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  CHAPTERI。

  \"Iwonderedwhetheryouwouldn’treadittome,\"saidMrs。Alsager,astheylingeredalittlenearthefirebeforehetookleave。Shelookeddownatthefiresideways,drawingherdressawayfromitandmakingherproposalwithashysinceritythataddedtohercharm。

  HercharmwasalwaysgreatforAllanWayworth,andthewholeairofherhouse,whichwassimplyasortofdistillationofherself,sosoothing,sobeguilingthathealwaysmadeseveralfalsestartsbeforedeparture。Hehadspentsomesuchgoodhoursthere,hadforgotten,inherwarm,goldendrawing—room,somuchofthelonelinessandsomanyoftheworriesofhislife,thatithadcometobetheimmediateanswertohislongings,thecureforhisaches,theharbourofrefugefromhisstorms。Histribulationswerenotunprecedented,andsomeofhisadvantages,ifofausualkind,weremarkedindegree,inasmuchashewasverycleverforonesoyoung,andveryindependentforonesopoor。Hewaseight—and—twenty,buthehadlivedagooddealandwasfullofambitionsandcuriositiesanddisappointments。TheopportunitytotalkofsomeoftheseinGrosvenorPlacecorrectedperceptiblytheimmenseinconvenienceofLondon。ThisinconveniencetookforhimprincipallythelineofinsensibilitytoAllanWayworth’sliteraryform。Hehadaliteraryform,orhethoughthehad,andherintelligentrecognitionofthecircumstancewasthesweetestconsolationMrs。Alsagercouldhaveadministered。Shewasevenmoreliteraryandmoreartisticthanhe,inasmuchashecouldoftenworkoffhisoverflow(thiswashisoccupation,hisprofession),whilethegenerouswoman,aboundinginhappythoughts,butuneditedandunpublished,stoodthereintherisingtidelikethenymphofafountainintheplashofthemarblebasin。

  Theyearbefore,inabignewspaperyhouse,hehadfoundhimselfnextheratdinner,andtheyhadconvertedtheintenselymaterialhourintoafeastofreason。Therewasnomotiveforheraskinghimtocometoseeherbutthatshelikedhim,whichitwasthemoreagreeabletohimtoperceiveasheperceivedatthesametimethatshewasexquisite。Shewasenviablyfreetoactuponherlikings,anditmadeWayworthfeellessunsuccessfultoinferthatforthemomenthehappenedtobeoneofthem。Hekepttherevelationtohimself,andindeedtherewasnothingtoturnhisheadinthekindnessofakindwoman。Mrs。Alsageroccupiedsocompletelythegroundofpossessionthatshewouldhavebeencondemnedtoinactionhaditnotbeenfortheprincipleofgiving。Herhusband,whowastwentyyearshersenior,amassivepersonalityintheCityandaheavyoneathome(whereverhestood,orevensat,hewasmonumental),ownedhalfabignewspaperandthewholeofagreatmanyotherthings。Headmiredhiswife,thoughsheborenochildren,andlikedhertohaveothertastesthanhis,asthatseemedtogiveagreateracreagetotheirlife。Hisownappetiteswentsofarhecouldscarcelyseetheboundary,andhistheorywastotrusthertopushthelimitsofhers,sothatbetweenthemthepairshouldastoundbytheirconsumption。Hisideaswereprodigiouslyvulgar,butsomeofthemhadthegoodfortunetobecarriedoutbyapersonofperfectdelicacy。Herdelicacymadeherplaystrangetrickswiththem,butheneverfoundthisout。Sheattenuatedhimwithouthisknowingit,forwhathemainlythoughtwasthathehadaggrandisedHER。Withoutherhereallywouldhavebeenbiggerstill,andsociety,breathingmorefreely,waspracticallyunderanobligationtoherwhich,todoitjustice,itacknowledgedbyanattitudeofmystifiedrespect。Shefeltatremulousneedtothrowherlibertyandherleisureintothethingsofthesoul——themostbeautifulthingssheknew。Shefoundthem,whenshegavetimetoseeking,inahundredplaces,andparticularlyinadimandsacredregion——theregionofactivepity——

  overherentranceintowhichshedroppedcurtainssothickthatitwouldhavebeenanimpertinencetoliftthem。Butshecultivatedotherbeneficentpassions,andifshecherishedthedreamofsomethingfinethemomentsatwhichitmostseemedtohertocometruewerewhenshesawbeautypluckedflower—likeinthegardenofart。Shelovedtheperfectwork——shehadtheartisticchord。Thischordcouldvibrateonlytothetouchofanother,sothatappreciation,inherspirit,hadtheaddedintensityofregret。Shecouldunderstandthejoyofcreation,andshethoughtitscarcelyenoughtobetoldthatsheherselfcreatedhappiness。Shewouldhaveliked,atanyrate,tochooseherway;butitwasjustherethatherlibertyfailedher。Shehadnotthevoice——shehadonlythevision。

