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  “Alittlesilvergoesalongwayinthiscountry,“shechuckled。

  ShesentSusanbacktofetchanothercup。

  “Theyhavesuchexcellentbiscuitshere,“shesaid,contemplatingaplateful。“Notsweetbiscuits,whichIdon’tlike——drybiscuits……Haveyoubeensketching?“

  “Oh,I’vedonetwoorthreelittledaubs,“saidMrs。Elliot,speakingratherlouderthanusual。“Butit’ssodifficultafterOxfordshire,wheretherearesomanytrees。Thelight’ssostronghere。

  Somepeopleadmireit,Iknow,butIfinditveryfatiguing。“

  “Ireallydon’tneedcooking,Susan,“saidMrs。Paley,whenherniecereturned。“Imusttroubleyoutomoveme。“Everythinghadtobemoved。Finallytheoldladywasplacedsothatthelightwaveredoverher,asthoughshewereafishinanet。Susanpouredouttea,andwasjustremarkingthattheywerehavinghotweatherinWiltshiretoo,whenMr。Venningaskedwhetherhemightjointhem。

  “It’ssonicetofindayoungmanwhodoesn’tdespisetea,“

  saidMrs。Paley,regaininghergoodhumour。“Oneofmynephewstheotherdayaskedforaglassofsherry——atfiveo’clock!I

  toldhimhecouldgetitatthepublichouseroundthecorner,butnotinmydrawingroom。“

  “I’drathergowithoutlunchthantea,“saidMr。Venning。

  “That’snotstrictlytrue。Iwantboth。“

  Mr。Venningwasadarkyoungman,aboutthirty-twoyearsofage,veryslapdashandconfidentinhismanner,althoughatthismomentobviouslyalittleexcited。HisfriendMr。Perrottwasabarrister,andasMr。PerrottrefusedtogoanywherewithoutMr。Venningitwasnecessary,whenMr。PerrottcametoSantaMarinaaboutaCompany,forMr。Venningtocometoo。Hewasabarristeralso,butheloathedaprofessionwhichkepthimindoorsoverbooks,anddirectlyhiswidowedmotherdiedhewasgoing,soheconfidedtoSusan,totakeupflyingseriously,andbecomepartnerinalargebusinessformakingaeroplanes。Thetalkrambledon。Itdealt,ofcourse,withthebeautiesandsingularitiesoftheplace,thestreets,thepeople,andthequantitiesofunownedyellowdogs。

  “Don’tyouthinkitdreadfullycruelthewaytheytreatdogsinthiscountry?“askedMrs。Paley。

  “I’dhave’emallshot,“saidMr。Venning。

  “Oh,butthedarlingpuppies,“saidSusan。

  “Jollylittlechaps,“saidMr。Venning。“Lookhere,you’vegotnothingtoeat。“AgreatwedgeofcakewashandedSusanonthepointofatremblingknife。Herhandtrembledtooasshetookit。

  “Ihavesuchadeardogathome,“saidMrs。Elliot。

  “Myparrotcan’tstanddogs,“saidMrs。Paley,withtheairofonemakingaconfidence。“Ialwayssuspectthatheorshe

  wasteasedbyadogwhenIwasabroad。“

  “Youdidn’tgetfarthismorning,MissWarrington,“saidMr。Venning。

  “Itwashot,“sheanswered。Theirconversationbecameprivate,owingtoMrs。Paley’sdeafnessandthelongsadhistorywhichMrs。Elliothadembarkeduponofawire-hairedterrier,whitewithjustoneblackspot,belongingtoanuncleofhers,whichhadcommittedsuicide。“Animalsdocommitsuicide,“

  shesighed,asifsheassertedapainfulfact。

  “Couldn’tweexplorethetownthisevening?“Mr。Venningsuggested。

  “Myaunt——“Susanbegan。

  “Youdeserveaholiday,“hesaid。“You’realwaysdoingthingsforotherpeople。“

  “Butthat’smylife,“shesaid,undercoverofrefillingtheteapot。

  “That’snoone’slife,“hereturned,“noyoungperson’s。You’llcome?“

  “Ishouldliketocome,“shemurmured。

  AtthismomentMrs。Elliotlookedupandexclaimed,“Oh,Hugh!

