第56章
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  Theraindropsnowwerefallingmoregently,andinfinerlinesandmoretransparentnetwork,sothatonecouldoncemoredescrythegreattrunksoftheblackenedoaks,withthegreenandgoldoftheirleaves。Also,ourownhollowhadgrownlessdark,andtherecouldbediscerneditssmoky,satin-brightwalls。FromthosewallsKalininpickedabitofcharcoalwithfingerandthumb,saying:

  “Itwasshepherdsthatfiredtheplace。Seewheretheydraggedinhayanddeadleaves!Ashepherd’sfifehereaboutsmustbeatrulygloriousone!“

  Lastly,claspinghisheadasthoughhewereabouttofallasleep,hesankhischinbetweenhisknees,andrelapsedintosilence。

  Presentlyabrilliant,sinuouslittlerivuletwhichhadlongbeenlavingthebarerootsofourtreebroughtfloatingpastusaredandfawnleaf。

  “Howpretty,“Ithought,“thatleafwilllookfromadistancewhenreposingonthesurfaceofthesea!For,likethesunwhenheisinsolitarypossessionoftheheavens,thatleafwillstandoutagainsttheblue,silkyexpanselikealonelyredstar。“

  Afterawhilemycompanionbegan,catlike,topurrtohimselfasong。Itsmelody,themelodyof“themoonwithdrewbehindacloud,“wasfamiliarenough,butnotsothewords,whichran:

  0hValentina,wondrousmaid,Morecomelythouthane’eraflow’r!

  Thenurse’ssondothpineforthee,Andyearntoservetheeeveryhour!

  “Whatdoesthatdittymean?“Iinquired。

  Kalininstraightenedhimself,gaveawriggletoaformthatwasaslitheasalizard’s,andpassedonehandoverhisface。

  “Itisacertaincomposition,“herepliedpresently。“Itisacompositionthatwascomposedbyamilitaryclerkwhoafterwardsdiedofconsumption。Hewasmyfriendhislifelong,andmyonlyfriend,andatrueone,besidesbeingamanoutofthecommon。“

  “AndwhowasValentina?“

  “Myone-timemistress,“Kalininspokeunwillingly。

  “Andhe,theclerk——washeinlovewithher?“

  “Ohdearno!“

  EvidentlyKalininhadnoparticularwishtodiscussthesubject,forhehuggedhimselftogether,buriedhisfaceinhishands,andmuttered:

  “Ishouldliketokindleafire,wereitnotthateverythingintheplaceistoodampforthepurpose。“

  Thewindshookthetrees,andwhistleddespondently,whilethefine,persistentrainstillwhippedtheearth。

  “Ibuthumbleam,andpoor,Norfatedtobeotherwise,“

  sangKalininsoftlyas,flinginguphisheadwithanunexpectedmovement,headdedmeaningly:

  “Yes,itisamournfulsong,asongwhichcouldmovetotears。

  Onlytotwopersonshasiteverbeenknown;tomyfriendtheclerkandtomyself。Yes,andtoHER,thoughIneedhardlyaddthatatoncesheforgotit。“

  AndKalinin’seyesflashedintoasmileasheadded:

  “Ithinkthat,asayoungman,youhadbetterlearnforthwithwherethegreatestdangerlurksinlife。Letmetellyouastory。“

  Anduponthataveryhumantalefilteredthroughthesilkenmonotonousswishofthedownpour,with,forlistenerstoit,onlytherainandmyself。

  “LukianovwasNEVERinlovewithher,“henarrated。“OnlyIwasthat。AllthatLukianovdidinthematterwastowrite,atmyrequest,someverses。WhenshefirstappearedonthesceneI

  meanValentinaIgnatievnaIwasjustturnednineteenyearsofage;andtheinstantthatmyeyesfelluponherformIrealisedthatinheralonelaymyfate,andmyheartalmoststoppedbeating,andmyvitalitystretchedouttowardsherasaspeckofdustfliestowardsafire。YetallthisIhadtoconcealasbestImight;withtheresultthatinthecompany’spresenceIfeltlikeasentrydoingguarddutyinthepresenceofhiscommandingofficer。Butatlast,thoughIstrovetopullmyselftogether,tosteadymyselfagainstthefermentthatwasraginginmybreast,somethinghappened。ValentinaIgnatievnawasthenagedabouttwenty-five,andverybeautiful——marvellous,infact!Also,shewasanorphan,sinceherfatherhadbeenkilledbytheChechentzes,andhermotherhaddiedofsmallpoxatSamarkand。AsregardsherkinshipwiththeGeneral,shestoodtohimintherelationofniecebymarriage。Golden-locked,andasskin-fairasenamelledporcelain,shehadeyeslikeemeralds,andafigurewhollysymmetrical,thoughasslimasawafer。ForbedroomshehadalittlecornerapartmentsituatednexttothekitchentheGeneralpossessedhisownhouse,ofcourse,while,inaddition,theyallottedherabrightlittleboudoirinwhichshedisposedhercuriosandknickknacks,fromcut-glassbottlesandgobletstoacopperpipeandaglassringmountedoncopper。Thisring,whenturned,usedtoemitshowersofglitteringsparks,thoughshewasinnowayafraidofthem,butwouldsingasshemadethemdance:

  “Notformethespringwilldawn!

