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  EuniceMaveringacknowledgedAlice’sfirstletter。Shesaidthathermotherreaditaloudtothemall,andhadbeendelightedwiththegoodaccountshegaveofDan,andfascinatedwithallthestoryoftheirdailydoingsandsayings。ShewishedEunicetotellAlicehowfullysheappreciatedherthoughtfulnessofasickoldwoman,andthatshewasgoingtowriteherselfandthankher。ButEuniceaddedthatAlicemustnotbesurprisedifhermotherwasnotverypromptinthis,andshesentmessagesfromallthefamily,affectionateforAlice,andpoliteforherfatherandmother。

  AliceshowedDantheletter,andheseemedtofindnothingnoticeableinit。“Shesaysyourmotherwillwritelater。”Alicesuggested。

  “Yes。Yououghttofeelverymuchcomplimentedbythat。Mother’sautographsareprettyuncommon。”hesaid,smiling。

  “Why,doesn’tshewrite?Can’tshe?Doesittireher?”askedAlice。

  “Ohyes,shecanwrite,butshehatesto。ShegetsEuniceorMinnietowriteusually。”

  “Dan。”criedAliceintensely,“whydidn’tyoutellme?”

  “Why,Ithoughtyouknewit。”heexplainedeasily。“Shelikestoread,andlikestotalk,butitboreshertowrite。Idon’tsupposeIgetmorethantwoorthreepencilscratchesfromherinthecourseofayear。Shemakesthegirlswrite。Butyouneedn’tmindhernotwriting。Youmaybesureshe’sgladofyourletters。”

  “Itmakesmeseemverypresumptuoustobewritingtoherwhenthere’snochanceofheranswering。”Alicegrieved。“It’sasifIhadpassedoveryoursisters’heads。Ioughttohavewrittentothem。”

  “Oh,well,youcandothatnow。”saidDansoothingly。

  “No。No,Ican’tdoitnow。Itwouldberidiculous。”Shewassilent,andpresentlysheasked,“IsthereanythingelseaboutyourmotherthatI

  oughttoknow?”Shelookedathimwithasortofimpendingdisciplineinhereyeswhichhehadlearnedtodread;itmeantsuchalongcourseofthings,suchaverygreatvarietyofatonementandexpiationforhim,thathecouldnotbringhimselftoconfrontitsteadily。

  Hisheartgaveafeebleleap;hewouldhavegladlytoldherallthatwasinit,andhemeanttodosoattherighttime,butthisdidnotseemthemoment。“Ican’tsaythatthereis。”heansweredcoldly。

  InthatneedofconsecratingherhappinesswhichAlicefelt,shewentagreatdealtochurchinthosedays。Sometimesshefelttheneedalmostofdefenceagainstherhappiness,andavagueapprehensionmixedwithit。

  Coulditberighttoletitclaimherwholebeing,asitseemedtodo?

  ThanwasthequestionwhichsheonceaskedDan,anditmadehimlaugh,andcatchhertohiminarapturethatservedforthetime,andthenlefthertomoremorbiddoubts。Evidentlyhecouldnotfollowherinthem;hecouldnotevenimaginethem;andwhilehewaswithhertheyseemedtohavenoverityorvalue。ButshetalkedthemoververyhypotheticallyandimpersonallywithMissCotton,inwhosesympathytheyresumedalltheirimport,andgainedsomethingmore。Intheidealisationwhichthegirlunderwentinthisatmosphereallherthoughtsandpurposeshadasignificancewhichshewouldnotofherself,perhaps,haveattachedtothem。Theydiscussedthemandanalysedthemwithasatisfactionintheresultwhichcouldnotberepresentedwithoutaneffectofcaricature。

  TheymeasuredAlice’sromancetogether,andevolvedfromitasublimationofresponsibility,ofduty,ofdevotion,whichAlicefounditimpossibletosubmittoDanwhenhecamewithhissimple-hearted,single-mindedpurposeofgettingMrs。Pasmeroutoftheroom,andsittingdownwithhisarmaroundAlice’swaist。Whenhehadaccomplishedthisitseemedsufficientinitself,andshehadtothink,tostruggletorecallthingsbeyondit,aboveit。Hecouldnotbemadetoseeatsuchtimeshowtheirlivescouldbemoreinunisonthantheywere。Whensheproposeddoingsomethingforhimwhichheknewwasdisagreeabletoher,hewouldnotlether;andwhenshehintedatanythingshewishedhimtodoforherbecausesheknewitwasdisagreeabletohim,heconsentedsopromptly,sojoyously,thatsheperceivedhecouldnothavegiventheleastthoughttoit。

  Shefelteverydaythattheywerealienintheirtastesandaims;theirpleasureswerenotthesame,andthoughitwassweet,thoughitwascharming,tohavehimgiveupsowillinglyallhispreferences,shefelt,withoutknowingthatthetimemustcomewhenthiscouldnotbeso,thatitwasallwrong。

  “Buttheseverydifferences,theseantagonisms,ifyouwishtocallthemso。”suggestedMissCotton,intalkingAlice’smisgivingsoverwithher,“aren’ttheyjustwhatwilldrawyoutogethermoreandmore?Isn’titwhatattractedyoutoeachother?Theveryfactthatyouaresuchperfectcounterparts——“

  “Yes。”thegirlassented,“that’swhatwe’retaughttobelieve。”Shemeantbythenovels,towhichwealltrustourinstructioninsuchmatters,andherdoubtdoublyrankledaftershehadputittosilence。

  ShekeptonwritingtoDan’smother,thoughmoreandmoreperfunctorily;

  andnowEuniceandnowMinnieMaveringacknowledgedherletters。Sheknewthattheymustthinkshewassilly,buthavingenteredbyDan’sconnivanceuponherfolly,shewastooproudtoabandonit。

  Atlast,aftershehadceasedtoexpectit,camealetterfromhismother,notabriefnote,butaletterwhichtheinvalidhadevidentlytaskedherselftomakelongandfull,inrecognitionofAlice’skindnessinwritingtohersomuch。Thegirlopenedit,and,afteraverifyingglanceatthesignature,begantoreaditwithathrilloftendertriumph,andthefondprevisionofthegreaterpleasureofreadingitagainwithDan。

  Butafterreadingitoncethrough,shedidnotwaitforhimbeforereadingitagainandagain。Shedidthiswithbewilderment,intershotwithflashesofconviction,andthendoubtsofthisconviction。Whenshecouldmisunderstandnolonger,sherosequietlyandfoldedtheletter,andputitcarefullybackintoitsenvelopeandintoherwritingdesk,whereshesatdownandwrote,inherclearestandfirmesthand,thisnotetoMavering——

  “Iwishtoseeyouimmediately。

  “ALICEPASMER。”

  XLIII

  Danhadlearned,withalover’skeenness,toreadAlice’smoodsinthemostcolourlesswordingofhernotes。Shewasratherapttowritehimnotes,takingbackorreaffirmingtheeffectofsomethingthathadjustpassedbetweenthem。Hernoteweretemperedtovaryingdegreesofheatandcold,sofinethatnooneelsewouldhavefeltthedifference,butsensibletohimintheirsubtlestintention。

  Perhapsamerewitnessofthefactwouldhavebeenalarmedbyanotewhichbeganwithoutanaddress,exceptthatontheenvelope,andendeditsperemptorybrevitywiththewriter’snamesignedinfull。Danreadcalamityinit,andhehadallthemoretroubletopullhimselftogethertomeetitbecausehehadpartedwithunusualtendernessfromAlicethenightbefore,afteraneveninginwhichitseemedtohimthattheiridealshadbeencompletelyreconciled。

