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  tablealight,thatwasall——sometimesoneorotherwouldflareupintoatall,lean,astonishedflameforaspace。Andqueerthingshappened。

  ’Ican’t,’hesaid;’Ishallnever——!’Andsuddenlyhesatdownonalittlechairatthefootofthebedandbegantosobandsob。

  Lord!whataharrowing,whimperingthingheseemed!

  “’Youpullyourselftogether,’Isaid,andtriedtopathimontheback,and……myconfoundedhandwentthroughhim!Bythattime,youknow,Iwasn’tnearlyso——massiveasIhadbeenonthelanding。

  Igotthequeernessofitfull。Iremembersnatchingbackmyhandoutofhim,asitwere,withalittlethrill,andwalkingovertothedressing-table。’Youpullyourselftogether,’Isaidtohim,’andtry。’AndinordertoencourageandhelphimIbegantotryaswell。“

  “What!“saidSanderson,“thepasses?“

  “Yes,thepasses。“

  “But——“Isaid,movedbyanideathateludedmeforaspace。

  “Thisisinteresting,“saidSanderson,withhisfingerinhispipe-

  bowl。“Youmeantosaythisghostofyoursgaveaway——“

  “Didhislevelbesttogiveawaythewholeconfoundedbarrier?YES。“

  “Hedidn’t,“saidWish;“hecouldn’t。Oryou’dhavegonetheretoo。“

  “That’spreciselyit,“Isaid,findingmyelusiveideaputintowordsforme。

  “ThatISpreciselyit,“saidClayton,withthoughtfuleyesuponthefire。

  Forjustalittlewhiletherewassilence。

  “Andatlasthedidit?“saidSanderson。

  “Atlasthedidit。Ihadtokeephimuptoithard,buthediditatlast——rathersuddenly。Hedespaired,wehadascene,andthenhegotupabruptlyandaskedmetogothroughthewholeperformance,slowly,sothathemightsee。’Ibelieve,’hesaid,’ifIcouldSEE

  Ishouldspotwhatwaswrongatonce。’Andhedid。’_I_know,’

  hesaid。’Whatdoyouknow?’saidI。’_I_know,’herepeated。

  Thenhesaid,peevishly,’ICAN’Tdoitifyoulookatme——IreallyCAN’T;it’sbeenthat,partly,allalong。I’msuchanervousfellowthatyouputmeout。’Well,wehadabitofanargument。NaturallyIwantedtosee;buthewasasobstinateasamule,andsuddenlyIhadcomeoverastiredasadog——hetiredmeout。’Allright,’

  Isaid,’_I_won’tlookatyou,’andturnedtowardsthemirror,onthewardrobe,bythebed。

  Hestartedoffveryfast。Itriedtofollowhimbylookinginthelooking-glass,toseejustwhatitwashadhung。Roundwenthisarmsandhishands,so,andso,andso,andthenwitharushcametothelastgestureofall——youstanderectandopenoutyourarms——andso,don’tyouknow,hestood。Andthenhedidn’t!Hedidn’t!

  Hewasn’t!Iwheeledroundfromthelooking-glasstohim。TherewasnothinglIwasalone,withtheflaringcandlesandastaggeringmind。

  Whathadhappened?Hadanythinghappened?HadIbeendreaming?……

  Andthen,withanabsurdnoteoffinalityaboutit,theclockuponthelandingdiscoveredthemomentwasripeforstrikingONE。So!——Ping!

  AndIwasasgraveandsoberasajudge,withallmychampagneandwhiskygoneintothevastserene。Feelingqueer,youknow——confoundedlyQUEER!Queer!GoodLord!“

  Heregardedhiscigar-ashforamoment。“That’sallthathappened,“hesaid。

  “Andthenyouwenttobed?“askedEvans。

  “Whatelsewastheretodo?“

  IlookedWishintheeye。Wewantedtoscoff,andtherewassomething,somethingperhapsinClayton’svoiceandmanner,thathamperedourdesire。

  “Andaboutthesepasses?“saidSanderson。

  “IbelieveIcoulddothemnow。“

  “Oh!“saidSanderson,andproducedapenknifeandsethimselftogrubthedotteloutofthebowlofhisclay。

