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  ItwassomewhatsingularthatGilesinhissemi-consciousstateacquiescedunresistinglyinallthatshedid。Butheneverforamomentrecognizedher——continuinghisrapidconversationtohimself,andseemingtolookuponherassomeangel,orothersupernaturalcreatureofthevisionaryworldinwhichhewasmentallyliving。Theundertakingoccupiedhermorethantenminutes;butbythattime,tohergreatthankfulness,hewasintheinnerroom,lyingonthebed,hisdampouterclothingremoved。

  ThentheunhappyGraceregardedhimbythelightofthecandle。

  Therewassomethinginhislookwhichagonizedher,intherushofhisthoughts,acceleratingtheirspeedfromminutetominute。Heseemedtobepassingthroughtheuniverseofideaslikeacomet——

  erratic,inapprehensible,untraceable。

  Grace’sdistractionwasalmostasgreatashis。Inafewmomentsshefirmlybelievedhewasdying。Unabletowithstandherimpulse,shekneltdownbesidehim,kissedhishandsandhisfaceandhishair,exclaiming,inalowvoice,“HowcouldI?HowcouldI?”

  Hertimidmoralityhad,indeed,underratedhischivalrytillnow,thoughsheknewhimsowell。Thepurityofhisnature,hisfreedomfromthegrosserpassions,hisscrupulousdelicacy,hadneverbeenfullyunderstoodbyGracetillthisstrangeself-

  sacrificeinlonelyjuxtapositiontoherownpersonwasrevealed。

  Theperceptionofitaddedsomethingthatwaslittleshortofreverencetothedeepaffectionforhimofawomanwho,herself,hadmoreofArtemisthanofAphroditeinherconstitution。

  Allthatatendernursecoulddo,Gracedid;andthepowertoexpresshersolicitudeinaction,unconsciousthoughthesuffererwas,broughthermournfulsatisfaction。Shebathedhishothead,wipedhisperspiringhands,moistenedhislips,cooledhisfieryeyelids,spongedhisheatedskin,andadministeredwhatevershecouldfindinthehousethattheimaginationcouldconceiveaslikelytobeinanywayalleviating。Thatshemighthavebeenthecause,orpartiallythecause,ofallthis,interfusedmiserywithhersorrow。

  Sixmonthsbeforethisdateascene,almostsimilarinitsmechanicalparts,hadbeenenactedatHintockHouse。Itwasbetweenapairofpersonsmostintimatelyconnectedintheirliveswiththese。Outwardlylikeasithadbeen,itwasyetinfiniteinspiritualdifference,thoughawoman’sdevotionhadbeencommontoboth。

  Gracerosefromherattitudeofaffection,and,bracingherenergies,sawthatsomethingpracticalmustimmediatelybedone。

  Muchasshewouldhaveliked,intheemotionofthemoment,tokeephimentirelytoherself,medicalassistancewasnecessarywhilethereremainedapossibilityofpreservinghimalive。Suchassistancewasfataltoherownconcealment;butevenhadthechanceofbenefitinghimbeenlessthanitwas,shewouldhaverunthehazardforhissake。Thequestionwas,whereshouldshegetamedicalman,competentandnear?

  Therewasonesuchman,andonlyone,withinaccessibledistance;

  amanwho,ifitwerepossibletosaveWinterborne’slife,hadthebrainmostlikelytodoit。Ifhumanpressurecouldbringhim,thatmanoughttobebroughttothesickGiles’sside。Theattemptshouldbemade。

  Yetshedreadedtoleaveherpatient,andtheminutesracedpast,andyetshepostponedherdeparture。Atlast,whenitwasaftereleveno’clock,Winterbornefellintoafitfulsleep,anditseemedtoaffordheranopportunity。

  Shehastilymadehimascomfortableasshecould,putonherthings,cutanewcandlefromthebunchhanginginthecupboard,andhavingsetitup,andplaceditsothatthelightdidnotfalluponhiseyes,sheclosedthedoorandstarted。

  ThespiritofWinterborneseemedtokeephercompanyandbanishallsenseofdarknessfromhermind。Therainshadimpartedaphosphorescencetothepiecesoftouchwoodandrottingleavesthatlayaboutherpath,which,asscatteredbyherfeet,spreadabroadlikespiltmilk。Shewouldnotrunthehazardoflosingherwaybyplungingintoanyshort,unfrequentedtrackthroughthedenserpartsofthewoodland,butfollowedamoreopencourse,whicheventuallybroughthertothehighway。Oncehere,sheranalongwithgreatspeed,animatedbyadevotedpurposewhichhadmuchaboutitthatwasstoical;anditwaswithscarcelyanyfalteringofspiritthat,afteranhour’sprogress,shepassedoverRubdownHill,andonwardtowardsthatsameHintock,andthatsamehouse,outofwhichshehadfledafewdaysbeforeinirresistiblealarm。

