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  SuddenlyMrs。Chailey,turningfromthesubjectofsheets,dismissingthementirely,clenchedherfistsonthetopofthem,andproclaimed,“Andyoucouldn’taskalivingcreaturetositwhereIsit!“

  Mrs。Chaileywasexpectedtositinacabinwhichwaslargeenough,buttooneartheboilers,sothatafterfiveminutesshecouldhearherheart“go,“shecomplained,puttingherhandaboveit,whichwasastateofthingsthatMrs。Vinrace,Rachel’smother,wouldneverhavedreamtofinflicting——Mrs。Vinrace,whokneweverysheetinherhouse,andexpectedofeveryonethebesttheycoulddo,butnomore。

  Itwastheeasiestthingintheworldtograntanotherroom,andtheproblemofsheetssimultaneouslyandmiraculouslysolveditself,thespotsandladdersnotbeingpastcureafterall,but——

  “Lies!Lies!Lies!“exclaimedthemistressindignantly,assheranupontothedeck。“What’stheuseoftellingmelies?“

  Inherangerthatawomanoffiftyshouldbehavelikeachildandcomecringingtoagirlbecauseshewantedtositwhereshehadnotleavetosit,shedidnotthinkoftheparticularcase,and,unpackinghermusic,soonforgotallabouttheoldwomanandhersheets。

  Mrs。Chaileyfoldedhersheets,butherexpressiontestifiedtoflatnesswithin。Theworldnolongercaredabouther,andashipwasnotahome。Whenthelampswerelityesterday,andthesailorswenttumblingaboveherhead,shehadcried;shewouldcrythisevening;shewouldcryto-morrow。Itwasnothome。Meanwhileshearrangedherornamentsintheroomwhichshehadwontooeasily。

  Theywerestrangeornamentstobringonaseavoyage——chinapugs,tea-setsinminiature,cupsstampedfloridlywiththearmsofthecityofBristol,hair-pinboxescrustedwithshamrock,antelopes’headsincolouredplaster,togetherwithamultitudeoftinyphotographs,representingdownrightworkmenintheirSundaybest,andwomenholdingwhitebabies。Buttherewasoneportraitinagiltframe,forwhichanailwasneeded,andbeforeshesoughtitMrs。Chaileyputonherspectaclesandreadwhatwaswrittenonaslipofpaperattheback:

  “ThispictureofhermistressisgiventoEmmaChaileybyWilloughbyVinraceingratitudeforthirtyyearsofdevotedservice。“

  Tearsobliteratedthewordsandtheheadofthenail。

  “SolongasIcandosomethingforyourfamily,“shewassaying,asshehammeredatit,whenavoicecalledmelodiouslyinthepassage:

  “Mrs。Chailey!Mrs。Chailey!“

  Chaileyinstantlytidiedherdress,composedherface,andopenedthedoor。

  “I’minafix,“saidMrs。Ambrose,whowasflushedandoutofbreath。

  “Youknowwhatgentlemenare。Thechairstoohigh——thetablestoolow——there’ssixinchesbetweenthefloorandthedoor。

  WhatIwant’sahammer,anoldquilt,andhaveyousuchathingasakitchentable?Anyhow,betweenus“——shenowflungopenthedoorofherhusband’ssittingroom,andrevealedRidleypacingupanddown,hisforeheadallwrinkled,andthecollarofhiscoatturnedup。

  “It’sasthoughthey’dtakenpainstotormentme!“hecried,stoppingdead。“DidIcomeonthisvoyageinordertocatchrheumatismandpneumonia?ReallyonemighthavecreditedVinracewithmoresense。Mydear,“Helenwasonherkneesunderatable,“youareonlymakingyourselfuntidy,andwehadmuchbetterrecognisethefactthatwearecondemnedtosixweeksofunspeakablemisery。

  Tocomeatallwastheheightoffolly,butnowthatwearehereI

  supposethatIcanfaceitlikeaman。Mydiseasesofcoursewillbeincreased——IfeelalreadyworsethanIdidyesterday,butwe’veonlyourselvestothank,andthechildrenhappily——“

  “Move!Move!Move!“criedHelen,chasinghimfromcornertocornerwithachairasthoughhewereanerranthen。

  “Outoftheway,Ridley,andinhalfanhouryou’llfinditready。“

  Sheturnedhimoutoftheroom,andtheycouldhearhimgroaningandswearingashewentalongthepassage。

  “Idaresayheisn’tverystrong,“saidMrs。Chailey,lookingatMrs。Ambrosecompassionately,asshehelpedtoshiftandcarry。

  “It’sbooks,“sighedHelen,liftinganarmfulofsadvolumesfromthefloortotheshelf。“Greekfrommorningtonight。

