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  Inoddedandwenton。

  Iwentontoourchamber,forthereI

  thoughtthatIshouldfindOtomie。

  Shesatinitalone,coldandbeautifulasthoughshehadbeenfashionedinmarble。

  ’Ihaveburiedhimwiththebonesofhisbrethrenandhisforefathers,’shesaid,answeringthequestionthatmyeyesasked。

  ’Itseemedbestthatyoushouldseehimnomore,lestyourheartshouldbreak。’

  ’Itiswell,’Ianswered;’butmyheartisbrokenalready。’

  ’Isthemurdererdead?’shesaidpresentlyintheverywordsofDiaz。

  ’Heisdead。’

  ’How?’

  Itoldherinfewwords。

  ’Youshouldhaveslainhimyourself;ourson’sbloodisnotavenged。’

  ’Ishouldhaveslainhim,butinthathourIdidnotseekvengeance,Iwatcheditfallfromheaven,andwascontent。

  Perchanceitisbestso。

  Theseekingofvengeancehasbroughtallmysorrowsuponme;vengeancebelongstoGodandnottoman,asI

  havelearnedtoolate。’

  ’Idonotthinkso,’saidOtomie,andthelookuponherfacewasthatlookwhichIhadseenwhenshesmotetheTlascalan,whenshetauntedMarina,andwhenshedanceduponthepyramid,theleaderofthesacrifice。

  ’HadIbeeninyourplace,Iwouldhavekilledhimbyinches。

  WhenIhaddonewithhim,thenthedevilsmightbegin,notbefore。

  Butitisofnoaccount;everythingisdonewith,allaredead,andmyheartwiththem。

  Noweat,foryouareweary。’

  SoIate,andafterwardsIcastmyselfuponthebedandslept。

  InthedarknessIheardthevoiceofOtomiethatsaid,’Awake,I

  wouldspeakwithyou,’andtherewasthatabouthervoicewhichstirredmefrommyheavysleep。

  ’Speakon,’Isaid。

  ’Whereareyou,Otomie?’

  ’Seatedatyourside。

  Icannotrest,soIamseatedhere。

  Listen。

  Many,manyyearsagowemet,whenyouwerebroughtbyGuatemocfromTobasco。

  Ah!welldoIremembermyfirstsightofyou,theTeule,inthecourtofmyfatherMontezuma,atChapoltepec。

  IlovedyouthenasIhavelovedyoueversince。

  AtleastIhavenevergoneastrayafterstrangegods,’andshelaughedbitterly。

  ’Whydoyoutalkofthesethings,Otomie?’Iasked。

  ’Becauseitismyfancytodoso。

  Cannotyousparemeonehourfromyoursleep,whohavesparedyousomany?

  Yourememberhowyouscornedme——oh!IthoughtIshouldhavediedofshamewhen,afterI

  hadcausedmyselftobegiventoyouaswife,thewifeofTezcat,youtoldmeofthemaidacrosstheseas,thatLilymaidwhosetokenisstillsetuponyourfinger。

  ButIlivedthroughitandIlovedyouthebetterforyourhonesty,andthenyouknowtherest。

  IwonyoubecauseIwasbraveandlayatyoursideuponthestoneofsacrifice,whereyoukissedmeandtoldmethatyoulovedme。

  Butyouneverlovedme,nottruly,allthewhileyouwerethinkingoftheLilymaid。

  Iknewitthen,asIknowitnow,thoughItriedtodeceivemyself。

  Iwasbeautifulinthosedaysandthisissomethingwithaman。

  Iwasfaithfulandthatismore,andonceortwiceyouthoughtthatyoulovedme。

  NowIwishthatthoseTeuleshadcomeanhourlater,andwehaddiedtogetherthereuponthestone,thatisIwishitformyownsake,notforyours。

  Thenweescapedandthegreatstrugglecame。

  ItoldyouthenthatI

  understooditall。

  Youhadkissedmeonthestoneofsacrifice,butinthatmomentyouwereasonedead;whenyoucamebacktolife,itwasotherwise。

  Butfortunetookthegameoutofyourhandsandyoumarriedme,andsworeanoathtome,andthisoathyouhavekeptfaithfully。

  Youmarriedmebutyoudidnotknowwhomyoumarried;youthoughtmebeautiful,andsweet,andtrue,andallthesethingsIwas,butyoudidnotunderstandthatIwasfarapartfromyou,thatIwasstillasavageasmyforefathershadbeen。

  YouthoughtthatIhadlearnedyourways,perchanceevenyouthoughtthatIreverencedyourGod,asforyoursakeIhavestriventodo,butallthewhileIhavefollowedthewaysofmyownpeopleandIcouldnotquiteforgetmyowngods,orattheleasttheywouldnotsufferme,theirservant,toescapethem。

  ForyearsandyearsIputthemfromme,butatlasttheywereavengedandmyheartmasteredme,orrathertheymasteredme,forIknewnothingofwhatIdidsomefewnightssince,whenIcelebratedthesacrificetoHuitzelandyousawmeattheancientrites。

  ’AlltheseyearsyouhadbeentruetomeandIhadborneyouchildrenwhomyouloved;butyoulovedthemfortheirownsake,notformine,indeed,atheartyouhatedtheIndianbloodthatwasmixedintheirveinswithyours。

  Mealsoyoulovedinacertainfashionandthishalfloveofyoursdrovemewellnighmad;suchasitwas,itdiedwhenyousawmedistraughtandcelebratingtheritesofmyforefathersontheteocalliyonder,andyouknewmeforwhatIam,asavage。

