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  Themen,afterrecognizingTroy’sfeatures,withdrewacrosstheorchardasquietlyastheyhadcome。TheairwasbigwithBathsheba’sfortunesto-night:everywordeverywhereconcernedher。Whentheywerequiteoutofearshotallbyoneinstinctpaused。

  `Itgavemequiteaturn-hisface,’saidTall,breathing。

  `Andsoitdidme,’saidSamway。`What’stobedone?’

  `Idon’tseethat’tisanybusinessofours,’Smallburymurmureddubiously。

  `Butitis!’Tisathingwhichiseverybody’sbusiness,’saidSamway。

  `Weknowverywellthatmaster’sonawrongtack,andthatshe’squiteinthedark,andweshouldlet’emknowatonce。Laban,youknowherbest-you’dbettergoandasktespeaktoher。’

  `Ibain’tfitforanysuchthing,’saidLaban,nervously。`IshouldthinkWilliamoughttodoitifanybody。He’soldest。’

  `Ishallhavenothingtodowithit,’saidSmallbury。`’Tisaticklishbusinessaltogether。Why,he’llgoontoherhimselfinafewminutes,ye’llsee。’

  `Wedon’tknowthathewill。Come,Laban。’

  `Verywell,ifImustImust,Isuppose,’Tallreluctantlyanswered。

  `WhatmustIsay?’

  `Justasktoseemaster。’

  `Ono;Ishan’tspeaktoMrBoldwood。IfItellanybody,’twillbemistress。’

  `Verywell,’saidSamway。

  Labanthenwenttothedoor。Whenheopeneditthehumofbustlerolledoutasawaveuponastillstrand-theassemblagebeingimmediatelyinsidethehall-andwasdeadenedtoamurmurashecloseditagain。Eachmanwaitedintently,andlookedaroundatthedarktreetopsgentlyrockingagainsttheskyandoccasionallyshiveringinaslightwind,asifhetookinterestinthescene,whichneitherdid。Oneofthembeganwalkingupanddown,andthencametowherehestartedfromandstoppedagain,withasensethatwalkingwasathingnotworthdoingnow。

  `IshouldthinkLabanmusthaveseenmistressbythistime,’saidSmallbury,breakingthesilence。`Perhapsshewon’tcomeandspeaktohim。’

  Thedooropened。Tallappeared,andjoinedthem。`Well?’saidboth。

  `Ididn’tliketoaskforherafterall,’Labanfalteredout。`Theywereallinsuchastir,tryingtoputalittlespiritintotheparty。

  Somehowthefanseemstohangfire,thougheverything’stherethataheartcandesire,andIcouldn’tformysoulinterfereandthrowdampuponit-if’twastosavemylife,Icouldn’t!’

  `Isupposewehadbetterallgointogether,’saidSamway,gloomily。

  `PerhapsImayhaveachanceofsayingawordtomaster。’

  Sothemenenteredthehall,whichwastheroomselectedandarrangedforthegatheringbecauseofitssize。Theyoungermenandmaidswereatlastjustbeginningadance。Bathshebahadbeenperplexedhowtoact,forshewasnotmuchmorethanaslimyoungmaidherself,andtheweightofstatelinesssatheavyuponher。Sometimesshethoughtsheoughtnottohavecomeunderanycircumstances;thensheconsideredwhatcoldunkindnessthatwouldhavebeen,andfinallyresolveduponthemiddlecourseofstayingforaboutanhouronly,andglidingoffunobserved,havingfromthefirstmadeuponhermindthatshecouldonnoaccountdance,sing,ortakeanyactivepartintheproceedings。

  HerallottedhourhavingbeenpassedinchattingandlookingonBathshebatoldLiddynottohurryherselfandwenttothesmallparlourtopreparefordeparture,which,likethehall,wasdecoratedwithhollyandivy,andwelllightedup。

  Nobodywasintheroom,butshehadhardlybeenthereamomentwhenthemasterofthehouseentered。

  `MrsTroy-youarenotgoing?’hesaid。`We’vehardlybegun!’

  `Ifyou’llexcuseme,Ishouldliketogonow。’Hermannerwasrestiveforsherememberedherpromise,andimaginedwhathewasabouttosay。

  `Butasitisnotlate,’sheadded,`Icanwalkhome,andleavemymanandLiddytocomewhentheychoose。’

  `I’vebeentryingtogetanopportunityofspeakingtoyou,’saidBoldwood。

  `YouknowperhapswhatIlongtosay?’

  Bathshebasilentlylookedonthefloor。

  `Youdogiveit?’hesaid,eagerly。

  `What?’shewhispered。

  `Now,that’sevasion!Why,thepromise。Idon’twanttointrudeuponyouatall,ortoletitbecomeknowntoanybody。Butdogiveyourword!

  Amerebusinesscompact,youknow,betweentwopeoplewhoarebeyondtheinfluenceofpassion。’Boldwoodknewhowfalsethispicturewasasregardedhimself;buthehadprovedthatitwastheonlytoneinwhichshewouldallowhimtoapproachher。`Apromisetomarrymeattheendoffiveyearsandthreequarters。Youoweittome!’

  `IfeelthatIdo,’saidBathsheba;`thatis,ifyoudemandit。ButIamachangedwoman-anunhappywoman-andnot-not——’

  `Youarestillaverybeautifulwoman,’saidBoldwood。Honestyandpureconvictionsuggestedtheremark,unaccompaniedbyanyperceptionthatitmighthavebeenadoptedbybluntflatterytosootheandwinher。

  However,ithadnotmucheffectnow,forshesaid,inapassionlessmurmurwhichwasinitselfaproofofherwords:`Ihavenofeelinginthematteratall。AndIdon’tatallknowwhatisrighttodoinmydifficultposition,andIhavenobodytoadviseme。ButIgivemypromise,ifImust。

  Igiveitastherenderingofadebt,conditionally,ofcourse,onmybeingawidow。’

  `You’llmarrymebetweenfiveandsixyearshence?’

  `Don’tpressmetoohard。I’llmarrynobodyelse。’

  `Butsurelyyouwillnamethetime,orthere’snothinginthepromiseatall?’

  `OIdon’tknow,prayletmego!’shesaid,herbosombeginningtorise。

  `Iamafraidwhattodo!Iwanttobejusttoyou,andtobethatseemstobewrongingmyself,andperhapsitisbreakingthecommandments。Thereisconsiderabledoubtofhisdeath,andthenitisdreadful;letmeaskasolicitor,MrBoldwood,ifIoughtorno!’

  `Saythewords,dearone,andthesubjectshallbedismissed;ablissfullovingintimacyofsixyears,andthenmarriage-OBathsheba,saythem!’

  hebeggedinahuskyvoice,unabletosustaintheformsofmerefriendshipanylonger。`Promiseyourselftome;Ideserveit,indeedIdo,forIhavelovedyoumorethananybodyintheworld!AndifIsaidhastywordsandshoweduncalled-forheatofmannertowardsyou,believeme,dear,Ididnotmeantodistressyou;Iwasinagony,Bathsheba,andIdidnotknowwhatIsaid。Youwouldn’tletadogsufferwhatIhavesuffered,couldyoubutknowit!SometimesIshrinkfromyourknowingwhatIhavefeltforyou,andsometimesIamdistressedthatallofityouneverwillknow。

  Begracious,andgiveupalittletome,whenIwouldgiveupmylifeforyou!’

  Thetrimmingsofherdress,astheyquiveredagainstthelight,showedhowagitatedshewas,andatlastsheburstoutcrying。`Andyou’llnot-pressme-aboutanythingmore-ifIsayinfiveorsixyears?’shesobbed,whenshehadpowertoframethewords。

  `Yes,thenI’llleaveittotime。’

  `Verywell。Ifhedoesnotreturn,I’llmarryyouinsixyearsfromthisday,ifwebothlive,’shesaidsolemnly。

  `Andyou’lltakethisasatokenfromme。’

  Boldwoodhadcomeclosetoherside,andnowheclaspedoneofherhandsinbothhisown,andliftedittohisbreast。

  `Whatisit?OhIcannotweararing!’sheexclaimed,onseeingwhatheheld;`besides,Iwouldn’thaveasoulknowthatit’sanengagement!