  IfeverMissRachelmarries,Chailey,praythatshemaymarryamanwhodoesn’tknowhisABC。“

  Thepreliminarydiscomfortsandharshnesses,whichgenerallymakethefirstdaysofaseavoyagesocheerlessandtryingtothetemper,beingsomehowlivedthrough,thesucceedingdayspassedpleasantlyenough。

  Octoberwaswelladvanced,butsteadilyburningwithawarmththatmadetheearlymonthsofthesummerappearveryyoungandcapricious。

  Greattractsoftheearthlaynowbeneaththeautumnsun,andthewholeofEngland,fromthebaldmoorstotheCornishrocks,waslitupfromdawntosunset,andshowedinstretchesofyellow,green,andpurple。

  Underthatilluminationeventheroofsofthegreattownsglittered。

  Inthousandsofsmallgardens,millionsofdark-redflowerswereblooming,untiltheoldladieswhohadtendedthemsocarefullycamedownthepathswiththeirscissors,snippedthroughtheirjuicystalks,andlaidthemuponcoldstoneledgesinthevillagechurch。

  Innumerablepartiesofpicnickerscominghomeatsunsetcried,“Wasthereeversuchadayasthis?““It’syou,“theyoungmenwhispered;

  “Oh,it’syou,“theyoungwomenreplied。Alloldpeopleandmanysickpeopleweredrawn,wereitonlyforafootortwo,intotheopenair,andprognosticatedpleasantthingsaboutthecourseoftheworld。

  Asfortheconfidencesandexpressionsoflovethatwereheardnotonlyincornfieldsbutinlamplitrooms,wherethewindowsopenedonthegarden,andmenwithcigarskissedwomenwithgreyhairs,theywerenottobecounted。Somesaidthattheskywasanemblemofthelifetocome。Long-tailedbirdsclatteredandscreamed,andcrossedfromwoodtowood,withgoldeneyesintheirplumage。

  Butwhileallthiswentonbyland,veryfewpeoplethoughtaboutthesea。Theytookitforgrantedthattheseawascalm;

  andtherewasnoneed,asthereisinmanyhouseswhenthecreepertapsonthebedroomwindows,forthecouplestomurmurbeforetheykiss,“Thinkoftheshipsto-night,“or“ThankHeaven,I’mnotthemaninthelighthouse!“Foralltheyimagined,theshipswhentheyvanishedonthesky-linedissolved,likesnowinwater。

  Thegrown-upview,indeed,wasnotmuchclearerthantheviewofthelittlecreaturesinbathingdrawerswhoweretrottingintothefoamallalongthecoastsofEngland,andscoopingupbucketsfullofwater。Theysawwhitesailsortuftsofsmokepassacrossthehorizon,andifyouhadsaidthatthesewerewaterspouts,orthepetalsofwhiteseaflowers,theywouldhaveagreed。

  Thepeopleinships,however,tookanequallysingularviewofEngland。

  Notonlydiditappeartothemtobeanisland,andaverysmallisland,butitwasashrinkingislandinwhichpeoplewereimprisoned。

  Onefiguredthemfirstswarmingaboutlikeaimlessants,andalmostpressingeachotherovertheedge;andthen,astheshipwithdrew,onefiguredthemmakingavainclamour,which,beingunheard,eitherceased,orroseintoabrawl。Finally,whentheshipwasoutofsightofland,itbecameplainthatthepeopleofEnglandwerecompletelymute。Thediseaseattackedotherpartsoftheearth;

  Europeshrank,Asiashrank,AfricaandAmericashrank,untilitseemeddoubtfulwhethertheshipwouldeverrunagainstanyofthosewrinkledlittlerocksagain。But,ontheotherhand,animmensedignityhaddescendeduponher;shewasaninhabitantofthegreatworld,whichhassofewinhabitants,travellingalldayacrossanemptyuniverse,withveilsdrawnbeforeherandbehind。Shewasmorelonelythanthecaravancrossingthedesert;shewasinfinitelymoremysterious,movingbyherownpowerandsustainedbyherownresources。Theseamightgiveherdeathorsomeunexampledjoy,andnonewouldknowofit。

  Shewasabridegoingforthtoherhusband,avirginunknownofmen;

  inhervigorandpurityshemightbelikenedtoallbeautifulthings,forasashipshehadalifeofherown。

  Indeediftheyhadnotbeenblessedintheirweather,onebluedaybeingbowledupafteranother,smooth,round,andflawless。

  Mrs。Ambrosewouldhavefounditverydull。Asitwas,shehadherembroideryframesetupondeck,withalittletablebyhersideonwhichlayopenablackvolumeofphilosophy。Shechoseathreadfromthevari-colouredtanglethatlayinherlap,andsewedredintothebarkofatree,oryellowintotherivertorrent。

  Shewasworkingatagreatdesignofatropicalriverrunningthroughatropicalforest,wherespotteddeerwouldeventuallybrowseuponmassesoffruit,bananas,oranges,andgiantpomegranates,whileatroopofnakednativeswhirleddartsintotheair。