  Thenotecame,ashernoteswereapttocome,whileDanwasatbreakfast,whichhewasratherluxuriousaboutforsoyoungaman,andhefeltformlesslygladafterwardthathehaddrunkhisfirstcupofcoffeebeforeheopenedit,foritchilledthesecondcup,andseemedtotakeallcharacteroutoftheomelet。

  Heobeyedit,wonderingwhatthedoommenacedinitmightbe,butknowingthatitwasdoom,andleavinghisbreakfasthalf-finished,withadullsenseofthetragedyofdoingso。

  HewouldhavelikedtoaskforMrs。Pasmerfirst,andinterposeamomentofhercheerfulunrealitybetweenhimselfandhisinterviewwithAlice,buthedecidedthathehadbetternotdothis,andtheymetatonce,withthewidthoftheroombetweenthem。Herlookwasonethatmadeitimpassabletothesimpleimpulseheusuallyhadtotakeherinhisarmsandkissher。Butasshestoodholdingoutalettertohim,withtheapparentintentionthatheshouldcomeandtakeit,hetraversedtheinterveningspaceandtookit。

  “Why,it’sfrommother!“hesaidjoyously,withaglanceatthehandwriting。

  “Willyoupleaseexplainit?”saidAlice,andDanbegantoreadit。

  Itbeganwithagoodmanyexcusesfornothavingwrittenbefore,andwentonwithaprettyexpressionofinterestinAlice’slettersandgratitudeforthem;Mrs。Maveringassuredthegirlthatshecouldnotimaginewhatapleasuretheyhadbeentoher。Shepromisedherselfthattheyshouldbegreatfriends,andshesaidthatshelookedforwardeagerlytothetime,nowdrawingnear,whenDanshouldbringherhometothem。ShesaidsheknewAlicewouldfinditdullattheFallsexceptforhim,buttheywouldalldotheirbest,andshewouldfindtheplaceverydifferentfromwhatshehadseenitinthewinter。Alicecouldmakebelievethatshewastherejustforthesummer,andMrs。Maveringhopedthatbeforethesummerwasgoneshewouldbesosorryforasickoldwomanthatshewouldnotevenwishtogowithit。Thispartoftheletter,whichgaveDanawaysohopelessly,ashefelt,wasphrasedsotouchingly,thathelookedupfromitwithmoisteyestothehardcoldjudgmentintheeyesofAlice。

  “Willyoupleaseexplainit?”sherepeated。

  Hetriedtotemporise。“Explainwhat?”

  Alicewasprompttosay,“Hadyoupromisedyourmothertotakemehometolive?”

  Dandidnotanswer。

  “Youpromisedmymothertogoabroad。Whatelsehaveyoupromised?”Hecontinuedsilent,andsheadded,“Youareafaithlessman。”TheywerethewordsofRomola,intheromance,toTito;shehadoftenadmiredthem;andtheyseemedtoherequallythemeasureofDan’soffence。

  “Alice——“

  “Hereareyourlettersandremembrances,Mr。Mavering。”Danmechanicallyreceivedthepacketshehadbeenholdingbehindher;withaperversefreakofintelligenceheobservedthat,thoughmuchlargernow,itwastiedupwiththesameribbonwhichhadfasteneditwhenAlicereturnedhislettersandgiftsbefore。“Good-bye。Iwishyoueveryhappinessconsistentwithyournature。”

  Shebowedcoldly,andwasabouttoleavehim,asshehadplanned;butshehadnotarrangedthatheshouldbestandinginfrontofthedoor,andhewasthere,withnoapparentintentionofmoving。

  “Willyouallowmetopass?”shewasforcedtoask,however,haughtily。

  “No!“heretorted,withaviolencethatsurprisedhim。“Iwillnotletyoupasstillyouhavelistenedtome——tillyoutellmewhyyoutreatmeso。Iwon’tstandit——I’vehadenoughofthiskindofthing。”

  ItsurprisedAlicetooalittle,andafteramoment’shesitationshesaid,“Iwilllistentoyou。”somuchmoregentlythanshehadspokenbeforethatDanrelaxedhisimperativetone,andbegantolaugh。“But。”sheadded,andherfacecloudedagain,“itwillbeofnouse。Mymindismadeupthistime。Whyshouldwetalk?”

  Why,becausemineisn’t。”saidDan。“Whatisthematter,Alice?DoyouthinkIwouldforceyou,orevenaskyou,togohomewithmetoliveunlessyouwereentirelywilling?Itcouldonlybeatemporaryarrangementanyway。”

  “Thatisn’tthequestion。”sheretorted。“Thequestioniswhetheryou’vepromisedyourmotheronethingandmeanother。”

  “Well,Idon’tknowaboutpromising。”saidDan,laughingalittlemoreuneasily,butstilllaughing。“AsnearlyasIcanremember,Iwasn’tconsultedaboutthematter。Yourmotherproposedonething,andmymotherproposedanother。”

  “Andyouagreedtoboth。Thatisquiteenough——quitecharacteristic!“

  Danflushed,andstoppedlaughing。“Idon’tknowwhatyoumeanbycharacteristic。Thethingdidn’thavetobedecidedatonce,andIdidn’tsupposeitwouldbedifficultforeithersidetogiveway,ifitwasjudgedbest。Iwassuremymotherwouldn’tinsist。”

  “Itseemsveryeasyforyourfamilytomakesacrificesthatarenotlikelytoberequiredofthem。”

  “Youmustn’tcriticisemymother!“criedDan。

  “Ihavenotcriticisedher。Youinsinuatethatwewouldbetooselfishtogiveup,ifitwereforthebest。”

  “Idonothingofthekind,andunlessyouaredeterminedtoquarrelwithmeyouwouldn’tsayso。”

  “Idon’twishaquarrel;noneisnecessary。”saidAlicecoldly。

  “Youaccusemeofbeingtreacherous——“

  “Ididn’tsaytreacherous!“

  “Faithless,then。It’samerequibbleaboutwords。Iwantyoutotakethatback。”

  “Ican’ttakeitback;it’sthetruth。Aren’tyoufaithless,ifyouletusgoonthinkingthatyou’regoingtoEurope,andletyourmotherthinkthatwe’recominghometoliveafterwe’remarried?”

  “No!I’msimplyleavingthequestionopen!“

  “Yes。”saidthegirl——sadly,“youliketoleavequestionsopen。That’syourway。”

  “Well,IsupposeIdotillit’snecessarytodecidethem。Itsavestheneedlesseffusionoftalk。”saidDan,withalaugh;andthen,aspeopledoinaquarrel,hewentbacktohisangrymood,andsaid“Besides,I

  supposedyouwouldbegladofthechancetomakesomesacrificeforme。

  You’realwaysaskingforit。”

  “Thankyou,Mr。Mavering。”saidAlice,“forremindingmeofit;nothingissacredtoyou,itseems。Ican’tsaythatyouhaveeversoughtanyopportunitiesofself-sacrifice。”

  “Iwasn’tallowedtimetodoso;theywerealwayspresented。”

  “Thankyouagain,Mr。Mavering。Allthisisquitearevelation。I’mgladtoknowhowyoureallyfeltaboutthingsthatyouseemedsoeagerfor。”

  “Alice,youknowthatIwoulddoanythingforyou!“criedDan,rueinghisprecipitatewords。

  “Yes;that’swhatyou’verepeatedlytoldme。Iusedtobelieveit。”

  “AndIalwaysbelievedwhatyousaid。YousaidatthepicnicthatdaythatyouthoughtIwouldliketoliveatPonkwassetFallsifmybusinesswasthere——“

  “Thatisnotthepoint!“

  “Andnowyouquarrelwithmebecausemymotherwishesmetodoso。”

  Alicemerelysaid:“Idon’tknowwhyIstandhereallowingyoutointimidatemeinmyfather’shouse。Idemandthatyoushallstandasideandletmepass。”

  “I’llnotobligeyoutoleavetheroom。”saidDan。“Iwillgo。ButifI

  go,youwillunderstandthatIdon’tcomeback。”

  “Ihopethat。”saidthegirl。

  “Verywell。Goodmorning,MissPasmer。”

  Sheinclinedherheadslightlyinacknowledgmentofhisbow,andhewhirledoutoftheroomanddownthedimnarrowpassagewayintothearmsofMrs。Pasmer,whohadresistedaslongasshecouldhercuriositytoknowwhattheangryvoicesofhimselfandAlicemeant。

  “0Mr。Mavering,isityou?”shebuzzed;andsheflungasideonepretenceforanotherinadding,“Couldn’tAlicemakeyoustaytobreakfast?”

