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  Isthatit?’heasked;andthesilencetheelderspreservedplainlysaid,OnMary’sheangbosomthisbegging-petitionwasread。

  AndthatitwasscarcelyabargainthatshewhohaddrenhimwildShouldsharenowthefruitsofhisvalour,thewomenexpressed,astheysmiled。

  ThefamilyprideoftheBridgemanswascomforted;still,withcontempt,Theylookedonamonieddamselofmodestyquitesoexempt。

  ’Ogemeforcetotellthem!’criedMary,andevenasshespoke,Ashoutandahushofthechildren:asiononallofthembroke。

  Wheeled,pale,inachair,andshattered,thewreckoftheirherowasseen;

  TheghostofTomdrawnslowo’ertheorchard’sshadowygreen。

  Couldthisbethemartialdarlingtheyjoyedinamomentago?

  ’Heknowsit?’toMaryTommurmured,andclosedhisweaklidsather’No。’

  ’Beloved!’shesaid,fallingbyhim,’Ihavebeenacoward:I

  thoughtYoulayintheforeigncountry,andsomestrangegoodmightbewrought。

  ’EachdayIhavecometotellhim,andfailed,withmyhandonthegate。

  Iborethedreadfulknowledge,andcrushedmyheartwithitsweight。

  Theletterbroughtbyyourcomrade——hehasbutjustreaditaloud!

  Itonlyreachedhimthismorning!’Herheadonhisshouldershebowed。

  ThenTomwithpity’stenderestlordlinesspattedherarm,Andeyedtheoldwhite-headfondly,withsomethingofdoubtandalarm。

  O,taketoyourfancyasculptorwhosefreshmarbleoffspringappearsBeforehim,shininglyperfect,thelaurel-crown’dissueofyears:

  Isheavenoffended?forlightningbeholdfromitsbosomescape,Andthosearemockingfragmentsthatmadetheharmoniousshape!

  Hecannotlovetheruins,till,feelingthatruinsaloneAreleft,helovesthemthreefold。Sopassedtheoldgrandfather’smoan。

  John’stextforasermononSlaughterheheard,andhedidnotprotest。

  AllrigidasAprilsnowdrifts,hestood,hardandfeeble;hischestJustshowingtheswellofthefireasitmeltedhim。Smitingarib,’Heigh!whathavewebeenabout,Tom!Wasthisallaterriblefib?’

  Hecried,andtheletterforth-trembled。Tomtoldwhatthecannonhaddone。

  Fewpresentbutachedtoseefallingthoseagedtearsonhisheart’sson!

  Uplanesofthequietllage,andwherethemill-watersrushredThro’browningsummermeadowstocatchthesun’scrimsoninghead,YoumeetanoldmanandamaidenwhohasthesoftwaysofawifeWithonewhomtheywheel,alternate;whosedelicateflushofnewlifeIsprizedliketheearlyprimrose。Thenshakehisrighthand,inthechair-

  Theoldmanfailsnevertotellyou:’You’vegottheFrenchGeneral’sthere!’

  Howlowwhenangelsfalltheirblackdescent,Ourprimalthundertells:knownisthepainOfmusic,thatnighthroningwisdomwent,Andonefalsenotecastwailfultotheinsane。

  NowseemsthelanguageheardofLoveasrainTomakeamirewherefruitfulnesswasmeant。

  Thegoldenharpgesoutajangledstrain,Toolikerevoltfromheaven’sOmnipotent。

  Butlisteninthethought;somaytherecomeConceptionofanewly-addedchord,Commandingspacebeyondwhereearhashome。

  Inlabourofthetroubleatitsfount,LeadsLifetoanintelligibleLordTherebeldiscordsupthesacredmount。

  Bythisheknewsheweptwithwakingeyes:

  That,athishand’slightquerbyherhead,ThestrangelowsobsthatshooktheircommonbedWerecalledintoherwithasharpsurprise,Andstrangledmute,likelittlegapingsnakes,Dreadfullyvenomoustohim。ShelayStone-still,andthelongdarknessflowedawayWithmuffledpulses。Then,asmidnightmakesHergiantheartofMemoryandTearsDrinkthepaledrugofsilence,andsobeatSleep’sheavymeasure,theyfromheadtofeetWeremoveless,lookingthroughtheirdeadblackyears,Byvainregretscrawledovertheblankwall。

  LikesculpturedeffigiestheymightbeseenUpontheirmarriage-tomb,theswordbetween;

  Eachwishingfortheswordthatseversall。

  Itended,andthemorrowbroughtthetask。

  Hereyeswereguiltygates,thatlethiminByshuttingalltoozealousfortheirsin:

  Eachsuckedasecret,andeachworeamask。

  But,oh,thebittertasteherbeautyhad!

