“Thendon’trunafterme。Awomanwhorunsafteraman,andplaysthewhorewithhim,is——“
“Lessnoise,please——lessnoise,Ibegofyou,orweshallbeheard,andIshallbeputtoshame!“
“Doesn’titputyoutoshametobeofferingyourselftomelikethis?“
Asilenceensues,savethattheyoungfellowgoesonsnortingandfidgeting,andtheraindropscontinuetofallwiththesamereluctance,thesameindolence,asever。Thenoncemorethewoman’svoiceisheardthroughthepattering。
“Perhaps,“saysthevoice,“youhaveguessedthatIamseekingahusband?Yes,IAMseekingone——agood,steadymuzhik。“
“ButIamNOTagood,steadymuzhik。“
“Fie,fie!“
“What?“hesniggers。“Ahusbandforyou?Theimpudenceofyou!
A’husband’!Goalong!“
“Listentome。Iamtiredoftramping。“
“Thengohome。“
Thistimethereensuesalongpause。Thenthewomansaysverysoftly:
“Ihaveneitherhomenorkindred。“
“Alie!“ejaculatestheyoungfellow。
“No,byGoditisnotalie!TheMotherofGodforgetmeifitis。“
IntheselastwordsIcandetectthenoteoftears。Bythistimethesituationhasbecomeintolerable,forIamyearningtoriseandkicktheyoungfellowoutofthehut,andthentohavealongandearnesttalkwithhiscompanion。“OhthatIcouldtakehertomyarms,“Ireflect,“andcherishherasIwouldapoorlostchild!“
Afterawhilethesoundsofanewstrugglebetweenthepairareheard。
“Don’tputmeofflikethat!“growlstheyoungfellow。
“Anddon’tyoumakeanyattemptuponme!Iamnotthesortofwomantobeforced。“
Thenextmomenttherearisesacryofpainandastonishment。
“Whatwasthatfor?Whatwasthatfor?“thewomanwails。
WithanansweringexclamationIspringtomyfeet,formyfeelingshavebecomethoseofawildbeast。
Atonceeverythinggrowsquietagain,savethatsomeone,crawlsoverthefloorand,inleavingthehut,jarsthelatchofthecrazy,single-hingedportal。
“Itwasnotmyfault,“grumblestheyoungfellow。“Itallcameofthatstinkingwomanofferingherselftome。Besides,theplaceisfullofbugs,andIcannotsleep。“
“Beast!“pantssomeoneinthevicinity。
“Holdyourtongue,bitch!“isthefellow’sretort。
Bynowtherainhasceased,andsuchairasfiltersthroughthewindowseemsincreasedlystifling。Momentarilythehushgrowsdeeper,untilthebreastfeelsfilledwithasenseofoppression,andthefaceandeyesasthoughtheyweregluedoverwithaweb。
EvenwhenIstepintotheyardIfindtheplacetobelikeacellaronasummer’sday,whentheveryicehasmeltedinthedarkretreat,andthelatter’sblackcavityischargedwithhot,viscoushumidity。
Somewherenearmeawomanisgulpingoutsobs。ForamomentortwoIlisten;thenIapproachher,andcomeuponherseatedinacornerwithherheadinherhands,andherbodyrockingtoandfroasthoughsheweredoingmeobeisance。
YetIfeelangry,somehow,andremainstandingbeforeherwithoutspeaking——untilatlengthIask:
“Areyoumad?“
“Goaway,“is,afterapause,heronlyreply。
“Iheardallthatyousaidtothatyoungfellow。“
“Oh,didyou?Thenwhatbusinessisitofyours?Areyoumybrother?“
Yetshespeaksthewordsabsent-mindedlyratherthanangrily。
Aroundusthedim,blurredwallsarepeeringinourdirectionwithsightlesseyes,whileinthevicinityabullockisdrawingdeepbreaths。
Iseatmyselfbyherside。