  Perhapsitisimproper?Besides,wearenotengagedintheusualsense,arewe?Don’tinsist,MrBoldwood-don’t!’Inhertroubleatnotbeingabletogetherhandawayfromhimatonce,shestampedpassionatelyonthefloorwithonefoot,andtearscrowdedtohereyesagain。

  `Itmeanssimplyapledge-nosentiment-thesealofapracticalcompact,’

  hesaidmorequietly,butstillretainingherhandinhisfirmgrasp。`Come,now!’AndBoldwoodslippedtheringonherfinger。

  `Icannotwearit,’shesaid,weepingasifherheartwouldbreak。`Youfrightenme,almost。Sowildascheme!Pleaseletmegohome!’

  `Onlyto-night:wearitjustto-night,topleaseme!’

  Bathshebasatdowninachair,andburiedherfaceinherhandkerchief,thoughBoldwoodkeptherhandyet。Atlengthshesaid,inasortofhopelesswhisper——

  `Verywell,then,Iwillto-night,ifyouwishitsoearnestly。Nowloosenmyhand;Iwill,indeedIwillwearitto-night。’

  `Anditshallbethebeginningofapleasantsecretcourtshipofsixyears,withaweddingattheend?’

  `Itmustbe,Isuppose,sinceyouwillhaveitso!’shesaid,fairlybeatenintonon-resistance。

  Boldwoodpressedherhand,andallowedittodropinherlap。`Iamhappynow,’hesaid。`Godblessyou!’

  Helefttheroom,andwhenhethoughtshemightbesufficientlycomposedsentoneofthemaidstoher。Bathshebacloakedtheeffectsofthelatesceneasshebestcould,followedthegirl,andinafewmomentscamedownstairswithherhatandcloakon,readytogo。Togettothedooritwasnecessarytopassthroughthehall,andbeforedoingsoshepausedonthebottomofthestaircasewhichdescendedintoonecorner,totakealastlookatthegathering。

  Therewasnomusicordancinginprogressjustnow。Atthelowerend,whichhadbeenarrangedforthework-folkspeciallyagroupconversedinwhispers,andwithcloudedlooks。Boldwoodwasstandingbythefireplace,andhe,too,thoughsoabsorbedinvisionsarisingfromherpromisethathescarcelysawanything,seemedatthatmomenttohaveobservedtheirpeculiarmanner,andtheirlooksaskance。

  `Whatisityouareindoubtabout,men?’hesaid。

  Oneofthemturnedandreplieduneasily:`ItwassomethingLabanheardof,that’sall,sir。’

  `News?Anybodymarriedorengaged,bornordead?’inquiredthefarmer,gaily。`Tellittous,Tall。Onewouldthinkfromyourlooksandmysteriouswaysthatitwassomethingverydreadfulitindeed。

  `Ono,sir,nobodyisdead,’saidTall。

  `Iwishsomebodywas,’saidSamway,inawhisper。

  `Whatdoyousay,Samway?’saidBoldwood,somewhatsharply。`Ifyouhaveanythingtosay,speakout;ifnot,getupanotherdance。

  `MrsTroyhascomedownstairs,’saidSamwaytoTall。`Ifyouwanttotellher,youhadbetterdoitnow。’

  `Doyouknowwhattheymean?’thefarmeraskedBathsheba,acrosstheroom。

  `Idon’tintheleast,’saidBathsheba。

  Therewasasmartrappingatthedoor。Oneofthemenopeneditinstantly,andwentoutside。

  `MrsTroyiswanted,’hesaid,onreturning。

  `Quiteready,’saidBathsheba。`ThoughIdidn’ttellthemtosend。’

  `Itisastranger,ma’am,’saidthemanbythedoor。

  `Astranger?’shesaid。

  `Askhimtocomein,’saidBoldwood。

  Themessagewasgiven,andTroy,wrappeduptohiseyesaswehaveseenhim,stoodinthedoorway。

  Therewasanunearthlysilence,alllookingtowardsthenewcomer。Thosewhohadjustlearntthathewasintheneighbourhoodrecognizedhiminstantly;

  thosewhodidnotwereperplexed。NobodynotedBathsheba。Shewasleaningonthestairs。Herbrowhadheavilycontracted;herwholefacewaspallid,herlipsapart,hereyesrigidlystaringattheirvisitor。

  BoldwoodwasamongthosewhodidnotnoticethathewasTroy。`Comein,comein!’herepeated,cheerfully,`anddrainaChristmasbeakerwithus,stranger!’

  Troynextadvancedintothemiddleoftheroom,tookoffhiscap,turneddownhiscoat-collar,andlookedBoldwoodintheface。EventhenBoldwooddidnotrecognizethattheimpersonatorofHeaven’spersistentironytowardshim,whohadoncebeforebrokeninuponhisbliss,scourgedhim,andsnatchedhisdelightaway,hadcometodothesethingsasecondtime。Troybegantolaughamechanicallaugh:Boldwoodrecognizedhimnow。

  TroyturnedtoBathsheba。Thepoorgirl’swretchednessatthistimewasbeyondallfancyornarration。Shehadsunkdownontheloweststair;

  andthereshesat,hermouthblueanddry,andherdarkeyesfixedvacantlyuponhim,asifshewonderedwhetheritwerenotallaterribleillusion。

  ThenTroyspoke。`Bathsheba,Icomehereforyou!’

  Shemadenoreply。

  `Comehomewithme:come!’

  Bathshebamovedherfeetalittle,butdidnotrise。

  Troywentacrosstoher。

  `Come,madam,doyouhearwhatIsay?’hesaid,peremptorily。

  Astrangevoicecamefromthefireplace-avoicesoundingfaroffandconfined,asiffromadungeon。HardlyasoulintheassemblyrecognizedthethintonestobethoseofBoldwood。Suddendespairhadtransformedhim。

  `Bathsheba,gowithyourhusband!’

  Nevertheless,shedidnotmove。ThetruthwasthatBathshebawasbeyondthepaleofactivity-andyetnotinaswoon。Shewasinastateofmentalguttaserena;hermindwasfortheminutetotallydeprivedoflightatthesametimethatnoobscurationwasapparentfromwithout。

  Troystretchedouthishandtopullhertowardshim,whenshequicklyshrankback。ThisvisibledreadofhimseemedtoirritateTroy,andheseizedherarmandpulleditsharply。Whetherhisgrasppinchedher,orwhetherhismeretouchwasthecause,wasneverknown,butatthemomentofhisseizureshewrithed,andgaveaquick,lowscream。

  Thescreamhadbeenheardbutafewsecondswhenitwasfollowedbyasuddendeafeningreportthatechoedthroughtheroomandstupefiedthemall。Theoakpartitionshookwiththeconcussion,andtheplacewasfilledwithgreysmoke。

  InbewildermenttheyturnedtheireyestoBoldwood。Atthisback,ashestoodbeforethefireplace,wasagun-rack,asisusualinfarmhouses,constructedtoholdtwoguns。WhenBathshebahadcriedoutinherhusband’sgrasp,Boldwood’sfaceofgnashingdespairhadchanged。Theveinshadswollen,andafrenziedlookhadgleamedinhiseye。Hehadturnedquickly,takenoneoftheguns,cockedit,andatoncedischargeditatTroy。

  Troyfell。Thedistanceapartofthetwomenwassosmallthatthechargeofshotdidnotspreadintheleast,butpassedlikeabulletintohisbody。Heutteredalonggutturalsigh-therewasacontraction-anextension-thenhismusclesrelaxed,andhelaystill。

  Boldwoodwasseenthroughthesmoketobenowagainengagedwiththegun。Itwasdouble-barrelled,andhehad,meanwhile,insomewayfastenedhishandkerchieftothetrigger,andwithhisfootontheotherendwasintheactofturningthesecondbarreluponhimselfSamwayhismanwasthefirsttoseethis,andinthemidstofthegeneralhorrordarteduptohim。Boldwoodhadalreadytwitchedthehandkerchief,andthegunexplodedasecondtime,sendingitscontents,byatimelyblowfromSamway,intothebeamwhichcrossedtheceiling。

  `Well,itmakesnodifference!’Boldwoodgasped。`Thereisanotherwayformetodie。’

