第2章
加入书架 A- A+
点击下载App,搜索"Nona Vincent",免费读到尾

  withwhomshelivedatNottingHill,whowrotechildren’sbooksandwho,itappeared,hadoncewrittenaChristmaspantomime。Itwasquiteanartistichome——notonthescaleofMrs。Alsager’s(tocomparethesmallestthingswiththegreatest!)butintenselyrefinedandhonourable。WayworthwentsofarastohintthatitwouldberatherniceandhumanonMrs。Alsager’sparttogothere——theywouldtakeitsokindlyifsheshouldcallonthem。Shehadactedsooftenonhishintsthathehadformedapleasanthabitofexpectingit:itmadehimfeelsowiselyresponsibleaboutgivingthem。Butthisoneappearedtofalltotheground,sothatheletthesubjectdrop。

  Mrs。Alsager,however,wentyetoncemoretothe\"Legitimate,\"ashefoundbyhersayingtohimabruptly,onthemorrow:\"Oh,she’llbeverygood——she’llbeverygood。\"Whentheysaid\"she,\"inthesedays,theyalwaysmeantVioletGrey,thoughtheypretended,forthemostpart,thattheymeantNonaVincent。

  \"Ohyes,\"Wayworthassented,\"shewantssoto!\"

  Mrs。Alsagerwassilentamoment;thensheasked,alittleinconsequently,asifshehadcomebackfromareverie:\"DoesshewanttoVERYmuch?\"

  \"Tremendously——anditappearsshehasbeenfascinatedbythepartfromthefirst。\"

  \"Whythendidn’tshesayso?\"

  \"Oh,becauseshe’ssofunny。\"

  \"SheISfunny,\"saidMrs。Alsager,musingly;andpresentlysheadded:

  \"She’sinlovewithyou。\"

  Wayworthstared,blushedveryred,thenlaughedout。\"Whatistherefunnyinthat?\"hedemanded;butbeforehisinterlocutresscouldsatisfyhimonthispointheinquired,further,howsheknewanythingaboutit。Afteralittlegracefulevasionsheexplainedthatthenightbefore,atthe\"Legitimate,\"Mrs。Beaumont,thewifeoftheactor—manager,hadpaidheravisitinherbox;whichhadhappened,inthecourseoftheirbriefgossip,toleadtoherremarkingthatshehadneverbeen\"behind。\"Mrs。Beaumontofferedonthespottotakeherround,andthefancyhadseizedhertoaccepttheinvitation。Shehadbeenamusedforthemoment,andinthiswayitbefellthatherconductress,atherrequest,hadintroducedhertoMissVioletGrey,whowaswaitinginthewingforoneofherscenes。

  Mrs。Beaumonthadbeencalledawayforthreeminutes,andduringthisscrapoftime,facetofacewiththeactress,shehaddiscoveredthepoorgirl’ssecret。Wayworthqualifieditasasenselessthing,butwishedtoknowwhathadledtothediscovery。Shecharacterisedthisinquiryassuperficialforapainterofthewaysofwomen;andhedoubtlessdidn’timproveitbyremarkingprofanelythatacatmightlookatakingandthatsuchthingswereconvenienttoknow。Evenonthisground,however,hewasthreatenedbyMrs。Alsager,whocontendedthatitmightnotbeajokingmattertothepoorgirl。TothisWayworth,whonowprofessedtohatetalkingaboutthepassionshemighthaveinspired,couldonlyreplythathemeantitcouldn’tmakeadifferencetoMrs。Alsager。

  \"HowintheworlddoyouknowwhatmakesadifferencetoME?\"thisladyasked,withincongruouscoldness,withahaughtinessindeedremarkableinsogentleaspirit。

  HesawVioletGreythatnightatthetheatre,anditwasshewhospokefirstofherhavinglatelymetafriendofhis。

  \"She’sinlovewithyou,\"theactresssaid,afterhehadmadeashowofignorance;\"doesn’tthattellyouanything?\"

  HeblushedredderstillthanMrs。Alsagerhadmadehimblush,butreplied,quicklyenoughandveryadequately,thathundredsofwomenwerenaturallydyingforhim。

