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  EllaMarchmill,sittingdownaloneafewminuteslater,thoughtwithinterestedsurpriseofRobertTrewe。Herownlatterhistorywillbestexplainthatinterest。Herselftheonlydaughterofastrugglingmanofletters,shehadduringthelastyearortwotakentowritingpoems,inanendeavourtofindacongenialchannelinwhichtoletflowherpainfullyembayedemotions,whoseformerlimpidityandsparkleseemeddepartinginthestagnationcausedbytheroutineofapracticalhouseholdandthegloomofbearingchildrentoacommonplacefather。Thesepoems,subscribedwithamasculinepseudonym,hadappearedinvariousobscuremagazines,andintwocasesinratherprominentones。Inthesecondofthelatterthepagewhichborehereffusionatthebottom,insmallishprint,boreatthetop,inlargeprint,afewversesonthesamesubjectbythisveryman,RobertTrewe。Bothofthemhad,infact,beenstruckbyatragicincidentreportedinthedailypapers,andhaduseditsimultaneouslyasaninspiration,theeditorremarkinginanoteuponthecoincidence,andthattheexcellenceofbothpoemspromptedhimtogivethemtogether。

  AfterthateventElla,otherwise’JohnIvy,’hadwatchedwithmuchattentiontheappearanceanywhereinprintofversebearingthesignatureofRobertTrewe,who,withaman’sunsusceptibilityonthequestionofsex,hadneveroncethoughtofpassinghimselfoffasawoman。Tobesure,Mrs。Marchmillhadsatisfiedherselfwithasortofreasonfordoingthecontraryinhercase;thatnobodymightbelieveinherinspirationiftheyfoundthatthesentimentscamefromapushingtradesman’swife,fromthemotherofthreechildrenbyamatter-of-factsmall-armsmanufacturer。

  Trewe’sversecontrastedwiththatoftherankandfileofrecentminorpoetsinbeingimpassionedratherthaningenious,luxuriantratherthanfinished。Neithersymbolistenordecadent,hewasapessimistinsofarasthatcharacterappliestoamanwholooksattheworstcontingenciesaswellasthebestinthehumancondition。

  Beinglittleattractedbyexcellencesofformandrhythmapartfromcontent,hesometimes,whenfeelingoutranhisartisticspeed,perpetratedsonnetsinthelooselyrhymedElizabethanfashion,whicheveryright-mindedreviewersaidheoughtnottohavedone。

  Withsadandhopelessenvy,EllaMarchmillhadoftenandoftenscannedtherivalpoet’swork,somuchstrongerasitalwayswasthanherownfeeblelines。Shehadimitatedhim,andherinabilitytotouchhislevelwouldsendherintofitsofdespondency。Monthspassedawaythus,tillsheobservedfromthepublishers’listthatTrewehadcollectedhisfugitivepiecesintoavolume,whichwasdulyissued,andwasmuchorlittlepraisedaccordingtochance,andhadasalequitesufficienttopayfortheprinting。

  ThissteponwardhadsuggestedtoJohnIvytheideaofcollectingherpiecesalso,oratanyrateofmakingupabookofherrhymesbyaddingmanyinmanuscripttothefewthathadseenthelight,forshehadbeenabletogetnogreatnumberintoprint。Aruinouschargewasmadeforcostsofpublication;afewreviewsnoticedherpoorlittlevolume;butnobodytalkedofit,nobodyboughtit,anditfelldeadinafortnight——ifithadeverbeenalive。

  Theauthor’sthoughtsweredivertedtoanothergroovejustthenbythediscoverythatshewasgoingtohaveathirdchild,andthecollapseofherpoeticalventurehadperhapslesseffectuponhermindthanitmighthavedoneifshehadbeendomesticallyunoccupied。Herhusbandhadpaidthepublisher’sbillwiththedoctor’s,andthereitallhadendedforthetime。But,thoughlessthanapoetofhercentury,Ellawasmorethanameremultiplierofherkind,andlatterlyshehadbeguntofeeltheoldafflatusoncemore。AndnowbyanoddconjunctionshefoundherselfintheroomsofRobertTrewe。

  Shethoughtfullyrosefromherchairandsearchedtheapartmentwiththeinterestofafellow-tradesman。Yes,thevolumeofhisownversewasamongtherest。Thoughquitefamiliarwithitscontents,shereadithereasifitspokealoudtoher,thencalledupMrs。

  Hooper,thelandlady,forsometrivialservice,andinquiredagainabouttheyoungman。

  ’Well,I’msureyou’dbeinterestedinhim,ma’am,ifyoucouldseehim,onlyhe’ssoshythatIdon’tsupposeyouwill。’Mrs。Hooperseemednothinglothtoministertohertenant’scuriosityaboutherpredecessor。’Livedherelong?Yes,nearlytwoyears。Hekeepsonhisroomsevenwhenhe’snothere:thesoftairofthisplacesuitshischest,andhelikestobeabletocomebackatanytime。Heismostlywritingorreading,anddoesn’tseemanypeople,though,forthematterofthat,heissuchagood,kindyoungfellowthatfolkswouldonlybetoogladtobefriendlywithhimiftheyknewhim。

  Youdon’tmeetkind-heartedpeopleeveryday。’

  ’Ah,he’skind-hearted……andgood。’

  ’Yes;he’llobligemeinanythingifIaskhim。“Mr。Trewe,“Isaytohimsometimes,“youareratheroutofspirits。““Well,Iam,Mrs。Hooper,“he’llsay,“thoughIdon’tknowhowyoushouldfinditout。““Whynottakealittlechange?“Iask。Theninadayortwohe’llsaythathewilltakeatriptoParis,orNorway,orsomewhere;andIassureyouhecomesbackallthebetterforit。’