  ThenhebrokefromSamway,crossedtheroomtoBathsheba,andkissedherhand。Heputonhishat,openedthedoor,andwentintothedarkness,nobodythinkingofpreventinghim。

  CHAPTERFIFTY-FOURAftertheShockBoldwoodpassedintothehighroad,andturnedinthedirectionofCasterbridge。

  Herehewalkedataneven,steadypaceoverYalburyHill,alongthedeadlevelbeyond,mountedMellstockHill,andbetweenelevenandtwelveo’clockcrossedtheMoorintothetown。Thestreetswerenearlydesertednow,andthewavinglamp-flamesonlylighteduprowsofgreyshop-shutters,andstripsofwhitepavinguponwhichhisstepechoedashepassedalong。Heturnedtotheright,andhaltedbeforeanarchwayofheavystonework,whichwasclosedbyaniron-studdedpairofdoors。Thiswastheentrancetothegaol,andoveritalampwasfixed,thelightenablingthewretchedtravellertofindabell-pull。

  Thesmallwicketatlastopened,andaporterappeared。Boldwoodsteppedforward,andsaidsomethinginalowtone,when,afteradelay,anothermancame。Boldwoodentered,andthedoorwasclosedbehindhim,andhewalkedtheworldnomore。

  LongbeforethistimeWeatherburyhadbeenthoroughlyaroused,andthewilddeedwhichhadterminatedBoldwood’smerrymakingbecameknowntoall。

  OfthoseoutofthehouseOakwasoneofthefirsttohearofthecatastrophe,andwhenheenteredtheroom,whichwasaboutfiveminutesafterBoldwood’sexit,thescenewasterrible。Allthefemaleguestswerehuddledaghastagainstthewallslikesheepinastorm,andthemenwerebewilderedastowhattodo。AsforBathsheba,shehadchanged。ShewassittingonthefloorbesidethebodyofTroyhisheadpillowedinherlap,whereshehadherselfliftedit。Withonehandsheheldherhandkerchieftohisbreastandcoveredthewound,thoughscarcelyasingledropofbloodhadflowed,andwiththeothershetightlyclaspedoneofhis。Thehouseholdconvulsionhadmadeherherselfagain。Thetemporarycomahadceased,andactivityhadcomewiththenecessityforitDeedsofendurancewhichseemordinaryinphilosophyarerareinconduct,andBathshebawasastonishingallaroundhernow,forherphilosophywasherconduct,andsheseldomthoughtpracticablewhatshedidnotpractise。Shewasofthestuffofwhichgreatmen’smothersaremade。Shewasindispensabletohighgenerationhatedatteaparties,fearedinshops,andlovedatcrises。Troyrecumbentinhiswife’slapformednowthesolespectacleinthemiddleofthespaciousroom。

  `Gabriel,’shesaid,automatically,whenheentered,turningupafaceofwhichonlythewell-knownlinesremainedtotellhimitwashers,allelseinthepicturehavingfadedquite。`RidetoCasterbridgeinstantlyforasurgeon。Itis,Ibelieve,useless,butgo。MrBoldwoodhasshotmyhusband。’

  Herstatementofthefactinsuchquietandsimplewordscamewithmoreforcethanatragicdeclamation,andhadsomewhattheeffectofsettingthedistortedimagesineachmindpresentintoproperfocus。Oak,almostbeforehehadcomprehendedanythingbeyondthebriefestabstractoftheevent,hurriedoutoftheroom,saddledahorseandrodeaway。Nottillhehadriddenmorethanamilediditoccurtohimthathewouldhavedonebetterbysendingsomeothermanonthiserrand,remaininghimselfinthehouse。WhathadbecomeofBoldwood?Heshouldhavebeenlookedafter。Washemad-hadtherebeenaquarrel?ThenhowhadTroygotthere?Wherehadhecomefrom?Howdidthisremarkablereappearanceeffectitselfwhenhewassupposedbymanytobeatthebottomofthesea?OakhadinsomemeasurebeenpreparedforthepresenceofTroybyhearingarumourofhisreturnjustbeforeenteringBoldwood’shouse;butbeforehehadweighedthatinformation,thisfataleventhadbeensuperimposed。However,itwastoolatenowtothinkofsendinganothermessenger,andherodeon,intheexcitementoftheseself-inquiriesnotdiscerning,whenaboutthreemilesfromCasterbridge,asquare-figuredpedestrianpassingalongunderthedarkhedgeinthesamedirectionashisown。

  Themilesnecessarytobetraversed,andotherhindrancesincidentaltothelatenessofthehourandthedarknessofthenight,delayedthearrivalofMrAldritch,thesurgeon;andmorethanthreehourspassedbetweenthetimeatwhichtheshotwasfiredandthatofhisenteringthehouse。

  OakwasadditionallydetainedinCasterbridgethroughhavingtogivenoticetotheauthoritiesofwhathadhappened;andhethenfoundthatBoldwoodhadalsoenteredthetown,anddeliveredhimselfup。

  Inthemeantimethesurgeon,havinghastenedintothehallatBoldwood’s,founditindarknessandquitedeserted。Hewentontothebackofthehouse,wherehediscoveredinthekitchenanoldman,ofwhomhemadeinquiries。

  `She’shadhimtookawaytoherownhouse,sir,’saidhisinformant。

  `Whohas?’saidthedoctor。

  `MrsTroy。’Awasquitedead,sir。’

  Thiswasastonishinginformation。`Shehadnorighttodothat,’saidthedoctor。`Therewillhavetobeaninquest,andsheshouldhavewaitedtoknowwhattodo。’

  `Yes,sir;itwashintedtoherthatshehadbetterwaittillthelawwasknown。Butshesaidlawwasnothingtoher,andshewouldn’tletherdearhusband’scorpsebideneglectedforfolkstostareatforallthecrownersinEngland。’

  MrAldritchdroveatoncebackagainupthehilltoBathsheba’s。ThefirstpersonhemetwaspoorLiddy,whoseemedliterallytohavedwindledsmallerinthesefewlatterhours。Whathasbeendone?’hesaid。

  `Idon’tknow,sir,’saidLiddy,withsuspendedbreath。`Mymistresshasdoneitall。’

  `Whereisshe?’

  `Upstairswithhim,sir。Whenhewasbroughthomeandtakenupstairs,shesaidshewantednofartherhelpfromthemen。Andthenshecalledme,andmademefillthebath,andafterthattoldmeIhadbettergoandliedownbecauseIlookedsoill。Thenshelockedherselfintotheroomalonewithhim,andwouldnotletanursecomein,oranybodyatall。ButIthoughtI’dwaitinthenextroomincasesheshouldwantme。Iheardhermovingaboutinsideformorethananhour,butsheonlycameonce,andthatwasformorecandles,becausehershadburntdownintothesocket。ShesaidweweretoletherknowwhenyouorMrThirdlycame,sir。’

  Oakenteredwiththeparsonatthismoment,andtheyallwentupstairstogether,precededbyLiddySmallbury。Everythingwassilentasthegravewhentheypausedonthelanding。Liddyknocked,andBathsheba’sdresswasheardrustlingacrosstheroom:thekeyturnedinthelock,andsheopenedthedoor。Herlookswerecalmandnearlyrigid,likeaslightlyanimatedbustofMelpomene。

  `Oh,MrAldritch,youhavecomeatlast,’shemurmuredfromherlipsmerely,andthrewbackthedoor。`Ah,andMrThirdly。Well,allisdone,andanybodyintheworldmayseehimnow。’Shethenpassedbyhim,crossedthelanding,andenteredanotherroom。

  Lookingintothechamberofdeathshehadvacatedtheysawbythelightofthecandleswhichwereonthedrawersatallstraightshapelyingatthefartherendofthebedroom,wrappedinwhite。Everythingaroundwasquiteorderly。Thedoctorwentin,andafterafewminutesreturnedtothelandingagain,whereOakandtheparsonstillwaited。

  `Itisalldone,indeed,asshesays,’remarkedMrAldritch,inasubduedvoice。`Thebodyhasbeenundressedandproperlylaidoutingrave-clothes。

  GraciousHeaven-thismeregirl!Shemusthavethenerveofastoic!’