  \"Oh,Idon’tcare,foryou’renotinlovewithHER!\"thegirlcontinued。

  \"Didshetellyouthattoo?\"Wayworthasked;butshehadatthatmomenttogoon。

  Standingwherehecouldseeherhethoughtthatonthisoccasionshethrewintoherscene,whichwasthebestshehadintheplay,abrighterartthaneverbefore,atalentthatcouldplaywithitsproblem。Shewasperpetuallydoingthingsoutofrehearsal(shedidtwoorthreeto—night,intheotherman’spiece),thatheasoftenwishedtoheavenNonaVincentmighthavethebenefitof。Sheappearedtobeabletodothemforeveryonebuthim——thatisforeveryonebutNona。Hewasconscious,inthesedays,ofanoddnewfeeling,whichmixed(thiswasapartofitsoddity)withaverynaturalandcomparativelyoldoneandwhichinitsmostdefiniteformwasadullacheofregretthatthisyounglady’sunluckystarshouldhaveplacedheronthestage。Hewishedinhisworstuneasinessthat,withoutgoingfurther,shewouldgiveitup;andyetitsoothedthatuneasinesstoremindhimselfthathesawgroundstohopeshewouldgofarenoughtomakeamarkedsuccessofNona。Therewerestrangeandpainfulmomentswhen,astheinterpretressofNona,healmosthatedher;afterwhich,however,healwaysassuredhimselfthatheexaggerated,inasmuchaswhatmadethisaversionseemgreat,whenhewasnervous,wassimplyitscontrastwiththegrowingsensethatthereWEREgrounds——totallydifferent——onwhichshepleasedhim。

  Shepleasedhimasacharmingcreature——byhersinceritiesandherperversities,bythevarietiesandsurprisesofhercharacterandbycertainhappyfactsofherperson。Inprivatehereyesweresadtohimandhervoicewasrare。Hedetestedtheideathatsheshouldhaveadisappointmentoranhumiliation,andhewantedtorescueheraltogether,tosaveandtransplanther。Onewaytosaveherwastoseetoit,tothebestofhisability,thattheproductionofhisplayshouldbeatriumph;andtheotherway——itwasreallytooqueertoexpress——wasalmosttowishthatitshouldn’tbe。Then,forthefuture,therewouldbesafetyandpeace,andnotthepeaceofdeath——

  thepeaceofadifferentlife。Itistobeaddedthatouryoungmanclungtotheformerofthesewaysinproportionasthelatterperverselytemptedhim。Hewasnervousatthebest,increasinglyandintolerablynervous;buttheimmediateremedywastorehearseharderandharder,andabovealltoworkitoutwithVioletGrey。Someofhercomradesreproachedhimwithworkingitoutonlywithher,asifshewerethewholeaffair;towhichherepliedthattheycouldaffordtobeneglected,theywereallsotremendouslygood。Shewastheonlypersonconcernedwhomhedidn’tflatter。

  TheauthorandtheactressstucksotothebusinessinhandthatshehadverylittletimetospeaktohimagainofMrs。Alsager,ofwhomindeedherimaginationappearedadequatelytohavedisposed。

  WayworthonceremarkedtoherthatNonaVincentwassupposedtobeagooddeallikehischarmingfriend;butshegaveablank\"Supposedbywhom?\"inconsequenceofwhichheneverreturnedtothesubject。HeconfidedhisnervousnessasfreelyasusualtoMrs。Alsager,whoeasilyunderstoodthathehadapeculiarcomplicationofanxieties。

  Hissuspensevariedindegreefromhourtohour,butanyrelieftheremighthavebeeninthiswasmadeupforbyitsbeingofseveraldifferentkinds。Oneafternoon,asthefirstperformancedrewnear,Mrs。Alsagersaidtohim,ingivinghimhiscupofteaandonhishavingmentionedthathehadnotclosedhiseyesthenightbefore:

  \"Youmustindeedbeinadreadfulstate。Anxietyforanotherisstillworsethananxietyforone’sself。\"

  \"Foranother?\"Wayworthrepeated,lookingatherovertherimofhiscup。

  \"Mypoorfriend,you’renervousaboutNonaVincent,butyou’reinfinitelymorenervousaboutVioletGrey。\"

  \"SheISNonaVincent!\"

  \"No,sheisn’t——notabit!\"saidMrs。Alsager,abruptly。

  \"Doyoureallythinkso?\"Wayworthcried,spillinghisteainhisalarm。

  \"WhatIthinkdoesn’tsignify——ImeanwhatIthinkaboutthat。WhatImeanttosaywasthatgreatasisyoursuspenseaboutyourplay,yoursuspenseaboutyouractressisgreaterstill。\"

  \"IcanonlyrepeatthatmyactressISmyplay。\"

