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  “Poorlittlechap,“saidKatharine,andhertonewasatriflehuskierthanusual。“HowfondpeoplehavealwaysbeenofAdriance!Nowtellmethelatestnewsofhim。Ihaven’theard,exceptthroughthepress,forayearormore。HewasinAlgeriathen,inthevalleyoftheChelif,ridinghorsebacknightanddayinanArabiancostume,andinhisusualenthusiasticfashionhehadquitemadeuphismindtoadopttheMohammedanfaithandbecomeasnearlyanArabaspossible。Howmanycountriesandfaithshasbeadopted,Iwonder?ProbablyhewasplayingArabtohimselfallthetime。Irememberhewasasixteenth-centurydukeinFlorenceonceforweekstogether。“

  “Oh,that’sAdriance,“chuckledEverett。“Heishimselfbarelylongenoughtowritechecksandbemeasuredforhisclothes。Ididn’thearfromhimwhilehewasanArab;Imissedthat。“

  “HewaswritinganAlgeriansuiteforthepianothen;itmustbeinthepublisher’shandsbythistime。Ihavebeentooilltoanswerhisletter,andhavelosttouchwithhim。“

  Everettdrewaletterfromhispocket。“Thiscameaboutamonthago。It’schieflyabouthisnewopera,whichistobebroughtoutinLondonnextwinter。Readitatyourleisure。“

  “IthinkIshallkeepitasahostage,sothatImaybesureyouwillcomeagain。NowIwantyoutoplayforme。Whateveryoulike;butifthereisanythingnewintheworld,inmercyletmehearit。ForninemonthsIhaveheardnothingbut’TheBaggageCoachAhead’and’SheIsMyBaby’sMother。’“

  Hesatdownatthepiano,andKatharinesatnearhim,absorbedinhisremarkablephysicallikenesstohisbrotherandtryingtodiscoverinjustwhatitconsisted。Shetoldherselfthatitwasverymuchasthoughasculptor’sfinishedworkhadbeenrudelycopiedinwood。HewasofalargerbuildthanAdriance,andhisshoulderswerebroadandheavy,whilethoseofhisbrotherwereslenderandrathergirlish。Hisfacewasofthesameovalmold,butitwasgrayanddarkenedaboutthemouthbycontinualshaving。HiseyeswereofthesameinconstantAprilcolor,buttheywerereflectiveandratherdull;whileAdriance’swerealwayspointsofhighlight,andalwaysmeaninganotherthingthanthethingtheymeantyesterday。Butitwashardtoseewhythisearnestmanshouldsocontinuallysuggestthatlyric,youthfulfacethatwasasgayashiswasgrave。ForAdriance,thoughhewastenyearstheelder,andthoughhishairwasstreakedwithsilver,hadthefaceofaboyoftwenty,somobilethatittoldhisthoughtsbeforehecouldputthemintowords。

  Acontralto,famousfortheextravaganceofhervocalmethodsandofheraffections,hadoncesaidtohimthattheshepherdboyswhosangintheValeofTempemustcertainlyhavelookedlikeyoungHilgarde;andthecomparisonhadbeenappropriatedbyahundredshyerwomenwhopreferredtoquote。

  AsEverettsatsmokingontheverandaoftheInterOceanHousethatnight,hewasavictimtorandomrecollections。HisinfatuationforKatharineGaylord,visionaryasitwas,hadbeenthemostseriousofhisboyishloveaffairs,andhadlongdisturbedhisbachelordreams。Hewaspainfullytimidineverythingrelatingtotheemotions,andhishurthadwithdrawnhimfromthesocietyofwomen。Thefactthatitwasallsodoneanddeadandfarbehindhim,andthatthewomanhadlivedherlifeoutsincethen,gavehimanoppressivesenseofageandloss。Hebethoughthimselfofsomethinghehadreadabout“sittingbythehearthandrememberingthefacesofwomenwithoutdesire,“andfelthimselfanoctogenarian。