  `Theheartofawifemerely,’floatedinawhisperabouttheearsofthethree,andturningtheysawBathshebainthemidstofthem。Then,asifatthatinstanttoprovethatherfortitudehadbeenmoreofwillthanofspontaneity,shesilentlysankdownbetweenthemandwasashapelessheapofdraperyonthefloor。Thesimpleconsciousnessthatsuperhumanstrainwasnolongerrequiredhadatonceputaperiodtoherpowertocontinueit。

  Theytookherawayintoafartherroom,andthemedicalattendancewhichhadbeenuselessinTroy’scasewasinvaluableinBathsheba’s,whofellintoaseriesoffainting-fitsthathadaseriousaspectforatime。Thesuffererwasgottobed,andOak,findingfromthebulletinsthatnothingreallydreadfulwastobeapprehendedonherscoreleftthehouse。LiddykeptwatchinBathsheba’schamber,wheresheheardhermistressmoaninginwhispersthroughthedullslowhoursofthatwretchednight:`Oitismyfault-howcanIlive!OHeaven,howcanIlive!’

  CHAPTERFIFTY-FIVETheMarchFollowing-`BathshebaBoldwood’WepassrapidlyonintothemonthofMarch,toabreezydaywithoutsunshine,frost,ordew。OnYalburyHill,aboutmidwaybetweenWeatherburyandCasterbridge,wheretheturnpikeroadpassesoverthecrest,anumerousconcourseofpeoplehadgathered,theeyesofthegreaternumberbeingfrequentlystretchedafarinanortherlydirection。Thegroupsconsistedofathrongofidlers,apartyofjavelin-men,andtwotrumpeters,andinthemidstwerecarriages,oneofwhichcontainedthehighsheriffWiththeidlers,manyofwhomhadmountedtothetopofacuttingformedfortheroad,wereseveralWeatherburymenandboys-amongothersPoorgrass,Coggan,andCainBall。

  Attheendofhalf-an-hourafaintdustwasseenintheexpectedquarter,andshortlyafteratravelling-carriage,bringingoneofthetwojudgesontheWesternCircuit,cameupthehillandhaltedonthetop。Thejudgechangedcarriageswhilstaflourishwasblownbythebig-cheekedtrumpeters,andaprocessionbeingformedofthevehiclesandjavelin-men,theyallproceededtowardsthetown,exceptingtheWeatherburymen,whoassoonastheyhadseenthejudgemoveoffreturnedhomeagaintotheirwork。

  `Joseph,Izeedyousqueezingclosetothecarriage,’saidCoggan,astheywalked。`Didyenoticemylordjudge’sface?’

  `Idid,’saidPoorgrass,`Ilookedhardaten,asifIwouldreadhisverysoul;andtherewasmerryinhiseyes-ortospeakwiththeexacttruthrequiredofusatthissolemntime,intheeyethatwastowardsme。

  `Well,Ihopeforthebest,’saidCoggan,`thoughbadthatmustbe。

  However,Ishan’tgotothetrial,andI’dadvisetherestofyethatbain’twantedtobideaway。’Twilldisturbhismindmorethananythingtoseeustherestaringathimasifhewereashow。’

  `TheverythingIsaidthismorning,’observedJoseph。“`Justiceiscometoweighhiminthebalances。”Isaidinmyreflectiousway,“andifhe’sfoundwanting,sobeituntohim。”andabystandersaid“Hear,hear!Amanwhocantalklikethatoughttobeheard。”ButIdon’tlikedwellinguponit,formyfewwordsaremyfewwords,andriotmuch;thoughthespeechofsomemenisrumouredabroadasthoughbynatureformedforsuch。’

  `So’tis,Joseph。Andnow,neighbours,asIsaid,everymanbideathome。’

  Theresolutionwasadheredto;andallwaitedanxiouslyforthenewsnextday。Theirsuspensewasdiverted,however,byadiscoverywhichwasmadeintheafternoon,throwingmorelightonBoldwood’sconductandconditionthananydetailswhichhadprecededit。

  ThathehadbeenfromthetimeofGreenhillFairuntilthefatalChristmasEveinexcitedandunusualmoodswasknowntothosewhohadbeenintimatewithhim;butnobodyimaginedthattherehadshowninhimunequivocalsymptomsofthementalderangementwhichBathshebaandOak,aloneofallothersandatdifferenttimes,hadmomentarilysuspected。Inalockedclosetwasnowdiscoveredanextraordinarycollectionofarticles。Therewereseveralsetsofladies’dressesinthepiece,ofsundryexpensivematerials;silksandsatins,poplinsandvelvets,allofcolourswhichfromBathsheba’sstyleofdressmighthavebeenjudgedtobeherfavourites。Thereweretwomuffs,sableandermine。Abovealltherewasacaseofjewellery,containingfourheavygoldbraceletsandseverallocketsandrings,alloffinequalityandmanufacture。ThesethingshadbeenboughtinBathandothertownsfromtimetotime,andbroughthomebystealth。Theywereallcarefullypackedinpaper,andeachpackagewaslabelled`BathshebaBoldwood’,adatebeingsubjoinedsixyearsinadvanceineveryinstance。

  ThesesomewhatpatheticevidencesofamindcrazedwithcareandlovewerethesubjectofdiscourseinWarren’smalt-housewhenOakenteredfromCasterbridgewithtidingsofthesentence。Hecameintheafternoon,andhisface,asthekilnglowshoneuponit,toldthetalesufficientlywell。

  Boldwood,aseveryonesupposedhewoulddo,hadpleadedguilty,andhadbeensentencedtodeath。

  TheconvictionthatBoldwoodhadnotbeenmorallyresponsibleforhislateractsnowbecamegeneral。Factselicitedprevioustothetrialhadpointedstronglyinthesamedirection,buttheyhadnotbeenofsufficientweighttoleadtoanorderforanexaminationintothestateofBoldwood’smind。Itwasastonishing,nowthatapresumptionofinsanitywasraised,howmanycollateralcircumstanceswererememberedtowhichaconditionofmentaldiseaseseemedtoaffordtheonlyexplanation-amongothers,theunprecedentedneglectofhiscornstacksintheprevioussummer。

  ApetitionwasaddressedtotheHomeSecretary,advancingthecircumstanceswhichappearedtojustifyarequestforareconsiderationofthesentence。

  Itwasnot`numerouslysigned’bytheinhabitantsofCasterbridge,asisusualinsuchcases,forBoldwoodhadnevermademanyfriendsoverthecounter。Theshopsthoughtitverynaturalthatamanwho,byimportingdirectfromtheproducer,haddaringlysetasidethefirstgreatprincipleofprovincialexistence,namely,thatGodmadecountryvillagestosupplycustomerstocountrytowns,shouldhaveconfusedideasabouttheDecalogue。

  Theprompterswereafewmercifulmenwhohadperhapstoofeelinglyconsideredthefactslatterlyunearthed,andtheresultwasthatevidencewastakenwhichitwashopedmightremovethecrime,inamoralpointofview,outofthecategoryofwilfulmurder,andleadittoberegardedasasheeroutcomeofmadness。

  TheupshotofthepetitionwaswaitedforinWeatherburywithsolicitousinterest。Theexecutionhadbeenfixedforeighto’clockinaSaturdaymorningaboutafortnightafterthesentencewaspassed,anduptoFridayafternoonnoanswerhadbeenreceived。AtthattimeGabrielcamefromCasterbridgeGaol,whitherhehadbeentowishBoldwoodgood-bye,andturneddownaby-streettoavoidthetown。Whenpastthelasthouseheheardahammering,andlifting,’hisbowedheadhelookedbackforamoment。Overthechimneyshecouldseetheupperpartofthegaolentrance,richandglowingintheafternoonsun,andsomefigureswerethere。Theywerecarpentersliftingpostintoaverticalpositionwithintheparapet。Hewithdrewhiseyesquicklyandhastenedon。

  Itwasdarkwhenhereachedhome,andhalfthevillagewasouttomeethim。

  `Notidings,’Gabrielsaid,wearily。`AndI’mafraidthere’snohope。

  I’vebeenwithhimmorethantwohours。’

  `Doyouthinkhereallywasoutofhismindwhenhedidit?’

  saidSmallbury。

  `Ican’thonestlysaythatIdo,’Oakreplied。`However,thatwecantalkofanothertime。Hastherebeenanychangeinmistressthisafternoon?’

  `Noneatall。’

  `Isshedownstairs?’