  Mrs。Alsagerlookedthoughtfullyintotheteapot。

  \"Youractressisyour——\"

  \"Mywhat?\"theyoungmanasked,withalittletremorinhisvoice,ashishostesspaused。

  \"Yourverydearfriend。You’reinlovewithher——atpresent。\"AndwithasharpclickMrs。Alsagerdroppedthelidonthefragrantreceptacle。

  \"Notyet——notyet!\"laughedhervisitor。

  \"Youwillbeifshepullsyouthrough。\"

  \"YoudeclarethatsheWON’Tpullmethrough。\"

  Mrs。Alsagerwassilentamoment,afterwhichshesoftlymurmured:

  \"I’llprayforher。\"

  \"You’rethemostgenerousofwomen!\"Wayworthcried;thencolouredasifthewordshadnotbeenhappy。Theywouldhavedoneindeedlittlehonourtoamanoftact。

  ThenextmorninghereceivedfivehurriedlinesfromMrs。Alsager。

  ShehadsuddenlybeencalledtoTorquay,toseearelationwhowasseriouslyill;sheshouldbedetainedthereseveraldays,butshehadanearnesthopeofbeingabletoreturnintimeforhisfirstnight。

  Inanyeventhehadherunrestrictedgoodwishes。Hemissedherextremely,fortheselastdayswereagreatstrainandtherewaslittlecomforttobederivedfromVioletGrey。Shewasevenmorenervousthanhimself,andsopaleandalteredthathewasafraidshewouldbetooilltoact。Itwassettledbetweenthemthattheymadeeachotherworseandthathehadnowmuchbetterleaveheralone。

  TheyhadpulledNonasotopiecesthatnothingseemedleftofher——

  shemustatleasthavetimetogrowtogetheragain。HeleftVioletGreyalone,tothebestofhisability,butshecarriedoutimperfectlyherownsideofthebargain。Shecametohimwithnewquestions——shewaitedforhimwitholddoubts,andhalfanhourbeforethelastdress—rehearsal,ontheeveofproduction,sheproposedtohimatotallyfreshrenderingofhisheroine。Thisincidentgavehimsuchasenseofinsecuritythatheturnedhisbackonherwithoutaword,boltedoutofthetheatre,dashedalongtheStrandandwalkedasfarastheBank。Thenhejumpedintoahansomandcamewestward,andwhenhereachedthetheatreagainthebusinesswasnearlyover。Itappeared,almosttohisdisappointment,notbadenoughtogivehimtheconsolationoftheoldplayhouseadagethattheworstdress—rehearsalsmakethebestfirstnights。

  Themorrow,whichwasaWednesday,wasthedreadfulday;thetheatrehadbeenclosedontheMondayandtheTuesday。Everyone,ontheWednesday,didhisbesttoleteveryoneelsealone,andeveryonesignallyfailedintheattempt。Theday,tillseveno’clock,wasunderstoodtobeconsecratedtorest,buteveryoneexceptVioletGreyturnedupatthetheatre。WayworthlookedatMr。Loder,andMr。

  Loderlookedinanotherdirection,whichwasasnearastheycametoconversation。Wayworthwasinafidget,unabletoeatorsleeporsitstill,attimesalmostinterror。Hekeptquietbykeeping,asusual,inmotion;hetriedtowalkawayfromhisnervousness。HewalkedintheafternoontowardNottingHill,buthesucceededinnotbreakingthevowhehadtakennottomeddlewithhisactress。Shewaslikeanacrobatpoisedonaslipperyball——ifheshouldtouchhershewouldtoppleover。Hepassedherdoorthreetimesandhethoughtofherthreehundred。ThiswasthehouratwhichhemostregrettedthatMrs。Alsagerhadnotcomeback——forhehadcalledatherhouseonlytolearnthatshewasstillatTorquay。Thiswasprobablyqueer,anditwasprobablyqueererstillthatshehadn’twrittentohim;butevenofthesethingshewasn’tsure,forinlosing,ashehadnowcompletelylost,hisjudgmentofhisplay,heseemedtohimselftohavelosthisjudgmentofeverything。Whenhewenthome,however,hefoundatelegramfromtheladyofGrosvenorPlace——\"Shallbeabletocome——reachtownbyseven。\"Athalf—pasteighto’clock,throughalittleapertureinthecurtainofthe\"Renaissance,\"hesawherinherboxwithaclusteroffriends——completelybeautifulandbeneficent。Thehousewasmagnificent——toogoodforhisplay,hefelt;toogoodforanyplay。Everythingnowseemedtoogood——thescenery,thefurniture,thedresses,theveryprogrammes。HeseizedupontheideathatthiswasprobablywhatwasthematterwiththerepresentativeofNona——shewasonlytoogood。Hehadcompletelyarrangedwiththisyoungladytheplanoftheirrelationsduringtheevening;andthoughtheyhadalteredeverythingelsethattheyhadarrangedtheyhadpromisedeachothernottoalterthis。Itwaswonderfulthenumberofthingstheyhadpromisedeachother。Hewouldstarther,hewouldseeheroff——thenhewouldquitthetheatreandstayawaytilljustbeforetheend。Shebesoughthimtostayaway——itwouldmakeherinfinitelyeasier。Hesawthatshewasexquisitelydressed——shehadmadeoneortwochangesforthebettersincethenightbefore,andthatseemedsomethingdefinitetoturnoverandoverinhismindasherumbledfoggilyhomeinthefour—

