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  Asshedidnotimmediatelyanswer,hewenton。

  “IknowverywellthatIamnot——thatIhavenotmuchtoofferyoueitherinmyselforinmycircumstances。AndIforget;itcannotseemthemiracletoyouthatitdoestome。UntilImetyouI

  hadgoneoninmyownquietway——wearebothveryquietpeople,mysisterandI——quitecontentwithmylot。MyfriendshipwithArthurwasthemostimportantthinginmylife。NowthatIknowyou,allthathaschanged。Youseemtoputsuchaspiritintoeverything。

  LifeseemstoholdsomanypossibilitiesthatIhadneverdreamtof。“

  “That’ssplendid!“Evelynexclaimed,graspinghishand。

  “Nowyou’llgobackandstartallkindsofthingsandmakeagreatnameintheworld;andwe’llgoonbeingfriends,whateverhappens……we’llbegreatfriends,won’twe?“

  “Evelyn!“hemoanedsuddenly,andtookherinhisarms,andkissedher。

  Shedidnotresentit,althoughitmadelittleimpressiononher。

  Asshesatuprightagain,shesaid,“Ineverseewhyoneshouldn’tgoonbeingfriends——thoughsomepeopledo。Andfriendshipsdomakeadifference,don’tthey?Theyarethekindofthingsthatmatterinone’slife?“

  Helookedatherwithabewilderedexpressionasifhedidnotreallyunderstandwhatshewassaying。Withaconsiderableefforthecollectedhimself,stoodup,andsaid,“NowIthinkIhavetoldyouwhatIfeel,andIwillonlyaddthatIcanwaitaslongaseveryouwish。“

  Leftalone,Evelynwalkedupanddownthepath。Whatdidmatterthan?

  Whatwasthemeaningofitall?

  Allthateveningthecloudsgathered,untiltheyclosedentirelyovertheblueofthesky。Theyseemedtonarrowthespacebetweenearthandheaven,sothattherewasnoroomfortheairtomoveinfreely;

  andthewaves,too,layflat,andyetrigid,asiftheywererestrained。

  Theleavesonthebushesandtreesinthegardenhungcloselytogether,andthefeelingofpressureandrestraintwasincreasedbytheshortchirpingsoundswhichcamefrombirdsandinsects。

  Sostrangewerethelightsandthesilencethatthebusyhumofvoiceswhichusuallyfilledthedining-roomatmealtimeshaddistinctgapsinit,andduringthesesilencestheclatteroftheknivesuponplatesbecameaudible。Thefirstrollofthunderandthefirstheavydropstrikingthepanecausedalittlestir。

  “It’scoming!“wassaidsimultaneouslyinmanydifferentlanguages。

  Therewasthenaprofoundsilence,asifthethunderhadwithdrawnintoitself。Peoplehadjustbeguntoeatagain,whenagustofcoldaircamethroughtheopenwindows,liftingtableclothsandskirts,alightflashed,andwasinstantlyfollowedbyaclapofthunderrightoverthehotel。Therainswishedwithit,andimmediatelytherewereallthosesoundsofwindowsbeingshutanddoorsslammingviolentlywhichaccompanyastorm。

  Theroomgrewsuddenlyseveraldegreesdarker,forthewindseemedtobedrivingwavesofdarknessacrosstheearth。Nooneattemptedtoeatforatime,butsatlookingoutatthegarden,withtheirforksintheair。Theflashesnowcamefrequently,lightingupfacesasiftheyweregoingtobephotographed,surprisingthemintenseandunnaturalexpressions。Theclapfollowedcloseandviolentlyuponthem。Severalwomenhalfrosefromtheirchairsandthensatdownagain,butdinnerwascontinueduneasilywitheyesuponthegarden。Thebushesoutsidewereruffledandwhitened,andthewindpresseduponthemsothattheyseemedtostooptotheground。Thewaitershadtopressdishesuponthediners’notice;andthedinershadtodrawtheattentionofwaiters,fortheywereallabsorbedinlookingatthestorm。

  Asthethundershowednosignsofwithdrawing,butseemedmassedrightoverhead,whilethelightningaimedstraightatthegardeneverytime,anuneasygloomreplacedthefirstexcitement。

  Finishingthemealveryquickly,peoplecongregatedinthehall,wheretheyfeltmoresecurethaninanyotherplacebecausetheycouldretreatfarfromthewindows,andalthoughtheyheardthethunder,theycouldnotseeanything。Alittleboywascarriedawaysobbinginthearmsofhismother。

  Whilethestormcontinued,nooneseemedinclinedtositdown,buttheycollectedinlittlegroupsunderthecentralskylight,wheretheystoodinayellowatmosphere,lookingupwards。

