第39章
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  “Thendon’trunafterme。Awomanwhorunsafteraman,andplaysthewhorewithhim,is——“

  “Lessnoise,please——lessnoise,Ibegofyou,orweshallbeheard,andIshallbeputtoshame!“

  “Doesn’titputyoutoshametobeofferingyourselftomelikethis?“

  Asilenceensues,savethattheyoungfellowgoesonsnortingandfidgeting,andtheraindropscontinuetofallwiththesamereluctance,thesameindolence,asever。Thenoncemorethewoman’svoiceisheardthroughthepattering。

  “Perhaps,“saysthevoice,“youhaveguessedthatIamseekingahusband?Yes,IAMseekingone——agood,steadymuzhik。“

  “ButIamNOTagood,steadymuzhik。“

  “Fie,fie!“

  “What?“hesniggers。“Ahusbandforyou?Theimpudenceofyou!

  A’husband’!Goalong!“

  “Listentome。Iamtiredoftramping。“

  “Thengohome。“

  Thistimethereensuesalongpause。Thenthewomansaysverysoftly:

  “Ihaveneitherhomenorkindred。“

  “Alie!“ejaculatestheyoungfellow。

  “No,byGoditisnotalie!TheMotherofGodforgetmeifitis。“

  IntheselastwordsIcandetectthenoteoftears。Bythistimethesituationhasbecomeintolerable,forIamyearningtoriseandkicktheyoungfellowoutofthehut,andthentohavealongandearnesttalkwithhiscompanion。“OhthatIcouldtakehertomyarms,“Ireflect,“andcherishherasIwouldapoorlostchild!“

  Afterawhilethesoundsofanewstrugglebetweenthepairareheard。

  “Don’tputmeofflikethat!“growlstheyoungfellow。

  “Anddon’tyoumakeanyattemptuponme!Iamnotthesortofwomantobeforced。“

  Thenextmomenttherearisesacryofpainandastonishment。

  “Whatwasthatfor?Whatwasthatfor?“thewomanwails。

  WithanansweringexclamationIspringtomyfeet,formyfeelingshavebecomethoseofawildbeast。

  Atonceeverythinggrowsquietagain,savethatsomeone,crawlsoverthefloorand,inleavingthehut,jarsthelatchofthecrazy,single-hingedportal。

  “Itwasnotmyfault,“grumblestheyoungfellow。“Itallcameofthatstinkingwomanofferingherselftome。Besides,theplaceisfullofbugs,andIcannotsleep。“

  “Beast!“pantssomeoneinthevicinity。

  “Holdyourtongue,bitch!“isthefellow’sretort。

  Bynowtherainhasceased,andsuchairasfiltersthroughthewindowseemsincreasedlystifling。Momentarilythehushgrowsdeeper,untilthebreastfeelsfilledwithasenseofoppression,andthefaceandeyesasthoughtheyweregluedoverwithaweb。

  EvenwhenIstepintotheyardIfindtheplacetobelikeacellaronasummer’sday,whentheveryicehasmeltedinthedarkretreat,andthelatter’sblackcavityischargedwithhot,viscoushumidity。

  Somewherenearmeawomanisgulpingoutsobs。ForamomentortwoIlisten;thenIapproachher,andcomeuponherseatedinacornerwithherheadinherhands,andherbodyrockingtoandfroasthoughsheweredoingmeobeisance。

  YetIfeelangry,somehow,andremainstandingbeforeherwithoutspeaking——untilatlengthIask:

  “Areyoumad?“

  “Goaway,“is,afterapause,heronlyreply。

  “Iheardallthatyousaidtothatyoungfellow。“

  “Oh,didyou?Thenwhatbusinessisitofyours?Areyoumybrother?“

  Yetshespeaksthewordsabsent-mindedlyratherthanangrily。

  Aroundusthedim,blurredwallsarepeeringinourdirectionwithsightlesseyes,whileinthevicinityabullockisdrawingdeepbreaths。