  He’sbringingsomeone,“sheadded。

  “Hewouldlikesometea,“saidMrs。Paley。“Susan,runandgetsomecups——therearethetwoyoungmen。“

  “We’rethirstingfortea,“saidMr。Elliot。“YouknowMr。Ambrose,Hilda?Wemetonthehill。“

  “Hedraggedmein,“saidRidley,“orIshouldhavebeenashamed。

  I’mdustyanddirtyanddisagreeable。“Hepointedtohisbootswhichwerewhitewithdust,whileadejectedflowerdroopinginhisbuttonhole,likeanexhaustedanimaloveragate,addedtotheeffectoflengthanduntidiness。Hewasintroducedtotheothers。

  Mr。HewetandMr。Hirstbroughtchairs,andteabeganagain,Susanpouringcascadesofwaterfrompottopot,alwayscheerfully,andwiththecompetenceoflonguse。

  “Mywife’sbrother,“RidleyexplainedtoHilda,whomhefailedtoremember,“hasahousehere,whichhehaslentus。

  IwassittingonarockthinkingofnothingatallwhenElliotstarteduplikeafairyinapantomime。“

  “Ourchickengotintothesalt,“HewetsaiddolefullytoSusan。

  “Norisittruethatbananasincludemoistureaswellassustenance。

  Hirstwasalreadydrinking。

  “We’vebeencursingyou,“saidRidleyinanswertoMrs。Elliot’skindenquiriesabouthiswife。“Youtouristseatupalltheeggs,Helentellsme。That’saneye-soretoo“——henoddedhisheadatthehotel。“Disgustingluxury,Icallit。Welivewithpigsinthedrawing-room。“

  “Thefoodisnotatallwhatitoughttobe,consideringtheprice,“

  saidMrs。Paleyseriously。“Butunlessonegoestoahotelwhereisonetogoto?“

  “Stayathome,“saidRidley。“IoftenwishIhad!Everyoneoughttostayathome。But,ofcourse,theywon’t。“

  Mrs。PaleyconceivedacertaingrudgeagainstRidley,whoseemedtobecriticisingherhabitsafteranacquaintanceoffiveminutes。

  “Ibelieveinforeigntravelmyself,“shestated,“ifoneknowsone’snativeland,whichIthinkIcanhonestlysayIdo。IshouldnotallowanyonetotraveluntiltheyhadvisitedKentandDorsetshire——

  Kentforthehops,andDorsetshireforitsoldstonecottages。

  Thereisnothingtocomparewiththemhere。“

  “Yes——Ialwaysthinkthatsomepeopleliketheflatandotherpeoplelikethedowns,“saidMrs。Elliotrathervaguely。

  Hirst,whohadbeeneatinganddrinkingwithoutinterruption,nowlitacigarette,andobserved,“Oh,butwe’reallagreedbythistimethatnature’samistake。She’seitherveryugly,appallinglyuncomfortable,orabsolutelyterrifying。Idon’tknowwhichalarmsmemost——acoworatree。Ioncemetacowinafieldbynight。

  Thecreaturelookedatme。Iassureyouitturnedmyhairgrey。

  It’sadisgracethattheanimalsshouldbeallowedtogoatlarge。“

  “Andwhatdidthecowthinkof_him_?“VenningmumbledtoSusan,whoimmediatelydecidedinherownmindthatMr。Hirstwasadreadfulyoungman,andthatalthoughhehadsuchanairofbeingcleverheprobablywasn’tascleverasArthur,inthewaysthatreallymatter。

  “Wasn’titWildewhodiscoveredthefactthatnaturemakesnoallowanceforhip-bones?“enquiredHughlingElliot。HeknewbythistimeexactlywhatscholarshipsanddistinctionHirstenjoyed,andhadformedaveryhighopinionofhiscapacities。

  ButHirstmerelydrewhislipstogetherverytightlyandmadenoreply。

  Ridleyconjecturedthatitwasnowpermissibleforhimtotakehisleave。PolitenessrequiredhimtothankMrs。Elliotforhistea,andtoadd,withawaveofhishand,“Youmustcomeupandseeus。“

  ThewaveincludedbothHirstandHewet,andHewetanswered,“Ishouldlikeitimmensely。“

  Thepartybrokeup,andSusan,whohadneverfeltsohappyinherlife,wasjustabouttostartforherwalkinthetownwithArthur,whenMrs。Paleybeckonedherback。ShecouldnotunderstandfromthebookhowDoubleDemonpatienceisplayed;andsuggestedthatiftheysatdownandworkeditouttogetheritwouldfillupthetimenicelybeforedinner。

  AmongthepromiseswhichMrs。Ambrosehadmadehernieceshouldshestaywasaroomcutofffromtherestofthehouse,large,private——

  aroominwhichshecouldplay,read,think,defytheworld,afortressaswellasasanctuary。Rooms,sheknew,becamemorelikeworldsthanroomsattheageoftwenty-four。Herjudgmentwascorrect,andwhensheshutthedoorRachelenteredanenchantedplace,wherethepoetssangandthingsfellintotheirrightproportions。