  `No。Andgettingonsonicelyasshewastoo。She’sbutverylittlebetternowagainthanshewasatChristmas。Shekeepsonaskingifyoubecome,andifthere’snews,tillone’sweariedoutwi’answeringher。

  ShallIgoandsayyou’vecome?’

  `No,’saidOak。`There’sachanceyet;butIcouldn’tstayintownanylonger-afterseeinghimtoo。SoLaban-Labanishere,isn’the?’

  `Yes,’saidTall。

  `WhatI’vearrangedis,thatyoushallridetotownthelastthingtonight;leavehereaboutnine,andwaitawhilethere,gettinghomeabouttwelve。Ifnothinghasbeenreceivedbyelevento-night,theysaythere’snochanceatall。’

  `Idosohopehislifewithbespared,’saidLiddy。`Ifitisnot,she’llgooutofhermindtoo。Poorthing;hersufferingshavebeendreadful;

  shedeservesanybody’spity。’

  `Isshealteredmuch?’saidCoggan。

  `Ifyouhaven’tseenpoormistresssinceChristmas,youwouldn’tknowher,’saidLiddy。`Hereyesaresomiserablethatshe’snotthesamewoman。

  Onlytwoyearsagoshewasarompinggirl,andnowshe’sthis!’

  Labandepartedasdirected,andateleveno’clockthatnightseveralofthevillagersstrolledalongtheroadtoCasterbridgeandawaitedhisarrival-amongthemOak,andnearlyalltherestofBathsheba’smen。Gabriel’sanxietywasgreatthatBoldwoodmighthesaved,eventhoughinhisconsciencehefeltthatheoughttodie;fortherehadbeenqualitiesinthefarmerwhichOakloved。Atlast,whentheyallwerewearythetrampofahorsewasheardinthedistance——Firstdead,asifonturfittrode,Then,clattering,onthevillageroadInotherpacethanforthheyode。`Weshallsoonknownow,onewayorother,’saidCoggan,andtheyallsteppeddownfromthebankonwhichtheyhadbeenstandingintotheroad,andtheriderprancedintothemidstofthem。

  `Isthatyou,Laban?’saidGabriel。

  `Yes——’tiscome。He’snottodie。’TisconfinementduringHerMajesty’spleasure。’

  `Hurrah!’saidCoggan,withaswellingheart。`God’sabovethedevilyet!’

  CHAPTERFIFTY-SIXBeautyinLoneliness-AfterAllBathshebarevivedwiththespring。Theutterprostrationthathadfollowedthelowfeverfromwhichshehadsuffereddiminishedperceptiblywhenalluncertaintyuponeverysubjecthadcometoanend。

  Butsheremainedalonenowforthegreaterpartofhertime,andstayedinthehouse,oratfurthestwentintothegarden。Sheshunnedeveryone,evenLiddy,andcouldbebroughttomakenoconfidences,andtoaskfornosympathy。

  Asthesummerdrewonshepassedmoreofhertimeintheopenair,andbegantoexamineintofarmingmattersfromsheernecessity,thoughsheneverrodeoutorpersonallysuperintendedasatformertimes。OneFridayeveninginAugustshewalkedalittlewayalongtheroadandenteredthevillageforthefirsttimesincethesombreeventoftheprecedingChristmas。

  Noneoftheoldcolourhadasyetcometohercheek,anditsabsolutepalenesswasheightenedbythejetblackofhergown,tillitappearedpreternatural。

  Whenshereachedalittleshopattheotherendoftheplace,whichstoodnearlyoppositetothechurchyard,Bathshebaheardsinginginsidethechurch,andsheknewthatthesingerswerepracticing。Shecrossedtheroad,openedthegate,andenteredthegraveyard,thehighsillsofthechurchwindowseffectuallyscreeningherfromtheeyesofthosegatheredwithin。HerstealthywalkwastothenookwhereinTroyhadworkedatplantingflowersuponFannyRobin’sgrave,andshecametothemarbletombstone。

  Amotionofsatisfactionenlivenedherfaceasshereadthecompleteinscription。FirstcamethewordsofTroyhimself:——ERECTEDBYFRANCISTROYINBELOVEDMEMORYOFFANNYROBIN,WHO

  DIEDOCTOBER9,18-,AGED20YEARS。Underneaththiswasnowinscribedinnewletters:——INTHESAMEGRAVELIETHEREMAINSOFTHEAFORESAIDFRANCIS

  TROY,WHODIEDDECEMBER24TH,18-,AGED26YEARS。Whilstshestoodandreadandmeditatedthetonesoftheorganbeganagaininthechurch,andshewentwiththesamelightsteproundtotheporchandlistened。Thedoorwasclosed,andthechoirwaslearninganewhymn。

  Bathshebawasstirredbyemotionswhichlatterlyshehadassumedtobealtogetherdeadwithinher。Thelittleattenuatedvoicesofthechildrenbroughttoherearindistinctutterancethewordstheysangwithoutthoughtorcomprehension——Lead,kindlyLight,amidtheencirclinggloom,LeadThoumeon。Bathsheba’sfeelingwasalwaystosomeextentdependentuponherwhim,asisthecasewithmanyotherwomen。Somethingbigcameintoherthroatandanuprisingtohereyes-andshethoughtthatshewouldallowtheimminenttearstoflowiftheywished。Theydidflowandplenteously,andonefelluponthestonebenchbesideher。Onceshehadbeguntocryforshehardlyknewwhat,shecouldnotleaveoffforcrowdingthoughtssheknewtoowell。Shewouldhavegivenanythingintheworldtobe,asthosechildrenwere,unconcernedatthemeaningoftheirwords,becausetooinnocenttofeelthenecessityforanysuchexpression。Alltheimpassionedscenesofherbriefexperienceseemedtorevivewithaddedemotionatthatmoment,andthosesceneswhichhadbeenwithoutemotionduringenactmenthademotionthen。Yetgriefcametoherratherasaluxurythanasthescourgeofformertimes。

  OwingtoBathsheba’sfacebeingburiedinherhandsshedidnotnoticeaformwhichcamequietlyintotheporch,andonseeingher,firstmovedasiftoretreat,thenpausedandregardedher。Bathshebadidnotraiseherheadforsometime,andwhenshelookedroundherfacewaswet,andhereyesdrownedanddim。`MrOak,’exclaimedshe,disconcerted,`howlonghaveyoubeenhere?’

  `Afewminutes,ma’am,’saidOak,respectfully。

  `Areyougoingin?’saidBathsheba;andtherecamefromwithinthechurchasfromaprompter——Ilovedthegarishday,and,spiteoffears,Prideruledmywill:remembernotpastyears。`Iwas,’saidGabriel。`Iamoneofthebasssingers,youknow。Ihavesungbassforseveralmonths。’

  `Indeed:Iwasn’tawareofthat。I’llleaveyou,then。’WhichIhavelovedlongsince,andlostawhile,sangthechildren。

  `Don’tletmedriveyouaway,mistress。IthinkIwon’tgointo-night。’

  `Ono-youdon’tdrivemeaway。’

  Thentheystoodinastateofsomeembarrassment,Bathshebatryingtowipeherdreadfullydrenchedandinflamedfacewithouthisnoticingher。

  AtlengthOaksaid,`I’venotseenyou-Imeanspokentoyou-sinceeversolong,haveI?’Buthefearedtobringdistressingmemoriesback,andinterruptedhimselfwith:`Wereyougoingintochurch?’

  `No,’shesaid。`Icametoseethetombstoneprivately-toseeiftheyhadcuttheinscriptionasIwished。MrOak,youneedn’tmindspeakingtome,ifyouwishto,onthematterwhichisinbothourmindsatthismoment。

  `Andhavetheydoneitasyouwished?’saidOak。

  `Yes。Comeandseeit,ifyouhavenotalready。’

  Sotogethertheywentandreadthetomb。`Eightmonthsago!’Gabrielmurmuredwhenhesawthedate。`Itseemslikeyesterdaytome。’

  `Andtomeasifitwereyearsago-longyears,andIhadbeendeadbetween。AndnowIamgoinghome,MrOak。’

  Oakwalkedafterher。`IwantedtonameasmallmattertoyouassoonasIcould,’hesaidwithhesitation。`Merelyaboutbusiness,andIthinkImayjustmentionitnow,ifyou’llallowme。’

  `Oyes,certainly。’

  `ItisthatImaysoonhavetogiveupthemanagementofyourfarm,MrsTroy。Thefactis,IamthinkingofleavingEngland-notyet,youknow-nextspring。’

  `LeavingEngland!’shesaid,insurpriseandgenuinedisappointment。

  `Why,Gabriel,whatareyougoingtodothatfor?’