  Theonlyenvyshewascapableofwasdirectedtothosewho,asshesaid,coulddosomething。

  Aseverythinginher,however,turnedtogentleness,shewasadmirablyhospitabletosuchpeopleasaclass。ShebelievedAllanWayworthcoulddosomething,andshelikedtohearhimtalkofthewaysinwhichhemeanttoshowit。Hetalkedofthemalmosttonooneelse——shespoiledhimforotherlisteners。Withherfairbloomandherquietgraceshewasindeedanidealpublic,andifshehadeverconfidedtohimthatshewouldhavelikedtoscribble(shehadinfactnotmentionedittoacreature),hewouldhavebeeninaperfectpositionforaskingherwhyawomanwhosefacehadsomuchexpressionshouldnothavefeltthatsheachieved。Howintheworldcouldsheexpressbetter?TherewaslessthanthatinShakespeareandBeethoven。Shehadneverbeenmoregenerousthanwhen,incompliancewithherinvitation,whichIhaverecorded,hebroughthisplaytoreadtoher。Hehadspokenofittoherbefore,andonedarkNovemberafternoon,whenherredfiresidewasmorethaneveranescapefromtheplaceandtheseason,hehadbrokenoutashecamein——\"I’vedoneit,I’vedoneit!\"Shemadehimtellherallaboutit——shetookaninterestreallyminuteandaskedquestionsdelightfullyapt。Shehadspokenfromthefirstasifhewereonthepointofbeingacted,makinghimjump,withherparticipation,allsortsofdrearyintervals。Shelikedthetheatreasshelikedalltheartsofexpression,andhehadknownhertogoallthewaytoParisforaparticularperformance。Oncehehadgonewithher——thetimeshetookthatstupidMrs。Mostyn。Shehadbeenstruck,whenhesketchedit,withthesubjectofhisdrama,andhadspokenwordsthathelpedhimtobelieveinit。Assoonashehadrungdownhiscurtainonthelastactherushedofftoseeher,butafterthathekeptthethingforrepeatedlasttouches。Finally,onChristmasday,byarrangement,shesatthereandlistenedtoit。Itwasinthreeactsandinprose,butratheroftheromanticorder,thoughdealingwithcontemporaryEnglishlife,andhefondlybelievedthatitshowedthehandifnotofthemaster,atleastoftheprizepupil。

  AllanWayworthhadreturnedtoEngland,attwo—and—twenty,afteramiscellaneouscontinentaleducation;hisfather,thecorrespondent,foryears,inseveralforeigncountriessuccessively,ofaconspicuousLondonjournal,haddiedjustafterthis,leavinghismotherandhertwootherchildren,portionlessgirls,tosubsistonaverysmallincomeinaverydullGermantown。Theyoungman’sbeginningsinLondonweredifficult,andhehadaggravatedthembyhisdislikeofjournalism。Hisfather’sconnectionwithitwouldhavehelpedhim,buthewas(insanely,mostofhisfriendsjudged——

  thegreatexceptionwasalwaysMrs。Alsager)INTRAITABLEonthequestionofform。Form——inhissense——wasnotdemandedbyEnglishnewspapers,andhecouldn’tgiveittotheminTHEIRsense。Thedemandforitwasnotgreatanywhere,andWayworthspentcostlyweeksinpolishinglittlecompositionsformagazinesthatdidn’tpayforstyle。TheonlypersonwhopaidforitwasreallyMrs。Alsager:shehadaninfallibleinstinctfortheperfect。Shepaidinherownway,andifAllanWayworthhadbeenawage—earningpersonitwouldhavemadehimfeelthatifhedidn’treceivehislegaldueshispalmwasatleastoccasionallyconsciousofagratuity。Hehadhislimitations,hisperversities,butthefinestpartsofhimwerethemostalive,andhewasrestlessandsincere。ItishowevertheimpressionheproducedonMrs。Alsagerthatmostconcernsus:shethoughthimnotonlyremarkablygood—lookingbutaltogetheroriginal。

  Thereweresomeusualbadthingshewouldneverdo——toomanyprohibitivepuddlesforhimintheshortcuttosuccess。

