Thefirsthundredyardsoftheircourselayundermotionlesstrees,whoseupperfoliagebegantohisswithfallingdropsofrain。Bythetimethattheyemergeduponagladeitrainedheavily。
“Thisisawkward。”saidGrace,withanefforttohideherconcern。
Winterbornestopped。“Grace。”hesaid,preservingastrictlybusinessmannerwhichbeliedhim,“youcannotgotoShertonto-
night。”
“ButImust!”
“Why?Itisninemilesfromhere。Itisalmostanimpossibilityinthisrain。”
“True——WHY?”shereplied,mournfully,attheendofasilence。
“Whatisreputationtome?”
“Nowhearken。”saidGiles。“Youwon’t——gobacktoyour——“
“No,no,no!Don’tmakeme!”shecried,piteously。
“Thenletusturn。”Theyslowlyretracedtheirsteps,andagainstoodbeforehisdoor。“Now,thishousefromthismomentisyours,andnotmine。”hesaid,deliberately。“IhaveaplacenearbywhereIcanstayverywell。”
Herfacehaddrooped。“Oh!”shemurmured,asshesawthedilemma。
“WhathaveIdone!”
Therewasasmellofsomethingburningwithin,andhelookedthroughthewindow。Therabbitthathehadbeencookingtocoaxaweakappetitewasbeginningtochar。“Pleasegoinandattendtoit。”hesaid。“Dowhatyoulike。NowIleave。Youwillfindeverythingaboutthehutthatisnecessary。”
“But,Giles——yoursupper。”sheexclaimed。“Anout-housewoulddoforme——anything——tillto-morrowatday-break!”
Hesignifiedanegative。“Itellyoutogoin——youmaycatchaguesouthereinyourdelicatestate。Youcangivememysupperthroughthewindow,ifyoufeelwellenough。I’llwaitawhile。”
Hegentlyurgedhertopassthedoor-way,andwasrelievedwhenhesawherwithintheroomsittingdown。Withoutsomuchascrossingthethresholdhimself,heclosedthedooruponher,andturnedthekeyinthelock。Tappingatthewindow,hesignifiedthatsheshouldopenthecasement,andwhenshehaddonethishehandedinthekeytoher。
“Youarelockedin。”hesaid;“andyourownmistress。”
Eveninhertroubleshecouldnotrefrainfromafaintsmileathisscrupulousness,asshetookthedoor-key。
“Doyoufeelbetter?”hewenton。“Ifso,andyouwishtogivemesomeofyoursupper,pleasedo。Ifnot,itisofnoimportance。
Icangetsomeelsewhere。”
Thegratefulsenseofhiskindnessstirredhertoaction,thoughsheonlyknewhalfwhatthatkindnessreallywas。Attheendofsometenminutessheagaincametothewindow,pusheditopen,andsaidinawhisper,“Giles!”Heatonceemergedfromtheshade,andsawthatshewaspreparingtohandhimhisshareofthemealuponaplate。
“Idon’tliketotreatyousohardly。”shemurmured,withdeepregretinherwordsassheheardtherainpatteringontheleaves。
“But——Isupposeitisbesttoarrangelikethis?”
“Ohyes。”hesaid,quickly。
“IfeelthatIcouldneverhavereachedSherton。”
“Itwasimpossible。”
“Areyousureyouhaveasnugplaceoutthere?”Withrenewedmisgiving。
“Quite。Haveyoufoundeverythingyouwant?Iamafraiditisratherroughaccommodation。”
“CanInoticedefects?Ihavelongpassedthatstage,andyouknowit,Giles,oryououghtto。”
Hiseyessadlycontemplatedherfaceasitspaleresponsivenessmodulatedthroughacrowdofexpressionsthatshowedonlytooclearlytowhatapitchshewasstrung。IfeverWinterborne’sheartfrettedhisbosomitwasatthissightofaperfectlydefencelesscreatureconditionedbysuchcircumstances。Heforgothisownagonyinthesatisfactionofhavingatleastfoundherashelter。Hetookhisplateandcupfromherhands,saying,“NowI’llpushtheshutterto,andyouwillfindanironpinontheinside,whichyoumustfixintothebolt。DonotstirinthemorningtillIcomeandcallyou。”
Sheexpressedanalarmedhopethathewouldnotgoveryfaraway。
“Ohno——Ishallbequitewithinhail。”saidWinterborne。
Sheboltedthewindowasdirected,andheretreated。Hissnugplaceprovedtobeawretchedlittleshelteroftheroughestkind,formedoffourhurdlesthatchedwithbrake-fern。Underneathweredrysticks,hay,andotherlitterofthesort,uponwhichhesatdown;andthereinthedarktriedtoeathismeal。Buthisappetitewasquitegone。Hepushedtheplateaside,andshookupthehayandsacks,soastoformarudecouch,onwhichheflunghimselfdowntosleep,foritwasgettinglate。
Butsleephecouldnot,formanyreasons,ofwhichnottheleastwasthoughtofhischarge。Hesatup,andlookedtowardsthecotthroughthedampobscurity。Withallitsexternalfeaturesthesameasusual,hecouldscarcelybelievethatitcontainedthedearfriend——hewouldnotuseawarmername——whohadcometohimsounexpectedly,and,hecouldnothelpadmitting,sorashly。
