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  Whatwerethosehorridpeopledoing?Shespentthewholemorningindiscussingpoliticswithherhusband,andbydegreesshebecamedeeplyinterestedinwhattheyweresaying。Buteverynowandthenwhatshewassayingseemedtoheroddlyemptyofmeaning。

  Atluncheonitwasremarkedbyseveralpeoplethatthevisitorsatthehotelwerebeginningtoleave;therewerefewereveryday。

  Therewereonlyfortypeopleatluncheon,insteadofthesixtythattherehadbeen。SooldMrs。Paleycomputed,gazingaboutherwithherfadedeyes,asshetookherseatatherowntableinthewindow。

  HerpartygenerallyconsistedofMr。PerrottaswellasArthurandSusan,andto-dayEvelynwaslunchingwiththemalso。

  Shewasunusuallysubdued。Havingnoticedthathereyeswerered,andguessingthereason,theotherstookpainstokeepupanelaborateconversationbetweenthemselves。Shesufferedittogoonforafewminutes,leaningbothelbowsonthetable,andleavinghersoupuntouched,whensheexclaimedsuddenly,“Idon’tknowhowyoufeel,butIcansimplythinkofnothingelse!“

  Thegentlemenmurmuredsympathetically,andlookedgrave。

  Susanreplied,“Yes——isn’titperfectlyawful?Whenyouthinkwhatanicegirlshewas——onlyjustengaged,andthisneedneverhavehappened——itseemstootragic。“ShelookedatArthurasthoughhemightbeabletohelpherwithsomethingmoresuitable。

  “Hardlines,“saidArthurbriefly。“Butitwasafoolishthingtodo——togoupthatriver。“Heshookhishead。“Theyshouldhaveknownbetter。Youcan’texpectEnglishwomentostandroughingitasthenativesdowho’vebeenacclimatised。I’dhalfamindtowarnthematteathatdaywhenitwasbeingdiscussed。Butit’snogoodsayingthesesortofthings——itonlyputspeople’sbacksup——

  itnevermakesanydifference。“

  OldMrs。Paley,hithertocontentedwithhersoup,hereintimated,byraisingonehandtoherear,thatshewishedtoknowwhatwasbeingsaid。

  “Youheard,AuntEmma,thatpoorMissVinracehasdiedofthefever,“

  Susaninformedhergently。Shecouldnotspeakofdeathloudlyoreveninherusualvoice,sothatMrs。Paleydidnotcatchaword。

  Arthurcametotherescue。

  “MissVinraceisdead,“hesaidverydistinctly。

  Mrs。Paleymerelybentalittletowardshimandasked,“Eh?“

  “MissVinraceisdead,“herepeated。Itwasonlybystiffeningallthemusclesroundhismouththathecouldpreventhimselffromburstingintolaughter,andforcedhimselftorepeatforthethirdtime,“MissVinrace……She’sdead。“

  Letalonethedifficultyofhearingtheexactwords,factsthatwereoutsideherdailyexperiencetooksometimetoreachMrs。Paley’sconsciousness。Aweightseemedtorestuponherbrain,impeding,thoughnotdamagingitsaction。Shesatvague-eyedforatleastaminutebeforesherealisedwhatArthurmeant。

  “Dead?“shesaidvaguely。“MissVinracedead?Dearme……that’sverysad。ButIdon’tatthemomentrememberwhichshewas。

  Weseemtohavemadesomanynewacquaintanceshere。“ShelookedatSusanforhelp。“Atalldarkgirl,whojustmissedbeinghandsome,withahighcolour?“

  “No,“Susaninterposed。“Shewas——“thenshegaveitupindespair。

  TherewasnouseinexplainingthatMrs。Paleywasthinkingofthewrongperson。

  “Sheoughtnottohavedied,“Mrs。Paleycontinued。“Shelookedsostrong。Butpeoplewilldrinkthewater。Icannevermakeoutwhy。

  ItseemssuchasimplethingtotellthemtoputabottleofSeltzerwaterinyourbedroom。That’salltheprecautionI’veevertaken,andI’vebeenineverypartoftheworld,Imaysay——Italyadozentimesover……Butyoungpeoplealwaysthinktheyknowbetter,andthentheypaythepenalty。Poorthing——Iamverysorryforher。“

  Butthedifficultyofpeeringintoadishofpotatoesandhelpingherselfengrossedherattention。

  ArthurandSusanbothsecretlyhopedthatthesubjectwasnowdisposedof,forthereseemedtothemsomethingunpleasantinthisdiscussion。

  ButEvelynwasnotreadytoletitdrop。Whywouldpeoplenevertalkaboutthethingsthatmattered?