  wheelerinwhich,afewstepsfromthestage—door,hehadtakenrefugeassoonasheknewthatthecurtainwasup。Helivedacoupleofmilesoff,andhehadchosenafour—wheelertodragoutthetime。

  Whenhegothomehisfirewasout,hisroomwascold,andhelaydownonhissofainhisovercoat。Hehadsenthislandladytothedress—

  circle,onpurpose;shewouldoverflowwithwordsandmistakes。Thehouseseemedablackvoid,justasthestreetshaddone——everyonewas,formidably,athisplay。Hewasquieteratlastthanhehadbeenforafortnight,andhefelttooweakeventowonderhowthethingwasgoing。Hebelievedafterwardsthathehadsleptanhour;

  butevenifhehadhefeltittobestilltooearlytoreturntothetheatre。Hesatdownbyhislampandtriedtoread——toreadalittlecompendiouslifeofagreatEnglishstatesman,outofa\"series。\"Itstruckhimasbrilliantlyclever,andheaskedhimselfwhetherthatperhapswerenotratherthesortofthingheoughttohavetakenup:

  notthestatesmanship,buttheartofbriefbiography。Suddenlyhebecameawarethathemusthurryifhewastoreachthetheatreatall——itwasaquartertoeleveno’clock。Hescrambledoutand,thistime,foundahansom——hehadlatelyspentenoughmoneyincabstoaddtohishopethattheprofitsofhisnewprofessionwouldbegreat。

  Hisanxiety,hissuspenseflamedupagain,andasherattledeastward——hewentfastnow——hewasalmostsickwithalternations。Ashepassedintothetheatrethefirstman——someunderling——whomethim,criedtohim,breathlessly:

  \"You’rewanted,sir——you’rewanted!\"Hethoughthistoneveryominous——hedevouredtheman’seyeswithhisown,forabetrayal:

  didhemeanthathewaswantedforexecution?Someoneelsepressedhim,almostpushedhim,forward;hewasalreadyonthestage。Thenhebecameconsciousofasoundmoreorlesscontinuous,butseeminglyfaintandfar,whichhetookatfirstforthevoiceoftheactorsheardthroughtheircanvaswalls,thebeautifulbuilt—inroomofthelastact。Buttheactorswereinthewing,theysurroundedhim;thecurtainwasdownandtheywerecomingofffrombeforeit。Theyhadbeencalled,andHEwascalled——theyallgreetedhimwith\"Goon——goon!\"Hewasterrified——hecouldn’tgoon——hedidn’tbelieveintheapplause,whichseemedtohimonlyaudibleenoughtosoundhalf—

  hearted。

  \"Hasitgone?——HASitgone?\"hegaspedtothepeopleroundhim;andheheardthemsay\"Rather——rather!\"perfunctorily,mendaciouslytoo,asitstruckhim,andevenwithmockinglaughter,thelaughterofdefeatanddespair。Suddenly,thoughallthismusthavetakenbutamoment,Loderburstuponhimfromsomewherewitha\"ForGod’ssakedon’tkeepthem,orthey’llSTOP!\"\"ButIcan’tgoonforTHAT!\"

