JustinhadoncecomebacktoEdgewood,anditwasthebitterestdropinhercupofbitternessthatshewasspendingthatwinterinBerwick(where,sotheneighbourstoldhim,shewasagreatfavouriteinsociety,andwasreceivingmuchattentionfromgentlemen),sothatshehadneverheardofhisvisituntilthespringhadcomeagain。Partedfriendsdidnotkeepupwithoneanother’saffairsbymeansofepistolarycommunication,inthosedays,inEdgewood;itwasnotthecustom。SpokenwordsweredifficultenoughtoJustinPeabody,andwrittenwordswerequiteimpossible,especiallyiftheyweretobeusedtodefinehishalf—
consciousdesiresandhisfluctuationsofwill,ortorecounthisdisappointmentsanddiscouragementsandmistakes。
CHAPTERIV
ItwasSaturdayafternoon,thetwenty—fourthofDecember,andthewearysistersoftheDorcasbandrosefromtheirbruisedkneesandremovedtheirlittlestoresofcarpet—tacksfromtheirmouths。
Thiswasafemininecustomoflongstanding,andasnovillagedressmakerhadeverdiedofpinsinthedigestiveorgans,sowerenosymptomsofcarpet—tackseverdiscoveredinanyDorcas,livingordead。Menwonderedatthehabitandreviledit,butstoodconfoundedinthepresenceofitsindubitableharmlessness。
Theredingraincarpetwasindeedverywarm,beautiful,andcomfortingtotheeye,andthesistersweresuitablygratefultoProvidence,anddevoutlythankfultothemselves,thattheyhadbeenenabledtobuy,sew,andlaysomanyyardsofit。Butastheystoodlookingattheircompletedtask,itwascruellytruethattherewasmuchlefttodo。
Theaisleshadbeenpainteddarkbrownoneachsideoftheredstripsleadingfromthedoorstothepulpit,buttherestofthechurchfloorwas\"athingofshredsandpatches。\"Eachmemberofthecarpetcommitteehadpaid(asamatterofpride,howeverillshecouldaffordit)threedollarsandsixty—sevencentsforsufficientcarpettolayinherownpew;butthesebrilliantspotsofconscientiouseffortonlymadethestretchesofbare,unpaintedfloormoreevident。Andthatwasnotall。Tracesofformerspasmodicandindividualeffortsdesecratedthepresentideals。
Thedoctor’spewhadapinkandblueBrusselsonit;thelawyer’s,stripedstair—carpeting;theBrownsfromDeerwandersportedstrawmattingandwerenotabashed;whiletheGreens,theWhites,theBlacksandtheGreysdisplayedfloorcoveringsasdissimilarastheirnames。
\"Inevernoticeditbefore!\"exclaimedMariaSharp,\"butitain’tChristian,thatfloor!it’sheathenishandungodly!\"
\"Formercy’ssake,don’tswear,Maria,\"saidMrs。Millernervously。
\"We’vedoneourbest,andlet’shopethatfolkswilllookupandnotdown。Itisn’tasiftheyweregoingtosetinthechandelier;
they’llhavesomethingelsetothinkaboutwhenNancygetsherhemlockbranchesandwhitecarnationsinthepulpitvases。ThismorningmyAbnerpickedofftwopinksfromtheplantI’vebeennursinginmydining—roomforweeks,tryingtomakeitbloomforChristmas。Islappedhishandsgood,andit’sbeenhauntingmeeversincetothinkIhadtocorrecthimthedaybeforeChristmas——
Come,Lobelia,wemustbehurrying!\"
\"Onethingcomfortsme,\"exclaimedtheWidowBuzzell,asshetookherhammerandtackspreparatorytoleaving;\"andthatisthattheMethodistmeetin’—houseain’tgotanycarpetatall。\"
\"Mrs。Buzzell,Mrs。Buzzell!\"interruptedtheminister’swife,withasmilethattookthestingfromherspeech。\"ItwillbelikepunishinglittleAbnerMiller;ifwethinkthosethoughtsonChristmasEve,weshallsurelybehauntedafterward。\"
\"Andanyway,\"interjectedMariaSharp,whoalwayssavedthesituation,\"youjustwaitandseeiftheMethodistsdon’tsaythey’dratherhavenocarpetatallthanhaveonethatdon’tgoalloverthefloor。Iknow’em!\"andsheputonherhoodandblanket—
shawlasshegaveonelastfondlookattheimprovements。
\"I’mgoinghometogetmysupper,andcomebackafterwardtolaythecarpetinmypew;mybeansandbrownbreadwillbejustrightbynow,andperhapsitwillrestmealittle;besides,Imustfeed’Zekiel。\"
AsNancyWentworthspoke,shesatinacornerofherownmodestrearseat,lookingalittlepaleandtired。Herwavingdarkhairhadloosenedandfallenoverhercheeks,andhereyesgleamedfromunderitwistfully。NowadaysNancy’seyesneverhadthesparkleofgazingintothefuture,butalwaystheliquidsoftnessthatcomesfromlookingbackward。
\"Thechurchwillberealcoldbythen,Nancy,\"objectedMrs。
Burbank。——\"Good—night,Mrs。Baxter。\"
\"Oh,no!Ishallbebackbyhalf—pastsix,andIshallnotworklong。DoyouknowwhatIbelieveI’lldo,Mrs。Burbank,justthroughtheholidays?ChristmasandNewYear’sbothcomingonSundaythisyear,there’llbeagreatmanyouttochurch,notcountingthestrangersthat’llcometothespecialserviceto—
