第29章
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  Alreadyhermindwasbusywithbenevolentplansforherfriends,orratherwithonemagnificentplan——whichwassimpletoo——

  theywerealltogetmarried——atonce——directlyshegotback。

  Marriage,marriagethatwastherightthing,theonlything,thesolutionrequiredbyeveryonesheknew,andagreatpartofhermeditationswasspentintracingeveryinstanceofdiscomfort,loneliness,ill-health,unsatisfiedambition,restlessness,eccentricity,takingthingsupanddroppingthemagain,publicspeaking,andphilanthropicactivityonthepartofmenandparticularlyonthepartofwomentothefactthattheywantedtomarry,weretryingtomarry,andhadnotsucceededingettingmarried。

  If,asshewasboundtoown,thesesymptomssometimespersistedaftermarriage,shecouldonlyascribethemtotheunhappylawofnaturewhichdecreedthattherewasonlyoneArthurVenning,andonlyoneSusanwhocouldmarryhim。Hertheory,ofcourse,hadthemeritofbeingfullysupportedbyherowncase。Shehadbeenvaguelyuncomfortableathomefortwoorthreeyearsnow,andavoyagelikethiswithherselfisholdaunt,whopaidherfarebuttreatedherasservantandcompanioninone,wastypicalofthekindofthingpeopleexpectedofher。Directlyshebecameengaged,Mrs。Paleybehavedwithinstinctiverespect,positivelyprotestedwhenSusanasusualkneltdowntolacehershoes,andappearedreallygratefulforanhourofSusan’scompanywhereshehadbeenusedtoexacttwoorthreeasherright。Shethereforeforesawalifeoffargreatercomfortthanshehadbeenusedto,andthechangehadalreadyproducedagreatincreaseofwarmthinherfeelingstowardsotherpeople。

  ItwascloseontwentyyearsnowsinceMrs。Paleyhadbeenabletolaceherownshoesoreventoseethem,thedisappearanceofherfeethavingcoincidedmoreorlessaccuratelywiththedeathofherhusband,amanofbusiness,soonafterwhicheventMrs。Paleybegantogrowstout。Shewasaselfish,independentoldwoman,possessedofaconsiderableincome,whichshespentupontheupkeepofahousethatneededsevenservantsandacharwomaninLancasterGate,andanotherwithagardenandcarriage-horsesinSurrey。

  Susan’sengagementrelievedheroftheonegreatanxietyofherlife——

  thathersonChristophershould“entanglehimself“withhiscousin。

  Nowthatthisfamiliarsourceofinterestwasremoved,shefeltalittlelowandinclinedtoseemoreinSusanthansheusedto。

  Shehaddecidedtogiveheraveryhandsomeweddingpresent,achequefortwohundred,twohundredandfifty,orpossibly,conceivably——

  itdependedupontheunder-gardenerandHuths’billfordoingupthedrawing-room——threehundredpoundssterling。

  Shewasthinkingofthisveryquestion,revolvingthefigures,asshesatinherwheeledchairwithatablespreadwithcardsbyherside。ThePatiencehadsomehowgotintoamuddle,andshedidnotliketocallforSusantohelpher,asSusanseemedtobebusywithArthur。

  “She’severyrighttoexpectahandsomepresentfromme,ofcourse,“

  shethought,lookingvaguelyattheleopardonitshindlegs,“andI’venodoubtshedoes!Moneygoesalongwaywitheveryone。

  Theyoungareveryselfish。IfIweretodie,nobodywouldmissmebutDakyns,andshe’llbeconsoledbythewill!However,I’vegotnoreasontocomplain……Icanstillenjoymyself。I’mnotaburdentoany-one……Ilikeagreatmanythingsagooddeal,inspiteofmylegs。“

  Beingslightlydepressed,however,shewentontothinkoftheonlypeopleshehadknownwhohadnotseemedtoheratallselfishorfondofmoney,whohadseemedtohersomehowratherfinerthanthegeneralrun;peopleshewillinglyacknowledged,whowerefinerthanshewas。Therewereonlytwoofthem。Onewasherbrother,whohadbeendrownedbeforehereyes,theotherwasagirl,hergreatestfriend,whohaddiedingivingbirthtoherfirstchild。

  Thesethingshadhappenedsomefiftyyearsago。

  “Theyoughtnottohavedied,“shethought。“However,theydid——

  andweselfisholdcreaturesgoon。“Thetearscametohereyes;

  shefeltagenuineregretforthem,akindofrespectfortheiryouthandbeauty,andakindofshameforherself;butthetearsdidnotfall;

  andsheopenedoneofthoseinnumerablenovelswhichsheusedtopronouncegoodorbad,orprettymiddling,orreallywonderful。