  Hesickenedasatbreathofpoison-flowers:

  Alanguidhumourstoleamongthehours,Andiftheirsmilesencountered,hewentmad,Andrageddeepinward,tillthelightwasbrownBeforehission,andtheworld,forgot,Lookedwickedassomeolddullmurder-spot。

  Astarwithluridbeams,sheseemedtocrownThepitofinfamy:andthenagainHefaintedonhisvengefulness,andstroveToapethemagnanimityoflove,Andsmotehimself,ashudderingheapofpain。

  Thiswasthewoman;whatnowoftheman?

  Butpasshim。Ifhecomesbeneathaheel,Heshallbecrusheduntilhecannotfeel,Or,beingcallous,haplytillhecan。

  Butheisnothing:-nothing?OnlymarkTherichlightstrikingoutfromheronhim!

  Ha!whatasenseitiswhenhereyesswimAcrossthemanshesingles,leangdarkAllelse!LordGod,whomad’stthethingsofair,SeethatIamdrawntoherevennow!

  ItcannotbesuchharmonhercoolbrowToputakiss?YetifImeethimthere!

  Butsheismine!Ah,no!IknowtoowellIclaimastarwhoselightisovercast:

  Iclaimaphantom-womaninthePast。

  Thehourhasstruck,thoughIheardnotthebell!

  Allotherjoysoflifehestrovetowarm,Andmagnify,andcatchthemtohislip:

  Buttheyhadsufferedshipwreckwiththeship,Andgazeduponhimsallowfromthestorm。

  OrifDelusioncame,’twasbuttoshowThecomingminutemocktheonethatwent。

  Coldasamountaininitsstar-pitchedtent,StoodhighPhilosophy,lessfriendthanfoe:

  Whomself-cagedPassion,fromitsprison-bars,Isalwayswatchingwithawonderinghate。

  Nottillthefireisdyinginthegrate,Lookweforanykinshipwiththestars。

  Oh,wisdomnevercomeswhenitisgold,Andthegreatpricewepayforitfullworth:

  Wehaveitonlywhenwearehalfearth。

  Littleavailsthatcoinagetotheold!

  Amessagefromhersethisbrainaflame。

  Aworldofhouseholdmattersfilledhermind,Whereinhesawhypocrisydesigned:

  Shetreatedhimassomethingthatistame,Andbutatotherprovocationbites。

  Familiarwashershoulderintheglass,Throughthatdarkrain:yetitmaycometopassThatachangedeyefindssuchfamiliarsightsMorekeenlytemptingthannewloveliness。

  The’Whathasbeen’amomentseemedhisown:

  Thesplendours,mysteries,dearerbecauseknown,Norlessdine:Love’sinmostsacrednessCalledtohim,’Come!’——Inhisrestrainingstart,EyesnurturedtobelookedatscarcecouldseeAwaveofthegreatwavesofDestinyConvulsedatacheckedimpulseoftheheart。

  Itchancedhislipsdidmeetherforeheadcool。

  Shehadnoblush,butslanteddownhereye。

  Shamednature,then,confesseslovecandie:

  AndmostshepunishesthetenderfoolWhowillbelievewhathonoursherthemost!

  Dead!isitdead?Shehasapulse,andflowOftears,thepriceofblood-drops,asIknow,ForwhomthemidnightsobsaroundLove’sghost,SincethenIheardher,andsowillsobon。

  Theloveishere;ithasbutchangeditsaim。

  Obitterbarrenwoman!what’sthename?

  Thename,thename,thenewnamethouhastwon?

  Beholdmestrikingtheworld’scowardstroke!