  Forhimself,hehadneverbeensohappyassincehehadseenhisway,ashefondlybelieved,tosomesortofmasteryofthescenicidea,whichstruckhimasaverydifferentmatternowthathelookedatitfromwithin。Hehadhadhisearlydaysofcontemptforit,whenitseemedtohimajewel,dimatthebest,hiddeninadunghill,ataperburninglowinanairthickwithvulgarity。Itwashedgedaboutwithsordidapproaches,itwasnotworthsacrificeandsuffering。Themanofletters,indealingwithit,wouldhavetoputoffallliterature,whichwaslikeaskingthebearerofanoblenametoforegohisimmemorialheritage。Aspectschange,however,withthepointofview:Wayworthhadwakeduponemorninginadifferentbedaltogether。Itisneedlessheretotracethisaccidenttoitssource;itwouldhavebeenmuchmoreinterestingtoaspectatoroftheyoungman’slifetofollowsomeoftheconsequences。Hehadbeenmade(ashefelt)thesubjectofaspecialrevelation,andheworehishatlikeamaninlove。Anangelhadtakenhimbythehandandguidedhimtotheshabbydoorwhichopens,itappeared,intoaninteriorbothsplendidandaustere。Thescenicideawasmagnificentwhenonceyouhadembracedit——thedramaticformhadapuritywhichmadesomeotherslookingloriouslyrough。Ithadthehighdignityoftheexactsciences,itwasmathematicalandarchitectural。Itwasfulloftherefreshmentofcalculationandconstruction,theincorruptibilityoflineandlaw。Itwasbare,butitwaserect,itwaspoor,butitwasnoble;itremindedhimofsomesovereignfamedforjusticewhoshouldhavelivedinapalacedespoiled。Therewasafearfulamountofconcessioninit,butwhatyoukepthadarareintensity。Youwereperpetuallythrowingoverthecargotosavetheship,butwhatamotionyougaveherwhenyoumadeherridethewaves——amotionasrhythmicasthedanceofagoddess!WayworthtooklongLondonwalksandthoughtofthesethings——Londonpouredintohisearsthemightyhumofitssuggestion。Hisimaginationglowedandmelteddownmaterial,hisintentionsmultipliedandmadetheairagoldenhaze。Hesawnotonlythethingheshoulddo,butthenextandthenextandthenext;thefutureopenedbeforehimandheseemedtowalkonmarbleslabs。Themorehetriedthedramaticformthemorehelovedit,themorehelookedatitthemoreheperceivedinit。Whatheperceivedinitindeedhenowperceivedeverywhere;ifhestopped,intheLondondusk,beforesomeflaringshop—window,theplaceimmediatelyconstituteditselfbehindfootlights,becameaframedstageforhisfigures。Hehammeredatthesefiguresinhislonelylodging,heshapedthemandheshapedtheirtabernacle;hewaslikeagoldsmithchisellingacasket,bentoverwiththepassionforperfection。Whenhewasneitherroamingthestreetswithhisvisionnorworryinghisproblemathistable,hewasexchangingideasonthegeneralquestionwithMrs。Alsager,towhomhepromiseddetailsthatwouldamuseherinlaterandstillhappierhours。Hereyeswerefulloftearswhenhereadherthelastwordsofthefinishedwork,andshemurmured,divinely—

  \"Andnow——togetitdone,togetitdone!\"

  \"Yes,indeed——togetitdone!\"Wayworthstaredatthefire,slowlyrollinguphistype—copy。\"Butthat’satotallydifferentpartofthebusiness,andaltogethersecondary。\"

  \"Butofcourseyouwanttobeacted?\"

  \"OfcourseIdo——butit’sasuddendescent。Iwanttointensely,butI’msorryIwantto。\"

  \"It’sthereindeedthatthedifficultiesbegin,\"saidMrs。Alsager,alittleoffherguard。

  \"Howcanyousaythat?It’stherethattheyend!\"

  \"Ah,waittoseewheretheyend!\"

  \"Imeanthey’llnowbeofatotallydifferentorder,\"Wayworthexplained。\"Itseemstometherecanbenothingintheworldmoredifficultthantowriteaplaythatwillstandanall—roundtest,andthatincomparisonwiththemthecomplicationsthatspringupatthispointareofanaltogethersmallerkind。\"

  \"Yes,they’renotinspiring,\"saidMrs。Alsager;\"they’rediscouraging,becausethey’revulgar。Theotherproblem,theworkingoutofthethingitself,ispureart。\"

  \"Howwellyouunderstandeverything!\"Theyoungmanhadgotup,nervously,andwasleaningagainstthechimney—piecewithhisbacktothefireandhisarmsfolded。Therollofhiscopy,inhisfist,wassqueezedintothehollowofoneofthem。HelookeddownatMrs。

  Alsager,smilinggratefully,andsheansweredhimwithasmilefromeyesstillcharmedandsuffused。\"Yes,thevulgaritywillbeginnow,\"hepresentlyadded。

  \"You’llsufferdreadfully。\"

  \"Ishallsufferinagoodcause。\"

  \"Yes,givingTHATtotheworld!Youmustleaveitwithme,Imustreaditoverandover,\"Mrs。Alsagerpleaded,risingtocomeneareranddrawthecopy,initscoverofgreenish—greypaper,whichhadagenericidentitynowtohim,outofhisgrasp。\"Whointheworldwilldoit?——whointheworldCAN?\"shewenton,closetohim,turningovertheleaves。Beforehecouldanswershehadstoppedatoneofthepages;sheturnedthebookroundtohim,pointingoutaspeech。\"That’sthemostbeautifulplace——thoselinesareaperfection。\"Heglancedatthespotsheindicated,andshebeggedhimtoreadthemagain——hehadreadthemadmirablybefore。Heknewthembyheart,and,closingthebookwhilesheheldtheotherendofit,hemurmuredthemovertoher——theyhadindeedacadencethatpleasedhim——watching,withafacetiouscomplacencywhichhehopedwaspardonable,theapplauseinherface。\"Ah,whocanuttersuchlinesasTHAT?\"Mrs。Alsagerbrokeout;\"whomcanyoufindtodoHER?\"