  `Well,I’vethoughtitbest,’Oakstammeredout。`CaliforniaisthespotI’vehadinmymindtotry。’

  `ButitisunderstoodeverywherethatyouaregoingtotakepoorMrBoldwood’sfarmonyourownaccount?’

  `I’vehadtherefusalo’it’tistrue;butnothingissettledyet,andIhavereasonsforgieingup。Ishallfinishoutmyyearthereasmanagerforthetrustees,butnomore。’

  `AndwhatshallIdowithoutyou?Oh,Gabriel,Idon’tthinkyououghttogoaway。You’vebeenwithmesolong-throughbrighttimesanddarktimes-sucholdfriendsasweare-thatitseemsunkindalmost。Ihadfanciedthatifyouleasedtheotherfarmasmaster,youmightstillgiveahelpinglookacrossatmine。Andnowgoingaway!’

  `Iwouldhavewillingly。’

  `YetnowthatIammorehelplessthaneveryougoaway!’

  `Yes,that’stheillfortuneo’it,’saidGabriel,inadistressedtone。

  `AnditisbecauseofthatveryhelplessnessthatIfeelboundtogo。Goodafternoon,ma’am,’heconcluded,inevidentanxietytogetawayandatoncewentoutofthechurchyardbyapathshecouldfollowonnopretencewhatever。

  Bathshebawenthome,hermindoccupiedwithanewtrouble,whichbeingratherharassingthandeadlywascalculatedtodogoodbydivertingherfromthechronicgloomofherlife。ShewassetthinkingagreatdealaboutOakandofhiswishtoshunher;andthereoccurredtoBathshebaseveralincidentsofherlatterintercoursewithhim,which,trivialwhensinglyviewed,amountedtogethertoaperceptibledisinclinationforhersociety。

  Itbrokeuponheratlengthasagreatpainthatherlastolddisciplewasabouttoforsakeherandflee。Hewhohadbelievedinherandarguedonhersidewhenalltherestoftheworldwasagainsther,hadatlastliketheothersbecomewearyandneglectfuloftheoldcause,andwasleavinghertofightherbattlesalone。

  Threeweekswenton,andmoreevidenceofhiswantofinterestinherwasforthcoming。Shenoticedthatinsteadofenteringthesmallparlourorofficewherethefarmaccountswerekept,andwaiting,orleavingamemorandumashehadhithertodoneduringherseclusion,Oaknevercameatallwhenshewaslikelytobethere,onlyenteringatunseasonablehourswhenherpresenceinthatpartofthehousewasleasttobeexpected。Wheneverhewanteddirectionhesentamessage,ornotewithneitherheadingnorsignature,towhichshewasobligedtoreplyinthesameoffhandstyle。

  PoorBathshebabegantosuffernowfromthemosttorturingstingofall-asensationthatshewasdespised。

  Theautumnworeawaygloomilyenoughamidthesemelancholyconjectures,andChristmas-daycame,completingayearofherlegalwidowhood,andtwoyearsandaquarterofherlifealone。Onexaminingherheartitappearedbeyondmeasurestrangethatthesubjectofwhichtheseasonmighthavebeensupposedsuggestive-theeventinthehallatBoldwood’s-wasnotagitatingheratall;butinstead,anagonizingconvictionthateverybodyabjuredher-forwhatshecouldnottell-andthatOakwastheringleaderoftherecusants。ComingoutofchurchthatdayshelookedroundinhopethatOak,whosebassvoiceshehadheardrollingoutfromthegalleryoverheadinamostunconcernedmanner,mightchancetolingerinherpathintheoldway。Therehewas,asusual,comingdownthepathbehindher。ButonseeingBathshebaturn,helookedaside,andassoonashegotbeyondthegate,andtherewasthebarestexcuseforadivergence,hemadeone,andvanished。

  Thenextmorningbroughttheculminatingstroke;shehadbeenexpectingitlong。ItwasaformalnoticebyletterfromhimthatheshouldnotrenewhisengagementwithherforthefollowingLady-day。

  Bathshebaactuallysatandcriedoverthislettermostbitterly。ShewasaggrievedandwoundedthatthepossessionofhopelesslovefromGabriel,whichshehadgrowntoregardasherinalienablerightforlife,shouldhavebeenwithdrawnjustathisownpleasureinthisway。Shewasbewilderedtoobytheprospectofhavingtorelyonherownresourcesagain:itseemedtoherselfthatshenevercouldagainacquireenergysufficienttogotomarket,barter,andsell。SinceTroy’sdeathOakhadattendedallsalesandfairsforher,transactingherbusinessatthesametimewithhisown。

  Whatshouldshedonow?Herlifewasbecomingadesolation。

  SodesolatewasBathshebathisevening,thatinanabsolutehungerforpityandsympathy,andmiserableinthatsheappearedtohaveoutlivedtheonlytruefriendshipshehadeverowned,sheputonherbonnetandcloakandwentdowntoOak’shousejustaftersunset,guidedonherwaybythepaleprimroseraysofacrescentmoonafewdaysold。

  Alivelyfirelightshonefromthewindow,butnobodywasvisibleintheroom。Shetappednervously,andthenthoughtitdoubtfulifitwererightforasinglewomantocalluponabachelorwholivedalone,althoughhewashermanager,andshemightbesupposedtocallonbusinesswithoutanyrealimpropriety。Gabrielopenedthedoor,andthemoonshoneuponhisforehead。

  `MrOak,’saidBathshebafaintly。

  `Yes;IamMrOak,’saidGabriel。`WhohaveIthehonour-Ohowstupidofme,nottoknowyou,mistress!’

  `Ishallnotbeyourmistressmuchlonger,shallI,Gabriel?’shesaidinpathetictones。

  `Well,no。Isuppose-Butcomein,ma’am。Oh-andI’llgetalight,’

  Oakreplied,withsomeawkwardness。

  `No;notonmyaccount。’

  `ItissoseldomthatIgetaladyvisitorthatI’mafraidIhaven’tproperaccommodation。Willyousitdown,please?Here’sachairandthere’sone,too。Iamsorrythatmychairsallhavewoodseats,andareratherhard,butI-wasthinkingofgettingsomenewones。’Oakplacedtwoorthreeforher。

  `Theyarequiteeasyenoughforme。’

  Sodownshesat,anddownhesat,thefiredancingintheirfaces,andupontheoldfurniture,alla-sheenenWi’longyearsO’handlen,thatformedOak’sarrayofhouseholdpossessions,whichsentbackadancingreflectioninreply。Itwasveryoddtothesetwopersons,whokneweachotherpassingwell,thatthemerecircumstanceoftheirmeetinginanewplaceandinanewwayshouldmakethemsoawkwardandconstrained。Inthefields,oratherhouse,therehadneverbeenanyembarrassment;butnowthatOakhadbecometheentertainertheirlivesseemedtobemovedbackagaintothedayswhentheywerestrangers。

  `You’llthinkitstrangethatIhavecome,but——’

  `Ono;notatall。’

  `ButIthought-Gabriel,IhavebeenuneasyinthebeliefthatIhaveoffendedyou,andthatyouaregoingawayonthataccount。Itgrievedmeverymuch,andIcouldn’thelpcoming。’

  `Offendedme!Asifyoucoulddothat,Bathsheba!’

  `Haven’tI?’sheasked,gladly。`But,whatareyougoingawayforelse?’

  `Iamnotgoingtoemigrate,youknow;Iwasn’tawarethatyouwouldwishmenottowhenItold’ee,orIshouldn’thavethoughtofdoingit,’

  hesaid,simply。`IhavearrangedforLittleWeatherburyFarm,andshallhaveitinmyownhandsatLady-day。YouknowI’vehadashareinitforsometime。Still,thatwouldn’tpreventmyattendingtoyourbusinessasbefore,hadn’titbeenthatthingshavebeensaidaboutus。’

  `What?’saidBathshebainsurprise。`Thingssaidaboutyouandme!Whatarethey?’