“Shouldyouremainmuchlongerinthatposition,“Iremark,“youwillhaveaheadache。“
Therefollowsnoreply。
“AmIdisturbingyou?“Icontinue。
“Ohno;notatall。“And,loweringherhands,shelooksatme。
“Whencedoyoucome?“
“FromNizhniNovgorod。“
“Oh,fromalongwayoff!“
“Doyoucareforthatyoungfellow?“
Notforamomentortwodoessheanswer;andwhenshedoessosheanswersasthoughthewordshavebeenrehearsed。
“Notparticularly。Itisthatheisastrongyoungfellowwhohaslosthisway,andistoomuchofafoolasyoutoomusthaveseentofinditagain。SoIamverysorryforhim。Agoodmuzhikoughttobewellplaced。“
Onthebellofthechurchtherestrikesthehouroftwo。Withoutinterruptingherself,thewomancrossesherbreastateachstroke。
“Always,“shecontinues,“IfeelsorrywhenIseeafineyoungfellowgoingtothedogs。IfIwereable,Iwouldtakeallsuchyoungmen,andrestorethemtotherightroad。“
“ThenyouarenotsorryFORYOURSELF?“
“Notformyself?Ohyes,formyselfaswell。“
“Thenwhyflauntyourselfbeforethisbooby,asyouhavebeendoing?“
“BecauseImightreformhim。Doyounotthinkso?Ah,youdonotknowme。“
Asighescapesher。
“Hehityou,Ithink?“Iventure。
“No,hedidnot。Andinanycaseyouarenottotouchhim。“
“Yetyoucriedout?“
Suddenlysheleanstowardsme,andsays:
“Yes,hedidstrikeme——hestruckmeonthebreast,andwouldhaveoverpoweredmehaditnotbeenthatIcannot,Iwillnot,dothingsheartlessly,likeacat。Oh,thebrutesthatmencanbe!“
Heretheconversationundergoesaninterruptionthroughthefactthatsomeonehascomeouttothehutdoor,andiswhistlingsoftly,asforadog。
“Thereheis!“whispersthewoman。
“ThenhadInotbestsendhimabouthisbusiness?“
“No,no!“sheexclaims,catchingatmyknees。“Noneedisthereforthat,noneedisthereforthat!“
Thenwithalowmoansheadds:
“OhLord,howIpityourfolkandtheirlives!OhGodourFather!“
Hershouldersheave,andpresentlysheburstsintotears,withawhisper,betweenthepitifulsobs,of:
“How,onsuchanightasthis,oneremembersallthatonehaseverseen,andthefolkthateveronehasknown!Andoh,howwearisome,wearisomeitallis!AndhowIshouldliketocrythroughouttheworld——Buttocrywhat?Iknownot——Ihavenomessagetodeliver。“
ThatfeelingIcanunderstandaswellasshe,foralltoooftenhasitseemedtocrushmysoulwithvoicelesslonging。
Then,asIstrokeherbowedheadandquiveringshoulder,Iaskherwhosheis;andpresently,ongrowingalittlecalmer,shetellsmethehistoryofherlife。
Sheis,itappears,thedaughterofacarpenterandbee-keeper。
Onhermother’sdeath,thismanmarriedayoungwoman,andallowedher,asstepmother,topersuadehimtoplacethenarrator,Tatiana,inaconvent,wheresheTatianalivedfromtheageofninetilladolescence,and,meanwhile,wastaughtherletters,andalsoacertainamountofmanuallabour;until,later,herfathermarriedherofftoafriendofhis,awell-to-
doex-soldier,whowasactingasforesterontheconvent’sestate。
Asthewomanrelatesthis,IfeelvexedthatIcannotseeherface——onlyadim,roundbluramidwhichthereloomswhatappearstobeapairofclosedeyes。Also,socompleteisthestillness,thatshecannarrateherstoryinabarelyaudiblewhisper;andI