  \"We’llfindpeopletodothemall!\"

  \"Butnotpeoplewhoareworthy。\"

  \"They’llbeworthyenoughifthey’rewillingenough。I’llworkwiththem——I’llgrinditintothem。\"Hespokeasifhehadproducedtwentyplays。

  \"Oh,itwillbeinteresting!\"sheechoed。

  \"ButIshallhavetofindmytheatrefirst。Ishallhavetogetamanagertobelieveinme。\"

  \"Yes——they’resostupid!\"

  \"ButfancythepatienceIshallwant,andhowIshallhavetowatchandwait,\"saidAllanWayworth。\"DoyouseemehawkingitaboutLondon?\"

  \"IndeedIdon’t——itwouldbesickening。\"

  \"It’swhatIshallhavetodo。Ishallbeoldbeforeit’sproduced。\"

  \"Ishallbeoldverysoonifitisn’t!\"Mrs。Alsagercried。\"Iknowoneortwoofthem,\"shemused。

  \"Doyoumeanyouwouldspeaktothem?\"

  \"Thethingistogetthemtoreadit。Icoulddothat。\"

  \"That’stheutmostIask。Butit’sevenforthatIshallhavetowait。\"

  Shelookedathimwithkindsisterlyeyes。\"Yousha’n’twait。\"

  \"Ah,youdearlady!\"Wayworthmurmured。

  \"ThatisYOUmay,but_I_won’t!Willyouleavemeyourcopy?\"shewenton,turningthepagesagain。

  \"Certainly;Ihaveanother。\"Standingnearhimshereadtoherselfapassagehereandthere;then,inhersweetvoice,shereadsomeofthemout。\"Oh,ifYOUwereonlyanactress!\"theyoungmanexclaimed。

  \"That’sthelastthingIam。There’snocomedyinME!\"

  ShehadneverappearedtoWayworthsomuchhisgoodgenius。\"Isthereanytragedy?\"heasked,withthelevityofcompleteconfidence。

  Sheturnedawayfromhim,atthis,withastrangeandcharminglaughanda\"Perhapsthatwillbeforyoutodetermine!\"ButbeforehecoulddisclaimsucharesponsibilityshehadfacedhimagainandwastalkingaboutNonaVincentasifshehadbeenthemostinterestingoftheirfriendsandhersituationatthatmomentanirresistibleappealtotheirsympathy。NonaVincentwastheheroineoftheplay,andMrs。Alsagerhadtakenatremendousfancytoher。\"Ican’tTELLyouhowIlikethatwoman!\"sheexclaimedinapensiveraptureofcredulitywhichcouldonlybebalmtotheartisticspirit。

  \"I’mawfullygladshelivesabit。WhatIfeelaboutheristhatshe’sagooddeallikeYOU,\"Wayworthobserved。

  Mrs。Alsagerstaredaninstantandturnedfaintlyred。Thiswasevidentlyaviewthatfailedtostrikeher;shedidn’t,however,treatitasajoke。\"I’mnotimpressedwiththeresemblance。I

  don’tseemyselfdoingwhatshedoes。\"

  \"Itisn’tsomuchwhatsheDOES,\"theyoungmanargued,drawingouthismoustache。

  \"Butwhatshedoesisthewholepoint。Shesimplytellsherlove——I

  shouldneverdothat。\"

  \"Ifyourepudiatesuchaproceedingwithsuchenergy,whydoyoulikeherforit?\"

  \"Itisn’twhatIlikeherfor。\"

  \"Whatelse,then?That’sintenselycharacteristic。\"

  Mrs。Alsagerreflected,lookingdownatthefire;shehadtheairofhavinghalf—a—dozenreasonstochoosefrom。Buttheonesheproducedwasunexpectedlysimple;itmightevenhavebeenpromptedbydespairatnotfindingothers。\"IlikeherbecauseYOUmadeher!\"sheexclaimedwithalaugh,movingagainawayfromhercompanion。

  Wayworthlaughedstilllouder。\"Youmadeheralittleyourself。

  I’vethoughtofheraslookinglikeyou。\"

  \"Sheoughttolookmuchbetter,\"saidMrs。Alsager。\"No,certainly,Ishouldn’tdowhatSHEdoes。\"

  \"Noteveninthesamecircumstances?\"

  \"Ishouldneverfindmyselfinsuchcircumstances。They’reexactlyyourplay,andhavenothingincommonwithsuchalifeasmine。

