withwhomshelivedatNottingHill,whowrotechildren’sbooksandwho,itappeared,hadoncewrittenaChristmaspantomime。Itwasquiteanartistichome——notonthescaleofMrs。Alsager’s(tocomparethesmallestthingswiththegreatest!)butintenselyrefinedandhonourable。WayworthwentsofarastohintthatitwouldberatherniceandhumanonMrs。Alsager’sparttogothere——theywouldtakeitsokindlyifsheshouldcallonthem。Shehadactedsooftenonhishintsthathehadformedapleasanthabitofexpectingit:itmadehimfeelsowiselyresponsibleaboutgivingthem。Butthisoneappearedtofalltotheground,sothatheletthesubjectdrop。
Mrs。Alsager,however,wentyetoncemoretothe\"Legitimate,\"ashefoundbyhersayingtohimabruptly,onthemorrow:\"Oh,she’llbeverygood——she’llbeverygood。\"Whentheysaid\"she,\"inthesedays,theyalwaysmeantVioletGrey,thoughtheypretended,forthemostpart,thattheymeantNonaVincent。
\"Ohyes,\"Wayworthassented,\"shewantssoto!\"
Mrs。Alsagerwassilentamoment;thensheasked,alittleinconsequently,asifshehadcomebackfromareverie:\"DoesshewanttoVERYmuch?\"
\"Tremendously——anditappearsshehasbeenfascinatedbythepartfromthefirst。\"
\"Whythendidn’tshesayso?\"
\"Oh,becauseshe’ssofunny。\"
\"SheISfunny,\"saidMrs。Alsager,musingly;andpresentlysheadded:
\"She’sinlovewithyou。\"
Wayworthstared,blushedveryred,thenlaughedout。\"Whatistherefunnyinthat?\"hedemanded;butbeforehisinterlocutresscouldsatisfyhimonthispointheinquired,further,howsheknewanythingaboutit。Afteralittlegracefulevasionsheexplainedthatthenightbefore,atthe\"Legitimate,\"Mrs。Beaumont,thewifeoftheactor—manager,hadpaidheravisitinherbox;whichhadhappened,inthecourseoftheirbriefgossip,toleadtoherremarkingthatshehadneverbeen\"behind。\"Mrs。Beaumontofferedonthespottotakeherround,andthefancyhadseizedhertoaccepttheinvitation。Shehadbeenamusedforthemoment,andinthiswayitbefellthatherconductress,atherrequest,hadintroducedhertoMissVioletGrey,whowaswaitinginthewingforoneofherscenes。
Mrs。Beaumonthadbeencalledawayforthreeminutes,andduringthisscrapoftime,facetofacewiththeactress,shehaddiscoveredthepoorgirl’ssecret。Wayworthqualifieditasasenselessthing,butwishedtoknowwhathadledtothediscovery。Shecharacterisedthisinquiryassuperficialforapainterofthewaysofwomen;andhedoubtlessdidn’timproveitbyremarkingprofanelythatacatmightlookatakingandthatsuchthingswereconvenienttoknow。Evenonthisground,however,hewasthreatenedbyMrs。Alsager,whocontendedthatitmightnotbeajokingmattertothepoorgirl。TothisWayworth,whonowprofessedtohatetalkingaboutthepassionshemighthaveinspired,couldonlyreplythathemeantitcouldn’tmakeadifferencetoMrs。Alsager。
\"HowintheworlddoyouknowwhatmakesadifferencetoME?\"thisladyasked,withincongruouscoldness,withahaughtinessindeedremarkableinsogentleaspirit。
HesawVioletGreythatnightatthetheatre,anditwasshewhospokefirstofherhavinglatelymetafriendofhis。
\"She’sinlovewithyou,\"theactresssaid,afterhehadmadeashowofignorance;\"doesn’tthattellyouanything?\"
HeblushedredderstillthanMrs。Alsagerhadmadehimblush,butreplied,quicklyenoughandveryadequately,thathundredsofwomenwerenaturallydyingforhim。
\"Oh,Idon’tcare,foryou’renotinlovewithHER!\"thegirlcontinued。
\"Didshetellyouthattoo?\"Wayworthasked;butshehadatthatmomenttogoon。
