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  foundthewritersgenerallyunderadistressingsensethattheymuststartatalleventslikestory-tellers,anddeludetheyoungpersonsintothebeliefthattheyweregoingtobeinteresting。AsIlookedinatthiswindowfortwentyminutesbytheclock,Iaminapositiontoofferafriendlyremonstrance-notbearingonthisparticularpoint-tothedesignersandengraversofthepicturesinthosepublications。HavetheyconsideredtheawfulconsequenceslikelytoflowfromtheirrepresentationsofVirtue?Havetheyaskedthemselvesthequestion,whethertheterrificprospectofacquiringthatfearfulchubbinessofhead,unwieldinessofarm,feebledislocationofleg,crispinessofhair,andenormityofshirt-collar,whichtheyrepresentasinseparablefromGoodness,maynottendtoconfirmsensitivewaverers,inEvil?AmostimpressiveexampleifIhadbelieveditofwhataDustmanandaSailormaycometo,whentheymendtheirways,waspresentedtomeinthissameshop-window。Whentheywereleaningtheywereintimatefriendsagainstapost,drunkandreckless,withsurpassinglybadhatson,andtheirhairovertheirforeheads,theywereratherpicturesque,andlookedasiftheymightbeagreeablemen,iftheywouldnotbebeasts。But,whentheyhadgotovertheirbadpropensities,andwhen,asaconsequence,theirheadshadswelledalarmingly,theirhairhadgotsocurlythatitliftedtheirblown-outcheeksup,theircoat-cuffsweresolongthattheynevercoulddoanywork,andtheireyesweresowideopenthattheynevercoulddoanysleep,theypresentedaspectaclecalculatedtoplungeatimidnatureintothedepthsofInfamy。

  But,theclockthathadsodegeneratedsinceIsawitlast,admonishedmethatIhadstayedherelongenough;andIresumedmywalk。

  IhadnotgonefiftypacesalongthestreetwhenIwassuddenlybroughtupbythesightofamanwhogotoutofalittlephaetonatthedoctor’sdoor,andwentintothedoctor’shouse。Immediately,theairwasfilledwiththescentoftroddengrass,andtheperspectiveofyearsopened,andattheendofitwasalittlelikenessofthismankeepingawicket,andIsaid,’Godblessmysoul!JoeSpecks!’

  Throughmanychangesandmuchwork,IhadpreservedatendernessforthememoryofJoe,forasmuchaswehadmadetheacquaintanceofRoderickRandomtogether,andhadbelievedhimtobenoruffian,butaningenuousandengaginghero。ScorningtoasktheboyleftinthephaetonwhetheritwasreallyJoe,andscorningeventoreadthebrassplateonthedoor-sosurewasI-IrangthebellandinformedtheservantmaidthatastrangersoughtaudienceofMr。

  Specks。Intoaroom,halfsurgery,halfstudy,Iwasshowntoawaithiscoming,andIfoundit,byaseriesofelaborateaccidents,bestrewnwithtestimoniestoJoe。PortraitofMr。

  Specks,bustofMr。Specks,silvercupfromgratefulpatienttoMr。

  Specks,presentationsermonfromlocalclergyman,dedicationpoemfromlocalpoet,dinner-cardfromlocalnobleman,tractonbalanceofpowerfromlocalrefugee,inscribedHOMMAGEDEL’AUTEURE

  Whenmyoldschoolfellowcamein,andIinformedhimwithasmilethatIwasnotapatient,heseemedratheratalosstoperceiveanyreasonforsmilinginconnexionwiththatfact,andinquiredtowhatwashetoattributethehonour?Iaskedhimwithanothersmile,couldheremembermeatall?Hehadnothesaidthatpleasure。IwasbeginningtohavebutapooropinionofMr。

  Specks,whenhesaidreflectively,’Andyetthere’sasomethingtoo。’Uponthat,Isawaboyishlightinhiseyesthatlookedwell,andIaskedhimifhecouldinformme,asastrangerwhodesiredtoknowandhadnotthemeansofreferenceathand,whatthenameoftheyoungladywas,whomarriedMr。Random?Uponthat,hesaid’Narcissa,’and,afterstaringforamoment,calledmebymyname,shookmebythehand,andmeltedintoaroaroflaughter。