  Wayworthcried,inanguish;thesoundseemedtohimalreadytohaveceased。Loderhadholdofhimandwasshovinghim;heresistedandlookedroundfranticallyforVioletGrey,whoperhapswouldtellhimthetruth。Therewasbythistimeacrowdinthewing,allwithstrangegrimacingpaintedfaces,butVioletwasnotamongthemandherveryabsencefrightenedhim。Heutteredhernamewithanaccentthatheafterwardsregretted——itgavethem,ashethought,bothaway;

  andwhileLoderhustledhimbeforethecurtainheheardsomeonesay\"Shetookhercallanddisappeared。\"Shehadhadacall,then——thiswaswhatwasmostpresenttotheyoungmanashestoodforaninstantintheglareofthefootlights,lookingblindlyatthegreatvaguely—

  peopledhorseshoeandgreetedwithplauditswhichnowseemedtohimatoncelouderthanhedeservedandfeeblerthanhedesired。Theysanktorestquickly,buthefeltittobelongbeforehecouldbackaway,beforehecould,inhisturn,seizethemanagerbythearmandcryhuskily——\"Hasitreallygone——REALLY?\"

  Mr。Loderlookedathimhardandrepliedafteraninstant:\"Theplay’sallright!\"

  Wayworthhunguponhislips。\"Thenwhat’sallwrong?\"

  \"WemustdosomethingtoMissGrey。\"

  \"What’sthematterwithher?\"

  \"Sheisn’tINit!\"

  \"Doyoumeanshehasfailed?\"

  \"Yes,damnit——shehasfailed。\"

  Wayworthstared。\"Thenhowcantheplaybeallright?\"

  \"Oh,we’llsaveit——we’llsaveit。\"

  \"Where’sMissGrey——whereISshe?\"theyoungmanasked。

  Lodercaughthisarmashewasturningawayagaintolookforhisheroine。\"Nevermindhernow——sheknowsit!\"

  WayworthwasapproachedatthesamemomentbyagentlemanheknewasoneofMrs。Alsager’sfriends——hehadperceivedhiminthatlady’sbox。Mrs。Alsagerwaswaitingthereforthesuccessfulauthor;shedesiredveryearnestlythathewouldcomeroundandspeaktoher。

  WayworthassuredhimselffirstthatViolethadleftthetheatre——oneoftheactressescouldtellhimthatshehadseenherthrowonacloak,withoutchangingherdress,andhadlearntafterwardsthatshehad,thenextmoment,flungherself,afterflingingheraunt,intoacab。Hehadwishedtoinvitehalfadozenpersons,ofwhomMissGreyandherelderlyrelativeweretwo,tocomehometosupperwithhim;

  butshehadrefusedtomakeanyengagementbeforehand(itwouldbesodreadfultohavetokeepitifsheshouldn’thavemadeahit),andthisattitudehadblightedthepleasantplan,whichfelltotheground。Hehadcalledhermorbid,butshewasimmovable。Mrs。

  Alsager’smessengerlethimknowthathewasexpectedtosupperinGrosvenorPlace,andhalfanhourafterwardshewasseatedthereamongcomplimentarypeopleandflowersandpoppingcorks,eatingthefirstorderlymealhehadpartakenofforaweek。Mrs。Alsagerhadcarriedhimoffinherbrougham——theotherpeoplewhowerecominggotintothingsoftheirown。Hestoppedhershortassoonasshebegantotellhimhowtremendouslyeveryonehadbeenstruckbythepiece;

  henailedherdowntothequestionofVioletGrey。Hadshespoilttheplay,hadshejeopardisedorcompromisedit——hadshebeenutterlybad,hadshebeengoodinanydegree?

  \"CertainlytheperformancewouldhaveseemedbetterifSHEhadbeenbetter,\"Mrs。Alsagerconfessed。

  \"Andtheplaywouldhaveseemedbetteriftheperformancehadbeenbetter,\"Wayworthsaid,gloomily,fromthecornerofthebrougham。

  \"Shedoeswhatshecan,andshehastalent,andshelookedlovely。

  Butshedoesn’tSEENonaVincent。Shedoesn’tseethetype——shedoesn’tseetheindividual——shedoesn’tseethewomanyoumeant。

  She’soutofit——shegivesyouadifferentperson。\"

  \"Oh,thewomanImeant!\"theyoungmanexclaimed,lookingattheLondonlampsasherolledbythem。\"IwishtoGodshehadknownYOU!\"headded,asthecarriagestopped。Aftertheyhadpassedintothehousehesaidtohiscompanion:

  \"YouseesheWON’Tpullmethrough。\"

  \"Forgiveher——bekindtoher!\"Mrs。Alsagerpleaded。

  \"Ishallonlythankher。Theplaymaygotothedogs。\"

  \"Ifitdoes——ifitdoes,\"Mrs。Alsagerbegan,withherpureeyesonhim。

  \"Well,whatifitdoes?\"

