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  HereVologonovlowershisvoice,andcontinueswithsomethingofthegrowlofanangrydog:

  “Itoohavehadsons,oneofwhomwaskilledatKushkaadocumenthascertifiedtothateffect,anotherwasdrownedwhilstdrunk,threemorediedininfancy,andonlytwoarestillalive。Oftheselast,IknowthatoneisactingasawaiterinahotelatSmolensk,whiletheother,Melenti,waseducatedfortheChurch,senttostudyinaseminary,inducedtoabscondandgetintotrouble,andeventuallydispatchedtoSiberia。Therenow!Yes,theRussianiswhatmightbecalleda’lightweighted’

  individual,anindividualwho,unlessheholdshimselfdownbythehead,issooncarriedoffbythewindlikeachicken’sfeather——forwearetooself-confidentandrestless。Beforenow,Imyselfhavebeenagull,amanlackingbalance:forneverdoesyouthrealiseitsowninsignificance,orknowhowtowait。“

  Dissertationsofthekinddropfromtheoldmanlikewaterfromaleakypipeonacold,blusterydayinautumn。Wagginghisgreybeard,hetalksandtalks,untilIbegintothinkthathemustbeanevilwizard,andmasterofthisremote,barren,swampy,ravine-pittedregion——thatheitiswhooriginallyplantedthetowninthisuncomfortable,clayeyhollow,andhasthrownthehousesintoheaps,andentangledthestreets,andwantonlycreatedthetown’sunaccountablyrudeandroughanddeadlyexistence,andaddledmen’sbrainswithdisconnectednonsense,andconsumedtheirheartswithafearoflife。Yes,itcomestomethatitmustbehewho,duringthelongsixmonthsofwinter,causescruelsnowstormsfromtheplaintoinvadethetown,andwithfrostcompressesthebuildingsofthetownuntiltheirrafterscrack,andstingingcoldbringsbirdstotheground。

  Lastly,Ibecomeseizedwiththeideathatitmustbehewho,almosteverysummer,envelopsthetowninthoseterriblevisitationsofheatbynightwhichseemalmosttocausethehousestomelt。

  However,asarulehemaintainscompletesilence,andmerelymakeschewingmotionswithhisstrong-toothedjawsashesitswagginghisbeardfromsidetoside。Atsuchtimesthereisinhiseyesabluishfirelikethegleamofcharcoal,whilehiscrookedfingerswrithelikeworms,andhisoutwardappearancebecomessheerlythatofamagicianofiniquity。

  OnceIaskedhim:

  “Whatinparticularoughtmentowaitfor?“

  Forawhilehesatclaspinghisbeard,and,withcontractedeyes,gazingasatsomethingbehindme。Thenhesaidquietlyanddidactically:

  “SomedaytherewillariseaStrangeManwhowillproclaimtotheworldtheWordtowhichthereneverwasabeginning。ButtowhichofusisthehourwhenthatManwillariseknown?Tononeofus……AndtowhichofusareknownthemiracleswhichthatWordwillperform?Tononeofus。“

  Onceuponatimethereusedtoglidepastthewindowofmyroomthefair,curly,wavering,goldenheadofNilushkatheidiot,aladlookinglikeathingwhichtheearthhasbegottenoflove。

  Yes,Nilushkawaslikeanangelinsomesacredpictureadorningthesouthernorthenortherngatesofanancientchurch,as,withhisflushedfacesmearedwithwax-smokeandoil,andhislightblueeyesgleaminginacold,unearthlysmile,andaframecladinaredsmockreachingtobelowhisknees,andthesolesofhisfeetshowingblackalwayshewalkedontiptoe,andhisthincalves,asstraightandwhiteasthecalvesofawoman,coveredwithgoldendown,hewalkedthestreets。

  Sometimeshoppingalongononeleg,andsmiling,andwavinghisarms,andcausingtheamplefoldsandsleevesofhissmocktoflutteruntilheseemedtobemovinginthemidstofanimbus,Nilushkawouldsinginahaltingwhisperthechildishditty:

  0hLo-ord,pardonme!

  Wo-olvesrun,Anddo-ogsrun,AndthehunterswaitTokillthewolves。

  0hLo-ord,pardonme!