  Danfeltarushoftendernessinhisheartatthesoundofthekind,humbugginglittlevoice。“No,thankyou,Mrs。Pasmer,Icouldn’tstay,thankyou。I——Ithankyouverymuch。I——good-bye,Mrs。Pasmer。”Hewrungherhand,andfoundhiswayoutoftheapartmentdoor,leavinghertoclearupthemysteryofhisflightandhisbrokenwordsasshecould。

  “Alice。”shesaid,assheenteredtheroom,wherethegirlhadremained,“whathaveyoubeendoingnow?”

  “Oh,nothing。”shesaid,witharemnantofherscornforDanqualifyinghertoneandmannertohermother。“I’vedismissedMr。Mavering。”

  “Thenyouwanthimtocometolunch?”askedhermother。“Ishouldadvisehimtorefuse。”

  “Idon’tthinkhe’daccept。”saidAlice。Then,asMrs。Pasmerstoodinthedoor,preventingheregress,asDanhaddonebefore,sheaskedmeekly“Willyouletmepass,mamma?Myheadaches。”

  Mrs。Pasmer,whoseeasytriumphsinsomanydifficultcircumstanceskepthernearlyalwaysingoodtemper,letherselfgo,atthesewords,invexationveryuncommonwithher。“IndeedIshallnot!“sheretorted。

  “AndyouwillpleasesitdownhereandtellmewhatyoumeanbydismissingMr。Mavering。I’mtiredofyourwhimsandcaprices。”

  “Ican’ttalk。”beganthegirlstubbornly。

  “Yes,Ithinkyoucan。”saidhermother。“Atanyrate,Ican。Nowwhatisitall?”

  “Perhapsthisletter,willexplain。”saidAlice,continuingtodignifyherenforcedsubmissionwithatoneofunabatedhauteur;andshegavehermotherMrs。Mavering’sletter,whichDanhadmechanicallyrestoredtoher。

  Mrs。Pasmerreadit,notonlywithoutindignation,butapparentlywithoutdispleasure。But,sheunderstoodperfectlywhatthetroublewas,whenshelookedupandasked,cheerfully,“Well?”

  “Well!“repeatedAlice,withafrownofastonishment。“Don’tyouseethathe’spromisedusonethingandheranother,andthathe’sfalsetoboth?”

  “Idon’tknow。”saidMrs。Pasmer,recoveringhergood-humourinviewofasituationthatshefeltherselfabletocopewith。“Ofcoursehehastotemporise,tomanagealittle。She’saninvalid,andofcourseshe’sveryexacting。Hehastohumourher。Howdoyouknowhehaspromisedher?Hehasn’tpromisedus。”

  “Hasn’tpromisedus?”Alicegasped。

  “No。He’ssimplyfalleninwithwhatwe’vesaid。It’sbecausehe’ssosweetandyielding,andcan’tbeartorefuse。Icanunderstanditperfectly。”

  “Thenifhehasn’tpromisedus,he’sdeceivedusallthemoreshamefully,forhe’smadeusthinkhehad。”

  “Hehasn’tme。”saidMrs。Pasmer,smilingatthestormyvirtueinherdaughter’sface。“Andwhatifyoushouldgohomeawhilewithhim——forthesummer,say?Itcouldn’tlastlonger,much;anditwouldn’thurtustowait。Isupposehehopedforsomethingofthatkind。”

  “Oh,itisn’tthat。”groanedthegirl,inakindofbewilderment。“I

  couldhavegonetherewithhimjoyfully,andlivedallmydays,ifhe’donlybeenfrankwithme。”

  “Ohno,youcouldn’t。”saidhermother,withcosysecurity。“Whenitcomestoit,youdon’tlikegivingupanymorethanotherpeople。It’sveryhardforyoutogiveup;heseesthat——heknowsit,andhedoesn’treallyliketoaskanysortofsacrificefromyou。He’safraidofyou。”

  “Don’tIknowthat?”demandedAlicedesolately:“I’veknownitfromthefirst,andI’vefeltitallthetime。It’sallamistake,andhasbeen。

  Wenevercouldunderstandeachother。We’retoodifferent。”

  “Thatneedn’tpreventyouunderstandinghim。Itneedn’tpreventyoufromseeinghowreallykindandgoodheis——howfaithfulandconstantheis。”

  “Oh,yousaythat——youpraisehim——becauseyoulikehim。”

  “OfcourseIdo。Andcan’tyou?”

  “No。Theleastgrainofdeceit——oftemporising,youcallit——spoilseverything。It’sover。”saidthegirl,rising,withasigh,fromthechairshehaddroppedinto。“We’rebestapart;wecouldonlyhavebeenwretchedandwickedtogether。”

  “Whatdidyousaytohim,Alice?”askedhermother,unshakenbyherrhetoric。

  “Itoldhimhewasafaithlessperson。”

  “Thenyouwereacruelgirl。”criedMrs。Pasmer,withsuddenindignation;

  “andifyouwerenotmydaughterIcouldbegladhehadescapedyou。I

  don’tknowwhereyougotallthosesilly,romanticnotionsofyoursaboutthesethings。Youcertainlydidn’tgetthemfromme。”shecontinued,withundeniabletruth,“andIdon’tbelieveyougetthemfromyourChurch,It’sjustasMissAndersonsaid:yourChurchmakesallowanceforhumannature,butyoumakenone。”

  “Ishouldn’tgotoJuliaAndersonforinstructioninsuchmatters。”saidthegirl,withcoldresentment。

  “Iwishyouwouldgotoherforalittlecommonsense——orsomebody。”saidMrs。Pasmer。“Doyouknowwhattalkthiswillmake?”

  “Idon’tcareforthetalk。ItwouldbeworsethantalktomarryamanwhomIcouldn’ttrust——whowantedtopleasemesomuchthathehadtodeceiveme,andwastoomuchafraidofmetotellmethetruth。”

  “Youheadstronggirl!“saidhermotherimpartially,admiringatthesametimethegirl’shaughtybeauty。

  TherewasanargumentinreserveinMrs。Pasmer’smindwhichperhapsnonebutanAmericanmotherwouldhavehesitatedtourge;butitissowhollyourtraditiontotreattheimportantbusinessofmarriageasaromanticepisodethatevenshecouldnotbringherselftoinsistthatherdaughtershouldnotthrowawayachancesoadvantageousfromeveryworldlypointofview。Shecouldonlyask,“Ifyoubreakthisengagement,whatdoyouexpecttodo?”

