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  `WhathaveIdonetooffendyou?’saidshe,moreplaintively。

  `IwishIknew。’

  `Come,takeyourtea,Eliza,anddon’tbefoolish,’respondedI,handingherthesugarandcream。

  Justthen,therearoseaslightcommotionontheothersideofme,occasionedbyMissWilson’scomingtonegotiateanexchangeofseatswithRose。

  `Willyoubesogoodastoexchangeplaceswithme,MissMarkham?’

  saidshe,`forIdon’tliketositbyMrsGraham。Ifyourmammathinkspropertoinvitesuchpersonstoherhouse,shecannotobjecttoherdaughter’skeepingcompanywiththem。’

  ThislatterclausewasaddedinasortofsoliloquywhenRosewasgone;butIwasnotpoliteenoughtoletitpass:

  `Willyoubesogoodastotellmewhatyoumean,MissWilson?’

  saidI。

  Thequestionstartledheralittle,butnotmuch。

  `WhyMrMarkham,’repliedshe,coolly,havingquicklyrecoveredherself-possession,`itsurprisesmeratherthatMrsMarkhamshouldinvitesuchapersonasMrsGrahamtoherhouse;butperhapssheisnotawarethatthelady’scharacterisconsideredscarcelyrespectable。’

  `Sheisnot,noramI;andtherefore,youwouldobligemebyexplainingyourmeaningalittlefurther。’

  `Thisisscarcelythetimeortheplaceforsuchexplanations;

  butIthinkyoucanhardlybesoignorantasyoupretend:youmustknowheraswellasIdo。’

  `IthinkIdo,perhapsalittlebetter;andtherefore,ifyouwillinformmewhatyouhaveheard,orimaginedagainsther,Ishall,perhaps,beabletosetyouright。’

  `Canyoutellme,then,whowasherhusband;orifsheeverhadany?’

  Indignationkeptmesilent。AtsuchatimeandplaceIcouldnottrustmyselftoanswer。

  `Haveyouneverobserved,’saidEliza,`whatastrikinglikenessthereisbetweenthatchildofhersand——`

  `Andwhom?’demandedMissWilson,withanairofcold,butkeenseverity。

  Elizawasstartled:thetimidlyspokensuggestionhadbeenintendedformyearalone。

  `Oh,Ibegyourpardon!’pleadedshe,`Imaybemistaken——perhapsIwasmistaken。’Butsheaccompaniedthewordswithaslyglanceofderisiondirectedtomefromthecornerofherdisingenuouseye。

  `There’snoneedtoaskmypardon,’repliedherfriend;

  `butIseenooneherethatatallresemblesthatchild,excepthismother;

  andwhenyouhearill-naturedreports,MissEliza,Iwillthankyou——thatis,Ithinkyouwilldowelltorefrainfromrepeatingthem。IpresumethepersonyoualludetoisMrLawrence;butIthinkIcanassureyouthatyoursuspicions,inthatrespect,areutterlymisplaced;andifhehasanyparticularconnectionwiththeladyatallwhichnoonehasarighttoassert,atleasthehaswhatcannotbesaidofsomeotherssufficientsenseofproprietytowithholdhimfromacknowledginganythingmorethanabowingacquaintanceinthepresenceofrespectablepersons——hewasevidentlybothsurprisedandannoyedtofindherhere。’

  `Goit!’criedFergus,whosatontheothersideofEliza,andwastheonlyindividualwhosharedthatsideofthetablewithus;`goitlikebricks!mindyoudon’tleaveheronestoneuponanother。’

  MissWilsondrewherselfupwithalookoffreezingscorn,butsaidnothing。Elizawouldhavereplied,butIinterruptedherbysaying,ascalmlyasIcould,thoughinatonewhichbetrayed,nodoubt,somelittleofwhatIfeltwithin,——

  `Wehavehadenoughofthissubject:ifwecanonlyspeaktoslanderourbetters,letusholdourtongues。’

  `Ithinkyou’dbetter,’observedFergus;`andsodoesourgoodparson:hehasbeenaddressingthecompanyinhisrichestveinallthewhile,andeyeingyou,fromtimetotime,withlooksofsterndistaste,whileyousatthere,irreverentlywhisperingandmutteringtogether;andoncehepausedinthemiddleofastory——orasermon,Idon’tknowwhich,andfixedhiseyesuponyou,Gilbert,asmuchastosay——“WhenMrMarkhamhasdoneflirtingwiththosetwoladiesIwillproceed!”’