  Andnowthechildrenwholinkedustogetheraredead——onebyonetheydiedinthiswayandinthat,forthecursewhichfollowsmyblooddescendeduponthem——andyourloveformeisdeadwiththem。

  Ialoneremainalive,amonumentofpastdays,andIdiealso。

  ’Nay,besilent;listentome,formytimeisshort。

  Whenyoubademecallyou“husband“nolonger,thenIknewthatitwasfinished。

  Iobeyyou,Iputyoufromme,youarenomoremyhusband,andsoonIshallceasetobeyourwife;still,Teule,Iprayyoulistentome。

  Nowitseemstoyouinyoursorrow,thatyourdaysaredoneandthatthereisnohappinessleftforyou。

  Thisisnotso。

  Youarestillbutamaninthebeginningofmiddleage,andyouareyetstrong。

  Youwillescapefromthisruinedland,andwhenyoushakethedustofitoffyourfeetitscurseshallfallfromyou;youwillreturntoyourownplace,andthereyouwillfindonewhohasawaitedyourcomingformanyyears。

  Therethesavagewomanwhomyoumatedwith,theprincessofafallenhouse,willbecomebutafantasticmemorytoyou,andallthesestrangeeventfulyearswillbeasamidnightdream。

  Onlyyourloveforthedeadchildrenwillalwaysremain,theseyoumustalwayslovebydayandbynight,andthedesireofthem,thatdesireforthedeadthanwhichthereisnothingmoreterrible,shallfollowyoutoyourgrave,andIamgladthatitshouldbeso,forIwastheirmotherandsomethoughtofmemustgowiththem。

  ThisalonetheLilymaidhaslefttome,andthereonlyIshallprevailagainsther,for,Teule,nochildofhersshalllivetorobyourheartofthememoryofthoseIgaveyou。

  ’Oh!Ihavewatchedyoubydayandbynight:Ihaveseenthelonginginyoureyesforafacewhichyouhavelostandforthelandofyouryouth。

  Behappy,youshallgainboth,forthestruggleisendedandtheLilymaidhasbeentoostrongforme。

  I

  growweakandIhavelittlemoretosay。

  Wepart,andperhapsforever,forwhatistherebetweenussavethesoulsofthosedeadsonsofours?

  Sinceyoudesiremenomore,thatImaymakeourseveranceperfect,nowinthehourofmydeathIrenounceyourgodsandIseekmyown,thoughIthinkthatIloveyoursandhatethoseofmypeople。

  Isthereanycommunionbetweenthem?

  Wepart,andperchanceforever,yetIprayofyoutothinkofmekindly,forI

  havelovedyouandIloveyou;Iwasthemotherofyourchildren,whombeingChristian,youwillmeetagain。

  Iloveyounowandforalways。

  Iamgladtohavelivedbecauseyoukissedmeonthestoneofsacrifice,andafterwardsIboreyousons。

  Theyareyoursandnotmine;itseemstomenowthatIonlycaredforthembecausetheywereyours,andtheylovedyouandnotme。

  Takethem——taketheirspiritsasyouhavetakeneverything。

  Yousworethatdeathaloneshouldseverus,andyouhavekeptyouroathintheletterandinthethought。

  ButnowIgototheHousesoftheSuntoseekmyownpeople,andtoyou,Teule,withwhomIhavelivedmanyyearsandseenmuchsorrow,butwhomIwillnolongercallhusband,sinceyouforbademesotodo,Isay,makenomockofmetotheLilymaid。

  Speakofmetoheraslittleasyoumay——behappyand——

  farewell!’

  Nowasshespokeevermorefaintly,andIlistenedbewildered,thelightofdawngrewslowlyinthechamber。

  ItgatheredonthewhiteshapeofOtomieseatedinachairhardbythebed,andIsawthatherarmshungdownandthatherheadwasrestingonthebackofthechair。

  NowIsprangupandpeeredintoherface。

  Itwaswhiteandcold,andIcouldfeelnobreathuponherlips。

  Iseizedherhand,thatalsowascold。

  Ispokeintoherear,Ikissedherbrow,butshedidnotmovenoranswer。

  Thelightgrewquickly,andnowIsawall。

  Otomiewasdead,andbyherownact。

  Thiswasthemannerofherdeath。

  ShehaddrunkofapoisonofwhichtheIndianshavethesecret,apoisonthatworksslowlyandwithoutpain,leavingtheminduncloudedtotheend。

  Itwaswhileherlifewasfadingfromherthatshehadspokentomethussadlyandbitterly。

  Isatuponthebedandgazedather。

  Ididnotweep,formytearsweredone,andasIhavesaid,whateverImightfeelnothingcouldbreakmycalmanymore。

  AndasIgazedagreattendernessandsorrowtookholdofme,andIlovedOtomiebetternowthatshewasdeadbeforemethaneverIhaddoneinherlifedays,andthisissayingmuch。

  Irememberedherinthegloryofheryouthasshewasinthecourtofherroyalfather,Irememberedthelookwhichshehadgivenmewhenshesteppedtomysideuponthestoneofsacrifice,andthatotherlookwhenshedefiedCuitlahuatheemperor,whowouldhaveslainme。

  OncemoreIseemedtohearhercryofbittersorrowassheuncoveredthebodyofthedeadbabeourfirstborn,andtoseeherswordinhandstandingovertheTlascalan。

  ManythingscamebacktomeinthatsadhourofdawnwhileI

  watchedbythecorpseofOtomie。

  Therewastruthinherwords,I

  hadneverforgottenmyfirstloveandoftenIdesiredtoseeherface。

  ButitwasnottruetosaythatIhadnoloveforOtomie。

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