  ’Why,ofcourse,you’llrememberLucyGreen,’hesaid,afterwehadtalkedalittle。’Ofcourse,’saidI。’Whomdoyouthinkshemarried?’saidhe。’You?’Ihazarded。’Me,’saidSpecks,’andyoushallseeher。’SoIsawher,andshewasfat,andifallthehayintheworldhadbeenheapeduponher,itcouldscarcelyhavealteredherfacemorethanTimehadaltereditfrommyremembranceofthefacethathadoncelookeddownuponmeintothefragrantdungeonsofSeringapatam。ButwhenheryoungestchildcameinafterdinnerforIdinedwiththem,andwehadnoothercompanythanSpecks,Junior,Barrister-at-law,whowentawayassoonastheclothwasremoved,tolookaftertheyoungladytowhomhewasgoingtobemarriednextweek,Isawagain,inthatlittledaughter,thelittlefaceofthehayfield,unchanged,anditquitetouchedmyfoolishheart。Wetalkedimmensely,SpecksandMrs。

  Specks,andI,andwespokeofouroldselvesasthoughouroldselvesweredeadandgone,andindeed,indeedtheywere-deadandgoneastheplaying-fieldthathadbecomeawildernessofrustyiron,andthepropertyofS。E。R。

  Specks,however,illuminatedDullboroughwiththeraysofinterestthatIwantedandshouldotherwisehavemissedinit,andlinkeditspresenttoitspast,withahighlyagreeablechain。AndinSpecks’ssocietyIhadnewoccasiontoobservewhatIhadbeforenoticedinsimilarcommunicationsamongothermen。Alltheschoolfellowsandothersofold,whomIinquiredabout,hadeitherdonesuperlativelywellorsuperlativelyill-hadeitherbecomeuncertificatedbankrupts,orbeenfeloniousandgotthemselvestransported;orhadmadegreathitsinlife,anddonewonders。Andthisissocommonlythecase,thatInevercanimaginewhatbecomesofallthemediocrepeopleofpeople’syouth-especiallyconsideringthatwefindnolackofthespeciesinourmaturity。

  But,IdidnotpropoundthisdifficultytoSpecks,fornopauseintheconversationgavemeanoccasion。Nor,couldIdiscoveronesingleflawinthegooddoctor-whenhereadsthis,hewillreceiveinafriendlyspiritthepleasantlymeantrecord-exceptthathehadforgottenhisRoderickRandom,andthatheconfoundedStrapwithLieutenantHatchway;whoneverknewRandom,howsoeverintimatewithPickle。

  WhenIwentalonetotheRailwaytocatchmytrainatnightSpeckshadmeanttogowithme,butwasinopportunelycalledout,IwasinamorecharitablemoodwithDullboroughthanIhadbeenallday;

  andyetinmyheartIhadloveditalldaytoo。Ah!whowasIthatIshouldquarrelwiththetownforbeingchangedtome,whenI

  myselfhadcomeback,sochanged,toit!Allmyearlyreadingsandearlyimaginationsdatedfromthisplace,andItookthemawaysofullofinnocentconstructionandguilelessbelief,andIbroughtthembacksowornandtorn,somuchthewiserandsomuchtheworse!

  Someyearsago,atemporaryinabilitytosleep,referabletoadistressingimpression,causedmetowalkaboutthestreetsallnight,foraseriesofseveralnights。Thedisordermighthavetakenalongtimetoconquer,ifithadbeenfaintlyexperimentedoninbed;but,itwassoondefeatedbythebrisktreatmentofgettingupdirectlyafterlyingdown,andgoingout,andcominghometiredatsunrise。

  Inthecourseofthosenights,Ifinishedmyeducationinafairamateurexperienceofhouselessness。Myprincipalobjectbeingtogetthroughthenight,thepursuitofitbroughtmeintosympatheticrelationswithpeoplewhohavenootherobjecteverynightintheyear。

  ThemonthwasMarch,andtheweatherdamp,cloudy,andcold。Thesunnotrisingbeforehalf-pastfive,thenightperspectivelookedsufficientlylongathalf-pasttwelve:whichwasaboutmytimeforconfrontingit。

  Therestlessnessofagreatcity,andthewayinwhichittumblesandtossesbeforeitcangettosleep,formedoneofthefirstentertainmentsofferedtothecontemplationofushouselesspeople。