  Herememberedhowbitterandmorosehehadgrownduringhisstayathisbrother’sstudiowhenKatharineGaylordwasworkingthere,andhowhehadwoundedAdrianceonthenightofhislastconcertinNewYork。HehadsatthereintheboxwhilehisbrotherandKatharinewerecalledbackagainandagainafterthelastnumber,watchingtherosesgoupoverthefootlightsuntiltheywerestackedhalfashighasthepiano,brooding,inhissullenboy’sheart,uponthepridethosetwofeltineachother’swork——spurringeachothertotheirbestandbeautifullycontendinginsong。Thefootlightshadseemedahard,glitteringlinedrawnsharplybetweentheirlifeandhis;acircleofflamesetaboutthosesplendidchildrenofgenius。HewalkedbacktohishotelaloneandsatinhiswindowstaringoutonMadisonSquareuntillongaftermidnight,resolvingtobeatnomoreatdoorsthathecouldneverenterandrealizingmorekeenlythaneverbeforehowfarthisgloriousworldofbeautifulcreationslayfromthepathsofmenlikehimself。Hetoldhimselfthathehadincommonwiththiswomanonlythebaserusesoflife。

  Everett’sweekinCheyennestretchedtothree,andhesawnoprospectofreleaseexceptthroughthethinghedreaded。Thebright,windydaysoftheWyomingautumnpassedswiftly。Lettersandtelegramscameurginghimtohastenhistriptothecoast,butheresolutelypostponedhisbusinessengagements。ThemorningshespentononeofCharleyGaylord’sponies,orfishinginthemountains,andintheeveningshesatinhisroomwritinglettersorreading。Intheafternoonhewasusuallyathispostofduty。Destiny,hereflected,seemstohaveverypositivenotionsaboutthesortofpartswearefittedtoplay。Thescenechangesandthecompensationvaries,butintheendweusuallyfindthatwehaveplayedthesameclassofbusinessfromfirsttolast。Everetthadbeenastopgapallhislife。Herememberedgoingthroughalookingglasslabyrinthwhenhewasaboyandtryinggalleryaftergallery,onlyateveryturntobumphisnoseagainsthisownface——which,indeed,wasnothisown,buthisbrother’s。Nomatterwhathismission,eastorwest,bylandorsea,hewassuretofindhimselfemployedinhisbrother’sbusiness,oneofthetributaryliveswhichhelpedtoswelltheshiningcurrentofAdrianceHilgarde’s。Itwasnotthefirsttimethathisdutyhadbeentocomfort,asbesthecould,oneofthebrokenthingshisbrother’simperiousspeedhadcastasideandforgotten。Hemadenoattempttoanalyzethesituationortostateitinexactterms;buthefeltKatharineGaylord’sneedforhim,andheaccepteditasacommissionfromhisbrothertohelpthiswomantodie。Daybydayhefeltherdemandsonhimgrowmoreimperious,herneedforhimgrowmoreacuteandpositive;

  anddaybydayhefeltthatinhispeculiarrelationtoherhisownindividualityplayedasmallerandsmallerpart。Hispowertoministertohercomfort,hesaw,laysolelyinhislinkwithhisbrother’slife。Heunderstoodallthathisphysicalresemblancemeanttoher。Heknewthatshesatbyhimalwayswatchingforsomecommontrickofgesture,somefamiliarplayofexpression,someillusionoflightandshadow,inwhichheshouldseemwhollyAdriance。Heknewthatsheliveduponthisandthatherdiseasefeduponit;thatitsentshuddersofremembrancethroughherandthatintheexhaustionwhichfollowedthisturmoilofherdyingsenses,shesleptdeepandsweetanddreamedofyouthandartanddaysinacertainoldFlorentinegarden,andnotofbitternessanddeath。

  Thequestionwhichmostperplexedhimwas,“HowmuchshallI

  know?Howmuchdoesshewishmetoknow?“AfewdaysafterhisfirstmeetingwithKatharineGaylord,hehadcabledhisbrothertowriteher。Hehadmerelysaidthatshewasmortallyill;hecoulddependonAdriancetosaytherightthing——thatwasapartofhisgift。Adriancealwayssaidnotonlytherightthing,buttheopportune,graceful,exquisitething。Hisphrasestookthecolorofthemomentandthethen-presentcondition,sothattheyneversavoredofperfunctorycomplimentorfrequentusage。Healwayscaughtthelyricessenceofthemoment,thepoeticsuggestionofeverysituation。Moreover,heusuallydidtherightthing,theopportune,graceful,exquisitething——except,whenhedidverycruelthings——bentuponmakingpeoplehappywhentheirexistencetouchedhis,justasheinsistedthathismaterialenvironmentshouldbebeautiful;lavishinguponthosenearhimallthewarmthandradianceofhisrichnature,allthehomageofthepoetandtroubadour,and,whentheywerenolongernear,forgetting——forthatalsowasapartofAdriance’sgift。