  Butthathadhappenedwhich,aboveallotherthingsofchanceandchange,couldmakeherdeliberatelyfrustrateherplanofflightandsinkallregardofpersonalconsequences。

  OnespecialityofFitzpiers’swasrespectedbyGraceasmuchasever——hisprofessionalskill。Inthisshewasright。Hadhispersistenceequalledhisinsight,insteadofbeingthespasmodicandfitfulthingitwas,fameandfortuneneedneverhaveremainedawishwithhim。Hisfreedomfromconventionalerrorsandcrustedprejudiceshad,indeed,beensuchastoretardratherthanacceleratehisadvanceinHintockanditsneighborhood,wherepeoplecouldnotbelievethatnatureherselfeffectedcures,andthatthedoctor’sbusinesswasonlytosmooththeway。

  ItwaspastmidnightwhenGracearrivedoppositeherfather’shouse,nowagaintemporarilyoccupiedbyherhusband,unlesshehadalreadygoneaway。EversinceheremergencefromthedenserplantationsaboutWinterborne’sresidenceapervasivelightnesshadhunginthedampautumnsky,inspiteofthevaultofcloud,signifyingthatamoonofsomeagewasshiningaboveitsarch。

  Thetwowhitegatesweredistinct,andthewhiteballsonthepillars,andthepuddlesanddamprutsleftbytherecentrain,hadacold,corpse-eyedluminousness。Sheenteredbythelowergate,andcrossedthequadrangletothewingwhereintheapartmentsthathadbeenherssincehermarriageweresituate,tillshestoodunderawindowwhich,ifherhusbandwereinthehouse,gavelighttohisbedchamber。

  Shefaltered,andpausedwithherhandonherheart,inspiteofherself。Couldshecalltoherpresencetheverycauseofallherforegoingtroubles?Alas!——oldJoneswassevenmilesoff;Gileswaspossiblydying——whatelsecouldshedo?

  Itwasinaperspiration,wroughtevenmorebyconsciousnessthanbyexercise,thatshepickedupsomegravel,threwitatthepanes,andwaitedtoseetheresult。Thenight-bellwhichhadbeenfixedwhenFitzpiersfirsttookuphisresidencetherestillremained;butasithadfallenintodisusewiththecollapseofhispractice,andhiselopement,shedidnotventuretopullitnow。

  Whoeversleptintheroomhadheardhersignal,slightasitwas。

  Inhalfaminutethewindowwasopened,andavoicesaid“Yes?”

  inquiringly。Gracerecognizedherhusbandinthespeakeratonce。

  Hereffortwasnowtodisguiseherownaccents。

  “Doctor。”shesaid,inasunusualatoneasshecouldcommand,“amanisdangerouslyillinOne-chimneyHut,outtowardsDelborough,andyoumustgotohimatonce——inallmercy!”

  “Iwill,readily。”

  Thealacrity,surprise,andpleasureexpressedinhisreplyamazedherforamoment。But,intruth,theydenotedthesuddenreliefofamanwho,havinggotbackinamoodofcontrition,fromerraticabandonmenttofearfuljoys,foundthesoothingroutineofprofessionalpracticeunexpectedlyopeninganewtohim。Thehighestdesireofhissouljustnowwasforarespectablelifeofpainstaking。Ifthis,hisfirstsummonssincehisreturn,hadbeentoattenduponacatordog,hewouldscarcelyhaverefuseditinthecircumstances。

  “Doyouknowtheway?”sheasked。

  “Yes。”saidhe。

  “One-chimneyHut。”sherepeated。“And——immediately!”

  “Yes,yes。”saidFitzpiers。

  Graceremainednolonger。Shepassedoutofthewhitegatewithoutslammingit,andhastenedonherwayback。Herhusband,then,hadre-enteredherfather’shouse。Howhehadbeenabletoeffectareconciliationwiththeoldman,whatwerethetermsofthetreatybetweenthem,shecouldnotsomuchasconjecture。

  Somesortoftrucemusthavebeenenteredinto,thatwasallshecouldsay。Butcloseasthequestionlaytoherownlife,therewasamoreurgentonewhichbanishedit;andshetracedherstepsquicklyalongthemeanderingtrack-ways。

  Meanwhile,Fitzpierswaspreparingtoleavethehouse。Thestateofhismind,overandabovehisprofessionalzeal,waspeculiar。

  AtGrace’sfirstremarkhehadnotrecognizedorsuspectedherpresence;butasshewenton,hewasawakenedtothegreatresemblanceofthespeaker’svoicetohiswife’s。Hehadtakeninsuchgoodfaiththestatementofthehouseholdonhisarrival,thatshehadgoneonavisitforatimebecauseshecouldnotatoncebringhermindtobereconciledtohim,thathecouldnotquiteactuallybelievethiscomertobeshe。ItwasoneofthefeaturesofFitzpiers’srepentanthumoratthisdatethat,onreceivingtheexplanationofherabsence,hehadmadenoattempttooutrageherfeelingsbyfollowingher;thoughnobodyhadinformedhimhowveryshortlyherdeparturehadprecededhisentry,andofallthatmighthavebeeninferredfromherprecipitancy。