  Shecouldn’ttellhim,fortherestofherguestscameintogether;

  sheonlyhadtimetosay:\"ItSHA’N’Tgotothedogs!\"

  Hecameawaybeforetheothers,restlesswiththedesiretogotoNottingHilleventhatnight,lateasitwas,hauntedwiththesensethatVioletGreyhadmeasuredherfall。Whenhegotintothestreet,however,heallowedsecondthoughtstocounselanothercourse;theeffectofknockingherupattwoo’clockinthemorningwouldhardlybetosootheher。Helookedatsixnewspapersthenextdayandfoundinthemneveragoodwordforher。Theywerewellenoughaboutthepiece,buttheywereunanimousastothedisappointmentcausedbytheyoungactresswhoseformereffortshadexcitedsuchhopesandonwhom,onthisoccasion,suchpressingresponsibilitiesrested。Theyaskedinchoruswhatwasthematterwithher,andtheydeclaredinchorusthattheplay,whichwasnotwithoutpromise,washandicapped(theyallusedthesameword)bytheoddwantofcorrespondencebetweentheheroineandherinterpreter。WayworthdroveearlytoNottingHill,buthedidn’ttakethenewspaperswithhim;VioletGreycouldbetrustedtohavesentoutforthembythepeepofdawnandtohavefedheranguishfull。Shedeclinedtoseehim——sheonlysentdownwordbyherauntthatshewasextremelyunwellandshouldbeunabletoactthatnightunlesssheweresufferedtospendthedayunmolestedandinbed。Wayworthsatforanhourwiththeoldlady,whounderstoodeverythingandtowhomhecouldspeakfrankly。Shegavehimatouchingpictureofherniece’scondition,whichwasallthemorevividforthesimplewordsinwhichitwasexpressed:\"Shefeelssheisn’tright,youknow——shefeelssheisn’tright!\"

  \"Tellheritdoesn’tmatter——itdoesn’tmatterastraw!\"saidWayworth。

  \"Andshe’ssoproud——youknowhowproudsheis!\"theoldladywenton。

  \"TellherI’mmorethansatisfied,thatIaccepthergratefullyassheis。\"

  \"Shesayssheinjuresyourplay,thatsheruinsit,\"saidhisinterlocutress。

  \"She’llimprove,immensely——she’llgrowintothepart,\"theyoungmancontinued。

  \"She’dimproveifsheknewhow——butshesaysshedoesn’t。Shehasgivenallshehasgot,andshedoesn’tknowwhat’swanted。\"

  \"What’swantedissimplythatsheshouldgostraightonandtrustme。\"

  \"Howcanshetrustyouwhenshefeelsshe’slosingyou?\"

  \"Losingme?\"Wayworthcried。

  \"You’llneverforgiveherifyourplayistakenoff!\"

  \"Itwillrunsixmonths,\"saidtheauthorofthepiece。

  Theoldladylaidherhandonhisarm。\"Whatwillyoudoforherifitdoes?\"

  HelookedatVioletGrey’sauntamoment。\"Doyousayyournieceisveryproud?\"

  \"Tooproudforherdreadfulprofession。\"

  \"Thenshewouldn’twishyoutoaskmethat,\"Wayworthanswered,gettingup。

  Whenhereachedhomehewasverytired,andforapersontowhomitwasopentoconsiderthathehadscoredasuccesshespentaremarkablydismalday。Allhisrestlessnesshadgone,andfatigueanddepressionpossessedhim。Hesankintohisoldchairbythefireandsatthereforhourswithhiseyesclosed。Hislandladycameintobringhisluncheonandmendthefire,buthefeignedtobeasleep,soasnottobespokento。Itistobesupposedthatsleepatlastovertookhim,foraboutthehourthatduskbegantogatherhehadanextraordinaryimpression,avisitthat,itwouldseem,couldhavebelongedtonowakingconsciousness。NonaVincent,infaceandform,thelivingheroineofhisplay,rosebeforehiminhislittlesilentroom,satdownwithhimathisdingyfireside。ShewasnotVioletGrey,shewasnotMrs。Alsager,shewasnotanywomanhehadseenuponearth,norwasitanymasqueradeoffriendshiporofpenitence。

