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  Ernestwasnowwellturnedtwenty-sixyearsold,andinlittlemorethananotheryearandahalfwouldcomeintopossessionofhismoney。IsawnoreasonforlettinghimhaveitearlierthanthedatefixedbyMissPontifexherself;atthesametimeIdidnotlikehiscontinuingtheshopatBlackfriarsafterthepresentcrisis。ItwasnottillnowthatIfullyunderstoodhowmuchhehadsuffered,norhownearlyhissupposedwife’shabitshadbroughthimtoactualwant。

  Ihadindeednotedtheoldwanwornlooksettlinguponhisface,butwaseithertooindolentortoohopelessofbeingabletosustainaprotractedandsuccessfulwarfarewithEllentoextendthesympathyandmaketheinquirieswhichIsupposeIoughttohavemade。AndyetIhardlyknowwhatIcouldhavedone,fornothingshortofhisfindingoutwhathehadfoundoutwouldhavedetachedhimfromhiswife,andnothingcoulddohimmuchgoodaslongashecontinuedtolivewithher。

  AfterallIsupposeIwasright;Isupposethingsdidturnoutallthebetterintheendforhavingbeenlefttosettlethemselves——atanyratewhethertheydidordidnot,thewholethingwasintoogreatamuddleformetoventuretotackleitsolongasEllenwasuponthescene;now,however,thatshewasremoved,allmyinterestinmygodsonrevived,andIturnedovermanytimesinmymind,whatIhadbetterdowithhim。

  ItwasnowthreeandahalfyearssincehehadcomeuptoLondonandbeguntolive,sotospeak,uponhisownaccount。Oftheseyears,sixmonthshadbeenspentasaclergyman,sixmonthsingaol,andfortwoandahalfyearshehadbeenacquiringtwofoldexperienceinthewaysofbusinessandofmarriage。Hehadfailed,Imaysay,ineverythingthathehadundertaken,evenasaprisoner;yethisdefeatshadbeenalways,asitseemedtome,somethingsolikevictories,thatIwassatisfiedofhisbeingworthallthepainsI

  couldbestowuponhim;myonlyfearwaslestIshouldmeddlewithhimwhenitmightbebetterforhimtobeletalone。OnthewholeI

  concludedthatathreeandahalfyears’apprenticeshiptoaroughlifewasenough;theshophaddonemuchforhim;ithadkepthimgoingafterafashion,whenhewasingreatneed;ithadthrownhimuponhisownresources,andtaughthimtoseeprofitableopeningsallaroundhim,whereafewmonthsbeforehewouldhaveseennothingbutinsuperabledifficulties;ithadenlargedhissympathiesbymakinghimunderstandthelowerclasses,andnotconfininghisviewoflifetothattakenbygentlemenonly。Whenhewentaboutthestreetsandsawthebooksoutsidethesecond-handbook-stalls,thebric-a-bracinthecuriosityshops,andtheinfinitecommercialactivitywhichisomnipresentaroundus,heunderstooditandsympathisedwithitashecouldneverhavedoneifhehadnotkeptashophimself。

  Hehasoftentoldmethatwhenheusedtotravelonarailwaythatoverlookedpopuloussuburbs,andlookeddownuponstreetafterstreetofdingyhouses,heusedtowonderwhatkindofpeoplelivedinthem,whattheydidandfelt,andhowfaritwaslikewhathedidandfelthimself。Now,hesaidheknewallaboutit。IamnotveryfamiliarwiththewriteroftheOdysseywho,bytheway,Isuspectstronglyofhavingbeenaclergyman,butheassuredlyhittherightnailontheheadwhenheepitomisedhistypicalwisemanasknowing“thewaysandfaringsofmanymen。”Whatcultureiscomparabletothis?Whatalie,whatasicklydebilitatingdebauchdidnotErnest’sschoolanduniversitycareernowseemtohim,incomparisonwithhislifeinprisonandasatailorinBlackfriars。IhaveheardhimsayhewouldhavegonethroughallhehadsufferedifitwereonlyforthedeeperinsightitgavehimintothespiritoftheGrecianandtheSurreypantomimes。Whatconfidenceagaininhisownpowertoswimifthrownintodeepwatershadnothewonthroughhisexperiencesduringthelastthreeyears!