  Melbury,aftermuchalarmandconsideration,haddecidednottofollowhereither。Hesympathizedwithherflight,muchashedeploredit;moreover,thetragiccoloroftheantecedenteventsthathehadbeenagreatmeansofcreatingcheckedhisinstincttointerfere。HeprayedandtrustedthatshehadgotintonodangeronherwayashesupposedtoSherton,andthencetoExbury,ifthatweretheplaceshehadgoneto,forbearingallinquirywhichthestrangenessofherdeparturewouldhavemadenatural。AfewmonthsbeforethistimeaperformancebyGraceofone-tenththemagnitudeofthiswouldhavearousedhimtounwontedinvestigation。

  ItwasinthesamespiritthathehadtacitlyassentedtoFitzpiers’sdomicilationthere。Thetwomenhadnotmetfacetoface,butMrs。Melburyhadproposedherselfasanintermediary,whomadethesurgeon’sre-entrancecomparativelyeasytohim。

  Everythingwasprovisional,andnobodyaskedquestions。Fitzpiershadcomeintheperformanceofaplanofpenitence,whichhadoriginatedincircumstanceshereaftertobeexplained;hisself-

  humiliationtotheverybass-stringwasdeliberate;andassoonasacallreachedhimfromthebedsideofadyingmanhisdesirewastosettoworkanddoasmuchgoodashecouldwiththeleastpossiblefussorshow。Hethereforerefrainedfromcallingupastablemantogetreadyanyhorseorgig,andsetoutforOne-

  chimneyHutonfoot,asGracehaddone。

  Shere-enteredthehut,flungoffherbonnetandcloak,andapproachedthesufferer。Hehadbegunanewthoseterriblemutterings,andhishandswerecold。Assoonasshesawhimtherereturnedtoherthatagonyofmindwhichthestimulusofherjourneyhadthrownoffforatime。

  Couldhereallybedying?Shebathedhim,kissedhim,forgotallthingsbutthefactthatlyingtherebeforeherwashewhohadlovedhermorethanthemereloverwouldhaveloved;hadmartyredhimselfforhercomfort,caredmoreforherself-respectthanshehadthoughtofcaring。Thismoodcontinuedtillsheheardquick,smartfootstepswithout;sheknewwhosefootstepstheywere。

  Gracesatontheinsideofthebedagainstthewall,holdingGiles’shand,sothatwhenherhusbandenteredthepatientlaybetweenherselfandhim。Hestoodtransfixedatfirst,noticingGraceonly。Slowlyhedroppedhisglanceanddiscernedwhotheprostratemanwas。Strangelyenough,thoughGrace’sdistasteforherhusband’scompanyhadamountedalmosttodread,andculminatedinactualflight,atthismomentherlastandleastfeelingwaspersonal。Sensitivefemininitywaseclipsedbyself-effacingpurpose,andthatitwasahusbandwhostoodtherewasforgotten。

  Thefirstlookthatpossessedherfacewasrelief;satisfactionatthepresenceofthephysicianobliteratedthoughtoftheman,whichonlyreturnedintheformofasub-consciousnessthatdidnotinterferewithherwords。

  “Ishedying——isthereanyhope?”shecried。

  “Grace!”saidFitzpiers,inanindescribablewhisper——morethaninvocating,ifnotquitedeprecatory。

  Hewasarrestedbythespectacle,notsomuchinitsintrinsiccharacter——thoughthatwasstrikingenoughtoamanwhocalledhimselfthehusbandofthesufferer’sfriendandnurse——butinitscharacterasthecounterpartofonethathaditshourmanymonthsbefore,inwhichhehadfiguredasthepatient,andthewomanhadbeenFeliceCharmond。

  “Isheingreatdanger——canyousavehim?”shecriedagain。

  Fitzpiersarousedhimself,camealittlenearer,andexaminedWinterborneashestood。Hisinspectionwasconcludedinamereglance。Beforehespokehelookedathercontemplativelyastotheeffectofhiscomingwords。

  “Heisdying。”hesaid,withdryprecision。

  “What?”saidshe。

  “Nothingcanbedone,bymeoranyotherman。Itwillsoonbeallover。Theextremitiesaredeadalready。”Hiseyesstillremainedfixedonher;theconclusiontowhichhehadcomeseemingtoendhisinterest,professionalandotherwise,inWinterborneforever。

  “Butitcannotbe!Hewaswellthreedaysago。”

  “Notwell,Isuspect。Thisseemslikeasecondaryattack,whichhasfollowedsomepreviousillness——possiblytyphoid——itmayhavebeenmonthsago,orrecently。”

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