  Yetshewasmorefamiliartohimthanthewomenhehadknownbest,andshewasineffablybeautifulandconsoling。Shefilledthepoorroomwithherpresence,theeffectofwhichwasassoothingassomeodourofincense。Shewasasquietasanaffectionatesister,andtherewasnosurpriseinherbeingthere。Nothingmorerealhadeverbefallenhim,andnothing,somehow,morereassuring。Hefeltherhandrestuponhisown,andallhissensesseemedtoopentohermessage。Shestruckhim,inthestrangestway,bothashiscreationandashisinspirer,andshegavehimthehappiestconsciousnessofsuccess。Ifshewassocharming,intheredfirelight,inhervague,clear—colouredgarments,itwasbecausehehadmadeherso,andyetiftheweightseemedliftedfromhisspirititwasbecauseshedrewitaway。Whenshebentherdeepeyesuponhimtheyseemedtospeakofsafetyandfreedomandtomakeagreengardenofthefuture。Fromtimetotimeshesmiledandsaid:\"Ilive——Ilive——Ilive。\"Howlongshestayedhecouldn’thavetold,butwhenhislandladyblunderedinwiththelampNonaVincentwasnolongerthere。Herubbedhiseyes,butnodreamhadeverbeensointense;andasheslowlygotoutofhischairitwaswithadeepstilljoy——thejoyoftheartist——inthethoughtofhowrighthehadbeen,howexactlylikeherselfhehadmadeher。Shehadcometoshowhimthat。Attheendoffiveminutes,however,hefeltsufficientlymystifiedtocallhislandladyback——hewantedtoaskheraquestion。Whenthegoodwomanreappearedthequestionhungfireaninstant;thenitshapeditselfastheinquiry:

  \"Hasanyladybeenhere?\"

  \"No,sir——noladyatall。\"

  Thewomanseemedslightlyscandalised。\"NotMissVincent?\"

  \"MissVincent,sir?\"

  \"Theyoungladyofmyplay,don’tyouknow?\"

  \"Oh,sir,youmeanMissVioletGrey!\"

  \"NoIdon’t,atall。IthinkImeanMrs。Alsager。\"

  \"TherehasbeennoMrs。Alsager,sir。\"

  \"Noranybodyatalllikeher?\"

  Thewomanlookedathimasifshewonderedwhathadsuddenlytakenhim。Thensheaskedinaninjuredtone:\"Whyshouldn’tIhavetoldyouifyou’d’adcallers,sir?\"

  \"IthoughtyoumighthavethoughtIwasasleep。\"

  \"Indeedyouwere,sir,whenIcameinwiththelamp——andwellyou’dearnedit,Mr。Wayworth!\"

  Thelandladycamebackanhourlatertobringhimatelegram;itwasjustashehadbeguntodresstodineathisclubandgodowntothetheatre。

  \"Seemeto—nightinfront,anddon’tcomenearmetillit’sover。\"

  ItwasinthesewordsthatVioletcommunicatedherwishesfortheevening。Heobeyedthemtotheletter;hewatchedherfromthedepthsofabox。Hewasinnopositiontosayhowshemighthavestruckhimthenightbefore,butwhathesawduringthesecharmedhoursfilledhimwithadmirationandgratitude。SheWASinit,thistime;shehadpulledherselftogether,shehadtakenpossession,shewasfelicitousateveryturn。FreshfromhisrevelationofNonahewasinapositiontojudge,andashejudgedheexulted。Hewasthrilledandcarriedaway,andhewasmoreoverintenselycurioustoknowwhathadhappenedtoher,bywhatunfathomableartshehadmanagedinafewhourstoeffectsuchachangeofbase。ItwasasifSHEhadhadarevelationofNona,soconvincingaclearnesshadbeenbreatheduponthepicture。Hekepthimselfquietintheentr’actes——

  hewouldspeaktoheronlyattheend;butbeforetheplaywashalfoverthemanagerburstintohisbox。

  \"It’sprodigious,whatshe’supto!\"criedMr。Loder,almostmorebewilderedthangratified。\"Shehasgoneinforanewreading——ablessedsomersaultintheair!\"

  \"Isitquitedifferent?\"Wayworthasked,sharinghismystification。

  \"Different?Hyperiontoasatyr!It’sdevilishgood,myboy!\"

  \"It’sdevilishgood,\"saidWayworth,\"andit’sinadifferentkeyaltogetherfromthekeyofherrehearsal。\"

  \"I’llrunyousixmonths!\"themanagerdeclared;andherushedroundagaintotheactress,leavingWayworthwithasensethatshehadalreadypulledhimthrough。Shehadwiththeaudienceanimmensepersonalsuccess。