  “Ican’tthinkhowpeoplecometoimaginesuchthings,“shewouldsay,takingoffherspectaclesandlookingupwiththeoldfadedeyes,thatwerebecomingringedwithwhite。

  JustbehindthestuffedleopardMr。ElliotwasplayingchesswithMr。Pepper。Hewasbeingdefeated,naturally,forMr。Pepperscarcelytookhiseyesofftheboard,andMr。Elliotkeptleaningbackinhischairandthrowingoutremarkstoagentlemanwhohadonlyarrivedthenightbefore,atallhandsomeman,withaheadresemblingtheheadofanintellectualram。Afterafewremarksofageneralnaturehadpassed,theywerediscoveringthattheyknewsomeofthesamepeople,asindeedhadbeenobviousfromtheirappearancedirectlytheysaweachother。

  “Ahyes,oldTruefit,“saidMr。Elliot。“HehasasonatOxford。

  I’veoftenstayedwiththem。It’salovelyoldJacobeanhouse。

  SomeexquisiteGreuzes——oneortwoDutchpictureswhichtheoldboykeptinthecellars。Thentherewerestacksuponstacksofprints。Oh,thedirtinthathouse!Hewasamiser,youknow。

  TheboymarriedadaughterofLordPinwells。Iknowthemtoo。

  Thecollectingmaniatendstoruninfamilies。Thischapcollectsbuckles——men’sshoe-bucklestheymustbe,inusebetweentheyears1580and1660;thedatesmayn’tberight,butfact’sasIsay。

  Yourtruecollectoralwayshassomeunaccountablefadofthatkind。

  Onotherpointshe’saslevel-headedasabreederofshorthorns,whichiswhathehappenstobe。ThenthePinwells,asyouprobablyknow,havetheirshareofeccentricitytoo。LadyMaud,forinstance——“

  hewasinterruptedherebythenecessityofconsideringhismove,——“LadyMaudhasahorrorofcatsandclergymen,andpeoplewithbigfrontteeth。I’veheardhershoutacrossatable,’Keepyourmouthshut,MissSmith;they’reasyellowascarrots!’

  acrossatable,mindyou。Tomeshe’salwaysbeencivilityitself。

  Shedabblesinliterature,likestocollectafewofusinherdrawing-room,butmentionaclergyman,abishopeven,nay,theArchbishophimself,andshegobbleslikeaturkey-cock。I’vebeentoldit’safamilyfeud——somethingtodowithanancestorinthereignofCharlestheFirst。Yes,“hecontinued,sufferingcheckaftercheck,“Ialwaysliketoknowsomethingofthegrandmothersofourfashionableyoungmen。Inmyopiniontheypreserveallthatweadmireintheeighteenthcentury,withtheadvantage,inthemajorityofcases,thattheyarepersonallyclean。NotthatonewouldinsultoldLadyBarboroughbycallingherclean。Howoftend’youthink,Hilda,“hecalledouttohiswife,“herladyshiptakesabath?“

  “Ishouldhardlyliketosay,Hugh,“Mrs。Elliottittered,“butwearingpucevelvet,asshedoesevenonthehottestAugustday,itsomehowdoesn’tshow。“

  “Pepper,youhaveme,“saidMr。Elliot。“MychessisevenworsethanIremembered。“Heacceptedhisdefeatwithgreatequanimity,becausehereallywishedtotalk。

  HedrewhischairbesideMr。WilfridFlushing,thenewcomer。

  “Aretheseatallinyourline?“heasked,pointingatacaseinfrontofthem,wherehighlypolishedcrosses,jewels,andbitsofembroidery,theworkofthenatives,weredisplayedtotemptvisitors。

  “Shams,allofthem,“saidMr。Flushingbriefly。“Thisrug,now,isn’tatallbad。“Hestoppedandpickedupapieceoftherugattheirfeet。“Notold,ofcourse,butthedesignisquiteintherighttradition。Alice,lendmeyourbrooch。

  Seethedifferencebetweentheoldworkandthenew。“

  Alady,whowasreadingwithgreatconcentration,unfastenedherbroochandgaveittoherhusbandwithoutlookingathimoracknowledgingthetentativebowwhichMr。Elliotwasdesirousofgivingher。

  Ifshehadlistened,shemighthavebeenamusedbythereferencetooldLadyBarborough,hergreat-aunt,but,obliviousofhersurroundings,shewentonreading。

