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  Forprotectionagainstboredom,Helenputabookofmemoirsbeneathherarm,andMrs。Flushingherpaint-box,and,thusequipped,theyallowedthemselvestobesetonshoreonthevergeoftheforest。

  TheyhadnotstrolledmorethanafewhundredyardsalongthetrackwhichranparallelwiththeriverbeforeHelenprofessedtofinditwasunbearablyhot。Theriverbreezehadceased,andahotsteamyatmosphere,thickwithscents,camefromtheforest。

  “Ishallsitdownhere,“sheannounced,pointingtothetrunkofatreewhichhadfallenlongagoandwasnowlacedacrossandacrossbycreepersandthong-likebrambles。Sheseatedherself,openedherparasol,andlookedattheriverwhichwasbarredbythestemsoftrees。

  Sheturnedherbacktothetreeswhichdisappearedinblackshadowbehindher。

  “Iquiteagree,“saidMrs。Flushing,andproceededtoundoherpaint-box。Herhusbandstrolledabouttoselectaninterestingpointofviewforher。HirstclearedaspaceonthegroundbyHelen’sside,andseatedhimselfwithgreatdeliberation,asifhedidnotmeantomoveuntilhehadtalkedtoherforalongtime。

  TerenceandRachelwereleftstandingbythemselveswithoutoccupation。

  Terencesawthatthetimehadcomeasitwasfatedtocome,butalthoughherealisedthishewascompletelycalmandmasterofhimself。HechosetostandforafewmomentstalkingtoHelen,andpersuadinghertoleaveherseat。Racheljoinedhimtooinadvisinghertocomewiththem。

  “OfallthepeopleI’veevermet,“hesaid,“you’retheleastadventurous。

  YoumightbesittingongreenchairsinHydePark。Areyougoingtosittherethewholeafternoon?Aren’tyougoingtowalk?“

  “Oh,no,“saidHelen,“one’sonlygottouseone’seye。

  There’severythinghere——everything,“sherepeatedinadrowsytoneofvoice。“Whatwillyougainbywalking?“

  “You’llbehotanddisagreeablebytea-time,weshallbecoolandsweet,“

  putinHirst。Intohiseyesashelookedupatthemhadcomeyellowandgreenreflectionsfromtheskyandthebranches,robbingthemoftheirintentness,andheseemedtothinkwhathedidnotsay。

  ItwasthustakenforgrantedbythemboththatTerenceandRachelproposedtowalkintothewoodstogether;withonelookateachothertheyturnedaway。

  “Good-bye!“criedRachel。

  “Good-by。Bewareofsnakes,“Hirstreplied。HesettledhimselfstillmorecomfortablyundertheshadeofthefallentreeandHelen’sfigure。Astheywent,Mr。Flushingcalledafterthem,“Wemuststartinanhour。Hewet,pleaserememberthat。Anhour。“

  Whethermadebyman,orforsomereasonpreservedbynature,therewasawidepathwaystrikingthroughtheforestatrightanglestotheriver。ItresembledadriveinanEnglishforest,savethattropicalbusheswiththeirsword-likeleavesgrewattheside,andthegroundwascoveredwithanunmarkedspringymossinsteadofgrass,starredwithlittleyellowflowers。

  Astheypassedintothedepthsoftheforestthelightgrewdimmer,andthenoisesoftheordinaryworldwerereplacedbythosecreakingandsighingsoundswhichsuggesttothetravellerinaforestthatheiswalkingatthebottomofthesea。Thepathnarrowedandturned;

  itwashedgedinbydensecreeperswhichknottedtreetotree,andbursthereandthereintostar-shapedcrimsonblossoms。

  Thesighingandcreakingupabovewerebrokeneverynowandthenbythejarringcryofsomestartledanimal。Theatmospherewascloseandtheaircameattheminlanguidpuffsofscent。Thevastgreenlightwasbrokenhereandtherebyaroundofpureyellowsunlightwhichfellthroughsomegapintheimmenseumbrellaofgreenabove,andintheseyellowspacescrimsonandblackbutterflieswerecirclingandsettling。TerenceandRachelhardlyspoke。

  Notonlydidthesilenceweighuponthem,buttheywerebothunabletoframeanythoughts。Therewassomethingbetweenthemwhichhadtobespokenof。Oneofthemhadtobegin,butwhichofthemwasittobe?