  “Idon’tbelieveyoucareabit!“shesaid,turningsavagelyuponMr。Perrott,whohadsatallthistimeinsilence。

  “I?Oh,yes,Ido,“heansweredawkwardly,butwithobvioussincerity。

  Evelyn’squestionsmadehimtoofeeluncomfortable。

  “Itseemssoinexplicable,“Evelyncontinued。“Death,Imean。

  Whyshouldshebedead,andnotyouorI?Itwasonlyafortnightagothatshewasherewiththerestofus。Whatd’youbelieve?“

  shedemandedofmr。Perrott。“D’youbelievethatthingsgoon,thatshe’sstillsomewhere——ord’youthinkit’ssimplyagame——

  wecrumbleuptonothingwhenwedie?I’mpositiveRachel’snotdead。“

  Mr。PerrottwouldhavesaidalmostanythingthatEvelynwantedhimtosay,buttoassertthathebelievedintheimmortalityofthesoulwasnotinhispower。Hesatsilent,moredeeplywrinkledthanusual,crumblinghisbread。

  LestEvelynshouldnextaskhimwhathebelieved,Arthur,aftermakingapauseequivalenttoafullstop,startedacompletelydifferenttopic。

  “Supposing,“hesaid,“amanweretowriteandtellyouthathewantedfivepoundsbecausehehadknownyourgrandfather,whatwouldyoudo?

  Itwasthisway。Mygrandfather——“

  “Inventedastove,“saidEvelyn。“Iknowallaboutthat。

  Wehadoneintheconservatorytokeeptheplantswarm。“

  “Didn’tknowIwassofamous,“saidArthur。“Well,“hecontinued,determinedatallcoststospinhisstoryoutatlength,“theoldchap,beingaboutthesecondbestinventorofhisday,andacapablelawyertoo,died,astheyalwaysdo,withoutmakingawill。

  NowFielding,hisclerk,withhowmuchjusticeIdon’tknow,alwaysclaimedthathemeanttodosomethingforhim。Thepooroldboy’scomedownintheworldthroughtryinginventionsonhisownaccount,livesinPengeoveratobacconist’sshop。I’vebeentoseehimthere。

  Thequestionis——mustIstumpupornot?Whatdoestheabstractspiritofjusticerequire,Perrott?Remember,Ididn’tbenefitundermygrandfather’swill,andI’venowayoftestingthetruthofthestory。“

  “Idon’tknowmuchabouttheabstractspiritofjustice,“saidSusan,smilingcomplacentlyattheothers,“butI’mcertainofonething——

  he’llgethisfivepounds!“

  AsMr。Perrottproceededtodeliveranopinion,andEvelyninsistedthathewasmuchtoostingy,likealllawyers,thinkingoftheletterandnotofthespirit,whileMrs。Paleyrequiredtobekeptinformedbetweenthecoursesastowhattheywereallsaying,theluncheonpassedwithnointervalofsilence,andArthurcongratulatedhimselfuponthetactwithwhichthediscussionhadbeensmoothedover。

  AstheylefttheroomithappenedthatMrs。Paley’swheeledchairranintotheElliots,whowerecomingthroughthedoor,asshewasgoingout。Broughtthustoastandstillforamoment,ArthurandSusancongratulatedHughlingElliotuponhisconvalescence,——

  hewasdown,cadaverousenough,forthefirsttime,——andMr。PerrotttookoccasiontosayafewwordsinprivatetoEvelyn。

  “Wouldtherebeanychanceofseeingyouthisafternoon,aboutthree-thirtysay?Ishallbeinthegarden,bythefountain。“

  TheblockdissolvedbeforeEvelynanswered。Butasshelefttheminthehall,shelookedathimbrightlyandsaid,“Half-pastthree,didyousay?That’llsuitme。“

  Sheranupstairswiththefeelingofspiritualexaltationandquickenedlifewhichtheprospectofanemotionalscenealwaysarousedinher。

  ThatMr。Perrottwasagainabouttoproposetoher,shehadnodoubt,andshewasawarethatonthisoccasionsheoughttobepreparedwithadefiniteanswer,forshewasgoingawayinthreedays’time。

  Butshecouldnotbringhermindtobearuponthequestion。Tocometoadecisionwasverydifficulttoher,becauseshehadanaturaldislikeofanythingfinalanddonewith;shelikedtogoonandon——

  alwaysonandon。Shewasleaving,and,therefore,sheoccupiedherselfinlayingherclothesoutsidebysideuponthebed。

  Sheobservedthatsomewereveryshabby。Shetookthephotographofherfatherandmother,and,beforeshelaiditawayinherbox,shehelditforaminuteinherhand。Rachelhadlookedatit。

  Suddenlythekeenfeelingofsomeone’spersonality,whichthingsthattheyhaveownedorhandledsometimespreserves,overcameher;shefeltRachelintheroomwithher;itwasasifshewereonashipatsea,andthelifeofthedaywasasunrealasthelandinthedistance。

  ButbydegreesthefeelingofRachel’spresencepassedaway,andshecouldnolongerrealiseher,forshehadscarcelyknownher。

  Butthismomentarysensationleftherdepressedandfatigued。

  Whathadshedonewithherlife?Whatfuturewastherebeforeher?