morrow。Insteadofputtingdownmyownpewcarpetthat’llneverbenoticedhereintheback,I’lllayitintheoldPeabodypew,fortheredaisle—stripleadsstraightuptoit;theministersalwaysgoupthatside,anditdoeslookforlorn。\"
\"That’sso!Andallthemorebecausemypew,that’sexactlyoppositeintheleftwing,isnewcarpetedandcushioned,\"repliedthepresident。\"Ithinkit’srealgenerousofyou,Nancy,becausetheRiverborofolks,knowingthatyou’reamemberofthecarpetcommittee,willbesuretonotice,andthinkit’squeeryouhaven’tmadeanefforttocarpetyourownpew。\"
\"Nevermind!\"smiledNancywearily。\"RiverborofolksnevergotobedonSaturdaynightswithoutwonderingwhatEdgewoodisthinkingaboutthem!\"
Theminister’swifestoodatherwindowwatchingNancyasshepassedtheparsonage。
\"Howwasted!Howwasted!\"shesighed。\"Goinghometoeatherlonelysupperandfeed’Zekiel……Icanbearitfortheothers,butnotforNancy……Nowshehaslightedherlamp,nowshehasputfreshpineonthefire,fornewsmokecomesfromthechimney。
WhyshouldIsitdownandservemydearhusband,andNancyfeed’Zekiel?\"
TherewassometruthinMrs。Baxter’sfeeling。Mrs。Buzzell,forinstance,hadthreesons;MariaSharpwasabsorbedinherlamefatherandherSunday—schoolwork;andLobeliaBrewsterwouldnothaveconsideredmatrimonyablessing,evenunderthemostfavourableconditions。ButNancywasframedandplannedforotherthings,and’Zekielwasaninsufficientchannelforhersoft,womanlysympathyandherbrightactivityofmindandbody。
’Zekielhadlosthistailinamowing—machine;’Zekielhadtheasthma,andtheimmersionofhisnoseinmilkmadehimsneeze,sohewaswonttosliphispawinandoutofthedishandlickitpatientlyforfiveminutestogether。Nancyoftenwatchedhimpityingly,givinghimkindandgentlewordstosustainhisfaintingspirit,butto—nightshepaidnoheedtohim,althoughhesneezedviolentlytoattractherattention。
Shehadputhersupperonthelightedtablebythekitchenwindowandwaspouringouthercupoftea,whenaboyrappedatthedoor。
\"Here’sapaperandaletter,MissWentworth,\"hesaid。\"It’sthesecondthisweek,andtheythinkovertothestorethatthatBerwickwidowermustbesettin’upandtakin’notice!\"
Shehadindeedreceivedaletterthedaybefore,anunsignedcommunication,consistingonlyofthewords,\"SecondEpistleofJohn。Verse12。\"
ShehadtakenherBibletolookoutthereferenceandfoundittobe:—
\"Havingmanythingstowriteuntoyou,Iwouldnotwritewithpaperandink;butItrusttocomeuntoyou,andspeakfacetoface,thatourjoymaybefull。\"
TheenvelopewaspostmarkedNewYork,andshesmiled,thinkingthatMrs。Emerson,acharmingladywhohadspentthesummerinEdgewood,andhadsungwithherinthevillagechoir,wascomingback,asshehadpromised,tohaveasleighrideandseeEdgewoodinitswinterdress。Nancyhadalmostforgottenthefirstletterintheexcitementsofherbusyday,andnowherewasanother,fromBostonthistime。Sheopenedtheenvelopeandfoundagainonlyasinglesentence,printed,notwritten。(Lestsheshouldguessthehand,shewondered?)
\"SecondEpistleofJohn。Verse5。\"
\"AndnowIbeseechthee,lady,notasthoughIwroteanewcommandmentuntothee,butthatwhichwehadfromthebeginning,thatweloveoneanother。\"
WasitMrs。Emerson?Coulditbe——anyoneelse?Wasit—?No,itmighthavebeen,yearsago;butnotnow;notnow!——Andyet;hewasalwayssodifferentfromotherpeople;andonce,inchurch,hehadhandedherthehymn—bookwithhisfingerpointingtoacertainverse。
ShealwaysfanciedthathersecretfidelityofheartrosefromthefactthatJustinPeabodywas\"different。\"Fromthehouroftheirfirstacquaintance,shewasevercomparinghimwithhiscompanions,andalwaystohisadvantage。Solongasawomanfindsallmenverymuchalike(asLobeliaBrewsterdid,savethatsheallowedsometobeworse!),sheisinnodanger。Butthemomentinwhichsheperceivesanddiscriminatessubtledifferences,marvellingthattherecanbetwoopinionsaboutaman’ssuperiority,thatmomentthemiraclehashappened。
\"AndnowIbeseechthee,lady,notasthoughIwroteanewcommandmentuntothee,butthatwhichwehadfromthebeginning,thatweloveoneanother。\"
No,itcouldnotbefromJustin。Shedrankhertea,playedwithherbeansabstractedly,andnibbledhersliceofsteamingbrownbread。
\"NotasthoughIwroteanewcommandmentuntothee。\"
No,notanewone;twelve,fifteenyearsold,thatcommandment!