  BetweenthestitchesshelookedtoonesideandreadasentenceabouttheRealityofMatter,ortheNatureofGood。Roundhermeninbluejerseyskneltandscrubbedtheboards,orleantovertherailsandwhistled,andnotfaroffMr。Peppersatcuttinguprootswithapenknife。Therestwereoccupiedinotherpartsoftheship:

  RidleyathisGreek——hehadneverfoundquartersmoretohisliking;

  Willoughbyathisdocuments,forheusedavoyagetoworkofarrearsofbusiness;andRachel——Helen,betweenhersentencesofphilosophy,wonderedsometimeswhatRachel_did_dowithherself?Shemeantvaguelytogoandsee。Theyhadscarcelyspokentwowordstoeachothersincethatfirstevening;theywerepolitewhentheymet,buttherehadbeennoconfidenceofanykind。Rachelseemedtogetonverywellwithherfather——muchbetter,Helenthought,thansheoughtto——andwasasreadytoletHelenaloneasHelenwastoletheralone。

  AtthatmomentRachelwassittinginherroomdoingabsolutelynothing。

  Whentheshipwasfullthisapartmentboresomemagnificenttitleandwastheresortofelderlysea-sickladieswholeftthedecktotheiryoungsters。Byvirtueofthepiano,andamessofbooksonthefloor,Rachelconsidereditherroom,andthereshewouldsitforhoursplayingverydifficultmusic,readingalittleGerman,oralittleEnglishwhenthemoodtookher,anddoing——asatthismoment——

  absolutelynothing。

  Thewayshehadbeeneducated,joinedtoafinenaturalindolence,wasofcoursepartlythereasonofit,forshehadbeeneducatedasthemajorityofwell-to-dogirlsinthelastpartofthenineteenthcenturywereeducated。Kindlydoctorsandgentleoldprofessorshadtaughthertherudimentsofabouttendifferentbranchesofknowledge,buttheywouldassoonhaveforcedhertogothroughonepieceofdrudgerythoroughlyastheywouldhavetoldherthatherhandsweredirty。

  Theonehourorthetwohoursweeklypassedverypleasantly,partlyowingtotheotherpupils,partlytothefactthatthewindowlookeduponthebackofashop,wherefiguresappearedagainsttheredwindowsinwinter,partlytotheaccidentsthatareboundtohappenwhenmorethantwopeopleareinthesameroomtogether。

  Buttherewasnosubjectintheworldwhichsheknewaccurately。

  Hermindwasinthestateofanintelligentman’sinthebeginningofthereignofQueenElizabeth;shewouldbelievepracticallyanythingshewastold,inventreasonsforanythingshesaid。

  Theshapeoftheearth,thehistoryoftheworld,howtrainsworked,ormoneywasinvested,whatlawswereinforce,whichpeoplewantedwhat,andwhytheywantedit,themostelementaryideaofasysteminmodernlife——noneofthishadbeenimpartedtoherbyanyofherprofessorsormistresses。Butthissystemofeducationhadonegreatadvantage。Itdidnotteachanything,butitputnoobstacleinthewayofanyrealtalentthatthepupilmightchancetohave。

  Rachel,beingmusical,wasallowedtolearnnothingbutmusic;

  shebecameafanaticaboutmusic。Alltheenergiesthatmighthavegoneintolanguages,science,orliterature,thatmighthavemadeherfriends,orshownhertheworld,pouredstraightintomusic。

  Findingherteachersinadequate,shehadpracticallytaughtherself。

  Attheageoftwenty-foursheknewasmuchaboutmusicasmostpeopledowhentheyarethirty;andcouldplayaswellasnatureallowedherto,which,asbecamedailymoreobvious,wasareallygenerousallowance。Ifthisonedefinitegiftwassurroundedbydreamsandideasofthemostextravagantandfoolishdescription,noonewasanythewiser。

  Hereducationbeingthusordinary,hercircumstanceswerenomoreoutofthecommon。Shewasanonlychildandhadneverbeenbulliedandlaughedatbybrothersandsisters。Hermotherhavingdiedwhenshewaseleven,twoaunts,thesistersofherfather,broughtherup,andtheylivedforthesakeoftheairinacomfortablehouseinRichmond。Shewasofcoursebroughtupwithexcessivecare,whichasachildwasforherhealth;asagirlandayoungwomanwasforwhatitseemsalmostcrudetocallhermorals。

  Untilquitelatelyshehadbeencompletelyignorantthatforwomensuchthingsexisted。Shegropedforknowledgeinoldbooks,andfounditinrepulsivechunks,butshedidnotnaturallycareforbooksandthusnevertroubledherheadaboutthecensorshipwhichwasexercisedfirstbyheraunts,laterbyherfather。

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