  Meanwhile,hewoulddiffuseacheeringatmosphereofhappinesswithwhichnooneinthelocalityhadanythingincommon。Forhewaseveralighthearted,winning,essentiallypureinnocentofthetypewhichneverfailstoevokegood-naturedsmilesandkindlyemotions。Indeed,asheroamedthestreets,thesuburbseemedtoliveitslifewithlessclamour,toappearmoredecentofoutwardguise,sincethelocalfolklookedupontheimbecilewithfarmoreindulgencethantheydidupontheirownchildren;

  andhewasintimatewith,andbelovedby,eventheworst。

  Probablythereasonforthiswasthatthesemblanceofflightamidanatmosphereofgoldendustwhichwashiscombinedwithhisstraight,slenderlittlefiguretoputallwhobeheldhiminmindofchurches,angels,God,andParadise。Atallevents,allviewedhiminamannercontemplative,interested,andmorethanalittledeferential。

  AcuriousfactwasthecircumstancethatwheneverNilushkasightedastraygleamfromapieceofglass,ortheglitterofamorselofcopperinsunlight,hewouldhaltdeadwherehewas,turngreywiththeashinessofdeath,losehissmile,andremaindilatingtoanunnaturalextenthiscloudedandtroubledeyes。

  Andso,withhiswholeformdistortedwithhorror,andhisthinhandcrossinghimself,andhiskneestrembling,andhissmockflutteringaroundhisfrailwispofabody,andhisfeaturesgrowingstonelike,hewould,foranhourormore,continuetostand,untilatlengthsomeonelaidahandinhis,andledhimhome。

  Thetalehaditthat,inthefirstinstance,born“soft-headed,“

  hefinallylosthisreason,fiveyearsbeforetheperiodofwhichIamwriting,whenagreatfireoccurred,andthatthenceforthanything,savesunlight,thatinanywayresembledfireplungedhimintothistorporofdumbdread。

  Naturallythepeopleofthesuburbdevotedtohimagreatdealofattention。

  “TheregoesGod’sfool,“wouldbetheirremark。“ItwillnotbelongbeforehediesandbecomesaSaint,andwefalldownandworshiphim。“

  Yettherewerepersonswhowouldgosofarastocrackrudejestsathisexpense。Forinstance,ashewouldbeskippingalong,withhischildishvoiceraisedinhislittleditty,someidleroranotherwouldshoutfromawindow,orthroughthecrannyofafence:

  “Hi,Nilushka!Fire!Fire!“

  Whereupontheangel-facedimbecilewouldsinktoearthasthoughhislegshadbeencutawayatthekneefromunderhim,andhewouldhuddle,franticallyclutchinghisgoldenheadinhispermanentlysoiledhands,andexposinghisyouthfulformtothedust,underthenearesthouseorfence。

  Onlythenwouldthepersonwhohadgivenhimthefrightrepent,andsaywithalaugh:

  “Godinheaven,whatastupidladthisis!“

  And,shouldthatpersonhavebeenaskedwhyhehadthusterrifiedtheboy,hewouldprobablyhavereplied:

  “Becauseitissuchsporttodoso。Asaladwhocannotfeelthingsasotherhumanbeingsdo,heinclinesfolktomakefunofhim。“

  AsfortheomniscientAntipaVologonov,thefollowingwashisfrequentcommentonNilushka:

  “Christalsohadtowalkinterror。Christalsowaspersecuted。

  Whyso?BecauseeverHeenduredinrectitudeandstrength。Menneedtolearnwhatisrealandwhatisunreal。Manyarethesinsofearthcomeofthefactthattheseemingismistakenfortheactual,andthatmenkeeppressingforwardwhentheyoughttobewaiting,tobeprovingthemselves。“

  HenceVologonov,liketherest,bestowedmuchattentionuponNilushka,andfrequentlyheldconversationswithhim。

  “DoyounowpraytoGod,“hesaidonceashepointedtoheavenwithoneofhiscrookedfingers,andwiththedisengagedhandclaspedhisdishevelled,variouslycolouredbeard。

  WhereuponNilushkaglancedfearfullyatthemysteriouslypointingfinger,and,pluckingsharplyathisforehead,shoulders,andstomachwithtwofingersandathumb,intonedinthin,plaintiveaccents:

  “OurFatherinHeaven——“

  “WHICHARTinHeaven。“

  “Yes,intheHeavenofHeavens。“

  “Ah,well!Godwillunderstand。Heisthefriendofallblessedones。“[Idiots;sincepersonsmentallydeficientarepopularlydeemedtostandinapeculiarlycloserelationtotheAlmighty。]

  Again,greatwasNilushka’sinterestinanythingspherical。

  Also,hehadaloveforhandlingtheheadsofchildren;when,softlyapproachingagroupfrombehind,hewould,withhisbright,quietsmile,layslender,bonyfingersuponaclose-croppedlittlepoll;withtheresultthatthechildren,notrelishingsuchfingering,wouldtakealarmatthesame,and,boltingtoadiscreetdistance,thenceabusetheidiot,putouttheirtonguesathim,anddrawlinanasalchorus:

  “Nilka,thebottle-neck,theneckwithoutanapetoit“

  [ProbablytheattractivenessofthisformulalayratherintherhymingoftheRussianwords:“Nilka,butilka,bashkabezzatilka!“thanintheiractualmeaning]。

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