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  Sam,loudandoverbearingashewas,sheratherregrettedwhenhewent,forhewascleverandintelligent,andgladtobeemployedinanyerrandinthetown;andthoughspurningtheremonstrancesofSusan,givenastheywere,thoughveryreasonableinthemselves,withill-timedandpowerlesswarmth,wasbeginningtobeinfluencedbyFanny’sservicesandgentlepersuasions;andshefoundthatthebestofthethreeyoungeroneswasgoneinhim:

  TomandCharlesbeingatleastasmanyyearsastheywerehisjuniorsdistantfromthatageoffeelingandreason,whichmightsuggesttheexpediencyofmakingfriends,andofendeavouringtobelessdisagreeable。Theirsistersoondespairedofmakingthesmallestimpressionon_them_;

  theywerequiteuntameablebyanymeansofaddresswhichshehadspiritsortimetoattempt。Everyafternoonbroughtareturnoftheirriotousgamesalloverthehouse;andsheveryearlylearnedtosighattheapproachofSaturday’sconstanthalf-holiday。

  Betsey,too,aspoiledchild,traineduptothinkthealphabethergreatestenemy,lefttobewiththeservantsatherpleasure,andthenencouragedtoreportanyevilofthem,shewasalmostasreadytodespairofbeingabletoloveorassist;andofSusan’stempershehadmanydoubts。Hercontinualdisagreementswithhermother,herrashsquabbleswithTomandCharles,andpetulancewithBetsey,wereatleastsodistressingtoFannythat,thoughadmittingtheywerebynomeanswithoutprovocation,shefearedthedispositionthatcouldpushthemtosuchlengthmustbefarfromamiable,andfromaffordinganyreposetoherself。

  SuchwasthehomewhichwastoputMansfieldoutofherhead,andteachhertothinkofhercousinEdmundwithmoderatedfeelings。Onthecontrary,shecouldthinkofnothingbutMansfield,itsbelovedinmates,itshappyways。

  Everythingwhereshenowwasinfullcontrasttoit。

  Theelegance,propriety,regularity,harmony,andperhaps,aboveall,thepeaceandtranquillityofMansfield,werebroughttoherremembranceeveryhouroftheday,bytheprevalenceofeverythingoppositetothem_here_。

  Thelivinginincessantnoisewas,toaframeandtemperdelicateandnervouslikeFanny’s,anevilwhichnosuperaddedeleganceorharmonycouldhaveentirelyatonedfor。Itwasthegreatestmiseryofall。

  AtMansfield,nosoundsofcontention,noraisedvoice,noabruptbursts,notreadofviolence,waseverheard;

  allproceededinaregularcourseofcheerfulorderliness;

  everybodyhadtheirdueimportance;everybody’sfeelingswereconsulted。Iftendernesscouldbeeversupposedwanting,goodsenseandgoodbreedingsupplieditsplace;andastothelittleirritationssometimesintroducedbyauntNorris,theywereshort,theyweretrifling,theywereasadropofwatertotheocean,comparedwiththeceaselesstumultofherpresentabode。Hereeverybodywasnoisy,everyvoicewasloudexcepting,perhaps,hermother’s,whichresembledthesoftmonotonyofLadyBertram’s,onlywornintofretfulness。Whateverwaswantedwashallooedfor,andtheservantshallooedouttheirexcusesfromthekitchen。Thedoorswereinconstantbanging,thestairswereneveratrest,nothingwasdonewithoutaclatter,nobodysatstill,andnobodycouldcommandattentionwhentheyspoke。

  Inareviewofthetwohouses,astheyappearedtoherbeforetheendofaweek,FannywastemptedtoapplytothemDr。Johnson’scelebratedjudgmentastomatrimonyandcelibacy,andsay,thatthoughMansfieldParkmighthavesomepains,Portsmouthcouldhavenopleasures。

  FannywasrightenoughinnotexpectingtohearfromMissCrawfordnowattherapidrateinwhichtheircorrespondencehadbegun;Mary’snextletterwasafteradecidedlylongerintervalthanthelast,butshewasnotrightinsupposingthatsuchanintervalwouldbefeltagreatrelieftoherself。Herewasanotherstrangerevolutionofmind!

  Shewasreallygladtoreceivetheletterwhenitdidcome。

  Inherpresentexilefromgoodsociety,anddistancefromeverythingthathadbeenwonttointeresther,aletterfromonebelongingtothesetwhereherheartlived,writtenwithaffection,andsomedegreeofelegance,wasthoroughlyacceptable。Theusualpleaofincreasingengagementswasmadeinexcusefornothavingwrittentoherearlier;“AndnowthatIhavebegun,“

  shecontinued,“myletterwillnotbeworthyourreading,fortherewillbenolittleofferingofloveattheend,nothreeorfourlines_passionnees_fromthemostdevotedH。C。intheworld,forHenryisinNorfolk;

  businesscalledhimtoEveringhamtendaysago,orperhapsheonlypretendedtocall,forthesakeofbeingtravellingatthesametimethatyouwere。Butthereheis,and,bythebye,hisabsencemaysufficientlyaccountforanyremissnessofhissister’sinwriting,fortherehasbeenno’Well,Mary,whendoyouwritetoFanny?