Standingwherehecouldseeherhethoughtthatonthisoccasionshethrewintoherscene,whichwasthebestshehadintheplay,abrighterartthaneverbefore,atalentthatcouldplaywithitsproblem。Shewasperpetuallydoingthingsoutofrehearsal(shedidtwoorthreeto—night,intheotherman’spiece),thatheasoftenwishedtoheavenNonaVincentmighthavethebenefitof。Sheappearedtobeabletodothemforeveryonebuthim——thatisforeveryonebutNona。Hewasconscious,inthesedays,ofanoddnewfeeling,whichmixed(thiswasapartofitsoddity)withaverynaturalandcomparativelyoldoneandwhichinitsmostdefiniteformwasadullacheofregretthatthisyounglady’sunluckystarshouldhaveplacedheronthestage。Hewishedinhisworstuneasinessthat,withoutgoingfurther,shewouldgiveitup;andyetitsoothedthatuneasinesstoremindhimselfthathesawgroundstohopeshewouldgofarenoughtomakeamarkedsuccessofNona。Therewerestrangeandpainfulmomentswhen,astheinterpretressofNona,healmosthatedher;afterwhich,however,healwaysassuredhimselfthatheexaggerated,inasmuchaswhatmadethisaversionseemgreat,whenhewasnervous,wassimplyitscontrastwiththegrowingsensethatthereWEREgrounds——totallydifferent——onwhichshepleasedhim。
Shepleasedhimasacharmingcreature——byhersinceritiesandherperversities,bythevarietiesandsurprisesofhercharacterandbycertainhappyfactsofherperson。Inprivatehereyesweresadtohimandhervoicewasrare。Hedetestedtheideathatsheshouldhaveadisappointmentoranhumiliation,andhewantedtorescueheraltogether,tosaveandtransplanther。Onewaytosaveherwastoseetoit,tothebestofhisability,thattheproductionofhisplayshouldbeatriumph;andtheotherway——itwasreallytooqueertoexpress——wasalmosttowishthatitshouldn’tbe。Then,forthefuture,therewouldbesafetyandpeace,andnotthepeaceofdeath——
thepeaceofadifferentlife。Itistobeaddedthatouryoungmanclungtotheformerofthesewaysinproportionasthelatterperverselytemptedhim。Hewasnervousatthebest,increasinglyandintolerablynervous;buttheimmediateremedywastorehearseharderandharder,andabovealltoworkitoutwithVioletGrey。Someofhercomradesreproachedhimwithworkingitoutonlywithher,asifshewerethewholeaffair;towhichherepliedthattheycouldaffordtobeneglected,theywereallsotremendouslygood。Shewastheonlypersonconcernedwhomhedidn’tflatter。
TheauthorandtheactressstucksotothebusinessinhandthatshehadverylittletimetospeaktohimagainofMrs。Alsager,ofwhomindeedherimaginationappearedadequatelytohavedisposed。
WayworthonceremarkedtoherthatNonaVincentwassupposedtobeagooddeallikehischarmingfriend;butshegaveablank\"Supposedbywhom?\"inconsequenceofwhichheneverreturnedtothesubject。HeconfidedhisnervousnessasfreelyasusualtoMrs。Alsager,whoeasilyunderstoodthathehadapeculiarcomplicationofanxieties。
Hissuspensevariedindegreefromhourtohour,butanyrelieftheremighthavebeeninthiswasmadeupforbyitsbeingofseveraldifferentkinds。Oneafternoon,asthefirstperformancedrewnear,Mrs。Alsagersaidtohim,ingivinghimhiscupofteaandonhishavingmentionedthathehadnotclosedhiseyesthenightbefore:
\"Youmustindeedbeinadreadfulstate。Anxietyforanotherisstillworsethananxietyforone’sself。\"
\"Foranother?\"Wayworthrepeated,lookingatherovertherimofhiscup。
\"Mypoorfriend,you’renervousaboutNonaVincent,butyou’reinfinitelymorenervousaboutVioletGrey。\"
\"SheISNonaVincent!\"
