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  Thefirsthundredyardsoftheircourselayundermotionlesstrees,whoseupperfoliagebegantohisswithfallingdropsofrain。Bythetimethattheyemergeduponagladeitrainedheavily。

  “Thisisawkward。”saidGrace,withanefforttohideherconcern。

  Winterbornestopped。“Grace。”hesaid,preservingastrictlybusinessmannerwhichbeliedhim,“youcannotgotoShertonto-

  night。”

  “ButImust!”

  “Why?Itisninemilesfromhere。Itisalmostanimpossibilityinthisrain。”

  “True——WHY?”shereplied,mournfully,attheendofasilence。

  “Whatisreputationtome?”

  “Nowhearken。”saidGiles。“Youwon’t——gobacktoyour——“

  “No,no,no!Don’tmakeme!”shecried,piteously。

  “Thenletusturn。”Theyslowlyretracedtheirsteps,andagainstoodbeforehisdoor。“Now,thishousefromthismomentisyours,andnotmine。”hesaid,deliberately。“IhaveaplacenearbywhereIcanstayverywell。”

  Herfacehaddrooped。“Oh!”shemurmured,asshesawthedilemma。

  “WhathaveIdone!”

  Therewasasmellofsomethingburningwithin,andhelookedthroughthewindow。Therabbitthathehadbeencookingtocoaxaweakappetitewasbeginningtochar。“Pleasegoinandattendtoit。”hesaid。“Dowhatyoulike。NowIleave。Youwillfindeverythingaboutthehutthatisnecessary。”

  “But,Giles——yoursupper。”sheexclaimed。“Anout-housewoulddoforme——anything——tillto-morrowatday-break!”

  Hesignifiedanegative。“Itellyoutogoin——youmaycatchaguesouthereinyourdelicatestate。Youcangivememysupperthroughthewindow,ifyoufeelwellenough。I’llwaitawhile。”

  Hegentlyurgedhertopassthedoor-way,andwasrelievedwhenhesawherwithintheroomsittingdown。Withoutsomuchascrossingthethresholdhimself,heclosedthedooruponher,andturnedthekeyinthelock。Tappingatthewindow,hesignifiedthatsheshouldopenthecasement,andwhenshehaddonethishehandedinthekeytoher。

  “Youarelockedin。”hesaid;“andyourownmistress。”

  Eveninhertroubleshecouldnotrefrainfromafaintsmileathisscrupulousness,asshetookthedoor-key。

  “Doyoufeelbetter?”hewenton。“Ifso,andyouwishtogivemesomeofyoursupper,pleasedo。Ifnot,itisofnoimportance。

  Icangetsomeelsewhere。”

  Thegratefulsenseofhiskindnessstirredhertoaction,thoughsheonlyknewhalfwhatthatkindnessreallywas。Attheendofsometenminutessheagaincametothewindow,pusheditopen,andsaidinawhisper,“Giles!”Heatonceemergedfromtheshade,andsawthatshewaspreparingtohandhimhisshareofthemealuponaplate。

  “Idon’tliketotreatyousohardly。”shemurmured,withdeepregretinherwordsassheheardtherainpatteringontheleaves。

  “But——Isupposeitisbesttoarrangelikethis?”

  “Ohyes。”hesaid,quickly。

  “IfeelthatIcouldneverhavereachedSherton。”

  “Itwasimpossible。”

  “Areyousureyouhaveasnugplaceoutthere?”Withrenewedmisgiving。

  “Quite。Haveyoufoundeverythingyouwant?Iamafraiditisratherroughaccommodation。”

  “CanInoticedefects?Ihavelongpassedthatstage,andyouknowit,Giles,oryououghtto。”

  Hiseyessadlycontemplatedherfaceasitspaleresponsivenessmodulatedthroughacrowdofexpressionsthatshowedonlytooclearlytowhatapitchshewasstrung。IfeverWinterborne’sheartfrettedhisbosomitwasatthissightofaperfectlydefencelesscreatureconditionedbysuchcircumstances。Heforgothisownagonyinthesatisfactionofhavingatleastfoundherashelter。Hetookhisplateandcupfromherhands,saying,“NowI’llpushtheshutterto,andyouwillfindanironpinontheinside,whichyoumustfixintothebolt。DonotstirinthemorningtillIcomeandcallyou。”

  Sheexpressedanalarmedhopethathewouldnotgoveryfaraway。

  “Ohno——Ishallbequitewithinhail。”saidWinterborne。

  Sheboltedthewindowasdirected,andheretreated。Hissnugplaceprovedtobeawretchedlittleshelteroftheroughestkind,formedoffourhurdlesthatchedwithbrake-fern。Underneathweredrysticks,hay,andotherlitterofthesort,uponwhichhesatdown;andthereinthedarktriedtoeathismeal。Buthisappetitewasquitegone。Hepushedtheplateaside,andshookupthehayandsacks,soastoformarudecouch,onwhichheflunghimselfdowntosleep,foritwasgettinglate。