Hehadnotventuredtoaskheranyparticulars;butthepositionwasprettyclearwithoutthem。ThoughsociallawhadnegativedforevertheiropeningparadiseofthepreviousJune,itwasnotwithoutstoicalpridethatheacceptedthepresenttryingconjuncture。Therewasonemanonearthinwhomshebelievedabsolutely,andhewasthatman。Thatthiscrisiscouldendinnothingbutsorrowwasaviewforamomenteffacedbythistriumphantthoughtofhertrustinhim;andthepurityoftheaffectionwithwhichherespondedtothattrustrenderedhimmorethanproofagainstanyfrailtythatbesiegedhiminrelationtoher。
Therain,whichhadneverceased,nowdrewhisattentionbybeginningtodropthroughthemeagrescreenthatcoveredhim。Herosetoattemptsomeremedyforthisdiscomfort,butthetremblingofhiskneesandthethrobbingofhispulsetoldhimthatinhisweaknesshewasunabletofenceagainstthestorm,andhelaydowntobearitasbesthemight。Hewasangrywithhimselfforhisfeebleness——hewhohadbeensostrong。Itwasimperativethatsheshouldknownothingofhispresentstate,andtodothatshemustnotseehisfacebydaylight,foritscolorwouldinevitablybetrayhim。
Thenextmorning,accordingly,whenitwashardlylight,heroseanddraggedhisstifflimbsabouttheprecincts,preparingforhereverythingshecouldrequireforgettingbreakfastwithin。Onthebenchoutsidethewindow-sillheplacedwater,wood,andothernecessaries,writingwithapieceofchalkbesidethem,“ItisbestthatIshouldnotseeyou。Putmybreakfastonthebench。”
Atseveno’clockhetappedatherwindow,ashehadpromised,retreatingatonce,thatshemightnotcatchsightofhim。Butfromhisshelterundertheboughshecouldseeherverywell,when,inresponsetohissignal,sheopenedthewindowandthelightfelluponherface。Thelanguidlargenessofhereyesshowedthathersleephadbeenlittlemorethanhisown,andthepinknessoftheirlids,thatherwakinghourshadnotbeenfreefromtears。
Shereadthewriting,seemed,hethought,disappointed,buttookupthematerialshehadprovided,evidentlythinkinghimsomewayoff。Gileswaitedon,assuredthatagirlwho,inspiteofherculture,knewwhatcountrylifewas,wouldfindnodifficultyinthesimplepreparationoftheirfood。
Withinthecotitwasallverymuchasheconjectured,thoughGracehadsleptmuchlongerthanhe。Afterthelonelinessofthenight,shewouldhavebeengladtoseehim;butappreciatinghisfeelingwhenshereadthewriting,shemadenoattempttorecallhim。Shefoundabundanceofprovisionslaidin,hisplanbeingtoreplenishhisbutteryweekly,andthisbeingthedayafterthevictuallingvanhadcalledfromSherton。Whenthemealwasready,sheputwhatherequiredoutside,asshehaddonewiththesupper;
and,notwithstandingherlongingtoseehim,withdrewfromthewindowpromptly,andlefthimtohimself。
Ithadbeenaleadendawn,andtherainnowsteadilyreneweditsfall。AssheheardnomoreofWinterborne,sheconcludedthathehadgoneawaytohisdailywork,andforgottenthathehadpromisedtoaccompanyhertoSherton;anerroneousconclusion,forheremainedallday,byforceofhiscondition,withinfiftyyardsofwhereshewas。Themorningworeon;andinherdoubtwhentostart,andhowtotravel,shelingeredyet,keepingthedoorcarefullybolted,lestanintrudershoulddiscoverher。Lockedinthisplace,shewascomparativelysafe,atanyrate,anddoubtedifshewouldbesafeelsewhere。
Thehumidgloomofanordinarywetdaywasdoubledbytheshadeanddripoftheleafage。Autumn,thisyear,wascominginwithrains。Gazing,inherenforcedidleness,fromtheonewindowoftheliving-room,shecouldseevarioussmallmembersoftheanimalcommunitythatlivedunmolestedthere——creaturesofhair,fluff,andscale,thetoothedkindandthebilledkind;undergroundcreatures,jointedandringed——circumambulatingthehut,undertheimpressionthat,Gileshavinggoneaway,nobodywasthere;andeyingitinquisitivelywithaviewtowinter-quarters。Watchingtheseneighbors,whoknewneitherlawnorsin,distractedheralittlefromhertrouble;andshemanagedtowhileawaysomeportionoftheafternoonbyputtingGiles’shomeinorderandmakinglittleimprovementswhichshedeemedthathewouldvaluewhenshewasgone。
Onceortwiceshefanciedthatsheheardafaintnoiseamidthetrees,resemblingacough;butasitnevercameanynearersheconcludedthatitwasasquirrelorabird。
Atlastthedaylightlessened,andshemadeupalargerfirefortheeveningswerechilly。Assoonasitwastoodark——whichwascomparativelyearly——todiscernthehumancountenanceinthisplaceofshadows,therecametothewindowtohergreatdelight,atappingwhichsheknewfromitsmethodtobeGiles’s。
Sheopenedthecasementinstantly,andputoutherhandtohim,thoughshecouldonlyjustperceivehisoutline。Heclaspedherfingers,andshenoticedtheheatofhispalmanditsshakiness。
“Hehasbeenwalkingfast,inordertogetherequickly。”shethought。Howcouldsheknowthathehadjustcrawledoutfromthestrawoftheshelterhardby;andthattheheatofhishandwasfeverishness?