\"Thatweloveoneanother。\"
Whowasspeaking?Whohadwrittenthesewords?ThefirstlettersoundedjustlikeMrs。Emerson,whohadsaidshewasaverypoorcorrespondent,butthatsheshouldjust\"dropdown\"onNancyoneofthesedays;butthissecondletternevercamefromMrs。Emerson。——
Well,therewouldbeanexplanationsometime;apleasantone;onetosmileover,andtell’Zekielandrepeattotheneighbours;butnotanunexpected,sacred,beautifulexplanation,suchaoneastheheartofawomancouldimagine,ifshewereyoungenoughandhappyenoughtohope。
Shewashedhercupandplate;replacedtheuneatenbeansinthebrownpot,andputthemawaywiththeroundloaf,foldedthecloth(LobeliaBrewstersaidNancyalways\"setouthermealsasifshewasentertainin’companyfromPortland\"),closedthestovedampers,carriedthelightedlamptoasafecornershelf,andlifted’Zekieltohiscushiononthehigh—backedrocker,doingallwiththeniceprecisionoflonghabit。Thenshewrappedherselfwarmly,andlockingthelonelylittlehousebehindher,setouttofinishherworkinthechurch。
CHAPTERV
AtthisprecisemomentJustinPeabodywaseatinghisownbeansandbrownbread(articlesofdietofwhichhisDetroitlandladywaslamentablyignorant)atthenewtavern,notfarfromthemeeting—
house。
ItwouldnotbefairtohimtosaythatMrs。Burbank’sletterhadbroughthimbacktoEdgewood,butithadcertainlyacceleratedhissteps。
ForthefirstsixyearsafterJustinPeabodylefthome,hehaddriftedaboutfromplacetoplace,savingeverypossibledollarofhisuncertainearningsintheconscioushopethathecouldgobacktoNewEnglandandaskNancyWentworthtomarryhim。TheWestwasprosperousandprogressive,buthowheyearned,inidlemoments,forthegrimmerandmoresterilesoilthathadgivenhimbirth!
Thencamewhatseemedtohimabrilliantchanceforaluckyturnofhissavings,andheinvestedtheminanenterprisewhich,wonderfullyasitpromised,failedwithinsixmonthsandlefthimpenniless。Atthatmomenthedefinitelygaveupallhope,andforthenextfewyearsheputNancyasfaraspossibleoutofhismind,inthefullbeliefthathewasactinganhonourablepartinrefusingtodragherintohistangledandfruitlesswayoflife。
Ifsheeverdidcareforhim,——andhecouldnotbesure,shewasalwayssoshy,——shemusthaveoutgrownthefeelinglongsince,andbelivinghappily,oratleastcontentedly,inherownway。Hewasgladinspiteofhimselfwhenheheardthatshehadnevermarried;
butatleasthehadn’titonhisconsciencethatHEhadkepthersingle!
OntheseventeenthofDecember,Justin,hisbusinessdayover,waswalkingtowardthedrearyhouseinwhichheateandslept。Asheturnedthecorner,heheardonewomansaytoanother,astheywatchedamanstumblingsorrowfullydownthestreet:\"Goinghomewillbetheworstofallforhim——tofindnobodythere!\"Thatwaswhatgoinghomehadmeantforhimthesetenyears,butheafterwardfeltitstrangethatthisthoughtshouldhavestruckhimsoforciblyonthatparticularday。Enteringtheboarding—house,hefoundMrs。Burbank’sletterwithitsEdgewoodpostmarkonthehalltable,andtookituptohisroom。Hekindledalittlefireintheair—tightstove,watchingtheflamecreepfromshavingstokindlings,fromkindlingstosmallpine,andfromsmallpinetotheround,hardwoodsticks;thenwhentheresultseemedcertain,heclosedthestovedoorandsatdowntoreadtheletter。Whereuponallmannerofstrangethingshappenedinhisheadandheartandfleshandspiritashesattherealone,hishandsinhispockets,hisfeetbracedagainstthelegsofthestove。
Itwasacoldwinternight,andthesnowandsleetbeatagainstthewindows。Helookedabouttheuglyroom:atthewashstandwithitssquareofoilclothinfrontanditsdetestablebowlandpitcher;attherigoursofhiswhiteironbedstead,withthevalleyinthemiddleofthelumpymattressandthedarnsintherumpledpillowcases;atthedullphotographsofthelandlady’shideoushusbandandchildrenenshrinedonthemantelshelf;lookedattheabominationofdesolationsurroundinghimuntilhissoulsickenedandcriedoutlikeachild’sforsomethingmorelikehome。Itwasasifaspringthawhadmeltedhisice—boundheart,andonthecrestofawaveitwasdriftingoutintothemilderwatersofsomeunknownsea。Hecouldhavelaidhisheadinthekindlapofawomanandcried:\"Comfortme!GivemecompanionshiporIdie!\"
Thewindhowledinthechimneyandrattledtheloosewindow—sashes;
thesnow,freezingasitfell,dashedagainsttheglasswithhard,cuttinglittleblows;atleast,thatisthewayinwhichthewindandsnowflatteredthemselvestheyweremakingexistencedisagreeabletoJustinPeabodywhenhereadtheletter;butneverwereelementsmoremistaken。
ItwasaJuneSundayintheboarding—housebedroom;andforthatmatteritwasnottheboarding—housebedroomatall:itwastheoldOrthodoxchurchonToryHillinEdgewood。
Thewindowswerewideopen,andthesmellofthepurplecloverandthehummingofthebeesweredriftingintothesweet,widespaceswithin。JustinwassittingintheendofthePeabodypew,andNancyWentworthwasbesidehim;Nancy,coolandrestfulinherwhitedress;dark—hairedNancyundertheshadowofhershirredmuslinhat。
Rise,mysoul,andstretchthywings,Thybetterportiontrace。