  “Theengagementisbroken。Ishallgointoasisterhood。”

  “Youwilldonothingofthekind,withmyconsent。”saidMrs。Pasmer。

  “Iwillhavenosuchnonsense。Don’tflatteryourselfthatIwill。EvenifIapprovedofsuchathing,Ishouldthinkitwickedtoletyoudoit。

  You’realwaysfancyingyourselfdoingsomethingverydevoted,butI’veneverseenyoureadytogiveupyourownwill,oryourowncomforteven,intheslightestdegree。AndDanMavering,ifheweretwiceastemporisingandcircuitous“——thewordcametoherfromhertalkwithhim——

  “wouldbetwicetoogoodforyou。I’mgoingtobreakfast。”

  XLIV。

  Thedifficultyinlifeistobringexperiencetothelevelofexpectation,tomatchourrealemotionsinviewofanygreatoccasionwiththeidealemotionswhichwehavetaughtourselvesthatweoughttofeel。Thisisallthetruerwhentheoccasionistragical:wesurpriseourselvesinahelplessnesstowhichthegreatevent,death,ruin,lostlove,revealsitselfslowly,andatfirstwearstheaspectofanunbrokencontinuanceofwhathasbeen,oratmostofanotherincidentinthehabitualsequence。

  DanMaveringcameoutintothebrightwintermorningknowingthathisengagementwasbroken,butfeelingitsolittlethathecouldnotbelieveit。Hefailedtorealiseit,toseizeitforafact,andhecouldnotletitremainthatdumbandformlesswretchedness,withoutproportionordimensions,whichitnowseemedtobe,weighinghislifedown。Toverifyit,tobegintooutliveit,hemustinstantlyimpartit,hemusttellit,hemustseeitwithothers’eyes。Thiswasthenecessityofhisyouthandofhissympathy,whichincludedhimselfaswellastherestoftheraceinitsactivity。Hehadtheusualenvironmentofayoungmanwhohasmoney。

  Hebelongedtoclubs,andhehadalargeacquaintanceamongmenofhisownage,wholivedalifeofgreaterleisure;orweremoreabsorbedinbusiness,butwhomhemetconstantlyinsociety。Foronereasonoranother,orfornootherreasonthanthathewasDanMaveringandlikedeveryone,helikedthemall。Hethoughthimselfgreatfriendswiththem;

  hedinedandlunchedwiththem;andtheyknewthePasmers,andallabouthisengagement。Buthedidnotgotoanyofthemnow,withtheneedhefelttoimparthiscalamity,togetthesupportofcomeother’scredenceandopinionofit。Hewenttoafriendwhom,inthewayofhisworld,hemetveryseldom,butwhomhealwaysfound,ashesaid,justwherehehadlefthim。

  Boardmannevermadeanysignofsuspectingthathewasputonandoff,accordingtoDan’snecessityordesireforcomfortorcongratulation;butitwaspartoftheirjokethatDan’scomingtohimalwaysmeantsomethingdecisiveinhisexperiences。Thereporterwasathislatebreakfast,whichhislandladyfurnishedhiminhisroom,though,asMrs。Mashsaid,shenevergavemeals,butacupofcoffeeandaneggortwo,yes。

  “Well?”hesaid,withoutlookingup。

  “Well,I’mdonefor!“criedDan。

  “Again?”askedBoardman。

  “Again!Theothertimewasnothing,Boardman——Iknewitwasn’tanything;

  butthis——thisisfinal。”

  “Goon。”saidBoardman,lookingaboutforhisindividualsalt-cellar,whichhefoundundertheedgeofhisplate;andMaveringlaidthewholecasebeforehim。Ashemadenocommentonitforawhile,Danwasobligedtoaskhimwhathethoughtofit。“Well。”hesaid,withthesmilethatshowedtheevennessofhisprettyteeth,“there’sakindofwildjusticeinit。”Headmittedthis,withtheobjectofmeetingDan’sviewsinanopinion。

  “SoyouthinkI’mafaithlessmantoo,doyou?”demandedMaveringstormily。

  “Notfromyourpointofview。”saidBoardman,whokeptonquietlyeatinganddrinking。

  MaveringwastooamiablenottofeelBoardman’sinnocenceofoffenceinhisunperturbedbehaviour。“Therewasnofaithlessnessaboutit,andyouknowit。”hewenton,halflaughing,halfcrying,inhisexcitement,andmakingBoardmantheavenueofanappealreallyaddressedtoAlice。“Iwasreadytodowhateithersidedecided。”

  “Orboth。”suggestedBoardman。

  “Yes,orboth。”saidDan,boldlyacceptingthesuggestion。“Itwouldn’thavecostmeapangtogiveupifI’dbeenintheplaceofeither。”

  “Iguessthat’swhatshecouldneverunderstand。”Boardmanmusedaloud。

  “AndIcouldneverunderstandhowanyonecouldfailtoseethatthatwaswhatIintended——expected:thatitwouldallcomeoutrightofitself——

  naturally。”DanwasstilladdressingAliceinthisbelatedreasoning。

  “Buttobeaccusedofbadfaith——oftryingtodeceiveanyone——“

  “Prettyrough。”saidBoardman。

  “Rough?It’smorethanIcanstand!“

  “Well,youdon’tseemtobeaskedtostandit。”saidBoardman,andMaveringlaughedforlornlywithhimathisjoke,andthenwalkedawayandlookedoutofBoardman’sdormer-windowontheroofsbelow,withtheirdirty,smoke-stainedFebruarysnow。Hepulledouthishandkerchief,andwipedhisfacewithit。Whenheturnedround,Boardmanlookedkeenlyathim,andasked,withanairofcaution,“Andsoit’sallup?”

  “Yes,it’sallup。”saidDanhoarsely。

  “Nodangerofarelapse?”

  “Whatdoyoumean?”

  “NodangerofhavingmysympathyhandedoverlatertoMissPasmerforexamination?”

  “Iguessyoucanspeakupfreely,Boardman。”saidDan,“ifthat’swhatyoumean。MissPasmerandIarequits。”

  “Well,then,I’mgladofit。Shewasn’ttheoneforyou。Sheisn’tfitforyou。”

  What’sthereasonsheisn’t?”criedDan。“She’sthemostbeautifulandnoblegirlintheworld,andthemostconscientious,andthebest——ifsheisunjusttome。”

  “Nodoubtofthat。I’mnotattackingher,andI’mnotdefendingyou。”

  “Whatareyoudoingthen?”“

  “SimplysayingthatIdon’tbelieveyoutwowouldeverunderstandeachother。Youhaven’tgotthesamepointofview,andyoucouldn’tmakeitgo。Bothoutofascrape。”

  “Idon’tknowwhatyoumeanbyascrape。”saidDan,resentingthewordmorethantheidea。Boardmantacitlyrefusedtomodifyorwithdrawit,andDansaid,afterasulkysilence,inwhichhebegantodramatiseameetingwithhisfamily:“I’mgoinghome;Ican’tstandithere。What’sthereasonyoucan’tcomewithme,Boardman?”

  “Doyoumeantoyourrooms?”

  “No;totheFalls。”

  “Thanks。Guessnot。”

  “Whynot?”

  “Don’tcareaboutbeingafifthwheel。”

  “Oh,pshaw,now,Boardman!Lookhere,youmustgo。Iwantyoutogo。

  I——Iwantyoursupport。That’sit。I’mallbrokenup,andIcouldn’tstandthatthreehours’pullalone。They’llbegladtoseeyou——allofthem。Don’tyousupposethey’llbegladtoseeyou?They’realwaysglad;

  andthey’llunderstand。”

  “Idon’tbelieveyouwantmetogoyourself。Youjustthinkyoudo。”

  “No。Ireallydowantyou,Boardman。Iwanttotalkitoverwithyou。I

  dowantyou。I’mnotfooling。”

  “Don’tthinkIcouldgetaway。”YetheseemedtobepleasedwiththenotionoftheFalls;itmadehimsmile。

  “Well,see。”saidMaveringdisconsolately。“I’mgoingroundtomyroomsnow,andI’llbetheretilltwoo’clock;train’sat2。30。”Hewenttowardsthedoor,wherehefacedabout。“Andyoudon’tthinkitwouldbeofanyuse?”