  Nowandagaintheirfacesbecamewhite,asthelightningflashed,andfinallyaterrificcrashcame,makingthepanesoftheskylightliftatthejoints。

  “Ah!“severalvoicesexclaimedatthesamemoment。

  “Somethingstruck,“saidaman’svoice。

  Therainrusheddown。Therainseemednowtoextinguishthelightningandthethunder,andthehallbecamealmostdark。

  Afteraminuteortwo,whennothingwasheardbuttherattleofwaterupontheglass,therewasaperceptibleslackeningofthesound,andthentheatmospherebecamelighter。

  “It’sover,“saidanothervoice。

  Atatouch,alltheelectriclightswereturnedon,andrevealedacrowdofpeopleallstanding,alllookingwithratherstrainedfacesupattheskylight,butwhentheysaweachotherintheartificiallighttheyturnedatonceandbegantomoveaway。Forsomeminutestheraincontinuedtorattleupontheskylight,andthethundergaveanothershakeortwo;butitwasevidentfromtheclearingofthedarknessandthelightdrummingoftherainupontheroof,thatthegreatconfusedoceanofairwastravellingawayfromthem,andpassinghighoverheadwithitscloudsanditsrodsoffire,outtosea。Thebuilding,whichhadseemedsosmallinthetumultofthestorm,nowbecameassquareandspaciousasusual。

  Asthestormdrewaway,thepeopleinthehallofthehotelsatdown;

  andwithacomfortablesenseofrelief,begantotelleachotherstoriesaboutgreatstorms,andproducedinmanycasestheiroccupationsfortheevening。Thechess-boardwasbroughtout,andMr。Elliot,whoworeastockinsteadofacollarasasignofconvalescence,butwasotherwisemuchasusual,challengedMr。Peppertoafinalcontest。

  Roundthemgatheredagroupofladieswithpiecesofneedlework,orindefaultofneedlework,withnovels,tosuperintendthegame,muchasiftheywereinchargeoftwosmallboysplayingmarbles。

  Everynowandthentheylookedattheboardandmadesomeencouragingremarktothegentlemen。

  Mrs。Paleyjustroundthecornerhadhercardsarrangedinlongladdersbeforeher,withSusansittingneartosympathisebutnottocorrect,andthemerchantsandthemiscellaneouspeoplewhohadneverbeendiscoveredtopossessnameswerestretchedintheirarm-chairswiththeirnewspapersontheirknees。Theconversationinthesecircumstanceswasverygentle,fragmentary,andintermittent,buttheroomwasfulloftheindescribablestiroflife。Everynowandthenthemoth,whichwasnowgreyofwingandshinyofthorax,whizzedovertheirheads,andhitthelampswithathud。

  Ayoungwomanputdownherneedleworkandexclaimed,“Poorcreature!

  itwouldbekindertokillit。“Butnobodyseemeddisposedtorousehimselfinordertokillthemoth。Theywatcheditdashfromlamptolamp,becausetheywerecomfortable,andhadnothingtodo。

  Onthesofa,besidethechess-players,Mrs。ElliotwasimpartinganewstitchinknittingtoMrs。Thornbury,sothattheirheadscameveryneartogether,andwereonlytobedistinguishedbytheoldlacecapwhichMrs。Thornburyworeintheevening。

  Mrs。Elliotwasanexpertatknitting,anddisclaimedacomplimenttothateffectwithevidentpride。

  “Isupposewe’reallproudofsomething,“shesaid,“andI’mproudofmyknitting。Ithinkthingslikethatruninfamilies。Weallknitwell。

  Ihadanunclewhoknittedhisownsockstothedayofhisdeath——

  andhediditbetterthananyofhisdaughters,dearoldgentleman。

  NowIwonderthatyou,MissAllan,whouseyoureyessomuch,don’ttakeupknittingintheevenings。You’dfinditsucharelief,Ishouldsay——sucharesttotheeyes——andthebazaarsaresogladofthings。“Hervoicedroppedintothesmoothhalf-conscioustoneoftheexpertknitter;thewordscamegentlyoneafteranother。

  “AsmuchasIdoIcanalwaysdisposeof,whichisacomfort,forthenIfeelthatIamnotwastingmytime——“

  MissAllan,beingthusaddressed,shuthernovelandobservedtheothersplacidlyforatime。Atlastshesaid,“Itissurelynotnaturaltoleaveyourwifebecauseshehappenstobeinlovewithyou。Butthat——asfarasIcanmakeout——iswhatthegentlemaninmystorydoes。“