Themelodeongavethetune,andNancyandhestoodtosing,takingthebookbetweenthem。Hishandtouchedhers,andasthemusicofthehymnroseandfell,thefutureunrolleditselfbeforehiseyes;
afutureinwhichNancywashisweddedwife;andthehappyyearsstretchedonandoninfrontofthemuntiltherewasarowoflittleheadsintheoldPeabodypew,andmotherandfathercouldlookproudlyalongthelineattheyoungthingstheywerebringingintothehouseoftheLord。
TherecallingofthatvisionworkedlikemagicinJustin’sblood。
Hissoulroseandstretcheditswingsand\"traceditsbetterportion\"vividly,ashesprangtohisfeetandwalkedupanddownthebedroomfloor。Hewouldgetafewdays’leaveandgobacktoEdgewoodforChristmas,tojoin,withalltheoldneighbours,intheserviceatthemeeting—house;andinpursuanceofthisresolve,heshookhisfistinthefaceofthelandlady’shusbandonthemantelpieceanddaredhimtoprevent。
Hehadasalaryoffiftydollarsamonth,withsomeveryslightprospectofanincreaseafterJanuary。Hedidnotseehowtwopersonscouldeat,anddrink,andlodge,anddressonitinDetroit,butheproposedtogiveNancyWentworththerefusalofthatmagnificentfuture,thatbrilliantandtemptingoffer。Hehadexactlyonehundreddollarsinthebank,andsixtyorseventyofthemwouldbespentinthejourneys,countingtwohappy,blessedfaresbackfromEdgewoodtoDetroit;andifhepaidonlyhisownfareback,hewouldthrowthepriceoftheotherintothepondbehindtheWentworthhouse。HewoulddropanothertendollarsintotheplateonChristmasDaytowardtherepairsonthechurch;ifhestarved,hewoulddothat。Hewasafailure。Everythinghishandtouchedturnedtonaught。Helookedhimselffullintheface,recognizinghisweakness,andinthissupremestmomentofrecognitionhewasastrongermanthanhehadbeenanhourbefore。
Hisdroopingshouldershadstraightened;therestlesslookhadgonefromhiseyes;hissombrefacehadsomethingofreposeinit,thereposeofasettledpurpose。Hewasafailure,butperhapsifhetooktherisks(andifNancywouldtakethem——butthatwasthetrouble,womenweresounselfish,theywerealwayswillingtotakerisks,andoneoughtnottoletthem!),perhapshemightdobetterintryingtomakealivingfortwothanhehadinworkingforhimselfalone。Hewouldgohome,tellNancythathewasanunluckygood—for—naught,andaskherifshewouldtryherhandatmakinghimover。
CHAPTERVI
ThesewerethereasonsthathadbroughtJustinPeabodytoEdgewoodontheSaturdayafternoonbeforeChristmas,andhadtakenhimtothenewtavernonToryHill,neartheMeeting—House。
Nobodyrecognizedhimatthestationornoticedhimatthetavern,andafterhissupperheputonhisovercoatandstartedoutforawalk,aimlesslyhopingthathemightmeetafriend,orfailingthat,intendingtocallonsomeofhisoldneighbours,withtheviewofhearingthevillagenewsandsecuringsomeinformationwhichmighthelphimtodecidewhenhehadbetterlayhimselfandhismisfortunesatNancyWentworth’sfeet。Theywereprettyfeet!
Herememberedthatfactwellenoughunderthemagicalinfluenceoffamiliarsightsandsoundsandodours。Hewasrestless,miserable,anxious,homesick——notforDetroit,butforsomeheretoforeunimaginedgood;yet,likeBunyan’sshepherdboyintheValleyofHumiliation,hecarried\"theherbcalledHearts—easeinhisbosom,\"
forhewasatlastlovingconsciously。
Howwhitetheoldchurchlooked,andhowgreentheblinds!Itmusthavebeenpaintedverylately:thatmeantthattheparishwasfairlyprosperous。Therewerenewshuttersinthebelfrytower,too;herememberedtheformeropenspaceandtherustybell,andhelikedthechange。Didthechimneyusetobeinthatcorner?No;
buthisfatherhadalwayssaiditwouldhavedrawnbetterifithadbeenputthereinthebeginning。Newshingleswithinayear:thatwasevidenttoapractisedeye。Hewonderedifanythinghadbeendonetotheinsideofthebuilding,buthemustwaituntilthemorrowtosee,for,ofcourse,thedoorswouldbelocked。No;theoneattherightsidewasajar。Heopeneditsoftlyandsteppedintothetinysquareentrythatherecalledsowell——theonethroughwhichtheSunday—schoolchildrenranouttothestepsfromtheircatechism,apparentlyenjoyingthesunshineafteraspelloforthodoxy;thelittleentrywherethevillagegirlscongregatedwhilewaitingforthelastbelltoring——theymadeasoftblurofpinkandblueandbuff,alittleflutterofcurlsandbraidsandfansandsunshades,inhismind’seye,asheclosedtheouterdoorbehindhimandgentlyopenedtheinnerone。Thechurchwasfloodedwithmoonlightandsnowlight,andtherewasonelampburningatthebackofthepulpit;acandle,too,onthepulpitsteps。Therewasthetip—tap—tipofatack—hammergoingoninadistantcorner。WassomebodyhangingChristmasgarlands?Thenewredcarpetattractedhisnotice,andashegrewaccustomedtothedimlight,itcarriedhiseyealongtheaislehehadtrodsomanyyearsofSundays,totheoldfamiliarpew。Thesoundofthehammerceasedandawomanrosefromherknees。Astrangerwasdoingforthefamilyhonourwhatheoughthimselftohavedone。Thewomanturnedtoshakeherskirt,anditwasNancyWentworth。Hemighthaveknownit。Womenwerealwaysfaithful;theyalwaysrememberedoldlandmarks,olddays,oldfriends,oldduties。HisfatherandmotherandEstherwereallgone;whobutdearNancywouldhavemadetheoldPeabodypewrightandtidyfortheChristmasfestival?Blessherkindwomanlyheart!
