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  Theoldmanclungtohisdaughterduringthissickness。Hewouldtakehisbrothsandmedicinesfromscarcelyanyotherhand。Totendhimbecamealmostthesolebusinessofherlife。Herbedwasplacedclosebythedoorwhichopenedintohischamber,andshewasaliveattheslightestnoiseordisturbancefromthecouchofthequerulousinvalid。Though,todohimjustice,helayawakemanyanhour,silentandwithoutstirring,unwillingtoawakenhiskindandvigilantnurse。

  Helovedhisdaughterwithmorefondnessnow,perhaps,thaneverhehaddonesincethedaysofherchildhood。Inthedischargeofgentleofficesandkindfilialduties,thissimplecreatureshonemostespecially。”Shewalksintotheroomassilentlyasasunbeam。”Mr。

  Dobbinthoughtashesawherpassinginandoutfromherfather’sroom,acheerfulsweetnesslightingupherfaceasshemovedtoandfro,gracefulandnoiseless。Whenwomenarebroodingovertheirchildren,orbusiedinasick-room,whohasnotseenintheirfacesthosesweetangelicbeamsofloveandpity?

  Asecretfeudofsomeyears’standingwasthushealed,andwithatacitreconciliation。Intheselasthours,andtouchedbyherloveandgoodness,theoldmanforgotallhisgriefagainsther,andwrongswhichheandhiswifehadmanyalongnightdebated:howshehadgivenupeverythingforherboy;howshewascarelessofherparentsintheiroldageandmisfortune,andonlythoughtofthechild;howabsurdlyandfoolishly,impiouslyindeed,shetookonwhenGeorgewasremovedfromher。OldSedleyforgotthesechargesashewasmakinguphislastaccount,anddidjusticetothegentleanduncomplaininglittlemartyr。Onenightwhenshestoleintohisroom,shefoundhimawake,whenthebrokenoldmanmadehisconfession。”Oh,Emmy,I’vebeenthinkingwewereveryunkindandunjusttoyou。”

  hesaidandputouthiscoldandfeeblehandtoher。Shekneltdownandprayedbyhisbedside,ashedidtoo,havingstillholdofherhand。Whenourturncomes,friend,maywehavesuchcompanyinourprayers!

  Perhapsashewaslyingawakethen,hislifemayhavepassedbeforehim——hisearlyhopefulstruggles,hismanlysuccessesandprosperity,hisdownfallinhisdecliningyears,andhispresenthelplesscondition——nochanceofrevengeagainstFortune,whichhadhadthebetterofhim——neithernamenormoneytobequeath——aspent-out,bootlesslifeofdefeatanddisappointment,andtheendhere!Which,Iwonder,brotherreader,isthebetterlot,todieprosperousandfamous,orpooranddisappointed?Tohave,andtobeforcedtoyield;ortosinkoutoflife,havingplayedandlostthegame?Thatmustbeastrangefeeling,whenadayofourlifecomesandwesay,“To-morrow,successorfailurewon’tmattermuch,andthesunwillrise,andallthemyriadsofmankindgototheirworkortheirpleasureasusual,butIshallbeoutoftheturmoil。”

  Sotherecameonemorningandsunrisewhenalltheworldgotupandsetaboutitsvariousworksandpleasures,withtheexceptionofoldJohnSedley,whowasnottofightwithfortune,ortohopeorschemeanymore,buttogoandtakeupaquietandutterlyunknownresidenceinachurchyardatBromptonbythesideofhisoldwife。

  MajorDobbin,Jos,andGeorgyfollowedhisremainstothegrave,inablackclothcoach。JoscameonpurposefromtheStarandGarteratRichmond,whitherheretreatedafterthedeplorableevent。Hedidnotcaretoremaininthehouse,withthe——underthecircumstances,youunderstand。ButEmmystayedanddidherdutyasusual。Shewasboweddownbynoespecialgrief,andrathersolemnthansorrowful。Sheprayedthatherownendmightbeascalmandpainless,andthoughtwithtrustandreverenceofthewordswhichshehadheardfromherfatherduringhisillness,indicativeofhisfaith,hisresignation,andhisfuturehope。

  Yes,Ithinkthatwillbethebetterendingofthetwo,afterall。Supposeyouareparticularlyrichandwell-to-

  doandsayonthatlastday,“Iamveryrich;Iamtolerablywellknown;Ihavelivedallmylifeinthebestsociety,andthankHeaven,comeofamostrespectablefamily。IhaveservedmyKingandcountrywithhonour。

  IwasinParliamentforseveralyears,where,Imaysay,myspeecheswerelistenedtoandprettywellreceived。

