tyouletMrsBoltonmakethetea?’

  `Ididn’tthinkofit,’hesaidironically。`Idon’tquiteseeherpresidingatthetea-table。’

  `Oh,there’snothingsacrosanctaboutasilvertea-pot,’saidConnie。

  Heglancedupathercuriously。

  `Whatdidyoudoallafternoon?’hesaid。

  `Walkedandsatinashelteredplace。Doyouknowtherearestillberriesonthebigholly-tree?’

  Shetookoffherscarf,butnotherhat,andsatdowntomaketea。Thetoastwouldcertainlybeleathery。Sheputthetea-cosyoverthetea-pot,androsetogetalittleglassforherviolets。Thepoorflowershungover,limpontheirstalks。

  `They’llreviveagain!’shesaid,puttingthembeforehimintheirglassforhimtosmell。

  `SweeterthanthelidsofJuno’seyes,’hequoted。

  `Idon’tseeabitofconnexionwiththeactualviolets,’shesaid。

  `TheElizabethansareratherupholstered。’

  Shepouredhimhistea。

  `DoyouthinkthereisasecondkeytothatlittlehutnotfarfromJohn’sWell,wherethepheasantsarereared?’shesaid。

  `Theremaybe。Why?’

  `Ihappenedtofindittoday——andI’dneverseenitbefore。Ithinkit’sadarlingplace。Icouldsittheresometimes,couldn’tI?’

  `WasMellorsthere?’

  `Yes!That’showIfoundit:hishammering。Hedidn’tseemtolikemyintrudingatall。InfacthewasalmostrudewhenIaskedaboutasecondkey。’

  `Whatdidhesay?’

  `Oh,nothing:justhismanner;andhesaidheknewnothingaboutkeys。’

  `TheremaybeoneinFather’sstudy。Bettsknowsthemall,they’reallthere。I’llgethimtolook。’

  `Ohdo!’shesaid。

  `SoMellorswasalmostrude?’

  `Oh,nothing,really!ButIdon’tthinkhewantedmetohavethefreedomofthecastle,quite。’

  `Idon’tsupposehedid。’

  `Still,Idon’tseewhyheshouldmind。It’snothishome,afterall!

  It’snothisprivateabode。Idon’tseewhyIshouldn’tsitthereifI

  wantto。’

  `Quite!’saidClifford。`Hethinkstoomuchofhimself,thatman。’

  `Doyouthinkhedoes?’

  `Oh,decidedly!Hethinkshe’ssomethingexceptional。Youknowhehadawifehedidn’tgetonwith,sohejoinedupin1915andwassenttoIndia,Ibelieve。AnyhowhewasblacksmithtothecavalryinEgyptforatime;

  alwayswasconnectedwithhorses,acleverfellowthatway。ThensomeIndiancoloneltookafancytohim,andhewasmadealieutenant。Yes,theygavehimacommission。IbelievehewentbacktoIndiawithhiscolonel,anduptothenorth-westfrontier。Hewasill;hewasapension。Hedidn’tcomeoutofthearmytilllastyear,Ibelieve,andthen,naturally,itisn’teasyforamanlikethattogetbacktohisownlevel。He’sboundtoflounder。Buthedoeshisdutyallright,asfarasI’mconcerned。OnlyI’mnothavinganyoftheLieutenantMellorstouch。’

  `HowcouldtheymakehimanofficerwhenhespeaksbroadDerbyshire?’

  `Hedoesn’t……exceptbyfitsandstarts。Hecanspeakperfectlywell,forhim。Isupposehehasanideaifhe’scomedowntotheranksagain,he’dbetterspeakastheranksspeak。’

  `Whydidn’tyoutellmeabouthimbefore?’

  `Oh,I’venopatiencewiththeseromances。They’retheruinofallorder。

  It’sathousandpitiestheyeverhappened。’

  Conniewasinclinedtoagree。Whatwasthegoodofdiscontentedpeoplewhofittedinnowhere?

  InthespelloffineweatherClifford,too,decidedtogotothewood。

  Thewindwascold,butnotsotiresome,andthesunshinewaslikelifeitself,warmandfull。

  `It’samazing,’saidConnie,`howdifferentonefeelswhenthere’sareallyfreshfineday。Usuallyonefeelstheveryairishalfdead。Peoplearekillingtheveryair。’

  `Doyouthinkpeoplearedoingit?’heasked。

  `Ido。Thesteamofsomuchboredom,anddiscontentandangeroutofallthepeople,justkillsthevitalityintheair。I’msureofit。’

  `Perhapssomeconditionoftheatmospherelowersthevitalityofthepeople?’hesaid。

  `No,it’smanthatpoisonstheuniverse,’sheasserted。

  `Foulshisownnest,’remarkedClifford。

  Thechairpuffedon。Inthehazelcopsecatkinswerehangingpalegold,andinsunnyplacesthewood-anemoneswerewideopen,asifexclaimingwiththejoyoflife,justasgoodasinpastdays,whenpeoplecouldexclaimalongwiththem。Theyhadafaintscentofapple-blossom。ConniegatheredafewforClifford。

  Hetookthemandlookedatthemcuriously。

  `Thoustillunravishedbrideofquietness,’hequoted。`ItseemstofitflowerssomuchbetterthanGreekvases。’

  `Ravishedissuchahorridword!’shesaid。`It’sonlypeoplewhoravishthings。’

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