Shelookedjustthesametohimaswhenhelastsawher。
Mercifullyheseemedtohaveheldinremembrancealltheseyearsnotsomuchheryouthfulbloomashergeneralqualitiesofmindandheart:hercheeriness,herspirit,herunflaggingzeal,herbrightwomanliness。Hergreydresswasturnedupinfrontoveracrimsonmoreenpetticoat。Shehadonacosyjacket,afurturbanofsomesortwitharedbreastinit,andhercheekswereflushedfromexertion。\"Sweetrecords,andpromisesassweet,\"hadalwaysmetinNancy’sface,andeitherhehadforgottenhowprettyshewas,orelseshehadabsolutelygrownprettierduringhisabsence。
Nancywouldhavechosenthesuprememomentofmeetingverydifferently,butshemightwellhavechosenworse。Sheunpinnedherskirtandbrushedthethreadsoff,smoothedthepewcushionscarefully,andtookalaststitchintheraggedhassock。ShethenliftedtheBibleandthehymn—bookfromtherack,andputtingdownabitofflannelonthepulpitsteps,tookaflatironfromanoil—
stove,andopeningtheancientbooks,pressedoutthewell—thumbedleavesonebyonewithinfinitecare。Afterreplacingthevolumesintheiraccustomedplace,shefirstextinguishedtheflameofherstove,whichshetuckedoutofsight,andthenblewoutthelampandthecandle。Thechurchwasstilllightenoughforobjectstobeseeninashadowyway,liketheobjectsinadream,andJustindidnotrealizethathewasamanintheflesh,lookingatawoman;
spying,itmightbe,uponherprivacy。Hewasonepartofadreamandsheanother,andhestoodasifwaiting,andfearing,tobeawakened。
Nancy,havingdoneall,cameoutofthepew,andstandingintheaisle,lookedbackatthesceneofherlabourswithprideandcontent。Andasshelooked,somedesiretostayalittlelongerinthedearoldplacemusthavecomeoverher,orsomedreadofgoingbacktoherlonelycottage,forshesatdowninJustin’scornerofthepewwithfoldedhands,hereyesfixeddreamilyonthepulpitandherearshearing:\"NotasthoughIwroteanewcommandmentuntothee,butthatwhichwehadfromthebeginning。\"
Justin’sgrasponthelatchtightenedashepreparedtoclosethedoorandleavetheplace,buthisinstinctdidnotwarnhimquicklyenough,afterall,for,obeyingsomeuncontrollableimpulse,Nancysuddenlyfellonherkneesinthepewandburiedherfaceinthecushions。
Thedreambroke,andinaninstantJustinwasaman——worsethanthat,hewasaneavesdropper,ashamedofhisunsuspectedpresence。
Hefelthimselfstanding,withcoveredheadandfeetshod,intheholytempleofawoman’sheart。
Buthisinvoluntaryirreverencebroughtabundantgracewithit。
Theglimpseandtherevelationwroughttheirmiraclessilentlyandirresistibly,notbytheslowprocessesofgrowthwhichNaturedemandsforherenterprises,butwiththesuddenswiftnessofthespirit。InaninstantchangeshadtakenplaceinJustin’ssoulwhichhisso—called\"experiencingreligion\"twenty—fiveyearsbackhadbeenpowerlesstoeffect。Hehadindeedbeenbaptizedthen,buttherecordingangelcouldhavebornewitnessthatthissecondbaptismfructifiedthefirst,andbecametherealheraldofthenewbirthandthenewcreature。
CHAPTERVII
JustinPeabodysilentlyclosedtheinnerdoor,andstoodintheentrywithhisheadbentandhisheartinawhirluntilheshouldhearNancyrisetoherfeet。HemusttakethisHeaven—sentchanceoftellingherall,buthowdoitwithoutalarmingher?