  “Tut,tut,thatdoesn’tsoundgood——no,thatdoesn’tsoundatallnatural,“murmuredtheknittersintheirabsorbedvoices。

  “Still,it’sthekindofbookpeoplecallveryclever,“MissAllanadded。

  “_Maternity_——byMichaelJessop——Ipresume,“Mr。Elliotputin,forhecouldneverresistthetemptationoftalkingwhileheplayedchess。

  “D’youknow,“saidMrs。Elliot,afteramoment,“Idon’tthinkpeople_do_writegoodnovelsnow——notasgoodastheyusedto,anyhow。“

  Noonetookthetroubletoagreewithherortodisagreewithher。

  ArthurVenningwhowasstrollingabout,sometimeslookingatthegame,sometimesreadingapageofamagazine,lookedatMissAllan,whowashalfasleep,andsaidhumorously,“Apennyforyourthoughts,MissAllan。“

  Theotherslookedup。Theyweregladthathehadnotspokentothem。

  ButMissAllanrepliedwithoutanyhesitation,“Iwasthinkingofmyimaginaryuncle。Hasn’teveryonegotanimaginaryuncle?“

  shecontinued。“Ihaveone——amostdelightfuloldgentleman。

  He’salwaysgivingmethings。Sometimesit’sagoldwatch;

  sometimesit’sacarriageandpair;sometimesit’sabeautifullittlecottageintheNewForest;sometimesit’satickettotheplaceImostwanttosee。“

  Shesetthemallthinkingvaguelyofthethingstheywanted。

  Mrs。Elliotknewexactlywhatshewanted;shewantedachild;

  andtheusuallittlepuckerdeepenedonherbrow。

  “We’resuchluckypeople,“shesaid,lookingatherhusband。

  “Wereallyhavenowants。“Shewasapttosaythis,partlyinordertoconvinceherself,andpartlyinordertoconvinceotherpeople。

  ButshewaspreventedfromwonderinghowfarshecarriedconvictionbytheentranceofMr。andMrs。Flushing,whocamethroughthehallandstoppedbythechess-board。Mrs。Flushinglookedwilderthanever。

  Agreatstrandofblackhairloopeddownacrossherbrow,hercheekswerewhippedadarkbloodred,anddropsofrainmadewetmarksuponthem。

  Mr。Flushingexplainedthattheyhadbeenontheroofwatchingthestorm。

  “Itwasawonderfulsight,“hesaid。“Thelightningwentrightoutoverthesea,andlitupthewavesandtheshipsfaraway。

  Youcan’tthinkhowwonderfulthemountainslookedtoo,withthelightsonthem,andthegreatmassesofshadow。It’sallovernow。“

  Hesliddownintoachair,becominginterestedinthefinalstruggleofthegame。

  “Andyougobackto-morrow?“saidMrs。Thornbury,lookingatMrs。Flushing。

  “Yes,“shereplied。

  “Andindeedoneisnotsorrytogoback,“saidMrs。Elliot,assuminganairofmournfulanxiety,“afterallthisillness。“

  “Areyouafraidofdyin’?“Mrs。Flushingdemandedscornfully。

  “Ithinkweareallafraidofthat,“saidMrs。Elliotwithdignity。

  “Isupposewe’reallcowardswhenitcomestothepoint,“

  saidMrs。Flushing,rubbinghercheekagainstthebackofthechair。

  “I’msureIam。“

  “Notabitofit!“saidMr。Flushing,turninground,forMr。Peppertookaverylongtimetoconsiderhismove。“It’snotcowardlytowishtolive,Alice。It’stheveryreverseofcowardly。

  Personally,I’dliketogoonforahundredyears——granted,ofcourse,thatIhadthefulluseofmyfaculties。Thinkofallthethingsthatareboundtohappen!““ThatiswhatIfeel,“Mrs。Thornburyrejoined。

  “Thechanges,theimprovements,theinventions——andbeauty。

  D’youknowIfeelsometimesthatIcouldn’tbeartodieandceasetoseebeautifulthingsaboutme?“

  “ItwouldcertainlybeverydulltodiebeforetheyhavediscoveredwhetherthereislifeinMars,“MissAllanadded。

  “Doyoureallybelievethere’slifeinMars?“askedMrs。Flushing,turningtoherforthefirsttimewithkeeninterest。“Whotellsyouthat?Someonewhoknows?D’youknowamancalled——?“