  ThreeweeksafterEveretthadsenthiscable,whenhemadehisdailycallatthegailypaintedranchhouse,hefoundKatharinelaughinglikeaschoolgirl。“Haveyoueverthought,“

  shesaid,asheenteredthemusicroom,“howmuchtheseseancesofoursarelikeHeine’s’FlorentineNights,’exceptthatIdon’tgiveyouanopportunitytomonopolizetheconversationasHeinedid?“Sheheldhishandlongerthanusual,asshegreetedhim,andlookedsearchinglyupintohisface。“Youarethekindestmanliving;thekindest,“sheadded,softly。

  Everett’sgrayfacecoloredfaintlyashedrewhishandaway,forhefeltthatthistimeshewaslookingathimandnotatawhimsicalcaricatureofhisbrother。“Why,whathaveIdonenow?“heasked,lamely。“Ican’trememberhavingsentyouanystalecandyorchampagnesinceyesterday。“

  Shedrewaletterwithaforeignpostmarkfrombetweentheleavesofabookandhelditout,smiling。“Yougothimtowriteit。Don’tsayyoudidn’t,foritcamedirect,yousee,andthelastaddressIgavehimwasaplaceinFlorida。ThisdeedshallberememberedofyouwhenIamwiththejustinParadise。

  Butonethingyoudidnotaskhimtodo,foryoudidn’tknowaboutit。Hehassentmehislatestwork,thenewsonata,themostambitiousthinghehaseverdone,andyouaretoplayitformedirectly,thoughitlookshorriblyintricate。Butfirstfortheletter;Ithinkyouwouldbetterreaditaloudtome。“

  Everettsatdowninalowchairfacingthewindowseatinwhichshereclinedwithabarricadeofpillowsbehindher。Heopenedtheletter,hislasheshalf-veilinghiskindeyes,andsawtohissatisfactionthatitwasalongone——wonderfullytactfulandtender,evenforAdriance,whowastenderwithhisvaletandhisstableboy,withhisoldgondolierandthebeggar-womenwhoprayedtothesaintsforhim。

  TheletterwasfromGranada,writtenintheAlhambra,ashesatbythefountainofthePatiodiLindaraxa。Theairwasheavy,withthewarmfragranceoftheSouthandfullofthesoundofsplashing,runningwater,asithadbeeninacertainoldgardeninFlorence,longago。Theskywasonegreatturquoise,heateduntilitglowed。ThewonderfulMoorisharchesthrewgracefulblueshadowsallabouthim。Hehadsketchedanoutlineofthemonthemarginofhisnotepaper。ThesubtletiesofArabicdecorationhadcastanunholyspelloverhim,andthebrutalexaggerationsofGothicartwereabaddream,easilyforgotten。

  TheAlhambraitselfhad,fromthefirst,seemedperfectlyfamiliartohim,andheknewthathemusthavetrodthatcourt,sleekandbrownandobsequious,centuriesbeforeFerdinandrodeintoAndalusia。Theletterwasfullofconfidencesabouthiswork,anddelicateallusionstotheiroldhappydaysofstudyandcomradeship,andofherownwork,stillsowarmlyrememberedandappreciativelydiscussedeverywherehewent。

  AsEverettfoldedtheletterhefeltthatAdriancehaddivinedthethingneededandhadrisentoitinhisownwonderfulway。Theletterwasconsistentlyegotisticalandseemedtohimevenatriflepatronizing,yetitwasjustwhatshehadwanted。Astrongrealizationofhisbrother’scharmandintensityandpowercameoverhim;hefeltthebreathofthatwhirlwindofflameinwhichAdriancepassed,consumingallinhispath,andhimselfevenmoreresolutelythanheconsumedothers。Thenhelookeddownatthiswhite,burnt-outbrandthatlaybeforehim。

  “Likehim,isn’tit?“shesaid,quietly。

  “IthinkIcanscarcelyanswerhisletter,butwhenyouseehimnextyoucandothatforme。Iwantyoutotellhimmanythingsforme,yettheycanallbesummedupinthis:Iwanthimtogrowwhollyintohisbestandgreatestself,evenatthecostofthedearboyishnessthatishalfhischarmtoyouandme。Doyouunderstandme?“

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