  Idon’toweanymanashilling:onthecontrary,Ilentmyoldcollegefriend,JackLazarus,fiftypounds,forwhichmyexecutorswillnotpresshim。Ileavemydaughterswithtenthousandpoundsapiece——verygoodportionsforgirls;Ibequeathmyplateandfurniture,myhouseinBakerStreet,withahandsomejointure,tomywidowforherlife;andmylandedproperty,besidesmoneyinthefunds,andmycellarofwell-selectedwineinBakerStreet,tomyson。Ileavetwentypoundayeartomyvalet;andIdefyanymanafterIhavegonetofindanythingagainstmycharacter。”Orsuppose,ontheotherhand,yourswansingsquiteadifferentsortofdirgeandyousay。”Iamapoorblighted,disappointedoldfellow,andhavemadeanutterfailurethroughlife。Iwasnotendowedeitherwithbrainsorwithgoodfortune,andconfessthatIhavecommittedahundredmistakesandblunders。

  Iowntohavingforgottenmydutymanyatime。Ican’tpaywhatIowe。OnmylastbedIlieutterlyhelplessandhumble,andIprayforgivenessformyweaknessandthrowmyself,withacontriteheart,atthefeetoftheDivineMercy。”Whichofthesetwospeeches,thinkyou,wouldbethebestorationforyourownfuneral?

  OldSedleymadethelast;andinthathumbleframeofmind,andholdingbythehandofhisdaughter,lifeanddisappointmentandvanitysankawayfromunderhim。

  “Yousee。”saidoldOsbornetoGeorge,“whatcomesofmerit,andindustry,andjudiciousspeculations,andthat。Lookatmeandmybanker’saccount。LookatyourpoorGrandfatherSedleyandhisfailure。AndyethewasabettermanthanIwas,thisdaytwentyyears——abetterman,Ishouldsay,bytenthousandpound。”

  BeyondthesepeopleandMr。Clapp’sfamily,whocameoverfromBromptontopayavisitofcondolence,notasinglesoulaliveevercaredapennypieceaboutoldJohnSedley,orrememberedtheexistenceofsuchaperson。

  WhenoldOsbornefirstheardfromhisfriendColonelBuckleraslittleGeorgyhadalreadyinformedushowdistinguishedanofficerMajorDobbinwas,heexhibitedagreatdealofscornfulincredulityandexpressedhissurprisehoweversuchafellerasthatshouldpossesseitherbrainsorreputation。ButheheardoftheMajor’sfamefromvariousmembersofhissociety。SirWilliamDobbinhadagreatopinionofhissonandnarratedmanystoriesillustrativeoftheMajor’slearning,valour,andestimationintheworld’sopinion。Finally,hisnameappearedinthelistsofoneortwogreatpartiesofthenobility,andthiscircumstancehadaprodigiouseffectupontheoldaristocratofRussellSquare。

  TheMajor’sposition,asguardiantoGeorgy,whosepossessionhadbeencededtohisgrandfather,renderedsomemeetingsbetweenthetwogentlemeninevitable;

  anditwasinoneofthesethatoldOsborne,akeenmanofbusiness,lookingintotheMajor’saccountswithhiswardandtheboy’smother,gotahint,whichstaggeredhimverymuch,andatoncepainedandpleasedhim,thatitwasoutofWilliamDobbin’sownpocketthatapartofthefundhadbeensupplieduponwhichthepoorwidowandthechildhadsubsisted。

  Whenpresseduponthepoint,Dobbin,whocouldnottelllies,blushedandstammeredagooddealandfinallyconfessed。”Themarriage。”hesaidatwhichhisinterlocutor’sfacegrewdark“wasverymuchmydoing。I

  thoughtmypoorfriendhadgonesofarthatretreatfromhisengagementwouldhavebeendishonourtohimanddeathtoMrs。Osborne,andIcoulddonoless,whenshewasleftwithoutresources,thangivewhatmoneyIcouldsparetomaintainher。”

  “MajorD……”Mr。Osbornesaid,lookinghardathimandturningveryredtoo——“youdidmeagreatinjury;butgivemeleavetotellyou,sir,youareanhonestfeller。

  There’smyhand,sir,thoughIlittlethoughtthatmyfleshandbloodwaslivingonyou——“andthepairshookhands,withgreatconfusiononMajorDobbin’spart,thusfoundoutinhisactofcharitablehypocrisy。

  Hestrovetosoftentheoldmanandreconcilehimtowardshisson’smemory。”Hewassuchanoblefellow。”

  hesaid,“thatallofuslovedhim,andwouldhavedoneanythingforhim。I,asayoungmaninthosedays,wasflatteredbeyondmeasurebyhispreferenceforme,andwasmorepleasedtobeseeninhiscompanythaninthatoftheCommander-in-Chief。Ineversawhisequalforpluckanddaringandallthequalitiesofasoldier“;

  andDobbintoldtheoldfatherasmanystoriesashecouldrememberregardingthegallantryandachievementsofhisson。”AndGeorgyissolikehim。”theMajoradded。