  Whatmorewassaidatthetea-tableIcannottell;norhowIfoundpatiencetosittillthemealwasover。Iremember,however,thatIswallowedwithdifficultytheremainderoftheteathatwasinmycup,andatenothing;

  andthatthefirstthingIdidwastostareatArthurGraham,whosatbesidehismotherontheoppositesideofthetable,andthesecondtostareatMrLawrence,whosatbelow;and,first,itstruckmethattherewasalikeness;but,onfurthercontemplation,Iconcludeditwasonlyinimagination。

  Both,itistrue,hadmoredelicatefeaturesandsmallerbonesthancommonlyfalltothelotofindividualsoftheroughersex,andLawrence’scomplexionwaspaleandclear,andArthur’sdelicatelyfair;butArthur’stiny,somewhatsnubbynosecouldneverbecomesolongandstraightasMrLawrence’s,andtheoutlineofhisface,thoughnotfullenoughtoberound,andtoofinelyconvergingtothesmall,dimpledchintobesquare,couldneverbedrawnouttothelongovaloftheother’s;whilethechild’shairwasevidentlyofalighter,warmertintthantheeldergentleman’shadeverbeen,andhislarge,clear,blueeyes,thoughprematurelyseriousattimes,wereutterlydissimilartotheshy,hazeleyesofMrLawrence,whencethesensitivesoullookedsodistrustfullyforth,aseverreadytoretirewithin,fromtheoffencesofatoorude,toouncongenialworld。WretchthatIwastoharbourthatdetestableideaforamoment!DidInotknowMrsGraham?HadInotseenher,conversedwithhertimeaftertime?WasInotcertainthatshe,inintellect,inpurityandelevationofsoul,wasimmeasurablysuperiortoanyofherdetractors;thatshewas,infact,thenoblest,themostadorable,ofhersexIhadeverbeheld,orevenimaginedtoexist?Yes,andIwouldsaywithMaryMillwardsensiblegirlasshewasthatifalltheparish,ay,oralltheworldshoulddinthesehorribleliesinmyears,Iwouldnotbelievethem;forIknewherbetterthanthey。

  Meantime,mybrainwasonfirewithindignation,andmyheartseemedreadytoburstfromitsprisonwithconflictingpassions。IregardedmytwofairneighbourswithafeelingofabhorrenceandloathingIscarcelyendeavouredtoconceal:Iwasralliedfromseveralquartersformyabstractionandungallantneglectoftheladies;butIcaredlittleforthat:allI

  caredabout,besidesthatonegrandsubjectofmythoughts,wastoseethecupstraveluptothetea-tray,andnotcomedownagain。IthoughtMrMillwardneverwouldceasetellingusthathewasnotea-drinker,andthatitwashighlyinjurioustokeeploadingthestomachwithslopstotheexclusionofmorewholesomesustenance,andsogivehimselftimetofinishhisfourthcup。

  Atlengthitwasover;andIroseandleftthetableandtheguests,withoutawordofapology——Icouldenduretheircompanynolonger。Irushedouttocoolmybraininthebalmyeveningair,andtocomposemymind,orindulgemypassionatethoughtsinthesolitudeofthegarden。

  Toavoidbeingseenfromthewindows,Iwentdownaquietlittleavenue,thatskirtedonesideoftheenclosure,atthebottomofwhichwasaseatemboweredinrosesandhoneysuckles。HereIsatdowntothinkoverthevirtuesandwrongsoftheladyofWildfellHall;butIhadnotbeensooccupiedtwominutes,beforevoicesandlaughter,andglimpsesofmovingobjectsthroughthetrees,informedmethatthewholecompanyhadturnedouttotakeanaIringinthegardentoo,However,Inestledupinacornerofthebower,andhopedtoretainpossessionofit,securealikefromobservationandintrusion。Butno——confoundit——therewassomeonecomingdowntheavenue!Whycouldn’ttheyenjoytheflowers。andsunshineoftheopengarden,andleavethatsunlessnooktome,andthegnatsandmidges?

  Butpeepingthroughmyfragrantscreenofinterwovenbranchestodiscoverwhotheintruderswereforamurmurofvoicestoldmeitwasmorethanone,myvexationinstantlysubsided,andfarotherfeelingsagitatedmystillunquietsoul;fortherewasMrsGraham,slowlymovingdownthewalkwithArthurbyherride,andnooneelse。Whyweretheyalone?

