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  Youforgetyourself:thereisadecideddifferenceinyourtempers,Iallow。Heislively,youareserious;

  butsomuchthebetter:hisspiritswillsupportyours。

  Itisyourdispositiontobeeasilydejectedandtofancydifficultiesgreaterthantheyare。Hischeerfulnesswillcounteractthis。Heseesdifficultiesnowhere:

  andhispleasantnessandgaietywillbeaconstantsupporttoyou。Yourbeingsofarunlike,Fanny,doesnotinthesmallestdegreemakeagainsttheprobabilityofyourhappinesstogether:donotimagineit。Iammyselfconvincedthatitisratherafavourablecircumstance。

  Iamperfectlypersuadedthatthetempershadbetterbeunlike:

  Imeanunlikeintheflowofthespirits,inthemanners,intheinclinationformuchorlittlecompany,inthepropensitytotalkortobesilent,tobegraveortobegay。

  Someoppositionhereis,Iamthoroughlyconvinced,friendlytomatrimonialhappiness。Iexcludeextremes,ofcourse;andaverycloseresemblanceinallthosepointswouldbethelikeliestwaytoproduceanextreme。

  Acounteraction,gentleandcontinual,isthebestsafeguardofmannersandconduct。“

  FullwellcouldFannyguesswherehisthoughtswerenow:

  MissCrawford’spowerwasallreturning。Hehadbeenspeakingofhercheerfullyfromthehourofhiscominghome。

  Hisavoidingherwasquiteatanend。HehaddinedattheParsonageonlytheprecedingday。

  Afterleavinghimtohishappierthoughtsforsomeminutes,Fanny,feelingitduetoherself,returnedtoMr。Crawford,andsaid,“Itisnotmerelyin_temper_thatIconsiderhimastotallyunsuitedtomyself;though,in_that_

  respect,Ithinkthedifferencebetweenustoogreat,infinitelytoogreat:hisspiritsoftenoppressme;

  butthereissomethinginhimwhichIobjecttostillmore。

  Imustsay,cousin,thatIcannotapprovehischaracter。

  Ihavenotthoughtwellofhimfromthetimeoftheplay。

  Ithensawhimbehaving,asitappearedtome,soveryimproperlyandunfeelingly——Imayspeakofitnowbecauseitisallover——soimproperlybypoorMr。Rushworth,notseemingtocarehowheexposedorhurthim,andpayingattentionstomycousinMaria,which——inshort,atthetimeoftheplay,Ireceivedanimpressionwhichwillneverbegotover。“

  “MydearFanny,“repliedEdmund,scarcelyhearinghertotheend,“letusnot,anyofus,bejudgedbywhatweappearedatthatperiodofgeneralfolly。ThetimeoftheplayisatimewhichIhatetorecollect。Mariawaswrong,Crawfordwaswrong,wewereallwrongtogether;butnonesowrongasmyself。Comparedwithme,alltherestwereblameless。Iwasplayingthefoolwithmyeyesopen。“

  “Asabystander,“saidFanny,“perhapsIsawmorethanyoudid;andIdothinkthatMr。Rushworthwassometimesveryjealous。“

  “Verypossibly。Nowonder。Nothingcouldbemoreimproperthanthewholebusiness。IamshockedwheneverIthinkthatMariacouldbecapableofit;but,ifshecouldundertakethepart,wemustnotbesurprisedattherest。“

  “Beforetheplay,Iammuchmistakenif_Julia_didnotthinkhewaspayingherattentions。

  “Julia!IhaveheardbeforefromsomeoneofhisbeinginlovewithJulia;butIcouldneverseeanythingofit。

  And,Fanny,thoughIhopeIdojusticetomysisters’

  goodqualities,Ithinkitverypossiblethattheymight,oneorboth,bemoredesirousofbeingadmiredbyCrawford,andmightshewthatdesirerathermoreunguardedlythanwasperfectlyprudent。Icanrememberthattheywereevidentlyfondofhissociety;andwithsuchencouragement,amanlikeCrawford,lively,anditmaybe,alittleunthinking,mightbeledonto——therecouldbenothingverystriking,becauseitisclearthathehadnopretensions:hisheartwasreservedforyou。AndImustsay,thatitsbeingforyouhasraisedhiminconceivablyinmyopinion。

  Itdoeshimthehighesthonour;itshewshisproperestimationoftheblessingofdomestichappinessandpureattachment。

  Itproveshimunspoiltbyhisuncle。Itproveshim,inshort,everythingthatIhadbeenusedtowishtobelievehim,andfearedhewasnot。“

  “Iampersuadedthathedoesnotthink,asheought,onserioussubjects。“

  “Say,rather,thathehasnotthoughtatalluponserioussubjects,whichIbelievetobeagooddealthecase。

  Howcoulditbeotherwise,withsuchaneducationandadviser?

