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  Allthisbecamegraduallyevident,andgraduallyplacedSusanbeforehersisterasanobjectofmingledcompassionandrespect。Thathermannerwaswrong,however,attimesverywrong,hermeasuresoftenill-chosenandill-timed,andherlooksandlanguageveryoftenindefensible,Fannycouldnotceasetofeel;butshebegantohopetheymightberectified。Susan,shefound,lookeduptoherandwishedforhergoodopinion;andnewasanythinglikeanofficeofauthoritywastoFanny,newasitwastoimagineherselfcapableofguidingorinforminganyone,shedidresolvetogiveoccasionalhintstoSusan,andendeavourtoexerciseforheradvantagethejusternotionsofwhatwasduetoeverybody,andwhatwouldbewisestforherself,whichherownmorefavourededucationhadfixedinher。

  Herinfluence,oratleasttheconsciousnessanduseofit,originatedinanactofkindnessbySusan,which,aftermanyhesitationsofdelicacy,sheatlastworkedherselfupto。

  Ithadveryearlyoccurredtoherthatasmallsumofmoneymight,perhaps,restorepeaceforeveronthesoresubjectofthesilverknife,canvassedasitnowwascontinually,andthericheswhichshewasinpossessionofherself,herunclehavinggivenher10atparting,madeherasableasshewaswillingtobegenerous。

  Butshewassowhollyunusedtoconferfavours,exceptontheverypoor,sounpractisedinremovingevils,orbestowingkindnessesamongherequals,andsofearfulofappearingtoelevateherselfasagreatladyathome,thatittooksometimetodeterminethatitwouldnotbeunbecominginhertomakesuchapresent。Itwasmade,however,atlast:asilverknifewasboughtforBetsey,andacceptedwithgreatdelight,itsnewnessgivingiteveryadvantageovertheotherthatcouldbedesired;

  Susanwasestablishedinthefullpossessionofherown,Betseyhandsomelydeclaringthatnowshehadgotonesomuchprettierherself,sheshouldneverwant_that_again;andnoreproachseemedconveyedtotheequallysatisfiedmother,whichFannyhadalmostfearedtobeimpossible。Thedeedthoroughlyanswered:asourceofdomesticaltercationwasentirelydoneaway,anditwasthemeansofopeningSusan’shearttoher,andgivinghersomethingmoretoloveandbeinterestedin。Susanshewedthatshehaddelicacy:

  pleasedasshewastobemistressofpropertywhichshehadbeenstrugglingforatleasttwoyears,sheyetfearedthathersister’sjudgmenthadbeenagainsther,andthatareproofwasdesignedherforhavingsostruggledastomakethepurchasenecessaryforthetranquillityofthehouse。

  Hertemperwasopen。Sheacknowledgedherfears,blamedherselfforhavingcontendedsowarmly;

  andfromthathourFanny,understandingtheworthofherdispositionandperceivinghowfullyshewasinclinedtoseekhergoodopinionandrefertoherjudgment,begantofeelagaintheblessingofaffection,andtoentertainthehopeofbeingusefultoamindsomuchinneedofhelp,andsomuchdeservingit。Shegaveadvice,advicetoosoundtoberesistedbyagoodunderstanding,andgivensomildlyandconsideratelyasnottoirritateanimperfecttemper,andshehadthehappinessofobservingitsgoodeffectsnotunfrequently。Morewasnotexpectedbyonewho,whileseeingalltheobligationandexpediencyofsubmissionandforbearance,sawalsowithsympatheticacutenessoffeelingallthatmustbehourlygratingtoagirllikeSusan。Hergreatestwonderonthesubjectsoonbecame——notthatSusanshouldhavebeenprovokedintodisrespectandimpatienceagainstherbetterknowledge——

  butthatsomuchbetterknowledge,somanygoodnotionsshouldhavebeenhersatall;andthat,broughtupinthemidstofnegligenceanderror,sheshouldhaveformedsuchproperopinionsofwhatoughttobe;she,whohadhadnocousinEdmundtodirectherthoughtsorfixherprinciples。

  Theintimacythusbegunbetweenthemwasamaterialadvantagetoeach。Bysittingtogetherupstairs,theyavoidedagreatdealofthedisturbanceofthehouse;

  Fannyhadpeace,andSusanlearnedtothinkitnomisfortunetobequietlyemployed。Theysatwithoutafire;butthatwasaprivationfamiliareventoFanny,andshesufferedthelessbecauseremindedbyitoftheEastroom。Itwastheonlypointofresemblance。

  Inspace,light,furniture,andprospect,therewasnothingalikeinthetwoapartments;andsheoftenheavedasighattheremembranceofallherbooksandboxes,andvariouscomfortsthere。Bydegreesthegirlscametospendthechiefofthemorningupstairs,atfirstonlyinworkingandtalking,butafterafewdays,theremembranceofthesaidbooksgrewsopotentandstimulativethatFannyfounditimpossiblenottotryforbooksagain。Therewerenoneinherfather’shouse;butwealthisluxuriousanddaring,andsomeofhersfounditswaytoacirculatinglibrary。

  Shebecameasubscriber;amazedatbeinganything_in_

  _propria__persona_,amazedatherowndoingsineveryway,tobearenter,achuserofbooks!Andtobehavinganyone’simprovementinviewinherchoice!Butsoitwas。

  Susanhadreadnothing,andFannylongedtogiveherashareinherownfirstpleasures,andinspireatasteforthebiographyandpoetrywhichshedelightedinherself。