\"No,sheisn’t——notabit!\"saidMrs。Alsager,abruptly。
\"Doyoureallythinkso?\"Wayworthcried,spillinghisteainhisalarm。
\"WhatIthinkdoesn’tsignify——ImeanwhatIthinkaboutthat。WhatImeanttosaywasthatgreatasisyoursuspenseaboutyourplay,yoursuspenseaboutyouractressisgreaterstill。\"
\"IcanonlyrepeatthatmyactressISmyplay。\"
Mrs。Alsagerlookedthoughtfullyintotheteapot。
\"Youractressisyour——\"
\"Mywhat?\"theyoungmanasked,withalittletremorinhisvoice,ashishostesspaused。
\"Yourverydearfriend。You’reinlovewithher——atpresent。\"AndwithasharpclickMrs。Alsagerdroppedthelidonthefragrantreceptacle。
\"Notyet——notyet!\"laughedhervisitor。
\"Youwillbeifshepullsyouthrough。\"
\"YoudeclarethatsheWON’Tpullmethrough。\"
Mrs。Alsagerwassilentamoment,afterwhichshesoftlymurmured:
\"I’llprayforher。\"
\"You’rethemostgenerousofwomen!\"Wayworthcried;thencolouredasifthewordshadnotbeenhappy。Theywouldhavedoneindeedlittlehonourtoamanoftact。
ThenextmorninghereceivedfivehurriedlinesfromMrs。Alsager。
ShehadsuddenlybeencalledtoTorquay,toseearelationwhowasseriouslyill;sheshouldbedetainedthereseveraldays,butshehadanearnesthopeofbeingabletoreturnintimeforhisfirstnight。
Inanyeventhehadherunrestrictedgoodwishes。Hemissedherextremely,fortheselastdayswereagreatstrainandtherewaslittlecomforttobederivedfromVioletGrey。Shewasevenmorenervousthanhimself,andsopaleandalteredthathewasafraidshewouldbetooilltoact。Itwassettledbetweenthemthattheymadeeachotherworseandthathehadnowmuchbetterleaveheralone。
TheyhadpulledNonasotopiecesthatnothingseemedleftofher——
shemustatleasthavetimetogrowtogetheragain。HeleftVioletGreyalone,tothebestofhisability,butshecarriedoutimperfectlyherownsideofthebargain。Shecametohimwithnewquestions——shewaitedforhimwitholddoubts,andhalfanhourbeforethelastdress—rehearsal,ontheeveofproduction,sheproposedtohimatotallyfreshrenderingofhisheroine。Thisincidentgavehimsuchasenseofinsecuritythatheturnedhisbackonherwithoutaword,boltedoutofthetheatre,dashedalongtheStrandandwalkedasfarastheBank。Thenhejumpedintoahansomandcamewestward,andwhenhereachedthetheatreagainthebusinesswasnearlyover。Itappeared,almosttohisdisappointment,notbadenoughtogivehimtheconsolationoftheoldplayhouseadagethattheworstdress—rehearsalsmakethebestfirstnights。
Themorrow,whichwasaWednesday,wasthedreadfulday;thetheatrehadbeenclosedontheMondayandtheTuesday。Everyone,ontheWednesday,didhisbesttoleteveryoneelsealone,andeveryonesignallyfailedintheattempt。Theday,tillseveno’clock,wasunderstoodtobeconsecratedtorest,buteveryoneexceptVioletGreyturnedupatthetheatre。WayworthlookedatMr。Loder,andMr。
Loderlookedinanotherdirection,whichwasasnearastheycametoconversation。Wayworthwasinafidget,unabletoeatorsleeporsitstill,attimesalmostinterror。Hekeptquietbykeeping,asusual,inmotion;hetriedtowalkawayfromhisnervousness。HewalkedintheafternoontowardNottingHill,buthesucceededinnotbreakingthevowhehadtakennottomeddlewithhisactress。Shewaslikeanacrobatpoisedonaslipperyball——ifheshouldtouchhershewouldtoppleover。Hepassedherdoorthreetimesandhethoughtofherthreehundred。ThiswasthehouratwhichhemostregrettedthatMrs。Alsagerhadnotcomeback——forhehadcalledatherhouseonlytolearnthatshewasstillatTorquay。