Amoment,andherstepsoundedinthestillnessoftheemptychurch。
Obeyingthefirstimpulse,hepassedthroughtheouterdoor,andstandingonthestep,knockedonce,twice,threetimes;then,openingitalittleandspeakingthroughthechink,hecalled,\"IsMissNancyWentworthhere?\"
\"I’mhere!\"inamomentcameNancy’sanswer,andthen,withalittlewonderingtremorinhervoice,asifahintofthetruthhadalreadydawned:\"What’swanted?\"
\"You’rewanted,Nancy,wantedbadly,byJustinPeabody,comebackfromtheWest。\"
Thedooropenedwide,andJustinfacedNancystandinghalf—waydowntheaisle,hereyesbrilliant,herlipsparted。AweekagoJustin’sapparitionconfrontingherintheemptyMeeting—Houseafternightfall,evenhadshebeenpreparedforitasnow,byhisvoice,wouldhaveterrifiedherbeyondmeasure。Nowitseemedalmostnaturalandinevitable。Shehadspenttheselastdaysinthechurchwherebothofthemhadbeenyoungandhappytogether;
thetwolettershadbroughthimvividlytomind,andherlabourintheoldPeabodypewhadbeenonelongexcursionintothepastinwhichhewasthemostprominentandthebest—lovedfigure。
\"IsaidI’dcomebacktoyouwhenmyluckturned,Nancy。\"
Theseweresopreciselythewordssheexpectedhimtosay,shouldsheeverseehimagainfacetoface,thatforanadditionalmomenttheybutheightenedhersenseofunreality。
\"Well,theluckhasn’tturned,afterall,butIcouldn’twaitanylonger。Haveyougivenathoughttomealltheseyears,Nancy?\"
\"Morethanone,Justin\";fortheverylookuponhisface,thetendernessofhisvoice,theattitudeofhisbody,outranhiswordsandtoldherwhathehadcomehometosay,toldherthatheryearsofwaitingwereoveratlast。
\"Yououghttodespisemeforcomingbackagainwithonlymyselfandmyemptyhandstoofferyou。\"
Howeasyitwastospeakhisheartoutinthisdimandquietplace!
Howtongue—tiedhewouldhavebeen,sittingontheblackhairclothsofaintheWentworthparlourandgazingattheopensoapstonestove!
\"Oh,menaresuchfools!\"criedNancy,smilesandtearsstrugglingtogetherinherspeech,asshesatdownsuddenlyinherownpewandputherhandsoverherface。
\"Theyare,\"agreedJustinhumbly,\"butI’veneverstoppedlovingyou,wheneverI’vehadtimeforthinkingorloving。AndIwasn’tsurethatyoureallycaredanythingaboutme;andhowcouldIhaveaskedyouwhenIhadn’tadollarintheworld?\"
\"Thereareotherthingstogiveawomanbesidesdollars,Justin。\"
\"Arethere?Well,youshallhavethemall,everyoneofthem,Nancy,ifyoucanmakeupyourmindtodowithoutthedollars;fordollarsseemtobejustwhatIcan’tmanage。\"
Herhandwasinhisbythistime,andtheyweresittingsidebysideinthecushionless,carpetlessWentworthpew。Thedoorstoodopen;thewintermoonshoneinuponthem。Thatitwasbeginningtogrowcoldinthechurchpassedunnoticed。Thegraspofthewoman’shandseemedtogivethemannewhopeandcourage,andJustin’swarm,confiding,pleadingpressurebroughtbalmtoNancy,balmandhealingforthewoundsherpridehadsuffered;joy,too,half—
consciousstill,thatherlifeneednotbelivedtotheendinunfruitfulsolitude。Shehadwaited,\"assomegreylakelies,fullandsmooth,awaitingthestarbelowthetwilight。\"JustinPeabodymighthavebeennootherwoman’sstar,buthewasNancy’s!
\"JustyousittingbesidemeheremakesmefeelasifI’dbeenasleepordeadalltheseyears,andjustbornoveragain,\"saidJustin。\"I’veledarespectable,hard—working,honestlife,Nancy,\"hecontinued,\"andIdon’toweanymanacent;thetroubleisthatnomanowesmeone。I’vegotenoughmoneytopaytwofaresbacktoDetroitonMonday,althoughIwasterriblyafraidyouwouldn’tletmedoit。It’llneedagooddealofthinkingandplanning,Nancy,forweshallbeverypoor。\"
Nancyhadbeenstoringupfidelityandaffectiondeep,deepinthehiveofherheartalltheseyears,andnowthehoneyofherhelpfulnessstoodreadytobegathered。
\"CouldIkeephensinDetroit?\"sheasked。\"Icanalwaysmakethempay。\"
\"Hens——inthreerooms,Nancy?\"
Herfacefell。\"Andnoyard?\"
\"Noyard。\"
Amoment’spause,andthenthesmilecame。\"Oh,well,I’vehadyardsandhensforthirty—fiveyears。Doingwithoutthemwillbeachange。Icantakeinsewing。\"
\"No,youcan’t,Nancy。Ineedyourbackboneandwitsandpluckandingenuity,butifIcan’taskyoutositwithyourhandsfoldedfortherestofyourlife,asI’dliketo,youshan’tusethemforotherpeople。You’remarryingmetomakeamanofme,butI’mnotmarryingyoutomakeyouadrudge。\"
Hisvoicerangclearandtrueinthesilence,andNancy’sheartvibratedatthesound。