  However,\"Mrs。Alsagerwenton,\"herbehaviourwasnaturalforHER,andnotonlynatural,but,itseemstome,thoroughlybeautifulandnoble。Ican’tsufficientlyadmirethetalentandtactwithwhichyoumakeoneacceptit,andItellyoufranklythatit’sevidenttometheremustbeabrilliantfuturebeforeayoungmanwho,atthestart,hasbeencapableofsuchastrokeasthat。ThankheavenIcanadmireNonaVincentasintenselyasIfeelthatIdon’tresembleher!\"

  \"Don’texaggeratethat,\"saidAllanWayworth。

  \"Myadmiration?\"

  \"Yourdissimilarity。Shehasyourface,yourair,yourvoice,yourmotion;shehasmanyelementsofyourbeing。\"

  \"Thenshe’lldamnyourplay!\"Mrs。Alsagerreplied。Theyjokedalittleoverthis,thoughitwasnotinthetoneofpleasantrythatWayworth’shostesssoonremarked:\"You’vegotyourremedy,however:

  haveherdonebytherightwoman。\"

  \"Oh,haveher’done’——haveher’done’!\"theyoungmangentlywailed。

  \"Iseewhatyoumean,mypoorfriend。Whatapity,whenit’ssuchamagnificentpart——suchachanceforacleverseriousgirl!NonaVincentispracticallyyourplay——itwillbeopentohertocarryitfarortodropitatthefirstcorner。\"

  \"It’sacharmingprospect,\"saidAllanWayworth,withsuddenscepticism。Theylookedateachotherwitheyesthat,foraluridmoment,sawtheworstoftheworst;butbeforetheypartedtheyhadexchangedvowsandconfidencesthatwerededicatedwhollytotheideal。Itisnottobesupposed,however,thattheknowledgethatMrs。AlsagerwouldhelphimmadeWayworthlesseagertohelphimself。

  Hedidwhathecouldandfeltthatshe,onherside,wasdoingnoless;butattheendofayearhewasobligedtorecognisethattheirunitedefforthadmainlyproducedthefineflowerofdiscouragement。

  Attheendofayearthelustrehad,tohisowneyes,quitefadedfromhisunappreciatedmasterpiece,andhefoundhimselfwritingforabiographicaldictionarylittlelivesofcelebritieshehadneverheardof。Tobeprinted,anywhereandanyhow,wasaformofgloryforamansounabletobeacted,andtobepaid,evenatencyclopaedicrates,hadtheconsequenceofmakingoneresignedandverbose。Hecouldn’tsmugglestyleintoadictionary,buthecouldatleastreflectthathehaddonehisbesttolearnfromthedramathatitisagrossimpertinencealmostanywhere。HehadknockedatthedoorofeverytheatreinLondon,and,ataruinousexpense,hadmultipliedtype—copiesofNonaVincenttoreplacetheneattranscriptsthathaddescendedintothemanagerialabyss。Hisplaywasnotevendeclined——nosuchflatteringintimationwasgivenhimthatithadbeenread。WhatthemanagerswoulddoforMrs。Alsagerconcernedhimlittletoday;thethingthatwasrelevantwasthattheywoulddonothingforHIM。Thatcharmingwomanfelthumbledtotheearth,solittleresponsehadshehadfromthepowersonwhichshecounted。Thetwonevertalkedabouttheplaynow,buthetriedtoshowherastillfinerfriendship,thatshemightnotthinkhefeltshehadfailedhim。HestillwalkedaboutLondonwithhisdreams,butasmonthssucceededmonthsandhelefttheyearbehindhimtheyweredreamsnotsomuchofsuccessasofrevenge。Successseemedacolourlessnamefortherewardofhispatience;somethingfiercelyflorid,somethingsanguinolentwasmoretothepoint。Hisbestconsolationhoweverwasstillinthescenicidea;itwasnottillnowthathediscoveredhowincurablyhewasinlovewithit。Bythetimeavainsecondyearhadchafeditselfawayhecherishedhisfruitlessfacultythemorefortheobloquyitseemedtosuffer。Helived,inhisbesthours,inaworldofsubjectsandsituations;hewroteanotherplayandmadeitasdifferentfromitspredecessorassuchaverygoodthingcouldbe。Itmightbeaverygoodthing,butwhenhehadcommittedittothetheatricallimboindiscriminatingfatetooknoaccountofthedifference。HewasatlastabletoleaveEnglandforthreeorfourmonths;hewenttoGermanytopayavisitlongdeferredtohismotherandsisters。