  But,asIhavesaid,Ithoughtmygodsonhadnowseenasmuchoftheundercurrentsoflifeaswaslikelytobeofusetohim,andthatitwastimehebegantoliveinastylemoresuitabletohisprospects。Hisaunthadwishedhimtokissthesoil,andhehadkisseditwithavengeance;butIdidnotlikethenotionofhiscomingsuddenlyfromthepositionofasmallshopkeepertothatofamanwithanincomeofbetweenthreeandfourthousandayear。Toosuddenajumpfrombadfortunetogoodisjustasdangerousasonefromgoodtobad;besides,povertyisverywearing;itisaquasi-

  embryoniccondition,throughwhichamanhadbetterpassifheistoholdhislaterdevelopmentssecurely,butlikemeaslesorscarletfeverhehadbetterhaveitmildlyandgetitoverearly。

  Nomanissafefromlosingeverypennyhehasintheworld,unlesshehashadhisfacer。HowoftendoInothearmiddle-agedwomenandquietfamilymensaythattheyhavenospeculativetendency;THEY

  neverhadtouched,andneverwouldtouch,anybuttheverysoundest,bestreputedinvestments,andasforunlimitedliability,ohdear!

  dear!andtheythrowuptheirhandsandeyes。

  Wheneverapersonisheardtotalkthushemayberecognisedastheeasypreyofthefirstadventurerwhocomesacrosshim;hewillcommonly,indeed,winduphisdiscoursebysayingthatinspiteofallhisnaturalcaution,andhiswellknowinghowfoolishspeculationis,yettherearesomeinvestmentswhicharecalledspeculativebutinrealityarenotso,andhewillpulloutofhispockettheprospectusofaCornishgoldmine。Itisonlyonhavingactuallylostmoneythatonerealiseswhatanawfulthingthelossofitis,andfindsouthoweasilyitislostbythosewhoventureoutofthemiddleofthemostbeatenpath。Ernesthadhadhisfacer,ashehadhadhisattackofpoverty,young,andsufficientlybadlyforasensiblemantobelittlelikelytoforgetit。Icanfancyfewpiecesofgoodfortunegreaterthanthisashappeningtoanyman,provided,ofcourse,thatheisnotdamagedirretrievably。

  SostronglydoIfeelonthissubjectthatifIhadmywayIwouldhaveaspeculationmasterattachedtoeveryschool。TheboyswouldbeencouragedtoreadtheMoneyMarketReview,theRailwayNews,andallthebestfinancialpapers,andshouldestablishastockexchangeamongstthemselvesinwhichpenceshouldstandaspounds。Thenletthemseehowthismakinghastetogetrichmoneysoutinactualpractice。Theremightbeaprizeawardedbythehead-mastertothemostprudentdealer,andtheboyswholosttheirmoneytimeaftertimeshouldbedismissed。Ofcourseifanyboyprovedtohaveageniusforspeculationandmademoney——wellandgood,lethimspeculatebyallmeans。

  IfUniversitieswerenottheworstteachersintheworldIshouldliketoseeprofessorshipsofspeculationestablishedatOxfordandCambridge。WhenIreflect,however,thattheonlythingsworthdoingwhichOxfordandCambridgecandowellarecooking,cricket,rowingandgames,ofwhichthereisnoprofessorship,Ifearthattheestablishmentofaprofessorialchairwouldendinteachingyoungmenneitherhowtospeculate,norhownottospeculate,butwouldsimplyturnthemoutasbadspeculators。

  Iheardofonecaseinwhichafatheractuallycarriedmyideaintopractice。Hewantedhissontolearnhowlittleconfidencewastobeplacedinglowingprospectusesandflamingarticles,andfoundhimfivehundredpoundswhichhewastoinvestaccordingtohislights。Thefatherexpectedhewouldlosethemoney;butitdidnotturnoutsoinpractice,fortheboytooksomuchpainsandplayedsocautiouslythatthemoneykeptgrowingandgrowingtillthefathertookitawayagain,incrementandall——ashewaspleasedtosay,inselfdefence。