  Underthedisadvantages,indeed,whichbothhavehad,isitnotwonderfulthattheyshouldbewhattheyare?

  Crawford’s_feelings_,Iamreadytoacknowledge,havehithertobeentoomuchhisguides。Happily,thosefeelingshavegenerallybeengood。Youwillsupplytherest;andamostfortunatemanheistoattachhimselftosuchacreature——

  toawomanwho,firmasarockinherownprinciples,hasagentlenessofcharactersowelladaptedtorecommendthem。

  Hehaschosenhispartner,indeed,withrarefelicity。

  Hewillmakeyouhappy,Fanny;Iknowhewillmakeyouhappy;

  butyouwillmakehimeverything。“

  “Iwouldnotengageinsuchacharge,“criedFanny,inashrinkingaccent;“insuchanofficeofhighresponsibility!“

  “Asusual,believingyourselfunequaltoanything!

  fancyingeverythingtoomuchforyou!Well,thoughI

  maynotbeabletopersuadeyouintodifferentfeelings,youwillbepersuadedintothem,Itrust。

  Iconfessmyselfsincerelyanxiousthatyoumay。

  IhavenocommoninterestinCrawford’swell-doing。Nexttoyourhappiness,Fanny,hishasthefirstclaimonme。

  YouareawareofmyhavingnocommoninterestinCrawford。“

  Fannywastoowellawareofittohaveanythingtosay;

  andtheywalkedontogethersomefiftyyardsinmutualsilenceandabstraction。Edmundfirstbeganagain——

  “Iwasverymuchpleasedbyhermannerofspeakingofityesterday,particularlypleased,becauseIhadnotdependeduponherseeingeverythinginsojustalight。

  Iknewshewasveryfondofyou;butyetIwasafraidofhernotestimatingyourworthtoherbrotherquiteasitdeserved,andofherregrettingthathehadnotratherfixedonsomewomanofdistinctionorfortune。

  Iwasafraidofthebiasofthoseworldlymaxims,whichshehasbeentoomuchusedtohear。Butitwasverydifferent。

  Shespokeofyou,Fanny,justassheought。Shedesirestheconnexionaswarmlyasyouruncleormyself。

  Wehadalongtalkaboutit。Ishouldnothavementionedthesubject,thoughveryanxioustoknowhersentiments;

  butIhadnotbeenintheroomfiveminutesbeforeshebeganintroducingitwithallthatopennessofheart,andsweetpeculiarityofmanner,thatspiritandingenuousnesswhicharesomuchapartofherself。Mrs。Grantlaughedatherforherrapidity。“

  “WasMrs。Grantintheroom,then?“

  “Yes,whenIreachedthehouseIfoundthetwosisterstogetherbythemselves;andwhenoncewehadbegun,wehadnotdonewithyou,Fanny,tillCrawfordandDr。Grantcamein。“

  “ItisaboveaweeksinceIsawMissCrawford。“

  “Yes,shelamentsit;yetownsitmayhavebeenbest。

  Youwillseeher,however,beforeshegoes。Sheisveryangrywithyou,Fanny;youmustbepreparedforthat。

  Shecallsherselfveryangry,butyoucanimagineheranger。

  Itistheregretanddisappointmentofasister,whothinksherbrotherhasarighttoeverythinghemaywishfor,atthefirstmoment。Sheishurt,asyouwouldbeforWilliam;butshelovesandesteemsyouwithallherheart。“

  “Iknewshewouldbeveryangrywithme。“

  “MydearestFanny,“criedEdmund,pressingherarmclosertohim,“donotlettheideaofherangerdistressyou。

  Itisangertobetalkedofratherthanfelt。Herheartismadeforloveandkindness,notforresentment。

  Iwishyoucouldhaveoverheardhertributeofpraise;

  Iwishyoucouldhaveseenhercountenance,whenshesaidthatyou_should_beHenry’swife。AndIobservedthatshealwaysspokeofyouas’Fanny,’whichshewasneverusedtodo;

  andithadasoundofmostsisterlycordiality。“

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