\"Oh,Justin,Justin!\"shewhispered。\"There’ssomethingwrongsomewhere,butwe’llfinditouttogether,youandI,andmakeitright。You’renotlikeafailure。Youdon’tevenLOOKpoor,Justin;thereisn’tamaninEdgewoodtocomparewithyou,orI
shouldbewashinghisdishesanddarninghisstockingsthisminute。
AndIamnotapauper!There’llbetherentofmylittlehouseandacarloadofmyfurniture,soyoucanputthethree—roomideaoutofyourmind,andyourfirmwillofferyoualargersalarywhenyoutellthemyouhaveawifetotakecareof。Oh,Iseeitall,anditisaseasyandbrightandhappyascanbe!\"
Justinputhisarmaroundheranddrewherclose,withsuchathrobofgratitudeforherbeliefandtrustthatitmovedhimalmosttotears。
Therewasalongpause:thenhesaid:—
\"NowIshallcallforyouto—morrowmorningafterthelastbellhasstoppedringing,andwewillwalkuptheaisletogetherandsitintheoldPeabodypew。Weshallbeanine—days’wonderanyway,butthiswillbeequaltoanannouncement,especiallyifyoutakemyarm。Wedon’teitherofusliketobestaredat,butthiswillshowwithoutawordwhatwethinkofeachotherandwhatwe’vepromisedtobetoeachother,andit’stheonlythingthatwillmakemefeelsureofyouandsettledinmymindafterallthesemistakenyears。Haveyougotthecourage,Nancy?\"
\"Ishouldn’twonder!IguessifI’vehadcourageenoughtowaitforyou,I’vegotcourageenoughtowalkuptheaislewithyouandmarryyoubesides!\"saidNancy。——\"Nowitistoolateforustostayhereanylonger,andyoumustseemeonlyasfarasmygate,forperhapsyouhaven’tforgottenyethowinterestedtheBrewstersareintheirneighbours。\"
TheystoodatthelittleWentworthgateforamoment,handcloseclaspedinhand。Thenightwasclear,theairwascoldandsparkling,butwithnothingofbitternessinit;theskywassteelyblueandtheeveningstarglowedandburnedlikeatinysun。Nancyrememberedtheshepherd’ssongshehadtaughttheSunday—schoolchildren,andrepeatedsoftly:—
ForImysheepwaswatchingBeneaththesilentskies,Whensudden,fartoeastward,Isawastararise;
ThenallthepeacefulheavensWithsweetestmusicrang,Andglory,glory,glory!
Thehappyangelssang。
SoIthisnightamjoyful,ThoughIcanscarcetellwhy,ItseemethmethatgloryHathmetusverynigh;
Andwe,thoughpoorandhumble,Havepartinheavenlyplan,For,bornto—night,thePrinceofPeaceShallruletheheartofman。
Justin’sheartmeltedwithinhimlikewaxtothewoman’svisionandthewoman’stouch。
\"Oh,Nancy,Nancy!\"hewhispered。\"IfIhadbroughtmybadlucktoyoulong,longago,wouldyouhavetakenmethen,andhaveIlostyearsofsuchhappinessasthis?\"
\"Therearesomethingsitisnotbestforamantobecertainabout,\"saidNancy,withawisesmileandalastgood—night。
CHAPTERVIII
\"Ringout,sweetbells,O’erwoodsanddellsYourlovelystrainsrepeat,WhilehappythrongsWithjoyoussongsEachaccentgladlygreet。\"
ChristmasmorningintheoldToryHillMeeting—Housewasfeltbyallofthepersonswhowerepresentinthatparticularyeartobeamostexcitingandmemorableoccasion。
Theoldsextonquiteoutdidhimself,foralthoughhehadrungthebellformorethanthirtyyears,hehadneverfeltgreaterprideorjoyinhistask。WasnothissonJohnhomeforChristmas,andJohn’swife,andagrandchildnewlynamedNathanielforhimself?
Weretherenotspareribsandturkeysandcranberriesandmincepiesonthepantryshelves,andbarrelsofrosyBaldwinsinthecellarandbottlesofmother’srootbeerjustwaitingtogiveaholidaypop?Thebellitselfforgotitsageandthesuspicionofacrackthatdulleditsvoiceonadampday,and,inspiredbythebright,frostyair,thesexton’sinspiringpull,andtheChristmasspirit,gaveoutnothingbutjoyoustones。
Ding—dong!Ding—dong!Itfiredtheambitionsofstarscholarsabouttorecitehymnsandsingsolos。Itthrilledlittlegirlsexpectingdollsbeforenight。Itexcitedbeyondbearingdozensoflittleboysbeingbuttonedintorefractoryovercoats。Ding—dong!
Ding—dong!Mothers’fingerstrembledwhentheyheardit,andmothers’voicescried:\"Ifthatisthesecondbell,thechildrenwillneverbereadyintime!Wherearetheovershoes?Wherearethemittens?Hurry,Jack!Hurry,Jennie!\"Ding—dong!Ding—dong!
\"Where’sSally’smuff?Where’sfather’sfurcap?Isthesleighatthedoor?Arethehotsoapstonesin?Haveallofyouyourmoneyforthecontributionbox?\"
Ding—dong!Ding—dong!Itwasablithebell,asweet,truebell,aholybell,andtoJustin,pacinghistavernroom,astoNancy,tremblinginhermaidenchamber,itrangaChristmasmessage:—
Awake,gladheart!Ariseandsing;
ItisthebirthdayofthyKing!