  “He’ssolikehimthathemakesmetremblesometimes。”

  thegrandfathersaid。

  OnoneortwoeveningstheMajorcametodinewithMr。OsborneitwasduringthetimeofthesicknessofMr。Sedley,andasthetwosattogetherintheeveningafterdinner,alltheirtalkwasaboutthedepartedhero。

  Thefatherboastedabouthimaccordingtohiswont,glorifyinghimselfinrecountinghisson’sfeatsandgallantry,buthismoodwasatanyratebetterandmorecharitablethanthatinwhichhehadbeendisposeduntilnowtoregardthepoorfellow;andtheChristianheartofthekindMajorwaspleasedatthesesymptomsofreturningpeaceandgood-will。OnthesecondeveningoldOsbornecalledDobbinWilliam,justasheusedtodoatthetimewhenDobbinandGeorgewereboystogether,andthehonestgentlemanwaspleasedbythatmarkofreconciliation。

  Onthenextdayatbreakfast,whenMissOsborne,withtheasperityofherageandcharacter,venturedtomakesomeremarkreflectingslightinglyupontheMajor’sappearanceorbehaviour——themasterofthehouseinterruptedher。”You’dhavebeengladenoughtogithimforyourself,MissO。Butthemgrapesaresour。Ha!ha!

  MajorWilliamisafinefeller。”

  “Thatheis,Grandpapa。”saidGeorgyapprovingly;

  andgoingupclosetotheoldgentleman,hetookaholdofhislargegreywhiskers,andlaughedinhisfacegood-humouredly,andkissedhim。Andhetoldthestoryatnighttohismother,whofullyagreedwiththeboy。

  “Indeedheis。”shesaid。”Yourdearfatheralwayssaidso。

  Heisoneofthebestandmostuprightofmen。”Dobbinhappenedtodropinverysoonafterthisconversation,whichmadeAmeliablushperhaps,andtheyoungscapegraceincreasedtheconfusionbytellingDobbintheotherpartofthestory。”Isay,Dob。”hesaid,“there’ssuchanuncommonnicegirlwantstomarryyou。She’splentyoftin;shewearsafront;andshescoldstheservantsfrommorningtillnight。”“Whoisit?”askedDobbin。

  “It’sAuntO……”theboyanswered。”Grandpapasaidso。AndIsay,Dob,howprimeitwouldbetohaveyouformyuncle。”OldSedley’squaveringvoicefromthenextroomatthismomentweaklycalledforAmelia,andthelaughingended。

  ThatoldOsborne’smindwaschangingwasprettyclear。

  HeaskedGeorgeabouthisunclesometimes,andlaughedattheboy’simitationofthewayinwhichJossaid“God-bless-my-soul“andgobbledhissoup。Thenhesaid。”It’snotrespectful,sir,ofyouyounkerstobeimitatingofyourrelations。MissO。,whenyougooutadrivingto-day,leavemycarduponMr。Sedley,doyouhear?

  There’snoquarrelbetwigstmeandhimanyhow。”

  Thecardwasreturned,andJosandtheMajorwereaskedtodinner——toadinnerthemostsplendidandstupidthatperhapseverMr。Osbornegave;everyinchofthefamilyplatewasexhibited,andthebestcompanywasasked。Mr。SedleytookdownMissO。todinner,andshewasverygracioustohim;whereasshehardlyspoketotheMajor,whosatapartfromher,andbythesideofMr。Osborne,verytimid。Jossaid,withgreatsolemnity,itwasthebestturtlesouphehadevertastedinhislife,andaskedMr。OsbornewherehegothisMadeira。

  “ItissomeofSedley’swine。”whisperedthebutlertohismaster。”I’vehaditalongtime,andpaidagoodfigureforit,too。”Mr。Osbornesaidaloudtohisguest,andthenwhisperedtohisright-handneighbourhowhehadgotit“attheoldchap’ssale。”

  MorethanonceheaskedtheMajorabout——aboutMrs。

  GeorgeOsborne——athemeonwhichtheMajorcouldbeveryeloquentwhenhechose。HetoldMr。Osborneofhersufferings——ofherpassionateattachmenttoherhusband,whosememorysheworshippedstill——ofthetenderanddutifulmannerinwhichshehadsupportedherparents,andgivenupherboy,whenitseemedtoherherdutytodoso。”Youdon’tknowwhatsheendured,sir。”

  saidhonestDobbinwithatremorinhisvoice,“andI

  hopeandtrustyouwillbereconciledtoher。Ifshetookyoursonawayfromyou,shegaveherstoyou;

  andhowevermuchyoulovedyourGeorge,dependonit,shelovedherstentimesmore。”

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