  IsnotittimeforyoutowritetoFanny?’tospurmeon。

  Atlast,aftervariousattemptsatmeeting,Ihaveseenyourcousins,’dearJuliaanddearestMrs。Rushworth’;

  theyfoundmeathomeyesterday,andweweregladtoseeeachotheragain。We_seemed__very_gladtoseeeachother,andIdoreallythinkwewerealittle。

  Wehadavastdealtosay。ShallItellyouhowMrs。Rushworthlookedwhenyournamewasmentioned?

  Ididnotusetothinkherwantinginself-possession,butshehadnotquiteenoughforthedemandsofyesterday。

  Uponthewhole,Juliawasinthebestlooksofthetwo,atleastafteryouwerespokenof。TherewasnorecoveringthecomplexionfromthemomentthatIspokeof’Fanny,’andspokeofherasasistershould。

  ButMrs。Rushworth’sdayofgoodlookswillcome;

  wehavecardsforherfirstpartyonthe28th。Thenshewillbeinbeauty,forshewillopenoneofthebesthousesinWimpoleStreet。Iwasinittwoyearsago,whenitwasLadyLascelle’s,andpreferittoalmostanyIknowinLondon,andcertainlyshewillthenfeel,touseavulgarphrase,thatshehasgotherpennyworthforherpenny。Henrycouldnothaveaffordedhersuchahouse。Ihopeshewillrecollectit,andbesatisfied,aswellasshemay,withmovingthequeenofapalace,thoughthekingmayappearbestinthebackground;

  andasIhavenodesiretoteaseher,Ishallnever_force_

  yournameuponheragain。Shewillgrowsoberbydegrees。

  FromallthatIhearandguess,BaronWildenheim’sattentionstoJuliacontinue,butIdonotknowthathehasanyseriousencouragement。Sheoughttodobetter。

  Apoorhonourableisnocatch,andIcannotimagineanylikinginthecase,fortakeawayhisrants,andthepoorbaronhasnothing。Whatadifferenceavowelmakes!

  Ifhisrentswerebutequaltohisrants!YourcousinEdmundmovesslowly;detained,perchance,byparishduties。

  TheremaybesomeoldwomanatThorntonLaceytobeconverted。

  Iamunwillingtofancymyselfneglectedfora_young_one。

  Adieu!mydearsweetFanny,thisisalongletterfromLondon:

  writemeaprettyoneinreplytogladdenHenry’seyes,whenhecomesback,andsendmeanaccountofallthedashingyoungcaptainswhomyoudisdainforhissake。“

  Therewasgreatfoodformeditationinthisletter,andchieflyforunpleasantmeditation;andyet,withalltheuneasinessitsupplied,itconnectedherwiththeabsent,ittoldherofpeopleandthingsaboutwhomshehadneverfeltsomuchcuriosityasnow,andshewouldhavebeengladtohavebeensureofsuchalettereveryweek。

  HercorrespondencewithherauntBertramwasheronlyconcernofhigherinterest。

  AsforanysocietyinPortsmouth,thatcouldatallmakeamendsfordeficienciesathome,therewerenonewithinthecircleofherfather’sandmother’sacquaintancetoaffordherthesmallestsatisfaction:shesawnobodyinwhosefavourshecouldwishtoovercomeherownshynessandreserve。Themenappearedtoherallcoarse,thewomenallpert,everybodyunderbred;andshegaveaslittlecontentmentasshereceivedfromintroductionseithertooldornewacquaintance。Theyoungladieswhoapproachedheratfirstwithsomerespect,inconsiderationofhercomingfromabaronet’sfamily,weresoonoffendedbywhattheytermed“airs“;for,assheneitherplayedonthepianofortenorworefinepelisses,theycould,onfartherobservation,admitnorightofsuperiority。

  ThefirstsolidconsolationwhichFannyreceivedfortheevilsofhome,thefirstwhichherjudgmentcouldentirelyapprove,andwhichgaveanypromiseofdurability,wasinabetterknowledgeofSusan,andahopeofbeingofservicetoher。Susanhadalwaysbehavedpleasantlytoherself,butthedeterminedcharacterofhergeneralmannershadastonishedandalarmedher,anditwasatleastafortnightbeforeshebegantounderstandadispositionsototallydifferentfromherown。Susansawthatmuchwaswrongathome,andwantedtosetitright。Thatagirloffourteen,actingonlyonherownunassistedreason,shoulderrinthemethodofreform,wasnotwonderful;

  andFannysoonbecamemoredisposedtoadmirethenaturallightofthemindwhichcouldsoearlydistinguishjustly,thantocensureseverelythefaultsofconducttowhichitled。

  Susanwasonlyactingonthesametruths,andpursuingthesamesystem,whichherownjudgmentacknowledged,butwhichhermoresupineandyieldingtemperwouldhaveshrunkfromasserting。Susantriedtobeuseful,where_she_couldonlyhavegoneawayandcried;andthatSusanwasusefulshecouldperceive;thatthings,badastheywere,wouldhavebeenworsebutforsuchinterposition,andthatbothhermotherandBetseywererestrainedfromsomeexcessesofveryoffensiveindulgenceandvulgarity。

  Ineveryargumentwithhermother,Susanhadinpointofreasontheadvantage,andneverwasthereanymaternaltendernesstobuyheroff。Theblindfondnesswhichwasforeverproducingevilaroundhershehadneverknown。

  Therewasnogratitudeforaffectionpastorpresenttomakeherbetterbearwithitsexcessestotheothers。

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