  “Anyuse——what?”

  “Tryingto——to——tomakeitup。”

  “HowshouldIknow?”

  “No,no;ofcourseyoucouldn’t。”saidDan,miserablydowncast。AlltheresentmentwhichAlice’sinjusticehadrousedinhimhaddiedout;hewassufferingashelplesslyandhopelesslyasachild。“Well。”hesighed,asheswungoutofthedoor。

  Boardmanfoundhimseatedathiswriting-deskinhissmoking-jacketwhenhecametohim,ratherearly,andonthedeskwerelaidoutthepropertiesofthelittleplaywhichhadcometoatragicclose。Thereweresomesmallbitsofjewellery,amongtherestaringofherswhichAlicehadbeenlettinghimwear;alockofherhairwhichhehadkept,forthegreaterconvenienceofkissing,intheoriginalparcel,tiedwithcrimsonribbon;asuccessionofflowerswhichshehadworn,moreandmoredryandbrownwithage;oneofhergloves,whichhehadfoundandkeptfromthedaytheyfirstmetinCambridge;abunchofwitheredbluebellstiedwithsweet-grass,whoseodourfilledtheroom,fromthepicnicatCampobello;

  scrapsofpaperwithherwritingonthem,andcards;severalphotographsofher,andpilesofnotesandletters。

  “Lookhere。”saidDan,knowingitwasBoardmanwithoutturninground,“whatamItodoaboutthesethings?”

  Boardmanrespectfullyexaminedthemoverhisshoulder。“Don’tknowwhattheusualceremonyis。”hesaid,heventuredtoadd,referringtotheheapsofletters,“Seemstohavebeenratherepistolary,doesn’tshe?”

  “Oh,don’ttalkofherasifsheweredead!“criedDan。“I’vebeenfeelingasifshewere。”Allatoncehedroppedhisheadamongthesewitnessesofhisloss,andsobbed。

  Boardmanappearedshocked,andyetsomewhatamused;hemadeasoftlowsibilationbetweenhisteeth。

  Danliftedhishead。“Boardman,ifyouevergivemeaway!“

  “Oh,Idon’tsupposeit’sveryhilarious。”saidBoardman,withvaguekindness。“Packedyet?”heasked,gettingawayfromthesubjectassomethinghedidnotfeelhimselffittedtodealwithconsecutively。

  “I’monlygoingtotakeabag。”saidMavering,goingtogetsomeclothesdownfromaclosetwherehiswordshadasepulchralreverberation。

  “Can’tIhelp?”askedBoardman,keepingawayfromthesadmemorialsofDan’slovestrewnaboutonthedesk,andyetnotabletokeephiseyesoffthemacrosstheroom。

  “Well,Idon’tknow。”saidDan。Hecameoutwithhisarmfulofcoatsandtrousers,andthrewthemonthebed。“Areyougoing?”

  “IfIcouldbelieveyouwantedmeto。”

  “Good!“criedMavering,andthefactseemedtobrightenhimimmediately。

  “Ifyouwantto,stuffthesethingsin,whileI’mdoinguptheseotherthings。”Henoddedhisheadside-wisetowardthedesk。

  “Allright。”saidBoardman。

  HisburstofgriefmusthaverelievedDangreatly。Hesetaboutgatheringuptherelicsonthedesk,andgettingasuitablepieceofpapertowrapthemin。Herejectedseveralpiecesasinappropriate。

  “Idon’tknowwhatkindofpapertodothesethingsupin。”hesaidatlast。

  “Anyspecialkindofpaperrequired?”Boardmanasked,pausingintheactoffoldingapairofpantaloonssoasnottobreakthefallovertheboot。

  “Ididn’tknowtherewas,butthereseemstobe。”saidDan。

  “Silverpaperseemstoberathermoreforcakeandthatsortofthing。”

  suggestedBoardman。“Kindofmourningtoo,isn’tit——silver?”

  “Idon’tknow。”saidDan。“ButIhaven’tgotanysilverpaper。”

  “Newspaperwouldn’tdo?”

  “Well,hardly,Boardman。”saidDan,withsarcasm。

  “Well。”saidBoardman,“Ishouldhavesupposedthatnothingcouldbesimplerthantosendbackalotoflove-letters;butthequestionofpaperseemsinsuperable。Manilapaperwouldn’tdoeither。Andthencomesstring。Whatkindofstringareyougoingtotieitupwith?”

  “Well,wewon’tstartthatquestiontillwegettoit。”answeredDan,lookingabout。“IfIcouldfindsomekindofabox——“

  “Haven’tyougotacollarbox?Betheverything!“Boardmanhadgonebacktothecoatsandtrousers,abandoningDantothesubtlerdifficultiesinwhichhewasinvolved。

  “They’veallgotlabels。”saidMavering,gettingdownonemarked“TheTennyson“andanotherlettered“TheClarion。”andlookingatthemwithcoldrejection。

  “Don’tseehowyou’regoingtosendthesethingsbackatall,then。Havetokeepthem,Iguess。”Boardmanfinishedhistask,andcamebacktoDan。

  “IguessI’vegotitnow。”saidMavering,liftingthelidofhisdesk,andtakingoutalargestiffenvelope,inwhichasetofphotographicviewshadcome。

  “Seemstohavebeenmadeforit。”Boardmanexulted,watchingtheenvelope,asitfilledup,expandintoakindofshapelypacket。Danputthethingssilentlyin,andsealedtheparcelwithhisring。Thenheturneditovertoaddressit,butthewritingofAlice’snameforthispurposeseemedtoomuchforhim,inspiteofBoardman’shumoroussupportthroughout。

  “Oh,Ican’tdoit。”hesaid,fallingbackinhischair。

  “Letme。”saidhisfriend,cheerfullyignoringhisdespair。Hephilosophisedthewholetransaction,asheaddressedthepackage,rangforamessenger,andsentitaway,tellinghimtocallacabfortenminutespasttwo。

  “Mightygoodthinginlifethatwemovebysteps。Nowonthestage,orinanovel,you’dhavegotthosethingstogetherandaddressed’em,anddespatched’em,injusttherightkindofpaper,withjusttherightkindofstringroundit,atadash;andthenyou’dhavehadtimetogoupandleanyourheadagainstsomethingandsoliloquise,orelsethinkunutterablethings。ButhereyouseehowamercifulProvidenceblocksyourwayallalong。You’vehadtofightthroughallsortofsordidlittledetailstothegrandtragicresultofgettingoffMissPasmer’sletters,andwhenyoureachityoudon’tminditabit。”

  “Don’tI?”demandedDan,inashollowavoiceashecould。“You’djokeatafuneral,Boardman。”

  “I’veseensomeprettycheerfulfunerals。”saidBoardman。“Andit’sthisprincipleofsteps,ofdegrees,ofhavingtodothislittlething,andthatlittlething,thatkeepsfuneralsfromkillingthesurvivors。I

  supposethisisworsethanafuneral——lookatitintherightlight。Youmournasonewithouthope,don’tyou?Livethroughittoo,Isuppose。”

  HemadeDanhelpgettherestofhisthingsintohisbag,andwithonelittleartificeandanotherpreventedhimfromstagnatingindespair。HedissentedfromtheideaofwaitingoveranotherdaytoseeifAlicewouldnotrelentwhenshegotherlettersback,andsendforDantocomeandseeher。

  “Relentagooddealmorewhenshefindsyou’vegoneoutoftown,ifshesendsforyou。”heargued;andhegotDanintothecabandofftothestation,carefullymakinghimanactivepartnerinthewholeundertaking,eventocheckinghisownbag。