  Somedaysafterthevisionofthehotelbynightshewassittingalone,sunkinanarm-chair,readingabrightly-coveredredvolumeletteredontheback_Works__of__Henrik__Ibsen_。Musicwasopenonthepiano,andbooksofmusicroseintwojaggedpillarsonthefloor;

  butforthemomentmusicwasdeserted。

  Farfromlookingboredorabsent-minded,hereyeswereconcentratedalmoststernlyuponthepage,andfromherbreathing,whichwasslowbutrepressed,itcouldbeseenthatherwholebodywasconstrainedbytheworkingofhermind。Atlastsheshutthebooksharply,layback,anddrewadeepbreath,expressiveofthewonderwhichalwaysmarksthetransitionfromtheimaginaryworldtotherealworld。

  “WhatIwanttoknow,“shesaidaloud,“isthis:Whatisthetruth?

  What’sthetruthofitall?“Shewasspeakingpartlyasherself,andpartlyastheheroineoftheplayshehadjustread。

  Thelandscapeoutside,becauseshehadseennothingbutprintforthespaceoftwohours,nowappearedamazinglysolidandclear,butalthoughthereweremenonthehillwashingthetrunksofolivetreeswithawhiteliquid,forthemomentsheherselfwasthemostvividthinginit——anheroicstatueinthemiddleoftheforeground,dominatingtheview。Ibsen’splaysalwaysleftherinthatcondition。

  Sheactedthemfordaysatatime,greatlytoHelen’samusement;

  andthenitwouldbeMeredith’sturnandshebecameDianaoftheCrossways。ButHelenwasawarethatitwasnotallacting,andthatsomesortofchangewastakingplaceinthehumanbeing。

  WhenRachelbecametiredoftherigidityofherposeonthebackofthechair,sheturnedround,slidcomfortablydownintoit,andgazedoutoverthefurniturethroughthewindowoppositewhichopenedonthegarden。HermindwanderedawayfromNora,butshewentonthinkingofthingsthatthebooksuggestedtoher,ofwomenandlife。

  Duringthethreemonthsshehadbeenhereshehadmadeupconsiderably,asHelenmeantsheshould,fortimespentininterminablewalksroundshelteredgardens,andthehouseholdgossipofheraunts。

  ButMrs。Ambrosewouldhavebeenthefirsttodisclaimanyinfluence,orindeedanybeliefthattoinfluencewaswithinherpower。

  Shesawherlessshy,andlessserious,whichwasalltothegood,andtheviolentleapsandtheinterminablemazeswhichhadledtothatresultwereusuallynotevenguessedatbyher。Talkwasthemedicineshetrustedto,talkabouteverything,talkthatwasfree,unguarded,andascandidasahabitoftalkingwithmenmadenaturalinherowncase。Nordidsheencouragethosehabitsofunselfishnessandamiabilityfoundeduponinsinceritywhichareputatsohighavalueinmixedhouseholdsofmenandwomen。

  ShedesiredthatRachelshouldthink,andforthisreasonofferedbooksanddiscouragedtooentireadependenceuponBachandBeethovenandWagner。ButwhenMrs。AmbrosewouldhavesuggestedDefoe,Maupassant,orsomespaciouschronicleoffamilylife,Rachelchosemodernbooks,booksinshinyyellowcovers,bookswithagreatdealofgildingontheback,whichweretokensinheraunt’seyesofharshwranglinganddisputesaboutfactswhichhadnosuchimportanceasthemodernsclaimedforthem。Butshedidnotinterfere。

  Rachelreadwhatshechose,readingwiththecuriousliteralnessofonetowhomwrittensentencesareunfamiliar,andhandlingwordsasthoughtheyweremadeofwood,separatelyofgreatimportance,andpossessedofshapesliketablesorchairs。Inthiswayshecametoconclusions,whichhadtoberemodelledaccordingtotheadventuresoftheday,andwereindeedrecastasliberallyasanyonecoulddesire,leavingalwaysasmallgrainofbeliefbehindthem。

  IbsenwassucceededbyanovelsuchasMrs。Ambrosedetested,whosepurposewastodistributetheguiltofawoman’sdownfallupontherightshoulders;apurposewhichwasachieved,ifthereader’sdiscomfortwereanyproofofit。Shethrewthebookdown,lookedoutofthewindow,turnedawayfromthewindow,andrelapsedintoanarm-chair。

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