Thiswasprobablyqueer,anditwasprobablyqueererstillthatshehadn’twrittentohim;butevenofthesethingshewasn’tsure,forinlosing,ashehadnowcompletelylost,hisjudgmentofhisplay,heseemedtohimselftohavelosthisjudgmentofeverything。Whenhewenthome,however,hefoundatelegramfromtheladyofGrosvenorPlace——\"Shallbeabletocome——reachtownbyseven。\"Athalf—pasteighto’clock,throughalittleapertureinthecurtainofthe\"Renaissance,\"hesawherinherboxwithaclusteroffriends——completelybeautifulandbeneficent。Thehousewasmagnificent——toogoodforhisplay,hefelt;toogoodforanyplay。Everythingnowseemedtoogood——thescenery,thefurniture,thedresses,theveryprogrammes。HeseizedupontheideathatthiswasprobablywhatwasthematterwiththerepresentativeofNona——shewasonlytoogood。Hehadcompletelyarrangedwiththisyoungladytheplanoftheirrelationsduringtheevening;andthoughtheyhadalteredeverythingelsethattheyhadarrangedtheyhadpromisedeachothernottoalterthis。Itwaswonderfulthenumberofthingstheyhadpromisedeachother。Hewouldstarther,hewouldseeheroff——thenhewouldquitthetheatreandstayawaytilljustbeforetheend。Shebesoughthimtostayaway——itwouldmakeherinfinitelyeasier。Hesawthatshewasexquisitelydressed——shehadmadeoneortwochangesforthebettersincethenightbefore,andthatseemedsomethingdefinitetoturnoverandoverinhismindasherumbledfoggilyhomeinthefour—
wheelerinwhich,afewstepsfromthestage—door,hehadtakenrefugeassoonasheknewthatthecurtainwasup。Helivedacoupleofmilesoff,andhehadchosenafour—wheelertodragoutthetime。
Whenhegothomehisfirewasout,hisroomwascold,andhelaydownonhissofainhisovercoat。Hehadsenthislandladytothedress—
circle,onpurpose;shewouldoverflowwithwordsandmistakes。Thehouseseemedablackvoid,justasthestreetshaddone——everyonewas,formidably,athisplay。Hewasquieteratlastthanhehadbeenforafortnight,andhefelttooweakeventowonderhowthethingwasgoing。Hebelievedafterwardsthathehadsleptanhour;
butevenifhehadhefeltittobestilltooearlytoreturntothetheatre。Hesatdownbyhislampandtriedtoread——toreadalittlecompendiouslifeofagreatEnglishstatesman,outofa\"series。\"Itstruckhimasbrilliantlyclever,andheaskedhimselfwhetherthatperhapswerenotratherthesortofthingheoughttohavetakenup:
notthestatesmanship,buttheartofbriefbiography。Suddenlyhebecameawarethathemusthurryifhewastoreachthetheatreatall——itwasaquartertoeleveno’clock。Hescrambledoutand,thistime,foundahansom——hehadlatelyspentenoughmoneyincabstoaddtohishopethattheprofitsofhisnewprofessionwouldbegreat。
Hisanxiety,hissuspenseflamedupagain,andasherattledeastward——hewentfastnow——hewasalmostsickwithalternations。Ashepassedintothetheatrethefirstman——someunderling——whomethim,criedtohim,breathlessly:
\"You’rewanted,sir——you’rewanted!\"Hethoughthistoneveryominous——hedevouredtheman’seyeswithhisown,forabetrayal:
didhemeanthathewaswantedforexecution?Someoneelsepressedhim,almostpushedhim,forward;hewasalreadyonthestage。Thenhebecameconsciousofasoundmoreorlesscontinuous,butseeminglyfaintandfar,whichhetookatfirstforthevoiceoftheactorsheardthroughtheircanvaswalls,thebeautifulbuilt—inroomofthelastact。Buttheactorswereinthewing,theysurroundedhim;thecurtainwasdownandtheywerecomingofffrombeforeit。Theyhadbeencalled,andHEwascalled——theyallgreetedhimwith\"Goon——goon!\"Hewasterrified——hecouldn’tgoon——hedidn’tbelieveintheapplause,whichseemedtohimonlyaudibleenoughtosoundhalf—