  BeforeheboughthisownticketheappealedoncemoretoDan。

  “Lookhere!Ifeellikeafoolgoingoffwithyouonthisexpedition。Behonestforonce,now,Mavering,andtellmeyou’vethoughtbetterofit,anddon’twantmetogo!“

  “Yes——yes,Ido。Ohyes,you’vegottogo。IIdowantyou。I——youmakemeseethingsinjusttherightlight,don’tyouknow。Thatideaofyoursaboutlittlesteps——it’sbracedmeallup。Yes——“

  “You’resuchaninfernalhumbug。”saidBoardman,“Ican’ttellwhetheryouwantmeornot。ButI’minforitnow,andI’llgo。”Thenheboughthisticket。

  XLV。

  BoardmanputhimselfinchargeofMavering,andtookhimintothesmokingcar。Itwasimpossibletoindulgeapoeticgloomtherewithoutbecomingunpleasantlyconspicuousinthesmokingandeuchreandprofanity。Someofthemenweresilentanddull,butnoonewasapparentlyveryunhappy,andperhapsifDanhaddealtinabsolutesinceritywithhimself,evenhewouldnothavefoundhimselfwhollyso。HedidnotfeelashehadfeltwhenAlicerejectedhim。Thenhewaswoundedtothequickthroughhisvanity,andnow;inspiteofall,inspiteoftheinvoluntarytenderswayingofhishearttowardherthroughthemereforceofhabit,inspiteofsomeremotecompunctionsforhiswantofcandourwithher,hewassupportedbyasenseofherinjustice,herhardness。Relatedwiththiswasanobscuresenseofescape,ofliberation,which,howeverhemightsilenceanddisownit,wasstillthere。Hecouldnothelpbeingawarethathehadlongrelinquishedtastescustoms,purposes,ideals,togainapeacethatseemedmoreandmorefleetinganduncertain,andthathehadsubmittedtootherswhich,nowthatthemomentofgivingpleasurebyhissubmissionwaspast,herecognisedasdisagreeable。Hefeltasortofguiltinhisenlargement;heknew,byallthathehad,everheardorreadofpeopleinhisposition,thatheoughttobealtogethermiserable;andyetthisconsciousnessofreliefpersisted。Hetoldhimselfthataverytragicalthinghadbefallenhim;thatthisbrokenengagementwastheruinofhislifeandtheendofhisyouth,andthathemustliveonanoldandjoylessman,wisewiththeknowledgethatcomestodecrepitudeanddespair;heimaginedacertainlookforhimself,agait,aname,thatwouldexpressthis;butallthesamehewasawareofhavinggotoutofsomething。Wasitabondage,ascrape,asBoardmancalledit?Hethoughthemustbeaverylight,shallow,andfrivolousnaturenottobeutterlybrokenupbyhisdisaster。

  “Idon’tknowwhatI’mgoinghomefor。”hesaidhoarselytoBoardman。

  “Kindofarest,Isuppose。”suggestedhisfriend。

  “Yes,Iguessthat’sit。”saidDan。“I’mtired。”

  Itseemedtohimthatthiswasratherfine;itwasafatigueofthesoulthathewastorestfrom。Herememberedtheapostrophiccloseofanovelinwhichtheheroinediesaftermuchemotionalsuffering。“Quiet,quietheart!“herepeatedtohimself。Yes,hetoohaddiedtohope,tolove,tohappiness。

  Astheydrewneartheirjourney’sendhesaid,“Idon’tknowhowI’mgoingtobreakittothem。”

  “Oh,probablybreakitself。”saidBoardman。“Thesethingsusuallydo。”

  “Yes,ofcourse。”Danassented。

  “Knowfromyourlooksthatsomething’sup。Oryoumightletmegoaheadalittleandpreparethem。”

  Danlaughed。“Itwasawfullygoodofyoutocome,Boardman。Idon’tknowwhatIshouldhavedonewithoutyou。”

  “NothingIlikemorethantheselittletrips。Brightensyouuptoserethemiseryofothers;makesyoufeelthatyou’reonpeculiarlygoodtermswithProvidence。Haven’tenjoyedmyselfsomuchsincethatdayinPortland。”Boardman’seyestwinkled。

  “Yes。”saidDan,withadeepsigh,“it’sapityithadn’tendedthere。”

  “Oh,Idon’tknow。Youwon’thavetogothroughwithitagain。Somethingthathadtocome,wasn’tit?Neverbeensatisfiedifyouhadn’ttriedit。

  Kindofachingvoidbefore,andnowyou’vegotenough。”

  “Yes,I’vegotenough。”saidDan,“ifthat’sall。”

  WhentheygotoutofthetrainatPonkwassetFalls,andtheconductorandthebrakeman,whoknewDanashisfather’sson,andtreatedhimwiththedistinctionduearepresentativeofaninterestvaluedbytheroad,hadbiddenhimarespectfullyintimategood-night,andhebegantoclimbthehilltohisfather’shouse,herecurredtothedifficultybeforehiminbreakingthenewstohisfamily。“IwishIcouldhaveitoverinaflash。

  IwishI’dthoughttotelegraphittothem。”

  “Wouldn’thavedone。”saidBoardman。“Itwouldhavegiven’emtimetoformulatequestionsandconjectures,andnowtheastonishmentwilltaketheirbreathawaytillyoucangetyoursecondwind,andthen——you’llbeallright。”

  “Youthinkso?”askedDansubmissively。

  “Knowso。Yousee,ifyoucouldhavehaditoverinaflash,itwouldhaveknockedyouflat。Butnowyou’vetakenallthelittlesteps,andyou’vegotalotmoretotake,andyou’reallbracedup。See?You’relikerock,now——adamant。”DanlaughedinforlornperceptionofBoardman’saffectionateirony。“Littlestepsarethething。You’llhavetogoinnowandmeetyourfamily,andpassthetimeofdaywitheachone,andtalkabouttheweather,andaccountformybeingalong,andaskhowtheyallare;andbythetimeyou’vehaddinner,andgotsettledwithyourlegsoutinfrontofthefire,you’llbejustinthemoodforit。Enjoytellingthemallaboutit。”

  “Don’t,Boardman。”pleadedDan。“Boardy,IbelieveifIcouldgetinanduptomyroomwithoutanybody’sseeingme,I’dletyoutellthem。Theredon’tseemtobeanybodyabout,andIthinkwecouldmanageit。”

  “Itwouldn’twork。”saidBoardman。“Gottodoityourself。”

  “Well,then,waitaminute。”saidDandesperately;andBoardmanknewthathewastostayoutsidewhileDanreconnoitredtheinterior。Danopenedonedoorafteranothertillhestoodwithinthehotbrilliantlylightedhall。EuniceMaveringwascomingdownthestairs,hoodedandwrappedforawalkonthelongverandahsbeforesupper。

  “Dan!“shecried。

  “It’sallup,Eunice。”hesaidatonce,asifshehadaskedhimaboutit。

  “Myengagement’soff。”

  “Oh,I’msoglad!“Shedescendeduponhimwithoutstretchedarms,butstoppedherselfbeforeshereachedhim。“It’sahoax。Whatdoyoumean?

  Doyoureallymeanit,Dan?”

  “IguessImeanit。Butdon’t——Holdon!Where’sMinnie?”

  Euniceturned,andranbackupstairs。“Minnie!Min!“shecalledonherway。“Dan’sengagement’soff。”

  “Idon’tbelieveit!“answeredMinnie’svoicejoyously,fromwithinsomeroom。Itwasfollowedbyherpresence,withsuccessiveinquiries。“Howdoyouknow?”Didyougetaletter?Whendidithappen?Oh,isn’tittoogood?”