  “Whydon’tyoudothemnow?“saidSanderson,shuttinghispen-knifewithaclick。

  “That’swhatI’mgoingtodo,“saidClayton。

  “Theywon’twork,“saidEvans。

  “Iftheydo——“Isuggested。

  “Youknow,I’dratheryoudidn’t,“saidWish,stretchingouthislegs。

  “Why?“askedEvans。

  “I’dratherhedidn’t,“saidWish。

  “Buthehasn’tgot’emright,“saidSanderson,pluggingtoomuchtobaccoinhispipe。

  “Allthesame,I’dratherhedidn’t,“saidWish。

  WearguedwithWish。HesaidthatforClaytontogothroughthosegestureswaslikemockingaseriousmatter。“Butyoudon’tbelieve——?“

  Isaid。WishglancedatClayton,whowasstaringintothefire,weighingsomethinginhismind。“Ido——morethanhalf,anyhow,Ido,“saidWish。

  “Clayton,“saidI,“you’retoogoodaliarforus。Mostofitwasallright。Butthatdisappearance……happenedtobeconvincing。

  Tellus,it’sataleofcockandbull。“

  Hestoodupwithoutheedingme,tookthemiddleofthehearthrug,andfacedme。Foramomentheregardedhisfeetthoughtfully,andthenforalltherestofthetimehiseyeswereontheoppositewall,withanintentexpression。Heraisedhistwohandsslowlytothelevelofhiseyesandsobegan……

  Now,SandersonisaFreemason,amemberofthelodgeoftheFourKings,whichdevotesitselfsoablytothestudyandelucidationofallthemysteriesofMasonrypastandpresent,andamongthestudentsofthislodgeSandersonisbynomeanstheleast。HefollowedClayton’smotionswithasingularinterestinhisreddisheye。“That’snotbad,“hesaid,whenitwasdone。“Youreallydo,youknow,putthingstogether,Clayton,inamostamazingfashion。Butthere’sonelittledetailout。“

  “Iknow,“saidClayton。“IbelieveIcouldtellyouwhich。“

  “Well?“

  “This,“saidClayton,anddidaqueerlittletwistandwrithingandthrustofthehands。

  “Yes。“

  “That,youknow,waswhatHEcouldn’tgetright,“saidClayton。

  “ButhowdoYOU——?“

  “Mostofthisbusiness,andparticularlyhowyouinventedit,Idon’tunderstandatall,“saidSanderson,“butjustthatphase——Ido。“

  Hereflected。“Thesehappentobeaseriesofgestures——connectedwithacertainbranchofesotericMasonry。Probablyyouknow。

  Orelse——HOW?“Hereflectedstillfurther。“IdonotseeIcandoanyharmintellingyoujustthepropertwist。Afterall,ifyouknow,youknow;ifyoudon’t,youdon’t。“

  “Iknownothing,“saidClayton,“exceptwhatthepoordevilletoutlastnight。“

  “Well,anyhow,“saidSanderson,andplacedhischurchwardenverycarefullyupontheshelfoverthefireplace。Thenveryrapidlyhegesticulatedwithhishands。

  “So?“saidClayton,repeating。

  “So,“saidSanderson,andtookhispipeinhandagain。

  “Ah,NOW,“saidClayton,“Icandothewholething——right。“

  Hestoodupbeforethewaningfireandsmiledatusall。ButIthinktherewasjustalittlehesitationinhissmile。“IfIbegin——“

  hesaid。

  “Iwouldn’tbegin,“saidWish。

  “It’sallright!“saidEvans。“Matterisindestructible。Youdon’tthinkanyjiggery-pokeryofthissortisgoingtosnatchClaytonintotheworldofshades。Notit!Youmaytry,Clayton,sofarasI’mconcerned,untilyourarmsdropoffatthewrists。“

  “Idon’tbelievethat,“saidWish,andstoodupandputhisarmonClayton’sshoulder。“You’vemademehalfbelieveinthatstorysomehow,andIdon’twanttoseethethingdone!“

  “Goodness!“saidI,“here’sWishfrightened!“

  “Iam,“saidWish,withrealoradmirablyfeignedintensity。“I

  believethatifhegoesthroughthesemotionsrighthe’llGO。“

  “He’llnotdoanythingofthesort,“Icried。“There’sonlyonewayoutofthisworldformen,andClaytonisthirtyyearsfromthat。

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