hearted。
\"Hasitgone?——HASitgone?\"hegaspedtothepeopleroundhim;andheheardthemsay\"Rather——rather!\"perfunctorily,mendaciouslytoo,asitstruckhim,andevenwithmockinglaughter,thelaughterofdefeatanddespair。Suddenly,thoughallthismusthavetakenbutamoment,Loderburstuponhimfromsomewherewitha\"ForGod’ssakedon’tkeepthem,orthey’llSTOP!\"\"ButIcan’tgoonforTHAT!\"
Wayworthcried,inanguish;thesoundseemedtohimalreadytohaveceased。Loderhadholdofhimandwasshovinghim;heresistedandlookedroundfranticallyforVioletGrey,whoperhapswouldtellhimthetruth。Therewasbythistimeacrowdinthewing,allwithstrangegrimacingpaintedfaces,butVioletwasnotamongthemandherveryabsencefrightenedhim。Heutteredhernamewithanaccentthatheafterwardsregretted——itgavethem,ashethought,bothaway;
andwhileLoderhustledhimbeforethecurtainheheardsomeonesay\"Shetookhercallanddisappeared。\"Shehadhadacall,then——thiswaswhatwasmostpresenttotheyoungmanashestoodforaninstantintheglareofthefootlights,lookingblindlyatthegreatvaguely—
peopledhorseshoeandgreetedwithplauditswhichnowseemedtohimatoncelouderthanhedeservedandfeeblerthanhedesired。Theysanktorestquickly,buthefeltittobelongbeforehecouldbackaway,beforehecould,inhisturn,seizethemanagerbythearmandcryhuskily——\"Hasitreallygone——REALLY?\"
Mr。Loderlookedathimhardandrepliedafteraninstant:\"Theplay’sallright!\"
Wayworthhunguponhislips。\"Thenwhat’sallwrong?\"
\"WemustdosomethingtoMissGrey。\"
\"What’sthematterwithher?\"
\"Sheisn’tINit!\"
\"Doyoumeanshehasfailed?\"
\"Yes,damnit——shehasfailed。\"
Wayworthstared。\"Thenhowcantheplaybeallright?\"
\"Oh,we’llsaveit——we’llsaveit。\"
\"Where’sMissGrey——whereISshe?\"theyoungmanasked。
Lodercaughthisarmashewasturningawayagaintolookforhisheroine。\"Nevermindhernow——sheknowsit!\"
WayworthwasapproachedatthesamemomentbyagentlemanheknewasoneofMrs。Alsager’sfriends——hehadperceivedhiminthatlady’sbox。Mrs。Alsagerwaswaitingthereforthesuccessfulauthor;shedesiredveryearnestlythathewouldcomeroundandspeaktoher。
WayworthassuredhimselffirstthatViolethadleftthetheatre——oneoftheactressescouldtellhimthatshehadseenherthrowonacloak,withoutchangingherdress,andhadlearntafterwardsthatshehad,thenextmoment,flungherself,afterflingingheraunt,intoacab。Hehadwishedtoinvitehalfadozenpersons,ofwhomMissGreyandherelderlyrelativeweretwo,tocomehometosupperwithhim;
butshehadrefusedtomakeanyengagementbeforehand(itwouldbesodreadfultohavetokeepitifsheshouldn’thavemadeahit),andthisattitudehadblightedthepleasantplan,whichfelltotheground。Hehadcalledhermorbid,butshewasimmovable。Mrs。
Alsager’smessengerlethimknowthathewasexpectedtosupperinGrosvenorPlace,andhalfanhourafterwardshewasseatedthereamongcomplimentarypeopleandflowersandpoppingcorks,eatingthefirstorderlymealhehadpartakenofforaweek。Mrs。Alsagerhadcarriedhimoffinherbrougham——theotherpeoplewhowerecominggotintothingsoftheirown。Hestoppedhershortassoonasshebegantotellhimhowtremendouslyeveryonehadbeenstruckbythepiece;
henailedherdowntothequestionofVioletGrey。Hadshespoilttheplay,hadshejeopardisedorcompromisedit——hadshebeenutterlybad,hadshebeengoodinanydegree?