  Iseatmyselfbyherside。

  “Shouldyouremainmuchlongerinthatposition,“Iremark,“youwillhaveaheadache。“

  Therefollowsnoreply。

  “AmIdisturbingyou?“Icontinue。

  “Ohno;notatall。“And,loweringherhands,shelooksatme。

  “Whencedoyoucome?“

  “FromNizhniNovgorod。“

  “Oh,fromalongwayoff!“

  “Doyoucareforthatyoungfellow?“

  Notforamomentortwodoessheanswer;andwhenshedoessosheanswersasthoughthewordshavebeenrehearsed。

  “Notparticularly。Itisthatheisastrongyoungfellowwhohaslosthisway,andistoomuchofafoolasyoutoomusthaveseentofinditagain。SoIamverysorryforhim。Agoodmuzhikoughttobewellplaced。“

  Onthebellofthechurchtherestrikesthehouroftwo。Withoutinterruptingherself,thewomancrossesherbreastateachstroke。

  “Always,“shecontinues,“IfeelsorrywhenIseeafineyoungfellowgoingtothedogs。IfIwereable,Iwouldtakeallsuchyoungmen,andrestorethemtotherightroad。“

  “ThenyouarenotsorryFORYOURSELF?“

  “Notformyself?Ohyes,formyselfaswell。“

  “Thenwhyflauntyourselfbeforethisbooby,asyouhavebeendoing?“

  “BecauseImightreformhim。Doyounotthinkso?Ah,youdonotknowme。“

  Asighescapesher。

  “Hehityou,Ithink?“Iventure。

  “No,hedidnot。Andinanycaseyouarenottotouchhim。“

  “Yetyoucriedout?“

  Suddenlysheleanstowardsme,andsays:

  “Yes,hedidstrikeme——hestruckmeonthebreast,andwouldhaveoverpoweredmehaditnotbeenthatIcannot,Iwillnot,dothingsheartlessly,likeacat。Oh,thebrutesthatmencanbe!“

  Heretheconversationundergoesaninterruptionthroughthefactthatsomeonehascomeouttothehutdoor,andiswhistlingsoftly,asforadog。

  “Thereheis!“whispersthewoman。

  “ThenhadInotbestsendhimabouthisbusiness?“

  “No,no!“sheexclaims,catchingatmyknees。“Noneedisthereforthat,noneedisthereforthat!“

  Thenwithalowmoansheadds:

  “OhLord,howIpityourfolkandtheirlives!OhGodourFather!“

  Hershouldersheave,andpresentlysheburstsintotears,withawhisper,betweenthepitifulsobs,of:

  “How,onsuchanightasthis,oneremembersallthatonehaseverseen,andthefolkthateveronehasknown!Andoh,howwearisome,wearisomeitallis!AndhowIshouldliketocrythroughouttheworld——Buttocrywhat?Iknownot——Ihavenomessagetodeliver。“

  ThatfeelingIcanunderstandaswellasshe,foralltoooftenhasitseemedtocrushmysoulwithvoicelesslonging。

  Then,asIstrokeherbowedheadandquiveringshoulder,Iaskherwhosheis;andpresently,ongrowingalittlecalmer,shetellsmethehistoryofherlife。

  Sheis,itappears,thedaughterofacarpenterandbee-keeper。

  Onhermother’sdeath,thismanmarriedayoungwoman,andallowedher,asstepmother,topersuadehimtoplacethenarrator,Tatiana,inaconvent,wheresheTatianalivedfromtheageofninetilladolescence,and,meanwhile,wastaughtherletters,andalsoacertainamountofmanuallabour;until,later,herfathermarriedherofftoafriendofhis,awell-to-

  doex-soldier,whowasactingasforesterontheconvent’sestate。

  Asthewomanrelatesthis,IfeelvexedthatIcannotseeherface——onlyadim,roundbluramidwhichthereloomswhatappearstobeapairofclosedeyes。Also,socompleteisthestillness,thatshecannarrateherstoryinabarelyaudiblewhisper;andI

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