  ThenHewetpickeduparedfruitandthrewitashighashecould。

  Whenitdropped,hewouldspeak。Theyheardtheflappingofgreatwings;theyheardthefruitgopatteringthroughtheleavesandeventuallyfallwithathud。Thesilencewasagainprofound。

  “Doesthisfrightenyou?“Terenceaskedwhenthesoundofthefruitfallinghadcompletelydiedaway。

  “No,“sheanswered。“Ilikeit。“

  Sherepeated“Ilikeit。“Shewaswalkingfast,andholdingherselfmoreerectthanusual。Therewasanotherpause。

  “Youlikebeingwithme?“Terenceasked。

  “Yes,withyou,“shereplied。

  Hewassilentforamoment。Silenceseemedtohavefallenupontheworld。

  “ThatiswhatIhavefelteversinceIknewyou,“hereplied。

  “Wearehappytogether。“Hedidnotseemtobespeaking,orshetobehearing。

  “Veryhappy,“sheanswered。

  Theycontinuedtowalkforsometimeinsilence。Theirstepsunconsciouslyquickened。

  “Weloveeachother,“Terencesaid。

  “Weloveeachother,“sherepeated。

  Thesilencewasthenbrokenbytheirvoiceswhichjoinedintonesofstrangeunfamiliarsoundwhichformednowords。Fasterandfastertheywalked;simultaneouslytheystopped,claspedeachotherintheirarms,thenreleasingthemselves,droppedtotheearth。

  Theysatsidebyside。Soundsstoodoutfromthebackgroundmakingabridgeacrosstheirsilence;theyheardtheswishofthetreesandsomebeastcroakinginaremoteworld。

  “Weloveeachother,“Terencerepeated,searchingintoherface。

  Theirfaceswerebothverypaleandquiet,andtheysaidnothing。

  Hewasafraidtokissheragain。Bydegreesshedrewclosetohim,andrestedagainsthim。Inthispositiontheysatforsometime。

  Shesaid“Terence“once;heanswered“Rachel。“

  “Terrible——terrible,“shemurmuredafteranotherpause,butinsayingthisshewasthinkingasmuchofthepersistentchurningofthewaterasofherownfeeling。Onandonitwentinthedistance,thesenselessandcruelchurningofthewater。

  SheobservedthatthetearswererunningdownTerence’scheeks。

  Thenextmovementwasonhispart。Averylongtimeseemedtohavepassed。Hetookouthiswatch。

  “Flushingsaidanhour。We’vebeengonemorethanhalfanhour。“

  “Andittakesthattogetback,“saidRachel。Sheraisedherselfveryslowly。Whenshewasstandingupshestretchedherarmsanddrewadeepbreath,halfasigh,halfayawn。Sheappearedtobeverytired。Hercheekswerewhite。“Whichway?“sheasked。

  “There,“saidTerence。

  Theybegantowalkbackdownthemossypathagain。Thesighingandcreakingcontinuedfaroverhead,andthejarringcriesofanimals。

  Thebutterflieswerecirclingstillinthepatchesofyellowsunlight。

  AtfirstTerencewascertainofhisway,butastheywalkedhebecamedoubtful。Theyhadtostoptoconsider,andthentoreturnandstartoncemore,foralthoughhewascertainofthedirectionoftheriverhewasnotcertainofstrikingthepointwheretheyhadlefttheothers。Rachelfollowedhim,stoppingwherehestopped,turningwhereheturned,ignorantoftheway,ignorantwhyhestoppedorwhyheturned。

  “Idon’twanttobelate,“hesaid,“because——“Heputaflowerintoherhandandherfingerscloseduponitquietly。“We’resolate——

  solate——sohorriblylate,“herepeatedasifheweretalkinginhissleep。“Ah——thisisright。Weturnhere。“

  Theyfoundthemselvesagaininthebroadpath,likethedriveintheEnglishforest,wheretheyhadstartedwhentheylefttheothers。

  Theywalkedoninsilenceaspeoplewalkingintheirsleep,andwereoddlyconsciousnowandagainofthemassoftheirbodies。

  ThenRachelexclaimedsuddenly,“Helen!“

  InthesunnyspaceattheedgeoftheforesttheysawHelenstillsittingonthetree-trunk,herdressshowingverywhiteinthesun,withHirststillproppedonhiselbowbyherside。

  Theystoppedinstinctively。Atthesightofotherpeopletheycouldnotgoon。Theystoodhandinhandforaminuteortwoinsilence。

  Theycouldnotbeartofaceotherpeople。

  “Butwemustgoon,“Rachelinsistedatlast,inthecuriousdulltoneofvoiceinwhichtheyhadbothbeenspeaking,andwithagreatefforttheyforcedthemselvestocovertheshortdistancewhichlaybetweenthemandthepairsittingonthetree-trunk。

  Astheyapproached,Helenturnedroundandlookedatthem。

  Shelookedatthemforsometimewithoutspeaking,andwhentheywereclosetohershesaidquietly:

  “DidyoumeetMr。Flushing?Hehasgonetofindyou。Hethoughtyoumustbelost,thoughItoldhimyouweren’tlost。“

  Hirsthalfturnedroundandthrewhisheadbacksothathelookedatthebranchescrossingthemselvesintheairabovehim。

  “Well,wasitworththeeffort?“heenquireddreamily。

  Hewetsatdownonthegrassbyhissideandbegantofanhimself。

  RachelhadbalancedherselfnearHelenontheendofthetreetrunk。

  “Veryhot,“shesaid。

  “Youlookexhaustedanyhow,“saidHirst。

  “It’sfearfullycloseinthosetrees,“Helenremarked,pickingupherbookandshakingitfreefromthedriedbladesofgrasswhichhadfallenbetweentheleaves。Thentheywereallsilent,lookingattheriverswirlingpastinfrontofthembetweenthetrunksofthetreesuntilMr。Flushinginterruptedthem。Hebrokeoutofthetreesahundredyardstotheleft,exclaimingsharply:

  “Ah,soyoufoundthewayafterall。Butit’slate——muchlaterthanwearranged,Hewet。“

  Hewasslightlyannoyed,andinhiscapacityasleaderoftheexpedition,inclinedtobedictatorial。Hespokequickly,usingcuriouslysharp,meaninglesswords。

  “Beinglatewouldn’tmatternormally,ofcourse,“hesaid,“butwhenit’saquestionofkeepingthemenuptotime——“

  Hegatheredthemtogetherandmadethemcomedowntotheriver-bank,wheretheboatwaswaitingtorowthemouttothesteamer。

  Theheatofthedaywasgoingdown,andovertheircupsofteatheFlushingstendedtobecomecommunicative。ItseemedtoTerenceashelistenedtothemtalking,thatexistencenowwentonintwodifferentlayers。HereweretheFlushingstalking,talkingsomewherehighupintheairabovehim,andheandRachelhaddroppedtothebottomoftheworldtogether。Butwithsomethingofachild’sdirectness,Mrs。Flushinghadalsotheinstinctwhichleadsachildtosuspectwhatitselderswishtokeephidden。

  ShefixedTerencewithhervividblueeyesandaddressedherselftohiminparticular。Whatwouldhedo,shewantedtoknow,iftheboatranuponarockandsank。

  “Wouldyoucareforanythin’butsavin’yourself?ShouldI?

  No,no,“shelaughed,“notonescrap——don’ttellme。There’sonlytwocreaturestheordinarywomancaresabout,“shecontinued,“herchildandherdog;andIdon’tbelieveit’seventwowithmen。

  Onereadsalotaboutlove——that’swhypoetry’ssodull。

  Butwhathappensinreallife,he?Itain’tlove!“shecried。

  Terencemurmuredsomethingunintelligible。Mr。Flushing,however,hadrecoveredhisurbanity。Hewassmokingacigarette,andhenowansweredhiswife。

  “Youmustalwaysremember,Alice,“hesaid,“thatyourupbringingwasveryunnatural——unusual,Ishouldsay。Theyhadnomother,“

  heexplained,droppingsomethingoftheformalityofhistone;

  “andafather——hewasaverydelightfulman,I’venodoubt,buthecaredonlyforracehorsesandGreekstatues。Tellthemaboutthebath,Alice。“

  “Inthestable-yard,“saidMrs。Flushing。“Coveredwithiceinwinter。

  Wehadtogetin;ifwedidn’t,wewerewhipped。Thestrongoneslived——theothersdied。Whatyoucallsurvivalofthefittest——

  amostexcellentplan,Idaresay,ifyou’vethirteenchildren!“

  “AndallthisgoingonintheheartofEngland,inthenineteenthcentury!“Mr。Flushingexclaimed,turningtoHelen。

  “I’dtreatmychildrenjustthesameifIhadany,“saidMrs。Flushing。

  EverywordsoundedquitedistinctlyinTerence’sears;butwhatweretheysaying,andwhoweretheytalkingto,andwhowerethey,thesefantasticpeople,detachedsomewherehighupintheair?

  Nowthattheyhaddrunktheirtea,theyroseandleantoverthebowoftheboat。Thesunwasgoingdown,andthewaterwasdarkandcrimson。

  Theriverhadwidenedagain,andtheywerepassingalittleislandsetlikeadarkwedgeinthemiddleofthestream。Twogreatwhitebirdswithredlightsonthemstoodthereonstilt-likelegs,andthebeachoftheislandwasunmarked,savebytheskeletonprintofbirds’feet。Thebranchesofthetreesonthebanklookedmoretwistedandangularthanever,andthegreenoftheleaveswasluridandsplashedwithgold。ThenHirstbegantotalk,leaningoverthebow。

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