  Whatwasmake-believe,andwhatwasreal?Weretheseproposalsandintimaciesandadventuresreal,orwasthecontentmentwhichshehadseenonthefacesofSusanandRachelmorerealthananythingshehadeverfelt?

  Shemadeherselfreadytogodownstairs,absentmindedly,butherfingersweresowelltrainedthattheydidtheworkofpreparingheralmostoftheirownaccord。Whenshewasactuallyonthewaydownstairs,thebloodbegantocirclethroughherbodyofitsownaccordtoo,forhermindfeltverydull。

  Mr。Perrottwaswaitingforher。Indeed,hehadgonestraightintothegardenafterluncheon,andhadbeenwalkingupanddownthepathformorethanhalfanhour,inastateofacutesuspense。

  “I’mlateasusual!“sheexclaimed,asshecaughtsightofhim。

  “Well,youmustforgiveme;Ihadtopackup……Myword!

  Itlooksstormy!Andthat’sanewsteamerinthebay,isn’tit?“

  Shelookedatthebay,inwhichasteamerwasjustdroppinganchor,thesmokestillhangingaboutit,whileaswiftblackshudderranthroughthewaves。“One’squiteforgottenwhatrainlookslike,“

  sheadded。

  ButMr。Perrottpaidnoattentiontothesteamerortotheweather。

  “MissMurgatroyd,“hebeganwithhisusualformality,“Iaskedyoutocomeherefromaveryselfishmotive,Ifear。Idonotthinkyouneedtobeassuredoncemoreofmyfeelings;but,asyouareleavingsosoon,IfeltthatIcouldnotletyougowithoutaskingyoutotellme——haveIanyreasontohopethatyouwillevercometocareforme?“

  Hewasverypale,andseemedunabletosayanymore。

  ThelittlegushofvitalitywhichhadcomeintoEvelynassherandownstairshadlefther,andshefeltherselfimpotent。

  Therewasnothingforhertosay;shefeltnothing。Nowthathewasactuallyaskingher,inhiselderlygentlewords,tomarryhim,shefeltlessforhimthanshehadeverfeltbefore。

  “Let’ssitdownandtalkitover,“shesaidratherunsteadily。

  Mr。Perrottfollowedhertoacurvedgreenseatunderatree。

  Theylookedatthefountaininfrontofthem,whichhadlongceasedtoplay。Evelynkeptlookingatthefountaininsteadofthinkingofwhatshewassaying;thefountainwithoutanywaterseemedtobethetypeofherownbeing。

  “OfcourseIcareforyou,“shebegan,rushingherwordsoutinahurry;“IshouldbeabruteifIdidn’t。Ithinkyou’requiteoneofthenicestpeopleI’veeverknown,andoneofthefinesttoo。

  ButIwish……Iwishyoudidn’tcareformeinthatway。

  Areyousureyoudo?“Forthemomentshehonestlydesiredthatheshouldsayno。

  “Quitesure,“saidMr。Perrott。

  “Yousee,I’mnotassimpleasmostwomen,“Evelyncontinued。

  “IthinkIwantmore。Idon’tknowexactlywhatIfeel。“

  Hesatbyher,watchingherandrefrainingfromspeech。

  “IsometimesthinkIhaven’tgotitinmetocareverymuchforonepersononly。Someoneelsewouldmakeyouabetterwife。

  Icanimagineyouveryhappywithsomeoneelse。“

  “Ifyouthinkthatthereisanychancethatyouwillcometocareforme,Iamquitecontenttowait,“saidMr。Perrott。

  “Well——there’snohurry,isthere?“saidEvelyn。“SupposeIthoughtitoverandwroteandtoldyouwhenIgetback?I’mgoingtoMoscow;

  I’llwritefromMoscow。“

  ButMr。Perrottpersisted。

  “Youcannotgivemeanykindofidea。Idonotaskforadate……thatwouldbemostunreasonable。“Hepaused,lookingdownatthegravelpath。

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