  `Icannottellyou。’

  `Itwouldbewiserifyouwereto,Ithink。Youhaveplayedthepartofmentortomemanytimes,andIdon’tseewhyyoushouldfeartodoitnow。’

  `Itisnothingthatyouhavedone,thistime。Thetopandtailo’tisthis-thatI’msniffingabouthere,andwaitingforpoorBoldwood’sfarm,withathoughtofgettingyousomeday。’

  `Gettingme!Whatdoesthatmean?’

  `Marryingof’ee,inplainBritish。Youaskedmetotell,soyoumustn’tblameme。’

  Bathshebadidnotlookquitesoalarmedasifacannonhadbeendischargedbyherear,whichwaswhatOakhadexpected。`Marryingme!Ididn’tknowitwasthatyoumeant,’shesaid,quietly。`Suchathingasthatistooabsurd-toosoon-tothinkofbyfar!’

  `Yes;ofcourse,itistooabsurd。Idon’tdesireanysuchthing;I

  shouldthinkthatwasplainenoughbythistime。Surely,surelyyoubethelastpersonintheworldIthinkofmarrying。Itistooabsurd,asyousay。

  “`Too-s-s-soon“werethewordsIused。’

  `Imustbegyourpardonforcorrectingyou,butyousaid,“tooabsurd“,andsodoI。’

  `Ibegyourpardontoo!’shereturned,withtearsinhereyes。“`Toosoon“waswhatIsaid。Butitdoesn’tmatterabit-notatall-butI

  onlymeant,“toosoon“。Indeed,Ididn’t,MrOak,andyoumustbelieveme!’Gabriellookedherlongintheface,butthefirelightbeingfainttherewasnotmuchtobeseen。`Bathsheba,’hesaid,tenderlyandinsurprise,andcomingcloser:`IfIonlyknewonething-whetheryouwouldallowmetoloveyouandwinyou,andmarryyouafterall-ifIonlyknewthat!’

  `Butyouneverwillknow,’shemurmured。

  `Why?’

  `Becauseyouneverask。’

  `Oh-Oh!’saidGabriel,withalowlaughofjoyousness。`Myowndear——’

  `Yououghtnottohavesentmethatharshletterthismorning,’sheinterrupted。`Itshowsyoudidn’tcareabitaboutme,andwerereadytodesertmelikealltherestofthem!Itwasverycruelofyou,consideringIwasthefirstsweetheartthatyoueverhad,andyouwerethefirstI

  everhad;andIshallnotforgetit!’

  `Now,Bathsheba,waseveranybodysoprovoking?’hesaid,laughing。

  `YouknowitwaspurelythatI,asanunmarriedman,carryingonabusinessforyouasaverytakingyoungwoman,hadaproperhardparttoplay-

  moreparticularthatpeopleknewIhadasortoffeelingfor’ee;andI

  fancied,fromthewaywewerementionedtogether,thatitmightinjureyourgoodname。NobodyknowstheheatandfretIhavebeencausedbyit。’

  `Andwasthatall?’

  `All。’

  `O,howgladIamIcame!’sheexclaimed,thankfully,assherosefromherseat。`IhavethoughtsomuchmoreofyousinceIfanciedyoudidnotwanteventoseemeagain。ButImustbegoingnoworIshallbemissed。

  Why,Gabriel,’shesaid,withaslightlaugh,astheywenttothedoor,`itseemsexactlyasifIhadcomecourtingyou-howdreadful!’

  `Andquiteright,too,’saidOak。`I’vedancedatyourskittishheels,mybeautifulBathsheba,formanyalongmile,andmanyalongday;anditishardtobegrudgemethisonevisit。’

  Heaccompaniedherupthehill,explainingtoherthedetailsofhisforthcomingtenureoftheotherfarm。Theyspokeverylittleoftheirmutualfeelings;prettyphrasesandwarmexpressionsbeingprobablyunnecessarybetweensuchtriedfriends。Theirswasthatsubstantialaffectionwhicharisesifanyarisesatallwhenthetwowhoarethrowntogetherbeginfirstbyknowingtheroughersidesofeachother’scharacter,andnotthebesttillfurtheron,theromancegrowingupintheintersticesofamassofhardprosaicreality。Thisgood-fellowship-camaraderie-usuallyoccurringthroughsimilarityofpursuits,isunfortunatelyseldomsuperaddedtolovebetweenthesexes,becausemenandwomenassociate,notintheirlabours,butintheirpleasuresmerely。Where,however,happycircumstancepermitsitsdevelopment,thecompoundedfeelingprovesitselftobetheonlylovewhichisstrongasdeath-thatlovewhichmanywaterscannotquench,northefloodsdrown,besidewhichthepassionusuallycalledbythenameisevanescentassteam。

  CHAPTERFIFTY-SEVENAFoggyNightandMorning-Conclusion`Themostprivate,secret,plainestweddingthatitispossibletohave。’

  ThosehadbeenBathsheba’swordstoOakoneevening,sometimeaftertheeventoftheprecedingchapter,andhemeditatedahillhourbytheclockuponhowtocarryoutherwishestotheletter。

  `Alicense-Oyes,itmustbealicense,’hesaidtohimselfatlast。

  `Verywell,then;first,alicense。’

  Onadarknight,afewdayslater,Oakcamewithmysteriousstepsfromthesurrogate’sdoorinCasterbridge。Onthewayhomeheheardaheavytreadinfrontofhim,and,overtakingtheman,foundhimtobeCoggan。

  Theywalkedtogetherintothevillageuntiltheycametoalittlelanebehindthechurch,leadingdowntothecottageofLabanTall,whohadlatelybeeninstalledasclerkoftheparish,andwasyetinmortalterroratchurchonSundayswhenheheardhislonevoiceamongcertainhardwordsofthePsalms,whithernomanventuredtofollowhim。

  `Well,good-night,Coggan,’saidOak,`I’mgoingdownthisway。’

  `Oh!’saidCoggan,surprised;`what’sgoingonto-night,then,makesobold,MrOak?’

  ItseemedratherungenerousnottotellCoggan,underthecircumstances,forCogganhadbeentrueassteelallthroughthetimeofGabriel’sunhappinessaboutBathsheba,andGabrielsaid,`Youcankeepasecret,Coggan?’

  `You’veprovedme,andyouknow。’

  `Yes,Ihave,andIdoknow。Well,then,mistressandImeantogetmarriedtomorrowmorning。’

  `Heaven’shightower!AndyetI’vethoughtofsuchathingfromtimetotime;true,Ihave。Butkeepingitsoclose!Well,there,’tisnoconsarnofmine,andIwish’eejoyo’her。’

  `Thankyou,Coggan。ButIassure’eethatthisgreathushisnotwhatIwishedforatall,orwhateitherofuswouldhavewishedifithadn’tbeenforcertainthingsthatwouldmakeagayweddingseemhardlythething。

  Bathshebahasagreatwishthatalltheparishshrillnotbeinchurch,lookingather-she’sshy-likeandnervousaboutit,infact-soI

  bedoingthistohumourher。’

  `Ay,Isee:quiteright,too,IsupposeImustsay。Andyoubenowgoingdowntotheclerk。’

  `Yes;youmayaswellcomewithme。’

  `Iamafeardyourlabourinkeepingitclosewillbethrowedaway,’

  saidCoggan,astheywalkedalong。`LabeTall’soldwomanwillhornitalloverparishinhalf-an-hour。’

  `Soshewill,uponmylife;Ineverthoughtofthat,’saidOak,pausing。

  `YetImusttellhimto-night,Isuppose,forhe’sworkingsofaroff,andleavesearly。’

  `I’lltell’eehowwecouldtackleher,’saidCoggan。`I’llknockandasktospeaktoLabanoutsidethedoor,youstandinginthebackground。

  Thenhe’llcomeout,andyoutellyertale。She’llneverguesswhatIwantenfor;andI’llmakeupafewwordsaboutthefarm-work,asablind。’

  Thisschemewasconsideredfeasible;andCogganadvancedboldly,andrappedatMrsTall’sdoor。MrsTallherselfopenedit。

  `IwantedtohaveawordwithLaban。’