  NotformetheBugwillspate!

  Notformelove’ssmilewillwait!

  Notforme,ah,notforme!

  “Constantlywouldshewarblethis。

  “Also,oncesheflashedanappealatmewithhereyes,andsaid:

  “’Alexei,pleasenevertouchanythinginmyroom,formythingsaretoofragile。’

  “Sureenough,inHERpresenceANYTHINGmighthavefallenfrommyhands!

  “Meanwhilehersongabout’Notforme’usedtomakemefeelsorryforher。’Notforyou?’Iusedtosaytomyself。’OughtnotEVERYTHINGtobeforyou?’Andthisreflectionwouldcausemyhearttoyearnandstretchtowardsher。Next,Iboughtaguitar,aninstrumentwhichIcouldnotplay,andtookitforinstructiontoLukianov,theclerkoftheDivisionalStaff,whichhaditsheadquartersinourstreet。InpassingImaysaythatLukianovwasalittleJewishconvertwithdarkhair,sallowfeatures,andgimlet-sharpeyes,butbeyondallthingsafellowwithbrains,andonewhocouldplaytheguitarunforgettably。

  “Oncehesaid:’Inlifeallthingsareattainable——nothingneedweloseforwantoftrying。Forwhencedoeseverythingcome?Fromtheplainestofmankind。AmanmaynotbeBORNintherankofageneral,butatleasthemayattaintothatposition。Also,thebeginningandendingofallthingsiswoman。Allthatsherequiresforhercaptivationispoetry。Hence,letmewriteyousomeverses,thatyoumaytenderthemtoherasanoffering。’

  “These,mindyou,werethewordsofamaninwhomtheheartwasabsolutelysingle,absolutelydispassionate。“

  UntilthenKalininhadtoldhisstoryswiftly,withanimation;

  butthereafterheseemed,asitwere,tobecomeextinguished。

  Afterapauseofafewsecondshecontinued——continuedinslower,toallappearancesmoreunwilling,accents——

  “AtthetimeIbelievedwhatLukianovsaid,butsubsequentlyI

  cametoseethatthingswerenotaltogetherashehadrepresented——thatwomanismerelyadelusion,andpoetrymerelyfiddle-faddle;andthatamancannotescapehisfate,andthat,thoughgoodinwar,boldnessis,inpeaceaffairs,butnakedeffrontery。Inthis,brother,liesthechief,thefundamentallawoflife。Fortheworldcontainscertainpeopleofhighstation,andcertainpeopleoflow;andsolongasthesetwocategoriesretaintheirrespectivepositions,allgoeswell;butassoonaseveramanseekstopassfromtheuppercategorytotheinferiorcategory,orfromtheinferiortotheupper,thefatfallsintothefire,andthatmanfindshimselfstuckmidway,stuckneitherherenorthere,andboundtoabidetherefortheremainderofhislife,fortheremainderofhislife……Alwayskeeptoyourownposition,tothepositionassignedyoubyfate……WilltherainNEVERcease,thinkyou?“

  Bythistime,asamatteroffact,theraindrops。werefallinglessheavilyanddenselythanhitherto,andthewetcloudswerebeginningtorevealbrightpatchesinthemoisture-soakedfirmament,asevidencethatthesunwasstillinexistence。

  “Continue,“Isaid。

  Kalininlaughed。

  “Thenyoufindthestoryaninterestingone,“heremarked。

  Presentlyheresumed:

  “AsIhavesaid,ItrustedLukianovimplicitly,andbeggedofhimtowritetheverses。Andwritethemhedid——hewrotethemtheverynextday。True,atthisdistanceoftimeIhaveforgottenthewordsintheirentirety,butatleastIrememberthatthereoccurredinthemaphrasetotheeffectthat’fordaysandweekshaveyoureyesbeenconsumingmyheartinthefireoflove,sopityme,Ipray。’Ithenproceededtocopyoutthepoem,andtremblinglytoleaveitonhertable。

  “Thenextmorning,whenIwastidyingherboudoir,shemadeanunexpectedentry,and,cladinaloose,reddressing-gown,andholdingacigarettebetweenherlips,saidtomewithakindlysmileassheproducedmypreciouspaperofverses:

  “’Alexei,didYOUwritethese?’

  “’Yes,’wasmyreply。’AndforChrist’ssakepardonmeforthesame。’

  “’Whatapitythatsuchafancyshouldhaveenteredyourhead!

  For,yousee,Iamengagedalready——myuncleisintendingtomarrymetoDoctorKliachka,andIampowerlessinthematter。’

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