  ShortlybeforethetimehehadfixedforhisreturnhereceivedfromMrs。Alsageratelegramconsistingofthewords:\"Loderwishesseeyou——puttingNonainstantrehearsal。\"Hespentthefewhoursbeforehisdepartureinkissinghismotherandsisters,whoknewenoughaboutMrs。Alsagertojudgeitluckythisrespectablemarriedladywasnotthere——arelief,however,accompaniedwithspeculativeglancesatLondonandthemorrow。Loder,asouryoungmanwasaware,meantthenew\"Renaissance,\"butthoughhereachedhomeintheeveningitwasnottothisconvenientmoderntheatrethatWayworthfirstproceeded。HespentalatehourwithMrs。Alsager,anhourthatthrobbedwithcalculation。ShetoldhimthatMr。Loderwascharming,hehadsimplytakenuptheplayinitsturn;hehadhopesofit,moreover,thatonthepartofaprofessionalpessimistmightalmostbequalifiedasecstatic。Ithadbeencast,withamarginforobjections,andVioletGreywastodotheheroine。Shehadbeencapable,whilehewasaway,ofagoodpieceofworkatthatfoggyoldplayhousethe\"Legitimate;\"thepiecewasaclumsyrechauffe,butsheatleasthadbeenfresh。WayworthrememberedVioletGrey——hadn’the,fortwoyears,onafondpolicyof\"lookingout,\"keptdippingintotheLondontheatrestopickupprospectiveinterpreters?Hehadnotpickedupmanyasyet,andthisyoungladyatalleventshadneverwriggledinhisnet。Shewasprettyandshewasodd,buthehadneverprefiguredherasNonaVincent,norindeedfoundhimselfattractedbywhathealreadyfeltsufficientlylaunchedintheprofessiontospeakofasherartisticpersonality。Mrs。Alsagerwasdifferent——shedeclaredthatshehadbeenstrucknotalittlebysomeofhertones。Thegirlwasinterestinginthethingatthe\"Legitimate,\"andMr。Loder,whohadhiseyeonher,describedherasambitiousandintelligent。Shewantedawfullytogeton——andsomeofthoseladiesweresolazy!Wayworthwassceptical——hehadseenMissVioletGrey,whowasterriblyitinerant,inadozentheatresbutonlyinoneaspect。NonaVincenthadadozenaspects,butonlyonetheatre;yetwithwhatafeverishcuriositytheyoungmanpromisedhimselftowatchtheactressonthemorrow!TalkingthematteroverwithMrs。Alsagernowseemedtheverystuffthatrehearsalwasmadeof。Thenearprospectofbeingactedlaidafingerevenonthelipofinquiry;hewantedtogoontiptoetillthefirstnight,tomakenoconditionbutthattheyshouldspeakhislines,andhefeltthathewouldn’tsomuchasraiseaneyebrowatthescene—painterifheshouldgivehimanoldoakchamber。

  Hebecameconscious,thenextday,thathisdangerwouldbeotherthanthis,andyethecouldn’thaveexpressedtohimselfwhatitwouldbe。Dangerwasthere,doubtless——dangerwaseverywhere,intheworldofart,andstillmoreintheworldofcommerce;butwhathereallyseemedtocatch,forthehour,wasthebeatingofthewingsofvictory。Nothingcouldunderminethat,sinceitwasvictorysimplytobeacted。Itwouldbevictoryeventobeactedbadly;areflectionthatdidn’tpreventhim,however,frombanishing,inhispoliticoptimism,theword\"bad\"fromhisvocabulary。Ithadnoapplication,inthecompromiseofpractice;itdidn’tapplyeventohisplay,whichhewasconscioushehadalreadyoutlivedandastowhichheforesawthat,inthecomingweeks,frequentalarmwouldalternate,inhisspirit,withfrequentesteem。Whenhewentdowntotheduskydaylittheatre(itarchedoverhimlikethetempleoffame)

  Mr。Loder,whowasascharmingasMrs。Alsagerhadannounced,struckhimasthegeniusofhospitality。Themanagerbegantoexplainwhy,forsolong,hehadgivennosign;butthatwasthelastthingthatinterestedWayworthnow,andhecouldneverrememberafterwardswhatreasonsMr。Loderhadenumerated。Heliked,inthewholebusinessofdiscussionandpreparation,eventhethingshehadthoughtheshouldprobablydislike,andherevelledinthosehehadthoughtheshouldlike。HewatchedMissVioletGreythateveningwitheyesthatsoughttopenetrateherpossibilities。Shecertainlyhadafew;theywerequalitiesofvoiceandface,qualitiesperhapsevenofintelligence;

  hesatthereatanyratewithafostering,coaxingattention,repeatingovertohimselfasconvincinglyashecouldthatshewasnotcommon——acircumstanceallthemorecreditableasthepartshewasplayingseemedtohimdesperatelyso。Heperceivedthatthiswaswhyitpleasedtheaudience;hedivinedthatitwastheparttheyenjoyedratherthantheactress。Hehadaprivatepanic,wonderinghow,iftheylikedTHATform,theycouldpossiblylikehis。Hisformhadnowbecomequiteanultimateideatohim。BythetimetheeveningwasoversomeofMissVioletGrey’sfeatures,severaloftheturnsofherhead,acertainvibrationofhervoice,hadtakentheirplaceinthesamecategory。SheWASinteresting,shewasdistinguished;atanyratehehadacceptedher:itcametothesamething。Butheleftthetheatrethatnightwithoutspeakingtoher——

  moved(alittleeventohisownmystification)byanoddprocrastinatingimpulse。Onthemorrowhewastoreadhisthreeactstothecompany,andthenheshouldhaveagooddealtosay;whathefeltforthemomentwasavagueindispositiontocommithimself。