  Itlastedabouttwohours。Welostagreatdealofcompanionshipwhenthelatepublic-housesturnedtheirlampsout,andwhenthepotmenthrustthelastbrawlingdrunkardsintothestreet;butstrayvehiclesandstraypeoplewereleftus,afterthat。Ifwewereverylucky,apoliceman’srattlesprangandafrayturnedup;

  but,ingeneral,surprisinglylittleofthisdiversionwasprovided。ExceptintheHaymarket,whichistheworstkeptpartofLondon,andaboutKent-streetintheBorough,andalongaportionofthelineoftheOldKent-road,thepeacewasseldomviolentlybroken。But,itwasalwaysthecasethatLondon,asifinimitationofindividualcitizensbelongingtoit,hadexpiringfitsandstartsofrestlessness。Afterallseemedquiet,ifonecabrattledby,half-a-dozenwouldsurelyfollow;andHouselessnessevenobservedthatintoxicatedpeopleappearedtobemagneticallyattractedtowardseachother;sothatweknewwhenwesawonedrunkenobjectstaggeringagainsttheshuttersofashop,thatanotherdrunkenobjectwouldstaggerupbeforefiveminuteswereout,tofraterniseorfightwithit。Whenwemadeadivergencefromtheregularspeciesofdrunkard,thethin-armed,puff-faced,leaden-lippedgin-drinker,andencounteredararerspecimenofamoredecentappearance,fiftytoonebutthatspecimenwasdressedinsoiledmourning。Asthestreetexperienceinthenight,sothestreetexperienceintheday;thecommonfolkwhocomeunexpectedlyintoalittleproperty,comeunexpectedlyintoadealofliquor。

  Atlengththeseflickeringsparkswoulddieaway,wornout-thelastveritablesparksofwakinglifetrailedfromsomelatepiemanorhot-potatoman-andLondonwouldsinktorest。Andthentheyearningofthehouselessmindwouldbeforanysignofcompany,anylightedplace,anymovement,anythingsuggestiveofanyonebeingup-nay,evensomuchasawake,forthehouselesseyelookedoutforlightsinwindows。

  Walkingthestreetsunderthepatteringrain,Houselessnesswouldwalkandwalkandwalk,seeingnothingbuttheinterminabletangleofstreets,saveatacorner,hereandthere,twopolicemeninconversation,orthesergeantorinspectorlookingafterhismen。

  Nowandtheninthenight-butrarely-Houselessnesswouldbecomeawareofafurtiveheadpeeringoutofadoorwayafewyardsbeforehim,and,comingupwiththehead,wouldfindamanstandingboltuprighttokeepwithinthedoorway’sshadow,andevidentlyintentuponnoparticularservicetosociety。Underakindoffascination,andinaghostlysilencesuitabletothetime,Houselessnessandthisgentlemanwouldeyeoneanotherfromheadtofoot,andso,withoutexchangeofspeech,part,mutuallysuspicious。Drip,drip,drip,fromledgeandcoping,splashfrompipesandwater-spouts,andby-and-bythehouselessshadowwouldfalluponthestonesthatpavethewaytoWaterloo-bridge;itbeinginthehouselessmindtohaveahalfpennyworthofexcuseforsaying’Good-night’tothetoll-keeper,andcatchingaglimpseofhisfire。Agoodfireandagoodgreat-coatandagoodwoollenneck-shawl,werecomfortablethingstoseeinconjunctionwiththetoll-keeper;alsohisbriskwakefulnesswasexcellentcompanywhenherattledthechangeofhalfpencedownuponthatmetaltableofhis,likeamanwhodefiedthenight,withallitssorrowfulthoughts,anddidn’tcareforthecomingofdawn。Therewasneedofencouragementonthethresholdofthebridge,forthebridgewasdreary。Thechopped-upmurderedman,hadnotbeenloweredwitharopeovertheparapetwhenthosenightswere;hewasalive,andsleptthenquietlyenoughmostlikely,andundisturbedbyanydreamofwherehewastocome。Buttheriverhadanawfullook,thebuildingsonthebanksweremuffledinblackshrouds,andthereflectedlightsseemedtooriginatedeepinthewater,asifthespectresofsuicideswereholdingthemtoshowwheretheywentdown。Thewildmoonandcloudswereasrestlessasanevilconscienceinatumbledbed,andtheveryshadowoftheimmensityofLondonseemedtolieoppressivelyupontheriver。

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