  Inthisoccupationshehoped,moreover,toburysomeoftherecollectionsofMansfield,whichweretooapttoseizehermindifherfingersonlywerebusy;

  and,especiallyatthistime,hopeditmightbeusefulindivertingherthoughtsfrompursuingEdmundtoLondon,whither,ontheauthorityofheraunt’slastletter,sheknewhewasgone。Shehadnodoubtofwhatwouldensue。

  Thepromisednotificationwashangingoverherhead。

  Thepostman’sknockwithintheneighbourhoodwasbeginningtobringitsdailyterrors,andifreadingcouldbanishtheideaforevenhalfanhour,itwassomethinggained。

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  AweekwasgonesinceEdmundmightbesupposedintown,andFannyhadheardnothingofhim。

  Therewerethreedifferentconclusionstobedrawnfromhissilence,betweenwhichhermindwasinfluctuation;

  eachofthemattimesbeingheldthemostprobable。

  Eitherhisgoinghadbeenagaindelayed,orhehadyetprocurednoopportunityofseeingMissCrawfordalone,orhewastoohappyforletter-writing!

  Onemorning,aboutthistime,FannyhavingnowbeennearlyfourweeksfromMansfield,apointwhichsheneverfailedtothinkoverandcalculateeveryday,assheandSusanwerepreparingtoremove,asusual,upstairs,theywerestoppedbytheknockofavisitor,whomtheyfelttheycouldnotavoid,fromRebecca’salertnessingoingtothedoor,adutywhichalwaysinterestedherbeyondanyother。

  Itwasagentleman’svoice;itwasavoicethatFannywasjustturningpaleabout,whenMr。Crawfordwalkedintotheroom。

  Goodsense,likehers,willalwaysactwhenreallycalledupon;andshefoundthatshehadbeenabletonamehimtohermother,andrecallherremembranceofthename,asthatof“William’sfriend,“thoughshecouldnotpreviouslyhavebelievedherselfcapableofutteringasyllableatsuchamoment。TheconsciousnessofhisbeingknownthereonlyasWilliam’sfriendwassomesupport。

  Havingintroducedhim,however,andbeingallreseated,theterrorsthatoccurredofwhatthisvisitmightleadtowereoverpowering,andshefanciedherselfonthepointoffaintingaway。

  Whiletryingtokeepherselfalive,theirvisitor,whohadatfirstapproachedherwithasanimatedacountenanceasever,waswiselyandkindlykeepinghiseyesaway,andgivinghertimetorecover,whilehedevotedhimselfentirelytohermother,addressingher,andattendingtoherwiththeutmostpolitenessandpropriety,atthesametimewithadegreeoffriendliness,ofinterestatleast,whichwasmakinghismannerperfect。

  Mrs。Price’smannerswerealsoattheirbest。Warmedbythesightofsuchafriendtoherson,andregulatedbythewishofappearingtoadvantagebeforehim,shewasoverflowingwithgratitude——artless,maternalgratitude——

  whichcouldnotbeunpleasing。Mr。Pricewasout,whichsheregrettedverymuch。Fannywasjustrecoveredenoughtofeelthat_she_couldnotregretit;fortohermanyothersourcesofuneasinesswasaddedthesevereoneofshameforthehomeinwhichhefoundher。

  Shemightscoldherselffortheweakness,buttherewasnoscoldingitaway。Shewasashamed,andshewouldhavebeenyetmoreashamedofherfatherthanofalltherest。

  TheytalkedofWilliam,asubjectonwhichMrs。Pricecouldnevertire;andMr。Crawfordwasaswarminhiscommendationasevenherheartcouldwish。Shefeltthatshehadneverseensoagreeableamaninherlife;

  andwasonlyastonishedtofindthat,sogreatandsoagreeableashewas,heshouldbecomedowntoPortsmouthneitheronavisittotheport-admiral,northecommissioner,noryetwiththeintentionofgoingovertotheisland,norofseeingthedockyard。Nothingofallthatshehadbeenusedtothinkofastheproofofimportance,ortheemploymentofwealth,hadbroughthimtoPortsmouth。

  Hehadreacheditlatethenightbefore,wascomeforadayortwo,wasstayingattheCrown,hadaccidentallymetwithanavyofficerortwoofhisacquaintancesincehisarrival,buthadnoobjectofthatkindincoming。

  Bythetimehehadgivenallthisinformation,itwasnotunreasonabletosupposethatFannymightbelookedatandspokento;andshewastolerablyabletobearhiseye,andhearthathehadspenthalfanhourwithhissistertheeveningbeforehisleavingLondon;thatshehadsentherbestandkindestlove,buthadhadnotimeforwriting;

  thathethoughthimselfluckyinseeingMaryforevenhalfanhour,havingspentscarcelytwenty-fourhoursinLondon,afterhisreturnfromNorfolk,beforehesetoffagain;

  thathercousinEdmundwasintown,hadbeenintown,heunderstood,afewdays;thathehadnotseenhimhimself,butthathewaswell,hadleftthemallwellatMansfield,andwastodine,asyesterday,withtheFrasers。

  Fannylistenedcollectedly,eventothelast-mentionedcircumstance;nay,itseemedarelieftoherwornmindtobeatanycertainty;andthewords,“thenbythistimeitisallsettled,“passedinternally,withoutmoreevidenceofemotionthanafaintblushAftertalkingalittlemoreaboutMansfield,asubjectinwhichherinterestwasmostapparent,Crawfordbegantohintattheexpediencyofanearlywalk。“Itwasalovelymorning,andatthatseasonoftheyearafinemorningsooftenturnedoff,thatitwaswisestforeverybodynottodelaytheirexercise“;andsuchhintsproducingnothing,hesoonproceededtoapositiverecommendationtoMrs。Priceandherdaughterstotaketheirwalkwithoutlossoftime。

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