  Theclock,whichhadbeenwheezingforsomeminuteslikeanoldmanpreparingtocough,nowstrucknine。Thesoundslightlydisturbedcertainsomnolentmerchants,governmentofficials,andmenofindependentmeanswhowerelyingbackintheirchairs,chatting,smoking,ruminatingabouttheiraffairs,withtheireyeshalfshut;theyraisedtheirlidsforaninstantatthesoundandthenclosedthemagain。Theyhadtheappearanceofcrocodilessofullygorgedbytheirlastmealthatthefutureoftheworldgivesthemnoanxietywhatever。Theonlydisturbanceintheplacidbrightroomwascausedbyalargemothwhichshotfromlighttolight,whizzingoverelaborateheadsofhair,andcausingseveralyoungwomentoraisetheirhandsnervouslyandexclaim,“Someoneoughttokillit!“

  Absorbedintheirownthoughts,HewetandHirsthadnotspokenforalongtime。

  Whentheclockstruck,Hirstsaid:

  “Ah,thecreaturesbegintostir……“Hewatchedthemraisethemselves,lookaboutthem,andsettledownagain。

  “WhatIabhormostofall,“heconcluded,“isthefemalebreast。

  ImaginebeingVenningandhavingtogetintobedwithSusan!

  Butthereallyrepulsivethingisthattheyfeelnothingatall——

  aboutwhatIdowhenIhaveahotbath。They’regross,they’reabsurd,they’reutterlyintolerable!“

  Sosaying,anddrawingnoreplyfromHewet,heproceededtothinkabouthimself,aboutscience,aboutCambridge,abouttheBar,aboutHelenandwhatshethoughtofhim,until,beingverytired,hewasnoddingofftosleep。

  SuddenlyHewetwokehimup。

  “Howd’youknowwhatyoufeel,Hirst?“

  “Areyouinlove?“askedHirst。Heputinhiseyeglass。

  “Don’tbeafool,“saidHewet。

  “Well,I’llsitdownandthinkaboutit,“saidHirst。“Onereallyoughtto。Ifthesepeoplewouldonlythinkaboutthings,theworldwouldbeafarbetterplaceforusalltolivein。

  Areyoutryingtothink?“

  ThatwasexactlywhatHewethadbeendoingforthelasthalf-hour,buthedidnotfindHirstsympatheticatthemoment。

  “Ishallgoforawalk,“hesaid。

  “Rememberweweren’tinbedlastnight,“saidHirstwithaprodigiousyawn。

  Hewetroseandstretchedhimself。

  “Iwanttogoandgetabreathofair,“hesaid。

  Anunusualfeelinghadbeenbotheringhimalltheeveningandforbiddinghimtosettleintoanyonetrainofthought。Itwaspreciselyasifhehadbeeninthemiddleofatalkwhichinterestedhimprofoundlywhensomeonecameupandinterruptedhim。Hecouldnotfinishthetalk,andthelongerhesattherethemorehewantedtofinishit。

  AsthetalkthathadbeeninterruptedwasatalkwithRachel,hehadtoaskhimselfwhyhefeltthis,andwhyhewantedtogoontalkingtoher。Hirstwouldmerelysaythathewasinlovewithher。

  Buthewasnotinlovewithher。Didlovebegininthatway,withthewishtogoontalking?No。Italwaysbeganinhiscasewithdefinitephysicalsensations,andthesewerenowabsent,hedidnotevenfindherphysicallyattractive。Therewassomething,ofcourse,unusualabouther——shewasyoung,inexperienced,andinquisitive,theyhadbeenmoreopenwitheachotherthanwasusuallypossible。

  Healwaysfoundgirlsinterestingtotalkto,andsurelytheseweregoodreasonswhyheshouldwishtogoontalkingtoher;

  andlastnight,whatwiththecrowdandtheconfusion,hehadonlybeenabletobegintotalktoher。Whatwasshedoingnow?

  Lyingonasofaandlookingattheceiling,perhaps。Hecouldimagineherdoingthat,andHeleninanarm-chair,withherhandsonthearmofit,so——lookingaheadofher,withhergreatbigeyes——

  ohno,they’dbetalking,ofcourse,aboutthedance。ButsupposeRachelwasgoingawayinadayortwo,supposethiswastheendofhervisit,andherfatherhadarrivedinoneofthesteamersanchoredinthebay,——itwasintolerabletoknowsolittle。

  Thereforeheexclaimed,“Howd’youknowwhatyoufeel,Hirst?“tostophimselffromthinking。

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