\"CertainlytheperformancewouldhaveseemedbetterifSHEhadbeenbetter,\"Mrs。Alsagerconfessed。
\"Andtheplaywouldhaveseemedbetteriftheperformancehadbeenbetter,\"Wayworthsaid,gloomily,fromthecornerofthebrougham。
\"Shedoeswhatshecan,andshehastalent,andshelookedlovely。
Butshedoesn’tSEENonaVincent。Shedoesn’tseethetype——shedoesn’tseetheindividual——shedoesn’tseethewomanyoumeant。
She’soutofit——shegivesyouadifferentperson。\"
\"Oh,thewomanImeant!\"theyoungmanexclaimed,lookingattheLondonlampsasherolledbythem。\"IwishtoGodshehadknownYOU!\"headded,asthecarriagestopped。Aftertheyhadpassedintothehousehesaidtohiscompanion:
\"YouseesheWON’Tpullmethrough。\"
\"Forgiveher——bekindtoher!\"Mrs。Alsagerpleaded。
\"Ishallonlythankher。Theplaymaygotothedogs。\"
\"Ifitdoes——ifitdoes,\"Mrs。Alsagerbegan,withherpureeyesonhim。
\"Well,whatifitdoes?\"
Shecouldn’ttellhim,fortherestofherguestscameintogether;
sheonlyhadtimetosay:\"ItSHA’N’Tgotothedogs!\"
Hecameawaybeforetheothers,restlesswiththedesiretogotoNottingHilleventhatnight,lateasitwas,hauntedwiththesensethatVioletGreyhadmeasuredherfall。Whenhegotintothestreet,however,heallowedsecondthoughtstocounselanothercourse;theeffectofknockingherupattwoo’clockinthemorningwouldhardlybetosootheher。Helookedatsixnewspapersthenextdayandfoundinthemneveragoodwordforher。Theywerewellenoughaboutthepiece,buttheywereunanimousastothedisappointmentcausedbytheyoungactresswhoseformereffortshadexcitedsuchhopesandonwhom,onthisoccasion,suchpressingresponsibilitiesrested。Theyaskedinchoruswhatwasthematterwithher,andtheydeclaredinchorusthattheplay,whichwasnotwithoutpromise,washandicapped(theyallusedthesameword)bytheoddwantofcorrespondencebetweentheheroineandherinterpreter。WayworthdroveearlytoNottingHill,buthedidn’ttakethenewspaperswithhim;VioletGreycouldbetrustedtohavesentoutforthembythepeepofdawnandtohavefedheranguishfull。Shedeclinedtoseehim——sheonlysentdownwordbyherauntthatshewasextremelyunwellandshouldbeunabletoactthatnightunlesssheweresufferedtospendthedayunmolestedandinbed。Wayworthsatforanhourwiththeoldlady,whounderstoodeverythingandtowhomhecouldspeakfrankly。Shegavehimatouchingpictureofherniece’scondition,whichwasallthemorevividforthesimplewordsinwhichitwasexpressed:\"Shefeelssheisn’tright,youknow——shefeelssheisn’tright!\"
\"Tellheritdoesn’tmatter——itdoesn’tmatterastraw!\"saidWayworth。
\"Andshe’ssoproud——youknowhowproudsheis!\"theoldladywenton。
\"TellherI’mmorethansatisfied,thatIaccepthergratefullyassheis。\"
\"Shesayssheinjuresyourplay,thatsheruinsit,\"saidhisinterlocutress。
\"She’llimprove,immensely——she’llgrowintothepart,\"theyoungmancontinued。
\"She’dimproveifsheknewhow——butshesaysshedoesn’t。Shehasgivenallshehasgot,andshedoesn’tknowwhat’swanted。\"
\"What’swantedissimplythatsheshouldgostraightonandtrustme。\"
\"Howcanshetrustyouwhenshefeelsshe’slosingyou?\"
\"Losingme?\"Wayworthcried。
\"You’llneverforgiveherifyourplayistakenoff!\"
\"Itwillrunsixmonths,\"saidtheauthorofthepiece。
Theoldladylaidherhandonhisarm。\"Whatwillyoudoforherifitdoes?\"
HelookedatVioletGrey’sauntamoment。\"Doyousayyournieceisveryproud?\"
\"Tooproudforherdreadfulprofession。\"
\"Thenshewouldn’twishyoutoaskmethat,\"Wayworthanswered,gettingup。