  HereMrs。Thornburylaiddownherknitting,andalookofextremesolicitudecameintohereyes。

  “ThereisMr。Hirst,“shesaidquietly。

  St。Johnhadjustcomethroughtheswingdoor。Hewasratherblownaboutbythewind,andhischeekslookedterriblypale,unshorn,andcavernous。Aftertakingoffhiscoathewasgoingtopassstraightthroughthehallanduptohisroom,buthecouldnotignorethepresenceofsomanypeopleheknew,especiallyasMrs。Thornburyroseandwentuptohim,holdingoutherhand。

  Buttheshockofthewarmlamp-litroom,togetherwiththesightofsomanycheerfulhumanbeingssittingtogetherattheirease,afterthedarkwalkintherain,andthelongdaysofstrainandhorror,overcamehimcompletely。HelookedatMrs。Thornburyandcouldnotspeak。

  Everyonewassilent。Mr。Pepper’shandstayeduponhisKnight。

  Mrs。Thornburysomehowmovedhimtoachair,satherselfbesidehim,andwithtearsinherowneyessaidgently,“Youhavedoneeverythingforyourfriend。“

  Heractionsetthemalltalkingagainasiftheyhadneverstopped,andMr。PepperfinishedthemovewithhisKnight。

  “Therewasnothingtobedone,“saidSt。John。Hespokeveryslowly。

  “Itseemsimpossible——“

  Hedrewhishandacrosshiseyesasifsomedreamcamebetweenhimandtheothersandpreventedhimfromseeingwherehewas。

  “Andthatpoorfellow,“saidMrs。Thornbury,thetearsfallingagaindownhercheeks。

  “Impossible,“St。Johnrepeated。

  “Didhehavetheconsolationofknowing——?“Mrs。Thornburybeganverytentatively。

  ButSt。Johnmadenoreply。Helaybackinhischair,half-seeingtheothers,half-hearingwhattheysaid。Hewasterriblytired,andthelightandwarmth,themovementsofthehands,andthesoftcommunicativevoicessoothedhim;theygavehimastrangesenseofquietandrelief。Ashesatthere,motionless,thisfeelingofreliefbecameafeelingofprofoundhappiness。WithoutanysenseofdisloyaltytoTerenceandRachelheceasedtothinkabouteitherofthem。Themovementsandthevoicesseemedtodrawtogetherfromdifferentpartsoftheroom,andtocombinethemselvesintoapatternbeforehiseyes;hewascontenttositsilentlywatchingthepatternbuilditselfup,lookingatwhathehardlysaw。

  Thegamewasreallyagoodone,andMr。PepperandMr。Elliotwerebecomingmoreandmoresetuponthestruggle。Mrs。Thornbury,seeingthatSt。Johndidnotwishtotalk,resumedherknitting。

  “Lightningagain!“Mrs。Flushingsuddenlyexclaimed。Ayellowlightflashedacrossthebluewindow,andforasecondtheysawthegreentreesoutside。Shestrodetothedoor,pusheditopen,andstoodhalfoutintheopenair。

  Butthelightwasonlythereflectionofthestormwhichwasover。

  Therainhadceased,theheavycloudswereblownaway,andtheairwasthinandclear,althoughvapourishmistswerebeingdrivenswiftlyacrossthemoon。Theskywasoncemoreadeepandsolemnblue,andtheshapeoftheearthwasvisibleatthebottomoftheair,enormous,dark,andsolid,risingintothetaperingmassofthemountain,andprickedhereandthereontheslopesbythetinylightsofvillas。

  Thedrivingair,thedroneofthetrees,andtheflashinglightwhichnowandagainspreadabroadilluminationovertheearthfilledMrs。Flushingwithexultation。Herbreastsroseandfell。

  “Splendid!Splendid!“shemutteredtoherself。Thensheturnedbackintothehallandexclaimedinaperemptoryvoice,“Comeoutsideandsee,Wilfrid;it’swonderful。“

  Somehalf-stirred;somerose;somedroppedtheirballsofwoolandbegantostooptolookforthem。

  “Tobed——tobed,“saidMissAllan。

  “ItwasthemovewithyourQueenthatgaveitaway,Pepper,“

  exclaimedMr。Elliottriumphantly,sweepingthepiecestogetherandstandingup。Hehadwonthegame。

  “What?Pepperbeatenatlast?Icongratulateyou!“saidArthurVenning,whowaswheelingoldMrs。Paleytobed。

  AllthesevoicessoundedgratefullyinSt。John’searsashelayhalf-asleep,andyetvividlyconsciousofeverythingaroundhim。

  Acrosshiseyespassedaprocessionofobjects,blackandindistinct,thefiguresofpeoplepickinguptheirbooks,theircards,theirballsofwool,theirwork-baskets,andpassinghimoneafteranotherontheirwaytobed。

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