  MoreoverhefoundaslightconfusionofannoyanceinthefactthatthoughhehadbeentryingalltheeveningtolookatNonaVincentinVioletGrey’sperson,whatsubsistedinhisvisionwassimplyVioletGreyinNona’s。Hedidn’twishtoseetheactresssodirectly,orevensosimplyasthat;andithadbeenveryfatiguing,theefforttofocusNonaboththroughtheperformerandthroughthe\"Legitimate。\"

  BeforehewenttobedthatnighthepostedthreewordstoMrs。

  Alsager——\"She’snotabitlikeit,butIdaresayIcanmakeherdo。\"

  Hewaspleasedwiththewaytheactresslistened,thenextday,atthereading;hewaspleasedindeedwithmanythings,atthereading,andmostofallwiththereadingitself。Thewholeaffairloomedlargetohimandhemagnifieditandmappeditout。Heenjoyedhisoccupationofthebig,dim,hollowtheatre,fulloftheechoesof\"effect\"andofaqueersmellofgasandsuccess——itallseemedsuchapassivecanvasforhispicture。Forthefirsttimeinhislifehewasincommandofresources;hewasacquaintedwiththephrase,buthadneverthoughtheshouldknowthefeeling。HewassurprisedatwhatLoderappearedreadytodo,thoughheremindedhimselfthathemustnevershowit。Heforesawthattherewouldbetwodistinctconcomitantstotheartisticeffortofproducingaplay,oneconsistingofagreatdealofanguishandtheotherofagreatdealofamusement。Helookedbackuponthereading,afterwards,asthebesthourinthebusiness,becauseitwasthenthatthepiecehadmoststruckhimasrepresented。Whatcamelaterwasthedoingofothers;butthis,withitsimperfectionsandfailures,wasallhisown。Thedramalived,atanyrate,forthathour,withanintensitythatitwaspromptlytoloseinthepovertyandpatchinessofrehearsal;hecouldseeitslifereflected,inawaythatwassweettohim,inthestillnessofthelittlesemi—circleofattentiveandinscrutable,ofwater—proofedandmuddy—booted,actors。MissVioletGreywastheauditorhehadmosttosayto,andhetriedonthespot,acrosstheshabbystage,toletherhavethesoulofherpart。Herattitudewasgraceful,butthoughsheappearedtolistenwithallherfacultiesherfaceremainedperfectlyblank;afact,however,notdiscouragingtoWayworth,wholikedherbetterfornotbeingpremature。Hercompanionsgavediscerniblesignsofrecognisingthepassagesofcomedy;yetWayworthforgavehereventhenforbeinginexpressive。Sheevidentlywishedbeforeeverythingelsetobesimplysureofwhatitwasallabout。

  HewasmoresurprisedeventhanattherevelationofthescaleonwhichMr。Loderwasreadytoproceedbythediscoverythatsomeoftheactorsdidn’tliketheirparts,andhisheartsankasheaskedhimselfwhathecouldpossiblydowiththemiftheyweregoingtobesostupid。Thiswasthefirstofhisdisappointments;somehowhehadexpectedeveryindividualtobecomeinstantlyandgratefullyconsciousofarareopportunity,andfromthemomentsuchacalculationfailedhewasatsea,ormindfulatanyratethatmoredisappointmentswouldcome。Itwasimpossibletomakeoutwhatthemanagerlikedordisliked;nojudgment,nocommentescapedhim;hisacceptanceoftheplayandhisviewsaboutthewayitshouldbemountedhadapparentlyconvertedhimintoaveiledandshroudedfigure。Wayworthwasabletograsptheideathattheywouldallmovenowinahigherandsharperairthanthatofcomplimentandconfidence。WhenhetalkedwithVioletGreyafterthereadinghegatheredthatshewasreallyrathercrude:whatbetterproofofitcouldtherebethanherfailuretobreakoutinstantlywithanexpressionofdelightabouthergreatchance?Thisreserve,however,hadevidentlynothingtodowithhighpretensions;shehadnowishtomakehimfeelthatapersonofhereminencewassuperiortoeasyraptures。Heguessed,afteralittle,thatshewaspuzzledandevensomewhatfrightened——toacertainextentshehadnotunderstood。

  Nothingcouldappealtohimmorethantheopportunitytoclearupherdifficulties,inthecourseoftheexaminationofwhichhequicklydiscoveredthat,sofarassheHADunderstood,shehadunderstoodwrong。Ifshewascrudeitwasonlyareasonthemorefortalkingtoher;hekeptsayingtoher\"Askme——askme:askmeeverythingyoucanthinkof。\"