ThecongregationfilledeveryseatintheoldMeeting—House。
AsMariaSharphadprophesied,therewasoneill—naturedspinsterfromarivalvillagewhodeclaredthatthechurchfloorlookedlikeJoseph’scoatlaidoutsmooth;butinthegeneralchorusofadmiration,approval,andgoodwill,thisenviousspeech,thoughrepeatedfrommouthtomouth,leftnosting。
Anotheritemofinterestlongrecalledwasthefactthatonthataugustandunapproachabledaythepulpitvasesstooderectandempty,thoughNancyWentworthhadfilledthemeverySundaysinceanyonecouldremember。Thisinstance,thoughfeltatthetimetobeofmysterioussignificanceifthecausewereeverrevealed,paledintonothingnesswhen,aftertheringingofthelastbell,NancyWentworthwalkeduptheaisleonJustinPeabody’sarm,andtheytooktheirseatssidebysideintheoldfamilypew。
(\"Andconsid’ableclose,too,thoughtherewasplentyo’room!\")
(\"AndnoonethatIeverheardofsomuchassuspicionedthattheyhadeverkeptcompany!\")
(\"Anddoyous’posesheknewJustinwasexpectedbackwhenshescrubbedhispewa—Friday?\")
(\"Andthisexplainstheemptypulpitvases!\")
(\"AndIalwayssaidthatNancywouldmakearealhandsomecoupleifsheevergotanybodytocouplewith!\")
DuringtheunexpectedandsolemnprocessionofthetwouptheaislethesopranoofthevillagechoirstoppedshortinthemiddleoftheDoxology,andthethreeothervoicescarriedittotheendwithoutanytreble。Also,amongthosepresentthereweresomewhocouldnotrememberafterwardtheprecisepetitionswaftedupwardintheopeningprayer。
AndcoulditbeexplainedotherwisethanbycheerfullyacknowledgingthebountyofanoverrulingProvidencethatNancyWentworthshouldhavehadanewwinterdressforthefirsttimeinfiveyears——awinterdressofdarkbrownclothtomatchherbeavermuffandvictorine?TheexistenceofthistoilettehadbeenknownanddiscussedinEdgewoodforamonthpast,anditwasthoughttobenothingmorethanapropertokenofrespectfromamemberofthecarpetcommitteetothegeneralmagnificenceofthechurchontheoccasionofitsreopeningafterrepairs。Indeed,youcouldhaveidentifiedeverymemberoftheDorcasSocietythatSundaymorningbythefreshnessofherapparel。Thebrowndress,then,wasgenerallyexpected;butwhythewhitecashmerewaistwithcollarandcuffsofpointlace,devisedonlyandsuitableonlyfortheminister’swedding,whereitfirstsawthelight?
\"Thewhitewaistcanonlybeexplainedasshowingdistincthope!\"
whisperedtheminister’swifeduringthereadingofthechurchnotices。
\"Tomeitshowsmorethanhope;IamverysurethatNancywouldnevertakeanywearoutofthatlaceforhope;itmeanscertainty!\"
answeredMaria,whowasalwaysstronginthepropheticline。
BysermontimeJustin’sidentityhaddawneduponmostofthecongregation。Astrangertoallbutoneortwoatfirst,hispresenceinthePeabodypewbroughthisfaceandfigureback,littlebylittle,tothemindsoftheoldparishioners。
Whenthecontributionplatewaspassed,thesextonalwaysbeganattheright—wingpews,asallthesextonsbeforehimhaddoneforahundredyears。EveryeyeinthechurchwasalreadyturneduponJustinandNancy,anditwaswithalmostagaspthatthoseinthevicinitysawatendollarbillfallintheplate。Thesextonreeled,or,ifthatistoointemperateawordforapillarofthechurch,thegoodmantottered,butcaughtholdofthepewrailwithonehand,and,puttingthethumbofhisotheroverthebill,proceededquicklytothenextpew,lestthestrangershouldthinkbetterofhisgift,ordemandchange,ashadoccasionallybeendoneintheoldentime。
Nancyneverflutteredaneyelash,butsatquietlybyJustin’ssidewithherbosomrisingandfallingunderthebeaverfurandhercoldhandsclaspedtightinthelittlebrownmuff。Farfromgrudgingthisappreciablepartoftheirslenderresources,shethrilledwithpridetoseeJustin’sofferingfallintheplate。
Justinwastooabsorbedinhisownthoughtstonoticeanything,buthismunificentcontributionhadamostunexpectedeffectuponhisreputation,afterall;foronthatday,andonmanyanotherlaterone,whenhissuddenmarriageanddeparturewithNancyWentworthwereunderdiscussion,theneighbourssaidtooneanother:—
\"JustinmustbemakingmoneyfastoutWest!Heputtendollarsinthecontributionplatea—Sunday,andpaidtheministertenmorenextdayformarryin’himtoNancy;sothePeabodyluckhasturnedatlast!\"which,asamatteroffact,ithad。
\"Andallthetime,\"saidthechairmanofthecarpetcommitteetothetreasureroftheDorcasSociety——\"allthetime,littleassherealizedit,Nancywaslayingthecarpetinherownpew。Nowshe’smarriedtoJustinshe’llbethemakin’ofhim,orImissmyguess。
Youcan’tdoathingwithmenfolkswithoutthey’rerightalongsidewhereyoucankeepyoureyeandhandon’em。Justin’shandsomeandgoodandstiddy;allheneedissomenicewomantoputstarchintohim。TheEdgewoodPeabodysneverhadamiteo’stiffenin’in’em,—
—limpasdishrags,everyblessedone!NancyWentworthfairlyrustleswithstarch。Justinhadn’tbeenengagedtoherbutafewhourswhentheywalkeduptheaisletogether,butdidyounoticethewayhecarriedhishead?IdeclareIthought’twouldfalloffbehind!Ishouldn’twonderamitebuttheyprosperedandcomebackeverysummertosetintheoldPeabodyPew。\"