Whenhereachedhomehewasverytired,andforapersontowhomitwasopentoconsiderthathehadscoredasuccesshespentaremarkablydismalday。Allhisrestlessnesshadgone,andfatigueanddepressionpossessedhim。Hesankintohisoldchairbythefireandsatthereforhourswithhiseyesclosed。Hislandladycameintobringhisluncheonandmendthefire,buthefeignedtobeasleep,soasnottobespokento。Itistobesupposedthatsleepatlastovertookhim,foraboutthehourthatduskbegantogatherhehadanextraordinaryimpression,avisitthat,itwouldseem,couldhavebelongedtonowakingconsciousness。NonaVincent,infaceandform,thelivingheroineofhisplay,rosebeforehiminhislittlesilentroom,satdownwithhimathisdingyfireside。ShewasnotVioletGrey,shewasnotMrs。Alsager,shewasnotanywomanhehadseenuponearth,norwasitanymasqueradeoffriendshiporofpenitence。
Yetshewasmorefamiliartohimthanthewomenhehadknownbest,andshewasineffablybeautifulandconsoling。Shefilledthepoorroomwithherpresence,theeffectofwhichwasassoothingassomeodourofincense。Shewasasquietasanaffectionatesister,andtherewasnosurpriseinherbeingthere。Nothingmorerealhadeverbefallenhim,andnothing,somehow,morereassuring。Hefeltherhandrestuponhisown,andallhissensesseemedtoopentohermessage。Shestruckhim,inthestrangestway,bothashiscreationandashisinspirer,andshegavehimthehappiestconsciousnessofsuccess。Ifshewassocharming,intheredfirelight,inhervague,clear—colouredgarments,itwasbecausehehadmadeherso,andyetiftheweightseemedliftedfromhisspirititwasbecauseshedrewitaway。Whenshebentherdeepeyesuponhimtheyseemedtospeakofsafetyandfreedomandtomakeagreengardenofthefuture。Fromtimetotimeshesmiledandsaid:\"Ilive——Ilive——Ilive。\"Howlongshestayedhecouldn’thavetold,butwhenhislandladyblunderedinwiththelampNonaVincentwasnolongerthere。Herubbedhiseyes,butnodreamhadeverbeensointense;andasheslowlygotoutofhischairitwaswithadeepstilljoy——thejoyoftheartist——inthethoughtofhowrighthehadbeen,howexactlylikeherselfhehadmadeher。Shehadcometoshowhimthat。Attheendoffiveminutes,however,hefeltsufficientlymystifiedtocallhislandladyback——hewantedtoaskheraquestion。Whenthegoodwomanreappearedthequestionhungfireaninstant;thenitshapeditselfastheinquiry:
\"Hasanyladybeenhere?\"
\"No,sir——noladyatall。\"
Thewomanseemedslightlyscandalised。\"NotMissVincent?\"
\"MissVincent,sir?\"
\"Theyoungladyofmyplay,don’tyouknow?\"
\"Oh,sir,youmeanMissVioletGrey!\"
\"NoIdon’t,atall。IthinkImeanMrs。Alsager。\"
\"TherehasbeennoMrs。Alsager,sir。\"
\"Noranybodyatalllikeher?\"
Thewomanlookedathimasifshewonderedwhathadsuddenlytakenhim。Thensheaskedinaninjuredtone:\"Whyshouldn’tIhavetoldyouifyou’d’adcallers,sir?\"
\"IthoughtyoumighthavethoughtIwasasleep。\"
\"Indeedyouwere,sir,whenIcameinwiththelamp——andwellyou’dearnedit,Mr。Wayworth!\"
Thelandladycamebackanhourlatertobringhimatelegram;itwasjustashehadbeguntodresstodineathisclubandgodowntothetheatre。
\"Seemeto—nightinfront,anddon’tcomenearmetillit’sover。\"
ItwasinthesewordsthatVioletcommunicatedherwishesfortheevening。Heobeyedthemtotheletter;hewatchedherfromthedepthsofabox。Hewasinnopositiontosayhowshemighthavestruckhimthenightbefore,butwhathesawduringthesecharmedhoursfilledhimwithadmirationandgratitude。SheWASinit,thistime;shehadpulledherselftogether,shehadtakenpossession,shewasfelicitousateveryturn。FreshfromhisrevelationofNonahewasinapositiontojudge,andashejudgedheexulted。Hewasthrilledandcarriedaway,andhewasmoreoverintenselycurioustoknowwhathadhappenedtoher,bywhatunfathomableartshehadmanagedinafewhourstoeffectsuchachangeofbase。ItwasasifSHEhadhadarevelationofNona,soconvincingaclearnesshadbeenbreatheduponthepicture。Hekepthimselfquietintheentr’actes——
hewouldspeaktoheronlyattheend;butbeforetheplaywashalfoverthemanagerburstintohisbox。
\"It’sprodigious,whatshe’supto!\"criedMr。Loder,almostmorebewilderedthangratified。\"Shehasgoneinforanewreading——ablessedsomersaultintheair!\"