  `He’snotathome,andwon’tbethissideofeleveno’clock。He’vebeenforcedtogoovertoYalburysinceshuttingoutwork。Ishalldoquiteaswell。’

  `Ihardlythinkyouwill。Stopamoment,’andCoggansteppedroundthecorneroftheporchtoconsultOak。

  `Who’st’otherman,then?’saidMrsTall。

  `Onlyafriend,’saidCoggan。

  `Sayhe’swantedtomeetmistressnearchurch-hatchto-morrowmorningatten,’saidOak,inawhisper。`Thathemustcomewithoutfail,andwearhisbestclothes。’

  `Theclotheswillfloorusassafeashouses!’saidCoggan。

  `Itcan’tbehelped,’saidOak。`Tellher。’

  SoCoggandeliveredthemessage。`Mind,hetorwet,bloworsnow,hemustcome,’addedJan。`’Tisveryparticular,indeed。Thefactis,’tistowitnesshersignsomelaw-workabouttakingshareswi’anotherfarmerforalongspano’years。There,that’swhat’tis,andnowI’vetold’ee,MotherTall,inawayIshouldn’tha’doneifIhadn’tloved’eesohopelesswell。’

  Cogganretiredbeforeshecouldaskanyfurther;andnexttheycalledatthevicar’sinamannerwhichexcitednocuriosityatall。ThenGabrielwenthome,andpreparedforthemorrow。

  `Liddy,’saidBathsheba,ongoingtobedthatnight,`Iwantyoutocallmeatseveno’clockto-morrow,incaseIshouldn’twake。’

  `Butyoualwaysdowakeaforethen,ma’am。’

  `Yes,butIhavesomethingimportanttodo,whichI’lltellyouofwhenthetimecomes,andit’sbesttomakesure。’

  Bathsheba,however,awokevoluntarilyatfour,norcouldshebyanycontrivancegettosleepagain。Aboutsix,beingquitepositivethatherwatchhadstoppedduringthenight,shecouldwaitnolonger。ShewentandtappedatLiddy’sdoor,andaftersomelabourawokeher。

  `ButIthoughtitwasIwhohadtocallyou?’saidthebewilderedLiddy。

  `Anditisn’tsixyet。’

  `Indeeditis;howcanyoutellsuchastory,Liddy!Iknowitmustbeeversomuchpastseven。Cometomyroomassoonasyoucan;Iwantyoutogivemyhairagoodbrushing。’

  WhenLiddycametoBathsheba’sroomhermistresswasalreadywaiting。

  Liddycouldnotunderstandthisextraordinarypromptness。`Whateverisgoingon,ma’am?’shesaid。

  `Well,I’lltellyou,’saidBathsheba,withamischievoussmileinherbrighteyes。`FarmerOakiscomingheretodinewithmeto-day!’

  `FarmerOak-andnobodyelse?-youtwoalone?’

  `Yes。’

  `Butisitsafe,ma’am,afterwhat’sbeensaid?’askedhercompanion,dubiously。`Awoman’sgoodnameissuchaperishablearticlethat——’

  Bathshebalaughedwithaflushedcheek,andwhisperedinLiddy’sear,althoughtherewasnobodypresent。ThenLiddystaredandexclaimed,`Soulsalive,whatnews!Itmakesmyheartgoquitebumpity-bump!’

  `Itmakesmineratherfurious,too,’saidBathsheba。`However,there’snogettingoutofitnow!’

  Itwasadampdisagreeablemorning。Nevertheless,attwentyminutestoteno’clock,Oakcameoutofhishouse,andWentupthehillsideWiththatsortofstrideAmanputsoutwhenwalkinginsearchofabride,andknockedatBathsheba’sdoor。Tenminuteslateralargeandasmallerumbrellamighthavebeenseenmovingfromthesamedoor,andthroughthemistalongtheroadtothechurch。Thedistancewasnotmorethanaquarterofamile,andthesetwosensiblepersonsdeemeditunnecessarytodrive。

  AnobservermusthavebeenverycloseindeedtodiscoverthattheformsundertheumbrellaswerethoseofOakandBathsheba,arm-in-armforthefirsttimeintheirlives,Oakinagreatcoatextendingtohisknees,andBathshebainacloakthatreachedherclods。Yet,thoughsoplainlydressed,therewasacertainrejuvenatedappearanceabouther:——Asthougharoseshouldshutandbeabudagain。Reposehadagainincarnadinedhercheeks;andhaving,atGabriel’srequest,arrangedherhairthismorningasshehadwornityearsagoonNorcombeHill,sheseemedinhiseyesremarkablylikethegirlofthatfascinatingdream,which,consideringthatshewasnowonlythreeorfour-and-twenty,wasperhapsnotverywonderful。InthechurchwereTall,Liddy,andtheparson,andinaremarkablyshortspaceoftimetoedeedwasdone。

  ThetwosatdownveryquietlytoteainBathsheba’sparlourintheeveningofthesameday,forithadbeenarrangedthatfarmerOakshouldgotheretolive,sincehehadasyetneithermoney,house,norfurnitureworthyofthename,thoughhewasonasurewaytowardsthem,whilstBathshebawas,comparatively,inaplethoraofallthree。

  JustasBathshebawaspouringoutacupoftea,theirearsweregreetedbythefiringofacannon,followedbywhatseemedlikeatremendousblowingoftrumpets,inthefrontofthehouse。

  `There!’saidOak,laughing,`Iknewthosefellowswereuptosomething,bythelookontheirfaces。’

  Oaktookupthelightandwentintotheporch,followedbyBathshebawithashawloverherhead。Theraysfelluponagroupofmalefiguresgathereduponthegravelinfront,who,whentheysawthenewly-marriedcoupleintheporch,setupaloud`Hurrah!’andatthesamemomentbangagainwentthecannoninthebackgroundfollowedbyahideousclangofmusicfromadrum,tambourine,clarionet,serpent,hautboy,tenor-viol,anddouble-bass-theonlyremainingrelicsofthetrueandoriginalWeatherburyband-venerableworm-eateninstruments,whichhadcelebratedintheirownpersonsthevictoriesofMarlborough,underthefingersoftheforefathersofthosewhoplayedthemnow。Theperformerscameforward,andmarcheduptothefront。

  `Thosebrightboys,MarkClarkandJan,areatthebottomofallthis,’

  saidOak。`Comein,souls,andhavesomethingtoeatanddrinkwi’meandmywife。’

  `Notto-night,’saidMarkClark,withevidentself-denial。`Thankyeallthesame;butwe’llcallatamoreseemlytime。However,wecouldn’tthinkoflettingthedaypasswithoutanoteofadmirationofsomesort。

  Ifyecouldsendadropofsom’atdowntoWarren’s,whysoitis。Here’slonglifeandhappinesstoneighbourOakandhiscomelybride!’

  `Thankye;thankyeall!’saidGabriel。`AbitandadropshallbesenttoWarren’sforyeatonce。Ihadathoughtthatwemightverylikelygetasaluteofsomesortfromouroldfriends,andIwassayingsotomywifebutnow。’

  `Faith,’saidCoggan,inacriticaltone,turningtohiscompanions,`themanhevlearnttosay“mywife“inawonderfulnaterelway,consideringhowveryyouthfulheisinwedlockasyet-hey,neighboursall?’

  `Ineverheerdaskilfuloldmarriedfelleroftwentyyears’standingpipe“mywife“inamoreusednotethan’adid,’saidJacobSmallbury。

  `Itmighthavebeenalittlemoretruetonaterif’thadbeenspokealittlechillier,butthatwasn’ttobeexpectedjustnow。’

  `Thatimprovementwillcomewi’time,’saidJan,twirlinghiseye。ThenOaklaughed。Bathshebasmiledforsheneverlaughedreadilynow,andtheirfriendsturnedtogo。

  `Yes;Isupposethat’sthesizeo’t,’saidJosephPoorgrasswithacheerfulsighastheymovedaway;`andIwishhimjoyo’her;thoughIwereonceortwiceuponsayingtodaywithholyHosea,inmyscripturemanner,whichismysecondnature,“Ephraimisjoinedtoidols:lethimalone。”Butsince’tisas’tis,why,itmighthavebeenworse,andIfeelmythanksaccordingly。’

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