  Whenhewentbehind,attheend,hehadtowaitforher;sheonlyshowedherselfwhenshewasreadytoleavethetheatre。Heraunthadbeeninherdressing—roomwithher,andthetwoladiesappearedtogether。Thegirlpassedhimquickly,motioninghimtosaynothingtilltheyshouldhavegotoutoftheplace。Hesawthatshewasimmenselyexcited,liftedaltogetherabovehercommonartisticlevel。

  Theoldladysaidtohim:\"Youmustcomehometosupperwithus:ithasbeenallarranged。\"Theyhadabrougham,withalittlethirdseat,andhegotintoitwiththem。Itwasalongtimebeforetheactresswouldspeak。Sheleanedbackinhercorner,givingnosignbutstillheavingalittle,likeasubsidingsea,andwithallhertriumphintheeyesthatshonethroughthedarkness。Theoldladywashushedtoawe,oratleasttodiscretion,andWayworthwashappyenoughtowait。HehadreallytowaittilltheyhadalightedatNottingHill,wheretheelderofhiscompanionswenttoseethatsupperhadbeenattendedto。

  \"Iwasbetter——Iwasbetter,\"saidVioletGrey,throwingoffhercloakinthelittledrawing—room。

  \"Youwereperfection。You’llbelikethateverynight,won’tyou?\"

  Shesmiledathim。\"Everynight?Therecanscarcelybeamiracleeveryday。\"

  \"Whatdoyoumeanbyamiracle?\"

  \"I’vehadarevelation。\"

  Waywardstared。\"Atwhathour?\"

  \"Therighthour——thisafternoon。Justintimetosaveme——andtosaveYOU。\"

  \"Atfiveo’clock?Doyoumeanyouhadavisit?\"

  \"Shecametome——shestayedtwohours。\"

  \"Twohours?NonaVincent?\"

  \"Mrs。Alsager。\"VioletGreysmiledmoredeeply。\"It’sthesamething。\"

  \"AndhowdidMrs。Alsagersaveyou?\"

  \"Bylettingmelookather。Bylettingmehearherspeak。Bylettingmeknowher。\"

  \"Andwhatdidshesaytoyou?\"

  \"Kindthings——encouraging,intelligentthings。\"

  \"Ah,thedearwoman!\"Wayworthcried。

  \"Yououghttolikeher——shelikesYOU。ShewasjustwhatIwanted,\"

  theactressadded。

  \"DoyoumeanshetalkedtoyouaboutNona?\"

  \"Shesaidyouthoughtshewaslikeher。SheIS——she’sexquisite。\"

  \"She’sexquisite,\"Wayworthrepeated。\"Doyoumeanshetriedtocoachyou?\"

  \"Oh,no——sheonlysaidshewouldbesogladifitwouldhelpmetoseeher。AndIfeltitdidhelpme。Idon’tknowwhattookplace——

  sheonlysatthere,andsheheldmyhandandsmiledatme,andshehadtactandgrace,andshehadgoodnessandbeauty,andshesoothedmynervesandlightedupmyimagination。SomehowsheseemedtoGIVE

  italltome。Itookit——Itookit。Ikeptherbeforeme,Idrankherin。Forthefirsttime,inthewholestudyofthepart,Ihadmymodel——Icouldmakemycopy。Allmycouragecamebacktome,andotherthingscamethatIhadn’tfeltbefore。Shewasdifferent——shewasdelightful;asI’vesaid,shewasarevelation。Shekissedmewhenshewentaway——andyoumayguessifIkissedHER。Wewereawfullyaffectionate,butit’sYOUshelikes!\"saidVioletGrey。

  Wayworthhadneverbeenmoreinterestedinhislife,andhehadrarelybeenmoremystified。\"Didshewearvague,clear—colouredgarments?\"heasked,afteramoment。

  VioletGreystared,laughed,thenbadehimgointosupper。\"YOU

  knowhowshedresses!\"

  Hewasverywellpleasedatsupper,buthewassilentandalittlesolemn。HesaidhewouldgotoseeMrs。Alsagerthenextday。Hedidso,buthewastoldatherdoorthatshehadreturnedtoTorquay。

  Sheremainedthereallwinter,allspring,andthenexttimehesawherhisplayhadruntwohundrednightsandhehadmarriedVioletGrey。Hisplayssometimessucceed,buthiswifeisnotinthemnow,norinanyothers。AttheserepresentationsMrs。Alsagercontinuesfrequentlytobepresent。

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