\"Isitquitedifferent?\"Wayworthasked,sharinghismystification。
\"Different?Hyperiontoasatyr!It’sdevilishgood,myboy!\"
\"It’sdevilishgood,\"saidWayworth,\"andit’sinadifferentkeyaltogetherfromthekeyofherrehearsal。\"
\"I’llrunyousixmonths!\"themanagerdeclared;andherushedroundagaintotheactress,leavingWayworthwithasensethatshehadalreadypulledhimthrough。Shehadwiththeaudienceanimmensepersonalsuccess。
Whenhewentbehind,attheend,hehadtowaitforher;sheonlyshowedherselfwhenshewasreadytoleavethetheatre。Heraunthadbeeninherdressing—roomwithher,andthetwoladiesappearedtogether。Thegirlpassedhimquickly,motioninghimtosaynothingtilltheyshouldhavegotoutoftheplace。Hesawthatshewasimmenselyexcited,liftedaltogetherabovehercommonartisticlevel。
Theoldladysaidtohim:\"Youmustcomehometosupperwithus:ithasbeenallarranged。\"Theyhadabrougham,withalittlethirdseat,andhegotintoitwiththem。Itwasalongtimebeforetheactresswouldspeak。Sheleanedbackinhercorner,givingnosignbutstillheavingalittle,likeasubsidingsea,andwithallhertriumphintheeyesthatshonethroughthedarkness。Theoldladywashushedtoawe,oratleasttodiscretion,andWayworthwashappyenoughtowait。HehadreallytowaittilltheyhadalightedatNottingHill,wheretheelderofhiscompanionswenttoseethatsupperhadbeenattendedto。
\"Iwasbetter——Iwasbetter,\"saidVioletGrey,throwingoffhercloakinthelittledrawing—room。
\"Youwereperfection。You’llbelikethateverynight,won’tyou?\"
Shesmiledathim。\"Everynight?Therecanscarcelybeamiracleeveryday。\"
\"Whatdoyoumeanbyamiracle?\"
\"I’vehadarevelation。\"
Waywardstared。\"Atwhathour?\"
\"Therighthour——thisafternoon。Justintimetosaveme——andtosaveYOU。\"
\"Atfiveo’clock?Doyoumeanyouhadavisit?\"
\"Shecametome——shestayedtwohours。\"
\"Twohours?NonaVincent?\"
\"Mrs。Alsager。\"VioletGreysmiledmoredeeply。\"It’sthesamething。\"
\"AndhowdidMrs。Alsagersaveyou?\"
\"Bylettingmelookather。Bylettingmehearherspeak。Bylettingmeknowher。\"
\"Andwhatdidshesaytoyou?\"
\"Kindthings——encouraging,intelligentthings。\"
\"Ah,thedearwoman!\"Wayworthcried。
\"Yououghttolikeher——shelikesYOU。ShewasjustwhatIwanted,\"
theactressadded。
\"DoyoumeanshetalkedtoyouaboutNona?\"
\"Shesaidyouthoughtshewaslikeher。SheIS——she’sexquisite。\"
\"She’sexquisite,\"Wayworthrepeated。\"Doyoumeanshetriedtocoachyou?\"
\"Oh,no——sheonlysaidshewouldbesogladifitwouldhelpmetoseeher。AndIfeltitdidhelpme。Idon’tknowwhattookplace——
sheonlysatthere,andsheheldmyhandandsmiledatme,andshehadtactandgrace,andshehadgoodnessandbeauty,andshesoothedmynervesandlightedupmyimagination。SomehowsheseemedtoGIVE
italltome。Itookit——Itookit。Ikeptherbeforeme,Idrankherin。Forthefirsttime,inthewholestudyofthepart,Ihadmymodel——Icouldmakemycopy。Allmycouragecamebacktome,andotherthingscamethatIhadn’tfeltbefore。Shewasdifferent——shewasdelightful;asI’vesaid,shewasarevelation。Shekissedmewhenshewentaway——andyoumayguessifIkissedHER。Wewereawfullyaffectionate,butit’sYOUshelikes!\"saidVioletGrey。
Wayworthhadneverbeenmoreinterestedinhislife,andhehadrarelybeenmoremystified。\"Didshewearvague,clear—colouredgarments?\"heasked,afteramoment。
VioletGreystared,laughed,thenbadehimgointosupper。\"YOU
knowhowshedresses!\"
Hewasverywellpleasedatsupper,buthewassilentandalittlesolemn。HesaidhewouldgotoseeMrs。Alsagerthenextday。Hedidso,buthewastoldatherdoorthatshehadreturnedtoTorquay。
Sheremainedthereallwinter,allspring,andthenexttimehesawherhisplayhadruntwohundrednightsandhehadmarriedVioletGrey。Hisplayssometimessucceed,buthiswifeisnotinthemnow,norinanyothers。AttheserepresentationsMrs。Alsagercontinuesfrequentlytobepresent。