  Minniewasalsodressedfortheverandahpromenade,whichtheyalwaystookwhenthesnowwastoodeep。Shecaughtsightofherbrotherasshecamedown。“Why,Dan’shere!Dan,I’vebeenthinkingaboutyouallday。”Shekissedhim,whichEunicewasnowremindedtodotoo。

  “Yes,it’strue,Minnie。”saidDangravely。“Icameuptotellyou。Itdon’tseemtodistressyoumuch。”

  “Dan!“saidhissisterreproachfully。“YouknowIdidn’tmeantosayanythingIonlyfeltsogladtohaveyoubackagain。”

  “Iunderstand,Minnie——Idon’tdameyou。It’sallright。How’smother?”

  Fatherupfromtheworksyet?I’mgoingtomyroom。”

  “Indeedyou’renot!“criedEunice,witheldersisterlyauthority。“Youshalltellusaboutitfirst。”

  “Ohno!Lethimgo,Eunice!“pleadedMinnie,“PoorDan!AndIdon’tthinkweoughttogotowalkwhen——“

  Dan’seyesdimmed,andhisvoiceweakenedalittleathersympathy。“Yes,go。I’mtired——that’sall。Thereisn’tanythingtotellyou,hardly。

  MissPasmer——“

  “Why,he’spale!“criedMinnie。“Eunice!“

  “Oh,it’sjusttheheatinhere。”Danreallyfeltalittlesickandfaintwithit,buthewasnotsorrytoseemaffectedbytheday’sstrainuponhisnerves。

  Thegirlsbegantotakeofftheirwraps。“Don’t。I’llgowithyou。

  Boardman’soutthere。”

  “Boardman!Whatnonsense!“exclaimedEunice。

  “He’llliketohearyouropinionofit。”Danbegan;buthissisterpulledthedoorsopen,andranouttoseeifhereallymeantthattoo。

  WhetherBoardmanhadheardher,orhaddiscreetlywithdrawnoutofearshotatthefirstsoundofvoices,shecouldnottell,butshefoundhimsomedistanceawayfromthesnow-boxonthepiazza。“Dan’sjustmanagedtotellusyouwerehere。”shesaid,givinghimherhand。“I’mgladtoseeyou。Docomein。”

  “ComealongasasortofJob’scomforter。”Boardmanexplained,ashefollowedherin;andhehadthesillylookthatthemanwhofeelshimselfsuperfluousmustwear。

  “Thenyouknowaboutit?”saidEunice,whileMinnieMaveringandhewereshakinghands。

  “Yes,Boardmanknows;hecantellyouaboutit。”saidDan,fromthehallchairhehaddroppedinto。Heroseandmadehiswaytothestairs,withtheeffectofleavingthewholethingtothem。

  Hissistersranafterhim,andgothimupstairsandintohisroom,withBoardman’ssemi-satiricalconnivance,andEuniceputupthewindow,whileMinniewenttogetsomecolognetowethisforehead。Theireffortsweresosuccessfulthatherevivedsufficientlytodrivethemoutofhisroom,andmakethemgoandshowBoardmantohis。

  “Youknowtheway,Mr。Boardman。”saidEunice,goingbeforehim,whileMinniefollowedtimorously,butcuriousforwhatheshouldsay。Shelingeredonthethreshold,whilehersisterwentinandpulledtheelectricapparatuswhichlightedthegas-burners。“IsupposeDandidn’tbreakit?”shesaid,turningsharplyuponhim。

  “No;andIdon’tthinkhewastoblame。”saidBoardman,inferringherreservedanxiety。

  “Oh,I’mquitesureofthat。”saidEunice,rejectingwhatshehadaskedfor。“You’llfindeverything,Mr。Boardman。ItwaskindofyoutocomewithDan。Supper’satseven。”

  “Howsevereyouwerewithhim!“murmuredMinnie,followingheraway。

  “SeverewithDan?”

  “No——withMr。Boardman。”

  “Whatnonsense!Ihadtobe。Icouldn’tlethimdefendDantome。

  Coupleofsillyboys!“

  AfteramomentMinniesaid,“Idon’tthinkhe’ssilly。”

  “Who?”

  “Mr。Boardman。”

  “Well,Danis,then,tobringhimatsuchatime。ButIsupposehefeltthathecouldn’tgetherewithouthim。Whataboy!Thinkofsuchachildbeingengaged!Ihopeweshan’thearanymoreofsuchnonsenseforonewhileagain——atleasttillDan’sgothisgrowth。”

  Theywentdownintothelibrary,where,intheirexcitement,theysatdownwithmostoftheiroutdoorthingson。

  Minniehadthesoftcontrary-mindednessofgentlenatures。“IshouldliketoknowhowyouwouldhavehadDanbearit。”shesaidrebelliously。

  “How?Likeaman。Orlikeawoman。HowdoyousupposeMissPasmer’sbearingit?Doyousupposeshe’sgotsomefriendtohelpher?”

  “Ifshe’sbrokenit,shedoesn’tneedanyone。”urgedMinnie。

  “Well。”saidEunice,withherhighscornofDanunabated,“Inevercouldhavelikedthatgirl,butIcertainlybegintorespecther。IthinkI

  couldhavegotonwithher——nowthatit’snouse。Ideclare。”shebrokeoff,“we’resittinghereswelteringtodeath!Whatarewekeepingourthingsonfor?”Shebegantotearhersviolentlyoffandtoflingthemonchairs,scolding,andlaughingatthesametimewithMinnie,attheirabsent-mindedness。

  Aheavystepsoundedontheverandahwithout。

  “There’sfather!“shecriedvividly,jumpingtoherfeetandrunningtothedoor,whileMinnie,inanervousbewilderment,ranoffupstairstoherroom。Euniceflungthedooropen。“Well,father,we’vegotDanbackagain。”Andatalookofquietquestioninhiseyeshehurriedon:“Hisengagement’sbroken,andhe’scomeupheretotellus,andbroughtMr。

  Boardmanalongtohelp。”

  “Whereishe?”askedthefather,withhisruminantquiet,pullingofffirstonesleeveofhisovercoat,andpausingforEunice’sanswerbeforehepulledofftheother。

  XLVI。

  “He’supinhisroom,restingfromtheeffort。”Shelaughednervously,andherfathermadenocomment。Hetookoffhisarticles,andthenwentcreakingupstairstoDan’sroom。Butatthedoorhepaused,withhishandontheknob,andturnedawaytohisownroomwithoutentering。

  Danmusthaveheardhim;inafewminuteshecametohim。

  “Well,Dan。”saidhisfather,shakinghands。

  “IsupposeEunicehastoldyou?”Well,Iwanttotellyouwhyithappened。”

  TherewassomethinginhisfatherthatalwayssteadiedDanandkepthimtothepoint。Henowputthewholecasefairlyandsquarely,andhiscandourandopennessseemedtohimtoreactandcharacterisehisconductthroughout。Hedidnotrealisethatthiswasnotsotillhisfathersaidattheclose,withmildjustice,“Youweretoblameforlettingthethingrunonsoatlooseends。”

  “Yes,ofcourse。”saidDan,seeingthathewas。“Buttherewasnointentionofdeceivinganyoneofbadfaith——“

  “Ofcoursenot。”

  “Ithoughtitcouldbeeasilyarrangedwheneveritcametothepoint。”

  “Ifyou’dbeenolder,youwouldn’thavethoughtthat。Youhadwomentodealwithonbothsides。Butifit’sallover,I’mnotsorry。IalwaysadmiredMissPasmer,butI’vebeenmoreandmoreafraidyouwerenotsuitedtoeachother。Yourmotherdoesn’tknowyou’rehere?”

  “No,sir,Isupposenot。Doyouthinkitwilldistressher?”