  Ihadmademyownmistakeswithmoneyabouttheyear1846,wheneveryoneelsewasmakingthem。ForafewyearsIhadbeensoscaredandhadsufferedsoseverely,thatwhenowingtothegoodadviceofthebrokerwhohadadvisedmyfatherandgrandfatherbeforemeI

  cameoutintheendawinnerandnotaloser,Iplayednomorepranks,butkepthenceforwardasnearlyinthemiddleofthemiddlerutasIcould。Itriedinfacttokeepmymoneyratherthantomakemoreofit。IhaddonewithErnest’smoneyaswithmyown——

  thatistosayIhadletitaloneafterinvestingitinMidlandordinarystockaccordingtoMissPontifex’sinstructions。Noamountoftroublewouldhavebeenlikelytohaveincreasedmygodson’sestateonehalfsomuchasithadincreasedwithoutmytakinganytroubleatall。

  MidlandstockattheendofAugust1850,whenIsoldoutMissPontifex’sdebentures,stoodat32poundsper100pounds。I

  investedthewholeofErnest’s15,000poundsatthisprice,anddidnotchangetheinvestmenttillafewmonthsbeforethetimeofwhichIhavebeenwritinglately——thatistosayuntilSeptember1861。I

  thensoldat129poundspershareandinvestedinLondonandNorth-

  Westernordinarystock,whichIwasadvisedwasmorelikelytorisethanMidlandsnowwere。IboughttheLondonandNorth-Westernstockat93poundsper100pounds,andmygodsonnowin1882stillholdsit。

  Theoriginal15,000poundshadincreasedinelevenyearstoover60,000pounds;theaccumulatedinterest,which,ofcourse,Ihadre-

  invested,hadcometoabout10,000poundsmore,sothatErnestwasthenworthover70,000pounds。Atpresentheisworthnearlydoublethatsum,andallastheresultofleavingwellalone。

  Largeashispropertynowwas,itoughttobeincreasedstillfurtherduringtheyearandahalfthatremainedofhisminority,sothatoncomingofageheoughttohaveanincomeofatleast3500

  poundsayear。

  Iwishedhimtounderstandbook-keepingbydoubleentry。Ihadmyselfasayoungmanbeencompelledtomasterthisnotverydifficultart;havingacquiredit,Ihavebecomeenamouredofit,andconsideritthemostnecessarybranchofanyyoungman’seducationafterreadingandwriting。Iwasdetermined,therefore,thatErnestshouldmasterit,andproposedthatheshouldbecomemysteward,book-keeper,andthemanagerofmyhoardings,forsoI

  calledthesumwhichmyledgershowedtohaveaccumulatedfrom15,000poundsto70,000pounds。ItoldhimIwasgoingtobegintospendtheincomeassoonasithadamountedupto80,000pounds。

  AfewdaysafterErnest’sdiscoverythathewasstillabachelor,whilehewasstillattheverybeginningofthehoneymoon,asitwere,ofhisrenewedunmarriedlife,Ibroachedmyscheme,desiredhimtogiveuphisshop,andofferedhim300poundsayearformanagingsofarindeedasitrequiredanymanaginghisownproperty。This300poundsayear,Ineedhardlysay,Imadehimchargetotheestate。

  Ifanythinghadbeenwantingtocompletehishappinessitwasthis。

  Here,withinthreeorfourdayshefoundhimselffreedfromoneofthemosthideous,hopelessliaisonsimaginable,andatthesametimeraisedfromalifeofalmostsqualortotheenjoymentofwhatwouldtohimbeahandsomeincome。

  “Apoundaweek。”hethought,“forEllen,andtherestformyself。”

  “No。”saidI,“wewillchargeEllen’spoundaweektotheestatealso。Youmusthaveaclear300poundsforyourself。”

  Ifixeduponthissum,becauseitwastheonewhichMrDisraeligaveConingsbywhenConingsbywasatthelowestebbofhisfortunes。MrDisraelievidentlythought300poundsayearthesmallestsumonwhichConingsbycouldbeexpectedtolive,andmakethetwoendsmeet;withthis,however,hethoughthisherocouldmanagetogetalongforayearortwo。In1862,ofwhichIamnowwriting,priceshadrisen,thoughnotsomuchastheyhavesincedone;ontheotherhandErnesthadhadlessexpensiveantecedentsthanConingsby,soonthewholeIthought300poundsayearwouldbeabouttherightthingforhim。

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