  Hadthepoisonofdetractingtonguesalreadyspreadthroughall?andhadtheyallturnedtheirbacksuponher?InowrecollectedhavingseenMrsWilson,intheearlypartoftheevening,edgingherchaircloseuptomymother,andbendingforward,evidentlyinthedeliveryofsomeimportant,confidentialintelligence;andfromtheincessantwaggingofherhead,thefrequentdistortionsofherwrinkledphysiognomy,andthewinkingandmalicioustwinkleofherlittleuglyeyes,Ijudgeditwassomespicypieceofscandalthatengagedherpowers;andfromthecautiousprivacyofthecommunication,Isupposedsomepersonthenpresentwasthelucklessobjectofhercalumnies;andfromallthesetokens,togetherwithmymother’slooksandgesturesofmingledhorrorandincredulity,InowconcludedthatobjecttohavebeenMrsGraham。Ididnotemergefrommyplaceofconcealment,tillshehadnearlyreaChedthebottomofthewalk,lestmyappearanceshoulddriveheraway;andwhenIdidstepforward,shestoodstillandseemedinclinedtoturnbackasitwas。

  Oh,don’tletusdisturbyou,MrMarkham!’saidshe。`Wecameheretoseekretirementourselves;nottointrudeonyourseclusion。’

  `Iamnohermit,MrsGraham——thoughIownitlooksratherlikeit,toabsentmyselfinthisuncourteousfashionfrommyguests。’

  `Ifearedyouwereunwell,’saidshe,withalookofrealconcern。

  `Iwasrather,butit’sovernow。Dositherealittle,andrest,andtellmehowyoulikethisarbour,’saidI,andliftingArthurbytheshoulders,Iplantedhiminthemiddleoftheseatbywayofsecuringhismamma,who,acknowledgingittobeatemptingplaceofrefuge,threwherselfbackinonecorner,whileItookpossessionoftheother。

  Butthatwordrefugedisturbedme。Hadtheirunkindnessthenreallydrivenhertoseekforpeaceinsolitude?

  `Whyhavetheyleftyoualone?’Iasked。

  `ItisIwhohaveleftthem,’wasthesmilingrejoinder。`Iwasweariedtodeathwithsmalltalk——nothingwearsmeoutlikethat。Icannotimaginehowtheycangoonastheydo。’

  Icouldnothelpsmilingattheseriousdepthofherwonderment。

  `Isitthattheythinkitadutytobecontinuallytalking,’pursuedshe;`andsoneverpausetothink,butfillupwithaimlesstriflesandvainrepetitions,whensubjectsofrealinterestfailtopresentthemselves?——ordotheyreallytakeapleasureinsuchdiscourse?’

  Verylikelytheydo,’saidI:`theirshallowmindscanholdnogreatideas,andtheirlightheadsarecarriedawaybytrivialitiesthatwouldnotmoveabetterfurnishedskill;——andtheironlyalternativetosuchdisCourseistoplungeoverheadandearsintothesloughofscandal——whichistheirchiefdelight。’

  `Notallofthemsurely?’criedthelady,astonishedatthebitternessofmyremark。

  `No,certainly;Iexoneratemysisterfromsuchdegradedtastes——andmymothertoo,ifyouincludedherinyouranimadversions。’

  `Imeantnoanimadversionsagainstanyone,andcertainlyin-tendednodisrespectfulallusionstoyourmother。Ihaveknownsomesensiblepersonsgreatadeptsinthatstyleofconversation,whencircumstancesimpelledthemtoit;butitisagiftIcannotboastthepossessionof。Ikeptupmyattention,onthisoccasion,aslongasIcould,butwhenmypowerswereexhausted,Istoleaway,toseekafewminutes’reposeinthisquietwalk。1hatetalkingwherethereisnoexchangeofideasorsentiments,andnogoodgivenorreceived。’

  `Well,’saidI,`ifeverItroubleyouwithmyloquacity,tellmesoatonce,andIpromisenottobeoffended;forIpossessthefacultyofenjoyingthecompanyofthoseI——ofmyfriendsaswellinsilenceasinconversation。’

  `Idon’tquitebelieveyou;butifitwereso,youwouldexactlysuitmeforacompanion。’

  `Iamallyouwish,then,inotherrespects?’

  `No,Idon’tmeanthat。Howbeautifulthoselittleclustersoffoliagelook,wherethesuncomesthroughbehindthem!’saidshe,onpurposetochangethesubject。

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