  Butsleephecouldnot,formanyreasons,ofwhichnottheleastwasthoughtofhischarge。Hesatup,andlookedtowardsthecotthroughthedampobscurity。Withallitsexternalfeaturesthesameasusual,hecouldscarcelybelievethatitcontainedthedearfriend——hewouldnotuseawarmername——whohadcometohimsounexpectedly,and,hecouldnothelpadmitting,sorashly。

  Hehadnotventuredtoaskheranyparticulars;butthepositionwasprettyclearwithoutthem。ThoughsociallawhadnegativedforevertheiropeningparadiseofthepreviousJune,itwasnotwithoutstoicalpridethatheacceptedthepresenttryingconjuncture。Therewasonemanonearthinwhomshebelievedabsolutely,andhewasthatman。Thatthiscrisiscouldendinnothingbutsorrowwasaviewforamomenteffacedbythistriumphantthoughtofhertrustinhim;andthepurityoftheaffectionwithwhichherespondedtothattrustrenderedhimmorethanproofagainstanyfrailtythatbesiegedhiminrelationtoher。

  Therain,whichhadneverceased,nowdrewhisattentionbybeginningtodropthroughthemeagrescreenthatcoveredhim。Herosetoattemptsomeremedyforthisdiscomfort,butthetremblingofhiskneesandthethrobbingofhispulsetoldhimthatinhisweaknesshewasunabletofenceagainstthestorm,andhelaydowntobearitasbesthemight。Hewasangrywithhimselfforhisfeebleness——hewhohadbeensostrong。Itwasimperativethatsheshouldknownothingofhispresentstate,andtodothatshemustnotseehisfacebydaylight,foritscolorwouldinevitablybetrayhim。

  Thenextmorning,accordingly,whenitwashardlylight,heroseanddraggedhisstifflimbsabouttheprecincts,preparingforhereverythingshecouldrequireforgettingbreakfastwithin。Onthebenchoutsidethewindow-sillheplacedwater,wood,andothernecessaries,writingwithapieceofchalkbesidethem,“ItisbestthatIshouldnotseeyou。Putmybreakfastonthebench。”

  Atseveno’clockhetappedatherwindow,ashehadpromised,retreatingatonce,thatshemightnotcatchsightofhim。Butfromhisshelterundertheboughshecouldseeherverywell,when,inresponsetohissignal,sheopenedthewindowandthelightfelluponherface。Thelanguidlargenessofhereyesshowedthathersleephadbeenlittlemorethanhisown,andthepinknessoftheirlids,thatherwakinghourshadnotbeenfreefromtears。

  Shereadthewriting,seemed,hethought,disappointed,buttookupthematerialshehadprovided,evidentlythinkinghimsomewayoff。Gileswaitedon,assuredthatagirlwho,inspiteofherculture,knewwhatcountrylifewas,wouldfindnodifficultyinthesimplepreparationoftheirfood。

  Withinthecotitwasallverymuchasheconjectured,thoughGracehadsleptmuchlongerthanhe。Afterthelonelinessofthenight,shewouldhavebeengladtoseehim;butappreciatinghisfeelingwhenshereadthewriting,shemadenoattempttorecallhim。Shefoundabundanceofprovisionslaidin,hisplanbeingtoreplenishhisbutteryweekly,andthisbeingthedayafterthevictuallingvanhadcalledfromSherton。Whenthemealwasready,sheputwhatherequiredoutside,asshehaddonewiththesupper;

  and,notwithstandingherlongingtoseehim,withdrewfromthewindowpromptly,andlefthimtohimself。

  Ithadbeenaleadendawn,andtherainnowsteadilyreneweditsfall。AssheheardnomoreofWinterborne,sheconcludedthathehadgoneawaytohisdailywork,andforgottenthathehadpromisedtoaccompanyhertoSherton;anerroneousconclusion,forheremainedallday,byforceofhiscondition,withinfiftyyardsofwhereshewas。Themorningworeon;andinherdoubtwhentostart,andhowtotravel,shelingeredyet,keepingthedoorcarefullybolted,lestanintrudershoulddiscoverher。Lockedinthisplace,shewascomparativelysafe,atanyrate,anddoubtedifshewouldbesafeelsewhere。

  Thehumidgloomofanordinarywetdaywasdoubledbytheshadeanddripoftheleafage。Autumn,thisyear,wascominginwithrains。Gazing,inherenforcedidleness,fromtheonewindowoftheliving-room,shecouldseevarioussmallmembersoftheanimalcommunitythatlivedunmolestedthere——creaturesofhair,fluff,andscale,thetoothedkindandthebilledkind;undergroundcreatures,jointedandringed——circumambulatingthehut,undertheimpressionthat,Gileshavinggoneaway,nobodywasthere;andeyingitinquisitivelywithaviewtowinter-quarters。Watchingtheseneighbors,whoknewneitherlawnorsin,distractedheralittlefromhertrouble;andshemanagedtowhileawaysomeportionoftheafternoonbyputtingGiles’shomeinorderandmakinglittleimprovementswhichshedeemedthathewouldvaluewhenshewasgone。