“Mydear,goodGiles!”sheburstout,impulsively。
“Anybodywouldhavedoneitforyou。”repliedWinterborne,withasmuchmatter-of-factashecouldsummon。
“AboutmygettingtoExbury?”shesaid。
“Ihavebeenthinking。”respondedGiles,withtenderdeference,“thatyouhadbetterstaywhereyouareforthepresent,ifyouwishnottobecaught。Ineednottellyouthattheplaceisyoursaslongasyoulike;andperhapsinadayortwo,findingyouabsent,hewillgoaway。Atanyrate,intwoorthreedaysI
coulddoanythingtoassist——suchasmakeinquiries,orgoagreatwaytowardsSherton-Abbaswithyou;fortheciderseasonwillsoonbecomingon,andIwanttorundowntotheValetoseehowthecropsare,andIshallgobytheShertonroad。ButforadayortwoIambusyhere。”Hewashopingthatbythetimementionedhewouldbestrongenoughtoengagehimselfactivelyonherbehalf。
“Ihopeyoudonotfeelover-muchmelancholyinbeingaprisoner?”
Shedeclaredthatshedidnotmindit;butshesighed。
Fromlongacquaintancetheycouldreadeachother’sheart-symptomslikebooksoflargetype。“Ifearyouaresorryyoucame。”saidGiles,“andthatyouthinkIshouldhaveadvisedyoumorefirmlythanIdidnottostay。”
“Ohno,dear,dearfriend。”answeredGrace,withaheavingbosom。
“Don’tthinkthatthatiswhatIregret。WhatIregretismyenforcedtreatmentofyou——dislodgingyou,excludingyoufromyourownhouse。WhyshouldInotspeakout?YouknowwhatIfeelforyou——whatIhavefeltfornootherlivingman,whatIshallneverfeelforamanagain!ButasIhavevowedmyselftosomebodyelsethanyou,andcannotbereleased,ImustbehaveasIdobehave,andkeepthatvow。Iamnotboundtohimbyanydivinelaw,afterwhathehasdone;butIhavepromised,andIwillpay。”
Therestoftheeveningwaspassedinhishandinghersuchthingsasshewouldrequirethenextday,andcasualremarksthereupon,anoccupationwhichdivertedhermindtosomedegreefrompatheticviewsofherattitudetowardshim,andofherlifeingeneral。
Theonlyinfringement——ifinfringementitcouldbecalled——ofhispredeterminedbearingtowardsherwasaninvoluntarypressingofherhandtohislipswhensheputitthroughthecasementtobidhimgood-night。Heknewshewasweeping,thoughhecouldnotseehertears。
Sheagainentreatedhisforgivenessforsoselfishlyappropriatingthecottage。Butitwouldonlybeforadayortwomore,shethought,sincegoshemust。
Hereplied,yearningly,“I——Idon’tlikeyoutogoaway。”
“Oh,Giles。”saidshe,“Iknow——Iknow!But——Iamawoman,andyouareaman。Icannotspeakmoreplainly。’Whatsoeverthingsarepure,whatsoeverthingsareofgoodreport’——youknowwhatisinmymind,becauseyouknowmesowell。”
“Yes,Grace,yes。Idonotatallmeanthatthequestionbetweenushasnotbeensettledbythefactofyourmarriageturningouthopelesslyunalterable。Imerelymeant——well,afeelingnomore。”
“Inaweek,attheoutside,IshouldbediscoveredifIstayedhere:andIthinkthatbylawhecouldcompelmetoreturntohim。”
“Yes;perhapsyouareright。Gowhenyouwish,dearGrace。”
Hislastwordsthateveningwereahopefulremarkthatallmightbewellwithheryet;thatMr。Fitzpierswouldnotintrudeuponherlife,ifhefoundthathispresencecosthersomuchpain。
Thenthewindowwasclosed,theshuttersfolded,andtherustleofhisfootstepsdiedaway。