  Sheaskedhim,shewasperpetuallyaskinghim,andatthefirstrehearsals,whichwerewithoutformandvoidtoadegreethatmadethemstrikehimmuchmoreasthedeathofanexperimentthanasthedawnofasuccess,theythreshedthingsoutimmenselyinacornerofthestage,withtheeffectofhiscomingtofeelthatatanyrateshewasinearnest。Hefeltmoreandmorethathisheroinewasthekeystoneofhisarch,forwhichindeedtheactresswasveryreadytotakeher。Butwhenheremindedthisyoungladyofthewaythewholethingpracticallydependedonhershewasalarmedandevenslightlyscandalised:shespokemorethanonceasifthatcouldscarcelybetherightwaytoconstructaplay——makeitstandorfallbyonepoornervousgirl。Shewasalmostmorbidlyconscientious,andintheoryhelikedherforthis,thoughhelostpatiencethreeorfourtimeswiththethingsshecouldn’tdoandthethingsshecould。Atsuchtimesthetearscametohereyes;buttheywereproducedbyherownstupidity,shehastenedtoassurehim,notbythewayhespoke,whichwasawfullykindunderthecircumstances。Hersinceritymadeherbeautiful,andhewishedtoheaven(andmadeapointoftellingherso)thatshecouldsprinklealittleofitoverNona。Once,however,shewassotouchedandtroubledthatthesightofitbroughtthetearsforaninstanttohisowneyes;anditsohappenedthat,turningatthismoment,hefoundhimselffacetofacewithMr。Loder。

  Themanagerstared,glancedattheactress,whoturnedintheotherdirection,andthensmilingatWayworth,exclaimed,withthehumourofamanwhoheardthegallerylaugheverynight:

  \"Isay——Isay!\"

  \"What’sthematter?\"Wayworthasked。

  \"I’mgladtoseeMissGreyistakingsuchpainswithyou。\"

  \"Oh,yes——she’llturnmeout!\"saidtheyoungman,gaily。HewasquiteawarethatitwasapparenthewasnotsuperficialaboutNona,andabundantlydetermined,intothebargain,thattherehearsalofthepieceshouldnotsacrificeashadeofthoroughnesstoanyextrinsicconsideration。

  Mrs。Alsager,whom,lateintheafternoon,heusedoftentogoandaskforacupoftea,thankingherinadvancefortherestshegavehimandtellingherhowhefoundthatrehearsal(asTHEYweredoingit——itwasacaution!)tookitoutofone——Mrs。Alsager,moreandmorehisgoodgeniusand,asherepeatedlyassuredher,hisministeringangel,confirmedhiminthissuperiorpolicyandurgedhimontoeveryformofartisticdevotion。Shehad,naturally,neverbeenmoreinterestedthannowinhiswork;shewantedtoheareverythingabouteverything。Shetreatedhimasheroicallyfatigued,pliedhimwithluxuriousrestoratives,madehimstretchhimselfoncushionsandrose—leaves。Theygossippedmorethanever,byherfire,abouttheartisticlife;heconfidedtoher,forinstance,allhishopesandfears,allhisexperimentsandanxieties,onthesubjectoftherepresentativeofNona。Shewasimmenselyinterestedinthisyoungladyandshoweditbytakingaboxagainandagain(shehadseenherhalf—a—dozentimesalready),tostudyhercapacitythroughtheveilofherpresentpart。LikeAllanWayworthshefoundherencouragingonlybyfits,forshehadfineflashesofbadness。

  Shewasintelligent,butshecriedaloudfortraining,andthetrainingwassoabsentthattheintelligencehadonlyafractionofitseffect。Shewaslikeaknifewithoutanedge——goodsteelthathadneverbeensharpened;shehackedawayatherharddramaticloaf,shecouldn’tcutitsmooth。

  CHAPTERII。

  \"Certainlymyleadingladywon’tmakeNonamuchlikeYOU!\"WayworthonedaygloomilyremarkedtoMrs。Alsager。Thereweredayswhentheprospectseemedtohimawful。

  \"Somuchthebetter。There’snonecessityforthat。\"

  \"Iwishyou’dtrainheralittle——youcouldsoeasily,\"theyoungmanwenton;inresponsetowhichMrs。Alsagerrequestedhimnottomakesuchcruelfunofher。Butshewascuriousaboutthegirl,wantedtohearofhercharacter,herprivatesituation,howshelivedandwhere,seemedindeeddesiroustobefriendher。WayworthmightnothaveknownmuchabouttheprivatesituationofMissVioletGrey,but,asithappened,hewasable,bythetimehisplayhadbeenthreeweeksinrehearsal,tosupplyinformationonsuchpoints。Shewasacharming,exemplaryperson,educated,cultivated,withhighlymoderntastes,anexcellentmusician。Shehadlostherparentsandwasverymuchaloneintheworld,heronlytworelationsbeingasister,whowasmarriedtoacivilservant(inahighlyresponsiblepost)inIndia,andadearlittleold—fashionedaunt(reallyagreat—aunt)

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