  ThatwillInotdo,thoughthestingisdire-

  Beneaththesurfacethis,whilebythefireTheysat,shelaughingataquietjoke。

  Sheissuesradiantfromherdressing-room,Likeonepreparedtoscaleanuppersphere:-

  Bystirringupalower,muchIfear!

  Howdeftlythatoiledbarberlayshisbloom!

  Thatlong-shankeddapperCupidwithfriskedcurlsCanmakeknownwomentorturinglyfair;

  Thegold-eyedserpentdwellinginrichhairAwakesbeneathhismagicwhisksandtwirls。

  Hisartcantaketheeyesfromoutmyhead,UntilIseewitheyesofothermen;

  Whiledeeperknowledgecrouchesinitsden,Andsendsasparkup:-isittruewearewed?

  Yea!filthinessofbodyismostle,ButfaithlessnessofheartIdoholdworse。

  Theformer,itwerenotsogreatacurseToreadonthesteel-mirrorofhersmile。

  Yetitwasplainshestruggled,andthatsaltOfrighteousfeelingmadeherpitiful。

  Poortwistingworm,soqueenlybeautiful!

  Wherecamethecleftbetweenus?whosethefault?

  Mytearsareonthee,thathaverarelydroppedAsbalmforanybitterwoundofmine:

  Mybreastwillopenfortheeatasign!

  But,no:wearetworeed-pipes,coarselystopped:

  TheGodoncefilledthemwithhismellowbreath;

  Andtheyweremusictillheflungthemdown,Used!used!Hearnowthediscord-longclownPuffhisgrossspiritinthem,worsethandeath!

  Idonotknowmyselfwithouttheemore:

  InthisunholybattleIgrowbase:

  Ifthesamesoulbeunderthesameface,Speak,andatasteofthatoldtimerestore!

  HefeltthewildbeastinhimbetweenwhilesSomasterfullyrude,thathewouldgrieveToseethehelplessdelicatethingreceeHisguardianshipthroughcertaindarkdefiles。

  Hadhenotteethtorend,andhungertoo?

  Butstillhesparedher。Once:’Haveyounofear?’

  Hesaid:’twasdusk;sheinhisgrasp;nonenear。

  Shelaughed:’No,surely;amInotwithyou?’

  Andutteringthatsoftstarry’you,’sheleanedHergentlebodynearhim,lookingup;

  Andfromhereyes,asfromapoison-cup,Hedrankuntiltheflitteringeyelidsscreened。

  Delishmalignantwitch!andoh,youngbeamOfheaven’scircle-glory!HerethyshapeTosqueezelikeanintocatinggrape-

  Imight,andyetthougoestsafe,supreme。

  X

  Butwherebeganthechange;andwhat’smycrime?

  Thewretchcondemned,whohasnotbeenarraigned,Chafesathissentence。ShallI,unsustained,DragonLove’snervelessbodythro’alltime?

  Imusthaveslept,sincenowIwake。Prepare,Youlovers,toknowLoveathingofmoods:

  Not,likehardlife,oflaws。InLove’sdeepwoods,IdreamtofloyalLife:-theoffenceisthere!

  Love’sjealouswoodsaboutthesunarecurled;

  Atleast,thesunfarbrightertheredidbeam-

  Mycrimeis,thatthepuppetofadream,Iplottedtobeworthyoftheworld。

  Oh,hadIwithmydarlinghelpedtominceThefactsoflife,youstillhadseenmegoWithhindwardfeatherandwithforwardtoe,Hermuch-adoreddelightfulFairyPrince!

  Outintheyellowmeadows,wherethebeeHumsbyuswiththehoneyoftheSpring,AndshowersofsweetnotesfromthelarksonwingAredroppinglikeanoon-dew,wanderwe。

  Orisitnow?orwasitthen?fornow,Asthen,thelarksfromrunningringspourshowers:

  ThegoldenfootofMayisontheflowers,Andfriendlyshadowsdanceuponherbrow。

  What’sthis,whenNatureswearsthereisnochangeTochallengeeyesight?Now,asthen,thegraceOfheavenseemsholdingearthinitsembrace。

  Noreyes,norheart,hasshetofeelitstrange?

  Look,woman,intheWest。TherewiltthouseeAnambercradlenearthesun’sdecline:

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