  Onceortwiceshefanciedthatsheheardafaintnoiseamidthetrees,resemblingacough;butasitnevercameanynearersheconcludedthatitwasasquirrelorabird。

  Atlastthedaylightlessened,andshemadeupalargerfirefortheeveningswerechilly。Assoonasitwastoodark——whichwascomparativelyearly——todiscernthehumancountenanceinthisplaceofshadows,therecametothewindowtohergreatdelight,atappingwhichsheknewfromitsmethodtobeGiles’s。

  Sheopenedthecasementinstantly,andputoutherhandtohim,thoughshecouldonlyjustperceivehisoutline。Heclaspedherfingers,andshenoticedtheheatofhispalmanditsshakiness。

  “Hehasbeenwalkingfast,inordertogetherequickly。”shethought。Howcouldsheknowthathehadjustcrawledoutfromthestrawoftheshelterhardby;andthattheheatofhishandwasfeverishness?

  “Mydear,goodGiles!”sheburstout,impulsively。

  “Anybodywouldhavedoneitforyou。”repliedWinterborne,withasmuchmatter-of-factashecouldsummon。

  “AboutmygettingtoExbury?”shesaid。

  “Ihavebeenthinking。”respondedGiles,withtenderdeference,“thatyouhadbetterstaywhereyouareforthepresent,ifyouwishnottobecaught。Ineednottellyouthattheplaceisyoursaslongasyoulike;andperhapsinadayortwo,findingyouabsent,hewillgoaway。Atanyrate,intwoorthreedaysI

  coulddoanythingtoassist——suchasmakeinquiries,orgoagreatwaytowardsSherton-Abbaswithyou;fortheciderseasonwillsoonbecomingon,andIwanttorundowntotheValetoseehowthecropsare,andIshallgobytheShertonroad。ButforadayortwoIambusyhere。”Hewashopingthatbythetimementionedhewouldbestrongenoughtoengagehimselfactivelyonherbehalf。

  “Ihopeyoudonotfeelover-muchmelancholyinbeingaprisoner?”

  Shedeclaredthatshedidnotmindit;butshesighed。

  Fromlongacquaintancetheycouldreadeachother’sheart-symptomslikebooksoflargetype。“Ifearyouaresorryyoucame。”saidGiles,“andthatyouthinkIshouldhaveadvisedyoumorefirmlythanIdidnottostay。”

  “Ohno,dear,dearfriend。”answeredGrace,withaheavingbosom。

  “Don’tthinkthatthatiswhatIregret。WhatIregretismyenforcedtreatmentofyou——dislodgingyou,excludingyoufromyourownhouse。WhyshouldInotspeakout?YouknowwhatIfeelforyou——whatIhavefeltfornootherlivingman,whatIshallneverfeelforamanagain!ButasIhavevowedmyselftosomebodyelsethanyou,andcannotbereleased,ImustbehaveasIdobehave,andkeepthatvow。Iamnotboundtohimbyanydivinelaw,afterwhathehasdone;butIhavepromised,andIwillpay。”

  Therestoftheeveningwaspassedinhishandinghersuchthingsasshewouldrequirethenextday,andcasualremarksthereupon,anoccupationwhichdivertedhermindtosomedegreefrompatheticviewsofherattitudetowardshim,andofherlifeingeneral。

  Theonlyinfringement——ifinfringementitcouldbecalled——ofhispredeterminedbearingtowardsherwasaninvoluntarypressingofherhandtohislipswhensheputitthroughthecasementtobidhimgood-night。Heknewshewasweeping,thoughhecouldnotseehertears。

  Sheagainentreatedhisforgivenessforsoselfishlyappropriatingthecottage。Butitwouldonlybeforadayortwomore,shethought,sincegoshemust。

  Hereplied,yearningly,“I——Idon’tlikeyoutogoaway。”

  “Oh,Giles。”saidshe,“Iknow——Iknow!But——Iamawoman,andyouareaman。Icannotspeakmoreplainly。’Whatsoeverthingsarepure,whatsoeverthingsareofgoodreport’——youknowwhatisinmymind,becauseyouknowmesowell。”

  “Yes,Grace,yes。Idonotatallmeanthatthequestionbetweenushasnotbeensettledbythefactofyourmarriageturningouthopelesslyunalterable。Imerelymeant——well,afeelingnomore。”

  “Inaweek,attheoutside,IshouldbediscoveredifIstayedhere:andIthinkthatbylawhecouldcompelmetoreturntohim。”

  “Yes;perhapsyouareright。Gowhenyouwish,dearGrace。”

  Hislastwordsthateveningwereahopefulremarkthatallmightbewellwithheryet;thatMr。Fitzpierswouldnotintrudeuponherlife,ifhefoundthathispresencecosthersomuchpain。

  Thenthewindowwasclosed,theshuttersfolded,andtherustleofhisfootstepsdiedaway。

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