  ’Ah,indeed!Hisisasensitivenature,nodoubt。’

  ’Yes。Stillhe’soddinsomethings。Oncewhenhehadfinishedapoemofhiscompositionlateatnighthewalkedupanddowntheroomrehearsingit;andthefloorsbeingsothin——jerry-builthouses,youknow,thoughIsayitmyself——hekeptmeawakeupabovehimtillI

  wishedhimfurther……Butwegetonverywell。’

  Thiswasbutthebeginningofaseriesofconversationsabouttherisingpoetasthedayswenton。OnoneoftheseoccasionsMrs。

  HooperdrewElla’sattentiontowhatshehadnotnoticedbefore:

  minutescribblingsinpencilonthewall-paperbehindthecurtainsattheheadofthebed。

  ’O!letmelook,’saidMrs。Marchmill,unabletoconcealarushoftendercuriosityasshebentherprettyfaceclosetothewall。

  ’These,’saidMrs。Hooper,withthemannerofawomanwhoknewthings,’aretheverybeginningsandfirstthoughtsofhisverses。

  Hehastriedtorubmostofthemout,butyoucanreadthemstill。

  Mybeliefisthathewakesupinthenight,youknow,withsomerhymeinhishead,andjotsitdownthereonthewalllestheshouldforgetitbythemorning。SomeoftheseverylinesyouseehereI

  haveseenafterwardsinprintinthemagazines。Somearenewer;

  indeed,Ihavenotseenthatonebefore。Itmusthavebeendoneonlyafewdaysago。’

  ’Oyes!……’

  EllaMarchmillflushedwithoutknowingwhy,andsuddenlywishedhercompanionwouldgoaway,nowthattheinformationwasimparted。Anindescribableconsciousnessofpersonalinterestratherthanliterarymadeheranxioustoreadtheinscriptionalone;andsheaccordinglywaitedtillshecoulddoso,withasensethatagreatstoreofemotionwouldbeenjoyedintheact。

  PerhapsbecausetheseawaschoppyoutsidetheIsland,Ella’shusbandfounditmuchpleasantertogosailingandsteamingaboutwithouthiswife,whowasabadsailor,thanwithher。Hedidnotdisdaintogothusaloneonboardthesteamboatsofthecheap-

  trippers,wheretherewasdancingbymoonlight,andwherethecoupleswouldcomesuddenlydownwithalurchintoeachother’sarms;for,asheblandlytoldher,thecompanywastoomixedforhimtotakeheramidsuchscenes。Thus,whilethisthrivingmanufacturergotagreatdealofchangeandsea-airoutofhissojournhere,thelife,externalatleast,ofEllawasmonotonousenough,andmainlyconsistedinpassingacertainnumberofhourseachdayinbathingandwalkingupanddownastretchofshore。Butthepoeticimpulsehavingagainwaxedstrong,shewaspossessedbyaninnerflamewhichleftherhardlyconsciousofwhatwasproceedingaroundher。

  ShehadreadtillsheknewbyheartTrewe’slastlittlevolumeofverses,andspentagreatdealoftimeinvainlyattemptingtorivalsomeofthem,till,inherfailure,sheburstintotears。Thepersonalelementinthemagneticattractionexercisedbythiscircumambient,unapproachablemasterofherswassomuchstrongerthantheintellectualandabstractthatshecouldnotunderstandit。

  Tobesure,shewassurroundednoonandnightbyhiscustomaryenvironment,whichliterallywhisperedofhimtoherateverymoment;buthewasamanshehadneverseen,andthatallthatmovedherwastheinstincttospecializeawaitingemotiononthefirstfitthingthatcametohanddidnot,ofcourse,suggestitselftoElla。

  Inthenaturalwayofpassionunderthetoopracticalconditionswhichcivilizationhasdevisedforitsfruition,herhusband’sloveforherhadnotsurvived,exceptintheformoffitfulfriendship,anymorethan,orevensomuchas,herownforhim;and,beingawomanofverylivingardours,thatrequiredsustenanceofsomesort,theywerebeginningtofeedonthischancingmaterial,whichwas,indeed,ofaqualityfarbetterthanchanceusuallyoffers。

  Onedaythechildrenhadbeenplayinghide-and-seekinacloset,whence,intheirexcitement,theypulledoutsomeclothing。Mrs。

  HooperexplainedthatitbelongedtoMr。Trewe,andhungitupintheclosetagain。Possessedofherfantasy,Ellawentlaterintheafternoon,whennobodywasinthatpartofthehouse,openedthecloset,unhitchedoneofthearticles,amackintosh,andputiton,withthewaterproofcapbelongingtoit。

  ’ThemantleofElijah!’shesaid。’Woulditmightinspiremetorivalhim,gloriousgeniusthatheis!’

  Hereyesalwaysgrewwetwhenshethoughtlikethat,andsheturnedtolookatherselfintheglass。HIShearthadbeatinsidethatcoat,andHISbrainhadworkedunderthathatatlevelsofthoughtshewouldneverreach。Theconsciousnessofherweaknessbesidehimmadeherfeelquitesick。Beforeshehadgotthethingsoffherthedooropened,andherhusbandenteredtheroom。

  ’Whatthedevil——’

  Sheblushed,andremovedthem’Ifoundthemintheclosethere,’shesaid,’andputthemoninafreak。WhathaveIelsetodo?Youarealwaysaway!’

  ’Alwaysaway?Well……’

  Thateveningshehadafurthertalkwiththelandlady,whomightherselfhavenourishedahalf-tenderregardforthepoet,soreadywasshetodiscourseardentlyabouthim。

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