  “Howdidyoursisterstakeit?”

  Dangavearuefullaugh。“Itseemedtoberatherapopularmovewiththem。”

  “Iwillseeyourmotherfirst。”saidthefather。

  Heleftthemwhentheywentintothelibraryaftersupper,andalittlelaterDanandEuniceleftBoardmaninchargeofMinniethere。

  Helookedaftertheirunannouncedwithdrawalincomicconsciousness。

  “It’snousepretendingthatI’mnotaprettylargepluralityhere。”hesaidtoMinnie。

  “Oh,I’msogladyoucame!“shecried,withakindnesswhichwasasrealasifithadbeenmoresincere。

  “Doyouthinkmotherwillfeelitmuch?”askedDananxiously,ashewentupstairswithEunice。

  “Well,she’llhatetoloseacorrespondent——sucharegularone。”saidEunice,andtheaffairbeingsofarbeyondanyothercomment,shelaughedtherestofthewaytotheirmother’sroom。

  Thewholefamilyhadinsomedegreethatfoiblewhichaffectspeoplewholeadisolatedlives;theycometothinkthattheyaretheonlypeoplewhohavetheirvirtues;theyexaggeratethese,andtheyconceiveakindnessevenforthequalitieswhicharenottheirvirtues。Mrs。Mavering’slifewassecludedagainfromthefamilyseclusion,andtheirpeculiaritieswereintensifiedinher。Besides,shehadsomeverymarkedpeculiaritiesofherown,andthesewerealsointensifiedbythesolitudetowhichshewasnecessarilyleftsomuch。Shemeditatedagreatdealuponthecharacterofherchildren,andshelikedtoanalyseandcensureitbothinherownmindandopenlyintheirpresence。Shewasverytrenchantanddefiniteintheseestimatesofthem;shelikedtoticketthem,andthenticketthemanew。Sheexploredtheirancestralhistoryonbothsidesfortheoriginoftheirtraits,andthereweretimeswhenshereducedtheminformulatomerecongeriesofinheritedcharacteristics。IfEunicewasself-willedanddespotic,shewasjustlikehergrandmotherMavering;ifMinniewasallsentimentandgentlestubbornness,itwasbecausetwoauntsofhers,oneoneitherside,wereexactlyso;ifDanlovedpleasureandbeauty,andwassinuousanduncertaininsomanyways,andyetwassokindandfaithfulandgood,aswellasshilly-shallyingandundecided,itwasbecausehermother,andhermother’sfather,hadthesequalitiesinthesamecombination。

  Whenshetookherchildrentopiecesbeforetheirfaces,shewassharpandadmonitoryenoughwiththem。Shewarnedthemtowhattheircharacterswouldbringthemtoiftheydidnotlookout;butperhapsbecauseshebeheldthemsohopelesslythepresenteffectoftheaccumulatedtendenciesofthefamilypast,shewastenderandforgivingtotheiractions。Themothercameinthere,andsupersededthestudentofheredity:shefoundexcuseforthemintheperversityofcircumstance,inthepeculiarhardshipofthecase,inthemalignantmisbehaviourofothers。

  AsDanentered,withtheprecedencehisfatherandsisteryieldedhimastheprincipalactorinthescenewhichmustfollow,sheliftedherselfvigorouslyinbed,andproppedherselfontheelbowofonearmwhileshestretchedtheothertowardshim。

  “I’mgladofit,Dan!“shecalled,atthemomentheopenedthedoor,andashecametowardhershecontinued,withtheamazingvelocityofutterancepeculiartonervoussufferersofhersex:“Iknowallaboutit,andIdon’tblameyouabit!AndIdon’tblameher!Poorhelplessyoungthings!Butit’saperfectmercyit’sallover;it’sthegreatestdeliveranceIeverheardof!You’dhavebeeneatenupalive。Isawit,andIknewitfromtheveryfirstmoment,andI’velivedinfearandtremblingforyou。Youcouldhavegotonwellenoughifyou’dbeenlefttoyourselves,butthatyoucouldn’thavebeennorhopetobeaslongasyoubreathed,fromthemeddlingandthemachinationsandthemaliceofthatunscrupulousandunconscionableoldCat!“

  BythetimeMrs。Maveringhadhissedoutthelastwordshehadherarmroundherboy’sneckandwasclutchinghim,safeandsoundafterhisperil,toherbreast;andbetweenherkissingandcryingsherepeatedheraccusalsanddenunciationswithviolentvolubility。

  Dancouldnothaverepliedtotheminthateffusionofgratitudeandtendernesshefeltforhismother’spartisanship;andwhenshewentoninalmosttheverytermsofhisself-defence,andtoldhimthathehaddoneashehadbecauseitwaseasyforhimtoyield,andhecouldnotimagineaCatwhowouldputherdaughteruptoentrappinghimintoapromisethatsheknewmustbreakhismother’sheart,hefoundhersorightonthemainpointthathecouldnothelpsomequestionofMrs。Pasmerinhissoul。

  Couldshereallyhavebeenatthebottomofitall?Shewasverysly,andshemightbeveryfalse,anditwascertainlyshewhohadfirstproposedtheirgoingabroadtogether。Itlookedasifitmightbeashismothersaid,andatanyrateitwasnotimetodisputeher,andhedidnotsayawordinbehalfofMrs。Pasmer,whomshecontinuedtorendinathousandpiecesandscattertothewindstillshehadtostopbreathless。

  “Yes!it’squiteasIexpected!Shedideverythingshecouldtotrapyouintoit。Shefairlyflungthatpoorgirlatyou。Shelaidherplanssothatyoucouldn’tsayno——sheunderstoodyourcharacterfromthestart!——

  andthen,whenitcameoutbyaccident,andshesawthatshehadolderheadstodealwith,andyouwerenotgoingtobequiteathermercy,shedroppedthemaskinaninstant,andmadeAlicebreakwithyou。Oh,I

  couldseethroughherfromthebeginning!Andthenexttime,Dan,I

  adviseyou,asyouneversuspectanybodyyourself,toconsultwithsomebodywhodoesn’ttakepeopleforwhattheyseem,andnottoletyourselfbeflatteredoutofyoursensor,evenifyouseeyourfatheris。”

  Mrs。Maveringdroppedbackonherpillow,andherhusbandsmiledpatientlyattheirdaughter。

  Dansawhispatientsmileandunderstoodit;andtheinjusticewhichhisfatherboremadehimfinallyunwillingtoletanotherremainunderit。

  Hardasitwastoopposehismotherinanythingwhenshewaspraisinghimsosweetlyandcomfortinghiminthemomentofhisneed,hepulledhimselftogethertoprotest:“No,no,mother!Idon’tthinkMrs。Pasmerwastoblame;Idon’tbelieveshehadanythingtodowithit。She’salwaysstoodmyfriend——“

  “Oh,I’venodoubtshe’smadeyouthinkso,Dan。”saidhismother,withunabatedfondnessforhim;“andyouthinksobecauseyou’resosimpleandgood,andneversuspectevilofanyone。It’sthishideousoptimismthat’skillingeverything——’

  Acertainnoteintheinvalid’sfallingvoiceseemedtowarnherhearersofanimpendingchangethatcoulddonoonegood。Eunicerosehastilyandinterrupted:“Mother,Mr。Boardman’shere。HecameupwithDan。MayMinniecomeinwithhim?”

  Mrs。MaveringshotaglanceofinquiryatDan,andthenletaswiftinspectionrangeoverallthedetailsoftheroom,andfinallyconcentrateitselfonthesilkandlaceofherbed,overwhichshepassedasmoothinghand。“Mr。Boardman?”shecried,withinstantlyrecoveredamiability。“Ofcourseshemay!“

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